Feels thread.
this is what I'm looking for tonight, a feels thread, but an alive one would be nice
>>709557310
Give it time.
Yo, I'm here
how was your day /b/ros?
>>709557714
It was ok, i have 3 more days off training next week.
I have a couple days off cleaning at my dad's (since he can't do it himself). It's a total mess over there
I miss you Kevin. I would have really liked it if we could have traveled for a while and gotten to know each other. You were kind of special to me, you got my mind off Aaron. You were just the type of relationship I needed right when I needed it; I was looking forward to that.
And Victor, my friend. I still think about you from time to time. I wish I knew what happened to you, why you broke contact like you did. I hope I didn't get you in trouble with the parcel I sent you. But what ever happened, I hope you're doing well. It would have been nice to see Spain and France for you; and to have you next to me when Aaron left.
Cont?
>>709558116
go on
>>709558396
And Jasper, you're one of my best friends. It gets lonely without you. I really hope you're up for traveling over Christmas. The holidays aren't the greatest time for that but I would be excited to see you. As fun as that would be, maybe January would be better. If I got called in over the holidays, I'd be making over time pay and I kind of need the money, but what ever works for you. You’re who I talk to when I start to lose it, you have no idea what that means to me. I’ll always remember the first few times we talked, those were the best.
Hey, N. I really regret making the trip; not because of the money but because we only got to see each other once. I more regret that I missed my bus out of Minneapolis, lost it while I waited for my sister, losing my tickets in the process. It was really fun to hang out with you when we had the chance though and hopefully we’ll see each other once more before we leave. And I hope you visit some time before next summer.
Part 2 of 3.
>>709558396
>>709558516
Dell, thanks for the shirt, it was really excited to find it in the mail box. I have it still and will treasure it, though I've managed to get a few coffee stains on it, sorry about that. It was nice knowing you, we got along well and I liked having someone from Australia to remind me of the good times.
Mariner, you bubbly fuck. I hope you're as still happy as you ever were, you really deserved it. And i remember you had a hard time when you first moved out on your own but things seemed optimistic. I hope things have continued on that trajectory.
Beli, if you ever need help killing your rapists, I'm your man. I'm sorry we didn't get closer.
>>709557714
>Woke up at 3am
>Played vidya
>Went to sleep at 4am
>Woke up at 8am
>Played more vidya
>Took a shower at 1:30pm
>Went to local pizza place to eat
>Browse /b/ on my phone while eating
>Still here two hours later because I have nowhere to be
How was your day?
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.
>>709558966
gotta do harder than that my friend
>>709557714
not so bad.
stressed the fuck out about finding a job.
>>709558628
I'm homeless and even though I'm working part time, it's really difficult to figure out what to do with myself since I don't have a place to go back to.
Do you work at all?
>>709559029
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago and now I feel pretty good but not as good as I feel when I'm drunk?
>>709557714
Not so great, like most days.
Probably going to kill myself by the end of the year.
>>709559400
Nah man don't do that. Jr high is a tough time for everyone. Keep your chin up.
>>709559247
>Do you work at all?
Nope
Sucks for you being homeless though. I got a free room if you live anywhere near Phoenix.
Hey everyone. Here's to hoping shit gets better, no matter how hard it gets.
>>709557714
I was sent home a few weeks ago because my pregnant girlfriend called me on family day to tell me she's doesn't love me anymore and has aborted our kid while I was gone. I freaked out and my Drill Sergeants thought it would be best to send me home for a time. I came home broken on the inside, drinking and smoking like crazy, and feeling just...empty. All I do right now is sit around and occassionally play video games or go out with friends. I just had sex with a slut and drove my little brother home from McDonald's where he works. Now I'm here again, just looking at my computer screen.
>>709557714
A few years ago my friend he committed suicide, today is the anniversary of his death but I do not encouragement to go to his grave.
>>709557714
empty
just as usual
>>709559699
I'm way on MN and have too much keeping me here. Like my military contract, mostly, but I want to give my new found job a chance. Thanks.
