ADDICT THREAD
I was heavily addicted to xanax for about 2 years. At my worst, I was using about to 6 to 8 mg of xanax daily. It was getting out of hand, as I was a bartard.
I would slur my words all the time, and I would forget conversations I was actively having.
Tell me some of your addiction stories, /b/
>>752277270
I also had a seizure because I ran out of pills. My dealer was low and I withdrew cold turkey. I almost died.
But I kept taking xanax for a year afterwards.
>>752277270
>>752277270
>heavily addicted
>>752277270
>out of hand
>>752277270
>addiction
>>752277270
>conversations
Going to see a shrink this coming week to deal with growing substance abuse problems. Git addicted to stimulents then fucked with RC stims (hexen, a-pvp/php) and wtarted smoking them. Felt like a fucking God for thirty minutes at a time, but needed benzos to deal with comedown. Almost lost my job, snd it definitely strained my marriage. Admitting you have a problem is the hardest part. So good on you, anon. There are a lot of functional addicts, but as I fight urges to go down that path again, I'm just lying here telking myself that drugs didn't really mske me hapoy, and that the brief euphoria wasn't worth feeling like shit after. You and I will probably both fuck up, but nursing an addiction is a shitty thing to do to yourself. So try to stay clean, for your sake.
I would get blacked out drinking and taking God knows how much xanax.
At the same time, I really loved taking bars and I crave taking them again
>>752277270
You should seek professional help. You probably need it. Drugs are fun, until they're not.
>>752277958
Drinking on benzos is very dangerous, but you knew that, right?
>>752277958
Doing this can kill you dude. For your sake and for the people around you, I would suggest you go to rehab for xanax addiction.
>>752277270
quit smoking bud yestoday after 6 years, 4 straight. pre intense mood swings might neck myself
I used to have a pretty bad bar addiction myself. I was on them for 9 years. Was prescribed though
It destroyed my memory though
>>752278261
Good job. You have a tough road ahead of you. You might want to visit /r/leaves for support. Enjoy the fucked-up dreams...once you are able to sleep, that is.
>>752278471
What happened?
>>752278654
I was taking them for anxiety I started about 11 years ago now. I was using them safely for a while.
I started to go through tough times and I would use xanax to get through it. Bars would blur my pain and I would take them like crazy. I would never leave the house, I would just get barred out and spend what little money I had on more bars.
The only "real" addiction I ever had was on light opioids, tilidin and tramadol. I once was heavily addicted to MDMA though, even sold a lot of my shit for it. So fucking stupid. Basically I'm polytox and just always have to take something to feel even remotely good. Usually it's weed, but since money has been low I've been drinking alot the last few months. Eh, whatever.
>>752279086
Have you tried meditation? I can't relax without weed, but I can when ai meditate. Look up "mindfulness" on YouTube.
>>752278997
Yep, that's addiction, How did you beat it?
>>752277270
How to quit weed and is it really that bad of an addiction? Smoking straight for 3 years now sort of find it hard to look forward to things otherthan seshing
>>752279579
legit the hottest thing ive seen in weeks
>>752278577
thanks mate, seems like a good sub
>>752279661
I was barely scraping by for money, doing odd jobs while blacked out on xanax. A lot of landscaping work and such.
I finally injured myself on one job and I was out of work. But I continued to use bars as a crutch. I finally was involutarily admitted to a hospital for xanax addiction, and I started to taper off.
>>752279755
www.reddit.com/r/leaves
I am a ginormous pothead, but promised my wife I will stop until it's legal and I have a job where ai can smoke up. The waiting is, as Tom Petty said, the hardest part.
>>752279939
You are very welcoe, anon. Good luck.
>>752280098
What is rehab like? How do you deal with urges now?
LF xanax connect in denver
what it do nephew
I'm addicted to seeing people get executed. Theres something about heads beimy detaches from the body that makes me happy.
If you're mentally ill and you know it clap your hands
*clap clap
If you're mentally ill and you know it clap your hands
*clap clap
If you're mentally ill and you know know it, but you really don't want to show it, if you're mentally ill clap you're hands
*clap clap
u braindead yet op? ive met quite a few bartards. Is it worth going retarded?
>>752277270
cure is this
>>752279755
same boat dude, i noticed that ido nothing but fiend for a sesh. when alone il just smoke till im to fucked too move and then spend the next 15-20 thinkin about having another bong. also realised that i fucking lose my mind when im alone so im always hanging with mates leeching off of their lives because i dont have one. nor do i have dreams or pratical goals. this is fucked bro. you stop smoking and your life just flips and you realise its a fucking mess now theres fucking problems every 2 seconds and im to tired and angry to deal with em. what do? kms
>>752279760
very decent face, nice dark hair
pretty solid 7/10
>>752280278
Rehab is terrible, especially withdrawing from benzos. Worst withdraws ever, worse than opioids I hear.
