Feels thread? Just found out one of my really good friends died...
It sucks huh? Finding out that one of your good friends whom you've been friends with since high school just dies, it sucks. Seeing your friend on his deathbed and you're there just staring at him because you can't do anything. It sucks.
>>707539418
let yourself cry. It helps
My life feels so purposeless everything I do just seems to be passing the time until the next time I have to eat or sleep
I miss my ex and it's my fault she left. She got tired of me and my stupidity. I couldn't be the person she wanted me to be and she's moved on. Now she's probably got a guy she deserves and I contemplate whether life is worth it because I'll never find a girl like her again.
i miss my ex. Its been a month now, and im a fucking mess
Anyone got tips for watching your only parent die a slow death from cancer and not being able to do anything about it?
>>707539418
>>707541133
ross will always make me feel a bit happier. RIP brother
>>707541290
>>707541572
these text pictures always get me deep down because i had a similar text like that from a girl.
should i start dumping my folder..?
its my favorite one though..
>>707539418
don't let this thread die I need some feels tonight...
>>707542266
I'm lurking if you do
>>707542266
dump please
Does anyone here take SSRI or any kind of pills for depression/anxiety? I've been prescribed Wellbutrin and I'm kinda afraid to take it.
Has anyone had experience with it?
Also my family doesn't know that I was prescribed. How should I tell them that my doctor wants me to take the pills?
>>707542327
its almost morning here...
>>707540568
Why do you said that?
>>707542488
I met a lot of people with depression/anxiety..
i couldnt heal or fix any of them but i love being around them...
I am not sure if I should be jealous that you can feel or feel sad
>>707542523
Whenever I become sad or lonely, I channel my sadness into the persona of Professor Sadness. When I do this it separates myself from the sadness, and makes me realize how much control I have over my life and how I feel. Professor sadness makes me strive to be better in life
>>707542488
I've been depressed for years and I've never taken any medication. Should I? It's hard to go through each day and some days I just don't get out of bed. But other days I push myself because I know there's someone out there for me but it's been years since my last girlfriend and so far it's just been all downhill from there.
>>707542488
Drugs aren't the answer you weak fuck. It's because you aren't healthy and have no confidence in who you are. Start eating good food, and excersising and maybe have an acid trip in a dark room and you'll feel alot better about life and who you are, and will interact with people with confidence and respect. Drugs are an excuse for being an unhealthy weak fuck
>>707542879
i love seeing the (you) message.. although its me that replied on my self..
>>707540568
ayy I'm in the same boat but probably 1-2 weeks from her breaking up with me. What do anon?
>>707539418
>be me single 21 y/o
>met this nice girl 19 y/o
>feel in love and proceed to start dating
>We got married and she got pregnant of my little girl, her name was Susy
>my wife died while giving birth to Susy
>saddestmanonearth.jpg
>At least I had Susy
>however she was diagnosed with terminal cancer at the age of 3, just about to turn 4
>she died and I was left alone again
Back to fucking square one. I had everything I needed to be happy yet it was taken away. Why tho?
OP I know how it is to lose someone dear, you're not alone, just keep moving and don't you dare to get stuck with those feels. Let them go and try to be happy again
>>707543015
>>707540206
Don't do this; keep the emotions in. Harbor them, and let them broil. That way, when you're in you're in your 60's you can let them out and win an Academy Award.
>>707542911
The only reason why I want to take pills is because I've been depressed since I was 14. I'm 23 now and nothing I do really helps anymore. smiking weed/drinking away the pain and that didn't really help. I've tried therapy for 3 years, and lifting for 5 years and those aren't really working either.
I hope the pills actually work. This depression is fucking up my life. Especially in school and work.
>>707543136
this doesn't help
>>707543206
>>707542930
drugs aren't the answer
>hayyyy man. drop some acid maaann
>>707543414
>>707543198
Damn... I can't imagine how that could possibly feel...
Can I say something ?? Wtf ever happened to mental toughness?? Has no one ever thought you that when you fall you get up and try again?? Has no one ever said suicide is the cowards way out? That it only hurts your loved ones that would have helped you through it? No one ever said the grass can always be greener? Come on guys tough the fuck up! Its called LIFE!! MAN UP! BE A FUCKING MAN NOT A CUCK, TAKE LIFE BY THE THROAT AND SHOW IT WHOS FUCKING BOSS!! LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT ANON!! BE A BOSS!!
