How are you feeling right now /b?
Whats going on in your head?
>>707743897
I'm contemplating talking a walk through the park and feed the birds some tasty bread, OR sit here for hours on end until I fall asleep. Life is hard dude...
Not to bad.
>>707743897
pretty shit anon, how about you?
>>707744316
you should go for that walk.
>>707744568
Fuck it, I will. Thanks fag, have a good one.
>>707744737
on ya
>>707743897
Feels like its 4am. Its felt that way the past few days. Im tired, but I cannot sleep. Im hungry, I cant eat all I can do is stare off
>>707744400
You got dubz/trips/dubz
Nice anon
>>707743897
Things could be better, what's going on in your head?
>>707743897
I confessed to my best friend yesterday.
Now it's the next day and she hasn't texted me at all.
Usually she always texts me. I guess I destroyed it.
>>707745603
You gotta give her some time to process information
I'm good, high as hell
>>707745563
Im tired man. Im tired all the time but I cant sleep. I go to the gym because thats the only place I can be angry. I then go home, shower and stare off into the night or half ass play Destiny while listening to Alcest till I have to go to work again. I just realized on my way to work this morning that I wasnt even paying attention. I just... auto-pilot.
>>707743897
Feeling disappointed at my life. I have made bad decisions and here I am. Otherwise, planning to play vidya soon. Not sure which though. I'm not teenager btw.
I miss her a lot.
I hope the new guy is just a rebound, a distraction. She only got with him a few weeks after shit went down between us.
I don't want to wish pain upon her because I love her, but she was hopelessly in love with me for years before I started falling for her. Surely she'll feel how I'm feeling right now at some point? Because this is the most I've ever been affected by an event. I'm so fucking down.
>>707745853
I know what you mean. Just take it one breath, one step, one day at a time.
>>707743897
I'm really stressed out I have to choose right now between fallout or stalker its the cold war all over again
Pretty fucking scared. Basically got cat fished by a 13 year old dick picks for the only reason of fucking me overn like I thought she was of age and she lied. She screenshot it and said shes telling. Im so scared /b/ros
>>707746098
How long were you two together?
>>707743897
not that good but not that bad i guess?
girl on my mind
rather longish story
also listening to rhcp again
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mzJj5-lubeM
>>707746313
Screenshot the combo yourself and when the cops arrest you you can she never said she was under 18 and you assumed she was over
>>707746098
my ex of 2 years, me being her first sex, broke up to be with her best guy friend 2 weeks after
they supposedly had a 1 year relationship
its 10 pm here
need to wake up at like 6.15 am
gonna watch new episode of south park then go to sleep
>>707746479
Fuck.
I just want her back.
>>707743897
Weed lmao
>>707746668
i know anon
need to wait it out i guess, dont text her no nothing
ghost her
>>707745853
God damn my nigger...god damn
>>707746469
Not to mention she fucking literally asked for it just to get me fucked. Who the hell does that?
>>707745853
>. I just... auto-pilot.
you too?
>>707745853
Have you seen the movie "Cashback" from 2006?
Everything is a mess, stressing about university
I am tired and coffee buzzed. Im wishing this Coil album I'm listening to was better.
>>707743897
Okey anon. Im afraid. I know a girl about 7ys. We were very close friends but nothing more. After 7 year we are a couple, love each other and im afraid to lose her if our relationship is going to bad.
My life sucks
Bumming at my old apartment with girlfriend thing until I go to jail on the 17th.
Have dui on the 17th along with other shit.
>>707747213
You gotta fight for it man. The real "battle" has only just begun.
>>707743897
Pretty angry because I spend most of my time playing online video games and every single day there's some kid or 16-21 year old with the iq of a 12 year old there to purposely fuck with me over and over. It's especially bad on sm4sh online because you can not only teabag, but you can taunt too and if you taunt back they can report you to an automated ban system which sends you to servers filled exclusively with these deplorable pieces of shit. I fucking hate people that have little to no interest in actual game and get enjoyment from pissing other people off. We all have problems but god damn is it so hard to have some integrity and respect that other people don't need to be affected by your problems
>>707746748
That's what I'm doing.
Plan on waiting around a month and then hitting her up. See if she still despises me.
At the very least I want her in my life. Our romance initially naturally developed from us being super close friends. So she's more than just an ex to me. She was my best friend.
>>707743897
I want to masturbate but I'm not sure if I can be bothered.
>>707747213
Don't be beta
Be there for her and do cool stuff with her, go traveling and shit. If she loves you she won't leave.
I've been feeling hella depressed lately with my agoraphobia keeping me inside my house and all. On the other side, two of my friends are coming to drink, watch TV and fuck. Hypeeed.
>>707747406
Find some friends to play regularly with. Are you playing on Wii U or 3DS?
>>707743897
Not too bad, on my second week of a No-Weed break and just starting to adjust and feel less emotionally fucked up
>>707747274
Think of it's as a vacation. Hard part gets when you get out. It shouldn't be end of the world though, you haven't killed anyone. Take care.
>>707743897
I think about a huge black dick fucking my ass right now <3
>>707747933
Been out of work for months
Been selling drugs to pay for shit
Have shitty references for work(applied almost everywhere)
Only going to jail for month maybe
Owe drug dealers money
>>707747847
3DS
>>707748261
Too bad man. Hope you find some nice regulars to play with
>>707744444
>>707747690
I'm very depressed too, I dont have other fobias but I cant sleep, i cant feel emothions properly and I think this is going to fuck up my life
Cats
>>707747852
Same here lol. I'm on day 13 of being sober. Weed gives me terrible anxiety and makes it impossible for me to keep a job where I work with people for 8 hours. That and it's fucking expensive where I live, and fucking illegal for no reason. The downside is I'm fucking angry all the time
>>707748397
Thank you, anon-kun ^_^ btw who do you main? Marth here
>>707748679
Think of cats
Shitty
been fucking up alot at work this week . Boss is a dick head who never misses a chance to kick you when your down, but still my job is the only thing i have in my life except for getting blackout drunk every night. Life sucks and then you die
>>707749003
Be a cat
I wanna die. I told my aunt I was dating this girl. So my aunt goes and talks to her about our relationship and where it stands. I'm never going to tell my aunt anything ever again .
