Gtreets smart Anons of /b/, I would like some help. I want to die so I took around 1300mg of Methylphenidate (Concerta). It has been around 4 hours since I took maybe 25 tablets that were 54mg each all at once. I've managed to keep them down and they're kicking in. I'm experiencing an increased heart rate and fast breathing mostly. Also a little bit of distorted vision and minor paranoia. I'm a little stiff and jittery. I can still think sorta straight (from what I can tell) but I'm a little slow to process stuff and send the messages down to my limbs, if that makes sense.
So my main question is will this OD kill me? Or will I just be extremely high for a day or two with bad withdraws? I'm about 300 pounds and 5'9. I'm way too out of it to calculate the LD50 myself for this medicine.
Right now I'm all tingly and just sitting outside in the summer night downing pack after pack of cigarettes waiting to drift off and be with God, listening to some Frank Sinatra. It's so peaceful that the side effects are manageable. At the risk of sounding cringy as fuck, could some of you please keep me company in my last moments? My phone has plenty of charge left so if I stop responding I'll have at least passed out.
>inb4 muh hospital and shit
Im all fat and retarded and socially inept and alone and I'm just ready to leave. Please respect my decision. I'd rather just check out than be this pathetic, but knowing me I'll probably wake up tomorrow having botched my own suicide.
Thanks /b/. Also feel free to recommend me some good old jazz type music. I'm really in the musical mood tonight. Also I'm a /g/tard. Talk to me about technology related stuff. I'm going to look up some old IRIX and NeXTSTEP and iOS 6 screenshots and admire all of the work that was put into creating such elegant and smooth user interfaces on top of BSD/UNIX/Mach OS components. I love those retro feels.
Look up at the starry night sky with me, Anons. No more pain or worry or sadness. Just us and peace.
Also it took me nearly an hour to click send. I had to keep readjust time since OD. I'm very paranoid and exhausted but I feel like I'll die in my sleep. Dubs decides if bed time /b/. I'm getting itchy all over and delusional and I can't write without autocorrect. I'm scared /b/. I still want to go out but it's cold and I'm afraid. Please help to comfort me, Anons. I will not be spaghetti mouth pathetic faggot OP anymore if this works. Guide me to the light. Please humor me I'm getting messed up ans everything is slow. Please dubs bedtime. Please roll. This is not bait or pasta. Please /b/. I sound like a child but I need someone anyone to comfort me right now. Please. I don't wanna do this all alone. I feel like a schizophrenic and I feel really sad and drink ans dizzy.
>ib4 poison control 9r something
I'm still here enough to inb4 it, so no. I'm just really delusional and sloth like. Please offer emotional support instead of hospitals. I don't care for.needle and things.
>>768074393
Everything hurts ad is scary as fuck with hallucination but I still lold thank yoy kind sir. I'm rewarding you with autism PC train case
>>768074548
These dubs say call an ambulance.
Log'em
Op, you succesfully took 2-3 times the lethal dose of Methylphenidate, bye.
Also my stomach hurts. Will green tea go against the meds? Please help with this one. I think I have sufficient digestive them aft like 4 hours
Sry 4 butter fingers I have bad motor control
>>768074656
Off by only one my dude get fuck I'm dying
>>768073877
>>768074747
Call an ambulance please. They'll give you so much good shit it knocks you right out and feels amazing. Do it please.
>>768074800
Dubs demand
>>768074809
>Dubs demand
>>768074747
Green tea is fine op please sleep
Lol that's not gonna kill you faggot
>>768074548
Ill stay with you friend.
Im pretty jealous of you having the balls to do this. I am at the lowest point of my life right now, and in two weeks it will be sooooooo much worse. I should just kill myself, but my dad is my best friend and is really sick right now. Cant leave him all alone with my death hanging over him.
Play "Them - Mystic Eyes" right nowif youre outside. Reminds me of better days.
