Feels thread
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Feels thread
I have no one, really. I have a psychologist appointment two weeks from now to see why I'm socially incompetent. I don't even care about anything anymore.
>>707681691
too close.
what's worse is I had so many chances too
My wife cheated on me with one of my closest friends. He was a groomsman at our wedding.
I miss my son. I only have him on my off days but it's not enough.
It's hardly satisfying knowing she's dating a loser now (same guy) and she will be left with nothing.
I'm so disappointed in her.
>>707683860
This is also me.
bump
>>707683979
>>707683860
How is someone a friend up to that point, do something like that? Or were they just pretending the whole time?
I bump, I'm depressed as shit
>>707684247
what's wrong anon?
>>707684026
This was posted 3 years ago & I remember seeing it for the first time.
I wonder how the guy is doing. If things have turned around for him and his father.
>>707684247
Why? What's up?
>>707684100
My life right now. Thanks for this.
Do you guys believe in love?
>>707684388
saddest shit I have read in here. did he say anything else on the thread?
Old shit man but still true.
>>707684104
I knew him months before I met her. I didn't bring her around too much until right before the wedding.
Idek man. Fuck him. They're each other's problem now.
I just miss my son.
>>707684552
Not anymore. Love is a joke. It's "convenience." It's a lie that people tell to themselves to make themselves feel justified about staying in a relationship.
And when that convenience runs out or when it gets hard, people bail.
Love really is just chemicals.
>>707684776
I hate to say it but I agree with you. I did truly love my wife. I was just a convenience to her.
Fuck man. I need to just go to bed.
Another thread where weak willed pansies cry about their fake depressions because they're too lame to do anything about it. Life is not as bad and you losers have not suffered. I'll pass on this.
>>707684600
Not that I remember.
>>707684666
My dad missed me too.
>>707684951
>>707685060
/My Life.
>>707685066
I wasn't married but we talked about it man. We talked a lot about it. She was from a different race than me and her parents were super strict.
I don't know when she started thinking about this other guy but the fact that they met while we were still dating and I was getting ready to move down to be closer to her just makes me furious.
She wasted my time and my money. She wasted my emotions. I'm so sorry about your wife. I never got a chance to ask her for her hand in marriage other than just us bullshitting.
But that's all it is. It's bullshit.
She dumped me for some stupid fuck she met and loves him and doesn't love me (she never did).
>>707683860
Dude I've had hardcore mad love feelings for a married woman. I met her while we working together as chefs and we've been friends for over 5 years. I didnt meet her husband untill two months later after meeting her. We've talked once about how if we had met in highschool we would have probably hooked up and gotten married eventually. Even when I've had chances to make a move on her I've always known better. She has her life set and I would never do that to guy I consider my friend. Both your girl and him are an asshole made in trash heaven. How can you even consider that scumbag a friend.
>>707684304
>>707684388
Well, I didn't plan to do this, but I'll try. First of all, sorry for me bad englizh.
Well, I'm a teenager who's wasting his youth. I'm in love of a girl that I met 2 years ago (shy,nice, cute), she was my best friend back then, but some shit happenned and our relationship ain't the same since last summer. Time passed and we are "friends" again, but I feel like she doesn't wanna talk to me, I feel like shit because I'm just a problem to her, the first girl I've loved. I'm not a good guy, I'm the guy you don't wanna talk to.
Well that's the thing that gots me depressed. Sorry anons, you maybe didn't wanna read such a shitty story
>>707685256
Fucking this. Glad someone calls these lame asses out on their crybaby bullshit. Life is what you make of it.
>>707684552
I still do...the only reason something would hurt so bad is if it was real in the first place right?....
>>707685256
>>707685558
Well, you should not be bitching around here then
>>707685542
Just went through some similar shit. Sending you a bro hug man.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NkzIj2y18Q0
This is the best soundtrack, shit makes you feel
>>707685726
Cry more faggot, your tears are delicious.
>>707685751
Thank you, anon :)
>>707685899
:^)
I want to stick my pee pee in her but I don't want to cheat
Guys my girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me 2 months ago. Every time I talk to another girl I feel like I'm cheating. I've distanced myself from my family, I'm actively trying to get over this and become more socially active with other girls but it just hasn't worked. Tell me, what would you do if the love of your life walked out of your life and is happier without you?
>>707686208
Do you really think a feels thread is the place for this?
>>707686229
Love this shit. Statistically we're more likely to never find the person we are "meant" to be with because of how many fucking people there are in the world.
