feels thread really fuck me up
The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
feels thread really fuck me up
I'm here until the booze take me anon.
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anybody have feels for being cheated on?
>>708713004
i do :(
>>708713004
Kinda, I was created by mummy because she took my goodboy points and didn't give me my tendies
>>708714526
oh fuck
She took herself from me, crippled and in a endless pit. Unable to escape this pit, not forgotten but taken from me. -My Old Math Teacher Who's daughter Killed herself.
Was in a pretty shitty mood earlier, but i'm currently wiped out on meth so i'm pretty good at the time being...
Anyway, this never fails to hit you right in the feels...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seolYuhGVvY
>>708714526
>>708714526
God damnit.
>>708715122
Or this, I nearly cry everytime...
R.I.P Lennox, you were at amazing dog :/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOAcRKZxjy4
>>708715412
no no no.
I can watch anyone get their head cut off because I guess I'm like that.
Can't watch anything dog related. Insta tears. Call me a pussy or faggot but dogs imo are better than people.
>>708715516
I'm the same man, I can watch basically everything no problem, but the minute animals get involved, especially dogs, nahh, i'm outta there...
>>708715674
The real feels.
>>708715412
im fucking bawling. thanks a lot anon
Recently, a client disclosed domestic violence when I was visiting her apartment. She'd never told me about that before. She said she wasn't worried about him now. Two days before, he ripped out fistfuls of her hair because SHE caught HIM cheating. She refused to file a police report, out of fear. She won't file a TPO. She won't seek counseling. She won't file for child support, a requirement of the cash assistance program, again out of fear. He comes and goes as he pleases and may do this again at any time. I implored her to file the police report, to no avail. As I walked out the door, with tears forming in my eyes, despite myself
>I just don't want you to be one of the faces I see at night when I close my eyes... Take care of yourself.
>>708716249
You'll feel better when you're done though, at least after a bit of a cry I do...
My 13 year old Rottweiler was with me trough my entire life, her name was Dina. She became a part of my family, when I came home from school I always expected her to greet me with a funny smile showing her teeth jumping around and being happy all over the place. She always slept in my bed with me, she even slept in my bed when I was gone. I remember the day my mother told me that Dina was really sick, it felt like my heart was in-paled with a stick. Around 5 months later, she got so sick that she couldn't even stand. So I carried her up to my bedroom and laid her down in my bed and watched her pass away... This was 3 years ago and I still cry about it, the look she gave me when I held her paw the final minutes we had together was the most beautiful thing and the most heart breaking moment of my life. The reason why we didn't put her down is because she didn't feel any pain, if mom didn't bring her to the vet we would've never noticed that she was sick. She was always happy and caring, wish I could hug you one last time before letting go... I will probably never be able to let go.
when im depressed i start working out, i hate working out, i hate going to the gym, i hate being around people. I am a very paranoid person, yet when i am hurting inside i decide to go to a gm and push myself make myself feel like shit, ach all day so i forget my true pain
>>708719944
This is the problem with the feels threads, all you cry about is how the oposite sex doesnt want anything to do with you, the real problems come when you do have someone that loves you and you still feel empty and fucked up. By now you are just kids.
>>708720374
>>708720349
OP here. No where in that picture was the opposite sex involved. I haven't heard "I love you" in a long time. I use to have friends and family say it to me but not anymore. I'm an adult and I miss my Grandmother and Grandfather. I miss their phone calls and them saying "I love you" before hanging up. Kid, women ain't shit. Family... good family is something else.
>>708713004
Fucking yup
>>708720894
>>708720901
This is nice
It's your life.
You decide what happens with it.
Heres a feels story for you guys.
>Be me browsing /b/
>Sees ylyl thread
>No banana's in sight
>Good thread
>Anon posts a comic
>Oh joy!
>Text on comic says "If you don't reply to this, your mother will die in her sleep"
>Mom is kill in other room
>Rip
>>708720921
Oh, you fucker!
>>708720969
Fucking hell anon, that hits home and like a god damn train
>>708721386
What're you listening to, anon?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NQ6YdWBr3JI
>>708717128
That sounds rough anon. I'm sorry to hear.
>>708721701
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IdqRK7D3Qvc
>>708721701
https://youtu.be/8hsqLqzlWs8?t=101
>>708721989
How do I forget her?
We stopped talking months ago, and I'll usually be able to forget, but as soon as my mind wanders....
What do I do?
>>708720844
fuck
>>708722300
That's normal buddy. The only thing to help is time
>>708720374
Fuck.....
>>708711864
I got feels right now because I just feel like a huge cunt.
I think I'm some sort of serial friend abandoner.
Some person takes an interest in me because for whatever reason I'm easy to trust and open up to, they want to be around me and I don't want to say no and upset them.
And it's nice having a friend for a little while, but they get so much closer to me than I do to them.
At first I don't mind the closeness and everything they reveal to me in it, but after a while they get comfortable, they never for a second try to see what I'm like or how I feel.