Where do you get your money? How did you get your place in the first place? How do you keep it?
new meme: poopie ballz! haha xD
>>709556428
>parents found out i been on benzos
My parents tell everyone everything for advice now all my family will think im a fucking druggie i just feel empty right now... wish i was playing lasertag on a summer night... simple shit like this makes my day better
>>709558217
This was reversed, I was her everything. I loved being always there for her, but now she doesn't need me I guess
>there are non-whites on /b/
>there are white girls dating non-western European white males.
>there are non-whites
feelsbadman
>>709558116
I really hope your name doesn't begin with K.
>>709560534
I feel empty too a lot of the time and I'm not really sure what to do about it. I have no money to fill it with.
>>709561059
Why where you taking them? Where do you get them?
>>709560891
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAHAHAHA
>>709561475
My last name starts with K
Still not over my ex of two years, who I was going to marry dumping me and lying to me while she jumped right back on the cock carousel the day after dumping me, all the while telling me that we were just taking a break for a while. It fucking hurts man.
>>709560836
Got my money from an inheritance and the place I'm in was my dads. Got enough money to live for quite a while without doing a thing. You think I'd be happy but being alone is really fucking with me.
>>709561657
Ah ok. Phew! Spooked me for a second there.
>>709560891
Topkek
>>709557714
awful
But nothing different from other days.
I always end up liking someone who will never give me the time of day look at the more than just a background character this girl my friend " girlfriend " who just used me as a joke for a lost bet we met back up in high school only for three classes she went down hill for being three years older than me a grown women at that with the mental age of a 12 year old. Sometimes i just feel that maybe if she took me seriously maybe i could have made her life a little better.
>>709561059
the drugs will help you forget what people think about you
circle of life
today i cried for the first time in a long time.
i didn't hard cry. only like two or three tears.
i feel very alone.
i've been in a weird place recently.
>>709561868
Tell me your story.
>>709561853
I love not working but, I get nutty not doing anything so I understand that. And then there's the not having money part for me.
You'll find something tho
>>709561477
Everyday felt the fucking same man i fell down the fucking stairs in front of my moms whole fucking family on that shit because i slipped on the blanket i was holding on my back and my stairs are wooden and then i fucked up my brothers drawer and litteraly took out his cabnits looking for god knows what but the shitty part is that everyone knew i was on something and xanax made me feel like nobody knew fuck xanax man i will never do that shit in my life that shit has almost killed me 3 times the other 2 times some redneck drunk pulled a shotgun in my chest because i asked if i could talk to his sister, then the 3rd time i gave my cousin xanax and he stopped in the middle of a fucking u turn while driving i deserve to die
>>709557714
My college work is starting to build up, and I think it's causing me to get some sort of anxiety disorder. I registered for more classes yesterday, but I don't expect to pass my current classes, and the idea of more work really pushed me over the edge. Just last night I got really pissed off in the middle of a report and my hands suddenly went numb and I freaked out. I just skipped my shower and went straight to bed. My parents have started asking me if I'm okay, but being parents, they just tell me I'm ungrateful if I mention my work load.
>>709562296
It's a head fucker it really is. In my case I fell hard because she seamed to really connect with me. Crazy sense of humour. I was there for here when she was suicidal at one time. Said she owes me her life. Then that all happened. I don't think I'll ever get over it. Hopefully I will just learn to live with it.
The only girl I've had feelings towards in a long time wants me to drop my current life and move all the way across the country to be with her. What do /b/? I feel like it's a bad idea, but I really like her...
The devil built this world while God was sleeping
>>709557714
Thursdays are my Mondays, so shitty. Brain has been doing its best to convince me to kill myself today, I was looking forward to playing Xenoverse 2 when I got home from work but it didn't hold my attention, nor did anything else. Now I'm just getting drunk while my family goes out and does whatever, wishing I could hear from the one person I need to hear from and knowing I'm not going to.
Normal day, I suppose.
