This may be a shot in the dark. Feels thread. I started on yesterday about this time. It was good. Lets see if we get it going again.
Yesterday this time a few people came to the thread. It was a good atmosphere. We discusses my issues. Im here in the hopes we can all talk again
>am 17 yr old me
>first time with girl I've been friends with for 4 years
>we make out
>start to finger her
>she starts crying
>ask her why
>her mom just died because of als
>she drives away
>haven't spoken since
Maybe there isnt as many feels tonight. Maybe ill just sit alone as normal
>>708668674
How long ago anon?
around 3 years, no other girls interested in me.
>>708668981
Honestly anon. Just keep pushing on. Talk to girls and flirt etc. Eventually youll be okay. It may take some time but she will be worth the wait. I promise
Thanks.
>>708670923
Whats your story anon
my mother told me she had breast cancer this Monday and its been eating away at me since
Why does everything feel the same?
I sit and cry to myself how miserable I am. 23yo, no GF ever. Don't know how to talk to people. I think I built the highest wall.
>>708668049
yesterday was a good thread.
>>708671891
You remember me from yesterday i was Op?
>>708671794
I don't remember posting in this thread, what the fuck?
>>708671794
>>708672187
>>708671069
I recently caught up with my old best friend, I'm sure we both want to make plans to do something but neither has the courage to ask.
worth the read
>>708672471
It kinda cheers me up knowing, that there are other pathetic anons like me.
I've got a story for you guys.. It all began eight years ago when my childhood home burned to the ground. Insurance was dropped after the series of hurricanes in 2005 so we literally had nothing. It was the week before finals and I allowed this to destroy my high school career. But that's only the beginning. After a series of bad choices and repeated mistakes I found myself a drop out chef doing everything I could to get by, and I met the woman I believed would change my life, and she did. She gave me two years of unwavering kindness and joy, a beautiful daughter and the confidence to forsake my past and move forward.. I found out three weeks ago I found out she was cheating on me for the first two years of our relationship. We've been together for 3 and some change and our daughter is 2 1/2. I don't need advice or anything but you want feels you got em
"They all looked so damn happy to me.
Why couldn't I look like that?"
>>708672660
Just gotta stay positive anon.
>>708672581
Then ask
>>708672057
was something aabout your GF? right?
"We all go to sleep in the same place
And in the morning hope that we're all the same
Just sit around like broke down cars in the lot Waiting for repairs"
>>708672818
Yeah, sounds so fuckin' easy to ask doesn't it?
It's just not something I'm capable of, and I don't suffer from social anxiety or anything, I'm a very extroverted person. It's just that I've never valued another human being more and I don't want to fuck anything up.
>>708672772
Fuck anon im sorry
>>708672974
It was. All the anons got mad at me for being an idiot. I brought up the issues. We fought. And now we are kind of having some space but she is going shopping with a guy tomorrow
>My girlfriend of 5 years who I planned to marry and live my life with passed away in the morning.
>I feel devastated.
>>708673014
Honestly if this is true then no matter the speed you should be happy. If you wanna ask. Then ask. If you think its better to not then dont>>708673368
Fuck man thats rough
>>708673014
What made that thought about making plans pop into your head?
Now tell your friend the answer.
It's worth more to have a friend and eventually fuck it up instead of having nothing at all.
>>708673368
Sorry that happened man..
Lifes not fair sometimes..
>>708673368
I guess it all bites us in the end.
I'm sorry man.
>>708673620
>>708673844
>>708673736
Thanks /b/ros
Yeah, the only thought that keeps me standing is that I was with her yesterday, we watched a movie, ate together, hell, we even chose her christmas present. I managed to say goodbye, that's what I mean. It was so sudden, no one saw it coming.
>>708673954
This may be kinda autistic but keep going for her. Be the person she would want you to be. And i know its sad but id still buy her that present anon
>>708673323
damn that sucks. you know i can say all the cliche shit that people say, but the only thing is wait it out.
well sometimes i see a guy called Adonis in these threads, ill keep the trend going, ill be called Icarus throughout this story.
>be me 4
>new neighbors and their daughter lets call her sara
>immediately hit it off with her, we played everyday
>our routine was sandbox, tv, and her older brothers gameboy
>each day we got better at Adventure Island 2: Aliens In Paradise
>that game was our life, by the time we were 8 we could finish it with our eyes closed
>when i was around 6 i discovered my first fear, heights.
>sara convinced me to climb a tree
>i was up around 30 feet
>when i looked down i was scared shitless
>she was still at the bottom of the tree
>Told me she would climb after me.
>she yelled to me "Icarus why'd you stop"
>i yelled back "im scared"
>she yelled "ILL GET MY DAD"
>for around 20 minute i sat there hugging a tree looking down at her house
>i thought to things its cold up her? and what if she doesn't come back?
cont? it gets more depressing when we went to highschool
>>708673844
I'm a scum for letting her down. I've done quite the same as in your pic but I still think about her. I love her. I wish I had the courage to message her and tell her that I miss her.
>>708674136
That's what I think. She hated when I got upset or sad. Whenever she saw me in a bad shape, she got even sadder than me. So I like to think she watches me and that I should keep going so she can smile at me.
>>708668049
Hello darkness my old friend
>>708673954
You always gotta love who you have, cause you never know whats going to happen. Keep going on for her
If you can.
>>708674312
What happened between you? Why do you think you've let her down?
Hey guys I have something that happened today, it might be a long greentext so I want to know if anyone wants to hear
>>708671384
You do know breast cancer is neither contagious nor causes cannibalism, right anon?
>>708674312
at your pic. its the same way around. fucking whores
>>708671289
Yeah that killed me
>>708674584
It is inheritable unfortunately.
>>708674318
Thats the spirit anon. I wish i could say this in person but you seem like a pretty decent guy. No-one deserves whats happend to you. I wish it happend. But just keep loving and living for her. Youll see her soon enough
I notice whenever I get crushingly depressed I start to consume overly happy media. I'll watch Disney and romance movies, watch shonen anime, play Disney games and other happy stuff.
Could have worse vices I suppose
Yeah guys, listen to this guy: >>708674411
Love the people you are with, your parents, your brothers and sisters, your grandfathers, your friends, your partner. Because it could happen to you like it's happening to me right now. Even though I want to talk to my girlfriend now, even though I want to run to her house and hug her and ask for forgiveness for every mistake I ever made with her, I can't. She's gone. I'm never going to be able to listen to her voice ever again. Touch her face or kiss her cheek. I'm never going to be able to argue with her, laugh with her or cry with her.
/b/ros, cherish every moment you have with the people you love and love you, for it might well be the last chance you have before they are gone forever.
>>708674204
Thanks anon. Im just gonna ride this weekend out. Maybe write some. Listen to music. Hangout with friends etc. Gotta show myself i aint alone in this world
>>708674575
I was in my darkest days and met this girl online. She made everything better but depression and other problems made it still hard to even wake up. I even bought a ticket to see her during her summer break. Didn't took long until I decided to make plans to kill myself. It seemed like the best option to leave her alone. She needed me the most and I just kept ignoring her messages. I'm a Fucking piece of shit man
>>708674912
Thanks man. I know I'll get to see her again. I just have to wait. In the meantime, I'll make her proud.
>>708675100
But Anon, I am alone.
>>708674312
Message her.. I did to a girl
I used to like, we were never romantically together but we were good friends. I messaged her under bad circumstances, wanted to kill myself and sure it was a bit selfish but it pushed me to message her. We had a falling out and im glad I messaged her, she told me she missed talking to me and always wondered if I was ever doing okay.
Say it before its too late, what have you got to lose?
fell in love with my best friend, and i lost her because of that.
she was the only friendship that i ever felt it was real, i could tell her anything.
i don't really have any other friends in this city, i feel so lonely..
i don't talk to anybody outside class & work, and nobody texts me.
why am i such a faggot
>>708675398
No one really is. It might sound autistic as fuck but we're here with you brother. We are never alone, we just have to stretch out our hand and sooner or later someone will help us get up.
>>708675398
Why do you feel alone?
>>708674295
>when her dad comes back hes furious.
>he climbed all the way up the tree, grabbed me
>climbed back down and started yelling at her
>i told him "it was my idea"
>he was less enamored with my safety.
>he cared more about "teaching her a lesson"
>so in the broad daylight, he punched his then six year old daughter
>see her mother died from cancer when she was three
>her dad became an abusive cunt after losing her
>he was an alcoholic who went off the rails.
>he'd hurt anyone who loosely upset him
>he beat her in particularly around her chest and stomach, he wanted to make sure the scars didn't show.
>wish i had done more to help her then.
>He punched her twice more before he left
>i could only console her
>we hung out daily until 6th grade
>we began dating/hanging out with other people
>fast forward to freshman year at high school.
cont?
>>708675612
Someone will always help us, someone will always care. Even if its just some anon through a messaging board. Its someone.
Someone is better than no one
>>708675292
Have you tried talking to her about this? Or did you knot want your problems to be her problems?
If she's really worth it, she'd help you through it. You really don't have much to lose by telling.
Either she goes away, and doesn't share your problem or takes it on besides you.
>>708675686
Go ahead.OP is listening
>>708675560
Same exact situation as you man. Sucks fucking dick.
>>708675752
>>708675398
Exactly. You might not see our faces, but must people here are decent people who know what true sadness is. And a lot of these Anons have come out of the darkness with many lessons learned and are willing to provide comfort and understanding. That alone is priceless.
>>708674295
go on
>>708675752
This is what happend with me. Can confirm as before yesterday i was stressed and confused and hurt. No im upset but my head feels so clear. Just seeing the support and the way anons consoled and helped me has given me a new respect for this board
>>708675425
Funny thing is I'm planning to hero this weekend. She deserves better.
>>708675612
Some people have been through too many sooner or laters man.
I know I'm alone and I accept that. I've rushed through too many people to have any motivation to connect.
>>708674579
> be me, no friends
>this girl messages me on snapchat
>don't even know how she got it
>after talking about some stuff we decide to start a streak
>text for hours but never talk irl
>one of her close friends talks to me and tells me she supposedly like me
> think "yeah okay sure"
> start talking to this girl irl sometimes around campus
> her friend gets other people to convince us we should be in a relationship
>we text and call everyday
>find out she rejected a total chad because she's not looking for a relationship and tells me
>her friend says she's lying
> be today
>some Stacy tells this girl her big black dude thinks she's cute
>sitting in class right next to me talking about this
> she gets super excited and asks when he asked and all the details
> then theres me sitting there
> supposed to go watch her play her last volleyball game today
> im not gonna go
> fuck niggers
im really bad at greentexting sorry guys. Our conversations always get me happy and the way she talks she always seems in "awe" or in love, don't really know how to put it..
I just feel like shit
>>708676042
Least message her then, tell her everything you ever felt, or that you missed her. Say it before its too late, you never know till you do it.
>>708668674
should've raped her lmao
>>708676101
We are trying to reach out to you dude. Now it's up to you to take our hand.
18 yo kissless virgin
I never even tried asking a girl out because i'm insecure about my looks
>>708676028
>>708675993
As shitty as some people can be on this board and some of these threads, everyone gets sad and depressed, some of us still retain a tiny bit of humanity.
>>708675822
She knew and tried her best in helping me. No one ever tried to hard to make me smile. She still does.
Even my caring mother said to me Im not the same anymore
>>708676120
And you're gonna fucking give up? Are you fucking kidding. Go there and be there for her man. Im retarded and stuff but she messaged you. Maybe she thinks you aren't interested and so you need to show her
>>708671289
Fuck that's heavy shit. Glad we never had bullying that bad where I grew up. People we dicks but meh lads are lads and most of us were too thick skinned to be bothered by them.
what kind of music do you guys listen when the depression is getting the best of you?
cant contribute with any story, but i can contribute with some music to listen to. enjoy anons
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3SHdUOIfPag
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=saByo0PEAzU
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaSVkb_XLt4
>>708676217
It's not that I don't accept people's presence and companionship. It's just that I don't expect them to stay, and they don;t.
>>708676238
Anon, man up
You got this, what have you got to lose?
Don't complain if you haven't done it yet ;^)
Being insecure is a bit of a turn off for girls, ya gotta be confident. Easier said than done but you can say that for everything.
>>708672617
That sucks... Almost lost
>>708668359
Anon from yesterday reporting in
>>708676289
Honestly. I might try post more frequently in these feel threads cause today and yesterday has helped me and i wanna help other anons. Im here for all of you
>>708676433
Any self respecting man would not date a woman who considers race mixing.
