Hey /b/ give me the best photo to describe how your depression and anxiety have changed you. Also feels thread.
>used to be happy and outgoing
>used to have multiple close friends
>used to have people to talk to about problems
>got tired of burdening people
>got tired of being pitied
>cut everyone off to spare them
>now have nothing but anxiety depression and guilt
>>709824926
Not wrong
Thats how life goes mate, thats how life goes. I don't talk to anyone about my issues expect 1 friend and my fellow anons. A interesting world we live in, thats all I know.
Bumping because I don't give no fucks. Hows life OP?
>>709825494
I don't really have problems to talk about, I work a decent paying full time job, women are fairly fond of me, I have regular sex, but I'm just not able to convey how I feel or really enjoy anything lately. I'm perfectly functioning on the surface I guess is what I'm trying to say.
>>709825832
Shouldn't complain but still complainin, ya know? How bout you anon.
>>709825953
Ah so better then me? Got many issues that I could talk about but I am to caring to tell others (much like you). Been long time depressed and have started going back to my old habits (cutting). Deep down I am broken but on the surface I am no different. The joys of being two faced... Got a full time job, shit pay but whatever. No girlfriend because of my issues so sex is really off the table. Don't really want any to be honest kinda am ASexual a bit.
TLDR; about the same old living the dream. Day by day. Might off myself soon just to get over it though.
>>709825063
This
>>709824179
Diagnosed GAD, Depression, PTSD.
I take everything out of it and leave the positivity. Use it as fuel, Anon. Take that anger, sadness, guilt and sorrow and turn it into gasoline in your veins and pursue something. Embrace everything you think is wrong.
Lonely? Go start your own adventure.
Tired? Take a lazy day of learning.
Angry? Work out.
And if you're all three at the same time, take it and use it. Own it. You only have this one life, why let something ruin it?
So get out there, conquer the world, and know you're never truly alone.
>>709826325
Sorry to hear that anon, I wish you wouldn't hurt yourself though. Don't know you but I love you man, please don't end it all.
>>709826702
I won't, but if I do decide to I will talk to someone about it. My thoughts shouldn't harm me more then they already are even though me being alone in my mind scares me...
I use to hate people. But due to my depression I crave for an ounce of human contact. Anything to know I can feel an am not a robot
i have slowly gotten used to being alone i lose everyone i love my relationship with my parents is destroyed completely fucked. i lost the love of my life because im a fuck up. The only enjoyment i get in life is from heights as in climbing a crane or sneaking into a construction site to sit at the top and just think about life and live it, id never kill myself too afraid of what awaits me
>>709824179
No one cares enough about you to be burdened by you. You're not that special. Shut up.
>>709826899
Wrong thumbnail
>>709826966
kek
>>709826966
>>709826899
First, back to back dubs nice.
Two, well done
Three, why do you have that pic?
>>709825494
It good that we live in a world where we can put an anonymous disguise and talk about our emotions
>>709826899
damn man
iam at that point
just turned 34 today and no congrats of anybody other than my family or a few mmo pals
i love my family but someohow it doesnt feel the same
>>709826468
You're right, just need to teach myself how. First step for me now is probably to stop pretending to be alright when I'm not, right?
>>709827186
Exquisite film
>>709827126
Yup, to be honest if I knew you and had to have a face to face conversation about this I wouldn't. Its been a interesting time, interesting world we live in.
>>709827342
Watched at one of the lowest points of my life. Really captures loneliness, depression, and isolation well.
>>709826959
If they did care I couldn't be a burden because it would imply they want to hear about it. Do you know what burden means you autist?
>>709824179
>used to be happy and outgoing
Fucking normal.
>be dysthymic
>never have optimal functioning in my life except in good moments
>not "messed up" enough to benefit from external intervention
>>709827206
Embrace it, make it your bitch. Don't let that shit dictate your life.
Best advice I can give anyone, Anon. Use it as fuel.
I was engaged, happy and thought I ruled the world. Together for near 7 years. And when we split it turned everything upside, and having that other shit (GAD, depression) made everything worse. I was alone and terrified for years, simmering in my own thoughts. But one day I figured it out. I took everything I felt and used it to fuel the furnace. Anger can be used for good sometimes. Now I'm in school, healthy and on my way to the good life.
Fuckin life fuel, man.
>>709827741
Fucking life fuel.
I appreciate you man.
>>709827680
Tell me about dysthymia, anon.
I've heard the word but really have no concept of how it feels or what it entails.
>>709826468
>Lonely? Go start your own adventure.
i wasted my youth adn now i have absolutelly no exprience in meeting womans
iam so fuckin terrfied of ending with a woman i hate
womans past 30 dont want love or feelings anymore, want someone who can provide for them or just someone to not be alone
woudl hate to be that guy
>>709827436
Absolutely, I feel as though it was one of the few films where the entire cast as well as the writers and production crew were all on the same page as far as what the film was trying to convey.