>>709562363
I thought you might be my ex because of one of the names you used. She has been traveling around and chasing cock so.....she browses here too.
>>709556428
Experienced what true loneliness felt like for the first time.
>Live with parents still because 22 college fag
>Get dumped by girlfriend of 3 years (was because I ended up moving across the country)
>Parents wanna go on vacation alone
>dontgiveashit.jpg
>They leave for 3 weeks and I have house to myself
>it's the summer so I'm not doing any classes, and it's a new place so no friends
>>709556428
ive never had an intimate relationship in my life
>>709563004
Why would a god make a world where his creation suffers deeply.
>>709562764
Don't do it. There's no guarantee that she's 100% committed.
Unless you have absolutely no friends, family, car, house, pet, family, job, or anything where you live, then sure go ahead. Otherwise you better establish a new life fast while over there, because once she fucks you over you're gonna end up a bum with no way back home.
Go jack off and think about it after.
Stroke before you're broke my man.
>>709562985
>Experienced what true loneliness felt like for the first time.
Exactly what I'm going through.
>Mom dies last year do I move in with my dad
>Dad dies this year and I'm now living in his apartment
>No family anywhere near me and only friends I have I hardly spend time with
I think I'm starting to go crazy being alone. I swear I'm seeing things and hearing weird noises while trying to sleep.
>>709562797
Yep. God's away on business.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9mhsW5aWJM
can I get a good feels song.. haven't cried for a while..
>>709556428
How weird, came on /b/ to hopefully find a feels thread and find it at the top O.o
I recently lost a good friend of mine. She didn't die or move away but instead just dropped all contact with me because of petty drama her little brother started with me. She was one of my best friends, we even dated for a while but chose to remain best friends instead. Why is it that whenever I have a female best friend it always has to end like this? Now because of this, I just can't stop missing "her". You know her, she's that one girl who you haven't spoken to or seen in a few years but you still get chocked up by seeing her or have an anxiety attack when you see someone who resembles her. God dammit /b/ why am I like this?
>>709563213
Same
Only time I ever came close was a girl who liked me when I was 12 but when my mom found out she flipped out and ruined everything. Hardly ever interacted with the opposite sex since,
>>709563362
The Globalist - Muse
>>709563234
>we're so lost that we've created a fictional being to blame
>>709563362
This might do it especially if you're an Irishman.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wdGz3Aq5Ew
>>709563362
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YthChN1Wq8M
There is nothing to live for
>>709563362
girl you like but doesn't like you:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yjM63BFLl7E
"recently i'm all alone but i'm not lonely"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ACoVJ_gKqc
>>709563510
also same actually, but i was just too much of a beta 12 y/o to actually start a full relationship
>>709557436
I have never seen this but damn this is something i told my ex.
>>709562985
>begin to realize after a couple days I'm all alone in a big house.
>realize even though I'm always on the computer doing homework or playing games there is at least someone in the house
>Begin to leave door open a lot more, start playing background noise so there's something that's not me making noise
>Get to about a week in and realize that I am actually alone
>Makes me think about my life and my ex, drives me to depression
>Start drinking to fill the void
> Flash forward 3 years and realize I'm no better than my father who drinks because of anxiety and stress
>Remember that I always promised myself to never be like him
>Realize no matter how hard I tried I'm my father's son
>>709563639
Yet we keep doing it because there's nothing to die for.
>>709563807
>Realize no matter how hard I tried I'm my father's son
Son of a bitch
>>709563362
https://youtu.be/usLuhjTyQn8
Sorry for the mobilefag, still at work. this song got me pretty good when I first heard it. If you ever had a "one that got away" this'll get you
>>709557714
I feel better. Which felt like a miracle when I realized it.
Of course, the revelation that feeling better is such a miracle because I always feel like such shit all the time caused me to start spiraling down more.
It's a bit of an uphill battle.
