Did anyone else grow up actually pretty attractive but look back and realize you wasted your entire high school and college careers being weird and awkward as fuck and sitting around playing video games when you could have gone out and slayed pussy?
>>706774863
Dude, the feels
>>706774863
I went to a college for a while and didn't talk to anyone because they were all chinks and Indians.
>>706774863
yeah but then again i was actually pretty fucked up and it's a good thing i didn't travel too much
>>706774863
Yea I could have, lil dumbass couldn't stop smoking weed and playing wow
>>706774863
I actually been told in the face by couple of girls I've crossed their mind but I was being too nice. LOL wtf do they want
>>706775451
Girls are fucking brain damaged. When they're young - up to and including college age - they're attracted to assholes. Some never grow out of it and continue to like assholes into their 30s and beyond, but they're usually used up bar skanks by then.
Wtf is attractive about an asshole when you're young? Seriously?
>>706774863
Nope, 8/10 easy and fucked all kinds of scene bitches in school. No regrets.
Yes. I'm a sick cunt. Goddammit drugs
yeah thats pretty much exactly my situation.
wasted my teenage years being an awkward fuck playing vidya, actually had girls flat out hitting on me, i more or less got pussy on the silver plate but still somehow managed to be awkward and weird enough not to realize the AZZ being slammed in my face.
a woman would've literally had to rape me before i bothered to make a move because i was so unconfident
shit sucks balls, now im 24 and in a relationship but could've fucked so many girls as a kid...
ill never enjoy teenie pussy now :(
Dude, yes. I hate to sound arrogant and call myself attractive, but I've been told enough times by enough people to finally believe it. I fucking hate myself for it. Give me those damned years back.
>>706774863
Along with being awkward and weird, I'm also a loser.
>>706774863
This is such an accurate description of me
at least im not alone
>>706774863
thanks for that op, i just woke up
Sort of, I'm reasonably attractive and girls that don't know me too well tell me all the time but I have the personality of a wet towel with autism. Not really bothered now cause have gf now and we love each other so I'm pretty happy
>>706774863
wasted a decade to WoW and beer
>>706774863
No
I have a fast metabolism and liked to run so I looked better than most but about 80% of the people I've known in relationships hardly had them work for an amount of time I'd call decent.
Even the ones I know that do have lasting relationships can easily be described as pussy whipped.
I'm sure most girls are huge borderline intolerable cunts and the few that aren't would be driven away by my terrible self-pitying personality.
At the end of the relationship practically no matter how it would end I'd have:
>regret for the time and money I wasted
>feel pains that would probably last my whole life
And if the way most people I know have acted after losing a relationship is any gauge of pain coupled with my generally negative personality
>I'd probably be so badly effected I'd have fucking killed myself to end said pain.
So I don't think I wasted it and I don't think in denial.
Still doesn't stop me from wondering though.
What if I jumped off that hypothetical bridge with everyone else, smacked my body at a high speed against the water and at least earned some modicum of respect for attempting something that is expected of me by my peers.
>>706774863
can yyou just not, OP ?
also add weed + world of warcraft to that shit
>>706777145
>>706775266
oh... my friends are in ehre too !
lads legion is dogshit, i could not play 10 minutes sober
>>706779325
Underrated Post
Generally speaking, being a weirdo made women more interested in me. I am not sure why people knock that. Except perhaps if what they mean by "weirdo" is shy and introverted. Because i'm weird, but i'm also confident, and shameless.
Not that way, exactly...but, kind of different from your point, I realized that instead of spending money on restaurants, birthday gifts, perfumes, "surprise presents" and the like...I just spent it on myself and jerked off instead...I came out ahead! And then TIME--time spent...played some games, did some ill shit that I wanted to do--without an argument, or being forced to drive 40 miles out after a full day's work to aunty Claire's 73rd scrabble session, and then have to get up at 5am just to catch up before work the next day...
Why? Pussy? A girlfriend? Bitch don't even like half the shit I like, anyway...and I'm supposed to sacrifice not only ideology, but MONEY and TIME for what...to get laid on a Thursday? NIGGA PLEASE. Grow some balls and venture out on your own. And NEVER drive a rickety car from work down a highway with a blizzard advisory for anyone. Stay home, get comfy, and the rest can fuck right off. Break up then and there if you have to. The larger question might be: would they do it for you? Probably not...definitely not, actually.
>>706774863
This was high school for me, I absolutely slayed in college
YEP I DUN GOOFED
SHOULDNT OF DONE ALL THAT ACID AND MUSHROOMS NOW IM A CRAZY ASS NIGA AND HAVE NEVER KISSED A GIRL AND WILL PROLLY BLOW MY BRAINS OUT FML
I was popular with mexican chicks because i have red hair. At the time, i only liked white girls. Mexican girls flirted with me all the time, and i thought they were just being nice. One even showed me her boobs. I have no idea how to explain that one. Now i have a Mexican fetish, but I'm married to a white woman.
>>706774863
not really about that slaying pussy and whathever, but that picture really emphasize me.
I have to hold my laugh as people aproach me with a smile when they don't know me and as soon as i start to speak i see the smile slowly fading away.
it's hillarious but i don't know why, makes me want to cry.
I don't know if it's my retarded voice, my breath, what I'm saying, or all of that together, but the reallity is that happens to everyone.
I hope I'm the only one like this, because i don't wish this to anyone.
>>706779992
pls teach me your ways, i want to become shameless
>>706780424
I'm not sure that can be taught. Or at least, i don't think i could teach it. Because as far as i understand it, it's just obvious. Don't care. Don't rely on creating a sense of self worth through approval by others. Ideally, if people disapprove of you, your actions, or your thoughts, this does not matter to you. Your happiness and self-worth do not hinge on their support. If they approve of you, that's fine. If they disapprove, it's not important.
