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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
It's time.
No need for any context. Just vent and let it all out.
>>704219716
FFFFFFFFFFAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
thats better
I am so unbelievably bad with dealing with women. Whenever I try to flirt with them, what I imagine in my mind and what I actually do are two totally different things.
I actually gave a bird whom I had hit it off with a written piece of paper with my number today. I did it so awkwardly that it probably ended up straight in the wastebasket.
And here I am holding my breath for call or text. Feels so fucking bad man.
bump
I dropped my motorcycle twice today hours after I bought it. I have never been more angry at myself in my life.
>>704220914
Ouch. Is this your first bike? Usually it's better to find a bucket before getting anything new.
>>704220453
i can relate
>>704220914
I'd be absolutely heated. What do you ride bro? Ive got an 05 ducati 749
I jerk off way to much to porn and some of the porn that I look at is horrible, but I can't seem to get away from it. Fucking hate myself sometimes and think about putting a bullet in my skull
4chan is|
4chan is disgusting
4chan is gay
4chan is kill
>>704222404
What kind, if you don't mind me asking
>>704219716
Im a nigger, i wish i wasnt.
>>704222634
Incest, beastiality, lolicon, shemales, and worse.
>>704222644
Checked. Share stories.
I hate it when these threads fizzle. Bump.
i need to ask her
>>704219716
I drank and smoked myself nearly to death in my 20's even though I didn't want too and was constantly struggling and trying to beat my addiction. After 4 years of sobriety I fucked up about a year and a half ago and have been suffering through it all over again.
I suffer immensely in the hours the alcohol wears off because of anxiety, neurological problems, seizures, etc. and have come close to killing myself (and dying naturally) several times.
shit. double shit.
>>704224600
I need heroin to function
Even after I was clean for a year I had no motivation to do anything
>>704219716
niggers
im 22. i have only two close friends. my family rejcted me because i dont follow their religion. ive never been on a date and am awkward with girls.
however, i went out by myself and had a great time. socializing is overrated.
Shit, she seems less happy in general but fuck why the fuck would she even act like she is single when around her friends. Fuck her is all I am thinking now. I hardly get close to people, did i fuck up with this one? Maybe oh well, ill drink more coke n rum tonight. I aint feeling like myself anyways fuck her
I don't know why but i sometimes enjoy being angry
i be arrested to terrorism prank in my school
I licked the toe marks of a friends flip flop
>>704219716
I HATE GHETTO PEOPLE
>>704224989
But herion isn't unhealthy. You can live well into old age doing herion everyday as long as you don't get an infection or blow your veins out, or OD mixing it with benzos.
>>704220453
just be nice to everyone around you and do good for others and eventually a nice older hispanic lady will hook you up with her hot, virginal daughter who will cook and clean and will give you beautiful children and you wont wonder what heaven is like because you will already be living there
I FUCKIN FEEL EMPTY...
NOTHING IS FUCKIN ENOUGH TO MAKE ME HAPPY.
I WENT ON 3 DIFFERENT PLACES AT HOLIDAYS AND SINCE THEN I HAVE BEEN SOCIALIZING AND MET MANY NEW PEOPLE.
STILL FEEL FUCKIN EMPTY.
BOUGHT A NEW MOTORCYCLE WHICH I WANTED SO MUCH AND STILL IT CANT FEEL THE FUCKIN VOID.
I AM NEITHER SAD NOR HAPPY.
I DO NOT FUCKIN FEEL ANYTHING
Im just a little weird idk if ive done too much acid or smoked too much weed or if ive always been this way but socializing is hard for me and lacking self discipline makes me unhappy with how i spend my down time. Im not really afraid for life ive always made it through fine and i think im a decent person, but its like everything i do in the day to day is tinted with a little bit of fear and it starts to build up on me and break me down. On a side note ive been on /b/ for about 8-9 years now lurking just about everyday for a good 5 of those years and this is only my 4th ever post. I love you guys though I hope you all get it out and move on to better days
trichotillomania is taking over and i feel lonlier than ever.
I do not enjoy anything in life anymore and im a failure. Existing is pointless, if it werent for my loved ones, id be gone.
1. I hate the Nutshack.
2. Eating a girl's ass is not gay or disgusting. Fuck you Max.
>>704224600
In same boat man. 29, 2 pints of cheap blended whiskey a day. every couple weeks I get so sick from the drinking that I cant stomach it, and get the DTs for a few days. Had the visual and auditory hallucinations, shakes, sweats, random muscle pain not including heart pain and difficulty breathing. Puking, shitting, nervous. Cant sleep but if you should start to fall asleep you jerk awake. The self hatred and disappointment in yourself. Shit I know down to the hour how long its gonna be after I puke to when I can hold down light beer on ice to when I can start sipping whiskey again. Not looking for sympathy, I'm an asshole and I know better. But I feel you man. We should both really fucking quit.