It took me a long time to taper off but my memory for a few years is gone. People in my life don't talk to me anymore because of things I did while blacked out on xanax.
>Be Me
>Get job at a major software company n Redmond
>Start drinking and partying. Make 150-200K= per year
>Party party join us join us.
>Hey, anon, have you ever tried coke?
>No, and why not?
>Develop 100-500 a night coke habit.
>My boss was my dealer
>Lots of hookers and blow for years.
>Put 28000 US on the company card. Hookers and blow.
>Boss always approves this.
>Boss got fired day before approval.
>Have to pay it back.
>Would do it again.
i was 16 and was absolute edge city i thought it was cool to do drugs and drink and smoke i never have ever liked smoking cigarettes but i did it every day to act like i was a badass i was in my room one summer night and took my moms vicodin (id taken her meds before but this was when it really kicked in) take 2 and get the bright idea to snort one i break a pill up with my hands and push my thumb on it and snort it and i felt something in my head jerk and threw my head back on my bed and was in pain and then after that night i wanted to do it again i started doing it as often as i could trying to not get caught but i got greedy and i got caught my mom locked her meds in a box so i stole money and bought pills off people i knew then 3 years later after so much crazyness i get kicked out of the house for being a drug user i got really sad because my family left me i graduated high school thankfully but i stole a lot when i got kicked out i started doing harder stuff i was up to smoking crack then i got arrested for theft (i robbed a dollar general with a box cutter) and i went to prison for 4 years and i got cleaned i still want drugs but i know i can’t i get a weird feeling now and then like i’m sick i vomit and jerk my head back i wish it would go away i regret many things and the biggest regret is that one night
>>752280509
Don't kill yourself. Just live your life. Smoke weed if you have to, but cut back. Don't let the drugs control you. That's when it starts to get out of hand.
>>752280430
youre not mentally ill because of watching beheadings, youre mentally ill because of double spacing
>>752280763
You can't chanfe the past, anon. You can chart a better course for yourself in the future. Be kind to ourself and forgive yourself. Almost everybody uses drugs to cope on some level. For a select few, it becomes a problem. You can beat it.
>>752279579
fuck meditation. life hack....switch to herb. oils, vape pens, actual green bud, etc...so easy, so cheap, so healthy, and it's satisfies the need to be high. ... especially after you get over having the heavy narcotic effects of xanax etc...but soon the weed buzz 3 or 4 times a day will be the high life you were seeking. the permanent buzz...i promise.
weed has been my worst addiction been a month since i've smoked any and i've been irritable and self destructive it's not supposed to be addicting though
>>752280636
Hope you are healing, anon. If they won't forgive you, forgive yourself. It's important.
>>752281209
do you feel not normal but surreal like reality is different and feel like time goes faster ?
>>752281209
It's a psychological dependence. Some drugs are probe to abuse because taking them makes you want to take more of them. Coke, for instance.
>>752281209
took me 3 months to not care about weed after quiting. all i could do is think about was smoking/growing/dealing was tourture
>>752281209
Clear your mental state. Stop putting weed at the top of your favorite things list.
>>752277270
Opiates and heroin specifically.
>>8 years ago I had an accident.
>>Did a ct and an MRI, CT picked up a mass on my kidney.
>> It was cancer
>>Did radiation and chemo, the cancer was in remission after about a year.
>>Couldn't stop taking Fentanyl or Hydrocodone because I'd last for about 2 weeks and the pain would not be tolerable.
>>Went to Colorado in 2013 and got a medical card, was totally off opiates for 8 months while I was there.
>>Come back to Texas, get busted for a 1/2 oz and no previous record. Do 6 mo at TDCJ.
>>Cant find a job. Hopelessness and started taking Hydrocodone while I was in prison hospital in Palistine TX.
>>Got out, cant find non physical work. Dr. cuts me off 3 months out of prison because the PO mandated that I go to doctor every week if I wanted pills.
>>Decide to try heroin. On the run from Texas and moved back to Colorado.
>>Detoxed off heroin but I cant live with myself. Fuck Texas.
>>752277270
I take 0.25 mg everyday to help me sleep
nothing compared to your example but I do too forget conversations I am actively having
>>752277270
I take Klonopin for anxiety daily - one time I tried to reduce the amount I was taking by like 25% and I about fell apart. How did you get of Xanax??
>>752281289
lucky you aren't dead or in prison. personally I'm close to 2 people who woke up in jail with serious, very very serious problems. Same pattern, woke up in jail with absolutely NO clue what they did to get there. charges, felonies, manslaughter, breaking and entering with deadly weapon, sex crimes, etc. horrific things that i think happened to otherwise normal people who fucked up by taking too much xanax and having some beers. insane. consider yourself blessed.
>>752281859
I tapered myself off slowly. Beforehand I stopped cold turkey and had a seizure.
I still have crazy impulses and think about xanax all the time
>>752281615
it may be the only thing on the list
Any DEXfags in the thread? I'm about two years on.