>>706780376
i was just thinking that these last few days, there's a thing in the way i talk that makes people lose their smile. I think i'm too nervous in my body language and/or tone of voice.
I've also pretty much always been attracted to unavailable people and almost never reciprocated when some girl was explicitely interested in me.
I think a part of me wants to be unhappy ...
too much real life op
tfw good looking and gets female attention
tfw not socially awkward and can speak to birds
tfw got phimosis and too self conscious of 5 inch unaesthetic cock
:(((
I lost count around the time I had fucked around 30 girls in college, and that was ten years ago. I'm up to at least 100 now if you count bjs. I've had to chill out because I caught herpes last year from either a chick I met on Okcupid or some backpage whore I banged. I don't know which. Handjobs only for me now.
>>706779992
THIS POST IS IMPORTANT YOU NUMBNUTS
YOU MAGGOTS CAN BE ECCENTRIC, BUT AS LONG AS YOU OWN IT YOU WILL SLAY MORE PUSSY THAN THOSE COMMUNIST HIPPIES AT PETA.
IF GOD HAD NOT WANTED YOU TO FUCK, YOU WOULD BE DECAYING IN THE YARD OF AN ABORTION CLINIC, MAGGOTS.
>>706780665
i'm trying so hard to be this way right now, i swear, especially now that i moved away to another city where i pratically know no one.
It's getting better but i still feel the need to know if people really like me and for what specifically, in which way ect ...
Do you sometimes think back on what happened during some social interactions ? I can lose so much time dwelling on that and trying to analyse everything that happened
>>706775971
Beta cuck
>>706781158
Any time i spend an inordinate amount of time thinking about shit like that, i do what i call "take a hard left". Mentally get off that train of thought hard. Immediately start thinking about something else hard, until i've forgotten what i was thinking about that was bothering me.
>>706775971
Lmao you're a phaggot, girls don't want what they know they can have. Treat them mean keep them keen.
I'm not saying going up and punching them in the face, but don't let them know you think they are attractive just speak to them like a normal kunt and throw in the occasional neg (do with caution).
>>706781156
this kinda makes me feel a little better getting some motivation but at the same time i feel like whats the point? the earth is already over populated and is it really worth spending time and effort for just a single moment in the time space continuum to feel a fleeting moment of pleasure when in the end nothing amounts to anything and tis better that world war 3 happens and we all die in a eternal flame of radiation ?
Here is what works for me:
1. I'm friends with a lot of girls who I don't try to fuck. I keep them platonic. I meet a lot of their friends who I do fuck. Also, sometimes my friends get wasted and eventually throw themselves at me.
2. Alcohol is your friend. Chicks who get wasted are slutty. Who knew?
3. Okcupid is a gold mine. Chicks will put on their profiles that they want a "long-term" relationship, but 95 percent will put out after the second date
4. Meetup.com is another gold mine. It's literally millions of single/recently divorced, lonely women pretending to like hiking, but really looking for a boyfriend.
5. this is essential- first rule of pussy slaying is "never talk about video games".
>>706780792
i love paradoxes, because i live in one
i know the key to my happiness is other people but i just can't trst them
i know all the cliche advices ("be confident", "get out more", etc), but i just don't care enough to make that efford i guess
but oh well, at least i have you guys
Yes. Im bred with perfect half Japanese genes. So im deadass really good looking
I fucked plenty of women in high school of different races (except black) but couldve fucked even more if i didnt think my dick was small. Realized after several fucked that my dick game was mean
I actually like being weird and awkward. For some reason people like me because of it paired with good looks, i feel like a normies Tomoko. Believe me if you were a normie you would probably end up adopting either nig culture or frat white boy culture, as everyone i knew did. Both of those are awful.
Honestly be thankful youre weird, just try to get laid at least once.. once is enough. I experienced the normie life and its honestly terrible.
>>706781484
NEVER TALK ABOUT VID GAMES?
AND MAKES SURE THEY ARE ALCHOHOLICS?
NAH FUCK THAT U GONA SCORE NUTHIN BUT 5S AND 6S WITH THAT REGIME
I WANT A FUCKING WAIFU GOD DAMMIT
>>706781442
>the earth is already over populated
It really isn't. That's just globalist fear mongering.
Also, your existence must be pretty pathetic if you think you're just one tiny spec of dust in the vastness of time.
If you THINK you are small/insignificant, you ACT like it. And when you do that, you BECOME what you think. Change the way you think, It is the very first step in the right direction.
When you see a hot girl, don't think "I'm not sure im good enough for her" or some BS like that. Instead, think "this could be my next girlfriend."
If you think a bad thought, what is most likely to happen after that? Your mind will make up another bad thought, in order confirm the previous bad thought. Force good thoughts, and your mind will do the rest. Sorry for long-ass post.
> have 2 older sisters
> strong minded mom
> always been told to be careful with sex and that so much can happen
> decide to listen to my elders
> never saw any of my classmates as potential sexual mate.
> turns out 3/5 were interested but to shy
> lose my virginity at age 18 to some chick i met through the Internet
I keep having the feeling that my current gf is just my gf, cause she stuck around long enough for my male friends to call her that.
>>706774863
Ive seen what happens to the guys who know how attractive they were and bone chicks by the bakers dozen. Every single one of them goes like that for a few years, then either a baby comes along turning them into a destitute child support slave, or they catch an incurable STD. Either way the pussy parade ends hard and leaves them proper fucked up.
I'm pretty content with how I turned out. Several long term relationships with lots of sex, never stuck my dick in crazy.