I get close to asking girls out but for some reason I can't tell if they like me even though I am pretty sure they do it's just that O wait for "it" like a sure fire sign but it's just weird I guess I'm oblivious
>>704225911
Me too anon, but it was my cousin
>>704226772
I have lost the will to live and the darkness is filling me to the point of agony
Thought I was ready for commitment, I'm not. My ex is living in my house with me and I'm having a horrible time trying to stay broken up. I have issues with letting people go but I know I need to because we just aren't compatible. This has been going on for years. I feel trapped, and I took up smoking cigarettes. I hate my job and I'm hardly eating. I can't move out yet so I'm trapped in this house with family that doesn't understand what's going on. I also don't have a licence. I often think about suicide. I've been sleeping around because I don't know what else to do to feel better and my life is just a downward spiral of horrible choices. Not only that but I can't afford college. All the odds are stacked against me.
I hate existence.
There is no joy in my life, for myself.
I have no reason for myself.
I am not here for myself.
I am alone, but here for others.
I feel this void in me, it's really heavy right now, it's a hole where I go,everything that goes in it become 3 times heavier, and I just become empty and the empty feels really heavy.
I need psychological help.
I need fixing.
I need help.
I. Need. A connection.
>>704219716
All my friends have fallen off the face of the earth except for one, and she pretty much has no time for me anymore. I'm so lonely now.
>>70422728i was being brutally friendzoned and she slept over, i let her take my bed and i slept on the floor.....when i rolled over, i saw her flip flops. I grabbed my phone and seen the toe marks and licked and sucked for a while....i couldnt jerk off but i will fkrever remember that moment
I constantly hang out with my best friend of 4+ years at school because she has no other friends in her classes. We also hang out outside of school all of the time, usually at her house playing vidya or watching netflix (just netflix, no sex). I have a massive crush on her but I'm only a 6/10 on a good day and shes an easy 9/10, and she has a habit of dating fuckboys who are attractive but shitty people and then complaining to me about how horrible they are. She has mentioned stuff like "I wish I could date someone like you" and sometimes we'll end up cuddling at her house but I'm too afraid to ask her out because I'm a little overweight and she highly values physical attractiveness in guys, plus it'll destroy our friendship. Idk what to do, I've been bottling it for like a year now
The start up I'm number 2 for is about to go big in a few months(Contracts have already been signed) and I don't thing I'm capable of managing a hundred employees. I'm scared I'll mess up and have them lose their jobs and their families livelihood.
I just want to get married and have kids like any normal family. But, men don't like girls who aren't "skinny" and I can't even lose weight or exercise due to my heart not functioning well. I could end up killing myself or passing out. I don't know if I even want to have kids. I think about killing myself every day, but I guess a part of me just wants to keep going and think maybe I can be some sexy fake ass looking chick or die trying.
>>704227783
Lyposucc
>>704226563
>On a side note ive been on /b/ for about 8-9 years now lurking just about everyday for a good 5 of those years and this is only my 4th ever post.
What's th point of coming here if you don't post?
>>704227783
Same anon...but my problem is my foot fetish, i havent been able to find a girl that is bothered by it. WHY HAVE I BEEN CURSED WITH THIS FUCKED UP FETISH?!?!? IM JUST GONNA END IT
>>704227941
That's such a pussy thing to do and I'd still get judged for it. Plus it's expensive as fuck and I'm already dedicating my debt for college. I have zero energy all the time and even walking to classes my heart jumps to 170 even after I had nuclear medicine. My thyroid fucked up my entire young adult life.
>>704228139
Not*
>>704227783
Honestly, I married a "skinny" girl. Then she got fat. And she's lazy. And whiney.
I'd take a chubby who actually puts effort into life any day.
I want to fuck my gf's mom
>>704228294
Lmao....that happens to the best of us anon
>>704228139
That's fucked up. Foot fetish has become more common in the recent years and it's just feet. You could be attracted to CP, I'd take foot fetish over some creepy ass fetish any day.
>>704227395
I'm in love with my best friend
>>704228411
Every girl gets sceeved out by it.
I want to fuck the shit out of my girl's sister. Pic is her.
I wanna die but I don't at the same time.
>>704228452
>>704228486
Would you like to tell us more?
>>704228240
It seems any good looking girl and knows it uses it to their advantage till their grave. It's really fucked up, but growing up not attached to any social groups through out school has really given me a perspective of how people are treated and treat others based on their looks. She probably figured she could just be a trophy wife now and let herself go taking you for granite.
I've cut myself off from this girl I had a crazy obsession for. I always wanted to spend every waking moment with her. It doesn't hurt too much anymore, but now I feel like it was better when I was obsessed with her. Because she made me happy when she gave me the littlest bit of attention, and nowadays i cant seem to find happiness in anything. I never had a chance with that girl, but at least she still made me happy at times.
Pic related, its the girl.
I just want to leave, that's it.
I want to leave, forget every negative encounter, break ties with the people who don't matter to me, and start something new.
Basically I'd like to restart with a new name, a new background, a new home, and just live happier forgetting the people who had brought me down over the years.
Sorry for the edgy shit, but it feels good to get it off my chest.
Thank you for reading.