>>707543506
>>707543628
Some of us have been knocked down too many times to get back up and try again.
>>707543678
>>707543628
Masculinity has a distinct correlation to depression and suicidal thoughts
Manning up won't do shit
>>707543733
nice pair
>>707543198
Dear fucking god. Stuff like this is a proof that there´s no god above us. Deseases taking kid's life. That is just to fucked up. It's hard /b/ro. My son died, a truck hit him when he was on school. My wife left me to be with a rich dude. I don't have too much money but I was making a sacrifice for Ray. All we have to do is carry on. Like nothing really happened or what i suppose to do?. Shit. Wanna die soon. I wanna be with Ray.
>>707543970
>>707543628
getting it out helps. My facade only breaks when nobody is around to see
>>707543198
Wow
I don't feel even close to as bad as I did about my situation. Keep on keepin' on man. You're a fucking trooper.
>>707544050
i see this one for the first time..
Whenever I look through these threads. Everything I tried to ignore, hide, forget comes back. I then realize I'm not that guy who is always smiling, and happy.
>>707539418
I feel so crippled in my adult life.
I'm such a huge pussy, and I know getting smacked around as a kid didn't bother a lot of people but it really fucked me up.
Authority figures terrify me, I can't talk to one for more than a few minutes in a serious conversation without crying.
Every performance review at work has me digging my nails into my hands to try and stay calm, and it's always an outstanding review so there's no reason to feel like that.
I can almost physically feel when someone is angry and being around a pissed off person for too long makes me nauseous because I think they'll take it out on me.
Not to mention the enormous issue of flinching at damn near everything.
God I'm just a mess and I wish I wasn't like this. And I don't know any way to be better.
>>707544347
>gay
>24
>live in middle of nowhere
>no gays anywhere
>get lucky and after years of waiting a guy moves here
>find him on grindr
>meet him, turns out to be 10/10, we make each other laugh. Smart.
>he actually likes back somehow
>turns out he is actually 16 and about to go to college in January
>decide to date even though it's illegal
>really fall in love
>super morman parents find out
>send him away to a gay away camp
>trying to get evidence that we fucked so they can have me arrested
It's been a month now, still trying to get me. Whole community knows. Yet I only cry because how much I miss him
>>707543198
>>707544086
Professor Sadness is making me sweat from my eyes
>>707543733
Anon, /b/ro... Life can always be better.. Trust. You gotta fight to be happy.. Stop dweling on what hurts, eventually it will pass.. Tough it out it WILL GET BETTER. IT DOESN'T HAPPEN OVER NIGHT. THINK POSITIVE, AND IT WILL GET BETTER
>>707544468
been numb for about two years now, just numb, parents noticed only a couple months ago went to a shrink. major depressive disorder and adhd. sister died two weeks ago, i don't want to live anymore
>>707544468
pigeon man!
>>707544606
>>707544517
I did before but then she broke me again and again and again and again until I couldn't pick myself back up anymore.
>>707544506
Move some where, where there are more gays... Done.. Or try pussy. You put yourself in that position anon... Not by being gay, but by being a dumbass and dating someone underage.. If i were you i would GTFO ASAP
>>707543356
same, because I don't know why I'm even holding on half the time
>>707544699
its funny how a cartoon for young kids can be so sad right..?
>>707543557
>>707544086
>>707544277
Thank you anons... For some reason coming to this thread makes me feel at ease regardless of the shit I have to go through.
If my wife and daughter (Sophie and Susy) "brought me back to life" then I am going to keep living.
Thanks /b/. For now I think I want to get a little drunk and just go to sleep. See ya around friends.
>I will be leaving a quote for all those anons that have a bad time. Good luck to you all
First serious relationship (3yrs) ended with her developing a plethora of mental health issues, drug abuse, and cheating.
Second serious relationship (4 years), same exact fucking thing.
Talking to a girl right now for the first time since the last breakup. Guess what, I just discovered she's on the same medication my last ex started a month before cheating on me.
Fuck my life.
