New feels thread
Music for thread: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iRUD2Daz5q8
I wish it would snow. But that's not going to happen because I live in Texas.
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder the other day
>>710710607
I'm sorry. I've had it since I was little 13. Was only diagnosed at 15 after my parents finally noticed the cuts/scabs on my arms.
I work a dead end job. I'm supporting myself and my disabled fiance. We were forced to move back in with my mom because I just can't afford to support us both. I've phased out most of my friends. I want to leave and feel good about life again. I hate going in and working 13 hour days 6 days a week only to give it all away to keep us in the green. I'm trying to hard not to resent her inability to work but it gets hard. I used to be an alcoholic so I'm trying not to drink but that's also hard. Life kind of sucks.
>>710711022
Tell me more. How is she disabled? I work a dead end job as well, but I'm single. I'm a little jealous of you, regardless of everything else. Wish I had someone in my life that cared about me in that way.
>>710711279
Physically, we're not sure. Something up with her back. She can't stand or walk for extended periods of time. MRI and doctors still havne't turned up anything so we're kind of at a loss as to where to go.
She was also born 9 weeks premature and had a learning disability growing up so doing on the fly math and counting up coins for shit like running a register is really hard for her. she has trouble doing any sort of customer service work because of crippling anxiety and depression.
She's so incredibly creative and artistic, but she can't realistically live off that. There's a million artists out there and very few are lucky to get recognized.
>>710711604
That's really hard. I don't have any advice for you. I just want you to know that I think you're doing the right thing. Take care of your future wife. I would kill for someone as dedicated as you are to her.
Anyone else out there?
>>710712073
Bro, thanks for that. You have absolutely no idea how hard I needed to have someone tell me that. Sometimes it's easy to lose sight of why I'm doing what I'm doing.
>>710712595
I am really glad to have been able to help you.
>>710710460
I just get a camping permit for up in the mountains in Colorado, throw a gun, tent, sleeping bag, spare set of clothes, and other camping gear into the car, buy a bunch of weed once I get up there, and spend the weekend.
>>710710849
Same, but I'm not a cutfag. The only thing going for me wast that I looked good, and I didn't want to ruin that.
>>710709025
how is that music for feels?
fucking christ you really should just die like your parents say
>>710713137
Really m8. It's not supposed to be sad. It's like drinking with weed. Not the same thing, but they compliment each other.
>>710713137
Trying to hard, m8
![42-28599751-1680x1050[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/tMtpfMi.jpg "42-28599751-1680x1050[1].jpg")
>>710709025
not
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cg0cmhjdiLs
>>710713137
>implying I have parents
0/10 tryharder
>>710713367
That's my other fav track from that movie.
Any recommendations for something similar? There's a lot of vaporwave that's like Vangelis, but not quite the same.
Bump
i want to die
>>710713521
I've never found anything quite like them
I think they're just a product of the time
maybe "Jean Michel Jarre"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CuEcleIFPlw
>>710714703
Go on.....why do ya want to an hero?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L9M9HQtb8FE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1-TrAvp_xs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4am4ZzrAyuQ
>>710715434
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUDUmWaus3Q
>>710711604
have you seen if its transverse myelitis
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9X6sGu8oTiQ
>>710712355
yep. how goes it? Haven't been to /b/ in forever. Came looking for a fells thread.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGQq3HcOB0Y
>>710710124
Just don't be an ass and ruin the movie for everybody else on your way out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbgvGOzaVbU
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6aTuUiKzGmA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYKAysA3J6k
>>710712073
This is such a load of horse shit.
>the loneliest people are the kindest
I've met tons of lonely people who were complete, bitter assholes with no regard for anybody's feelings but their own.
>the saddest people smile the brightest
I've known many sad people who were so caught up in their own problems they didn't care who they dragged down with them.
>the most damaged people are the wisest
If they're so wise, why don't they fix themselves?
Nobody has to be anything they don't want to be, you just have to put the fucking work in to be something else. It requires effort and persistence.
You want to turn your fucking life around?
Stop fetishizing your mental illness.
People can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness. It isn't just a song lyric, it's the truth.
If you are kind, smile brightly, have wisdom, and try to help people... you're just an old fashioned good person.
Kudos to you for being a good person, but you'd be the same person without your pain. It is holding you back from being even more than you are now. It is not the source of your goodness... you are good in spite of it.
You are strong in spite of it.
Realizing this strips your illness of power and helps you fight it.
You can get mad and ignore this advice and continue your pity party but it never gets easier.
Start tonight. Take a baby step. Let go of one little thing and begin your fight.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ef-4Bv5Ng0w
>>710717689
I don't think I've ever head that played so well
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ebQYH6EpJ8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dN_RMUoDxxE
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xc1ifm_allegro-no-troppo-valse-triste-1977_shortfilms
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DvBeOAVDplQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjEq-r2agqc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wt5EHAqhR1c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9EzeW5KoPUI
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IQlehVpcAes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auUPqxI1vqg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ElhbTsKsros
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovv0xmgrM_o
iif dubs then so be it
How is life for everyone today?
Same old days just a new day another time to alter my mind off of this day through self harm.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gm-MpLGfogA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1CW6-uvwoJM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NR7_TbMIVnA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gm-MpLGfogA
>>710712355
Yup. Wish I had a smoke.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sp2oxWdRMuk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTu_Jreo1SQ
>>710709025
This music is beautiful, thank you so much for it. hearing 'memories of green'.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhnMd1Jl7SA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pz3ExnOqXYA
>>710721304
Still here. Listening to everything.
>>710709025
Oi, how many others are just listening to the music?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyagd2EvwDU
>>710715434
Mozart makes all other classical look like trash in comparison. I'm deeply in love.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc
Johnny Cash feels me good
Just said goodbye to my bf at the train station
He thinks we will see eachother over cristmas
I kinda wish i could hold on just a little longer to make that a reality
But i cant, this is the last time i will ever see him
Im sorry Leo
Today I'm just caught up over the fact that I struggle with changing my bad habits. I can picture myself improving, making changes, putting in effort and then reaping the rewards. Instead, I lay alone on the couch all day jerking off and drinking. I should be sleeping right now but seeing as I'm hooked on 4chan I'd rather be here scoping out naked pictures of people I don't know. When I wake up I'll barely make it to work on time and then say to myself "Tonight I'm going straight to sleep. No procrastinating this time." Ha. See you guys tomorrow night.