>>709563759
I was actually pretty normal in my early years until my mom ruined the first relationship I had with a girl. After that I got pretty depressed and being home schooled didn't help since I was always around my mom who would yell at me about even the slightest thing.
i like these threads because it makes me feel better about my situation.
in the context of strictly my life, i feel hopeless.
when i see that other people are still floating on in spite of a worse situation, its sobering.
my shit might be bad, and i can still feel bad about it, but it could be worse.
tomorrow though, a couple hours from now even, i'll go back to normal. i'll be the same heavy-exhaling husk i was yesterday. the same one i will be tomorrow. back to treading water.
>>709563807
Don't let it control your life atleast you'll have that going for you.
>>709563265
At first it seems like it's just because it's a new experience, then it transforms into this need for any type of social interaction even if it's negative. At the end of the day you just don't wanna be alone.
Sorry to hear about your parents though, for me I just had to go through it for a few weeks till everything was back to normal. Hope you pull through friend
>>709562370
>some redneck drunk pulled a shotgun in my chest
I'm really glad you didn't die.
And ya, xanax isn't something you want to take lightly. Though I'm surprised it's so bad for you. I have an Internet friend who loves the stuff.
>>709562939
Bad times. What's your name?
>>709563213
I have, and it's great.
>>709563510
Your mom sounds like bit of a cunt.
>>709562344
explain weird place please
>>709563807
no one wants to make the same mistakes their parents made.
hardly seems to work out that way though.
one day you just wake up and realize that without even trying you did the same things they did. the same things they warned you of. you knew the outcome, but you continued down the path anyway.
>>709564254
Not telling you that here. But yeah. Really bad times indeed. Never felt such constant burning anger, confusion and deep sadness. It's exhausting. Trying to stop turning to booze because it makes it worse in the end.
I had a friend she would always tell me how her dad tried to rape her and how he hit her once and how she had an abusive mother.. she mostly talked me and said she kinda liked me but she stopped talking to me recently she actually removed me from skype and I don't konw why but I dont have the courage to even bother talking to her or trying to be friends with her again
>>709564254
She was quite the cunt. She divorced the one person who I respected the most and then got pissed when she was running out of money so she took it out on me. When she finally ran out of money from the divorce she decided it was a good idea to set the house on fire and collect the insurance. When the money from the insurance ran out she filed for bankruptcy and when crawling back to her ex and dies about five years later.
>>709564197
I'm better now than I was, I used to drink every single day, would go through about 5 or 6 bottles of whiskey each week. Brought myself down to about a bottle a week. Just focusing on school for now.
I've been all alone recently and I haven't been able to find a good person to be my friend or find a nice girlfriend for years. I'm in horrible mental pain but I'm still trying my best to stay strong though. But I feel like something bad is gonna happen to me or my family that is gonna metaphorically destroy me.
>go to moms house one day
>"what do you want?"
>"Just wanted something to eat.."
>nephew walks out of his room
>"good morning sleepy head!"
>"did you sleep well?"
>grab something to eat and go home "Bye mom"
>"Bye"
>>709564479
Exactly, I look back at the stories I was told and can't help but realize the similarities between my own actions and experience's.
>>709564437
i'm alone, but i did it to myself. i wish i wasn't alone, but i am. i could fix it, but i'm not.
i'm failing classes because i choose not to go to class. i don't explicitly say "i'm going to skip school" but i stay up late and sleep in. i've been to 2 classes this week out of the 12 i have.
i did the same thing last year.
nothing is going to change until i change it, but it's like i'm not bothered enough to really do anything.
it's like i'm avoiding the possibility of failure by making sure it happens by my own accord.
my friends can't reject me if i never ask them to hang out with me. girls can't shut me down if i never ask them on dates. i'll never score poorly on a test if i never show up to take it.
i regret my choices but i continue to make them. i'm trapped and i'm drowning and i've done it to myself.
>>709564838
Is your mom fucking your nephew
>>709564838
What happened between you two?
>>709564838
Knowing how old you three are would help quite a bit. Also are you a piece of shit? Do you have a job? etc.