>>708676204
OMG go away this is a feels thread
> met a guy I like
> known each other for a few months now
> seem to have everything in common, but not your usual "omg we're the same"
> we seem to just understand what each other feels - without saying, like, that shit you feel deep down inside that no one ever knows or could understand
> try to keep it friendly, less likely to lose a friend than a lover
> escalates to a romantic and sexual relationship
> he's 14 years older than me
> regretting it now, wish we kept it friendly
> not in a relationship but there's a mutual understanding of 'won't do shit with others'
> kind of wanna do shit with other people
> don't know how to tell him or how to go back
> makes me feel awful and trapped
>>708676366
Then it's time to pick up your phone and text her man.
You either keep your current life, of gain something.
>>708676536
Billy Joel
>>708676677
Thats the spirit!
Be here for others, even if they dont ask you whats wrong, just be there for them. Hopefully they return the favor to someone else
>>708676536
I like to listen to Brand New's "Limousine" because it always makes me happy af when the "beatuy supreme" starts. FeelsGoodMan.
>>708676676
Welcome back faithful anons. I might try amd do this as frequently as possible. So any free days i have between nine and ten. I will start a thread with the name Bane-Anon hopefully we can help eachother out through our shit
>>708676433
I know it sounds super autistic but she never talks to me, even when I go to places with her. Me and her went to a carnival and she ditched me, even at her games shell say "hi" and then leave, EVEN WHEN SHE ASKED ME TO GO. It just hurts to think she's probably embarrassed of being seen with me in public.
>>708676536
Will Wagner.
>>708676947
Sound good. I'll most likely be there fam
>>708676966
Treat her like shit. Women love being treated like shit. Tell her no and ignore her messages after opening them to portray the message that she isn't important.
>>708676677
+1 on that Anon.
Helping others overcome their problems always has me thinking that I can do the same. Keep it up man
>>708676781
SOUNDS LIKE THE TYPICAL SLUT , BE HAPPY SOME ONE CARES ABOUT YOU . WHORE.
>>708676966
Or maybe she just wants you too support her and maybe she just feels so comfortable around you that she doesnt have to fill the air of silence with bullshit
>>708676947
Bane-anon, are you the guy from yesterday who added me on kik and we talked about a girl?
>>708676966
Maybe you're her backup incase she gets bored or ditched herself? idk man.
>>708676238
It's alright bro, 19yr old gfless virgin. You just need to be in the right place and the right time. When you go to college or university or can start going out drinking is when you'll have your best chance and not have to worry as much.
Being stuck in one place with the same people will heavily restrict you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GifS4zwggE
>>708677270
Oh for fuck sake honestly just fuck off and hang yourself. I know this is a feels thread but your own fucked past and insecurities doesnt mean you can be a fucking cunt. Just offer advice or ignore it and help someone else
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IX4X2I4HQ7s
I lost the feelings for this threads after I started taking antidepressants, sadness was the only emotion I could feel properly and now it's gone.
Now I feel nothing and it's so empty... more than ever before but I'm still good at hiding it, nobody has "exposed" me yet, maybe that's why I'm so scared of letting people close to me, afraid they might see the empty shell of a human being that I am and leave me.
I just keep pretending, the sadness was addicting, maybe I'll feel something else someday, the day everything gets ok
>>708677303
Yes sir thats me
>>708677292
Id like to think that but we've only been talking for around 3 weeks now and only a handful of times have been not over the internet
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gyaG4oUYtaA
>>708676238
>>708677493
Pff, that's nothing.
21 (almost 22) kissless gfless virgin reporting here. Well unless you count online relationships real.
Battling with depression for almost eight years now. Have a perfect girlfriend who is very attractive and way out if my league. Yet I still have this feeling or need to cheat in her. Drives me wild. Makes me feel guily as fuck. Dropped out of college today. Feeling of no hope. Suicidal thoughts have been coming back recently.
>i'll never lose this pain
>>708677709
More than anything I've had with a girl, except the kissing part. I've at least done that I suppose.
Worst bit is I probably lost my best chance to have an actual good looking girl who was into me.
CBA explaining but I'm pretty sure a 9/10 girl was into me and I fucked it up by not being clear enough. I was too scared to move further with her.
>>708677270
You can't assume to know someone based off one story they give you.
I just feel like shit, and guys are just as slutty as girls. We both wanted it and tbh we both made the wrong decision, it just turns out that girls normally express their regret and end relationships.
>>708677583
Which one is your story anon?
>>708677651
Dude thats okay. Let things naturally progress and dont drop your speghetti and youll be fine. Just remember she is a person too and she approached you first. Youll do fine
>>708677583
Well honestly, you should tell him how you feel.
If you don't he'll get the feeling you two might be up for a long-lasting relationship and you pussying out in a month or even longer will make it harder for the both of you.
Just talk to him about your feelings - there's a slight chance he feels the same way.
>>708677425
thats what im thinking, just some other guy she can do whatever she wants with apparently.
>>708677645
How's stuff going? U told me that you were talking to her and it went a bit positive
There is a ballad, once written when this site wasn't autistic. The filesize is to big to post caps, but luckily, I was there when it was first posted, and I copy-pasted into a doc. This will be multiple posts long. I present, written by Anon McAnon himself, the Ballad of Ella:>be me, 19 yo college freshman
>this was 10 years ago
>i had this bro from highschool, pete
>we were friends, but not exactly bros. he was a cool guy, and i think i was cool to him
>turns out we applied to the same college and enrolled
>going to the same classes
>practically spending all of our time together
>away from you family, with your high school life behind you, things can get hectic
>yeah, you are horny teenagers with no real problems to deal with
>but you still need a friend you can depend on
>and we were that friend to each other
fast forward a couple of months
>second semester, we start taking this new class
>and there is this girl in the class
>not just us, but every fucking human being with a working dick in the entire campus is losing their shit over her
>ordinary straight girls are ready to become lesbians just for her
>i mean... man... wow... what an.. angel? a beam of light? deus ex machina descending from heaven? i have no fucking idea
>a value over 10 is a measurement that applies to us, mere mortals
>her beauty cannot be calculated or properly abstracted with numbers
>and looking at her is like something you know you shouldnt do
>not because its creepy or socially awkward or some other shit
>its because you feel youre not worthy
>not for her youre not. no. NOT HER.
>but we were looking
>turns out we first saw her practically at the same time
>>708677769
We never go back to the way we were, man. Just try not to think about that.
Why did you drop out and why do you have a feeling to cheat on her?
>>708677638
I've been on meds a while ago, but I stopped, because it made me feel literally nothing and I came to the conclusion that feeling anything, even if it is just pure sadness, is better than feeling nothing at all.
Also don't start cutting, that shit only looks good on girls.
>>708677882
Guy slurs and girl sluts are both bottom of the barrel. You will continue to find yourself in these terrible situations if you keep it up.
>>708677882
Im OP posting the feel images. Basically yesterday i started a thread about me and my GF and took the advice of anons. It has helped me but we are currently on break
>>708678083
Cont. Worth the read. Multiple feels warning
>and we wanted to point her to one another
>but we couldnt take our eyes off of her
>so we sat in some lousy economy class or whatever and drooled over her for half an hour
>before i whispered... "dude... fuck me..."
>and it took pete a solid 5 minutes before he could simply say "yeah..."
>there she was, this 5'9" lady with long wavy auburn hair and emerald green eyes to die for
>and pretty sure, to kill for
>sitting just a couple feet away from us
>yeah... so.. "fuck me..." was the correct response in that situation
>after the class
>to this day i cant for the life of me remember what the fuck it was about
>we were already orbiting her like some lousy asteroids stuck to a massive black hole
>creepily getting closer and closer to her as she sucked us in
>bumping to each other and walking like we were drunk and out of our minds
>i dont know what it was
>maybe she realized that we were following her like pervs
>or maybe it was something else
>halfway to the cafeteria, she just stopped and turned towards us
>we comedically bumped into each other and stopped as well
>but her beauty was so miraculous we forgot to look somewhere else
>i remember her gaze.. it was like the back of our heads blew open and brains splattered all over the hallway
>those green eyes man...
>and she smiled. SHE FUCKING SMILED
>if we werent healthy, fit males in their prime we would have died of heart attack at that moment
>we couldnt breathe she was so beautiful
>so there we were, still staring at her, our eyes and mouths wide open
>we were in our low, waaay low 2 digit IQs at that moment
>and there she was, in all of her glory
>like i said, 5'9", long wavy auburn hair, emerald green eyes
>long curvy and athletic legs, you know, slimmer at the knees
>well defined muscles on her calves and soft but rigid thighs
>her ankles were so elegant
>but her tendons were sprained... as if she were a wild gazelle ready to bolt out at a moments notice
>>708678016
To be honest with you man. Try and leave her be, she won't do you any good than giving you false expectation.
Find someone that wants to be around you and actually shows it. You don't have any time to be a side-character in someone else's life, tell that to yourself every morning.
>>708673368
Unlucky anon. Very sorry. However, you're not alone. I feel I'm in the same boat too.
>>708678422
What happened bro?
Even more cont. No tldr for you
>her butt... i cant call it an ass. not hers.
>ass is what girls have.
>this lady had something else. she had buttocks that required a new definition of the word
>they were so firm and so well shaped, you could perfectly calculate for pi if you took measurements
>her breasts... i dont even have the words
>to this day im still searching for the right words
>and i will try and describe them later in the story... but i will fail terribly
>i can still remember what she was wearing that day
>i know what she was wearing probably better than her on the day she wore them
>and i know this because pete knew this
>after she looked at us and smiled
>just for a few seconds which felt like an eternity
>she turned around again and kept on walking
>we just stayed put
>we couldnt follow her
>our black hole left us lonely asteroids to the pitch black emptiness of cold space
>so after the school, we went to our dorm room with no information about her whatsoever
>no name, no nothing
>just a mental image of her elegant stance etched deep into our minds
>i was looking at the pictures of random women with green eyes and auburn hair on yahoo
>that was the only thing i could do. but none of the images even came close to matching her beauty
>well.. pete felt like he had to do something
>and he fucking started searching for her clothes. i shit you not
>he was searching for her clothes on amazon and ebay and all these fashion and shopping sites neither of us knew nothing about
>he started with searching for her skirt
>which was this black wool-cashmere circle skirt with a playful flare at the bottom
>couple inches above her knees... revealing her thighs just a little bit..
>when he found it, he shouted "I FOUND IT FUCK YEAH"
>>708678058
Back and forth really. One moment im what she wants the next she is recommending a break up again. As previously mentioned we are having a break this weekend
This time last year I was top of my class. Now, I'm broke and spend what little money I do have on cheap red wine, separated from g/f through neither choice of our own, 3 months away from homelessness, complete loss of motivation and self-efficacy, falling grades, and pretty much at the breaking point. Feels bad man.
>>708677977
Anon the guy you replied to wasn't me (the one that posted the story) but I get you were aiming that at me. (RIP name tags).
I know what you're saying and ofc I should, I know I should. I hate hurting people and often live to please so admitting it is going to hurt both of us...
Unfortunately I know he doesn't as he has "visions" for us to live together and stuff. I just wish we had never done anything and stayed as good, awesome friends that way none of this would be happening.
>>708678227
Anon that hurts more than you know - stuck in that loop already I'm afraid and tbh I think I'm fucked. Sometimes shit happens to you and it messes with your mind and ruins parts of your life for good, and I think mine is probably romantic and sexual relationships.
>>708678238
Oh... I haven't been on /b/ for years. I stopped a long long time ago and was just on /f/ chilling, ended up here. What's your story?
>>708678577
Invite me to your kik group
>>708678509
Even though nobody's talking yet, fuck you. I'm dumping the whole thing, even though it's like twenty posts long.
>and i thought he had found "her"
>but when i saw what he found, which was this i dunno what brand skirt on amazon
>i was far from being disappointed
>i was feeling the same way
>we didnt know her name, but fuck if we didnt know what skirt she was wearing
>pete kept going with the search and i helped him
>at the end of the night, we knew what flats she was wearing, what shirt
>we even knew what brand her red, bow shaped hairclip was
>i mean... look, we are straight guys
>i figure im a 7/10, maybe 8, pete is an easy 8/10, pushing 9
>we are both fit, we dont have ugly pimples on our faces or anything, we are both very decent
>we are not short or chubby
>and altho we were not the most popular kids in highschool, we are definitely not social castouts either
>but that night
>we were more gay than a male fashion design student wearing pink dungarees and coming out of the closet singing YMCA
>and we knew what skirt she was wearing... so yeah...