>>704227750
>"I wish I could date someone like you"
Next time she says that, you say "why don't you?" How much easier can you get?
If she says yes, you win. If she says no, you laugh it off and continue on.
You have the perfect set up.
>>704228716
That's no girl... hate to be the one to tell you.
Dat manly jaw structure.
>>704228804
Also, this thread rocks. Thanks OP!
>>704227697
I also took my cousin's panties and sniffed for a while. It was one of the best sensations I ever had
>>704228898
Kek, nah thats a girl. Just a really ugly girl. You should see the bitch without makeup.
>>704228927
I used to jerk it with my cousins dirty socks. Was fucking heavenly
>>704227783
Heart condition or no, if you only eat 1200 calories a day you will lose weight. It may also help your heart, if you eat nutritious food and not garbage.
That said, there are lots of people who will want to date a nice plump girl over a skinny asshole girl.
I miss you Chris. Everyday with you gone is hell. I wish we could have had more time. The helmland province just isn't the same without you. I came back hoping that I missed the fighting but it's you I miss. Once I'm done here I'll move on to Kurdistan and lay a headstone for you since they didn't.
I miss you my devil dog.
Pfc Pendleton 91-10
>>704228892
this only happened one time, at my birthday party which was a couple months ago. Only like 4 of my friends had shown up yet because it was early in the party, and we were talking about relationships. Eventually she said something along the lines of "I want a guy who's this and that and the other thing..." (she was naming qualities) and then paused and said "like you." I kind of raised my eyebrows and she quickly changed the subject. That did kind of give me a strong vibe but now I don't really think she likes me like that. Regardless, I'll try this next time it happens. Thanks, man
>>704219716
Been waiting for a thread like this.
I routinely put my pet rabbit in a airtight storage bowl until it stops breathing
Then take it out and basically give it cor and being it back to life.
I pour milk in my bowl first then at the cereal, it's actually gotten me cussed out a few times.
>>704222634
no, what kind of bullet?
Jesus fucking Christ, you dickhead, can't you see I'm into you?
Fucking say something, I know you know how I feel.
i´m an average person whit an average intelligence and an average body and an average life in an average country.
I have cheated my gf a lot
>>704229315
Kill yourself sick fuck
>>704229644
Dubs noticed
>>704219716
Everytime i do show that im into you, you run and hide for reasons i dont understand.
>>704219716
It's been over a year since she broke up with me, and I'm still not over it.
Wanted to get another thing off my chest. I hate meeting new people, its so hard for me. I have such difficulty speaking to new people, I just wish friends never had to disappear, I wish they never outgrew me, I wish they would stay forever. With every friend I lose, the next one I make (when I manage to make one that is) gets worse. I wish I was like one of those people who doesn't need any friends or anything like that, life would be a million times easier.
I want Hiroyuki to bring back Yotsuba from the 404 thing. He shouldn't change that.
I want to bang an old friend.
And by bang I mean be in a loving relationship with.
But it will never happen for many reasons, one of which being 1000 miles apart.
The other being her long term boyfriend.
>>704229449
Maybe YOU better say something, instead of assuming you know that he knows.
>>704229477
gee whizz nigga you already win. now go out and be a better than average nig at something. You even got average dubs bitch. I say you should go with your average intelligence to you average local flight school and with your average life money and go sign up for lessons. You wont feel so average, and if you keep up with it, you'll be in the 1% of people who are legally allowed to fly an airplane.
>>704219716
I regret the amount of time spent on the Internet.
>>704229477
I'm an average man, with an average life. I work from 9-5, hell I've paid the price.
>>704228614
Well it's obvious to me and her and all of our friends, we've had feeling exchanged before. Everything is in place for soemthing amazing only problem is we both are in relationships already.
Dicom to JPEG converter then radiopedia style viewer. Everyone's getting fucked.
>>704229477
That's super edgy dude
OP IS A PHAGGOT
>>704219716
I really, really fucking wished latams had their own fucking server and stop playing with the rest of the world on smite.
>>704230019
Maybe you can be the guy who walks 500 miles then walks 500 more just to be the man who walked a thousand miles to fall down at her door.
>dumb cunts think 'literally' means 'actually'.
'My head literally burst with the rage at this.'
'I literally shot across the room with fright.'
get it? retards?
lesson over.
>>704230610
*Man
>>704219716
I wish freaking the fuck out over a keyboard was as big a breakthrough as shouting it out it at the top of your lungs in front of someone to hear you.
I miss her though, we could've been amazing, what's worse is I know she knows it too (she was the initiator). she ended up being too extrovert n outgoing, all that good shit, and I'm just a mildly depressed retard who has little control of his first language to properly express how he feels, I couldn't catch up to her and I knew that we'd drift apart anyways. I couldn't deal with it.
Not that I like Trump, but how can you support Hillary?????
>>704230776
>inb4 kys
>>704230776
L2 sarcasm fuckhead
>>704230854
>but how can you support Hillary?
by giving her money.
That's how you support here.
retard.
