Anyone up for some feels this lovely day?
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Anyone up for some feels this lovely day?
>>712404924
>>712404924
What's got you feelin today /b/ro?
Bump
Bump because I know some anon is in their feels, and I like to talk to feelin anons
There will be a fucking feels thread today. There's no avoiding it.
>>712404924
Damn.
Aaaand back to page one
>>712404924
Hah gay!
>>712405593
Thinking of my ex.. and having sad piano music playing in the background.
I feel so alone..
This thread will not die. I don't have any feels appropriate pictures but you'll all just see my countless bumps for the next 30 minutes before bedtime if that's what it takes
>>712406712
What happened with her man?
Bump
>>712407162
My man
This thread will never die
gf I thought loved me cheated on me with one of my best friends, I cut her out of my life but still miss when we were happy together.
The experience has put me off relationships and has made me realise nothing is sacred anymore. I hate to be a bitch but thankfully I'm alright with being alone for as long as I need.
>>712406864
It was my fault actually.. I had to move away because of military work. So i wasn't going to be able to see her for a few years. It was a difficult decision, but I chose to put her in a spot where she ends it, not me. Didn't want to hurt her at all, so i thought it would be better if I made myself seem like someone she wouldn't want to be with.
Now im searching around the internet and finding her social media accounts and just looking at her face to remember the wonderful moments I had with her. She was the only girlfriend I had, and the only person that truly loved me. I fucked it up, I fucked it up bad. I haven't talked to her since that day and never told her the real reason why it had to end. I feel now that I could of done it better, but its too late. She more than likely has someone else now.
>oxycontin/speed addict
>mum died of leukaemia at 7
>dad in car accident, crippled at 8
>lost apprenticeship due to depression
>developed psychosis shortly after
>hallucinations constantly
>depression gets more severe
>dad's spine is crumbling, going to be paralysed from neck down
>he's my only friend, have to look after him daily
>he's getting suicidal as his back gets worse
>think about suicide constantly for past couple years
>have to hold it together for dad
>drug intake increasing
>losing my grip on reality, hallucinating I'm somewhere totally different
>walls are melting, fabricating people who aren't even there, having full conversations with them
>seriously want to just end it
>ask dad if he wants to go out together, just OD in front of TV together
>he refuses and tries to keep my spirits up
>I know he wants to end it too but he can't stand the idea of me doing it too
>feel numb, just going through the motions
>>712407510
So you're letting some bitch with no sense of loyalty ruin your sense of what is sacred in life? Come on anon, you know that's not realistic. And please tell me you cut the dude out too
>>712407728
Well at least you can take comfort in how humble you were. I respect that, you'll be right in a few months years, but everything is temporary.
>>712407776
Hey man I'm almost 2 months sober today. Have you ever thought about trying? Sometimes the speed alone will make you hallucinate and I think your dad would be in a lot more peace knowing you got help.
>>712407842
No I know, within a week I fucked one of her old friends who fell out with her over the situation, however, I can't see myself with someone else now and I feel too emotionally retarded to actually know what love is.
And yeah, cut him out of my life and all my better friends have, too. also, set his car on fire.
>>712407728
Hey man, you made a concrete decision in life and stood by it. It seems like you're so immersed in dread that you're not willing to consider that this was for the best, or that you can always make new relationships with a lot of people who love you.
>>712408346
Bro, you can't hold yourself back though. I can't say that I know what love is either, but I do know that I'll never be able to learn by developing it for some female before I develop love for myself. And that's a long path
Will post the few I have
>>712407776
Try changing your perspective on life a little, perhaps think about not living for your dad or living at all for that matter, just wake up everyday to watch the sunrise, go for run when you can. and if you do think about going out together, make sure that you make your last memories together the greatest experience of your lives.
>>712408734
>>712408781
>>712407728
Thank you for you service, Goyim
t. Actual jew
>>712408823
All I have unfortunately
bumping for feels
>>712408711
Yeah very much so, I have finally realised now that I need to sort out my own head before I can even think about being with someone else.
Started cutting my chest up again to feel like I have some control over the pain in my life and it keeps me smiling and happy when I go outside and no one can see it so I don't see a problem.
I've stopped looking for love and I'm not even letting it look for me, I just want to be alone and do my thing for a while, hopefully it plays out in my favour.
>>712408899
Found more
>>712409158
Man, that is a problem though. It's nearing my bed time so this is the last post I'll make for the day. But I know life can be painful man. I got the scars all over my body to prove it, along with the mental hospital visits and years of drug addiction and of course banging every girl I could. But none of that solved any problems for me. None of that gave me actual happiness. So today I'm trying something different. I made a concrete plan of my goals to be, and I'm doing everything I can to accomplish them. I'm trying to dream big because I know that the future is in my hands if I'm willing to grasp it. But before any of that, I try to be of service to people. My work is a bit too hectic to do any volunteer soup kitchen stuff so I come on /b/ and bump the shit out of feels threads to try to find people like me. People who have no hope, and people that I might be able to give hope too. And it really has helped me, along with my prescribed medication of course.
Next time you want to cut yourself bro, I want you to replace it by being of service. It can be anything, as long as your helping another human being with the only intent being to do them a service. Ideally without recognition.
i always liked this one
>be me
>be in euro equivilant of highschool
>have crush on this girl
>she always hangs with her annoying best friend
>whenever i was talking with her and her came to her the friend tried to actively ignore me
> school has a dance
>for some reason the dance will have vip area for extra money
>she sais shes thinkining about going there
>i say aswel since i want to be wanted to be with her
> she changes her mind
> say i change my mind aswel
> bff notices and says
> wow anon it seems like you changed your mind acording to chrush
>fuckthebitchisontome.org
>fast forward couple of months
>valintines day
>school has a roses program want to send her a rose
>i'm so beta that when i finaly write the note my hands are shaking from the adrenaline
>most fucking adrenaline i've ever had actualy struggle to write her name
>its anonymous so she doesn't know
>but its pritty obvious
>still not even a question
>fast forward
>theres this guy who had no friends
>he only hung with the jenators
>then one day he talked to my crush
>a week later they where dating
>mfw i'm literaly les desiarble then the jenators pet
For the first time ever, some "alpha" douche took a girl I was interested in away from me and idk how to react. I'm just kinda shocked. It's worse cuz we both knew him and she always shat on him and talked ab him behind his back but he's fucking her now and she loves it
>>712410548
Bruh...
>>712410548
I like this one too
>>712410570
That's tough shit man. Only thing I can say that might help is next time you like a girl, find the courage to talk to her. You have everything to gain and nothing to lose. Also what you feel now will pass. It will be painful for a while but after a while you'll wake up and find she isn't the first thing you think of, but the second.
>>712410573
Same goes for you really
>going out with this girl for 5 years
>move to other city for work, no problem she says, we are gonna make it work
>fast forward 2 years later, it doesnt work anymore for her
>literally days before i move back and propose she tells me that she has new bf
>i know that i fucked up, and i know that nothing in life is fatal not even death, but why it hurts so much /b/?
>>712411607
Try to move on. She isn't worth the feels.
>>712411607
Because you're human, my friend. That's why it hurts. The day it doesn't hurt anymore, is the day you're dead; Physically, or emotionally.
>>712408781
That made me feel
>>712411953
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s
is this the same dude?
>>712412265
Yup.
>>712411798
The worst part, it's that I KNOW that I never had no chance in hell to be with her...
>>712412934
I plan to kill myself on the eve of my 30th birthday. I'm alone and I don't really have anyone to talk to as they either don't understand, I can't put into words why I've been miserable for so long, or they mock me for it. I constantly ride the line between thinking I'm a decent, interesting person with much to offer a woman to thinking I'm worthless, that I will die alone and deserve nothing good in life. I've tried changing my life but it never seems to make it any better and I'm losing more and more people in my life each year. I'm afraid that I'll just get older and older until I'm 80 years old with no friends or family, no kids or grandkids. If I'm going to die alone, I'm going to do it on my terms and not wait several decades.
>>712413270
do it on your 40th birtday friend, give this clueless life another chance
>>712413860
I still have under a year and a half, but I'm not spending another decade alone. I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living this life by myself.
>>712413270
Nigga fuck that. For the next 10 years go out there and do whatever the fuck you want and I mean whatever; drugs, sex, bar fights, etc. If shit hasn't changed by the time you're 40 then yea kill yourself but fucking hell just go out with a bang and be infamous for a few years.
>>712408899
>>712414832
>>712414908
>>712414998
>>712414699
I'm not really interested in most of that. I find it hard to give a fuck about most things now, I rarely get angry anymore. I feel like there's nothing left for me and I'd rather just end it than prolong this state I'm in. The world wouldn't miss someone like me, and before you say 'but your friends/family would' that's selfish. Wrong, too, I wouldn't be alone if people actually cared.