>>707743897
25 yo virgin.
I rejected/never made a move on plenty of girls, because , as it turns out they flock to you if you're not a sperg and genuinely don't give a fuck.
Now I stopped fapping 3 times a day and regained my sex drive which I was effectively missing since puberty.
Now what? I'm very confident and successfull in every other area of life, but with chicks I'm completely out of my depth. I can talk to and attract them just fine, but then what?
I badly need to regain my cool and lose my thirst without fapping it away.
I can't stop binge eating. I'm not fat yet, but I know if I keep doing this shit I will be.
>>707748864
I hate cats lol. Ill think of cute puppers
>>707748797
Lucina! I like the close combat and incredible speed. I like to just fight randomly aswell but I only play with a friend online. Sometimes online but meh, they're too good for me lol.
>>707749353
Did someone say spiderman thread
sup b/ro. Just smoked my first cigarette in a couple of months, feelsbad. Just alot going on right now. Semper fi b/rother
>>707749557
No, asshole. No one invited spodermon
>>707749621
Brb looking up Spiderman pics
Sleeping with you on your order
Touch you but I shouldn't
Wish I only dreamed
That it was an ordinary Sunday
Monday morning last year
Regret all of last year
I regret never responded
I just let it be
The same night awaits all
Without you all is cold
Long dark without sleep
You're with someone other jerk
This town is dedicated to you
All the streets mock me
And my tears your city
Know that everything is too late
I know I have myself and blame
Have known it every single drunken night
Every time I went home
And waiting for you again
All movies, all the books is about you
All backs belongs to you
Until I go up
"Sorry, I thought it was somebody else"
>>707749742
I'm sure you are, you degenerate scum
>>707743897
My life is shit. I almost can't call it a life. Just being in a room, confined by my own genetics.
>>707749003
I get you, friend. I fuck up plenty. Most of mine are self-inflicted because I don't give a fuck any more so I procrastinate always. Only when I have to is when I finally do anything.
Found some
>>707744944
>via 9gag
REEEEEEEEEEEEEE GET OUT GET OUT GET OUTTTTTTTTTTT
>>707748679
2 years sober
weed gives me panic attacks for some reason
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>>707743897
I'll be honesto with you Anon, I got married a while ago, and its good... But from time to time I think about my ex... Its like a nostalgic feeling, I want to know how she doing... Even tho I broke up with her
>>707743897
I used to be happy, life was shit but at least there was something to look forward to in the day...
The last few years were tragic man, I've lost something inside me that made me the version of me that I like, and with every day it keeps getting worse. It's not like you can just 'not go to school tomorrow' and everything will eventually be fine, it's shit you gotta deal with and sometimes you just can't, no matter how many times you try it's just not up to you if it works or not. For the past few years it didn't, everytime i get out there and get on the right track something always comes out and says 'no fuck you' and sends me back to the hole.
Fuck life
>>707743897
Like shit. My period should have been here 2 days ago but is just now popping up and im forced to go somewhere this weekend and i just realized its fucking thursday, period is gonna be at full blast and i cant be a home dealing with it peacefully
About to fucking punch a wall or a nigger, Got kicked from my job, Girlfriend isnt home, Runescape is going fucking horribly, Nobody to entertain me
>>707750763
>Runescape
Oh, so you're one of those.
Same as every night, smoking weed to dampen my crippling depression. Thinking about the choices I made in life and the ones I am about to make.
>>707751009
So what if i play Runescape, games still decent, its not absolutely shit
waiting for my exam grade to upload so i can see just how badly i fucked up therapeutics
fuck pharmacy school
What do you all think about cheating?
Like, someone doing it to you, you doing it to someone, stuff like that, what's your stance
>>707751252
Unforgivable. If you get cheated on you will feel like your heart was ripped out and you will forever wonder if it could've gone differently if you just treated her better
>>707750417
I've read that it causes anxiety because it raises your heart rate and lowers your blood sugar. I've only had 3 panic attacks in my life and 2 were caused by weed
Thinking about stop doing meth
>>707751580
the irony is it is supposed to relax you
at least that's why people do it
>>707743897
feeling dead but that's my accustomed state
it feels much easier though
>>707752109
It used to make me feel relaxed, now it just raises my heart beat, it sucks ass man
>>707746975
Nah. Ill google it now but if you wanna provide a brief synopsis
Whats that?
>>707752292
Guy develops insomnia after a break up and he gets a night job to fill his time. It was quite odd but I enjoyed it a lot. Might not be applicable to your situation but you might find some wisdom in it. If not, it's pretty entertaining.
>>707752433
Nice dubz,
Ill check it out tonight, thanks for the heads up
Honestly? Scared
>>707752564
Enjoy mate. Good luck with the whole insomnia thing man.
>>707743897
I feel like leaving the US and move to Belarus or Russia to find a qt and live a simple life.
I don't have shit in the US literately nothing
Fucking
I just met awesome girl. Maybe she likes me, but I don't wanna hurt her with my life. Probably will go for friendzone and I will still dying inside. Life sucks
Feeling bad I'm thinking about my past
>>707750417
It never used to for me but I had to go back on anti depressants a little while ago and I smoked a little over the weekend.
I don't know if it had anything to do with the anti depressants but after I smoked, I felt incredibly paranoid and I wanted to just curl up into a ball and hide.
The problem was that I was at a football game and I just sat there motionless. I could feel my heartbeat thoughout my entire body.
>>707753217
have you ever tried psychedelics?
>>707753343
It's been many many years. I stopped fucking with those once I started getting my life on track. Mostly just LSD and shrooms.
The last time I dropped acid, I had a bad time. It was almost 20 years ago and I still remember how shitty everything went.