That whole "always another fish in the sea," shit is crap.
>>707685256
Hey man it can be pretty unhealthy to keep pent up emotions inside all the time. Everyone needs a little realease once in a while. Why not do it anonymously on a random image board where it will fall back into obscurity eventually. Better here than crying like a little bitch in your social life later. I see no harm in these threads.
>>707686253
I don't know but I'm going through that right now anon. She left me cause her parents like this other guy better. He's also closer and does stuff with their youth outreach.
Things her racist ass parents wouldn't let me do with her cause they're a bunch of limey fucks and so is she for leading me on for almost 2 years man.
So sorry it happened to you. It's only been one month for me but it feels like forever.
Wish I could send some bro hugs your way (no homo). Keep fighting the good fight. We both gotta have this shit man.
>>707686334
I feel like I need to share ^^-
>>707684510
holy fuck
>>707686522
Yes anon we are all very proud of you
https://youtu.be/JFbqLaJCgqg gives me a reason to keep going
>>707685542
Ya, I remember when this happened with a friend of mine. I always felt like an obsolete piece of junk, like I had nothing more to offer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=GVNx2IIg98k&NR=1
>>707686504
It's tough anon. She broke up with me due to me not being "religious" enough for her. I did everything for her that I could. Bought her stuff, took her out to eat, never ever even considered cheating.
Loved this girl with everything I had. I've never felt so empty. I haven't told anyone about this, but I hope it works out for the both of us.
God speed, anon.
>>707686977
I think that was part of the reason she broke up with me too anon. I don't know if you're very religious yourself considering your statement but I will remember you in prayer tonight.
Even if it's just a gesture of good will. Someone out there's thinking of you. We're fighting together to try and find ourselves again after giving everything to the person who we thought we'd spend the rest of our lives with.
So for now, take care of yourself. Don't overdo it or spend yourself into a hole but try and be good to yourself man. Not for her sake, but for your own.
I know I do it just to spite her.
And if I want to be an old crass mean spirited loser for the rest of my life with her as the thorn in my side, i will do so, because I don't owe it to her to be happy, I'll do whatever the fuck I want to, as I hope you do the same yourself.
Peace brother.
Remember that brave men don't last long, they live forever.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsBPVaSNyu8
Fuck this song, it's weeby as hell but damn that piano.
>>707685542
>>707685542
I'm kinda going through the same , I use cuddle her I'll hold her in my arms and she'll hold my arms or she'll rest her head on my shoulders, and sleep on my arms.. but never wanted to date me..
>>707687409
I don't care what anyone says, Kingdom Hearts is beautiful.
>>707687459
It's rough man. It's weird how people can be so selfish like that, to ask that stuff of you but not want to reciprocate.
No she didn't owe you that really but she shouldn't take from you what she was not willing to give in return.
>>707687536
damn man...
>>707687548
Loved the first game, not so much the second but that sound track was god-like. I used to know how to play this on the piano either way. Still wish I had 24/7 access to it. Always settled me when i was sad.
>>707684552
I want to believe.jpg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwE54hQ8D3A
>>707688034
HAHAHAHA
Thread's about to die. Dumped as much as I could. Be safe tonight, be well tonight brothers. I know no one reads this but just knowing there's some folks who have kinda makes it okay.
I know she doesn't miss me. And I will try not to do the same. Be good to yourselves friends.
>>707684552
No.
Not for me, at least. I'm sure some people do, and that's good. But I'm ok like this, I think.
>>707687564
The irony is that I'm the only one who understands her and just knows what to say when she's going through stress or having an anxiety attack
I try desperately to try to not think about my ex. I just hope he's as miserable as I am & it kills me to think he's with someone else.
I'm now up in Ontario to see a friend who might not have time for it. This, after I spent $1500 to make this happen (and I did have to /make/ it happen). I missed my bus because I was too stupid to double check the time it left and, after I missed it, had to spend $1000 on a flight up here. I had no idea he'd be so busy, I would have just tried some other time, even if it meant I had to throw the $500 I initially spent, away.
I didn't expect to spend too much time with him, he is in school after all, I just wish we'd be able to do more than this.
>>707688379
I know, but take that understanding and give it to someone who wants it from you. It's hard as hell and you never stop really caring but it's gotta happen. Either that or curl it into yourself and try to make use of it that a way. Do it for you man.
>>707688405
This hurts my heart a bit cause I am also trying to do the same. Except I wasted all my money on her trying to move down to be with her and was told 3 days before I was going to move that she felt something with someone else.