>>710709025
>i've come to cope with the fact that it never really goes good
>decide killing myself is selfish, family and some friends + too much of a pussy
>"maybe when i grow up i'll probably fade out, then i'll be aight to do it"
>glimpses of hope here and there, but they eventually fade
>decided to spend my time helping others, being extremely kind, complimenting
>Random 1 "Ahaha Anon, you're so funny."
>Random 2 "No Anon, don't say that I'm so ugly aha."
>basically just am trying to make other people happy with who they are
>Random 3 "Thanks for helping me through this and that Anon, remember, if you need anyone to talk to I'm here for you too."
>"Nah, I'm good, but thanks."
>give advice but can't take any
>Spent hours with a girl on Skype, eventually bringing up relationships and shit
>She hides the fact that she likes one of my closets friends, he's into her as well
>being a GREAT GUY I AM I'm telling them shit about each other
>talking about this makes me feel kinda sick, especially to her.
>My closet friend knows I helped him out "Oh yeah, keep telling her things about me."
>"o-ok..."
>I spend way more time with her then this guy, and it's not like he's a bad person because he even asked me in-advance if I had a thing for anyone, clearly hinting at her
>"Nah, ahaha."
>whydoidothistomyself.webm
>my life revolves around others interactions
>all my self-worth comes from other people
>I have nothing to offer to myself
>don't even have the energy to play vidya games anymore, and this was before i met her
>i'm miserable and going to feels threads have started being routine
I could go into detail about the girl if you guys want, 'cause there's a lot more to it - but no promises. Also, the greentext was more of a summary, never really do 'em but I find they're more "fun" to read.
>>710727454
Almost had a tear, there. Fuck you sir.
>>710727822
>>I spend way more time with her then this guy, and it's not like he's a bad person because he even asked me in-advance if I had a thing for anyone, clearly hinting at her
>>"Nah, ahaha."
>>whydoidothistomyself.webm
Ouch dude.
>>710709025
guys...
what do if the girl wants you but at the same time feels obliged to stay with her ex?
>>710727677
Nobody who cares about someone else abandons them with thoughts of their own worthlessness and unanswered questions in this horrible, empty world by leaving them alone in that way. Don't make it sound noble. You're loving nobody that you're planning to abandon.
When you already had depression and now this
>>710727733
Target why you hate your job and find one you like. I used to be on here all the time, but now I'm too focused on improving my life through working that I don't have the time to sit here and swap porn tabs.
I'm feelin to some bon iver right now
anyone have any suggestions similar to like, bon iver, iron and wine...etc etc. I want to feel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhDnyPsQsB0
>It's hard to find it when you knew it
>When your money's gone
>And you're drunk as hell...
>>710728149
...holy fuckin shit anon
what do you plan on doing?
>>710728077
Become better then her ex I guess? Get those feelings targeted at him to you.
How? Idk, ask to do stuff, just you two like movies or some shit. Just casually bring it up and see where the convo' takes you, it doesn't have to technically be a date either.
any other anons with daddy issues?
this one gets me
>>710728294
>Become better then her ex I guess?
and what if i already am? like, she doesn't have feelings of arousal around him but with me she has, she likes texting me frisky stuff while drunk which she couldn't do with him, for example
>>710727822
nice dubs
making other people happy can give you purpose and make you want to come back for more. But be straight-up with her. She's your close friend, you don't have to talk him up to her, especially if you're interested. Who says she's trying to date online, anyway? No pressure. Feels threads give me time to sort my feelings after living for others all day. And fantastic music, apparently.
>>710728350
Greentext what's going on? Doesn't have to be long.
>>710728187
The wolves part 1 and 2 by Bon Iver
Racked up 800+ plays in a month when my girlfriend left me 11 months ago.. maybe thats autist idk
I still really miss her
My ex and her best friend had a falling out when she found out she cheated on me
I slept with her bestfriend last weekend and think I'm falling for her.. I dont know if thats a good or a bad thing
Hope you're okay anon
>>710728077
You don't want her to bounce from relationship to relationship. if she's mature she'll try to work it out, if it doesn't work out for them, see if you still like the person she is after they've been over for awhile. Don't change yourself for a girl. Change yourself for the you you want to be.
>>710728187
Flume by Bon Iver
>>710728401
There's so much drama around the situation that I wish it that easy, man. I've dug a hole and slipped right into it, but thanks. Best thing to do from what I can see is ride it out because my friend circle is really small and if I fuck this up then I'll never end-up going outside.
>>710728237
For now? Say goodbye to my liver. Long term? I've no fucking idea, as if I didn't want to die enough.
>>710728498
no i definitely don't want that and i told her that too
> if she's mature she'll try to work it out,
that's the problem, she isn't it seems
>>710728369
Spend more time with her, do really sweet things rather then just all frisky. Something like a goodnight and morning text, or depending on how close you are you can do some big things but it's up to you.
>>710709025
Why is that gif so damned relaxing?
>>710728149
For the wages of sin is death
>>710728635
>do really sweet things rather then just all frisky.
i have and i am but everytime the conversation gets to a point where she feels like i'm drawing her too me too much she shuts off and tells me that she doesn't want any contact
>>710728409
not OC
but I guess I can greentext my own problem.
>Dad never around
>only around like 4 years of my life total
>visited him in Oklahoma when i was 14
>mom gave me 500 dollars she saved for food and all that, not including the price of the plane ticket from california to oklahoma
>didn't really need 500 dollars for a weekend
>havent seen dad in 6 years, see him at the airport
>hairline receding, hunched over, getting older.
>It's weird seeing him older and out of shape, he's an ex marine
>stayed up all night playing call of duty co op
>like literally 8 hours straight
>it was mostly him yelling at me and getting upset because I wasn't very good with an xbox controller or call of duty for that matter
>I just enjoyed playing the game with him, even though he told me I was trash at it
>only used 100 dollars of the 500 my mom gave me
>guilted me to giving him 200 dollars for food, even though he clearly didn't need. Makes 18 an hour.
>after it was all over, say goodbye at the airport
>I love you dad
>yeah you too son
>never talked to him since
today I went with my half brother to go see his dad (same mom). They played horse shoes and ping pong and played guitar together. Had to hold back a lot of tears today.
feel with me guys
>>710728080
Truth. Reminds me of some bs that happened between me and my ex
>haven't spoken in years but she hits me up
>we talk a bit. She mentions she'll be in my state next month
>I'm all excited, ask her if she'll visit
>No anon I can't deal with how apathetic you are. You took so long to answer my texts
>I still love you though :)
That isn't love you delusional witch. You have no clue what goes on in my life yet you expect me to be there for you at any moment. I can't imagine anything more petty to hold a grudge over. If you loved me this wouldn't even be a concern.
