Feels thread /b/
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Feels thread /b/
>>710180282
bump
>be me
>be 7- or 8-years-old
>be summer break
>parents work long hours, so grandparents babysit during the day
>
>be at grandma's house
>playing outside in the yard with brother when grandma calls us
>scurry over to grandma to find her carrying a box
>whatsinthebox.mp3
>grandma chimes pleasantly, "Look what I found!"
>grandma places the box on the picnic table
>curled up in the corner is the cutest little kitten ever
>jet black, snow white whiskers, deep blue eyes
>illlovethiscatforever.exe
>he stares at us, but doesn't move; just stares with those dark sky blue eyes
>he doesn't react to our pats and pets
>he just sort of ignores us
>feelsbadman.jpg
>i have an idea so great that it would put the collective minds of all the great philosophers of history to shame
>decide to name him 'Sunny', hoping that if he has a bright, happy name, he'll cheer up
>kitten starts mewing incessantly
>well, fuck me, it worked!!
>cloud9.png
>figure the lil' guy's hungry
>grandma brings some cream in a bowl
>places the bowl next to the happiest kitten ever
>Sunny doesn't move from his corner
>Sunny keeps mewing
>>710181303
>Grandma takes Sunny out of the box and places the bowl next to him
>Sunny laps up some cream
>Sunny keeps mewing
>Louder, sharper, harsher
>brother tries to pick the kitten up, but he crawls away from him
>but he crawls away
>crawls away
>crawls
>tfw chills up/down/inside-out/backwards
>Sunny rolls over on his back
>three words:
>scarred
>for
>life
>Sunny is infested with ticks/fleas all over his belly
>parasites packed so thick that we couldn't see his fur or skin
>watched them writhing all over him
>little me screams, "WE HAVE TO TAKE HIM TO THE VET!! NOW!!"
>
>mfw Sunny was dying while we smiled and played with him
>mfw Sunny stopped moving and just stared up at us with frozen eyes
>
>run inside, lock myself in the bedroom, cry for hours until parents pick us up and take us home
We buried him in grandma's flower garden in a brown paper bag. Roughly 20 years later, whenever I visit Grandma, I still go to Sunny's grave and apologize for being utterly helpless and letting him die so miserably.
>Pic related, looks like Sunny.
>R.I.P. Sunny, I'm sorry.
>>710180618
wouldnt that be 9 holes because of entry and exit holes he should kill himself
Feeling so lost without her. Been being the pathetic excuse of the man I am and been begging her to see the love we share.
I dont think i can live w/o her and im such a pussy for it, i dont know why im like this
Anyone got the dog passing away? It's like he can't walk and eventually they put him down.
>>710181728
>im
>I'm
>>710181696
He might use a slow, heavy, hollow point round so it doesn't over penetrate. Or a .22.
>>710181696
not if you're jfk
>>710181920
My old dog passed in '07. He had arthritis, was blind in one eye, and had a dent in his skull. We were going to put him down during summer, but he drowned in the lake next to my back yard. Buried him next to a tree.
If someone wants to talk to somebody, we made a little channel for it. If you want to confess what's on your mind, wants to be reassured, or just talk about anything, please join.
https://discord.gg/NbAKC
You're not alone, anon.
>>710181349
Did they fucking find him on the street?
>>710182916
Pretty much. My grandma found a box on her morning walk and Sunny was curled up alone inside.
I'm carrying around a feel
>my father has pancreatic cancer
>lifelong alcoholic, stopped through pure willpower when shit hit the fan with his health
>I'm also an alcoholic
>when I found out my father was going to die relatively soon last march, he pleads with me to stop drinking, so I resolved to quit drinking
>I stopped entirely, did the rehab, do AA
>he is elated, pride in me again, no hint of shame or disappointment
>I sneaked off and drank last week, and have told no one
>have regained a conscience through AA step work, life improvement
>dad getting worse every day, refuses to leave his home
>the guilt is eating away at me, cant let him find out
I'm stuck, and its twisting my insides all around
>>710183207
we all have our coping mechanisms
sounds like your going through a rough patch so i cant really blame ya
>>710180404
This exactly. I don't think I would ever kill myself but I just don't see myself going anywhere and for what reason should I? I have no reason to exist and no reason to die.
>>710182464
holy fuck man...that hit me hard
>>710180369
This is stupid, as it implies you left that person and then feel sad about it. Because bridges don't fucking move.
>>710184466
Agreed, but i think they were focusing on the hitting harder part, not the leaving the bridge part
>>710181696
You can make it one if you use a shotgun
>>710183310
Bad*
>>710184707
Nothing a lil' bleach in the ol' coocharoo won't solve, you lil' underaged faggot you.
>>710182402
that hurts
>>710184707
u sticked it inside her?
>>710181169
I honestly hate talking about my feelings. I hate talking about serious things with real friends and stuff. So I keep it in.
>>710184707
Youre overreacting bud, sit your ass down and chill. Just dont fo it again, use a condom in the future.
>>710185087
no, just fucking rubbed it on the damn lips of it, like fuck man I have no clue what's going on. she's like 4 days passed her monthly period so idk
Does anyone have the one about the boy who met the lolita girl who lived with her grandmother,
they fell in love, then the grandmother died, and the girl had to move away with her other family
she was raped and killed herself because she wasnt pure.
Id really like to re-read it...
This place and my psychotic gf are the only places im accepted.
Thank you anons for forgiving me and listening to my confessions all the time.
>>710182249
fuckin'salute.jpg every time
>>710185913
Wtf is wrong with you?
Just came to post a story and i find this feels thread, but im not good with english, just let me know if i can proceed
>>710186698
Of course you can
>>710186698
go ahead bro
>>710186698
Go ahead buddy, im listening
>>710186698
>>710186073
What do you mean by psychotic ?
>>710186698
go my friend
>>710186800
She has incredibly bad mental issues, it borders schizophrenia, while also being close to just about anything bad. She also does too much acid for my liking, thing is, if i break up with her shes gonna kill herself
I dont think i can deal with that.
cant forget this one
>>710185913
files too large
>>710187007
She dosen't follow a medical treatment for that ?
>>710187007
Suicide baiting isn't cool man :(
>>710182332
Update with a fresh invite: https://discord.gg/Utedu
Come along peeps
>>710186741
>>710186750
>>710186790
>>710186794
>>710186945
ok let me write it, is not a special story, is very regular but i want to post it in order to feel a little better
>>710187007
>if i break up with her shes gonna kill herselfI dont think i can deal with that.
Do it anyway, she's not your responsibility if you don't want a part of the relationship anymore.
>>710187339
No, she wont go for one either
>>710187368
What you mean
>>710187610
Thanks for writing dude, whats your name?
