Tell me your problems, /b/
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Tell me your problems, /b/
>>705968129
Got dumped completely out of the blue. She didnt really change or anything, just suddenly one night, she texts me to say that she no longer has feelings for me. I just lay in my bed and cried before finally falling asleep. That was two weeks ago today, and i am part way between moving on and missing her more than anything. Im really stressed out because of school, and really just all my life in general. I wonder what it would be like to just kill myself, but i always push out the thought. I know things always get better, but its hard to see currently. Im tired, stressed, sad, and lonely. I really needed to get that off my chest
>>705968129
I have not slept in 40 hours and still feel no desire to do so, i have consumed no more than 500 calories in that time as i also have no desire to eat.
>>705968129
I am LISW and LPCC and i come to 4chun to do the opposite of help people with their problems, confirmed no way you are in helping profession.
>>705968129
I want to go screaming down the hall naked, covered in blood and scream "trigger all niggers, dump the trump" for six hours. Everyday my insane boner grows harder. How fucked am I?
>>705968802
Try hermitting for awhile, find a hobby.
Chances are if she tries contacting you again it will just be because she wants something from you.
>>705969433
Turn off the screen in front of you, find some calming music on your phone, plug in some headphones, turn out all the lights, and just try lying down. Chances are you will either start feeling tired or hungry after a little while.
>>705968129
I get dizzy spells, my chest hurts a lot, I have bad anxiety which gives me rapid heartbeat or vice versa, and at this point, I either just want it to all stop or just die. The only option is to keep fighting till one of the two happens. Doctors got nothing and its like a magical money pot, I put money in, I get nothing out.
>>705970985
Did I mention I just want to die more and more. The dizzy spells come with confusion, so I can't even concentrate on my classes. At work I ignore them, my rapid heartbeat, and anxiety as long as I can, but I'm completely at the mercy of my body.
Its so beautiful.
>>705968129
I've got frustration from funneling my desires and wishes into a hobby hoping that one day i would bounce in the social ladder of peers and their peers.
after 9 years i have not progressed from where i started socially but i have gotten better at the craft, maybe even mastered it.
in those 9 years Ive encountered humiliation as well as hard truths, a bi-product. The times I tried to make it work with others in the field to increase my chances to move up were futile.
whats strange is that some of my desires came randomly and left field from what i would gain if i had success in my hobby, though they were very sparse and brief over these 9 years. I believe had i been successful, they would be frequent.
My friend, who has been a sloth and lacking in the arts, has been successful. I maybe envious, but only because his life seems more filled than mine, which is quite stagnant.
I am nearing in my 30s. My drive is still there but my chosen avenue feels like a dead end or im becoming less passionate about it. And thus i become sleepless because i just cant do nothing.
>>705970772
I might just see how long i can ride it out man i cant think at all. It's took me so long to think of a response.
>>705970985
The dizziness shit and anxiety i can relate to. You reckon you got a dissociative disorder? The mention of confusion makes me think that.
>>705970985
Tried weed?
Also, how are you in terms of eating habits?
Anything that causes you major stress?
Could it be hereditary?
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>>705968129
FUCKING NIGGERS
GO SUCK my flaccid autist cocklet
> GO KILL YOURSELF
ikr, if only I wasn't such a faggot
>Get smashed
>Sign up for tinder
>Start using it in general.
>Get some pretty hot matches tbh. Way out of my fuckin league.
>Terrified of talking to them.
>>705971848
> GO KILL YOURSELF
ikr, if only I wasn't such a faggot
Atleast we can relate
>>705971954
Repeat step one until 5 goes away
>>705972011
You're a faggot too?!
>>705972011
Nahh i wish women are fucking cunts
>>705972191
When you can't even click right
>>705971611
Not sure, I don't think so. I feel relatively intact as a person, not prone to violent mood swings. I do have a shitty history, so maybe. Dubs.
>>705971616
Smoked weed for years, slowly became a trigger. Had to smoke less and less and then started taking breaks, they got longer and longer, I wouldn't hit weed if someone paid me now, the risk is too high for a ridiculous panic attack. First bad dizzy spell I ever had was with weed.
My eating habits are alright. No regular meals at a given time, but I try to eat okay. I used to do the grapefruit thing, but I stopped after the dizzy spells. Tried it again awhile back, made them come back after a long hiatus, but I haven't had any in months.
Hereditary, maybe, my mother is a whack job, my father is also a whack job, Menieres disease runs on my fathers side. Major stress? I can never identify hugely stressful objects, I just try to deal with them. Stress does make it worse.
>>705971954
There is nothing a woman likes more than confidence, (or a BBC) so just do it faggot.
>>705971848
Need to get something off of your chest anon?
>>705971334
What is your hobby?
>>705972334
Do you though?
Do you?
>>705972279
Idk what you read but dissociation is just you slipping in and out of reality, like you're there but not there. If you have a dissociative disorder then you'll know what i mean, otherwise disregard it.
>>705972344
f.... fuck off psycho cunt
you genuinely creep me the fuck out
>>705972602
Not that nigger but what's creepy there?
I'm actively trying to stop drinking. I've developed a problem in the last two years and I don't like it. No advice I just needed to tell someone whose not in my social circle.
2 hours of 4 songs on auto play takes you places
>>705972591
I know what you mean anon. I know what you mean. I was thinking of dis-associative personality disorder. It can feel like I'm struggling to hang on to reality and whats going on around me. I try not to zone out but its hard.
>>705968129
Do you have a name, OP?
>>705972279
Found a link that might help
http://www.healthline.com/health/menieres-disease#Treatments3
>>705973000
0 trips. Nice.
I want to contribute to the thread but in all honesty, there are no "feels" to share. Longest relationship; eight months. Women who can say I truly loved them; two. I don't own my own house. I don't drive a fancy car. I don't have any debt.
I follow the same routine every day.
Wake up. Hit the snooze button no more than two times. Take a shower. Brush my teeth. Go to work. Come home. Chat with my room mates. Go to bed.
Now when I say, "go to bed," I don't mean fall asleep. I lie in my bed and stare at my fan. It has six one foot blades, 40 visible screws, two ball bearing chains with a total of 158 gold nubs, and one not quite dome shapped light fixture. It has five different speeds, two of which shake so viciously that i can not sleep when they are active. I stare.
I stare and I stare and I stare.
Sometimes I think.
Most of the time I don't.
I guess you could call it waiting. Waiting for what... I can't say. There are so many things I wish I could complain about and try to form a connection with someone here. But I cannot.
I stare.
I wait.
>>705973057
Why would you like to know that anon?
>>705973012
> It can feel like I'm struggling to hang on to reality and whats going on around me.
You got the same shit i have bro, headphones make it enjoyable. Drink coffee and sleeping well will help alleviate it.
In my experience this led to some schizo shit later down the line so watch out man idk if theyre related or not but.
>>705973207
Anon that was sorta cool to read. You should write something.
I'm a chef by trade and I suck at my job. Just got off work and I came here hoping to find a thread like this to vent. We have a decent location, really cool dining room, and more space and better equipment than some other kitchens in town. At the same time, we always have tickets running late, consistency issues, and our banquet service is really on point 45% of the time but completely disorganized 55% of the time. Most of these issues and more, I feel, revolve around me. If I'm late or don't get enough sleep or forget to purchase something we need, everything goes to shit. I love this life but my own flaws keep dragging me down. I can't keep working for years just to be mediocre. I want to be great at just this one thing.