Sorry guys. I'm venting.
>>710728685
Right, so are you talking through texts n so on? If so, why not trying inviting her to something physical? As a date or friends, and then see where that takes you.
>>710728859
>so are you talking through texts n so on?
we have or were up until a week ago, once again, yes.
>why not trying inviting her to something physical?
that would lead to me giving backstory
but as a tl;dr
we met up, had something going on for half a year
and at the beginning of this year she went back to her ex and has up until last week on an on-off basis texted with me and told me how much she misses xyz with me and how i made her feel in contrast to her guy
>>710728770
Damn... sounds tough. Maybe he's changed? Or is that far fetched of an idea.
>>710728475
nah thats not autismo. I can listen to a song that many times, especially when the lyrics are spot on to my situation..
I hope she loves you back, more than your ex ever could.
>>710728149
Well, you ain't going immediately. Make yourself go outside, make yourself vacation and camp. Ignore the criticism and use up that life power and take your meds. Everybody gets sick. Everybody dies. We should all accept that we were all lucky enough to gain enough nutrients on a planet that sustains life to be born as a conscious being. Go out and do, no matter what it is.
Pic related is one of my best friends. I gave him shit once for having an ongoing sexual relationship with an HIV positive partner. He told me he'd rather take the love and life at face value and do what he wanted-so he did. Whatever the fuck he wanted. And you know what? He didn't catch HIV. He was, however, murdered last year. Take a chance and go live. Go be happy in whatever way you can.
>>710728988
I haven't really been in a situation like that so I can't give you a definitive answer. But it sounds like she's just testing her luck with him and maybe eventually she'll get over him.
Why is it so hard for me to make a change guys? Ever fell as though you're not happy now and you want things to change but you just don't have the drive anymore because you've been fighting for too long?
>>710729166
for her he is her "perfect guy", make believe perfect i think
might be the case yeah who knows
told her she can text me again if she got her shit together, cause she told me she didn't want any contact for the 100th time after texting the day before that nearly every minute
>>710709025
evening
just gonna go straight to the point really, tl;dr at the end.
i met her on the internet i actually met her in real life and i had something going with her for about 6 months
we had something going on for half a year yet decided at the beginning of that year she needs to go back to her ex
why? because she, and that we both established
>fears to be alone
>knows what she's getting out of him
>thinks he is immature (she is his first), childish at times and inexperienced
>she sees me as her mature, experienced guy
>she's clinging on to that teenage relationship because every other failed around them and she wants to show everyone that it can exist
over a month ago
>can we get some more distance between us? aka not write with each other?
>need to make myself clear what i want
>writing with you is making me sorta just look into one way
texted her on her birthday, a week ago
she thanked me and told me she appreciated that
wanted to start some smalltalk
but got shut off with "i don't wanna ignore you, that's why i'm answering you. you know i don't want any contact at the moment"
>cont.
>>710729327
we started texting like 3 weeks after that again exchanged some pretty flirty texts her telling me that she likes texting me like that and stuff
all i wanted, after acknowledging that she is very indecisive, is for her to do what SHE wants and not what she thinks society, friends whatnot wants from her.
but i feel like i can't even push her in any direction.
backstory to her: she broke up with her bf after 3 years, because he wasn't supporting the fact that she was doing sports and looking better by the day.
they broke up, we were in the beginning phase of texting friendly there, she had something going on with some chad for a couple of weeks.
our texts got more and more flirty and she wanted to find out what was behind all of that.
tl;dr stuck dick in sorta crazy, shook her "perfect world" up and tried to stay friends with a normaly cool girl
https://youtu.be/ZHNArEfBKdc
>>710729037
I dont think anything will evolve from it... we were both pretty fucked on MDMA when it happened.. I'm just worried when I get over her that I'll revert back to being caught up on my ex
>>710728614
Then you don't want her. Raise your standards until you aren't hanging at her tail. Neither of you would be happy that way. She sure wouldn't. Nobody wants someone who will accept their bad decisions long-term. Not for long. Do it for you.
>>710728685
Don't degrade yourself to the 'other man' status. Show her you'll only be more than that, and if you're going to take her, be direct.
>>710728770
My dad was alcoholic trash. I feel bad for him sometimes but that's about it.
>>710729030
He called my mom a couple months ago. Told her how he's been playing Pokemon GO and it reminded him "oh yeah, tell anon I want my pokemon cards back"
He gave his first gen pokemon cards to me.
pic related, the folder he gave me full of some 30 pages of original first gen cards...holographics, really nice cards. Including japanese cards he got from when he was stationed in Okinawa in the marine corps.
I've done a lot of research on the cards that are in it, a lot of which are worth 60 - 100 just for a single card.
He's fucking retarded if he thinks I'm giving it back
>>710728791
That's what these threads are for sometimes.
>>710729458
>Then you don't want her.
i do, i'd even be comfortable with us being "just friends"
> Raise your standards until you aren't hanging at her tail.
i'm not, i like her, i know i could maybe love her if she'd let me show it but i'm not depending my life on her
>>710729471
>>710729458
>Show her you'll only be more than that, and if you're going to take her, be direct.
she isn'tl etting me
everytime we come to a point where i might, she blocks off
>>710729579
You're waiting for someone who has shown in every way that she can, will, and is doing without you.
Look elsewhere.
I am your big red flag. This post serves as a warning for the future. You will waste your time and darken your world outlook with this stupidity. She's not a girlfriend. She's not a friend. Abort. ABORT.
>>710728165
I don't hate my job but I will admit that I have some emotional conflicts that revolve around work.
>feel like the business has more potential without me, but would be worse in some ways if I suddenly left
>feel like they pay me too much (around 30k) for the quality of work I do.
That isn't a ton of money or anything but it's the most I've ever made so far. That fact alone stresses me out. Makes me feel I'm never doing enough. Then I obsess over it and my judgement gets even worse, making me use time less efficiently.
>>710729471
Ahahaha, was never much of a serious collector but asking for the cards back is kinda... ehh.
>>710729940
Don't give them back.