About 2 years ago I first met my ex, she was a co-worker who was in an abusive relationship at the time, we because best friends for about a year before she told me that she always liked me, after a few months she built up the courage to leave her boyfriend; she moved in with me and we were happy; I would get death threats from her ex and the occasional stalking but i could deal with that. after a few months of living together her parents told her that if she doesnt go back to her ex and leave me they would kick her out of the family, Apparently they were more happy with her in an abusive relationship because it meant she would spend more time at her parents house to get away from her boyfriend. she left me so that she wouldnt lose her baby sister. I still have to see her every day at work. I tried to kill myself about a month ago but fell asleep before i finished taking all the sleeping pills. this caused my roommates and only friends left to kick me out of my home because they didnt think i was safe to be around anymore; now I spend every day sitting in the tiny apartment I could afford and drinking till I fall asleep
>>710187650
I dont think i can handle that tho, i care too much
>>710182402
god damn it
>>710187988
Ok fine, ignore my advice. Have fun being emotionally blackmailed for years to come. I assure you, no good will come of this.
Fuck this thread, crying to anons. I feel like my life aint too bad aftet i go through one of these
>>710188297
Im very much aware of whats going on, but thanks for the advice homie, i appreciate it
I am looking for one specific story.
Its probably 4-5 years ago that it was posted.
It was in a "brony" thread.
A soldier was telling his story about being in Afganistan/Iraq and finding a puppy and taking care of it.
He took it on patrol with him in his pocket and an IED blew up.
The puppy died and a piece of the puppys bone ended up saving the guys life.
If it helps, the pics he was using were a seiries of pinky pie infront of a grave stone.
Its one of the few times I could feel the raw emotion in someones 4chan posts.
Decided to try honesty,
The first one ignored me since.
the second one told me tonight that she wants me to get help and doesn't want me to be intimate with her anymore... She will still be a friend.. but "things will never work out"...
this shit makes me cry
http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5818edb5bdfed
Had anyone else have guilt over being a terrible child?
>be me, 7
>be a bold-faced liar
>parents are separated at this time
>this is because of them constantly fighting
>mother had taken me and bro to rented house
>mother had rented an American Pie film
>her cousin and her are watching it
>my mind comes up with dirty thoughts
>dad takes me and my brother and bribes us
>"Did anything happen anon?"
>i proceded to tell him that mom and Chad were fucking infront of me
>my father nods to this
>2 hours later
>ohfucknigger.jpg
>"U-uh dad, I lied about that"
>he told me to tell CPS
>did so
>tfw i almost had my mother never allowed to see me
>they get back together after that
I told my mother that I apologize, and almost break down crying because that I was a really shitty kid
I feel nothing.
No fear. No shame. No saddness.
>>710187443
fuck off, discord isnt anonymous
>>710189073
>ohfucknigger.jpg
>>710186178
The girl reminds me of an ex...
I thought re-reading it would feel like she was back
>>710187249
Damn, thanks anyway m8
Just one of the painfull screenshots i could take out of this conversation i had tonight...
>>710189073
Tits or gtfo
>>710187150
I've read this one a good while back. I cri everytime
>>710189766
Hope you like mantits
Im going to bed, goodnight guys, hopefully you will all feel much better considering it will be a new day for new shit to happen
Cheers
>>710189073
I was a terrible kid at 3 years old my mother wouldn't let me get some candy or some shit so i smashed a twelver of coke and screamed fuck you
It was a product of my alcoholic father. Eventually my mom would put me on a leash but i was too smart and broke out of it.
I stole money from her all my childhood, skipped school. Ran away, told her fuck you plenty of times. Im an emotional wreck and because of it I had a rough up brining.
First suicide attempt was grade 7.
>>710190274
>no timestamp
Gtfo
>>710190374
Sucks to hear, man.
>>710187150
This is the greentext that gave me hope in /b/ again
>>710189631
No...dude no wtf
>>710189631
Move the fuck on.
Everyone is alone in this world. They are not your security blanket.
Tough up, stop looking for protection, aim to never need it again.
feel the awkwardness....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFvs8qd3hhE
>>710190538
i know im pathetic...
>>710189631
Its gonna be too hard to be friends with her maybe not forever but for now at least.
>>710189631
>I'll probably break down internally
>I don't mind
You've dodged a bullet
>>710187915
:( sorry buddy
But honestly, fuck her parents. Terrible people. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself, man. It's their fault. They should be ashamed of themselves as parents, and as human beings.
>>710190594
haha dude thats not even bad at all. if you wanna see pathetic i could show you some of mine.
you should probably just stop talking to her.. if you can.. I know i wish i could
>>710182249
Here ya go
>>710190479
>started seeking therapy
>judged constantly by parents
>"you need to talk to your family we'll sort it out she's a stranger"
>a stranger with trained expertise in the shit i'm going through
I don't know which side to take
I want to fuckin die
Wat do?
>>710189631
Fuck her, man. She seems like a cunt.
Also,
>I still prefer you to be honest
>I still prefer you, to be honest
Dem grammar feels :'(
>21
>6/10, kind, slim and slightly fit, hygenic, properly dressed
>Little to no friends anymore
>Try meeting new people
>People never seem to wanna meet me
>Never do anyone approach me and introduce themselves to me, neither at parties or anytime else
>When I go to people and try to get to know them and start a conversation they don't care
>Nobody cares about me
>The times I do manage to start a conversation it doesn't last longer than like 2 minutes
>I don't talk much
>Good listener
>Enjoy talking about pretty much everything
>Friends I've had since I was a teenager is gone
>Never get invited to hang out or party without any close friend convincing the host to let me come
>My cats are acting weird
>Won't let me pet them
>Stay outside most of the time
>Family rarely talks to me
>Haven't recieved a snapchat in almost 4 weeks even when 6 people have me on best-friend
>People ignore me
>I just want to feel like someone cares about me
>I have no idea what I'm doing wrong
>No idea what I've done wrong for people to treat me like this
>Also wanted to save virginity for someone special
>Never found anyone special
>Feels like I'm slowly fading from existance
>Want to tell shrink but too scared I mgiht get put on meds or locked up
>I feel so alone and fragile in this world
>>710191327
why not both?
>>710191118
Jesus Christ, that was actually kind of heart wrenching.
>>710191327
I'm scared of going to a psychologist for this very reason.. I will take my traumas and secret psychoses to my grave..
>>710191500
Because my parents are sociopathic dicks with dirt on me that is constantly blackmailing me
So i don't think that siding with them would be a good thing since they're the source of my problem
>>710191788
so talk to both and mention the over controlling shit your family does to your shrink, you get the professional help you need while maybe satisfying your family's requests to let them help you.
>>710182162
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FEELSSSSSS
Got a story about some girl if you're interested
nothing big just another feel story
>>710191965
That's great advice
I don't wanna sound like a dick, but i've tried that and my entire family shrugged it off like it was nothing and i'm the problem.
Which is snowballing even more to my problems
>>710192071
Post I'm in the mood to feel better about myself
>>710191465
In the end we are all alone
keep trying to make friends and hope it works, you seem like a swell guy.
>>710191788
Leave as soon as possible. I'm saying this with tje heaviest of intentions I can. THEY WILL DESTORY YOU, anon. Emotionally, Physically, and Mentally. Ignore everything and become distant. Don't engage with negative caustic behavior and just leave as soon as possible. Please, anon. Please. Don't confide in a stranger, your parents are paying for them.And don't take any medicine.