>and before we went to sleep
>pete had an idea
>that motherfucker had the most excellent idea
>he knew he needed an extra something if he was ever gonna talk to her
>let alone date her
>so he decided he should start learning about fashion
>and use his knowledge as a conversation starter
>meanwhile, i was feeling like i could go to mars with a new apollo mission
>or save the world from a new nazi regime all by myself
>and still wouldnt be able to impress her
>i was a hopeless faggot
>next morning, the first thing pete did was to enroll in a class on fashion design
>pete didnt know if his tactics were gonna work
>pete didnt know if this magnificent creature would speak fashion with him
>but he had hopes
>meanwhile, we were both unable to speak to her
>we were a bunch of beta fags, scared out of our minds
>but we learned her name from a friend
>ella
>ella was her name...
>>708678577
Just follow your heart man.
If you don't think that all the trouble she is giving you is paying off, just leave her.
This might save you both a lot of hard feelings.
>>708678133
>sorry higher than heaven right now
I dropped out because the depression became too much. Normally the only emotion I felt was sadness, now that i'm taking cymbalta that's gone. I have nothing, I feel like I should be on fucking /r9k/. I stopped trying in classes and would usually just fall asleep. I did good the previous year with 4 a's and 2 B's. I just can't fucking take it. Still havent told my parents, still being charged $2000.
I feel the need to cheat because despite her beauty inside and out I am unfortunatly addicted to sex and always have been. We are practically married and whenever see a girl more sexually attractive I feel the need to form a relationship with them just to get in their pants. I'm such a fucking moron.
>>708678492
I've posted in these threads before so I'll make it short. My girlfriend of 4 years was killed in Leeds about a month and two weeks ago by some random piece of shit. It's been hard but I'm working through it. I feel like I've lost the want for a partner though. Damn I miss her so much.
>>708678730
>pete didnt want to waste his chances in leaving a perfect first impression with ella
>well, the first impression both of us have left was us standing in the middle of the hallway
>staring at her like we were retarded perverts
>but speaking to her was a different matter altogether
>i figured, if pete had no chance of talking to her now
>how could i?
>besides, pete was so in da zone, i didnt want to compete
>not that i could, or so i believed...
>fast forward a couple of weeks
>pete as a freshman knew more about fashion than seniors knew about economy in our department
>he was spending his nights browsing fashion blogs
>every night, he would come to our room, with a list of items she was wearing that day
>studying her taste in fashion
>pete told me that this could actually work
>since while a lot of the girls on campus dressed like trailer trashes
>ella was always amazing in her choice of clothes
>our room was filled with editions of vogue and GQ and shit
>couple of friends have seen our stash of fashion magazines
>and joked about it
>so we made a lousy explanation of how they were "quality fapping material"
>and got away with it
>one day, pete woke up and turned to me
>"i'm ready" - he said
>like neo saying "i know kung-fu"
>i said "show her"
>anyways
>pete decided that whatever she's wearing that day
>he felt like he could intelligently talk to her about her clothes
>after the economy class
>i wished him luck and we parted ways
>an hour later he found me
>i asked him
>"how did it go?"
>"i dunno man... i really dunno. i mean, i might as well done great or fucked it up completely"
>"why?"
>"look, we talked about fashion for an hour"
>"so, you talked for an hour, thats great man!" - damn we were beta fags
>"yeah, but what if she thinks that im gay?"
>i started laughing. pete had a point. straight guys dont usually talk about fashion
>certainly not about womens fashion
>suddenly, ella comes out of nowhere
>i froze
>be me
>be born in semi poor family
>3 older siblings a loving step father and a man hating alcholic mom
>step dad was a carpenter and I used to help him fix stuff in the garage and in the house while I was wearing diapers
>step dad left mom when we kids started to grow up
>he left mom because mom is crazy, same with dad
>grew up with many different step dads and loved a lot since mom basically needed a man to support her
>I'm really gratefull for all the men that decided to be part of the family even though it never lasted long
>A woman with 4 children and no job
>When we finally settled in that old house which we lived in for 4 years things got worse
>I had no dad figure and nobody to look up to
>my closest friends were my older siblings and the computer
>my siblings got friends, grew up and started partying and I was left alone with the internet and sometimes mom was home'
>I was born and molded by the internet and games
>it was my world and still is to this day
>now I'm grown up and suppose to take care of myself as everyone does, right?
>I'm 21, have no goals, no ambitions or motivation for anything
>the internet raised me
>I had no father figure, my mom was rarely there and there was a lot of drinking and fighting going on
>I wanted to be an evil scientist or a warrior
>I did nothing to accomplish this goal and still don't
>I don't know how life works, how to talk to people, how to make friends or get a job
>I'm just here by myself and I still feel like I did 10-15 years ago, like a kid
>I missed out on growing up and I feel like I'm getting nowhere in life
>I should have learned stuff when my mind was so young and moldable
>I'm not saying I'm old but I'm not a kid anymore and I just find it hard to get over that
>people say put the past behind you, but what am I suppose to put behind me? the little things I learned form growing up
>I haven't experienced or learned anything
>>708678946
Anon, my advice to you is that you learn to code, and get a job with some cyber firm.
>>708678863
Damn that's way harder than anything I've ever expierienced. It's great that you've been going on for 4 years already. Just keep your head up and show life who's boss.
>>708678577
Can you tell me what exactly she is doing? If she's trying to manipulate you into being her toy... m8... u have to cut full contact if it's that.. Otherwise the feels will get worse.. let's make a kik group.. add me.. and the anon who responded to u asking 4 him to be added in the kik group, it won't die like threads ik /b/ it can stay on longer, and you can talk to us anytime you need us
>>708678647
Fuck it for you i will go over it again.
Basically yesterday at nine i started a thread and bumped with a story of how for the past year of my two year relationship my gf has insulted me, hit me, spoke to other guys, used tinder, fucked one of the guys and called me boring multiple times and asked for breaks. Anons said i should break up. Me and her then had an arguement and i said goodbye to the thread. Didnt give full details of what was said in this arguement
>>708678647
>Anon that hurts more than you know - stuck in that loop already I'm afraid and tbh I think I'm fucked. Sometimes shit happens to you and it messes with your mind and ruins parts of your life for good, and I think mine is probably romantic and sexual relationships.
Just being brutally honest. You can turn it around though. Tons of great guys won't care if you slept a lot in the past. I'm just saying if you sleep around you will create bad situations. Whether it's an STD, fucked someone that becomes way too obsessive and attached, or fucked the wrong guy who is fucked up or has a jealous GF. It's not a smart lifestyle and there is a reason it's looked down upon.
>>708678863
Not anon who asked but thats rough as fuck, sorry that happened..
>>708678863
Sorry to hear that, man. Yeah, it's pretty tough. I don't know if I would be able to have a romantic relationship ever again either. I loved loving her. Now she's gone. How do you manage to keep it together brother?
>>708678928
>pete looked at me and understood that ella was coming our way
>"hey pete!"
>and i heard ella's voice for the first time
>she had a crackly, deep voice
>kinda reminds me of scarlett johansson now...
>a lot of people dont think that kinda voice is flattering
>but if you found me a soprano that sings agnus dei
>i would have told you "shut that woman up and let ella sing"
>"hey ella!" - said pete, his heart probably skipping a couple of beats
>"i remembered now... i got it from anthropologie..."
>i have absolutely no idea what shes talking about
>"oh thanks!"
>"dont mention it... its from last season tho, i dont think you could buy it for your sister. but they might have something similar..."
>"oh.. well, thank you for telling me ella!"
>"youre welcome, see you around pete!"
>"see you ella!"
>and we watched ella walking away from us gracefuly, until she disappeared in the distance
>still looking at her general direction, as if we could still see her
>"dude... your sister is 7..."
>"yeah i know..."
>"..."
>"..."
>"she is..."
>"yeah i know... magnificent..."
>a week later, pete had another idea
>in order to not look like a gay couple
>he suggested that we develop this "manly handshake"
>and establish that we are in fact, bros
>like a bunch of idiots, we stayed up all night
>working out this complex yet subtle (or so we thought) secret handshake
>our stupidity was at an immeasurable new height
>>708672617
Wow
I like this
>>708675686
please, we're here to listen, do go on
>>708679112
code what?
also what program should I use?
>>708675686
>first week of freshman year a chad was beating up some other kid weaker than him
>being the naive kid i was i beat Chad up
>This is what ruined everything
>My time in high school was average from then on, never a loser but never popular.
>in junior year i dated Sara
>Happiest i had ever been
>Steady friend group, and the girl i thought i was destined for.
>We were just as inseparable as the old days
>She lives with her uncle now,
>Her father was jailed for assault.
>We had been dating for about four months
>Dead of winter, my friends all avoided me on the Friday before a party in the woods.
>Went with Sara, immediately met by Chad, he starts by kissing girlfriend.
>I immediately throw a punch at him
>Chad has bulked since freshman year.
>he takes the punch and grabs my arm.
>Kicks me in the stomach, and im down
>he yells at me "ICARUS PISS THE FUCK OFF YOU PIECE OF SHIT"
>as i am on the ground he kicks my arm again and again.
>the other kids there get out from the forest and join him in kicking me.
>30 or so kids were beating me
> those who previously said they were my friends >and those that id never met.
>the last one to join was Sara.
>she turned on me just to cheat on me with chad
>I ended up getting 56 stitches, 4 broken bones, and 3 fractures.
>after around 5 minutes of this i was able to run.
>Chad hated me so much, he planned an event to kick the crap out of me
>got my girlfriend to date me just to make me feel depressed after he took her
>and took all my friends
>from then on i was alone
>not one friend or person would talk to me.
>Sara the one person i loved now laughed at me.
in the end all i am is Icarus the boy that went to close to the sun
>>708679118
No, it was a month ago. Not him, but thought I should point it out.
>>708676781
you seriously just need to be honest.
>>708678509
TL;DR
Guy and best friend go insane after this one chick and her girlfriend. Things get complicated as best friend and guy date the chick and her friend, eventually guy dates chick's best friend . The guy's best friend dates the chick until he cant take it an an hero. Guy devasted breaks up with chick's best friend and goes after real MVP chick. As they are dating they do adult things, until chick dies in car crash leaving the guy with a lovely note. Guy goes back with now dead chick's best friend and decides to marry this bitch. Ends with screenshot of the note. Your welcome, this green text takes like 45 minutes to read.
>>708678824
Did your motivation in the field that you were studying in die? Maybe you just want to go down an other path that you're more interested in?
Have you tried talking to her about it? I know it's not the most logical thing to talk to her about, but she should be made aware of it just to prevent potential fights. You could try out some supplements that kill off your libido a bit, might help since it's all hormones.
>>708679118
are you mentally handicapped? they were together for 4 years before she got ass blasted by some mudslimes. Shes only been dead 1.5 months
>>708679223
>pete has this "this is how i die" face
>im all goodbyeworld.jpeg
>ella's laughter finally dies down
>and we're looking at her like rabbits caught in headlights
>"guys... i know you're not gay" - and she starts laughing again
>pete looks like hes about to shit his pants
>and i dunno what it was, maybe i started losing my nerve
>or maybe it was like a chain reaction to ella's laughter
>i start laughing my ass off as well
>that "manly handshake" started playing out in my head over and over again
>and i began to imagine myself doing the handshake
>and realized how absolutely idiotic it must have looked like
>pete starts laughing as well
>all three of us are crying at this point
>now people are looking at us like wtf
>and that was how i met ella
>we finally sit down
>im still chuckling like an ape
>i extend my hand towards ella
>"hi, im anon"
>she firmly grabs my hand
>my god her hands are beautiful
>long, slender fingers embrace my hairy man paws like the branches of a delicate flower
>she has a very cold touch
>almost freezing, but at the same time its such an awakening feeling>i can feel the hairs on my forearm rising
>"hi anon, im ella" - she responds with a warm smile
>and an incredibly sharp, piercing gaze
>her spellbinding green eyes are filled with both an "i got you now" attitude and an older sisters love
>i melt
>"for how long have you guys practiced that stupid handshake?" - she asks
>we start blushing like 5 yo kids
>"all night..." - pete answers as silently as possible
>ella claps her hands and pops a loud chuckle
>"i knew it!" - waving her finger towards us - "you guys are insecure!"
>pete grumbles
>"oooohh.. its so cute!" - she puts on a funny face, pouting her spectacular pink lips
>im losing my grasp on english language right about now
>"well guys, i know youre not gay... but youre definetely homophobic!"
