Feels thread Let it out /b/
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Feels thread
Let it out /b/
I had that dream the kind where everything felt real I still remember holding her hand and how soft it was. I remember kissing her soft tender lips. I felt her hair as we laid down to sleep. Then I woke up alone realizing it was just a dream and I was still just as alone.
I HAVE ALL BUT GIVEN UP ON MEETING A QT
>>709357506
Thats the worst man, I heard dreaming of someone constantly is your brain trying to figure out what they mean to you.
Feels bad for sure. Nothing like getting your soul crushed for breakfast. I hope you feel better anon
-DJ
>>709357581
I have hope for you, dont give up just yet!
-DJ
sometimes i feel like no matter what ill never be able to make anyone happy
people just seem to find each other
and im just stuck here because this place is the only thing that loves me back
I'm just here to listen to music and maybe share some stories
>>709357717
Im pretty sure my brain is nonfunctional
at this point I feel i'm either retarded
or something else is wrong upstairs
-Tall Guy
Fighting the urge to talk to my abusive ex girl, avoiding sleep because my dreams are always about my fuckups. how are you all holding up?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mFxq7Mb96b0
>>709357506
I ignored her for a long while.
I try to move on as much as possible.
But she asks to see me today. I can't but she begs, so we decide to Skype.
In 10 minutes she'll have kept me waiting for 2 hours... I know it's my fault but damn...it just hurts anon.
Also sorry about your dream anon, i know that feeling too.
Countless words; countless smiles
Countless kisses sending you several miles
Countless glances and midnight dances
Countless half filled glasses and silly romances
All quite priceless yet can be turned painful in a matter of seconds. Be careful with your heart dont give it up so easy because what was once so simple could be the hardest feat you ever face. Its a game we all lose but most importantly its a game we all eventually win.
>>709357998
once i came close to being with the girl of my dreams but i asked too late
last i saw her she posted a pic of her and her husband, the picture was captioned "All Smiles"
post feel songs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGa3zFRqDn4
>>709358166
Why does the brain bother to do
shit like this when i'm already disconnected
from reality its pretty much torture.
My girlfriend was raped about a month ago by a close friend of hers who ended up killing himself the next day. She already had fair share of abuse from her childhood. Her dad used to call her fat and a whore. He'd make her go days without eating and beat her whenever he was tired. When she cried he'd lock her in the closet for hours. She had severe depression, social anxiety, anorexia, and has learning disabilities in her classes that leave her even more depressed. She had a history of self harm and bulimia. And I'm the one person who she says gives her hope. But I'm losing my own grip on reality. It gets harder and harder to get out of bed every morning. It seems easier to end it all. I need to be there for her. I have nothing else to live for though. I yelled at her today and I feel like shit. Hopefully she leaves to find a better man because that's what she deserves. A happy life. She was denied it from her childhood. And hopefully she finds it in someone better than I am. I'm having suicidal thoughts and I'm hoping for the day to end it all. I don't want to hurt her by having her around when I go.
![44476b9718d96322b3aee457dc237682[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/YLPtiMd.jpg "44476b9718d96322b3aee457dc237682[1].jpg")
>>709358392
Remember, it's down the road, not across the street.
>>709358392
im very sorry anon, as much as i hate anons with gfs because of my own jealousy and envy
i still feel for you and wish for the best
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykaj8oZkIeM
>>709358249
you're god damn right
>>709358392
Don't do it bro.
>>709358392
No one is perfect, so you can't really expect that some magic savior will come around to be better for her than you, unless Jesus becomes her next bf which I doubt, so it's better that you just try for her and try to be a good man. The start of that is realizing that you are flawed, become humble, and ask God for help. She doesn't need a series of men who give up on her.
>>709358822
Checked. And thanks. Be good to yourself bro.
>>709358350
fuck anon, even i want the answer to that....
i just wish, and i dont mean to sound edgy, but i wish she was dead. I feel taht would give me closure. Knowing shes gone might help me accept that i have to move instead of this torture...
but i am going to sleep, i have class tomorow,
goodnight anon, hope you get better at least
>>709358958
You're right. And the logical part of me sees that. But she deserves the world. Even attempts to make me happy regardless of the shit that goes on with her. I don't deserve someone so kind. Someone who deserves the world. I can't give her the world. I can't give her the childhood she deserves back or all those lost years of a happy father figure she deserved. I can't take away the pain of the rape she went through. She lives with these consequences everyday. And I'm unable to be there for her.
Dated this wonderful girl, met her during an internship in another country, Internship ended, didn't find a permanent position, had to go home. She loved me and I loved her, we shared a lot of interests together. We talked for hours every day.
Our first date we wanted to go to a bar, get drinks, chat a little, but we ended up going to the countryside and talking for 6 fucking hours straight. She was way out of my league. I am average built pasty white guy so she liked me for what I was inside, didn't care about my looks.
We wanted a long distance relationships but I fucked it. I fucked it all up, /b/. First month went ok, we talked here and there. But I started messaging her less. I am an emotional wreck, I can't engage in anything first, I am anxious about everything, this is a result of my father being a fucking cunt and leaving my family during my pre-teens so I never had a real father-son experience (mother raised me alright, but she had to work to support me and my brother so I never really had a close parent, plus she would often get stressed out and complain about her work, this fucks with a young kid's mind),
I was a shut-in during school years and my university years as well. I squandered the best years of my life. With her, it was like those best years have come back and gave me a second chance. And it all just ended within 2 months. I didn't reply to a few of her messages and that's where it started. I tried telling her this but my anxiety and stupid head got the better of me and it all came out wrong, we kind of fell apart.
She doesn't message me anymore, I don't message her. Last thing she told me was 3-4 weeks ago saying she still dreams about me daily, this was my chance to tell her that I'm sorry and try to explain my situation better, but all I could say was "my life's fucked I don't even dream", completely neglecting her still being open to me.
/cont
>>709357008
>dad and mom fight a lot
>have a big fight after I've graduated, have my own place
>don't talk
>dad is going to try to make it up to mom after a few days
>bad things happen
>mom dies in 5 car pileup
>my dad never forgives himself
>thinks she died believing he hated her
>dad goes into depression
>dies three years later
>>709359438
im an adult and my parents still fight
i know that feel anon, i really do
>>709357008
i watched interstellar earlier, it made me cry
I always feel sad
I always feel guilty
I always feel like no one cares
I always feel like no one likes me
I always feel worthless
I always feel hopeless
I always feel weak
I always feel like dying
I give up life. You win
>>709359422
/cont
Recently she started tagging people on facebook way more than what she used to when she was with me. First her best friends, which I was happy about. I even tried to message her best friends to tell them that I am far apart and I want my girl to not be lonely so they should ask her to hang out.