I've taken several breaks, each being somewhere between one and two months. Typically when I'm working at home, I only use it on Friday nights.
Once per week isn't bad, but I feel like I do it way more often when I'm at school.
I guess if I can binge and stop for a month without too many issues, then I shouldn't worry too much.
To be fair, I don't plan to ever leave this substance permanently. Alcohol isn't really my thing. Kinda just like dxm.
>>752281419
time goes the same but i don't feel normal
>>752281963
xanax will make a normal person do insane shit. Let's rob the corner store because fuck it, we're on xanax.
>>752281859
how much did you take daily?
I've been taking pregabalin. Wouldn't say I'm addicted but I could see myself getting addicted to that shit.
>>752277270
I was addicted to xans & kpins for about 4 months, literally everyday I would atleast take 3-6 xans a day or if it wasn't xans it was kpins but during those couple months my memory totally got fucked up, like I can't remember what I even did during those months of being on xans. I just remember key moments that happened during that time also throughout that whole time being on benzos I was servery depressed and actually seriously considered suicide, that was during the last month of taking benzos hardcore everyday but my question to you OP is how did benzos affect you after you quit, what is the main struggles you deal with after quitting?
>>752282449
My situation sounds a lot like yours, except it went on a bit longer. I've been clean for a bit now, but I still constantly think about xanax.
I really want to take it again, but I convince myself I shouldn't. And I don't actively seek it out or buy in bulk like I was. When I could take 4 bars a day, I would when I had them.
>>752282165
yep & shoot the people just like in GTA.....
person i know played GTA 24/7. got blasted on alcohol and bars, broke into neighbors house with a kitchen knife and a softball bat. he trashed the house, beat the dude, beat the wife, stole her panties at knife point...got beat up by cops....woke up FUBAR with no idea of the mountain of charges. his first thought was DUI or a bar fight.
>>752280509
Can relate to this alot man also leech off friends, think because I just never give a fuck about things I dont get much done.
>>752282764
wait till you are set with career to start smoking everyday more than 1 time a day. if you only did it 1 time a day all the problems would go away for the most part. even 2 times a day would help you. sounds like u just stay ripped.
you could also just keep staying ripped and eventually you will just stop because you will be sick of it. even the mental addiction will fade because it's high is no longer high...
>>752280636
blackout stories anyone?
I went on omegle after eating 4mg xans and some clons and woke up to explicit conversations with a couple girls, a dude and a whole lot of nude pics
>>752281522
Did you ever go back to growing selling or smoking after?
>>752280278
rehab is boring as all fuck. hooooly shit is it boring.
I'm just wondering how you all get drugs so readily. Friends, just wondering the street, clubs etc? I'm really curious. Right now I'm getting 60, 2mg of Klonipin a month but I hear it doesn't even compare to Xanax. Can't do dr-shopping anymore 'cause of damn networks they have!
>>752283514
darknet or street connects
>>752280430
Jesus you are a cringemaster of a faggot. Watching beheadings does not make you mentally ill. It’s natural for powerless gimps to revel in the display of someone else’s power. It’s a way to live vicariously and pretend you’re edgy and badass when you are just a friendless pussy posting the gayest fucking shit. Clap your hands? You sad normie faggot trying to act alienated.
Please give some xanax to the guy in the next thread, he has a broken toe
>>752283514
found a good dealer through friends who has provided me everything over the years
>>752283594
>>752283633
Unfortunately I don't hang with those that do that sort of thing. I use to be more social. As far as just some stranger on the street; I saw a documentary where some busta' was selling fake molly. Just gonna have to take you'all advice and risk it.
>>752283830
i wouldn't suggest random drugs from the street idk maybe find a party with someone selling there
>>752282718
I won't even lie to you man but that was during my sr year of hs and that shit sucked man, I went sober during jan this year and I did pretty well I stopped taking xans all together but cigs was pretty much the main lifeline to quit my xan addiction, but during july I got ahold of some extra dough and bought about 30 xans at 3$ a pop so it wasn't a bad deal at all, I took them all during the rest of july and I honestly didn't need the craving for them. Also I should mention that when I went cold turkey I experienced cocaine for the first time and it kinda helped me quit xans I've done a lot since then but I would always do it on the weekends so I was kinda restricting myself on what not to do. But anyways I don't do coke anymore because that shit will literally kill you but yeah my friends kinda helped me quit also by saying that if I didn't quit the drugs I was doing they would abandon me and never talk to me again so I was pretty much did it for them even though they probably don't know it but hey fuck it man. My mental state is pretty much fucked I really really want to stop smoking weed but I can't it's literally what keeps me going at this point, I'm keeping up my grades but I don't know how longer I could hold it up.... fuck drugs
>>752277270
Most you were at was 6-8mg daily? I know people who push 14-16 and it's actually kind of disturbing to see them take like 3-4 bars at once then another an hour later, then another an hour later...
anyone have a homemade date rape recipe?