I'm thinking about you tonight anon in the most heartfelt way possible. Be safe and try to rest easy tonight.
Please don't die just yet
>>707688658
I felt this one bad. It got me. Thanks anon.
>>707681379
>be me
>be 21
>hit by drunk driver, side impact
>spend year and half: bed, wheelchair, crutches, cane
>get to shit in bag and have family make me go outside rain sleet or snow to change it
>fastforward.jpg
>get disability
>get shit bag removed
>get married
>don't make enough $..only $7.9k a yr
>divorce
>ohthefuckwellbitch.pang
>be 32 living at grandparents till I get on feet
>grandmother hates me
>get cussed and ask if I want a ride to campground daily
>get cussed cause I put pork chops up wrong
>get cussed cause I didn't wipe water droplets from sink after doing dishes
>get slapped for smiling (guess I need permission)
>not allowed anyone over (not even on the porch)
>can't walk anywhere cause limited mobility
>get cussed out for not rinsing a jug out
>get told "thanks for ruining my life"
>get cussed when she leaves crumbs of food on counters and around her house
>sit here trying to save to get auto with my little $600 a month, plus paying to put gas in her vehicle for Dr and groceries and my cellphone
>just want a break, someone to talk to that doesn't talk to me like I'm shit and curse me for simple things that don't matter
>I understand I'm impeding on her by being here but goddamn I clean up after everyone and never leave the bedroom or say a word.
>I have real problems in life, can't even put socks and shoes on my foot, why is it I'm not lashing out and shitting on people when apparently water in a sink is good enough reason?
>>707683979
>this one gets me all the time
Basically every emotion I have about this girl is encapsulated in A perfect Sonnet by Bright Eyes
>>707688790
Keep fighting. Keep doing what you need to do man. Thinking about you man and wishing you well. Just keep fighting.
>>707681379
Remember to kill yourself before its too late
>>707689075
i have bad social anxiety and shyness and hate meeting new people but I've been so lonely for most of my life. i wish i had some friends to hang out and do stuff with like everyone else. i am my own worst enemy
>>707685880
That isn't always true
>>707689273
>>707681379
>>>707688379
>I know, but take that understanding and give it to someone who wants it from you. It's hard as hell and you never stop really caring but it's gotta happen. Either that or curl it into yourself and try to make use of it that a way. Do it for you man.
>>>707688405
>
>This hurts my heart a bit cause I am also trying to do the same. Except I wasted all my money on her trying to move down to be with her and was told 3 days before I was going to move that she felt something with someone else.
>
>I'm thinking about you tonight anon in the most heartfelt way possible. Be safe and try to rest easy tonight.
>>707681379
>>>707688379
>I know, but take that understanding and give it to someone who wants it from you. It's hard as hell and you never stop really caring but it's gotta happen. Either that or curl it into yourself and try to make use of it that a way. Do it for you man.
>>>707688405
>
>This hurts my heart a bit cause I am also trying to do the same. Except I wasted all my money on her trying to move down to be with her and was told 3 days before I was going to move that she felt something with someone else.
>
>I'm thinking about you tonight anon in the most heartfelt way possible. Be safe and try to rest easy tonight.
>>707688637
>>707688637
Holding her in my arms is like a drug in the aspect that is it only last for an hour or two,and after that I'm back into reality.
>>707689075
>25 years old already
5 more years
>>707688790
Hey bro, I'll probably never meet you, but I wanted you to know I love you, honestly and sincerely, I love you, and it's all gonna be alright, I promise
>>707689449
Then get off of it. It's hard but you gotta do it. For your own sake. You gotta cut off contact and take that shit to someone who'snot just using you in the mean time while they're trying to find someone else to do that with permanently so they can be miserable together.
You are in charge of your own misery. Don't waste it on someone who just wants you to be miserable by yourself.
I'm a faggot so I wrote a poem, it's short
Once, a woman was a stranger
Now twice
>>707689312
we're going to make it f.am
Haven't slept in 3 days and can't sleep tonight either. Too much work to do
Just downed another coffee and monster and they just aren't working anymore fuck
i hate this part of the grind the most
when you're tired as fuck but need to keep going and your body's all "nope i'm out, fuck you and your workaholic bullshit"
Just another couple days dammit
all i gotta do is make it to saturday night then i can sleep all the way to monday
>>707685256
>>707685558
you don't like the thread then don't click on it nigga
you're like the straight dudes in gay porn threads, you lost or what
>>707689712
We have to make it. Stay strong brother. Fight the good fight. Think of us as an invisible ally, we've got your back, even if not, remember that someone cares even if you don't know who they are.
