Hey, /b/. How do you cope with the bad shit life is throwing at you?
Will share a story if anyone is interested.
>>704837859
Lots of weed, I've become absolutely desensitized to everything
>>704838007
I used to do that, tried all kinds of drugs, but they were always too expensive so nowadays I'm just drinking a lot of alcohol.
>>704838589
Nah man, you build a tolerance, what's your story?
>>704837859
Bumping for story
>>704837859
>How do you cope with the bad shit life is throwing at you?
Cannabis is helpful. So is alcohol.
>>704837859
alcohol, xanax, weed, memes
I'm only 19 so alcohol is hard to come by but when I do, I make sure I get drunk so that I can forget I have depression for at least a minute.
bump
>>704839344
drinking alone will only temporarily make you happy, until you slip into alcoholism, so what im saying its a slippery slope, either drink moderately or drink with friends.
>>704837859
>Weed
>Liquor
>Dog
>Games
>Work
>Occasional 'happy' ending at a massage parlor
>>704839575
Nah I'm just going to let it take me. I don't have a reason not to. When I can legally buy booze, it's game over within a few years' time
>>704837859
I bury it inside and don't let others see that it's affecting me. A smile can hide a million things
>>704839344
Careful with alcohol though anon. As soon as I turned 21 I spent at least 4 nights a week in the bar room to avoid going home. I was rarely sober and damn near drank away my bank account every week.
>>704839767
Same anon
It helped. dulled out the pain of every thing I had going on with my older brother dying and finally being out on my own with all the new stress of that but I came close to losing myself in a bottle of jaeger every night
>>704839690
you were warned, alcoholics life is pretty rough, drinking stops being fun when its an addiction, and only makes your depression worse.. alcoholics live the longest, its not over in a few years (i guess god doesnt want us), better do heroin, you will hit rock bottom with it much faster
>>704839738
Pretty much this. I browse memes when I have the energy or desire and spend the rest of my time drinking or thinking about where I went wrong or what might have happened/what will happen.
It's terrible, I know, but I can't shake it
>>704840155
I won't last long when I combine it with sleeping pills and such. I don't doubt you, though. I am just looking for a more subtle way of offing myself
>>704840064
Something shitty happened to me back in 2015 around this time. Been drinking ever since.
Slowly its taking a toll..
>>704837859
I drink way too much. Been doing drugs way too much lately which seriously is fucking with my anxiety and I do my best to get out and socialize. I wont go into family details cause that shits a mess but yeah. Something like that.
>>704840169
I just force myself to have a smile and go out. I try not to think about things and I vowed never to drink heavily or let myself get addicted to it.
>>704840311
That's just it though. It doesn't matter how close you come to death someone drowning their problems alcohol always makes it through. I was on my way from one bar to another one night and I came to a stop sign. I'm honestly 80-20% sure I stopped but when I pulled up my tiny s10 was t-boned by a full size Chevy 2500 doing 85 in a 40 with no lights on. Threw me clean across the road and blacked out on impact. Woke up with the cab almost completely crushed and upside down. There's been a few other times I came close to dying but it seems like we never make it
>>704840897
At this point I want to die but don't want for my family to have to have a closed casket funeral so I'm going to wait till I can poison myself
>>704841003
Fuck. Well, at that point I would have stabbed myself and bled to death. Hope I dont have to.
I'm going to start carrying a "do not resuscitate" card
>>704841134
if you want to die gather your balls and off yourself like a man with a gun, the alcohol will only make it worse for you and your family watching you slowly decay, i tried drinking myself to death several times with vodka and benzos, i just puked and passed out every time.
>>704841134
Tbh man I want it just all to end sometime but then I look at my family and I think the pain it would cause.
>>704841353
Sigh... I really wish I had a reason to live OTHER THAN me simply wanting to stay alive. Thats not reason enough anymoe
I'll do it eventually
>>704841609
If I could make it look like an accident, I'd do it
>>704837859
Lots of alcohol
>>704841625
same with me
every 3 minutes one person commit suicide
I guess I'll just be one of them
My biggest problem with all of it is figuring out what to do to pass the time. I can barely figure something out to do for an hour. And then I think about how people expect me to chug on for like 60 more years
>>704837859
I typically drink 3 good pulls of cheap vodka and 10 beers a night. I pretty much quit eating cause im fat and now i am a starving alchy with 0 hope and don't have balls enought to just end it. Best friend killed himself this year and another 2 almost died the next week.
>to deal
Aside from the booze wich is a problem in itself i try and help the rest of my friends not feel this way. Ive been more outgoing and study personal ity shit online so i can apeak to a wider range of people and fake like i'm okay. Looking back on it my bro was everyones best friend. He helped a lot of people through some shitty times an him clocking out sucked more dick than all u faggot trap lovers combined.
