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Sup /b/
Question from a druggo loser here to other druggo losers like yourselves...
You ever feel like your destined to be a full on drug addict and die a miserable death at an early age?
I can't help but feel at this point like I'll never amount to anything. I have dreams. Dreams that require lots of work and sometimes it just feels impossible. I don't think I'll ever be happy with some mediocre normie life.
Feel like killing myself sometimes. Fully don't expect serious replies. Just don't really know where to vent this to. Anyways keep on rockin in the free world
Drugs ruin dreams
I would think after a few mushroom trips you realize what dreams are to you. if your dream is someone elses, ofc you're not gonna feel a mediocre normie life if that's what a dream is to you. if your dream is to be a drunk and be hung over and throw poop at people and wind up in jail and have a good story, then that's a good enough dream as any....
>>768622930
also, (same anon) if you're a scared little bitch that won't kill themselves then realize this and have fun with life. If you can see that everyone has extensional crisis and bad shit happen but at the end of the day they are just scared cucks that are afraid to kill themselves, then you can see that you're just a scared cuck so might as well have fun with life in whatever sense that means to you. you can kill yourself at anytime, the option never goes away
>>768622930
i chainsmoke weed and bho
im on track to make 100k per year
>>768623610
>>768623379
>>768623904
>>768623920
I've actually never tripped on mushies but I've tripped on Acid a whole lot and 2-CB, 2-CI, DMT and shit tbh with you like I know what I wanna do in life... (this ain't my stash but I've fucked around with a lot of these)
It's just like right now I'm doing cocaine multiple times a week and financially destroying myself and I can't stop. Been like this maybe 6 months to a year now.
I just feel hopeless all the time now. Like part of me almost wants to accept my fate at this point. I know that's retarded as hell but like I'm 22 and I feel like I should have my shit together by now. Shit's depressing mang.
>>768622930
This is all you need anon
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXsQAXx_ao0
>>768622930
>bathsalts
>>768624059
You know what he makes a good point
>>768623920
>im on track to make 100k per year
Kekkles
The emphasis on the money, showing how little self-esteem you possess.
But given time you too will learn what's important in life.
Pro tip: it isn't money
I just hope for your own sanity, that once you do, you'll have enough time left to enjoy it
>>768624033
so you're a beta cuck that is too scared to kill yourself so you damage your body until it cannot function. then you end up in a hospital where you can't even hold your own shit in and shit on the floor and have someone else clean it up. if you see humor in that and are okay with it, then do what you're doing. if you can't see humor, then get help or fuckin kys. pretty simple
>>768623920
>I'm on track to make 100k a year
Amway or Herbalife?
Long term cocaine use is no joke. It’s very mentally seductive. The way addiction is portrayed is not realistic. Instead, you find yourself making easy justifications to yourself about why it’s ok to do it just this one time. I ended up with huge credit card debt and wasted 3 years doing coke every single weekend and drinking. Try to cut back gradually until you can cut it out and do some exercise to help yourself. Doesn’t have to be anything fancy, a long bike ride or walk in the woods will help your mental health. Good luck. I still dream about the white powder but better judgement keeps me off it.
>>768624180
Shit changed my life
>>768624479
Man I feel you it's fucking ridiculous... the depression and guilt that comes with it is the worst though I literally spend multiple days asleep and find it hard to do basic tasks.
Do you think cutting back gradually will work? Total abstinence always fails me around week 3. I'm currently on week 1 of sobriety and honestly and truthfully it's simply because I've run out of money.
I'm studying right now (or meant to be) for a degree and I'm probably going to fail. I've been missing months worth of lectures at a time and doing literally the bare minimum.
I was always a smart kid at school but I started fucking around with drugs at 16 and honestly I'm a broken man now.
I don't want to do this shit to myself any more I want to live a productive life but I've almost lost hope...
Appreciate the response though man nice to hear from someone who's been through it
>>768622930
oh man, that picture gave me feels. I havent had 4FA or Mephedrone in 3 years. Everytime I do coke I remember how mephedrone is so much better
>>768622930
>>768622930
How does one fund some a stash? I would love to be a "user" but I spend all my income just to survive.
Gradually cutting back is the safest way. You have to take baby steps. You can’t go from banging 2 bags a night for 3 nights in a row to nothing. Instead, try maybe only doing it two nights, then one night, then 1 bag...you get the picture.
