Can I get a feels thread? Staring into my cats loving face as the Seinfeld theme plays in the background and the feel is too much, dunno where to go in life
The sienfield is a bit funny now
I.. Need... A... Blowjob
>best friend has terminal cancer
>its kind of a 1 step forward 2 steps back kinda deal
>gets a little better, than gets really worse, then a little better again.
>he had internal bleeding last week.
>doctors guessed he had a few days if were lucky
>the bleeding slows to a trickle on its own
>he starts requesting more and more food
>still has like 4 lucid hours a day
>can't shake the feeling hes going to be around for a few more months, that the good will mkae him better
>wake up today
>he hasnt stirred at all
>go to visit him
>his kids say he still hasnt said a single word
>he just sits there barely awake at best, not really reacting with more than a smile or shake of the eyes
>when i lean in to kiss him on the cheek he manages to give one back
>smiles at me
>I have to leave
>pretty sure hes not going to wake up tomorrow
i keep thinking im ready but im not im scared
The fucking Arby's commercial was intense
>>768549064
Sorry to hear that anon my grandma died of cancer two years ago we knew she was gonna go for like a year before she went but it still felt sudden and unfair I'm still haunted by dreams that she is still here and everything fine but it's not... I'm not sure how to help you with your grief but I'm sure your friend is a good person and his spirit will bring you some form of closure once he passes on.. Wish you the best and I hope he suddenly gets better :)
I'm too unmotivated to get my fucking life together. Nothing brings me joy anymore. Everything makes me depressed or anxious, and I'm probably gonna be alone for the rest of my life. I don't really know where to turn. I'll probably kill myself within the next few years or so.
>>768549562
hes a famous psychic in the area. he is big in spirituality, but since the day i met him had said that once hes gone we wont be able to reach him. when no one else is around he tells me that he's working on a way to talk to just me for at least a few months though.
I don't believe it'll work. but i wish it did.
>>768549710
I hope it does work for you based on my experiences with spirits I have no doubt they make contact but I've never tried anything like a quija board wouldn't recommend cause demons or something but I do believe spirits can make contact through dreams and other means
>>768549623
I'm at that spot too I'm in a weird place where I can't improve like getting a job right now... And I want a gf but can't interact with people cause of my schizophrenia maybe u need some kind of medication I'd def talk to a counsellor but I've been there I can't focus on my hobbies for shit rn
>>768549944
ive had my whacky weird experience.s if he used a spirit board it would be the one his wife made for him a long time ago. he gave it to me when he got sick. but its mostly for show.
Hi guys, im 24 male and lately I've been feeling a bit depressed and not suicidal. Ive been molested when i was in middle school and then at work too recently. I can't get a boner when im about to have sexual intercourse. I cant erect but when im alone i can erect. I just dont know whats going with me and i wanna tell my mother about this bit she will say im just being dramatic about me being molested. What is there for me todo? How do i get professional help?
Everyone dies. Find a hobby. I picked guitar. It's been 7 years and I still suck but it fills the empty void. I know no music theory but I know what sounds good. Whatever you pick you have to find something that brings you balance. Then stay distracted by our materialistic society and before you know it you're dead man. We're guna just miss having our consciousness downloaded and recreated by 50 to 100 years which is the only thing that bums me out. If WW3 doesnt happen and we dont blow ourselves up we will be remembered for ages to come as the last era of mortality.
>>768550550
I've been there too I'm on nofap for two years because of my schizophrenia I say just be honest with your issue to a counsellor it's what they're there for I haven't gotten help tho but I don't recommend keeping the problem for years that's all I can say sorry I wish I could help I'm just saying I can relate schizophrenia brought back my issues from the past and it's been hell
>>768550849
>Everyone dies. Find a hobby.
OH GOD I NEVER HAD A HOBBY BEFORE THIS FIXES DEATH, ITS SO EASY NOW THAT I KNOW EVERYONE DIES. HERE I THOUGHT WE HAD AN EXCEPTION
Wrote this in an hour. Dunno if that makes this more or less impressive. Probably less.
What even is it? Not a song there's no music to it yet, not a poem there's no real meter or fancy pattern.
Whatever, I call it "I Am an Overconfident Train". It's an inside joke with me and my friends.
