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>>710602542
Fucking hate chronic nightmares. Its 3:11 a.m. I just wanna sleep. :(
'...thank you... all I ever wanted was someone to make me feel beautiful.. at least I had a taste of happiness'
Those are the words that haunt me.
Those are the words the person I loved more than I've ever loved anything whispered to me as I end our relationship.
Tears are welling up as I write this
Could someone help me I'm looking for the man pictured
>>710602690
7:00 am here. Sleep is so hard man. Lucid nightmares and sleep paralysis mixed with constant axiety suck dick. I just wanna sleep too.
>>710605582
Same. This bed is so comfy but i feel no comfort. Only fear. It's a bad feeling to face the night alone.
>>710605708
Mines not nightmare lucid dreaming, but pleasant lucid dreams where I'm holding her and kissing her, just like old times. Waking up from a not restful dream to find I'm still alone in a bed that's too big for one sucks more than the fact that every time I close my eyes, I automatically start with the lucids which don't rest you at all, so instead of waking sad but rested, you wake feeling like you've been run over by a truck which makes it that much harder to face the reality of your situation.
Fuck me.
>>710602542
I just miss her
>dreams about "friends" who don't talk to you anymore for months
>they say they are sorry, they didn't mean it! they are back!
>wake up
>that little and short haze when your dream still seems real
>no text
I feel like she is slipping away...
>>710607154
She is
>>710604156
>>710606211
>>710607277
it'll be ok /b/rothers
>write out entire greentext
>"Error:too many lines"
>phone shuts off
Fuck my life. I hope I can get this in before this thread gets pruned or deleted
>>710607548
I'll keep it alive for you if it reaches page 10
>>710607616
>>710603507
Anon regret or anon feel sorry?
>>710607548
Same here
So i always get this empty feeling of hopelessness. I usually get depressed and then lather myself in self pity but then i resent it because it seems too superficial. My automated feelings for daily life are not compatible with my actual mentality. I wish i had no feelings but then i realize i'd fear regretting it because it'll be the same emptiness. Even when people tell me about how smart I am (or rather, appear to be) I get this constant self doubt because of my fear of taking the compliment the wrong way and becoming presumptuous. My whole awakening of consciousness has been a loop of constant fear, self-doubt, depression, and self pity.
>>710603507
I just want her to love me again
>>710608444
She won't Anon.
I want to rise up with my brothers, and have a purpose.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmGqG3grTrg
>>710603507
You should turn it into a positive and learn from it. Take it this way. She essentially explained the whole concept of what happiness really is so you wouldn't suffer.Happiness is something you must taste and enjoy whilst it's landed on your tongue. Its not a perpetual state of mind one can enter. It's the experience of something in the now.To expect anything more would be selfish. Look forward to the happiness waiting to come. The snowflake of happiness may only fall during winter but you can rest assured throughout the rainy days of summer that winter will come once more. That little snowflake will fall onto your tongue for you to taste again anon.
>>710608474
Those trips say otherwise
test
I really want to be with someone special but looking back at my past relationships, I think it's better if I'm all alone and not bother anyone with myself.
I was clingy, possessive, attention-seeking. She wasn't even my gf, she was just a crush. Hell, I started cutting just because I wanted her to notice me. I thought we had a good thing going on but then I realized, she never started a conversation with me. I ended the "relationship" and since I've finished high school, stopped messaging her.
Right now, there's also this one girl whom I've started seeing but I notice I'm doing the same thing as before. I really don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Thinking about just stopping this chase so I don't get broken like before.
I'm 26. The girl I used to date in college sent me a text several days ago. It's been about three years since we last spoke. Guys, I was over her. I wasn't thinking about her at all, then she pulls this shit. A few days into the correspondence and we're breaking ties again. I hate this shit, man. She says she just wants to see what's new with me, to know how I'm doing. Then she sends a few lewd photos.
"Oh anon I'd give anything to fuck you again."
"Awesome! Come visit sometime."
"No you're too 'complacent.' It isn't realistic"
Fffffuuuuuuuuu just leave me alone then please!!!! Christ almighty she played me again guys. I just want off this ride.
>>710608576
That's sad, but a watch doesn't work with our every cog. Let's at least paint ourselves different colors and celebrate those diff-
wait...
>>710608924
Shit sucks. Share the pictures?