>>708676120
everyone gets excited when they here someone thinks they're cute. Don't let her reaction get you down.
Someone start a kik group and i will join (OP)
>>708679222
I just think about how sitting on my ass all day won't help her come back. I just focus on my job and surviving basically. Focussing on my job means I don't have to think about her. I still cry myself to sleep most nights but at least I'm not crying all day.
>>708679339
Jesus fuck, thats rough as hell..
>>708679331
Other Anon here, but it depends what you're interested in.
When you're using an app, device, hardware, software, website, whatever what pops in your mind?
>>708679339
Well thats the end of my story, i wrote it with a lot of emotion so im sorry if the english is a bit broken. Ill answer any questions, -Icarus
>>708679432
Iv'e always wanted to be a male nurse for a long time. Perhaps you're right though. I'm thinking of becoming a plumber. That could be interesting and you can go to trade school for that.
Talking to her seems like a tight rope to cross. She is a very jealous girl. She does however let me go out to the clubs and grind on other girls when she isn't around. It helps relieve some of the desire. Sometimes my hands lose control though.. could've went home with one gal. Pressured. But didn't.
>>708676238
don't worry about it bud, the right girl will come into your life when the time is right. Ur young, you have more important things to worry about than pussy. Work hard to get an education and you won't need looks, you'll gain confidence through success.
>>708679507
>"well... were not..." - i try to defend myself futilely
>"oh its ok, anon!" - she smiles - "i can understand that feeling"
>pete must be losing his mind.. he just sits there, trying to find a way to regain his composure
>"oh come on pete, i know you would feel uneasy, talking to me about fashion"
>pete looks shocked
>he doesnt understand how he could be sidelined so bad
>"but..." - he tries to make a case (which i assume he has none)
>"its really ok pete. i can sense that you have been working on "fashion" (makes a fingerquote) for some time"
>ohfuck.gif
>our jaws are sweeping the floor
>"how..." - pete mumbles
>"seriously, i know about your fashion class, and your room full of fashion magazines"
>ella winks at pete
>im about to lose my shit
>pete looks like hes shot by a cupids 50cal machine gun
>hes crushing hard, madly in love
>"how did you know?" - i ask, since pete cannot come to the phone right now
>"well... first of all, i have a friend in pete's fashion class"
>"and also, some of your chums were talking about your stash and i overheard them"
>pete silently mouths "fuck me..."
>"but most of all, pete, i can see that you are new to the fashion world"
>"where did i go wrong?" - pete must have been losing his hope at this point
>"well, a fashionista... how can i put it... must look more fashionable, dont you think?"
>ella was right. granted, pete didnt walk around wearing shitty flip flops and baggy sweat pants
>but he wasnt actually a fashion icon either
>pete looks like hes about to burst into tears
>"besides, your fashion sense has no context. a person who is deeply involved in any subject always speaks in some form of context"
>as ella talks about pete's failure, i feel both incredibly sad and incredibly turned on
>maybe im not from a family or a place where there were a lot of smart women around
>and maybe i was just a dumb homophobic or maybe even sexist fuck
>>708668049
https://youtu.be/4m_8TBZDDKY
>>708679175
Sorry anon but I know I've been a bitch to my partners and regret everyone I've hurt but she sounds awful...
You should break up, you really really should. Once you get out of that cycle of abuse and neglect you will feel so much better. She will never treat you right.
I often just ask myself the question "do I want to be with this person for the rest of my life?" if the answer is no, end it as soon as you can to make it as painless as possible.
>>708679176
I haven't slept around though that's the thing. I've had many partners but not necessarily sexual ones. I don't really see it as... well I'm not "omg I want to fuck every guy" I just hate feeling trapped. I broke up with my ex because I wanted to stop that feeling, and unfortunately with this person our friendship has become something more - and I should have tried harder to avoid it.
STDs are bullshit and people should just use contraception to keep them safe.
I guess I should add for the record that yup, I was sexually abused as a child, and yup that guy got away with it and yup it damaged me. It doesn't affect me actively (I don't think about it) but you know what? I think if things happen to you as a child it can alter the way your mind thinks and functions permanently.
>>708679993
Were you the one who posted that yesterday as well?
>>708679910
>no matter the situation, ella was always the one you looked at first
>but yeah... nicole was a bombshell too
>and she was something else entirely...
>4 of us started hanging out together
>started going to the parties
>hanging out after school
>going to the movies
>and slowly, nicole and i got very close
>she had an amazing sense of humor
>knew a lot about subcultures and shit
>finally, after a night out together
>pete and ella decided to go to ella's room by themselves
>turns out ella's roommate was back at home for a family emergency or something like that
>and nicole and i kissed
>soon after, we officialy became a couple
>after what felt like an eternity, i wasnt interested in ella that much
>it felt good, not feeling like cheating on my bro
>nicole was amazing in bed
>in all things related to sex, she was a dream come true
>the fantazies she was into were mind boggling
>the things she wore to turn me on
>stockings, garterbelts, schoolgirl outfits
>surprising me with wake up bjs after a long night of sex
>OHLAWD
>some nights i would think, how the fuck am i supposed to regain my sexual appetite after this
>a couple hours later, there she was again
>wearing something ridiculously sexy
>doing things you could lose your mind for
>the places we fucked
>and the positions we tried were pure pornographic shit
>it felt like half of my daily diet was being used for producing semen
>she wouldnt use condoms
>NOSIR
>"wheres the fun in that?" - she asked me the first time we were about to have sex
>she sucked my dick like a vacuum and swallowed everything
>smiling like a sassy high school girl
>always wanting more and more
>good thing i was fit and young
>you cant do some of the things she asked for when youre 29
>i would eat her out until i couldnt feel my tongue
>the girl was a queen of multiple orgasms
>there was no stopping until she said enough
>her sexual needs were so immense, i had a hard time satisfying her...
>>708680117
>i was scared shitless if there would come a time when im simply not enough
>but...
>she was loyal and honest as fuck
>never even flirted with the other guys, let alone cheat on me
>i was really skeptical at first
>its a complete opposite of what you would expect
>i somehow raised the issue with a delicate yet curious manner
>i was treading lightly
>didnt want to offend her
>"youre mine anon, and im yours" - she told me
>"nothing will change that until such a time comes that we both decide otherwise" - she would furiously declare
>if there ever was a woman made out of wife material
>nicole was the ultimate prototype
>her understanding of a relationship was beyond belief
>and her connection to me was unbreakable
>she was so incorruptible
>she would straight up hit the guys trying to chat her up in their faces
>"you come near me again and i swear to god i will use my entire boyfriend like a retractable baton and fuck you in the ass with him"
>thats an actual fucking quote i heard her shout at some poor kid
>HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.
>and there i was, standing like a beta fag who has just won the lottery
>my diamond hard dick pulsating to her commanding voice
>then she kisses me like there is no tomorrow
>finds an empty room in a house full of partying people
>hangs my sock on the door knob
>and fucks my brains out
>yeah... that was nicole in a nutshell
>so i have never imagined there would be trouble at the paradise
>but come summer time, something else happened
>my dad asked one of his old friends in LA for an internship position on my behalf
>his friend accepted me to his firm
>and while everyone was having a great time
>i was supposed to work at the accounting department of this design office in LA
>this meant that i wasnt going to spend my summer satisfying nicole
>or doing anything fun for that matter
>before she went to the airport
>>708680076
Thanks.
Right anons kik group is live come one come all for a continous feel thread
>>708679553
idk man, to me it seems she was excited like she has been wanting to hear.. he didn't even know her name, he just said "who's that short girl, she cute" to top it all off this guy is messing around with 3 other people I know and probably more
>>708680271
>i quickly broke out of her spell
>i had to
>"so.. where are you off to ella?"
>"oh.. im leaving tomorrow morning, off to see my parents in LA"
>WUT
>"ummm... we might be on the same flight.." - that was the most sexually neutral thing i could think of at that time
>"you serious? what are you doing in LA?" - ella asked with a delighted curiosity, her big green eyes glimmering with excitement
>"i have this job my dad arranged for me.. im not exactly going there for a vacation" - i pout
>"awww.. dont worry anon, ill keep you company, it will be fine i promise" - cheerfully reassuring me
>my heart skipped a beat
>before i could say anything
>"oh! look at the time, i gotta go now, but hey, see you in LA, if not earlier!" - she winked at me
>she waved and started walking in the other direction
>after mumbling some non-intelligible verbal expressions like "hey.. ye.. wut.. oh" i waved at her
>and watched her disappear around the corner
>and as i was trying to make sense of what just happened, nicole's teary eyed face kept coming into my mind
>i felt like a complete asshole
>what the fuck am i so excited about?
>i mean... ella is my bro's gf
>shes bffs with my gf
>what the fuck am i thinking
>why am i suddenly feeling awkward again?
>i tried not to think about it and started walking away
>next morning was even harder for me
>we were on the same bus to the airport
>and when it was time to check in to our flight
>we were side by side
>naturally, you cant ask to be seated elsewhere when the person youre trying to avoid is right next to you
>i couldnt believe that i was thinking about being seated elsewhere too
>ella was not only a friend
>she was also the one person i had to think of almost as a sister
>>708680357
add francesca_aurora
just my catfish acc from years ago. Ill linger for a bit
>>708680414
>this is torture
>pete's voice is ringing in my ears
>"i love her man, i fucking love her" - the time he told me at a party, watching ella from the other side of the room
>with an admiration and love i havent seen before on any mans face
>then i remember nicole again
>and the discernment and the loyalty she has displayed time and again in the face of temptation
>i felt like shit
>concentrated, wc clogging brick of a shit
>an excruciating hour later she woke up
>she blinked her eyes rapidly as she tried to sober up
>and yawned and stretched
>i was losing my mind to the sight of her delicate body
>as every muscle on her body vibrated and contracted
>i was trying to force myself to look away
>not notice her
>but i couldnt
>she looked at me with her sleepy green eyes
>"oh, sorry anon... i get very untidy in my sleep" - she chuckled
>"no worries.." - i tried to match her chuckle nerveously
>shortly after that, we landed
>her parents came to welcome her
>she introduced me to them
>they were nice people, really warm and welcoming
>her mom, after learning that i was gonna be alone in LA
>invited me to their place
>i kindly declined their invitation, telling that my father has already rented an appartement for me
>"well, next week, you must at least come have dinner with us then!" - ella ordered
>"ok then, deal" - i accepted her offer with a million questions and ideas racing in my mind
>shortly after we parted ways, i called nicole and talked to her for an hour
>trying to remind myself of who i am
>and texted pete, telling him about how ella and i were on the same flight to LA
>i hated myself for feeling that an explanation was necessary
>"hey pete, dont worry buddy, my dick wasnt fully erect the whole time she was sleeping on my shoulder" - sorta thing
>"it got hard only when she started stretching her muscles... its aaaiight.."
>FUCK...
>>708679824
I feel so sorry for you dude
>>708668674
>am 17 year old me
enjoy your ban. see you next year.
>>708680414
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>>708680531
Is anyone here reading this, cause if not, I'll stop
>>708676781
okay well I just texted him and fucking told him how I feel
>>708680745
no, I'm reading.
>>708668049
>Be me sleeping
>Have dream Mum was killed with an axe
>Tell her about it next morning
>"Why you didn't try save me, anon?" "No mum you were already dead"
>"...Good to know my son wouldn't save me" *mum walks away*
Why /b/, why am I even a disappointment to my mother in the dream world?
>>708680528
Not real soz pal
>>708679857
It's not worth spending life doing things you don't really want to be doing man. If you think you're going to be happier with plumbing then go for it. No one else should decide how attain happiness but yourself.
Well she should be able to understand what you go through though, just explain that it's all about hormones and that you don't really want to replace her for small bit. It's all about how you convey it. I really do recommend the libido decreases if you really fear of cheating.
>>708679398
I'm not the dumper, but it's worth the read.