>>707689273
I love you anon.
>>707689617
>>707689617
I'll try
>>707689937
No just do it.
I had to do it a month ago but that was a month ago. The sooner you can, the faster you'll heal.
>>707688969
thanks /b/ro
>>707689598
thanks /b/ro
>>707690020
Any time you feel lonely remember this post. Remember that we're here. Even when it hurts someone's got your back man.
https://youtu.be/2sYtSnGAsnQ
the gawd damned last scene of this movie man...
>>707689992
Just how do you bring it up?
>>707690078
Let's share some good tunes together
https://youtu.be/vMP9e3cqKns
>>707689589
>Ever browsing blue boards
>>707690243
You don't, just cut it off.
Save your dignity. Trust me, all you'll want to do is tell her how much you love her and all that stupid shit that's clashing with your heart and head. The problem is she won't ever feel the same way about you and as much as it hurts to say, she'll never love you the way you deserve to be loved. So don't even give her the satisfaction that you're doing this because ofher.
Just bite it and do it, just don't talk to her, block her from all social media, no responses to calls or texts. All she'll do is try to make herself feel better about the situation because she'll know how much she hurt you but won't feel bad because she loves you, she'll bad because she's morally obligated to.
You don't have to put up with that, you don't need it.
Everyday from now on after you finally work up the balls to do it, tell yourself constantly whenever you think about her that she never loved you and never will, that she doesn't miss you.
No matter what this will turn out that way.
But remember that by doing this you're freeing yourself from being tied down by her. You'll move on eventually even if it takes years.
The last thing I want you to do after you can find it in yourself to do this favor, everyday you wake up and feel sad about it or think about her, after all that negative talk with yourself about her I want you to tell yourself that you are going to be okay.
Everything is always going to be okay.
Just keep telling yourself that everyday. Eventually it will be,
Anon you are going to be okay.
>>707690176
I'll be sure and rent it Friday night
>>707688790
anon, I wish I had a solution for you
but I don't, so I was just going to pass over your post
all I can tell you is I wish I knew how to make your life better
I hope it is something that helps
keep fighting, fact you've made it this far with the problems you face means you're tougher than most
>>707688896
I know that feel /b/ro
dated a girl for 4 years
then she broke up with me
probably listened exclusively to Bright Eyes for 3 months after that
you should check out his song If Winter Ends, another one that struck me pretty deeply at that time
I think it's more hopeful
>>707690495
that's a pretty good song, never heard of them
try this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ptH60ktLqBM
>>707688790
F
U
C
K
>be 14 year old me, not handsome, but still not the worst, maybe average or above on a good day, not a lot of friends, but theyre loyal af
>never popular
>enter highschool equivalent in my country
>see cute, small girl, great smile, long red hair, absolutely beautiful
>whatevershewontgiveafuck.jpeg
>fast foward a week
>girl comes by running, touches my hair and tells me "sorry, I wanted to do that the whole week" and runs away
>we end up talking
>fucking girl of my dreams
>im not a weeb, but I kind of like the otaku girls, I dont dislike anime but its not for me, but for some reason otaku girls are just... driven to be more cute?
>fast foward 1 month, ask her to be my girl
>rejected.nope
>she says its too quick
>I agree, maybe i got too excited
Cont?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hskl2dTHYdk
I never got the lyrics to this song when I was a kid.
I went to Distant Worlds and got to hear the premier of FFIX's "Unrequited Love" almost 3 years go.
I think about how much this stuff hits me in the gut. Enjoy it, maybe a tiny contribution to the feels bros.
>>707691162
always continue. Not like either of us have anything better to do, anon.
>>707691162
It didn't move too quick, that's an excuse people use when they fall out of love with someone.
but it might be fun hearing more
>>707683860
Dude.
Check out "Stand by Your Manhood".
Helped me, maybe it will help you.
>>707686253
Been there, the love of my life left me. I tried to date another girl and when we spoke on skype or anything it was all good. But when I first met her in real life, all I could think of was the fact she wasn't my ex. She was not the one that showed me love, which life I already knew, which family I met and shared some of the hardest times of my life with.
I tried to replace that feeling with another girl and I was disgusted by myself. I have chosen to be lonely now. God I miss her....
>>707691162
So long as it doesn't involve a floor and dinosaurs I'm down anon...