I just stick to alcohol and a little weed from time to time. But after that last experience with weed, I'll probably stay away from that as well.
>>707752281
I know exactly what you mean
I will never touch that shit again
>>707753694
Sorry to hear. My experiences with shrooms and LSD were quite life changing.
Ever since I took it, I haven't felt depressed once, and I feel a lot more in tune with reality. It's helped much more than my anti-depressants ever had.
>>707743897
>girl shows interest in me for the first time in my life, coming onto me, signs clear as day, asks me to hang out just to tell me she's married. What the fuck is wrong with women?
>can't go to college because no money
>no hopes of getting any money because live in a shitty little town with nothing to offer
>can't get a job because I need experience to get it
>no money, what i got left I'll just live off of for another few months, what happens then, I don't know
>have friends, they just live too fucking far and I've noone around me at all times
>depressed to the point where I just know that if I find something that'll get me out of it, it'll just be temporary, depression always finds a way back in
>stuck in a loop of the same day, doing the same shit, thinking about the same things, feeling miserable
>I want to die, but at the same time I want to see how far I can get, see if it's gonna get better and if it's worth the wait
>>707754094
Yeah, my main issues stem from severe anxiety so anytime my heart races, I start to get twitchy and my brain wants to shut down. I almost can't even get words out or I lose complete focus and forget what I was talking about mid sentence. The antidepressant I take helps but I'm also on Buspirone for the anxiety. It helps.
I also have to be careful with caffeine consumption as it getsy heart racing as well.
>>707754115
Hey man, there are a lot of options for you. You can sell what you have and travel the world doing some volunteer work, moving from place to place, learning about different cultures, you'll have plenty of time to discover yourself, and traveling is fucking fun. Very stressful, but fun fun fun
>>707745603
i feel you man, i hate it when they take too long to reply after dropping some serious information like that.. i guess thats why you should confess irl
>>707752828
try South Africa.
https://youtu.be/SmtwZOqIwXc
>>707744944
cuz I got high
My ex girl just broke Up with me :)
And now i just want to kill my self... :)
>>707754473
I also suffer from severe anxiety. Is your environment not stressing you out? Are you indoors a lot?
Getting ready to sleep, for another day of work-study-sleep. I'm not complaining.
>>707754564
that's not my thing, I don't enjoy this sort of stuff. Travel, 'discovering yourself', learning about cultures, that's not exactly my idea of 'fun', it feels more like something I'd like to get out of the way so I can come back and have actual 'fun'.
I just need to find some purpose in life, I always wanted to get into music, but I can't just write a song and expect gold to shower over me, this shit takes time and costs a lot to begin with. I need a reason to get up in the morning, I often did find those things but they only lasted for like a month or so, I need something permanent to get me back on track
>>707755150
If it's for waking up early at least, then why not use the reason that is "get your life back on track"?
>>707755092
It's just generalized anxiety. I was doing good for a while but then one shitty incident after another sent me into a bad spiral that made me want to kill myself.
It's been a really tough go getting my mind straight this time around though. But it's definitely better than where I was a month ago.
I don't give a fuck anymore.
Just spent almost 300 bucks on a couple of fishing rods.
>>707743897
I'm 30 and literally asking myself wtf do I want to do with my life. Got a job but no friends or GF.
>>707755468
that means nothing, I can't just tell myself "today will be an eventful day! just gotta get up early!", nothing will happen, I've no reason to get up tomorrow, or the day after that, the quicker the day ends the better. I need to get something going, so I have a reason to wake up and be like "I have to get up to do this thing" and failure to do so may result in me losing that thing. I don't want to go to bed every night thinking "what will I do tomorrow?", I just want to get some sleep, get up and get going, somewhere to do something. After I graduated from school it's been shit, every day was a a struggle, couldn't figure out where to go or what to do, that's bullshit, why can't life just be easy?
>>707755948
Please tell me your secrets
>>707756520
that's why going to a different country is a good idea. You'll be out of your comfort zone. Every day you'll have something that needs to be done.
Volunteer, au pair, teach English in a foreign country. These are all very cheap and very fun/productive things to do.
Five months.
It's been five fucking months and I still can't get over her. What's wrong with me? Am I autistic? Or desperate?
I don't want to be her friend and I don't even want her back anymore. I just wanna forget she ever happened.
Sorry about the blogpost.
>>707757339
never had a gf so I wouldn't know. Sometimes i think I'm lucky
>>707743897
trying to figure myself out. started photography, calms me down.
>>707753194
Me too man. I just can't seem to let go of my past. I have way too many shameful memories that are weighing me down. I used to do a lot of drugs, and even though I don't do them anymore I'm still haunted by my past. Oh god the things I've done please god forgive me.
>>707757339
what happened?
>>707757720
what's some of the worst you've done? very curious.
>>707757462
Before I met her I was a hopeless romantic faggot. All I wanted was a gf.
Then I got one, and now I wish I had never met her. Funny, right?
>>707754094
Oh shit looks like the right thing to me.. but I'm afraid to fuck up my mind more than how it currently is
>>707753954
Did you have trouble sleeping when you quit? It probably depends on how frequently you smoked it but I honestly can't sleep when I'm not stoned. Even though I feel very tired and yawning every 3 seconds I just won't fall asleep till like 5 or 6 am. It's exhausting man
>>707743897
a little bit high after a long day
>>707744316
Take that walk anon. That sounds nice. I think I'll go for one...no park near me though
>>707757798
It was all my fault. I'm an insecure beta piece of trash. She was beautiful, way out of my league. I got jealous and clingy and she left.
>>707757915
Not the same Anon.
I understand you, I cant sleep either, it's like my brain is running at 100% until i fall.
I dont want to take drugs because I cant lose the control of myself, I think that if it happens i'm screwed
>>707754115
>>707750720
>>707749003
>>707746098
>>707745853
>>707745853
Gotta lotta stuff going on. Im guessing you know what it feels like not being able to talk about problems. God everything is stressful. God its hard.