>>709828260
Nothing. Literally nothing. Not even constant "life is pointless" nothing, I mean it's so anticlimactically disappointing that you know that bored-ish feeling you probably have browsing the internet now? It's like that, only all the time except when I'm anxious or when the environment influences me.
tldr: more anticlimactic than you could ever imagine, like being a RPG NPC
I've joked so much about my depression and wanting to kill myself that I can't be taken seriously.
I feel as if shrugging this thing off as a joke will make it go away, but it always hits harder.
I've given up on being a good person.
"If I can't be the best, I can sure as hell be the fucking worst" is what I always think to myself.
I make myself unapproachable to people by being quiet and when I'm not quiet I'm always joking about some racist/ homophobic/sexist shit that drives people farther away from me.
>>709828829
damn
i do the same
this feels so weird
people hateme for being mean or not givin atention to them
>>709828319
I don't believe there's only one possible person in the universe for everyone. I think if you find someone more compatible than incompatible with you then you will be happy, simple as that.
>>709828971
It's honestly pretty funny to me. I act like a racist homophobic mysogynist when I'm a Hispanic crossdressing fagatron.
>>709828675
Can you be medicated for this?
Honestly, from what I understand this has to be maddening.
Does anyone have the insecure drake meme?
Ill vent off a little too I guess
I also just grew tired of ppl in general but I never thought Id reach this point, Im not actually depressed although the anxiety tends to kick in but Im still.. STILL strong enough to fight it and staying positive, but I do feel at times like Im about to explode from the loneliness. My only hope is moving in with my best mate who lives in another state.
At times my mind wanders 7 yrs ago to my last real relationship, I was madly in love with her, but somehow I kept fucking that up, now shes moved on and I dont even care, but my mind goes back in time a lot, too much.
Ive tried dating online but no one seems interested, Ive come to the conclusion that girls want adventures and shit, and although I can provide 'adventures' Im not witty enough to make em see this, on top like I said no one seems interested. Im not as horny as before Im already 24 and all I fucking want is to get married already! Sex doesnt motivate me anymore as it used to.
Good thing I have a job.. but shit, Idk.. I rlly hope I can find a GF or move out, otherwise Idk wtf. Maybe I should get a room mate and go out make friends. Fuck fuck fuck, sucks being a single child. But I guess shit could be worse.
Suicide is IMPOSSIBLE for me tho, how the fuck do I know it will be better, plus Im a huge pussy to even consider that idea, hell no.
>>709828982
iam aware that to work it must be diferences
but iam afraid of that diferences be way too much to handle
>>709829549
24 isn't very old, anon.
You're doing fine. Get a roommate, start going out and meeting the opposite sex, don't try to fuck, start relationship, get married before 30.
I believe in you, anon.
>>709829540
I've never tried - I'm afraid to be medicated.
>>709829640
When you find someone you'll stop worrying about the differences.
An atheist highschool friend of mine recently got engaged to his Muslim girlfriend after begging her father for 4 years.
Point is, even something that seems like a huge problem in the early part of a relationship will eventually become irrelevant.
>>709830383
well, i guess thats right
other thing iam terrified is failing in bed
as i said i have no experience with lovers,
i been with hookers but no girlfrends or anything
and i myself have seen broken relationships cus no sex or bad sex
>>709830037
There's nothing wrong with being medicated to a certain extent mate.
You should at least give them a test run, they may fix every problem stemming from your condition. After all, most mental illness is caused by a chemical imbalance that could be adjusted with the correct treatment.
>>709830658
That's something that isn't very important either. If sex is an insecurity you have than you should make that clear, ask your partner to be vocal and tell you what you could do to make it more enjoyable for them.
I've literally never had a partner say no when I asked them if they'd tell me what they like or what I can do to be better.
>>709824179
pic is me irl
>>709829961
Thanks anon. Im hoping once I finish paying off my credit card(4 grand) Ill be able to go out and explore.
Im hoping once I go out Ill meet a good fucking person man. Everyone just wants to fuck these days. Nobody.. feels anymore. Today's youth is growing up so screwed its sad, and its mostly because social media, everyone craves attention and likes etc, maybe its human nature, but Im sure as shit it wasnt like this before! I dont have FB, I hate it, only thing I have is IG and most pix have 2 likes some including myself.
