Feels thread.
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels thread.
>>709322428
honestly wish i was a virgin still
>>709322696
And why is that?
>>709322428
this isn't a cringe thread dude
>>709322770
i lost it to a slut who i thought loved me, but she was blowing dudes a week after we broke up
So, I was ghosted by a girl recently
Basically I met her online, and we hit it off quite nicely, spoke for hours every night for 3ish weeks. Then she stopped responding, but I she would still read what ever I sent.
One thing that sticks out is when she said "[My name] I am really glad that I met you."
She also told me about some shit that she has gone through in life. Very personal stuff, probably stuff that only her closest friends know...
What could have led to the ghosting?
One thing I kinda considered was that she started feeling something for me, but due to the geographical distance, decided to cut contact so it didn't become more.
(She did live one the other side of an ocean for what ever it's worth. I'm in the US, she was from Ireland)
>>709323062
Obama hates that old fucker and only used him to make the ticket more viable.
which one?
i just want to hold her hand
What about you guys?
>>709322920
>5 people
>Middle of the day
>Home invasion
That's very unorthodox, day invasions are almost always stealthy with 1 or 2 people while the house is empty.
>>709323096
>pay a prostitute
>expect her to be loyal
>>709323148
Its okay man..
I connected with a girl online too
She lived in canada and I lived in the US
we dated but we were off and on
we decided it'd be best if we didnt date cause we weren't mature or ready.
I said my goodbyes and stuff but she never did..
>>709322428
At this point ??
>>709323276
Be close to her
>>709323276
Sleep 110%
>>709323238
Bro
>>709323487
A quick conclusion to my eyes
>>709323436
Eh, I for some reason I never felt anything romantic for this girl. (Even though she was exactly my type)
I saw as potentially just being a very close friend
Maybe she started feeling something? Maybe something in her life happened causing her to stop? who the fuck knows.
>>709323931
Understandable,
Are you sad that it just ended ?
>>709324153
Not so much sad as confused.
I just want an explanation from her. Thats is.
If I get that, I would still be kinda hurt, but not wondering why
Well... That is kinda annoying.
It's nearing the 4 year anniversary of Sandy, and as such, it's sub section of my local news site is linked from the front page. So I click on it, and one of the first pictures I see is a family photo with the Girl I'm interested.
For some reason I just can't escape her. If it's not randomly seeing her there, it would be friends or family mentioning her. And if its not that, then it would be seeing her FB pop up on my recommended friends
>>709323617
Doesnt make sense
>>709324654
Mhmm. That sucks man, hopefully she messages you one day an explains why. Hopefully things turn out good.
>>709325007
Guy still willing to help even if she did or didnt betray him.
>>709325065
Yea.
I tried messaging about a month or so after she went dark. She read it around the usual time, but no reply.
That was over a month ago. I'm not gonna block her, but I'm not holding my breath
>>709325146
Just doesn't make sense to me. Helping someone after they've betrayed you. They'll probably just betray more people in the future if they keep getting help. Maybe my thoughts are just fucked up.
>>709325571
sometimes its more instinct than being...good
>>709322920
that crime didn't even happen--no legitimate site exists about this...only stormfront and other white power sites. Stop lying and spreading this bullshit.
Hey, Dillion.
>>709326539
Something tells me you just spoiled something important.
>>709325254
I would just say
"Im not sure whats going on but I just want an explaination on why you left, if you dont want to be friends, then thats fine."
but thats just me
hopefully
things work out
>>709326694
That could work.
What I said a month ago was "Hey, It's been a while"
I actually message another friend that a few days earlier, and that one replied and we spoke for like 8 hrs
>>709322172
>>709327345
I always want an explanation on why people leave,
I won't force them to stay if they dont want to.
If you dont want to be friends or anything
at least tell me why.
Its always great to reconnect with old friends, I mean I did under a weird circumstance and we've been talking everyday since.
My girl is fucking angry at my for not texting and being annoyed because she wanted to go out ... now im the childish one what the fuck happened
>>709327806
Yea. I usually don't care too much if someone leaves, but it just struck me as strange with her cutting off contact so suddenly.
I'll try messaging her what you suggested in like a day or so
"I'm not sure whats going on but I just want an explanation on why you left, if you don't want to be friends, then that's fine."
>>709328232
I might not care too much but if we talk and I feel that connection then id want an explaination.
Hopefully she messages ya back!
>>709327540
yea, to bad he left.
>>709328345
Hopefully. But probably wont
Atleast with the other girl, no matter how long we go without speaking, she will always reply back
>>709324989
why does it bother you so much?
>>709329829
Just kinda annoyed that she is brought up so goddamn much.
And it's not like its someone who I am unable to speak to, but instead is a girl that didn't explicitly friendzone me, but in practice did.
>>709322172
Im here to save this thread
>>709329631
Focus on the other girl then?
I mean it seems she can be your close friend that you wanted
>>709330415
more feels for this shitty thread
>>709330668
The thing is that the other girl I am actually interested in Romantically, but I was friendzoned, with it explicitly be worded that way.
And I know her in real life.
>>709330762
more
>>709331002
this one is for the oldfags
>>709331073
this one makes me cry
>>709330878
That sucks.. doesn't mean you can't be good friends eh?
Im romantically interested in my old friend who I reconnected with and Im not sure if she ever would be interested in me but I rather she be my friend than nothing at all and I also know her in real life.
>>709331161
>>709331237
one for my fellow americans
>>709331231
I've only known this other girl since January, and we are not particularly close friends.
But honestly, I would rather her be in my life in some capacity, as even just a friend, than nothing at all.
And I don't know if she see's me as being a potential romantic partner. She behaves kinda strange with me
>>709331324
finally someone is posting feels
>>709331462
My life was pretty bland but this girl brings it some color and life and I enjoy talking to er every day.
Even if we just stay friends, im okay with that.
Better than no one
Right ?
>>709331468
this
sick of these sob stories tbh, we come here to feel bad for ourselves damnit
>>709331609
Yea. That is true.
This girl I talk to maybe bi-weekly at best. Usually monthly. But always seems like she likes hearing from me.
My life is kinda boring. Well, during the fall and spring at least. With Winter and Summer, I actually do some shit.
