I need a feels thread /b
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I need a feels thread /b
>>711381770
You have been a refuge for the poor, a refuge for the needy in their distress, a shelter from the storm and a shade from the heat. For the breath of the ruthless is like a storm driving against a wall
-Isaiah 25:4
>get snubbed by friend once
>want to die
am i really this pathetic
>>711381770
If they're a bridge, why won't you just get over them?
Think of life as an ocean, in it, there are a myriad of small and vulnerable fishing vessels all with the same name written on their sides "Happiness".
These vessels will take in many passengers without a second thought as to the ships wavering sturdiness. And then some will concede to their ocean sealed fate while others will have to throw off some stowaways in order to make the ship float for a fraction of second more.
Then in the horizon you shall see a giant, fully-rigged ship with the engravings of "Sadness" written on the sides. An ominous feeling looms over all who see it and so, even with its fluttering sails and promises of a permanent and safe stay, many will surrender to the impermanence the fishing vessels just because their sympathetic presence.
>Get entry level factory job
>12.60/hr, raise in a few months. Not bad.
>Guy training me is pretty cool
>He voted for Clinton, I voted for Trump
>We're able to actually talk about it without one of us trying to convince the other that he's right.
>He takes Thursday off
>I'm working at a table by myself
>Cute female co-worker who I've seen a few times comes up and starts working at my table with me
>We talk and get along pretty well for a few hours
>Have similar interests, and I even make her laugh a few times
>Can't believe how well it's going
>She starts badmouthing the guy who's training me in
>Calling him misogynistic and anti-feminism
>I don't really know what to say so I just kinda mention how he's always been good to me since I've met him.
>She hasn't talked to me since then.
Kinda sucks, but I'm glad I didn't throw someone I get along with under the bus just to impress some girl. I just wish I could have a friend my age.
>have a female friend who i met online
>we get along really well when we first meet and start hanging out a lot, almost all the time
>over time, i've become something like her conscience and best friend and try to look out for her (she has a few mental conditions and is generally a handful, although i'm patient enough to handle it most of the time)
>she gets back together with her ex-boyfriend and more or less all my time with her evaporates so she can spend time with him instead
>feel bitter at first but she tells me that she can't help it, that she desperately puts all her effort into her boyfriend when she has one so they won't leave her
>standby for a few months, secretly hoping they break up so i can hang out with my friend again
>they break up and she goes into a blind panic and almost kills herself
>regret secretly hoping they broke up and just want to do anything to make her happy
>after the break up, we start hanging out a lot again
>don't want her to get a new boyfriend that would hurt her, also don't want her to stop spending a lot of time with me
>the thought crosses my mind that i could become her boyfriend, i could be the one to make her happy, to take care of her
>have a few hangups, the first time i tried a long distance relationship it ended very poorly, also don't want to fuck things up and make her even worse by losing me as well
>resolve to consider it, and then wait until we meet up one day in person so i can determine if we can get along in person as well as we do online
>she's already well on the hunt for a new boyfriend
>don't know if i should say fuck the plan and try and make it work without meeting first, or just sit by and watch her get another boyfriend, barely talk to me again, then be even worse by the time they break up and we hang out again
>also not entirely certain she would date me anyway, she has unusual interests and fetishes that i have trouble with and she finds me vanilla
>don't know what to do
>>711381770
>you were my bridge
>>711383799
the hard questions
im really boring and no one likes me because im boring, especially the person i really like
but idk how to not be boring because i really don't have any interests and just want to kill myself already
>dick is almost 8.5 inches long and very thick
>average looking face
>average body
>white
>6 feet tall
>always trying to pick up chicks and study pua shit, social skills are so shitty that i haven't gotten laid since i was 15
>19 now
I've been on a few dates with a few hot chicks, i the last few years, one was a natural blond 10/10 swedish tourist girl with big tits and a big ass last year.
but my social skills are practically autistic so she got pissed off when i tried to kiss her and never wanted to see me again
>>711388119
and before i went out with the swedish girl the day before she rejected me, she was complimenting dick pick pics so she seemed really dtf. somehow the date went horribly enough to fuck that up though lol
>>711385049
You did the right thing, Anon. No one else told you, so I'mma do it.
If you threw him under, you would've turned into the other Anon's that are like "lost friend and gf, have nothing."
Good on you, also, feminists are fucking crazy anyways.
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
>>711388119
Keep at it and stop telling yourself that you're autistic.
PUA crap is at best rules of thumb.
The much harder task is to become a man who projects confidence and makes others happy, because he is confident and happy with himself.
>>711386615
fuck, that got me...
>>711388572
>>711388119
my male friends know that i've went out with a few hot chicks, so they think I'm doing all right, but my shameful secret is that i never get laid
Im going to start taking pick up very seriously though, so hopefully i will succeed
at least I've been getting a little better at talking to girls
>>711388931
Thanks, i will keep at it and try to be more confident.