I live in western europe but both my parents are russian, so I look like a typical (but good looking) russian, 6'3 (Pic related, Ivan Drago style), and all east european girls told me how beautiful I am while the girls where I live go for the shitskins and hipster fgts
>>706775971
Beta shit. Confidence is the answer. Get back to your gaming cave.
>>706774863
Opposite.
Used to think I was pretty attractive and wondered why girls always thought I was weird/creepy.
Looking back at photos of me in high school, I was not attractive.
>>706781442
YOU THINK TOO MUCH, MAGGOT.
YOU ARE IN DENIAL, AND DENIAL IS FOR COMMUNISTS AND BERNIE SANDERS SUPPORTERS.
THIS IS THE LIFE YOU'VE GOT MAGGOT AND I WILL. NOT. SEE. YOU. WASTE IT. ON. PHILOSOPHY!
SHAVE, STRAP ON YOUR TESTICLES AND HAVE SOME INTERCOURSE, SOLDIER. THAT IS AN ORDER!
>>706774863
*Slain
No wonder your cocks 6 shades darker than the rest of you
>>706775105
gotta go to a college town dude
any state college in a big city is going to be filled with chinks and indians... so is any ivy league school because all chinks and indians do is study and get perfect grades
>>706781913
check out this alpha dog! bet his keyboard keys made of dumbbells and his mouse pad is a compressed cake of creatine.
9/10. you lose points for not ending your burn with faggot though, faggot.
>>706781913
NO HES RIGHT U JUST PROVED URSELF TO BE RETARDED I WAS AN ALPHA I HAD CONFIDENCE BUT THAT DONT AMOUNT TO SHIT TO WOMEN, UNLESS UR GOING AFTER A UGLY ASS BITCH
wow most the advice in here is awful.. some of you have to be making shit up or just now getting laid in college.
If all you want to do is fuck sluts then go ahead an follow their advice. But once you get at least a few nuts in that shit gets boring. Real fun is having sex with someone you are genuinely connected to but is still attractive.
Its just hard to come across because 95% of women in the english speaking world are fucking nigger sluts who whore out on twitter. If you really just muster up some confidence you can fuck any of these dumb hoes. If they curve you.. move on the next.
>>706774863
Yeah perhaps, OP. Thinking about it is completely pointless though, it's in the past now.
Also, I think this suits quite well to the saying "The Grass Isn’t Greener On the Other Side"
unnnggg
>>706775971
>literally "nice guys finish last"
>>706782010
If OP was talking about amusing pussy then his usage was fine
>>706781994
U KNO WAT MAINE U JUST CHANGED MY LIFE
SIR YES SIR
>>706782167
this is 4chan where all advice is terrible and everything is made up
>>706774863
I still remember one of my grade 9 teachers telling me I was gonna be handsome when I got a bit older. She was a young attractive fresh out of college teacher.
I just smiled and walked away.
But, in all seriousness, OP, you described me perfectly. For some reason I just didn't give a fuck till after high-school about getting the vagoo.
>>706782234
NOW THAT IS WHAT I LIKE TO SEE!
GODSPEED YOU MAGNIFICENT BASTARD.
>>706774863
Slayed pussy, wtf, it's not all that fucking amazing. Enjoying time with your friends its far better!
Looking back at the amount of times girls were flirting with me but teenage me was too fucking retarded to pick up on any of it.
>>706774863
Yeah, I fucked up bad and realized that few years ago and went through a lot of feels thinking about it. I spent most of my autist years programming and photoshoping. I became hell bent in getting a good income. After failing a put 587 times I finally had 2 low maintenance websites that earn me decent money (av. $3,200 p/month in 2016).
I also have a 80% day job. So anyway, I moved to Romania and fuck a lot of hot girls, mostly escorts. Still, it hasn't filled the void from my teen years.
>>706782384
whatever man. just means you were't a cheap fuck. good on you.
>>706782167
Literally non of my platonic female friends have ever been a nigger slut, or dated a black dude.
>>706780889
R u me
>you ALMOST had sex with a girl
>many, many times
>never got past 1/16th of an inch
>that was 10 years ago
so, like, what does that make me. virtually virign?
>>706782167
faggot
>>706776423
Man... Are you me in the future?
me, 17 socially awkward gay boy dropped out of school at 13 because of anxiety.
Pic related
>>706782466
Its an exaggeration. I hung around popular girls and popular teen culture is rooted around contemporary rap and fashion culture. Which is piloted by niggers. I know not all girls are like that. But a lot of the good looking ones tend to be.
Shit my brain is even tainted with nigger rap culture.
>>706782613
Underage b&
>>706782613
You are not 17
You can't be
I'm 18 and i look a lot younger than you TT_TT
>>706782672 >>706782674
I mean i can post a time stamp i dont really give a fok
>>706782543
Enjoy your shitty ass sex. Im a step ahead of you.
>In class
>Hot skinny blonde chick sits near me
>Watching a movie one day
>Shes sitting ahead of me and to the right a bit
>Watch her slowly turn around just to look at me
>We make eye contact for a couple seconds then look away
She does this all the time in class... What do?
>>706782661
I doubt that... Girls are pressured to live a pretty plain linear life. Grow up pretty and attract the most successful male for that age gap, demographic, etc they are most associated with.
Why do you think 90% of females all want a fucking wedding? Because it's rammed into their heads through their whole lives that marriage is the 'end game' goal. Then they get fat and demand children.
>>706782764
Fuck her right in the pussy
>>706782764
what the fuck do you think you have to do?
Staring at her won't change anything. You have to just pretend to be confident and walk up to her and talk. I mean, you KNOW she's at least sort-of into you. So if you combine that with some fake confidence, I don't see what could go wrong.