>>707689075
I'm 30 in 3 days.
Guess it's time.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5LspM3rHRU
>>707684627
underrated
>>707691346
I'm 31. I don't know what to do.
>>707691335
I just want my ex to be lonely forever. There was a guy I was interested in but he lives in Germany and is never on-line any more. So, I mean to say, I kinda get this.
>>707686504
>>707686977
>>707687253
nu-male cucks pushed to the wayside, laff
>>707681691
>>707683979
This hit too close to home
> be me'
>22yo male
>Single all my life
>longed for a girlfriend for a long time
>all women are sluts, sleep with you the first day, sleep with another dude the next day. they are all the same
> meet this girl
> 2 years younger than me, red hair, blue eyes that you get lost in, a fantastic body. 8/10 atleast
>we hit it off
>talking for a long time
>First girl i take on a real date, and it was awesome
>She slept over at my place a couple of times, and i slept over at hers.
>we did not have sex yet
>think she is not like the rest, she has integrity,
>thinkIAmInLove.jpeg
>suddenly she doesnt send me as manny text or take long time responding
>this goes on for about a week
>I suspect there to be another. but it just might be me who is a bit paraoid amirite?
>Suggest that we hang out at the end of the week.
>she takes a long time to respond.
>finally get an answer. She say that she had a thing with a guy from the city that she is from, and that she recently met this guy again, and she is going back to visit him this weekend. and that she dont think it is wise for us to hang out
>thefeels.png
>Befor i sent the text i tought it would be best to know if my suspicions were right, turns out i was wrong.
>depression inc.
>i can sit on the bus and suddenly have to hold the tears back to not cry. life seems not worth living, and tho other girls can seem physically attractive, im still not attracted. Wish i never fell in love.
>>707681379
I got used to being hated in school.
I got used to being the scapegoat for family drama.
I got used to thinking about ways to kill myself.
I got used to being fat from eating to deal with depression.
I got used to happiness being a day no one talked to me.
I got used to a brother who screamed and raged, drank and abused drugs, then raged at me when I shuttled him all over town because he wrecked his second car.
I got used to realizing I didn't have the brain for math and that meant all my dreams were just that.
I got used to the only relief being dreams.
I got used to losing faith in God.
So now, everyday, I take a pistol, empty, put it to my head, and pull the trigger.
So that when the time comes, I'll be used to it.
>>707684552
Na. Not anymore.
People are people. Their interests will come first.
Yes I'll admit they're those "dreamy" relationships.
Yet they have their issues of their own and are rare.
Advice is to get burned as quickly as possible, so you'll learn yourself. Better to get it done n' over with than always wonder for yourself. Just keep it wrapped, the system will slay you.
>>707691162
Fuck it, cont
>month goes by, we're good friends but we talk less and less
>probably she wants more space and im being creepy
>wait for her to talk to me
...
>we dont talk for over 6 months
>we end up talking and catching up, pretty much said she liked me and waited for me to ask her again but I backed off
>I believed it
>about 3 months go by and we talk all the day, every day
>one day, she says she likes me and next day is going to kiss me
>im all excited, u can almost imagine how
>she starts talking about how she wants to cook for me, spend time with me, all that stuff
>for someone my age, that had only kissed my past gf it was a lot
>At the end od the day, I ask her friends were is she at
>"she is at her classroom, but you shouldnt go"
>they all know I like her
>go to her classroom and open the door
>she is kissing another dude
>almost eating him
>they dont even notice
>I close the door, search for me friends
>They all left already
>I have never cried easily since my dad cheated on my mom
>cried like a little bitch that night
>>707691699
that last line though. some of the realist most beautifully horrible words I've ever seen put together.
I hope one day you get used to love and happiness my /b/rethren
In my youth the whole world was new, every mistake made me stronger every other person was different point of view, every road that lead me astray was another adventure, another path to choose
Living life was in the games we played, our only worrie was how many we could fit in a day, before the street lights came on and parents started calling our names, I often asked myself why would this ever change?
Over time friendships become confusing we started taking sides that were never changing, rarely given the chance of choosing, musing gave way to the fear of losing.