>>708680745
I'm reading
>>708680745
Reading
>>708680745
i am
>>708680798
Kool
>>708680531
>i settled at home
>met people at work
>its boring but its ok
>im in LA, lots of things to do
>lots of free time when im not working 9 to 5
>and its only part time so i only work 3 days a week
>a week later ella picks me up from work
>and we go to her house like i promised
>everythingwentbetterthanexpected.jpeg
>her parents are really cool
>lots of drinking, talking, joking around
>she has a younger brother, jake
>he is 11
>he is a nerd but he is handsome in the same way ella is beautfiul
>fucking little man is on his way to become a motherfucking 10/10 alpha
>i start talking to him
>we hit it off really well
>i start playing vidya with him in his room
>ella joins in
>im like WUT
>turns out ella is a hardcore gamer
>then the feeling returns once more
>ella is sitting between me and jake
>and im trying to hide my boner under a n64 controller
>feeling like im cheating on nicole again
>i start drooling as she kicks our asses in mario kart
>"oh well..." - ella rubs jake's head
>and she turns to me and winks
>"i dunno what you guys were expecting"
>i forget how to speak english as i see her smug face next to mine
>her piercing green eyes
>her sharp, pointy nose couple inches away from me
>her cheeks, red like apples after the rush and excitement of the game
>tiny drops of sweat rolling down on her delicate neck
>my mouth is wide open
>she starts laughing when she sees my dumb as fuck face
>"i only play adventure games anyway, monkey island and such..." - i try to bail out
>"oh is that right, mr. threepwood?" - ella teases me
>OMFG im about to drop dead
>her mom calls us for dessert and coffee
>i stay for another hour, then her dad drives me back to my place
>next week, she called me and asked if i wanna hang out
>i was afraid of how fast i responded "yes!"
>>708680757
Say whatca want before its too late
>>708680818
eh fuq it, too lazy to recheck lol np
>>708680414
Don't stop im reading
Only hugs I need are from my warm bed, too bad I can only use it for 6 hours since I can't sleep at night and I have to wake up early in the morning.
>>708680944
What'd be great is if someone could post a pic of the game and note. I saved them, but they got lost and probably deleted when I upgraded my rig.
>she showed me the sights
>we went to her favorite places
>eating ice cream, hanging out in cafes and shit
>about a month and a half into my stay in LA, i met a couple of her old friends
>i could easily see that some of her high school boys were still in love with her
>losing their minds over how lucky they are to see her once again
>some of them even eyeballed me before ella told them that i was just a friend
>"just a friend" - she said
>and for no reason at all, i felt as if my heart imploded
>whats wrong with what she said?
>yeah, ofc i was just a friend
>it wasnt like i was friendzoned or anything
>she had a bf, i had a gf
>so i was just a friend
>but i was heartbroken nonetheless
>we decided to go to the beach next week
>so next week, 5 of ella's friends and i were at the beach
>9/10 - 10/10 girls with slutty thongs all around us
>everyone is like who gives a shit
>i was the only horny fuck checking out every piece of ass around us
>ella was wearing these loose summer pants and an old XL white shirt
>we find a nice spot
>get settled
>then ella starts taking off her pants and shirt
>.......i force myself to look elsewhere its so painful
>i shit you not
>every fucking person within a 50 feet radius starts looking
>10/10 girls with tight asses and big tits starts cringing
>i can see how jealous they feel
>men are hnnnggg
>then i say fuck it
>i will have to see her body eventually
>no escape
>and i look at her
>just a pair of jet black bikinis
>in them, the most unquestionably beautfiul woman there ever was
>her wavy auburn hair streams to her broad but willowy shoulders
>sharp sunlight is glimmering on her bright green eyes
>her face is already tanned
>reddish spots are formed over her soft cheeks
>her petite pink lips
>and her sharp, small diamond chin
>>708674295
Took the liberty of turning it into a PNG
>>708680813
The first mistake your mom made was not ask you why you had the dream man.
Your answer was good considering she wanted to make it about herself.
Stop trying to prove yourself to others, instead spend your time on actually improving for yourself.
>>708681159
>both moisturized by tiny droplets of sweat
>the elongated and tender tendons on her neck line flows
>to the most beautiful and deep jugular notch
>surrounded by her sharp clavicles
>and then i see them...
>i dont think ive ever seen such breasts before
>not with my own eyes
>not in pictures, not in real life
>slightly bigger than plump greyfruits
>and smooth and solid as if they were carved out of marble
>they stand at attention
>amused by the incompetence of frail gravity
>her small nipples, mildly protruding out of her bikini top
>like searchlights, pointing way up into the sky
>my eyes hover over that sight for a few seconds
>and admire her chest like they have seen the most beautiful work of art ever created
>then i look down
>see her belly
>she has a set of lightly defined muscles surrounding her tummy
>her waist is lean
>and forms a very elegant and gentle hourglass shape
>as they connect to her curvy yet tight hips
>another piece of black cloth covers the magnificent V shape
>the sight of a barely concealed bulge on the cloth stops my heart for a second
>it is an unbelievable awareness, knowing whats behind that cloth
>there is a small opening beneath her crotch
>and i can see the sandy beach in the background from between her legs
>as the lengthy muscles on her thighs expand and contract
>and shiver and vibrate to the warm breeze of cali
>her small knees play around
>and her lower legs keep to the pace
>as the tanned muscles around her tibias enjoy the sunlight
>her feet dig shallow spots in the sand
>tip of her toes curl and point
>her heels ascend out of the sand and dance in the air
>ella. words are empty...
>my eyes were fixed on ella
>ella looks at me
>she leans in with a funny smile on her face
>her youthful breasts come closer to my face than ever before
>"you are staring anon!" - she says calmly while giggling
>my face turns into a mexican tomato plantation
>>708680357
Id like to be part of it, ill use my account that I mess around with my friends, add me please
threads like this have ruined me. i've lost all interest of interacting with the opposite sex after reading what some fellow anons have been through.
i think i'll leave and die alone /b/. i don't much enjoy the thought.
>>708681293
>she walks by me towards the ocean
>looks back with a smile warmer than midday sun
>"you coming?" - and runs into the luke warm water while bouncing her perfect fanny
>"i... im.. in a minute, yeah..."
>i wasnt about to display the biggest tent of my life in front of everyone
>she voices a snappy laugh and starts backstroking away from the beach
>i sit there and start reciting the multiplication table
>as if i was with nicole in bed, trying to delay the inevitable
>moments later i join her
>"um... sorry about before" - i apologize sheepishly
>"haha! dont worry about it, you should have seen pete's face when he first saw me in my underwear"
>mfw ellainsexyunderwear.jpg
>and we're back to where we started. good thing my tent is now underwater
>i try to speak but all im doing is keeping my mouth open without saying anything
>ella is laughing hysterically
>"are your serious anon?"
>"s-s-serious how?"
>"are you seriously thinking of me in my underwear right now?"
>"it.. it comes and goes" - WHAT THE FUCK AM I SAYING
>ella laughs and splashes water to my face
>"come on underwear boy! swim!"
>she starts swimming
>i have nothing else to do but follow her
>few moments later she stops swimming and turns to me
>"hey.. did you call nicole? you guys talking, yes?"
>BUZZ KILL!
>"yeah.. why?"
>"good. you keep doing that. than you can imagine me in my underwear all you want"
>"..."
>she chuckles like a prankster and starts swimming back
>my mouth was like a keyboard with coffee spilled all over it
>i followed her back to the beach
>i spent the rest of the day thinking about nicole
>thinking about pete
>and thinking about ella
>i really didnt have to think about ella, since she was suntanning her gorgeous body next to me
>before everybody went home
>ella asked me if i wanted to hang out with her next weekend
>i accepted, naturally
>after i went home, my dad called
>>708676781
here goes nothing
>>708681420
Dont do that -Adonis
>>708680528
Add wuffen
>>708681478
>told me to get ready for a trip
>wut?
>yeah... apparently, i was supposed to go to hong kong
>turns out, my dad is more connected than i previously believed
>i had just a week left to spend in LA
>then it was time for hong kong
>after i spoke to my dad, pete called
>his voice was all fucked up
>told me that ella broke up with her a week ago
>0___________o
>i switched to bro mode and started calling ella a bitch and whatnot
>"dude.. stop.." - he said calmly
>?
>"she was right. this wasnt going anywhere..."
>"how.. what?"
>"look anon, i have nothing that i can offer to her" - pete started explaining
>he told me how ella was smarter than him and how it wasnt about sex or being an alpha and all that shit
>basically like everything else about her, ella was not exactly your usual sorority girl
>she was in her own alpha-omega-fuckyou club
>and pete had nothing more than 4 months worth of fashion class and a few dirty jokes to show for an admission
>"anyways... thought you should know man. take care" - and he hung up
>i was terrified when i realized my first thought was
>"now what do i do with nicole?"
>and my next,
>"what the fuck am i supposed to do in hong kong???"
>next week, i decided to ask ella about what happened before we went to the museum
>we meet
>kiss&hug
>"sup anon!" - shes cheerful as usual
>"sup ella... so... pete called me"
>her head becomes apologetically heavy
>"sorry for not telling you anon, didnt want you to think less of me before speaking to pete first"
>"why?"
>ella looks at me, feeling stuck between her friendship with me and my friendship with pete
>"wasnt working anon.. things dont always work out. what did pete say about me?"
>"only good things"
>"what did you tell him?"
>"me? i was just.. trying to be a bro i guess"
>ella pouts
>"sorry for putting you in that situation"
>this is the first time ive seen ella unable to drive the conversation
>>708681497
congratulations on being sincere.
You did the right thing fam
>>708681420
There are more good stories untold than there are bad ones told, man.
People rather remember all the negative ones, don't worry.
>>708681420
>>708681567
i agree with Adonis, try to find someone right for you, Sara wasn't right for me, but i didn't give up because of that. -Icarus
>>708681628
>she looks way too submissive
>i feel bad
>"hey look.. its ok, its not my place to say anything" - i try to comfort her
>ella looks at me, almost waiting for my approval
>then i say
>"lets move on, shall we? besides, we have a date" - WUUUUT
>ella blushes
>i realize what ive just said and how it might be so easily misunderstood
>"ok.." - she doesnt push it and saves me from my own demise
>we get inside the natural history museum and start wandering around aimlessly
>without talking
>couldn't tell her that i was leaving for hong kong 2 days from now
>both our minds are elsewhere
>we get to the prehistorics section
>see the dinosaur skeletons
and no, they DONT WALK
>then we get to the early humans or some other stuff i dunno
>i dont remember why but we stopped in front of this neanderthal skull on display
>we just look at it
>kinda reminds me of something
>"you know.. this looks somewhat familiar.." - i say without looking at ella
>ella doesnt say anything at first, but then
>"BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
>she loudly cracks an evil laughter in the middle of the fucking hall
>she looks at me with a funny evil face
>with a crackled, badly impersonated manly voice
>"i am a powerful demonic force! i am the harbinger of your doom! let me hear you scream in terror!"
>X______X im melting right now
>i remember
>she gives me a warm smile and starts laughing
>i remember why that skull looks so familiar
>SHES FUCKING DOING MURRAY FROM FUCKING MONKEY ISLAND 3
>mylifeiscomplete.jpeg
>everyone is looking at us like wtf is wrong with these people
>i get so excited my hands start shaking
>"oh.. i think i did it a bit too loud" - she whispers as she keeps chuckling
>"you.. you played mi3?" - i ask her stammering
>"oh i love it anon!" - she grins
>"..."
>"i figured you would remember murray, you being the adventure gamer and all"
>i have nothing to say
>at that moment, ella stopped being a crush i could hardly admit to
>>708681342
Done boss
So a girl from my university likes me, she's alright looking 6/10 but personality and interest wise she's a basic bitch, I've been in love with a girl from my ex hs class since well hs, she used to like me too (hopefully still does), she gets back to town every few months and i see her like 3 4 times an year but I always go spaghetti around her, she's also ok looking and kind of boring too. Thing is the university girl will probably ask me out or something before the hs girl gets back and me being the beta virgin I am will panic, should I go with the basic bitch or drop my spaghetti in front of the girl i've been liking for years ? Something's bound to happen but i can't decide, don't wanna blow my chance with the HS one but at the same time rejecting the Uni one will destroy my back up plan.
>>708681420
Between me and a girl
who matters to me, not all girls are selfish or anything like that.. you just gotta find the one
>>708681804
>and turned into my lifes goal i have no idea what to do with
>we started talking about monkey island
>then full throttle
>indiana jones and the fate of atlantis
>all lucas arts games
>old school adventures
>we were cracking jokes
>impersonating key characters
>acting out funny moments
>it got to the point of singing theme songs
>thats when we realized we are sitting next to a prehistoric animal
>in the middle of the museum
>talking about weird games and such like nerds
>security is giving us funny looks
>we laughed about it and decided to leave
>it was getting late, sun was about to set
>"hey anon, come home with me. have dinner with us again!" - ella grabbed my arm and asked me cheerfully
>"id love that!"