Now she's tagging a lot of new guy friends on facebook, liking pictures of guys who are single and sort of have similar interests. Sharing joke posts with them.
Due to all the fucked up shit in my head I am becoming paranoid. I know she would never cheat on me, but the thoughts are still in my head. I follow her feeds religiously. When I snap some stupid story, I check the people who saw it every 5 minutes to see if she had seen it.
I am thinking that she is too good for me. She was emotional always, more than me perhaps. Or maybe less, but more open about it. I think I might suggest her an open relationship or just break-up with her altogether. I don't think I have the possibility to comeback there, not anytime soon and she's starting her university course soon(she's 22, but she had some past so it was delayed a bit). I want her to be happy and I think it would be selfish to keep this up irregardless whether or not she is willing to save herself for me.
I picked up smoking, I picked up drinking, I hate myself every night. I am too much of a pussy to talk to her. It's just too hard for me. I know all the rational choice I have to make, and I know what I'm doing is irrational, but I can't change it.
One of these days I will man up and tell her this. But it is not today.
>>709357506
this
>>709359833
Checked. Also I. Fucking crying be cause of this. Its stuff like this that gets me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3RkGnZ-LYY
I want someone to love, but i know from multiple past experiences that relationships just dont work with me. ive got DID and it makes it impossible for me to stay consistent, and when people get to know me i treat them horribly. ive sort resigned to just staying alone because the noise my head makes constantly overpowers me when i even look at someone who i might fall for.
I feel like even after I get a girlfriend I still wont be very happy
>>709359422
>>709359771
>>709360370
I know these feels all too well...
>>709360469
this
i have so many insecurities that i cant even believe i'd be any good
oh well im alone
even here
>>709360951
I'll be here for you. What's going on?
>>709360951
I'm here as well, what's up tonight?
>>709360951
We're all alone, Anon. In loneliness we will forge the strength to press on.
>>709358285
I would post some James Blunt songs that make me feel but I'm affraid of just being called a faggot for liking his songs
>>709360469
You're kinda right. The salt loses its savor after awhile. Personally I end up complacent and bored
>>709357008
Broke up with girl almost exactly 1 month ago. We were just shy of a year but I wasn't feeling it anymore. Things had just gotten so routine. She wanted more of my time then I was willing to give and the sex had gotten boring.
But I still can't help but miss her. She was really good to me and honestly deserves better. I'm surprised I'm still thinking about her so much though tbh, usually I get over this kind of stuff much faster.
>>709361614
How do you get over someone? I'm not super good at it
>>709361614
Only natural to miss someone you were close to at one point, but a month is not long at all. Time really will help you get along, just make sure you remove from fb etc., really will just make it worse
>>709361880
dont think about it dont think about her dont look at any pictures dont talk to people dont do anything
>>709360951
You may feel alone here, but you're not. You'all always have us, Anon. We love you, faggot.
>>709362025
this ((minus the last 2 points))
>>709361880
It just takes time. And it gets easier every time.
>>709362025
>>709362105
I don't know. Guess just because she was my first major girlfriend it's hitting hard
>>709358392
Just curious as someone who is a bit off in the head and rejected for just that reason, is it easier for you? Or does it eat you up inside?
/r/ anyone have the picture where it's the guy silhouetted against all the crazy thoughts and then on the bottom it's just him, her silhouette, and the word "her"?
>>709362492
N/m showed up in another thread like :30 later
>>709362576
Trying to get over my best friend but I have no one to fill the romantic gap I crave so badly with so I can't.
Too scared to stop talking to him because I don't know how to live without him.
>>709359992
Haven't read the entire thing, lurking quick while at the gym
tell her before its too late
I'm having one of those episodes where I'm just sad because I'll never have a girlfriend. Usually they last a few days, maybe even a few weeks, then I get over it. But when they happen, they fucking suck.
>>709363163
I feel this, do you put yourself out there? Sometimes I really think it'd make my life better but don't have the courage to just go talk to people and introduce myself
>>709358249
I try, but I still don't feel as if I'm helping anyone whatsoever.
Sup /b/ gonna post multiple replies to this containing OC. Tonight, I finally got to read the book my mother has been writing for me since I was 6 weeks old. This is almost a twenty year work in the making and it is truly priceless to me. This is the first entry in my mothers book to me.
>>709363454
I will try to keep these posts as orderly as I can but they do skip around a little bit partially because I didn't feel like sharing things that were too personal as well as covering the more important entries.
>>709363454
Whoa... This is awesome. I have a daughter due in February...
>>709363360
And then i realise that I'm doing it to hide my feelings, thus making me feel like a fucking douchebag.
>>709363360
You are helping me
>>709363331
I go out with friends often. I'm pretty talkative and have slowly learned to be a little more comfortable with myself, but when it comes to talking one on one with a girl I completely freeze and my insecurities kick in. I'm a pretty ugly, short dude. Was bullied a lot before I learned to defend myself. A friend of mine had 2 random girls throw themselves at him and I've never had a girl show any interest in me other than platonic.
Besides, the only things I really love doing is smoking weed, listening to music, and taking shitty photos with my phone. I wouldn't be able to keep a girl long enough if I could get one.
>>709363809
2 random girls in one day*
>>709362492
I was trying to avoid that image
>>709362364
It's tough. Everyday I think of how I could've prevented it. The shit eats away at you. At first it helped just to help her. But overtime the world faded and lost its color.
>>709363809
>>709363869
Tbh you're doing better than I am, and don't look too much to what others get with girls. There's always going to be guys that get chicks ez.
As for keeping a girl, I think once you find one that actually likes you you don't have to worry about stuff like that. Would u really want to work to keep a gf entertained anyways? Something like that is bound to fail. If you keep going out with friends and trying to talk to girls, eventually it'll be just like talking to another guy friend
>>709364054
Your mother raised a btard way to fucking let everyone down son
>>709364393
Get fucked you try hard
>>709364393
Thanks dad
The father in this pic died last year.
I'm having sex with a girl (5/10) at least once a week, a single mother, but she does not attract me, it's more, I can not keep an erection ... I do not know what to do, I want to gain experience but sometimes I feel that she is disgusting.
>>709362492
>>709364687
Anyone interested in these?
>>709363802
Thanks anon.
