Feels thread? Feels thread.
Get in, /b/ros. Tell us what ails you tonight.
im sick of missing her, i just wanna forget.
Dealing with feels of insignificance.
P sure it's the most common feel for middle class men in their 20s
>>709744826
I'm dead inside
>>709745292
that's beautiful, anon.
>>709745158
I feel this
>>709745335
How come, /b/ro?
I just miss her
She loved halloween
this is an awesome quote, I used to leave chalk out side my house and some kid ending up using some and writing this quote
>>709745434
my gf does too. Every october she wants to watch Evil Dead, she wears spoopy t shirts and socks, and she works the whole month on making her own costume. wish the relationship wasn't crumbling though.
>>709745383
A lot of people turned their back on me for whatever reason, have a huge group of people who hate me, can't hold down a job, multiple psych ward stays. I know I'll get by sooner or later but I'll never enjoy life again.
>>709745477
8bitstories? Good taste anon
>>709745702
8bitfiction yeah, so awesome. thank man
>>709745676
I feel you, /b/ro. Was the laughing stock growing up. I can't work a normal job due to mental conditions. Used to dream of being an astrophysicist or computer scientist when I was a kid, but I'm pretty sure all I'll ever be is a washed-up pizza delivery driver living in a trashy apartment or a trailer.
>>709745676
People don't give a shit and will never try. They just want normies friends.
>>709745930
Sorry you have to deal with that anon. Know how it feels. Hope things improve somehow
How is it possible to be surrounded by people and still feel so alone?
>>709745434
Mine did too anon. Fuck. Forgot about Halloween...
>>709746124
>>709745434
I'm thinking I'll make it a Halloweed if I could get $20 for a bag but I'm a poor fuck
>>709745987
Ho... it's not OC but I probably lost some close friends because they saw I was going down.
>>709746110
I have the same feeling. There's people around me, but no-one I can connect with. I'm just sitting in the corner, trying to figure out why I'm at a party with 30 people and still feel so empty.
>>709746339
Congrats on getting invited to something though.
My friends are getting smashed at house parties 800 miles away and I'm living in a trailer like a poor fuck, in some town where I have no friends
>>709746339
Its exhausting, whats the point
>>709746487
I barely make it out, i live decently far from my friends too and it hurts so bad knowing they are having a good time and your just stuck at home
Became with a friend who was in my Country to do a masters. Became good bros, introduced him to my friend group, drank beer, gone fishing, explore the forest, made gourmet food.
He recently left the country, his last message was, "Hey bro, thanks for making me feel welcome during my stay, and thank you for being my friend"
>tfw
>>709746623
yeah I hate living in the boonies. I don't even really ever go outside. I'd kill for a few fun friends though, might go over to /soc/ and look for some
I can't get along well with girls. I think they are somehow damaged in their brains. They hate when everything is peaceful and quiet. They love to create scenes and fights. Fighting and making other people's lives hell is their life motivation. They are full of unending bullshit problems. It's just impossible to have a healthy and fair relationship with them. They are always the ones who create problems but guys are the ones who have to solve them. Oh and our solutions are never good enough for them. Seriously, women are so braindead when it comes to being smart and rational. That's why they suck at arguments. That's why they always lose arguments. Also that's why they always think they are right. They're so full of themselves. They are too damn selfish. And I'm so tried. I can't stand their bullshit anymore. I think I'll die alone but I don't want to! I just want a calm and quiet girl who hates fighting and needs peace in her life.
But I broke up once again yesterday, so looks like it will never happen.
>tries Tinder for a year to find the one
>my only interests is engineering, vidya, powerlifting and engineering
>tfw fucked 10 girls in a year, all of them thinks of me as a simple fuck boy and don't want a relationship and tells lies when they dump me
So this is how it feels to be used...
>>709746731
Wish you luck finding her, anon.
>>709746190
Wish I could help bro. Its gonna be a tough one for me too. Good luck man
>>709746775
damn dude, I wish I was attractive enough to have that at least. I live with my gf but she's honestly not very fun anymore, and we fight more than we do anything else.