Good evening bud, how are you doing? Ill keep you company. From one suicidal kid to the next, enjoy whats left
>>768073877
Youre gonna live, OP. No where near the lethal amount, unless your heart is super weak.
T. Drug user
>>768075715
Yah ODing off ritalin is a pretty shitty way to go also. Not fun.
>>768074745
You scared me but it makes me feel alive even in this state. Thank you a lot man. I have a small adrenaline rush for more posting.
>>768074800
Dubs for bed not hospital. I've tried before. They Don help and the chard coal tastes pretty sht
>>768074841
Op often enjoys repeated digits, weven when near him death
Fuck I just fell over in the chair I hurt my arm but no blood and not a break I think fuck
>>768074931
Thank you anon I appreciate you and your stuff. Not sure how much long I'll post because my hands are numb kinda and my stomach feels funky and my head is spinning and type trouble
Might vomit, have to shorter text a bit can't really see sorry if this.sound weird ans insane and stuff it probably does. I don't like the punctuation in this. It looks funny now though, I am mostly reliable autocorrect because lack of felling
I feel pretty bad. I will probably wake up in vomiting like after night of drinking heavy. I will fuck this up too. B4 I got this bad I wrote letters to best freindd ans mother and dad to let them know why I hate my life and not too feel bad if whenm my suffering is finally over.
Heartbeat is fucking strange as well and I'm getting cold. Is it happening. I'm hyper and can't stop tuping
>>768075275
Stop hurting my in this way dude I tried to do it let me fucking due
>>768075298
Rebember 2 boot n nuke hard disk to clear hentai and pepes 3 passes with DbAN. If I wake up in tomorrow morning I have to reinstall shit Ubuntu GNOME or KDE to use computers. Only one flash drive with live CDDL is left boot able on my desk. I planned okay for all that I think.
I mean what would you do to remove the all te data.
>>768075972
>>768075972
Probably a hammer and burn everything if you wanted it totally gone...or throw it in some random garbage a few blocks from home. You dont think this is it?
>>768075715
>>768075905
I'm shaken a lot and can't barely touched my phone and have 2 us autocorrect bar an samshitter meme phone only because my I'm a little bit bunched up in my head
Feels bad and crazy man 8m a fucking nutter right now and I'm sweating so damn much ND my hart os faster. Then ever right now
>>768075275
Stop hurting my in this way dude I tried to do it let me fucking due
>>768075298
Rebember 2 boot n nuke hard disk to clear hentai and pepes 3 passes with DbAN. If I wake up in tomorrow morning I have to reinstall shit Ubuntu GNOME or KDE to use computers. Only one flash drive with live CDDL is left boot able on my desk. I planned okay for all that I think.
I mean what would you do to remove the all te data.
>>768075597
When I finally die can you tell ylyls faggots to fuck them self with screenshits or 5 his thread because this is damn embarrassing but I'm so energized that I can not stop typing, bits an embarrassment eve if you are not sure of my real Identify
Tell them to eat cock. Remember me as 4anon who was here foreve and addicti to shitposts to to end. No forgivey no forgetti my final wish is tgat my.posts bee spaghetti copy paste me but tweak it to be better I possibl
Also sorry if it's redundant because I have to paste for more the. 2k char limited of the board
>>768076170
Smugy .
>>768076172
But this is wasting it. There was nothing illegal mostly dumb porn and shit so I want my family to still get all my ThinkPad in working conditions to use r too sell later for funeral expense, if this make sense I can't type because Im all tire and run down
Hopefully this is almost over, not fun but I can't can't get backed down from it now, I have to finis llwhat I've started.
And as promised I typical type for as long as possible until I fall to sleep. I hop this peace is worth pain this is not feeling good I'm a little disconnected. And sorry everyone for streaming of conciseness I can't do it in another way of
And can I gets paralyze by this for fucking with my nerves system or something??? £ ¥ fuck money symbols I can still not move really well as I need heavy predict text bar fuck
I'm aware enough for this to be embarrassing. Even though I'm as high a a kite. I'm really trying to get control on this last lined to make sure you all know that op is not as retarded as hie may seem in the above posts.