>>709825063
>Has friends and a hot gf
>still bitching
This is what people without any real problems think real depression is.
living life is just so draining for me. i dont know why buy mind just cant take any more and i dont know how to fix it
>>709831744
Fucking A. I haven't gone anywhere other than work, my apartment, and the grocery store for months. I don't even talk to my family anymore.
this site is the only thing i now. i go on almost all the boards and couldnt stand the thought of them dying
>>709824179
try to maintain a good appearance and healthy body, come off as a bit overly confident and some what out going. inside literally have nothing but hate for self. greatest fantasies involve getting terminally ill or dying in a car crash, pretty much any way i cant be to blame for my own death. cant maintain relationships because most women eventually see past the fake smiles and forced laughs. to much of a coward to die and to much of fuck up to live.
just trying my best to get to the next day
>>709824179
i'll never be able to be with the only girl i ever felt love with
>>709831900
i know how you feel. and if im afraid if i talk about it id just sound like a giant pussy
Pretty much sums it up.
>Be April 2016, attempt suicide in room
>Brother and used to be friends rush in and pin me to the floor
>Beg them to let me finish it
>Big scene, cops and ambulance
>Handcuffed and taken to hospital
>Placed in behavioural health unit
>Sugar coated for psych. Ward.
>Spend 2 weeks there
>Diagnosed with GAD, Manic depression,psychosis, Social phobias/anxiety
>Fast forward to today
>2 jobs, only day off is Sunday, use them to distract myself fromental conditions
>So far its worked....
>Aside from jobs I don't leave my house distanced myself from friends...*Puts on fake smile*
>>709832513
I've always thought of this picture as comforting. Everything is better when I'm with her. She's helped me through my depression immensely
>>709832560
damn
having 2 works just to avoid suicide soudns awful
i hate my work cant imagine having 2
>>709832363
ik how you feel bro i still have a chance to be with my dream girl but it isnt looking very good rn
>>709832811
I take things like this picture a much different way myself. There's some comport sometimes in just knowing you're not alone.
>>709824179
>>709832811
i wish i had a 'her'. i was so close too, we used to hang out regularly. i just took to long
>>709824179
I too have the le depression but my linkin park cds help me not to be so sad also i hate you dad
>>709832513
once dated someone who was depressed and had a lot of self hate issues. they really got focused on me, giving me a lot of attention, lots of love. the only problem was they ended up getting overly attached, they never had friends of their own and didnt really like when i went out with my friends, they made me the source of their happiness and tbh that was a lot of pressure. i loved this person but the amount they relied on me and held me back got to be to much. they became paranoid and overly dependent. i had to leave. the lesson here being, if you dont love yourself and have your own life other people are gunna have trouble being with you.
My favorite gif. For you.
>>709833140
I knew a guy like that he killed himself six years after Daphne his ex left him.
>>709824179
>>709826938
Hey bud saw u in another thread. Try LSD if you're scared for what's next. It really helped me overcome a lot of my anxieties, especially those about death.
>>709832811
True, but it's like a stab in the heart if you lost her because you're in the same place again.
>>709833140
thats other reason i am afraid of get a GF
i dont have friends, she might end being teh center of my life, and thats not fair for her
>>709833140
Well, same here, but I loved that feeling. First time I ever felt loved.
>>709833742
You got that right.
>>709824179
>>709833507
drugs dont really do good for me they usually do more harm they make me think too much and it turns into thinking about bad things like how ugly i am or how im gonna die alone w no friends or anything i rather stay away from them i have tried weed and lsd they do more more harm than help imo
My only close friend killed herself. We'd talk for hours about really deep shit, not just small talk. She was probably my soul mate.
Fuck.
>>709833742
thats what happened to me and now she might be gone for good and im so torn up and broken emotionally and mentally
>>709834054
how the fuck that happened?! Fuck dude
Grntxt plz
>>709834054
i am pretty dure i have found my soulmate
was awesome as fuck
but she is married with a kid and live far
so is not posible
>>709834054
i used to have a friend like that. instead we just stopped talking and faded away. shit hurts yo
>>709834170
I mean, I knew her for two years and pretty much out of the blue she killed herself.
Not much to greentext about it honestly.
>>709834160
well im glad he got his pleasant ending.
>>709834320
I mean.. fuck
Gotdamn. How long ago this happened?
>>709834445
A week and a half ago.
>>709834054
Fuck man, sorry to hear. I'd say "hang in there, it gets better" but it won't, at least not anytime soon.
>>709834579
fuck dude, thats heavy
>>709824179
>
As I've grown older, the friends I had growing up and even family members have been progressively moving farther and farther away from me.
>>709833140
Joh?
>>709828971
>>709828829
I mean if you cant be the best then you cant be the worst, logically.
I don't know if i am depressed or just in a rough spot
>be 20, on my own since 18
>dad doing life sentance
>mom (we get along very well, lives with my aunt while she sorts her life out) and sis 3000km away
>live in ghetto, gunshots, crackheads, whores and homelessness are all around me.
>was selling/doing drugs out of high school (mainly psychadelics and weed but tried most)
>ive watched people OD, lived in my truck, found a dead body, saw my freind get shot, been shot at, had a gun stuck against my head, gotten stabbed, been hit by a car, ran from cops, sold hard, ran drugs across thousands of kms, tripped badly, had my ex slit her wrists because i left and end up in hospital, been in two accidents, you name it.