>>709746856
I'd be down to split a bag, but you know how it is on here, trust nobody etc
>>709744826
Really into this chick right now. Had sex a few times 10/10. Problem is I have two kids and currently in relationship with gf. She said it's a no go for being step mommy but she doesnt know about the kids or current relationship. I can hide/lie about relationship but cant hide the kids. Says shes catching feelings but until the kids are known they aren't real feelings. Makes me sad if i tell her i could lose her.
>>709746922
Where are you from man
>>709746731
Anon, you just summed up my feelings towards someone perfectly. Wish you luck, my dude. You deserve much more.
>>709746987
>cheating on your gf
feel bad you deserve it
>>709747100
Living in the boonies of south Ohio. Trying to move home to Boston.
>>709747228
Right? With 2 kids too. Guys like this piss me off. Lmao, boohoo side bitch doesn't want your fucking kids.
>>709747424
Damn, Washington state here.
>>709744826
I'm starting to feel really down and lonely, and the reason is so stupid too. I barely have anyone to talk to about fetish stuff, because not only is it unpopular, but all the places dedicated to it are slow or dead.
>>709747556
I used to know a kid that felt this way. The most rabidly horny 15 year old I ever met. He was uncomfortably sexual with literally everyone he spoke to, and he would threaten suicide when you didn't want to have fetish RP with him. Don't turn into that kid anon, you're better than that.
Make a fetish thread on /aco/ or something?
>>709747556
That's not the reason you feel lonely, that's just what you're blaming it on
>>709747668
>He was uncomfortably sexual with literally everyone he spoke to
Not me. I'd hate for anyone in real-life to know my fetishes. Hell, I wouldn't even tell anyone in real life I like booty.
>and he would threaten suicide when you didn't want to have fetish RP with him.
Definitely something I'd never do. I've never been suicidal. The thing I fear above all is death.
>>709747669
???
Someone just said to me that she's my friend, and that she loves me (as a friend, that is, she has a boyfriend already), that she doesn't want to see me depressed, that she wants me to be happy
No one has ever told me that, /b/, I couldn't even answer her.
And I feel bad for it, she believes in me, she thinks I can keep going, and I'm just sitting here, thinking that I'm a dissappointment because I've already given up, I thought everyone else had given up on me too, but she hasn't
>>709747990
That's a valuable friend there anon, don't let her go. At least thank her for not giving up on you.
>>709746806
>>709747218
I wish the same for both of my bros.
>>709747990
If you can cry and threat to kys she will have sex with you
>>709748049
That's all I could do, it took me about half an hour of just staring at the text untill I managed to say "Thank you"
>>709748141
I already lost the chance to have a friend that was basically my fucking soul-mate by trying to date her, I'm not screwing up any other friendship
>>709748153
Okay sorry bro no offense. I'm pretty hurt myself, heartbroken whatever. But are you 14 fucking years old? You sound like a complete faggot.
>Someone just said to me that she's my friend, and that she loves me (as a friend, that is, she has a boyfriend already)
>That's all I could do, it took me about half an hour of just staring at the text untill I managed to say "Thank you
What in your life is there possibly to give up on? Sitting at a different lunch table than your middle school crush? Jesus
I'm a self-destructing asshole that never takes responsibility for my actions and I can't stop.
I feel like a glitch in the fabric of the universe. No matter where I go, who I talk to, I never fit in, I never get along, I never belong.
>>709748781
that's because you're a feet lover
>>709748715
Same here. Unfortunately after my recent relationship ended I started using drugs. Idk, kinda takes the pain away for awhile. But when I'm sober the problems are still there of course. Fuck.
>>709748815
thanks nigger
This halloween would have marked our 1 year.
I miss her so much, I miss my bestfriend most of all. I dont even want to its just there and its so fucking painful.
OP here - anyone down for some greentext stories?
>>709749123
if you got em
>>709749099
Are you me? I just wish I had a way of dealing with it you know? Work takes my mind off of it a little bit, but it fucking hurts so much. The memories can kill.
>>709749455
its supposed to just stop one day
in the mean time its killing me
>>709749381
It's hard to feel something for someone who is a pain in your ass honestly. If my douche brother died I'd probably not care.
>>709749579
Then the thought of them being with someone else just makes you fucking sick. Fuck
>>709749740
Even if you stop caring about being with them, seeing them date others still bothers you
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>>709749792
I've been through this before, trust me. You will never stop caring. You might move on, but you'll always care.