>>707545053
>>707544696
still care enough to put commas
>>707545122
good like and to you brave soldier anon
>>707544086
its not that there is no 'point' (as most people consider god) to life, its just that its not made with our iteration of existance in mind. somewhere far, far down the line, beyond our meaningless identities and limited third dimensional capacity it all comes together, and that coming together is more glorious than any or all of us combined could ever begin to comprehend. alot of people confuse this truth by personifying it as god, but it is simply the natural order of things. we are currently in a zone thats main purpose is to trap the negative and unrefined and allow the refined to pass on to the next iteration. dont give up, anons. you are more likely closer than you think.
>>707545043
I've dated girls and fucked them. It does nothing for me.
>dated someone underage
Get this, 16 is the age of consent here, but only for straight couples. I'm literally only in trouble because I'm a faggot
And it's easier said than done to pass this kind of thing up. I'm talking real love. No bullshit. With a 10/10. Not only that, but the only chance you've got. Really you could say no?
And I want to move, but that's a different story. Basically in a cycle of health issues, no skills, no job openings even close by
Have considered killing myself almost everyday for the last five years. Feel constantly hollow inside, like nothing matters in the least. All the things that use to make me happy no longer hold any meaning to me and i only continue to do them so i don't rouse suspicion from others.
obligatory Elisa post
http://imgur.com/gallery/lLCtX
Im still in love with my ex after a year and a half after she broke up with me. Even though we still talk becuase i care about her more as a friend then anything else, i still miss being with her. I say in ok and hide what i feel, even listen to her talk about her relation ships, and every time it kills me a little bit more. Yet i stay at her side. I keep saying i wont tell her because i dont want to lose her even further, but maybe its because i know well never be together again.
Anyone have the picture of the book that talks about death?
>>707545053
Have you seen that episode of Courage The Cowardly Dog? "Perfect".
When you're a kid you don't understand the message because you haven't been through shit to make it out sense. The message was:
>You're not perfect.
People now care about be perfect. No one can be perfect. It's matter of perspective. Miss those cartoons.
>>707541594
Accurate depiction of depression right there, my life in a nutshell
>>707544859
Then move on from her, it will be hard. But you can always find some one better. You have to improve yourself anon before the one you find is "improved" . if youre a lil over weight, work out a bit. Maybe do 10 push ups a day and change your diet. If you have a shitty job, look for a better one, dont quit till you get a better one but keep looking! Dump that bitch /b/ro!! She is keeping you down!! You dont need that negativity in your life... Realize youbare better off with out her. Put your self out there, be social.. Talk to people.. Fuck the dating websites .. Go to a bar.. Do something you normally wouldnt do. You would be surprised at who you could meet
>>707545665
sounds like shit
you need to date another girl to make her jealous
she will come back lol i swear
>>707545457
I kinda have the same problem...
no greentext because not in mood..
in few words I was 19 she was 14
her parents found out
my country is getting shittier every day and i might end up in jail..
few weeks ago (now she is 18 and i am 23) we spoke and she told me that she doesnt care if i end up in jail.. its my problem
>>707542488
I take SSRIs. It helps a little bit. At first I was afraid it would change who I was, but then I realized that if that happened, I wouldn't really care. I felt like my depression was pushing everyone away or dragging down the ones who couldn't leave voluntarily. It helps you push that rotgut feeling down inside. That feeling used to control me but now I stifle it. Problem is, it always, always comes back. Every once in a while it overwhelms me and I break down. Which I guess is better than having to deal with it everyday. Truth of it is, depression is probably here to stay for me. If you can get rid of yours, if that's even possible, do it. I wish I could.
We wanted each other for 4 years but we couldn't have each other until last year... My gf left for university but she kept saying how she wanted to try and keep the relationship going, but I was just getting worried and hella upset that she was just leaving me alone and going to either break up with me or cheat. I cried myself to sleep on a daily basis before/after she left. Before she left for uni she got really distant from me and stopped talking to me like she used to, all throughout August we went from talking 3 times a day to talking once every 3 days, so I knew the bad news was coming... She pretty much packed her bags and left to uni and left me in the dust. Then on the 23rd of September she came over to my house to break up with me because I was a burden on her. She felt like she wasn't able to focus on me like she used to she wasnt able to be there for me because of schooling... She said she wanted to "take a break"... I put my whole heart and soul into this relationship and it all fell apart anyways, and not even because of me... It's because she changed... She went from the sweetest woman on the planet to being aggressive and mouthy all the time and even when we last hung out on the 23rd before we broke up, she was too fucking preoccupied on snapchat (she's got a really bad snapchat addiction and it drives me up the fucking wall because it's all that she ever does... She'd ignore me for 10 minutes to snapchat random assholes... FUCK HER for that because it made me feel like shit.). She changed so much I couldn't even recognize her...