>>709364811
I'm reading, keep dumping anon
>>709364811
yes keep going
>>709364532
Fuck you pussies. Only thing you feel is a bunch of each others cocks. Everything else is a cry for attention. Attention that gets you more dicks to handle.
Faggot.
>>709364673
If you can get better, then stop. Personally even a 5/10 is hard for me. I'm used to fucking disgusting meth head white trailer trash girls and I don't regret it at all. I don't fuck with condoms so I'm surprised I'm still clean.
>>709364901
I didn't know having feelings made me a pussy. I am sorry your bed is empty tonight anon.
>>709365217
>your
triggered but cont
>>709365419
This one hit me hard.
>>709365350
Fuck off.
I have friends. I have a job. I have hobbies. But I'm afraid of women. I'm afraid of how inadequate I feel around them, or I feel like they're insultingly stupid. I'm not a virgin. I've had girlfriends, but none that lasted more than three months. All started on the internet. I've never gotten a date from a girl I've met in person first. At this point I fully expect to die alone, probably by suicide. I don't want to get married, I don't want any children. All I want is someone who I'm attracted to that wants to have sex with me. I never liked going on dates. I don't have great ambitions. I'm surrounded by inbred redneck retards. Fuck the bible belt. I've given up on my dreams. I don't see myself as a good boyfriend, because I'm fat and selfish and thick headed. I don't have the energy to change who I am.
>>709365519
Why did you only get this book now? Did she pass, anon?
>>709365558
:^)
>>709365324
I have feelings. Manly feelings. Not the tender bitch feelings of you ass picking proles. The rewards of a job well done. The triumph of sodomizing my enemies. You better believe the bitches lament in my presence. The trance of gazing into nature and the infite cosmos. You are a bitch. Good night.
>>709365640
Nope. Alice and well. We were having a personal discussion, and she brought up the book and I asked her if I could read it. I've known about it for maybe 10 or so years, but she always said she'd do it when the time was right. I guess the time was right. We just moved into a new apartment in Texas today.
>>709365519
:´^(
>>709365867
Oh my. Fedora much?
>>709365872
I have so many questions. This idea is very intriguing.
What is your mom's ethnic background? Did she write an entry every week? Will she continue to even though you've now read it? What's your response to her? Sorry for so many questions
I sucked a guy off and felt numb after, I felt nothing, very weird, and slowly feeling more depressed thinking about it, especially since Im about to date a chick
>>709357008
Hell Girl is one of my favorite shows.
Perhaps... it's time to die.
>>709365519
no boner for me, can't fap to that
>>709361310
I like his music too anon, don't worry. I was just listening to "Same Mistake" actually. Really good song.
>>709366023
This was my lowest point. hearing your mother cry every night for months on end isn't good for your psyche. The worst part is she's back together with him. I genuinely fear for her safety.
>>709366128
Ask as many as you please.
My mother is Italian American as is my father. She wrote consistently when I was younger but posts begun to get spaced out over months as time grew on. That was around my early teens or so. I asked her to. I wanna read the story when the book is finished front to back. I have so much to achieve and there's so much hardship of hers written in there I have to balance it out with something amazing that I accomplish. She's my driving force. With very teary eyes I told her it was the most beautiful book I've ever read. I still have a little bit more to post
Fuck guys.
Why are break-ups so hard?
why did she dump me because a relationship was too much strain on moving forward?? and then start moving into a new one..
She was my bestfriend but im starting to hate this fucking bitch.
>>709366825
That was the last post so far.
Here's a Christmas card I received from my father while he was in a halfway house
>Have literaly only one "friend"
>Everything we do is play and talk about videogames
>She is really nice and kind
>Won't talk to her about anything else for fear of fucking it up like the 1000+ times I've tried to get close to someone in the past
>>709366911
This was included in the book. Along with a collection of old disposable film photos and Polaroids along with love letters my dad wrote to my mom.
>>709359397
Here's a tip friend. Most people don't want "the world" like you think. Most people, especially those like her who never had much love in the past just want a single person to love them, one single person who can make them truly happy. You don't have to give her the world, just be there for her. Be the man you think she deserves.
FUCK YOU ALL I LOVE YOU GO DIE
>>709367080
wat
>>709366746
Dude, I feel you 100% my ex dumped me and immediately hooked up with a new guy. She was a pathological liar. Also a whore, cheated on me. I finally made the decision to delete her on everything. It hasn't been that long but still going strong. I hope you're ok...
>>709366746
I was in the same position a while back. It's easier to get over once you've finally admitted that you hate her and that she's a bitch for doing what she did.
>>709366746
Break-ups are pretty rough my man but you're going to have to manage much worse in life. It's that brain chemistry that really hurts but believe me, it gets easier.
>>709367017
Incase anyone is wondering, he never got better. I haven't spoken to him in a month as of recent. Reading a lot of the journal entries that showed me how selfish and exploitive he was of my mother made me hyperventilate from anger, but all these notes back and forth from rehab homes and prison and what not makes me wanna call him and tell him I'm not mad anymore and I forgive him and I love him for who he is. I don't know what to do /b/.
>>709366744
She sounds so kind and gentle. It's very touching.
>>709367154
>>709367167
>>709367233
Thanks guys, ive done what I could deleted her on everything but shes friends with all my friends so she still pops up. I seriously dont know what to do, I hate her so fucking much the stupid selfish cunt.
>>709367261
Please care for your mom anon you only get one
Can anybody post the greentext of an anon who meets and marries a qt homeless girl? It's not a very believable story but I like it anyways
>>709367601
You can do better than her in life. Be the one to win the breakup. It sounds petty but if it's what can keep you going then it's worth the effort and along the way you'll find happiness. I'm sure of it buddy.
>>709367601
Make sure you don't see ANYTHING from her. Keep yourself busy, focus only on you. Be selfish towards yourself. You really deserve to make yourself feel appreciated. Do things you never had the time to do with her there. Also just learn to life one step at a time. Learn to relax, don"t take everything so seriously... just keep it easy Anon.
>>709367648
Of course man. Thank you for reading my story. I feel like Hope it touched all of you how it touched me.
>>709367601
you forgot to block
>>709367942
For reference this is how much she wrote
>>709367942
I think I might so the same for my son or daughter if I ever have one
>>709367942
I can't read the writing, what did your dad say?
>>709359992
Tell her man. You can tell a bunch of ransoms like us. You risked getting called a faggot or being trolled, but you still shared your story.
Ask yourself, if you can do that on /b/, where we will forget you, why can't you do it for someone who will potentially remember you and care about you forever?