(1/2)
>be me
>senior in HS
>another sleepless Friday night
>at moms
>moved to my dads freshman year, my mom was devastated
>I drive up ever other weekend or so, when I dont work or I dont have plans
>looking around old room
>find old ipod shuffle with its charger still in
>fuckyea.jpg
>charge it up real quick
>plug in some headphones
>first song that comes on is Nothing by The Script
>flashback to middle school
>back when I still lived in moms town
>first day of 6th grade
>qt3.14 walks through the door
>my first crush I'd ever had
>too beta to even try and talk to her
>get my friends to hype me up one day
>gather enough confidence to talk to her
>become somewhat good friends
>later on down the road, ask her if she wants to go on a date
>immediately shot down
>but Im persistent
This goes on for a little under a year, into 7th grade
>>710608853
>I started cutting just because I wanted her to notice me
No one has ever done this, get a life.
>>710609220
(2/3)
>one day in 7th grade, she says yes
>wat.jpg
>"I'll give you a shot, and I'll be your girlfriend, anon."
>literally the happiest Ive ever been
>two weeks in, take her to go see a movie
>shitty horror flick, but I'd been saving up for it
>working extra chores and mowing a fuck ton of lawns, saving up for the date
>pay our way in, share a large popcorn and a large drink
>my best friend and her best friend were dating at the time
>they tag along with us
>try to put my arm around her during the movie
>fuck it up like the beta fag I am
>she says I hurt her neck or something
>"Anonette, I am SO sorry"
>assholes behind us laugh at how beta I am
>after the movie
>"Anon, we're over"
>heart shatters
>"this was all just a dare, anon. My friend dared me to date you. I felt bad for you, so I just went along with it. Im sorry."
>tell her its okay, walk home with best friend
>spend the night at his place
>cry myself to sleep on his floor
>after the break up, her and I become super close friends
>we stay up until 3 in the morning some nights sharing songs we found, mostly love songs to each other
>the song we both love to death is Nothing, we both jam out to that song constantly
>think I have another chance
>last day of 7th grade
>walking anonette to her moms car
>"I'll miss you, Anon."
>cant believe what I just heard, do my ears decieve me?
>"I'll miss you too, Anonette."
>we hug
>>710609313
(3/3)
>text her over the summer
>her friend finds out anonette cuts herself
>even I didnt know this
>see picture
>her thigh is torn to absolute shreads
>just like my heart
>Anonette is forced to go to therapy because of the cuts
>asshole therapist says Im the mental stressor causing the cuts, and makes Anonette avoid me
>first day of 8th grade
>Anonette ignores me, never talks to me even if I beg her to
>get depressed
>try and make her jealous
>dad takes me weight lifting
>become alpha as fuck
>start pulling bitches left and right
>only doing this for attention from Anonette
>go through 20 girls, Anonette doesn't give a shit
>she starts flirting with my friends in retaliation
>depressed as fuck still
>go through all of 8th grade without her talking to me
>final dance night
>the 8th grade banquet
>dance with all my friends, party, laugh, cry a little
>I know I'll never see these guys again, Im moving to a high school in a different town
>final goodbyes
>Anonette is handjng out hugs left and right
>go in for one
>I dont even want this hug for romance, just to tie up loose ends and get some closure before never seeing her again
>she grimaced, stepped back, and helf out a hand for a handshake
>snap.jpg
>"FUCK YOU, ANONETTE."
>absolute shock on her face
>storm out of the hall
>never talk to her again
Its been forever, but Im considering texting her again. Should I?
About two years ago I was diagnosed with major depression, largely brought on by my dad dying and my first gf leaving within a few months of each other. Within the next year two of my cousins died, and just last week my nephew died (going to his funeral in seven hours). I don't know how much longer I can go on guys
shit relationship with parents, no siblings, never had GF, never felt loved or happy...local autistic beta that has no emotions but appears to be the funny kid, make girls laugh, they say they like me but not anything serious, then fuck a chad, many keks, want pain to stop
>>710608853
seems like you're afraid if losing them so you over-correct it by manipulating everything to feel like you have control. You've noticed the problem so all you need to do is get rid of it. Don't think too highly of the girl you're with. There is no such thing as "the one". There are many people you are compatible with. Loosen up a bit and just go along for the ride. If you need therapy then go to therapy, there's no harm in it. I think i'm just like you but I've recently opened my eyes to my "Oneitis". If you really think about it, you've become addicted to the negative feelings and self-pity. Your mind automatically jumps and highlights the negatives of things. Whenever your brain starts to think negatively.. take control of it and tell yourself, "no, that's not what it is." There's always a solution to things so if you feel stuck just think of the next step. Never stop moving forward or it will dig you deeper the longer you stay. Improve yourself and enjoy life anon. You'll thank yourself when you're old and all you have left to do is remember the life you lived.
