Feels?
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels?
...
'night, /b/
It was fun I guess
But I can't seem to move forward
And there's nowhere left to go
So...
I guess this is my goodbye
>>707412693
fuck you man, you got me
the tears wont stop
help
If anyone happens across this
Goodbye, fair well, and I wish you better luck than I've had.
Because it was a shit life, mine
And I won't be missed
So, a final drink, and away I go.
'night, /b/
Even if you never cared either.
>>707413940
I care. We love you.
>>707413940
Stop this anon, we all love you here. It's okay. It's really okay. It might not be for me but it will be for you, I promise. Please be okay. It would mean I made a difference. It would mean typing this out wasn't a waste of time. I love you anon
We love you anon
>>707414912
>>707414953
>>707414754
this pic is some flawed logic tbh
>>707414995
>>707415034
>>707415325
and the cats in the cradle and the silver spoon......
>>707412415
Fuck. This one always hits the nail on the head for me.
>>707413643
what hurts more is that its identified as "ignore"
>>707415068
Damn that one got me
hey b, can u give a stupid 18 y/o kid some advice?
i love this girl (at least what i think love is) i would do anything for her, we are really close friends, so close she asked me to homecoming poster and everything, but i know she doesnt like me, shes rejected me before, honestly i would do anything for her but i know she doesnt feel the same, im just trying to get over it but i cant. currently, im grounded because she wanted to hang out at 2am just me and her with some drugs, parents found out im stealing moms car. She used to facetime me and she justed posted a snapchat asking for anyone to facetime her, so of course out of felling like shit i popped an acid tab and just gonna sink in deeper into my depression, im just trynna move on from her but i cant, help plz, been having this feeling for the past 3 years
>>707414045
Shit, this one fucked me over.
This shit is so depressing to even think about...
>>707415001
Right, he needs to pick a different snack, see if the ice cream could be causing his problem. Answer's in the variable
>>707416550
This isn't a picture that gives me the feels.
But it really makes you think, doesn't it.
>>707413999
Fuck. I have a little brother. This one got me
>>707414045
Seems like this dude as ugly and stalked a pretty girl his whole life....
>>707415193
fucking fuck shit
GOD DAMN IT FRED YOU CAN'T SAY THIS SHIT IF YOU'RE NOT HERE
>>707412296
Man fuck this shit honestly I've fallen in love 3 seperate times and once i literally went 2 hours through my day showering and waiting to see my girlfriend and school and got to school and then realized it was all a fucking dream nothing's been quite right since then
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nHiAL0C6stE
>>707416590
Dude, you have got to move on, sitting on one girl is the path to nowhere. I did this all though high school and it got me nowhere. it took me untill my junior year in college to figure out that there are so many girls out there that are similar to the one you see now. It will be hard, but look to the future, and I know that it will be brighter than right now.
>>707417151
wow, i got teary from reading that, thanks anon, i know, i try to move on but i always end up back in the exact same position, im fucking tired of it man. as fucking retarded as it sounds, ive considered suicide, i see that its not worth it and im too pussy anyway, but thanks for the advice man
>>707417911
>>707418004
>>707418109
Shit, this is the first one for anyone reading
>>707417958
Never has there been a girl worth that. If you do not like where you are at, you need to change something. You cannot look to others to make things better for you. Only you can make you happy, and you owe it to yourself to be happy. I would assume you are a senior in high school and have so much a head of you. Dont look down now, or you might miss something that will change your life forever.
>>707415421
fuck you
>>707418498
>>707415421
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSwL9deXNW8
>>707413940
That's right, asshole.
Nobody here really cares about 'you'. They don't know 'you'.
They may have this image of a sad anon in their head, but that's just a product of their imagination.
So stop begging for sympathy, you queer.
>>707414882
These parents are kinda dicks.
>>707418498
ty anon, i could never talk to someone i knoe like this, this truly helps, i will take your words to heart
>>707413490
That picture is just haunting...
>>707417683
>Remember who told you about /b/?
Nope, probably somebody mentioned it somewhere and i looked for it.
>Remember who excited you were the first time you visited /b/?
Mostly very entertained.
>Remember how disgusted you were when you saw a gore thread?
I had actually seen plenty of gore by the time i first visited /b/.
>Remember how much you laughed in the you laugh you lose threads?
I never really visit those things intentionally. I might spot a good joke on a pic and then come in, but i don't 'set out' to sit in a YLYL thread.