>>709367917
>>709367925
Oh it means the world that you guys replied I just need to stop thinking about her and this advice helps.
>>709368020
If I block her will she not show up at all? even if shes tagged in friends stuff?
>>709368069
I'm gonna write it out in notepad then copy paste bare with me
>>709367601
You will be alright bro. You know exactly what to do but it's super difficult. Hit the gym, eat healthy etc. Most of all though, when you happen to think of her, you must change the channel in your head. My girl left me after 7 years, it took me over a year to get over her but I fucking did. You will as well, I promise.
>>709367261
Anon, we were born no more than 16 days apart.
Cheers to being 19.
>>709368254
Yep and also she cant interact with you if you block her.
Well /b/ros tonight has been kinda painful the girl ive been talking to and sposed to go to a concert to has and ill quote this"I'm finally able to go to bed with a smile on my face instead of tears in my eyes #hestheone" and i just found out she even knows this guy yesterday off of insta and it just hurt alot when i read that
>>709368703
Damn anon
Hullo guys
Im down to talk to people in 10-15 minutes
gonna take a shower quick!
feel free to vent in a few minutes, im only 19 and haven't experienced much of the shit you fellas go through..
but Iv had my share of heartbreaks.
I'll do my best to offer advice or just be here for you if you want to feel like someones listening!
-SLRB
>>709368703
Yo fuck her best friend
>>709368254
No problem man, if I can't help other Anons what is the purpose of my existence? I love helping people and to be there when peoiple seem to not be able to get through these kind of situations... I really hope you get over her Anon. You will just do what we said and learn to love yourself. The only person that can make you happy is yourself...
>>709368886
her best friend likes me but shes ugly and fat
>>709368254
You got this buddy. We believe in you.
i feel nothing. and yet, i feel everything. i dont know what to think of myself. i believe that im going to hell and i deserve it. i accept it. sometimes im ready to just let it happen.
Almost broke up with my girlfriend of over one year tonight. Turned out to be a big misunderstanding. Still a little cautious. Just gonna leave this here. TL;DR almost broke up with gf. thought she cheated, was actually assaulted.
I don't even care about getting a gf anymore, I'm sick of having a dead end job that I want to leave but won't because I do a good amount of the work and have been there so long. I feel like it's going downhill there and I don't want to abandon my post yet. I just wished my few friends I enjoy talking to didnt live over two hours away.
>>709368941
Lmao, her best friend should come post here then. Probably dealing with the same thing you are.
we here on /b/ laugh at the dumbest shit, watch the worst and make fun of it. but we need threads like Feels. were not as strong as we lead on. our emotional states are the worst you will find.
>>709369563
the problem there is her best friend has only met me 2 times ive know this girl like for like 5 years
I really just want to fucking kill myself right now.
>>709368069
Took quite a bit but here it is.
Dear anon, I'm giving you this card hoping I can explain what is going on with your dad. As you know dad has been in programs trying to improve his life so that I can be a better person + a better dad. I'm truly sorry for not being there with you this December. I hope that someday you can understand and forgive me. If you're angry that's ok. You have every right to be. I want you to know that my problem has nothing to do with the way that I feel about you. I love you with all my heart + soul. You are a wonderful son and a good boy. You deserve to have your dad in your life, as every little guy in the world does. I grew up without a father and it had a strong impact on my life & contributed to the bad choices that I've made. I grew up without my father so I know what it feels like and I'm so sorry for not being there the way I should. You deserve better than what I have given you thus far in your life. I'm trying very hard to get my life together s that one day I can be there for you the way my father should have. I want you to understand that my actions have nothing to do with the way I feel about you. Because it doesn't and I just want you to know that. Like I've said in the past you're my best little guy in the world. I pray for you and mom every night before I go to bed and every morning when I wake up. I love you with every inch of my heart and soul. Please be a good boy and try to be good to your mom. She has sacrificed so much and loves you to pieces
I hope that someday soon I will be back in your life. I'm trying to get better so I can be the father you deserve & your best friend as well. I am so proud of you for the little guy you have become. Remember this anon, you can do anything you want in life, as long as you're honest and you work hard for
>>709369965
what it is you strive for. I'm (???) I want you to understand that none of this has anything to do with how I feel about you. Like I've said in the past I love you for everything you have done in your life up until this point. I could not ask for a more perfect son. You are perfect to me and I love you. All my love, all my life.- dad
P.s. I'm so proud of you mom tells me you got your jr black belt way to go!!!
>>709369378
I think you gotta kick it and move on, especially if your gut tells you to. I felt the same way and canning the job feels good though I'm unemployed right now and broke as fuck which doesn't, so try to get some shit lined up first
>>709369906
whats going on /b/ro
>>709369906
don't. anything is better than nothing. shit gets better.
>>709369825
Oh shit. That's hard. Sorry how shitty things turned out, but truth be told, any girl who falls in love with someone over Instagram without meeting them is a fucking retard. You may have dodged a bullet without realising it.
gf just broke up with me, want to an hero, was amazing but absuive.. fml what do
>>709370024
I'll green text the list since it's easier than going into detail about everything.
>mentally ill without the ability to get help
>almost everyone I've dated has either A. Abused me, B. Cheated on me, or C. Both
>grew up with an alcoholic, abusive father (he doesn't drink anymore but sure does call me some horrible name every chance he gets)
>raped at fourteen and again at eighteen
>unable to remember a lot of my past, but what I do remember is extremely fucked up
>anyone who's ever nice to me makes me really anxious
>working a shitty job, making less than minimum wage (yay for being a server)
>family is poor as shit
I think that's about everything.
>>709370081
I've been being told that for years, and things have only gotten worse.
>>709369303
Not saying this is the way it is but I had a friend get told his girlfriend was raped and of course he was all pissed but it turned out she just desperately loved him and lied cause it turned out she actually cheated.
If you are still a little cautious its for a reason.
>>709370703
Same but it's all fucking mental. You literally have to claw your way out of not feeling that way and I only realized that recently. It's a willpower thing to force yourself to feel better but you can do it I know you can
>>709370497
From personal experience, do not develop serious feelings for someone online before meeting them. Their personality over Skype and social media is almost 100% of the time completely different in person.
>Met a bitch for the first time at beach hour or two from my house
>we've been talking on and off for like 3 years over Twitter and FaceTime met her through a friend
>could tell she was stupid but she was a hot blonde and the ass was very very fat.