>>705973207
Is that you Zach?
>>705973276
To see how you stack up to another pseudo-psychologist on /b/.
>>705973710
with not to
Go rape her mom or her best friend to get even.
>>705973379
Coffee makes things worse usually. Sleeping makes things better, but I can feel my heart pounding in my chest. At this point, I'd just rather it all stop or just stop living. I'm too competitive to stop moving, and there is no competition in suicide, so I guess I'm stuck.
"I won't let it win."
My right armpit feels stingy. This keeps happening on random occations. I don't eat fast food and grease everyday so let's rule those out.
>>705973476
I do write. It kills me.
>>705973621
Negative.
>>705973710
I'm just another anon on the edge of the abyss trying to see if I can help at least one person before it ends
>be 19
>been closing alone with my manager for the last month since there's not many employees where I work
>from 8 to 10 pm it's almost a ghost town with just me and my manager with really no work to do
>manager is in her late 20s maybe early 30s
>super chill and great person to hang out with
>when we run out of work wed just talk and talk and talk endlessly
>she's a 7/10 slightly chubby so I never really.sexualized her much
>but recently it's been feeling like she's been flirting with me
>shes pinched my butt while telling me to stop dozing off
>or start feeling my biceps when she "needs a strong lad to help her move something"
>and for the past 2 weeks she's been giving me really long bear hugs goodbye before we parted ways
>I could let the other shit go as me being an autistic but she flat out asked me out to dinner yesterday
>I freaked out and made up some bullshit about college to get out of it but I could see the dissapointment in her face
>how do I go about this without getting fired and or ruining our friendship?
>pic related she looks like this only younger and slimmer
>>705968129
>No job
>No money
>Went to school for "Its Fucking Nothing" paper
>Got a Ged level cetificate
>In debt
>Body breaks like paper so I can't do heavy lifting
Any advice around jobs that can give a higher chance that I may find employment in office space?
Dizzyfag here. I'm out. Later
>>705973876
Each to their own with what helps i guess. The heart thing was the same for me man it's worrying but it might be harmless (i say might because i've had a non-epileptic seizure before with the cause unknown to this day). I don't think there is a way to stop it, it'll get better, i don't feel my heart beating anymore but the dissociation thing is still with me, it's a godsend when you have a job but in college it made me want to kill myself everyday because i was failing so bad, just cause i was uncontrollably monging out.
"I won't let it win." Why the quotes? U creepin me out now bro. Thats what i used to say when the schizo stuuf was new
>>705974386
Be an apprentice in a trade like plumbing.
Moneys fucking great. No one's doing it because it requires a minimal about of manual labor and according to everyone with a liberal arts degree it's a job for peons. It'll toughen you up but it nowhere near as body intensive as lifting.
>>705974673
This guy knows it plumbing or joining is the way to go.
1/? Fan guy
I don't much like the cold. It's not heavy like heat. You don't feel the fists of Jack frost pumbling you, making you stronger, filling you with life. The cold lingers around you, seeping into your very being with stealth and cunning. Even nature despises that chilling menace. Sound is swallowed yet intensified in it's crispness. That is why it comes in the dark. No. I do not like the cold at all.
That is why I am warry whilst paroosing winter's "wonderland". For that is what the cold brings. Wonder. Always wondering how to stay warm. Always wondering when the snow will stop. Wondering, "if I go to sleep now, will I ever wake up?"
My room mates own a lovely home; cosey even. A nice slice of heaven tucked back in a safe coldasack where every person waves not out of friendship, but politeness. Their abode rests on five acres of land with trees guarding them like a platoon of steadfast sentinels. Some are old and proud while others are young and meek. A long driveway snakes it's way through the forest with little lamps to light up the night. The closest neighbors are a heartbeat away. Their home rests half way down the drive with a hop skip and a jump from the end of the street. Although, it does seem a lifetime apart when you need to cross through the woods. A steep incline and small ravine block the star crossed neighbors. You can always see their lights on though. Day or night, there is always a light on. The other neighbors house is a little farther away. Their kingdom is blocked by a lump of a hill playing pin cushion to nature's tall children. A well built tree-house rests near the top of the hill. Often I see the children inside battling monsters or exploring the unkown. The wind playfully tickles the trees causing them to laugh in ruffled tounges. Birds flutter in and out of hiding chirping here and there. Oh how I love all these things in spring, summer, and fall. But winter is different. The cold changes it all.
>>705968129
Who are you?
>>705974343
Apologie for lying, say you panicked, ask her out, have nice casual dinner, escort her home, do nothing sexual unless she heavily implies it.
>>705968129
I am cursed. That is my problem. If u want - i can tell you why i think so.
>>705975011
2/?
The snow started while I was sleeping. It always gets the jump on you. Quietly sneaking down from the sky smother anything in it's cold embrace. I awoke not to a chime of an alarm clock but a steady throbing of numbness crawling up my leg. Three blankets were all for naught it seemed. A hot shower stung my body as the cold was beaten for a moment. I dressed in warm atire and truged through shin deep snow to my truck. Flakes of snow clung to my jacket and face. A problem faced me when I reached my desired location. If I want to start the truck I need to open the door. If I open the door snow will fall inside. If I wipe the snow away with my brush the problem is solved...but I need to open the door to get the brush. "I'm sorry leather jacket." I tuck my hand into my sleeve as best I could and cleared the window and door as best I could. A small victory was had after starting the truck and retrieving my brush. Many minutes passed as I swated the snow from my vehicle, all the while my exposed hands becoming painfully sanguine in color. With a quick inspection of the truck my work was complete. Backing down the curving path was somewhat of a challenge.The driveway was imaculatly white and flat. I could not tell where the forest began and the pavement ended. It was slow at first but a practiced hand gave me confidence. If it were not for those lights (now dark during the daytime) lining the path I would have been a goner. I did it! I was now in the street facing my desired direction! Ok, now all I need to do is use my rear wheel drive to efortlessly push myself up this incline. I slipped the truck into drive and eased the excellorator. The engine hummed beautifully...as I stayed in place. Great.
I'm homeless tomorrow morning.
>>705975216
Ok, do tell
>>705975262
Any family?
>>705975248
3/?I was now running back down the driveway as fast as I could. Snow sank into my shoes as I went. I glanced back just once to see my emergency lights winking on and off in defeat. The children were throwing snowballs from their fortress in the tree at what must have been their parents shoveling "the drive" on the other side of the hill. One light was fighting through the snow fall from the house on the opposite side. After reaching heaven's gate I unceromoniously slammed my shoes against the brick siding before stumbling through the door. "Joe, I need you to help me get my truck unstuck." my cheeks were flush and my breath could be seen with every exhale inside the house. "Again?" was his only reply. After adorning his battle gear, Joe and I grimly strode towards our fate. My weapon was a heavy snow shovel. His weapon was brute strength. We battled with the mighty beast for nearly an hour. Victory was ours! I caught the neighbors gazing at our acomplishment and I politly waved. They in turn politly turned their backs to toil away at their dutys. Joe and I looked up at the path I intended to travel.
"I can tell you right now Blake, your truck is definetly not going to make it up this hill or the next hill for that matter." I agreed by cursing loudly. The children looked our way.