>>709322428
oh god
>>709330762
bullshit
>>709331682
whatever man some people need to let shit out and as much a come here for myself I also come to help anons that feel super alone
>>709331368
Vanilla Twilight. Ma nigga.
Hey guys, sorry I'm late to the thread. How's everyone doing? Doing pretty shit myself, not gonna lie ^_^
>>709331797
Same for me, but its just nice to have someone to talk to everyday. Specially when they want to talk to you or message you first
>>709332222
Im doing ok
how about you anon?
-SLRB
>>709332222
Holy shit checked
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fukUuJGsosU
can we get some feels music?
>>709332426
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OrhvvhuJ-Q&ab_channel=whatisthisman
>>709323617
Shit. This hit way too close to home. She didn't thank me non the less. And i'm just laying here and wondering why she crushed my heart like this and played with me.
>>709332338
Yea... That is nice. In High School I was friends with a girl like that. She would call me on skype every morning. (Until her father forced her to stop)
This girl though never does that. Seems shy towards me in particular.
>>709332397
SLRB? I don't know too many people by name, sorry :P. Probably just this one guy I met back in like April who went by shit-soak. One hell of a handle, but it stuck. And this one sage from last night, plus DJ from the same thread.
But I'd like to get to know more people. What's your story, SLRB?
>>709332426
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PsuNFtNarg&index=2&list=PLU53iEqa3kpvSoQh9qu7pr1F0r8YbbvZD
Anon delivers
>>709332641
you still talk to that girl back from highschool?
>>709322920
Kill all niggers
>>709332649
Sagefag was a helpful fag
-DJ
>>709332222
holy fuck, anon. nice quads.
Anyone else just feel like their parents are holding them back and want to find a job just to start a new life already?
>>709332778
Maybe a couple times a year.
She dated my best friend for a while from 12th grade through like freshman year of college.
Her, My friend and I usually meet up like once a year
>>709323487
Beta male
>>709332913
Holy shit, how's it going, DJ? It's... er... I don't think I ever used a nickname in that thread... erm... I posted this image at one point, tho. How's it going, man?
>>709332426
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UM4Mmd2y4nE
>>709331237
Fuck...
>>709325925
White knighting niggers, a crime as bad as being a nigger
>>709333076
Ahh yess alexisonfire guy
well the trials and tribulations that are life slowly and surely are getting better as time passes, yet an empty feeling sits in my stomach yearning for something thats not nothing.. I feel okay but once again in the eye of the storm probably.
Hows it going with you?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_pfayONDRs
i have a few custom ones
this is the first time i've posted in a thread like this.
my mom died a few years ago and i miss her a lot tonight
i have no one and due to a medical condition i can't even be alone because it could kill me
i hope it kills me tonight
>>709330415
Thanks bucko
>>709332649
Haha yeah just a little ha dle I put because I assume some other people might reply to you as well
SLRB just means Sweet Little RiceBall my friend called me when I made her something lol
My story isn't all that bad compared to everyone else
Im just a emotional person when it comes to people and unlucky with love
Long story short
>met girl A, both loved each other, eventually relationship went badly, we both were toxic to each other
>met girl B, talked to her while I was with girl A. Treated me nicely
>Girl A said she didnt love me anymore and I could leave her for Girl B, she just used me for money and games.
>Girl B, everything was good, our relationship were off and on
>eventually lots of things ended and now we aren't together
>Reconnect with my old friend
We'll call her Girl C
>Girl C helps me, my depression isnt as severe now.
>She gave me a positive outlook on life
>btw she was the one who called me the sweet little rice ball.
>everything is alright
>Girl B messages me telling she only has 15 years to live due to bad lungs. (Which is kinda long)
>says she wants to spend a day with me one day and wants to be with me
>says she loves me, I loved her but I didn't want to hurt her anymore.
>she wanted to be with me but I didnt want to date her and just wanted to work on myself before I love anyone else
>eventually she gets mad at herself
>calls herself childish and now shes gone, didn't say goodbye to me.
Its hard when you wanna make everyone you love happy.
How about you? Whats your story?
-SLRB
>>709332962
You should start talking to her more again! :^)
>>709333691
stay alive man, its what your mom would want
>>709322696
Me too
>>709333814
Maybe. If the last two years are anything to go by, I'll probably meet up with her next month. Probably the same day even
Over the summer after 12th grade we went into the city not less than half a dozen times together.
>>709333691
Oh just fucking end the misery already you absolute waste of oxygen.
Fucking nigger cunt.
>>709334046
won't hurt to talk to old friends again :^)
Havin friends whom you can talk to and hang out often is never bad.
>>709333600
Nice get. Nice song choice. Nice. While we're on the topic I should probably start calling myself something to make this easier. Er... Winter. It's the first alexisonfire song I ever heard. Idk it's not fantastic but it's best not to overthink these things.
To be honest I've been a lot better. I touched on this in the last thread, but it's essentially more of the same shit. I am my own worst enemy, all of my current problems are my fault, got nobody to blame for my emotional state except myself, all that noise. Had to lie to a senior co-worker today. She noticed that I was feeling like shit, so I told her I was just getting sick. I think she bought it. I used to get sick a lot, so it'd make sense.
>>709322920
This is actually from my home town. This girl went to school with me. It was a HUGE deal when it happened.
>>709334160
check for a new thread in about 15 minutes where i'll hang myself on stream
>>709327838
>feels thread
>my gf...
What the fuck are you doing here, man?
>>709325925
It really did though. She went to my school. My mom was friends with her mom
>>709333733
ahhh the qualms of love, its hard to make everyone happy. At least you are trying. I hope B comes back, she sounds troubled but sweet. So you are with C now?
-DJ
>>709334193
True. Can't really hang out with her too often though. Seeing as she lives in the city now, and I'm still in the Suburbs.
Really right now, I just wanna get closer with the girl I know since January. But thats hard to do with her
>>709334441
B was a sweet person, sometimes I think I didn't deserve her
She had shitty past relationships so I just felt horrible when I ruined our relationship, I was a controlling jerk and got jealous a log, kinda dumb cause I hate being that but it just comes out of no where. I just want B to be happy.
and no im not with C
shes an amazing person but im not ready to be in a relationship yet again.
Id love to date her right now but
I wouldn't wanna ruin it so quickly, I still wanna work on myself and mature a little bit more.