>>707757859
Stupid drug addict shit. Go figure,
>>707743897
I'm never able to finish anything that I start. I started out this semester doing fine, but now I miss half of my classes just so I can sit alone and do nothing at home. The last time I finished a book was in grade school
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drbtu64726Q&index=100&list=LLlVCo96cADbRlPnCn60uw_w
>>707757873
All my friends who have taken it seem fine to me, actually they seem more happier than most, might be because of the drugs lol.
I'd 100% recommend it. You need to be in a good mood and a familiar environment, if you start having 'bad' thoughts, the shrooms/lsd can intensify the experience, and cause a very bad trip, so think good things.
It can really change your mind for the better, but obviously it affects everyone differently, so it's your own choice
>>707758385
I think you just need to get a new relationship you just miss being in love not her
I just miss her
>>707758453
Stay strong, get a puppy and take care of it. It will give some love back to you
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qp6lSu0s6M8
Anyone willing to respond to this with a nice compliment?
So about a month ago, I was out partying with some of my friends, we were kinda in the good part of a bad neighborhood so to speak, we drank af, and then some guys we know from earlier shows up, and one of the dudes who showed up wanted to test my watch, and I told him no man, you cant, and he continuously asked the same question almost frequently. He ended up aggressive and it was obvious that he was out to steal it, I ended up alone with him and 2 of his friends for a brief moment, where the dude who wanted to test my watch, asked me where my watch was, and I gave it to one of my friends who said that "If you give me the watch, he won't hurt you, you'll get it back later" And when he saw that I in fact didn't have the watch, he brought up a flip knife, ready to cut me, he was threatening me with questions like "Do you wanna get fucking cut in your stomach huh?" and such. I then get beat up, I wander around, and I notice my phone is gone as well, I end up taking the bus to the innercity, and I talk to almost everyone passing by, asking for a cigarette, and kindly enough, a good person, told me to follow him to the ATM, he withdrew 15 dollar, for me to get, and he told me, go get something to eat at Mac Donald's bro, you need it. I meet up with my friends who randomly pass the street. I start vomiting over the whole pavement.
Ever since that day, I haven't went out for longer than 5pm.
Robbie is dying
>>>707758396
>>707758762
Dont we all anon. Dont we all
>>707743897
DO NOT WANT TO SEE. But im wondering if that faggot bill clinton was really on tape raping a child. As terrible as it is. Would sure help keep that prckernosed CUNT from running my country even further into the ground AND starting a fucking war with muther russia...
>PIC RELATED
>>707758668
The point is that i'm very depressed.. i'm afraid that on drugs I'll kill myself.
I think everyone will leave me and I have no hope
>>707744316
Bruh...
If there is ducks go get a 50 pound sack of cracked corn for $5.
Cheaper than bread and those ducks and geese will lose their absolute shit.
>>707744944
>>707758971
I'm almost 100% sure, that it was a detail rich robbery.
>>707751471
>if you just treated her better
That's one perspective, it could also be her actually giving a shit about you and the loyalty that comes with it
>>707743897
>>707745853
Fuk this is too real.
Pretty shitty.
US election is fucking with me IRL.
>>707758734
I would if I knew how. I don't even know how I got this girl. I don't have good looks, money, or charm. I asked her once what she saw in me and she said she was attracted to my personality.
I asked her once what she saw in me and she said it was my personality that attracted her.
>>707745603
Sorry anon. Life is shit. Ive done that.
Have tits
>>707743897
sammy
>>707759066
you won't! and if you do, so what? it won't matter since you'll be dead.
At least you tried to do something to make you happy, whether it's fucking meth, or weed or something even more harmless like shrooms, you can at least say "i tried".
>>707747690
wait are all of you going to fuck or are just they going to as you watch, or what?
>>707743897
My dad died a little over a month ago, and we were best buddies. Though I have great friends, and good relationships with my mom and sister, I feel alone sometimes. This is one of those times. I miss my dad. I think I'm going to adopt a dog tomorrow.
>>707743897
I'm trying to figure out how a middle class working young adult like myself can further his knowledge, without going to college. Mainly on the political spectrum, but I find it hard to find non-bias media outlets and don't really know where to start searching.
>>707743897
My life is grades right now, my life will be money on the future, hope I find something to live for.
Wondering how best to deal with my newly-realised daddy issues
Wondering how to pick out and talk to someone else with father issues so we can catch eah other's drift
>>707759927
Sorry about that man.
>>707756072
I'm only 18 and seeing someone of 30 saying this scares me
>>707758390
It sucks man. I did break it once. I had a gf at the time and I couldn't sleep whenever I was with her cause I never smoked with her. I quit for about a month and after about 10 days or something I was able to sleep normally l. But man, that just felt like one long day and it was absolutely terrible...
>>707758971
People are shady, I still don't like hanging out at certain areas cause of people fucking with me. But you can't live in fear. I still do what I want I'm just careful.
>>707748237
Learn line cooking. Great employment oppurtunities for drug addicts like myself. Rarely do they check references, background checks or shit even if your a legal citizen.
Sure its minimum wage but you will get hours
>>707756793
No secrets.
I can't feel love, and not interested on people and I'm not passionate about anything.
I just try to do my job well and enjoy my free time.
>>707759209
That's even worse man. All those times she said "I love you" and either never actually mean it or stopped loving me gradually/instantly? Fuck dude
>>707751120
Just chill a bit, fam. Enjoy your alone time.
>>707743897
I'm alright. Recovering, because I just finished my daily workout routine, but getting ready to call my mom and cook dinner. Hope my laptop doesn't overheat itself again like it did last night (an update has made svchost.exe push the CPU usage to hover around 90%). Busy day tomorrow...
>>707754473
You seem familiar. Are you from IN?
>>707743897
My girlfriend was murdered about a month ago in Leeds city centre. They haven't caught the person yet but it was a random mugging. I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
>>707743897
I just got a job offer for 65k plus commission. So probably better than. faggy op.