>>705975366
wont let me live with them. Theyre two states away anyways
>>705975301
I born in Russia
>>705975445
4/?
Joe drove the truck back down the driveway as I rode on the back, giving the vehicle a little more weight for the rear wheel drive. All the while the snow still fell. Were the flakes getting larger? Or are there just more of them? I adressed this to Joe who replied, "Both".
We stripped our battle gear and slunk into our places of rest. I pulled out my phone while he pulled out the television remote. My conversations were short and pleading as he flipped through channels. An extension of time here, a ride to work there. It ended with a frustrated sigh and a defeated "I'm on my way. Be there in 30 to 40 minutes." Slowly I pulled myself from the chair and began preparing for another battle. Fresh socks slipped into wet shoes. Dry sleeves slipped over sweaty flesh. The wind slapped my face as I opened the door. I let out a final sigh as I stepped out. I shoved the hood of my jacket over my head and crammed my hands into their respective pockets. Trodding yet again through the snow, past my truck, down the driveway, I stepped into the street. The mail truck effortlessly passed me as I assended the mountain which defeated my vehicle. A swell of angry jelousy filled my head as I squinted through the snow. I defiantly walked in the middle of the street as I continued my journy.
>>705971954
i deleted my tinder for the same reason. lots of good match ups with nice looking girls, but im a massive pussy just waiting for them to say something to me (only the fat ones speak first lol) so yeah ill probably die alone.
>>705975549
5/?I was now at the halfway point. The entire time wind playfully assalted me from the front. It cared not for what corner I turned or what direction I was facing. The wind was always at my front. Snow was plastered to my legs, chest, and head. I retreted as deep into my jacket as humanly possible but the cold still broke through my armor. I approached Stoakly road with a frown that could only be broken by my boss' luxury explorer with heated seats. Just then, I stopped frowning. Here came my boss at a snail's pace down the unplowed road. I let him turn around before getting in. Oh how I hate the cold. He was lauging hystericaly as I wiped snow from every part of my body. We made small talk after I thanked him and the day went on as usual.
This is op
About to lose consciousness
Goodbye for now
Oh, and fan guy?
Keep up the good work
I have been getting desperately horny since I broke up with my GF of one year and I keep wanting to fuck guys/traps etc only because the amount of girls that I know and could score with is super small, what do, am I gay or just looking to get my dick wet?
>>705975648
6/?
The hours slipped past unnoticed and unmissed. A friend of mine offered me a lift as we cleaned and prepped the store for the next day. I accepted immediatly, not wanting to brave the now icy and dark roads on foot. He pulled up to my driveway with a promise to pick me up tomorrow morning for work. I graciously accepted and we parted ways. I watched his tail lights dissapear over the hill. It was then that I felt...odd. Something did not feel right. I gazed down my driveway to see the slice of heaven. A few lights dotted the interior and a healthy glow was emitting from the family room windows. The snow was much lighter now and the wind was still. My eyes were transfixed upon the glowing house. Soon I would be inside it's warm embrace. Why then did I feel so strange? One foot was placed in front of the other. The lights along the driveway were out. Every single one had snow on it's solar panal. They seemed so sad not shining in the night. The closest neighbors house caught my attention.
>>705975852
7/7
I stopped and peered over. No light came from any window. No exterior light was on either. It was not pitch black but never in my life had that house looked so grey and far away. The cold bit my face making my teeth chatter. It was loud. I stood their listening until I got my teeth under control. Not a bird was chirping. Not a twig was snapping. No laughter came from the trees as a soft wind pushed me away from the house. The wind was always at my front. I could hear every snow flake hit the ground. It was a sort of quiet only the dead could hear. A creaking started to my left. I was afraid. So cold. The tree house. The windows were pitch black, as if the monsters were watching me from the unkown. The creaking continued. No, it wasent the tree house. Creak....Crunch....Creak. It sounded like a well used rocking chair. Light from the children's house played on the top of the hill but dared not go any further. A single old tree was casting it's new shadow over me as the weight of the snow made it bend. There was no wind yet this single tree swayed. It was mocking the cold. It's gnarld branches fighting the snow. It's creaking truck battling the cold's quiet. I stood there for a long while. Listening. Watching. The light dimmed and the tree gave one last pitiful creak before resigning to it's fate. The trunk snapped in a final rebelion to the hushed stillness of the night. Splinters sythed through the falling snow as I jumped out of my skin. A tremendous shokwave was sent through the ground as the tree smashed the soft snow. My fear stayed with me all the way back to heaven. I sit here typing, peering out into the darkness. Listening to the hum of a space heater. Feeling the touch of three soft blankets, fearing the wind always at my front. The cold changes everything. It changes people, animals, and even fauna. It brings a neccesary discomfort to the land. The cold changes it all.
>>705968129
I want to fucking die
>>705975505
Definitely a curse
>>705968129
I have called in sick 5 days in a row. I'm not sick. I just can't bear to go in. I'm 34. I cannot lose this job, I know I can't, but fuck... just can't do it.
My parents don't love me, I don't have any real friends, and I'm living with my girlfriend in her parents house (yes, they're there too). I'm so stressed from school and work that I think of killing myself on a daily basis.
>>705968129
Horribly depressed.
any time my life becomes static and I feel like I'm not making progress I just get depressed and it makes everything worse
Also I'm gonna be alone forever, but that's not too bad
>>705975962
Then go to fucking work, you're a man "i can't" is not in our vocabulary faggot. Get in there earn your pay and then fuck the secretary on the boss' desk
>>705976168
My life = your life minus girlfriend
>>705976265
Hah.
>>705976396
Same tbqh family, feels bad.
My mother kicked me out and was told I was a mistake, she told me to go die and that she hates me. She punched my and pulled my hair, lied about me everything, and she does this after I pay all her bill and I'm talking like 3k in bills, she said was gonna pay me back but now she won't, she also won't let me get my stuff out of the house, all of this sucks
>>705976453
The first half of it was serious, you can call in sick all you want for all i care but you'll hate the street more than work man.
>>705974170
Nice pic. Hope you succeed.
>>705976607
What caused this fight?
I had a crush on this girl for awhile, we've know each other since Kindergarten but all of a sudden today she dyed her hair green and became lesbian, now I hate gay people is this normal?
>>705976624
I know. Logically, I know that.
I got nothing left. I'm on three anti-depressants and life still has no flavour. Two friends are leaning on me hard emotionally (divorce and suicide attempt) so every waking moment is just ... trying to solve other people's problems. I hate my job, I hate my life.
>>705976607
Call 911
>>705976737
Im not sure myself, she just started to act weird, like it wasn't herself
>>705975940
enjoyed this. thanks for sharing, keep writing fan guy
>>705976895
I told her if I don't get my stuff by tomorrow, I'm going to get the police involved
>>705968129
A snitch ratted me out for selling him ecstacy pills about 6 months ago. I've been trying to fight the charges since, but it's a losing battle. I spent all I had paying my lawyer and keeping myself afloat after all this happened.
Because the snitch told them I was buying drugs off the deepweb, they searched all my computers, and found a shitload of CP. I'm reasonably sure I know who's it was, but everyone just assumes it was mine. I'm looking at 20+ years in the state prison, and a lifetime of sex offender registration...
Needless to say, I lost my job, my wife left me, I can't afford my house payment anymore, and all my friends just kind of disappeared. I'm going to fight like a badger until it's clear that I've lost to these charges, then I'm gonna end it all. I've had a good run, and I'm now 100% positive that I won't be missed by anyone.