>>710191465
If you tell a shrink they will try to put you on meds 98% sure. They wont institutionalize you unless you have serious mental issues, or are a danger to yourself or others.
>>710192330
K guys im moving to Russia if anyone wants to go with me we can drink vodka and shit ill pay for your ticket
>>710192211
then fake it with them, just play it off with them as if they are helping, if they are not actually being supportive and helping you out then fuck it, it doesnt matter anyways.
if getting help from your family isnt doing you any good, then your only logical step to getting better is help from somewhere else. my thought is that you pair up the actual professional help with whatever they are trying, if they dont let you do that then i guess you're fucked.
>>710192071
>>710192259
I met this girl back in 9th grade.
short, petite, thick brown hair, spider bite piercing, kind of a emo loner. (Pic related, she looked similar)
We became pretty good friends and we kinda experienced the whole "teenage" thing together, drinking and partying like crazy.
I loved her, as a friend, she was the nicest and most caring person I've ever met in my entire life to this day. She did have her own problems though, used to cut herself and shit. I remember when she told me about her abusive stepdad, how he beat her and her mother. I remember I started walked to her house in a drunk rage to kill her step dad, but she ran after me and stopped me. I would probably have gotten my ass handed to me if she didn't.
Countless times did I let her cry on my shoulder, however I always had that voice in back of my head telling me that she was just using me but I kept ignoring it and kept being there for her, she was really struggling but she was so nice and beautiful I couldn't let her go.
Just thinking about this stuff makes me wanna cry, I can sit her all night long and write about all the things we did together and how much I miss it.
What I remember the most is all the nights we walked home together on the country roads in the middle of the night, drunk, cold and tired, just so we can part ways at the crossroads near the forest and go home to our own beds.
I always texted her "Did you die" or "Did you get kidnapped" or some shit like that when I got home to make sure she was ok and she always used to send me hearts and smileys back and thanked me for watching out for her, I guess she was happy that I cared about her.
Then we would text eachother in the morning again, talking about last night and stuff.
>>710192330
Its all out of pocket, and i'm lying about the personal shit, but i'll take a look at trying to sort shit out personally.
If anything i could just do weed and give up on life
>>710192854
After a while we kinda stopped seeing each other day by day, she started hanging with other girls and started changing her style and before I knew it she was dating one of my best friends (which cheated on her twice), I don't think she cared about me anyway.
She used me as a shoulder to cry on and she just transfered her sorrow over to me.
Now almost 8 years later she is not the girl i remember, that girl is forever gone. I still know her for who she is now, we haven't talked in almost 2 years.
I miss her, not the way she is not but the old her and the memories we shared together, I just wish it would last forever.
But I know I will never get her back, but I'm not even sure if she remembers me or even herself.
This is also why I have a thing for fragile girls like that, and when I grow up everyone will think I'm a pedophile creep or something
People change and I guess I just have to accept it and move on with my life...
I never got her
But I cared about her, I really did.
>>710192947
>do weed
>give up on life
hahaha yeah the weed will help you give up
>>710193121
:( I feel you man, I used to have a very close friend like that and now we rarely talk, when before we would tell each other anything... Nearing the end of High School and wishing I could go back purely to have a relationship and memories like those again.
>>710193371
Dude you gotta do all the weed.
>>710193121
>I miss her, not the way she is not but the old her and the memories we shared together, I just wish it would last forever.
damn it hits hard
>>710193121
I hear you on that... Change is something that is promised to come.
>>710189631
I'm still refreshing and self-loathing... I feel so fucking useless...
>be me
>be about 7
>be at my nanas she badass owns a little farm in the town everyone knows her
>sitting outside on the front lawn
>road runs infront of the house gets kinda
>car goes by and literally throws this dog out the window
>i run over and look at the dog
>has a fucked up lazy eye and smiles with teeth and everything
>fall in love with the dog and name it
>grandma keeps it
>badass dog eats anything even fucking ant hills
>gets hit by an 18 wheeler and just gets a limp for awhile
>storms blew over her pen
>whatever
>stays outside
>grandma calls me one day crying
>"anon lucy was eaten alive by coyetes last night papa found his body near the farm just her head left."
>i had that dog for around 8 years and its only been a couple months i still miss her
>she was so nice and would love on you and would forcefully sit in your lap
>What I remember the most is all the nights we walked home together on the country roads in the middle of the night, drunk, cold and tired, just so we can part ways at the crossroads near the forest and go home to our own beds.
That sounds so lovely
Be me 23 now
15/16, become depressed like all teens
Decide to resort to cutting myself and comfort eating
This keeps on going for a couple years
Stop cutting myself but still kept comfort eating
Be me 6 months ago hit a rough spot in my life
Stress is unreal, depression is adding up really fast
Resort back to cutting myself
Want to get help but I can't because of this
Depressed because I am a loner who is afraid that I may become my father (Abusive). Afraid of my father and his genes. Afraid of myself.
Gotten to the point where I often think about offing myself because I haven't been happy for so long
Its been a long time since I've been happy and had a good nights sleep
Nightmares and sleep paralysis almost nightly for the past 3 months.
I've already tried but I chickened out thinking of my friend.
A friend who knows what is up with me.
I guess we all have our breaking points and here is mine
My story is short and non bitter but its crippling and hurting to me.
>>710194056
Dogs are so much more loyal than humans, everytime I hear a sad doggo story it makes me tear up. Also your dog was a beast to survive all that shit. I lost one of my cats to coyotes this year too.
>>710193121
>before I knew it she was dating one of my best friends (which cheated on her twice)
fuck that bitch
stop thinking about her, if she's gonna do something like that to you she's not worth it
In a life that has been more bad than good why stay?
why stay in a state of bonecrushing sadness?
sure it goes away from time to time but it always returns.. each blow hits harder and harder as it progresses.
I fail to see why I should stay here on this fucking gay earth. Everything is so fucked up. Id like to think there is a reason Im here, not because ill have some impact.. cause I wont.. but maybe Im here because something cool is gonna happen to the world.
I dont fucking know but I cant do it anymore. Im done. Im over it. Hopefully ill come back as a domesticated dog or cat and live the life.
>>710194290
yeah she was kick ass i loved her so much, when she was hit with the 18 wheeler she was just laying on the ground and barely breathing. my papa thought she was dying and right before he was gonna put her out of her misery she jumped up and walked away. she was a badass
I'm having suicidal thoughts
I've never had it before and I've felt them creeping up lately and now they're here
What do I do?
I have family I can't kill myself
>>710182464
Every time. Every single time. This one always makes me well up.