>>710604156
TFW I don't have anything interesting from my past to talk about because I was always a timid, beta faggot.
TFW nothing to look forward to in life because of chronic depression and crippling motivational issues.
>>710608373
I just want them to stop. It's worse than nightmares at this point, and only contributes to the sadness.
End my life already.
Life is mediocre. I get mediocre laughs from a comedy film. I get slightly entertained by videogames. I have a 6/10 job. Lost my gf but don't feel much about it. I drink to get a rush, but the rush never comes. I get slightly tipsy and I feel 10% better. The next day 30% worse. I watch anime, but rarely there is one that keeps my attention very long.
Is this how I want to keep living?
Well at least I'm not depressed.
>>710609253
you have no idea how much of a fag I was in middle-school. Took my mom's kitchen knife and started to like, slice a bit of my arm. It bled a little so I thought I was doing okay. Come Monday and I walk up to her group of friends and showed it to them. They all looked shock while I had this smug look on my face like I dun good.
>>710609650
What is it that you're missing? Have any hobbies?
>>710608048
The way you write reminds me of my friend Jose.
The main idea of your post seems to be that you are self aware to the point of paranoia. I know it won't help to simply tell you "Don't worry so much." Just rest assured that you aren't the only one who has these kinds of problems. We all get introspective at times and it isn't always good. Allow yourself to focus on things besides your flaws. No, your flaws will never go away but you can work around them. Just accept that you are imperfect and make the most of what talents you do have.
>>710609752
Video games and anime.. that's about it. Nothing really get's me excited.
Does anyone have advice to deal with shit without drinking? I'm not 21 so it's hard for me to get alcohol, but I hate being sober
>>710609650
Sounds like my life atm. Try to have something scheduled in close future. A trip somewhere, a big party. Anything to keep you motivated to get up in the morning and earn those fucking monaay.
>>710609802
What about reading books? you'll either learn something or strike the match of curiosity with it.
>>710609220
wow.. this reminds me when I was 10 or 11 years old I liked this girl but she didn't like me back but I didn't give up one day she said she did like me a little bit and I was happy.. it was probably just to make me stop asking or some shit.. but when I was 12 I quit talking to my friends I drifted off from them even my closest friends tried to get me out of the house but I refused and quit talking.. now I don't do anything besides playing video games all day and browsing /b/ wondering why i did that..
I almost died and noone believed me you heartless bitch. I can't afford therapy and nobody believes me now either. I did some dumb stuff for attention, but you literally exploited mental illness just to have a little band of obsessed followers. You're disgusting, I realized that a long time ago. I don't give a fuck about you just leave me alone.
>>710610085
Parental figure or ex?
>>710609190
Eat your heart out
>>710610196
>>710609478
>afraid of losing them
hit the nail on the head, anon.
Yeah, recently I've stopped messaging her and just talk with her casually when we meet up. I really can't tell if she has feelings for me or not. Going with the flow right now and hopefully it'll work out.
>enjoy life
Thanks anon, you too.
>>710610219
She ain't a lot to look at, but that is a genuine female boob right there.
>>710609795
Yea, self aware but without direction. I ask questions nobody has answers to and it feeds my self-pity.
I feel completely separate from my thoughts and emotions as if i were pure experience being tortured by them everyday. I ask others how to escape but they only respond with how shiny and polished the chain they wear is. I try to ignore the whips they lash at me but the pain can't be ignored sometimes. All i can do until my death is sit facing the brightly colored wall at the back of my cell trying to ignore the blood that drips down my back.
>>710610148
This girl I used to know who got off on finding all the lonely suicidal betas and telling them she loved one by one. She knew they had nothing else in their lives so she decided, completely selflessly of course, that she was going to be the light in there lives. Then I was in a accident that almost killed me, and believe it or not I still didn't see how insignificant dumb whores like this are. I instead became the typical edgy squeeb fiending for attention and just wanting someone to listen to me about what happened. Eventually I grew up and realized it was something terrible that I wish I had never happened, but is now just a part of my life.