But I still love her to death, and I am willing to try again if you can even call it that since idk wtf were even doing with this "break" (I don't even know if we're officially broken up what, but I have already gotten sexual offers from women, I've turned them down because I just don't know, I don't want to be unfaithful...). But if she finds someone better than me, I just hopes that he treats her better than I ever could.
>>707543198
Wow man, Im sorry you went through that. Its probably been rough but remeber that they probably passed happy since you were there for them. Maybe thats something to take from it
>>707542523
Reminds me of my 14th or so birthday party, except I didn't invite friends, it was all family. And no one came.
>>707541133
Me too Bob, me too.
>>707543093
I'm sorry to say, but there's really nothing you can do about it... Try to get a couple good fucks in, and then just bunker down when the news hits... And get really fucking busy doing random bullshit like working out or whatever you're into
>>707545884
I'm sorry anon. That's rough. The only thing keeping me going is hoping that he isn't just gone off the fave of the earth after all this.... basically clinging on to the hope that somehow it will still work
I feel like I've been slowly melting down for about 4 years now. I can never make a good impression on anyone I've met. And the ones I have, end up not trusting me, and betraying me in favor of someone else. I've often manifested it in ominous language and sometimes just silence. It's one thing to be alone, what's even worse is being lulled into a false sense of companionship and then having the realization none of it was real.
>>707546070
reminds me of my every birthday after i got 13..
a cake bought from my own money and a happy birthday from my mother
eventually got used to it and now i am trying to avoid people on my birthday
I miss you, friend.
>>707545457
Anon, get skill.. Go to a trade school.. Get a job some where as a helper and leran a skill. I flunked out of college at the age of 20. Had no skills, was a delievery boy flr a year. I said fuck this, went to school to be a mechanic. Got a job as a car electrician, did that for 12 years, now im a signal maintainer for a huge rail road becuase of my electrical background.. making 100k plus with OT. Life can be good anon. It is what you make it
>>707542488
>anxiety? I've been prescribed Wellbutrin and I'm kinda afraid to take it.Has anyone had experience with it?Also my family doesn't know that I was prescribed. How should I tell them that my doctor wants me to take the pills?
I take buspirone and it helps, but I still have my bad days. Pretty sure I'm going to die alone, though haven't totally given up.
I would just start taking the medication and tell your family about it later. Wait until you seem so positive results before letting them know what's up. Hell I was taking lexipro and it didn't work for shit. Good luck anon.
Fucking ignored in a feels thread
>>707546589
Anyone knows where is this from?
>>707540999
You do what you can. Talk to them, live life with them. Just let them go happy. A nice smile as the last memory
>>707545947
objective fact:
'they' are trying to debase society, by driving the women insane, as men naturally are harder to break and debase, but when they do it to the women they pass it onto us men and the framework of society deteriorates a bit more. with things like social media and whatnot it has become incredibly easy to condition people to extremely shallow standards and rob them of their self-awareness. women, naturally, by their nature are more susceptible to this as they are ruled by the idea rather than the action. no misogyny here, this is just the way it is.
don't let them win, please. be strong. you exist, you are a miracle and you are all you will ever truly need. trust me, and yourself, please.
>>707546541
I miss you too buddy.
It's ok to be alone mister.
>>707546690
try chiara bautista
>>707546638
I've been trying to get an electrical apprenticeship for over a year now, no luck. I'm not going to act like my life isn't depressing, it is. But I am trying to make it better. But now that everyone in town knows, I basically need to move to get a job. But I have no money to move. It's pretty fucked. And I lost the only support I had
>>707546589
goodbye Riley. I guess you forgot. I know i havent
>>707542488
I took Welbutrin. Worst constipation of my life. It was a nightmare! Anti depressants can work magic for awhile. But that one was really bad.
>>707547240
I love that story, Song of Saya.
>>707540206
Crying means you feel not disturbed but loved in your sadness. Happy when you win. Sad when you fight. Go to hell if you don't believe, paradise with true happiness, always look for something to give...
>>707547161
agree.. sometimes its better being alone...