>>709750179
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>>709744826
I'm so sick of Trump, and I can hardly wait until he loses.
>>709750186
I suppose I meant moving on, but yeah you're right. I wish letting go was easier. Of anything really. Objects, people, places, memories, etc
>>709750354
I'm sick of him AND Shillary. I think they should both be in prison.
>final year of uni
>not going to be able to find a job
>going to end up as a neet
>have to camwhore for cash
>be just another unemployed neet degen tranny
>end up dead by 30
Worst part is i'm in a stem field but since im british what i wanted to do is now fucked as eu no longer funding the field i wanted
>>709750674
At least you're probably attractive enough to camwhore. What STEM field was it?
>>709750794
Clinical Psychology
And i dont think im attractive, i started at like 19 though and although the boys i know irl call me cute and stuff (they dont know) i just dont feel it
>>709750427
It's crazy how much one person can completely change your life, it shouldn't be that way.
>>709750884
I don't think many people like their own appearance, I sure don't like mine. Could just be the dysphoria in your case. As for psych you might be able to still find something. Perhaps move to another country and apply for transfer to a uni there
>>709748571
Just socialising in general, and everything regarding my feelings.
Basically overcoming my depression
I understand it sounds stupid, that's one of the reasons I'm depressed, it hurts that I care about things I don't want to care about
>>709751106
People can change your life positively that much, which means it only makes sense they can do so negatively as well. I just wish I was hardier of a person. They say when you've been through what I have, you "grow a thicker skin" but I never did. I guess it's a beta thing
>>709751117
Other countries would be very harsh on my being trans. Mainland europe would be okay but emigrating will be hard with brexit. America hates trans and canada doesnt have a shortage of therapists.
>>709751203
Idk man. I've been through this twice now. Hurts the same as it did before. And I always deal with this shit the wrong way. I just hate the fucking pain so I mask it. But it only helps temporarily
>>709744826
I could type for hours about what ails me currently but it would be a waste as typing it out will do nothing to help.
>>709751415
I'm from the US, and it really depends on where you are how people feel about trans people.
I recommend Cambridge, MA. Easy access to Boston area, lots of schools, and they're very liberal. Literally walked around Cambridge wearing a furry's tail accessory just for shits and giggles, nobody said shit to me. Did the same thing with a lampshade on my head too.
>>709745649
dat pic title tho
>lose my job
>haven't even tried to find a new job in two weeks
>stayed up to 8am today, probably won't fall asleep until 9am
>when i go to sleep when i'm unemployed probably doesn't matter but i still feel like a fucking loser
>>709751599
I DJ with a lampshade on my head, high-five!
>>709751663
hahahah yes finally some one notices
>>709751738
you've come to the wrong place
>>709751698
Lampshades for the win!
>>709751669
Get the fuck up and go get a job, this is something you can control don't let being fired bring you down.
>>709751599
isn't immigrating to the US really hard though? I'd be a 21 yr old trans person with no decent job experience. I wouldnt be let in
>>709751669
Same, anon. Disabled so I can't work a real job so I'm a huge NEET and I hate it
>>709751809
i'm telling myself i can't get a job because i smoked recently and it won't get out of my system for a few weeks. that's my excuse to waste time and be a failure of an adult
>>709751836
Honestly I don't know, I just know it takes awhile. Might be worth it though.
>>709751836
yeah same with canada to gain permanent residency you either gotta have useful job experience or work for the gov't
>>709751874
A buddy of mine always told me to go to an Indian store and get some blue drink that makes you piss alot to get it out of your system quicker. He would smoke a day or so before a drug test and come out clean after drinking two of those drinks. I cannot remember the name unfortunately but I bet someone else may have experience with what I'm talking about.
>>709744826
I met a girl at a party last week. The booze flowed freely. We fucked and exchanged numbers. We have been texting all week. I told her i liked waking up to texts, so shes been sending texts to wake up to.
We went to dinner last night. I wish I knew what I did wrong. She was closed off, absorbed in her phone, and watching the clock. A two hour date is average, and she left fifteen minutes early.
Then she gave me a good night kiss, she texted me like nothing happened. Until this morning. I'm kind of relieved, I just want to sleep and play magic.