>>712415091
>>712415138
Lol if you're gonna be that weak about it then fuck you, the world doesn't need more people like you.
>>712415138
>I wouldn't be alone if people actually cared.
So it's not your fault? How about making an effort once in a while?
>>712415442
That's the point, tough guy. No point in living much longer so I'd rather it end sooner than later. Nice try, though. I'm sure your advice would work better in /fit/.
>>712415748
Can i touch you?
>>712415738
A lot of things are my fault, I never said I was blameless. If I try to talk to someone and they don't respond, then that's really out of my hands, it's not like I can make them talk to me. I can understand because they have more people in their lives already, more interesting ones as well.
>>712415960
Dunno, can you?
>>712416170
Come here
>>712415748
Man that attitude is exactly the reason why your life is the way it is. "hurr durr tough guy" "your advice would work better in /fit/" I give you solid advice to just let loose and stop being a faggot since you're already at rock bottom anyway so not like you can make things worse, then you just throw it all in my face because "that's not how I am myyyannnn!", look loser you aren't anybody because you've never even tried to be somebody. I call you weak and then you have the audacity to insult me, I imagine you're the guy who bumps into assholes all day without realising that they're actually the asshole.
>>712416293
Nah, that's okay.
>>712416391
Someone's got some pretty thin skin. 'Going nuts' isn't good advice, it's a shitty pipe dream that's only available for people with some kind of safety net like friends or rich parents who will bail them out if they get in trouble.
>>712407728
I was sad for you before you wrote could of. I pretty angry is now. Fuck you
Be me,
>20 average looking
>in a reationship thats falling apart
>Start hanging out with work group
>Me and boss get close
>we both ended up getting hammered.
>start getting close.
>stopped that shit, call significant other to pick me up.
>Goodguygreg.jpg
>couple weeks later significant other and i slipt
>good.mov
>Continue To hang with boss
>We ended up getting. Drunk one night and fucking
>Fuckingamazing.gif
> we try dating but have to keep it on the dl
>started to really like him
>Ex keeps harassing me. Might blow our cover.
>Paranoia.jpg
>me and the boss break up over if.
>Fuckthisshit.png
>Left, moved, made a decent life for myself, I just miss my reationship with my boss.
>>712416764
>thin skin
Still trying the insults, I give up. Don't forget to live stream.
>only available for people with some kind of safety net
>but you said you're going to kill yourself so who cares?
>clearly not actually going to an hero
>attention seeking faggot
>>712414832
>>712414908
>>712414998
>>712415091
>>712415194
Someone took the picture, so they're not entirely alone.
>be me at 18
>did a shit ton of psychedelics
>realized I have schizophrenia
>realized all my interactions with everyone are hollow and toxic
>lose my family's trust
>lose all my friends
>get kicked out on my 19th birthday after tripping hard the night before
>feel completely dead
>feel like everyone can see how mentally fucked I am
>finally get a job after a few months
>spent most of paycheck on the same shit that destroyed my life literally months ago
Should I seriously just kill myself now?
>>712416764
>>712415748
>>712415138
>>712413270
Anon, don't listen to that other guy. He means well, but it's not the sort of advice you need.
If you could, try and get a hobby. Anything. Buy a cactus and take care of it. Or maybe pick up a guitar and learn some songs. Or make a video game, or an anime, or maybe write a book. Buy a dog.
I have my own passions, they're really the only things that give me a reason to live. You don't owe me anything because I'm an internet stranger, but I implore you to try and find something that interests you and try and make something cool.
You'll find that if you have a team of people working with you, or someone or something relies on you to live, you'll find a new meaning in your life.
Life has no real meaning, it's up to us to decide that meaning. That is the true purpose of life... Making our own.
>>712417446
Get some self-control and some professional help.
>>712417400
Maybe you should be somewhere else if you're going to be this much of a salty faggot. I'm not well off, I don't have the means to go on some epic bender.
>>712411798
No one
![hqdefault[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/Tei3IWg.jpg "hqdefault[1].jpg")
Life. No umbrella, no light at the end, no happy ending only truth. Good thread
>>712417446 fellow nutball here.
>Should I seriously just kill myself now?
I don't know, are you having fun? Do you enjoy the mysteries and things in your life as if you're piecing together a puzzle? Is there anything you are looking to get out of life but it seems impossible, is that bothersome enough to want to die, to die because of unfulfilled desires?
I've been through many mental breakdowns and bouts with depression and so far things have gotten more interesting, enough that I don't stay in a depressed mindset for nearly as long as I did in highschool. When I didn't have mental issues. Think for yourself about what you want to get out of life, think about how if possible you can get that. You probably have thought about all this stuff before but that doesn't mean that a change of the picture makes it meaningless to look at.
>>712417734
I have a few hobbies, namely Warhammer and table top RPGs. But for the last two years I haven't been able to indulge in them in person. I've tried playing on Roll20 but now the group seems to always flake every week. I'm trying to learn guitar since I've always wanted to play an instrument I can sing with, maybe it'll come along eventually.
The problem is that I find it hard to meet people and open up. I don't think I'm very interesting and most of the things I like are indoor activities, which sucks since everyone here seems to be an outdoorsy type. I've tried online dating but I'm just one guy among thousands that's not desperate enough to tell some whale that she's a 10.
anyone have the Icarus story? forgot to save it yesterday
>>712418632
post face
>>712418996
I'd rather not. I'm not a good looking guy and I don't want to end up in some cringe thread.
>>712418975
here anon
>>712417446
>>712417446
I know it is hard i probably Cant relate to your Problems i had my fair Share too.. also was very suicidal a few years Back and my Mom paniced Punched me and stuck me Into a psych Clinic pretended i was fine so they'd let me Out if this shithole... I wasnt obviously but then i came to the conclusion that i will die anyway and hell i am going to try and if Life fucks me so be it but i am Not giving up without trying. Hell do what your want with your Life but dont throw it away. Travel be homeless and Travel or so smth that makes you Kinda Happy or at least gives your Life some purpose who knows someday you will probably find your happiness and your meaning in Life maybe on the other side of the Planet maybe you Go to the rainforest and are going to live with some tribe... I am Not kidding this World has so much to offer if your life is Shit if everything and everyone around you is Shit get away from that dont let anything or anyone pull you down
>>712418632
Well, good job on having hobbies. That said, I don't think video games really count. The key is to -make- stuff, not consume it. It's OK to have those sort of hobbies, but you need to focus on finding things to create.
As for meeting people, do you have a job? If not, get one. It's a good way to meet qts. With online dating, you have to be impressive and catch people's attention. It just comes back to how many hobbies you have - do some impressive ass shit and build your "social resume."
Get good at all of the things that ever interested you. I promise if you master everything you want to learn, you won't be suicidal anymore.
You'll be sad sometimes, but there's too much cool shit to do before you die. Do it all!
>>712419450
I play vidya, but I mean Warhammer like the physical models. Build them, paint them, conversions and such. When I have the time I feel a sense of calm when I'm painting. Probably because I have something to really focus on. But it's fleeting. It's like when I worked out. I managed to lose 40 pounds and when I was at the gym I didn't think about anything else but what I was listening to and what I was doing, say running or whatever.
I have a job in an insurance office but it's temporary. I'm hoping I can work there permanently as it's not overly hard and the commute is convenient, and frankly I like riding the train to work.
I've been sad for the last 13 years. Sure there have been points where it wasn't so bad, where I had friends, a good job and a decent apartment, but I still lacked love. I've been with some really shitty girls in my time, none of which I'd ever think of being with on a long term basis. I even disliked them when I was with them. One girl I fooled around with said we should date, and when I asked the question my interest in her immediately fell through. I kissed her and didn't feel a thing. I've just never met anyone I felt strongly before and I don't know of anyone that's felt that way for me. I could have a great job and be a master of everything under the sun but if I have no one to share it with, then what's the point? I find that people who say that having a relationship isn't everything have had something worthwhile at some point, whereas I haven't. It's like telling a man that's starving that food isn't all that great after you've just finished a big meal.
Why the fuck is every piece of advice to get out of depression and get your life back on tracks so much effort?
And if you say because life takes effort don't lie, not everyone goes through depression and fights it, they never have to go through that effort the fucks
>>712420687
People give advice based on their own experiences, so what worked for them may not work for you. What's worse are the 'fuck that shit bro' guys that think if they get angry and use enough swears then you'll follow their advice and get better in a matter of days, like depression is some kind of physical entity you can attack rather than something wrong with your brain coupled with a shitty life.
>>712404924
I almost killed myself last night. I have been depressed longer than I can remember. I had a gun to my head and was ready to do it, but I decided to call my dad first. I talked with him for a while and he talked me out of it, and then came and got me from my apartment. The only positive is now I realize how much of an unmanageable problem my depression has become and I made an appointment with a therapist.