The main thing i try to take from pua stuff is not being afraid to approach any hot girl i see in public. which is how i get a few numbers and dates once in a while
it's not that i am alone, it's that i should be alone. i just make people's lives worse, and i make my own life worse by tricking myself into thinking things will work out when they won't. they won't because i am who i am. a failure.
anyone have the file where the guy says if there was a car running towards me i wouldnt run away.
>>711390599
Chin up bud. Jr high is a hard time for everyone.
Well, I'm trying to enjoy my last month alive before I kill myself and I think I've never felt so hollow and so alone. No friends, never had a gf, not even a shoulder to cry on when I'm having a bad time. Life is tiring. Looking forward to nothingness
>>711390599
i'm right there with you man, i feel like i can't be anything to anyone, even though some girls and friends still hit me up, i end up making up excuses to stay at home and get drunk alone which i tell myself is better than going out and risk burning a bridge which I'm burning anyways by not doing anything
>>711381770
I like the rain, it's more peaceful than not having it at all, I'd rather be in it than out of it, in literal terms
>>711385097
THOT ALERT! STAY AWAY ANON!
My ex was exactly like this. These girls CAN'T maintain stable relationships. Period.
They find the first cuck dumb enough to fall in her trap. Then she begins her ritual. She seduces, she fucks, then she sucks everything she can from that man, seeing him as the only stable part of her life. Then the guys says "I'm done" and/or kill himself, she gets alone again, and repeat. It's always like that.
Lets me take a wild fucking guess. She's bipolar with anxiety or some shit like that.
Anon, for the love of god, don't be the cuck I was, find a girl that will love you for who you are, not what you give her.
>>711389839
I really don't get that.
Why is necessary to have a woman in order to be happy? Or a least feel confident or good with yourself.
>>711390127
This was my life for an entire year in college. Fucked up everything and dropped out. Trying to make things better for myself now, but it's so hard. Please don't give up on yourself /b/ros, sweet dreams.
>>711390721
jr high was like 8 years ago for me
>>711390938
BPD
>>711391207
>BPD
Fucking called it. My ex had the same exact thing. Trust me anon, you don't want this kind of person in your life. It's not their fault, but they still hurt people.
They are masters at manipulating. Girls WILL use sex to catch a guy. That's what she did with you, that's what she did to me.
Break free. You do not want to get into that.
I broke up with my girlfriend some days ago and right now she is at a party already. I broke up with her because she was really possessive and abusive . But i just can't stop talking to her online. What do i do /b/?
>so be me, 18 M
>father went missing last month
>gone over a week
>search parties going on until we found him
>well I did...
>body was blackened from the sun laying face up in the woods
>run out of woods and had to stop family from seeing it.
>cousin was suspected, pull out my grandmothers 38 snub nose and almost kill him.
>family surrounds me and takes gun
>pay for cremation process and have the ashes in my room
>haven't had a funeral yet and trying to stay strong for my fam
>hard /b/ros
>last week i totaled my car out, nice little sports car too
>makes me wonder if I was supposed to die that night or if my father was watching over me.
>this month has been terrible
>I cope by drinking myself to sleep. I know it leads down a dark road but it's hard to unsee what I did.
>worse is I have no closure, being looked at as a murder but no info.
>>711391844
Get another girlfriend.
>>711391658
well... i can't exactly leave her alone. i do really like her, well, when she's not acting irrationally. i've had a friend before who made me feel like i was being used and manipulated, and she doesn't make me feel like that. i really, really care about her and want her to be happy, and when she's in a good mood she's really funny and we get along really great. but maybe you're right about not dating her. maybe that would just make things worse. i'm still going to have to think it all over, but i think i should at least let her be with other people and not panic and jump into a relationship right now.
>>711391886
Think of your pops anon. He wouldn't want you to be that way. He'd want you to keep on living, have a wonderful life with loving people. You're still young, you have your whole life in front of you.
>>711391658
>>711392161
also, she has never tried to seduce me or use sex to manipulate me. we've long since established our relationship as strictly platonic, and she didn't exactly flirt with me before then either. ...although these facts aren't really encouraging when it comes to the thought of possibly dating her in the future.
This chick i was digging on for a while, well i saw her today. We havent spoken. Or text in weeks. She was still so beautiful and just to hear her voice made my day so much better. She said a forced hello, as if she where testing the waters on how things would by out. All i said was hey. She walked around a bit then came i to the room i was in to sit down with her mother. Everyone left the room and we were the only two left. So i got up and walked out not saying a word. Shes been on my mind all day now. Sorry to tell yall /b/ros but i needed to tell someone.
I wish i never met her, i wish i never said yes to go out, i wish i never kissed her. I wish i didnt leave the room...
>>711392347
do you pay for some stuff for her?
if not with money, then with your time/hands?
>>711392547
why did she come back with her mother though
>>711392161
DO NOT DATE HER
DO NOT DATE HER
Hell just fucking stop talking to her all together. You want her to be happy, you bring something in her life, what does she brings into yours? Does she truly care about you?
This is why they are expert manipulator. It's because when you're in it, you never see it. It's when you get out, you wonder why you took all their problems on your shoulders when you didn't have to.