>and we went to her house once more
>her parents gladly welcomed me to their home
>jake was in a summer camp or some such
>during dinner, all we could talk about was games
>and anime, comics, the whole nerd nine yards
>her mom and dad were giving each other smirky looks
>i didnt care
>i was losing my mind
>ella... the perfect girl...
>ella invited me to her room
>and that was the first time ive seen ella's room
>anime posters on the walls
>cute bed sheets with girly flowers and stuff
>A WHOLE FUCKING BOOKCASE FULL OF VIDYA
>her neatly folded clothes everywhere
>a full repertoire of fashion pete studied to understand for a whole semester
>a cute and girly elegance
>and a hardcore and tomboyish geekdom
>the best of both worlds, if there was ever such a thing
>"...im at a loss for words" - i declare with my mouth wide open
>ella chuckles and playfully punches my shoulder
>"shut up.. what were you expecting? wall-to-wall posters of some boyband?"
>"hahah.. no, i.. i love it.." - i look around with a huge grin on my face
>"good. now im going to beat your ass in mario kart again. sit down"
>as she forcibly seats me on the floor and in front of a small tv
>>708681497
If he respects you, he'll be okay with this.
>>708682037
>she kicks my ass in mario kart again
>we switch to SF
>she kicks my ass yet again
>next we try split screen 007
>and guess what.. she kicks my ass again
>she fires up the PS and starts showing me MGS
>ive never played MGS until then, yeah dont judge ok?
>she starts telling me about the story, going crazy excited
>shows me the controls and starts watching as i fumble around
>laughs at my stupidity and ineptness every now and then
>i play and play, lose myself, immerse myself in the excellence of MGS
>then i pause the game
>and realize that she has fallen asleep with her head on my shoulder
>her sweet vanilla and berry scent filling my lungs once more
>she looks peaceful and happy
>i quit the game and put down the controller
>i gently embrace her exquisite body
>putting my arms behind her back and under her beautiful legs
>the thin veneer of her skirt rolls back, revealing her thighs
>i carefully carry her to bed
>tuck her in
>just look at her and appreciate her unbelievable beauty for a moment...
>its 3 am, her parents must already be asleep
>i dont have any way of returning home
>i turn off the tv and the lights
>grab a pack of neatly folded tshirts and use them as a makeshift pillow
>and curl up on the floor
>its hard to fall asleep, the floor is too uncomfy
>i hear shuffling behind me
>i figure she must be turning around in her sleep
>then i feel her hand on my back
>then over my shoulder
>and she rests it on my chest, pulling a thin sheet of blanket over both of us
>her small feet play around and curl up next to mine as she spoons me
>i grab her cold hand and press it firmly against my chest
>she mumbles and plants her face to the back of my neck
>and i fall asleep, madly in love
>next morning when i woke up, she was still sleeping
>during the night, we ended up facing each other
>when i opened my eyes, i found myself looking at her angelic face
>her hair was all over me
>her hand was still holding on to my shirt
>>708676781
>>708681715
>>708682082
I hate this so fucking much.
>>708682193
>like the time it was back on the plane
>i could feel her breath on my lips
>i wanted to stay there
>more than anything, i wanted to lay next to her forever
>and i wanted to kiss her so much
>but all i could think of was nicole's face
>i carefully reached for my phone in my pocket
>nicole left me a text
>"hey you! wanted to surprise you before you go to hong kong, im in LA! call me when you wake up! i love you :)"
>OHSHIT.gif
>i go pale
>my mouth dries up
>my heart starts beating to a fight or flight moment
>i gently put ella's hand down
>and back off without waking her up
>i grab my things and exit the house without anyone noticing
>i call nicole
>she tells me to meet her on venice beach
>grab a bite to eat on the way
>coffee to wake up
>the moment i see her i realize the mistake ive made
>my hair is all messed up
>im still wearing yesterdays clothes
>i didnt even brush my teeth
>and my entire body smells like ella's perfume
>nevergofullretard.avi
>its too late
>she sees me and starts running towards me
>and jumps to my arms
>>708682266
>she digs her lips into my mouth
>holds me tightly
>starts kissing me furiously
>then she slows down
>and then completely stops
>her hands and arms lose their grasp on me
>slowly pulls away
>she gently pushes me back to take a better look at me
>she sees the guilt and fear on my face
>her pupils dilate
>she starts turning red
>her eyes fill with fury and anger like nothing ive seen before
>her right hand pulls back and flies into my face
>it lands perfectly
>my ears start ringing
>my vision is blurred
>she doesnt talk
>i dont have anything to say for myself
>i just stay there, with half of my face completely numb
>unable to face her, unable to look her in the eyes
>she slowly turns around and starts walking
>looks back
>"...you coming?" - she looks at me with tear filled mad eyes
>i obey and start following her
>we sit on a bench overlooking venice beach
>we sit there for a few minutes before she finally asks
>"did you sleep with her?" - she doesnt look at me
>"no..."
>"did you kiss her?"
>"no..."
>she stops for a moment
>i realize whats coming.. and its too late
>she turns to me with a face full of tears of anger
>"you... youre in love with her????"
>i cant say anything. i just sit there, my head as low as it can go
>"for how FUCKING long, anon?" - her voice trembles
>"..."
>"how long?..." - she asks again, barely audible
>>708682211
You got this..
>>708682333
>"i dont know"
>she hesitates for a moment and then starts talking again
>"i should have known... for the past month, you were all ella could talk about anon"
>i couldnt believe what i was hearing
>i wake up to the shock of this revelation
>"she talked to you about me?" - i ask her, with a skeptical and messed up face
>"yeah.." - she opens her eyes wide, sarcastically
>"..."
>"can you believe that? you became her number one friend"
>"her confidant"
>"her bff" - she violently fingerquotes her snappish remark
>i dont have anything to say to nicole
>"...and i cant be angry at her for getting close to you, anon..."
>she stopped
>"but you..." - she gets close to my face and puts her index finger sharply to my chest
>"you should have known better" - tapping my chest with her finger
>"..."
>"...answer me anon" - she whispers
>"..."
>"ANSWER ME!"
>"WHAT??" - i turn to her
>she jumped back with a surprise
>this was the first time she has seen me scream at anyone, let alone her
>"what do you want me to say nicole? that i love her? that i care for her? that no matter how i feel about you, i cant control how i also feel about her? that even when you and i were just friends and ella was with pete, i couldnt help but feel a strong desire for her?"
>nicole didnt talk. she just stood there and watched me talk with a heartbroken face
>"what do you want me to say nicole?"
>"..."
>"what do you want me to say? that the first thing i felt was relief when pete told me that she broke up with him?"
>"ok..." - she whispered and stared into the distance
>we continued to talk
>getting angry at each other at times
>but it was more upsetting than vexing
>after an hour of furious argument
>we were tired
>even when pissed off, nicole didnt hold back her love for me
>she got close to me and put her head on my shoulder
>and we started watching the sunset
>>708676238
hey anon, I know you might feel old (18=technically adult) but you have no idea how young you are, I would give anything to be 18 again. you have plenty of time for grills. If you ABSOLUTELY have to have one now, its easy to score a casual sexual encounter, if you have friends go out with them and approach grills with confidence (its easier in a group). If you have no friends to go out with, find a grill you like on facebook/tinder, and just casually talk and ask for coffee/bar, worst case scenario they say no, thats it. Rejection is a part of life, dont be scared of it.
>>708682382
>"you know what anon..." - she spoke kindly, like a whisper - "there isnt enough sex tricks in the world to keep you away from ella"
>i froze. i felt like a sharp object has pierced thru my chest
>"and there isnt enough small jokes, bouquet of flowers or boxes of chocolate that pete can come to her door with"
>she sighed...
>"so he can hold on to ella..."
>i couldnt speak... couldnt breathe
>"and its alright anon... no matter what we do, you guys were made for each other" - she spoke as she gave in to reality
>"so you go ahead. i told you that you were mine until we both decided otherwise"
>"..."
>"and we both decided otherwise, you know that..."
>i sat there... with nicole's head on my shoulder
>staring blankly into the crowd of people on venice beach
>knowing that theres no amount of rights i can make to fix the wrong i did her
>the person who loved me so blindly, so vigorously
>that even in the moment of her defeat, she still wanted what was best for me
>"just do one last thing for me.." - she whispered
>i turned my face to her
>and kissed her with a passion like i never have
>she held my face in her small hands
>and broke our bond
>"go" - she said, trying to hold back her tears
>"go before i change my mind... go!" - she started to cry
>holding her hand, i got up. i hesitantly started stepping away
>our arms stretched and reached their length as our fingertips grazed each other and broke away
>i started walking backwards...
>looking at her
>realizing what i have done
>feeling like shit
>nicole wasnt looking at me
>her head dropped
>the palms of her hands were trying to hide the tears
>she was quietly sobbing
>i gasped for air and forced myself away from her
>trying not to think about it
>running away like an asshole
>i must have walked for 3 hours
>not knowing what to do
>it was getting late
>i finally made my decision
>i hailed a cab
>and gave the driver ella's home address
>>708682211
Just get this over with.
You know this was unavoidable. Feeling sorry for you though rn
https://youtu.be/ru-LgSvOCrE
>>708682492
>i arrive at ella's house
>i approach her door
>not knowing what to expect
>i ring the bell
>the door opens
>my heart stops when i see her
>she lowers the cellphone from her ear
>looks at me
>"that was nicole..." - she shakes the phone in her hand
>her beautiful green eyes are bloodshot
>tears running down her face
>she closes the door
>"ella.." - i breathlessly shriek
>i turn my back to her door
>i start walking
>and then collapse
>i start crying like a bitch
>this is just too much
>first nicole
>and now ella...
>the door quietly clicks open again
>the afternoon sun casts a shadow over me
>the shadow eagerly waits
>"what did she say to you..." - i can barely speak
>"that you loved me more than her, you stupid fuck"
>a cold hand grabs my collar
>and pulls me with force
>i stumble and walk to ella's door, following her stern pace
>tears and snot on my face, ugly as fuck
>as i pass thru the doorway
>she turns around
>violently slams the door with a flick of her hand
>and pins me to the shut door with force
>stuffs my face with her lips
>>708672617
Oh fuck.
>>708682625
>my heart is beating like a jackhammer
>she just stays frozen
>her lips nailed to mine
>her chilled hands hanging from my collar
>her intense kiss gently becomes tender
>and she stops kissing me
>clumsily wipes my wet face with her hands
>sporadically chuckling her heart out while crying tears of joy
>"you look like shit.." - she laughs nerveously
>i smile and laugh
>"come on.. you need a shower"
>she drags me to her bathroom and gives me fresh towels
>i take a shower for an hour
>trying to calm my nerves, trying to make sense to this calamity
>i take way longer than usual
>knowing that when i get out i will have to face her
>and have a talk
>i finally get out and wrap myself with her towels
>go to her room
>ella is in her pjs
>her hair is wet
>she must have had a shower too
>shes sitting on her bed all curled up, holding on to her legs
>she has a deeply concerned look on her face
>i sit next to her and stare at the wall
>expecting a million questions
>she simply says
>"go ahead, say it"
>i dont understand.. i mean say what???
>"say it" - she tells me again with a calm voice
>"...i love you"
>"good"
>she puts her hands on my face
>and her lips on mine
>and gives me the warmest, most gentle kiss i could have imagined
>we fall back to the bed
>she embraces me
>>708682713
>while her freezing hands caress my skin like ice
>her hot soft lips brush against my face like a velvet cloth
>i hold her tightly
>she opens her arms and lays back
>presents herself to me with an innocent smile on her face
>i take my time and study her
>i dont want to rush anything
>"my parents are gone for the day... we're aaaaall alone" - she sings playfully
>i have all the time in the world
>i rub her tummy
>and kiss the notch under her neck
>she sighs
>ella holds on to me tightly and locks me into herself with her legs
>we stay like that for a long time
>kissing and touching each other
>enjoying the warmth of our bodies
>she pulls her knees up, almost reaching my head
>using her toes
>she carefully grips the edge of the towel on my waist
>starts to slide it down surgically
>exposing me
>ella looks down
>then looks up
>and flashes me a suggestive smirk
>her legs are gingerly dancing on my upperbody
>i can feel the muscles on her legs expanding and contracting as they move around
>i slide my hand from her back to her bottom
>i feel the magnificent curvature of her strained hips
>and catch the waist of her pj bottoms with my fingers
>i slowly pull them down along with her panties
>i feel a gush of warmth in my hand
>i touch her silky smooth bare bottoms
>she bites her lips and dives in to my lips again
>shes kissing me strenuously this time
>hot air licks my face as she exhales from her small pointy nose
fuck. it's here again. that unease that keeps me up at nights, i hadn't gotten it in a while. aaaahh fuck
>>708682382
I remember being in that thread, thats the one where she dies at the end? and he gets back with nicole or something?