And I had to say it on Last time. Install gentoo it's actually not a bad operating system. It gives provide a lot of freedom ad control to users because it is decent free software. Even derived projects like red core opera system is fantastic.
Installe GENTOO make RMS proud everyone
>>768076700
>>768076700
All good man! Keep messaging as long as you can. Where here for yah.
>>768077147
It'll all be okay Anon. Peace be with you
>>768076700
Suicide boi here again, if thats your dying wish ill make it happen bud. In the meantime tell me about yourself. Mainly the good that went on in your life
>>768073877
I've never been depressed but i guess I can't really help you now, all I can do now is hope you go peacefully anon. God bless you
I fee relaxed but my heart hurts bad an I am slightly slipping here.
>>768077160
Not closed minded. If it isn't broken do not fix, if it is broke and unfixable like I m than toss it out in the trash.man.
>>768077239
Thank you for giving me encourage mentioned right now. I can't even get up off my ass the concret hurt my palms like I am a kid outside again
It's peacefull in a good and bad ways. It is a ver mixed bag so far. I'm sleep but can't fall to into sleep. Can't go to bed bcuz stimulints in concerfa
>>768077366
Thanks m8 you to dude hope stuff is better for you down the road in life. All of the best 2 u
>>768077404
Yeah please immortal ize my last shipots in knowing your meme cipypastea bullshit. It works will be glorious an I will have.many lols if I wake up tomorrow ( I do not hope I will/
Alsa my fingered cannot reach parentheses.nor can I remember h to pell that work. I feel really drunk pleased stay with me even if this makes now sense
Did I alright quote u? If not thanks last anon Dont want too mess Yor (you) that you have me
I fee schizophrenic feels fucking bad, my mind is messed like my apartment but worse ans I can can't think straight and wobbly a thing phone
Fucj I can read it all thus is a mess sorry I can't type, now I am losing feeling a in hands and feel bad like to all numb n shit
You guys buy a gun the next time I know I will. I do not think thatkconcerte work, but is not pleasant at all it painful and feels rally hoorible.
Might drop aft this post my eyes are hired and hurt from cig smoke like a bitch because agin poor motor control I ahte this so much. Poor choose of way to.die am an embarrassment among btards now
Nobody willing cry 4 me. They will poke fun at my lasts postes here. Nothing out of the ordinary for me I have been shit on almost of my life.at last this time I hope I will no have to be there to see that
.
>>768078712
>I fee relaxed but my heart hurts bad an I am slightly slipping here.
>Not closed minded. If it isn't broken do not fix, if it is broke and unfixable like I m than toss it out in the trash.man.
>Thank you for giving me encourage mentioned right now. I can't even get up off my ass the concret hurt my palms like I am a kid outside again
>It's peacefull in a good and bad ways. It is a ver mixed bag so far. I'm sleep but can't fall to into sleep. Can't go to bed bcuz stimulints in concerfa
>Thanks m8 you to dude hope stuff is better for you down the road in life. All of the best 2 u
>Yeah please immortal ize my last shipots in knowing your meme cipypastea bullshit. It works will be glorious an I will have.many lols if I wake up tomorrow ( I do not hope I will/
>Alsa my fingered cannot reach parentheses.nor can I remember h to pell that work. I feel really drunk pleased stay with me even if this makes now sense
>Did I alright quote u? If not thanks last anon Dont want too mess Yor (you) that you have me
>I fee schizophrenic feels fucking bad, my mind is messed like my apartment but worse ans I can can't think straight and wobbly a thing phone
>Fucj I can read it all thus is a mess sorry I can't type, now I am losing feeling a in hands and feel bad like to all numb n shit
>You guys buy a gun the next time I know I will. I do not think thatkconcerte work, but is not pleasant at all it painful and feels rally hoorible.