>>707546874
If only it was you.
>>707547240
You.
NEVER A FROWN
WITH GOLDEN BROWN
>>707547240
is that the girl from sword art online?
that brings me memories...
once i cosplayed kirito and my best friend did yui...
>>707546668
I know that feel fam.
If your feels are relationship related I won't be of much help, I'm fairly inexperienced in the ways of dating.
>>707547476
Someone replies to me!
>>707546638
I'm 28(29 next week), college graduate, and have been in the IT field for a decade. Work for a state institution right now and live very comfortably.
Just lonely as hell, that's all. Incredibly difficult to find people with similar interests who don't have serious issues.
>>707547737
actually its not yui my bad..
>>707543198
Fucking hell man, I hope you find peace and happiness wherever it many be.
>>707547935
there is room in my hug
>>707547796
Nah it's more of me fucking my own life up. I don't try with my school work. I waste my life away playing vidya games, and talking to strangers on the internet. My grades get worse and worse. The degree further from my reach. I know I have to change, I want to be successful but I don't, I am stuck in my laziness. Then my parents notice and they yell at me. I feel retarded, like a piece of shit and I dont do anything to fix it.
>>707547935
or just a sit on the table..
>>707545872
If only that worked man. I dated someone after we broke up for a week. I left that relationship because i realized i was using her to get over the girl i still loved.
I've never wanted to say I was depressed, because I've never actually talked to a therapist or anything to get diagnosed. I've never really talked about how I truly feel outright to people because I don't want them to get too personal with me. I just always joke about me ending it all even though I know it's a very serious endgame I've got planned within the next few years. I don't really know how to convey this feeling of "depression" other than my total lack of motivation, general emotions, and a bleak outlook on life . Its like this feeling that consumes me some days, and is just a tugging feeling on my chest other days. To me, I can't really see myself truly happy in the future so I figure why bother wasting my time along with everyone else's. I mean, things are pretty good right now by definition. I've got a job and a great girlfriend, but I feel like its just temporary happiness. Even still I have moments where it just hits me and I don't feel that great all of a sudden. I don't really know what to do, I feel like it's just a matter of time before I crash completely and do something drastic. I probably would right now but I don't want my parents to find out and not look at me the same way if I manage to survive. Periodically I just come to the verge of breaking down and crying over everything, and I don't know what to do.
>>707539418
I wish I knew how to help everyone in this thread. I hate the thought of someone ever feeling worse or as bad as me.
My biggest flaw is I don't know how to help myself
>>707547347
Anon, dont give up, you gotta gtfo asap. There has to be something you can do to move.. Not to be sterotypicalbut are you into hair?? My wife is a hair stylist and she works with a bunch of faggots (no offense) or makeup?? (Dunno what kind of fag you are)... Or maybe cooking?? I love to cook even tho i suck at it.. You have to find something you lime and pursue it.. If you love what you do you will necwr work a day in your life... I loved working on cars.. It was great but i needed more money.. Now I make twice as much with half thw work.. Maybe i got lucky but you know what?? I made the resume, I applied for the job, I passed the physical and the practical, I passed the interview and I passed the drug test ( i smoked weed everyday for almost 12 years). It was me anon.. I did it for the better of my family.. Dont give up
>>707547282
Took me a second... But holy shit that's harsh
>>707540568
Same here. It's been about 7 years since she left. I've moved on since an had my share of seeing other women, but knowing that she was the one got away still haunts me.
The days I have dreams about her are the worst.
my ex moved on quickly. She ended things because i had "become more of a friend than anything". Month later, and here i am. Tears streaming down my face, trying to forget
>>707548492
you cant help them anon....
but you can always try... thats what i do
and i fail every single time..
Oh look, another pansy faggot thread where permavirgins bitch about their fake depressions and "MUH DISORDERZ". Cry more about it pussies.
>>707539418
hhhhheeeeee, im drunked
>>707548713
And sad. I know it.
>>707548231
I'm a lot like that too sometimes my friend.
There isn't anything wrong with enjoying video games and talking to strangers on the internet, but work comes first.
The first step to change is to make a habit of doing what you need to do.
That might mean having a set amount of time at a place other than your house to get your work done.
Take two or three hours a day and dedicate them to what you need to do.
You can be successful and still enjoy things, it's just a matter of prioritizing.