so what I eat ass faggot bitch
>>710609363
You burned that bridge hard, anon. You could try and make amends but it'll probably trigger her mental state and she'll probably start cutting again :(
>be 17
>crush on girl
>started in 11 grade
>crush is in form class
>form class consists of best friend as well
>develop crush on her
>she got the dank humour, mind of a true channer
>she doesnt give shit bout my beta ass
>likes best friend instead
>wellFuckMyAssDad.png
>school camp comes around
>off to some actual camp ground for a week
>learn shit from camp master gay cunt
>4th night talk to her
>shits going well
>get thirsty and get up to go get drink
>come back and she is sitting on bestfriends lap
>kek.veg
>camp ends, get sick, school ends, grade 12
grade 12 mother fuckers
>crush on her is now more so, my beta ass doesnt know when to quit
>see friends phone opened in class
>fucksake
>100+ day snap streak with crush
> time goes on and im feeling worse
>never had gf
>every morning in form i tell jokes
> she laughs, he says something rude yet acutely chad, swoons dat bitch
>they start dating
>hear they fucked
>her first
>he wants it to end right after
>treats her like shit to send the hint
>she breaks up with him
>hates his white nigga ass
>messages him on snap 20 times a day
>everyday
>clingy af
>i started talking to her
>only guy interested in her
>make her feel special
>she still has feels for him
>fuck.avi
>lonely
>make aids greentext
>>710610611
> > >make aids greentext
self-awareness is the key to success in moving on!
>>710610538
>>710610517
Sorry you had to go though that anon, cunts like that are why I have problems confiding in anyone about my problems
>>710609447
That's real tough, anon. Stay strong.
>>710610765
> Andrew
Ohshitthat'sme
Triggered
Posting some edgelord shit
>>710610538
>>710610876
don't eat ass
>>710610876
>>710610809
Thank you, I hope life is going well for you
>>710602542
Hey /b/ i have a question this will be a long one and there are some feels.
I'm a 19 years old virgin and i was kissless until some hours.
I'm fucking trash in talking with girls anyways :
I got wasted pretty hard at a friends birthday party and met this girl she was slim as fuck(She was also diagnosed with anorexia told me my friend) and she wasn't that beautiful but i managed to talk with her some hours and kissed her in the end.(My first kiss .....)
She wanted my phone number (what i gave) and in the end she went to her friends and some minutes later she was gone.
Later i talked with her friends and they told me that she cried hard that she found someone that didn't even said a thing about her body and shit like that and they told me that she likes me and that i should wait 1 day before i write with her.
Anyways what should i do now?
I want to get laid pls.
For some reason i have my suspicion that my girlfriend of 3 years is cheating on me. Every morning i wake up i see her phone blow up on snapchat with some guys she worked with. Its the same every night aswell. I dont want to ask her because she'll say something like "oh we are just friends. Why are you so controlling? Why dont you believe i wont cheat on you?" Its just messed up because if she is cheating then ive been paying her medical bills and paying for everything since weve met for nothing. I have my own bills to pay for and shes the one holding me back from succeeding to my full extent in college because i spent too much time at work and too much time studying. It just hurts you know? When you give someone your all and you think theyre just using you or that they might be cheating. All I know is that if she is cheating, its over and i dont think i would want another girlfriend for a long time.
>>710610538
>>710610876
>>710610993
Sorry Anon but it's too late. Dump her.
>>710611025
> aren't perfect angels
fucking normie cheats and tries to justify
>>710602542
evening
just gonna go straight to the point really, tl;dr at the end.
i met her on the internet i actually met her in real life and i had something going with her for about 6 months
we had something going on for half a year yet decided at the beginning of that year she needs to go back to her ex
why? because she, and that we both established
>fears to be alone
>knows what she's getting out of him
>thinks he is immature (she is his first), childish at times and inexperienced
>she sees me as her mature, experienced guy
>she's clinging on to that teenage relationship because every other failed around them and she wants to show everyone that it can exist
over a month ago
>can we get some more distance between us? aka not write with each other?
>need to make myself clear what i want
>writing with you is making me sorta just look into one way
texted her on her birthday, a week ago
she thanked me and told me she appreciated that
wanted to start some smalltalk
but got shut off with "i don't wanna ignore you, that's why i'm answering you. you know i don't want any contact at the moment"
>talked to her two days ago
>asked her how long we shall remain on each others contact list, not texting while we both want that
>she tells me she just doesn't want contact with me for an indefinitely amount of time
>actually declares me her "ex-bf", although we never established a real relationship
>cont.