>she's in my car and is completely quiet, staring at her phone screen the entire time. The only two words that come out of her mouth that contribute to the convo are "damn" and "I feel"
>I told her get out of my car
>mfw drove hour and half and waited 30 minutes for a ferry just to make out with some bitch dumb as doornails
>mfw no face
>>709370497
no the kid goes to her uni
>>709370878
I can't. I have really bad depression, anxiety, and BPD, and I'm not on medication or anything. Plus, life is seriously kicking my ass right now.
>>709369965
How old are the letters and the writings? He sounds like he is writing this to kid/teenage anon.
>>709370621
Rough life darling.
You shouldn't end it though, treat adulthood as a step to be independent and move on and away from the things that remind you of all the bad things.
Serving can be good money, stick with it for a bit, save up some money and do your thang.
Ive been wanting to kill myself too, even tied a noose last night but its not worth it. In a life where there has been more bad than good you've got to catch a break sooner or later. Try and keep positive and positive things will happen. Hope this helps.
I killed my best friend... all because of a fucking argument we had in the car. I killed him, and got away with it. Why wasn't it me who died?? I'd gladly trade places with him. I regret what I did every single waking moment, and will probably continue to do so for the rest of my life... I can't hold on much longer...
>>709371275
all of those things resonate. I'm literally you. you can FUCKING DO IT. if you let life kick your ass it'll kick your ass til the end of time, so stop letting it
>>709371513
at least you feel remorse. thats all i can say to you.
>>709365217
*you're
>>709370005
Sorry about your predicament, bro. You'll find a new job. You're right but this business is on its last legs and I'd feel shitty for abandoning ship now. I have a few job ideas but no interviews or anything so I might as well sit tight for now
>>709371363
I've been trying to stay positive. I've been trying to make sure everything that's going on doesn't make me act like a bitch to everyone around me. But it's like I've just fucking hit rock bottom tonight.
>>709371619
I know what your really thinking, just say it. Tell me the truth.
>>709371540
I'm trying so hard to not let it, but at this point it just feels easier to give up.
>>709371743
Only one way but up!
If you really feel like you're going to kill yourself tonight just please dont okay?
and if you need to chat, i can be there for you.
>>709371827
You killed your friend man? That's fucked up. If it was an accident, it was an accident but this sounds premeditated and that is not good. Nobody deserves to die.
>>709368862
nvm im tired lol but perhaps tomorrow.
Goodluck everyone
>>709371851
If you do give up, there's nothing ahead for you. There's no glimmer of hope, no what-if, no potential love(s), no fulfilling work or ideas or hobbies, no new vidya or tree or food or people or books or music or ANYTHING. All I'm saying is that even though life is kicking your ass really hard, there's so much potential that lies ahead.
If you do find yourself teetering on the edge, think long and hard about the decision you're making. Think about the people you're affecting, what you leave behind, why you're really doing it, and what you're afraid of and running away from.
Almost forgetting about her and she calls me twice today just to ask why we're not talking anymore. It's like the clock was reset or something
>>709372008
Idk, man. I don't have many friends so I'm better at shutting the fuck up about everything.
>>709372158
It wasn't, during the intensity of our argument while I was driving, I turned the wheel in rage and crashed him into a telegraph pole... After seeing his blood spill from his mouth, I have never been more scared and alone in my entire life. What can I do to stop this feeling??
>>709372420
Its good to talk about it and let it out but fuck is it ever hard too but heres the kicker, you kinda have to dude or it will eat you alive.
If you dont wanna chat thats fine, I understand but just promise me you'll stay with the world, it'll be different without you, people will miss you cause whatever has happened in your life there is people that love you and I know eventually one day you will love yourself.
>>709372278
The thing is, I don't have those hopes to begin with. If I did, I wouldn't want to off myself.
I know it'll be a small impact on my family and such, but that's about it. I'm not leaving anything behind. I'm not exactly running from anything. I'm just...done.
>>709372430
Only time will stop the pain
You have to live with the decision you made.
You fucked up big time and now you've got to sow your oats. You realized what you did was wrong and are extremely remorseful which means you are not a bad person.
Get some help. You need it.
>>709372741
Do you have a Snapchat?
>>709372985
alas I am phoneless :(
theres skype, email, even fb, google hangouts?
I just want to hug someone, it's been almost a year since I felt someone's genuine warmth. I need it. Not a quick one, but a long and comforting one. I haven't had a boyfriend since 8th grade. It's been too long. I'm just so weak and I can't stand knowing that I'll probably live my life alone and cold. I just need atleast one genuine hug. Even from a stranger. I forgot what it felt like to be loved and cared for.
>>709373298
Skype is fine. What's your username?
I did 9/11.
Stole those planes, crashed them into buildings and shit, blamed the sand niggers.
I'm so sorry, America.
>>709372789
It's the self defeating mindset that'll keep you down. If you keep telling yourself that you're done, that you don't have anything worth living for, that there isn't anything you want to accomplish, you'll always be here. Of course you'll want to end things because you can't see past it. It's perspective and you need to look at things from a viewpoint that isn't persistently pessimistic and negative.
What are you interested in? Can you pursue those things? Surely you can find something worth living for, even if just a little longer. It's small things that'll help you get by, and slowly climb out of this pit. It's a hard climb, I know. But there's always a way back. It all starts with you, and you have to grasp at anything that makes life worth living. I don't care if it's sex or Taco Bell or shitty amateur wrestling, whatever makes you slightly happy.
As for "your family and such", it's easy to lose sight of how many people you will affect. Most people that end things for themselves don't consider this but your end will have a huge impact on more people than you think. Honestly, it's not about them, but after you're done, it will be. It's hard to see it right now, I know.
I know you're running from something. You're afraid, of what I'm not sure. Probably the future, and the vast ocean of possibility. It's daunting and easier to tunnel vision on the end than it is to figure out a path through the void. Or maybe it's yourself, and you're scared that you don't have any potential, which isn't true. Again, it's persistent defeatism, and you NEED to claw your way out. There is always potential. You need to define it. You need to help yourself, because no one understands the beast you're fighting against better than you; seek help though, it's not something you have to go through alone.
Please consider everything I've said. There's so many people who want to help you, even just in this thread, but you need to be willing to help yourself.
>>709373921
Thanks, dude. I took a screenshot of all that for whenever I feel like this again.
>>709371360
I was maybe 7 or 8
>>709373767
I just have to recover it, its been a hot minute since i used it
>>709373767
rasbeeeerrytoast is my skype :)
>>709374153
Just one anon trying to save another. The most important is the little things. Short term gratification happiness is what keeps me going through life right now but the short term stuff will lead you to longer term stuff, and that will feel more gratifying than anything. I promise.