>be me
>be in 8th grade
>beta quickly becoming alpha
>have a close friend, let's call him Stan
>Stan was really overweight and I was one of his few friends
>we like almost all the same things
>every night we would play Words with Friends through Facebook
>everynight, without a fail
>near end of the school year
>Make friends with a guy who is alpha asf, let's call him Jay
>if I get on his good side I won't be a loser through high school
>start ignoring Stan in order to look cool
>last day of school
>can never forget how I walked with Jay and Stan suddenly says hi
>I gave him a look of disgust and kept walking just to earn Jays approval
>during the summer that year we all find out he had leukemia and didn't tell anyone
>last time I saw him and he probably thought I hated him
>I hate myself for being an asshole
>spend all high school alone because I feel I don't deserve friends
>I still log into FB hoping to see its my turn in WwF
>still fucking hate myself
>>710194808
Kill your family first.
>>710194808
don't be a betafag. Simple as that. Be the alphamale and act like you own this shit.
>>710194957
that actually make me laugh
thanks
>>710185190
I know what you mean.
I don't want people to know just how miserable I am in real life, because people don't actually help you get better.
They just stick you in a mental hospital.
Out of sight, out of mind.
Not to mention that I love my family too much to burden them with my pathetic problems.
They've already got enough on their minds.
I really wish I had the constitution and lack of social connections for suicide. That would solve a lot of my problems
>>710194808
dont choose the easy way, seek help and find it. its as simple as that
>>710194808
>I have family I can't kill myself
You don't kill yourself. I've had all sorts of negative thoughts for almost as long as I can remember. Just don't. Don't kill yourself. Don't kill your annoying neighbor. Don't rape people. Don't eat people.
You're bright enough to recognize these for evil without having to have an emotional moral compass underlying the knowledge that they're bad decisions.
Sometimes we break. Sometimes it's in our heads. Sometimes we break too much, or in a way we can't perceive that we're broken. But often, we can. And we can choose how to proceed.
So, just don't.
>>710195127
Hold on to your humor /b/ro :)
>>710194808
Family before everything.
Think of others, (Which you are).
You can turn your life around and change the attitude.
Go to the gym, get a routine.
Eat healthier.
Don't go on feel threads it makes the world seem like a terrible place
>be me, 19 years old
>never had a girlfriend or kissed a girl or any similar
>im fall in love for first time of a beauty girl
>that was when i only had 11 years, just 3 years later i get the courage to declare my love
>she just send me to friendzone but not in a bad way
>I became in a very timid man and with very low self-esteem during the rest of the school
>in this time i get friendzoned by two other girls, but they wasnt very important, i was still loving her
>i did not have so many friends and i was not very close to them until the last year of school
>she started dating my best friend, but eventhough it hurt me, it wasnt a very big problem because she was also a good friend to this time
>i went to college to another city (It sounds inconsistent, but I graduated at a young age)
>i had the ilusion to start again, but everything was the same, and worse
>i didnt get any friend there, i was so lonely, and didnt talk with anyone even in chats
>until a few months every day I felt like shit, with no gf or friends, and watching everyone be happy
>but one day, she wrote me, to greet, since that day i begin talking to her almost every day
>i was so happy, i was talking with someone, she was so nice
>I knew she was not interested in me, from school, eventhough it was always saying how good i was with her, because during those months i help her on various problems that she had, and was special with her
>but she knew that i still loved her
will continue....
>>710195179
>>710185190
I feel you guys.I don't let any emotions out. I bottle up everything. Anger, Sadness, even Love sometimes. People say I'm super chill, but it's because I've trained myself to at least seem like I don't care. Then when I do show the slightest part of my emotions, it normally scares the people I care about away..
>>710194808
TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT
ALICE CHILDRESS (DREEEEESS)
>>710195494
resuming
>we talk every day, she asked of my life and told me her life
>she told me how special i was for her and things like that
>she said me that i was a very good person and deserved a special girl, and other very nice things,i know they were lies, but she said me that they werent lies
>She told me to believe in myself, and that make me so happy
>like an idiot i finished falling in love for even more
>but one day he started telling me about someone she liked, that drove her crazy
>a fucking chad
>I felt so angry and sad, first i felt like a loser, then with rage I wonder
>why these guys get all the good girls?
>This situation did nothing but make me feel worse, with very low self-esteem than usual
>today she wrote me, telling me that he kissed her and that she felt very happy because she love him so much
>i answer her with a happy face in response of her situation
>in the reality i was criying a lot, and inside of me everything colapsed
>You can not control the hearts of people, but why love a person that she knows will make suffer her, i can not understand
>I have no friends, I have never loved another woman in my life, I have no one with me and no girl ever has given me attention, im a fucking loser
>I dare not say anything to her, because I can destroy a friendship and be completely alone, but if i dont say anything i will be ever be just her friend
>I just sent her a happy face while inside me the pain does not stop, i never have been lucky, and it seems that nothing has changed
>I do not have anyone to tell this, I'm taking the pain alone
>thats why i I tell this stupid and insignificant story here
>is not even the most painful, it is stupid, but it helps me feel better
thats everything friends, my very own shitty story
>>710192854
>>710193121
wanna screencap but I'm too lazy
>>710186120
I want to bro hug this anon and invite him to my house to play vydia and watch movies, wish he got a good life now
>>710193371
Do all the marijuanas
I'm that guy in the background. There's a word I like, sonder. It's to realize that everyone, even a passing blur in traffic, the extra sitting in the coffeeshop is a person with a life as great and complex as your own. But I am the man in the background. My life is simple.
Get up.
Work.
Internet.
Sleep.
I never get invited to anything because all of my friends have other people they'd like to bring, because I wouldn't fit well. I'm just a background character, but I suppose someone has to.
I've spent my entire life handing out my heart. I've gone from relationship to relationship since my 15th and thats been 11 years.
Every time they get close they seem to run away.
Use me till im useless
Lie till i believe
Release me from my secrets
And skew how i percieve
I've been dropped a few too many times and it feels like the light behind my eyes is ready to die.
>>710180385
>>710196447
Instead of waiting to be invited to things,
Why not invite your friends over yourself?
And the feels man I get that, everything just moves around me.
>>710196447
>>710195817
you aren't alone anons
Not sure if anyone has been following Adonis's story, but he finally finished it.
>>710180404
>>710184249
Been feeling like this lately. Dont think I wanna die but like...fuck life?
>>710196447
I know dat feel
I kinda love these threads, it's cool to realize that i'm not the only looser on earth
>>710197169
>>710180404
>>710184249
I feel you. I want to run away, and start fresh. I wish I could reset my memories.. and surpress these thoughts
Does anyone have anything they'd like turned into a melody / song? I'm sad as fuck and i don't know how to cope besides making music...
I'm completely lost for lyrics and its making me feel worse...
>>710197477
>>710197471
This post
>ex gf
>both of us addicted to heroin
>got each other's backs
>it's her and me vs. The world
>time goes on
>we fight all the time
>can't stand each other
>have nothing else
>decide we need to get sober
>trainspotting.mkv
>decide we want to do it one more time before going to rehab
>"be careful, it's a little strong
>come to, 20 minutes later
>look at her face
>deathblue.jpg
>hit her with narcan
>it's not very effective...