Just leave her. You will find someone much better where it will always be "funny". Not just when "she's in a good mood".
You'll only get hurt anon. Just screencap this and put it in a folder somewhere. You will see I was right, whether you got out or you stayed.
>>711385097
this reminds me of my friend avery we dated a few times but that's online so it doesn't matter her dad tried to rape her he punched her mom hate's her but I heard recently that it's going well for her she told me how she cuts herself and stuff we talked a lot well we used to she blocked me on skype and it didn't effect me I didn't cry or feel bad I just got that awkward feeling.. y'know you do something weird and you get that awkward feeling well.. that's the exact feeling I had and while it doesn't bother me I just can stop thinking about why she did it
>>711391886
It better not be a miata or i wont even feel sorry for you.
Don't really know what to do. I need a new job, i planned on going to a temp agency today but i couldn't because i needed sleep. It's hard to describe the situation i'm in but it boils down to me being tortured day in day out. Can't sleep most of the time. Anyway iv'e been off of weed for 2 months so i can get a new job, all i want to do is hit my dealer up and say fuck it and smoke and just continue working my dead end minimum wage job where everyone hates me. Or drink from the big ass bottle of vodka i have, both of these options will fuck up my chance of being hired because of a drug test. Wat do?
>>711383799
That's some real shit my nigga
>>711392807
hey, that's pretty good
>>711386615
Lol. What a faggot.
>>711394049
>preschool
Fucking pedos, man.
I don't know what it is about her, but she is such a hard girl to read. Nothing she does is typical, some stuff leans one way, and other stuff, yet another way.
I just wish that I can get closure out of her. A simple, "Yes, I am interested" or a "No, I only see you as a friend"
In fact, she never even used the word "Friend" with me, at all. But she seems to be kinda wanting to open up with me at times. But when ever she starts, she closes up again
So what is it? Is she interested? or is she not interested?
>>711394049
hey im glad you used my idea, nice not seeing it copy and pasted.
>>711391886
Dear anon, I watched my dad die of a heroine overdose beginning of 2016. It's hard to unsee the things we've seen, and it doesn't get easier. Stay strong.
I lost my girlfriend when she was in labor. My daughter was stillborn. I lost two important people in my life
>>711395687
Dealing with the same thing right now anon, or well a few weeks ago. I fucked it all up by trying to force an answer, although I can't really tell if anything was a possibility to begin with.
>>711397660
I think in my case it is best to push a little, but not force it. (She probably has some level of Social Anxiety)
These are the things that shes done towards me:
>She is shy, and kind of doesn't acknowledge me unless I say something, then we can talk for a good while without issue. This is even when it is just us standing next to each other before class.
>Does not initiate texts, but is willing to talk for hours with detailed replies once I get her going
>I have seen her looking at me from a distance, sometimes locking eyes. (once started cracking a smile)
>When I asked for her number, she took my phone and punched it in. (It was the actual number, obviously)
>When I asked her to grab lunch the first time, she said she was busy that weekend, so I offered up Monday, which she accepted.
>Has sat next to me at random on several occasions.
I hate myself for being a pedophile. I try to suppress the feelings and it just churns into pure hatred for myself. I've just been thinking of suicide recently. All I can do is remove myself from society.
>>711398050
Yeah the girl I talked to was mostly over snap chat, she sent a lot of nudes and good signals alongside bad signals. I was confused and she never really made it simple.
Asked her out on a date and she said yes, then told me the next night it would be as friends so I call it off because awkward.
Surprisingly we continue talking and shes sending the good signals stronger than ever and she starts says that she would have done shit with me on the date had we gone.
I try to coerce her into telling me how she really feels and she refuses to tell me, wish she would.
Anyhow she starts talking to me less since we don't go to the same school and she meets new friends although we still talk quite a bit, like atleast 30 minutes daily although she refuses to hang out.
The most upsetting part is that she posts videos and stories and shit of her hanging out with people on snap chat yet she would never with me, even though for months we talked for hours on end, late into the night.
a few days ago she told me that she let some guy eat her out and I blew up on her.
>>711398464
Don´t do it dude, just never try to do something to a little girl or boy, that´s it, but if you did something... then, well...
>>711398464
Sucks that you have to live with that, but yeah never go off those impulses, it ruins others lives and doesnt benefit you either.
>>711398464
Do it. Your kind is disgusting. That or turn yourself in to a psychologist so they can study your disease.
>>711398992
Interesting. The girl I am interested in never used the friend word with me. But we don't talk much, but when we do its for hours
We are in the same college but never see each other. Other than in passing briefly.
I really don't know about your situation. Maybe she is into you, but you remind her of an ex or something? Or just stringing along for attention?
>>711399219
I've never acted on it.
>>711399355
It is just this awful feeling i carry with me always.
>>711399392
Love you too.
>>711399392
Lol. If someone's saying they hate this aspect of themselves to this degree, how fucking dare you tell them to "get help" without actually meaning it?
How fucking abhorrent do you have to be to manage to turn that advice into a fucking insult?