>>704230836
*I used to be as bright as her, but I ain't aging well AT ALL
>>704230610
I've thought about it, but before I do my havering needs work
>>704230957
you're sentence literally makes no sense.
kys
>>704230854
cause it's the only way for not voting Trump
>>704219716
I wish I just had the courage to end myself and make everyone's lives a tiny bit brighter.
Instead, I'm stuck in a world I hate living a life I no longer want.
GET YOR ASS TO MARS
>>704231101
aha aha aha aha
>>704231253
recall recall recall
i need to remove you from my life, having you around just makes me feel like i'm not good enough for you. The minute i have the money to leave everything behind, including you; i will, i wont stop thinking of you even then, and i'll probably end up killing myself at 30 married to someone else with children only thinking bout the life we could have had together, you could have helped me forget about you if you didn't have a problem letting me go, does that mean you love me, even just a little? Why does my absence make you cry? why does it hurt so bad when i think you're talking to someone else, you have a right to be with whomever you want; knowing that doesnt make it hurt any less; to know you'll give your heart to someone who only wants your legs open; i've tried so hard to be with other women and all i can think is that i'm somehow betraying you like all the other men in your life. you're all i think about 24/7 and you make me the weaker than chemo. i want you to be the mother of our children, i want us to grow old together and i want you to be there at the end of my life holding my hand and telling me there is an afterlife and you'll see me on the other side, i remember when you clenched my shirt and told me you couldn't cry after your father passed, you asked me to cry for you and i did, because i did't want you to hurt anymore.
i want you in my life until i drop, but i don't wanna feel like i'm not worth the effort to you, i don't want to cry when i think these thoughts, i just want to look back on them and laugh about how dumb i am for being in love with my child hood best friend.
>>704231253
In 30 seconds you'll be dead, and I'll blow this place up and be home in time for corn flakes!
>>704231653
*I
>>704231855
Dick, you're fired!
Just remember it's all absurdity. Everything. Knowing this is the first step.
She's a selfish toxic bitch who I would be better off breaking up with and cutting out of my life completely but she's extremely depressed for rich white girl reasons but it's getting to the point where I don't even care anymore
Everything he hurts my feelings or just does something extremely heartless she always turns it around to make herself look like the victim and want me to apologize. I'm just getting sick and tired of feeling like a cuck and just want to go back to the days before I met her boney sjw ass
I've spent at least $800+ on tokens for chaturbate over the past 8-9 months
I have a girlfriend and I havent told her
>>704232085
You down with OCP?
>>704226305
Cost money which isn't easy to come by
I dont know shit, but I'd say, many of you need awareness. Now I have just as many problems as you people, but I'm happy, and its because I'm aware. I know how to fix my problems, and I can only give myself shit for them. But any of you who feel empty or useless or shit on should try "walking meditation". Look at Maslow's hierarchy of needs. Ask yourself these questions
>What am I putting into my body? What does it need? What do I want from it?
>What am I putting into my mind? Do I see the positive or negative aspect of things? Am I able to focus on the positive while being realistic and not overdramatic about the negative?
>What do I want out of my relationships with my family, friends, and lovers? What do they need the most? Can I help? Do I know what they need? Can I provide it?
>What do I want, ultimately, out of myself, my one unique life? What will make me happy? To help others? To have a loving spouse? Have children? Make a difference? Improve my surroundings? Be remembered? Own a boat?
Whatever you want in life, or whatever your goal is, you have to be honest with yourself and aware of others to achieve it. Dont say all you ever wanted to do is jerk off with your right hand but you lost it as a child so life fucked me and its not my fault. Thats not being aware or honest with yourself. Remember my go to phrase.
If you are bored, unfulfilled, lonely, or depressed... Get a 2nd job.
I would've never thought as a child that modern times could be this surreal.
>>704232608
>>704219716
Niggers need to die.
just downloaded a bunch of pics of young girls. i regret nothing. the cum was big. 27GB pics pure gold. just thought i'd get that off my chest
>>704219716
all pussy racist cucks should asphyxiate ASAP
my best friend who is like a brother to me moved to montana. I miss him so much sometimes i think i might move there very soon. my mom will disown me but he is the only friend i've ever really cared about and I hate being without him.
Fuck that fucking cunt who beat me in that orchestra chair test. She got 2nd chair without even practicing 1 bit
I'm in love with my with roommates girlfriend. I'm 90% sure she's into me too. Only issue is that my roommate is a good friend of mine, and is part of my friend group, so if I made a move I'd probably have no friends. Also I'm drunk.
>>704232608
>>704226451
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UElxyb-CSFM
>>704219716
I was making out with this fine bitch I've been trying to hook up with for a while. She was on top of me and grinding on my dick in the car a couple of hours ago while we made out. Thing is, my dick could not get hard, and this isn't the first time it's happened. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I'm a bit nervous. Maybe I watch too much porn? Idk.
>>704232832
This fucking country.