I went throuh hell
And now that I saved money, moved away, started a trades course and passed drug tests for my new job i find myself prepping meals and changing my own oil out of boreom
Am i addicted to dysfunctionality?
How do you live a normal life?
There is no stress anymore... but theres no substance.
I have a loving gf and a safe place to live but i almost want to front an ounce just so that i have to worry about selling it in time
>havent
>>709835040
absolutelly, there is always worst people
iam just forgetable
>>709824179
>i dont know whats wrong. I used to be happy all the time now i just feel anxious. I keep it together in front of others, but every time i fake a smile it never reaches my eyes. I try to smile and i feel the muscles in my face twitch.
The sad part is i know its all my fault. I abused several stimulants for months. I have mild paranoid schizophrenia now. I cant even kill myself because my mom's brother had the same disease and he killed himself. My mom still skips work on the day he did it. I feel like my body is expanding, my sheets are on fire, and the whispering so quiet you do not know if your imagining it. Now my insomnia is so bad i abuse Xanax to go to bed
> car wont start
> no job
>>709837051
Goebbels was a qt
>>709835140
the fuck man youre doing fine man, this is a depressed thread not a goals thread man get laid keep selling drugs bitches like plugs.
>>709837505
>spirit science
Oh fuck not this guy again
Pic sums it up
>>709824179
This one right here
For me this is all about growing up.
The character I most feel like nowadays
>>709832856
You'll realize one day that 'dream girl' is a myth.
>>709825494
A link to the short story "The Depressed Person", by David Foster Wallace, who eventually hung himself because of intractable depression:
http://harpers.org/wp-content/uploads/HarpersMagazine-1998-01-0059425.pdf
>>709838524
idk bro this feeling actually feels like love not that bs you tell a girl just to make her happy
>>709833607
Let the bitch's voice ring in your ear until you gather up the courage to fuck as many bitches you want. The oneitis might not leave but at least you can masturbate-fuck "real" women.
>>709832845
>>709832560
This is what I'm attempting
>other than kms
So far? I hate it. Hate life. Hate knowing there are better things but can't distract myself from the inevitable
>The End
>>709832288
Fucking spoilers.
>>709825600
is it pathetic i unironically think of this as the dream I mean no responsibilities no one bothering you just the internet and blessed peace
>>709838508
When Based Bob said this, he was dealing with the death of his wife from cancer.
I believe he is right. I know the "good times", I've had them. The problem is that the darkness hasn't waned. It's still here, and isn't going anywhere. Everything went to shit when my ex left. She fucked me, and then broke up with me after 6 years. I've been with girls since then, but it's only made me feel more empty inside. Any girl I've been with since she left has gone to shambles, and it's not been my fault. My last gf literally told me that I was the "perfect boyfriend", but she left because she had to work on "herself" and didn't feel she could devote the time necessary to the relationship.
I don't know what to do anymore. I know that there will be better times eventually, I don't know if I can make it that long. I enjoy cutting myself too much. I like the feeling of the blade slicing my legs, and watching the blood flow all over. It is so cathartic.
I have a friend who I was talking with last night, who opened up and told me that she was a cutter, and wanted me to promise to not hurt myself at least for that night and maybe the next. I think she wanted me to know that there was hope. All I could think about was whether or not she was trying to tell me that she liked me, even though I've known her for years and there's never been any sort of romance on either side before, that I know of. We are the only single people in our group of friends though. But there I was....on her porch, talking about my anxiety, hearing her tell me about hers, and thinking that I needed to be with someone, so it may as well be her. If she made a move, I would immediately jump into her arms. Not because I think that I really like her, but because I need to feel someone close to me. I need to lie next to someone and feel their arms around me. It's not sexual at all. Why do I do this to myself, and believe that any girl being nice to me wants to date me? Every day I hope for death.
>>709831991
Same! What the hell.
>>709838510
He's so fucking beautiful and his soundtrack is great
I'll one up you, niggers.
I'm married, yet feel more alone than ever now. Life's better when I'm alone because then at least I'm alone and can completely relax. With the wife around I always have to be sure that things are cool and there's no cause for a scandal.
Worse, she is not nor ever will be my waifu. I mean that in the sexual/spiritual sense of fitting into or wanting to fit into my desires and thoughts. She's her own person and best I can do is work around that. Then, when I really push for it or if she really feels like it, can I get the sex and attention that I want. Otherwise it's just "but muh pussy" shit and toothy blowjobs.
>>709830037
holy shit dude smoke marijuana
>>709839889
As someone who feels similarly, I'd like to point out that you don't understand what "catharsis" is as a concept. Go google or wiki or whatever, but still.