Try and study personal finance books and do as many side jobs as i can. I wake up about 2am every night now and dont even try to go back to sleep.
Tried seeing a shrink but he was a douche and a faggot and stingy with the meds. He did try to help tho so....
I dont know OP. Left foot right foot and just keep moving hoping it will work out our youll accidently step in front of a bus?
Bout the best advise i can give. Sry...
Join the military, helped me. Bonus, you might die.
>>704839575
As a raging drunk i can tell u this anon is right. Just as bad as drugs imo. I mean, its a little slower but i hate myself, cant stop, probably gonna die from it.
That is pretty much my deffinition for drugs so?
>>704840155
>Actually convincing me to do heroin.
Jesus /b really is the worst place on earth...
>>704842798
If you can pull off the social drug and alchy scene without falling into the addicion of either socialism and life seems pretty sweet. ive been a drunk much too long and I guess im a bit faded to give a true answer but it did work for me at one point.
>>704842798
The military is what served as a catalyst for my depression. I'm now saying it's the navy's fault but it definitely sped it up
>>704842959
Fuck needle drugs unless you ever really slipped that deep into depression that you need to "try" something so you don't end it. Just find a vice or hobby and work with it the best you can.
>>704843101
Now=not
For some reason my phone keeps doing this
>>704839105
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>>704841353
these are my post rate my personality xD
>>704842798
im borderline alcoholic, still on the edge, trying to drink only beer (like 4+ liters a day) so i dont slip.
>>704842959
you will hit rockbottom much faster, in like a year or two with heroin ( never tried but i guess) while you can spend 40 years being a heavy alcohol with good liver (just look at your local bums and town alcoholics)
>>704841134
Best friend shot himself in the chest. Honesly looked like he was faking asleep. If his mom wasn't right there id have shook that dude.
Soend every day praying it was an accident or he's actually in witness protection since he was creamated, and that i fall asleep and dont wake up.
To my knowledge it's a lost cause.
Someone I trust swore to fuck he hugged them and left on night. Gried mixed with drugs and hope can be a pwerful thing though. Not real sure i buy it but it does give me some hope tho. And helps me come to terms with things over a longer span. Been almost 6 months and still makes me physically sick to even think about that.
I mean, the mutherfucker left my house late enough we set meet out so he could teech me to grill in the morning. ...never made it home.
>>704843056
I try not drinking and just get bored and pissed off. I mean i quit for weeks at a time. Beat the cold sweats and shakes, stay not 1 drink sober for 2 or 3 weeks and just cave because i fucking hate myself and 1 hour of peace is seemingly better than hell. Maybe i just need to try harder or go 90 days and see how i feel. Legit working 3 jobs right now and 4 if you count making shit to sell in my downtime at work. Surprised i find time to drink at all anymore...
>>704843101
Lol, well thank u for your service. Im 30. Flat footed as fuck. Make 3 times what i could make starting there. And have a metal plate in my foot. Casual walking makes me hate life. I also want to punch people in the dick when they yell at me. I honeslty dont think id mind bombing isis and love r/c stuff, mechanical and electrical type engineering. Maybe i can work with or for the military and fly pretador or build suicide drones??? Can u get a waiver for basic training even?
>>704843476
The only people I have are my family. I never had friends, which is probably part of my problem, but it's too late for me to start. I can't stand people enough to try and befriend any of them. I tried with a girl once; got so far as a first date. After that, I dont know what's happened. Pretty much gave up.
My best friend is my younger brother. I know it would kill him if I ended it. If he offed himself after me, it would more than likely destroy my parents too. I know I will be dead and not able to care but the thought that if I say alive, someone's life might not be so terrible is what is holding me up right now.
Day by day, though, that wall weakens
>>704843972
Well with that comment I see 2 bad things. Working 3 jobs will make anyone miserable. Also hating yourself is the major thing. You gotta find something that makes you "semi" happy.Id love to say get a dog but that might work out bad.
Find a hobby man. I don't care if it's knitting or just fucking dirty bitches around town. Find something that you enjoy. IMO 3 jobs is the true problem though unless you need that to survive.
>>704844182
If you're 30, you are likely past the point where they'd waiver you. If you are exceptionally good at something they'll make room but might as well do it on your own time. Don't thank me, either. I only lasted 4 months.