>>710611117
we started texting like 3 weeks after that again exchanged some pretty flirty texts her telling me that she likes texting me like that and stuff
and just now she told me
i don't want to continue this. no contact. (100th time i've said that i know)
all i wanted, after acknowledging that she is very indecisive, is for her to do what SHE wants and not what she thinks society, friends whatnot wants from her. but i feel like i can't even push her in any direction.
backstory to her: she broke up with her bf after 3 years, because he wasn't supporting the fact that she was doing sports and looking better by the day. they broke up, we were in the beginning phase of texting friendly there, she had something going on with some chad for a couple of weeks. our texts got more and more flirty and she wanted to find out what was behind all of that.
tl;dr stuck dick in sorta crazy, shook her "perfect world" up and tried to stay friends with a normaly cool girl
>>710610783
This isnt even okay man, I know I was really clingy when I was younger, but I only ever had my parents and that's what's made me really weird in school. After the accident we couldn't even be in the same room anymore, no 13 year old should ever have to be that close to dying man, it makes you afraid to ever be alone because it might be the last time you ever see anyone. My parents were right beside me and I wouldn't even have heard them scream if I left my headphones on. I told her so many times I would fall asleep and wake up right away because I could see it hear it happening again. I don't know why they would do this to me.
>>710609363
No.
Just no.
Had a good life. Always felt like i was stupid got ok grades nothing special went on to an ok college nothing special stuck in a ok job nothing special. And then i did the dinosaur and i feel fine now
>>710610538
>>710611115
>>710611438
my ex was like that
> 'loves to be loved'
gives nothing in return
>>710611438
What the Fuck is going on here?
>>710611097
I wish it was just that easy honestly. It just makes me more angry because I have friends that are girls but im not allowed to snapchat them. Girls that ive known way before ever meeting my girlfriend. I dont know what I should do. Lately weve been spreading apart and have almost nothing in common anymore. Ill give it some thought and see which way life takes me.
>>710609447
>Raised to celebrate life and funerals were called life parties or something like that when a family member died.
>Dad dies
>To this day, once I week, I watch a game and have a beer for him.
That really sucks man, I wish you were raised the way I was so you didn't have to dwell on death. Best of luck.
>>710611575
Just arrived at this thread but
sounds like she has a guilty conscience to me, anon; she's scared of you doing to her what she's potentially doing to you. Women's mentalities are fucked up sometimes.
>>710610765
>>710610915
>>710611025
>6 months
>Grandma's ring
>>710611653
Have an extra beer this week, for me. My grandfather died last week and life has sort of been a blur since. Hopefully it gets better after the funeral.
>>710603507
>>710608924
>>710609363
>>710609447
Some good feels in here, goddamn
>>710608853
Basically me
>>710609478
I need to remember this
>>710609795
I also know a Jose who talks like that... area?
>>710610988
Sounds like you're already doing okay. She likes you already. Just do you, lil homie. No need to stress. Good luck and report back.
>>710610993
Confront her and dump her. Shit is already too suss to keep it friendly and comfortable. Telltale signs and gut instinct, don't ignore them.
>>710611025
>>710611438
Oh god I hope this cunt gets what's coming to her.
>>710609447
shit man, thats real rough, you got this, you gotta be strong, they would have wanted you to be.
>>710611550
I agree. That convo is muy loco.
>>710611653
It wouldn't be as bad if I had more people to rely on, but the only person I really love anymore is my mom, and she is bipolar so it's hard sometimes
Thank you for wishing me well
I used to be sombody. I used to smile, and i used to laugh. Now all i can do is scowl and cry. This is what people wanted for me, i suppose. I curl up and cry every night, missing what i once was, mourning my happiness' passing.
>>710611839
Thanks anon, I'm trying my best
>>710611971
no problem
>>710611234
But why, anon?
>>710612028
shit anon that gif is so true
>>710610576
True, I'll probably just end up not texting her
>>710611960
I know how that feels, I try to be happy but forcing it really doesn't help. I don't know if my friends are all just becoming more gloomy or if I'm bringing them down. My life is so disillusioned and distant I really don't know who to talk anymore, or if I should be needing to talk to anyone at all. I really need help but I can't afford it.
>>710611830
Friend of Jose here. Southeast US.
>>710612028
That gif is way too fucking real
>>710605369
xcodeh go on his youtube.
>>710612159
Nah, southwest here. Why do Americanized Joses always talk like smart asses? kek
>>710610480
Do you write poems? Jose wrote a lot of poems.
>>710612154
It really is tragic where someone with a smile and all the joy in the world has it slowly drained from them. Why do people feel that cruelty is justified? What did anyone do to deserve having their smile torn from their face?
>>710612302
Dude idk. Joses are weird.
