Feels thread. What's on your mind tonight anons
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Feels thread.
What's on your mind tonight anons
Just lost the only girl and person who ever loved me, cared, and was my friend.
>>708076784
Depressed and alone.
>>708076935
same man. only internet people wished me a happy birthday today
i banged this ugly chick last night, the pussy was amazing though. spirit bombed that pussy when i came.
>>708076784
Contemplating my existence and wondering what would happen if I never existed.
I feel like It'd be most terrifying if nothing changed, your existence had no good or bad impressions on the world, you are not even fluff, you don't matter.
That's fucking scary.
>>708077059
Happy birthday.
>>708077204
that's good. at least you're more fortunate than some of us.
>mods deleted pedo thread
Literally discussion only. Fucking faggot mods.
>>708077059
It's okay, birthday boy. I still love you. I'll vocaroo happy birthday song.
>>708077267
Thanks man :)
>>708077059
Happy birthday, anon
>>708077366
>at least you're more fortunate than allof us
Ftfy
Kind of dating a girl but got with another one yesterday
Lost my job a month ago and I'm broke
Can't hear out of my right ear, turns out really deep down its clogged with wax and it's making me dizzy 24/7
Did cocaine yesterday and I feel bummed out
>>708077445
>>708077597
Thanks anons.
Have a heart wrenching story about my best friend who I was in love with if anyone's interested in hearing it
>>708077791
let's hear it
>>708077939
>be me
>have huge crush on female best friend, we'll call her C
>senior year
>talking to Bros about what we'd do on prom night seeing as we all knew we wouldn't be getting dates
>next day C tells me to meet her after 4th period
>See her holding something
>cupcakes spell out "prom date? :)"
>holyshit.jpeg
>say yes, obviously
>over course of next months slowly give hints I'm interested
>couple days before C tells me about guy she likes
>feelsbadman
>still happy to be going to prom with C
>another female friend tells me she has no date
>she's a qt314
>already going with C
>prom day comes
>C and I took picture
>go to dance floor
>C doesn't want to dance much with me
>C tells me my best friend looks cute
>proceed to dance with qt314 female friend and other girl more than C
>C tells me we're going to after party
>get to after party
>C sees guy she's crushing on
>C sits in his lap and flirts with him for almost an hour
>I stand in corner awkwardly as I don't know anyone
>feelsreallybadman
>call older cousin to pick me up because having shit time but never end up leaving with him
>mom calls me at 1250am
>asks if I'm ok
>says she had a bad feeling in her heart that I was in alot of pain
>feel like crying
>tell her I'm ok
>C tells me we're leaving to diner for late meal
>after meal get home
>mom and I have heart to heart
>next day we go to coney island
>C's crush there again
>C asks if I'm ok
>Tell C about my feelings
>C tells me she knew all along and wanted me to come out with it but can only be my friend
>later we're on the beach
>gazing out at sunset thinking
>C jokingly asks if I'm having emotional moment
>flash forward to today
>C is now dating my best friend
>qt314 dating another friend of mine
>Tfw never completely got over her but can never have her
>pic related, cupcakes she baked me
>>708077784
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1wwLyPYrqnv
>>708077939
This is how parasites take over.
>>708077584
Look like my average Tuesday.
>>708078074
Why do you have that pic saved, stop fixating on stuff it's unhealthy
Also I'm guessing u have that text saved in a notepad, delete it. You're bumming me out.
>>708076784
Man I get in kik groupchats just to talk with people and have internet friends and noone really likes Mr and I get ignored alot. But meh. I digress
No job, 250$ in the bank. Shitty truck. Still living with parents. What could go wrong?
>>708076784
not sure what direction to go with life
either way i will let somebody down, whether that be someone who loves me or myself
which one matters the most? those who love me or myself?
>>708078305
I posted it on fb back when it happened in hs. Grabbed to show I wasn't lying. And I posted the story in another feels thread but no one replied so I copied it to post to another thread in hopes someone might wanna hear it. I did date a girl afterwards for almost three years but things didn't go so well and I've been single for two years.
>>708078470
Same here bro
>>708078564
Yourself!
>>708076784
Wanna fuckin end my life
>>708078074
Those are shit cupcakes
>>708076784
Homesick. I left the U.S. in 2000 and have been longing to come back every waking (and even sleeping) moment.
I haven't been back at all, even for vacation. I plan on returning soon to visit and then to move.
>>708078074
That's pretty shitty anon. I can't fully relate cause I've never even hugged a girl before
Don't let yourself get too down over it. there are plenty of qt3.14's still out there
>>708078669
Why anon?
>>708076784
I just got back from Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri. I got kicked out of the Army, and now I'm high on cocaine and weed. I don't know how I fell so far, but it's miserable.
Im looking for some cheese pizza honestly
>>708077218
That thought really doesn't bother me. I don't feel like I need to have a visible effect on the world.
Why do you?
>>708077059
happy birthday anon
>>708076784
Doing good. Just unloaded a parasite of a girlfriend that was not putting out. Felt like a weight off my back. Going to strip clubs again. Money is no problem. Things are good.
>>708078727
I feel I have moved past it pretty much but it's difficult to completely forget because she's a very affectionate girl she always gives me tight hugs and we hangout alot especially since now she's with my best friend so it's a bit hard to escape but on a lighter note and hopefully as some form of advice to other anons I did use the experience to better myself and improve upon things I wasn't happy with. Always remembered that it wasn't the end and I could work hard to achieve more.
7/10 girl, cute as fuck, apparently hates me even though we have fuckloads of same interests, taste in music, etc
>all over my brothers dick even though he has a gf and we're practically the same person with a different haircut
>all over some other dudes shit thats also nearly my clone
>da fuq man
I've never been happier as of the moment, just got back from hanging with the gf, now it's time to play some world at war before I drive back to my school tomorrow morning. Shit is nice for once
My alcoholic father also that I have no friends and my mom's death is still daunting on me so yeah pretty sad but at least I have dark souls gta and mine craft to soothe me ya know. Also Op when I say I have no friends I mean absolutely no friends :(
>>708078148
Not birthday anon but that made me tear up a bit for some reason
>>708077059
Happy birthday anon and from the bottom of my heart, enjoy it. Don't let things get ya down every day above ground is a good day if you take the steps necessary to better your life.