>>710728149
Here's a warm virtual hug anon. Be brave. *hugs anon*
>>710729915
probably yeah again i'm not devoting my life to get that girl, it has to be her decision alone to want me
but if she's being held back by guilt thoughts then its not my problem
>>710729926
Well, now that you've got a good pay base going, research top companies and research their different positions/comments by their former workers online.
>>710729940
>>710729985
It just gets me how he never asked about me...just he wanted some fucking pokemon cards back he gave me when I was like 10.
I refuse to talk to him
>>710730049
It IS your problem, she's taking up space in your head. Don't leave it up to her whether your scraps are worth salvaging. Make that shit into an entree'. Serve yourself first. She'll only want you if you do it for you. You're waiting on her. NO girl wants that. You're at booty-cal status. She'll get off to the thought of you twice a year but you'll lose quite a bit emotionally if you do this to yourself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNrtbl6ddZM
anyone have any suggestions similar to this?
this song makes me want to fucking die
>>710729109
>>710730008
Thanks guys. Things have just been really shit ever since my ex of 3 years, whom I thought I would marry, broke up with me like half a year ago. And now this shit. Man, life may be ups and downs, but I'm seeing an awful lot of downs and seems like it's just going to get worse.
>>710730248
nope
have to disagree anon, i'm not waiting on her, never told her that and never went with the "all the time you need" line
>>710712714
great pic. New desktop bg
>>710730128
All he's doing is asking for money. Whether it's clinging to what you had left of having a dad, or money at the pawn shop you spend yourself just to spite his ass, those cards are yours, and in no situation, should he be asking for them back. Fuck'm.
>>710730392
thanks, /b/ro
I appreciate that.
If you have anything to get off your chest, feel free to greentext
>>710730350
Actions speak louder than words. You're being her bitch. I can't convince you from here, though.
>>710730293
Keep working at it. Make your own love and spread it around hard.
>>710730580
>Actions speak louder than words
true
>You're being her bitch
might've but am fed up with that and thus told her to fuck off and only come back if she sorted her stuff out
>>710730466
I'm okay. I was suicidal, but I realized that I 'm lucky to be alive. Even if I spend years waiting until I'm back on my meds, or I'm waiting years to see a sunrise that's juuuust right, or waiting years to eat one more delicious meal, I'm just lucky to be alive. I can sit here with a stomachache drinking rum on the internet because I CHOOSE to, and that's okay. I'm not very happy, but neither is everyone else, really, and I've got ears for music and I've got cartoons to cry over. I'll be alright for whatever time I've got left. My friends are dying, too, anyway. Might as well just take it and get it while we can.
I wake up, go throughout my day wishing I was back in bed, when im in my bed I wish I had done more with my day. Repeat.
>>710730884
You give me hope, anon.
>>710730993
Yup! I haven't gone to sleep yet because back at work next week I'll get mad at myself for not using up enough saturday. So I'm here, doing this stuff. =)
>>710731024
Even that's uplifting. You give me hope, too. The internet is a god, isn't it?
>>710711512
Somehow reminds me of the great gatsby book cover, doesn't it?
>>710731060
The Never ending cycle of waiting for something new/interesting to happen
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>>710727677
I love you guys. Even at your loneliest, you'll never be alone in feeling that way. Spread love, always, even if you manufacture it yourself.
>>710731547
Eh, just force it to happen whenever possible. Life can be precious. It sure takes its sweet-ass time, though.
>>710727822
>"give advice but can't take any"
>"all my self-worth comes from other people"
>"I have nothing to offer to myself"
Are you me?
On a side note, there's also a girl I'm really into.
But unfortunately I can't hold a conversation on my own to save my fucking life. Always have to be in a group of 3 or more or I can't socialize at all.
It's a shame she seems interested in someone much more valuable now anyways. The guy offers to write her songs and fly her around the world, and all I have to offer are a few cheap laughs when I'm not depressed as hell.
>He has so much more value than I do
I've lurked long enough, I suppose
It's been 3 years, /b/. 3 god damn, lonely, miserable fucking years, since my last relationship
>High School, Junior year
>Dad has been suffering from Pancreatic and Liver cancer for sometime now
>Dies the day before I was going to visit the hospital and say my final goodbyes
>Junior year is miserable, work, studies, Dad gone, it all sucks
>Pep band (Band for Basketball, pep rallies) is the only thing that I really look forward to
>First home game of the year
>Meet a percussionist there named Allison
>We are basically the same person
>Same sense of humor
>Music taste is the same
>Hit it off and finally start dating
>Life is finally going alright
>Finds out I smoke pot 4 months into our relationship
>Strains us but we preservere
>Senior year
>2 weeks before prom
>She fucking dumps me
>She found out I had been smoking our whole relationship and considers it lying to her
>Honestly my first true love
>first girl I considered to be "The one"
>then it all ended, just like that
>haven't had a girlfriend since
>went on a few dates, but every potential spark ends with her "not being ready" , her "wanting someone to bring her closer to her faith", or the girl just dating another guy all together. It's so fucking frustrating and to be honest I have become so dependant on marijuana and alcohol to fill the void they leave in my heart that it's sickening. I am so depressed but I am not going to get diagnosed. Too much hassle. It's almost 6am, I'm rambling, fuck everything.
I have a solid group of friends, a loving family, and nothing but positivity surrounding me, but I just
>>710731934
cntd.
I just feel so comfortable in this rut of nothingness. It's like my emotions are wearing down as they were brake rotors. Wittling away to nothing. Some day there will be nothing there, and I will crash. but for now, I'm just cozy in the dark.
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>>710732084
No, that's okay, man. I've been out of a relationship for 4 years now. You stop missing it, as long as you keep focusing on you. I slept with someone once in that time. It's nice to not have to consult a partner and make 100% of my own decisions. It gets lonely, but the internet scrapes me by. I ought to just mate once a year so I don't get physically starved for contact. Maybe I need one of those 'professional cuddlers'.
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>>710732084
I'm sorry for you
Kinda have a feeling of nothingness right now.
An absolute void of feelings.
When i get shouted at or anyone says something which would've offended me, I don't give a shit anymore.
It's more like "ah, this again. Okay."
I'm at the point of losing my feelings all together to a not ending voice, whispering "why would you even care. just kill yourself already"
I don't know how to go on with my life.
To everyone I know, I'm just the nice dude who's friendly and stuff,
but i am just shattered inside
been here time to time over the past ten years. will leave when its good. Come back when its not. Never shared.