>my phone is dead, hers is lost
>screaming
>start CPR
>not sure if doing it right
>pray to God, to devil, to anything not to take her away from me
>firemen show up
>tell me to stop
>she's breathing
>they take her to ER
>cops question me
>next day
>texts me
>we still have more left
>one last time?
>mfw I'm done
>I go to rehab
>she doesn't
>I almost have a year clean
>I don't know where she is
And I still miss her.
How to I get qt emo gf with daddy issues?
>>710197051
Ive been seeing my story more and more, ill answer questions if anyone has any. -Adonis
>>710197818
How did you cope with her not remembering... If someone meant that much to me and barely remembered me I'd go crazy...er..
>>710198102
Well, i told my story, i wanted to not solely feel the pain alone. so instead of just keeping it in, i tried to move pasted by talking to the anons here, and by focusing on things i found comforting. in a way my world completely caved in around me, one particular idea was the thing that held me back from true suicidal tendencies. its a life motto of sorts "The very thing you want the most, might actually end up being the thing you'd least want. If you're not mindful, you might find out too late." -Adonis
I've had suicidal thoughts every day for the past 11 years. I know it sounds absolutely ridiculous, but thinking about taking a bottle of pills or buying a gun and blowing my brains out doesn't make me sad, angry, happy, or anything. For the longest time I've wanted to be dead just for the sake of being dead.
Just found out I have some major hormonal illnesses/imbalances, and I've been on meds for 4 months, now. I guess everything is still balancing out because I've just started getting crippling bouts of depression. The suicidal thoughts still come, but now there are reasons to do it. Infertility. Exhaustion. Losing someone I truly loved to someone else. These things used to just not bother me but now they're
I stay alive for the very few family members that remain alive. I am resolved to make a bucket list, do as many things as I want to do and see as much as I want to see, and then put a gun to my head. I had hoped to have children, I desperately wanted twin daughters, but since that's no longer a possibility I'm planning to carry out the remainder of my life for me. It might take half a year, then another 6 months to take care of my affairs, then boom. Headshot.
I am very okay with this. I'm more at peace with this than anything else.
It's kind of sad how, when you really think about it, people who spend a short amount of time doing what they love actually live more than others who exist just for the sake of existing.
Thanks for a good feels thread, it's been a while
Going to bed alone not
Good night
Does anyone else reject love? For the past 5 years there has been a least one girl who has feelings for me but I never want them. I go for the girl who will use me or than the one who actually wants me attention.
>>710197818
I have a question, but not inherently to your story.
What do you like? To do, to read (I guess you read, or you should). What's in "the other half" that you would like others to see?
Might as well post this
>>710183207
Youre father would probably understand better than most. Still best not to tell him but I think he'd be proud of you for getting back on track after a stumble. Hang in there dude, spend as much time with him as you can.
Goodnight Anons,
I'll be back tomorrow,
for the daily dose of sorrow.
I start out crying when I think about. I'm a coward for letting her behind. I will soon catch the bus.
>>710198550
I regret that we are strangers to each other.
I feel like you're me, but born in a different body.
>>710199194
well, shit
>>710197537
https://www.speakpipe.com/voice-recorder/msg/m0gephpk9rwounlc
Shitty mic, very rough and shit recording, sorry..
>>710199332
feelsbadman these are the only things i can think of lately.
>>710197377
You're the biggest loser, though.
>>710180618
sounds like an edgy 12 year old faggot that spouts the "I WANNA KILL MYSELF (ironically xD)" meme everywhere
>>710199332
This has been in my mind far too many times
I never got the girls but everyone else did and still does
>tfw I spent a good 2-5 minutes typing up my life and the app crashed (on mobile)
That's about par for the course, I suppose. Don't think I have it in me to type it up a second time...
>>710199097
i guess my interests mainly consist of anything calming, i play guitar, i particularly enjoy reading Sci-fi and books of that nature, ive always loved the plausibility of future prospects/technology. but if i could just have people view me as a whole, instead of as an aesthetic, i believe id be more than happy. i guess what i truly enjoy, is a world where our difference are truly subsided. as for the meaning of the second half of the story, i met up with her to finally understand what happened after she left, for a sense of both closure and reconciliation.
>>710199492
Very good anon :) Do you do covers/originals? Your voice is great
>>710185190
I know that feel. It's so fucking uncomfortable to do it, I feel like I'm bothering the other person
>>710199740
I used to be on some tv shows and in some bands, but that's all years ago..
My music kind of hasn't left my bedroom since..
I've always wanted to just stop replying to any communication and disappear for awhile. See what people think and if I even miss a single text..
>>710185190
I'm fine with talking about serious stuff. I just hate it because it's a reminder that I always have the same shit to complain about and I never do anything to change any of it.
>>710199916
You should take some of it to a studio man! Get some decent recordings of them and upload them to Soundcloud or such
>>710199928
I did that for a solid week in a bout of depression a bit ago. Nothing. No one. Not surprised, but it still hurts.
>>710199928
Silly Anon, we know you don't get any texts.
>>710181349
Once i tried to care for a stray cat. My grandmother picked it up and threw it into a bunch of thorny bushes. It didn't even scream. I feel nothing about it.
>>710199928
>tfw haven't received any texts from friends in months
>>710180282
Or he could just go the fuck outside for real....Who am I kidding, that would take EFFORT
>>710199514
Me too for a almost a year now.
>>710199681
I never got her either but we were planning to meet each other and it felt so right. We ... are made for each other. I've been planning my suicide for a year now but I pussy out. I left her behind because of it.
>>710199681
That's because you're a loser with no redeeming qualities.
>>710200114
Sad thing is I love outdoors and I know I could survive as long as I needed too in the woods. I have a bag all packed up in case I'm just too done with all this shit and leave. Even have a hut that I built all ready.
>>710200076
I have good recording gear..
I just cant think of something original enough.. As you can hear i'm struggling to find an original approach to making a song in general.. I'm just sitting here trying to beatbox while i sing and play guitar untill i question what in heavens name im even trying to do and i always end up giving up..
![domestic-violence-2-1[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/dX3AJ5d.jpg "domestic-violence-2-1[1].jpg")
>Be new welfare social worker
>be assessing one of my first clients
>She's a young woman fleeing domestic violence
>Pregnant with second child by her abuser
>Horrible situation
>"But why do I get the feeling you can't quite let go?"
>"He's just going through some things."
>"He choked you unconcious and locked you in a garage. In the summer. In Phoenix."
>stares at her lap. "...he's going through some things."
>Get to know client.
>Help her with job search.
>Success!
>Help her with work clothes.
>But never went to DV counseling as instructed.
>Client starts ducking me.
>Hops from place to place leaving trail of out of date addresses and bad phone numbers
>Finally get a good number.
>A man's voice, "Hello?"
>Fuck. "Is client there?"
>"No, she's busy."
>"Could you let her kn-" *click*
>FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF-
>Client shows up in office out of the blue.
>Denies moving back in with him.
>Show up for home visit at client's reported residence.
>Client caring for newborn.