>Might drop aft this post my eyes are hired and hurt from cig smoke like a bitch because agin poor motor control I ahte this so much. Poor choose of way to.die am an embarrassment among btards now
>Nobody willing cry 4 me. They will poke fun at my lasts postes here. Nothing out of the ordinary for me I have been shit on almost of my life.at last this time I hope I will no have to be there to see that
>.
Post a pic of youself if you are gonna die anyway/
Sprry 4 overlapping here I have reached 2k s characters again and it won w post it so here's a paste off last post I could NT finish
Fucj I can read it all thus is a mess sorry I can't type, now I am losing feeling a in hands and feel bad like to all numb n shit
You guys buy a gun the next time I know I will. I do not think thatkconcerte work, but is not pleasant at all it painful and feels rally hoorible.
Might drop aft this post my eyes are hired and hurt from cig smoke like a bitch because agin poor motor control I ahte this so much. Poor choose of way to.die am an embarrassment among btards now
Nobody willing cry 4 me. They will poke fun at my lasts postes here. Nothing out of the ordinary for me I have been shit on almost of my life.at last this time I hope I will no have to be there to see that
Fuck thus numniess bullshit I can't type. I don't want to be a.vegatible for some shit like that, put a note in my pocket to allow me to go pewith peace and not suffer anymore.
>>768078297
Thank anon. I will hope to see you where we go next, heaven or something. I don't know if I I get in thoug, God will probab be pissd a but suicide. A lest that is what I was told my entirely life
Again, Sry 4 autocorrect and gene real slippy posts I really can't help it is I just have the prediction.bart thing it's bad now I'm going slow motion and losing m marbles like ducking mad guys, not fun anymore but I will stay as as I possibly cane
1400ish/2000 I'll watch the char better 4 les confusing this Tim
Thank u too AL still reading this it means a lot tome. If I drink vokda or tecilla will it speed thing up a bi5? I cannot stand the wait this is hurting my chest can't brethe too good now
>>768078875
Oh good I get a n other you fro. This Guy
Thank you anon I appreciate your help and support
Fuck but my Chesst is too tight no and it is huur tung sorry hurting to breathe quite a bit now fuck this I might bee gone in ahilw so this thread can be.finaly pruned and deleted
>>768073877
Sup anon, how are you?
>>768079166
>>768079166
>Nobody willing cry 4 me
>>768079166
You aren't gonna die, you're gonna have a bad time and feel sick and fucked up for a while after this.
>>768073877
im here with you buddy, its a lovely night outside.
Wish I could just do it like you dude
>>768073877
It is a lovely night out.
I’d like to go out listening to my way by frank Sinatra or good riddance by green day
keeping the thread going, for just a lil longer
think it would be some nice quiet blues for this turkey
rip op
>>768079262
I havent laughed this hard in a long time
Rip
![maxresdefault[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/UURkZtd.jpg "maxresdefault[1].jpg")
>>768075972
Don't you want to die why be scared?
rest of you faggots be safe out there... the night is dark out and filled with niggers.
>>768080502
>I havent laughed this hard in a long time
>>768079100
Just a minute I can lift m armes anymore so hold on an sort sorry in advance for low light and it one sec I'm trying to lift my left arm it isn't bot as numb as other 1
>>768079197
Bad but petty good. I like I said thus is all a mixed bag right now
>>768079262
I like it. Somebody Please posts slow jyaks. The brainlet type. They make me laugh out loud aa could use some laughing at the now
>>768079364
I trei an i crei every time m8. Mak me memes material for my legacy as a dead guy.
Also image as promise ed earlier in the thread or may be this post I have trouble keeping track in this state of mind. .
>>768079491
Well fuck is now I have to invest in agun to finally do this. I did nt want a mess for whomever cleans me up. Do I lay down tarp or what for a shothun? I'm,not really a gun guy type but I knew shotgun are good for that. What sort of hells to buy? Birds shot or something els? I need k/ board guys here if there are even an on at this time of nighte.