>>708079168
you have 4chan
>>708079360
Word the /b/ros always got your back anon
>>708079182
Thanks anon. I try not to but nobody has called me today and I spent the day drowning in booze. It really gets to you
>liked this girl for like 2 years
>too pussy to say anything because manlet and not handsome
>heard her say in response to some other chick not liking someone "was he too short"
>im shorter than her
>can only hope that she finds someone 40x better than i am and have beautiful kids
one chance at life and i lost when i started
hope everyone else here is at least tall if not handsome
>>708078720
Where are you now?
Why did you leave?
>>708079176
Awww :( i could sing you a song if you want
I just got trips and then the OP deleted the thread
I will never be together with my crush, simply because she's "too young"
fuck this world
>>708079493
I'd imagine so. But the way I see it, there's a world of opportunities and experiences out there and while it's okay to feel down remember that you still have options you still have ways of making yourself happy. Maybe small lifestyle changes that you make can result in pretty good things coming your way anon :) maybe strike up conversations with coworkers you never talked to or even a stranger or neighbor, friends are right around the corner you just gotta take that first step man.
>>708079644
Well on the bright side you got some Dubbies :)
Sorry for the shitty story, first time greentexting.
>be me
>be 18
>be 5/10
>start to get over parents messy divorce
>meet 9/10
>short, but I've always like short girl
>she has an amazing body but I see her for who she is, not her looks
>we talk and get close
>she loves that I don't see her in a sexual way
>we start dating
>she makes me so happy, I forget my problems
>she starts talking about a life together
>begs me to hangout everyday
>tells me she was once raped by her ex
>ask to avoid anything sexual
>alright, makes sense
>everything seems perfect
>seriously feels like we will be together forever (sounds cheesy)
>break up 3 months after
>says I'm to clingy, she thinks it weird that I talk about a future together, and that she started liking someone else
>"I still want to be close"
>alright, maybe I can win her back that way
>that summer was the worst
>she sends me on an emotional rollercoaster
>we don't talk for weeks
>sends me a cute text (pic related)
>we get close and I feel like we might get back
>starts giving me short responses
>stops texting me
>cycle repeats
Part 1/2
>>708078793
The military closes your mine, be happy you're out.
When you hit rock bottom it stings but only theres only one way to go from here, and thats up /b/rother. Lines will help but it will drain your pockets be careful
I want things to go back to the way they were but I know there isn't a point. It didn't matter how safe I felt with him, because he didn't think I was good enough
>>708079563
Height isn't everything. I'm basically the same height as my girlfriend, it's just about how you project yourself. I look like an overcooked toaster strudel, but sometimes you get lucky with the right person. It'll happen at some point don't stress it
>>708079598
I would love that :)
>>708079563
Anon if a girl is fixated on something as superficial as height she's no good for you anyway. And never doubt yourself an older cousin of mine told me once "no girl is ever out of your league" and it's true, if she's not a complete cunt only interested in looks, you can charm any girl with confidence. Also good shit on the berserk image
Don't know if tell her i love her, I may screw this friendship...
>>708079493
mfw my best friend told me he was contemplating suicide and i didn't take him seriously
>>708079852
Part 2/2
>happens all summer
>go back to school
>we avoid each other the first week
>we start talking after that
>during this time I meet another 9/10
>let's call first one F
>call second one G
>G starts getting close
>so close people think we're dating
>find out F has been dating some guy that she knew I hated
>I'm mad
>fast forward couple weeks
>find out F is extremely sexual with new guy
>breaks my heart, feel like I broke her
>we've been talking like nothing happened
>seriously can't move on
>its obvious G wants me to ask her out
>can't because I don't want to miss my chance with F
>want to get with G but I know my heart won't be completely hers
>currently I'm really close with both
>F is still with other guy but I feel like she still wants me
>G loves me but is heartbroken that we aren't together
>I have no idea what to do
>>708079360
Thanx anon it does help
>>708076784
life is pretty shitty. I have had no success with girls since my last relationship ended horribly. found a girl that was interested in me a couple days ago, but I blew it because I don't know how to talk to her. I'm pretty much alone most of the time.
I got robbed on Tuesday. they took my phone, my bookbag, and my wallet. my phone had OP's pic as lockscreen
>>708079774
Easier said than done for me. I am really shy and get bad anxiety when put in any social situation. I'm my own worst enemy and there's nothing I can do about it
>>708080039
fuck man
>be me
>27, empty shell, workaholic, lives with parents.
>Finally got out of debt, spend 70-80 hours a week working
>Shit is taking a massive toll on my body and my mental health.
>Partner lives 1140.8 miles away exactly
>Been together a year, and madly in love
>Talk together everyday
>Trying to spend less than $2 a day to get him here
>Helping raise my niece and nephew since my brother is waste of air
>Bills take all my free money
>Do not go out or do anything ever... too poor.
>Havent hung out with friends in over 2 years
>Still talk daily, just always super busy.
>Want to die every waking second of my life.
So here i sit with you guys, talking to the love of my life thats 1000 miles away.
[yes we have met several times, and plan to move in together if we can ever catch a break]
Things are looking up, but i still feel like a worthless pile of shit. Kinda sucks watching your childhood friends who were much luckier int he family and wealth department become elites... while you sit and play Skullgirls in silence at 2am.
I should be focusing on the good shit, but all I can think about it all the adverse shit ive overcome and how thats paled in comparison with what im heading into in the next 2 years.
Oh well. Fuck me, life sucks, kms right?