>>711399787
Both I think, I don't understand why we can't even just hang out and shit. She gets plenty of attention from plenty of people now, but she is all I have to actually talk to (like deeply)
She always tells me that she has some aversion to dating and won't really explain that either, but its not even like when I ask to hang out im like trying to get in her pants. She seems like she really likes talking to me over snapchat but idk why she avoids me so much in person.
well she use to seem like she liked talking to me, its not really the same anymore since she made so many new friends and I haven't really made anyone that i'd like to hang with but her. I fucked up a lot of my chances with her by being very forceful and crazy so I cant really blame her anymore.
I just wish every time I talked to her I could feel like I was special like I use to, but now I feel like all that shit in the past was just a sham for attention.
>>711400505
Ah. Yea. I think that your girl has had some shitty relationships, so she's avoiding them for now.
Any ideas with mine? She doesn't seem to have that many friends. (only seen her talk to two people regularly, and only in class for the most part.) she also claims that "She is just breaking out of her shell")
Odd little think I noticed also. She likes everyone's Facebook comments on her wall.
>>711395441
FUCK
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what do normal people do? i spend all my time alone, indoors, and i don't even know how life works anymore. it feels like i'm out there in the world since i have people online i talk to and various websites to get absorbed in, but at the end of the day i realize that i've done literally nothing but lay in bed and play with a computer. from an outsider's point of view, i do NOTHING. what am i supposed to be doing? what do normal people do when they have time to kill? i don't understand how to live anymore
>>711400944
Well, I wish she'd at least have a regular friendship with me.
I mean i'm definitely not the best at this sort of thing as you can see in my previous posts but maybe invite her out to something that is ambiguously a date or a hang out.
Or maybe if you have some friends have her tag along on something you set up with them. Once she thinks of you as a friend (which by your description she definitely probably does) you can try to go farther.
Or maybe just try to open up some more convos with her over text and in person, sometimes the issue is that they dont know if you think of them as a friend, so maybe just slide the word into the convos in some places.
>>711401470
I am like 90% sure that she knows I'm into her. Its not like I hide it.
I was thinking that maybe I could try to take her into the city and go skating. (kinda datey, but can also not be)
And the group thing could be a pain, no mutuals, and most of mine go to school out of state (not the best with making friends)
Also about her seeing me as a friend, she treats me differently than her other few friends.
And I guess I Gould start texting more. What could I open with to slide it away from more school stuff, to more, well other stuff
>>711401974
Tell her about a event or some shit you went to or a funny story. Drive that into your opinions on said event or whatever happened, drive that into your interests and shit. Maybe talk about some shit involving skating and casually ask if she wants to join you
>>711396807
AYY! Its my mentor! Thanks for the tip!
Holy shit.
This is why I got rid of facebook.
I got sick of seeing all the autistic cunts on facebook craving attention.
>>711391886
Your father was watching over you?
No. He wasn't.
>>711401342
How old are you? Do you have a job and/or go to school? If you don't do either, I suggest you try doing one of them. If you can't find work, keep searching. As for school, if you didn't graduate, go back and take your GED/proficiencies, and then go to a community college for 2 years. Afterwards, if you want to go to a university, plenty of them will accept you once they see that you have 2 years of college grade education.
Also, work on yourself. Diet, exercise, study and read when you're bored. The changes you make both socially and for education will surprise you.
Trust me, you'll be okay, kid. You just have to work. A lot.
>>711402496
NP friendo, its all about efficent thread making... and OCD
Damn, I need friends. Real friends. I feel like I'm going insane or about to snap. The only friends I have are people who bombard me DAILY with how they are depressed and can't handle life and are doing drugs to cope.
I know I'll sound like an asshole for saying this, but I just don't fucking care anymore. I want friends so that I can be happy and they can be happy, not for them to be depressed and me to be stressed. If it was something that happened once I'd be fine, or maybe twice it would be okay. Heck even if the whole week they were like that it would be fine since it was probably a bad week. But this shit is so fucking stressful, I have about 8 of them telling me about some tall-tale they have when someone did this or a thing here happened to this family member etc.
How do I distance myself? I feel fucking crushed to do this, but it really makes me go crazy and depressed myself.
>>711386615
Saw this year's ago, really made me think about myself, because this is exactky what I had been doing. I could never understand why people couldn't just tell themselves to be happy like I could, when I realized that I wasn't telling myself to be happy, I had been telling myself not to be sad. I could never make the jump to actually being happy, but I've learned to be content with not feeling anything at all.
>>711403600
Felt this feel 100000x over.
Cut them off.
And let them go, for good, it's the only way.
When you're ready to search for new friends go out there, and firstly, be yourself, no compromise, then find your new pals.
I'm not ready yet, but soon.
>>711404115
Thanks man, will do.