>Remember how awesome it felt to make your first post on /b/?
No. But i'm certain i wasn't geeked out or anything.
>Remember the day it stopped?
No.
>Remember the day you realized your feelings are numb?
That never happened.
>Remember the day you posted something and felt nothing?
That doesn't happen.
>Remember the day gore wasn't disgusting anymore?
That hasn't happened.
>Remember the day the YLYL sucked?
Not really, i don't seek them out.
>Remember the day you realized /b/ killed your feelings?
That hasn't happened.
>>707417683
>Remember the day you can't live without /b/ anymore.
That hasn't happened.
>Remember the days you could remember what you ate at morning?
WHAT? I'm 30 dude, i am not senile yet.
>Remember the time you knew what date it was without looking it up?
I've never known that.
>Remember the last time you cried?
Like, earlier today.
>Remember the days you had friends?
I still have them.
>Remember the last time a friend texted you?
I don't really DO texts.
>Remember the thread that just 404'd a few seconds ago?
Yep.
>Remember this day?
Which day? Today? Yeah. Got that.
>Remember me?
Nope.
>Does anyone Remember you?
Yes.
>>707418650
Thats not what these threads are for. These are for people to come, and to unload their baggage that they have and express themselves in the purest form. The world tells us that we always have to be doin' good. Thats not the case, its okay to be sad, hell its even normal to be sad. You have some real issues if you cant let someone else express themselves to be who they really are.
>>707416251
Because you're a needy bitch who doesn't actually know what love is.
I'm dead inside right now. I'm here for you bros tho.
>>707419039
>express themselves in the purest form
Lay off the emo poetry for a while, ok?
Also, there's a difference between being sad and essentially like-begging.
My heart hurts every day. I miss my kids, I miss the home we used to have, I miss the marriage I tried to hold together.....but its all gone. So I tried to move past it. Found a fuck buddy, he was alright at first, but was both mentally and physically abusive. Eventually I lost my apt because two kids and no child support, no real support from anywhere, worked but not full time, not enuff help with sitters. Hand kids off to my mom - desperate to find a good job and new home. Work hard at my new job, this ones full time w benefits. Living out of my car, eating what I can when I can, trying so hard. Eventually I can afford a motel room, shitty bad part of town a distance from work, but I can shower...was my cloths in the tub, sleep in a bed. Fuck buddy calls me up new year's, let's have a good time. Stay two days cuz I'm off work. Second night he steals my car and totals it while I'm sleeping. No phone, so no call in, lose job. Winter - homeless.... Move in with good hearted acquaintance. Try hard to help him out, but what out in the country...no way to work, so I do farm work and keep house nice for him. One night we get into a fight.... Cont?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xy9x9RMXrdc
Right in the feels every. time.
Be honest.Is keep trying really worth it?
>>707419305
Maybe solve your own problems first?
People who can't even help themselves should not be so arrogant to assume they can help others.
>>707419476
Yes.
But don't aim for the impossible and then be disappointed.
Small steps at a time.
>>707418246
>>707418109
>>707418004
>>707417911
Fuck, this one got me good
>>707419502
Not other guy, but those who have felt the bottom can most understand anyone else's problems?
Any other extreme Escapist here?
Pretty much every wake second I am fantasizing that I am another person, who is talented, popular and a person who people look up to, wich is the opposite to what I really am.
>>707419657
Maybe they can understand, but can they help constructively?
>>707419674
I find it much safer to imagine being the person I want to be than risk coming up short
>>707419502
I'm perpetually clumbsy. There's no fixing that. And I'm just drained from my day.
>>707419476
I don't know. Maybe not.
>>707419404
let it out my man pls cont
>>707419674
>I am fantasizing that I am another person, who is talented, popular and a person who people look up to
Here's a protip: People don't magically become all those things.
They work hard and invest the effort to hone their talents and become someone worth being popular/looked up to.
How about you also do that and don't mope around how you don't like your current self?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6aF4idGemkk
>>707419674
Thats exactly why i play games, every game has a hero, and for once, that hero can be me.
>>707419993
>I'm perpetually clumbsy.
That's such a minor flaw, dude. Don't come at me with this bullshit emo talk about how you're 'dead inside'. That's not the same as being exhausted from a tough day.
>>707412898
>leomon
I'm crying
>>707420206
>every game has a hero, and for once, that hero can be me.