>>708080020
Just tell her anon. Think about it this way. If she says yes awesome you have gf. If she says no then atleast you can move on and not have to endure not knowing. Also if she says no and starts acting weird ignoring you and whatnot then you also realize just what kind of friend she is and if you're better off without her.
>>708079973
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1da0P3eKoqf
>>708077059
Happy birthday anon.
There's somebody out there that cares about you
>>708080077
G. F is an unstable person. Best not to fuck with a lunatic, it's better for your sanity
>>708080039
Don't blame yourself anon you couldn't have known for sure. It wasn't your fault.
started my new job a week ago, been working a lot but most of the money I make will be going to my parents
kinda feel like a slave
>>708080318
Well I know there's always people here that care, even if some of you call me a faggot.
>>708080291
thank you anon, that made my night
>>708079563
Dude it fucking sucks being short. I'm 5' 2", Deadlift 750, bench 460, weigh 198lbs, handsome, have money.
Unfuckable, even fucking drunk ugly bitches at bars won't fuck me. I am also still a virgin.
>>708080291
I hope happiness finds you anon.
>>708080077
F wouldnt be dating let alone being sexual with another guy if she wanted you.. or maybe she is just trying to make you jealous but doesnt seem like it. Id hit up G she sounds sweet. F sounds like a whore and whores are no fun in the long run
>>708080480
Anytime(:
>>708080229
Hey it's all about the endgame. It sucks now but once you're sitting with said anon on the couch in your own house it'll be worth it
>>708080160
Have you considered seeking counseling of some sorts? I know some people feel weird about seeing a psychologist but it really can help and if you've got good insurance it'll even be cheap.
>>708080516
I do too
Why isn't there more healthy/proportionately made plus sized women in the world?
>>708080020
It's always better to regret doing something than to regret not doing it.
Especially this.
I just wanna find some long distance (Possibly close I could actually sleep with) who will send me nudes and boost my confidence cause my girlfriend has destroyed mine
>>708077059
Happy birthday anon
>>708076784
I want to make Vidya, but I lack the mathematical and artistic talent and skill to do it. In fact I can't think of one thing I'm good at.
>>708080587
Because being fat isn't healthy?
>>708080532
I thought about it but I don't know if I could afford it. and I get so embarrassed when I talk about my problems
Saw a picture today posted by my old high school. They built a bench (finally) for a friend of mine that passed away in a car crash my Junior year. Almost 3 years ago now.
Haven't thought about him lately, but seeing that bench just really brought up some feels. Rest in peace, we miss you, GBH.
>>708080794
You're good at not being good at thinking of things you're good at
>>708080524
why are you in this thread? what's on your mind anon?
>>708080229
Life sucks and then you die... but wait it doesnt have to!!! Keep doing your thing, like you said things are looking up. You'll move in with your bf and things will be hunky dory and you'll look back and wonder why you ever felt this way.
>>708079774
>I'd imagine so. But the way I see it, there's a world of opportunities and experiences out there and while it's okay to feel down remember that you still have options you still have ways of making yourself happy. Maybe small lifestyle changes that you make can result in pretty good things coming your way anon
For me it is always the people that are around you. A lot of 'I wish I tried' was from fear promoted of those around you. Takes a while to find a good crowd of your peers.
>>708080830
Check with your health insurance if it'll cover it if not maybe consider switching insurance. Remember that whatever you say stays with that person. No need to feel embarrassed as they hear many things just like it and aren't there to judge you they're there to help. I'm an aspiring psychologist for that same reason.
>>708076784
How do you make friends again?
My "best friends" were toxic assholes and I had to dump them.
I don't have people anymore. How do I do this at 23?
>>708080521
>>708080320
Thanks
Like I said, the whole cycle F does is really not letting me move on, I will try to go with G, but how can I get F out of my mind?
>>708077059
Happy Birthday, Anon. May this be the beginning of a year filled with happy memories and wonderful moments
>>708080279
She's really special to me... And I don't know how to say "Hey, I really like you". I mean, she's pretty, but it's risky say that, I don't wanna miss her that way...
>>708076784
It was one of those nights..
Thinking to much..couldnt sleep..hm
>>708080926
I feel so alone. I spend most of my time alone because I have social anxiety and I don't like normies.
>>708081042
That's true, but hey if you make that attempt I'm sure you can begin creating a circle of support with friends who you'll deem as good people
>>708080901
Erm, thanks anon... I guess
>>708081132
Your work place, maybe social areas you frequent often, even (and I know people hate it) online. Just honestly maybe join a conversation someone's having about a topic you're interested in and see where it goes
>>708081132
I don't know man. I haven't had friends in a long time. Closest is just some strings of text on an image board
>>708081115
I guess I could check it. I have an ok plan. but I feel I can't bring myself to do it. It took me a week just to call my dentist to get a filling done.
>>708081158
Realize that if you pick F your life and relationship will spiral out of control into a pit of uncertainty, obligations, and unhappiness because of the sheer lack of stablity in this girl's head
>>708076784
>What's on your mind
Her.
>>708081534
Don't work.
I'm only taking 2 classes right now.
Where online?
>>708081248
Maybe hangout with her just the two of you and start by talking about different stuff possibly related and slowly ease into it. But when you tell her be firm and don't sort of come off as lovelorn but rather just telling her how you feel and asking her how she feels
>>708080453
Tell us about you, anon.
What's your name?
>>708081342
I fell ya anon, that's me in a nutshell. if you ever wanna talk hit me up on skype
:styxstix
imma head of to bed. Night all. thanks for all the feels. I hope you all find what you're looking for someday
I'm very social and have a lot of friends. But deep inside i am fucking lonely man.
Anons, believe me. Don't worry about not having friends or being antisocial. Because when it comes to rock bottom, you are on your own.
I know you guys want friends to hang out, or have fun, make bad decisions. But in the end you can thrust no one. I learned it the hard way.
I just hit rock bottom and i have no one, no money, no gf, nothing.