Maybe in the future Id like to be with C.
Even after our friendship fell out I still thought of C a lot, something special about her.
>when I messaged her
-SLRB
>>709334535
Just gotta give it time, no need to force things.
Plus its better to just let things blossom by themselves.
>>709334275
well winter, we are all are own worst enemy when it comes down to it. At least you realize it and hopefully that realization will eventually lead you to change it. I know it feels like you cant but you do have the power to change that shit. It depends on how close you are to your co worker but talking definitely helps. I have a problem talking about my shit but when I do I feel a lot better
-DJ
>>709333302
Fuck, I can't take shit like this
>>709333674
Ah. I see I'm not alone. I don't know what I want. Not this life, that's for sure
Anyone having that series of images underlaying the song yesterday from the beatles? I think i'd lose it to this one...
>>709334935
I guess. I don't really see this girl to often (Well, really never. Only in passing), and things have been kinda at a standstill for a while.
And she is shy towards me, and kinda doesn't acknowledge me unless I say something, then we can talk for a good while without issue. This is even when it is just us standing next to each other before class.
>>709322428
>hyper-cringe
>>709335291
she'll open up to you
Shy people will do that, im shy and don't intiate much conversations but if someone talks to me, i feel a bit more comfortable. Its also cause I feel like maybe they don't wanna talk to me.
>>709333733
Holy shit that's a lot of 3's. Don't worry about your story not sounding as bad as someone else's. There will always be people with worse problems than you, but that doesn't make yours any less valid.
I've got a story not too far different. It's not the sole reason I'm an emotional mess, but it was probably a contributing factor. Here's the short-ish version
>Autumn last year
>Girl A and I have been friends for a while, starting to hang out more thanks to a really tight little gang of friends
>The four of us did everything together
>Holiday season approaches.
>Girl A and I both decide we like each other, but neither knows. Both relatively beta.
>The other two members of the group are mostly just there because each of them had feelings for either me or Girl A. But shit's still fun to be together as a group
>January this year
>Girl A and I finally get together
>I don't think I've ever been happier with anyone before.
>But I was very scared of the L-word, and she used it a bit too liberally.
>Anyway, fast forward to two weeks later
>Yeah, two weeks. I still wince every time I think about it.
>Out of nowhere she leaves me
>Within a week she's together with this guy she'd been hanging out with while we were together.
>Yeah, I got cucked.
>A few weeks later, Im' an emotional wreck
>After a few months I start talking with Girl B, an old friend.
>She also went through a harsh breakup not too long ago
>We talk most nights, become each others' anchors, begin to develop feelings
>Summer rolls around
>Get together
>All is well
>All is fantastic
>And then she tells me she has cancer
>And then, slowly, being her anchor becomes more and more difficult
>I'm forced to deal with more and more of her drama
>Meanwhile I'm under a lot of stress because I'm not doing fantastic in any of my classes really.
>EmotionalBreakdownPart2
>We broke it off about a month ago, and I've only gone downhill from there.
Well that's the short version, anyway.
>>709334853
Im sorry you feel you ruined the relationship that must be quite the burden on ya. I can relate..
Thats really mature of you and I think it means you actually really like this girl. I hope once you find what you need within yourself that she is there for you to try and pursue something.
Any anons here ever been through parents divorcing?
parents just divorced this afternoon and idk what to feel, i don't think i believe it yet
>>709333302
>mfw nobody from any point in my life would act like this if I were to die
>>709335548
True. But out of her friends, she really only does it towards me.
And yea, I am quite shy as well, but with her I feel quite comfortable. Well, not "comfortable" but more so, that I can force myself to talk with her
>>709335734
My parents legally did when I was like 9 or so. They lived separate before that so it wasn't bad but the split household did nothing good for my upbringing and I still feel the effects now
>>709335734
my parents divorced when I was 11 fueled by my fathers mental and physical abuse. It sucked but it was right.
I think now a days more marriages fail than make it , so you are by no means alone.
>>709335012
Not really close to this co-worker. Not close enough to open up about all that, anyway. She outranks me, so asking me how I'm doing is pretty much part of her job description. I'd really like to open up more to someone who cares, but at the moment the only person I can talk to about feels is Girl B (see above story), and I don't want to add more drama to her life. Plus she doesn't like it when I talk about feels. When I open up sometimes I use metaphores and things like this to express things that are difficult to express with words, but since English is her second language she has a very hard time understanding me and just ends up getting frustrated with me. I've been told to just talk normally a few too many times.
>>709335600
Damn thats rough,
specially the cancer part...
Its such a shitty situation to be in
Its hard to love someone when you know they'll die so much sooner... thats how I felt
it was too much and I felt really selfish for thinking like that.
I loved her but she only had 15-20 years left, and I was still guilty about the relationship not working, she wanted to work things out but its hard
Ya know?
You got a lotta stuff stressing you and im sure it would stress me out as well.
Having to balance classes and all that.
>>709335665
Yes! Hopefully when im ready and our friendship blossoms more, we might be something later in life, even if we just stay as we are, im okay with that.
-SLRB
>>709335872
I understand, this girl and I are both shy and awkward people but I force myself to talk to her whenever I saw her in person.
Maybe she likes you? Haha just playing but maybe she'll change
Who knows.
>>709335665
Hold on, someone posted that exact same image on the last thread. I called out the reference (Noragami was damn enjoyable). Were you on last night's thread or is this just some crazy coincidence?
~Winter
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JXcV6dOMUZs
>winter is fast approaching
>days pass without me doing anything
>try to stay happy and fail
>realize this is another winter I'll spend alone and keeping myself warm
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SHdUOIfPag
>>709336369
>Maybe she likes you?
The thing is that I almost kind of suspect that. But being busy whenever I try to meet up?
She has done stuff that indicates that. But who knows.
Like when I asked for her number. She took my phone and punched it in without hesitation. (It was the actual number, obviously)
Really don't know what im doing right now tbh, school is being tough on me, and there is this girl im interested in but I dont know if I should proceed because school and my job take up most of my time. Its just really hard right now and I dont know what to do ;_;
>>709336705
Yeah, it can get pretty confusing.
Just let things work themselves out :^)
If she really is a shy girl
just gotta give her time.