>Her toddler is happy and healthy
>Kitchen stocked
>Apartment relatively clean.
>As I'm about to leave, he walks out of side room in socks and boxers.
>Obviously just woke up.
>Before anyone can explain anything, toddler looks up at him with big, happy eyes.
>"Dada!"
>Got you, fucker.
>Get "dada" on the case.
>Keep tabs on them
>He's looking for work, both are going to therapy.
>Help family with supplies for new baby.
>everthingwentbetterthanexpected.png
>Be in office giving client bus passes for work.
>"I'm glad things worked out."
>She smiled. "Me too. Thank you for everything, anon."
What really put me at ease was their toddler. You can tell when a child comes from a violent home. They check out everybody. They're very timid, except for those times when they violently lash out. Not this kid. She was bright eyed, rosy cheeks, friendly, as affectionate as a child her age should be. The way she looked up at her father and gave that happy little "dada!" let me know things were going to be okay...
Cont.
>>710200322
are you autistic? the drawings represent happiness, not literally going outside
and if he's depressed, muh effort is not gonna do shit for him
>>710188479
Gonna neec some shots from this one. Jesus fuck
>>710199332
Nope, doesn't hurt in any way. I never loved a woman like i love my friends, or my family. I thought i did, but i don't.
>>710201002
>Meet client in office months later.
>Client no longer my client. No kids, so no cash. But she is pregnant again.
>Surviving baby is a ward of the county.
>"I can no longer offer, supportive services, but you can contact me for information."
>"I understand."
>..."You don't have to answer, but-..."
>"How did it happen?"
>Nod
>"She was at home with her dad. He said she wasn't feeling well and put her to bed.
>When he went to check on her, she wasn't breathing and called an ambulance."
>"I see... you let me know if there's anything I can help you with."
>Never see client again.
>Don't tell her that I was in contact with child protective services.
>Don't tell her a county investigator leaked the preliminary autopsy results to me.
>Don't tell her I know.
>I know that sweet faced little girl was beat to death.
>I know that the ME found healed injuries suggesting repeated trauma.
>I know the little baby taken by the county was beaten too.
I followed what happened next through public record. The wheels of justice turned agonizingly slowly, but after taking way too long to arrest him and way too long to try him, he's in prison, likely for the rest of his life. She got locked up too for negligence. She had her baby in jail, now a ward of the county. Tried to hang herself in her cell. After more than a year in jail and a state mental facility, they dropped the charges and released her. I don't know if she'll stick around and try to get one of her kids back, or flee this shit hole and never look back. Maybe she'll attempt suicide again.
Since then, I've been kind of... down. I'm known in my team as a miserable fuck. I hate the shit out of my job, but the money is alright, the medical is solid, and I have a wife and baby to care for. I've put on weight. I hardly go out. I've got a wife and two doctors telling me to cut back on alcohol. No matter how much I drink, it's never enough to block out a little, rosy cheeked face, and a tiny child's voice saying "dada!"
>>710200189
That second suicide one fucked me up anon.
>>710199928
i feel you. i wanted to commit social suicide and just be off the grid. i'm too pussy to even delete all ties to me, but even then you can't delete everything.
fuck.
living by myself for the first time in my life, never without my parents, barely eating (even though i have the ability to), the people around me are obviously just "putting up" with me, i can tell that they dislike me, i'm just "that guy". friends are ever-changing, good for them though, they're improving their lives and having lots of fun.
just going through the motions of class, trying to enjoy the material. always worried that i'm just going to be going along my life and fucking up. the worst worry i could ever possibly have, the student loans, the price of failure.
sometimes feeling fine enough to do things, but people around me just see me and scoff. wearing all-black. don't mind me, i'm just venting my feelings because no one wants to fucking listen to me, i learnt my lesson when my friends have a lot on their plate, i'm just extra weight.
the routine of watching youtubers to go to bed, i can't go to bed peacefully unless i pass out.
too fucking scared to commit to something, so i just "memory-foam" back into vidya and shit. i couldn't do anything with my life, i just make shitty art and music, and shitty video games.
>>710197604
>I don't know where she is
probably dead anon, move on you dont need no junkie
>be me
>turned 20 in august
>never had friends, let alone gf/bf
>when I was little my mom encouraged me to not have any friends
>didn't have anyone, too distracted with vidya to care
>time passes, enter middleschool
>social anxiety sets in, always walked with head down and hunched
>always wore layers of clothing, some level of self hatred forming
>family ignoring me, little sister has been born and she took priority
>high school now, still always looking down and alone
>spent entire freshman and sophmore year without speaking to another student
>nobody bullied me even, I think some actually felt bad
>nobody knew my name, most never heard me talk
>try to make friends online
>meet a couple people, never make 'friends' for longer than a week
>except one, nice guy we'll call Joe
>Joe's fine with my awkwardness
>doesn't mind me being quiet, tried to help me look better
>tried to help me build self esteem
>long distance relationship almost, we share some lewd pictures
>family finds out, beats me and cuts off all connection
>depression sets in hard
>back to real life, some how a counselor picked up on depression
>they force me to open up, family forced to get me into therapy
>almost goes good, lots of therapist switching, slow to open up
>end up telling them things I didn't want to remember
>realize how fucked up I am, therapist determines severe social anxiety and mild depression
>pressured to get job during this, never did
>turn 18, no insurance and family not forced to have me in therapy
>all progress gone in a month, half a year's worth
>mentioned therapy once, scolded for not having a job
>anxiety and never had the chance to get social skills, still can't find a job
>anger starts forming as new defense
>family scolds me for not doing well in college, too anxious to go half the time
>still alone, family prodding me, knowing why I'm so fucked up makes it all worse
>cont? (Sorry, not good at greentext)
>>710200321
Same I never get that 'Hey' or 'Whats up' text... Or any for that matter...
>>710199719
have you tried working for some charity? You could feel useful and appreciated and also use your appearance to bring more peope/raise money/etc.
>havent spoken to any friends in over a month
>i have messages from uber
>i have pizza hut messages
>have messages from verizon
>havent been sent a message from a friend in almost 2 years
>deleted facebook almost 1 year ago
>gmail
>0 chats
>bills and ads
>log on to my 360
>1 friend left on list
>my old account
>log into steam
> 5 friends
>thet just say offline
>log into psn
>0 friends online
>look at friends list
>empty
i cant even afford to pay to renew a subscription. But i wish i had a reason to scrape the money up for one...
>>710199681
No Anon, the problem is that you are an likeable person, JUST LIKE EVERYONE HERE.
>>710185511
can someone explain me whats going on with that spagetti thing ?
>>710201307
What's your psn bro? I'll add you.
>>710185190
If I knew you in real life I'd listen but I don't know anyone.
>>710187553
>>710201294
that's actually an incredibly smart idea, thank you!
>>710195588
Hello me, good to see you again.
>>710201684
didnt signature it trying to avoid a 404 -Adonis
>>710189247
like every rebelious teenager
>>710194056
My dog was named Lucy. Best damn dog I ever had. Got a tumor in her nose, she sneezed, she died. Worst day of my life so far, happened 3 years ago.