>>709373640
I miss physical contact sometimes. I don't like being in a relationship and having social obligations but fuck if it isn't nice to sleep next to a woman.
>>709374327
Added you
>>709374439
I relate to this a ton. Keeping up with an SO is too much work for me right now but having someone hold you or put their head on your chest is like nothing else
>>709374631
Like that anon I responded to said, sometimes I just want a fucking hug. 99% of the time I just want to be far away from all people but that 1% of the time is hell because of how I am the rest of the time.
>>709374385
Thanks, dude. I'll try that.
>>709358668
I'm gonna use these lines in my suicide note for her. This is a new one, I like it.
It's my second week of not doing anything productive, I should be studying and looking for a job, but I just keep procrascinating. No direction in life whatsoever, totally unmotivated. just shoot me
>>709375716
Same here man, take your time, its okay :)
>>709367261
Not reading these cause I know they will destroy me
>>709373921
I'm this anon >>709375716 and this post is great, thanks, I think it'll help me too.
>>709376301
I can't waste any more time I think.. The thing is that I'm doing something I completely loathe, everytime I have to study that shit, it feels like eating my own vomit. And yes, a very large amount of people do something they don't want to, simply because they have to, and I don't wanna walk that path. But the worst thing is, that I have no alternative. I'm not interested in anything, I'm completely empty. I'm stuck and I see no way out.
>>709376714
I'm a firm believer that you have the choice to do whatever you want and if you dont like something then change it! Easy said than done forsure but like that other anon said you gotta claw your way out. Its hard for me to doing anything too
Ive been in isolation for almost 3 weeks doing nothing but lick my wounds and it sucks but we have to get out, and we can do it, i believe in us
>>709377535
>>709377367
I also believe that If I were to put in the effort, I'd be able to turn things for the better, but like I said I have no direction whatsoever. And that is the worst part.. I think the years of riding this hell of an emotinal rollercoaster has completely killed me..
what's your story? why are you in isolation?
>>709377567
>>709377667
>>709377718
gnite
>>709377590
We're one in the same man, theres got to be some passion out there for you. I have one, its DJing.
heres my story
>be me, 23
>quit my job june 15th
>start preparing for my tour that started july 21
>play my first set
>other dj doesnt show up play for 3hrs
>ffw to august 15
>on break till sept 23
>go back home to grilfran
>havent seen her for 2 months
>missed her so much
>she missed me
>brokedj.jpg
>shes forced to support me
>cant get a job cause still on tour
>she starts to resent me
>breaks up with me 2 days after my bday (oct 2nd)
>feel crushed, she was my bestfriend
>thought she was the one
>seasonal depression plus that kick in
>back at parents
>feel like theres nothing out there.
>>709377718
Can you just not? 2manyfeels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yag41F7eCLU
>>709377895
You have tried, and that's really good. If you still have the passion, don't give up on it. I can't really comment on losing your girlfriend ( other than that I'm sorry) because I don't ever want to be with someone. I'd rather be alone.
I used to have the will to force things, believing that it'll somehow have the results I wanted, but I no longer have the will to try anymore. I picked myself up from the ground a lot of times, thinking " I have to move forward, even if is just and inch". This mindset feels so distant. The whole world seems so distant, and I don't even want to be a part of it anymore.
>>709357008
>mom and dad fought a lot when I was a kid
>they divorced right after I was born
>drug problems for dad
>he an hero'd when I was 16
>don't really feel related to other
>don't really feel anything for what happens to them
>can't get gf because I can't trust anyone since dad betrayed me
>he was supposed to stay
>he was supposed to help
>but I understand why he left
>feel empty
>feel sometimes sad because empty
>like being sad somehow, reminds me I still have feelings other than fear
>have "friends"
>don't really fit in their group since I arrived late
>go drink with them
>forget a bit about being lonely
>like being drunk and look at other people partying
>imagine a life where I have relationships
>imagine feelings
>feels good for a bit
>fuck tinder girls to soothe loneliness
>tinder girls are stupid
>when they want more I feel anxiety because they could become a threat
>give them shitty reasons not to see each other
>they hate me
>they forget about me
>it's fine
>everyone has gf and stable relationships.
>I want someone
>can't take the risk of being destroyed again
>prefer to fuck girls and stay lonely
>cry sometimes in bed
Quit my job that I've been working at for 3 months even though I need the money.
Im just so unmotivated and have no ambition, I think I'm depressed.
I just lay in bed all day and watch YouTube and I never feel like doing anything else.
I don't feel sad, better I don't feel anything.
Parents don't know I quit, I've been a fuck up for a while now and I'm going to have to tell them eventually.
Ironic thing is I told my mom that no I'm not depressed and that I'm fine, but now I think I actually am.
Don't know what to do anymore, don't see a point in getting a career and working when I'll be dead in 4 decades.
>>709378314
Ive tried and Ill try my best not to give up on it, depression has the awesome feature of making you not like the things you love.
Maybe its better to be alone, Individuality all the way.
The world fucking blows, capitalism is the worst and I dont blame you one bit for not wanting to be in it. I can only hope you are able to change your mindset, the world would be different without you.
>gf dumped me out of nowhere
>she's working in the big city, making almost 6 figures
>says she needs to "concentrate on new friends, job, family, and old friends"
>doesn't want to date a guy who's still in college
>dated for 4 years
>mom has brain tumor and has lost her ability to hear
>got dumped the night before I left to spend time with her before her surgery
>so incredibly sad it's hard to spend quality time with mom
>mom lives in another country, won't have this chance again for a year
>angry and hurt and not sure what I did wrong
idk guys I tried to do everything right this time and it's all falling apart on me
>>709378709
Thanks Anon, I hope you'll be able to push through this thick fog of hopelessness and finally feel alive again. Wish you the best.
>>709378657
no lie when I get depressed and think about not having a future and death and all that
I think about drugs and I get excited about taking drugs
>>709378657
This is same anon.
Is that depression? How can I know?
Google isn't much help.
>>709378657
I can relate, I'm this anon >>709375716
Don't know what the solution would be though.
Anyone else have trouble with girls?
I don't mean meeting girls I mean you actually meet a girl and she likes you but every time every single fucking time something completely out of your control ruins it.