EMO POETRY ALERT
>>707420071
Good "tip", never heard it before.
>>707416575
holy fuck, got me too.
Hey, this probably won't help anyone but I'm gonna vent in this thread because I don't know how else to do because I'll just come off as a whiny faggot to whoever I tell so I'll shoot it in the vacuum of 4chan where it won't really bother me.
I feel like absolute shit everyday of my life. I'm 19, still living at home which within itself wouldn't bother me because I love my little brother and sister, but my parents make living here a living hell. They're both alcoholic potheads that have spent more money on their vices in one year then they have on all 3 of there kids birthdays in the past 5 years combined. This of course makes me come off as entitled I know, but it's a shitty thing to have to come home from a 9 hour shift at work to your parents passed out half naked on the couch with a record player scraping along the paper center of a record, with booze strewn about, tobacco all over the floor, and their bowl sitting out plain to see. (MY siblings are still kinda young and I try to shield them from the reality of my parents to the best of my ability.) Even worse is when I come home and the music is so loud I can hear it as I'm driving down my street, only to come inside listening to my parents screaming at each other over trivial bullshit (lately it's been my dad yelling at my mom for getting a cellphone. I'm not kidding. Before that it was because she was "spending too much time at work and not doing shit for him"). And, while I am a college student, I have to pay for it out of my pocket because my parents kicked me out when i graduated so I was unable to qualify for most scholarships that rely on you starting college right after highschool. So, I work 2 jobs while also taking 4 classes at my school, living me with almost no free time, especially as the classes get more difficult. Pair this with clinical depression and social anxiety brought on by abuse for giving my opinions as a child, I'm trapped because I can't even afford to move out.
TL:DR: I'm a waste.
Get into a fight with roommate - over nothing really, wasn't even so much a fight as a disagreement....but I get drunk and escalated it a few nights later. Not worried he n me are tight..true love for my bro. But jealous fuck buddy of his intervenes - talks shit and plants seeds of discord. I go chill at a couple of friends places for the week to let things cool off
>>707420206
This, I play healer in every game. It maybe online but I atleast feel useful for a while.
>>707411862
Weight seems to be stuck at 157-160 lbs. Maybe I should give up trying to get to 150.
>>707420387
Yeah, why take advice that apparently a million people have given you already?
Yeah, fuck that, continue to mope around. Circle jerking on /b/ is so such a better solution.
>>707420450
Im glad that you still go to school, i think that the best people come out of hard situations. You are not a waste. I know that you can do your best at whatever you set your mind to. please keep your younger siblings out of harms way as much as you can. It is unfair to grow up in such a life, but it produces the most strong people i have ever met.
>>707420810
>underaged banned
>>707420505
Never give up on your goals, 157 isnt fat by any means, but if thats your goal, stick to it! Give up those tendies if thats what it takes, but i know that you can do it!
>>707420452
Try to play it cool. Been working for about a month cuz found reliable transport and been paying roommate rent. Just need to let him cool off and apologize for being drunk stupid. Throw a little money to him - and everything will go back to normal
>>707420896
>20 years old
But okay
>>707420769
>pic related
That's you faggot
>>707420505
are you 2feet tall?
and dont even bother trying to pretend you are a fem
>>707420808
I remember that episode! What a fantastic show...
>>707420769
Hehe, I honestly don't know if you're retarded or just ignorant, but whatever I guess:p
>>707421087
What are you doing in school at 20 years?
Are you some kind of retard? Or are you talking about about college/university?
i just sat and cried for a good 30 minutes. Oh man, this month has been a whole party of feels and bullshit. Crying seems to help i guess
>>707412415
This is the worst one for me.
>>707420505
ive got that hanging on my wall
>>707421099
Yeah, bust out the may-may image macros.
That always helps the retards to cope.
>>707421206
>literally not reading the thread
why are you even here
>>707421206
In collage, currently a Junior.
>>707421037
I'm down from my initial (starting) weight of 228. Thinking about it since I posted my original post, I think part of why my weight's stuck, is because I throw in elements of strength-training into my daily routines (push-ups, sit-ups, 10 lbs dumb-bells, etc). I should find a routine that's JUST cardio, especially considering it's getting cooler.
>>707421151
6 feet, male.
>>707421294
How far have you gotten?