I’m above average intelligence as well, I think it’s common for people like us to get bored and look for entertainment. Nowadays I just smoke weed.
What's a good way to get some shit?
I used to really like 2c-i but I hear it's illegal now.
Jesus Christ offers salvation and a full life with purpose.
>>768624406
>Pro tip: it isn't money
That's the truth. Money is helpful to get you off the bottom-tier, but once you are making a decent amount and have a few grand to blow every month then it doesn't matter if you keep making more or not.
Curious what you think is important in life though. I think family and minimalism.
It's never too late to start over.
I'm 34 and about to go back to school. I was a firefighter for 6 years, but I moved to a different city and things are different here. Now I have to start over and it blows ass, but I'm pretty sure I can do it. If not, I'll do something else.
AMA if you want
>>768622930
No im good
>>768624422
Wow, you're so hard and cool, wow
>>768622930
I feel exactly this way OP
>>768625993
lol i'm definitely hard as diamonds. definitely not cool tho
>>768625209
Mephedrone is pretty fun, feels real dirty though I feel like I imagine it's what crack would feel like. Glad I never got into it much.
>>768625454
It's weird I like did all of this of my own accord. I chose to seek out the thrill of all of this shit. I always said I'd never do coke but somehow I did and now I'm here. One thing I am happy about is never doing anything harder. If I did I would truly be ruined by now I'm sure.
I've got a lot of pressure from friends to like never touch the shit again and then I get a bollocking whenever I do. I actually don't think this helps tbh. I just don't tell them or try to hide it and then feel worse about it.
I want to justify cutting back to myself but part of me knows it's just an excuse to use again... I have actually cut down over the previous few weeks to just one bag a night but I did that shit like 4 nights in one week.
I used to fiend after the first bag and end up getting a 2nd or a 3rd but I've learned to stop doing that cause it like triples how much I've fucked myself.
One of the major things is I'm basically nocturnal now as a result and I have huge trouble trying to fix my pattern. I sleep 12 hours sometimes during the day and I'm only ever awake at night. It's very hard to do anything productive at night obviously.
idk fuck it's a lot to deal with I should get a therapist or some shit.
Stop being a bitch and get some help
>>768622930
I used to be pretty hard core into drugs. Then one day I realized that I liked quality pussy more than drugs and things changed fast. Beautiful women require credibility.
Got a skill, got a 4 year, slowly worked my way up.
I’m 42 and I still smoke weed and probably drink too much, but hardly the jailbird loser I was until age 20 or so.
Life is great. I’ve worked hard and I have a comfortable life.
Look at the lights I put on my patio kek.
Pretty sedate life
>>768626268
Women don't care about money half as much as you think. They don't care about your position at your job or the companies you run. They care about how attractive you are.
Maybe not in the late 30's or whatever, but 35 and down? looks.
>>768626184
you can tell you're scared. either settle down the inner bitch by conquering it or settle it down by going all the way
>>768626268
How did you have the appifany that you needed to pack the shit in? It's a lot of fucking willpower my man I commend you on that. Anyone that's been there knows I guess... I felt like I had that appifany earlier this year and I just went and fucked it up for myself 3 weeks later.
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>>768626407
Goal #1 is to find a beautiful girl with low self esteem. Those are worth more than Gold
>>768626415
I feel like that's the choice I gotta make and it's a tug of war in my head. Being depressed as fuck tho the drugs have a fucking real hold. Coke convinces me to just ignore it and worry about it later. Meanwhile I know in a year or so I'll wind up on the streets if I carry on.
>>768622930
26 and I've watched 7 people get buried in the past 2 years. It will fucking kill you retard. You think you're the only one with pain? Grow up.
>>768625480
um I don't wanna go into too much detail but internet or failing that just ask people and then ask those peoples people
>>768626533
Yeah, the ones that were fat in highschool or whatever. The ones I have known are married now and having kids. All that's left are the fat girls looking for their chris hemsworth still.
>>768624406
"Wow I'm gonna be a judgy asshole about people's self esteem when someone uses a common metric to rate success."
Fuck yourself you fucking guttersnipe, you have no idea where his self esteem lies. Eat a goddamn dick and quit cutting people down. I know what's important in life, and it's keeping people like you from getting to people who are doing just fine in life.