>>707745603
Same shit happened last year to me man. She doesn't even like to make eye contact with me. Feel ya.
>>707761203
Shit mate, I don't know what to say (Not OP though). It sucks to not get closure I guess. I can't say I understand what you're going through. You want to talk about it?
>>707758668
So so so familiar
My best friend committed suicide few months ago. I feel like I'm slowly losing my friends. Not feeling so good.
>>707743897
Suicidal thoughts, as usual
>inb4 edgy faggot
>>707761902
Don't do it man. Don't let life win. No matter what you do or whatever direction you go, grab life by the balls and tell it to go fuck itself cause you're going to own that shit someday.
>>707743897
feeling great!
>>707761515
I don't mind. I've had a bit of time to think about it. This may sound cheesy and corny, but she truly was my world. Met in high school, always hung out as mates, although she openly flirted and called me her boyfriend. We eventually start dating after prom night. Do so for over 3 years and on Christmas Eve this year I was planning on asking her to marry me.
She worked at an attorneys in Leeds so it's often she goes there. And just like any other day she goes to work but, obviously, didn't work out well. Foe the past few weeks I've barely been able to function with bursting into tears. She was so beautiful, both physically and in her actions.
Hoping the girl I'm talking to is the one and only..
>>707757915
well years ago when i smoked every day i also couldn't sleep without weed
I had the same thing with alcohol later pretty much
also the panic attacks came when i smoked after a long period without it
when i smoked every day i have not had much anxiety
>>707762446
Nevermind...
>>707762293
I'm so sorry man. I know you'll pull through, just hang on yeah? I hope you get closure and that they catch the asshole who did it. May he burn for eternity.
Suicidal
Lonely
Been shitposting all day
Finally deleted last pictures of my ex
I'm too old for this
Kill me
Facebook normies getting me down
News groups and celebrities spouting anti-Trump messages. The condescension behind it all. "Oh my gawwwd, yep, yep, come on everyone, THIS is the final straw, mm hmm, mm hmm, that raycist sexcist piyg canNOT be president." I'm a Brit and none of it affects me. But I'm fostering a deep seated hate for the liberal left. Nastiness and bile lead every action. Believing they're the nice ones; how could anyone not think the way we do? 'We're PROGRESSIVE, and anyone who isn't we'll call names.' Strong suspicion the top-salt wizard lizards in the DNC are more than happy to let celebrities and memes about Netflix convince and distract their public while they rule the world. I hope Trump wins and everyone loses their shit.
The same plebs propagating a "Me vs you", "us vs them" world view. Right down to "how NORMAL PEOPLE eat a buffet vs how *I* eat a buffet, hehehe." Or yakking about the latest series, all too happy to sit still for hours at a time, then complain how hard life can be. I've been reading Annie Proulx stories about Wyoming cowboys and farmhands. It rocks me that not so long ago people in America had to, say, wake up at 3am in -20c conditions, drink black coffee and suck on roast pork bones and then head out for a day on callus-scoring hard labour for its own reward. Today sitting in a chair and watching a sheet of kalaidascopic plastic is a tough job. I eat meat three times a day and get hungry in about 3 hours.
I'm meant to be looking for a job as a local newspaper reporter inside of two months, but this is the first thing I've written in my spare time for a long while.
Nothing matters anymore, and no one I know would catch my drift if I talked to them about it all. I sometimes daydream about having an anuerism in my sleep.
Can't stop thinking about my oneitis, I'm just over thinking shit in my head. Whether it be she has no interest in me and shit like that
>>707761203
I wish my ex were dead
It's harder when they're still alive
At least you can grieve
I have to see my ex and know she's grunting on all fours for some other dudes
>>707760768
Thinking you're the cause is the worst. A relationship consists of 2 people. It's not about only you treating her right, but visa versa
If you've been treating her not to her liking, she should've told you and worked things out, together. Not just give up and fuck off.
>>707762567
Did you smoke before/during work? I don't but as soon as I get home I get high. On weekends I usually (read always) smoke weed before having breakfast. I would wake at 10 or 11 but have breakfast at 2 or something..
>>707762768
What's to hang for though? What's the point of anything? I just hope everyday I wake up from this nightmare.
Charlotte, why won't you come back?
>>707762954
Delete your social media man
>>707762954
I'd love to die today
I ripped the natural gas line out of the back of my drier and let my place fill for like an hour before i decided I didn't want to kill my dog too
My dad just got diagnosed with cancer. I am set to take over the family business.
I thought I had time. I don't have time.
>>707763012
Not same guy but I know what you mean. My ex left me for some rich middle class fitness instructor faggot.
>>707743897
Where is my pizza ?
>>707763217
not the dog you sick fuck.
>>707763168
I'm not the op, but if I deleted social media I would cut contact with everyone I've ever known
I don't have a single REAL friend
>>707763378
we are your friends
>doing nothing with my life
>love it
>wake up around 14:00
>play with new puppy
>play minecraft
>eat good food
>chill with friends
>smoke weed
>fall asleep
>repeat
>>707763029
Well I didn't catch her cheating on me, she did tell me, I broke up with her when she told me. Eventually we got back together after 6 or 7 months or whatever. 4 months later she broke up with me and ended up dating a guy she was already "friends" with for a while. Fuck she's a bitch but she was my first real girlfriend. But man its complicated. But thanks dude, I appreciate the effort.
>>707763377
Dude that's why I didn't go out that way.
I love my dog
She's actually the reason I haven't since pursued killing myself via hanging or shotgun
>>707763054
I'm 29. I chased away two good women so far.
Now I'm alone. No kids...no gf
No friends.
I'm done...
>>707763054
Only time can heal things. You just have to feel it for a while. It hurts because not enough time has passed yet. You just have to make her proud, she wouldn't want you to feel depressed for the rest of your life man. It's good to mourn, but one day you'll have to move on..