People started lacking compassion, a little less remorse in every hurtful action, a little more venom in every disposition, this was a game no longer but a uncaring competition driven on by intermittent inhibition
When the street lights came on and no one called my name, I walked back home feeling a great weight of pain, Knowing all to well why the beckoning never came. The ones I loved had once again fallen victim to their vices, an unrelenting routine that never ceases, not much is harder on a child then watching their heros fall to pieces
Sitting in my room I would feel my anger come on like a subtle vibration, like a distant train approaching a station, a great steam engine with cars full of demons and when thay arrived I would hear them whisper from inside "your all alone now, with only the world to despise"
Over the years trust was built only to erode, friendships where forged and then disposed, lovers lights burn bright and then turned cold, but such is life down this pain stained road
So I stacked my bricks of lies and deceit, I made my great walls of deception and misdirection, inside my solemn fortress I become a ghost, a wandering specter not seen or heard by most, I'll watch the world thought my window making sure that no one gets to close
Continue?
>>707691955
Please.
>>707689273
i feel your pain /b/ro
>>707691898
Cont 3/???
>talk to her
>tell her I saw her and ask foe explanations
>She says she is sorry but he has a boyfriend now
>welp, im not breaking off.fuckmylifeIbrokeoff
>They her im chill and didnt cared anyways
>Months go by, we still talking
>they have a lot of problems, she says everytime she tries to break off with him he threatens to suicide
>She says she loves me
>But I have heard about how she blowed him off
>She still posts pics with him saying he loves him
>still spends time with him
>that to a kid my age that time, it was a lot
>they break off, because of me
>I make her suck my dick
>literally make her my bitch
>she wants to be my gf
>she tells me why he was his gf in the first place
>she was always used to be the center of attention, she didnt got it from a guy so he got a boyfriend right away
>asks me to ask her to be my girlfriend
>set up meeting
>2 days after that
>"do you want to be my girlfriend...?
>she starts crying
>says she is sorry, but her ex told her he loved him and she was under a lot of pressure
gonna cont
Continued. .
As I stare out across these great divides, these chasms and fishers a mile wide, I see the segregated groups upon their high plateaus with the twisted degenerates down below, and I hear the voices again like a distant bellow "forever safe in your segregation no part to play in their indoctrination"
As I sit in a deep fog of thought that will persist with doubtfulness, I see someone approach just within the mist, so close but just outside my vision, I hide in my shroud and watch the silhouette with pessimism
I think to myself, probably another lost soul or dunce only this and nothing else, but when the haze began to unfurl, it was not the first or the ladder it was but a
little girl
She looked around her with wonder and curiosity, she strolled about with a childish longing but no burden of need, with an undiminished spirit that could only be described as free, suddenly she turned her gaze and looked right at me, her familiar blue eyes passed though every wall and vail meant to mislead, and only saw what was really there, a man that was trying not to be seen
I stood in shock gripping tight to my failed disguise, but her face showed no contempt only a meer quandary of this guise, I heard the very question without it ever leaving her lips...why? And in a frantic effort for an answer I internalized, looking around my constructed strong hold for something that would justify but only finding compromise
When I looked back to elicit some defense, I found that she had already moved on, her question never required a response, but I found that this one word held more weight than any ocean many fathoms deep, and within the walls of my very keep the waters of this question began to seep
As I watched her walk away in search of games to play and sites to see, I felt a long held fear begin to recede, I seen something in her that was long forgotten and locked away..I seen me
(Last bit....)
>>707686253
Fuck man. This is happening to me right now. It's almost been a solid 2 months and she's doing great but I'm fucking in shambles.
Stay strong man, people say it gets better. I haven't exactly been better yet, but I hope one day she'll talk to me again
Continued
In this newfound reflection ideas begin to comprise, what if from the ashes of the old a new hero could rise, what if flames that had once dwindled could be rekindled, in the shadow of this little girl more were soon to follow, their laughter could replace these whispers that turned me hollow, maybe in a world that is like a changing sea, thay just need someone to fill their sails with a calming breeze, they need someone that's weathered the storm and has the strength to row, maybe what thay need...is a new hero
Spend my time seekig love from people who dont love me.
Hating myself because they do not love me.
Ignoring the love from those who care for me.
Im lost, im empty and aching and i don't know why.
I have no real reason to complain. I have the perfect girlfriend. The whole package. But I can't get over my ex, who I still talk to on a daily basis. Not that she is fundamentally better in any way, though she is significantly more sexually and physically reserved, and is more of an intellectual. I didn't shed a tear over a family member's death, but I've shed plenty over her.