>>709336838
Focus on school and yourself
worry about the girl second
become good friends and once you're in a comfortable place or spot in life, not stressed out
Ya could pursue something>>709336838
>>709333302
damn
>>709336412
I know what you mean, Anon. I heard someone say once that all we ever do anymore is re-live the same day over and over again. And to be honest, that's fucked with me pretty bad. It's scary how true it is, you know? And what's even scarier is that I'm just kind of idly standing by, watching my own demise, perfectly aware that I have every capability to stop it yet completely unable to make myself fix it. Too self-obsessed to even care about what's going on around me.
It's funny. They talk about joining the military as a means of honorable suicide, but honesty that's the exact reason I'm going into medicine. You'd be surprised what the suicide rate is for doctors. It's one of the most dangerous occupations there is.
>>709336945
True. I remember that during the introduction speeches we had to give, she said "I am just coming out of my shell"
I remember on more than one occasion I caught her looking at me. But the funny thing is that she is definitely out of league. She's a solid 7.5+ while I'm like a 6 at best.
>>709337305
>>709335600
>>709336206
Fuck I keep forgetting to sign these. Context is everything.
~Winter
I suffer from borderline personality disorder (BPD) and I don't want a future child to go through what I have gone through, and that is why I'm going through with my decision to vasectomize myself. I have been doing some reading on the causes of BPD, and the key points of these articles are always genetics and poor parenting. I was a victim of both, since my father suffers from BPD, walked in and out multiple times, and had an emotionally and physically abusive mother. My condition is stable, for the most part, I do not partake in suicidal behaviour, reckless behaviour, and don't abuse substances (to the extreme anyways), but in social situations, I am simply inept. I don't have any control of my emotions, and have had multiple altercations in the past because of this, for fucks sake, I'll kick the dog if he barks at the door and scares me. I can only imagine how detrimental my condition would be to my parenting, and given the line of mental illness in my family, the chances of my child developing a mental illness are substantially high, and I do not want that, I refuse to bring a child into this world that has to be in a constant war with themselves, struggling to find a stable sense of identity and in near-constant suffering. Considering how promiscuous I am, a pregnancy in a partner is likely to occur sooner or later, hell, when I was 17 my girlfriend at the time had 2 abortions done for the sake of not fucking up our lives and the child's. I'm going to stop this cycle now, and hope that I am the last one in my bloodline to have to suffer like this.
>>709337373
Pft if she liked ya and you like her enough
looks aren't nothing
I mean, sometimes you see images of "ugly" couples and yet they are happy.
>>709337597
True.
I just wish I had a decent way of proceeding with this one. It would be so much easier if I saw her regularly in such a way that we can talk for even a few minutes
>>709337305
It's not even that I'm too self obsessed I just don't know what's to do. Everyone always told me and still does, to do whatever makes me happy.
Well, nothing I've found makes me happy. I was holding out for a few things but they fell through. Now I'm back at square one, partially suicidal and wholly lost.
I've got nothing to give the world (and it has nothingto give me) and yet I stay alive because I care too much for the heartache it would bring my family (which is all I have)
>>709337489
Jesus man, that's rough. But I think you're making the right call. If you ever want kids, though, adoption is always an option. I always thought of it as incredibly kind, adoption. You are helping some kid who otherwise might have had to grow up without parents to have a happy and loving family. If that isn't the greatest gift you can give any human being, I don't know what is.
~W
>>709337832
Do you guys skype? Or cam
>>709337976
Just text. Sadly.
Or talk in person on that rare occasion
>>709337961
I know exactly what you mean by that. I can't imagine how much pain it would bring my friends and family if I became an hero. It'd destroy them. IDK, maybe that's just me thinking too highly of myself again, but you know what I mean, anyway.
If you're not too opposed to the genre, you might enjoy going to a heavy metal concert. I went to my first one this weekend and it was the first time I'd genuinely had fun in months. Would absolutely recommend, if one's in town. You don't even need to know the bands.
>>709338191
Maybe you could ask if she wants to skype sometime, cam or facetime.
>>709333302
Fuck
>>709338593
I guess. Probably will be quite awkward if we do that.
She knows I have feelings for her, so that could make it awkward.
>>709338823
Yeah
I thought so
just gotta take it slow at this point
No need to force it
>>709338382
I don't mind heavy metal. Don't really have money or the desire to be around people though. I know that my behavior isn't going to solve the problems I'm experiencing but if I changed it would just bring new problems so I think I'll just waste away.
Instead of killing myself outright, I'm planning on going on a "vacation" and getting killed on it. Make it look like an accident if I can
>be me yesterday
>live with gf
>she leaves for a week to visit her grandpa
>alone
>think i wont miss her
>this morning wake up missing her alot
>fall in to depression
>i thought i wouldnt care at all or be sad but surprisingly without her my day is very gloomy and boring
>just then get a call from my mom
>dads in the hospital
>go to the hospital to be with him
>he dies later on this afternoon
>after talking and consoling with my mom and sister i go back home
>get back home to gf not there and remember im still alone
>crawl in bed and feel even more depressed with the feeling of my gf not being next to me in bed like she always is
this is going to be the worst week of my life, g'night bros
>>709338877
True. But at a what point is too slow?
Welp, I'm being unusually inarticulate tonight. Really not sure why. But whatever. I'm gonna back out for now, though I may be back at some point. Later, anons.
~Winter
>>709338961
just continue what you're doing
try and talk to her in person when you can.
Try to make her laugh too.
Just continue texting and talking :^)
>>709339017
see ya later :^)
-SLRB
>>709338942
Post yfw she cheats while "visiting grandpa"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gu2pVPWGYMQ&index=20&list=PLViUxT9xaNEati2Yz33ewLmJJelokGOzc
>>709336206
ah yes better to keep it youself then with the co worker. I read your story and its definitely a rough on what with the cancer and all. It probably makes you feel like your problems aren't much when compared.. but never the less still valid. I used to date a few french girls and it is hard to convey your emotions to them. Your in a tough spot for sure and only time will tell how its gonna be, but whatever it is gonna happen is gonna happen and its important to just try and accept that with a lot of positivity or youll drown in sorrow.
>>709336403
Yeah Im DJ lol, forgot to tag, dont know noragami tho just like the pciture
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2jxjv0HkwM&list=PLViUxT9xaNEati2Yz33ewLmJJelokGOzc&index=22
>>709339114
I guess. Some how I made her laugh without doing something too stupid.