>>707763378
Not either OPs, but just delete the community social media shitstains and keep the chat ones, only the chat ones. If you want to contact friends go ahead, but that doesn't mean you should scroll through everyone's life, where they only show the positive side of it anyway.
>>707763518
How old?
>>707743897
Coming off some (not?) meth and feeling pretty okay really, bit stressed out about exams but i know i'll do alright. Contemplating breaking up with my girlfriend out of fairness to her, but it'd kill her and i dont know if i can do it.
After smashing out these exams i gotta get a job and look for somewhere to rent close to the beach for the summer, i have never been more keen to kick back with a joint in my life.
>>707747406
These mother fuckers taunt and tea bag even when they lose 2/3 games. They don't even care about the game which pisses me off as someone who's spent time to get good. They play this game purely to fucking troll and it has almost ruined the game for me. I can't stand this shit every fucking day.
>>707763811
Yeah
I unfollow my political meme friends
gf got fat but i still love her - problem is im not as attracted to her anymore - cant stop thinking about, but i cant break up with her because my head wont let me - feel trapped. I dunno
A girl like this will never smile at me in real life and I feel so ronery.
>>707763378
Are social media friends even called friends?
I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 17, since then, it completely fucked up everything. I nearly failed my highschool graduation because the same day my tests were scheduled, I was so depressed and anxious I gnawed off the skin off my knuckles. I have rapid cycles, I've tried 3 colleges but I couldn't finish them because my mood kept fucking me over. I have lost nearly all my friends because I was cunt at times and depressed lump of shit at others. My family broke up partly because of me, I can't hold a job or study; I'm on disability pension right now, but it's nigh impossible to live out of it. My entire body is scarred, I don't enjoy cutting or self-injury, but I can't stop it. I've been hospitalized 3 times, once involuntary because blood was gushing from my hand and it had to be stitched together. I take handful of medication every day, it made me completely hollow, I can't enjoy things anymore since my feelings are nearly all dead.
Days just pass by, I've become a recluse and I'm too scared to make a move, because I'm simply too anxious because it's just gonna be another failure, just like it was past 7 years. I wake up with the same thoughts everyday; I wish I had never been born or existed at all, I don't have any purpose, future, goals or dreams and every day is just like the ones before - pointless and empty.
>>707763897
I had similar feelings about my ex while we were together. Eventually i destroyed the relationship and she dumped me. Now I'm the distraught one...
Sooo many times I wanted to break up or I'd fantasize abut abandoning her because I couldn't bear to break up...I considered getting a vasectomy because she wanted a kid and I wanted to play along but I didn't want a kid...
Man I'm ducked up.
Maybe that's why she finally dumped me
im extremely drugged up and depressed, i also have shrek throat
>>707763217
Animals, I forgot, animals are worth living for. If all else fucking falls through I'll retreat into something with animals, the world's true rulers. I'm glad when humans get wiped out, non-human life will find a way to remain and reclaim the planet inside of a millenia.
A meteor or a 99% population kill plague. That's all it takes.
>>707743897
>>707777777
Im waiting for epic septs
>>707764143
You are me. But I'm almost 30.
I welcome death every second of the day.
>>707763907
Seriously, play different games. Single player games. Beyond two souls, last of us, far cry 3 any other game with a great fucking story like these.
Cant sleep unless im drunk. Miss my ex, whom i dumped. Borderline alcoholic.
>>707763762
Thanks anon. I needed this, wasn't thinking clearly.
>>707764349
Call him/her and get them back. My ex blocked me... I wish I could talk for half a minute with her..
My girlfriend is overseas sending me drunk snaps probably fucking other guys
don't even care
>>707763225
Time is non refundable, and no one realises they've spent it all until it's too late.
But, like, you know, life is water runnning downhill. See where shit takes you. You're your own man, sell the business and do something else with your life if it doesn't do it for you.
I've fingered my crush, I've also had her completely naked in my bed. I've had played with her tits, I've sucked on her nipples, given her hickeys but she has never given me anything back. We barely have even made out, shes never touched my dick and one time I tried taking farther than fingering and she told me to to stop.
What do? She's driving me fucking crazy.
Suicidal
>>707764375
Anon will always be there to lift you back up man. Go do something you really enjoy, treat yourself to something nice and do what makes you happy man, take care mate.
>>707764555
Done that, but her boyfiend told me to dont contact her. And I dont want any confrontations...
>>707764680
How old?
>>707763526
No problem man.
Just remember that people don't change in these things. They'll just hop onto the next train when they THINK they'll have it better.
>>707764763
Both are 20
>>707764555
>>707764555
Feel ya by the way.
>>707764751
Rough
It's been 3 weeks for me and I'm still waiting for her to call me
She won't
She told me that she'd never speak to me again and she's pretty stubborn
>>707763518
HOW? AND SOMEONE FROM 4CHAN? CAN'T BELIEVE IT
>>707764149
I feel like i may be heading in a similar direction man.
My reasons for wanting to leave are so selfish too. Im young and scared of commitment and i want to fuck my share before i settle down, but at the same time i have a gorgeous girl with a heart of gold who loves me to bits.
So i don't know which is better, to preemptively break her heart and tumble into the drug addled debauchery or to stay with her and be happy but forever longing for new experiences.
>>707764781
Well yeah, you're right. I mean it's pathetic really, it's been like 7 years but it will always be that small voice in the back of your head telling you that you're not good enough ya know?
>>707764886
I sure hope she does... becuse if she dosent lifes gonna suck...
>>707745853
Driving in auto-pilot, answering the phone at work auto-pilot, putting a smile on my face at work auto pilot, going to the grocery store with headphones on in auto-pilot, cooking my daily chicken and rice in auto pilot. I just want to sleep, I just want to pack my shit and move into the woods
>>707765035
That's tough
I'm almost 30
I finally learned my lesson...3rd times a charm? I'm holding on and nurturing and worshipping my next love, if I'm so lucky to find her
>>707765217
Family holding you back?
I up and left everything
Backpack + dog + flight to NorCal
Found nothing..