>i love her to much
>shes the only person i talk to
>no freinds other than her
>no motivation
>just turn my brain off the auto pilot thru the days for weeks on end
>im not even alive anymore, i just go thru the motions
>all my dreams are of her
>her long brown hair
>her gorgeous green eyes
>her smooth pale skin
>her adorable laugh
What have I /b/ecome?
>>710612159
Autist with pretentious wording here. My name isn't José.
>>710612544
>What have I /b/ecome?
Me
Just binge watch a cheesy show like Gossip Girl, the O.C, Buffy, Gilmore Girls.
>>710608444
Show her your trips, she'll love you then
>>710612703
nothing against those shows, but what would this do? not against it, but how would it help?
>>710612544
>What have I /b/ecome?
Infatuated. We all go through it once in a while. It's a drug similar in strength to heroin - has incredible, unforgettable highs, but a harsh comedown
>>710612414
Noone ever deserves that, I tell myself that every day. I find myself smiling then, feigning apathy, getting visibly angry at myself and looking around to see if anyone noticed, I can't stop doing it. It's like I'm watching the life of someone I hate play out in front of me, but I keep catching myself and realizing that's me I'm hating. Now I just try to find small, guarded opportunities to make jokes and make up for being a downer. It's nice just to see people laugh sometimes though.
>>710612877
Thinking about other things
And seeing other guys being faggots abouts girls
>>710612663
It is now.
>>710613023
yea i guess, maybe i will, idk, only time will tell, thanks anon, i love these threads, i love you guys, i know this is pathetic but you guys are friends to me, thank you anons, it really means a lot
Not suicidal. Just have developed a thanatos complex. Which is a fancy bs way of saying I don't plan on living long.
Took my house saving and began using the money to mod my car to make it more powerful. Now I drive it down quiet and empty windy roads every night harder and faster while sinking down a six pack of beer.
Plan is that I can't do this forever, and eventually it will catch up to me and I'll die. There's a note in the glove box that I hand wrote stating how I felt about living and how I just don't see the point in being just another sheep. I have no one depending on me, no debt and both of my parents have already passed away.
Tonight I didn't, but I came close to tumbling over a bit of a drop. It's a front wheel drive car,and right as I was taking a hard sweeping right corner I felt the back end begin to slip out, so I hammered the throttle. The torque steer of the car sort of leveled it out and I made it back home unscathed.
I don't want to be seen as some bitch who took his life. I want to go out going as hard as anyone thought I could go. Talking about it, and telling anons on the internet about it steels my resolve. It almost excites me about going out in a way I want to.
You had a problem wayyyy before you met "her". How the fuck could you ever let yourself develop feelings like these for any other human being?
>>710612334
Nah, i don't usually write much. I read a lot so i guess it's just a byproduct of me trying to emulate great philosophers and authors. It's what naturally comes out when thinking and writing. I speak like any normal person tbough... I think. I tend to explain everything when i speak though.. It gets annoying sometimes. I could easily make a nice poem though... Subject or request?
>>710613362
idk man, whatever is on your mind
>>710613339
Can I has your stuff?
>>710613362
>philosophers
Ha! I knew it. I wasn't going to ask, but Jose and I studied philosophy together which is why I know his writing style so well. Write a poem about water.
>>710612877
Fuck those shows. You wanna watch something entertaining that you can also connect with? Mother fucking House.
>>710613339
>Be me
>At farm
>On racing quad bike
>Zooming up hill at 60mph
>See cliff edge
>Gaining speed
>Imgoingtodienow.jpg
>Drifted round on last second
>Scariest shit in my life
>Sometimes I wish I had bad luck that day but hey ho life's good anon make the most of it.
>mom walks in my room one day
>shows me a song
>she says she loves it because it reminds her of her childhood
>We Didnt Start the Fire by Billy Joel
>explain to her what its about
>she says Im so smart and shes proud of me
>one year later
>in history class
>teacher plays the song because it relates to our chapter
>says whoever writes down the most lyrics correctly gets bonus points
>he plays it only once
>I write down the entire song
>"Damn, anon, how did you do that?"
>mfw it was my moms favorite song
>mfw my mom committed suicide a few months ago
>mfw I memorized the entire song after listening to it on endless repeat
>mfw I almost broke down in the middle of class
I miss you, mama
>>710613930
feels,feels
>>710608924
Delete her number and don"t talk to her. Shes a cunt.
>>710613534
I'm probably going to take out life insurance and shit. Give it to my brother. He's a cool guy,
>>710613877
I am. I don't want to encourage normal people to do it but drink driving is really fun. I love my car, and driving it the way I do brings me a lot of joy.