>>708682767
>and then i closed my eyes
>and pressed my entire body againts hers
>we slowly curled up into each other
>getting closer and closer
>you would think there is a physical limit to how close you can get to someone
>that limit is not really as apart as it may seem
>there is a point where you fail to distinguish skin from skin
>we hugged each other so tightly
>grabbed onto each other like dear life
>as if we somehow let go, we would fall to our deaths
>we became one
>i dont remember at which point we were actually "having sex"
>with that amount of love and such a strong intimacy
>you dont really understand whats going on
>you dont pay attention to how youre "satisfying" yourself and your partner
>its not about tips and tricks anymore
>its not about knowing what limb to touch
>or where to kiss, lick or do whatever
>that level of unity transcends virtually every "health" magazine bullshit you can read about sex and intimacy
>time loses meaning
>that night, i dont remember for how many hours
>we were inseperable
>we didnt say a word the entire time
>no screaming, no loud noises
>just heavy breathing
>lots of heavy breathing
>the only thing that i cared
>her hands werent cold anymore
>her touch was warm to me, for the first time
>and the only memory i cherished more than anything else
>was the feeling that as if we have known each other for all our lives
>that night, ella wasnt a couple months old friend whom i cheated on my girlfriend or betrayed my best buddy for
>she was the one person dearest to me, above everyone else
>she was my missing piece
>after a long long time has past, i remember finally whispering
>"i love you"
>and falling into the deepest, most relaxed sleep i have ever had
>>708682821
Yeah. I remember crying for the first time in months.
>>708676238
I used to be like you tbh
Then i got seriously into working out and getting buff
At about 21 years old, after 3 years of lifting my gf kinda just insert herself intomy life and we've been together for almost a year now. feels kinda nice
>>708682211
he's not shying away from it. that's good. he seems good. it will be ok anon.
>>708682818
What's wrong anon?
>>708682835
>it was almost dawn when i woke up
>ella woke up with me
>"i have to tell you something..." - i told her
>she looked at me, scared and upset
>"i have to go to hong kong for 2 months... today... i wont be able to spend the rest of summer with you..."
>whatever she was expecting, hearing this news relieved her
>she sighed and planted a passionate kiss on my cheek
>"its ok... we will see each other in school" - she whispered to me softly
>"after all, i have you now..."
>i couldnt have been happier
>hong kong seemed like a punishment after everything that has happened
>but i knew ella would wait for me
>ella sent me away
>convinced me that if we spent even more time
>or if she would come to LAX to see me off, the distance and time would be even harder to bear
>i agreed
>as i was dragging my feet to leave her, i kissed her so much, she had to physically push me away
>giggling with a sleepy face
>"go now! go or you will miss your flight!"
>i went home, hastily packed my bags and left for the airport
>all i could think of was her
>the cab driver had to ask me "where to?" like 3 times
>after i landed and got settled in hong kong
The girl i like just asked tips how to hook up with another guy. Fuck this life and everything in it
Same thing I've posted in the past 3 feels threads in the past 2 hours.
>TL;DR: (Me and my late granda used to fucking watch the fuck out of Bob Ross when I was 5/6+. Until I was about 10 or so. I love you granda. Even though you were a tough as nails Northern Irish-man.) The times we shared, and the arguments we had were amazing.
>We met on LoL. Loved each other. She fell out of love with me after 1 and a half years of complete happiness. (On both sides). I was her first kiss, first person to have sex with her, and her first love. Within an hour or two of meeting face to face we were a couple.
I loved her. With all my heart. We both played League of Legends. Despite it's obvious flaws etc. We really connected. I live in Northern Ireland and she was in England. Despite the distance we were SO happy. Loved the time we had on our own and the time we spent on our own. Full of sex, cuddling and love. (Both of us).
I miss her guys. Shit. So much. I'm drinking my own home brewed Mead. I hope you guys are doing well. Despite all the fucking hate, disgust, and bigotry you are all my brothers.
How are you shaping up? I'm a mess. Chilling with my (coming) 14 year old West Highland Terrier, and pretty wasted rewatching Always Sunny on Netflix, (episode where Dee pretends to be a surrogate mother), are doing well as the God's intended. Talos guide you. (Pic related see. TL;DR)
>>708683185
>we started talking on skype
>it was new back then and the connection was shitty
>but it was better than nothing
>eveyday we would talk, sometimes for hours
>there was so much time difference, i was almost an entire day ahead of LA
>but we made it work
>our intimacy was not limited to sex
>and our friendship was more than just ambiguous flirting
>the things we shared, the moments we lived
>even tho they were digital and thousands of miles apart
>i was still in heaven
>a month later
>i came home from work one day
>and there was no response to my calls
>figured, she must be busy, or out, or something else came up
>didnt think of much and went on with the rest of my day
>next day, same thing
>well, unless you are a seriously paranoid person, you dont think of worst case scenarios
Yet again. Goodnight anons. Enjoy the thread. Good luck with your problems and life. Bane-Anon out
>>708683328
>until your buddy calls you
>...
>didnt remember how i responded to that
>i still dont, i only know what pete, mom and dad told me
>turns out, i dropped the phone and was unreachable for an hour
>dont know what happened in that hour
>then they say that i called my folks
>by then, pete told them already
>and they knew i wasnt goint to be able to make my way back on my own
>as i was speaking to (or screaming to) mom, dad was already buying plane tickets
>i didnt realize my mom was crying on the phone
>knowing her son was in so much pain and she was unable to help me
>i was screaming so much, my voice was all but gone
>at some point, my dad picked up the phone
>trying to calm me down
>years later, i asked him once, just once, what happened that day
>never seen a man that white as he told me what happened
>how terrified he was over how i was feeling
>i asked him because the only thing i could remember was pete telling me
>"she's gone... she's gone..."
>i talked to pete one more time before dad arrived
>that i do remember
>you go numb after so much pain
>and start behaving like a robot...
>he knew i wasnt gonna be at the ceremony with him
>we talked about things no one wants to know
>but you just have to know
>like what happens to a car travelling at 60mph
>when it gets rearended by another car
>starts spinning
>and stops when it wraps around a telephone pole
>there was nothing anyone would want to look at
>no open casket
>just a box
>while her family was burying ella
>i was on a plane back to states
>didnt have the power to go back to LA
>and be there with her family
>didnt want to go back to college
>and be all by myself
>i just wanted to go home
>a year has passed since ella's death
>mom and dad were trying to play it cool
>pete was the only one keeping me sane
>he too was affected by ella's passing
>but he was stronger
>he didnt love ella the way i did
>>708683398
>nicole was keeping her distance
>avoiding me as best she could
>on the anniversary of her death, i decided to visit ella's grave
>got on a plane to LA
>i still remember the first time i walked thru those cemetery gates
>its never easy to visit the dead
>i found her
>and stayed there for an hour
>just crying, not knowing what to say
>im not a religious person
>and i dont believe in afterlife
>i had this feeling inside me that no matter what i said
>she wasnt there to see
>or hear
>after a while, a boy walked up to me
>her brother
>young jake too came to visit her sister
>we hugged
>"you should come and visit my folks, anon. they will be happy to see you"
>i accepted his kind invitation
>when we arrived at their home
>the air was thick, filled with sorrow
>her mother smiled when she saw me
>held me in her arms as if i was her own blood
>"oh am i happy to see you" - she cried
>they were relieved they didnt have to be alone that day
>ella's father was already half drunk
>but he was joyful when we started talking about ella
>jake was sitting between his mom and dad
>they wouldnt let go of his hands the entire time
Here's the thing... his approach is perfect but I feel like a fucking explosion and I just cannot deal with it. I physically and mentally can't.
It's not a case of trying I just can't. Even typing this is making me want to break down I just hate it so much.
>>708683538
>drawing power from knowing that they are not alone
>and that jake is still here
>after talking about ella
>reminiscing what little time i was able to spend with her
>her mom showed me into ella's room
>the room was left untouched
>nothing was changed since ive been there more than a year ago
>even her neatly folded clothes were still on her chair
>her vidya archive
>her anime posters on the walls
>her mom opened a drawer
>and took out a cd case and a letter
>and handed them to me
>"i believe these are for you, anon"
>she put them into my violently shaking hands
>she kissed me on my forehead and left the room
>i sat on the bed
>the bed in which we had the chance to spend a single night together
>a single night...
>i looked at the cd case
>and immediately burst into the tears i was holding back before
>crying my eyes out, i started reading her letter
>the letter she couldnt send to hong kong
pic related, letter and the cd case
>after i read the letter
>i was in fetus position on her bed
>crying
>the love and the loss were too much
>someone slowly sat next to me
>and i felt a familiar hand on my face
>i put my head on her lap
>while nicole caressed my hair
>and calmed me down
>"im here..." - she whispered
>and hugged me as she too quietly cried
>next semester
>nicole and i got closer
>she stopped avoiding me
>and we became friends again
>she understood what i have been thru
>and altho ive broken her heart
>she knew i didnt mean to
>she knew how much i loved ella
Fuck flood detection
>>708683656
This is the end.
>she knew the love ive felt for ella didnt mean i didnt value her
>2 years later we started dating again
>moved to chicago together
>another 2 years after that, we got married
>and i slowly forgot about ella
>while organizing old stuff at our house
>i came across ella's letter and the mi3 cd case
>when i started feeling bad
>she convinced me to write the story down
>so i could get it off my chest
>"i dont want to read it" - she said with a sad face
>"it will be too much for me. but you have to write it down"
>her love and care were heavenly
>"you need this anon"
>i accepted
>last night after i finished writing my story
>nicole convinced me to frame ella's letter
>i looked at her, i was almost about to cry
>she gently held my face in her hands
>"its good to remember anon" - and she planted a tender kiss on my lips
>"she was a good person. you loved her and she loved you"
>i dont even know what to say
>i framed the letter and put it on my nightstand
>we got under the blankets on a cold winter night
>we cuddled
>she embraced me and placed her head on my chest
>and softly whispered into my ear
>"youre mine anon, and im yours..."
>"and as i have said before..." - she was almost asleep
>with an amorous smile on her face
>"until such a time comes we both decide otherwise, nothing will change that"
>and i fell asleep next to the woman i loved
>embracing the woman that loves me
>>708683656
Also, if someone could get the pic, that'd be great.
>>708683117
i've reading and deleted this 6 times now.
it feels like i'm sinking man. i don't know where the holes are. it seems to me i can only sit and watch while i go down
>>708679824
God damn dude, all the respect for not killing yourself, I hope things get better man
>>708682943
its a sad read, I haven't cried in years, I'm so outside my own emotional spectrum, just severely depressed, I try not to think about it too much, I just get on with life, hide behind a mask, but I am not ok.
>>708684114
The amount of people in the world with high functioning depression is insane. A lot of the people on /b/ have it and gather here for that little bit of understanding and place where you take off the mask.
>>708683639
what else he saying ?
>>708683639
>>708683606
it sounds retarded but try to breath in and out slowly and deeply. it helps.
https://youtu.be/lyMS4qJ8NXU
>>708672617
can't believe I read all that.
A+
>18 year old kissless virgin
>average looking guy, not ugly or anything like that.
>pretty popular
>large group of friends
I've got everything going for me at this point in my life. But I'm insecure and can't even approach girls. I often lie to avoid my friends finding out.
What wrong with me?
>>708683639
stay strong, anon
>new lurker, just had them feels before and know them
i think this just makes it worse. i have never been in a thread like this and felt better or the same as when i came in afterwards. only worse. it's addicting.
why do i do this to myself
>>708684399
>>708684416
I'm trying not to cry but it's pretty damn hard right now.
I've got that horrible voice in my head telling me I'm a bitch and a slut and all the other things.
He's tried to call me twice and I feel so fucking udsfghgfhjfghpogdso
>>708684558
hi lurker, and thanks, feels like shit right now
>>708684301
I swear, this is my only emotional outlet, and by emotional I mean I just get to SAY how I really feel, not even capable of ''letting it out'', just total apathy, but I'm glad you understand anon, you're a cool guy.
>>708682463
Ace advice.