>>708076784
Finnaly realized that the girl I'm in love with doesn't love me back.
>>708080813
I didn't say fat, I said plus sized. voluptuous breasts,nice average size apple shaped booty, looking like that model from the sports illustrated swimsuit edition.
>>708081158
I have similar qualms with a certain girl whom I can't get off my mind so I can't really help all that much but what I believe needs to be done is you need to stop talking to her/avoid her and just give it time, hopefully that works for your sake and for my own.
>>708076784
Sitting alone, not depressed, just bored with most things
>>708081719
I've learned in college you can always start a condo with a classmate by making a joke about the professor or class itself. Online you can maybe make a couple social media join a forum things like that
>>708081798
I has no skype. Only snapchat and such
>>708081861
That's not "plus-size" anon. That's a normal, healthy person who doesn't appear to starve herself.
>>708081412
That might have been so, but now its full of filthy normies.
Fuck.
I'm cheating my girlfriend with a hoe and idk how not become fond with her.
Hooked up with this girl with an amazing body last night but could not for the life of me keep an erection strong enough to put it in. She was tight enough it made me wonder if she's a virgin. I still came twice but have weird feels.
Ex gf texts me tonight asking if we can swap nudes. Don't want to outright tell her no because I kinda like the other girl, but the other girl stopped texting me at like 8. I'm thinking she was just tired and went to bed, but her tinder profile has new pics on it too.
Two weeks ago now my ex gf that wanted to swap nudes again told me she was pregnant, and two days later said she actually took a double dose of plan b and miscarried that day. So unsure if she's still pregnant or even just made the whole thing up. Ugh. And I need to see if my two Cs lab programs even compile, but they're due in a few days
>>708081681
Sorry anon. Hope you can get past her eventually
>>708081631
Yeah definitely look into it atleast and it's fine to take the time you need before seeking help but as a guy who's studying this, has had some mental issues, and a caring anon definitely give it a try, we humans have the need for social interaction and to express emotion.
>>708081407
>That's true, but hey if you make that attempt I'm sure you can begin creating a circle of support with friends who you'll deem as good people
I have had some very successful mentors that gave me a good short set of rules I take to heard.
1) Never impress anyone that is not paying you.
2) Not everyone is happy for you as you reach success.
3) You never lose, you make money or you learn something.
4) Always spend 10% of your income on fun things. No more and no less.
5) Only seek permission from someone if it is illegal.
6) Go to sleep on Sunday night looking forward to Monday morning.
For once in my life, it's going great, I can't say much is bad. Everyone is sad I'll try to give some good advice. It'll all look up soon enough anons don't worry.
>>708082230
Honestly a pretty good set of rules to live by. Hey if it works it works ya know. Props to you anon you seem like you got things going your way with that
>>708079493
Believe me every passing year it gets easier. Happy birthday faggot.
>>708082058
I agree, but that is what she is known for.
>>708082104
Thanks anon, me too, the wound is still fresh
I've been replying to a butt load of the posts here and figured hey why not? Any of you anons need someone to talk to I'll add you guys on kik or something just throwing it out there for anyone who wants someone to listen.
>>708081666
Satan trips confirms the truth, thanks this actually helps a lot
>>708081871
I've tried this before, but I was still weak. Thinking about it, now that G is around I might be able to do it. Good luck anon
>>708076926
Me too buddy.
>I look out the window of my 12th floor apartment every night, just before dawn, touch the glass of my window and wish her a good morning
>>708081960
> snapchat: sulliedbystandr
What's the point of it all. We live then we die and have no effect on the universe. Are we just an accidental combination of molecules that think they know anything or are we a cruel joke by an angry god to watch us love then take it away forever, or some strange amalgamation of both. The world is dark anon and there is no way to know if we matter.
>>708082569
I'm sure it will at some point. Thanks cuck :)
>>708081412
fucking cringe
>>708077059
A wonderful happy birthday my dude, a prosperous year to you, I know you can make it, I believe in you, whatever hardship you may be facing
>>708081736
Yeah. But... What's the possibility she feels the same?... She's perfect, not for me, for anyone. She can choose any other guy better than me.
>>708082795
Dude who gives a shit, go out get drunk, have sex, make money and enjoy life. Who cares if we're gonna stop existing when we die. At least we had some fun before then
>>708082734
I added you
Here in Russia we have an old saying. After black comes white, and after white comes black and so on repeated.
What it means is, when you have a fucked up time (black) always remember it's temporarily and all will be better soon. (white)
Hope you guys will reach what you trulely desire in life.
Greetings from Russia ;)
Trying to work out an inner paradox. My existence is a conflicting duality. On one end of myself, I have strong Alpha male tendencies. Game is strong, know how to achieve, be completely capable, and work women. On top of that, pretty handsome too so... being a guy, perfect position.
On the other hand, have a extremely strong tendency towards femininity. Have also a woman inside of me, feel like a woman, want a females body. I don't feel complete as a man, and I as an ex trap, didn't feel complete as a woman living that for 2 years.
What the fuck am I... Bi-Sexual, have a gf who is totally into both sides of me... but she like me, has that internal conflict between masculine and feminine. Not sure where to go from here..
>>708082963
Possibility is 50/50 bro as with any girl. Just remember regardless of what happens you will make it out either having gained or learned something.
I was an asshole. I saw that though, I recently just understood. Decided to change myself and be the boyfriend she deserves. And I had begun to start trying harder. Then, she left. I begged her not to. The best I got, is she is going to be alone for a month and then come back and talk to me, maybe, maybe not we'll work things out. This month will be hell. And I hope things work out... I can't blame her for not trusting me, I should've been better. But I saw that, and now I want nothing more than to be the best. But she won't let me. What do I do?