Hey guys, I need some advice, and you're really the only people I can count on. I want a relationship with a girl from my uni, and I know she's into me. We've done some physical stuff all the way up to hand shit. Problem is, she isn't ready to have a relationship. She had some bad stuff happen to her in the past, and I think she's scared of opening herself up and getting hurt again. Last night I sat down with her and laid some boundaries down, we agreed on waist up for right now. What are some things I can do for her that will show that its ok to open up to me?
>>710616255
Guess I'm gonna bump the thread
I almost got a qt to kill herself
>first class of digital tools in communications at university
>1 hour of "how to basically use photoshop"
>i know this already so fuck it, install a VPN and browse 4chan and Steam since PC's block everything fun by default
>"now, grab 5 images and crop them toghether for next class, edit the lightning, shadows and colors..." , you get it, typical introductory stuff for Adobe
>i get it done in a breeze
>posting on Deus Ex threads on /v/ while downloading doom wads to mess at home
>qt 9/10 appears
>she's got no fucking clue of how to the photoshop thing for tomorrow
>i help her out for no reason
>she suddenly leans to see the screen closer to get a clearer idea of what im doing
> she is completely distracted as she leans even more
>her shirt hangs a bit
>i suddenly notice when talking to her that she has no bra
>i can see her breasts and nipples in their fullest
>dont get hard, dont get hard you fucking autist
>"ok, got it.... but could you do this for me? I can repay later"
>the "later" sounded just weird
>i pack up and say no big deal
>i get home and do it in a breeze
>print, go to her home by bus
>think i get laid or some shit, idk
>pic related, when her dad opens the door
>give it to him ,say nothing like the absolute shit i looked and go home
>>710616619
>she scores higher than me on the mentioned work
>happy that i did something redeemable for once
>still figured i had no chance
>days pass
>first exam comes by
>history
>make a large ass summary for it
>think for a moment
>edit out some key facts
>share it to the boob girl so she might fail the exam
>i get a B, no big deal
>suddenly see she got an A
>areyoufuckingkiddingme.png
>after class
>thank you i couldnt have done this without you
>mfw
Please guys. Its been a rough week because of things with this girl. Things are really intense when we're in the moment, but afterwards she appologises for doing stuff and says she feels bad about it sincs she doesn't want a relationship.
>>710616665
>this goes on for 2-3 months
>dont talk much but i help her
>eventually she becomes good at the subjects
>one day im sitting at the starbucks and she suddenly comes in
>sits in my table
>whatnow.jpg
>"do you like playstation?"
>what the fuck did she just said
>"someone told me you played on "play" (we say it like that in south america) alot as a kid. You still do?
>dont fuck it up
>"not much now, more into pc now , but i still have a PS1 at home"
>asks to come by since she lives close
>"i always played games as a kid, why not revisit memories
>cannot belive what im hearing
>she will bring some games
>day comes
>set a tv on room
>plug my old friend and boot up Takken 3
>she comes a bit later
>she brought games, Silent Hill, and MGS1 among
>nicetaste.jpg
>idc about it and boot MGS1. Have a blast
>later put in SH1
>its dark right now
>i can notice she's getting legitimatly unconfortable
>pstd like uncomfortable
>figure its the game that brings her bad memories
>act all manly , mfw
>>710616255
Yo, don't be a sperg and pressure her to do something she's not comfortable with just because you're antsy in the pants. Respect her boundaries, don't set your own. She already likes you, she'll like you more if you show you respect her and her own boundaries and just give her time. You're basically in the clear, don't rush things.
lol, "you need help" hahaha, yeah right. Good luck dude
>>710616730
>get to the otherworld or however you say it
>she's for sure intimidated
>lean a bit
>very close to her
>"want to see my pc games? Maybe you'll feel better"
>agrees
>boot up DOOM II
>discover too late i launched it with HDOOM
>get both shocked and hard at monster boobs in menu
>she laughs her ass off
>"what the fuck is that?" She says
>cant say shit
>leans at the desk and tells me to play
>i do
>start fucking a demon
>red hair one, so it fully shows her being vag and tits in pixel glory
>i want to say something as she laughs
>notice that, like before, no bra
>i again see her gorgeous boobs
>hard as fuck
>she suddenly starts staring at the impfuck alot
>i feel too hard
>mfw
>simply put, i threw my mouth at her's
>she gets mad
>what the hell , were just friends
>leaves angrily
>>710616805
>try to talk her down on phone
>she's very fucking mad and feels bad for no reason
>autismo intensifies
>tell her to go fuck herself if a kiss is that bad, worthless cunt full of shit
>she's really shocked at me
>tell her to kill herself if she's gonna go at life that bad , go to a party and drown yourself
>this was at friday afternoon
>>710616751
I sat her down and told her we needed to set boundaries. Told her I want her to enjoy what we're doing, not feel bad about it. She started off by saying no sex and that she thought we should keep things where they are, I told her that if she needed to we could take a big step back. Now we're at waist and up.