>>707692506
>tell her to fuck off
>this happened the very first days of summer
>my friends are bro as fuck
>they take me out to parties
>we have a very nice time all summer
>I even meet a girl
>she is into me
>super really cute, funny, she is kind of shy and I love that shit, but she is also deppresive because her mother; she calls her the worst possible shit and has even locked her down foe days in rooms
>she even asks me for my stupid jokes
>I go to her house every now and then
>the day is here, im gonna ask her to be my girlfriend
>But
>her mom is cockblocking me
>literally spends the whole day with us
>fuckingwhalebitch.nigger
>2 days till class start again
Welp.exe
>first day
>looking around
>the first girl
>she starts running towards me
>hugs me and starts crying
>she says she is sorry
>I believe her
>she wont stop saying that, wont stop crying
>im the kind of guy that cant see a girl crying or cant deny to anything
>"its okay..."
>Longstoryshort.rar
>she is super into me now, I use her as my sex slave basiccly
>we end up being a couple in like a month
>she asks me to stop talking to girl2
>long fight, I end uo aggreing
The next year is pretty much one of us being jealous because she is crazy as hell or one of her retarded otaku friends is sending her dick pics and I shouldnt have beated them
>>707689740
Keep going, man.
>>707684552
No. People are attracted to others based on greed.
>Girl sees ripped guy, attracted to him.
>thinks it's because of "love"
No, she just subconsciously sees him as a good provider who can buy her materialistic shit. She is greedy, but it's not her fault. Humans are animals, love is chemicals.
Love is a farce. Loneliness is another thing to dissect. That has lead many to suicide and isolating themselves from society.
>>707688465
So much this. No fucking bawling about not having a gf or having lost her. Just this, complete breakdown of everything.
Just have to say I've had a really hard life but I'm 32 now and only about 2 years ago have things gotten good for me. I found peace in being a father...to all you anons in here don't lose hope, it might take a really long time but you will find something that makes you happy
>>707693179
>we break up, shit was cray and not cash at all
>that was last summer
>we didnt spoke for the summer
>I didnt went out a lot but it was rather good with u /b/ros
>Became legal user of /b/
>I flirt a lot, sometimes sucess, sometimes nay
>im kinda paranoic and I feel like people is going to judge me so I stop
>I start talking again to girl2
>I start having girl friends again
>school year starts
>I met this cutie cosplayer
>I dont want a relationship but she is so cute
>she is not into me but im so into her
>she is my platonic girl(if that doesnt makes sense, she is a girl that I like but i know its impossible for many reasons)
>she is 2 years younger
>girl1 appears
>Runs to me and asks to talk again
>I refuse and walk away without doing any dinosaur dance move
>she does it again a week later
>in the middle of a shit ton of people
>fine.fuckmylife
>she is all cool
>she says she changed
>Lolokaysure.webm (rip webms)
>She says we can fuck
>lolokaysureletsgomaybenow?
>days go by, she keeps flirting but I only ask her for nudes and blowjobs tbh
>she is getting sad
>she is feeling used so I say we should stop
>we dont stop tho
Cont
>>707694721
Cont
>she is really being super nice to me (everybody likes her because how good she is with everybody, she is THAT ONE in every school) so she is extra nice
>only wants to spend time with me
>she asks everyday if she still has a chance with me
>she went into a huge deppresion without me
>she seems she really changed
>fast foward today
>she says she loves me and asks me if she has a chance with me still
>say bullshit, pretty mucj saying no
>she says she cant be my friend because she wouldnt handle seeing me with another girl
>we say our good byes
Realize
>she is the girl that loved me the most
>even if I only told you guys the bad parts
>she made me the happiest man
>she had a lot of problems but did everything to make me smile
>she always did it
>she is the best any man could wish for
>so devoted, lovely, funny, she is not a random girl you know...
I love her, but I cant be with her
Or can I? Is it really worth it if I tell her tomorrow that I still love her?
...
Thanks for reading my story
Made me realize a lot while I wrote it.
Hey mom, I know you don't care, but I met a really crazy bitch and I think I really love her. Sincerely, my dickie.
The only thing I seem to be able to do right is hurt people. Whether I want to or not. It's just sad because i don't want to hurt people but I just do. I just wish I could actually help someone for once. To see a smile on their face because I did something for them but I just fuck everything up and make everything worse.