I hate it do fucking much. This russian mentality, these soviet traditions, these agressive uneducated oblivious motherfuckers. This miserable shithole, I dont even... And I live in Moscow in a good neighbourhood where things are decent and all european and stuff. But once you move outside of this Old Moscow ring - oh boy here comes true russia. Truely savage, miserable and pathetic. All the way to Japan. 12 time fucking zones of WHY and NOPE. Each day I think of moving to the land of the free. It's my aim in life. And guess what? Fucking military. I'm not complaining about the military, I was quite lucky and my service went really well. But now I have to wait for 2 years before moving to another country and guess what. Shit fucking fuck asshole faggot shit fuck.
>>704233406
Looks like you might be gay. I got a chub just looking at that image for like 5 seconds
>>704233123
Did he break his back mountain climbing?
>>704233671
you know it
I want to fuck my friend, she wants to fuck me, only waiting because my friend advises me that fucking so soon after a LTR is a bad idea.
Yeah well, I'm fucking horny and she's a hotass asian.
Goddamnit I hate smart advice.
>>704233406
Frankie says relax, guy
>>704231653
please remember, you're not unique.
So many people have had this exact experience. But I'm going through a similar scenario myself and as a male, it's not pleasant at all. I've never spoken to anyone my entire life, but this one girl got to me.. we've been on and off wheeling for at least 5 YEARS, years before I even realized what we were doing. I never caught on to make a move because of how ignorant I am with human society and social norms, and to this day I'm still not sure if she wants to be with me, she tried to talk with me a week ago and I didn't know that's what she was implying when she liked one of my fb pics and ofc, I f'd up AGAIN!! WEEKS AGO!! . but I know that she's too good for me.. It started at 14, and we're both turning 19 now, and I'm STILL UNSURE IF SHE WANTS ME! It's so fucking sad. To know she's destined to be with someone else because I couldn't do it myself. THE FIRST IS ALWAYS THE WORST.
I'm just not man enough.
Wavves - Green Eyes
>>704219716
holy shit this medicine is fucking good
>>704228165
damn that sucks, there's someone out there for you trust
I don't understand why Blacks keep complaining about White people + The "current state" of America; if they hate it so much, why don't they fuck off back to Africa, where they can "rebuild and be KINGZ!"???
Also, why do White Women keep defending ghetto niggers and Muslim shitheads so much? They act like they get something out of it!
I'm still in love with my ex-girlfriend who is currently my bestfriend. I love seeing her and hanging out, but it always kills me a little bit.
>>704233522
Preebyet anon. I am Amerikanski and have several Russian friends who moved here to the USA.
But watch this movie first
>>704232608
I wish I were that easy.
I've been going through 3 solid years of depression. I live decently well, but absolutely nothing has been able to drag me out of it. Then comes the guilt from feeling the way I do even though I'm not that bad off. And the pain never really goes away, it feels as raw as it was in the beginning.
I'm not sure how to deal with it, or when it's going to end.
>>704219716
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOY-cHiCmkU
Please leave positive comments all comments help <3
>>704233911
>I'm STILL UNSURE IF SHE WANTS ME!
ask her
>>704228546
do et
>>704234210
It was called Liberia
>>704233894
It's a bit unsettling. I just want an answer as to why, or if there's a way to fix it.
I'm sitting here in my barracks room in Camp Casey wondering what the fuck has happened to the world in the last 16 years.
When did victims become heroes, heroes become villains, and villains become victims?
How the fuck... out of all the people in the nation did we get stuck either Trump or Hillary?
And how the fuck did this nation raise a generation of raging pussies? Aww, words hurt 'lil faggot? So does IEDs and Sniper fire. Micro aggressions? Nope, there's nothing micro about my aggression.
How did we get tot the point where your average citizen can tell me that's going on with the Kardashians but can't point Syria out on a map?
If I were not raising a son of my own, I would just say let this fucker burn.. the whole damn thing. But now I have to worry about the world my boy will live in. Something needs to be done and its not what you're seeing on the news, or what your aging hippie humanities professors are teaching, or what your senator is ram-rodding down our necks.
time to hit the reset button.
WC34
Here you are again. Two in the morning and your buzzing like a fucking swarm of wasp. Why didn't you go out tonight? Why did you fake sick to go home and get high? The fuck is wrong with you? You squirrel yourself away, making no noise except that which comes from your disgusting clogged nose as you despritely try to get more jam up your nostril. The fuck dude seriously
>>704234328
American russian always kills me. It's so funny when americans are trying into it.
Your friends... Are they happy? Oh I bet they are.
>>704233522
Well at least you live in a good neighbourhood.
Share stories.
I've had a sexual disease for the past 5 years that won't go away, no matter how many doctors and specialists I see. My balls hurt every day like they just got kicked and makes me practically piss my pants daily.
I can't tell anyone for fear that they see me differently. I feel like a dirty fucking failure every day, and there's no one to blame but myself for being a proud, stupid fuck.
>>704234696
Don't masterbate as much. Don't drink alcohol. And don't think about it. If next time you think about not getting a boner again, ya blew it. Relax guy,
>>704219716
I like the sight of naked children and collect pictures of them wherever I can find them
I can't stand when people don't maintain their lane in a roundabout!