They hurt me and I'm too much of a coward to say it, so I distance myself and I guess hurt them in return.
I start to see the ugliness in them and push them away.
I lost a friend who considered me very close like this, and I know I'm starting to do it to another.
I'm a terrible fucking person.
>>708722300
Work on bettering yourself, in whatever form that may be. It can be as simple as cleaning, or as big as improving your body. Just do SOMETHING.
>>708712001
Is this like the last one or something?
I listen to this song every time I drink. I hate myself.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AibcnOFoa7k
Watch this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96kI8Mp1uOU
Gets to me every time.
>>708720808
this fucking got me
a good feels song to browse feels to. https://soundcloud.com/edenori/smile-sweetly
>>708722874
saw it coming, didn't make it hit any softer.
>>708712001
tfw i'm tearing up
>>708712001
here's another one
>>708720969
fuck
>>708722618
I do the same shit anon. I have anxiety and shit so i always feel like im doing something wrong or i feel like a fucking burden to people so i push myself away from them and hardly talk to anyone. I feel like absolute shit every fucking time i meet someone new
>>708721694
See you space cowboy.
>>708723441
Feels good mange.
>>708722618
Mark?
>>708712001
stop giving kids addy you fuckin lunatics!
>>708722239
Why has some fucked up deity done this to us?
>>708723441
>Calvin knows what's up he gave her Hobbes so he could redpill his daughter to understand that We must secure the existence of our people and a future for white children
>>708722300
When you think about her just stop yourself, after a while you will be able to think about her and not feel sad, you'll see her as a full person again with positives/negatives
>>708723815
Sean?
>>708711864
When you eventually die, you'll never experience another thought, emotion or physical feeling. Death is the only experience that lasts forever. Try and fathom how long ETERNITY is. Imagine the void of space. The dark nothingness and impartiality of the universe. When you and your loved ones eventually die, all your 'memories' and shared experiences will dissipate and wont have any effect on the slow crawl and inevitability of time moving forward. Death is FOREVER, our lives are a short flash of sentience in an uncaring and manufactured reality.
>>708720969
What a fucking cop out.
You're a dickhead? Learn to empathize with other people and don't act like a cunt all the time.
YOU are the person in charge of who you are.
Your environment does have influence, I can admit that, but you ultimately have the power to shape yourself into whoever you want to be.
This shit is just a way to lay down and say you surrender to your upbringing.
Look at the people around you who you hurt.
Shut your fucking mouth and look at them, see them, learn to love every person who crosses your path in some way and I guarantee you will become a better person.
Maybe you're a dick, but you stop being a dick by learning from the goodness of everyone around you.
>>708714526
actually, that same scene happened to me while ago, best fucking moment of my entire live to feel her body.
>>708724122
You really can't "experience" death if you aren't conscious.
>you do bother your friends
>you do mock them when asking for help
>you do look weak and weird to them
>you do think you will do better by your own, alone, and so do they
Did I miss a thing anon?
>>708723755
I wish I could justify it through anxiety, but the reason behind this shit is so selfish.
I push them away because I'd rather be alone and fuck up someone who feels close to me than actually say what they did that makes me see them the way I do.
I like being alone. I don't want people to be friends with me, but I'm a timid bitch and won't ever say it to someone who pursues friendship.
>>708723815
Nah
>>708719944
Actually my girlfriend told me she loved me before she went to bed so um fuck you <3
>>708720844
>mfw I laughed at story
>mfw I laugh when I mean to cry
Fuck, no matter what the therapist tells me, I'll never be quite right again.
>>708723977
Nope, wrong Mark I guess. I just know someone who is very similar to you who is named Mark too. We used to talk every day, and I trusted him with just about everything. Then he just stopped talking to me. Reading what you said gives me more of an understanding why he did what he did. I guess I understand now, but god damn it still hurt like hell. Just promise me, even if you don't care about a thing they're saying, just try more to talk to them, okay?
>>708711864
Comic name?
>>708722239
Don't go there.
Never feel sorry for yourself.
>>708722874
Isn't that based on a comic? Anyone have it? I'll see if I do.
>>708720349
This. Wait for the incomprehensible numbness when surrounded by a loving family and children. You think you love your gf or a crush but you have no clue. Your hormones are so up and down infatuation mimics love.
Always remember: You are not the exception. Life has no meaning or default purpose. You can grow to love or hate anything. People change, you change, the world keeps turning. There is someone who went through or is going through the same thing you are. Always look for the silver lining because you will reach new levels of despair periodically. Op is always a fag.
>>708711864
I went to the store today and saw that my mother's car was in the lot. Seeing that I only had to grab one thing and leave I did my business and left. But before I did I wrote her a note and left if on her window to let her know that I love her and was thinking about her and dad.
>Be as good to your folks as you can, they're the only people who are gonna love you for you unconditionally and for all of their lives.
>>708724786
lol
>>708721089
God damn. Say what you will, but if this is true that guy is a fucking stellar human being.
>>708724667
You get it, love you anon
>>708724559
The thing is I do care. I care so much.