>>710201517
some guy in the bodybuilding forums kept spaghetti in his bag (to eat after working out I pressume) and he accidentally spilled it in front of a cute cashier at the supermarket. that's how the spaghetti meme started
>>in this film when the Benghazi ash allegory hits, I just started streaming feels :(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0wld0tOx4ro
>>710201532
I had to sell my ps4 to pay bills after i got fired. No working computer, so Im using an old galaxy 3 to post this from my neighbors wifi.
>>710201195
>social suicide
Thank you thats the phrase I was looking for. And I feel you man, I'm only coming to the end of high school and I'm just so done with everyone at this point I wish it were just me, a loyal dog and the world to explore.
>>we try so hard
>>we fall much harder
>>710201307
Steam and Xbox GT?
post lyrics that hit you right in the fucking feels. i'll start
>landmine has taken my sight
>taken my speech, taken my hearing
>taken my arms, taken my legs, taken my soul
>and left me with life in hell
>>710201307
What's your steam? I can chat for a few
>>710201307
Steam GT?
>>710201918
I hope the women in the picture gets cancer
>>710201863
oh fuck i cried when i read that (of laughter) when i imagined that situation in real
>''I love you anon, no matter what happens''
>tell them I am a diagnosed shizofag
>they leave me
This has happened.so many times. have given up on love. Not just romantic love eiter, my family ditched me as well, I never hear from them.
>>710202340
From the heaven I've had to the hell I been through.
>>710202293
>>710202371
>>710202374
no computer. see >>710201976
>>710202340
>Imagination, it's always taking over me
>>710202340
Crywank - Hikikomori
>Everything I had I seem to have lost
>Everyone who loved me seems to have forgot
>Everything I want seems too far away
>I'll just stay in bed for another day
>>710202624
Steam app anon?
>>710202340
I can't get started from the part where I left off yesterday
Should've spent my time a little wiser
I sat alone guilty as sin waiting for words to come
From out of my head still making sense to anyone
I can't wait to understand the reason
I have yet to translate
Any meaning besides
It's not worth it to try
>>710202624
Phone number then? If you're comfortable texting a stranger.
The Only feels I have are when I realize that this site is my only placebo to my depression. Surprisingly those random loli threads take my mind off the hardships of life. But sometimes I find the perfect thread that makes my day, that helps me forget. I feel hopeless most of the time because I realize I won't have anybody in my life that will make me happy, so I'm still clinging onto this site for my own odd desires
>>710202340
I wish i could give you something else
I'm well passed "falling apart"
>>710202624
i do have a kik. ursiris. a shitty play on you're serious.
Anyone else just feel constantly angry?
I don't like it, but I think its a defense mechanism since I never let myself ever enjoy things. Its internalized now that I just hate everything around me even if I don't want to. The fuck do I fix this
>>710203048
all day, every day, any time im awake
>>710199719
I bet you don't even look that good. Less of an Adonis and more of a Narcissus.
>>710203048
Medicate yourself so you fit into the status-quo ideology.
I honestly wish i could disagree with myself though.
>>710203048
Go play some Dodgeball. It's one of my venting exercises. Then learn to appreciate the small things.
https://youtu.be/vnKZ4pdSU-s
https://youtu.be/I5X6F1URAzs
Not really too feely at the moment but I'll just put down what's on my mind
>>710200309
I hope your grandmother dies/died slowly.
>>710182162
Oh, is it raining? What's this wetness on my face?
>>710203048
Yeah, I'm angry all the time too. But its not a defense mechanism. I'm angry because of all the times I fucked up, all the chances I never took and all the fun I never got to have because I'm a failure.
All I can do now is look back and be angry.
>>710203232
whether you believe im good looking or not is more or less meaningless to me. Adonis is a nickname i have on here and IRL. if you dont think im attractive then i wont convince you otherwise. -Adonis
>>710200309
>I am severely broken inside
>>710201069
>i've read this before
still crying tho
this is fine
>>710188479
this is not fine
I'm just tired.
I'd like to kill myself but I'm too afraid of the pain, and I can't deal with the fact that my brother and sister wont know where I am.
I wish I could just erase myself.
I like this scene in Harry potter where Hermione erases herself from her parents memories.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wK7GSARUs_Q
try and watch this all with out feeling anything, it is impossible
>>710203257
I've tried, done both some sports and general lifting. All its done is make me more pissed off, partially because I got strong enough that I might actually damage something if I ever accidentally let it go. Like punching my desk or something (Shitty desk) or the wall. Just got more internalized
>>710203255
Checked, and I wish I could. I'm not on insurance and I can't get a job on account of not having social skills + bad anxiety.
>>710203568
please don't kill yourself
there are people that care about you
okay?
>>710203568
I want to commit social suicide. I want to just disappear for awhile. Be at peace with myself being alone. Live in the outdoors. Go back to the roots of mankind.
>>710201684
>>710201755
Thank you :) but really, what you have is a gift, if you don't like it/don't know what to do with it use it for helping others.
I must say, this is the first time I see someone so oppressed by his own beauty; you never stop learning, I guess
i've never seen a dead body until maybe a year ago.
i took interest in cultural significance in the dead beforehand. some cultures burn the bodies, some perform rituals unlike that of the west.
and when i had word of one of my friends (who i knew because of dance class) had died in her sleep. i thought they were joking, and put it off. only later that night i realized that she ACTUALLY died (later known to a genetic heart problem unbeknownst to anyone). seeing her body in that coffin, all dolled up with make up. so bone-chilling.
my grandma died not too long ago either, but she lives back in the mother-land, so i didn't get to go see her, incidentally because i had school and we learnt about her condition, dementia. it honestly freaks me out to remember that my mother had to fly all the way there and i will have never-ending respect for my mother but i'm just a cold stuck up cunt to her still, and how she can deal with the fucking prick that is my dad. i don't know how it got so bad. how could it get so bad.
i haven't told anyone that my parents didn't divorce, but had to get restraining orders to stay the fuck away from each other.
it seems that every family i try and be a part of just crumbles, seeing my best-friend's parents almost kill each other will never leave my memory,
>>710202340
"I can save my lonely soul for you
But the feeling in my heart can't follow through
You can save your broken heart for me
Cause you know that I'll stay with you
That's why they call me loyalty"
faggot ass mlp song but still hits right in the feels
>>710199642
>I make assumptions of everyone from 1 sentence
You must be single af lol
>>710202340
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change
I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright
>>710203620
>I don't wanna do bad things but it's so hard man..
>I try to keep up the good faces
Welp there goes my feels.
>>710203855
i suppose its something that not a lot of people face, let alone is viewed in a sympathetic way. when you are only known for one thing you become synonymous with that thing. i am glad you shared that idea with me, using this "gift" for charity is honestly a brilliant idea. i had never thought about advertising/awareness implications for what i look like. so let me reiterate one more time, thank you.