>>705976893
Next work day get ready and leave for work, don't think about work think about getting there, you're get there and think that you might as well do your job now. Also start looking for a new one, don't stay a shitty job longer than you have to.
As for the friends, ditch the emotional baggage you can't carry. Simple as, it won't be easy but fucking your prospects at simply maintaining a roof over your head is a bad idea. You're getting to a point where it's you or them.
>>705976934
What are the chances she's taken something? Even by mistake.
If there was no serious thing to fall out over and it was more of just an argument that got out of hand, you'll have everything patched up with her in a week.
It's not even problems as much as it is frustrations. I feel stuck in this rut that I've been in for a few years. I'm finishing college, but I don't know where to go after this. I'm pretty sure I just need to pick a town and go, fully throw myself into it.
I'm just not sure where.
>>705977256
I can't leave the job. It pays better than anything I could ever get, truat me. By a lot.
I can't ditch my friends, either. They've got no one else. If I left them, then they'd feel like I do now, and nobody deserves that.
>>705968129
I'm a hermit ogre and I'm slowly losing all the friends I ever had. I just want to have many dates and go out with girls. I just want to be with friends so we can go for beers and talk about anything.
Right now I'm a failure socializing, and I'm losing all hope of living love while I'm young.
I just want to fuck many beautiful girls and have feelings for them and tell them that I love them (not simultaneously).
I'm currently depressed. No job and recently failed in college. My current behavior it's and autistic behavior. I just really hate myself so much.
I don't fucking know what to do, everything I do it's a failure.
>>705977401
I wouldn't doubt it, but every time we did argue she always told me to leave and that, and hear it so much you just start to think
YOU TRAITOR BASTARD!!!
>>705977530
Then stick with it, but don't think about anything there, untill you're there.
Why do you hold yourself to a lower standard than them? Logically it's best to give yourself some space from them, if someone must suffer, why you? I'm not saying fuck them off, but you need to look out for you, your friends have themselves to look after them.
>>705978218
I'm the guy people go to. That's why I'm asking advice from some anonymous message board, because in real life ... I can't. Nobody's around to help anyway. My friends all look to me, and my doctor just throws pills at me.
>>705977644
If it's drugs ect. then there's a good chance she won't remember/have meant any of it man, give her some time to cool off and turn up apologetic, maybe with flowers, tell her you love her. Idk what else to say man GL
Take the TVs out of your rooms and fill your walls with art.
Write down five sentences a day.
Make three of those sentences solutions to problems you are currently having.
Make the other two compliments about yourself or someone you despise.
Walk for 10 minutes a day when you have no particular place to be or have anything to do.
Tell someone one thing you like about them to their face.
Eat some fruit.
Reread the sentences you wrote down earlier in the day before you go to bed.
Repeat every day.
>>705978519
>I'm the guy people go to. That's why I'm asking advice from some anonymous message board, because in real life ... I can't.
I was that fuckin guy, you're gonna fuck yourself over badly man. You just need to weigh up what's more important. You or them.
>>705968129
>be in college
>Been dating her for awhile only to find out she was getting ready to curve me harder than a right turn
>oh NOE notsofast.mp3
>this is my revenge for her wasting my time.
Go crazy guys dubs gets her address
I finished college got my aas have a job I'm a mechanic. Not the best but I'm still new to it trying to get better. Have about 3k in debt. Dad died this year 4 months ago. Lil brother was sent off to military school he'll be back in December. I'm 20 and still live with mom sadly. My gf broke up with me 3 months ago. Have a new gf except she's long distance this time about 12hrs away. I'm horribly depressed show up late to work everyday still don't know why I haven't been fired. Life is sad for me all my earnings go to helping mom. Feels like I'll never make it out I'm also the one to depend on. I'm weak but strong I always come out ok. Lately I've been feeling like I will fail. I do not want to fail but I don't want to continue. Life has been cruel to me but also cruel to others. I don't want to seem weak but everyone can fail. Somedays I wake up and wish for rest, eternal rest.
>>705978930
Don't do that bro. The real revenge is living your life happy. You shouldent recieve joy from someone elses pain.
>>705978930
>Xiomara
Nobody cares about your immigrant slut
You're the only one wasting your time.
>>705979220
worth it 100%
I love how op fucked off so i've just filled in as b's agony aunt
>>705978978
Failure isn't an option man all you can do is keep going, failure means going hungry on the street. Keep pushing man you'll catch a break.
IK i'm getting shit at this but i'm not OP and i haven't slept in about 42hrs
A former online friend of mine told my ex about my suicide attempt, and she has since contacted me and appears to want to try and be friends again. We have tried this many times bwfore and every attempt has ended horribly.
Except this time her being here is making my mood swings and suicidal thoughts go away.
I don't know what to do
I've got a bit of a psychological contradiction going on in my head. Part of my brain says "We should start pursuing relationships, they could be pretty nice." While the other half says "No, it will only weigh us down and damage us in the future, don't do it."
So I'm stuck in a rather retarded limbo, and I wish i could just choose one course or the other.
>>705979748
>We should start
Looking doesn't hurt, the breakup does.
>>705979876
I know. I've observed many friends relationships and the mental state they fall into after the relationship falls apart. This is where my apprehension comes from, I don't want to voluntarily put myself through that.
>>705979748
Also the fact you think in "We's" mean you might not be mentally sound enough to handle a healthy relationship at the minute anyway.
I'm a guy and look like a guy, but on the inside I'm quite feminine. My guy friends tell me I'll never find a woman if I don't act tougher and more like a guy.
What do?
>>705980123
Then you've made your own mind up
I'm a 22 year old virgin, I don't know if I'll ever smash because it's so hard for me to connect with people and girls don't make it easy. I mean fuck they have made it easy, but I never made a move because I'm just dead inside man. A lot has happened, it's not even the fact that I'm a virgin that makes me feel dead inside. I just can't take the risk with people because I've been hurt bad in the past and it left a mark.
On another note I almost bought morphine pills yesterday because I fuck with opiates but I chickened out last minute because I don't want to go down that path. I used to be a huge pothead but now it just makes me anxious and do self-destructive things and I hate how it takes days for me to feel normal after just doing it once. I have a lot of energy now but I feel more erratic and I actually get depressed, sometimes I spontaneously cry for a second or two and it feels good man, like pot used to make me feel.
I can't tell any of this to a counselor because I used to be on depressants and shit just made me feel like I was living in a dream, in the worst way possible.
tl;dr I am sad and nobody has ever loved me.
>>705980448
>act tougher and more like a guy.
or
>find a masculine woman
>>705972982
Me too anon just got through terrible dt's and swore i wouldnt do it to myself again lasted one day and drank a halfgallon am contemplating suicide
>>705980157
I know. It's just a way i usually put down any sort of contradictory dialogue i have in my head, where the thought process goes one way, then contradicts itself.
There's not two dialogues in my head, just the natural one i think with. I think forward on one course, then obliterate it with the next idea.
>>705975086
>the girl says fuck me
>still not asking for it
>>705968129
There isn't enough hyperscat porn for me to enjoy. It's not a common fetish.
>>705980123
Then don't
Get an FOB or something.
>>705980622
Make your own.