>>707548659
The people who make fun of others are those that hurt the most
I'm sorry anon. I'd give you a hug if I met you
Why have you come to this thread?
>>707548850
So not sad at all, I have some hope left
>>707547962
Anon, it can be hard but ha r an open mind!! Dont limit your self to your own interest!! Every one wont be interested in what you like just like you hate certian things!! Be opend minded anon... Give things a try you might be surprised as to what might intrest you.. Open mind is key.. If people you meet with same interest are fucked then maybe you need to open your mind a littlw bit?!?! Be open anon, dont be so shut off from the world.
There is a lot out there
>>707542879
what anime is that from?
>>707548492
There isn't a way to help everyone in this thread, unfortunately.
Some powerful words might touch them, but in the end it comes down to their will, and their will alone.
But I will say, you won't have to power to provide anything for other people if you can't provide for yourself.
Once a month treat yourself to something you enjoy. That's a good starting point.
>>707548659
>posts in thread
>>707539418
Lost my best friend and my girlfriend recently
Went to the movies by myself
Tried to make a friend before I sat down so I wouldn't feel alone
Ended up just awkwardly walking away
>>707549336
At least you tried anon, keep trying.. Life can be better
>>707549336
Did they died?
>>707548516
You realize I can still just go to prison at any point right? If the people at the gay away camps do their job. He will admit that he fucked me a bunch of times. And I will become a registered child molester. Someone is actively trying to convince the guy I'm in love with to send me to prison. They've been doing it for a month straight now (I'm pretty sure). And I'm pretty sure he loves me.... but who knows what's going on there. I appreciate your advice for how to get my financial life in check, I really do. But its the least of my worries right now.
>>707545908
The man in the glass sets unreasonable high standards
>>707549073
You're a weak willed faggot.
>>707549329
Just thought you should know. Anyone who says they have "depression" is just too big of a pussy to live life. Fake disease for frail people.
>spend months planning an ARG with my friends
>nothing better to do
>all my ideas get shot down
>they were actually pretty good ideas, albeit expensive
>ARG turns out to be utter shit
>nobody plays
>everybody who worked on it blames me for their shit ARG
>I'm the nigger of the group again
I'm feeling a little down because of that
>>707549162
cant find it.. i am sorry
>>707548492
>tfw you give incredible, spot-on advice, but your life is absolute shit and you cant manage to follow that advice yourself
>>707549270
>Once a month treat yourself to something you enjoy. That's a good starting point.
I've been doing this for years
I pick up hobbies that I eventually get tired of
Used to buy a new video game a month
Now I don't play 1st all
Used to buy comics every Wednesday
Now I don't even read
Used to pick up favorite toys
Now they just collect dust
What's life for besides eating and drinking?
ALL AROUND ME ARE FAMILIAR FACES
WORN OUT PLACES
WORN OUT FACES
>>707548916
The problem with that is I do have some motivation, but it wears out so fast. I've tried to do this before and it never works out for more than 10 minutes. I always go back to whatever keeps me happy, and not thinking about any of my problems.
I'm so mentality exhausted. I wish I could take a vacation from my own mind for a few months.
>>707549580
I can fully admit I'm a frail person who has never been diagnosed with anything but recognizing that isn't a step to fixing it.
Everybody is delicate at some time in their life anon, and kindness is not weakness.
>>707549580
>You're a weak willed faggot
Why did you come to this thread friend?
>>707549709
A mad world. Isn't it?
>>707549912
Some people (mostly men) can only express depression through anger.
>>707549678
It doesn't have to be a material thing, the joy in those is fleeting.
You like food? Take yourself out for some bomb food on set days to give you something to look forward to.
I get wings every Thursday because I love wings.
Or go out and treat yourself to experiences, go to a concert, climb a mountain.
Stuff is not enough to fill the void.
>>707542887
Tell me more about this, perhaps it can help me too
>>707549580
Don't like it. Then fucking leave dumbass.
>>707549527
Anon, sorry to say but love or not.. He was under age.. You knew the law but you did it anyway.. You should have known better but like most men you ket thw wrong head decide.. Hope things work out for you but you made your bed.... Trust me i have made plenty of bad decisions in my life.. Ive been arrested many times... Well good luck anon.. Hope it all works out for you...
>>707549798
>if I could just leave my body...