>>708684825
You're not a slut or bitch for not wanting this. Its fine to not pick up, its just too much. Maybe hes afraid things will "end" because this is ending, the guy is afraid of losing you.
>>708684825
think of what you want your relationship with this person to be for a second. then communicate that.
just going out and saying that you don't like the way things are now isn't raelly helping either of you.
also i think you should take the call. don't speak if you don't want to, as he said, but make it a bit easier for him to speak his mind to you. if he believes he can be clearer on the phone than on text, he probably will be.
>>708685035
thank you sir, we anons always get other anons.
>>708668049
So I'm in this fantastic relationship with my girl.
But, being an insecure femanon, she got the idea she needed to talk to a psychologist once a week.
Well fine, if it makes her feel better about herself.
Thing is, psychologist starts looking for traumatic experiences that aren't there.
But this made my girlfriend share some information with me about her sexual history that I really didn't need to know.
No shocking or really heavy stuff, but still..
What should I do?
>>708684558
>>708684825
>>708685120
^ this anon gets it, and clearly you do as well. He's trying to get you into a conversation to stir up emotions that will make you give it "one last try" which you have clearly said you don't want. This road never goes well, like I said, stay strong.
>>708685508
DO NOT DO THIS.
It's not about making him feel better today. If anything tell him you can talk in a week or a month or something, to clear your head. Or, better yet just DO WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO.
>>708684857
Can you tell me which post was yours again? Fuck I wish we still had tags.
>>708684825 This is me btw. Posting all my chats, just trying to get it out.
>>708684978
I don't get panic attacks I get mental break downs from depression and self hatred etc. etc. so it's more a throbbing in my head and my whole core just wants to die. (Pretty edgy, I know) but thank you anon.
>>708685120
The stupid thing is that I know that but I feel like I am - it's a dumb contradiction but it's there.
I don't want us to end I just... want this to end, if that makes sense. Chat attached should make more sense.
>>708684825
Jesus christ stop being a dumbass and actually talk to the guy
Like fuck. Talk and youll be better off
>>708685508
( RE >>708685853 )
Thanks for your advice but I'm not gonna take it... I've clearly told him what I want and having a phone call won't make it clearer, it'll just make it easier for him to say what he wants and harder for me to be honest and say what I'm really feeling.
>>708685709
I don't know if he's actively trying to do that but possibly, I just want to stop feeling shit about this situation.
>>708686259
Btw I am actually trying really fucking hard to be honest and "do all the right things" by not offending or upsetting him, being vague, seeming selfish etc. etc. so I appreciate people giving me shit for the way I'm replying but I am trying and it's fucking tough.
>>708686259
come on anon. the only thing you've said to the guy is "hey, i regret that thing we did and wish we had never done it".
what do you you actually want? i can practically feel the dude's frustration at this point. and don't say something along the lines of "for all this to never have happened" cause that obviously isn't possible.
>>708686458
Its hard when you have to please everyone, when you have to be nice. Trust me I know how hard it can be to be nice to someone and let them know you don't want this anymore. You're doing fine.
>I'm so lonely I sometimes sleep with my laptop open in front of me with pic related on fullscreen
>>708685935
doesn't really matter, but since you're asking, my posts were:
>>708682821
>>708684114
>>708684857
>>708679339
Its.. killing season.. anon, I somehow wanna help.you take your revenge, I want to help you watching them cry, I want to help you in watching them gasp for fucking air, crying, begging, but in thr end.. dying.
>>708687103
that's pretty edgy anon
>>708686720
If you actually read I specifically said exactly what I wanted.
>>708686792
Thank you. It means a lot. I think without the re-assurance I'd be beating myself a lot more.
>>708686921
Matters to me, thank you for clarifying btw, it's nice to know who people are.
Not sure if I even wanna post the fucking chatlogs anymore I'm too miserable to even reply to him now, just feels shitty.
>>708687192
I don't know, nothing is edgy enough tho
How do you motivate yourself to not be fucking pathetic?
I've been without a job or an education for four months now, and it feels like an eternity. I have a hard time concentrating on the things I want to be better at (Motion Graphics, 3D, drawing), but I just can't get over those pathetic feelings of me feeling like I'm wasting the best years of my life. I'm 23. I can barely remember what I did last week. I'm volunteering as a scout leader, and that gives me some purpose, but it's not really a foundation for my future. My goal is to be able to travel the world for a while and see how far I can make it on some funds I've saved up, but I can't friggin' find a job for the life of me.
I needed to rant, hope it's alright. I know I my problems aren't severe, but I just can't escape the feeling that I'm wasting my life away.
Have some music. https://youtu.be/IhqqZN0H7CI
>>708686860
Well that's fucking gay.
>>708687268
Anon whos been re-assuring you.
Dont feel miserable about it. Its hard
I know how hard it is to put down a relationship when it became something you didn't want it to be.
Someone or both the people involved get hurt. You got to reply though, it'll just be worst but everything will be okay in the end.
Uhm I think I'm gonna sign off. I've lost all motivation to post anymore sorry guys, I really do appreciate your support.
Probably going to call my friend but if anyone wants to talk send me your Skype username and I'm happy to add you and chat.
>>708686458 this is me btw, thread is dying so it's probably obvious.
>>708687268
>If you actually read I specifically said exactly what I wanted.
that's perhaps what you think but all i got from all your texts was "i wish a thing that heppened had not happened", and i'm betting that's mostly what he's getting as well. if that's actually all you wanted to say, well shit anon.
i'm of the opinion that you should think on how you want to proceed with that person and work towards that. regrets and guilr are nice and all but they wont help getting you out of the position you're in.
>>708687901
I don't have skype but other wise
Id try to help you more
Goodluck Anon!
Everything will be okay.
>>708687901
good luck anon
>>708688003
Well I've clearly got Whatsapp so could use that?
>>708687505
Act like u got nothing to lose, cry for a while, it makes that feel go away, and where did you get that comic pic from? I rly wanna read the whole comic..
>>708688093
keeping in touch with people from here is a mistake anon. no offense to the other guy who's been re-assuring you.
If you anons want to continue talking and keep in contact. Join this Discord.
https://discord.gg/eJ8Wd
>>708683706
I dont think there are words to describe what i feel after reading this. It's just... Too much. Also, i think i've never (and probably will never) loved anyone if this is what love makes u think/write.
>tl;dr: deep af, just read it
>>708688306
It's not, trust me... not always, cringy ones usually ignore these treads and g to the trap treads and tripz 4 tits treads
>>708688093
>>708688306
Nah sorry I dont use whatsapp
Only Kik for anon messaging if you got that
If not its totally fine.
Anit no big deal
>>708688157
Thanks for the reply. It's from Batman: The Killing Joke. One of the best Batman stories out there.
>>708688451
That's actually a good idea, better than my suggestions. I've joined it.
>>708688306
>keeping in touch with people from here is a mistake anon. no offense to the other guy who's been re-assuring you.
Not true. I've met some genuinely good anons here that helped me through my suicidal phase.
>>708688560
>>708688560
it always leads to disappointment. you invest time in a person and you spend time with them. and then one day, a year, two years, five years later, they're just not there anymore. no goodbuys, no falling out no nothing. just silence. it's the only way it ends. it's the only way it has ended.
>>708688632
Thanks man, somehow thst gif made me laugh lmao and yw for the reply, btw, don't be too hard on yourself, just cry it all out, don't let anything back, all of it.. and then the rest will come to you for some reason crying makes this one feeling disappear
>Be me, 12 weeks ago
>Happy in a 4 year relationship with gf, life is going well, looking for a place to move in together
>get her a new job doing office admin for my dad's company where i did short term cover work every couple months
>ffw 2 weeks
>she's made good friends with a couple people in the office, speaks to them all day and hangs out with them after work when im working late
>gets distant with me one day, seems distracted, says she's ill
>had been paying for an engagement rings for last 6 weeks (4 weeks frior to start of story)
>she goes out early one saturday to see her mum
>comes back at lunch and tells me she's unhappy, needs time to think about our relationship and is going to her mums for a few days to assess what she wants to do.
>i've always maintained i will never stop her from doing what she wants so i let her go to her mums
>she calls me next day and asks if i ever even loved her, tells me ive been ignoring her for weeks and she feels neglected
>hadnt ignored her, had actually been extra attentative due to wanting to propose
>tell her its too hard to hae the conversation due to the pain its causing me, so she says she'll ring next day, or whenever she's ready.
>1 week comes and goes
>2 weeks
>4 weeks
>tried calling her all those weeks, just to tlak or let her know how i feel
>she picks up phone in 5th week
>asks me why im bothering her, talk for half an hour about what happened, ask why she never answered, she says she'd left me when she moved out and i knew it, i disagreed, asked her why it was over after so long.
>hear another voice in the background
>who the fuck is that
>its no-one anon
>i recognize that fucking voice
>its one of the technician's at my dads company who she'd become good friends with
>i argue with her on phone for next hour about it.
>go to office next day, she's taken the day off "ill"
>speak to people there, they tell me they thought i'd left her, and she'd been with the new guy since about a week after she left (CONT)
>>708688597
I have whatsapp but just not comfortable giving my phone number out to people
Hopefully ya understand
>24 yrs old
>high school dropout
>schizoid personality disorder, bipolar depression
>drug abuser for around a decade
>moved out of state in attempt to clean life up ~2 years ago
>didnt pan out
>move back home ~1 yr ago
>meet nice girl, but she smokes and this inevitably ends up with me abusing other drugs again
>bunch of dumb shit happens
>former bff 1's girlfriend pulls woman card and gets me arrested with her drugs
>charged with two misdemeanors, and two city ordinances
>go to court dates for misdemeanors, get hit with ~600$ in fines
>also want 40 hrs of community service due last week
>did 0 community service due to working two jobs to pay bills
>however did pay fines
>completely forgot about city ordinances, court dates were mandatory and did not show
>currently dodging a warrant for that
>dunno what the fuck to do about the warrant and community service now
>former bff 2 gets drunk, smashes my windshield
>cant call cops for previously stated reasons
>wont pay me, he has no real assets to just acquire as repayment
>decide the other day to try and clean my life up for the 3rd time now
>dont want to deal with any of this retarded shit
>am out so much money that i am flat broke and living with my parents again
>all my other "friends" stopped talking to me after my first attempt to get clean after moving home
>need knee surgery, can't afford even with insurance
>need lots of dental work, can't afford even with insurance
>i dont even know my head is all over the fucking place
>suicide seems like best option tbh whats the point when im just getting railed by life
Fuck this gay earth :)
This is me >>708686458
And I agree with >>708688833 which is why I've joined that Discord >>708688451 cheers anon
>>708688901
Anon whom you didnt mean to offend
I understand why people may think that but I usually don't do that.
I'm too nice to do that to someone
Plus I haye leaving any friendships on a bad note.
>>708688964
>realize in that moment that after 4 years of perfectly happy relationship, she'd left me for the first other person to pay her any attention.
>he was always the one i worked with when i did cover work, he knew i was in love with her, knew how good our relationship was.
>me and ex are both 22, he is 34 and has a kid already who he doesnt even bother going to see.
>get super depressed, how can my life get so shit so fast?
>its been 12 weeks since she left, and i still cant think about anything else but her, i've spiralled into depression
>have tried to kill myself 3 times in last 4 weeks, keep fucking it up,
>exit bag didnt have enough helium
>survived car crash almost without injury
>tree branch snapped after 2 minutes
>christmas was our favourite time as a couple, its getting to much to take the closer we draw to this cancerous time of year.
How the fuck do i go on? what do i fucking do?
>>708689133
i'm sure you're a nice person friend. i'm sure most of those people who dissapeared on me over the years weren't mean spirited towards me. they didn't just leave me hanging for the heck of it. they just moved on with their lives and forgot. and you will too at some point and so will i.
but what i've felt when it happens is something i don't want others to feel.
>>708687268
whoever you are anon, I've read the chatlogs, whoever is on the other sounds like a good guy, I'm sure you already know that. You should've known what sex would mean for you two, its very easy to spot a person who is in love with you and wants to take it further, and you should've thought ahead before any romantic involvement. But people make mistakes, so don't feel too shitty, I bet you're young still, and learning from mistakes is a part of life.
I've hurt girls in that way before, and felt so shitty after, but their wounds healed and they dont even think about me anymore, and I've learnt to not do that anymore, so I guess what I'm trying to say is time is key, it feels bad now, but I'm willing to bet if you meet him in a couple of years, his heart will be healed.
>>708689632
after all, what more are we to each other except text on a screen. to believe anything more than that is dillusion.
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