>>768079491
I bet I quote d you wrong because of clover (fuck floens bitch ass that cunty fucker) he probably did this to prevent tower posts. But I did the number manualy. Just for (yyuo) faggot that one is wrong on purpose for discouraging my efforts tonight faggot
>>768079557
The stars are nice. I like the glow they gave of, sorta warm if I can't even feel them fro so far away from here
>>768079670
I cannot advise suicides but it's ur choices if you think it is bess t. For you. Choose careful an Don go back on it one committed 2 it
>>768079923
Yeah it rally is
Also see I'm fat and ugly aft fuck. Afaced ethat only my mother culd love. If you look better then me please lose weight and go live. I managed to crawl inside an get in my chair. My body is hurt all over don't mind my nasty hair I have been working on all day outside lifting shit Im in fromnt of a fan
>>768080074
Slim Whitman I think is another good one.
>>768080181
Thanks 4 the bumps man appreciate it
>>768080978
Thnk4 slojak
Anothe pasted, sorry for side was image cannt pick up pH one 2 rotate anymor this is shit
>>768080336
Yeah tilts nice in the evening to relax after a long day
Also I am probably make a big mistake post my pictures here's. At least I know no tto attached my fucking name to this shit. People may recognize me here but pleas let me be anonymous. I just need to vent frustratin as I tryout kms. I would offer a Time stamp but I have to not energy or willpowert to write. Have to type w 1 finger laying downw.
Fuck this I will aplolgizet in the morning if I lived. Alo no rip op he's still here. Will try to wach this thread thought Dot expectt any more replyies I'm fucking too tired of being up. Gotta sleep
>>768080741
Because drug enduced isn't fun at allL it's pretty paintful and makes me have to relied on autocorrect as number 4 every other thing damnnit fuck thi bs I'm about 2 sleep now I can't even opened m eyes anymore ans I'm seeing spot
All over the fucked place shit guys
Is OP kill
Later fucko, if this isn't bait then thank you for removing your worthless ass from this world. If it bait...wow look at all the suckers.
>>768081215
Im staying with yah man. Are you back home now? Do you have any beer to drink? Or something to help with how anxious the ritalin will keep making you feel...
Shit rip for nigger
>>768081120
Preparations for a shotgun death are probably best discussed while awake and, not necessarily sober, but not as drugged up as you are in your current state. You may not remember much of this.
You aren't that ugly dude, you just aren't your type. I'll be here with you enjoying the cool night air, sleep well buddy.
>>768073877
You can still become better annon. I know I'm moralfagging but you can become better man. People love you. Call this suicide prevention number: (800)-273-8255
Rolling for you to go sleep
F
Please don't die, I don't want you to die.
This is bait and you're having a gaff right now.
Please get help.
Hey at least you can commit. Most suicidal tards whine but don't ever fuckin do it. Respect to OP.
Depressing as shit mate
Rolling for peaceful sleep, dubs decide what dreamland OP will experience
goodnight /b/uddy
Rip OP
>>768073877
>glitched prices!!!! nons!
>>768082677
Checked and want to give OP more good vibes and love for his journey. Whatever it may be.
>>768082677
checked. A good night to you indeed, OP
>>768073877
Good night sweet prince.
dubs determine if op is dead or not
start rolling
Dude, you alive?
>>768083276
roll die
i wonder what happens when we die, does christ really show us the light, or are we just in hell and this shit is just punishment.
dead?
Op has left this world
RIP OP
Goodbye op
>>768081215
Op gone now?
This is Op. Im not dead yet. Maybe this was a mistake
>>768084192
Not op
OP, are you still there? Please tell us you are. How are you feeling?
Just brain damage liver damage kidney damage
Rest in Peperoni OP
I need to know if OP successfully died this way, that way I can do it too
Op has left the building
>>768073877
Death is the only path to peace, rest now.
rip op
I wonder what lead so many of you young men to think of yourself so little.