I rage sometimes, when I'm not even mad
like right now, shaking for no reason
if someone gets in my way when I do this, I rage at them
anons know this feel? I'm just starting to realize it
>>712404924
from a famous last words thread on /his/
:'^(
>>712420687
when ur system is depressed its harder to do anything, you may not even be 'sad' and still have depression
if you want an express-lane solution then skip everything and work out, the visual difference between someone who does 10 pushups a day and someone who doesn't is astonishing
>>712421104
I have no motivation or passion for anything and I hate when people tell me "do what you love" because I don't love to do anything. And then they tell me to try different things and find my passion, where the fuck is that motivation supposed to come out of? Their words alone? All I know for sure is that I won't feel this when i'm dead, and most importantly I won't care about anyone when i'm dead. There won't be any guilt cause my family will be sad, I'll be dead I won't care.
>>712417929
i understand this too well.
>>712421443
Get help man. Depression is hard and you can't fight it alone sometimes.
>>712421544
Think most of us do
>>712421443
>I don't love to do anything
then what are you doing right now?
playing video games/hentai?
>>712420471
Keep working on the hobbies, Anon. If you liked working out, get /fit/. I promise it'll get better. You just gotta hang in there and keep on keeping on. Build a good hobby resume and maybe try online dating again - but make sure to include how fucking cool you are in your description.
You hear people say "put yourself out there" a lot. People also often wonder what the fuck that means. Putting yourself out there is basically being able to show people how cool you are - and in part, this comes from either being really really good at one thing, or being good at a lot of things. Life is a lot like a game in that way - you're basically grinding until you're a level 99 chad.
Don't give up hope. If you fall down, try again and learn from your mistakes. Just don't do the same thing over and over and expect change.
Try all this and come back and report your results in the next feels thread
>>712421694
No, I can't get into games most of time anymore, and when I do I feel like I've wasted the past hour or more playing it and go to sleep tired and angry at myself. Masturbation on the other hand is an urge I can't stop sometimes, but that's normal.
>>712421664
I've failed math for the past 4 years of my high school career.
I've pushed everyone I've talk to away. Everyone tries to get me to leave my house. I make excuses to stay in.
My girlfriend of 2 years left me, because she said i didn't care enough. It's completely untrue though, I love her unconditionally, I can't stop thinking about her, I cant keep her off my mind, I can't stop thinking about how, I miss how she silenced my demons.
I use to smile everyday for no reason, I was happy every day no matter what, no matter what I was told I smiled and pushed on.
I know I love her, she offered to come back, she begged for me back, she showed up at my house crying and begging, I stood their emotionless telling her I dont know.
I don't know who I am anymore, I dont know where I am anymore, I don't know if I want to wake up tomorrow, I don't know where I should go. All I think about is her and an hero'ing it.
>>712422120
Well you got two things on your mind.
Pursue one of them.
>>712414491
fock
>>712422324
what do i pursue, I have no motivation.
I use to be /fit/, I havent been to the gym in three weeks.
>>712421899
Putting myself out there might work, if I wasn't an average, or let's be realistic, less than average looking guy. I'm not cool or awesome, what I am is practical and more honest with myself than others. I'm not ashamed of my more nerdy hobbies, it's something I have listed because that's what I enjoy. But I'm sure most women aren't interested in that and if I try to be more outgoing about it I'll probably come off as some creepy weirdo. It also doesn't help that there are a thousand better guys than me in every site and girls basically have their pick.
I keep getting back up but I get knocked down again, only to get up and knocked right back down. There's only so much hitting I'm willing to take from life. It also doesn't help that my so called 'best friend' is a backstabbing cunt that owes me a tonne of money and doesn't seem to get why someone would be angry with them if they abandoned them.
>>712408781
wow
most of my time is spent lying down, thinking aboit how i misseeeefd my opportunities to turnmy life aaaaaaaaaaaaaaround
ive trieeed to love people, but tttttttthey a llllways love someone elseeeee
every time i try to be with someone, ora everytime i try to ge t a friend; they always seem to ignore me.
the only "friends" that i have are the people i docia lize with wheneeever i work
but when its time to work together, or when work ends, i am always alone
i jusssst want to be happy again
i just want to go back to when life didnt suck
im just tired of being alone
eei just want someone who likes what ilike, but thats ptretty rare
i just dont want to put on masks for evertybody that i talk to
i jusssst want to go baaaaaaaack when life was goodddd
but sheees gone, not like i had a vhance to begin with, now i cant trust women
everyone i try to love is already in love with another person
maybe when i get enough money from working, things will change
ive tried summoning tulpae, but the y never show up
demons as well, i jusssst want someone to hang out with in real lifea and play some vidya
theres aalways tomorrorew to try............. maybe things will changeeee
my birthday hasnt been celebrated for 3 years in a row, maybe next year will be different..[
wnext year i might have friendds with me,maybe even aaa girlfriende
im jusssst ttired of it
whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy
at leasati i have you /b/ros, always here at the end of the daaay
maybe someone will have my area code in an area code threaaaad, i've been trying for a few months but soon o
maaaybe i can go back, maybe i can get my family to loveeeeeeem e again, maybe i can find a career, and not a job
i miss the good old daysssssssssssss
i dont care if the thread 404ss, just scroll passssst meeeeeeeeeeee
i jusssssst wanteed to shattttttttrsa share what wason my mindddd
look at this cutwe birs
anytone else here like birds?
i have a bird
>>712422718
mark?
>>712419212
I laughed so much at this
>>712423095
Nope.
>>712422718
Physical attractiveness actually doesn't matter as long as you're not horrific looking, and even then, there have been some real ugly guys able to get some really hot girls. It comes down to confidence, as you already know. The secret is that confidence in turn comes from being good at something. The stereotypical Chad is confident because he knows he's good with people and communication, and maybe a sport or athletics. What people fail to realize is that confidence can again, come from hobbies and being good at stuff. For example, the music-chads are really good at music and sing to girls because theyre confident in their music abilities.
At the end of the day, you have to come to terms with what you're good at, and you need to say, "That's cool as shit." If you say it's cool as shit, women will see that you're confident at what you're good at and will find you attractive.
That doesn't mean you can get good at making warhammer guys and go get a stacy, but if you get good at making warhammer guys and in turn use that ability to make custom figures you can sell online, and then make a ton of money, that will not only make you more wealthy but also improve your confidence.
It's all about using your god-given abilities to do cool shit. DO COOL SHIT. Use your skills in a variety of creative ways. That will ultimately fuel your confidence and make you attractive to people.
Anyway, as for your friend, it's best not to give people more than two chances, in my experience. Cut him off and get a new pal.
Just remember: when life gives you lemons, make a lemonade stand and make fat cash off it.
>>712413525
Fuck.
I don't want this to be true...
As long as you weren't arrested as a molester of children or something, you are fine. You can still do whatever you want, build a reputation, etc.
I'm not kidding here. You can do whatever you want. You have all the freedom I used to have.
Broke up with gf of 10 years about 5 months ago. My family fell apart. No friends because i dedicated my time to my family, for her to fuck around behind my back. Now im stuck in my moms house, no car, no job, no money, no friends, and no hope. I have a 3 year old little girl who i love but if i dont an hero soon im afraid shes just going to be another person who i love and dissapoint. Fml.
>>712411798
well I actually did say to her how i felt. I know she rejected me. It's not so much better than not knowing...
>>712423406
I suppose that's something to consider, but things tend to get in the way. My plan is to get a permanent job, somehow find a place to live in the Vancouver area (which is where I am now) that isn't horribly overpriced, then go back to the gym and slowly get into shape. It's mostly about meeting new people, something I wasn't able to do earlier this year because I worked nights. I couldn't even hang out with my roommate. I'm willing to change my life, it just doesn't always work out for me. And what really gets me is when people say life works out, when it doesn't. Life isn't a movie and sometimes you get shit on for no reason that you can find. I'd just like to meet someone for a change, I'm not expecting some 10/10, but someone I find attractive and interesting, someone that gets me. I don't want to settle for someone, and I sure as hell don't want someone to settle for me. One girl already tried to do that and I said no, which was actually kinda satisfying because she was the one who didn't want to get serious first.
>>712424063
Yes it is. An answer is always better than wondering what could have been. Kudos to you for having the balls to tell her
>>712418566
>Do you enjoy the mysteries and things in your life as if you're piecing together a puzzle?
This. Beautifully worded, anon.
You have to constantly strive to make life seem interesting and unknown. As if every day is an adventure and you are going to discover something great. As if there are mysteries to be solved. Sounds gay as fuck but it's the only way you retain a passion for life that hinders you from becoming depressed.
A lust for life is based on not knowing what will happen everyday. From not creating routines which you know the ins and outs of. And yes, it's hard, but trust me. Is you day just /b/ and vidya? Then you'll never be happy.