>for the night
>[beautiful, grandiose musical explosion]
>>707549726
So use your motivation in small bursts.
Sort of like how you approach good cleaning habits, 20/10 or 45/15.
You work for a bit, play for a bit to recharge, then rinse and repeat.
>>707549622
No I'm sorry. At least someone tried for me
>>707540323
You need a job anon. Not even judging. You need a purpose
>>707547686
Every time, just like the last
On her ship, tied to the mast
To distant lands, takes both my hands
Never a frown, with Golden Brown...
>>707540323
get good at something
>>707539418
Is there a non prescription sleeping pill I can take all of and dream forever?
>>707550307
Okay thanks. I'll see what I can do. There's more to explain I feel but I don't want to share.
>>707547737
It's Saya. A super intelligent interdimensional monstrosity bent on destroying humanity. I forget what his name is, but the main character sees his entire would as a macabre hellscape after brain surgery. What is normally grotesque, foul and horrible, he views as pleasant. That is what you're seeing, his messed up perception of a monster. It's a fascinating read if you have the time, also, feels galore.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDHJ05TbDxU
When would you say is the happiest time of your life anons? I hope mine comes sonn
>>707550683
It isn't easy, but it is possible. Once it's a habit it gets a lot easier.
If you feel like sharing more at some point I'll be lurking
>>707540568
You need to grow. Become what was expected of you (as long as that was a reasonable expectation).you won't get HER back but you'll get the same level of a partner and you'll be prepared for it.
>>707550833
When my mom was alive. It wasn't perfect because she was an only parent but it was 100 times better than it is now
>>707545947
I think the hardest part about breaking up with someone is deciding what to do with the memories that you shared together, all the happy times and all the endless nights just watching Disney movies or looking at the stars, and all the activities you'd take part in, like supporting her through her plays, and her listening quietly while you show her a new song you learned on guitar, and kissing her and saying that you love her while cuddling on a couch in the cold winter months just watching the snow drift down...
Do you just forget what happened through all the months that made you feel like you were in heaven, or do you keep the memories so that they can haunt you unexpectedly and make you cry, do you suppress them temporarily with drugs and alcohol because your friends can't help you in any other way than passing a blunt? Or do you face them like a man and realize that you'll never be able to love a woman the same amount ever again because you feel like your love is temporary, and the only real outcome is pain?
Should I delete all the photos of us, or keep them for memory sake? Should I delete everything that we've done together on social media? Every photo, and every encounter we've experienced together could be gone in the wind right now... or should they be kept up to remind us of happier times when the world didn't feel like it was crashing around you?
I don't know what to do with all the memories /b/ros... I don't want to forget about everything we did together, I want to remember when things weren't so bad
>>707550833
I'm trying my best to make the present the happiest time. Cause I know for sure I'm bound to say "I wish I was living back then."
>>707550184
Thanks man. It does mean a lot that someone gives the slightest fuck. It's just so hard to get over the fact that any of this is only an issue because I'm gay. I know it's not as bad as what interracial couples went through back in the day, but it's what it feels like. I sometimes am worried I will get lynched for it.... it's crazy to me that what I did makes me the same as someone who rapes children. People see me as the lowest form of life.... but if it was a chick I could just get married and have kids.
>>707548367
It's going to be okay
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MjXzA4EtjoI
Man up guys/girls!!! Have mental toughness!!
I like these threads. Shows how much a man can love, miss or feel something. Makes me think that the world isn't over yet.
>>707550964
Delete them because they'll only hurt you and make you remember when you see them
I just destroyed 3 years worth of pictures and presents from my now ex
>>707540999
Hospice is pretty underrated TBH. They have a ton of resources. Use them. I've been there. It never gets better but it does start to be normal. Also...i don't do charity....they are a worthy cause
>>707550715
>>707547737
Also It's probably one of the most fucked up stories I've read. That shit needs a warning, even in a place like this.
So many pussies congregating. I bet you all like dicks in your butts too.
>>707550953
death is the worse, the feeling and knowing that you'll never have that experience with the person again
>>707551261
>>707551322
I don't like penis in my throat, sorry anon.
https://youtu.be/vnKZ4pdSU-s
>>707550997
"I wish I was living back then." is something I say to myself a lot. I don't know why it went down hill, what did I do? just hoping the future will bring that feeling back again. Hoping this time I'll do it right
>>707551001
Anon, dont give up.. Maybe tryband talk to him (if at all possible) and convince him not to snitch.. Then leave him the fuck alone.. And run away as fast as can be and start over some where else... But if you cant then try your best to gtfo asap.. Good luck, god speed!