>>709824179
>>709841362
Oddly, I'd assume taking the right door is better since you are damned if you don't
Hows life my fellow anons? Outside of the world of hurting and depression how is life? Been working and eating better... I guess thats something to bad I still feel like shit. How was your day?
It's like I'm trapped in this weird haze. Get up. Work. Gym. Come home. Sleep. Repeat. It's mind numbing and just generally trapping. I like the people I work with, it doesn't feel like 8 hours. But it's not what I want to be doing.
The scary part is that whenever someone asks me what my goals in life are, I just don't know. I don't have any, all I know is that it's not what I want to be doing. And that's terrifying.
This is my fault but i snooped and found texts from my boyfriend to his best friend when we were drunk and fighting.... He said a lot of horrible things about me and my heart actually hurts
How do I get over my social anxiety? I have no friends to talk to at all, only anons, and I feel like giving up every single day.. Today might be my last :(
>>709825600
That's pretty much me minus the getting up at 9 am and the showering
>>709832560
Get a job where you work from home
>>709832984
That's not what a serial killer is
>>709838510
A true miscarriage of the psyche
Do I have depression? I feel really sad for no reason right now and I was pretty happy a few hours ago
I think I was molested when I was a kid. It was before grade school, and I say I "think" I was molested because I don't know if it was molestation or just experimenting. The person who did it is 5 years older than me and we're still pretty close, so I haven't told anyone - not that I'd want to, I don't really have any animosity towards him over it and I wouldn't want him to get in trouble. Well anyway because of this (this is just what I'm assuming at this point, haven't talked to a therapist about it or anything) I've always felt detached from my body, which has led to a bunch of problems.
Never posted about this before or talked to anyone about it, feels pretty good even though it's just some rambling shit without a real point
>>709824179
>Girlfriend takes forever to respond to texts
>Get her back by not responding either
>We haven't talked in three days
I thought I wouldn't miss her, I'm so depressed, but I have to hold out for the long run
>>709844187
Lol well anon say that to my face so I can break some of your limbs
>>709843384
Same here my depression goes away when im in the city though, i live in a small town pop is 2000 but rn i'm in dallas and everything is so beautiful and neat but i'm just bored so im on 4chan currently usually at my house i want to kill myself in my room im so lonely there
>>709843258
Its not your fault, when you're with someone there should be nothing to hide. Before asking him about it, think of some of the things he said and see if there's truth to it and if it'd be better to change it overall. If there's something that you want answers to, ask him. Listen as to why he said/text these things but then let him know things that bother you too. Be realistic and dont nitpick absolutely everything. Couples will always have some dislikes but its loving each other that helps oversee that. You guys had just fought so please dont overthink it, he may have just been picking at straws to feel better.
>>709844723
Fucking get over it and text her you god damn man child
>>709844397
You might be bipolar
>>709844770
Right, internet tough guy
>>709844723
Just text her, you'll feel better and she'll like it
>>709843384
I used to be a pretty social person, pretty well liked (not popular, but got along with everyone and could carry a conversation with most people). In the past couple of years I've developed social anxiety and dread any sort of social interaction to the point that I'll feel sick. Shit sucks.
>>709824179
now here's your problem anon you care about "burdening people" well your supposed to we live in a Society where your supposed help. your not "burdening people" well for the most part if your 30 and still living with you mom you're a burden and that kind of shit. and if its to much help out. if you want to look at it from a purely selfish stand point one day they'll need help to.
>>709824179
Fuck. I'm a freshman in college, failing half my classes b/c I procrastinate and internet too much. I'm slightly overweight, but I have a lot of friends and I'm not antisocial. Why do I still want to die? Are things bad? Or am I just overreacting? My family cares about me and stuff too. What's wrong w/ me?
How the fuck do I get the tfw never had a gf feeling out of my head? It honestly fucks with me so much and it doesn't let me live life happily. Every guy my age (20) has at least had a girlfriend or had sex. I haven't had any of that.
>>709843600
>That's pretty much me minus the getting up at 9 am and the showering
Holy shit, no wonder why you're so depressed. Take a shower.
just look at my hands op
>>709845460
Would you date an ugly or fat chick if she asked you?
>>709845511
go away ciara
>>709845656
.........
>>709844953
>walks into feels thread
>starts to talk shit
>gets threatened for comment
What did you except bro?
>>709845632
Ugly, yes. I've developed feelings for girls who were unattractive because of their personality. Fat, no. That's unhealthy and gross.
I tried dropping acid about five years ago. I'm also autistic. Ever since then, my life has been a complete mess. A small list of the various problems I have now:
>major depression
>major anxiety
>OCD
>PTSD
>possible Tourette's
>can't shower without anxiety
>can't look up
>can't walk down large hills
>can't drive
>can't sit still at all
>can't carry things in both hands
>can't carry backpack straps over both shoulders
>can't eat/drink sugar or caffeine
>can't smoke weed anymore
>can't drink or do other drugs
>can't take the bus
>can't walk through wide open spaces (fields, parking lots, etc.)