Found out last night the girl I'm into is "Aromantic" and "Not interested in dating"
Actual pro tip if a girl uses Tumblr don't be dumblr just give it up
>>709378742
It's not your fault Anon. Seems like you have it rough, but you didn't mess up, so there's no need for you to blame yourself. Just keep going. Life is about fighting, no matter how badly we don't want to see or accept that.
>>709379154
I wish I was never born.
I'm not suicidal nor would I kill myself but I was forced into the world and expected to do all these things and made to have responsibilities I never asked for.
Wish I'd never been born.
Then I wouldn't have to burden anybody.
Okay.
>gf breaks up with me and kicks me out 2 weeks ago
>nowhere to sleep
>car breaks down
>1250 on repairs
>get a storage unit for my things
>job doesn't pay me for 3 weeks, but finally does.
>get car repaired
>decide to quit cause shitjob
>job interview in 4 hours
>still awake on 4chan in my car thinking about her.
>
>>709379314
Same. Altough I feel suicidal sometimes, but I just can't do it. First it's not as easy as it seems, and occasionally I am happy about life ( I might have bipolar lol), and second, I can not do that to my family. They have it rough and shitty as it is, I wouldn't want to be the reason they collapse..
>>709379253
that's what chicks say when they're not interested in you
best way to make things happen is to be super simple and forthright
I'm in college and people still "confess" and to me that's not an organic way to go about it
what kind of things have fucked up other attempts?
>it's been one year since I was dumped by my ex
>sudden unexplained breakup
>find out she was over me not even a week later
>already gone through 3 new partners
>try to convince myself I don't care about it
>never truly forget about it
>forget about it for a few months
>one day listening to Japanese song I've had on my phone for a hella long time
>decide to look up lyrics
>"Goodbye is painful, but live your life looking forward."
>"I loved you the most and I will never ever forget you."
>"Okay? Is that okay? Until we meet again somewhere..."
>breakup and lots of stuff that happened between us after made me forget everything that really happened in our 6 months dating
>suddenly remember it all
>remember all the good times
>remember wishing her the best and thanking her for everything when she tells me she's done with me
>break into tears on the bus ride home
I just... I miss her so much. I know she's over me and probably hates my guts now, and I'll probably never get another chance with her... But it still hurts so much. Sometimes I find something that would make her happy and instinctively reach for my phone to show it to her, only to realize that it's over. It's been a whole year since we broke up but I just can't get over it. Even when I try with other girls it just doesn't feel right and I never let things go anywhere. It just hurts so much.
>>709379295
unfortunately even though ex is still my favorite person I'm super angry and full of spite and I had to delete every single instance of her phone number to keep myself from sending her a "fuck you" or "why did you do this"
but I know I don't mean it
it makes me sad that I supported her to this point and now I'm not good enough to be supported in return, I feel like a stepstool
>>709379779
That was a wise thing to do. Deleting her number and not texting stupid shit. The only thing you can do is keep calm, not making decisions without thinking about the consequences, and be as successful as you can be.
I swear, sometimes I need /b. These are one of those times.
>>709368034
Shit dude that has been a hard life, for both of you!
Your mum sounds like a really strong woman!
You both hang in there and keep fighting /b/ro
She loves you like crazy so make her proud and be someone life!!
About your dad, it's tough give him your support but be careful!
Anyway, good luck anon!!
>>709379548
you can do it, Anon.
>>709379977
We're here for you bro
you okay?
>>709379977
nice dub dubs
we're here for you mang
>>709379951
I've gone over what I want to say mentally a thousand times in the last week and all I can really think is "I'm really struggling with what you did and I don't want you in my life anymore"
there are events coming up that we'll both be attending and I'm not sure I can be civil when I see her
>>709380208
Yeah I'm decent. I'm this post.
>>709379548
I've just had a super shitty two weeks. One of those Murphy's law kinda thing where everything that can go wrong will go wrong. I'm trying to find the humor in EVERYTHING that's been going on, and inevitably waiting for the punchline. Theres a spiral of shit and I'm not sure how much deeper it goes til it stops.
>>709357008
>be me
>have all the confidence in the world
>have no trouble talking to girls at all
>best friends are some of the hottest girls in town
>go out partying as that guy who always brings at least 5 8/10 females
>"Damn anon how many girls have you smashed???'
tfw I'm still a virgin
tfw the only reason I have all this confidence is because I gave up hope on finding love
tfw every girl I meet is nothing but another person, nothing special, no emotional connection
This is hell guys.
This is what happens when she tears up your heart and you can't fix it
>>709380541
can't smash drunk though?
>>709380541
I don't get it. Are you like the silly guy that girls like to be friends with? In my experience, girls don't flock with a dude unless they find him attractive.
>not sure if should feel bad.
Stop being their friend and see if they want you.
>>709380541
Maybe you're asexual
>>709377592
This nigger knows what's up.
>>709380504
It'll get worse before it gets better.. or maybe it wont, what do i know?
ride that rollercoaster home anon. good luck.
>>709367261
fuck man, I dont cry much but that got me bawling.
Before thread dies.
I love you /b.
Here's ex's tits. No chance of us getting back together anyways so whatever.
>>709377895
When things get hard. Get harder. Never stop going big dick.
>>709380666
I try not to get too drunk with them at partys, one of my friends almost got raped so...
>>709380769
No I just generally don't give a fuck about absolutely anything and try to express that in every way possible
I guess they see that as confidence? But it sucks because I should feel like a baller, except I feel empty.
>>709380795
I just can't find a girl that keeps me interested, no matter how gorgeous they are
>>709381404
>/robots/
Fuck out of here.
>>709381404
>letting faggots from your highschool get in the way of scoring
what the fuck anon.
>>709381404
Did he delete it?
I didn't really like who I was in high school. I was a misfit, on good terms with most of the grade but most of them didn't take me entirely seriously. I was attention seeker for all the wrong reasons. Needless to say I don't cherish the time i had in high school.
A few months after high school ended I deleted my Facebook account and kept in contact with the few people I considered close friends.
This was the best decision I think I ever made.
Anyway, it's been about 4 years since high school finished and I was this bar with a few friends last week. At the time I was pretty drunk and a few oxys deep. There was this group of girls there that we started talking to and while introducing myself to them I realized that I knew some if these girls. For context I went to an all-boys private school. We had a few sister schools who we did stuff with but for the most part I wasn't really close friends with any of them. This group of girls I'd just met went to one of those sister schools so they were familiar with a lot of the kids I've distanced myself from.
Anyway I got talking to this Sara girl who was just really tall and pretty, I was probably talking a whole heap of shit and being my usual drunk and humorous self. However we got along really really well. So after about 2 hours we exchanged numbers and went our separate ways.