>>707543952
Well sometimes manning up is the only thing you can do.
A while back I was seriously considering killing myself, but I always just managed to talk myself out of it. After moving and starting fresh again, I tried to put on the whole tough-guy act and started lifting and getting really into to some hobbies to take my mind off it, and through doing that I met some people who really empathized with me and things got a lot better. The funny thing is, I never really dropped the tough-guy act. After getting to exercise more and socialize with people with similar interests, I really found myself getting sad less and less, and I even met someone that I really like and who really likes me back. I still get sad sometimes, but "manning up" has actually given me more people to help cope with the sadness than make me more depressed. If not the actual masculinity part of it, the community at the very least can help.
Or maybe I just got lucky for holding on this long, but I try to think positively now.
>>707550964
She broke up with me on monday. I don't think I could have said it any better.
>be 22
>be an alcohol
>work a shitty job but maintain
>ex gf of 2 years won't talk to me
>shitty job calls me into office
> mad I drew dicks on a few boxes
>mfw I'm getting fired for it
>life could be worse
>
>>707551688
Think positive.. Thats key.. Good job anon.. I dont work out for shit but im a positive kind of guy, so im not depressed even tho i have reasons to be... Fuck being depressed.. Thats not a way to live.. Think positive!
>>707545139
Maybe you go after similar traits that they all shared, anon.
>>707549154
I've definitely opened up and made a lot of new friends this year after the breakup, but no one that I genuinely click with. They're super nice people, but I feel bad because we don't really share anything. A lot of the time I just call them up to see how they're doing because I'm bored and have nothing else to do.
I need out of this area, tbh. It's super rural, and I guess I have more interests similar to those in a metro area. Used to live in the city and loved it, but stuck where I am for now due to family issues.
>>707550359
yeah and failed.. doesnt that make us equal?
>>707550833
I find myself more happy when I'm not at home. A lot of bad things happened to me within these walls and I think if I need to help myself I need to leave... I'm just not in a position to do so at this time
When i'm feeling down i just remember that when it doesn't kill you, it makes you stronger.
>>707552068
positivity is a later step tho.First you have to sort things out and think about why you are where you are and why you feel like you have no one to turn to. A lot of people see positivity as the easy thing to say to someone that's depressed, and they're not wrong. I've had plenty of people tell me to stay positive without actually meaning to help me. The best way to deal with depression isn't by just finding the silver lining. It's by getting some serious help and consulting yourself about your problems. Finding the cause of sadness, like disease, often leads to the remedy.
Although if thinking positive works for you, don't let me stop you. Just keep doing what you gotta do.
Ok /b/, I've come here since 9 years now and this is my first post ever.
>be 25
>5 year relasionship endet last week (she broke up, but we can still be “friends“)
> two days later lost my job, because they decidet this position wasnt relevant for the company anymore and they couldn offer me a other position.
> have to move out because her dad owns the house we lived in.
> no job
> no partner
> no place to stay
>I really try to see the good, like I can go now wherever I want, I find a Job there.
> i've never felt so lost....
>>707550870
Hey anon don't know if your still here. I just feel inadequate with myself. I want to start over. I fucked my self over since day 1 and I don't want to continue this story. I could of done a lot better, I could have not been a retard loser. I don't want to deal with the problems I caused.
>>707550964
This. I cant bring myself to think about the past four years of my life, how invested I was, and how easily I was thrown away like it meant nothing.
I know it wasnt my fault, she ended up with mental health issues and a drug problem, but it doesnt make it any easier to come to terms with.
>>707539418
Haha your friend is dead while all of mine still live. Kys to be with him, Faggot.
>>707553420
Not OP but, go to hell edgelord
>>707553420
edgy. how's 8th grade going?
>>707552092
Similar taste in music was always the initial bonding point. None of them developed issues until a couple years into the relationships.
Surely not every female into indie hipster music has some fucked up emotional trauma they haven't gotten over by the time they're older than 25.
>>707553623
>>707553690
My work is done here.
>>707542911
Acid CAN help. It helped me realize what's important in my life.