>>706780098
You just described my life and I still feeling like shit
>>706782764
Get her number somehow.
Texting is literally an awkward persons best friend when it comes to social interaction.
Only girls I ever fucked were while I was medicated with klonopin. Maybe I should get medicated for anxiety again: I do have mind crushing anxiety. Klonopin made that shit melt away so beautifully. I was able to walk and breathe like nothing matters.
All the time. I was so sexy when i was young when you see my old passport you cant even recognise me
>>706782764
TALK TO HER, SOLDIER.
IF YOU ARE ABLE-BODIED THEN YOU CAN TALK, AND IF YOU CAN TALK YOU CAN COPULATE, MAGGOT.
>>706782869
Well. You must be old or something. I entered high school when the 2010s were coming around. I interacted (mostly forced myself to) with popular girls and boys from high schools all around me. Im awkward so i noticed these things plus ive been on this twitter shit for years. Literally the most popular subculture with teenagers these days is rap culture. Even nerdy white kids listen to dumb nigs like lil yachty.
>>706774863
Nope! I played a crap ton of video games, but I'm an ugly chink so I didn't miss out on anything.
>>706782979
Adding to this post: no one ever tells me I'm ugly and the only ones who say anything are girls/women way older or younger than me. Wtf? I can't trust the words of a little girl or an old woman, but the people my age are probably afraid to tell me I'm handsome if I really am. See the problem here??
It's gotta be always up to me to be "confidant" and believe I'm great. That's the issue: I believe I'm nobody.
Why is it my responsibility to be confidant/deluded? Fuck you, I didn't ask for this.
>>706782764
Smile, man.
>>706781875
Kind of similar boat, except I am 6'. I always got told by older women and abroad that I was really handsome (personally, I think I'm an 8/10). Return to the UK after a decade, and I see all the women go for the scrawny beta faggots with puffy hair and jeans that fit more like leggings.
The West has been truly cucked. This is why we need WWIII now. You know, Darwinism and all. I just want the Russians and Chinese to take over already.
>>706783209
Rap culture is no where near what it used to be in the mid 90s to mid 2000s.
I think it's just the area you live in to be honest.
>>706780315
I think that's ironic, either way it's funny
>>706783326
>I believe I'm nobody.
Good job diagnosing the root cause of your troubles.
Are you also going to fix it, though?
Probably not :^)
>>706783371
OR you had an accent in America where chick's go crazy for that shit, and returned back home where you were just another chump with a bus pass.
>>706782449
r u a l337 romanian h4x0r?
>>706774863
That's me. I wish I knew now what I knew then. If I hadn't been such a shut in I might be somewhere completely different and actually enjoy life. I'm trying to turn it around, its hard when you don't have any real friends though. I'd always thought that magically I'd be in a group and we'd be friends forever. Instead my old pals are hundreds of miles away and haven't spoken to me in years. Oh well
I believe in myself. Quit drinking beer every night and playing vidja, instead I'm working out and playing guitar. Gonna go to the bars by myself this weekend and see how that goes, though it will probably suck. Sorry but I had to get that off my chest. .
>>706774863
Grew up attractive, slayed pussy all through hs and college. Started gaming and browsing 4chan after I graduated.
>>706774863
That's what I'm doing right now. I'm not hot but I'm certainly decent and if I just tried I'd be able to get girls. Instead I sit at home, play vidya and browse 4chan
>>706781633
Fucking lucky. I got the worst of each race in terms of looks. Also half jap but nobody is interested in the kid who looks like the midget version of filthy frank if his face got rearranged by a blender.
>>706783464
No I never lived in the U.S., actually my accent can't be pinpointed because I'm one of those faggots whose parents moved around most of their life. Maybe they see that and realize I'm not a local/normie/whatever.
>>706783326
Also, I can remember +4 honest to jebus times I could have gotten my cock wet before 21 (when I lost my virginity). Each time I was uninterested for 1 reason: they're not as pretty as my younger sister. There. I said it. Fuck you guys if don't understand.
>>706783490
Dude, almost same exact situation happened to me, only I moved away from one friend, and moved back with a couple others and formed a band and working full time at pizza
>>706783374
I would disagree. I think rap culture is more popular than it ever has been.. its not even exclusive to black people anymore since its extended or better yet invaded itself into fashion culture and young artists. I couldnt get girls in high school if i never forced myself to get into the latest rap music and smoke weed with them. One month a new rapper will be "in" and the next month another its crazy.
If its really just my area then im living in some kind of matrix illusion.
>>706774863
Yep, but semi weird and awkward. I don't really regret it, pussy is overrated
>>706774863
could have.
but I wouldn't be the guy looking after my family.
I would have to take care of a bitch and a son that I don't want.
I'm kinda happy with how things went.
Had 2 serious relationships.
Fucked some teens.
fucked some older girls.
Life was good.
Now I can fuck bitches without them getting bones in her fat belly.
>>706781823
>>706781442
I mean optimism is great and all but you have to be realistic. I had a really awesome friend in high school who lucked out with the genes. Tall, blond, blue eyes, the guy looks like Hitler's wet dream. He was always trying to build me up and convince me to ask out girls I totally didn't have a chance with. It ended with me being humiliated and turned my senior year into hell. My point is, attractive people always seem to believe that you can get any girl with some confidence and that's not true if you're ugly.
>>706783712
We're all in the matrix.
This realization made my life so much better. Life is a game, and I intend to get the highest score.
>>706783570
hahaha im so sorry. I guess i am lucky..it almost seems like hafus end up looking either great or filthy frank esque, no offense intended. Whats your tainted side of ethnicity and im genuinely interested in that the fuck you did to fuck up your face with a blender.
pic related. Perfect hafu.