>>709564728
I know what you mean. If one of my parents were to get sick or die right now that would be it for me. I have no idea how I would cope. It seams like life just gets worse and worse. I've had plenty of friends but they've all come and gone one way or another. It's a fucking lonely life.
>>709564913
I feel the same exact thing dude.. no friends nothing.. failing becuase of my insomnia..
>>709564254
I abused the fucked outta xanax i litteraly thought i couldnt get addicted but god damn i just wanted these thoughts to go away... im still young and i dont want my mom to cry again because im on drugs and my dad is dissapointed so ill stop xanax for a while. That and weed are the only drugs i ever tryed and they caused me nothing but trouble in the long run...
>>709565047
It's a vicious cycle because the no friends thing causes insomnia. Same boat. No direction. No purpose. Was about to get married and the slut fucked off with who knows how many other men. It's a cruel world.
>>709564989
I feel you. I'm only 22 and i feel like I'm on the edge of sanity.
>>709564913
This..... Exactly how I felt last semester. Had the summer to think it over and made myself realize that if I want to be somewhat happy then I need to make money.
All the 8/10 girls that I can actually talk/relate to end up moving away, or I end up moving.
>I've only ever met about 5 of these girls
>the one girl I've ever been with was a 6/10 and became a 8/10 after moving away.
What the actual fuck. It's like I'm not allowed to be happy.
>>709565255
Got some pills for it today. I can normally get through bad times but this one is just brutal. And to top it off it's one of the most miserable months of the year.
goodnight /b/
>>709564728
You play any Vidya friend?
>>709565255
Fucking hell man I feel the same way. I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind. I'm seeing and hearing things sometimes. I'm talking to myself and having crazy ass mood swings where I'm crying myself to sleep and flying into a rage yelling and screaming and shit.
>>709565449
Don't
>>709565449
Fuck i would kill a xanax right now
>>709565449
If you're planning on ending it all then I suggest something that you won't possibly throw up, like helium.
>>709565449
see you soon
>>709564496
I felt confused, alone, and scared the first night after he left me. It would change to terrified and and lonely iver the first couple of weeks.
>>709564641
At least she didn't scar you permanently
>>709565449
See you on the other side /b/ro
>>709557714
I lost a friend over petty shit.
I want to go back to them but I don't want to show weakness.
Showing people you need them allows them to have power over you, and people are bad with power.
>>709565449
Anon could you not do it so that I can feel like I helped someone for once?
>>709565449
don't do xanny and opiates, you'll have a terrible death. Just do the opiates and hard liquor.
>>709565502
Me too. Auditory hallucinations. When I go to sleep I'm crying and same when I wake up. Throughout the time I'm awake I have burning anger and cannot focus. Hopefully the pills I got today will help because I don't know how much more I can take.
>>709565713
>At least she didn't scar you permanently
If you mean physically then no. But emotionally on the other hand, I guess that might be why I just can't let it go.
>>709565713
Being the dumpee is always harder. And it's humiliating as fuck. Why did he leave?
>>709564503
She also drew stuff
>>709565449
its going to be alright.
>>709565449
Im sorry the ride wasnt fun maybe the next one will put a smile on your face.
Be free /b/rotha, be free
>>709565995
>undertale
Nothing of value was lost.
But seriously though you should at least ask her how she's doing if you can. I can sort of understand the situation she's in and she might need to know that at least someone cares.
>>709565441
I dont take pills for it. I dont want to risk getting addicted cause, with how i feel, I would take them left and right.
>>709565451
Yes, but my internet is too shitty to play anything Multi. I am up for a nice chat once in a while though.
>>709565502
I dont really have hallucinations, I've become a depressed jumpy mess though.
>>709566045
>next one
The ride truly never ends
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luM6oeCM7Yw
>>709566149
I hear you. I wouldn't normally either. Always been against that but this time it just got so bad that I have waved the white flag.
>>709565945
I'm too fat and I eat animal products. He wouldn't even kiss me for the last couple of months
>>709565880
Can you date?
>>709558283
I should know better than to read these threads... I'm out
>>709566341
>date
Funny.