Hey anons i lost some weight i went to 210 to 165 currently i have gotten so many compliments that i'm skinny yet i feel like shit everyday and take xanax to relieve my anxiety i just cant stay sober these fucking thoughts in my head
>>707421045
During cool off period go home w friend from work. Her old man beats her up sometimes and had recently after she gave me a ride home. She wants me to meet him so he knows I'm real and she ain't fuckin around on him. I am happy to go, her getting hit for givinge rides he ain't cool... So we go back to her place and grab some beers, he's drunk when we get there.
>>707421377
6 foot trying to get to 150.
trying to be a trap or some shit?
Anyone got anything more like this?
>>707417654
Fucking garbage ovation guitar
>>707414045
but his death is in july and the posts are in october
>>707421493
I'm 6 foot and weigh 125, he's actually going for an ideal weight.
>>707420220
It's not minor. It cost me $1000 today.
>not the same thing
i guess I couldn't tell, honestly
>>707419674
Yes, I'm genuinely happy when I do it
>>707419828
I'll do my best.
>>707420505
I have, but I'm pretty healthy anyway.
>>707421377
Why is being 150lbs at 6 foot a problem? I think you should be bulking up! /fit/ acutaly has some good advice every once in awhile, between being faggots.. I hope you find what you are looking for.
>>707420810
Means a lot to me man, I just don't know if I can do this shit at this point. My support is fucking weak, I don't really have anyone to rely on if I get kicked out like last time, and I just so fucking worn out all the time.
>>707421433
Proceed to drink more with him, laugh n joke around to lighten mood but he brings up her still blackened eye and it is made known I know he hit her and that she didn't walk into no door. I don't judge bro my name's paul that's between u all. So night goes on, eventually bed time, they go to their room and me on the couch, drunkenly sleeping soundly within minutes.
>>707421493
No, see>>707421606
They say the 'roof' of my ideal weight/BMI is around 183 lbs. I'm trying to be as thin as possible with as much 'playing room' (eating whatever) as I can get. I'll eventually stay between 150-155.
>>707421714
I don't want muscles.
This one's kinda long.
>>707421606
for a stick figure
>>707421787
>>707421858
>>707411862
is it being sold to a restaurant or what?
>>707421837
You're body goals are different from others my friend. 150 is a perfectly fine weight, though I'd probably go back to bingeing if I weighed that much, I never liked being any more then skinny.
>>707421412
I get thise intrusive thoughts, too. It makes me so angry
>>707421981
>>707413146
Don't man, one day it'll be time to say goodbye, but not yet
>>707422057
my childhood is getting fucked over
>>707421785
Then what are you after?
>>707421769
Sometime after bed, I come to, to extreme pain, as he forces himself inside and begins to sodomize me, and doing something unpleasant to my clit - pinching it I guess. I cry out of course and beg him to stop but too drunk to really stop him, so just beg him to stop and hope it's over soon. Don't remember blacking back out but I wake up the next morning pant and pantiless sore all over
>>707421412
Get off those xanxies asap. Those things are a bitch to get off of. If your feeling really anxious try smoking some weed. Indica strain for its body high. Since the thc in sativa strains are psychoactive.
>>707422319
Trying to be as skinny as possible, but within a healthy range.
>>707422057
>>707422180
>>707421412
What are those thoughts about?
I dont know why, but i terribly miss a girl. Her name is Heather, and i truly loved her. Alot of others came before and have come since but she is usually my first and last thought of the day.
>>707417784
Every year, except there's no clapping. There's no candles.
>>707422547
>>707418650
HARDCORE AS FUCK
it's ok to cry guy, you don't need to lash out
>>707422640
>>707422322
Tell gf from work to take me home. I tell her what happened and she says "this is why I can't have friends" - nigga what!? - go home and shower off sobbing. Not sure how to proceed. Just want to die, feel hung over violated and confused. Scared and lonely, violated. Ex swings by on off chance and takes me home with him trying to convince me to go get a rape kit. Not my style I hate doctors, and I'm still hung over confused and don't wanna be alone.
>>707422667
>>707422744
>>707422507
I really dont like weed. I feel when i take xanax im a normal person and can have normal conversations when im sober im just like depressed and always look tired on xanax it makes that go all away
>>707422800
>>707422598
I feel you m8, Mine is named Renee haven't dated in almost 3 years, but I'd drop everything and run back to her given the opportunity. She provided a kind of comfort no one has given before or since. She felt like my friend, as well as a love. She comforted me in her way, always being so supportive and knowing exactly what to say. She was with me through some of the worst years of my life, and I have her to thank for getting through them.