My girls agreed to let me sedate and rape her.
>inb4 trolls
>>752284271
try drinking bleach
>>752284353
you sound jelly faggot
>>752284353
I bet a single xanax crushed up in a strong cocktail or two would black her out in less than an hour. Silly girls can't handle drugs
>>752277270
Just recently had alcohol withdrawals so bad i sincerely thought i was going to die. Most definetly a case of the DTs. Really concerned i would have a seizure, and alcohol withdrawal seizures are notoriously deadly. I was on such an intense month long bender that it took 10 hours from me being shitfaced drunk to me nearly dying from alcohol withdrawal
>>752284558
thats what i have been thinking.
2mg of xanax + 1 glass of wine and ill be balls deep in no time
i am having trouble finding a connect in denver.
just moved
looking for a homemade drink recipe until i find a guy
>>752284639
I want to hear more about this.
I was on klonopin for 10 years after discharged from marine crops - I'm pretty confident I permanently fucked my brain up. I admitted my self to the VA to get off of them.. My heart raced for 3 months straight, No sleep for 3 months straight, extreme hunger, hands shook.. It took about a year for the withdrawal to go away but my brain still feels fried 5 years later. Benzo withdrawal is fuckign hell.
>>752284639
Alcohol withdrawal is awful and gets worse and worse each time you go through it.
>>752277270
OP i got one xanex 2mg to try, will I feel anything from this? or should I wait till I have more to do it with
>>752280509
Kill yourself for being so petty over a pathetic drug you literally cannot physically be dependant on
>>752284639
>Just recently had alcohol withdrawals so bad i sincerely thought i was going to die.
dude. seriously. go get help.
those alcohol withdrawls will kill you.
>>752284639
i don't believe it i drink everyday but when i run out of money i can simply wait until payday
>>752284833
What do you want to know
>>752284877
Checked. And I'm aware. I never had withdrawals like that so it was especially terrifying. I slowly weaned myself off alcohol over the course of about 10 days by drinking beer. After that i went 2 days no withdrawal symptoms. Then i was back to drinking hard again
>>752285072
You are naive on the subject then.... try drinking every day for like 5 years then drinking ~1.5 liters a day for a month straight. See how your body reacts
>>752280430
Most those videos seem fake..
The whole Jihadi John series was fake as fuck, filmed on a green screen, they ahowed right before they slice the head of then cut to straight after with the dismembered head laying on top of the body. If it was a real terrorist surely they would show all the gore and not be all PG-13 about it.
>>752284530
lol mad jelly you landed some pill fiend that agreed to let you fuck her for drugs. stop trying to act like you're some kinda fucking sexual deviant, faggot.
>>752285072
yeah. that won't last very long...
>>752281713
Fuckin hell man, what a bunch of bullshit - its like you were set up to fail. Just do the best you can man...
lol you have it all wrong
>she dont like anal
niggah love giving anal
i landed someone willing to let me ram her silly
>as long as it dosent hurt
>it wont cause shes unconscious
>>752285276
if i had an unlimited supply of money i would but i've binge drank until i ended up in hospital and no real withdrawals
>>752285072
I remember being 22 years old. I guess either you're something special kid or all the alcohol issue literature out there is make believe
>>752285159
I'm just like you /b/ro. I started with hard liquor and of course a bender was the result. I've weened myself and been to a detox place many times. I say it's much gentler than bezo withdrawal. Even a delicious breakfast like this is not appetizing at first!
>>752285679
26 been drinking since i was 16 heavily drinking since around 20 but nice try
>>752277270
i thought you died lil peep
>>752285159
Things like this
>>752285159
Looking to compare to my experiences.
I took a break from beer starting this weekend, as I tend to drink a few quarts each evening and I got sick of waking up mildly hung over each day. Saturday, shaky and anxious. Sunday anxious. Monday, fine but still haven't cleared the cognitive fog.
What you went through (and are doing) sounds like me, magnified by a bunch.
Over the past year very been taking xanax and Adderall more and more. I would do it at parties cause it's all part of the fun and no one would question it...but over time I've heard my friends talk about me , as if I'm "addicted" or anything like that l. I have certain thought that are awful and sick , when I take drugs or drink allot of alcohol it helps me forget those problems , I even feel like the thoughts are gone for a short amount of time. They don't understand it...I can't tell them my thoughts.
>>752277861
rip apvp
>>752285609
You dont get it you retard. Everybody can drink until they are fucked up. I used to drink so hard and before i call it a night id drink a glass of water and wake up feeling like a million bucks. I never had legitimate withdrawal symptoms until i was 27. When youre young your body can handle it, and more importantly your body isn't accustomed to it. Stfu or be ready to eat a lot of crow real fast. You can keep on acting like it won't happen... but it will.