Guys like us here, we have to fight depression everyday by retaining lust for life. Stay strong boys!
>>712424570
Don't give up Anon. You'll figure it out. Hopefully my advice gives you something to ponder in the meantime.
>I'm afraid
>for so long, I lived my life in certainty
>I knew what I was going to do, what I was to become
>then, she came
>you know the story of ''she'', details are unecessary
>what's important is, she changed me
>I'm not talking about how she ''wreck my life''
>no, she changed something fundemental in me
>I was cold, calculating, calm, and ever so patient
>but most importantly, I was resolute
>now, I am emotional, temperate, anxious and impatient
>I could do anything if I set my mind to it
>now I struggle to keep my focus for 10 minutes straight
>hell I can't even read book
>however, what I really miss is my sense of humor
>all gone
>I'm lazy, fearful, weak and mediocer
>I fear I'll turn into a NEET
>I fear I'll lose whathever friends I've left
>I fear I'll lose the girl I have now, which was able to glue back some pieces of my shattered self
>I'm afraid /b/
>very afraid
>>712421360
He won't be missed by his relatives but he will be remembered on 4chan as anon's uncle
>>712422663
I meant an hero or go after her
bump
when i was 1, my family got a cat named lucas, and we grew up together.
My parents divorced when i was 5, so my brother, mother and i moved to a different city. I basically took refuge in her and she became the most important thing in my life. I never had many friends in this city and the past 5 years she was the only thing i had left. My mother worked all the time and was never home, so I was 24/7 alone with my cat. I never felt alone because she kept me company.
I've been depressed ever since i can remember, but i was slowly getting better because she made me really fucking happy.
Back in january my dog passed away and my cat lucas became really depressed, so she was always hiding in my room and only wanted to be with me. We thought she was getting better until September came and she stopped eating and drinking. We had to take her to the vet every morning for one week so they could feed her. She ended up passing away on the 15th.
i've never wanted to die more than now and my depression got really fucking bad. the pain doesnt get any better and i miss her more than anything in the world.
>>712426591
They can be the closet friend ever.
But the greatest nightmare when you lose them.
Anon, you simply have to endure the pain.
It is hard, but you must go on with life.
hey i have novbody to talk to
i just did bunch of coke and im FLYIN
hello 4chan
this counts as a feel right
>>712428454
It does.
Hello, /b/rother.
Don't do drugs though, you'll fuck up worse. Alcohol is a better solution.
>>712404924
>>712428553
No, it's not. Really... I know what I'm saying.
this is sad
Ever since I was a child family and close friends died.
When I was a child my grandma died due slime in her lungs, she choked.
My grandfather hanged himself, I saw his body.
All my pets I saw dying front me.
At those times I have cried and went hysterical.
but after that I fell in depression and my only emotions were anger and hate, but then I felt nothing regardless what happened.
No joy, no anger, no sorrow, just nothing.
My dreams is nothing but a black void.
Not so long ago another friend died after a long battle with cancer.
The day they said he died, I felt nothing.
The day I went to his burial, I felt nothing.
Two months passed, I still feel nothing.
Life and death don't interest me.
Even in this feel thread, I still feel nothing.
>>712404924
that frog has shit squat form
>>712408823
gave me chills
>>712428865
The day that anons of 4chan made me cry.
>>712407162
>T-34
First post ever
>be 16
>be stoned a lot
>dad is a alcohol and drugs addict
>mother cries a lot bc of me
>had a gf for 2 years
>i break up with her bc we both cheated and it just turned to shit
>she gets a new bf
>i fuck her and she breaks up with him
>i knock her up
>dont go to school anymore despite having real opportunities, doing the highest level of education in my country
>been dealing and doing burglaries and stealing mopeds and such
>turns out best mate from primary school is now a hard drugs user
>sell drugs to him, wouldnt have come if it was him
>"it isnt for me, but for a mate"
>girl wants me to take care of the baby when its born instead of us both
After 8 months
>she gets a miscarriage
>she blames me for it all
3 months or so pass, get a new gf and everything starts going better again
>apartment where i live with my mom and sister gets raided, I get arrested, mother and sister are in tears
>charged with a lot of things, police makes mistakes so i actually dont get send off to jail
>Best friend at the time gets shot and dies, been very close to him for years
>his family blames me for his death
>>712409469
Cunt should be dead by now
Gonna dump my favorite story, has a happy ending for anyone wondering.
>>712413270
Where do you live anon?
>>712425106
That's the fucking worst thing I can imagine
>>712430077
I recognize you, and your feelings, if that is the right word.
There is no one to help you.
Help yourself.
People are good to have, but are finite. You must make sure you are the only constant.
Survive, and make a mark.
>>712432110
Kek
I wish i was functional enough to have friends and a girlfriend.
It gets lonely sometimes
Oldfag here. I can't take your depressing shit today /b/, so i'll just post this and get my happy ass to sleep.
I've always felt like something was missing from my life, ever since i was a kid. I used to look in my basket of toys to see if there was a toy there that i was missing or something, i could never shake that feeling. Eventually i filled the hole with world of warcraft. To cut the long ass story short i played for many years on and off. I would spend months inside playing, at the longest i spent 6 months in my room and i didn't speak a word to my parents. They had enough problems arguing so they just put food inside my door and let me be. I was 16 at that time.
2 years forward, i quit wow. Was super happy, working out and smiling at every single person that looked at me. I was literally glowing with excitement. Forward 2 years and i was trying to kill myself, i was insanely depressed and i didn't really know why.. That feeling was back again. I started missing it more and more and it just kept getting worse. got back into dating and i found an amazing girl, she was 30 i was 20 at the time. The relationship ended up being solely about Sex after two breakups and we had a mutual arrangement. We broke completely off after a while and i was back at zero.
At 22 years old i was ready to kill myself for the last time.. I played on a wow vanilla server with a friend of mine for a while until i quit for some reason (don't remember why).
He called me on skype one drunken night and invited a girl into the conversation. Being the cowardy shithead i darted but i ended up dating that girl. Now i'm 24, she is 26 and we have a 15 month old daughter together and i couldn't be happier. But That's not what filled that hole.
I tried to fill the hole with a wide array of multiple pets, i had chinchillas, a dog, cat, birds different rodents.. nothing helped.
I started keeping a diary about my depression and it went on..
>>712423001
I hope things get better for you, /b/ro
>>712432984
Cont
I didn't have feelings for my own daughter and i felt like abandoning them because i was such a shitty dad not being able to feel jack for her.
So after being depressed about wow for so many years i finally decided to boot up my own private server to go back to the memories, visit the old places and see what good i could get out of it. I was filled with an ecstasy of happiness and boy did it feel good.. Sure it's fucking sad that it affected my life so much but it was such a big part of me and i never got to say goodbye properly. There are multiple holes in this story but i need to sleep and i figured this might cheer someone up. Never give up, keep doing what makes you happy, even if it's some stupid game that took up most of your life.. In the end i realized i missed my friends and i am working on that now. Gn /b/ gonna take my tipsy ass to bed now.
>>712408781
fuck
>>712431968
I hope that anon and his badass girl lived a happy life.
>>712414069
Look bro. You were given this life for free. Just because the standard is to have a g/wife doesn't mean you have to have one. Same goes with friends and family. Use these measly 70-ish years you were giving by having any kinds of available experiences. That's my moto. You're going to die anyway, why rush it, experience and explore while you can. That's my advice man. Hope you can see what I mean.
>>712434690
were given*
>>712431924
New Westminster.
>>712427621
That's not true. She did love me, she did kiss me. She was mine. Just not now.
I don't know what it is about her, but she is such a hard girl to read. Nothing she does is typical, some stuff leans one way, and other stuff, yet another way.
I just wish that I can get closure out of her. A simple, "Yes, I am interested" or a "No, I only see you as a friend"
In fact, she never even used the word "Friend" with me, at all. But she seems to be kinda wanting to open up with me at times. But when ever she starts, she closes up again
So what is it? Is she interested? or is she not interested?
>>712435299
Ask her
>>712435396
If only it was that simple with her.
We met up only once, and haven't since. Even though she claim's she's busy I still catch so many of the signs of a shy girl being interested.
Could be shyness coupled with social anxiety leading her oddness
>>712435299
I've been there.
She had something happen to her. Something bad. She'll never open up to you. She can't. If you have to be with her, you have to take action. Without scaring her, of course.
Be very careful. At best, she'll make you lose sleep for years. At worst, you'll be a broken shell of the man you used to be once you are trough with her.
If you do fight trough and make her into something she can be, then I can only hope what she can be is something that has a fragment of good will in it.
Because what you wish for isn't always what you want.
I'm 22. A few weeks back I had sex with a single mother and a cute 2 year old daughter.
We've been texting a lot but have only met once after the one night. I've been staying up until 3-5am for the past weeks since my flatmate and I have had friends over daily.