>>707422868
Stahp!!!!
>>707422638
Want a friend? Or as much as I can be of one?
>>707422703
Can you make these a tad bit longer before posting?
You don't need to post every single sentence separately.
I was in the first genuinely loving and positive relationship in my life, and then ~2 years ago I got brain damage from meningoencephalitis that fucked over my personality and left me with a language processing disability, so my gf left me a few months later. I understand why she did and respect her decision, but it man, did it hurt like hell.
/b/, life isn't fair, but I wish it gets a little more in my favor soon.
its been about a month now, but i still think of you everyday. I have to see you in half my classes, and watch you be happy while i sit in this loneliness and sadness. I know i sent you those texts, but you are the only one i trusted enough and felt comfortable enough to tell these things to. I miss staying up late texting you, i miss cuddling, i miss holding hands, i miss watching those shitty movies with you, i miss that feeling i got when we kissed, i miss your smile, i miss your laugh, i miss your voice, i miss your humor. I still love you. You may have moved on quickly, but for me, im dying. I have spent nights crying and crying until i can no more. I have spent countless hours just thinking about you and what we have done together. There was so much we wanted to do together, but you decided to leave because to you i had just become a friend. Every time i feel my phone vibrate, i hope its you. It never is. Riley, if you for some reason read this, i miss you. I just want to talk to you again. Thats all i want. One last conversation
>>707422703
He gets ahold of my cousin, and best friend - party girl. Love her always good for a laugh, always good for advice and always says love u....I need luv u's badly. Go get her she says - party? Sure lets party I need to not think about fight with roommate beaten up work gf or rape time w her old man....let's just get fucked up....ok, she says I'll buy party favors tonight if u get rape kit tomorrow morning. Ok. Deal.
>>707422965
It's funny you say that. I just lost my best friend of 12 years the other day
>>707422843
What other drugs have you tried? Ever fuck with the psy?
>>707415068
that was a good one
>>707415068
This anon was blessed, hallucinations are usually related to subconscious fears, very few people have positive hallucinations.
>>707422564
Everyone is complementing me on how im skinny and shit and my thoughts still haunt me knowing people judge you based on you're weight all my life i been fat and people dont even treat you like human beings, now 8/10 girls are asking me out im dressing nice because i got a job and people want to take pictures of me with them and people try really hard for me to like them im just realising how shitty people are
>>707422942
>>707422868
But we're so close.
>>707423228
What happened?
>>707423370
>>707423168
Has anyone ever told you that you're a fucking lunatic?
How can you glance over being raped so casually?
>>707423257
No whats that?
>>707423437
>>707423502
>>707412208
I've never cried from a feels thread before but there's a first time for everything everyone
>>707423548
>>707423415
He came to tell me he's been seeing my NOW ex girlfriend of 4 years behind my back
They're dating now
He's dead....to me
>>707423492
Psychedelics
Molly, shrooms, and acid.
How long have you taken xans for?
>>707423688
He wouldnt be a real friend if he did that kind of shit.
>>707423027
>language processing disability
What exactly does this mean?
>>707412208
Oh, that got all up in my dad emotions.
>>707415421
>>707413745
Hyper feels warning.
>>707423723
I wanted to try shrooms but i heard of bad trips of like people seeing hell and shit so..
>>707423798
Well after 12 years of being there for each other, I thought I knew everything about him
So much that I knew what he was going to tell me before he said it
I just didn't want to believe it
>>707413643
Fuck. Coping is hard.
>>707423723
I been off and on xanax like i was off them for a month and now im on them again i would take like 12mg a day i felt like i need 4mg every 2 hours
>>707423168
That's it?
What was the point of writing this?
>>707423806
The pathway between the raw audio input from the ears and the resulting brain 'translation' doesn't exactly work anymore.
I learned to lipread and all that other coping shit so it's not too much of a problem anymore.
>>707423341
I judge people too. I legitimately want to know what happened that allowed them to gain so much weight, but don't think they're bad people.
You do look really good though.
As for how fat people are treated, try to be nice to them yourself. You don't have to tell them they look good (esp if they don't belive it themselves). Just be nice to them and help them where you can.
>>707423688
Did she cheat on you with him?