>>711403600
real friends, how many of us
>>711385097
>>711390938
>>711392692
These anons are wise anons I dealt with a few girls like this and I wish I had somebody to warn me
I wouldn't blame you if you wanted to stay friends with her just PLEASE be careful
Hey I am gonna be online discord and if you want to stop by I will talk to you can vent or share or just hangout
>>711405849
https://discord.gg/AKndM
this is the link
i wish i could be happy just being alone and playing video games and shit. i mean you can literally play video games for the rest of your life, there's so many of them. just eat, sleep, play video games. shouldn't that be great? no dealing with drama, no heartbreak, no tears, no desperately wishing it could all end. so why does just playing video games not make me feel happy?
>>711388733
>I just watched my girlfriend give a blowjob to her bull a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
kek
>>711402867
It's really sad that you have to kick another anon while he's down to make yourself feel better.
Why don't you just post why you're sad?
>>711398464
It can be treated man it can go away all it takes is the right help.
I know why you would be scared though man but just look at the people who responded to you.
You never hurt anyone and I don't think you would. At the end of the day it's a mental illness but having a mental illness doesn't make you a bad person.
>>711407368
Bad person or not it's painfully difficult to live with. If I see an attractive mother and daughter walk by most guys would see the mother. So imagine how I feel just hating myself so purely because I found a 12 year old more attractive than her mother.
here's my pathetic life story for no reason
>be me, 22 KLV
>moved around a lot as a kid, spent half of my time in Mexico where I didn't speak Spanish (people usually give me shit for not being able to speak Spanish despite living there for years), while I was in Mexico, didn't go to school and sort of had home schooling
>live with mother who was always busy, so spent most of my time either watching one of two English language TV channels or dicking around on the internet
>by the time i'm 12 I spend all my fucking time online, have tons of cringy forum posts and shit I can never erase
>go back to regular American school in 7th grade, it doesn't end that well
>constantly miss the bus because I'm not used to waking up early and have to walk 3 miles to school in cold as fuck weather, never do my homework because I don't give a shit, get reputation as the weird kid that most people are alright with, don't attract any women, end up dropping out because my grades go to shit because I just don't do my goddamn homework for some reason
>go back to Mexico for 8th grade, online shit or something that's a complete waste of time
>head back to America for 9th grade, this time I don't drop out after 6 months, miss the bus a bit less, struggle in all my classes because I've barely gone to school since 4th grade, this time hang with the cool kids but basically be their token weird but funny friend, still get no female interest whatsoever
>have to drop out again because my grades are again trash, pass a few classes, barely
>go back to Mexico and start on an online school which is piss easy but I still fail to give a shit about, flunk out
>mother says fuck this and sends me to a private military school in America
>now forced to do homework because if I don't I get severely punished
>works pretty good for making sure I fucking graduate, but pussy levels are now absolute zero, all-male school and you're not allowed to leave
cont i guess, i'm just rambling
>>711407721
No I get it man.
Have you ever thought about seeking help?
godspeed badass
>>711407992
I've told one person in my life. Since then spit in my face, called me sick, then cut off all ties with me. So help isn't really high on my list. I feel like it's better to end it sometimes.
>>711395687
Dealing with the same exact thing.
>>711392659
Her moms and my friend are living together, she came by to see the house.
>>711385049
Proverbial bros before hoes.
Hats off.
>>711381770
She is the most amazing woman I have ever met. Super crazy intelligent, sexy as fuck, same values as me, same hopes same dreams. We get along together so seamlessly, so well. She knows I love her with all my heart. Today she friend zoned me.
>>711407946
>graduate as a 19 year old, a year late, having also done several summer school classes
>basically spent all my time at this stupid school being forced to do military-style perfectionist shit like always looking perfect and having my room perfect and getting perfect grades, do military movements and marches perfect, hate it more than anything but at least it's all over
>go back to my old place in America
>what the fuck do I do now
>probably should have immediately started working or going to school, instead sit around all summer and for the rest of the year, excuse is made that since I was on vacation during the start of the school year I would be unable to go to college that semester at all
>despite getting As all throughout military school, no decent college wants to touch me
>settle for community college near where I live and start going in the winter, having done nothing at all the entire year of my graduation
>suddenly living in a dorm, have little to no people skills and ability to talk to girls is, as usual, zero
>roommate asks if I want to try smoking weed one day and say fuck it
>in short time I become a major stoner, smoke every day because there's nothing else I care about, stop going to classes as much or at all, miss major assignments, start selling stuff I own so I can buy more weed (roommate COINCIDENTALLY was also a dealer)
>end up failing all of my classes because I stopped caring
>tell my mother that I failed all the classes and that her money was completely wasted
>promise that next semester will be better
>summer sucks, roommate moves to a city an hour or so away, getting the weed I liked so much was significantly harder, he was my only friend too, move into a new dorm
>new fall semester starts and although I specifically picked classes that seemed easy, they end up being more difficult than my last semester's
>great
>one day old dealer asks if I can drive him to his place and in exchange he'll let me borrow his vape (dab) pen
cont
>>711408174
That's fucked up. A lot of people have trouble separating the dangerous people from the people who don't want to be that way.
I can't make you do anything it's your life but I always think as long as there is any chance for things to get better it's worth trying.
But honestly I think I would feel exactly the same in your position.