I would love spending time with her but I'm a jobless stoner. I've gotten very depressed during these past weeks.
I've always wanted to father a daughter but I'm afraid I'll just break my heart. I think we'll have sex on the upcoming weekend...
Any thoughts?
>>712435938
>She had something happen to her. Something bad.
I have a possible idea of what the bad thing coulda been. Loosing her house during a hurricane. Only one on her block flooded. Was demolished soon after. Never rebuilt. Been 4 years already
I know, I need to be the one to be there for her. Either with that, or anything else that may arise.
Also, I have no doubt that in the end, she will be good person. Regardless if I helped her get there, or if she did it herself. But will it be the same girl I fell for? or someone else? Who knows.
I am slipping into alcoholism and the anxiety and depression are getting to a point where it is hard to manage. I can noticeably see myself decompensate and its terrifying. I feel terrible all the time and have been having these nightmares interspersed with dreams where I kill myself.
I find it is harder and harder to go out and do anything, I just feel crushed.
>>712436385
I thought the same about the the broken pair of wings that I fell for too. She couldn't have been bad, I've said to myself.
Be careful, brother. Be very careful.
But I'll be damned before I tell you not to pursue her.
Why does this song play right after I bring up the possibility of messaging her? Every single time.
Billy Joel - Tell Her About It.
Not too into signs, but maybe it is one?
>>712437105
What was the case with yours?
Mine is a Nursing Student who seems to be a bit of a workaholic. Volunteers alot as well.
Can't see her hurting a fly.
Just found my cat dead out in the road, she was hit by a car. She was only five years old.
send hugs pls
>>712436285
anon, u don't wanna withdraw that statement?
A bit late to the party I guess
But still I'm.here if anyone wants someone to talk to/advice/someone to listen
>>712437129
No such thing as a sign. Fate isn't really. If you want her, go get her. I believe in you.
>>712437394
i'm a failure in life. doc's said to me that i won't live to see my 30. 7 years to go. im dont look forward to my future anyways. i dont know what to begin with it.
it's said that when your life drops to its lowest point, then there's no way to go but up. but i don't know where my lowest point is. and i don't know if i want to stay and find that out.
>>712437327
:( *hugs*
>>712437279
>highschool
>she
>shy, draws well, complete shut in
>father left when 5, grandfather died at 8, raped at 13-14
>has a spark I can't forget even today
>me
>calculating, cold, manupilative
>been reading psychology papers since 13
>I've spent time seeking ways to lie so well that nobody saw trough me.
Something in her eyes stirred something in me.
I spent 4 years trying to fix her. I think I did.
Then I snapped.
And what she was underneath wasn't going to return to favor by helping me.
>>712437676
So if you already know your life expectancy isn't too long don't worry too much about the future, try to live in and focus on the moment
Buy shit you like
Do shit you like to do
Try to grab life by the nuts and enjoy it while you still can man
God knows what id be doing if I didn't have to worry about 10 years Down the line
>>712437471
Yea. I really do believe I have a chance. But she may have had some shit happen in her life that may hurt the prospects of a relationship
>>712437327
Sorry to hear that anon *hugs*. My cat was run over last year and I've been noticeably less happy since then. He was a rescue cat but probably around the same age as yours, always happy and playful.
>>712437919
but im lazy as fuck. to buy shit it recuires me to work. to do shit i like it recuires me to be social.
im a fag i know.
>>712438058
Then you help mend her. What is broken can be reforged.
>>712412473
This one hits hard for me man. GF of almost a year texted me Friday night drunk as fuck and told me she fucked some guy.
>>712437825
Well... Uh... Maybe you can be partially at fault as well?
As fair as I can tell, she doesn't have any real family issues, but maybe mostly trauma from losing her home. And many possessions as well.
>>712437825
>calculating, cold, manoopilationtive
You sound like a cheeky cunt
>>712438221
dump the cunt
>>712438154
True. Posted this about what it could be. >>712436385
Her behavior that leads me to think that maybe it may work out, but will require a bit of effort.
>She is shy, and kinda doesn't acknowledge me unless I say something, then we can talk for a good while without issue. This is even when it is just us standing next to each other before class.
>Does not initiate texts, but is willing to talk for hours with detailed replies once I get her going
>I have seen her looking at me from a distance, sometimes locking eyes. (Once she began to crack a smile)
>When I asked for her number, she took my phone and punched it in. (It was the actual number, obviously)
>When I asked her to grab lunch the first time, she said she was busy that weekend, so I offered up Monday, which she accepted.
>>712438144
Nah man I feel it
I feel like that alot of days too
>>712437825
this post is edgy as shit
dad is that you, you stupid faggot?
>>712438311
I thought of that too.
Trust me, I never once wronged her.
She just couldn't return the favor by saying that she loved me when I begged her for it.
>>712408899
>Sister gets parties and friends come over and have a blast
>Same for my brother
>tried twice for me to have parties, both at different periods of my life
>No one would ever come
>Mother never threw parties for me and now i daren't ever invite anyone to anything
>Were supposed to do a thing for my 21st, go out drinking as family
>Not even they would come with me, telling me we would go another day because busy
>3 years later and still nothing
Parties are bullshit, man.
>>712438779
I'd go drinking with you anon, although I don't like alcohol
>>712438688
I thinks thats partially where you failed.
You tried "fixing" her, for your own selfish reasons and not to help her as a person.
This is a relationship that just ended last week for me. It was about two months, but it was so special to me; this girl was the first one to make me forget about my first girlfriend, someone I was with for 3 years.
>go out with a few friends one weekend
>at pre-drinks, I see this absolutely gorgeous girl sitting on the lounge
>could not stop staring at her, she was perfect! Her eyes sparkled when she smiled, and when she smiled, she would look around the room and it was just infectious
>too nervous to talk to her
>anyway get really drunk, and go out clubbing
>dancing with friends, this girl was making out with some dude earlier in the night so I kind of just forgot about her
>after about an hour, she comes up to our group to dance
>she literally grabs me pushes me against the club wall and makes out with me
>go back to my room (we live on the same base)
> tell her I would text her next morning (didn't plan to, but something about her sparked my interest)
> go for a date next night at the town markets, talk for hours it's going great
>go on 3 day OP overseas
> come back she tells me how much she's missed me etc
> go out that weekend with friends
>she's cuddly and won't leave my side for about an hour and a half
>she asks me to get her a glass of water as she's drunk
>go get it, look for her, disappeared, find her at bar making out with some dude
>I tap her on the shoulder and said what the fuck, handed her water and walked out
>she came over to my room the next morning and apologised, said she blacked out and remembered nothing from that night; doesn't remember even seeing me.
> forgive her as we're not even together
>fast forward 3-4 weeks, we were exclusive but not official, all friends knew
1/3
>>712438960
knew
> went out again with friends, we had an argument as she hadn't talked to me for like two days (ignoring texts)
Just going to mention we literally had spent almost every night together, and she kept telling me how quickly I was becoming an important part of her life
>anyway, out with friends, we had an argument about not talking
>she goes home with my friend (lives in room next to me, we'll call him S)
> I had gone home early cause I had work next day, but stayed up talking to a friend (call them C)
>walked past his room, heard her moaning
>started screaming for S to come out, he refused, til C came out, took me downstairs to talk
>went back up to my room, found S hiding in C's closet
>ripped him out and started laying into him until C pulled me off
>next morning ignore the girl, and all day
>Sunday comes (we went out Friday)
>she comes over and says that it was the biggest mistake and wake up call for her ever
>she tells me she only wants me and no one else, and that she would never lie to me or cheat on me again
>goes out next weekend, some guy tries to kiss her she says no. I believe her
>hear from friends a few weeks later that's not how it went down; she grabbed him and kissed him, then she saw our friends looking, pushed him away and told them not to tell me
>forgive her again, because I'm fucking pussy whipped and I really like this girl
>last week she met my mother on Saturday night, got along really well, spent the night together; pillow talk about how she can't wait for us to be serious and how happy I make her and she's never had anyone treat her this well
>Tuesday comes, she tells me that she is not ready for commitment and that I deserve better, but she doesn't want me out of her life because I'm too important to her
>find out Wednesday from a friend that she went out the night before meeting my mum and hooked up with "multiple guys"
>she denies it and starts crying
Found out the love of my life lost intrest in me completely for the last 6 months of our relationship and the only reason she never told me was because she was afraid of being alone. Like she absolutely was repulsed by me and wanted nothing to do with me. The thing that hurts the most is that every single kiss/hug/intimate moment in those last 6 months was completely fake and right after they were over she would bitch to her friends about how she hated me. In the end she tried to blame everything on her "bi-polar disorder" but she had a habit of victimizing herself and making everything seem like my fault. I'm glad the relationship is over and wound NEVER go back to that cunt but knowing about how she hated and resented me for those last 6 months while stringing me along to believe everything was alright feels absolutely horrible.