>>709560235
I read your story anon, just wanted you to know someone out there did. Look after yourself.
>>709565449
u got access to good drugs and want to end it
yet I cant get shit and would have a good time
fuck u
>>709566341
He's a vegan? With that alone I would say you dodged a bullet but I understand it still hurts like fuck. I have these short moments where I realize what I dodged and it feels really good. They are few and far between for now but I think in the long run those moments become your reality. I hope you have experienced some of these and that they get more frequent for you. It's hard man, it's hard.
>>709565047
>>709565264
i think even if someone offered me a hand, i wouldn't take it.
i don't know what happened or when but i'm not the same as i used to be. i don't like the person i've become.
i can look in the mirror and smile and play the game but i'm so cold and dark and alone and tired.
if i could go back and change things i'd like to say i would do things differently but i could change my situation TODAY but i didn't. i can change my situation TOMORROW but i won't. i'd like to think that i can fix my situation in the future before its too late but if i don't change anything one day i'm going to wake up and its going to be the future and its going to be too late.
i just want to pause life for a while and sleep and come back later. i don't want to do this shit right now. life fucking sucks. people are assholes. i'm an asshole.
>>709557714
Fucking shitty - Dad's BPD and fucking raging again. I'm going to fail this year and not get into Uni.
I'm going to kill myself by the end of the year at this rate.
>>709557809
Fuck - I had a dream about that, woke up crying.
this made me cry, once.
>>709558217
Way too close to home
>>709556428
I'm an oldfag with bad health and a shitty life because I can't work or socialise. My life is reduced to playing WoW and browsing 4chan for naked teenage girls so I can fap to them.
>>709566614
You're right, it was really hard to date him. But I was willing to change my habits for him and I always tried to get fit to no avail. I have other people I've been interested in and no how much easier is be if they think meat was murder or didn't think that shampooing your hair was done how harmful. For all his weirdness, he was a really smart guy.
>>709566445
I'm actually sorry, anon.
>>709566895
Kinda wish I lost my mind if it meant I could have someone like that, even if they didn't exist.
>>709557714
>had dream about dead dog
>woke up crying
>went to school
>was an overly emotional baby in discussion >class and embarassed myself
>cried when i go home because im such a fuck up
>considering dropping out
>>709565752
that's a pretty selfish perspective, distancing yourself from people is giving yourself the exact same power over them.
>>709567057
How old? Amd how are you sick/disabled?
>Get a grilfriend that makes me feel like the sun shines just for me
>Treat her better than all of my past relationships
>Still not good enough.
>>709560891
The xD, and the fact that it's in a feels thread made me laugh more than anything.
>>709567098
I actually asked a girl out once since then. I was terrified and the crazy thing was, I was scared that she'd say yes instead of no. Still haven't really been able to wrap my head around that shit.
>>709557714
my high school just put me on medical leave for mental illness. I have to stay at home and get better before they let me back. I think I'm going to die.
>>709567399
Late 30s, chronic fatigue syndrome. Lemme tell you, never take your health for granted.
>>709565752
I think your understanding of weakness and strength is a little superficial.
It takes strength to reach out after your pride has been hurt. Your insecurity over appearing weak is what's preventing it. If you were more self assured, you would know that reaching out is not the same as accepting defeat or surrendering.
You can clearly state your grievance even after being the one to make the first step. It makes you no weaker. And in fact, it usually has a better outcome than staying prisoner to your insecurity.
You should remember that resolving conflicts is not about winning or losing. It is about both parties acknowledging each other's feelings and coming to a solution with respect and good will.
But hey I'm jist on 4chan wat do I no
>>709567575
>high school
>mental illness
What did you do anon?
i'm like a witness to my life, rather than the one calling the shots. things happen and i observe them and react. i can offer up suggestions on what i should do, but at the end of the day it's like i'm on autopilot.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58Nz7y26Tfs
>>709565449
Goodnight.