>>704219716
I fell in love with a girl who was a liar and she ruined my life. She lied to me about her age, her mother encouraged our relationship. I had never been happy in life until I met her, then I got thrown in jail because of her. My happy thoughts would be her, so when I tried to cheer myself up, I'd think of her and just feel like a piece of shit. I haven't been happy since.
I found out I had Autism after being thrown in jail. Most days, I just want to end my life. I just can't fit in to normal society, I just can't find a nice girl to date because I'm terrified of talking to people, and I feel like I'm destined to die alone.
There's no hope for me.
>>704234780
>When did victims become heroes, heroes become villains, and villains become victims?
This is exactly what has happened. The more you are a victim, the more you are a hero. The biggest victims get streets named after them. Heroes (snowden?) are the enemy, as is anyone who likes freedom and the constitution. And the villains are the victims put on a pedestal.
How this happened I am not sure. But the more offended and victimized you are, the more social currency you have.
I feel like I'm wasting my life away while the couple of friends I have are off doing something with their time.
I am jobless right now.
I have no debt though.
I have no education.
I have no job experience.
I have savings.
I have a fiance.
I am happy with life.
>>704235745
A life full of happiness is never a waste.
I used to think that because all my friends travelled. Then I travelled a little and holy shit is it ever not worth the hassle. I'm never leaving my own province again except for my friend's funeral.
>>704234898
>>704234841
Seem to be. Most left Russia in the 80s and eventually ended up here. One guy I know is making a huge amount of money, lives in manhattan, with his Russian wife and kids. He seems happy I guess. There are a lot of Russians up in NYC. But I am from Texas and living in Texas now. But there are Russians here too. I can go down to a local restaurant and get some blinis.
Word of warning though, USA is becoming less and less the land of the free all the time, it's not like it was 30 years ago. Maybe we will become more fascist here, that is what Putin wants.
>>704234562
well, I'm certain she wanted me at the time, which was like FOUR YEARS AGO LOL, and those years usually make BIG CHANGES on a person at ages 14+ and even then she already gave me like.. 5 chances. I tried asking her before, but I think she wants to start off on a blank slate on a... "friend" level but still with a chance. (You know how humans are, always so fucking indirect about everything).. But I'm too passionate for that, I can't just forget about our past, especially since she was the first girl I felt truly close with. After those years she's gotten way better than me. I mean, I can fathom it, and that we may not belong together, I could get someone else if I really tried but.. It fucking sucks that I never even had a chance to hold her in my arms.. Just typing it wells me up a bit, it feels like we've lived lifetimes together before the universes repeating process, she still hasn't had a boyfriend yet but her FB is full of her hanging out with all these attractive guys and it just.. She's too good for me, maybe by the time I get a car I'll have my life together, I pray she'll wait until then, but I won't blame her if she doesn't. Time heals everything.
>>704234780
I feel you bro. You just read my mind.
I'm sick and tired of fighting tooth and nail for these shitty jobs that gain me nothing in the long run. I've been through two well-paying jobs in the last 8 months simply because of bullshit reasons. I can't fucking sleep at night like everyone else can. I'll fall asleep fine, but I don't get REM sleep, so it's nothing meaningful. Because of that, paired with the VA not fucking diagnosing me, I had to step down from the first job. I picked up a second job closer to home and I got outed by a good old boys system. I did everything right and they still decided to let me go just because "well you don't have enough experience". I asked them to explain and it was "Well, you just don't have enough experience". Experience how? At what? Do I not perform to your level? Am I asking too many fucking questions? God damn it. I can't even go back to the military because it's all just fucking bullshit now. Pick up these cigarette butts. Stay behind this desk for 24 hours for no reason. Sweep this puddle of water in the motor pool because I said so. More time doing stupid shit, less time actually learning how to be an effective leader for a wartime military. God forbid we learn how to be better marksmen with our rifles, or learn how to properly treat a wound. No, it's all just EO/SHARP briefings and stupid shit. And on top of all of that, my fucking wife thinks I'm hiding shit from her because I used my credit card one time to pull a favor for a childhood friend. And on top of THAT, a fucking scummy debt collector called me today and let me know I have some outstanding balance from over four years ago that they decided to wait until today to tell me about. Fuck this shit. Fuck all of this shit. I'm a great worker. I work hard and I try to play the game to their liking, but fuck this shit. I should've just crushed that puny fuck when he tried to shake my hand after walking out. It would solve nothing, but I would feel so much better knowing that I physically crippled that manlet.
>>704219716
I want to break up with the girl I've been dating even tho I chased her for 3 years because I'm falling in love with a girl I turned down to get with my gf. I hate myself.
>>704236583
>I can't fucking sleep at night like everyone else can. I'll fall asleep fine, but I don't get REM sleep, so it's nothing meaningful.
Bullshit.
You REM, you just don't remember doing it.
a significant amount, say, 90% or more, of our dreams are forgotten.
keep a journal by your bed or a voice recorder, you whiny shit head.