Now I want to die
>>707765171
Don't count on it
She's moved on
>>707764802
Is she a virgin?
>>707750720
i feel ya
>>707765564
Yeah ofc, but all I want is a conversation with her...
>>707764886
you better move on..
and if you move on and she still wants you, she'll come around faster than it feels, and if she doesn't? well, you're over her by the time you completely realize it.
>>707765650
Nope however I am. I didn't tell her, she just knew. She's also more into girls than guys if then means anything to you.
>>707765477
>found nothing
Jesus Christ how horrifying.
I think most people dream of pulling up stake and starting somewhere new.
And you're telling me you can do it, cut off all your family and spend all your money and not a fucking thing changes?
Currently deciding whether I should go out and buy beer. Been drinking for about a week straight. Pretty young, and still healthy but with my now better tolerance to alcohol I am pretty scared to become an alcoholic. Still craving it though.
check these digits
>>707765273
I feel if i were your age i would feel the same way, but I'm only 20. I'm in peak physical condition and thriving at uni and it feels wrong somehow to be tied down in a relationship y'know? I fucking wish i could push this relationship back five years so i could have my cake and eat it too.
Then again maybe im just a dickhead, i dont know. I hope you find someone else man, and im sure you will. Thank you for understanding, i cant talk about this with anyone in real life and it wears me down.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9X6sGu8oTiQ
>>707765875
Wherever I go, there I am.
Life is cruel
>>707765900
Hey, I took two full days off and am working on a third, but I will probably drink tonight. Try that, like 2-3 days.
I have the same problem.
>>707765875
horrifying indeed
I have OCD and intrusive thought OCD, makes me think blasphemous thoughts and ugly thoughts I don't like.
It's ruined me life and made it so hard to focus on anything productive. Hopefully one day I'll get help.
I want to get a job and start getting treatment but so far the job search hasn't been going well. I went to two open interviews and put in some online applications. I haven't gotten a call back. I'm just looking for a temporary part-time job minimum wage. Life has been pretty shit.
Any advice is welcome but I'm glad I can just vent about it.
>>707765086
We tend to reflect our failures onto ourselves even if the cause for failure didn't directly come from us, it's just easier to accept and deal with situations.
We're strange creatures.
>>707766097
That's why I'm here...no one wants to hear this shit
Remember that it's cold out there. If you have something good, don't take it for granted. Pussy is pussy. Don't throw away love just to find a girl who will eat your ass while her friend sucks your nuts and her sister works your cock....
Wait...what am I saying...
Get your current gf to please you better. Honestly. My ex loved anal and swallowing cum and toys and entertained all of my fetishes... I didn't cheat until she started to withhold sex for stupid reasons.
>>707766190
What is that ridiculous text?
>>707766283
I think you meant "project"*
>>707743897
got home from school about an hour an a half ago. Im just spent. Its been six weeks of school, and im already just ready to get out. My gf broke up with me a month ago and have to see her in three of my classes. I miss her a lot, but she, well, i dont really know about her. Advanced classes are causing me to get about 2-3 hours of sleep a night. Im lucky my friends are some great guys. Lots going on anons. Im just sorta tired, sad, lonely, and just confused
My girlfriend and I broke up about half a year ago.. never really cared, even when i saw her with her new boyfriend a week later.
But suddenly i had a dream about her last night and now I've had a strange feeling in my stomach all day.
Tell me bros... do I have a bad case of feels?
Sorry for my bad english.
>>707743897
Missing my ex
>>707767125
That's weird...
Dreams usually reflect your thoughts from throughout your day.
You got the feels
>>707764345
I'll keep those in mind. Thanks for the (you), anon :-)
>>707766962
That would have probably fit better, yeah. Thanks man.
>>707767275
damn, but why..
she was a bitch.
She cheated on me and I broke up immediatley.
Then she even got in a Relationship with that guy.
why should I spent my expensive feels on her.
Stupid brain
>>707766283
Well, it sucks. Thank anon, I appreciate it. Take care mate
>>707766190
>>707766824
>What is that ridiculous text?
I hoped it would cheer some of you up.
>>707767593
Yeah
I wish the off-switch didn't involve me blowing my brains out
My ex lied, started using drugs again, got me arrested for bogus charges...
And I still love her dearly and would take her back...
>>707766190
Yea I'ts been tough recently. I used to drink every once in a while. Sometimes I would go weeks without even wanting to drink a sip. Now that's all I want to do. Hope you can make it through your third day. Hoping I can make it till tonight at least.
>>707767373
No problem mate, hope you get to enjoy gaming like you used to!
>>707767658
Sure thing man, hope everything pans out for you.
>>707767716
Did you actually send that to someone? Or is it just a repost?
>>707767593
I've had dreams of different types of people, some whom I've never met too, and wake up feeling like I miss them or want to be around them. Dreams do these types of things to us. Had a dream once long ago that I was friends with May, I think her name is, from Digimon and woke up feeling sad that I wasn't actually her friend. Go figure.
Something like this.
>>707766824
It's basically trying to minimise your mistake with something way bigger.
In this case; you better fucking be afraid of ISIS more than me talking to other people.
>>707767716 any replies from it?
>>707768291
shit anon. Who said that?
>beta fag, 19
>New girl starts work
>CuteAF
>BetaCrush.jpg
>Know some of her exes
>Nothnx.jpg
>Friend likes her, call her "his girl" behind her back
>One Year Later
>Get to know her more through him
>#PerfectGirl
>Be a good /b/ro, keep away for him
>Go shopping with her and one of her and a mutual friend
>great time, clothes shopping, general shit
>Might be in love
>Meanwhile.jpg
>Mutual friend is taking pictures of us and sending them to other friend.
>Other friend now hates me
>Crush is going to uni in a week
>Still beta fag
>Want to say somehting but can't
>She goes to uni.
>Friend hates me.
>"Mr. Steal-yo-Girl"
>Seen as a snake for not actually doing anything.
>Crush is now at uni
>Been more than a month and I still can't stop thinking about it.