But I've spent so much time trying to understand and being there while keeping my own shit under wraps that I can't handle it anymore.
I can feel everything from them so vividly, the current friend I'm doing this too is angry a lot and just being around him now makes me feel sick because I know him, I know what his anger looks like and it's just an overload.
I'm truly sorry that someone did that to you, and I feel like such a shitty person for being the same way.
I've hid so much I don't know if it's even salvageable, and I know the residual damage would be a lot for us both.
You wanna fucking cry, listen to this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=kAplLy3tzmI
>>708721701
>>708722083
stop being gay
>>708724875
tl;dr.
>>708724814
Life is full of meaning, if life had no meaning there would be nothing to become numb to, it would be the default for everyone
What's that webcomic where it's usualy 3 panels of actual photos with words over it.
Usually depressing shit, sometimes uplifting shit.
>>708724814
>tfw I live this every day of my life now
>solid job
>loving family
>gf, soon to be wife, that loves me to death it seems
Yet, the hollow feeling grows everyday. I think of just ending it all, but too many people that seem to imply they'll miss me. That and I'm a coward.
The only solace I can get is that in the grand vastness of the universe, we are are nothing. Even if I were happy, it would mean nothing.
So everything is as it should be. Just 50 more years and I can go.
>>708723441
>>708725061
You're wrong, life has absolutely no meaning. The mere fact we're alive and sentient at this exact moment in time is a fucking miracle. The universe is chaotic and indifferent.
>>708724239
>>708724122
I didn't need this feel
"waa waaa life has no meaning waaa i miss my old girlfriend waaa no one likes me waaaaa the universe is a cold dead place"
You know whats funny about all these posts?
90% of them are self centered garbage
Grow the fuck up and control your own life/emotions
If you are sad, deal with it and make yourself happy, if you are weak, make yourself strong
If you think reality is too harsh then just believe some other bullshit (you aren't that special anyways after all)
Seriously though these threads are fucking sad, everyone here wants to act like they have these "unfixable" problems but really you only stay sad and depressed because you want to, you're self absorbed
>>708713004
For about 3 months I have been thinking about how pathetic I am. Nobody cares about me. Nobody cares what I like, what I want to do, anything. I like everyone. I act the same with everybody, never a real frown on my face around them. But nobody gives a fuck. Nobody asks about me, nobody ever talks about me, they just don't even pay attention. I just want to mean the same to them as they do to me but I never will because nobody ever gives a fuck about me. I guess it's normal for everyone to feel like this, so than why don't people talk about it? What is so hard about giving a fuck about other people?
>>708725061
Meaning and feelings are not interchangeable.
Feelings are not a meaning. Goals and ambition are not a meaning. Self justification and delusion of meaning do make it true. Other wise god, Allah, Beelzebub and Buddha would be wished into existence.
>>708724239
You're right, I meant to use the word 'event'.
>>708713004
i feel like life is cheating on me
>>708721863
I think letting go of Charizard was harder on Ash than when he let Butterfree go.
Was for me anyway
>>708714526
well fuck. time to cry i guess.
>>708725768
Ok, you don;t see the irony in your post?
you say
"life has no meaning"
then
"being alive is a miracle"
Those two ideas are mutually exclusive, miracles are meaningful
Also the Universe can't be "indifferent" only people can....The fact that there is chaos and disorder in a huge vast empty expanse really doesn't have much bearing on you or your life.
If you didn;t know there was such a thing as the Universe, you're life would probably be much happier!
Unless you found another rationalization for your shallow thinking
Anyone want to talk about actual mental issues and not how some dumb bitch doesn't like you?
I'm questioning if im schizophrenic. im having auditory hallucinations and it runs in my family on both sides.
>>708719944
My mom did
>>708724377
I like having friends but honestly they're all like me. Edgy fucks that would rather stay in all day and talk to absolutely no one. I'm still fucking surprised that I even know them. The anxiety shit is what fucks me up, it's like I over fucking thinking shit that shouldn't even cross my mind or bother me. But my self esteem is fucking gone to shit and I struggle to even talk to my coworkers. All that while I show up anywhere high as fuck from the pills that manage to keep me from going off the fucking rails
>>708726436
Well then just do something about it, if you really don't know why you are unhappy, you probably have a problem with self awareness
Just go wild, do what you want figure out what really makes you tick
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsixXCnYVfA
anyone have the black and white lineart with the pendulum clock? I lost it a while ago, haven't found it since
>>708726365
'Being alive is a miracle' Was plebspeak for the fact that we're even experiencing sentience is statistically significant.
>>708721989
Jesus man.. its gonna suck not being here.
>>708726380
Seek professional help. Not /b/
>>708726365
Nice b8 m8.
>>708726952
You did it again....
"significance" = meaning
>>708727100
Why? I was just seeking discourse on the subject, my hallucinations do not place me in any form of harm and I am aware enough not to allow anything said to affect my actions negatively.
I do appreciate your valid point, though.
>>708720808
source?