>>706774863
I regret nothing
Some people have told me I'm good looking, but the results I've gotten beg to differ. So I guess not.
I think I could have been slaying pussy in my teens if I had the confidence, understanding of basic social etiquette and style I have now back then.
Lost my v at 19 with a ham beast.
Slew two hot bitches at 20 (one of which was 19 year old and into being tied up and gagged/restrained in a fucking sex swing.)
And I literally turned 21 two weeks ago and am writing this having just busted a nut deep in my sister's hot best friend's 17 year old ass.
>>706783482
Yes
Yeah. Lost most of my hair starting in my early 20s. Gained some weight. Hated myself the entire time, hair or no hair. Though no hair made it worse. Having no hair in a room full of people with hair kills confidence, I don't care how superficial you think that is.
Also I'm wearing my teeth away out of anxiety, grinding them all the time until they're becoming sharp and transparent, even with a bite guard.
Also have fordyce's spots all over my dick that I worry will be disruptive or disgusting during sex. I know people say it's no big deal but there are A LOT of them. Also have this brown spot on my dick from too much rubbing due to masturbation.
I looked alright in high school and early 20s. Now I'm an anxious mess. I look at myself in the mirror each morning and think "holy shit what the fuck happened?!"
Anyway that's enough self-pity for tonight.
>>706783482
Nah, I work freelance and just wanted away from my old life.
>>706783904
All confidence is acquired and developed.
Just because a friend pumped you up for 30 mins to go talk to that girl, doesn't mean you have the actual confidence to do it. You have to take it slow, and just build that confidence up over a couple of weeks/years.
You first have to set the intention, and really believe you can do it. But of course, different things work for different people.
I go to the bar in town and I swear is always a different chick saying they felt something for me in high school. 03-07. I never had money so I never pursued any chicks. At least now I have a car and some cash so I just prey on them. Still broke lol.
Story of my life.
Holy shit OP what the fuck I was just thinking about this phenomenon
How did you hack my brain? I am that person. I am almost the "odd one out," so to speak, of my friends and acquaintances group, because I'm good-looking. New people I meet who I play MtG and shit with always treat me a little coldly for this reason, like I don't exactly fit in and I'm some kind of dilettante for liking what they like. It's such a strange feeling. But the upside is... when I meet a girl who's really bae for ME, I'll probably nail it. Or at least, I'll meet another one who couldn't stand my standoffish awkward shyness and asks me out, like all my girlfriends in life so far. It's a weird feel.
Yea
>>706774863
its only pussy, its not that great.
>>706783689
That's really cool. I wish I had friends or something i could go back to anywhere. I've got nothing now and I'm having an existential crisis about my inadequacy to others. Everything I look at reminds me of how retarded I am. If it's some song or stupid YouTube video or anything, I'm like "why can't I have a talent or career or at least be as social as that?" Ive done nothing for the past 2 years but drink and play smash bros, but two months ago I met a younger girl and started dating. We broke up practically overnight. I didn't play it cool at all. Now I'm realizing how behind I am socially and that I'm never getting those years back. She's 18 and is already more world wise than I'll ever be. I'm hell bent on becoming amazing though. I believe in myself this time
>>706784074
I wish there were easy answers for these problems, but there probably aren't. I won't patronize you by saying you should just suck it up and be confident. I understand where you're coming from. Buuuuuut... >anxiety
Yeah, there's something for that. Lexapro has seriously changed my life, in tandem with a lot of mental hoops I put myself through when shit starts going downhill.
>>706783943
I'm full übermensch, half Japanese and half Aryan (German/Dutch). I didn't literally do that. I had terrible acne, a unibrow that grew back faster than the hair on my head, really squinty eyes for a hafu, a weird nose, and bad eczema. Only redeeming feature was my hair, which is half decent (looks kinda like Elliot Rodger on a good day) but unfortunately with my fucking skin condition I got sores and shit all over my scalp. It didn't help that I just gave up on my appearance halfway through junior year when I realized that it didn't matter anyway.
>>706784313
I second that. Pussy is whatever just another way to nut.
Getting your dick sucked on the other hand is wayyy better than anything else. A wonderful thing women do for us. I would literally take head over pussy any day.
>>706774863
damn DAMN DAMN DAMN FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK i almost got through this day without considering suicide and you had to go fuck it up OP
Damn this is real i wouldn't have slayed but i definitely had opportunities that i missed for such a dumb reason
How do you guys rate yourselves on a scale of 1 to 10
>>706784379
I feel you. I got Elliot Rodger hair as well. Move to Japan, girls lovveee hafus there lots of virgins and want to make hafu babies. Totally serious.
>>706784313
>>706784416
>>706784512
>suicide
Come on, now. This thread is reminding you of advantages you're starting out with. Don't squander them. Turn yo shit around.
>>706784139
I mean I believe that I had true confidence. All the friend did was convince to do some dumb shit. I had the confidence, I just truly don't think most girls saw anything in me (and they still don't haha).
>>706784553
9/10 I'm handsome, well built, and have a big dick. Nothing going on in my life otherwise
>>706784636
This is gonna sound cliche as fuck, but honestly they don't see anything in you because you rate yourself this way. If you can't even be content to be nothing, you'll make people naturally uncomfortable. Insecurity is... a mess for anyone involved.
>>706784586
Shut up fag. A girl slobbering on your cock for your enjoyment is ultimate devotion. Any girl can get her pussy fucked but not every girl can suck dick.
>>706784585
Maybe not a bad idea. I kinda want to stay in California after I graduate though. Can I just go for the summer, snatch a jap and take her home?
>>706784553
Between ages 1 to 19 i considered myself a 5/10.
+ I was born without my right hand, so maybe make that 4/10.