>be me
>12
>abusive parents
>poor
>living in one of the wealthier areas in my city
>bullied at school bcs no expensive toys or clothes
>also no friends outside of school for same reason
>schizo because of all that
>backing off into my room more and more
>i finally get my own pc,despite being abusive parents really cared
>pc isnt anything good, but enough to browse internet
>find out about rp forums
>sounds fun
>people are nice
>actually make some friends
>chat together alot aside from the rp
>theres one guy
>4 years older than me
>i admire him alot because of how older he is
>he acts like hes better than everyone else, and i am the only on on chat who considers him a friend
>year passes
>i get closer and closer to this guy
>also dependant on him
>i feel sick whenever i think he might leave the chat or stop talking to me
>he is a dramaqueen
>dramas occur daily
>he keeps leaving with anger
>i end up throwing up whenever something drama-ish is starting
>another year passes
>he gets worse
>he begins to play me
>i am unable to get away from him because of how attached i became
>keep blaming myself for everything he doesn't like
>i end up apologizing for everything i do
>i end up losing my best friend because of him because she would get affected by his toxic behaviour and couldn't take it anymore
>i don't really blame her
>i want to be by his side
>so this is love?
>I end up confessing to him
>he doesn't give me a definite answer though he wasn't really interested from what i could tell
>keep waking up during sleep just to turn on the pc and see if he didn't write anything
Cont.
>>707683860
I could tell you some stories. The best thing I can tell you though is move on.
>>707695543
>keep fainting from sleep deprivation and stress
>still convinced it's all my fault
>pretty much Stockholm syndrome by then
>severe self-harm, not just cutting but also burning myself and slamming my head onto the things, running around my room in circles, anxious no matter what i do
>start skipping school just to stay on pc and talk to him in case something happened to him(he was a depressive drama queen)
>suddenly he cut all contact
>for months
>after two weeks i attempted to kill myself
>woke up in hospital, first thought was that i was offline for too long and he will be upset
>literally so anxious i wanted to get up from hospital bed and run home to my pc right away
>he still doesn't talk
>i finally start getting better
>actually make a friend irl
>few months pass, he comes back
>complains about how its my fault for worrying, he needed a break etc
>block him everywhere, cut him out of my life
>few years have passed, fast forward to when i was 17
>met a guy
>literally the same kind of person as that guy, just not that abusive
>Stockholm syndrome kicks in
>i am unable to get away from this dude
>This went on for 4 years
>until i found myself in a abusive relationship with another guy, this time irl
>stockholm syndrome kicked in again and i was unable to get away from him until my friend helped me
>i will probably end up in more because i can't afford help
>>707695794
consider finding a decent dude next time?
ask your friend for help with that if you're a poor judge of character
>>707697349
It's not about finding a decent dude, it's about unconditional devoting myself to people of this one kind.
>>707697554
what i mean is unconditionally devote yourself to people of a different kind
>>707685349
i thought about this for a while. But turns out, she was right about me. I made her feel like SHIT and manipulate her so she wouldn't leave me. I would say I would kill myself if she left.
She had enough and I finally realized I was damaging her. She talked to an ex about me and I found out but I only read "I miss you" instead of the whole chat. I was her problem.
I don't know anon. I had a similar situation (where I would call her a cheater whore) but it took me a while to see what I've caused.
>>707681691
>implying i'm that much of a cuck
good try
>>707697987
It's not like i have much control over it. I'm not doing it on purpose, it just happens.
>>707688272
godspeed anon
>>707694774
10/10
Flip a coin
In mid air you will know which outcome you desire more
bump
>>707681691
Holy shit dude, thats pathetic
>>707685066
Your logic is flawed. If you truly loved her, why would you deny that women can have these feelings as well?
Im sorry to say this, but my ex was you, and I broke her heart because Im a selfish piece of shit. There ARE those girls, that are like you. You just didnt meet them yet. And, to be fair, maybe you wont.
Whether or not you keep up your hopes is up to you.
>>707685880
It works, yes. But it doesnt tell you why you hope for things. Sometimes you just hope for convenient shit that temporarily settles your feelings.
>>707685542
>shy, nice, cute
>easy to fall in love with
the perfect girl anon and the same one that also broke my heart
Guys I recently started talking to a girl from work. Been a while since my last relationship (2 yrs), and it ended badly. In our first convo she told me about her past relationships, parents, travel plans, what she wants out of a relationship (doesn't see the point at this age unless its serious), her job what she does for fun, previous drug history - all in our first convo.
Is this a bad sign?
>>707688690
How would this be used in context?
I sonder?
I sonder about everyone?
>>707683979
I have 14 days to avoid this shit
>>707701675
I don't think so.
>Today was beautiful. I experienced great sonder
>>707701573
Not its not. Can be due to several reasons
>talkative person
>lonely
>in love
>tryna scare you away
How the fuck are we supposed to know you dumb piece of shit