I dont think Putin wants this country
Married at 28 divorced at 31. I cheated on my wife. I cheated on her with cam chick. I spent all my money on said cam chick. I'm in debt up to my eye balls. I hate myself. I fucked up and everyone knows it. I'm studying for my cpa but I know I'm not smart enough to pass. Life just fucking suck. I'm an idiot and I just want this to end.
My mum was a manipulative whore who abused me most of my life, turning me into a mentally unstable narcissistic asshole. My dad is only person in my life who actually gives a damn about me, infact the only reason i havn't become an hero is becausd of him and doggo pic related. I have a gf but i honestly feel like she just pities me. Any advice?
Just keep thinking about what you want to do or dream about (like hard) before you knock out. then once you wake up (Like right away) write it in a journal. youll get better and better. with more and better dreams everytime.
>>704236583
I already saw this movie.
i used to spy on on big sister, mother
>>704236743
No, seriously. Sleep study confirmed. It's a rare but real thing. Basically, my circadian rhythm is all fucked to hell for one reason or another. I can't seem to get a diagnosis because one doctor thinks its chemical imbalances, another thinks it's PTSD, and another thinks it's bullshit even though the proof is literally in black and white in front of her face. Trust me, I've been fighting this shit for years and I just want to feel normal again. That's all I care about. I don't want anyone to feel bad for me because "aww poor soldier boy got fucked up in the head". I don't even tell anyone I know about this shit. I just want to feel normal again. That's it.
>>704219716
I'm in love with a 17 year old co worker and she has a huge crush on me as well. She's beautiful, smart, nice, everything. Only problem is I'm 21, turning 22 in three weeks. FML.
>>704236851
Care man, girls are temporary,get yourself some friends
>>704237082
I cracked a smile, I'll give you that. But my life is no where near as glorious or filled with danger like John Rambo and his magic killing powers.
>>704229412
Kek'd all over the place. It's a mess now.
>>704237190
just do it. its not that big an age difference
I don't know if I'll ever feel okay.
>>704229792
You should grudge-fuck her mom. You'll feel better then.
>>704237374
I do live in MN where the age of consent is 16 however her parents are incredibly strict...
>>704237204
I tried getting friends but i coudln't stand pretending to be happy, anyway thanks bro, have a nice night
>>704237435
You will one day anon, dont worry
>>704237314
did you used to be in charge of multi-million dollar equipment at least?
Or work at a carwash?
>>704237474
They can supervise
why cant she text me back, why cant see that im into her. if she wouldve texted me back today i wouldve went to the movies with her. and actually try to do something with you, I do like you and i want to know more about you...but i just dont know anymore
I'm just so lonely. I feel so empty and hollow all the time now and I just want to have someone. The girl I love will never want to be with me, and she has a boyfriend anyway. It hurts so much.
>>704237756
Haha I like your thinking but really they are crazy. They have a tracker on her car, they have a big house with security cameras that they check daily, the whole bit. I just wish she could leave and live with me (she's been telling me over and over that's what she wants to do.)
>>704237667
Multimillion dollar equipment? Yes. Though, knowing what the military paid for some of their shit really doesn't say much about the quality of said equipment. Never worked a carwash.
Wah wah muh feels wah wah waaaaaaah.
i want my wife to get an abortion, i want to leave her lazy ass, i want to quit the fuck out of this job, and i want to get the fuck out of this town.
i would rather be a penniless filthy hobo scrounging for food from dumpsters and garbage cans and sleeping on the concrete than live one more day like this.
>>704237190
She has a crush on you? Whens her birthday?
If it's a sealed deal, just go for it man.. There are 18 year olds guys who've had relationships with 13 year olds yknow.. your situation is kinda a walk in the park unless you're not spitting enough info.
>>704237868
Patience will be rewarded
>>704219716
I love to see naked children. I would take digital images of them if I thought I could get away with it.
>>704237868
Well quit wanting to do things and do them
>>704234780
Because you either be the victim and then die a hero, or live long enough to see yourself become the villain.
>>704219716
Every time I see a black person I try to move away for fear that they are going to attack me or try to mug me.
>>704237653
He's right. The best way to start is to let it all out - nothing will change if you keep holding it in. What's going on, anon?
>>704219716
Bitch said Inspection would be at 8, but decided to start 2 hours early while I was in the shower, JUST AFTER I HAD WORKED OUT. Bad enough she went into my room without me being there (and all the other roommates + their friends being here), but what the fuck was so funny about my room that she and everyone else had to laugh about it? Was it the black flag in the window to block out the sunlight? Maybe it was all the Japanese (and other Asian) paraphernalia such as books, games, maps, and wallscrolls? Or perhaps it was the abundance of flags on my walls that set them off, and the fact that my room was at about 84ºF while the dorm suite itself was at around 70ºF. I don't know, but if they were laughing because of any of that, fuck 'em all; I have a lifestyle that I'm passionate about, and I don't care if it makes me seem weeby or whatever.
Laugh at me because I'm different. I'll laugh at you because you're all the fucking same: emotionless, hobbyless zombies doing whatever it takes to 'fit in' with everyone else.