>>711408922
What options of help are there
>>711381770
I'm considering suicide, I really am, I lost the girl I loved, it was my fault, but I was miserable because she loved drugs and shit more than me, I still loved her, I just don't feel like it's worth it anymore, I'm alone again. I feel like I'm literal shit Anons, I left her, because I told her i wanted to better myself? It's bullshit, I'm just gonna sit here alone and work, that's my life
>>711406562
>[projecting intensifies]
>>711409128
I'm not sure where you live but I know in some places you can get psychiatric treatment for free if you can't afford it
And they have doctor patient confidentiality laws so you can't get fucked for trying to get help
>>711409545
The whole stigma around pedophilia makes me afraid to go for the help
>>711409473
kek did she make you eat his cum out of her pussy?
>>711408879
>immediately agree because I'm feening
>drive him to his place and start leaving town with the pen
>realize I have no gas and double back
>speed a little in desperation to make it to the gas station in time and get pulled over
>it's okay they're not going to search the car
>officer says he can smell weed
>they find the pen
>i get arrested
>put in jail
>so terrified of being a criminal that I vomit in the jail cell and have to clean it up
>most scared I've ever been in my life
>go before a judge, they tell me to come back in a few weeks and get a lawyer
>get released
>don't want to tell anyone that i've been arrested in case it doesn't end up ruining me
>call old dealer and tell him to pick me up and bring to my car which is across town, where i got pulled over
>he says ok wait at the Hardeez
>wait at Hardeez for at least two hours, he never shows
>my phone dies
>end up walking to my car, takes an hour
>drive home and just want to die
>spend the next month in sheer terror, going to classes is at the bottom of my priority list because I genuinely fear being put in prison for years (apparently the oil stuff is a felony whereas flower would be a fine at worst)
>end up just dropping out of the classes
>get a public defender, works out okay, get 5 years probation, which ends up being by phone reporting system
>spend a few months just idle, doing nothing, ashamed that i was traumatized by being arrested
>start smoking weed again so i can escape back to the good times when i was in my first semester of college and it hadn't all gone to shit yet
>keep telling myself that i can't get a job because of drug tests and keep smoking
>eventually i quit again, realize it's 2 years after i graduated and i've done nothing but fail classes and smoke weed and sit around doing nothing
>still don't know anyone irl
>still get no pussy
>just stay inside and use the computer most of the time
>hate myself
there's some more i guess (summer til now) but i'm done for now so bye
>>711409652
The few ruin it for the many.
>>711409654
>[projecting continues to intensify]
>>711409764
>feening
Jesus christ kid it's fiending.
>>711409988
jesus christ kid it's who gives a shit both are slang terms
>>711409831
Feel free to say no but is there another way we can talk?
>>711409988
checking dub subs
>>711409337
Just give up on her, It doesn't matter whose fault it was , just say fuck it and don't even think about her at all. Moving on is tough, but its probably the best thing
>>711409652
I absolutely don't blame you but those people are professionals as long as they know you don't want to hurt anyone I don't think there should be a problem
People outside of the psychology field are different though there is a lot of ignorance in this world
>be 18 senior in high school
>be single for two years
> meet cute girl in class halfway through year
>girl is 16 and a junior, skipped sophomore year
>she has bf
>talk to her a become friends
>for reasons I don't remember she breaks up with bf and after a few days we flirt around
>before class we meet up outside the building and talk about things
> I get to know her she gets to know me
> get the nerve to kiss her and she's into it kisses me back and even swoons
> says she doesn't want to lead me on because she's not over her bf but has feelings for me
> a few weeks of flirting pass, I go over to her house almost every day after school and we watch movies and tv talk about things we like and occasionally make out
>I ask her out to prom 2 days before and she says yes but we go as friends
>am content with this because I'm patient
>kisses me in front of friend at prom so I figure she's over bf
>ask her out and she declines she's over her bf but doesn't want to be in a relationship
>feels bad man
>weeks of hanging out at her house, making out at school and stuff pass
>probably like 2 weeks
>tells me she's falling for me and askes me out in German because I was taking German that year,"
> ends up taking my virginity
>we both end up having a lot of sex drive and have sex a lot
>has birth control thing in arm so don't have to use protection because periods are practically non existent
>end up falling hard for each other and go on dates a lot to movies and such
>for our first month I bought us acid and went to a water park
>best summer of my life
>on our 3 month she proposes to me
>I decline because I think realistically about it and think that being engaged in top if school would be to much but promise after that we could get married
>she's upset but understands
>we spend almost all of our free time together and her parents love me and mine love her
> gf has clinical depression and it starts getting bad
> cont (1/?)
>>711385049
>a bitch that works in a factory is badmouthing someone
Wow, how surprising
>>711410283
Mind if we talk some other way? I'd appreciate some more advice on this. I know I mentioned it in an earlier post but if you don't want to you don't have to.
Why does it feel so shitty when you see a girl that's amazing all around and you know you would never have a chance with her. You won't get to experience being close with someone as great as her. I feel that shit daily. I want this one girl so bad. She's beautiful and always happy and fun to be around. She's very popular and friendly to everyone. I just know that there are many better options than me out there for her. I wanna try for her, but I just know it won't go anywhere. I'm at the bottom of the choices for her. I will never be able to experience that...