I just made a comment like "Damn you for doing everything I said I'll do".
This was when she was saying how she's going for her EMT Cert.
But the in person part is so hard to do. Like I see her around 9:15 some mornings, but so briefly where we can't talk really.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiYkHT9CwSY&index=25&list=PLViUxT9xaNEati2Yz33ewLmJJelokGOzc
My mom called me her retaded son for taking xanax
i ran. compassion caught up to me.
different kind of feels than most people have.
>be me
>22 years old
>4 long term relationships
>been single for a month and a half
>was helping ex with alcoholism, spent 3 years together
>tell her to get help or i'm leaving
>she agrees, doesn't want to lose me
>waiting in hospital for her to be admitted to detox
>get a text from her coworker
>find out she's been cheating
>leave her on the spot, 3 year down the drain.
that's my most recent sorrows.
>still not over the girl who left me when I was 17
>don't think I will be
>she left me on christmas eve because of addiction problems
>think of her every night before I fall asleep now that I have no one to hold
been having dreams about her. woke up the other night at 6 AM and cried because I miss her, and know I'll never have her back.
last week
>meet 3/10 girl with 10/10 personality, have best sex of my life
>she's really into me
>i'm too shallow to want a relationship with her, or even to want to have sex with her again, even though it was the best sex of my life
>am alone
>people want to reach out to me, just not the people I want
>i'm a fucking terrible person and deserve to be alone at this rate.
>possibly going to fail this semester because i took almost a month off to deal with my last breakup
>moving out of my dad's this weekend
>midterms next week
>3.7 gpa. gonna tank that down to like 3.0 at this rate.
>feel like a failure
i'm surrounded by friends, people who care about me, but I've never felt so alone before. i don't deserve what I have, and I wish I could give it to people who truly deserve it.
inb4 no (You)s because my story doesn't even suck that bad
>>709325007
How is a robot posting here when we have reCAPTCHA?
>>709339204
>mfw she finds a bull that can pound my anus while i eat her pussy in steamy MMF threesome
>mfw bull moves in and becomes loving pet of ours
>mfw forget all about dad dying cuz all I can think about is my haemorrhoid which is totally worth the anal annihilation i recieve on a daily basis while getting sloppy head from my qt gf
>mfw i now have a qt gf waifu and sexy bull husbando pet to consolidate the loss of my father who im sure is proud of me
Feels good man (y)
I had to put my cat down today.
>>709339567
Ya could try to "bump" into her more often, figure out what classes she has and such. Kinda stalkish? But I kinda did it and it wasn't a big deal.
Or even just ask her if she wants to try and meet up when your classes end
>>709333710
kek
>>709323062
Lolk
>>709340065
I could try and run into her I guess. Probably would be strange.
And I tried meeting up a couple weeks ago. And this is what happened. Haven spoken to her since
> "Hey, are you free anytime soon? I would like to grab coffee and chat"
> "Hey! I'll have to get back to you on it. Taking 7 classes this semester on top of working the two jobs and getting stuck babysitting this weekend has been filling up my schedule."
> "No worries. I just figured that we should meet up soon"
> "Definitely!"
>>709339911
on the bright side of things, I can always give myself a (you) because I got triple dubs
side note: am moving out of dads, was only here for a month and a half because I moved out of my old place with my ex in a hurry. going there over the weekend to pack and get ready to leave.
>>709340379
Just gotta realize that
people are busy
Ya know?
The girl I talk to sometimes just stops replying but
I know its cause she has her own life as well!
>>709339911
You fucked up a little and you're down about it. It's normal, buck the fuck up, tomorrows another day. Whatever was broken can be fixed.
>>709323276
Be closer than 6 feet. You guys have read to many sob stories to care. I have a version of mine screenshotted, though. pic related
>>709340534
I know. But I feel kinda strange just doing something like that again.
And the girl and I only hung out one time. Back in April.
I tried meeting up a couple time since. It's either family or work keeping her busy.
>>709340921
Diet and exercise my dude. Start with changing your diet.
>>709340630
I don't feel much worse than I normally do, except for the lonely nights. The only time I seem to be happy is when I'm in the honeymoon stage of a new relationship, or drunk and playing games with friends. I think I need to talk with my doctor about depression or something.
>>709340747
ask her to set the plans ?
Or ask her what her schedule is
I don't want to live in this world anymore, my only reason to still be here is so my parents don't kill themselves because they're good people. I dont ask for wealth or health, only to be with her. She said she loved me so many times. I thought she'd be the one. If theres one thingI can teach you all: love is a commitment. Not an emotion. Love means you'd sacrifice yourself for somebody. I'd rather be dead than let her go. I pray every night for death or her.
She sent pic related
>>709331161
It's shit like this that really gets me. I have a word. In fact, it's my favorite word. Pic related, btw. But it's this shit that fucking tears me apart. Even if you're hit with a sonder, even if you get that feel, there'll always be people whose biggest accomplishment in life will be landing one date, holding a hand, paying the bills. Those people life forgets, those people that were born extra, to parents who couldn't or didn't care, do enough. I'm not one of these people, but I see them. Old janitors, run down businesses along the highway, the proprietor smoking out front. This is why I feel. Because no matter what I do, no matter how down I get, I still know that there are these poor bastards out there. Pawpaw, if you guys heard about him. Janitor-san, whom even I didn't screencap, but still remember. They make me sad.
>>709341535
what happened between you two?
>>709341536
here's my word.
>>709341497
Basically did ask her to set a time. But really what could I say if I'm asking for her to arrange something
And as far as I know she is almost always busy. From what I recall Mon through Fri are always filled. Plus get stuck doing shit on the weekends.
I don't get why these threads are always the same beta faggotry about love. Where's the existential dread n shit?
>>709340747
People who care or are interested will make time. People who don't will not. It's a pretty simple concept. You can try a little bit more just in case because its zero effort to find out but it would be better to just find somebody else.
>>709341984
Could just say
"I know you're always busy all the time but do you wanna set a date or time for when we can hang out? Or see a movie?"
>>709323930
Literally I lost it at this scene
>>709341535
>She sent pic related
It was doomed to begin with if she thought sending that was a good idea. Try dating somebody out of their teens and maybe they won't be an insecure drama queen.