My overconfidence, barreling down the tracks
I can ignore the brakes, I must ignore to relax
When the rails run out and we careen off course
Forgo guilt, feign ignorance, show no remorse
Because if one were to look back and analyze one’s error
Learn from mistakes they made, could they stomach the terror
The shame, the rage, the hate all aimed at the accused
Could you embrace repentance or would you light your own fuse?
I didn’t make a mistake.
Only tried to give you the moon.
I did it all for your sake.
Forever ended too soon.
If you just spend a few more seconds looking into my eyes
Then you’ll see I mean well, you’ll discard the pile of lies
A little pain means nothing if I can prove I can care
So I stripped off my mask, the darkness behind I will bare
It’s not what you’d expect, nor something I was proud to share
But what you wanted was truth, now why do you look so scared
There are no scars, no blemish, just my mind as it was born
It’s imperfect but pure, you needn’t shed that tear, nor mourn
I did suffer, just look.
I tried to give you the moon.
I didn’t have what it took.
Forever ended too soon.
>>768551531
10/10
>>768551245
Bro you aren't looking at it right. I'm saying everyone dies in the sense that yea we all know it but there's way better things to occupy your time with than thinking about the end. Yes everyone dies so do something while you're alive. You only live as long as the last person who remembers you. Got that last quote from Westworld tonight. Yet another fine distraction. Find the balance padawan I know you can do it. If you're looking forward you're looking in the wrong direction.
>>768552313
im already making a feature film, writing poetry, learning guitar, volunteering at the youth shelter, and working as a host on someone elses channel. it doesn't do anything to distract form the fact that my best friends dying tonight, or tomorrow night, or maybe 3 nights from now if hes unlucky. its a rough fucking time. and filling it up with hobbies or anything doesn't distract from losing someone you love.
>>768552313
>>768552527
if anything its only made it worse cuz i spent all weekend working on my film when id rather be by his side waiting for him to pass.
Feeling bad tonight my friends but It will all be good in the end I guess.
>>768552558
Dwelling on it doesn't do anything but bring pain. Don't think about how he is now but remember him in his prime. Buy a plane ticket go to an island by yourself. Go buy a rescue cat or dog. Make new friends. Love something else that is tangible. Begin anew. Go to the wake for closure but skip the funeral. Putting corpses in boxes and burrying them is too depressing. Imo it makes the grieving process worse. But really though. Buy a plane ticket and go rescue an animal. Bring it home and resume your life. You could also do none of this and dwell and be sad and alone but you are the master of your reality. You want to feel a certain way you can make yourself feel it one way or another. You sound like you do need a vacation though. Smoke some pot. Catch flights not feels.
You can't trust people. They are imperfect, and you can never guarantee they won't let you down.
Conversely, you MUST trust people. Letting someone help you is always better than trying to deal with things on your own. If you don't know people, trust God whether you believe in him or not. Having just a little bit of faith in someone else relieves just a little bit of the pressure. Sometimes, it only takes a little bit of relief to catch your second wind.
Hi. I have 2 friends with bad cancer, I was molested at 9 by a Christian School teacher and I have ADHD and severe chronic insomnia. I've tried to kill myself 3 times. First, I cut my arm from my wrist down to where my elbow bends, the second I overdosed and it landed me in a the highest level trauma unit in a well known hospital around the area where I live, third time Overdosed on aspirin. I've had thyroid cancer, so I don't have a thyroid, had my gallbladder out cause I was having G.I. problems for years and no diagnosis, I was mentally, sexually, emotionally, verbally, spiritually, socially and financially abused different times in my life. I used to be a cutter. I stopped that with my own free will and discipline. The first time I cut and was suicidal I was 11 or 12. I got pancreatitis from taking Depakote, a mood stabilizer. I don't drink. Never have. Been drunk 1 time in my life. I'm only 36. I'm going through migraines because I have a bone spur growing out of my kneck disc and it's irritating the nurses all in that area. The soonest I can get in to see a neurosurgeon is August. I had a level pain 10 migraine for a month straight. Nothing helped. I went to the ER and they gave me 2 doses of dilauded 1 of the nights. Didn't touch it. No matter how bad things seem it will get better. There's always hope until you take your final breath. If it's not your time to die you could wind up with all sorts of complications if you don't succeed. You never know for sure you'll succeed. I thought I would every time but I didn't. The first overdose caused me memory and thinking problems that are on and off. Sometimes I can't think and carry on a normal conversation and it just comes on me. I say all that to say this, suicide isn't the answer to your emotional pain. Even if you succeeded, it's a selfish act. Think about how many people you would leave behind that would say what else could I have done? What did I miss? What did I do wrong? Your parents and close friends most
>>768548279
me for the past few months...