I don't really understand what happened to us or how we came to be at this place.
You're all wonderful bastards looking at the world with kids eyes, finding it lacking, disappointing and depressing. Your being completely unable to "sell yourself" to the people of this world.
And that's all that's wrong with you guys. Magnificent bastards, that's what you are. Good to know you /b/. Good to have you.
>>768085003
And so another comrade falls
>>768083587
I hop so m8.i hope death of isn't as cold as rightnow is. I'm free zip meant 2 say freezing g rite now where I am losing my feelings of my legand foot in the font fromnt ntlite
I hated this horrible exist ence thought
Anothe RE sidways imgage bcquse.op is a retarded fucketdc.
>>768083318
Still here dude, anothe RE failure ob of anand attempted suicide by faggpt op Sry for not deliverance on the origin posted you guys. Op wil probobly make it this the nightd.
>>768083594
>>768083732
Op OP is backed outside own his own now. Roommate came to check on m, pretending 2 be spleen ing workes. Op crawled outside like to the patheti moron he is ib but still has no feel ingest in legs. If I'm a.m felling good enough for a cigarette now but still in a good am ount ob of a pain in my chest
Getting harte RE 2 bre the now the air won't go in so many times as far fasts
Finall posts 2morow if I survived. Was fun talking 2 u all but dubs demand I have to sleep now but I'm having a bit of a chan get of my heart I think. I still want it but I have second thuots no. May been ill bee more grateful 4 life in the morning. Going to sleep out of the house 2ni ght
Op will sleep as dubbed demands ofme. Thank you for the company as I tryed my best ro leave guys i known I'LL regret this in thec morngning but fuck it, just doxxing me. I Dont care anymore maybe I'll get some help because i feel insane right now. Thought is broken again and I cannot breathing better fuck it whatevered goodnt every on. See you her 2morow or in haven/hell faggot s
>>768084446
I feel like 5 gallon ob shit in an 3 galleron bag, thats wha.t
>>768084639
No ur autism meds probaleble wont kill u
Op tri ed somethin new and and didn't worlk at allL
>>768084662
I will return to haunt this board probably unfortunately
I failed at every thing officially now. I ODed on a utism med and failed harder than an one else ever could have. I m failure at life and death. Fuck this. I just need a gun nextTime
>>768085157
You got kik bro? You can add me if you need someone to talk to a little more, might be easier and I wouldn't mind a new friend.
>>768085157
fuck you op, my autism pills are the same as yours
![1fa6f7b9e27fa0d7d6b768afa30fadff[1].png](https://i.imgur.com/ZyyMHRX.png "1fa6f7b9e27fa0d7d6b768afa30fadff[1].png")
>>768085003
>>768085157
You rest up now lad. Ive chilled with you all night, and will hang out till the morning. Youre not gunna feel too great, but doubt this will end yah. Maybe dont kill yourself? I dunno.
Like I said earlier, jealous you even made it this far.
>>768085157
When you died make a new thread please so we know ok?
>>768085157
By the way while we'te at it, I don't get why all the suiciders waste their life that way, you could take an asshole like logan paul with you and people would remember you
>>768085598
shit thats a good idea. shoot up some wigger and then shoot myself
>>768085699
You pretty much have to now
very low chance OP actually dies from this
>>768085827
Now we wait on OP to deliver
>>768086078
im not op. just suicidal tard like op
>>768073877
LD50 in mice is 190 mg/kg
cya tomorrow OP
>>768085699
Honestly that's what I'd do if I were to kill myself, make the world a little bit of a better place by killing a dumb asshole. And there's enough dumb assholes to choose from.
>>768073877
RIP man. From another semi socially inept loser (but very attractive).
Just buy a tank of helium
~
>>768086177
Yah this would just be excruciatingly uncomfortable.
I wish I had a gun and wasnt afraid of heights :(
>>768079100
Gril here, you aren't that bad looking my dude. I hope you stick around. Just exercise a bit everyday. Drink a lot of tea and no sugary soda etc.