But I do wish she had told me what had been going on. She might not just dig me sober.
>14
>Have this habit where i have to masturbate to fall asleep
>invited over cousins house for a sleepover
>my step brother comes too
>We chill, hang out, play some vidya and smoke some weed
>Everything going well
>We get ready for bed, we're all in the same room
>Just a few feet from me
>Wait until they're asleep
>Waiting
>Waiting
>ok i'm in the clear
>Start fapping under a blanket
>All is well
>Heavenly orgasm
>As soon as i cum my step brother starts laughing
>Mortified
>I fall asleep anyway
>I become a joke
>Everyone thinks i'm gay
>Made fun of for literal years
And that's why i had to move away, fuck other people i just wanted to fap. Also i hate fapping in the bathroom so that's out of the question.
>>709752005
i did the governments thing to assess whether i can get in to canada. My current chances are "likely to succeed"
Which of you people have tried psychadelics? I took it with a friend and we talked about our problems and all kinds of shit for hours and afterwards I felt like i understood myself and my issues much better and found new sort of acceptance and peace with who I am. Too me it was way more helpful than the prior 6 years of talking to a psychologist.
>>709752198
I've been wanting to try this. What exactly did you take?
>>709752198
I had this experience with weed, kinda, but I want to try shrooms.
>>709752275
a research chemical called 4-aco-dmt
it's basically like schrooms
>>709752475
Can you order it online or something? Never heard of it
>>709752475
Fuck research chemicals. Shrooms are way better.
>>709752275
>>709752317
the best way I can describe the feeling is that my thoughts where a tangled mess in my head like headphones in your pocket, but when i took the psychedelics i could take them out of the "pocket" and untangle them, and when I came down from the trip they where put back in a neat not tangled way
>>709752574
yes you can order it on most RC sites i think
>>709752665
from my experience it's about the same effect
Never posted before so forgive me if I don't know what I'm doing. I used to play football and baseball when I was younger, was only 12 but I had letters from colleges asking me to take a tour of their campus and talk with the coach for future prospects. I played on my cities little league world series baseball team until my vision suddenly started to fade. Couldn't hit or catch as good as I used to. I could literally point and hit where I wanted the ball to go no matter who pitched, I was a designated hitter. Had to quit the team because of bad vision. Months later after football season ended I had a pain in my heel that quickly progressed to my knee then to my hip. I was wheelchair bound in 2 weeks. Pulled out of school and sent to a children's hospital, medically homebound until they could figure out what's wrong with me. Whole time my family of 5 is barely able to make ends meet. One night in particular my condition worsens and I am unable to move my legs, my father has to carry me to the car and I'm taken to the hospital. Unbeknownst to me, my father had lost his job the day before and the day before that our house was foreclosed on. I was kept in the hospital for a week given steroids to reduce swelling as well as muscle relaxers. Finally able to walk so I go home then find out all the good news my parents couldn't tell me. Doctors told my parents I had bone cancer and that they would have to cut my legs off from the knees down. Parents freaked out and wanted a second opinion. I can continue if anyone wants me to.
>>709752860
Shit that sounds good. I want some of this shit
>>709752957
go on, anon?
>>709752957
Go back home and start packing up everything I own. Deal with an immense amount of pain everyday, barely able to walk around my house. When not packing I play video games as doctors encouraged it to distract me from pain. Learned anger can numb the pain as well. Practiced until I was able to control when my adrenaline would flow and used it to numb the pain as well. My parents went to court to dispute the foreclosure because we had made all the payments except for 2 but had sent the money to the mortgage company weeks before we were foreclosed on. The mortgage company sent the checks back saying they would not accept the money. Judge personally tells my parents to keep the money and run because the same mortgage company was there and told the judge they intended on bidding on the house even though that is against the law. Parents find a place to live out of the goodness of one families heart they gave us a place to stay in a run down single wide trailer with holes in the floor that hadn't been lived in for 30 years. They fixed it up for us and we lived there for around 2 years. Still living at home, have a teacher come out to help me get through school. All the "friends" I had in school as I was popular for being into sports and in advanced classes turned their backs on me, called me a faker and never cared once to see how I was doing. I became colder because of this, kept going to the doctor back and forth constantly in and out of the hospital. Actually have doctors tell me there is nothing wrong with me and that I'm making it all up for attention. One disgruntled doctor who cannot pinpoint my illness calls childrens services on my mother on her birthday because we didn't accept his diagnosis and experimental treatment.