Ive gone through some serious shit in my days. Really awful shit. DTs was the worst. It was an 8 hour long living fucking nightmare
>>752285159
>Then i was back to drinking hard again
Your health won't get better until you stop all together.
You described symptoms of a very dangerous condition.
If you don't stop you likely will either die or suffer from a life changing seizure.
Please don't quit cold turkey either.
You need to see a doctor to help you live.
as stupid as it sounds ive been addicted to cutting myself
legit been saying to myself for 3 years im gonna stop soon and never do, i cant go without
i steal razor blades if i see them,i hide them everywhere
tried to do some shit like working out to get hooked on that n the feeling wasn't the same
can't go 2 days without cutting or im a fucking mess its disgusting to me
>>752277270
I've gone through phases...I was also addicted to benzos and atypical antipsychotics for a year. I was addicted to crystal meth for about a year. Also went through an Adderall phase. Basically I just got addicted to whatever was easily available at the time.
>>752286091
sounds like you just can't handle your liquor we aren't even talking about drinking we are talking about withdrawals
>>752286091
hangovers aren't withdrawals thought i'd add that too
>>752277270
was addicted to weed for 5 years. Shiet was harder to give up than cigarettes. I was growing and selling. How I quit ? I smoked 4 joints and 5 cigarettes in a row, drank 3 beers and trust me, it gave me the worst badtrip I ever had. Been free for 5 months and dont think about smoking ever since
>>752285983
You kind of sound like me as I use to self-medicate. I'm sure you've heard that before and it's true. I would be in hospital withdrawaling so I won't die, but all the time I'm just remembering how easy it is to escape and remember the good times I had, them when I got out just went back to using. Hard to shake that thought and makes you see why a former addict can relaps even after years of being clean.
>>752285928
Oh no it is worse than that. There were days where I would get shakes and anxiety.
This came out of nowhere. During the bender I was only eating maybe once every other day. Almost all of my calories were whiskey.
I started getting the shakes real bad. Like I couldnt even unlock my phone despite at least 30+ attempts (including lockouts). I thought something was up and thought maybe it was something blood sugar related because I hadn't been eating so I ate. Then it got real bad. This sensation in my head. With my eyes. I can't even describe it. It kept on feeling like my eyes were gonna roll back into my head and there was this uncomfortable feeling in my temples and behind my eyes. I would feel like something was gonna happen idfk what and i would start slapping the shit out of my face and it would go away. I would go from shivering cold to literally dripping with sweat. People say that a lot but I mean like just got done running a mile type of sweat. My heart rate was all over the place. I physically couldnt breath deep enough and it was making me hyperventilate.
The worst part though is the characteristic fear and paranoia and impending sense of doom that comes with it. I took an elevator down to the hotel lobby to buy a beer and the sheer fucking terror the elevator gave me was absolutely remarkable in retrospect. Words fail me to describe how bizarrely fucking crazy you feel when experiencing this shit.
I still keep the bottlecap of the beer i bought from the lobby. I get the feeling that beer saved my life.
>>752285742
Benzo withdrawals are not even comparable. That's why they use benzos in alcohol rehab. They are very similar and the withdrawal symptoms can be similar. But benzo withdrawals are cupcake mode while alcohol withdrawals are a death sentence.
Thats why they get prescribed in alcohol rehab. Benzos are methadone to alcohols heroin
>>752277270
i have a friend curently on xanax.. he will sometimes pop 3 sticks (2mg bars) a night. 1 in the morning one mid day
>>752286518
>derp de derp.
That worked because it's not a proper addiction. Just psychological, and that can feel bad, but try adding physical(Like opiates/benzos) on top.
>>752286687
I just don't want my thoughts anymore . Like don't try to be a "good " person but these thoughts keep me up at night . It what I think about half the time. I hate to admit it but I'm worried about my mental health .
>>752286336
>you cant handle liquor.
I drank over a liter of liquor a day for 5 consecutive years. Let's stop acting like drinking is a penis size challenge. I could literally drink you to death effortlessly. This isn't a bro tier frat boy fucking xD handle your booze situation. This is a prison. A liter a day is like morning coffee. When I was really fucking going it was well over two liters a day.
It's not I can't handle liquor its than you are fucking clueless about how alcohol interacts with the human body. I remember thinking similar things to you guys.
If you have that mindset change it right fucking now or else you've already lost.
>>752286518
i smoked/drank more than that tonight and you know what? i want more of both
>>752280365
those preses look really nice
>>752287141
>If you have that mindset change it right fucking now or else you've already lost.
this
>>752287141
idk from what i've seen you're just a pansy
>>752287463
(you)
>>752287141
I wonder if there's a discrete point in time where a habit tips over from controllable to not controllable, or if it's just a place you find yourself in after the fact.
>>752287141
Not the guy you're responding to, but I too have a very high tolerance and tbh it sucks! Cost a lot to get 'there' and fucks up your body badly. A fith, handle or whatever. been in commas many times, seizures, fall... I should be dead.