>>708082963
And don't fool yourself into thinking you're any less "deserving" than someone else you probably have good qualities that you aren't emphasizing show off your goods m8
dad died when i was 16 mom died january 3rd this year no brothers/sisters or friends i've been diabetic since i was 6 taking shit care of myself starting to suffer related health problems hahaha
>>708076784
Just thinking about if I'll ever be able to escape from the reality of how shitty my life is
>>708078148
That is so fucking adorable
>>708082637
I'm in the same boat as you. She was everything to me...
>>708083348
Thank you anon(:
Yesterday I got a grils number but deep inside of me I know she is not interested, that's why I'm afraid of messaging her
>>708078148
That's the nicest thing I've seen anyone do for anyone on here, you're a Saint.
>>708082972
I do all of this stuff you said yet i still feel empty and small knowing that it means nothing in the grand scheme of the universe.
>>708082277
I know a guy like that whom lost his wife of 40 years just a while ago. We introduced him to a local bar that has a lot of retiree day drinkers. It is his community now and he has a place to talk about back in the day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O9JipfT9nLg
>>708083615
"you miss 100% of the shots you don't take" don't let an opportunity slip by you. If she doesn't reply move on to the next one
>>708077059
Happy birthday to us, Anon
>>708083627
Thanks, sweetheart. I just wanna feel like I'm making someone smile. Takes away the feels a little
>>708083204
You gotta be the best for yourself and only yourself, maybe she will see that and come back.
>>708083327
Fuck that's awful man. do you not have any other close family?
>>708083288
You're damn right. Thanks anon, I really appreciate it... That's what I needed. I'll tell her what I feel and wait for the best... :')
>>708080630
>T H I S
Whatever it is you need to say, just go and say it, otherwise, you'll spend half of your night thinking about what could have been said or done, and that's a fate literally worse than death
>>708083836
Id love to hear that voice every single day.
>>708083958
There you go! Best of luck to you anon!
>>708083135
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EefPcht54c
Been listening to Manson for years. This particular error caught me... It is a comfort. It is a sign that the middle ground can be achieved and work too. Easy for a Rock star... but I am a sales exec. Appearances are goddamn important in this small town. Any andro's in tonight?
>>708084020
Same
Sometimes when we are feeling sad or feeling nothing, it can be refreshing to feel someone else's sadness because we know that it isn't ours so we can let go of it as soon as we leave the thread. We like that feeling of being able to abandon the sadness because we often find that it isn't as easy to leave our own.
>>708083796
>>708082941
Thank you anons.
I'm trying to fight the battle. Maybe one day I will stand victorious
>>708083772
This happened before, I met a girl am get her number we even schedule a date and shit but she never showed up.
I don't want to go through that felling again
>>708084020
>>708084091
You could add me on snapchat and I'll sing to you every night.
>>708084324
But it's not guaranteed to be the same anon, and think what if she is the one to actually try with you and hopefully lead to something new. I've made that mistake myself trust me you never wanna regret not taking that chance.
>>708077218
This is the opposite for me. If I didn't exist, so much around me would be different, I've had a huge impact on my high school and now college and parks dept, my family loves me and a girl that I really like is one of my best friends, but that's why I feel so alone. Nobody can completely see why I don't like myself, I've been leads in musicals, I've traveled a lot, I have great experiences. But while tfwnogf.jpeg is a meme, it has truth to it. I just want to love a girl who loves me. This existence is a painful one. But I can't end it, it would be too selfish and unfair to the people around me.
>>708084392
What's your snapchat anon?
>>708077059
Ayy, sounds like me. Happy birthday /b/ro.
>>708084392
Is yours the one posted above?
>>708078074
When she told u about the guy she has a crush on, you should have replied "oh, we're not in a relationship? You know lets call off the prom, it will be awkward."
>>708084583
No mine's fventura064
>>708084523
>>708084583
atomiccomet
>>708084625
I would have but she went through this explanation of how when she was older she wanted to not regret going to the prom with the person she went with and she said I was the only person she'd never regret going with.
Well good night anon's. it has been nice talking to you all. I'm sure we might meet again in another thread before it 404's too. best of luck
>>708084462
I have no money and I'm a boring person, di you thing I still have a chance?
I mean she gave me her number because I was drunk and grew a pair of balls to asked her to dance with me
>>708083836
What about you though? What's rustling up your feels?
a girl who i've been trying to help stay clean just robbed me while i slept. feels amazing
>>708084869
I'm just a depressed person. I feel alone and isolated.
>>708084743
Added :)
>>708084993
Fuck that chick. I know the feeling. I'm six months clean
>>708084482
Damn, anon. I feel you.
Care to greentext something?
Also, I like musicals. What are some you performed in?
>inb4 gay
>>708084866
Not having money is no problem, not all people in relationships have money, and I'm sure there's something interesting about you anon no one is absolutely boring
I've got a toxic ex that I'm still emotionally invested in, and a girlfriend who I'm not physically attracted to, but is basically me in female form.
Even though we're not together any more, the ex and I still fight, make up and then hang out, because I can't bring myself to cut her off each time she comes crawling back.
Been in love with my lesbian best friend for over 2 years now. I can't tell her because I know where it's gonna go. She trusts me, and I absolutely cannot fuck this up. As much as it hurts me to not tell her, it would be worse if I did. I try to convince myself that I'm just infatuated with her, or I just wanna fuck her, but it's all lies. I love her, and that's something I will take to my grave.
>>708085207
U don't know me
But still I will message her on monday, thanks anon
>>708085116
yeah. it's been years of struggle with her and she was supposedly clean when she came to see me. I knew what would happen if I invested so much in this as she is playing with fire but still. I thought we were getting somewhere
>>708085213
Dude, just say, hey I don't think we can be friends anymore, I've grown feelings for you, its just not going to work out.
>>708079120
Glad to hear anon. :)
>>708085213
She probably knows, women good with that shit
>>708085370
I don't, but see if even me, a random stranger who knows nothing about you can sit and have this chat with you it goes to show you can talk to her. Give it you're all anon you never know what could happen
>>708085044
Well, if it makes you feel better, I believe in you to overcome your depression, someday you'll have a beautiful and honest smile on your face.