>>708719944
Tfw my boyfriend told me he loved me today and i realize that i am not lonely anymore
>>708727120
Not bait it's true
I know this board is filled with edgy nihilists, but people need to be confronted with their own bullshit when they are ruining their own lives
>>708720808
I've seen this a lot, I've felt to it, what is it from? I'd really like to know.
>>708727230
What do the voices say anon?
>>708727223
lol you must be a level 5 autist.
>>708721164
a classic, I feel you bro.
>>708727249
>>708727377
The opening of Eternal Sunshine
>>708712049
>be me
>back in junior year of hs
>start dating this qt
>she talks about how she was depressed and used to self harm
>dont really buy it myself, thought she was just a typical edgy teen
>tell her id like to eventually have sex sometime (at the time i was desperate to get my fuckin rocks off)
>she gets mad, says she doesnt ever want to have sex after she tried it and tried to commit suicide
>fine whatever ill just keep jerkin the gerkin
>shes like "i really dont like the 'L' word"
Literally says she loves people and random shit all the time.
>after 3 weeks she stops talking out of nowhere
>get frustrated that she wont communicate
>week later she breaks up with me
>says "shes in love with another"
>what the fuck ever
>l8r find out she got with this loser stoner idiot who gave her weed and they fucked
>goddammit
>>708727294
then fuck off and leave us sitsacks to our misery
>>708720844
Fuck dude...
>>708727311
Then tell us supreme enlightened one, what is the meaning of life?
>>708727380
I-i'm not sure. i believe their intent is to keep what they say hidden from me. some of the only things i actually understand are feelings from things i hear, like fear from loud masculine yelling or vulnerability from quaint whispers.
the auditory portion of my diagnosis only surfaced very recently, notably after a months worth of abusing a psychoactive substance. so im still surveying my actual situation. most of the time the "voices" happen when i begin trying to sleep, or quiet my mind at any time.
>>708720844
Fuck dude.
I guess that the issue right now is im either feeling too much, or can't feel anymore.
Goodnight /b/
>>708728117
same. I'm out
>>708727548
Got it. Thanks bro.
Worth watching?
>>708723833
>unchecked dubs of truth
This all the way
>>708727230
You don't let them affect your actions yet. Mental illness quickly turns from being under control to too late. Mental illness should be treated like cancer. Properly diagnosed as early as possible and treated before it becomes a bigger problem.
Pic related: This is still /b/
>>708721701
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsuHAn54wPs
dead end days coming, but let's hope for the best.
>>708727230
from what I understand, that means you need to seek immediate psychiatric help. The fact that you recognize you are having hallucinations and are not completely deluded means that treatment for schizophrenia, if you have it, could actually be effective. If you wait you will be way more fucked. You may soon not be aware enough to make sure they don't affect you. You obviously know you have a problem so you should act on it now.
Or, it's just a brain tumor, in which case you should also be at a fucking doctor.
>>708727294
I hope he dies in a fire
>19th birthday
>family went on trip to New York, im home alone all week to take care of cats
>in love with girl from school
>tell her im home alone, joke about throwing a party
>tfw she shows up to my house with a red velvet cupcake and a dvd (dan in real life)
>we watch it and she holds my hand the whole time then leaves right after
>family comes home a few days later
>im super confident and outgoing, they worry somethings wrong
>never tell them because i wasnt allowed to have anyone over
>>708726380
You want to talk about actual mental health issues go to /lgbt
>>708728475
>3 weeks later i ask her out again
>she says shes switching schools, campus is about 3 hours away
>never see her again for a year
>get new gf
>find out first girl has bf, seems happy
>tfw i can never tell anyone, not even my gf, how happy that girl made me 4 years ago on my birthday. not her, not my gf, not my family.
>>708728340
I admittedly know little about schizophrenia, so I dont really understand how my situation could progress into me becoming incapable of resonating with reality. Though, i suppose before now I wouldn't have estimated that I would be having hallucinations in the first place.
so perhaps you're correct. even still, im very much so a weird person and cannot speak like I am to you, right now, be it we were face-to-face. so conveying my problems will be challenging, but i suspect that this is more important than personal autistic quirks though, so many thanks for your comment. i will look into 'psychiatric help.'
>>708727556
Women are confusing.
>>708727223
Are you retarded? Those are 2 different subjects. We're here, that's great, not my choice to be alive or on this planet but I'm here. Its a miracle that I spawned on this rock hurtling through space just the right distance from the sun whilst having a family that doesn't abuse me. Yet life in the end has no meaning. I could have a PhD in the future, I'm completing my diploma. But after I'm dead how different will I be from some mountain shepherd in Tibet who died living off the mountainside for 60 years?
>>708728282
I dont understand how they could, considering in my case its not like some entity is telling me to skin my pets. but I also dont know much about the subject so ill take your words seriously.
>>708723441
Fuck, out of everything here this one fucked me up...