>17 years old and Leave family. Step-dad liked to put me in the bathroom with the lights out. Not buy food for weeks. General asshole.
>family was very important to me. Didnt bitch or say anything ever. Very good at manipulation so no one ever knew anything about anything else I'm not comfortable saying.
>string of useless relationships. Everyone ends up leaving because deep down I think they know that every word that leaves my mouth does nothing but help build an image I want them to believe
>finally meet someone online. The only people I ever was honest with were online. They lied to me but it was like a game. At this point in my life I was so wrapped in my own lies that I obsessed over finding all of everyone elses secrets. Estranged alot of people I was dating because they said 'I feel like I'm under a microscope, and while thats nice at first its exhausting'. ohwell.jpg
>the interest I had in this person (so little interests me at this point) turns into something else. I go to visit 2 states away on a whim.
>enter whirlwind romance
>we keep visiting each other
>5-8 hour phone calls
>actual honest conversations, about everything. music, life, death etc
>actual conversations are so rare.
>they move to my state because their family sucks and it was good for their depression. I was a protector at heart and they were self destructive. Being a manipulator this fit well in an odd broken way.
>they still cut but less. The got a job and I convinced them to go to school.
>enter student loans
>enter shared living space
>they have issues trying to juggle having a job, new city and massive school load.
>we agree that instead of schooling for both us I will take a blue collar job till they're done
>talk of marriage exchange rings
>nothing legal because we want a ceremony verymaterialistic.gif We are inseparable though. It physically hurts even remembering this.
>>710732363
Ya the internet has kept me relatively sane. As far as physical contact goes, i get laid every once in a while, so the starvation for physical contact isn't there. I guess I just miss the emotional bonding. The almost spiritual understanding of a person through intimate conversation. Dissecting my mind with just her eyes. Don't mind me I'm stoned.
>>710732084
I feel you dude. Nothing like drugs and alcohol, doesn't help that I've a natural supply of shrooms available. Try and make most of the positive people around you before they disappear though, trust me. It's gonna feel a lot worse if they're finally gone. Don't let that happen. I did.
>>710732516
You can have that with someone without dating them. Many people are starved for connections with others. Hence, this place...
>>710732530
Solid advice.
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I miss her
>>710732699
>nice dubs
that's the thing though, I have friends and acquaintances that I already do that with. But doing it with HER... that's another story. That's a chemical reaction in my cerebral that 404'd a while ago.
>>710732881
Oh, I miss her, too; I see her almost every day
>>710731934
I keep adding and deleting her on fb like wtf am I doing . Then, 2 years later, she says used the weed as an excuse to get out of the relationship LOL FUCK ME RIGHT.
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>>710733013
That's a fucking douche thing to do. Man, fuck people. People are such assholes.
part 2 o idiocy
>since we shared everything she had left her facebook open. We had been living together for two wonderful years. We both are making mental improvements. Me with trust. Her with trauma.
>enter horseshit stage right
>find a message with them talking dirty with someone from their old state.
>I am not a jealous person but perturbed none the less.
>jokingly ask and am met with harsh anger. Stupidly respond in kind.
>the old tick starts coming back. That feeling the back of my head I get when someone is hiding things from me.
>I swear to god I'm not gonna self sabotage.
>dont want to be made a fool out of either.
>look but dont look. Dontwannabethatperson.png
>the more I look the more I find.
>the more it hurts.
>the more I look the more they do.
>tensions begin to rise where I start to get angry. Yet again not a jealous person but also a believer in monogamy. Nothingislegalyet
>finally they start lying again to me constantly
>tell them if they dont love me or cant stop...
>swear they can
>find more. Hard to hide things when you share a room and a phone.
>they start cutting again.
>emotional manipulation I respond childishly to in anger.
>finally kick them out.
>they wander the streets for a few days. I miss the love of my life and start drinking again.
>the cycle from here spins out as one can expect without the physical violence. Everything bad they did was matched by the equally great good.
>finally after 8 years we separated and they gave my ring back.
Ive been in a few relationships since then. 1-dimensional boring escapes that sometimes end in sex. They become fewer and farther between. The last 8 months Ive buried myself in work at a job surrounded by idiots whose grandest thought revolves around sports.
so I'm back here again. Posting for the first time. Having to lookup how to greentext because after 10 years these are my first two posts. Lost my gusto halfway through because I'm so tired I cant even feel sad anymore. I just ...pretend.
I turned down the only girl that ever loved me; I used to try to convince myself that it was because of the anxiety disorder I had back then I actually was making her a favor for I wouldn't be of much utility, but the truth is I was a coward of a fag afraid of even a littlest of commitment and a maggot that crawls back into the darkness when a little fire is lit before it. Now I see that there probably wouldn't be anyone more fitting for me and I would have had a time of my life with her. Now she's married which is a little bit relieving, but fuck me, it is not.
Now the closest thing to waifu I got is my tomboyish redhead buddy, who most of the time mocks me for being an orthodox catholic and far right wing, which I am not, I'm just anti-SJW and bullshit like that which isn't even a thing in our Slav Empire. Not so long time ago we took a part in a tavern brawl which I would most likely run away from if it wasn't for her turning out to be an only man in the bar and stepping in every time one guy had his shit beaten out by three fags, while I took on me every dipshit that had problem with her.
Worst part, even when I managed to go full alpha for the first time in my life thanks to her, I'm still nothing compared to her balls and I won't ever have any chance with her.
>>710733109
What a bro for telling him though. Now he can cut his losses and continue with his life.
:(
>>710732889
Thanks! It'll pass, too, though.
>>710733008
Yupp. Solid let-go time right there. ;(
>>710733199
that's pretty rough man. Love makes you so vulnerable. So soft. It hits the hardest when she doesn't even give a solid reasoning.
>>710731701
I love you too anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sy3lJIxyZ60
>>710716923
Good morning/b/. I just finisged killing off all my previous socil accounts to try and minimize damage between me and anyone I used to call a friend. Anyways, how are the rest of you holding up?
>>710732881
We all miss her bro
>>710733854
>>710733854
>I need you to take care of me
I could put that on my Tshirt. What miserably faggy of me.
>>710733164
Oh yeah. I respect the person telling him. But that girl doesn't deserve him, what a fucking bitch.
