Hey guys, I see a ton of these threads every day here, but i could use a hand from someone.
Planning to kill myself want to go out with something opiate related. I used to have an oxycontin addiction, so I have experience with shit like that.
If I overdosed on morphine/heroin/hydro etc... would It hurt?
Would I die?
I have no experience with injecting myself with anything. Can I snort/parachute it? I suppose I could inject myself as a paramedic student but it was always a thing I told myself I would never do.
I hate myself and have spent the last two days in bed.
I wish I had more valium for tonight, and I don't feel like running a knife down my wrist like a faggot millenial.
Help appreciated.
>>675253661
A paramedic student?
Valium user?
And you wonder why your little heads fucked?
You've fucked up your inner workings and you need to sort it out, why bother killing yourself over a few weeks of pain.
Get yourself on the up and up, good diet, good routine and stop with the overthinking, you're gonna die anyway, may as well make the most of it.
Protip: people need all the help they can get.
I always wanted to just 'wander' off and let nature kill me. Or it can try at least.
>>675253661
My friend is addicted to Valium as well. On the off chance you're him, don't do it man, just drop acid or something or go traveling
>>675254274
never gets old
>>675254274
Fuck off anon that hurts your lungs like dicks
>>675254254
>>675254522
Op here.
Just got valium from a friend who got it for me. I have used it a total of 5-6 times. I could definitely see the addiction potential though.
>>675254533
Just like the people who fall for it
>>675254608
My friend has his own access and had used for maybe 18 months. I think overdosing on iv heroin with a bunch of mdma or coke up your nose would be a nice way to die, i might try it when I'm 35
Mix hillbilly heroin with xanax, ambian, benadryl and Valium.
>>675253661
You are over thinking it, just jump off a 6 story plus building and make sure you land head first onto the concrete at the bottom, no pain at all.
>>675253661
Go hitch hike somewhere.
Life's worth living.
>>675254819
I would think so too, but I wouldn't even know where to start to get a needle.
I would take it all with a bottle of 200 dollar scotch like the faggot i am too
>>675254941
I have no access to all of that but props for the suggestion.
>>675255044
Get on dreammarket my dude. Clean, safe drugs and paraphernalia
>>675254983
been there, done that.
Just really ready to go.
I don't really even know why. I can get girls, I have education, but i keep hitting a brick wall when I try to advance my life, you know? It's just like... I am so isolated man.
I don't know your reasons but death is never an option. I'm a huge alcoholic I've figured out and have finally been accepting myself. Accepting the fact I can't control myself at all and will drink every drop I can when it's present. All u need bro I some weed!
>>675255303
Is that on Tor? I just don't want to be caught buying paraphernalia and have my last sight as 4 walls of a jail cell
Is* luv ya bro and good luck.
>>675255344
I have both weed and alcohol, weed does nothing for me anymore. Thank you for the well wishes though friend, I would never wish what I am going through on anyone.
>>675253661
According to the book "Final Exit", the surest and least painful way to die from overdose is Seconal.
>>675255607
Thank you /b/ro. I have little experience with barbs, but maybe i can find someone to help me find it
>>675255607
"There is a documentary "How to Die in Oregon", on PBS, and HBO. The lady assisting says there are "100" capsules of Seconal that the man had filled and to break open and empty ALL the powder from the capsules in 6 oz. of room temp. water. This drink then HAS to be comsumed within 60-90 seconds. One guy likens the taste to "wood". You can then wash down the aftertaste with whatever you like (soda, juice, even beer!). A coma ensues within a couple of minutes, death sometime shortly afterward. They don't say how much each capsule contains. Don't know the shelflife, cuz if I have a terminal disease, I'm taking it shortly after having perscription filled!! Sorry if this offends anyone's morals, not getting into that debate."
Looks like I would need a shit ton, I hear people have survived doses of 30 pills.
I'm down to go out like Jimi though
>>675254578
does it really?
>>675255139
I have all of the above on hand. Legally obtained. The oxy is pretty old though. You addicts never stock pile. You should see my ammo box full of drugs. I have 90 Valium, at least 180 adder all, 30 or so xanax...I literally have so much that I could be arrested for intent to distribute, even though it was all legally obtained for personal use for medical reasons. Meanwhile you have literally not one of the above?
You ever try to sit on a bicycle while its stationary?
Can't do it. It keeps falling over. It's pointless to keep trying. The only way to keep it up is if the bike is moving.