>>707423168
Go score some heroin, her drug of choice not mine and pick up fuck buddy too - and Molly and liquor for good measure. Proceed to have a great time. We laugh, we cry, overall epic good time. Love these guys. Family thru n thru. Next day go get a rape kit done, sux but at least it's over... But time to go back to work in the morning - spend another great day with my cousin n fuck buddy and ex chilling drinking and generally trying to avoid feelings other than happy. So ff go to work the next day, fresh bruises all over work gf - she confronted him about what he did to me so he beat her up...she hit him with a bat so he in jail. I tell her I had rape kit done but have not had it handed off to the cops yet, don't want to ruin her life - cps with her kid all kinds of bs could happen for her so I want to be sure she's ok and she's safe before I bring more cops and bs into it. She begs me not to...says he won't be getting out, this is his third strike. Doesnt want her name dragged thru the mud or cps or whatever else. So I agree...hes going to be gone for ten years fuck it. My boo boos will heal so long as she is safe and hes gone. Life goes on for another few days - still staying w my ex cuz not ready to deal w roommate situation.
>>707419407
Ow...
my dog will die soon and i have no idea how i will manage this. so ill post animal pictures
>>707424291
I don't have any proof. All I can do is speculate
>>707413643
Here's a protip:
If a story sounds like the plot of a drama starring Robin Williams, you can safely assume that it's fake.
Can you get any more soppy?
>>707424350
>>707424253
So it's kind of like being deaf?
>>707423988
You can never go wrong with molly, it makes you feel like you love the world and it loves you.
>>707424444
check em i guess
>>707421547
Cringed hard.
>>707419476
Absolutely. Went from a friendless NEET to a popular guy in College.
Back then, I used to stand at the edge of a bridge above the railroads. "As soon as the train comes, I will jump off" but the train always took too long, or I chickened out when it was getting close. I remember going to McDonalds late at night, feeling the breeze of the cars passing by, I would start getting closer and closer to the edge of the curb, one extra step and the sadness would be gone... never did. I did cut a lot just to repress the urge to killing myself, I was pretty close to getting institutionalized.
Things are better now, anon. Don't let life make you his bitch.
Some real oc here.
A few years back my younger sister used to have this one friend who was over so often she was like a second little sister. Except over the years I started liking her more and more. This isnt some weird pedi shit either, we were less than four years apart in age. We had everything in common almost. We did almost everything together even. She was in band in school, and her family was always busy so I attended all her schools games, even as many away ones as possible, so she'd always know she had at least one person there specifically for her. When she got to be around 16, she told her older sister, who was my age, that she liked me as more than a friend. Hee older sister didn't like me because we didn't get along when we were in school (same age and we went to school together, her older sister was a stuck up snooty bitch and I called her out on it a few times when were were in Hs). Anyways, her sister told her parents some bs about me but it was enough that they told her she basically couldn't see me anymore. Fast forward another year or so and they end up moving out of state, practically across the country. Another year later and I find out through my sister that she has had a boyfriend for a while, all that stuff. Of course she moved on, but it still a punch actually hearing about it. But that's not the end of my story.
About two weeks ago I was at the store, it was pouring down a cold ass pre-winter storm, and some chick is in the far back of the parking lot with a flat tire. I stop my car and ask her if she needs any help. She says she's from out of town and is in town visiting some friends, but can't reach anyone. She has a spare but can't change it. It's pouring and she's soaked, and it's like 40°f out here. So I man up and change her tire for her. I'm that kind of bro. Didn't think anything of it. So now I'm soaking wet, but her spare is on. As i get up, she's telling me thank you over and over and I tell her not to worry about it.
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>>707424724
i just started crying and cant stop myself
>>707424421
I idealize suicide. I'm sorry I don't have any real advice for you.
>>707423988
Naw mushrooms are probably the safest drug next to weed. The AA (alcoholic anonymous) used to use shrooms as a means of beating alcoholism. It's often linked with beating back depression and most users say their perspectives have changed.
I ask that you find alternatives to Xanax because I had a step brother who tried to od on Xanax. Took 12 pills ended up puking it all over himself and got rushed to the ER because his stomach walls were corroding. After 3 months of detox he got out and is in rehab for the next 2 years.
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>>707423967
Fuck
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>>707424570
I don't want to check em, too hard in the feels
>>707415236
That story always gets to me.