>>710734056
last line is shit but eh, sums up my powerlessness when it comes to leaving her alone
Hey /b/ i asked her what was wrong...she came up with a bunch of reasons and then started ignoring me again.. i think its fucked and im bracing for it. I hate this feeling of the unknown. should i just message and say i cant do this? i dont know what to do.. I dont feel like it will blow over but maybe it would
>>710734448
She left me but I was the one who brought the subject to the table because it was too painful. She was probably waiting "ho he'll dump me if I just become too cold and distant"
>>710734580
Who the fuck are you?
>>710733119
Get it out, then. This shit happens. I'll give you one from my high school days.
>Dating someone for sophomore, junior, senior year of high school
>We go to both proms
>He asked me out at a roller rink, awkward as fuck, but I am too, so I can dig it
>Great relationship
>All is well, basic-cutesy can't-believe-we-found-each-other-shit
>Lucky enough to take a vacation to hawaii with his parents, spend all day of every day together when possible
>Start to get physical
>His family gets to take all kind of trips all the time, lots of travelling for him/them
>He goes on a cruise for two weeks
>Missing him like hell
>He comes back and everything's normal, but
>One night on the phone, he's half-asleep
>Hangs up without our cutesy generic Iloveyou argument about who's gonna hang up first
>All he said was bye
>Whatever, he must be tired
>Relationship goes on like nothing's wrong
>Really close friends with his brother all through highschool
>Hanging out with his brother one day
>We usually walk around Target (local store) and just shoot the shit, he'd skate with us, we were all pretty cool
>Somehow my and anon's relationship come up in a conversation
>His brother: "so honestly, I feel kind of bad that you're taking what he did so lightly."
>Me: -silence- wtf is he talking about?
>anonbro: "..you guys are still together, right?
>Me: "What are you talking about? He didn't do ANYTHING?"
>HE FUCKING CHEATED ON YOU WITH THAT GIRL ON THE CRUISE HE TOLD ME HE TOLD YOU ALREADY
>...
>........
>I didn't even dump him, I just stopped talking to him completely
>Answered his calls less and less, disappeared
>Eventually he realizes I knew
>Calls and yells at me about it
>He starts dating cruise ho over the internet
>Fuck that bitch, spend all of my time playing steam games
(cont)
>>710734809
(/cont)
>Meet dude at a pc cafe
>Start hanging out with him and his weird friends, like some crappy defiant rebound
>Dude from pc cafe winds up raping me
>Ex tries to talk to me but I'm depressed, suicidal and actually living in a car by that point because my parents divorced and I was homeless
>Still not over ex, but paint up my life like it's going great so he'll leave me alone
>I don't deserve anyone, it must all be my fault somehow
>We both go through several crappy relationships
>Still miss him
>One day tell him I want to discuss everything that happened
>He doesn't want to upset his current gf by talking to me
>Hear they're getting married
>I let go and try to forget, focus on work and bettering my shit life
>Call from his brother
>Ex's fiancee had been cheating on him all relationship
>My ex shot himself in the face, an hero'd
>Our english teacher's at the funeral
>"He called me often to talk about how he missed you and felt too ashamed to break a relationship or try to speak to you. Did you ever miss him?....I know you both went through a lot, but I want you to know that I truly believe that he always loved you."
>My BF at the time cheats on me while I'm at ex's funeral.
fml
>>710734733
Your roommate
>>710710849
>>710712714
I was diagnosed after I got off heroin. I guess I was self medicating with drinking and drugs since I was 15
>>710732881
I miss the idea of her
Having someone who cares
Someone to share life with
I feel so alone
>>710717069
Need my rule folder
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>>710728350
Fucking fuck
well, I don't usually do these things. Forgive me if I seem a bit off.
I had a real awkward interaction this past summer, and I really don't know how to feel about it.
Backstory: I'm adopted from foreign land to the US. Never met my biological parents. Never knew them, was put into an orphanage not long after birth.
Through many miricals and a dash of dumb luck, I finally got citizenship to the us. I never really got along with my current parrents, especially my dad. I'm not sure what it is, but him and I just always think differently, and then we get frustrated at eachother when we see things differently.
He's tried making amends, and even got me into some hobbies that we share. Yet, every week or so, something stupidly insignificant happens, he gets pussed off at me, and heat ensues. I'm usually set in my simplistic way of always thinking he's wrong, but often times I don't win, because he's the dad, I'm the son. etc. etc. bullshit.
I try and relate to him too, but it just never works out.
Fast forward to when I was 18/19 I got a phonecall from some guy in russia, telling me they'd found my biological parents.
Tell my folks, about it, and I tell them I want to go back to meet them. Dad says he wants to go along, cause he wanted to try and bond more or something.
We get there, and there's a lot of paperwork I had to sort out, eventually I got the name of a town in the middle of bum fuck nowhere. I go there, and it takes a few days but I find my actual flesh and blood, relatives.
When I decided to go on the trip, I was hoping for some kind of connection, some kind of closure that everything was alright.
When I got there, I went in heir house, sat down, and we just talked. For a while.
You know what I felt, /b/?
Nothing. I didn't feel anything. My brain told me that they were my parents, but my heart told me that they were just more strangers.
>>710735016
Are you even an ausfag?
>>710723929
I think not even a quarter of the people who visited this thread know what this is about. That's a masterpiece right there.
>>710735229
I feel you... my father died when i was young.. my mother abused me from a young age.. i rarely see her and when i do.. i feel so confused.. i don't feel hate, sadness i see her as a stranger that i feel nothing towards her and it confuses me...
>>710735361
It's the trauma and abuse. It makes you numb. That's why people try to convince abuse victims that it wasn't bad or didn't happen, because it's not very visible to others.
>>710735438
Really? huh. Family and friends tried to get me counciling but its useless it happened and there is nothing to do about it.. The only thing i wonder is what my father would look like now if the cancer did not take him. what would he think of me?
>>710730284
Crywank
>>710735229
what was worse, was tue confirmation that they were infact my parents. Of they thought a similar, if not the same way I do, I'm Willing to bet all my remaining rubels on them not having any sort of emotional connection towards me
either. So the feeling was perfectly mutual.
Eventually, with my adopting father, got back on a plane to the us, and I've not talked with them since.
So I know they're still alive and well now, but yet, there's nothing else there. It seems like I want to be mad at them, but to be honest, I'm not. I'm not really sad either. just a bit shocked that nothing really came out of that whole trip.
I think taking it was a mistake.