>>768623920
I'm on track to make 200 with benefits but that's gonna take eight years because I'm going for a PhD.
>>768626618
well if you know that then decide what you want to do. do you want to be on streets? if not, get help. don't ween off it, becuz ur just gonna always be like, next week ill start kind of shit
>>768626699
I had a friend in highschool that was doing that 'cheese' shit if you remember that. He ended up accidentally ODing on it and suffocating in his vomit.
>>768626184
good thing u didnt get into mephedrone much too. it hurts like a mother fucker to snort and it probably did some nasty permanent damage to my sinuses. Thats part of the reason I stopped using it, other than Evolution dnet markets went down and I used that as a sign to get me to stop buying it and be a normal person and just use coke
>>768626699
Well actually no, no I don't. We've all had fucked up lives in one way or another. For me I was mentally and physically abused by my ex for 2 years. Really fucked up my self esteem and I turned to drugs as a coping mechanism.
You're right though.
>>768626796
bro I know man it's fucking disgusting as shit to snort the first time I had it I projectile vomited immediately.
Am I the only one that thinks these drugs aren’t nearly as addictive as opiates? I was hooked on opiates for a while and I’m clean now but I know I’ll never be truly happy for the rest of my life without them. Coke was never really addictive to me, neither were psychedics or weed
>>768627196
ive never really taken anything harder than ketamine , mdma or coke. I smoke cigs and weed alot but i feel like weed and caffeine are much more addictive than coke or any other class a's that i have taken.
>>768627196
I managed to do Oxy a bunch of times spaced out over a few years and honestly haven't touched an opiate in maybe 3 years. Don't have much desire to either.
I suppose it depends how you're wired. I took a liking to stimulants
>>768626806
Of course I'm right. I went through the same thing you are and came out a stranger man physically and mentally.
So if you know I'm right run all of it under water and throw it out coward
>>768627196
Nothing was addictive to me. I used to take oxy and would take it while playing multiplayer games because it made me nice to people. Quit with no issues after a few years of taking it.
Alcohol and tobacco though? Good lord. Applying in a weed state so I can switch to that. Alcohol is fucking my shit up.
>>768627434
You haven't done enough coke my man to truly know how addictive that shit is. Weed is nothing in comparison bro I can drop that shit like it's nothing. I mean different people react differently to different things but honestly don't fuck with cocaine it will fuck you in the ass.
>>768627523
I gotta say you sound like a real narcissist. Surely if you've been through the same shit you can understand the struggle. But then again I suppose you're likely to hate me since I'm a reflection of the part of you that you hated and overcame.
I ain't got shit to run under a tap I've been sober a week.
>>768627838
Nature, god, and man all hate weakness. People will feign sympathy for you, and your lucky to get a response from anyone. Appreciate my advice scrub
>>768628303
You're*
>>768628303
Nature is inanimate
God doesn't exist
Man can fuck himself
I appreciate the effort you put in to type some words into the comment box and the seconds you wasted doing so. Your advice is nothing I haven't heard before.
Honestly you're just highlighting the fact that your own friends don't give a shit about you probably because you're an awful person.
>>768622930
Real change takes cognitive and behavioral effort. I've been where you are but I'm lamer. I can't stop smoking weed.
>>768622930
not trying to sound cheesy but you can work to achieve goals no matter where you are, quitting drugs is sadly the first step. don't resign yourself to where you're at. two years ago i was drinking myself to death while juggling iv meth and heroin addictions. now i'm clean and am in an apprenticeship for a trade i enjoy. that said sometimes i still think id rather just boost shit and boot drugs all day - it'd be a lot easier. its all a choice, if you wanna be a loadie, be a loadie. just don't sell yourself short if you'd rather be doing something else.
also as aside note - holy fuck! wd 40 fixes everything.
just gotta learn how much willpower you got. If you can't handle drugs from taking over your life you should probably just stick to weed or whatever.
Just gotta say I appreciate everyone taking the time to respond to my train wreck thread. I think it's definately helped me to see the bigger picture. I've been stuck in my head thinking about this shit with very few people to talk to.
>>768622930
I'm addicted to meth like a motherfucker and don't have no idea how to quit. Shit has me fuckin enslaved. Im 19 and pretty much think I won't make it to 25 the way I'm headed. Fuck.