I've been thinking about this girl all week and she just texted me about wanting to do something this weekend. I've been really apprehensive about texting her back purely because I've worked so hard to distance myself from high school and I've cultivated a new image that I'm happy with. The problem here is that she is close friends with a lot of these kids i graduated with so I'd undo all the hard work I've done.
What should I do /robots/, I like this girl, I really do, but should I risk it all for someone who it may or may not work out with?
>>709381404
>anyways
Honestly dude, I don't really see what you have to lose. Who you were in high school doesn't define who you are today and if this chick likes you, she probably sees past all that shit and wants to get to know you today. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work. Doesn't mean you have to "give it all up". Keep being who you are and don't let anything stop you from being who you're going to become.
>>709381367
Don't rape then, smash while drunk
I know it seems tough but someday you'll put yourself in a position to hit it off and a chick will say eh fuck it and make a move and it'll give you the impetus to do it yourself the next time the situation arises now that you know how nice it can be
>>709363360
Same here bud. But I think every little helps, having a laugh with some one, making jokes, trying to help people out.
They might not always say it but you might've just made some one else's life just a little bit easier.
Sort of a faggot for deleting the post.
>>709381643
I don't drink a lot so I can make sure no one will rape them anon...
>>709381627
Who the fuck is the same after high school? Go for it anon, you're only holding yourself back. If anything you can show how much you've grown and changed since those days. There's only room for improvement
Well... That is kinda annoying.
It's nearing the 4 year anniversary of Sandy, and as such, it's sub section of my local news site is linked from the front page. So I click on it, and one of the first pictures I see is a family photo with the Girl I'm interested.
For some reason I just can't escape her. If it's not randomly seeing her there, it would be friends or family mentioning her. And if its not that, then it would be seeing her FB pop up on my recommended friends
>>709377592
Neil Gaiman, great author and a real nigga.
>>709381729
don't go to rapey parties and assume responsibility for a bunch of chicks
your priorities are in the wrong place if you're trying to make a connection
all it sounds like to me is you've engineered a bunch of situations in which you're too responsible/aloof to get to know people in a social situation
>>709381851
Yeah that's terrible. I have a friend that dated a chick that ended up being an actress and she's the main character on a TV show and she's on billboards and shit. Talk about a nightmare.
>>709377895
So how much money we betting on when your career starts going well she comes running back because you're a semi big name.
Top tip, don't fucking take her back.
Told my dad I dont see the point the in getting a business job and doing nothing but raising a norm family. Says im a freak and basically wants me to quit drawing.
And the sad part is that im a shitty drawer. I didn't get started till 5 months ago.
I felt so terrible, i was considering offing myself for the next few hours and even a little.
I don't get whats the point of living. Am all im supposed to do is graduate at the top of my class, do a bunch of stupid things with "friends" and then knock up some girl who'll cheat on me?
Fuck no. But ill never be good enough at drawing to get some career.
>>709381996
Atleast she's not really note worthy other than the government fucking over her family following the storm.
But still is brought up more In normal conversations than anyone else.
So, I was ghosted by a girl recently
Basically I met her online, and we hit it off quite nicely, spoke for hours every night for 3ish weeks. Then she stopped responding, but I she would still read what ever I sent.
One thing that sticks out is when she said "[My name] I am really glad that I met you."
She also told me about some shit that she has gone through in life. Very personal stuff, probably stuff that only her closest friends know...
What could have led to the ghosting?
One thing I kinda considered was that she started feeling something for me, but due to the geographical distance, decided to cut contact so it didn't become more.
(She did live one the other side of an ocean for what ever it's worth. I'm in the US, she was from Ireland)
>>709382081
Shes not coming back haha I took her back once and she shattered my heart again so yeah no, shes done.
>>709382200
Literally the worst feeling. It's like losing a best friend, or the only friend you ever wanted. My girl ghosted me too, except she still lives 5 miles away. Feels terrible.
Goodnight /b. Ill miss you til tomorrow.
>>709382118
what do you like to draw, anon?
>>709382118
Don't give up, Anon. This is coming from a fellow artist. I know how it feels, feeling like the only talent you have will never get you anywhere in life, or that what you do is so bad that it won't warrant any improvement. But if you really focus on improving your skill, you can do something with your life and what you want to do. I've only really been focusing on art for the past 3 years, and I would say that I've improved drastically. So don't let him tell you that what you want in your life is wrong. Don't forget that the same thing happened to Walt Disney and look at where he ended up.
>>709379578
She doesn't know I'm interested in her we somehow got on the topic of dating but she's not stupid so she probably does know actually
>what kind of things have fucked up other attempts?
One girl I was seeing had emotional problems and ended up having breakdowns so I can't be mad at her hopefully she's doing alright
2 of the others were crazy jealous and exploded at me over nothing
The worst one though was the one that had some emotional gibbon as an ex and he kept harassing us both until I decided fuck it I can't be bothered. I later found out she was the type of girl who just couldn't be single
Reading back on this I may have dodged a few bullets but I dunno it still feels kinda shitty
>>709382346
Yea it sucks. Especially when they claim that they are glad that they met you
>>709380541
are you me?
I feel you man.
>>709382757
>One girl I was seeing had emotional problems and ended up having breakdowns so I can't be mad at her hopefully she's doing alright
I actually needed to read that. Can relate.
>>709382118
Right anon stop right there.
I have a really close friend and she is a fucking amazing artist (I would post some here but there are some weirdos on 4chan) but she told me that it's never too late to start drawing just as long as you practice and learn. Not all good artists have been doing it since they were young.
There is no real way to live life and people who say "Get a family" "Get this job I'm telling you to get" are wrong. You do what you think will bring you happiness.
Evening /b,
Sometimes I get depressed for no reason. I'm easily attatched to my girlfriend and when she goes off and does her own thing without telling me I go into full out panic and freakout mode and just overthink and stress and have violent bouts of paranoia. She doesn't deserve when I have these panic attacks. No one does.
I'm on my phone.
After work I went to the lake and I'm just staring at the water.
She'd be happier without me to constantly demand her attention and be needy and constantly doubt that she loves me.
I should throw myself in the water and let the current take me to hell where I belong.
>>709382757
well this doesn't sound like a you problem
nothing compares to finding someone who is their own person, stable and happy, and being the joy in their day, not the light at the end of their tunnel.
you'll meet someone who brings you up and that relationship will set a precedent for all to come
I used to really like the fix-me-up cases but god that is no way to live