>Beta fag forever alone
>>707768291
My gf dumped me for similar reasons
>>707768419
An ex did a day or so ago. This is the last I heard from her before she bailed for good.
>>707768291
>>707768473
>"I love you and care about you but I don't want your problems to affect me. I only want the good part of you"
Is this how it went for both of you?
>>707768565
im sorry anon. If she wouldnt stay just because of that, she wasnt worth your time. Find that person that will stay and help you
>>707768565
My ex told me similar things.
She's never coming back
I ruined her though and I'm not proud of it, but I understand why she's gone forever
>>707767797
I just hope it goes away... all the time from our breakup till yesterday night I didn't spent one single thought on her
I'm not even having a bad time in my life...
there are more and more other girls talking and flirting with me since i got very passionate with working out.
I hope it's just a phase
>>707768664
Nah mine was a bit worse.
A lot worse...
She put up with a lot. I'm bipolar and was messing with drugs and alcohol and refusing therapy and meds
>>707768797
You'll be fine. I can't leave my house due to anxiety problems. I'd give both arms to fix my brain.
>>707768473
It's pretty shitty man
>>707768664
Something like that.
>"I will always be with you, and support you!"
Just to bail when I needed her the most.
>>707768737
And I have a great friend who helps me truck through it, it's pretty rad.
>>707768742
I just don't get why the hell she bails when I need her most
>>707769051
friends will always be there. My friends are awesome, since i got dumped a month ago. They help me forget for at least a while. Makes life all worthwhile
>>707769051
Girls want "a rock". That's why you don't pick up chicks by letting them know you're broken, and once you snag them and they find out your broken, eventually, they leave you.
>>707769211
Friends and 4chan, that's all we really need in life. Well, that and booze
>>707768894
Oh well are you better now?
>>707769051
I guess she forgot about that, right?
>>707769211
I don't have a single friend. It's tough.
>>707764143
I'm in a similar situation. I'm bipolar but not bipolar 1. The best thing you can do is take the meds you need and throw out the anti-anxiety/antidepressants. Take small steps toward conquering your anxiety and building confidence. Try working out 20 minutes a day or go for a walk and wave at people. Just don't give up and sit inside all day man, I've been down that road. You'd be surprised how much you can accomplish if you try. You seem like a smart guy
>>707769342
yeah, pretty much how ive been dealing with things. Just gotta give it time i guess
See a few posts about exes, so here's me.
Spent the first two years of university smoking weed with this mixed race girl. She was fat and unattractive and emotionally splintered but she took my virginity and showed interest, something no other girl had done. But really all we did was wallow in each self pity, argue, smoke weed, fuck and talk about sadness.
After a putting me through the washing machine by sending me suicide threats while I was on holiday with a bro (which were empty) I pulled the plug and cut her out my life. So began a year long dry spell spiked with guilt and shame. Sort of withdrew and smoked a lot with the same bro and one by one left my other friendship circles.
All the time I was horny and wound up as hell. Devolved into a masturbating chimp with occassional anxious meltdowns (which no one knew about - I'm very careful about that stuff).
Last day of uni I decide to fuck her one last time before I have to go live at my parents house for 6 months, where there isn't even the chance to get some action. Quick text at 1am lands me at her house. Polite chat for an hour. Get frisky on her bed when I come back from the toilet, and find she's already taken her pants off. Have the shag of my life. Fingering, blowies, her on top, spooning, pin her leg back missionary, regular missionary, 10 minutes of hard doggy and explode no condom inside her. All my worries and anxieties gone just like that, feel peace, relief in my chest. Chat all night about everything that bothers me in the world, fall asleep.
The same angry texts start coming in days. I don't reply. Two days before her birthday she messages to ask if I'm coming to her briefly mentioned party. I say no, say I don't even want to speak to her, block everything.
Don't feel sad or horny anymore, the sex was that completing. Don't feel shame or guilt about cutting her out. I'm almost proud of myself for taking my life in my own hands for once.
Gave me thrush though. Can't get rid of it.
>>707769378
Sort of. I'm super depressed and anxious. But I'm sober and on meds. I miss her dearly...
>>707769401
School? Job? Good places to meet people
I don't really know why i'm writing right now. You're the first one that will know about the situation and i feel so lonely right now. First of all sorry for my bad english.
2015, i left a high paid job to move with the woman i love, and for a year was living with her, with a shitty job,, but still i was happy because i was with her.
1 year later, 15 days ago, she was telling another guy, a friend of mine, sweet things and he was trying to take her from me, and almost did that but i acted before, i told her to make a choice and i left the city, telling her that me or not me, i wouldn't come back.
pic unrelated, one of my ex's ass
She choose me, and now here i am in another city, in love with a girl that i don't really trust right now, alone and i feel terribly lonely. I literally have no one, some people are interested in me but i cannot get along with anyone because i find anyone so annoying...
>>707769450
Why throw out the ssri? I'm bipolar and Prozac is all I take.
>>707743897
Ehh feeling pretty shitty. I have work tomorrow morning and I spent my only day off in forever doing nothing. I just don't have the energy to do anything anymore. Ive fallen into the same boring loop just repeating everyday over again wake up at 6 go to class or work come home and take a nap because I'm too tired to do anything. I wake up get dinner either watch a movie or hang out on here for a couple hours then go to bed for the next day.
>>707769320
I have always been the same dude. I haven't changed a single bit since I got my official diagnosis
>>707769378
Strange how people can forget.
>>707769451
Give it time and alot of thought, then you are golden.
>>707769530
I'm thinking about going back to school for a MA in anything to give my life purpose and meet people. I'm almost 30, I work the overnight shift at a hotel. I have very little interaction with people.
>>707769708
i mean, a degree would also help getting higher paying jobs. If you could, i would anon.
>>707769663
Yeah. Bipolar people can be hard to handle. Once the new relationship doe eyed love wears off...and reality sets in, it can be hard.
I'm bipolar also