>>709341707
We met on kik a while ago. I thought I'd always be in my dark room, with nobody to talk to. Just alone. Until she came along, I've never been more related to somebody before. She had the same problems as I, like the same stuff, funny. We facetimed for hours a day. Slept on ft with eachother. Nothing made me happier than waking next to her smiling face. Whenever something tragic happened to her, she'd take solace in me being there. She felt safe. She told me she wanted her life with me, she wanted to be the one walking down the aisle to me. To bear my children. And I was more than happy to do so. Things were great for us. She gave me the best news of my life! She was moving to my state to live with some family! We met and it was heaven. I'd give my life in a heartbeat to live those three days again. I cried so much seeing her leave out of those doors. Her life began to change drastically. She went from being ignored and having only me there for her, to being treated like a princess and having it all. She began to stop talking to me as much. I felt her slipping away, the woman who I want to die with, leaving. Until that faithful night, her family manipulated her to the point in which she decided to leave, that she wanted to focus on herself, live HER life, with HER family. Here again I stay, in my dark room, alone. Depressed, suicidal, exausted.
>>709342135
I think I'll do something like that. But I'll leave out the movie bit.
But I may Wait a couple weeks. (incase I we have a decent bit of time together. Then maybe we could go to one of those ice skating rinks that open in NYC during winter.)
>>709342129
Under most circumstances I would agree. But when she is as busy as she is, it could be hard to get time free.
>>709342781
Im sorry to hear that, I understand how hard it can be to have someone so in love with you
end things like that.
Something to hope for in the future, right?
Im very sorry that happened to you..
>>709342940
Sounds good anon!
Course I didnt mean the movie thing just an example but ya got what I meant.
Goodluck man :^)
>>709343133
Its not your fault anon. I appreciate you listening to my story.
im going to a meeting at work tomorrow to talk about taking time off to go to a detox center and i'm fucking bugging out.
>>709338325
No post has ever summed me up this well. I have friends. I love them dearly. I dated one once. But I am now, and have always been, and will always be this friend.
>>709342781
Rip
>>709343271
Hopefully something comes of it. Kinda doubt it though.
Also. I can't skate for shit. So that should be hilarious.
>>709343293
Its no problem.
Everything will be okay in the end, it won't be soon but things will turn out okay!
Just hang on
Never kissed a girl, never had a girlfriend.
Life's still open for me, im only beginning my adulhood which gives me hope.. but I am also afraid, really afraid of the lack of experience i have in relationships.
I try not to think of it that much, i know i need to shed some opunds of my weight and hopefully then i shall try looking again...
good song for the feels
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc
I never had any friends, not real friends anyway, always got bullied at school, landed in hospital couple of times even.. i did think of suicide but never went on with it.. only because of the love for my parents, dog, and possibly some religious sentiments of mine.
I am only 21, but I have seen many things, death, depression, suffering.. but i do honestly believe that experiences like that build us as people.. all we can do is march on and hope for a good future.
>>709323276
Why isn't "Die" an option?
>>709343491
Haha I haven't ice skated since elementary for me.
It'll be a fun day
Im sure.
>>709343612
NO
you stay alive and you hang the fuck on.
>>709322428
Its sad true but still i can't give up like beta naruto i beat it
>>709343617
I've never ice skated.... So there's that. And I'm kinda a klutz...
Plus seeing as its NYC, we'll have plenty of food options.
>>709343535
You'll be stronger than most
going through these things
My ex had a horrible childhood, it fucked her up but she was tough because of it.
and don't worry too much about having a girlfriend
Just focus on yourself before that
Im 19
sure iv dated a few girls but
its not important to me. Sure the companionship is lovely but you gotta focus on yourself.. some people are tenporary
What's a good encryptor tool to use for a goodbye letter?
>>709343782
Hopefully she can teach you or something
or you both can fail together lol
>>709343979
why would you want that
anon
>>709342940
You're still going to be disappointed though. If she doesn't have time for coffee then she won't have time for a relationship. You are only going to want more of her time as you get closer to her.
She does know you have feelings for her right? If she was interested she would take steps to preserve those feeling until a different point in her life.
Anyway, you're free to keep trying but don't get desperate. Women sense desperation and avoid it like the plague. Just go out and meet other people at the very least. If you do anything just let it be this.
>>709343979
Three letters left on vowels, four right on consents
>>709324989
>>709343913
thanks man really appreciate it.
world is a fucked up place, the only thing that truly makes us better is the pain and suffering we go through.
It took me ages to figure out, but thats how he way of life goes.
For the first time in my life, I have a true group of friends, - uni is a great place, allows us to start again.
But I still remember the bad times, my old nightmares in a way.. its good to remember pain sometimes, to open our eyes at how good our life is now in comparison.
I think that the most important part of me that allowed to stay alive to tell the tale is faith and stubborness.
>>709344037
Probably would be us failing together.
I don't think she's skated before either.
But does this seem a little to datey? Then again, I was planning on going there with some friends last year.
>>709344351
I guess.
Im not gonna hold my breath with her, but I'll try with her.
Atleast it's not like I'm just going one with "Date me. I Love You" or some bullshit
Also I'll leave it open for other girls as well.
>>709344163
I'm just in a point in life where I accept who I am, but I don't tell anyone. Plus, I need to make a visit to my grandmother's and chat with her about my situation.
>>709344491
You two are still hanging out and with each other
Call it a date or not :^)
>>709344482
Theres a quote by the main character from
House of Cards
(Good show btw)
He says something about two different types of pain
The type of pain that makes you stronger
and the type of pain that is useless
you just gotta convert all that pain to strength.
>>709344878
True. I am just thinking of possible outcomes of this. Assuming she agrees to something
I also can't help but laugh at the idea if ice skating out doors in like 60 degree temperatures....
>>709345041
yeah i agree with that.
and yeah its a cool show, iv seen a few chapters
>>709345113
Don't overthink too much
I'll probably ask this girl if she'd like to go ice skating sometime too
I live in Minnesota so its cold af here during the winter/ late fall
>>709345284
You're strong anon
I commend you for hanging on still
Keep on going.