Here's a stupid pic that always makes my dumbass laugh
>>712422052
God damn that pisses me off. Fuck the father and fuck the cunt mother. Fuck man.
>>712439090
crying
>decided on Thursday that she and I are not going to have any communication for a week, so she can decide exactly what she wants from us
>she went out last friday, with four dudes and snap chatted the whole night to me
>talked to yesterday and said I'll never date her but I'll be friends for the sake of our friends, admits that the night before she met my mother last week she hooked up with three guys
>i cooked dinner for a few friends last night, and she came but she was vegetarian so I had to make her a different dish.
>as I was cooking up here, she literally got
in her car and left
>she texted me an hour later telling me she had to go see her sister and she was on her way back
>so I finished cooking her dinner
>she went straight to bed, didn't even come get the dinner, so I took it to her room
>she ate it and didn't even thank me.
I posted this story the other day, so some anons might remember me, but I'm still just struggling to deal with it
>>712404924
That's a strong one
>>712438463
Your girl sounds like me, except I'm not a girl and just a socially awkward faggot. I never initiate any conversation because I don't think anything I say could be interesting, but if someone wants to talk to me I'm happy about it. I often try to avoid meeting people even though I don't have anything against spending time with them. She probably just lacks confidence (like me) which is something you can help her with.
>be me
>gf of about 3 years
>lots of feels, incriminating sorts of bonding, shared v card, planned to marry.
>smol 8.5/10 qt 3.13
>able to make her do ANYTHING a corrupt anon would through lots of grooming
>work moves about 104 miles north.
>she lives with her parents.
>family is a bunch of jehova fags
>they groom her into thinking im bad for her because, muh religion reasons.
>rebound the groom and show her that they are manipulative.
>three months later, still up north, get to visit every month.
>her friends tell me shes been talking to some chink that just got out of a relationship.
>thing is we still talk, and last time i visited, we fucct.
i may or may not be getting cucct
>>712438221
whut more context?
>>712439111
You are not a pussy
Most people would say they love and her want her back gj
>>712439359
You know something? I am not much different than I described her for the most part. So this will be difficult
Two Socially awkward fucks trying to start a relationship? Gonna be tough.
>>712438918
Sounds good, i'll buy you however many lemonades you want, i just hope you're okay with carrying my blitzed ass back home or into a taxi
>>712410548
Im sorry to break the mood but somebody has to do add an image of a guy lifting a tree with the caption:
>Functional strenght
god I miss good /fit/ sometimes
>Mfw never shared intimacy with anyone
>Mfw never even had contact with girls beyond acquaintance
what I wouldn't give to be in the friend zone
I'm in quite a predicament /b/ros, this year has been really fucked up for me to be fair.
Nothing really soul destroying but to sum it up, anxiety got worse, had my first girlfriend who used me and threw me away once she was bored, grandfather died and now I'm really kind of lost.
Finished university and can't find a job, I have a slight chance of suceeding if I go to another country.
Anyways what I want to talk about and would like to hear your insight on this. right now I'm going through a very weird self esteem issues phase where I've been constantly trying to use cosplaying as a method of gaining popularity and getting to know people (of course the real reason is to find another girlfriend).
Of course it's not working, sure the popularity is nice but they're just there to see me do cool poses and wear outfits, not really interested in myself.
>>712439866
I was like that for the two days before I left (we lived together and had to wait to leave until I got paid) then the second I got onto the freeway with my dog in the seat next to me and all my shit in the back it felt like a lead jacket had been lifted off me. People need to realize that life gets better and not get caught in the past.
>>712439454
if you're not in a relationship with her, you're doing the cucking
>>712440096
Yeah, I would have a hard time keeping up a relationship if the other person didn't take the initiative. But you should at least keep in mind that if it seems like she's avoiding you or being distant, there's probably nothing wrong. Once you get closer and more comfortable with each other I think it will work out just fine.
>>712439636
My GF has depression aswell as bipolar and one thing where she feels emotions stronger than regular people not sure what it's called. Everytime she did something wrong like hang out with her friends and ditch me she would apologize a lot and cry. She never hid anything from me. I trusted her and respected her so much. She goes out touring with her brother and his friends and they get drunk and high and just hang around. I was never bothered by this because her brother was there and he plays football and he's not bad from what I've seen. A few days ago she told me her friend logan put his hand on her leg and tried to touch her but she left the car and walked home. I believed her because her brother told me she did. Friday night I get a text saying she fucked up really bad. Almost every word was spelt wrong in all her replies. She said "u hav a baddddasb gf" and I thought she said badass so I asked her what she did that was so "badass" and she started telling me to break up with her because she fucked up. I thought she was in legal trouble so I told her I wouldn't leave her and than she told me she fucked some guy. I went out Saturday with my buddy and got drunk as shit and passed out on the couch. I got 7 missed messages from her. She told me she was sorry and if I stayed with her she promised not to do anything again and this time was only because she was drunk but she's drunk every time. I blocked her and removed her contact. I can't stop crying. I'm not good with people. I can't make eye contact and developing relationships is far too difficult. I don't think I'll have another relationship for quite some time. I don't have friends and she was the closest to a friend I ever had. I think I'd prefer to stay alone anyways. The past 3 relationships I've been cheated on and I'm beginning to wonder if it's just me and I'm starting to hate myself.
>>712440563
Yeah I've been there dude feeling like it's hard to get past a toxic relationship but I realized it's the best to just forget and it gets easier as time goes on
>>712439273
she sounds like an attention-whoring cunt
drop her, immediately
it's so obvious that the fact you haven't already means you won't ever because you're pathetic
all your friends are laughing at you behind your back or else feeling sorry for you
none of them have any respect for you because you keep taking this girl back
you already know this, but just in case you were in denial
:)
>>712440867
I am trying to kinda take the initiative, but still only so much an awkward fuck can do.
Yea. I think that it will probably work out fine, if we both get comfortable with each other.
But to get there?
>tfw have qt nerd gf
>she's really vapid though
>we don't connect intellectually or emotionally or even ideologically
>for some reason she's madly in love with me though
>like stupidly in love with me
>i barely feel anything for her other than she's kinda hot
>pretty sure im asexual
>can't dump her or she'd be crushed
>tfw alone in this
>tfw all she wants is me and I can't give it to her
A-at least I have a gf,
r-right?
>>712441187
At least you're putting in effort, it's more than I usually dare to do. If she's also aware that you're usually pretty awkward, I'm sure she appreciates you a lot for trying. I'm not experienced enough to give good advice, but keep at it as I'm sure you'll be making her happy.
>>712431968
10/10 would buy a red truck
>>712440949
thanks for sharing bruh, while there are whats it called softening conditions, i'd do the same and dump her ass
>>712434073
oh.
>>712430077
>got the dubs of truth
anon aint lying /b/. they got dubs and dubs never lie.
>>712439273
Well honestly you're an idiot. Should have cut her off the first time she fucked around
>>712441068
Yeah no I know, it's why I've decided never to be with her again, considering she consistently lies to me; but we live in the same area and have the same friend circle, so completely cutting her out is impossible
>>712441675
She knows I'm awkward as shit. She's seen it. I've been upfront with it.
The furthest I usually do is message her first, but I always feel awkward doing it, and can do it monthly at best.
I hope I am not wasting my time with her. I don't think I am, but the shy ones make it so difficult
>>712442461
Your friend circle should've dropped her too if they have any respect for you
And your mate that fucked her isn't your mate
Tell them that you're cutting her out of your life. If they insist on staying friends with her, drop them too. You don't need friends like that
I don't really know what's up with me.
I feel lonely. Just lonely, all the time. I'm too much of a bitch to go outside and meet people since I'm terrified of rejection, which makes me terrified of people in general. I'm 21, I got a car, I can go literally anywhere I want, it's just... I don't want to. I'm too scared. I'm too scared that I'm not good enough. I'm too scared that I'll end up feeling something for someone where they don't. I'm scared that I'll end up with someone and it'll end up falling apart. I'm scared that I'll fuck up somehow. I'm scared of everything. So I don't try to begin with. I can't. I'd rather be lonely and miserable then fail over and over for nothing. I'm trying to just make peace with the fact I'll never not be lonely. That I'll never actually be happy. I was doing good for a while. I'm kind of numb to it... sure it still hurts a bit, but it's the pain that I've felt for so long, I just go "whatever". Then just a few nights ago I had a dream... I had a dream where I was with this girl... this absolutely stunning, beautiful girl. We were outside with each other, we were laughing together, spending the entire day together... we ended up on the top of a ferris wheel, way up high, looking at the city... she curled up next to me, smiling as she put her head into my chest... I wrapped my arm around her and held her hand with the other. I was happy... I was happier than I had ever been...