>can't sleep
>always exhausted and yawning
>can't think about existential philosophy which I used to love
>can't think about sexuality
>can't cum (if I do, I get more anxious)
>can't concentrate for longer than an hour on anything
>no motivation or interest in anything beyond netflix and shitposting
>shit diet, no exercise in God knows how long
>stuck in a job I hate because if I worked anywhere else, I'd have to pay for transportation which I can't afford
Avoid psychedelics, kids. It's not worth the potentially mind-breaking bad trip.
>>709845511
Freckles a cute
>>709845781
>that's unhealthy
Yep don't anything hypocritical about that at all
there was this picture of a quote sort of, but I'll just paste the quote instead
>“I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
>>709824179
>23
>Have depression and anxiety on meds for both
>GF of year and a half dumped me and cheated on me.
>Drink almost every night.
>Go to work, come home and game, feel nothing.
> how I feel
In a void of meaningless nothingness.
>>709845839
I had a bad trip too once and it fucked me over for months, not nearly as bad as you though. Damn, I really want to say something to cheer you up or give you some kind of advice, but I really can't think of anything.
Just know that I would be your friend if you wanted one. Not just out of sympathy or anything like that. If you want someone to talk to I'll give you my email or something.
I don't know what'll work for you but I'll tell you what worked for me.
Exercise. For some reason going to the gym and trying to become chad really helped me. I went from obese to lean and ripped in about a year and a half then I joined a boxing gym and my confidence grew like a million fold.
Started going to community college, it helps to feel like you're finally doing something to advance your station. Maybe that'll help you get past this, put it behind you and look to the future, as cliche as that sounds.
I'm still a kissless dateless virgin, but I'll tell you a story and I'm not bullshitting. During summertime 2014 a bitch that worked at my old gym was obviously into me, always giving me that "come talk to me" look that I'd always ignore, one day was waiting for me in the locker room and when I went in she stopped me and asked if I could help her with something in the bathroom. But me being the kind of person I am I turned her down by saying "I would, but I have somewhere to be and I'm in a hurry right now, sorry."
I'm no longer bothered by being a virgin, because of that I'm not desperate. I don't know what I'm waiting for, to be honest.
Anyway, you get the point I'm trying to make. Just try to build yourself up. Maybe if you do that, over time as you start to notice yourself becoming a better and better person, slowly but surely, you'll start seeing yourself in a different light, and then maybe these problems (I'm no psychologist but a lot of them sound like they have a lot to do with you feeling small and insignificant) will start going away.
>>709841340
>Catharsis noun, plural catharses
[kuh-thahr-seez]
>1. the purging of the emotions or relieving of emotional tensions, especially through certain kinds of art, as tragedy or music.
>2. Medicine/Medical. purgation.
>3. Psychiatry. psychotherapy that encourages or permits the discharge of pent-up, socially unacceptable affects.
>discharge of pent-up emotions so as to result in the alleviation of symptoms or the permanent relief of the condition.
Fits pretty well for that anon, I think. What did ya think it means?
>>709833737
I'm a f and fuck I hate this. I love our friendship too much and feel as if I told him it would make things awkward and I don't want that. He's such a great person that I would hate losing someone great for a dumb love confession.
>>709833976
Same lol. Ecstasy, weed, I get drunk, but I end up worse
>>709848752
As a guy, I want to tell you that if you don't tell him how you feel, eventually you will regret it. If he is really special to you, risking the friendship is the only thing you can do. Better to tell him how you feel than to keep your feelings pent up forever.
I eventually told a long time friend how I felt, and she felt the same. We dated for a while, but then it didn't work out. I know though that I am glad I told her how I felt, even if the relationship didn't work out in the long run.
Got thrown out of school lasrt month for soemtrhting i didnt do. Today was my birthday party. Invited a fwew friends to go to a haunted house with me, but all of them decided they had betterrthings to do. Im now 9 shots in. Please tell me it gets better.
>>709849144
As a guy then, how would you feel if she told you instead of you telling her ? And are you still friends?
I smoke weed and listen to emo music when I'm sad. I'm 25.
>>709850212
What's your idea of emo music?
>>709850355
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N53TXEcBMzc
I usually only listen to rap but when the feels hit... I can't
>>709849331
It doesn't get better or worse. There are going to be times where things are great and there are going to be times where things are complete shit, but mostly there's going to be an in-between where things are neither good nor bad and everything is just okay, that's just life.
>>709850509
Interesting. My idea of emo music is like the song Coming Down by Five Finger Death Punch.
Not a fan of that band but I like that one song. Not gonna post the video because I find it cringey as fuck. Song itself is okay.