>>708085211
sounds like its just a matter of time before you're both distracted. if its really weighing you down let her know
>>70808506
"Its all for nothing and we're alone."
>>708085213
tell her anon. Keeping those feelings inside will tear you apart.
>>708085569
Thank you (: i wish you the most genuine of happiness.
>>708085371
I'm sorry but the best thing you can do for an addict is cut them loose if they don't get help
I have surpressed most of my childhood, I try to remember to gain a sliver of who I am, but I fear the more I try and remember the past I'll lose focus on the present and future. Is memory really all that important to who you are?
>>708085650
I'm a different anon btw.
I wish you luck in beating your depression.You're one of a kind, anon.
>>708085644
Yea but I would add tell her and at the same time say it won't work out so its best to break off the friendship too. Love is really just a chemical attraction, no sense in torturing yourself. Find a new best friend and eventually girlfriend.
>>708078148
You sound familiar anon, you weren't browsing here last thanksgiving were you?
>>708083355
Me too, I didn't realize how much she defined my being till it was over. I feel like a shell of my former self. Truly, utterly, feels bad man
>>708085916
Do you know any family members?
>>708079563
Yea, that sucks. Find a shorter girl.
>>708086139
I've been on 4chan for about 10 years
>>708076784
I'm getting over a divorce, it's some bullshit, no I'm not even over my 30's I know I tooked an stupid decision at the time but I dunno I thought it was going to be different, anyways that's why I don't sleep too much, house feels empty as fuck
Through this whole semester of college, I've been struggling to find my reason to live after my best friend disappearing. They were the only thing that kept me alive and hopeful. But Now they are gone, It's a struggle and I tried pretending I'm okay. Hell, I tried to become social by changing my very being to a normal person. But really, I'm just coping that my best friend gave me a reason to live. I became dependent on their happiness and now I'm looking for substitutes like her... I'm pretty fucked up aren't I .
>>708080229
I'll play skullgirls with you anon
>>708079963
That's rough, man. Try filling the void with hobbies and you'll forget about it after a while.
>>708085983
Thank you, anon. (: i love you
>>708084993
lol you trusted a junkie? You feel like a gullible asshole don't you?
>>708086361
>disappearing\
You mean your friend is missing
>>708086358
I'm in my mid twenties and see a lot of my peers getting married recently, and I always wonder which ones are getting married too young.
I dated a girl for 6 years and thought she was the one, it ended up not working out and boy am I glad I didn't tie the knot on that one.
>>708086532
childhood friend
I can't be happy with someone, I'm so insecure every time I am with someone I just think they would be happier with someone else.
>>708086585
Missing more or less yeah. Point is, I miss em
>>708079097
Copy his haircut, idiot
>>708086524
I love you too anon. Have a good night/day/morning
>>708077059
happy birthday you glorious faggot.
>>708086730
focus on u
>>708079097
she probably hates you because you were the one she wanted to be with but you never met up to her expectations, maybe you weren't the shoulder she got to cry on or the person who listened to her problems.
>>708085211
Dude just take ya balls and get the fuck up any whore has the right to... You know what fucking kill yourself
>gf of 1.5 years broke up with me a month or so ago because I was "too good for her"
>I know that's just code for she fell for someone else / stopped loving me
>jump on Tinder and meet another girl not long afterwards
>all I could think about was the ex, it was like she was projected onto this rebound
>the rebound buys me a gift for my 21st birthday; no one else outside of my family remembered but she did
>had to break her heart because my consciousness overrode my dick
>group assignment at uni with a bunch of fucking idiots, sick of carrying their asses but I need the marks
>no matches on tinder, those that do match, don't reply
>qt in class from US who I never get a chance to ask out, and even if I do, she'll go back to the US after this semester
laugh and the world laughs with you, weep and you weep alone.
</pityparty>
>>708086330
Ye, about the same here. If that was you last year, good to see you're still around.
>>708080077
Go fuck yourself. There are people with real problems here and you come with this shit?
>>708086855
I've been doing that for the 2 months, I just feel like I can't connect with anyone anymore. thanks for the sentiment
>>708086730
Try to stop thinking like that. Easier said than done, but if you can maybe it'd stop holding you back.
>>708087001
My gf of a year stopped loving me anon, you're not alone :(
>>708086802
You as well, anon.
>>708085191
Switched to laptop for better typing
I played Gomez in the Addams Family, most proud of that, but I've played secondary characters in Spamalot, Once Upon a Matress, and South Pacific. Yeah everyone will call me gay but I'm straight and I love musical theatre, its nice to sing and yell, its an outlet for repressed rage honestly. but here's a story about the Addams Family
>after senior year of highschool
>frustrated at self for not trying hard enough in anything despite having ridiculous raw talent
>trying to impress girl and piss one of my "friends" off
>pour heart and soul into audition
>got Gomez
>ontopoftheworld.jpeg
>slaughter the musical, didnt mess anything up except for minor flubbed lines
>girl didnt come to any of the three performances
>she was out of town so she had an excuse but it sent me right back to the pits of my own sorrow
why does it have to be this way
>>708086253
Wanna tell me the story? Unless this 404s
>>708087001
You're actually a faggot mate
>>708086952
that being said tho anon, don't take this advice as meaning that's all you should do because that's a one-way ticket to friendzone
I've learnt that if you let a girl know, clearly, that you are interested, and she does not respond, you have to cut her off cold.
>>708087028
Probably was kek
>>708081412
>girl liked you
>wage cuck
fuck off
>>708086738
You should try to find more friends. Branch out, become more of a people person. They can help you to find your reason. I can't speak for you though.