But at 20 I started growing a decent beard + my jawline was coming out pretty nicely. acne started going away. 6/10 at that point.
Now I'm 24, I've got a nice haircut + my facial features really started lining up.
I think i'm at least a 8/10 now.
And I expect to be a solid 10/10 when I'm 30.
>>706784729
I'm confident in the stuff that I'm good at. Unfortunately those things aren't the things most of the girls I went after were attracted to. I'm not gonna be confident that I'm tall if I'm not tall, right? I gotta be realistic.
>>706784753
Thats exactly what i plan on doing.
>>706784345
good for you, now go read some books faggot
and get a hobby or two which will eventually make you money
>programming
>website development
>smithing
>woodworking
you don't need talent for these, only experience
>>706784074
ever heard of cognitive behavioral therapy? do that, you uneducated faggot
>>706784846
Why be realistic if you can be positive?
Being a realist only adds unnecessary stress.
I used to be scared of girls saying no. I had all of these BS fears I was making up.
When I managed to stop doing that, I stopped caring about the aftermath of rejection.
On a side note, maybe you guys can make some use of this video. I sure did.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1RrZaqWkwNI
Anyone else feel like ambition is a crock if you don't know what lights a fire inside you, and is content to simply make money and fund the nerd life?
>>706784553
8/10 real talk.
-1 because im awkward and can only talk to girls if i get acquainted through texting. I was somewhat popular in high school i think cause i looked good and people liked my awkwardness. But id still walk alone.
I hated it at the time.
>>706784805
One hand... 5/10... Fingers.
Sorry man I couldn't help but laugh.
>>706785110
Good, because that is what I use my hand for nowadays. I used to be ashamed of it. Now I see it as my greatest blessing. Girls love it when I make dumb jokes about my hand (I think)
People love it when I draw faces on it
>>706784933
What kind of books should I read to impress the hot nerdy ladies?
>>706785038
Being a realist saves you time on trying things that won't work. Optimistically I could be a NBA player. Realistically I should work hard in school because I'm 5' 4" and I won't be in the NBA.
>>706785384
But escapism saves us much pain. You must be a nerd, you MUST know this in your heart of hearts.
>>706785384
And because you are a realist, you basically condemn yourself to a life of mediocrity, never taking a chance, never learning from the failures. Have fun being at the same place in your life for the rest of your life.
>>706784347
Thanks. I have found that SSRIs don't really work for me. I have been depressed for 10 years, since I was 17. I even tried trans-cranial magnetic stimulation, which only worked for a bit.
But I always fall back into this goddamn pit of despair that has seriously degraded the quality of my life since 2006. I feel like it's who I am at this point. Like I've spent so much of my late teens and early adulthood in this state that it has come to define every aspect of my life. It frames how I approach everything now. I have not experienced any kind of joy or genuine enthusiasm for anything in years.
>>706785349
Mangos
Nah but books are not gonna get you laid... if anything just lie and say youve read this this and this before if youre just trying to seem smart.
>>706785478
Spotted the idealistic 16 year old whose parents told him 'you're special' and 'you can be anything you want'. GG phaggot, reality will hit you harder than the rest of us.
And no, it doesn't mean we won't take risks. Moron. It just means we have to crawl our way to the top; it's not handed to us.
HAHAHAHA U DUM MUTHAFUCKER CAUSE YOU A FUCKIN NERD HAHAH SUCK FAGGET< WHILE YOU WERE MISSING OUT I WAS FUCKING ALL THE BITCHES HAHA. PROBS YOU COUSIN AND THAT 4 EYED WIFE YOU MAY GET POSSIBLY WOULD OF BEEN PASSED ROUND HAHAH PROBS WELL BEIN RICH AND NO PUSSY HAHAH FUCKIN QUEER
>>706785497
Want not what you cannot have...or what you feel like you SHOULD want. Learn to set your will and desire for those things which have always attracted you and found their ways into your life, time and time again. Pursue a hobby headlong. Go to school. Go sit on your roof and smoke cigarettes and drink wine. Immerse yourself in the things that distract you, and tell yourself they're no longer distractions, but pure joys. I dunno, man. Just love life, whatever you have in it.
>>706774863
I grew up pretty average looking, with a lot of work and luck, some nights I managed to look pretty damn good. I spent the majority of my high school years fucking every girl I could convince to hop in the sack with me. I fucked girls at school, in church, at a park, in a secluded area at the zoo.......... I have been married for almost 30 years now and although I sometimes miss the variety, I know my wife is the best fuck I have ever had. so its actually pretty good.
>>706784983
Yes I have done CBT. It proved unsuccessful. To the point that the therapist seemed frustrated with me because she wasn't seeing results.
>>706785636
Your projections are very far off, friend.
You know nothing about me, and I know nothing about you.
> It just means we have to crawl our way to the top; it's not handed to us.
Are you this mentally challenged? Really? You think this has something to do with your little label?
Everyone has to crawl their way to the top, nothing is handed to anyone. Unless you're born in a rich family. But I'd say 90% of the people on this earth probably aren't.
Also, nice .gif. It really shows how superior you are.
>>706774863
I sit and imagine all the pussy I would've slayed in highschool had I not been a bit more socially/self aware, but I think I managed to make up for it.
>>706785478
Starting to get annoying now. Realism involves taking chances, but also learning from them. I have learned that I'm good at some things and bad at others. I stopped trying to pursue sports at a competitive level, because realistically, I am way better academically. Now I'm at a good university. Seems like I learned from my failures. The same reason that after getting rejected over and over by girls I was confident I could get (after being built up over months by my friend) I realized that I wasn't looking at myself objectively. I realized that I'm not good at everything, so I focused on my strengths.