I'm losing feeling for my girlfriend of 2 years. She has
big plans for the future and i just want to smash tinder thots for a couple of years before I consider getting married. I love her still but our ideas of what we want to happen in the future vary too much for me to stay i think. What would you do?
>>705980485
anti-depressants*
>>705968802
Grow a pair, get a job
>>705980529
fuck those are not good choices
I should just embrace faggotry, I'll never find a woman
>>705980734
I have, but I'm not too great at art.
Nothing is wrong with me.
Have a great day everyone!!
>>705980821
practice makes perfect.
>But that takes forever
It'll get faster if you cut out the time you spend bitching.
Been freaking out over a girl for the past week, I've talked to her a couple times but haven't made any moves and I'm to afraid to doing something like ask for her number cause I don't want to make things awkward between us, but I hate this constant state of not being able to do anything like as if I was trapped in a corner
Haven't fucked in eight years.
Haven't had a girlfriend either.
Keep getting shut down with the classic "I don't do black guys"
>tfw I'm a nigger in the GTA who can't find someone to fuck for some reason.
>>705981166
stop being a pussy. Who cares if shits awkward you'll find someone else.
>>705980587
Oh fair enough. Well you have 2 choices, take a risk and find a woman or stay within the known ans don't. You could wait a few years (depending on how old you are), as women lose the power they have over men in they 20's and early 30's and they get more desperate for the nice guy they rejected a decade ago.
>>705980804
Hey if you can play the gay game have fun nigger.
>>705981166
Do something before you don't have a chance, if you've been here more than 10 mins you'll have seen an anon here who wishes he made a move before it fizzled out, don't be that anon.
>>705968129
I'm a engineering student in my senior year - that should tell you enough. In stressed out and probably have cortisol and adrenaline levels elevated all the time... I compensate by working out six days a week which takes up more time, and I work two days a week and also involved with a lawsuit 3 days a week.
I'm expected to deliver ambitious projects in 2 and 9 months deliverables at my school on top of my work and other class.
I'm just stressed anxious and just want to relax ... Relaxing puts me into panic mode because if I manage my time and finish everything / new shit pops up and I'm Ina new hole.
Quite shitty fam. I probably need meds since I used to get through with Alc and weed but the coursework is too hard when I used to abuse these substances.
No time for relationships only want one night stands but no time to get wasted for a night. Anyone feel me
>>705981588
Masturbate
>>705981587
Got it, I guess it would be better to try and things be a little awkward than to not try and miss out, thanks I think I'll give it a try tomorrow, wish me luck
>>705968129
curry niggers keep stealing my prata when im not looking and bollywood is attempting to sue me for not giving them enough food for them to steal
>>705981718
Fam I masterbate everyday 2 times a day
>>705981241
Find yourself a sassy black lady if you aren't having luck with white chicks. Maybe you should try different locations (different bars, or some dating site/app)
>>705981759
>I guess it would be better to try and things be a little awkward than to not try and miss out
That's the spirit, go get your dick wet nigger GL
>>705981588
>I'm just stressed anxious and just want to relax
Smoke weed, just don't be a faggot and mix weed + school/work.
IL how i read along and you explain how you already did that. Drugs and work don't mix bro
>>705982012
Go throw a tomato at a wall. Add some non systematic chaos to make things less robotic about your life.
You having such a robotic scheduled system is probably why you feel so souless and suicidal
Robots don't have souls
>>705982231
Unless you're a pharmacist
>>705968129
Alright, I'll vent to you. But first, let me ask, how are you?
>>705982047
If you have ever met an urban Canadian black woman, you will know why I choose to try and poison the breeding pool instead.
>>705982368
OP fucked off, i've just been filling in since.
>>705982415
I haven't but i'll take your work for it. All i can suggest is try different locations or methods of meeting people.
>>705982754
I have only tried online cause I don't know how to do the bar scene.
The club scene is an AIDS breeding pit nowadays.
And public events are useful when you are a student
>tfw chose to work instead of school.
>>705968129
I'm trans and i don't think i'll ever pass and anyone who tells me i shouldn't worry i think are just being nice.
But hell a good chuck of people here will just tell me to kill myself so whatever.
>>705968129
I am a half-beta. I am usually the one to initiate conversation with her, but the conversation leads nowhere. I don't think I'm a terrible conversationalist, but whenever I text/talk to her, I end up going down to awkwardville; population: me and about 342 bad puns.
Usually I make a joke (it's usually really bad), then my awful luck kicks in and I step on a Lego or something.
TL:dr I can't talk to this one girl, and it's bugging the shit out of me.
>>705983046
get some safe space /adv/ice
Stop looking for others to rate your faggotry and go be as flamboyant as you want
>>705983056
If you have been trying for more than a month and every time you have betad out, you have been friendzoned
find a new target.
I'm strongly considering buyin pussy off bp. I ain't ugly or a social retard, just goin' through a dry patch and I don't have my own place yet. It's 160 for an hour. 24 yr old. What's the verdict?
>>705983383
define "buyin pussy off bp"
Nothing to lose from buying a whore but your pride. The bigger the price tag, the lesser chance of an STD
>>705983040
Go to a bar and buy a drink, if a girl you like looks of comes to order drinks offer to pay for her drink. You just have to get the conversation going.
>>705983046
What do you expect me to say to you here? If you don't think you'll pass you probably won't.
>>705983056
IRL?
>>705983293
This
>>705983383
Try spending the money on a night out trying to pull first maybe?
>>705983562
*Gettin an escort off Back page
Shit, that's my whole thing. The pride factor. Not sure if I'm feelin reluctant because of my own standards or the social norms of society.
>>705983732
Don't do it if you think you'll regret it beforehand.
>>705982754
Gotcha. I'm just gonna call you OP anyway. Just easier that way.
Anyway, I just got home. Debating on fapping or not and going to bed.
I got some shit off my chest if you don't mind hearing about a whiny faggot complain about stuff.
>>705983732
Go to an Asian massage parlour and ask for a "happy ending"
>>705983699
I know the bar tactics I be done em. I just don't have a crib and I want something quick after work(overnight job)
I have a legit tulpa and have never told anyone irl.
How would people like you react if someone told you that? Even if they were understanding it would be so weird. Should I tell anyone?
Having a tulpa is obviously bad because of extra overhead for 2 personalities in one brain. Also probably because it kills my natural desire for companionship. But it's too late to go back, I would never.
>>705983884
>Gotcha. I'm just gonna call you OP anyway. Just easier that way.
Yh no worries i might as well be.
Try leaving it so tomorrow is better ;) also go for it man i've been here for 3hrs now so.
>>705984002
Ah my bad bro, that's what cheap hotels are for then.
>>705971334
>h is quite stagnant.
>I am nearing in my 30s.
are you me?
>>705968129
Fuck you
>>705983967
Nah, man. I need ass
>>705983699
>You just have to get the conversation going.
I speak Weeb. Like batman and shit
The bar scene people are fluent in "General Public" unless I can just be like"how's your night" and followup with small talk, then I'm fucked trying to go to a bar.
>>705968129
I feel really upset by my partners inability to stop making me the bad guy, every issue becomes an M. Night Shyamalan film and it turns out I am the bad guy. I am feeling emotionally drained and affection starved.
>>705984206
Swallow your pride and buy a whore.
End of story.
>>705984323
Divorce.
Get custody of the house and the kids.
Get a male judge to decrease chances of being cucked in court.