>>710616852
>sunday
>"Tragedy at Time Warp electro party" on news
>6 or 7 people died of drugs and alcohol
>lots were hospitalized
>read the newspaper
>she was listed as one of the people in heavy detox
>>710616255
Play your cards right. Respect the boundaries but don't be a coward about it. There will be a time to get bold and snatch those panties off. You just have to recognize it.
>>710616666
Quads say leave. As one of experience, it isn't going to end well. Seriously I've been there save yourself the pain. Cut it off now. She only means to hurt you for an ego boost. Not because you can't get great women, or anything like that but because she is awful. At least in this stage of her life. Trust me no matter how you FEEL about her she obvs doesn't feel the same. Kill it. Don't reply with excuses, or justifications. You know deep down what you have to do. Something that causes you pain like this is inly toxic for you man. If you don't leave, could cause emotional fall out for years to come and impact future relationships, depending how deep the feeling is. God speed
>>710616945
As a side note, we were getting pretty into it earlier in the day. The boundaries needed to be set because she loses control in the moment and ends up regretting stuff after.
>>710608893
sounds about right,
I've been working on the road since may this year, and im going home next week,
i dont know if i want to. theres nothing there for me,
no one has talked to me while i've been away or even called.
In my heart, there is a scar. A scar opened by the one I cared for. She didn't love what I loved.
She only loved campaigns. «Fields so beautiful from my low Brittany» was what she said. But I loved distant country and deep seas. I was forced to choose between my to affections, Love for the adventure, love for a girl.
she have given her life to her nation, I chosen to gone.
After that, I never was able to met her again, I never went back to Brittany. The scar in my heart stays there, for she didn't love what I love. Every man must follow his Destiny, in this World that's the law.
I had a comfortable life, while famine was beating Brittany. For her, poverty, contempt and disdain.
But, before I left her, she told me : “Anon, I can't exchange for treasures
My Country, my Language and my Liberty.”
My heart's crushed most certainly
But she didn't love what I love
>>710609363
...And post pics
>>710609447
honestly you sound like a pretty good guy
stay strong
me, im an asshole and way too far gone into selfishness and greed and emptiness, if my cousins or a nephew or even a sibling died i wouldn't give a fuck
>>710602690
Investigate it brotendo
>>710613930
why did she kill herself? how did she do it?
if you dont mind me inquiring
>>710616954
Dude. What the fuck.
>>710607277
this one hits fucking hard anon. hope you're okay
>>710608576
seig heil!
My share:
>be me, last year
>just ended high school, ready for collage
>mom very sick, cancer, in bed stasis
>dad works all day, only one money bringer, and allways tired
>i'm in charge of helping her with her mental state and doing house stuff
>staying up till 3-4am to keep her as happy as posible and taking care of her
>getting worse and worse by day
>thisistheend.jpg
>one night, she started to talk nonsense, intangible and dumb stuff
>woke up dad
>call ambulance
>she stares at me with a empty eyes
>so fucking creepy, yet understandabe
>ambulance came
>this was the last time i saw her
>dead in 2 houes
She was diagnosed with cancer 5 years ago, tried everything, but last year was the most fucked up for me.
>>710611131
>>710611117
bump.......
>>710620914
Maybe find a local free support group for this kind of thing. You could very easily get emotional support from there as well as create lasting bonds and friendships.
>>710610876
Ayyyy it's another Andrew
Shitty thing is, everyone I've met already knows another Andrew, so people call me by my last name
>First day of sixth grade, some orientation shit
>Sitting near front of room, one of the teachers sees me and, because I am a spitting image of my older brother who went to the same school, she immediately points me out and says my last name
>Most people came from the same elementary school, and they already knew an Andrew
>So I'm just last name
>8th grade
>A third Andrew arrives
>Now the three of us are just referred to by our last names
>Newer Andrew and I went to same highschool, and this continued
>Now going to same uni, this continues
It's weird
>>710621431
The only local free support group are my friends, and they are good people.The expiriance marked me, and everybody said i changed. Hell, they knew my mom and they were jelouse on me for having a good careing mom