>>706785926
You basically just admitted to being more positive than realist. Must be hard, living inside of your skull.
>>706785451
Escapism only saves pain short term. Too much and you fuck up your life.
>>706785804
Thanks, I'm really proud of my gif collection.
>>706785499
shut up you faggot, all you see is pussy, you literal retard.
>>706785349
it's not about impressing people you dumb fuck, books let you live through the eyes of others and they improve the quality of your life by giving you other perspectives. philosophy, "self-help" books and psychology. these subjects have helped me tremendously in gaining confidence steadily and sharpening my vision of what I want to achieve, of what I want to become. it's all about self-improvement. it takes a while, but when you're done, or have gotten well into it, you will be miles ahead of everyone in terms of career, happiness, and slaying pussy. i don't slay pussy, because i rather learn and make sure i'll have a good life which i won't regret. everyone is slaying pussy and most of them stay at that and with time, they regret their life. they regret they didn't do the things that actually matter, and only you can decide that for yourself. you will attract the bitch of your wet dreams by becoming the person you imagine she would be attracted to. having the personality of a wet towel or a chad will not help you. unless you're satisfied with hot bitches with non-existent personalities.
>>706786013
No I didn't faggot. How is being aware of yourself and what you're capable of not fucking realism? Setting realistic goals, whether it's for girls, or careers or whatever is kind of a realist thing to do.
>>706786016
>fuck up your life
You are the only judge of its quality. There are NEETs who die happier than the richest CEOs. Do what you love. For people who escape, or who dream big, those things are always cheap and always accessible.
It costs me nothing to write fiction. It costs me nothing to read it. It costs me fucking minimal wages to play card games. I'm educated. I make decent money. I can live off it. And I will. It's when I decide to be unhappy with what I have, that I suffer, and only then. You can achieve things in life without even worrying about them. There's no point doing so. There's always a new day full of new opportunities.
>>706786128
*tipping intensifies*
>>706786164
keep cryin bitch nigga
and keep livin the positive way, you doin good
>>706785736
>>706785736
Thank you. I can't smoke cigarettes due to asthma. I can't drink wine due to crazy acid reflux that is also contributing to the destruction of my teeth, haha. But I get what you are saying. I just feel overwhelming shame everywhere I go, and in everything I do.
And even if what you're saying is coming from a place that is genuine, it rings false in my mind because my perception of things is skewed and irrational. I get it. I just can't seem to get out of it.
>>706786128
I'm right behind you brother. I spend the majority of my time on the internet reading self help or philosophy. I wanted to know which books should I start with
>>706786282
not the one you were conversing with, but you're a retard. the other person is right. optimism is for little bitches that can't handle reality.
>>706774863
>>706774863
>>706774863
>>706774863
>Not getting married to a weirdo wife and having weirdo sex with her on the reg.
Being a weirdo is massively better than being a fucking normie having boring sex with whores.
>>706784933
Yeap, no talent needed for those, suuure
>>706786225
That's why I said too much bro. Reading a book won't kill you. Escapism us fine, it's just not a long term solution to a problem.
>>706786386
I'm a little bitch and i'm handling reality just fine, but thanks for your input.
>>706786393
DELETE THIS!!!!!!!!!
>>706786290
You feel ashamed because you envy what other people have, even though those people either have one of two things: 1) Their lot in life, which will never be yours, or 2) A false persona, which I can guarantee you they suffer for. Normalcy is overrated. To me... being normal is just possessing your own things, your own beliefs, your own goals, and your own dreams. When you look at other people for guidance with those things, you stumble. Don't feel ashamed or embarrassed, feel proud to be yourself. Sorry to sound so cliche, it's just... this shit is all true.
I didn't think I could get out of it either... until one day, I decided not to think anymore.
>>706786376
Same here.
I can't believe I actually listened to this entire video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vne9-0Ew2gs
But I'm glad I did.
>>706786393
Fucking THIS. Except I'm not married to her... yet. Gotta love crazy chicks. I know that there is a 60% chance that one day she will stab me, but dat pussy worth it.
>>706786282
Looking for the positives in life is fine, but they have to be grounded in reality. If that's what you consider to be optimism, then sure I'm an optimist. However, my opinion is that as long as your outlook is based on reality, you're being realistic.
>>706776423
this.
i had cute girls on parties tap me on my shoulder and ask me straight to my face "wanna make out" and i just answered "no thanks".
happened like 3 or 4 times.
once a girl was so desperately in love with me that she broke down crying and i was just standing there feeling awkward.
and when i finally started making out with girls (when i was ~16), i never even thought about stepping my game up and fucking them. even though they 100% wanted it.
didn't lose my virginity until i was 18 and i've only had sex with 8 girls now. i'm 27.
so much wasted pussy.
>>706786572
I have always been a firm proponent that at the very least, you SHOULD stick your dick in crazy... because who else have you been fucking this year? From there, you can gauge whether the insanity is unlivable.
>>706786612
Brother how could you waste dat pussy? Make the sacrifice for the ugly brothers.
>>706786636
I concur. I mean I never thought of it that way, but now you've given me a whole new life perspective. Thanks anon.
Yep.
I've always been decent looking. Always been told so, too.
Just had no game and was always too picky with women. Even found one night stands a waste of time and stopped trying to get laid. I've only had around 3 or 4 and I'm now 27.
I've just always had this mindset where if I'm not dating a girl and looking for the keeper, then I don't want to bother even speaking to her because it's a waste of energy.
Now I'm living with my parents. I'm jobless. I have no car. The last girl I tried to get with was out of desperation and because I was lonely. It was long distance and I only fucked her a few times. She ended up cucking me in the end and I was fine with it because I didn't even like her.