>>705968129
So there's that girl that's in my classes for a few weeks now. At first I just thought she was nice and stuff like that but in no time I fallen in love. Really bad. Now she has posted like "like and I'll let you know if I would go out with you". Should I like it /b/ ? Of course I'd want to know, but at the same time I know if she says no, which is pretty likely, I would feel so fucking miserable for months. What should I do?
>>705984234
Truthfully it ain't that hard. It helps if your observant. And it's cool to be goofy, but have confidence behind it. Feel me?
>>705984323
same boat here. am in the phase of emotionally distancing myself. sucks a bit less but not sure what's next ...
>>705984374
That's what it's lookin like. Thanks multiple b/ros
>>705984077
They'll be quick to jump to the conclusion that you're losing it.
>>705984234
Try and pickup weeby girls online or just research some normie shit to fit in a bit more.
>>705984323
You need to sit down with them and talk to them about it bro i can't help with that.
It sounds like they may have a maturity issue if they're failing to accept accountability, if it's just turning things on you to shift the blame then they're immature and a cunt, all i can say to that is good fucking luck.
>>705984460
I doubt it's that easy for him tbh.
>>705984483
Like it, better to find out than to be left hanging for months.
>>705984530
Confidence is too easy. I can get their attention but like I said, girls must be scared of BBC in the frozen north.
But if the bar scene is literally "How I Met your Mother: easy, then I'm off to change locations
>>705984077
Just to clarify, i mean going crazy by losing it.
>>705983699
Yeah, IRL. I don't spend much time on the internet. It's mostly just trying to improve myself to be better for half my own self esteem, and half for her. Like practicing drawing or writing, exercise, study, etc. After that, I relieve myself of stress by playing games. I've started to play Paladins (the Overwatch clone thing) and that's cool, but whenever I play, it makes me feel bad. Like I should be doing something else. Like I should be talking to her. Like I should just get some money and just ask her out for like a movie or something. I've been friends with her for about 4-6 months. We're both pretty shy, so idk how she feels about me. People are really hard to relate to. If I want to pick someone apart until they break, I can. But becoming friends, or romantically involved with someone is so hard.
>>705984847
Idk how north you talkin. But I'm black in NYC. I know the bars you're talkin about, but different bars have different social climates. That in turn attracts different people. You just gotta find the bar that fits your personality the best.
>>705984799
Tulpa guy. If I've lost it, I lost it almost 6 years ago. So for most people I know, this is the way I've always been.
I'm afraid of getting married one day and having to tell my wife about it. Would any human be okay with that? The alternative is to live my entire life without ever confiding my feelings in anyone, which scares me almost as much. Blegg.
>>705984799
>>705984799
>Try and pickup weeby girls online
Weebs are usually locked behind college doors. Meaning I'd have to drop like 20k to meet a nice little asian weeb. But if I could, I wouldn't be here fam.
There is no online place for weebs to meet weebs unless you want to pay like $20 to be catfished by bots.
okcupid is commonly used for a confidence boost instead of actually searching
PoF is the same thing
There's this geek mate thing I've heard of. But that's just a bot haven from the reviews
>>705985235
Toronto
>>705968129
>me, 28
>amazing job, own house, no mortgage, nice car
>with girl for 4 years
>8/10
>love her but she has intimacy problems
>bad at being affectionate since the day i met her
>fucked up childhood
>sort of unhappy but still love her
>stick it out and hope it gets better?
>or cut her loose and go have some fun?
I know what i'm worth, and I know i'm high value. Could definitely have some fun if single. But I still care about her. idk
respond or dont, idc... this is a pretty lame problem
I'm pretty sure I have legit OCD, and have since I was younger. But I don't want to go to a therapist
>>705985444
Download the Kama Sutra.
Sign up for couples classes
>>705985565
Not seeing a therapist is exactly how you fuck your life up by assuming your mental issues.
Dont be a tumblrina. seek help
>>705985444
What type of intimacy problems?
Seriously just tell her. At least try that before giving up.
>>705985079
It's not good that you're the main conversation starter but if you're so awkward and keep making bad puns that's not surprising, you're running head-first into the friend zone. Being good at chatting is great and the odd joke is even better but if you keep making it awkward it might already be too late, because she'll just think of you as just "that awkward guy".
Does she laugh at the majority of your jokes?
>>705985444
If you love her you wouldn't even be considering cutting her off, run if you think it's going nowhere man.
I'm going to be homeless tomorrow.
Does this ride ever end? I don't even care what happens to me anymore. I feel empty inside. Life is shit.
>>705984875
Thanks for responding btw, this is the first time I've ever talked about it to anyone.
>>705985565
I know alot of people with OCD it's nothing to worry about, if that's the worst of it you're doing better than most of us anon.
>>705985672
its the affectionate part. I'm always the one who has to initiate anything. the sex is good, but i'm still missing the parts of the relationship that I had in past relationships. Just kind of the passive type things. I guess my biggest issue is that I always am the one to initiate stuff.
We've talked about it. She is hard on herself about it and always apologize, i think it fucks her up. THe first time we had sex, she got really upset because I touched her back. Without going into too much detail, she experienced some shit as a kid. We got past that and things are going okay... but it still just feels like something is missing and I can't put my finger on it.
>>705985565
I don't understand how assuming a mental issue makes you a tumblrina. you can't rationally go to a therapist unless you assume you have an issue
Diagnosing yourself makes you a tumblrina.
>>705985826
You can still love someone and also consider cutting it off because its just not best for you. Love in the sense that I love her as a person, but yeah i see what you're saying
>>705985941
I'm someone who has been from friend's couch to shelter going on 4 times now.
Now I'm in a friend's spare bedroom
The ride ends. Stick it out. get a job
>>705985826
>>705985995
To add on, I come from a really good upbringing. I was taught love and affection by my parents. So I guess it's normal to me? Idk. just feels like we're on too different levels of how we express our love.
>>705985941
Fuck man sorry to hear. Idk what else to say really sorry.
>>705985988
I'm doing my best to respond to everyone, excuse me being slow i'm approaching my 47th hour of being awake. I first opened up about being sexually assaulted at 14 on here and it really helped me with being able to talk to friends and family ect about it.
Your parents would be good to go to first as they'll be the most understanding and supportive.
>>705986066
I wrote this >>705985670
There a a special group of people that feel they know themselves and either assume the resolution or refuse to go to therapy since they don't see it as an issue in their lives.
Those people are called "tumblrinas" Or as I like to call them
Assholes
>>705986395
I'm answering questions too. I'm being more blunt though.
Personally not surprised that /b/ can sometimes be better than /adv/
>this is not bashing or calling a cross boar raid.
>>705985673
She kinda does this giggle that's sorta cute when I make one reliably. They're not usually puns, just kinda stupid jokes. Puns is just faster to type out. I'm not usually awkward, it's just when I'm around her that my brain goes full autist and it just bothers me.
And then I fall down a flight of stairs.
>>705986395
Bruh go to sleep. Not sleeping
has permanent effects.