Parents tested for drugs which my mother has never done in her life, they accused them of using me to get pills when I had tried pain medications to help but they never did. I would give the doctor the entire bottle back because if they didn't work then why should I be taking them? Of course my parents are clean, I'm taken to go see a psychiatrist and asked a bunch of questions about drugs and abuse. Never happened to me once, my parents were always amazing people except for the constant arguing because of stress and a fucked up living situation. My condition lessens somehow ane I'm able to walk on my own, i try to go back to school and instead of being greeted by old friends I'm bullied and told I'm making it all up. I end up getting in alot of fights constantly with the people I used to call my friends. End up being medically homebound again and get pulled back out of school. My parents try to apply for the extreme home make over show so we could actually have somewhere to live and the family that helped us heard about it. Did I say out of the goodness of their hearts? Nah, except for my old friend and his father they were all fake Christians who just wanted to brag about what a good deed they did by letting us stay there, in a run down trailer with black mold in the walls. They actually write the owners of the show and tell them we aren't worthy of being selected then force us to move out of the trailer.
>>709753936
dam thats fucked up
>>709754477
is there more?
>>709754477
This all happens over the course of 2 and a half years. In the months leading up to having to move out again I was finally diagnosed with an autoimmune disease and I had to start chemotherapy and biological medicine therapy. The black mold in the trailer was a no no as it could kill me. I guess it was a blessing in disguise to get kicked out of that piece of shit trailer. Moved in with my grandmother to give us a place to stay and take care of her. I started treatment and am up and walking within the next 2 months, pain is actually subsiding but I have sharp flares that remind me it isn't giving up yet. After 5 months of treatment I had to jump to a stronger biological medicine, tried it for 2 months and it did nothing. These medicines cost thousands of dollars and thankfully I was put on emergency Medicaid because my parents could not afford them. Most of my medicine was donated. Have to switch to an adult tier biological medicine given through IV rather than injection. Infusions cost 15k each. Once a week I have to go to the hospital and sign a release form incase the medicine causes a bad reaction with my body and kills me. Given benadryl and 1000mg of steroids on top of the Remicade infusion and chemotherapy. Treatment is literally breaking down my body in the long term to put me in remission. Go through treatment for another year and then my grandmother suddenly falls ill.
>>709755024
I apologize for the long waits, there is alot to type and I'm cutting out plenty if you can believe it.
>>709755138
no problem ill bump
>>709755024
Grandmother has had skin cancer on her neck the whole time we stayed there, my parents knew and tried constantly to convince her to go to the doctor but after having 2 major heart attacks before she couldn't stand hospitals. The cancer on her neck spread to her brain and every organ in her body and caused her to have over 20 mini strokes a few nights before this happened. A larger stroke occurred while I was there. I was by her side trying to calm her down and tell her everything was going to be okay as my mother call for an ambulance. My birthday was in less than 2 weeks and I had joked with my parents about going to a steakhouse and getting the biggest steak they had for my birthday. She pulled me close and looked me in the eye and said to make sure I get the biggest one they made. She was driven to the hospital then to a hospice center when they realized there was nothing they could do for her. My mother and father took her out from the hospice center when her condition worsened to the point she was going blind and deaf. She stayed at home for a day and the next morning after my father had kissed her goodbye and told her he'd be back because he had to go do something for the business he was trying to start to get us out of the hole we were in, his sister went with him and not even a minute after they closed the front door she passed with my mother watching over her. I didn't know what to think or how I should feel so I just kept it all inside. My father was the same way, he and my brother went up to Alabama for work immediately after the funeral service and he worked 7 days a week, 18 hour days so he could get his mind off of things and try to make as much money as he could. When my condition improved after 3 months my mother and I went and visited my brother and father who had been living out of a hotel. My mother forced them not to work and enjoy a home cooked meal as we looked for a place to live up there.