>>768079100
>>768086519
tits or gtfo
>>768086177
Holy fuck if that's true lol OP would have to eat close to 475 of his pills to get that dose. He's at what, 9 mg/kg right now?
>autism
>>768084573
Crust within pepeRonis man.
>>768085003
I have no friends ans my arents r divorced sincere I was little, ants I justice tuned 18 a few mnths.ago ad ahve nothing goings-on 4 me. No jobs, no life, only 4chan.if I wasn't waste of space I'd be happierr.
I'm still trip ing balls outher e and still numb w Chesst pains. Will attentin,whore recently tomorrow I think. I'll probably be backe with tits and timestap 2 sohw how sorry I a.m to disappointe.dwith another fail attepmpt to take m own lif e
Sorry guys i. Faield. RE ally bad this time. Net time it won't happened agin. I ll come plelte it next time.
>>768085468
>>768085598
I lose my cigarette packed. I am going 2 thw stiore 2 get anothe RE 1. Will see u guys tomorrow whenev I'm sobere d up a little quite a bit actually
fuck me nose ia running now as I'm all sweaety.i needd a shower bad I think i wilLego 4 Acold showr now I fell down the steps lik e a big bag of aaSholes fuck
>>768085699
I don't wnat 2 shoot or kill ed anything but mself. Because Im worth less than ever 1 else look at me im mediate mediocre trash, a walking gabrage fire. Iam op. Fuckinh looka art me
I'm pathetic i cannot ever an hero properly or type right ans im a fat unimportand faggpt. Look at me, the attention clown e whose comeing down from his a utility utism med induce high. I can never do a NY thing RI ght.even kill my worth less ads ass.
>>768086043
bellieve me i am just as disappointe.dwith the result ad you area
>>768086177
Fuck thank you anyway s but term fuck fuck you faggodt
>>768086231
Hy wshould i kil l some1 else when i cant ever.n kill my self fuckerds I'm about 2 pass out i.m going 2 bed 4 RE al thistime. I can't stand awaken anylong RE. Fuck this shit fuck disgraceful autocorreckted trash
>>768086442
Ur lucky baster, I only want to look like somethin g Metter that wjati am now. Op has the lowest self e stee.m and no 1 insults him itt
>>768086519
I showed my facee post your breastsu bitch i m ugliest as fk
God, why is everybody so useless nowadays?
Pick something useful and then become as good at it as you can. And then become better. There's your purpose. And there's your worth, because now you have a skill others don't have, so you're actually useful to the world, and the world will appreciate that.
Rip OP
>>768086738
Things can get better, really all you gotta do is try. Sounds easy, which it's not.. but it gets better if you do.. doesn't happen overnight .. this is coming from a formerly depressed loser who would sleep all day and take a shower every two weeks, and got up only to eat.
I love you OP pls dont be sad
>>768086667
>>768086667
>>768088233
here is better res now kys neckbeard
source https://twitter.com/cockkii/status/950871729232072708
>>768086674
Tines timed to start saving themd up i guest.
OP will actually lurk RE ans trying to sleep thsk Tim arundel l msry i didn't repsceppect the dub s earlyeier. I will make thsi m LA Str post 2bnight.
>>768086860
I'm gd At programming but i don't rally like enjoy it enough an d i can t .m.ake anything usefuln. In only C because Im a failure atm emory mgmt.mnt so fjord off faggos.
>>768087098
I try and tyr and tyr but getting bowhere on the end. In the end, it's doesn't rally matter.lmao
>>768087155
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>>768088487
Thanks qtpi nicetits
>>768085157
Nope.
OP's bitch ass is still alive.
>>768073877
Just came out of a funeral.
The mood is right.
Godspeed anon
Dude, dont try do killyouself, its stupid as hell. Exercise, learn something new, learn how to play some instrument, find something to enjoy youself, fuck everybody else, you should be more important for youself, do what you like!