I left a LTR recently (4m ago) and a bunch of my friends are telling me to get back on the wagon. I tried an failed, they kept telling me I was being too judgmental and to lower my standards but hell no. My ex has already moved on to someone more fitting to their sexuality and I'm extremely happy for them. I'm feeling a little disenchanted by love and that every guy I meet only wants that one thing, they don't look past the platinum hair and breasts long enough to see who I actually am. Everything in my life is fairly put together I just have issues with anxiety/agoraphobia sometimes and legitimately every time i try go out and meet people all I think when i have a short convo with a man is "cunts ain't loyal." I give them a fake number and move on. Not only that, the sex is terrible and finding it in the first place is daunting as fuck, I'm sick of being my own satisfaction in all walks of life.
>>705986463
So assuming I have OCD due to symptoms, and not wanting to go to a therapist because I feel uncomfortable opening up to people, makes me an asshole? Good to know I guess
>>705986150
>>705986304
If shes had a fucked childhood then she won't change too much man that shit stays with you. I don't really know what else to say tbh.
>>705986592
Yeah i'm not the man in charge or whatever this this thread is just chill af.
>>705986732
I really can't I've had no more that 500 cal in the last 24h too its fucked.
>>705968129
My wife left me and I haven't seen our 3 kids in 2 months because of my work living situation. Which is homeless. I've been camping on the beach when I can't crash at my one friend's house. I shower at the local pool. The one good thing going is I have saved enough to buy an old shitty chevy astro van so I'll be off the street and with a roof over my head. But my only real complaint in all of this is I know longer feel worthy enough for another woman. I'm doing well for being homeless. I'm clean and, look, i have internet connection. But I have three children I can't care for, my wife left me, and I have very few friends, and work a wageslave job. So how do I actually connect with a woman with all this lingering in the back of my head?
>>705984115
Alright thanks boss
So everything I'm going to say sounds crazy and bullshit, but it's all true.
I'm having a very hard time adapting back to city life.
I just got back from backpacking through Alaska (interior part) alone. And God damn, it was fucking amazing.
While on this fucking trip I've;
>stalked by a bear
>Got 3 feet away from a fucking moose and her babies
>almost got mugged in Anchorage (which is stupid because I'm from Los Angeles, so I'm use to dealing with faggots)
>passed out from the cold because I'm use to the God forsaken 100 degree weather out here in SoCal
>almost lost and stranded in the dead zone
>almost got into a bar fight with a town drunk
>pretty sure I got close to a wolf's den in Denali
>Tried to find the magic bus from the movie Into the Wild
>made a shit load of friends
>felt free for the first time in my life
>missed my flight because I met some random girl and she wanted to get drinks, in the end, we pretended to be married, gave the airlines some bullshit sob story and they let us on the next flight to LA. Never met this girl in my life and shit. But she was super awesome
>and much more
>and made up with a woman who broke my heart... kinda... that's a whole other story
>and... lastly, I am at peace with myself. No more burdens or dwelling on stupid shit
But back here, with friends and family, I feel like I'm stuck in a cage. Know what I mean?
There is so much to the world that we take for granted and we don't even recognize the beauty of it.
Ever felt that kind of feeling before OP?
>>705986822
Turn off autocunt mode and go back to being open minded. Dont open up to the point that youre wearing your heart on your sleeve
Men are assholes. Meeting 20 does not mean ALL.
Keep going until you find someone who loves you for you.
I am 25 and feel like a total fuck up,
I got a great job, my own house, my own car and no debts. People say I am pretty good looking and a social guy..
but that's all fake, my house doesn't feel like a home, I am depressed for 11 years now, to much of a pussy to actually kill myself ever since my 4year old brother walked in on me while I was hanging myself, the look in that boys eyes destroyed me, he is now my best friend and I act all cool when I am with him... but deep inside I am more empty then ever..
I have a relation with a 12 year older woman with 2 kids, but I can't make her happy, and she can't make me happy because I am not allowing her...
My dog is the only one I can be myself with..
I feel empty inside and I don't know what can fill me up.. I tried sex, drugs and alcohol... it's like a shadow is always over me..
I wear a mask to avoid disappointment in my family, but I think about killing myself everyday
>>705986653
If you get her to laugh consistently you're alright, infact the clumsiness is fine, you can pull off cute with clumsy. Try to use the autism as an advantage.
>>705986945
Bruh!
>>705986866
not wanting to go to a therapist because I feel uncomfortable opening up to people. But then living your life as if you have OCD makes you an asshole.
Seek help. They don't care if you cry. But they have been training for YEARS to handle closed door people such as yourself.
>>705986866
OCD is completely normal it's nothing to worry about at all unless it's higher functioning and your parents would've noticed when you wre younger anyway, both of u faggots just chill
>>705987080
That was the best story I've seen on /b/ that I've actually believed. I think I need to go to Alaska now. Bye /b/ros!
>>705987110
Therapy.
It's almost like we live in a world where depression is relatively common and tons of drugs and practices exist to fix it for almost everyone.
>>705987080
Welcome to the life of a drifter.
There are 2 girls at my work that I want to ask out but if they say no it will make work awkward.
>>705987080
Check out Hawaii.
You'll feel at home
I hope that I'm a pedophile because my sister molested me but I'm afraid that I'm just a pedophile.
>>705987080
ofc you're struggling to adjust back to city life you'll adjust back in intime, same way you weren't instantly bear grills when you were out there. Yeah ik what you mean but idk where you're going with it. Sounds like an awsome trip btw
>>705987091
Turning off autocunt is harder than you think, despite my ex and I being in a really good place it doesn't deter from the fact that I was a fucking amazing wifeable woman and I still got cheated on. I know deep down that in the grand scheme it wasn't me or them it was because of the sexuality thing I mentioned. But still, from experience "nice guys" are just douchebags behind closed doors.
>>705987180
But I don't feel like that works in a guys role. I'm no moe anime girl, I'm just a normal guy with a brain that doesn't always function all of the time.
Then I get lost and spend an hour trying to get home.
>>705987419
Actually tried multiple therapies and shrinks, but wearing the mask has become like a second nature, I tell them I am fine, and none can see through me, I know it's my own fault, but I can't help it, I even tell them in the first session, that I am going to do this, but they can't pierce through.. and I don't want to go on antidepressants anymore, I rather feel pain than nothing at all, as three days grace would sing..
>>705987576
yikes
>>705987248
Maybe I didn't make it clear enough. Or worded it wrong. I do not live my life as if I have OCD, I do not tell people I have OCD, I don't think that I for sure have OCD.
You seem to have made a lot of assumptions about how I live my life, based off me thinking I could have OCD
>>705987621
No shit. My point still stands.
Shutting off autocunt might take weeks at the longest but if you don't start now, you will continue to be used by everyone you meet cause your attitude will reek "cunt"
>>705968129
I think I let a pregnant chick blow me. Have I hit an all time low?
>>705987833
No.
>>705987901
Thanks, mate.
>>705987110
Listen faggot you've got in your life now what people would and are dying to try and get, and that is stability. Stay away from alcohol and drugs and find a hobby.
I'd keep my distance from her for abit man, you're not mentally capable of being responsible for those kids if you can't keep your self happy.
Find an enjoyable hobby.
>>705987188
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>>705987298
My parents were the kind of parents who blamed everything on puberty. My sister told my mother she thought she had depression several times. It took the doctor actually telling my mom, that she had depression for her to finally take it seriously.
So I question these things now
>>705987806
I assumed that you were already living your life and then stopped today and asked "Do I have OCD?" Which can mean one of two things.
1. You are super meticulous to begin with and think it's OCD
or 2. you think that being organized = OCD
>>705987419
>>705988003
Thanks anons.