>reunited with uni crush after two years
>did so by saving her life from overdosing while on lsd
>ended up being a nice guy for the fuck of it
>she made move
>yes finally holy fuck
>move in as fuckbuddy to her place
>live together secretly for two months
>developed feelings, I was a secret from her friends
>she still loved her ex and they constantly talked/argued
>decided she wanted to date me
>"i love you"
>move out to different place together as a couple
>live together for six months
>during she took me to her hometown across the country
>met all family
>moved to new area again
>dumped after two days of moving
>she moves in with ex as it was "convenient" for her budget
>no choice but to go back home too broke on my own
>laying in bed thinking of how to let go
>>708724126
Sometimes you just realize everyone just hates you for being different.
Just because your lonely doesn't mean you are a dickhead or anything what the post said.
Take me for an example. I'm lazy and very easy going and talk in a way that mostly no one ever talks. I have my own personality that isn't based off of your favorite TV character or someone you look up too. I see everyone having problems and issues but I have none because I know what's there and sometimes it isn't worth it just to feel that joy. When someone asks me about my job and my interests they look at me funny. When they bring up something I engage them and always be the one to keep the fire going. I don't go overboard when talking but I am honest. People hate honesty because they hate the bitter truth.
I get called stupid, weird, abnormal and rejected but I don't care. If they get offended by the way I talk or way I am than that's their problem.
What I'm trying to say is it's not always your fault. You can be the best and nicest person in the world and still he hated. For whatever reason its their fault.
>>708727958
Same. I've heard woman screaming right as I'm about to sleep and it wakes me right up. Since the rest of my family members in my room are asleep Im sure it's just me. Maybe I should see a psych
>>708729296
Saving her life from am acid trip, lol,lsd has no ld50.
When the only reason you tolerate your shitty life is so you don't depress the people who thought they were doing you a favor by creating you.
I was on lsd. She was overdosing on some narcotics
>>708729431
that keeps happening to me, but only once with yelling. its almost like when my mind is the quietest, a secondary consciousness "kicks in" and I begin tuning into some radio signal of thought and am just fed stimuli.
after realizing that it kept happening when i was going to sleep, i realized that it was probably because that was when my mind is quietest.
i then began practicing meditation, and whenever i clear my thoughts and recess into a clear thought-less mindstate-boom, voices.
>>708727556
Know that feel anon
I'm talking to this one girl who keeps going back to some fucking loser that just uses her for sex. I don't know why I still talk to her because of that shit. I know it's fucking pointless
>>708725768
Some of the greatest painters know that, over time, their works will fade, whether due to time's harsh embrace or due to newer works. This fact never stopped them from painting.
Some the the best authors know that, over time, their novels and stories will be forgotten with the constant change in parlaence and newer works. This does not stop me from writing.
Some great scientists know that, at some point, their theories and postulations will be found to be wrong. This did not stop them from trying to find the answer.
And, over time, they were found to be correct. Old art work is slowly forgotten, new literature rapidly replaces old, and science leaves itself in the dust time and time again, with nary a care for who paved the road it travels down now.
Our lives may have no meaning now, our effort may be forgotten, our works may fall to ash, but they still have merit. They still a reason to exist.
Romeo and Juliet has bred countless works, the scream has inspired thousands if not millions, and the medicine is slowly making people near immortal.
We may not last long, we may not be remembered more than a few decades, but that does not mean we can't make a difference.
TL;DR, People's effort may be long forgotten, and their works left behind. But what their works inspire makes them truly immortal. We may not be capable of making something that lasts forever, but perhaps we can inspire someone else to do so, even if our names are lost along the way.
And who knows, anon. Maybe we're both wrong. Maybe we CAN do something that lasts. won't know until we put it to the void and see how long it lasts.
>>708729745
never fall for a junkie man
theyre more fucked in the head than everyone else
My best friend of 8 years gave me a pity blowjob. We had never done anything prior to that.
We were really drunk and I told her she would regret it the next day.
The next day, she texts me saying we should post-pone our friendship to work on ourselves.
Girls are fucking cancer.
>>708720914
this isnt a cringe thread
>>708722618
>open up to
at least you've made it that far
>>708730298
You literally just have to work with them differently. the issue with you, and most people with issues akin to yours in this thread, is that you operate with these women hilariously bad.
you told her she would regret it? Way to set yourself up for the exact thing you're calling her cancerous for. Granted, she's a stupid bitch for what she did, you aren't the most intelligent for handling it the way you did as well.
just convey that it was nothing, why let one experience invalidate a near decade of friendship? If she cant resonate with that, she isnt worth trying to keep.
>>708728762
Why is hand-holding so fucking hard to get out of your head?
My girlfriend's best friend held my hand for a for a few minutes once. I have no idea why she did it as she was saying goodbye to myself and other people, but it stuck with me.
She's visiting today, too.
>>708724777
Trips of Truth
>Lack self respect
>Date a man twice my age
I hate myself more and more every day.
>>708730505
Damn I don't know why this hit me so hard
>>708728732
you mean the tumblr colony
>>708722239
Never forget Nicholas D. Wolfwood.