>>768548279
Post kitty's face
>>768553405
>Dwelling on it doesn't do anything but bring pain. Don't think about how he is now but remember him in his prime
take your shitty plattitudes and shove em up your ass.
>buy a plane ticket and go to an island by yourself
kill yourself.
>go buy an animal
kill yourself.
>make new friends
kill your entire family.
>skip the funeral
im in charge of the fucking funeral you cunt.
>its too depressing to deal with reality, go to an island instead of honoring your friend
you are the worst person. jesus fucking christ you are just awful.
>CATCH FLIGHTS NOT FEELS
>in a feels thread
>>768552527
Hard to do but the best thing is to let go.
Your friend won't be in pain anymore.
Easier said than done, true.
In these moments we tend to be selfish at first. Try to see the positive outcome for HIM, not the negative for YOU.
>>768554386
him dying is positive for me too, im more afraid of him lasting longer. its hell taking care of someone. but god damn it still hurts.
>>768554168
Not him but I second the animal part... Kitties are nice... Rest of what he said is just subjective won't help everyone
>>768554168
You probably believe in God too. You're a lost cause man I'm giving you good advice here. Just tell him what he wants to hear people. Jesus died for your friends sins and he's going to heaven. You'll see him there and you'll live happily ever after. Fucking idiot.
>>768554426
Oh ok, sorry m8, didn't read the whole thread.
I hope you'll be ok, you'll get through this, eventually.
Godspeed my nigga.
Pic related i guess.
Just trying to get a chuckle out of you, not being an insensitive arsehole /b/rother
>>768554573
Thanks anon. Yea bro buy an animal. Haven't you ever seen John Wick?
Also, you don't want to put your friends family through another death. That's another selfish part. Imagine if you were in their shoes? Keep hope and like the other poster said "get some faith." You can't have faith without hope. If you dwell on your going to kill yourself in a couple years, where the mind goes, the man follows. Proverbs in the Bible says as a man thinks in his heart so does he become. It also says out of the heart the mouth speaks. So it starts in your mind, goes to your heart then comes out of your mouth. Push out and reject negative thoughts and purposely replace them with positive ones. You don't act on every thought and feeling you have everyday otherwise we'd all be in mental institutions because there's too many which shows you you can live beyond your thoughts, feelings and emotions. You already do, just recognize it now because I'm pointing it out.
My cat died last night in his sleep. Woke up and found him cold and lifeless. I've been a wreck all day. He was the best cat.
I'll miss you tons, Frodo.
>>768554573
animals are nice, but adding something to be dependent on me is /not/ what i need in my life. i spent the last 6 months taking care of a dying person.
>>768554603
>you don't like my advice so you are a christian
you have never even dealt with a dying person have you? go back to your shallow existence of island vacations and not attending funerals cuz it might hurt your little feelings.
>>768554723
hes not on any form of life support thankfully, were just waiting for him to go on his own, and its a slow process unfortunately. he had the option of doping up with morphine before but he didn't want to take it and i can't say i blame him when push comes to shove. especially since he got to see all his friends and family in his final days.
>>768554797
RIP kitty
>>768554797
Sorry to hear that anon. Smoke some pot about it. That's also plane ticket worthy.
>>768554763
I survived a suicide attempt it's easier to not want to kill yourself but I'm dealing with the feel that everybody wants me to on top of that so I don't know how to deal my mom didn't care
>>768554800
Check'd.
I feel for you, a friend of mine was buried on wednesday, unexpected death, car crash.
Don't know what's worst tbh.
Im the (dis)connect4 anon, btw.
>>768555055
Witnessed
>>768554800
I watched family members suffer and die. My grandfather amassed a fortune and is on his deathbed now they say but he still gets up to collect rent from tenants. They gave him 6 months 3 years ago. Artificial valve in his heart skin cancer colon cancer. Never took a vacation in his life. Spent 89 years hording money and Can't enjoy the fruits of his labor. His existence rn disgusts me. So consumed by greed and money it's the saddest thing I've ever seen. Sadder than your friend dying young. He's a man dying of old age but he's never truly lived. Death doesn't phase me. I've taken too much acid to dwell on anyone passing away. I'm too focused on living my best life.