>>704843146
Shrink said to get a hobby too. Got some buddies i recently reconected with. They starting a band. Got some cash saved up for a cheap bass guitar off craigslist. Probably gonna pick that up and if that doesnt work im gonna start selling dope or something. Fuckit. I dont wannt live as is. A drug habbit would ruin my life even more. If i get life in jail i have an excuse to end it. If not ill hide cash everwhere and slip friends and family anonymis notes to get them cash...
>>704843427
Yeah, i cant stand the drunk fucks and i am easily gonna be 1. Fortunatley heart disease runs extremely crazy in my family. Maybe ill stroke out and die soon.
>>704844257
This so much OP. I was working 7 days a week not to long ago and let me tell you that while it wasn't the main thing that made me miserable it certainly helped make it more. Also, as this anon stated, find a hobby or do something that you enjoy. I started lifting and exercising and boy did that help elevate me.
>>704844414
nah if you dealing don't be getting high on your own shit. unless you are willing to pay for it. If it comes to it though go for it cause I know some buddies who made great cash back in the day doing it. But then they went onto coke and either fucked themselves up or wound up in jail.
>>704844239
Same here. Friends are easy if u can find a club or group into something u are in.
>>704844257
Not that guy but whenever I do find something that I enjoy, I find I quickly lose interest. Most things last a few months. Videos games when I was young until I was like 16. Pretty much stopped since then. Shooting still is enjoyable but I dont feel like working enough to pay for ammo and maintenance. Reading sometimes works but I wouldn't say I enjoy it; I enjoy passing the time without having to do anything.
Idk. I might be ahedonistic. Probably not but something along those lines.
>>704844414
and yeah I gotta go. Got to sober up for 2 hours before work. woop woop. Goodluck OP. Find your hobby. and if possible drop a job. 3 is fucking way too much.
Good Luck sir.
>>704844716
I don't enjoy anything enough to seem out a club and the prospect of friendship doesn't boost my desire to go to clubs either.
Plus, I don't know how to find clubs and shit like people always talk about.
All these people telling others that drugs and alcohol are "helpful". Take it from some one who's been there and back. That shit won't help you, all it does is stop you having to come to terms with the shit. It keeps you feeling the same way forever and swallows up years of your life. Then you wake up and realize how much worse your life is with all the time you wasted building nothing worth while in your life.
>>704845075
>getting sober for work
Fuck that. Drink on the job. When they fire me, I'll kill myself. Make em feel bad
>>704839671
Those fucking Asians know how to use their mouths
>>704844257
Nah, it's sad. Kinda picked them up just so i dont set around miserable. Married so no strange even tho thats 50/50 over. Got 2 dogs i love. Guess i dont spend enough time with them. Working on getting caught up and getting them a pen for work. In a few months ill probably quit the other jobs and just work my part time and day job during work. Always fucking broke no matter wtf i do anyway. Working on it tho.
>>704845189
lol day 2 on the job. got bitched at yesterday for smelling like booze. Last job. hmm wonder why I got fired. Yeah I gotta hold atleast 1
Have some titties. im out.
>>704845140
>worse
>worth while
All these subjective and relative words. I bet you think things get "better" if you go to a shrink, gets medicated, and talk about your "feelings" . Sorry man. I don't agree. I haven't felt happiness since I was young. Im not sure I would know what it was if it ever came back.
If there is something that can dull the pain until I build the gut to pull the trigger I'm likely going to do it
Some people are too fucked in the head.
>>704845519
Good luck man
>>704844409
One of my best friends only lasted through 3. It can fuck you up. All the vets i know are broken. Good luck out there anon.
>>704845623
Thanks bud. I never should have did it. I don't know what made me do it. Well, myself obviously, but the reason I told myself I don't know.
Oh well, here I am
>>704845128
Lol, me either anon. Its what i always hear. Ive actually only made a handful of friends that werent from school. Small town. At one point i probably knew litterally everyon k-12. Reat are ex co workers.
>>704845544
Feelings are for idiots, shrinks don't work and drugs aren't bad.
happiness isn't something you just feel if you are lucky its some thing you take for yourself, its a choice
Self control is #1 in getting what you want out of life, even if that thing is killing yourself
>>704846362
Right in the feels. Fuck man. You may be onto something...
I just keep everything inside, one day im just going to break down.
>>704846362
I like this post
>>704837859
Drugs plus alcohol. If I didn't pop x last night, I probably would've listened to sad music and cried. Instead I played smash bros until my arms were sore and jerked off to family porn on mless.
>>704847301
Alcohol is a drug... that's like saying junk food and KFC
>>704847559
KFC isn't actually that bad, if you eat just the chicken. I'm now saying it's as good as cooking or frying your own chicken but a Big Mac is less healthy than a few chicken strips
>>704837859
Weightlifting bro
>>704848027
Reeeee