>>711410277
You're right Anon, moving on is hard, I need to lighten up... I just feel so miserable and I don't want to whine to anyone, but I need to talk, this shit is tearing me up on the inside, she was like my best friend for 3 years. I dont know how to fucking deal.
>>711410628
Stop bitching and be better.
>you were my bridge
>>711410726
Trying my hardest to fill hole in my life. GF of 2 years cheated on me, and now that she is gone I want someone to care for me...
>>711388119
Explain to me how you have such absolute piss poor social skills, like I mean bottom rung embarrassing autism social skills, AND have an average body and face and somehow manage to get babes to go on dates.
I'm seriously wondering what your appeal is if you don't have looks or charm. I suspect you are just making this shit up.
>>711410862
Get a new girlfriend. Stop bitching and do something about it.
>>711410990
I've tried with 2 girls who I have known for a while and been decent friends with, they both declined me
>be engineering major
>have an absolutely shit tier GPA
Fuck i dont even know why I try anymore
>>711389649
oh fuck this got me real hard...
100% relatable
>>711410490
I don't have facebook or skype or anything
>>711411250
You're not trying smart enough. Do it different. Do it better.
>>711387072
start experimental avant garde band with me?
>>711410349
Yes please
Always the same stupid ass problems.
>buh buh i Wuv my high school gf but she won't talk to me
Here's a new one.... I'm addicted to oxycodone. Can't quit and have tried so hard. Is this any different from you stupid faggots not being able to stop talking to a gf who cheats on you? Or stop chasing a girl you can't have?
I get that it seems like a big deal to you because you don't have life experiences and your relationship experiences are probably extremely limited as well. But there are bigger problems and these feel threads are just always hijacked by little kids all bent out of shape about their middle school crushes. It's kind of cringe actually and it's really hard to feel sorry for a lot of you faggots. Not all of you because some of you are no doubt decent dudes dealt a shitty hand but a lot of you are straight up whiny little faggots.
>>711391886
for you /b/ro
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jGw3QXsnTY
>>711411889
>I'm addicted to oxycodone
I feel you nigga. I'm addicted to memes and dubs.
>>711411889
oxycodone? I thought that shit is overpriced and hard to get.
Why haven't you gone to heroin yet?
By no means am I encouraging you in anyway. I hope you can kick that shit one day man.
My brother just got off that shit, 1 month clean.
Good luck, I wish you well man.
>>711411889
they all come from the same place
hope you can get and stay clean mate
no one ever messages me first. I'll see a snapchat and get really excited, and then I open it and it just says "streaks".
>>711398464
I'm sorry. Nobody should live with that.
>>711412342
Well I used Oxys for reference, what I mean is opiates. And yes expensive but not hard to get in my area. Old folks off their medications all the time plus pill mills haven't been cracked down on yet in this area but it's coming soon no doubt.
Cheap heroin with that lovely fent cut is flooding the area but I'm making the switch to kratom instead. Thank you for the well wishes.
>>711412475
Thanks for the well wishes.
>>711388626
>>711408685
Thanks guys.
>>711409652
Listen friend - as long as you have not acted on these impulses you are fine. being a pedophile IS NOT ILLEGAL. Touching kids is.
Go. Get help.
Dont go to jail like I did.
>(2/?)
>says she's not happy with her life and doesn't feel in love with me anymore
>5 month is the next week
>buy her roses and a book by her favorite author spend the day with her
>she looks happy
>a few days pass and she says she can't take it anymore
> says she needs space and to try to find herself
>breaks up with me
>heartbreaker.gif
>says there may be a chance of use getting back together with time
>for about a month I hold onto this hope but still kills me because there was nothing I could do to stop her from breaking up with me
>tells me not to blame myself
>stays inside a lot and loses drive to complete my now college classes
>ends up getting dropped from math because I stopped participating
>while we were dating we had s book to write cute things to each other in
> I write in in telling her how much I still love her and that I'd do anything to get her back and that I'd never been more depressed despite being clinically depressed myself
> she feels overwhelmed and tells me she doesn't see us being together again
> feels worse man
> another month passes and it's about two weeks back from now
> she starts dating another dude that she works with
> buys her a cat and has his own apartment
> Is also almost twice her age
> wtf my ex is dating a pedo
> askes her if she's happy now and she says she is but hates herself for hurting me the way she did.
> I end up not really having a big issue with the new bf because she's happy despite being very jealous
> we still talk sometimes but I can't get over her and she knows it and feels bad
> just want her to love me again
> I should have said yes when she proposed
> constantly think of things I could have done to get her to stay
> still occasionally cry myself to sleep and In shower and get drunk or stoned more than I used to
> they say no one will ever hurt you more than the first person you really love
> fin (2/2)
>>711412873
kratom is where it will help you. You need the kratom RED not green or white, the Red is the best for the opiate addiction.