>>768555352
(((grandad)))
>>768555499
Yea that was him alright except he is a Christian.
>>768555597
Kek, fairplay.
When you play 10 hours a day and still can't get chicken.
>>768556149
Im sure it means something, in another thread...
>Abusive family
>Thought prayer and god could heal injuries
>Mfw injuries never properly healed
>Moved out and trying to figure things out for past 3 years now
>On my own
>Family wants me back
>"We would never hurt you"
>"We would never let anything happen to you"
>"None of us came out unharmed, we understand"
>I refuse to go back. Never.
>Mfw next week I have a surgery to fix some of the damage
But hey... I survived I guess.
well let's see...be a loser for 100% of your day for at least a year, lose respect for yourself, and still think its worth trying to get number one at a rigged game, and listen to how much your feels arent shit knowing that it still hurts to even have a sense of dignity through all the failure it is.
>>768556347
Care to share more details anon?
No worries if not.
Good luck with the surgery though.
I will never tell someone what they want to hear. I tell them what they need to hear and the truth. Let my voice be taken from me forever before I do that. No one is a lost cause just because a person declares it. Who are you and who made you an expert? I'm a Leo and your an uneducated, ignorant fool who's obviously selfish and self centered and I'd love to rip you apart. You don't know who your dealing with so watch what you say. Before you get the idea of trying to find out who I am and all that I'm in a high ranking position and if you do try to find me I'll know and everyone involved will have FEDERAL charges. Also you will not talk to a person that way while I'm around. Telling him to kill himself and kill his family. Be careful. I've got my eye on you in more than 1 way. 4chan has been breaking the rules for awhile and it's time for a cleanup. The moderaters let it happen. It's a dawning of a new day. You will not speak like this ever again or you will be promptly arrested. We already have your IP address. Have you ever heard of the big mind internet or the hive mind? If not research it and get educated. Everything everyone does or says on the internet at any time is being monitored and when certain things are done we step up and step in and call you out. Your on our radar from now on. Be careful.
That was for 768553405.
>>768556614
suck a dick tho.
>>768556888
Check'd
And don't reply to copy/pasta, ffs!
>>768556529
Thanks anon.
Dad was abusive, but never drunk, which makes it scarier. He dislocated my left shoulder when I was 5; he just popped it back in and no one said anything about it. It continued to pop out (painfully) thought it was normal for years. Literally been living the past 20 years with a torn ligament in shoulder (Level 3 SLAP tear). Also left handed. Finally getting it fixed.
Though, I right shoulder took some abuse. Same with my head and my spine. Need those checked too.
>>768556469
How do you feel tho bae? :(
>>768557277
Don't go back to the fuckers, i know they are your parents (biological ones) but they're no good, never were, never will.
Your mum, i assume, never inflicted any pain on you and yet, she knew?
You're better off on your own.
Do you have any bros and/or sisters?
Where are you from? Is there any way you could sue them for your injuries?
>>768557716
Mom inflicted a significant volume, but never really injured me like my father. She's in denial, actually. Both my brothers are spitting images of my parents, not worth it. I have a distant sister (like, across the country) who I've spoken to before, but we're both busy all the time.
I have no evidence that they inflicted these injuries. Family and I from NV. Now living in NorCal. My family is relatively wealthy; I took a bunch of their money with me and I left to go to school. I have a degree that I'm now using to just... become independent and disappear from them.
>>768558017
Do the rest of your relatives know what happened to you?
If so fuck them too!
Anyway, you're wise anon.
Stay away from them, you're gonna do good for yourself, you seem like a nice person.
Once again, good luck for your surgery and for life in general.
However, be careful not to repeat history...
All the best /b/ro (i assume)
>>768558536
I don't think my relatives know the details, but they HAVE seen my family do things to me and do nothing Thanks /b/ro, that means so much to me you have no idea.
>>768558746
Got discord? Drop your info if you wanna talk more.
I'd be happy to stay in touch with you.
No homo.
why do I keep getting my hopes up never good ever comes I want to end it but I'm a coward
>>768559618
Seriously?
How old are you? 16?
>>768555352
>I've taken too many drugs not think im better than you
good for you.