>>707424308
Finally got to go home. Go see roommate, his fuck buddy been poisoning him against me all while I was gone so hes on a rampage and throws me out - telling me he doesnt wanna hear about my problems (cuz I tried to tell him that I had been raped and I hugged him) he asks me to leave... Get my shit and go. Ok bro, bye. End of that friendship apparently - two years, poof. Go back to exes house, got the day off work so pick up cousin n fuckbuddy again, could use more cheering up. We go get some heroin for her and Molly n liquor for us.. but that elephant tranq h has been going around. I don't like her doing the h but she addicted sooo we go. She rigs up in the backseat and shoots it and we start driving home. Just getting onto expressway when oh shit she don't look right. Oh shit oh shit pulp fiction this bitch is dying on me. Race to nearest hospital. Her lips are blue her skin is white, she's dead. They rush her in and I go to park the car...smoking a ciggys takin shots in the parking lot while sobbing and freaking out
>>707412693
damn boss
>>707424736
When I found out 1 of my exes cheated on me, I drove up to a bridge bypass over the interstate
I waited, sitting, hanging my feet over the bridge for over 30 minutes or so
People below me would wave or point from their cars driving by
And then there it was, the biggest truck I was waiting on, I planned to jump
And then I heard a police "whoop whoop"
Felt like shit and embarrassed
Too chicken to go along with it after seeing the cop
>>707424818
Let me fuckign guess? She is your childhood friend?
Dude, fuck you with this bullshit. This story is utter bullshit. She has a flat tire, you are conveniently there to help her, you both don't recognize each other even though you were at least 16-17 the last time you saw each other.
Seriously, stop this shit right now.
>>707424818
End of my story.
Suddenly, she stops thanking me and says "hey, you're anon, aren't you?"
It's the girls older sister, the one who basically ruined things between us.
She laughs and says "wow, I didn't realize you were such a nice guy. Maybe you and my sister should have hooked up after all"
All I can do is fake a smile and say "Yea, right" like in a joking way. She got in her car and left with a generic "see ya later." It was pouring down rain. She couldn't tell I was crying. It's been two years since I really talked to her sister. I haven't dated since. I haven't even really been that much interested in girls at all since. I thought I'd gotten over her until this happened. I am a sad anon. Just felt like telling y'all about it. I'm going to bed now.
>>707424844
I don't Idolize suicide, but I think about it everyday. I think of different ways I want to do it. My problem is I have no control over it
This is me but different girl btw>>707425142
>>707424457
Yeah. You can hear things like birdsongs and dog barks and tones like that, but something with so much complexity as a sentence just comes across as word salad.
>>707423589
Is that the end?
>>707423589
Unbelievably so
>>707425342
Wow, that sucks.
How much does that impede your life?
Also, you said something about your personality being affected? In what way exactly?
>>707412208
Thank you anon, for helping me remember what it means to be human
>>707425299
I know that feel
>>707425342
Shit man, at least you're not completely deaf.
>>707425342
I'd kill myself in a split second if I couldn't listen to music anymore
>>707413267
I wish I could do that so bad. I needed a hug last June before I jumped out a third story window and paralyzed myself. I needed that hug.
>>707425808
Seriously? Fuck dude! I would hate myself 10 times more than I already do if I attempted to kill myself and lived
Every time I do I think about the movie Office Space
>>707413940
fuck you i don't care
i can't see you or touch you, but i know you're there. i know that you're actually important and worthy of something. you're actually worth something. something that hasn't happen yet but it will. this might have been in vain but goddammit im not giving up on you, all of you.
>>707425854
comrade, may we remember him. Whenever i shoot my AK, i will remember this.
>>707425808
Hows you're therapy? (Physical and mental)
>>707424545
This. Just make sure you have some gum and some cigs if you smoke >>707423988.
>>707425086
We go in to check on her and she's ok thankfully. Ok but pissed!! We leave the hospital almost immediately, she's having none of it. We get in the car and she starts ripping into me about how she wants to be dead and how I should have let her die and what a shit person I am for saving her when all she wanted to do was die peacefully. Whole way back to my exes she is screaming at me and telling me I'm shit. I'm sobbing and can't wait to just go get obliterated drunk and try to get the image of her dead face out if my mind. We get back and she eventually gets a ride home. I get shit faced, and proceed to stay that way for the rest of the week. Cant go into work, cuz I couldn't sleep, called in, ended up calling in again...stayed up for days cuz I couldn't sleep. A few hours here or there while passed out, but never long and never enuff and never real actual restful sleep. Fuck buddy is there, he is a kindred spirit I guess, but when drunk he can be just plain nasty towards me - suicidal thoughts start to consume me. He and I are going through two half gallons a day for like a week... I'm starting to crack and lose it. I end up begging him to beat the life out of me cuz I can't sleep I can't eat and all I can do is hurt, and I just want it to stop. Wait till he's absolutely gone drunk and pick a fight. Throw a weak punch at him and he goes off, beats me up pretty good - think i git my wish, I pass out sobbing but too sore weak n drunk to get up... Wake up the next day bruises all over eye swollen half shut. Lovely I look outside like I feel inside
>>707425810
It makes me so sad knowing that sometimes children die. I hate it. I hate it so much that it happens.