This ofcourse was not the first time I've had an emotional disconnect. I apparently have a lobg track record of it.
Now I'm at a point where I've shoved both sets of my parents away, and my old highschool friends, all for the same reason. I get to know people, and then I do and say something outrageously stupid. Afterwards, I usually feel that my only option is to burn the bridge as quick as possible, and this is where I am today.
>>710735662
You weren't really raised with affection as a necessity. It'll be harder for you to feel natural when providing affection to others, and you might not understand very well when people are providing it to you. It's alright. Do what you're comfortable with.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lrulQAZq7Y8
Basically any song by daughter will make you wanna die
This last scene always brings tears. https://youtu.be/2AOWWTilu6Q?t=21s
Why do I like sadness so much? Its weird, i always look for sad movies, sad music and threads like this? I don't even know if im sad or if im pretending to be sad, but i don't know if im happy either..
>>710735997
Sometimes I come on when numb to feel emotion, sometimes I come on when sad/lonely to find comrades. It's all welcome.
>>710735848
its not that im not comfortable with it... i want to connect. but when i look at it bluntly.. i dont really feeling anything.. Im the same fag in the complicated relationship shit... And now when i look at it.. i dont feel anything nothing
you all know nothing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxgN_YgZEwU
>>710730284
Pretty much all lo-fi music, btw, I LOVE flatsound, and these are pretty much similiar and some of my favorite music.
otherwise check out:
>Wishing (Flatsound & Fox Academy)
>Danedelion Hands
>Nothing,Nowhere
>Teen Suicide
>OH!Hello
>Fox Academy
>Spookyghostboy
>Right away, Great Captain!
>German Error Message
>Elvis Depressedly
>>710730284
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQrhA6QtWOM
>>710733854
you know how retarded this shit is? treating your lover like she is your mother? marge should have left homer years ago.
>>710734068
yeah pretty fucking faggy. learn how to take care of yourself you faggot. you can't love somebody if you can't love yourself.
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>>710737285
go back to tumblr, faggot.
>>710736113
Then why not just have interesting friendships/friends with benefits?
>>710737449
are you serious? have you seen this thread? you're telling me to go back to tumblr while all you faggots circle jerk over your own sadness? do you know what irony is mother fucker? i offer you decent advice and you tell me to fuck off. be sad faggot, you've got nobody to blame but yourself. until you realize that, you will be a sad, lonely, foreveralone faggot.
>>710737876
>i offer you decent advice
nice try, wasn't samefag and i ain't alone. lel
>>710737876
It's just not even worth saving the bait images for.
It's okay to accept that you've got nothing better to do than be in here, anon. You needn't be ashamed.
>>710737976
if you can't grasp the concept of taking responsibility of your own happiness, you don't deserve it. that is essentially my advice, but go on and tell me how being fetishistic over your sadness is helping.
>>710738125
re-read the very post you're replying to you dumb cunt. wasn't samefag. i'm calling you on your shit for not grasping that these threads are clearly not about rationality.
>>710738058
i'm here because i used to be one of you faggots. then i grew up. i wish somebody had told me what i am telling you right now when i was there.
actually they probably did, and i would have deflected responsibility of myself like you fags are doing now.
>>710738261
yeah, they're about self pity and jerking yourself off over your own self centered sadness, i get that.
It's been 7 years and I still love her. I still can't forget her.
>>710738264
>"i would have deflected responsibility of myself like you fags are doing now."
Oh, so you already know, then, that your presence in here is useless aside from your own entertainment. And your life now, is a...come-up from discussing these things? Yet you still find yourself here on these boards? For entertainment? Please, tell me more about how much better you're doing now that you've moved past needing to come to these boards.
>>710738827
i happened upon this thread in passing, forgive me for giving you some hard truths. realistically, i certainly don't care about your mental health decline, you obviously don't, so why do you even bother?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xg03IV-S9io
In an LDR, she's been disappearing during weekends and some other days off social media and shit. She used to take and post photos daily, was on facebook 24/7, now she isn't. She told me she goes to underground raves. She's kind of into drugs a little bit. I've been putting 2 and 2 together and I think she might be cheating.
Avoiding social media like it's cancer and going to drug raves. She gets horny a lot, and she's very emotional. Am I paranoid? Should I prod her with questions about this? Fuck I'm so lost
>>710729471
>a lot of which are worth 60 - 100 just for a single card
I highly doubt that. Very few first gen cards reach that price.
>>710738990
You're the one in here claiming he doesn't belong in here. Let's discuss YOUR feelings, anon.
Are you feeling...left out? Lonesome? Like you don't belong?
well ill tell my story, i was a crab fisher from the age of 27-34 so ill tell the story of my best friend max. ill follow suit with adonis and will be calling myself Glaucus the fishermans sea god during my story. cont.
>>710739360
Sounds a liiiittle like she might be having some drug addiction, but that's a possibility if you don't have a very strong relationship foundation. Don't get unnecessarily hostile unless you're quite sure.
>>710739598
>be me 5
>moved around 700 miles to a rural northern town
>kindergarten
>get sat next to a kid named Max
>instantly clicked as friends
>liked the same cartoons, played the same classic vidya
>feelsgoodman
>we got older and were always close friends
>we grew up together and went to different colleges
> straight out of college i went back to my home town
>Max dropped out after his mother was diagnosed with Sarcoma
>Stayed with her for 2 years until she passed away.
>the day after she lost her battle
>we sat on the couch watching football and getting drunk
>the man i saw sitting next to me was much different from the one i grew up with
>he was utterly defeated
>he couldn't cry
>he was in shock of what happened to his mother
> he sat there staring at the TV
>just drinking
>he asked me something which i wont forget
> "Glaucus what do i do now im broke, shes gone and i don't have a degree."
> i responded in the one way i could "I dont know"
>we sat there silently for a few hours.
>we clung to each play, the only thing keeping us sane.
>in the morning, he said he said " I need to get away from here"
>the house was on the market for a little over a month
>max had moved to a port town hundreds of miles away
>one day i get a call from him
>asks me to come down to where he is
>so knowing what hes been through, i took leave from my office and flew to max the next day.
>at this point i was an attorney had taken on a couple of cases.
>when i arrived i was met with a man who was different
>he had been going to the gym, but lived in a disheveled house
>he told me he had been contracted as a crab fisher, and was asked to supply crabs.
>max invited me and the company got a few other people.