First time green-text, sorry if it's shit
Just wanna get this off my chest
>be me
>16, beta, weeb, overall loser
>end up being friends with the nerd crowd
>end up liking this qt3.14 Mexican girl
>cute, shy, nerdy, everything my lonely heart wanted
>she always had this really sweet and lovely smell to her that I never understood
>she's the one who got me into anime and the nerd crowd
>still inbetween another relationship so don't tell her I like her
>fast forward 3 months
>still really like Mexican girl, only told my best friend
>she ends up telling Mexican girl that I like her
>apparently Mexican girl likes me back
>start dating, nothing too serious for the rest of school
>go away to Bahamas for part of summer vacation (Aunt worked there at the time, I'm not a richfag)
>things get as serious as they can long distance, make plans to fuck once I'm back in the states
>once I get back, best summer of my life
>both of our first real kisses, lost our virginities together, went on dates with this girl everywhere
>best moment was when we were waiting in line for a roller coaster
>she leaned her head on my shoulder and I said 'I love you'
>'I love you too'
>at that moment, I knew I wanted to be with this girl forever
>school starts, she takes her grades really seriously
>still finds time to do things with me
>go see movies, go to dinner a lot, talk about anime, help each other with physics and math
>usual nerdy couple things
>winter break happens, and I have to leave for family reasons
>still talk, but much less than usual
(1/?)
>>708087236
this is true, don't give yourself away to someone who won't give you the time of day
>>708076784
Didnt take meds, then preceded to skin my leg like a idiot, now realizing the spiral truly never ends life is confusing and depressing
>>708077059
Happy birthday, man. For real.
>>708087324
jesus. i would just accept my demise right there
>>708082726
this hit me fucking hard.
>>708083912
I had a similar situation and then I gradated from college and got the fuck out of Dodge. Moved three time zones away where my "weird computer thing" paid damn good money. The first month away from them, I had sensations of weights falling off my back. At times, I would just scream in my car as more and more daily bullshit from them was no longer around. After a few months, they stopped calling and nearly forgot about me. I made the mistake telling them how much money I made on just and entry level software engineer position. Overnight, they are being all friendly and hitting me up for money. Friends of my siblings that treated me like shit would call me asking me for money. When I would not loan them anything, it was like being in high school with them trying to steal my hall pass. It was pathetic. I only went back once for the Holidays and it was a shit show. I don't go back anymore we talk very little.
>>708086669
Yeah and you did well I did it because I was afraid of losing her you know, I tough that will keep me always by her side, but this is the real world and that shit doesn't exist, anyways I'm finding refugee in the drugs, the whores and the alcohol.
>>708087129
it's likely you will find your people soon
Everyone in this thread posting about "That girl that got away" don't know what real depression is.
Though some do, the majority don't and are just being little bitches.
Anybody else spend their birthdays alone? how do you cope? I usually buy myself something I really wanted. Last two years I got myself a $200 watch and the next I got a mongoose bike. I constantly leave my watch everywhere and I use my older rusty bike more often than the mongoose. what the fuck is wrong with me, I don't even look at them anymore.
>>708087324
To be honest, I did make a unique group and gave me a place.
But it's more or less the feeling that this best friend was the one who gave me life and the support to get me through day by day. So here I am looking for that again.
>>708087466
yeah jeez. ificouldturnbacktime.mp3
>>708086253
My exact situation right now. Hope it gets better for you /b/ro
>>708087324
I want to see that redhead thirty years ago in the 1980's when she was worth something. Bet she was hot back in the day before she had abortions.
contemplated jumping onto a busy road last night
>>708080077
Go with G, you won't regret it
>>708087511
I was in a similar situation, I cut of all of my friends from highschool because of this. One friend who only wanted to hang out at my house and eat all my food and watch tv. Another who thought she was pragnent started to flirt with me and call every night asking me to teach her kid good manners. Only person who left on their own was my gf at the time who broke up with me saying she wanted to fuck more guys in college.
>>708087747
now u become the person who your next partner will love
>>708087553
thanks anon
>>708078074
Her cupcakes suck and anyone who fucks up cupcakes isn't worth it.
First greentext.
1/2
>Be me, high school.
>Crush on different girl every year.
>One ended badly, the rest turn me down and manage to stay friends.
>My 18th birthday.
>Never liked being center of attention, so never tell anyone.
>One girl in particular, never crushed on.
>Awesome friend, one of my oldest.
>Sitting next to her one class.
>Another friend who knew about the day wishes me well.
>She hears, adds her own voice to the chorus.
>Few minutes pass.
>She hands me a paper.
>Beautiful home-made bday card.
>Inside:
Dude! Can't believe you're gonna graduate soon! That's so exciting :) No matter what, we've always been there for one another. Even after we don't talk for awhile, we pick up right where we left off! Thank you so much for never turning your back on me, even after I made all those terrible decisions. We may not always be super close, but I never remember being angry with you (you're probably the only person) and I hope I've never made you too awful pissed :) Ha.
>>708087855
dont hurt anyone else man. time heals all wounds
>>708087855
Feel you, every day i look back to that time I almost succeeded, wondering where I went wrong, though also realizing maybe it wasnt my time
>>708088034
2/2
>End of year approaches.
>People exchanging pictures of themselves is a(n admittedly odd) tradition here.
>She and I exchange.
>On back of her beautiful face is another message:
Anon!
Seriously man, I truly appreciate how awesome you are. Like you actually give a shit. I respect you a lot! Please don't allow society to change you. And after you graduate, keep in touch! I'm always here for ya. Sorry about being so random. :)
Much love <3.
>Maybe I was just dense as fuck.
>Maybe it was just that she had a bf at the time.
>Never even considered her as more than just my greatest friend.
>Her number stopped working at some point.
>New phone since then, so mine won't work for her if she ever uses it again.
>Still have the card and picture.
>Having them on my nightstand helps with being alone.
>Looking back, I realize we would've been great together.
>We never hesitated to talk to each other about anything.
>We pushed each other to be better people.
>MFW it took so long to realize.
K, on the off chance you actually see this, D is sorry. Sorry I never realized how in love with you I was. Sorry I may never get to tell you that I still love you.