>>708730049
I'll admit, some of that was poetic but to actually think anything anyone does now will affect anything in the far reaching future is narcissistic. The one thing that's truly inevitable is that everything eventually fades out of existence. Non-existence is absolute and the only thing that will last forever.
>>708729018
Good luck man. Becoming spontaneously schizophrenic is something I'm somewhat afraid of myself. If you look up symptoms and ways to access help you should be able to figure out what to do next. Success rates for treatment if done earlier are supposed to be significantly better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qZ_WVsP9RkE
>>708726380
Weed causes auditory hallucinations. You could just be overthinking it
>>708720349
I think the sentence is just an in general thing.
>>708732944
>you're drinking bottled love now. You don't other people to drive away your loneliness, you just needed to find a way to talk to it
fuck anon
>>708728192
there's a lot of hype about this movie. personally i thought it was a waste of two hours of my life but maybe you'll like it
Does anyone have that green text about guy wishing he had the courage to say something to his girl best friend, but he never did and when she died, her diary said she wished she said something to him? Looks like it's being read by some anime character.
>>708720969
This is the first feels thread pic that's resonated with me.
I remember all the bullying when I was a little kid. I was rejected from the start. But I'm defective, and my peers have just done what comes naturally to them.
Just the way life works. Dealt a bad hand.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VpAwrkmzmp0
listening to this right now.
have "lift your skinny fists" coming on right after.
Thinking about going to sleep to it.
these albums perfectly encompass just how lonely i feel. Despite that they give me just a bit of comfort. Not that things will get better, but rather that I am not a lone in my loneliness. There are others out there like me.
We have a long hard journey ahead. The destination may not be good, but it was never about the destination.
>>708722869
No, it's not even a real one. The last one is "let's go exploring".
>>708720349
I'm aware of just how lucky I am. My parents love me. My sister loves me. I have some very close friends who love me. I have a home to stay in, a kinda shit home right now that we're working to get out of, but I got internet and my own room, so it's not completely terrible. I've graduated high school and two years of college, I'm in a rough spot a bit with getting a job but if I can get one I can help my family with financial trouble so we can put more food on the table and hopefully pay off some debts and then move to a new place, afterwards I'd like to go back to school. All in all, not a terrible life I got, objectively.
Yet all I feel is anger, sadness, loneliness, wanting something I can never, ever, ever have. Feeling unloved. Feeling worthless. Feeling like nobody cares when I know for a damn fact that many people do. Feeling like my life is shit when compared to many other people, it's not. It makes me feel guilty on top of just like shit. Guilty for being some self-entitled little shit who doesn't have it nearly as hard as others do but still finds time to complain about it. I hate myself for that. I absolutely despise myself for that.
>>708719944
>that feel when double dubs is wrong
"Honestly I'm just happy to be able to talk to you"-form my gf
shit is cash fam.
>>708720969
I know! I know, already! You don't have to remind me.
>>708714526
With her gone now this is how it is
>>708715122
Well fuck, that destroyed me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yDdO767XRxQ&ab_channel=Skyhill
"Just like fireflies
Briefly held, meant to be let go
Somewhere in the night
The words you spoke will always light an
Echo in my mind"
>>708721089
Ow. Ow. Ow. Ow.
It's 4 in the morning, and I am not sleeping anymore.
Oh, god, ow...
>>708721701
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUQuBBBzx-I
>arguing with yourself nearly daily to put off your next binge drinking session
https://youtu.be/kxiOvYY8igg
>>708711864
I had a dream last night where I was with a guy in my bed, cuddling and feeling so close to each other....and suddenly he stopped answering my texts, calls and started to ignore me.
It's funny because I've been single for a year and no dates whatsoever.
I'm a faggot and the first boyfriend cheated on me(I caught him with some underage guy in his bed) and the second beat me up because he's the ''leader'' in his house then broke up with me....
I was raised in a foster family, abused and bullied at home even to this moment, I was put on 6 different meds for depression , anxiety and bipolar 2, I was hospitalized once for a suicide attempt and then I was beaten up after returning from the hospital, I couldn't even walk and they did that to me....
Death feels like a relief to me, I'm sick of this world and I don't consider humans people ,they're worse than animals.
>>708736395
I cried
Fuck you anon
>>708734868
Me too, anon... me too
My mother killed my emotions and ability to convey emotion. She was an alcoholic and if she wasn't hitting me or yelling at me in a drunk rage, she was making huge promises she couldn't keep. Because of her I can't trust anyone on any level, I can't process emotion and no matter what I do, I can't be happy. I sedate myself with vidya and /b/. As a kid I wanted to be a helper, like a doctor, a police officer or something of the sort. I really wanted to make a difference but now, I find it an achievement if I can even bring myself to get through work every day. I've slowly grown to hate everyone around me and I'm just about done with this life.
if you love animals this will hit you in the feels
>>708715122
it was obviously sign language! what, his daughter never got that it was sign language all along? thats silly.