Also ex florida fag here and yeah those pill mills fucked a lot of people, glad I left right when that shit started got a lot of my friends tho.
>>711413064
>touching kids
>being this rad
U liek rimjawbs?
>>711413185
also to add, making a tea like a hot tea to brew it and using fruit punch or something to cool it down and drink it makes it work the best, heat really brings out the effects and fruit punch or anyone fruit juice makes it taste a lot better.
>>711413270
Iiek p pul who r not trol fags
>>711413363
Thanks. I have a friend who used kratom to kick a moderate hydrocodone habit. He swears by it. He says to wait as long as possible into the w/d, take a dxm containing cough pill, then he said just to mix 10 or so grams with yogurt and eat as fast as possible. Idk, he didn't say anything about heat tho.
Gonna use a taper plan with that.
>>711413909
Yeah man, 10 grams is a lot. I know if you do to much you will literally feel like shit the next day and tired as fuck, but play around anything is better than fucking with opiates man. Good luck
>>711411846
Finished my story for you
I feel so pathetic I've had a friend commit suicide and I wasn't nearly fucked up about it as i am now
>>711398464
please dont kill yourself. even if it may seem like all people hate pedos at times, theres a lot who try to understand and feel with you. youre not a bad person, you just had bad luck and anybody who says otherwise is a faggot. stay strong anon
>>711413909
erowid.org
Is your friend when it comes to all the wonderful chemicals in the world.
Especially dosage.
you need some tunes to go along with the feels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6II3p7fxo8
>>711411889
ex-heroin addict here, only gotten high twice in the last 6 months.
Why do you still do oxy and not H?
How'd you get addicted, like were you just fucking around or were you prescribed it for an injury?
>>711414872
why are you doing H and not Fent
>>711410862
I'll fill your hole, Anon
>>711415039
isn't most tar and china cut with fent nowadays anyway?
>>711413152
For your feels
https://youtu.be/hyj4JFSErrw
but you are pic related
>>711401342
i get you. dont be too hard on yourself. theres a lot of people who spend the majority of their time online/chilling whatever and thats perfectly fine. the real question is, are you happy with your life? if so, perfectly ok, if not, well then you gotta change something. it can be little things, sports, music, going out, stuff like that. perhaps meet your online friends? I once traveled with one of my league friends that ive known for a long time and we still keep contact. you just gotta find out what works for you, and that, is only possible by trial and error.
>>711415133
and the only reason i was able to quit was money. i used to get H for like $40 a gram in California buying it by the ounce for $1k. Don't have money to buy in bulk anymore and it's like $150/160 a gram here in KC
>>711409764
dude you cant just stop now wtf mate
>>711381870
That's kind of stalkery
>>711411889
go fuck yourself you ignorant idiot. just because muh you have it hard youre a drug addict doesnt make other peoples problems smaller. theres rich healthy people killing themselves all the time because happiness isnt rational. also, this is a feels thread you faggot.
hope you get better tho, im an addict myself tho.
>>711415321
smoking it? I heard that California H was cut to shit with vinegar
>be me
>11 years old
>cold friday night in february
>sitting on floor playing stupid shit Nick game
>mom in the next room
>mom gets a call from grandma
>grandma always talked fast
>much faster than usual now
>mom struggles to take in the information but repeats one thing she thought she heard
'He shot himself?'
>i could hear her heart shatter then and there
>grandpa was a vet who fought in the korean war
>knew he had PTSD but didn't know what it meant
>thought 'shooting himself' meant he had an accident like what my mom said could happen if you handled a gun the wrong way
>didn't want to think about what i knew it really meant
>already had my shoes on and mom dragged me out the door
>she called my uncle who then picked us up and dropped me off where my dad was working on his boat
>he wanted me to help like i usually would
>i didn't pay any attention; i just stood by the door, trying not to cry
"Anon, come on, everything's gonna be alright."
>i wanted so bad for that to be true
>i knew i would never see my only real grandparent again
>i hated that feeling
>grandpa would always come over on saturday mornings and hang out
>the last thing I ever said to him
>"See you Saturday, pop pop"
>>711416655
nah shooting it. used to smoke it though. and nah some of it is though. where are you at, east coast?
OC 1/2
>>711417142
2/2 Maybe one day I'll be okay
>brother and gf having a kid together after they called off the relationship
>his gf is a cunt with two kids from previous relationship, treats them and bro like shit
>add my mother (already attempted suicide multiple times)
>gf goes fucking psychotic on everyone, mom included, about bro buying a house for her fucking worthless ass to live
>mom takes tirade personally, fears everyone leaving her, threatens suicide again
>tell her that's unacceptable, she's loved, give her support
>turns on me, tells me I've always been a liar and thief that just uses her for what she has and never cared about her
>just moved back home from a decade away to make sure i had time with her before she dies
>tell my dad she needs to be watched
>takes a fist full of pills anyways
>feelsbad.jpg
>>711417219
got a lil bit more with a different girl but busy rn
>>711408061
>>711417079
new york, dont do H or anything tho. Stayed away seen to many friends go down that path caused me to stay away.