I appreciate you thinking and reading this and replying
>>705985346
Watched "Lars And The Real Girl"? If not, I highly suggest to.
>>705988006
I mean early childhood man, can't blame that on puberty. My mum was like that with me and my sister, it wasn't true untill a doctor said it. Thing is that's irrelevant to this anyway, your parents would have noticed any major OCD when you were really young, so it can't be that bad. Eitherway most people are slightly OCD in some manner you're perfectly normal.
>>705987696
*sigh* kill yourself
If you are going to actively reject he world's plethora of assistance to continue suffering while wanting it to stop.
There is only one true way out.
>>705971616
>anxiety?
>Better smoke weed
Fucking stoner logic
>>705970985
Get some zoloft man it helped me a lot had the same thing you had
>>705988412
I don't really even care to question it anymore, maybe I'm just weird Thanks for being the only helpful person to respond to me.
>>705988848
Honestly OCD is absolutely nothing to worry about. No problem man i hope i was of some genuine help.
Also my internet hub is a cunt so i replied late as shit there.
Yo Doc, last night my girlfriend and I broke up. We dated 8 months and she has a child. She never expected me to be the daddy because her real dad still takes her on weekends. But last night we drank a few beers and talked about her daughter liking me so much, and I told her it was weird to me, she quickly got defensive and imposed I meant it in a bad way, I was buzzed and really not ready to get in this conversation. So long story short she said If I dont care then why didnt I explain that to her in the beginnung when we met and slammed her vedroom door. I just left in disarray about everything, I apolgized about how I worded thigs and told her I was going to get some rest. today, she had to attend a friends funeral, and later I texted her, but got short answers, also I had noticed she removed our relationship status, I cant sleep OP..
>>705989303
Not OP but how long has it been since you last contacted eachother?
>>705989415
Tonight, I wanted to see if she was able to attend her friends funeral service because its been really gloomy. She said she did, and as I tried to keep conversation, she kept short answering me. Then no reply, I had texted her goodnight and she replied back "you too". I replied "I didnt know you were still up, you left me hangin'" then a "yeah.I am."
Havent replied since
>>705989566
Not Op either but as a mother to me it would only be a serious issue if you'd been living with her and her daughter.
If not then she's in the wrong
Hi, not sure if you're the same person as last time, but I went and got a psychosis test and I have been diagnosed with psychosis... I've been living with it for about a year now, but now that I'm diagnosed I feel a little better, I still have no concept with reality and what's real or not, everything feels like a vivid dream I want to wake up from but I know I can't, I have random back flashes, giant mood swings and I think about killing myself everyday... The idea of nothingness and sleeping forever seems so peaceful to me, a lot better that what I've been goi g through anyway. I will eventually kill myself I am sure of it, dont know how much more I can take...
I have been either made fun of or excluded from everything because I'm a disfigured cripple since I was 12... I am 24 now and have no friends, no acquaintances, no social life or social skills at all.
What can I do at this point? Making it impossible to get a job.
>>705989566
Go over tomorrow with some flowers, a few beers if that's her thing and apologise, even if u think you've done nothing wrong. Trying to explain it was a misunderstanding is alot harder than just admitting fault and patching things up, got this mang.
>>705989802
Nahh i'm not bro sorry OP fucked off like 3hrs ago, i've just been filling in where i can. I honstly don't know what to say man, are you seeking advice or just venting?
My asshole is completely infested with threadworms. How the fuck do I get rid of these annoying little fucks.
>>705990002
I'm just venting, telling others what I'm going through to make myself feel a little better
>>705989950
If you're genuinely disabled depending on where you live your govt. should be giving you welfare anyway. Idk how well you can get about or what type of disfigurement you're talking about but just going to a bar for a drink can easily lead to making friends. Have you tried seeking out friends in the internet on facebook or steam or something? I have no real friends anymore, but i have internet friends and they make they bad times a little better.
>>705990181
A bleach cleanse will sort the fuckers right out man, you just need to drink nothing but bleach blended with lemons or limes for a week and problem solved :)
>>705989720
I appreciate the feedback anon.I would stay over at her place most of the time.She is in a bad spot currently with wrecking her car a few months back and having a 15 minute drive to work. I would stay with her nights she had gotten off work late and times she had her daughter there, and Id make breakfast for both of them, she was a great little child. She knew I wasnt a "family focused" man, for I am only 20 with no children of my own going to BMT soon. It is just something I just let cruise because I cared for her. I had to ease into it
>>705986822
I hate you. Die in a fire you ungrateful bitch. I can't wait until you're 50 and can't do this shit to people anymore.
>>705990320
Fair enough man i'm sorry to hear you got dealt such a shitty hand.
>>705990002
Will try out the flower method, thanks anon!
I'm gonna hop in the bath for a bit i don't feel well nosleepyfag out
>>705990572
Best of luck to you, you'll be in my thoughts anon.
>>705990328
I don't want friends, I just want to function in society. And I get disability, but its only 400/month and 100% of it goes to paying back my student loans. I want to work though.
The disfigurement is just misshapen body in general from cancer/treatment and being in a wheelchair for 15 years.
>>705990478
Bit harsh on her.
>>705990464
No problems, I guess it's kind of 50/50 though then huh? Bit of a hard one then, I'd suggest apologising but if you're not that family focussed it might be worth also bouncing
I think if I met a dude who had kids my own would come first and it would be a transition but eventually I'd care enough.
You're not the girls dad but at the same time, at some point you're going to feel like you'd have the shotgun ready to take anyone out for her sake. If you're not ready then just tell your girl.
>>705990696
Turnaround is fair play. Some people have no idea how good they have it and treat everyone else callously without giving a second thought.
>>705987373
Fuck ya man. It's fucking beautiful out there! I don't recommend going alone though. Honestly, A trip like mine would have been 100x better if I had someone to share it with. Kind of think of it as, you're eating Pizza with no beer. Totally fine and everything, but a nice beer would make it better.
Check out Eagle River, Denali (also known as Mt McKinley) and Fairbanks. Stay away from Paxson (for the most part, it's a deserted town.) Cantwell is okay... The bar there is pretty cool and the owners are nice, but the locals aren't the friendliest.
Also, be sure to carry a survival knife and gun with you. Pistol or rifle (all I had was a knife. After being in the wild, my respect for firearms is incredibly high). You are constantly watched while you trek in the wild. Every animal knows where you're at. So you have to adapt to the fear of not knowing what's around you.
Again, shit is crazy but enlightening.
>>705987431
Ya, I can understand why people like Christopher McCandless (Alexander Leatherfoot) do what they do. It's stupid and reckless, but I understand that sense of freedom.
Ever gone out and explore like that before?
>>705987512
I want to. But I plan on either backpacking (maybe driving though) through the Continental US, or the cabins in Iceland or maybe even Chernobyl before I do Hawaii.
>>705987584
Ya you're right.
Hell I got really home sick during the last 3 days of my trip. But now, idk, I just feel I'm missing out more on the world.
I also got to deal with this damn lady friend thing now that I'm back. But that's a whole other problem.
I run a small indie game studio who is in the process of developing games for Xbox, but lately, I have had a hard time focusing on work and shit. Even before Alsaka.
>never realized how much better you feel when you let all this shit out.
> cabin igloos in Iceland
>>705968129
It's hard to forget about her