Then I woke up. Then I remembered how absolutely miserable and broken I actually am. Took me these few days to recover from that... all these defenses I have and it can be broken by something that isn't even real. How pathetic...
>>712443383
I know those feels
be prepapred to feel (be) lonely all your life
>>712442672
I get what you're meaning. If things are moving too slowly for your liking but you want to go for it anyway, maybe try harder to make her spend more time with you. If things still aren't going anywhere by then, it may be time to move on. But then again, if you're having a good time together I wouldn't say there's anything wrong with that. It just depends on what you're looking for in a relationship.
>>712443383
Buy a plane ticket to another country where you don't know anyone, where making a fool of yourself doesn't matter because you'll never see anyone there again, and see what happens
>have gf
>she dies
>>712443713
I just need to actually get some time with her first. But given her busyness, could take a while. (2 Jobs, 7 classes (including EMT Course)
I tried three times (Twice out of town for graduations, and last was getting stuck babysitting in conjunction with the classes and jobs)
Bump
>>712444460
Damn, busy people make it even harder. I often feel like there's not even a point in contacting them since it likely won't even lead to anything. I guess what it comes down to then is if it's worth the hassle for you. But if you don't have anything else going and you're really interested in this girl, I'm sure you can make it work.
>>712407776
Whatever you do, you won't miss out on dying anyhow. That's what keeps me going strangely enough.
>>712445186
I work part time only and could easily make it work. If she wants it aswell.
And yea, to me, she is so worth it. She is so close to perfection for. So fucking close to perfect.
I will definitely be willing to put in the effort.
Thinking that the best bet would be to try and do something over Winter Break. Classes should let up around then. So Hopefully we can work something out
this story was written by me. it's true.
>pic related
>>712424570
you're from vancouver?? that's awesome, so am I.
Did you end up going to college in the GVA?
>>712424570
you're from vancouver?? that's awesome, so am I.
Did you end up going to college in the lower mainland?
>>712445522
Nice to hear that you're committed! Good luck with the girl /b/ro, I'm sure it will work out great.
>>712434073
>>712446103
Hopefully. Just need one meet up where we can properly just kinda talk, and break out of our respective shells. Atleast with each other.
Then it could all be set into motion.
>>712445954
No, I'm temping in an office in Vancouver. Might think about going back to school at some point.
>liked a girl at work she was my boss
>i felt like she was the only nice girl there
>she quit there i was sad
>quit that job to get a better job
>get into a car accident three years ago
>go to two hospitals and a rehab place
>finally get to go home
>go back to out patient hospital 2
>for a year had a speech therapist
>we get to know each other
>end up being girl from old work place
>fell for her more
>last day of rehab break and start flirting with her
>forgot she was engaged
>she starts asking me where did this all come from
>she told me she didn't like me when she found out i play video games
>i guess she gave her number to someone but was sad that i was leaving
>pt girls and speech were the only girls i talked too around my age
>>712410570
here's some advice
> I was a loser in high school, almost no friends, didn't ever have a girlfriend.
Life outside of high-school is 100% different you will look back and wonder why you ever gave shit what all those people thought.
>>712445598
Finally teared up in this thread. I can relate to most of this middle school bullshit (also "depressed"-fag to really depressed) and it sucks, although most of my interactions at that time were far cringier than yours seemed to be. I hope you're doing okay, anon.
>>712417446
>>712418566
>>712424633
>lol i have shcizophrenia too
>20 at this point kinda mild
> think people are conspiring against me
>insomnia, feel like my sheets are on fire sometimes. Have this queer feeling like my entire body is expanding out i can feel it growing like it's infinite.
> did lots of 2ci, mushrooms, 2ce, dmt, and weed. Runs in my family too, probably got it from the sexual/physical abuse as a child. or the emotional abuse from my mother.
I do not want to die though i press on, because when im dead it's all over.
>>712446829
This is truth.
I actually had tons of friends in highschool
>Considered popular I guess?
Graduated 4 years ago probably have about 5 friends total from hs
I'm in college but it's a commuter school so I am a loser now
>>712447964
My point is that high school is bullshit. It's a lot of fun for some and really shitty for others but as soon as you're out it doesn't matter who you were when you were there.
bu,p
>>712410570
what are you, 13?
>>712409469
I hope op did the right thing and didn't kill cunt.
I hope he found a way to get cunt cancer and he dies slowly and painfully.
>>712404924
Hello /b/.
Story of my life.
>Be me.
>Have best father I could ever dream of.
>Rollercoaster finances [occasional poverty].
>Optimistic childhood.
>Enjoy NES, SNES, N64, etc. throughout childhood.
>Celebrated most holidays and birthdays [because then > now].
>Rollercoaster life experiences.
>Play games at ToysRUs and BlockBuster [while they existed back then].
>TimeOfMyLife.jpeg
>Meet childhood friend.
>Go over his house.
>Memories galore.
>Star Fox 64.
>Memories have been had.
>Meet high school sweetheart.
>Join the military [engineman].
>Get married to high school sweetheart.
>Report to duty station.
>Work like a mule.
>Go on 6 month deployments.
>Six hour watches, assholes everywhere, too much work, and life is hell for me.
>Buy first new car.
>Body's feeling unhealthy and worn [too many|much: chemicals, dull life-experiences, loud noises, heavy lifting, etc.].
>Too much psychological stress and trauma experienced throughout my tour there.
>Play Diablo 2 and GW1 constantly to escape reality.
>Wife abused my finances over time, and like a fool, I allowed it.
>Wife's starting to show signs/symptoms of disillusion.
>My life experience begins circling the drain.
>Separate from my wife due to her lack of interest.
>Continue playing PC vidya.
>Honorably discharged from the military.
>>712449087
continued...
>college.exe [Game Development @ Full Sail University]
>Meet up with pot heads.
>GreatTimes.jpg
>Deal with potential thieves trying to assault/invade me.
>Spared.avi
>Failed college [4-year bachelors degree program condensed into 21 months, falling behind, can't catch up, etc.]
>Dream = Lost
>Dropped out [tried :3].
>Move in with father and step-family out of emotional and financial desparation.
>Endure 4 years of being financially taken advantage of.
>DeadEnd.png
>On the verge of homelessness.
>Decide to move back to state where I had a childhood best-friend, and where my nostalgia was currently strongest in my memory.
>Find out my childhood friend's a sociopath.
>He takes advantage of me and my finances.
>Find a job.
>Turns out everyone at my job's an abusive exploitative manipulative sociopath.
>LifeSucks.avi
>My [13+ year old] car from the military days is breaking down.
>Going to have to ride a bicycle soon.
>Sociopath friend/roomate doesn't give a flying fuck.
>Stuck living a miserable life at the moment.
>Here on /b/.
Hello, /b/.
>>712432862
We just have to stay positive.
Even if it does not matter at all.
>>712411798
Her name is Chloe.
>Be me 16
>Chloe 14
>Have 0 friends, start fencing.
>After a while meet a few friends, call them river and dark.
>Fucking around at practice one day
>See random chick
>Think it would be funny to ask her to prom because I am autistic as fuck.
>"Will you go to prom with me?
>I'm 14
>MFW
>spaghetti falls out of pocket
>"Age is just a number?"
>She smiles
>I smile
>we don't see each other for months.
Being an ugly beta sucks /b/
22 yo, study but also work as a cashier at a pharmacy. One of the employees is good looking, funny and knows how to talk to women. Seeing how differently they treat me compared to how they treat him kills me inside. They always start talking to him and keep the conversation going, say funny things, laugh at whatever stupid shit he says, then when they come to my side they barely say hello and if I talk they seem to be disgusted by it, like saying "What? Why are you talking to me weirdo?" with their faces. That also happens to me if I start with the right foot with a woman, eventually she realizes I'm a weirdo, stops talking to me and seems disgusted when I do.
Exactly that happened to a new girl that came to work 3 months ago. For the first 2 months we talked a lot but lately she seems to be annoyed by me talking to her.
Another problem I have is that because women pay so little attention to me, when one does give me the least of attention, I fall in love for her, and maybe all I needed was a 10 minute conversation.
Needless to say, I'm a kissless virgin and I've never been in a relationship.
I don't know if someone will read this, but I already feel better just for writing it.
>>712449353
>Go to tournament
>watch girls fence cuz am early
>It's her
>She doesn't recognize me
>Heart flutters
>Mom's spaghetti
>walk away.
She won that one btw
>Year passes
>get her number from river as a joke
>First text
>"Hey Chloe will you go to prom with me?"
>YES
>Spaghetti
>"This is jack right?"
>ummmmm
>"I'm kidding anon!"
Months pass. text and call every day. Be buddies
>Realize I legit have feelings for this chick
>>712449162
Why would your room mate care if your car broke down? You want him to shit out a new one?
What are your expectations of people really?
Not everyone gets a trophy.