>long story short i knew i had to be there for my friend so i did what i thought was right
>i quit my job as an attorney and joined Max in his fishing.
>>710739638
>after joining him life was pretty simple
>for around 7 years
>i got up
>Went to the pier
>fished
>Went home and got piss drunk
>throughout this time Max always seemed distant
>since we lived in the same house i discovered his "secret"
>he was taking one prescription antidepressant and four illegally obtained ones
>he never did get better but i always stayed with him
>one particular day there was a hurricane a few hundred miles over
>We thought it was just a tropical storm
>something we had dealt with before
>no cause for alarm or drama
>so Max, the crew, and I. went to the pier and headed towards open waters.
>We casted our nets and waited
>we sat there in the turbulent waters for a few hours
>this was until the storm hit
>the waves became immensely larger
>and the sky rained ferociously
>we drew our nets in and put the crabs away as we got ready to head back to port
>a particularly big wave knocked us sideways and almost capsized us. we were all almost okay.
>Except for one the companies fisherman, a man named Eddy.
>Eddy was the most reliable person on our crew
>he was there whenever you needed him, he was a jack of all trades in a sense, nicest and perhaps most caring man i met.
>eddy had been rocked to the side of the boat and hit his head, he was knocked out
>once we got our bearings back, we rushed eddy to the ships interior, and began trying to head for port
>not long after a second wave hit.
>This wave capsized us
>Our ship sunk before me
>i rushed under the ship to grab Eddy
>the ship was to far gone to grab him
>Eddy drowned when he was knocked out.
>however i never saw max
>he had simply vanished
>max was gone
>my thoughts all raced to him dying
>when i reached shore, everyone aside from eddy was there
>we got treated for minor injuries and went to Eddies funeral.
>this broke the camels back
>My friend max snapped
>He became a depressed and true alcoholic
>he blamed himself for eddy's death
>he had gone over the deep end
cont
>>710739621
She smokes weed here and there and does LSD in raves. No crack, no other addictive stuff.
>>710739686
>Max went off the grid, and i went back to being an attorney
>he showed up where i worked piss drunk one day
>he told and yelled at me "Eddy is gone because of me, i could have saved him, why didn't i?
>i stayed with him for the next few months, one day Max decided he had enough.
>On june 9th Max committed Suicide
>he left two notes one for me, and one for everyone else
>the note to everyone read
"Im guilty, i wasnt even able to save one of my closest friends. So why i should i be allowed to live knowing he didn’t. I hate this world."
>The note he left me was as follows
"Thank you Glaucus, you were my first and last friend. i am sorry i had to leave so soon, but my memories with you were the only happy ones i have. Glaucus until we meet again -Max"
I know i could have saved Max but i wasn't able to, im sorry my friend.
>>710739687
meth or heroin would be bigger concerns. Not trying to convince you, but people make sudden changed in behaviour pretty rarely.
lol
>>710726446
the music sucks. sorry man
>>710739716
It honestly seems you did your best. Survivor's guilt can be a bitch, but it wasn't his fault, and isn't yours. People don't really stop and flip their lives for others.
I have been depressed for long as I can remember. Sure I try to find a balance in my life, but feeling depressed is also beautiful. I want you to listen to this song while feeling at your lowest. This is music. This is emotion: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5nnLzeBZK0
>when faggots whining about their past relationships when there are people here that never even kissed a girl or been loved by anyone ever at least for one week
>>710740818
>people here that never even kissed a girl
haha faggot
>>710741589
search "thank you" by royksopp, sounds a little bit like daft punk something about us
>>710741918
Sweet, thanks. What a great night for my music library. I'm always looking for new shit.
>>710742072
Yea np I take listening to music very serious and have expended my own library with great songs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmzPRwfj0Ug
>>710741918
Gave it a listen, it gets a bit repetetive so I won't tolerate it. I like the sound, though.
>>710730993
this shit is too accurate
>>710742270
Okok you want something not repetitive? Listen to this and you will be a better man: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=St14STZS4fo you will rise from your body
>>710742559
GO ON MY SON, BE FREE
Somewhere, at some point she cared. But I guess she forgot or got bored of trying to fix me.
>>710742800
>>710742559
I did not know songs could be this unoriginal. Skip around that entire album. Keep changing the time of the songs. It's just the same music forever. What the fuck, man.
>>710742852
well that escalated quickly
I went to jump off a bridge last night but couldn't fucking do it. fuck man when will the pain stop
I have a goos relationship with my father. He's always been there for me. Always helped me.
>find out friday the cancer is back
>in-operable
>6 months to live
I'm gonna miss him.
>>710743145
The first one was from the night before. She's online now telling me good morning. I don't know what to do.
>>710740225
yea, i suppose im a bit odd for shifting my life more my friend, when i found his antidepressants it became a permanent thing. so i suppose its no ones fault, but i still know i could have done more.
>>710743802
Hang with him as he lives or you'll regret it! You've got a warning, and that's lucky.
>>710743995
Ask straight up. In these words. "Are you considering breaking up?"
If she asks why, cite your conversation from the other night.
Take her answer at face value. If she says 'sort of' and then tries to backtrack, don't forget that she's actually considering it, and begin preparing to get used to doing your own thing again for awhile.
>>710744007
Nope. If someone's addicted to five antidepressants and are using them to deal with two huge deaths, I'm sorry, but there's not much a friend can do, and it's just not your fault.
>>710728077
Move along. It's way too much effort trying to change other peoples mind, and even if you think you're doing the right thing, you will get fucked over when its all said and done. Plenty of attractive down to earth people that already know what they want out there.
>>710744935
So that's after, nothing's taken back, she still considers you broken up?
Ditch her. She's saying she wants you to treat her the same while she does whatever she wants and that's not how the end of a relationship works. Tell her if it's over, it's over.
Ditch her.
>>710743995
don't keep the relationship going just end it before you waste more of your time; she'll eventually leave anyways
>>710744898
objectively you are probably right, but all the same i kept him going for 7 years, so i thought i could make it last longer
>>710747112
If anything, you should see it as adding some years to his life. Without your help, it likely would have ended sooner.
https://youtu.be/Az1A7Pl1ehk
>>710712595
You're a hero anon, never quit the fight.
>>710728077
either lies or she is confused
if confused you need to make her feel that you're better
if not just go find another one, she prolly wanted something from you
>>710711604
Niggah, I'm a cash register and shit is easy, we literally no longer count shit, its all done via a machine