>>709567098
Yes I know what you mean. It's hard for me to let go because she was quite smart and had the same political views as me which is extremely rare, being a right wing lunatic and seeing as I live an a very liberal city. But I just have to keep chewing on the bitter pill that is the reality that she also lied to me repeatedly, was likely cheating and dropped me like a brick when I was down even though I prevented her from suicide in the past. I also have to remember that she had a ton of other dark dark issues that I wouldn't even know where to start to list. People can be smart and charming but there can be some really fucked up shit that lurks beneath that and when you're so emotionally invested in them it's hard to come to terms with it all when they abandon you. I think there will come a day when we look back and go what the FUCK was I thinking and maybe even laugh at ourselves a little for having been so foolish. That may take a long time but it will happen. One thing that's important is to close all communication. I was an idiot recently and re contacted her to see if she wanted some of her belongings that she left at my place. Turned out she was on her way out of the country to, you guessed it chase more cock. Then that set me off into the downward spiral.
>>709566907
fuck
>>709567653
Just outbursts of crying in class and severe anxiety attacks during tests and whatnot. I didn't really "do" anything in particular, though. Cont?
>>709557895
that's nice of you to help him like that
>>709558628
that sounds like a pretty eventful day nonetheless, even those miniscule happenstances throughout the day can form some sort of meaning, almost like punctuations in really long paragraphs.
>>709559400
>>709562874
lie to us but not yourself, once you convince yourself you want to do that you might not ever be able to repair the mindset if you change your mind.
>>709560414
he wanted to go let him go, don't harp on it or the sadness is just transferred and not buried with him
>>709564081
well if you feel like shit all the time there's nowhere to go to but up, every step is one step closer to what you want to be, just keep going.
>>709566793
the faster you get into post secondary, the faster you leave your house and get away from him, bpd is impulsive and it's not easy to be around someone impulsive 100% of the time
>>709567548
I always get anxious and scared (at least a little) to. I realize I don't know what to do if they say yes or how to charm them. They'll just be disappointed with me.
>>709568045
I don't ever initiate communication (because why would he want to talk to me if he hadn't already) but I wouldn't ever ignore him even though I wish I could purge him from my memory
>>709567642
Take care of yourself anon, there are treatments. I'm not much younger, I don't want you sick
>>709568295
why not
>>709566907
damn dude
>>709557809
>>709568393
You have to ignore him. I know it's hard but if but you're not going to get anywhere near getting him out of your mind and heart otherwise. I have to ignore her as well and it's been agonizing, anticipating her contacting me for her stuff soon. But fuck it there comes a time when you have to protect yourself from that shit.
>>709568623
I'm not strong enough for that right now. I'm sorry
>>709568807
Ok I hear you. Not sure if I am either but I'm sure as hell going to try. She sure ignored me enough and pushed me away so. Amazing how we continue to humiliate ourselves though isn't it?
>>709564913
Nuvigil.
>>709568975
Ya, it's almost predictable
>>709556428
Gay ass shit, y make a feels thread on /b/ smh
>>709567114
it kind of works like that. people with breaks in personality often have an allforgiving archetype somewhere, the problem is you don't get to pick and choose which ones you talk to
>>709569042
In my case I honestly believe that she gets a perverse satisfaction out of it if I humiliate myself. She has a genuine sadistic streak. It's actually creepy.
>>709561059
some people take drugs to deal with their problems, some people bitch about them, it's just about making your issues tangible, just different coping mechanisms for different people
>>709567117
>>709567194
I hope both of those shit cunts die from having their ass torn up in jail
>>709566149
>>709566149
Shit I'm all for a nice chat man, got anything that would be easy?
>>709565449
goodnight sweet prince
>>709565449
see ya there :^)
>>709558283
Don't fucking do that
I'm so sorry Dad..I wish I could play one last aoe2 match with you.
>>709565995
This may sound weird, but did she over go by the name Nexolotl/Kaachan? (Steam, Skype etc.)
everyone posting here is a sad faggot
>>709569544
let's hope so... anon.. let's hope,