>>709345321
I live near NYC where it's like 50 in late fall to 40 in winter. But can get as low as like -5 at times
Also. Kinda ironic that I can see an ice skating rink from my bedroom window, yet I've never gone. And now I'm talking of taking a girl skating.
But Yea. I doubt she'll agree to it. Or meeting up at all.
I have a lot of poems and letters that i sent the first person I ever loved, but they threw them all away when they moved. When they came back to visit for Christmas and fucked me, but then never talked to me again. That was the loneliest christmas I ever had.
>>709345933
Gotta have some faith, might as well take a chance lol
>>709345964
Forget this person, if they threw away letters to you and poems just like that, it wasn't anything.
>>709346177
True. But I did try a hand full of times already.
But all were things that were short notice on specificity days. That happened to correspond with graduations she need to go to. (Big family. 7 siblings?)
>>709346605
Hey
At least shes setting the time this time
>>709346328
It's hard though, I put three years of my life into them and they just forgot me completely. It was really bizzare that someone can just... Forget someone else like that. I'm moving on though.
>>709346680
True. But the one from a couple weeks ago, couldn't that be interpreted as setting the time as well? Or not really, given I mentioned Soon and a specific thing?
Gonna sound like a total fag but...almost wish I could meet some of you in person. Just to grab a quick beer, compare stories, share sorrow and compassion...tell one another you're a good dude or chick and that it will be better. I think good and new company every now and then is just the best thing ever.
I've read and experience so many of these stories and just know everyone...I know what it's like. Stay strong anons. I truly mean that, for every single one of you.
>>709346812
My ex used me for money and games
and told me she never loved me at the end of the relationship.
Its hard to think someone loved you.
Really fucks with you because you're not dure what was real in the relationship.
They are horrible people and I don't understand how you can just do that to other people.
>>709347038
well aren't you just a giant faggot, lol im just jokes you sound like a cool person I would love to grab a beer with chu and anybody here.
>>709346861
Well setting a time just means a day or week where they are free and it can be interpreted as that even if you set a specific thing and "soon"
>>709347038
Nah you can't sound like a "fag" in a feels thread, you come to these threads to show who you are and no one really judged you except for those people who are assholes and come to these threads for the sold purpose of doing that.
Im only 19 but Id love to have a few shots or drinks with you people. Just to know that people of all diversity feel the same shit.
Story time
>be me 2016
>depressed as usual
>think about the 90s
>the days when I played Doom on a potato
>realize that was over 20 years ago
>take all modern stuff out of my room
>replace with stuff from childhood
>lay down and stare at the ceiling for hours
>start to cry a little
Anyone else feel this way? Misery enjoys company.
>>709347090
That's fucked up, I'm sorry about that anon. It fucks with me bad to never be able to know what was real and what wasn't. It was like all the I love you's said over the years never meant anything, like they're full of nothing. Just the other day I was looking at a stuffed animal that was given to me by them a while ago and I was thinking about how it used to mean so much to me, but now it's just a weird pig beanie baby that lays under the bed in my room.
>>709347607
Yea. So this is essentially the second time I'm trying that with her. Just a bit more explicitly this time
>>709347882
Right?
All the conversations
all the things they said to you
just have no meaning
You question and torture yourself on what was real and its one of the worst things to come out of a relationship.
We both just are unlucky as fuck lol
we just gotta be careful next time. Maybe not invest too much of ourselves.
Maybe untill we "know"
>>709347981
You got this anon :^)
>>709348271
Yeah man, wearing my heart on my sleeve and just letting "I love you" slip out of my mouth without actually thinking about it has been one of the most fucked up mistakes I've made. Everyone makes mistakes though. I hope you become more lucky and fortunate in the future though anon. Keep on.
>>709348306
Thanks.
Hopefully it works out with her. My gut kinda thinks so...
Ill try in like a week or so
>>709348626
I got a girl in sight I guess you can say
Im just working on myself and maturing myself so my relationships don't end likd that.
I have a good feeling on this one ;^)
Goodluck to you too Anon!
Keep on, keeping on.
>>709343612
because for something to die, it must've lived first.
go live anon, dont let anything stop you
>>709322172
Guess I'll say something. Just came back from a date, I'm 24 I assumed by her age she was the same age as me maybe 26 the most. Found out she's 31, now I feel like a dumbfuck. When she mentioned her age, a wave of stupidity flooded my body. Just sitting her thinking "what the fuck". Everything went great though, just feel like a stupid fuck.
>>709349322
how come you didnt know her actusl age ?
>>709349608
She looks young, so me being a dumbfuck just assumed "oh she's probably like my age or something." I didn't ask beforehand.
>>709349856
Lol how'd you meet her ?
>>709342781
Brother anon, I know those feels more than I can articulate.
>pic related. Sent to me yesterday. From halfway around the world.
>>709323487
fixed, this is the real image
>>709349322
who cares what age your at my mom was 32 when she met my step dad who was 26
they are very much in love probably soul mates.. see its good to be careful with your heart but dont be too careful cause if you dont put your heart out there you never know... its a game we all lose.. but most importantly its a game we all eventually win.
>>709349905
We take the same classes in college. I seriously thought she was like 24-26. I just feel like, she said just because I'm young and dumb. Even though I wasn't nervous or anything, we had great convo, I even maintained great eye contact and smiled. Just feel stupid now
>>709350534
Don't feel stupid anon
its not like its an obvious thing go spot.
Im short as fuck
if I was in college rn
People would think
I excelled really well in Highschool and skipped a bunch of grades lol.
Do you not wsnt to continue things with her cause of her age ?
As I lay in my bed with existential dread as a cloud hanging over my head.
I think why am I here? How did I get here? Is life purposeful or is just a meaningless mess? Will I have an impact on this world? Does it even matter? Should we all not leave our sorrows where we sit and stop sulking in sadness?
Im so conflicted sitting here in this depressive state. On one hand I wanna change but on the other hand I feel I can't so it just becomes a massive mess of scenarios played out in my head. Creating anxiety, stopping me from everything. The most important question I have is why am I the way I am?? and why is it so difficult to deal with.
I had left the only girl ive ever loved, who had cheated on me. In hopes that i would be happier, but i only feel depressed, instead of anger. And im starting to fall for my best friend, who is already taken.
>>709350836
Sorry that I took long to respond. I do want to continue, but I just don't know if she is put off by my age. I know I said this before but I feel stupid as fuck.