Same thing with life. If you're not moving forward in some direction, life will feel unstable and trying to keep it up will feel pointless.
Find something to move toward. Something you value. Then, and only then, will life have meaning and beauty.
>>675256504
1) Jealous AF.
2) no, I can't say I have any addictions at the moment other than alcohol and cigarettes. I have no access to those drugs, and even if i had a stash, I would have been using it recreationally and smoked/snorted it all.
>>675253661
i have been depressed for more than 30 years. No joke, i am serious.
in 2010 i thought about suicide every day and it was not about if i do it, it was only about how i would do it.
i finally tried it with carbon monoxide, but it didnt work.
today i take pills against depression. they work for me, the depression is gone and i dont think about suicide anymore. (in some cases it needs a lot of try and error until the proper active compound and dosage is found.)
my experience is that depression is a serious (sometimes lethal) metabolic disease, which can be cured.
>>675256681
Peddle all you want, but you're not going anywhere.
>>675256693
Don't smoke or snort pills. Just eat them.
>>675256910
You're gonna have a nice ass by the time you're finished at least.
>>675257057
why not all 3?
>>675253661
Od on heroine should be a nice death. You prolly suffocate in your own vomit while tripping ballz
>>675256693
You'd have some ice you didn't abuse them like that. Think back 3 years. How many different prescriptions have you had? Get hurt in a boxing tournament, pull a muscle playing basketball, land wrong performing a butterfly kick, get jumped by neo Nazi's... OK we may live different lives, but you get the idea.
>>675257515
Haha i am white as fuck. Pic related.
Im not about to go get jumped just to get a small dose of shit.
>>675253661
>>675256681
Love this, man
I want to kill myself but I don't want to feel pain. But the reason I want to kill myself is because I have no motivation to do anything which also includes going to buy a gun or a fuckton of drugs. And cutting is for edgelords.
Fuck everything.
>>675253661
OP do you want to kill yourself? try this.
https://clinicaltrials.gov/ct2/show/NCT00088699
Death will always be there, try once again, what is the worse that can happen? death? suffering? I think you are quite used to it.
OR you just can be a faggot and end the only chance to live you know for sure you are given, choose whatever and act accordingly don't become an attention whore.
>>675256891
We are more chemical than we want to admit, Still don't agree completely with the conclusion since it is an absolute statement, and we simply don't know for sure, I feel you tho, never gave up in more than a decade of depression, I'm quite happy this last years, by myself without antidepressants, I think the best way to approach anxiety and depression is embracing it and accepting it, and I see antidepressants as another form of evading from yourself and reality, but maybe it is just me.
>>675258763
thanks anon.
>>675257699
I'm a quarter sephardic. I think they thought I was Mexican. I did more damage than they did. Springfield Missouri Nazi's aren't as tough as you'd expect. One leading the charge was like 400 pounds of flab and ran head first swinging. It was the dumbest thing I've ever seen. But I hurt my wrist. I'm not used to fighting unwrapped. Today I bet it would end in someone pulling a gun. Since conceal and carry passed that neighborhood has just gotten worse.
>>675259462
Canadafag here, wouldn't know
>>675255324
I hate to say this, but yes, I know exactly how you feel, still you are just a pussy.
If you wanted to kill yourself, you wouldn't be here, you know why? because you are not looking for a way to end your life, you are just a mess.
So you want to convince me that you are so desperate to kill yourself but you waste your time here fantasizing about it without actually doing it? researching ways to kill yourself but still breathing.
You know why? because you are looking for a reason to keep living, suffering and loneliness can be overwhelming but this is just the start, I truly believe that you can do it, as I did. This is just a test, and the reward is your life and fulfillment, yeah, I know, sound like empty words right? then just do it, it is your choice after all.
>>675259763
fuck.
>>675259755
Try Calgary. I hear it's swarming with neo Nazi's and antifa. Two sides of the same coin if you ask me.
>>675258855
One advice, quit distractions, don't let yourself evade what you are facing, no more LOL no more WOW, NO MORE BULLSHIT, perhaps you can visit >>>/lit
pic somewhat related.
>>675257919
Some quality insight right there.
>>675260199
Edmontonfag here, It is hard to piss people off unless you actually look for it. Again, not really worth it for me
>>675258763
>>675259763
>>675260202
>>675258855
>>675259892
If you want to speak, my kik is White.Zer0
Suicide = Fag Solution
>>675261056
Thanks for the intellectual insight anon.
>>675253661
just sell the drugs and buy yourself a hooker, faggot.