>>710203568
At least you aren't like me. I want to kill me and every living thing. I hate everything. I hate that I live in a world that expects me to be strong but just pummel me to the ground for the slightest error. Seriously, I wish I was never born so I don't have to live with these thoughts. My family have always been bitter so my death would need the cycle.
>>710203840
>>710203840
There are places: communities, usually hippie style. Just go there and find yourself ttrough work. Helped my friend a lot.
>>710181349
Dude. I don't mean to be a dick or anything but something very similar happened to me various times as a kid.
My family really believes in saving money wherever you can and diying what we can (which is a lot) how we see it vets are too expensive. But at various times my dad would bring cats/dogs from the streets and a few times they would be incredibly parasite ridden+worms. we would take all the flees/ticks off by hand (killing them ofc) and sometimes give them anti worm liquid. it worked almost everytime. yall could've tried this
>>710201252
go ahead
>>710202340
>You left a lovestain on my heart
>And you left a bloodstain on the ground
>But blood comes off easily
I'm getting so good at empathy and seeing the bigger picture that it's starting to define who i am.
I continuously judge other people for their core intentions and work myself in the ground by doing so.
For example this thread will just resemble a bunch of individuals giving eachother attention because they ultimately crave it themselves.
These thought processes start to happen more and more often, for example every single tiny sigh a friend makes will make me lose any positiveness i feel and reset my mood. I flatline in random daily situation and turn into a pessimistic post-modern chemical driven biobot that feels nothing but sorrow.
>>710204296
They didn't know until it was too late..
>>710200309
Reminds me of my dog.
>Be 3 years ago
>Depressed and lonely
>Feel like taking a walk for the first time in ages
>Do so
>Cold, rainy, perfect
>Walk through nearby park
>Find bench
>Sit down on the wet bench
>Something is lumbering near
>A dog is dragging itself through the park
>Skinny, tired looking with no collar
>Looks into nearby trashcans, eating weird shit
>Get sort of hungry
>Take my prepacked sandwich
>It stares, but quickly looks away
>"You are hungry huh?"
>Offer it half of my sandwich
>It sneaks closer with lowered head
>"It's okay, you can have it"
>It eats it slowly, almost delighting in the flavor
>It sits down next to me
>GIve the rest of the sandwich and pet it for half an hour
>Getting late, have to get home.
>Dog licks my hand before I go
>Call it Mishka
>Return a few days later
>Mishka is laying on a bench, it spots me and goes ape
>Runs to me and nuzzles it head against my leg
Hitting limit, cont?
>>710203495
Yeah, I saved it finally so I don't have to type it all again.
>>710202340
>From a city that's recession-hit
>With stress niggas could flex metal with
>Peddle to rake pennies in
>Desolate testaments, trying to stay Jekyll-ish
>But most niggas Hyde, and Brenda just stay >pregnant
>Breaking news: death's less important when the >Lakers lose
>It's lead in that baby food, heads try to make it >through
>Fish-netted legs for them eyes that she cater to
>Ride dirty as the fucking sky that you praying to
Maybe it ain't personal and deep and shit, but it describes so many of my clients...
>>710200189
fuck
bump
>>710197751
>make hip music buddies
>go to underground bump 'n grind basement parties, raves, and concerts.
>be emo
>dress like you're in a band/ know someone who's in a band
>act deep
>give qt attention but let them know subconsciously that you don't need them and you could leave at any time.
>purchase some consumables from the local drug salesman
>find a drunk girl.
>say something poetic. bring up averroes or some shit.
>"He's smarter than me.."
>take her home. But don't sleep with her.
>"Does he think I'm ugly?"
>Talk to qt as if you are already dating.
>Tactically place the consumables on her person.
>When she leaves make an anonymous 9-1-1 call
>Drive down to the police department
>Bail her out
>Get food
>Go back to the apartment.
>Sleep with her
>Kick her out the next morning.
>Stalk her home
>Break into her apartment
>Escape the crime scene
>"Oh my god anon some crazy person just broke into my apartment idk what to do"
>Hold her tight like her father would.
>"Sh, Sh, Shh,It's ok baby-girl"
>>710201002
you made it too long dammit. It's going to be cut a little in the ss
>>710204518
yeah. Just saying. always give new animals general check-up/inspections. like c'mon was the grandma just putting the kids through trauma on purpose?
>>710204532
This story better end with you taking the dog home
>>710202340
So tell me mama please why you be drinking all the time?
Does all the pain he brought you still linger in your mind?
Cause pain still lingers on mine
>>710204775
Wtf did i just read.
>>710204547
i'm off to bed anons
good luck with your lives and shit
hopfully we're all feeling better by the morning
>>710202340
>Well, I'm sure you could have made it that bit better on your own
>And I bet she told a million people that she'd stay in touch
>Well, all the little promises - they don't mean much
>When there's memories to be made
And I hope you're holding hands by New Years Eve
>They made it far too easy to believe
>That true romance can't be achieved these days
These lyrics don't even apply to my current state, I've just been feeling really fucking lonely these days. Hopefully things will get better.
>>710203340
I've talked about this a week or two ago on some feels thread
I entered a college that needed me to move out but is still close enough to make a drive back home if I need to or if i just want to. I've met people and joined a club but still haven't made any close friends (or any in general). Only thing I've done is talk with someone I knew from HS but was never anything more than classroom friends. At this point I don't mind anymore about being the loner, mainlybecause I'm used to it. But my relationship with the girl did get a lot closer than it was when I started to talk to her last year. We both like the same type of movies, vidyagames, and have the same sence of humor. She is more of an antisocial than I am (Only time she would go out of her room was either for class or to go to work) and I ain't the biggest fan of going out either but I try real fucking hard to get the courage and take her out to parties or just to walk and meet new people so that she can have more friends than my boring ass. Another thing about her is that she puts herself down a lot more than I thought and when she does this she reminds me of how I get. Knowing how it feels to be a fuck up, I would try and make her feel better. A way would be by complimenting her and everytime I say something genuinly nice about her or how I feel about her, she isn't sure how to take it completley but she always thanks me with a smile
>>710193121
Same except I work with her sometimes now, we had a thing 10 years ago but nothing serious.
I am chad and it put her off me knowing I slept around Lot
Now I'm 30
Talking to her yesterday about coworkers kids, asking if she would ever want one, yes.
She's in a serious relationship now going on 7 years with house/mortgage
And I suddenly realise that not going for a serious relationship when I was younger was a mistake
Tonight I could have her sleeping next to me, but I don't.
Just alone and browsing b/ at 4:30 in the. Morning
>>710204170
You don't even have to actively promote/advertise anything, people naturally follow good looking people. You could make it "cool" to cook food for the poor, or collecting money for hurricane survivors.
But start focusing on yourself, to see if you really like this thing, and avoid that people think you just do this for attention (I don't know if it's the case with the people you know, but it happens)
What about your friend? Foster children sometimes try to help other children like them, or are someway more socially aware. If this is the case, you could help her, or some association she supports.
>cancer survivor