>>708715122
I like this Thai ad a lot too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fgvsqg9qTNs
>>708720901
This fucks me up
>>708721204
Fuck man.....
I'm so broken that I can't even cry anymore
>>708738327
>cheeseburgers and chicken
Ironic. You either care or don't care but only care about one others call you out for is insincere.
>>708728192
that animation breaks me.
I need that picture that says her, please /b/
Dam it this always gets me Rest now ugly
>>708719944
>tfw she says she loves you
>tfw you don't wanna hurt her again
>tfw you say it back because you're just too damn nice.
>>708737487
>finger pointing
everyone is going to die, anon. learn from mistakes and move on.
or waste your life assigning blame and letting that poison sit in your body.
>>708739855
People always ask for this, I got you
Anyone have the coffee shop story?
It was very long and never got a chance to read it
The only one that has stuck with me so far is the one OP has posted. Anymore like that?
>>708711864
Sure man, I got a story.
>Be 18
>Live in small town.
>Have few friends.
>Two of them are brothers
>Dan the older.
>Don the younger.
>The time comes for me to move away to a nearby city for work.
>I move away.
>About a month later go back to visit friends.
>Go to Dans house to visit them.
>Nobody home.
>Think nothing of it.
>Ask around town
>Nobody knows.
>Call, no answer.
>Shrug it off.
>Oh well see them next time.
>Do my visit with my other friends.
>Have fun then go home.
>>708740429
>Next morning at home.
>Phone rings.
>It is Dan and Dons dad.
>He tells me Don is dead.
>Him and his friend were driving and were rear ended by a drunk driver.
>I choke a little and say "What?"
>He says it again.
>Dan is too broken to talk to me.
>They ask me If I want to come to the funeral.
>I say I will.
>I come for the service and leave immediately after.
>There was too much sorrow.
>I go back to the city.
>Dan talks to me a month or so later.
>We never really re-bonded.
>I suppose two musketeers won't do.
>I still miss Don.
>I miss how he called me slim jim.
>I miss his dry wit.
>I miss his laugh.
>Never drink and drive.
>Never.
>>708728192
It's god tier.
Bump.
>>708738860
Ok i won't lie I almost cried from that
>>708728192
I liked it, it's slow but also weird and original
>>708740001
damn, anon got me bawling my eyes out over here
>>708740001
Its always the kittys that get to me QQ
This thread has successfully kept me on the verge of ugly crying for the past 5 hours
>>708740832
FUCK
>>708714658
>>708715210
>>708717737
>>708724202
>>708726363
>>708726363
>>708735648
>le feely feels when no le gf
This is the fucking reason why these threads are so fucking pathetic.
>>708740832
you fucker
https://youtu.be/ee925OTFBCA
i dont care if you dont like undertale i fucking cried the first time i watched this
>>708740001
Can you get any more sappy?
Shit like this kills any real emotions that I might have.
Because whenever you read through a genuine story of someone with actual sadness, you have it placed next to this fabricated facebook-tier garbage that tries to tell a moraility tale for kindergarteners apparently.
This is exactly what makes people cynics of the worst caliber.
>>708713004
I used to, still is a bit of a betrayal of trust, but I don't worry that much about it. She was a pain in the arse anyway and when you find a girl who never makes you worry life gets much better
>>708741935
i'm more fucked up about how powerless I am. just watching as everyone slowly dies to time.
seeing my brother/father when I look in the mirror just hurts.
I wish that I could save everyone, but I can't save anyone.
I would do literally anything, but it's impossible. I'm sorry.
>>708721089
Damn that hit hard
>be working too much to see friends over the past year
>they always complained about it
>had the past few months off
>they ignore me whenever I ask to do something
>we'd only do something when they want to
>feel like I'm just that outsider that's there for their entertainment
>started drinking again last night
I've always felt like the odd one out, the third wheel, but now I think I'll just stay alone for good
>>708742925
>I'm sorry.
How about you stop being an apologetic little bitch that feels guilty for things beyond his control?
>>708743484
how about not being a nitpicky cunt trying to pick internet-fights like the madbeta you are?
>>708743626
Stop being a fag and I won't bother you.
>>708743484
>>708743626
>>708743767
oi. no fights only feels
Try not to lose.
>Protip: You can't.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzQ6gRAEoy0
>>708724509
Youre full of shit anon
>>708744620
an instant classic
>>708729296
>overdosing while on lsd
Stopped reading right there
>>708724122
The scientific approach to death sounds very calming and relaxing. I always think to myself that, even if everything fails and goes shitty, I know that death will release me from all this suffering we call life.
>>708745112
>brain swelling
>>708721089
Shit, i hope the cunt got what he deserved.
>>708721204
fuck
>>708711864
>>708719944
Early morning of the 19th of June this year. My friends wife is in bed with me repeatedly saying "I love you" while nearly passed out as she's so drunk.