>Be me
>Live near the woods
>Know all of the trails
>Meet gril
>Gril is hot enough to cook steak on
>Gril lives nearby
>Go hiking with gril and doggos
>Every day
>Shit's cash
>One day
>Gril gibs kiss
>Under biggest, baddest tree
>Move to fucking Portland from Tejas
>Find biggest, baddest tree
>Bring cellphone
>A fucking nokia
>Text her every day under tree
>18
>Go back to Tejas
>See gril
>Gril is cool
>Same as always
>Live with gril+parents.
>Go out to tree everyday.
>Gril acquires tumor
>Gril an heroes at tree
>Love tree. Go out to it everyday. Only memory of gril
>Have to move downtown for college and grils parents do not liek me.
>Go out to woods a year later. Go on path called cactus lane.
>Leads to a service road that tree was on
>Tree is gone
>House
>Knock on door
>Dickhead.webm opens door
>Tells me to fuck off.
I wanna die now. Everything is gone. Goddammit E. I loved you so much.
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>>707418975
newfag
>>707426337
A little boy got shot a couple weeks ago by a cop
He was in the backseat of his dad's truck and the cop shooting his dad didn't know the boy was back there
The cop just kept shooting blindly at the truck
>>707426337
Med student here. I am so used to seeing people die, I don't even see them as humans and not in a holier-than-thou attitude. I just understand they are sick and they might die, but the moment the thought of my mom dying makes me feel anxious as fuck.
>>707425644
Before I got decent at lipreading, I hated social interaction because I dreaded not understanding or not being understood. Stayed in my house all day, only left to walk my dog and take him fun places. I got pretty lonely, so that was an impediment. Now, I honestly just try my best and I don't give a fuck.
As for personality, that was more of a slow development, but it's here to stay apparently. It is much harder to empathize with others, for one. I became more of a watcher as opposed to a do-er. My emotions feel more intense and flare up for small reasons. And i also became a thrillseeker, ha.
>>707413999
i have a little sister who just turned 13
fuck me man
>>707425199
Nice dubs. Also, that didn't end like I expected it to end. Goodnight, sad anon.
>>707424350
You'll manage as well as anyone can, and when you're ready, you'll move on and find another companion.
>>707425671
That's what they tell me
>>707425805
Don't tempt me
>>707413146
God damn, I love Marcus Aurelius. So much deep shit in his Meditations.
goodnight /b/. Thank you for the feels. Im going to cry for a bit and go to sleep. Good luck /b/ros, hope you all find happiness
>>707425199
Sleep well, and may tomorrow bring better things into your life.
>>707425810
Don't go... Power Ranger. Tears.
Ahem. I truly have the saddest story.
>Be me with only 70 bucks on steam for the next year.
>Saw a promo trailer of No Man Sky
>Bought the game
>Tried to play the game and it didnt work
>Tried fixing it for over 9 hours. Realizing the day is gone
>Cant refund a broken game
>Sad little man with no good game to play
Please hold your tears. Someday there will be a part two to this story.
>>707424350
I had a dog since I was 10. Best doggo I ever had. Best doggo anyone ever had. When I turned 18, I had to move away for school because where I lived didn't have any good schools. I was gone a year before I could ever make it back home. When I got back, i asked where my doggo was. My mom said doggo was dead, died a few weeks after I left for school. Probably because doggo was sad i left. My parents never bothered to tell me. I've had two doggos sense. They both sucked. I miss my best doggo ever.
Bye, everyone.
To that guy who lost all that weight, you'll find peace. I promise you that.
>>707426744
I always told my ex that music comes first and then
It always pissed her off
It pissed me off she never understood my dear obsession and love for music
Music has always been there for me and never judged me
>>707426370
bretty gud