>>709756079
From all my father and brothers hard work, we were better off than ever before. We found a place to live and moved up a few months later but I still had to go back home for my infusions that were now once a month. Everything was actually great for almost a year. The contract my father had with the owner of the company he worked as a subcontractor for was bought out by a company called safeguard. It all went downhill after this. Our profits were cut by 98%, we were forced to drive 2 hours to check on a house and only paid 20$ for it. We kept losing money because my father felt indebted to the man who helped him start in Alabama, the man promised him things would get better and told him to hang on and keep doing all the work he could. We had 40,000$ saved up and blew through it all in 3 months trying to keep working for this man. Again we lost everything and barely moved home. Thankfully my parents found someone else to work for those last 3 months and they earned enough money to move home. The man my father worked for took the truck, trailer and equipment we had bought back since we borrowed money from him to keep working for him. Somehow my father found another way to make money and we've been going from there ever since. It's been very rough even to this day still, I've had a stroke and my other has had 2 strokes and the doctors think both my parents have had heart attacks before but they keep working. I was on chemotherapy and biological medicines for 3 years before my doctor declared that I was in remission. I still have flares and pain everyday but not nearly as bad as it used to be. Lately it's been getting worse so I may have to restart my treatment. That's all for now, I apologize for the lengthy posts and there is plenty I've missed but I've reached my limit with posting for the day. Thank you all and keep your heads up, have a good day.
>>709756797
You've been going through some tough shit kudos to you my man for sticking through it
>I've lost 70lbs in the past 5 months (230-160).
> Did it to improve myself, make life easier, ect.
>In high school so obviously reactions to my weight loss were mixed
>some friends proud of me, other not so much
>(accused of bulimia and anorexia a couple time).
>Regardless homecoming was in a couple weeks
>I wanted to actually go for once
>I ask a girl I've been interested in for a while
>"Oh sorry I just wanted to go with friends this year".
>Not the end of the world I can take a hint she's not interested.
>Lower my standards a bit and ask another girl
>"I'd love to."
>I'll take it
>Excited for homecoming
>Phone goes off
>Text message
>"Anon, I'm sorry I don't really want to go anymore"
>Fuck me.
>Homecoming is starting in 7 hours
>I'm sitting in my room alone, on 4chan
>Already know the first girl (who I still have feeling for) is going to post all about how much fun homecoming was
>I've spent so much time on trying to improve myself
>Girls still not interested
>Pretty sure I've developed body dismorphia
>Sacrificed mental health for physical health
>Still happier than before weight loss
>Can't talk to a doctor because parents would worry too much
>What do I do b?
>>709757031
Thank you, I may post another day with more back story about myself. It all changed me alot and I'm very different from other people now.
>>709757358
No problem, definitely makes you not take things for granted
>>709757329
It's fucking high school it literally doesn't matter.
Just join the military.
>>709757329
Go and hang out with your friends, I know it must suck but going to homecoming and trying to have fun is better than nothing right? I didn't get to go to my homecoming so you better go for the both of us!
>>709757329
I second >>709757586
You might as well enjoy it while you're young and you have the opportunity. I didn't go to homecoming and didn't have friends in highschool.
Missed out on all that myself, cock blocked by a medical condition. Hell I don't even remember hugging a girl throughout my time in school, I was always focused on class and sports.
>>709757537
>>709756797
I'm sorry you went through that /b/ro. Write a book about it, really, it might make you some money.
anyone lurking?
>>709757329
To quote john milton's "paradise lost"
"The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven"
Dat bitch is stoic philosophy. Recognize a lack of power and attain inner virtue to control your own mind even if external circumstances are a trifle not worth controlling.
In other words, stop tripping over your chode, pick up your fat dick and keep walking.
If you've escaped the fat part of being a fat 4chan autist then surely you'd reap joy by continuing self improvement?
>>709757902
yeah bro thanks for dumping, ran out of pics
>>709757537
I missed out because my father moved the family to inner city chad hell when I was 14. Didn't get back to my hometown till after graduation.
>>709745158
than*
written by an emo kid
>>709757948
np anon, :|
>>709745292
RIP Mr Rogers
>>709757885
Maybe someday I will. There is alot I left out because so much had happened. For now I try to get through each day. I've tried working out many times but the pain always comes back and I'll barely be able to walk for a week from a simple work out. Money still too tight to try to diet so I'm still trying to lose the weight I gained while barely able to walk for 2 and a half years.