>>768073877
been here all night with ya /b/uddy, we all shit people, but at least we got each others backs
>>768074656
>MFW log guy is actually trying to save an anon
One more cup of coffee for the road
Looking out ya buddy
>>768073877
Prolly just be severely brain damaged if it doesn't kill u. So enjoy being a cabbage. In the next life I recc you choose a more effective/efficient method. See you there fam.
>>768091129
>>768092193
>>768092761
OP here coming down from my ritalin high. I'm sorry for acting so autistic, this was even a bit much for 4chan's Random board IMHO. I'm definitely still feeling it and I'm extremely disconnected from the physical world around me (or so it would seem to me) but the mental side of things is looking a little bit more clear and reasonable, despite being somewhat clouded (so much so that I'll definitely be taking a day off from work/school. It
seems to have mostly cleared up since an hour ago. I still want to anhero, but quietly and peacefully and not like this begging for attention on /b/. Even in that state I was in I saw how much I really do need to seek some sort of professional help.
Last night wasn't fun at all, zero out of ten, would not recrecommend to a friend. If anyone here wants to off themselves, don't try to do it with Methlyphenidate, and I'm saying this as someone who wants to be dead and cares little about how this end goal is reached. And just for the record, I tried to sleep but I was totally unable to do so, and I don't don't know if I'll be able to tonight either. I've been using the drawing keyboard while I was really high and that's why my typing was so damn sloppy and all over the place like that. I'll often use this keyboard when I'm sober because of how fast and nice to use that is, but it was really getting on my nerves when I was high.
So to wrap things up, I'm sorry for acting the way that I did, and I'd also like to apologize for leading anyone on in either direction. This isn't like me at all to apologize for the things I've done wrong on the few occasions that I have abused prescription drugs, because frankly I'm an irresponsible jackass when it comes down to owning my own bad behaviors when l'm under the influence of controlled substances.
>>768095094
Maybe it fixed me. I feel a little bit better emotionally. My optimism has returned. I think I might spend some time cleaning up my home today.
Op buy cyanide pills
Also my phone is at like 3% as a result of my all- night shitposting party, so I'll be gone for a while until it charges up a little bit. I will be back ITT later if it's still up at that point in time. Thank you all again for being so supportive in my time of stress and anxiety and misery.
I might sound like I'm being a bit dramatic but the toitet of the internet has been more kind and welcoming and helpful for venting my Frustrations than my own friends and family have been to me . Thank you all, kind Anons of /b/ . I want to spend this day doing things to better myself. I think that I'll start by cleaning my bedroom. I'll consider uploading images of my progression in this first step towards a healthier and more dignified existence. I don't know why right now at this moment enough to say what I have truly learned from this but I feel like this was a good experience to have had.
Just thought I'd share this with you all. Maybe someone will be able to stop themselves from repeating my same super duper autistic, embarrassing, and painful stunt that I just decided to pull one night.
Like & Subscribe if you found this video tutorial on how not to behave useful to you in any way, and be sure to share it with a friend and/or family member. Thank you very much and I'll see you all next time.
>>768095864
Yep, good feels all around. I suppose the meds really do work as advertised. OP really has to go now because his phone's are 1% now.
>>768095330
Why are you programming in C, you retard? Get into Python, backend/webdev or frontend with JS6 or both. Make webapps/sites. That shit is fun. Or you can try out some electronics by getting Arduino and use C to prgram it. House automation and shit. Or get raspberry pi and do similar stuff with Python. There's years of fun with this shit if you're into programming. You could play games like Overwatch. You got time to improve yourself by reading literature, books, etc. How can one get bored of this life at your age without some severe medical conditions? Hell, there's a streamer on twitch tv who is basically with half hands and legs playing all kinds of video games...
You dead yet OP?
>>768097353
Retards are anons who didn't know C.
Python is not a bad language, but, C is lot more powerfull. You can do anything on C. And with a better response, speed and memory usage than other languages.