>>708721989
fuck im crying
>>708720844
Only feel i have here is that the baby has a pierced fucking ear
On my phone but I'll give it a shot
>14 years ago
>in grade 5
>I grew up in a rural area
>like nearest Township was 14 people
>take bus 2 hours into tiny ass county seat everyday for school
>every week for since grade 3
>I are am the outsider
>literally moved to this place from 2000 miles away
>talk different
>walk different
>everything is different
>same classmates every year
>I am THE school punching bag
>physical bullying ends is bloody noses for everyone
>the mind games, the false kindness
>that was totally different, evil
>tried to run away 5 times
>turned in my elderly neighbors
>begin to shovel cow shit after school for trespassing punishment
>wake
>Eat
>bullied
>shovel shit
>3 years
>one girl transfers to my class
>grade5/10 redhead
>she's nice to me
>shares her lunch
>I can't tell the difference between genuine kindness and not anymore
>cautious and wary
>my shit always gets stolen
>one day in art class I relax
>drop my pencil and bend down to pick it up from table
>get up, pencil case is gone
>redhead is laughing
>I kicked her in the shins and demanded it back
>she has no clue, innocent girl
>fly into tard rage, not falling for that
>jump onto table and punch her as hard as I can
>raid her things, crying now
>attack other kids looking for it
>last straw
>>708724814
Fucking this
Cont
>in tear soaked rage I scream I will tear the school apart and "murder everyone here"
>finally find guilty bitch
>clobber her with text book
>try to stab her with a yellow colored pencil
>tackled by teacher
>got detained
>got expelled
None of my teachers say they knew how bad the bullying was, just that I was always loosing things or took too long to use the bathroom. Sometimes I get letters from my old teachers
More or less functional now
But not really ok. I am broken.
>>708720808
Because your standards are too high
>>708743315
Fucking THIS. Cunts.
I have a life, too, you know. I can't go out whenever it fits around your lives, assholes.
Just forget them and move on to new friends. It happens anyway.
>>708747194
Where's the rest nigger.
>>708747733
sad days when the police care more about dogs than black people
>>708719792
My cat once sat on my lap
>>708747861
because the dog actually contributes to society
>>708747924
Thanks
>>708720901
I shit you not, I teared up.
>>708747733
Out of all the shit I've seen on this shit stain site... this gets to me...I have a soft spot for doggos.
>>708727958
>>708729431
Mfw i've been hearing a young girls voice say something just as i'm falling asleep, happens 1-4 times a month.
Also i sometimes see dark figures or floating distortions in in my view, like you know when you look at a fire and the air trembles, like that but a floatong ball.
These hallucibations happen only if i wake up at nigth tho.
jesus christ, i read like 3 posts in this thread and i already want to kill myself from sadness
how the fuck do these things happen to people...
how are people so fucked up
fuck man ... fuck
>>708748985
>only happen if I wake up at night
Sleep paralysis, maybe?
fuck this thread have picture of my doggo
>>708749444
Cute.
>>708749626
yep
also my dog looks like Doge
so have doge
>>708720808
the truth in this one holy shit..
I was in Beijing airport yesterday waiting for my flight home. This 10/10 Korean girl was sitting next to me and we got to talking. It was really such a easy and smooth conversation and she was really cute and beautiful. Then she asked where I was sitting on the plane and it was just 3 rows down from each other.
I went to the bathroom and coming back I saw her talking and laughing wiith this random guy next to her..
Hurts nr1
So I remember she said "I'll talk to you at the aiirport ok hehe?"
Flight landed.. I was walking really slowly maybe she'd call me and then we could talk again.
Nope.. Saw her with that random guy in front of me. Didn't even look.. fuck man I died..
>>708740832
I know I signed up for feels, but fuck me... This was the first one I ever payed much attention too. And it has me bawling every time..
>>708749444
Checked. Cute dog.
>>708720349
It's not really as simple as that BUT I totally get where you are coming from
The lonely anons who were never lucky enough to experience a relationship and the anons like myself who have just never had a good relationship get sad about it
Anons who seemingly have everything they want but are still suffering are the one who have it the worst
Misery is subjective my man
>>708749901
I used to be like that pic. But I slowly realized, especially having been brought up with just two sisters and my mother, that women are just bitches in general. Even the most loving and caring woman will more than likely leave you when the chips are down, at the moment where you're at your weakest, because they just want a confident, strong man.
Circling back to your experience, she just compared you and this other guy in her mind, and decided he was 'worth it' more than you.
Nothing personal about it, I'm sure. But yeah. Just remember that women aren't loyal. Save yourself from the heartache.
>>708750085
ty i have another but no real good pics of him
he's having a bath doe
>>708750258
normally i'd say this is what virgins who can't get girls always say but
Based on personal experiences with ex gf's and hooks ups... shit man this might actually be the only truth... fuck
>>708750355
My current girlfriend told me she'd dump me if I am not making six figures by 30.
I'm not butthurt, I'm just proud of her in that way. That's why I say that it isn't personal. It's just in their self-interest. She's still a bitch though.
>>708734834
You mean 30-45 minutes long scalding hot showers aren't the norm?