>>708087636
Nothing is wrong with you anon. You got yourself some nice things. But that's it they are just nice things they don't define you. Like that favorite t-shirt or comfy pair of shoes that is old as fuck.
You haven't thrown them out tho because you really like the image/saying on it or you were wearing them on the perfect day....
Noting wrong with nice stuff, it's a treat. But that is all it is. You'll go back to what makes you comfortable
>>708087584
I can relate. I was depressed for a long time, never even thought about girls. but i think what gets to a lot of people is finding comfort in someone special and then losing that comfort. I'm still not over her, but it doesn't weigh me down or make me sad like it used to. It takes longer for some and some never get over it they just try to grow around it.
>>708088035
Though does it, lost brother to the stupid war its been 9 years, seems it never gets better or any easier
>>708078148
Fuck. You're a damn good person, anon.
>>708081158
You could force yourself to forget her. Try demonising her out of your mind. But to be honest mate once you're in love with G, F will be gone from your mind
>>708087735
I relate so fucking hard. Sometimes I'll drive or walk to a park and just pretend I'm talking to her still. I'll sit on the swings alone, a little chilly. I just tell her I miss her so much. I don't want to accept what shes done, I loved her more than anything and I don't want to love anyone else. My dignity prevents me from pursuing anything again. I've tried going out with girls a few times and...they're just not her.
>>708087584
Depression is different for each person personally girls have nothing to do with my crippling bipolar though I do wonder what it is like to feel depressed for such normal things
>>708078470
Could be worse; No job, $20, no car and living with your parents.
Oh hey that's me.
>>708088257
sorry to hear. that one will always hurt. you can still be here for some cause
>>708087369
>come back from break, she's different
>standoffish, makes up excuses to not go out anywhere
>still love her with everything I had and more
>valentine's day soon, planned out the whole day
>big steak dinner, movies, and all the corny stuff she loved
>get home from school the next day, one new message
"I'm not sure we can work anymore. I'm sorry"
>talk to her for hours, trying to understand what happened
>tells me she hasn't loved me since October, felt like she had to date me so I wouldn't get depressed
>get depressed
>attempt suicide a few times, fail each time
>at one point I had the barrel of a gun in my mouth, tried to pull the trigger, and realized the safety was on
>cried for a solid 3 hours after that
>during all this, I turned to drugs to "help"
>became addicted to coke, stole pills from my parents, did anything to get high
>act fine at school and around my friends and family
>hard bc Mexican girl and I share friends and school
>one day, I snorted 2 lines of coke, smoked a bowl, and took a shot of vodka before I drove 3 hours
>don't remember the rest of the day, was disappointed when I woke up and wasn't dead
>eventually get caught by parents, everything confiscated, random drug tests, etc.
>birthday next month, lost most of my friends bc drugs and getting caught
>nobody comes to bday party
>still depressed and have to be in the same friend group as this girl
>end up losing nearly 20 pounds over the summer bc depression
>ffw
>be me, 18
>high and drunk, back at the bottom, smoking a cig and typing this at 4am
>hundreds in debt, license all but revoked
>still nobody knows I'm depressed
>haven't dated or been too interested in anyone since
>haven't been as close with my friends since
>still think about her every day
>still think about the time she told me she loved me at the theme park
>can't watch anime without thinking of her
>still have that smell lingering in my thoughts
>her smell
I can't imagine loving someone more than I loved her.
>>708088536
i found old stupid videos of us and we couldnt stop laughing. even when we had a few years apart when we got back together it was like nothing changed. now she has a family with him and it is most certainly over. hard to keep my eyes front
>>708088664
Ya just have to figure out what that reason is, it feels like my odds of finding that reason and living dwindle each day.
>>708088838
I wish you lived near me. I would love to just share stories like this and enjoy your company.
>>708084244
I do this to my best friend who passed 2 years ago. It's sad :(
>>708088918
many people do not truly become their name until they are much later in life
>>708078470
Hey at least you got a truck & 250$ lol, try 89k in dept probably be 90k at the end of this year.
It's crazy to hear my brother say I'm his role model and yet I feel like I haven't done shit with my life. I understand though, he's had it rough growing up, I've had it easy in comparison and I'm glad I can push him to do better.
>>708087190
I get that anon. I did band through high school (still doing it) and I had a crush on this one girl.
She was so cute.
>be me, senior year super good french horn player
>crushing hard on this girl
>biggest performance yet coming up
>ask girl to prom
>she says yes
>fast forward to prom 1 month later
>we had been dating since then
>I was in love
>go to prom
>she keeps looking at other guys
>prollynothing.wav
>Performance time
>she promised to come
>I took a solo french horn part just for her at the end
>super scared of solos
>but will do it for her
>we start
>she's not there
>she's just late, right?
>maybe she's in traffic?
>is she sick?
>she promised me
>solo time
>she didn't come
>I place my horn down and walk away
>want to die
>next day, I walk up to her in the hallway
>I ask why she wasn't there
>pretends she doesn't know me
>calls me a gross stalker and everyone hears
>want to die
Why me
>>708089034
heres to brighter days without her
my roommate hates me what do i do
>>708089381
Cheers, brother.
I still have videos of my ex-girlfriend, I have one on my desktop, its of us, I tell her I love her, she says "I love you too", I say "yah right" and she says "I do, I love you." It makes me smile. She's off doing better things I hope, I should improve myself, maybe not for her but so that I can be worthy of someone liker her someday.
>>708089445
eat the food
>>708088080
You fucking retard
>not staying in touch
>being that fucking dense
>taking so long
And worst of all
>dwelling on the past
>staring at photo when lonely
Move the fuck on!
>mfw your this fucking stupid
Alternatively;
>search online
>use every possible resource
>find her estimate/exact location
>discover relationship situation
>stalk until right moment
>run up to her
>hug her
>kiss her
>romanticoftheyearaward.jpeg
>get beat down from husband
>get arrested for sexual harassment
>be sent to feminist male concentration camp #4597