>>709850791
I've surprisingly seen this video lmfao, the song is good you're not wrong about it being cringey though
>>709850199
We are still friends. Not as close as we were, so things are different. But I can't imagine not having those months together.
I know that there's a lot of times where I am feeling things for someone, only my anxiety/fear will prevent me from saying something to them. Sometimes I learn that they were only being friendly, and that makes me glad that I didn't ask them on a date. Other times I wonder if they were feeling anything, but didn't broach the question.
If a girl asks me out (which happens rarely, but does happen) I am always flattered. It makes things a lot easier on me, knowing that it wasn't only me feeling something.
Really, I think most guys aren't going to waste time being nice to a girl if they aren't romantically interested, unless they are gay or already dating someone else. It comes down to time investment. If they think they are going to get somewhere, they will spend more time with you. If they think you aren't interested, they will find someone else to invest time in to potentially date them. That sounds cruel and insensitive, but that is the reality for many men.
Tell him how you feel. If he rejects you, it will sting for a bit, but at the very least you will finally have an answer, and you won't have to wonder anymore whether or not he is interested in you. I have asked some women out and been rejected, and honestly I can't say I ever regret it. The days and nights of wondering were over, and I didn't have to waste more time being anxious over something that wasn't ever going to be.
Be brave. Tell him.
>>709850509
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVoFq7zc5po
I fucking know what you mean
>>709850509
>>709850791
If you're looking for emo music you can't beat American Football imo
>>709832513
This is the real one.
>>709851181
Fuck you make it sound so easy. It almost seems like it's not complicated at all. I'm usually pretty outgoing about it when I'm into someone & it's not like I'm ugly but it's different with Him because he is my friend. We literally talk every day so I'm guessing that's him investing time in our friendship so I assume he cares. I guess I just need to build courage and tell him. Thanks I will be brave.
>>709847772
THIS, working out changed my life too, still a 20 years old virgin but i don't care anymore about it. It's like driving a porsche, when you have a muscular 90 kilo body.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=byA3JAdqPQk
I'm out /b/ros
>>709824179
'nuff said
>>709831744
fucking this my friend.
i would kill just to have someone i can call a friend and a girl that care for me
Sad song pls
>find a clan for a game you love
>grow to love the people in this gaming clan
>think they're kinda cool
>turns out they're just a bunch of bullies
>they isolate you, cast you out, and practically kick you in the end
>thought you might meet someone new for a change
>nope
i dont know why i even have a computer
>>709832513
This image works the same in reverse
I may get fired from my job for alleged sexual speech against a woman.
I work at a Publix bakery. She came in to fix a cake order she messed up the previous day. I asked her some questions about what she was looking for, what she did for a living, how her kids were, etc. I like to make jokes when talking to customers, so she told me she was a software engineer I laughed and asked if she was a nerd. Then she kept telling me about her kids, I listened, then she went on to the specifics of her cake. I took her order, read it back to her, and then she left.
Now she wrote a massive complaint to my boss claiming I was very sexually aggressive with her. I did flirt with her a bit, but nothing I said was sexually aggressive. Then she told my boss she is worried I have her personal information and that I may stalk her.
I am not stalking her, nor do I have any intention to. I admit some of my comments were inappropriate, but of course I denied it totally in my official statement. I worry I may get fired, but it's my first few weeks and my boss wrote that the proper action would be to have a warning.
I'm worried. If I get fired, it will make things really hard for me. I just want to hide under a rock. Sometimes I wish I did not exist at all.
I just want to be normal
Lately I've just been feeling nothing, not anger, sadness, happiness, just a lingering feeling of emptiness. I've been doing things like showering, studying, fapping, etc out of spite, routine, some sort of means to an end. It has actually increased my productivity since I do not feel anger or stress from these actions, just a thought that they need to be done. Any drugs that would help with this would be cool, thank you.
>>709852624
>I have no idea what I'm talking about
>>709852670
Johnny Cash - Father and Son
Sufjan Stevens - Casimir Pulaski Day
The Fureys - Gallipoli
Greg Laswell - Comes and Goes in Waves (the 2013 version is better)
John Lennon - Working Class Hero
Front Porch Step - Island of the Misfit Boy
Plyve Kacha - A girl on the Voice, YouTube "Performance that Silenced a Nation
Eels - I Need Some Sleep
Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah
>>709852670
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=S7zHZrcHdxg
>>709852753
NEVER trust peoples and NEVER be nice with other peoples.
that something we all learn the hard.
peoples like to manipulate and hurt nice peoples. that why i stopped helping and talking with other peoples as much as possible. especially women
>>709824179
nice
>>709824179
>>709832984
Leave faggot
>>709833140
Stopped reading because you are really shitty with sentence structure.
>>709826966
no, no it wasn't anon
>>709855020
You don't get to read much here do you?
>>709845460
You're stressed out faggot, you're fine. Pass your classes, you have a lot going for you.