>>752287505
continues to be a pansy
>>752287563
I wondered that as well. Before that point in time when I was in my early twenties I would drink hard. Go out on a saturday pregame 5 shots, have 15+ at the bar. beer when you get home. But there would be days I would distinctly say no. No drinking. It was almost always social.
I think there is a point where you just start drinking more to be drunk and that is where you lose control. It's so fuzzy and grey it is hard to say there is a line that is crossed. The easiest one is no drinking alone. I used to follow that rule and still go out 4-5 nights a week and get fucked up with friends but once you are drinking alone it is a very quick downward spiral
>>752287864
continues to expose his age and cluelessness
>>752283514
Idk fam that’s a substantial amount of klonopin. I tapered off of 2x 0.5 mg/ day after 3 years and it was horrible and withdrawal lasted for 6 months.
>>752287623
I know there are better things out there, but it's hard to get opiates and likely more dangerous to obtain. Plus, doesn't it eat up or mind or some shit?
>>752287912
you just over exaggerate the withdrawals i've seen people drink my whole life and you know what? they can stop
>>752284751
try etizolam very easy to blackout on
>>752287141
>Let's stop acting like drinking is a penis size challenge.
> I could literally drink you to death effortlessly.
pick one you massive cunt. i hope you live a long miserable life
>>752286215
I haven’t done it in 6 years but I get it. During klonopin withdrawal I started thinking about it again. Still thinking about it but haven’t caved yet.
>>752288164
..................
I figured you are trolling. Apparently you are serious. Your idiocy is now confirmed. Bro do some research before spewing bullshit out of your mouth for once. I've seen people drink my whole life too. I can stop drinking and I have. But if you stop wrong. You stop at a bad time. Your body is too used to it. You very easily can die. Severe alcohol withdrawals without treatment is ~1/4 fatality. That is an obnoxiously high ratio compared to diseases even normally considered fatal.
>>752288350
Im not treating that in the same way he is though. I am talking about how dangerous alcohol is and he is all le bro your a pussy hahahaha you pansy handle your liquor.
He completely misunderstands the depths of alcoholism. I didnt say that as an ego boost for me because there is no pride in that. I almost fucking died multiple times to that shit. Quit missing the point
>>752287877
I think "no drinking alone" is one of those rules like "only on the weekends" that some people swear by, but might also be a flimsy excuse in some circumstances - like people who are certain that they are the first truly responsible user of ______ drug, because they have a System for moderating it.
I think I read something in a Richard Feynman book where he was having a lot of fun with girls and drinking until one day he had an urge to drink out of nowhere, so he never had one again.
I take a break (days, sometimes weeks) from drinking whenever it becomes a chore or obligation rather than a pleasure. I don't stop when it becomes a routine.
I'm a fuckton dumber than Feynman maybe.
I just don't want to be on the other side of the line with no easy way to get back.
The rest of this thread makes me glad I decided never to touch benzos again after realizing they could instantly make a hangover go away or a bad day not matter.
>>752288513
le bro stop being a pussy
>>752288513
multiple times is 3+ you beat the odds that many times?
>>752288527
It is a bullshit like but I did say its the easy one. You should probably have boundaries long before drinking alone. And honestly if you are alone and order some pizza and have a couple beers and watch sports thats probably fine compared to going out and binge drinking. There is no solid certain line.
I honestly think in retrospect to my life where I should have drawn the line is never once drink on consecutive days. It would be almost impossible to fall to the drug if you maintain that. I feel as though alcohol is just an uncontrollable motion for some people though. That it doesn't matter where your line in the sand is our how badly you want to adhere to it. It can defeat you.
>>752288513
>>752288513
>Im not treating that in the same way he is though.
>Im treating that in the same way he is though.
don't you feel better now
>>752288164
Bait
>>752288755
Thats a 12% chance assuming 1/4... is that really so remarkable that you dont believe it? Christ just look shit up online you dumbass. Look up alcohol statistics. Oh bro you saw your dad drink a 6 pack his whole life apparently alcohol withdrawals are a lie...
>>752288886
>>752287993
Sounds great I know. For some it gives them a relaxed feeling, but for me it just makes me sleepy. Very over-rated, for me that is. Maybe benzs just aren't my thing, we'll see after I try xanax in high doses.
>>752288755
Every single time I got the DTs I would drink. I very easily could have died. Anytime I felt like I was going to I would drink and take a biotin pill. I didn't beat the odds I surrendered to my addiction every single time it happened. I still got the DTs for hours after that but there is absolutely no doubt that the drinks helped keep me alive right then and there
>>752289002
so you're saying multiple was exactly 3 times?
>>752289384
>>752289002
>>752289355
We're different posters read the other reply. I even originally said in another DT post that I drank when I was experiencing them. That certainly mitigates the death risk because well.... you get alcohol back into your system. They were still fucking awful. The worst DTs I had give me worse ptsd than afghanistan
>>752289355
>>752289355
>Every single time I got the DTs I would drink.