>>709350842
of course only I have the answers to some of these and I understand depression is a self battle.. where if you dont come out on top it will. Im trying to fear change and just move with it fearlessly. I believe what happens is meant to happen
No matter what I know or what I tell myself Im still afraid and im even more scared that, that will never go away
Anyways im done ranting.
-DJ
>>709351561
No problem and just continue with it and see where it goes, even ask her if your age is an issue
>>709347090
For whatever it's worth, you can't be 100% sure that she was telling the truth when she said she never loved you.
People who want out will often say the most hurtful things they can, after all.
Side note: all these robot image tests are getting annoying as fuck.
>>709350842
Bro, I go through that every night.
I just tell myself it's just a feeling, and it will be gone by morning.
Then I am thank whatever there entities there may be that I've made it through the night and can start doing things to keep my mind off those thoughts.
To answer your questions, no, there is no inherent meaning to the universe. Just find something to keep you occupied until you're safely dead. Though that doesn't mean you can't be happy in the process.
>>709351948
Our relationship was kinda weird cause we loved eachother very much but
we both just turned toxic to each other.
I still think that there may have been some truth that maybe she did love me.
Maybe that was her way of showing how she didn't want to get hurt and oretend everything wss ok.
>>709333733
That was my story from earlier so feel free to read it for a bit more.
(Yes these captcha things are annoying)
>>709351939
So far tonight I didn't receive any text or calls since I'm home, probably busy reading the chapters for tomorrow's midterm exam. I hope things work out. I really do. But "experience has taught me wishful thinking only leads to disappointment."
>>709352405
Gotta have some hope.
I rather hope for something than overthink and cloud my mind with negative outcomes.
This is going to be a buried post and no one will see it but my long term girlfriend told me on Sunday that she is gay. I haven't really been handling it well and I don't know what I am doing in life anymore. She was absolutely perfect for me. I had known she is/was bisexual but I never thought this would happen. She insists the sex was great but she is just emotionally and romantically detached from me. There isn't someone else. She just thought about it and came to the realization that is who she is. Any words would be appreciated.
>>709347853
I get it. We're probably about the same age.
>also played Doom on a 486 PC
I broke up with a girl for no good reason in late 2002. Shattered her heart. Met her again three months ago, fell in love with her, her with me. We had a passionate love affair, the love of my life. I would kill to be able to go back to 2002 and do everything differently.
I'm this guy.
>>709349934
>>709352690
Yeah, I'll try to have some hope. A reasonable realistic level of hope. I want it to work out. I'll just wait for her to initiate the next text or call.
>>709334326
Let's see this thread fuckboy end it
>>709334326
Let's see this thread fuckboy, end it.
I was with a guy for a couple of months, but it felt like so much longer. We talked constantly and got along extremely well. I even slept with him which is something I would normally refrain from doing. As soon as I started to really trust him, he cut it off for absolutely no reason, giving me some long excuse.
Everything I look at reminds me of him. My phone no longer buzzes throughout the day and when it does, it's not him. I cry all the time. I keep asking myself why I wasn't good enough for him. I did everything right.
I fell in love with him and now I'm alone again /b/.
>>709352911
In the end you just got to be happy for her. Of course it will be hard and cause lots of pain but you have to try. Dont be me and get angry at her for putting her feelings above yours.. or at least if you do keep it to yourself ;)
-DJ
>>709353372
you sound like me but i'm a guy, with a girl who cut it off..... Legit just happened a day ago... I'm trying to salvage this though because it's bull shit, she did it out of nowhere with no real hints or clues that it would happen.
>>709353372
I know exactly how you feel. I was in love with someone who said she felt the same up to the day she ended it. Afterwards she said there wasn't the spark that there once was and that it had been gone for months. Everything is a reminder of her. Even me
>>709352911
Sucks, man. Nothing for it but to thank her for the journey with you, tell her she'll always have a place in your heart and begin the grieving process.
Sorry guys but I gotta hit the gym
I wish I could talk to more of you guys here and help you guys.
Perhaps next time..?
See ya later
Everything will be okay :^)
-SLRB
>>709353660
Thats exactly what I'm telling her. Because I am happy for her. We are and will remain incredibly close. I know for a fact she will remain a large part of my life for a very long time. Im just thankful to have this portion of my life with someone so incredible. The hardest part though is that she wants to be with me. She is adamant that I am the perfect boyfriend. She just isnt into me somehow
>>709338942
Practice your grammar feg, you have nothing else to do amiright?
>>709353372
Its hard for me to understand why we want to go back to someone who so selfishly left us? I understand that love is blind and all and Im not saying I do not share the same troubles.. but if someone is mean enough to just do that to you then fuck them
mourn the relationship and move on, you deserve better and there will be better
-DJ
>>709353678
>>709353730
I'm sorry that you guys are going through it as well. I sent him a message and tried to salvage something, but I'm not the type to continue trying if I feel like it's not wanted.
My Skype is Novakchan if anyone in the thread wants to talk or vent. I'm here.
>>709354397
You're absolutely right, it's just hard. He was so perfect for me in every way.
>>709352911
Keep in mind it is backwards thinking to equate a physical relationship with any sort of affection.
If one person truly cares for another person, body parts are meaningless and rubbing them together is an optional & unrelated act.
I know I may get flamed for this, but as this is a "feels" thread...that is how I feel.
Regardless, I do feel your pain because I am in the same situation. The woman I care about (who is also my best friend) turned out to be gay as well.
>>709354017
You're a humble man. Its not an easy feat you are faced with and I admire you for being so mature about :)
Keep on keeping on man.
-DJ
>>709354821
I mean I have to support her. She is my best friend. It also doesnt help with the gay community getting so much hate where we live (NC)
>>709354775
I understand where you are coming from. No hate from me. Thank you for your input
>>709354615
Ohhhh its extremely hard and this is as cliche as gets but time will heal your wounds. If you salvage things what if he does it again? You'll be put through all that pain again. I guess you just have to ask your self if its worth it. Just remember re-heated fries never taste the same
-DJ
>>709355253
It is just rare to see a post that I can easily relate with. :)
I am going to remain supportive of my friend and I will always be there for her when she needs me. I hope you intend to do the same? :)