>>709744826
On a day to day basis I shield an overwhelming sense of depression. I am 18, unemployed, swiftly losing money from my last job, single, virgin, at a pointless College course, drinking and smoking my life away. I don't have any sense of direction and the career path I'm heading towards leaves most poor. I just can't be bothered anymore.
>>709745147
Listening to him now, all night, the day before, the day before that for the past two years. Love these guys.
>Motion Picture Soundtrack and No Surprises - instakill
>>709757329
ok friend, as someone slightly older, who had similar problems, i can tell you one thing:
your time will come.
if you're not ugly or stupid, or both, and you keep improving yourself FOR yourself instead of girls, you will get noticed. depending on how you present yourself, you might not always get the ones you want, but it will be more than enough.
one more advice:
don't make your self-worth dependable on others. get to know your strengths and believe in them. independence and self-confidence are like a magnet for girls.
>>709757673
Oyy...
Just remembered last (last) night's dream and why I haven't slept today.
Fuck...
>>709758204
Sounds like me except I'm a year older and will be starting college soon. Get a grip on the drinking and smoking and give life some time, you'll find yourself. That's what I'm hoping will happen when I start college.
>>709757329
go anyways brave anon
>i am loseing weight as well 310-260 going for 190
homecoming is fun go it gets your face out there
god speed anon god speed and may you do well in all your endeavors
This is it for me b/ros, i just started crying and i dont feel like to post anymore
>>709745147
I got to hear Thom York on his birthday at ACL and we all sang Happy Birthday to him after his first song (it was ironically the Guy-Before-His-Shows birthday ALSO and he told us to sing).
Was a beautiful concert. Ended with Fake Plastic Trees, probably my favorite (of course no Creep because he hates that song - and its his fucking birthday).
What a guy.
>>709758533
I guess. I feel like I'm such an outsider, all my friends have it all figured out, and I'm just here riding the wave that is life. I intend on changing my ways come new year, hopefully that will give be a better sense of everything. College will probably be good for you, I just chose a course prone to including complete cunts.
>>709758204
I think you'll be able, your legs have a lot of muscle to rebuild so you'll burn a lot of fat.
I'm writing a book too, probably will never publish it but it helps me to get it all out
>>709757329
anon you will make it one day you have to do it for us
>>709758669
Bud I am right there with you. All the people I called friend have their lives started and I'm still stuck at home. I was working 7 days a week for the family business and stopped last Friday so I could focus on school. I'm a mixed bag, I can make friends and adjust to my surroundings and fit in but I don't like to, I don't like being around people anymore from what I've been through. It really is a tough fight trying to go out and do things for once.
>>709758576
Thanks /b/ro, aye.
>>709744826
>cheat on gf
>tell her the next day, break up obv
>starts hanging out with our social group, can't join anymore because she's everywhere
>even trys befriending my former and (now) current FWB
>friends start acting like douchebags
>university starts, no motivation to do shit
>only work for my job
>girl I really dig is exchange student
>sleep together and shit, not sure what she feels/ wants tho
>tfw no friends, no gf, everythings shit and I feel like shit
>>709758953
>cheat on gf
Well you fucked up from that point onwards man.
>>709758665
Lucky bastard, wow. That sounds beautiful.
>>709758953
All I can say is, learn from your mistakes and treat a girl right. You fucked her over and now she is fucking you over.
>>709759140
No shit sherlock. You should really start a career as psychologist with your fucking levels of insight.
>>709759188
>All I can say is, learn from your mistakes and treat a girl right
Probably true. Still breaks me right now tho. I've been royally fucked over before by my first GF who cheated on me for three years and was a compulsive liar. Never seeked revenge with her, never tried to fuck her over.
>>709759308
Everyone isn't the same. I myself have never dated nor kissed a girl. Try to find the right one, someone who isn't gonna let you fuck quickly and makes you work for it. Get to know someone first rather than fucking as quick as possible. Control your impulses and stop letting the little head control the big one.
>>709759197
It's alright man, let it all out.
>>709759485
>Try to find the right one
Dont think so. I highly doubt I'm fit for relationships, so I now focus exclusively on fucking girls.
>>709759510
For fucks sake bro, I'd really love to. My friends just fucked me over yesterday and I'm so fucking mad right now.