> I very easily could have died.
Please Jah kill this imbecile
>>752288205
>etizolam
where do i get that??
>>752289688
You are a fucking clueless idiot. Stop responding. I had a beer and had DTs for 8 hours after the fact. You wanted an explanation for how someone could possibly in all the history of the world survive a low chance situation how it could ever happen I said I bet the fact I drank when it happened is a mitigating factor. If you doubt it was a very legitimately deadly situation then just stfu. I know you are just stirring the pot but there are others here that are very not trolling
>When it occurs, it lasts for up to two to three days. Alcohol is one of the most dangerous drugs from which to withdraw. Mortality without treatment is between 15% and 40%.
>>752277270
>>752290414
I don't frequent /b/ but I see this fucking guy here every time I have for like a year straight at least. What's the deal? Why do you guys care about this dude
I just wish it were as easy to get acid as it is to get far more dangerous things.
>>752280751
Your lucky anon that sounds awesome.
>>752290142
>>752290142
jfc...you are the weakest addictfag. "not a dick contest, but i'm a the King of Addicts." I hope you live forever in your poorfag existence
>>752290891
k
>>752277270
>tfw smoke weed
>no one at work ever notices because I don't do it while I work or shortly before
>have fun with friends at house and dipshit around, maybe go on walk
>literally no adverse affects to my lifestyle
>only people who know,I smoke, I've told
Hard drugs are shit, even right after you start people notice changes and lots of negative behaviors and effects start.
I've been addicted to stimulants for 4-5yrs now, it really sucks not being able to stay off them. I'm gonna try and get sober again so I can finish school and be good for Christmas but I dunno. I have 50 etzis, 2g of ethylphenidate, oz of weed, and plenty of coke.
>>752291277
youd be very surprised how many people know you smoke weed and dont give a shit and youd also be very surprised how many people do very hard drugs and you have no idea
I'm currently addicted to adderall, I'll make a buy and then use >100 mg per day for 2-3 days in a row. I keep telling myself that I will go cold turkey once winter break hits but I'm starting to doubt myself
>>752277861
how did you kick the hexen?
i went from being fairly in control of my different drug habits to smoking 10gs in 2 months and not even thinking of another drug apart from pot for come downs.
First weekend without it in 3 months and im stressing
i can use H once every 6 months or so, no problem but when it comes to smoking things i hit rock bottom quick.
im refusing to buy more now i hope it works but i have a feeling my addiction will be pushed onto something else.
>>752291398
Fuck man. Was it for the productivity or the high that you kept upping your dose?
>>752280763
The lack of punctuation makes this tale very riveting as if I was on coke myself
>>752277505
Shit when you say it like that it makes me feel like an alcoholic
>be me
>17
>in high school
>always had good grades, never really a bad kid, just never got caught
>heavy pot smoker, drinker, occasionally took pills. Nothin major
>offered cocaine once at work one night(worked at ghetto grocery store through high school and into college)
>ofuck.jpg
>always had wanted to try
>go to dairy cooler where we keep milk and eggs and cheeses and such
>guy busts down lines on top of case of milk
>sniff sniff
>feels fucking greatman
>get twacked out of 17yo mind
>finish night go home feeling accomplished somewhat
>’lol wow did coke how cool’
>fast forward few weeks later to buying Coke first time
>niggerfromschool.gif
>me and 2 coworkers of similar age all go in on blow,with never purchasing it before
>wtfdowedo.png
>call nigger he has blow
>delivers to ghetto grocery store
>it’s in two separate bags
>didn’t lnow better
>one bag was baking soda
>sofuckenmadman
>other bag was pure god damn Colombian bam bam
>wasn’t even mad was literally ok cuz coke was that good, plus we were that newb at it
>fast forward 7 years
>maintained healthy and steady cockayne habit
>become known as ‘cocaine anon’
>have good job making good money working away from home a month at a time, so clean out a month at a time
>come home to bend
>rail 8ball in a night
>lol heart attack
>ER visit stay in hospital over 3 days
>get out, do it again
>for two more years
>OD’d twice more
>years of cocaine and alcohol abuse have rendered my serotonin receptors into shit
>somehow not retarded
>snorted away 401k in a year after losing job to random drug test
>things looking up
>new job
>new girl
>clean for 3 months now
>god damn i miss cocaine
>>752292172
>god damn i miss cocaine
i know that feel.
>>752291790
I didn't realize until the end I had just read the worlds longest sentence
>>752292172
>>it’s in two separate bags
>>didn’t lnow better
>>one bag was baking soda
so wait. im confused.
did he scam you or was the baking soda for mixing with the other bag?
>>752292824
It was a ripoff, we only got 1/2 of the Coke we thought we were getting. But it was a blessing because our Little 17yo hearts would’ve busted
>>752290414
>>752277270
Gonna green text most of the details, but im kinda drunk so bear with me.