>>712449465
It won't become better
>>712449697
>We are still buddy buddies. I don't say anything about it.
>Know she doesn't like me. Super bad at relationships and always think people hate me when they don't.
>Finally muster up courage one night
>We are in Texas at national championships
>"Chloe....I like you. A lot."
>Anon...............I'm bisexual. I have feelings for a girl. I'm so sorry.
>FEELS
>BAD
>MAN
>Keep being friends.
>She dates the girl
>Sad.jpg
>Eventually just don't talk to her for one week.
>Not sure if busy or something but I just stopped.
>She actually hates me.
>Gets pissed.
>Pissed
>Pissed.
She stops talking to me too.
>FeelsBadMan
>She hates me still
>I hate me too.
>MFW Fucked up close friendship becuase beta edgy faggot
>MFW it still hurts
>>712449825
He also takes unearned money from me. He keeps lying and borrowing from me. I have nowhere to go. Housing's far too expensive to ever make a living while growing. Life's fucked for me. Roommate was allegedly a best-friend to me. He has a new car. Makes excuses concerning finances. He never pays for food. He never cooks. He never cleans. I do everything. He knows I have nowhere to go. How would you feel if you were given my conditions? What would you do? Nevermind, you don't know shit about my circumstances. You likely live with mommy/daddy, or are a tyrannically successful psycho/sociopath who doesn't give a fuck about anybody, hence your post immediately questioning why someone should give a fuck about someone else. Fuck you. Kill yourself, you psycho/socio faggot!
>>712443383
Don't listen to any of these idiots. This is a problem between you and yourself that you gotta solve. I used to be like you but the only thing that fixed me is getting rejected over and over again. You're gonna have to push through it. Also if you really care and wanna fix your situation I recommend you read. Models by Mark Manson - Attract Women Through Honesty.
Listen to me and you shall be fixed real soon.
>be little faggot 6th grader
>I've got some chub at this point, still do
>kind of shy with girls but I can still talk to them
>Make a friend who is a gril at beginning of the year
>we have a few classes together, but we mostly just eat together at lunch
>few weeks go by
>develop a crush on her
>shecanreadmymind.jpg
>she knows
>one day at lunch
>"I like someone anon"
>"Oh really, who?"
>"He's really cute and funny and smart"
>"He sounds cool"
>"Do you know who"
>"Who?"
>"It's you anon"
>So happy the rest of the day, can't wait to eat with her the next day
>After that she just completely cuts off all ties with me
>starts dating a guy who eventually becomes friends with me a few years later, by then has realized that she's a cunt
This hurt me so much, I can barely talk to girls since this happened, it completely destroyed my self esteem, I've never had a girlfriend, I have no confidence, and the sadness just keeps eating me up inside
Why are girls so mean?
>>712449825
He also buys video games on occasion while making up excuses why he can't pay for food, or even the complete rent. He also ditched me during a hurricane, power outages, etc.. He also acts like he can kick my ass, even though I know 100% full well I can beat him up. Only reason I don't is because then I'd have to find a new place to live, and since I don't know anybody I assume I'll get ripped off wherever I go. I'm fucked wherever I go. Fuck you for acting like an internet badass without really knowing the context of my situation. Fuck it, you likely don't give a shit either way, so fuck you no matter what. KYS, you fucking faggot.
>>712450473
im going to bed
but leave
now
go back to your dad, start working at a supermarket or something, sort yourself out
and then figure out what you want to do with yourself
i miss her so much i want to text her so badly i want to tell her i miss her and how much she means to me but idk what that would do. she told me she still loves me and wants me but doesnt want to get hurt again. i want her so badly i miss her so much. i want to text her but idk if i should
>>712449825
He talks about how he can easily move in with his mother, where he'll only have to pay $200 rent, and live without any real struggles. Only catch is that his mom will bother him and ask him for favors. He won't be able to live completely comfortably, and that's why he stays with me instead. He knows that with me, he won't be bothered. I don't bother him. I leave him alone. I wish I could live alone, though. Fuck living with a sociopath like him!
>>712419212
This isn't a ylyl thread
>>712405593
I have a very nice income (300k/year), my body is in great condition, and I have plenty of friends who love me but I still can't win my ex back over. So to forget about her I fill up my free time with short, sex-filled relationships that are easy to break off. It helps me forget, just for a little. But I can't ever forget her. And I fucking blew it. Hold me, /b/
>>712451332
Pussy
>>712451102
That's not an option. Fuck you. Stop giving me shitty advice you wouldn't carry out yourself, you fucking hypocritical piece of shit.
>>712451610
You sound mad
I 100% would carry that out myself. Why would I stay in an environment where I was unhappy, where my roommate was exploiting me and where I had no family?
But nice projecting. I'm guessing you're mad because you know I'm right but you want some easy solution or just words of encouragement
>you'll be alright anon! everyone else is a dick except you, you'll persevere!
Is that what you wanted to hear?
>>712440443
Your time will come anon, just need to get out there in the world. Clubs, work, hobbies whatever you'll meet some trust me.
>>712451102
Just so you know, my father became a money-grubbing ignorant sociopath himself, which is why I left him. He was awesome, but then he got a heart attack. Ever since then, he became this super-needy man I never knew, and always destroyed my monies with his necessities. I couldn't even afford to care for myself while with him. My clothing kept getting filled with holes, and my shoes were 7+ years old. My care wouldn't have made it another winter. I'd be without a car and money by the next winter, and sub-zero temps would ruin me. Nowhere to. Nowhere to hide. I'd be out in the streets in no time cuz my step-family cared more about money and rent payments and bill payments than me. Fuck life!
>>712450978
I know how you feel man, when I was younger (had around 16 years) I started chatting with a girl I liked, we chat for hours until she said she liked me and wanted to go on a date with me (I was/am a beta fag and was too scared to ask her out). It was probably one of the happiest days of my life. The next day I went to school really excited to talk to her but when I mentioned it she just laughed at me and said some friends of her were just joking with me. It destroyed me and killed my confidence and self esteem up to this day. Since that day I pretty much assume that no girl will ever like me. Sucks.
>>712452060
No, I want nothing from a psychopath/sociopath like yourself. Why would I ask anything from you in particular? Go back to random bullying on /b/, and fuck yourself, faggot. Nobody cares about you, either. Keep projecting your bullshit. It falls on the blindest of eyes. Faggot.
>>712452135
>be you
>live in the world
>estimated between 1% and 5% of the population are psychopaths
>somehow, despite the statistical anomaly, it so happens that 100% of people you know are psychopaths
>that, or you're a narcissist with a victim-complex
which sounds more likely?
(bear in mind, you've lashed out at everyone who's responded to you over nothing)
>>712451610
Anon tbf it sounds like good advice. You gotta get out of there. Can you not go with family for a while, pay them some rent while you work a service job?
>>712452467
>when the depressed idiot calls everyone he knows and interacts with a psychopath to hide the fact that he's actually the psychopath
woah man, deep
Not sure if there's still any one here but i feel like i should share my story. it's not about me it's about a guy who i went to school with. Just to clarify something before i begin this school was a private school where i stayed as well only coming home some weekends and holidays... It was not a cheap school...
> Be me, about 4 and a half years ago
> Every one is talking about what they are going to do in their holidays
> Im talking to a Scrawny kid that i talk to some times because no one really ever do so
> Scrawny kid, let's call him A, got some kind of disease, nothing life threading but it halted his groth
> So it's the same old, same old
> he looks weird, every keeps their distance
> Scrawny kid talks about how it's his birthday soon and every one is welcome to come
> We could throw a party and so, he says
> People being nice says it sounds cool
> Later that day i get a notification on Facebook
> A made a Facebook event
> Coverphoto made for it in Photoshop and shit
> Hereallyputeffortinthis.png
> He invited everyone from the year
(about 100 students)
> Click "going" and continue with my day
> The following week i see that almost every one joins in on the event
> Apparently his dad is this famous artist and his house is big af
> Last day before the holidaybreak begin
> Every one is happy because they are gonna see their families again
> But A... A have been smiling all fucking week
> I've never seen him like this
> usually he just sits in the corner of our computer room and plays minecraft
> He makes these amazing huge figures of dragons and shit
> Even when all the other boys are in there playing LoL, CS or wow, he just plays minecraft
> I asked him once if he wanted to play LoL with us and that i could teach him if he wanted
> "I dont want to be a burden for your team, Anon." was all he said
> And at this last day before christmasbreak this scrawny kid was the happiest i've ever seen him
>>712452489
Okay, Mr. Mother-Fucking Expert. How do people come to being a narcissist with a victim complex. Are you a mother-fucking doctor? A Psychologist? Post your credentials then, faggot. No? Okay, then shut up because you're a nobody!
>>712452489
This. You're the one with problems, anon.
>>712452489
Beat me to it, I was gonna post something similar lol