I now wish I could just get laid, but I've still no game, and no money to even make it happen.
Whatever, though. I still have my 1000 dollar PC I built before I had to quit my one and only job of 6 years and all the pirated games I can play.
>>706774863
Yes
BUT
I got weird girl pussy. just as good and frankly preferable. also, you'll be surprised at the amount of nerdy skanks there are at cons who wanna have fun and are dtf
>>706786376
start browsing /lit/, after a while you'll find that which you need.
you'll need to decide what to start with yourself, I don't know your outlook on life, what you're reason for existing is.
find something tangible to pursue, a uni degree, or some hobbies, find that which interests and inspires you.
i've personally enjoyed Nietzsche, Camus and Aristotle. there are plenty of others, but you'll need to discover them by yourself, depending on what kind of ideology suits you.
read books on improving social skills, if that is what you want; books on improving your memory for example. For myself it really helps me cope with this shit world and people if i understand the underlying mechanics of the human body and the subconscious (read "thinking, fast and slow"). body language knowledge helps, also psychology, you can start with Freud and Jung and then proceed to specifics.
other than that i can recommend modern japanese lit(1900s'), and the classics of 20th century; they capture the worlds mindset quite well.
>>706786739
Not a problem, /b/rotherino of mine
>>706786412
if you want to be the very best at them, you need talent. to be average and with time above that, you need experience.
>>706786752
LEARN PYTHON, BROTHER
>>706786773
Which modern Jap lit texts do you recommend? I'm currently reading up on the history of the far east, would be appreciated
>>706774863
Still at university, I definitely could hook up with more girls if I wanted to, but honestly I can't be arsed to deal with entitled bitches who want a boyfriend. I'm not interested in dealing with their crap, I want to have sex with them once then never speak to them again.
>>706786680
i DID. i've had girls come up to me in the club and tell me "you look so good, i just want to take you home to stare at you".
my female friends constantly comment on how handsome i look.
and i'm charismatic too, and charming and funny.
so why does it feel so empty every time i imagine myself just fucking a random girl, regardless of how beautiful she might be?
i just want to connect with someone. is that so much to ask?
>>706786482
Thanks. I appreciate the effort on your part. I certainly try to shut off my brain but I simply cannot and have never been able to. I can't do the "not thinking" thing. I have resolved to commit to it in the last, but deep self-loathing always comes roaring back to fucking bash my brain into submission. These thoughts are strong and have had plenty of time and many opportunities to make themselves at home in the space between my ears. With each passing day I become more certain that they'll always be there. It seems to run in my family.
I'm gonna go to sleep now. It's 4am here. Goodnight anon and thanks for your help.
>>706787280
Thanks anon. I appreciate it.
>>706786916
have 2 essays and a pirate site with most books.
http://www.emersoncentral.com/selfreliance.htm
http://xroads.virginia.edu/~hyper/walden/Essays/civil.html
http://gen.lib.rus.ec/
>>706787186
Just think. "I'm doing this for those less fortunate in life." It would be a shame not to use your gift.
>>706787186
Maybe get in a relationship instead of just fucking???
>>706787459
They won't be unless you allow them to control you. You need to find ways to fill those ears with music. BEST OF LUCK MAN, I LOVE YOU AND PRAY FOR YOU
>>706787264
always different. mostly at parties of my friends.
some of the girls i've known but never talked to.
most just catch my eye and then at some point they come over and talk to me. if they're not completely dull, i'll let it continue.
it's just always such a bad timing. i'm always in some kind of relationship with a girl i'm trying to connect with, so when girls hit on me, i just store them in my "maybe later" category.
and that "later" seldom comes.
>>706787536
i'll actually consider this point of view. it might be a bit self-deceiving and arrogant, but at least it makes me feel good.
>>706787623
yea, i've had 4 long term relationships. the longest lasted 5 years.
not gonna lie, i don't regret a single one, but in the end it came down to me feeling unhappy because girls have never challenged me. or they once did and then stopped.
come to think of it, i'm probably looking for the holy grail - a girl that looks good and is smart, funny and emotionally stable.
I didnt fuck until after high school. But since age 20 until now age 25 i have fucked about 25 girls and eaten countless others. i dont have any regrets about it. Sex is secondary to me man, i just want to experience life and work a nice job. I dont put so much emphasis on getting laid, and i cant really relate to people who do. I hate going out with guys cause thats all they talk about. They open their sex hungry eyes and gawk and make sexual comments about the women around. They just get drunk and never make a move and they go home at the end of the night stumbling home alone. That shit doesnt interest me. Even drunk sex with a stranger doesnt interest me. Id like to know the girl for a while. For some reason i cant get a boner unless i have a loving bond with the chick, or the potential for one. Am i fucked up? I dont feel fucked up....just like i cant relate to my peers.
>>706788165
> For some reason i cant get a boner unless i have a loving bond with the chick
you're not alone friend.
love boner only here.
>>706774863
This guy ain't no kike but why helooks like a fucking kike?
>>706788165
If you had serious difficulties getting laid your entire life you'd be thinking differently. I went four and a half years without having sex. That'll drive anybody insane.
But you're not fucked up. You're just sated and you know what you want. Sounds nice.
>>706782945
Not for me, man. I think I do a lot better in person.
I can almost feel the other person losing interest as we continue to text. I am working on my text game, but I got a long way to go.
fuck off dont make me remember, decisions mark our routes
>>706781384
preach brother
>>706781442
Go say that in an art class and panties will fucking drop fam.
I'm a virgin though so take the accuracy of that statement as you will.
Think I was a 7.5/10 but could turn on the charm when motivated. I was pretty awkward though mostly it was all in my head and had a lot of bullshit going on around me. Wish I could go back knowing what I know now..