>>709850212
You're just a pussy, some girls like that
Buck up buttercup
>>709855309
I do when a giant paragraph is worded well. In this case I couldn't do it. Did that hurt your feelings?
>>709855829
Did you have a rough day today?
>>709855829
Yes, very much. Please apologise or I'll cry
>>709855920
Been a really great Saturday
>>709847096
this reminds me
>pet dog since childhood started getting joint pains
>mfw I only have a few more years left with her
>>709824179
I was in the same boat. I skipped town and lived in my car for a year doing odd jobs in different states and shit. Climbed mountains and sought wisdom and peace.
I think I got lucky though.
>>709856050
Sorry m8, I know this site frowns upon criticism, don't ban me please
>>709824179
>>709856288
No worries babe
>>709856461
Mwah
>>709827181
happy birthday, anon.
have a wallpaper
I fucking hate feels/baww threads.
>Every time i read trough one, it makes me sick.
>Im not sad
>Im not crying.
>It just makes tired as fuck.
I cant even go to sleep now, i got shit to do. Fuck me.
More sad song pls
>>709857268
Yet here you are
>>709856731
>>709827181
Agreed! Happy birthday anon!
This one's maybe a little small but it's my favorite
>>709857314
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NLtFsiOFn-4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zm72p_AXOnU
>>709857348
Yea. I havent the slightest clue why im torturing myself.
>i dont even get the concept of /b/. Why do i spend a shit ton of time scrolling trough millions of traps and lolis in hope of finding a decent coversation?
>>709857314
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=bQwkbRVqqxU
>>709827181
not a wallpaper but it made me laugh the other day
>>709857470
forgot this gem.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGbBVmEI6QQ
>>709857314
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=cjPyvoLXPs4
>>709857470
>or even trying to have a tenuous grasp on green text
Protip:
>you don't
>>709857664
Im sorry internet police, Ive done wrong.
>fuck off
>>709857806
#justsayin
#fuckoffnormie
>>709857658
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RM4pipRvyVU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nP4SWYQmt8w
>>709857944
Ive been around since 2012. Am i really supposed to give a fuck about your rules?
>>709858106
I'm so sorry, I had no idea I was speaking to an oldfag. I was in the room when moot was conceived. Do you want a cookie faggot?
Sad song : the xx together
>>709857470
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIx5mqWUKM
The Alan Parsons Project, good stuff.
>>709857314
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=v20ftD2_nmM
>>709858394
you might like this one too then.
>>709824179
At some point I figured out that a certain bunch my friends liked having a basket case around, so they could have someone to rip the shit out of, or pretend to be very worried about, depending on their mood.
It took me a long time to figure out that their genuine concern was usually an attempt to undermine my confidence, and everything I'd told any individual in secret would inevitably become common knowledge.
Standing on your own can make you strong, but mainly because doing anything difficult either toughens you up or kills you. Getting into some sort of combat sport helps a lot with the feelings of pity and worthlessness.
A lot of people can be very shitty, and we often do a lot to sabotage ourselves, but we still have to find a way to live our lives the best we can. It takes time, anon, but it's better to work towards a goal you feel deep you might never reach than to give up and just hang around until you die.
Chin up, carry on.
>>709858776
forgot to link video, gj me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gV3g9LCvPc
>>709858394
>>709824179
>>709846466
This.
You make the person you'll be tomorrow every day. Even if you're diagnosed with "being super shitty."
Today is your chance to make a small change in the less shitty direction.
If you blame someone you admitt defeat.
>>709835140
Boo woo
Niggers having it bad? Big deal
How about what the families felt when you sold drugs to some of their relatives?
You niggers should be fucking dead
Bodies dropping faster than you could say "pls don't shoot"
>inb4 "im not a nigger"
If you sell drugs, you're a disgusting nigger, and you should die
>>709831991
Literally me.
>>709859680
This
>>709858106
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CY_Fpgl7ZK0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RoPjeZf-2jg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DboMAghWcA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gO_KxGlY62g
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O4irXQhgMqg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xwtdhWltSIg
anybody got's the story where anon becomes a drifter after shitting on his friend's moms bible?
>>709859444
The underage bans should be enforced more.
>>709825063
I get that depression is a real thing. But come on.
Also I'm way late.
>>709824179
>>709859896
my bad he used his friend's moms bible to wipe his ass after having diarreha eating taco bell
>>709833456
>>709831744
Having depression and having no social connections are not one and the same.
>>709860072
>>709852006
worst part is that these two guys were only 19 and 21. one burned to death and the other jumped. so fucking horrible.
>>709834160
Dang.
>>709827621
No one wants to hear that
not even your Mother or closest friend, trust me Just shut the fuck up and have fun
cry and you'll cry alone
laugh and you'll laugh with everyone
>>709859444
>nigger
>kys
newfag, 14 year old confirmed.