>be me working a regular job at a burrito place.
>start talking to some old friends while i'm still working there
>Start hanging out with them, and eventually start snorting meth
>Get addicted to it, but friend is unreliable at getting it, so eventually ask family member, but he's on it too.
>A bunch of shit happens but i eventually quit my job and start selling meth with him.
>Have basically a huge amount of meth that we can sell and smoke everyday because hookups.
>sell for about a year and a half before cops kick in door (They were just there because we failed to pay rent so they were evicting us for not paying rent, woke up with guns in my face though so they probably knew).
>cops are dymb and leave all paraphenilia in a box by the front door so a guy living in the house picks it up and takes off with it (we were left unattended)
>Never got charged with anything, but i quit for about a week after that. After about a week though smoked some more and a friends girlfriend ended up getting kidnapped because someone stole drugs from a guy and they thought it was her.
>Quit meth cold turkey the next day because it was too much
Well like i said im kinda drunk, so i probably told this story all fucked up, but it's all true
>>752277270
I've had pretty bad alcohol withdrawals 3 times in the past month and a half. Always say it won't happen again.
No sleep and a fever for 50 hours. Hot and cold hot and cold. Blanket on blanket off. Your body is on alert mode. The a\c turning on sends shocks through my body lol. (Yeah a/c it was 90 degrees on thanksgiving fuck me) and if you are lucky you dont get sleep paralysis.
Takes a whole episode of game of thrones to eat a banana. Your muscles take half a week to rehydrate. And it takes longer to screw that lightbulb back in your brain.
Lomg story short, I just moved back in with my parents. Don't drink in the morning kids.
>>752294284
>>752277270
did a lot of heroin, but didnt like the nod so much
was already a junkie, so decided to pick up meth to counteract the nod
fucking worked brilliantly and stayed at clost to peak high all day, but i dont need to tell you how retarded that was
now i dont feel any emotions. everything is just flat. its been 7 years since ive touched anything. dont even take painkillers
>>752277270
I drink until I black out every night and drink at lunch when I am at school. Still tell my self I am not an addict whenever I think about it. Once I start I cant stop. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
>>752277270
Meth ofor a year or two on a daily basis. Dont remember shit, dont need to. Havent done hard drugs in 2-3 years, dont really care either hard drugs are pretty much shit tier if synthetic anyway. Shrooms and weed and maybe someimes some booze is all that worked well
>>752294497
i dont get that, if you still have nothing to live for after sobering up for 5 years why not go back to trying things out recreationally.
i mean fuck if you cant feel happy after 5 years of being sober is being sober really worth it?
wouldn't it be better to try put barriers in for self restent with drugs but enough to not feel like killing yourself 365 days a year?
>>752294549
You that black guy from my old school. He'd whip out a 1.75 ml bottle and make me a mix drink in the computer lab lmao
>>752284035
yo ben whats up my guy
>>752278167
its not like, taking barbiturates and alcohol together. there are additive effects but nothing synergistic. i wouldnt say it is particularly dangerous to mix benzos and alcohol
>>752295089
....
please do your homework before stating something seriously irresponsible, if one of you're friends dies from your misinformation that's on you cunt.
>>752285159
What’s your drink preference, friend?
>>752280636
nah benzo w/d is a cakewalk compared to a real opiate w/d any day. easier, less painful, over quicker
what you may have heard is that benzo w/d (specifically xanax) is medically dangerous where opiate withdrawal is not, that is something people point out often. opiate withdrawal can't kill you, can't even harm you really (maybe get dehydrated) but withdrawal from alcohol or benzos, especially if the benzo is xanax, you can go into status epilepticus and die
>>752277270
I'm addicted to everything that will get my mind out of this depressive world
When i can get my hands on something i will take it
May it be lsd weed alcohol speed you name it
>>752294284
it's 9 am around here and i'm having my first drink of the day. i called in sick for work for a whole week just to drink. been drinking heavily for about 10 years and been smoking weed 25 years straight. last medical exam shows my liver and kidneys are fucked up. as if i didn't feel that myself. stopped drinking for 5 days straight about half a year ago. celebrated my 5 day sobriety with a bottle of wine. been back to drinking everyday since then.
>>752296603
>>752296603
as soon as i feel that first rush of alcohol entering my bloodstream i'm gone. nothing else matters. i eat about a meal a day. mostly fries and other junk. last 10 years of my life where mainly sitting at home. drinking. smoking. browsing /b/. i have a pretty fucked up mindset. i'm 45, btw.
>>752295250
go ask a pharmacist then, faggot
Started buying percs for fun. Percs ran dry so he sold me blues. Started buying more and more. Started buying kratom too. Mixed both. Tolerance got so high was doing 5 blues a day at times. Lost my job. Moved states. Quit cold turkey, 2 months of depression and fog. 0/10 would not do again. Probably spent 10k this year on that shit.