>>704238003
Don't dream it, be it.
I'm very attracted to my cousin.
>>704236295
Could've been that kid who fell into your habitat. RIP in piece Harambe. You da real MVP
>be me
>playing x box
>battleborn fun as fuck
>feel boner in shorts
>turn off x-box
>get on lap top
>look up hentai comics
>start jerking feel good as fuck.jpg
>step mom walks like the invading whore she is
>pissed . jpg
>i look me right in the eye
>i keep going.gif
>she keeps looking me in the eye
anyone who want to know how this ends just ask
>>704228534
If it makes you feel any better, not all women are 100% against stuff they don't get. I'm a femanon and I've indulged fetishes before that did nothing for me.
I think my feet are gross (truth be told, I think nobody's feet should be touched, they're all gross), but I'd let a man do whatever with my feet if I knew it was very arousing for him.
/b/ is the biggest attractor of newfags and Reddit
i'm sorry for all the troubles i caused you, all the shit we've been through, it fuckin sucks. all these fucking miles between us and i can only see you once a year for a small time. and i can't stand it. i can't fucking stand it. thanks for all the good times
women only fuck you over.
>>704238006
Yes we work together, and she go my number from a co worker about 3 months ago. We have been talking non stop every day. We even go to college together (she is in PSEO through her highschool and I attend the same community college) so we meet up almost every day before class and talk and hangout. She tells me she likes me and talks about kissing me and wanting to stay over at my place but we haven't been able to hangout once outside of school or work due to her anal parents not letting her leave the house. They obviously have no idea she's even talking to me. And my co workers have no idea we are an item either thankfully.
the distance is the hardest part of being with you.. I can't wait to meet you in person.
>>704238264
>Guess I'll build on this, samefag.
And you know, I'm tired of studying Korean and/or Mandarin just to be ignored by the majority of their respective native speakers. The Japanese I know actually appreciate my efforts to learn and eventually master their language, as well as my affinity for their wonderful culture. I don't care about shit like xenophobia or whatever; that exists everywhere on one degree or another, and I've experienced Korean xenophobia 'straight from the tap.' They are not saints by anyone's measure.
Nevertheless, I try re-learning Korean here, only to be ignored or ripped on by the Koreans and Korean-Americans living here. Yes, I have a few Korean friends who appreciate my efforts, but the overall disrespect I get from the average Korean makes it less and less worth studying. Mandarin's great too, but China itself has so many different language groups within it *in addition to* about 200 dialects. I'd only know the Beijing-dialect at best.
So, fuck this shit; I'm going all-in for Japanese now. The people tend to be kinder, the culture's greater (in various aspects), the food is tastier, and the language itself is of transcendent beauty. I will continue to respect China and the Koreas, but my main and only concern now is Japan's.
>竹島は日本の領土だ。
I'm glad you fucked around on me. Now I'm free of you and I can have my life back. Have fun whore.
i fucking hate it when i cant post shit cus of those veterans laughing and saying how stupid and shit it is (not directly) and i cant post stuff i fucking like about myself and quetes makes them laugh and mock. i fucking hate it so bad its awful, well that was... liberating
Most of my life has been shit I've had an abusive father who beat the shit out of me and my siblings until he finally left when i was 12 then I felt empty like life was pointless started smoking at 15 still haven't quit but can't afford it without a job at 17 put into a mental hospital for almost committing suicide then once I got out my girlfriend of over a year now supports the fuck out of me and i love her to death but my mom never looked or treated me the same ever again she started judging me for every little thing i did and made feel like a piece of shit every day I'm home i have no friends because i can't keep friendships well I just feel like I'm bothering everybody so I stopped texting people no one really cared now I'm 18 practically living with my girlfriend still depressed and have no job because every place u apply to doesn't wanna hire me
I am stoked that I did ot do magic mushrooms tonight. I am scared for the future. The past hangs onto me like lead. But tonight I am stoked that I did not take shrooms
Holy hell do I hate her. Why on earth did I stay with someone for so long that made fun of me, mocked me, belittled me, took my insecurities and used them to eviscerate me. I was a damn slave, a fool, a meal ticket for her.
Shit, I'm just as pissed at myself for not putting an end to it earlier as I am at her for the years of emotional abuse. In less than a year after deciding this shit isn't good I've almost doubled my income, had more career success in 6 months than 6 years, and have had more sex (albeit meaningless but still fun).
Fuck. Why am I still obsessed with her and the fact the she cheated. That she had another dick in her mouth. I shouldn't care, we're done, I'm successful and she isn't. But I still can't get over the fact that she fucked someone else and that I was so stupid and tried to forgive her. Goddammit. Why is this eating at me, why doesn't the whisky make it go away.
>>704227750
Drop her. If she wanted you, you'd have her. Don't let her be an emotional vampire.
I really need to take a shit, but I'm too tired to take a shit
>>704239123
If it makes you feel any better, any decent veteran wont do that shit. Sounds like you found some real pieces of shit.
>>704219716
I want to shit and piss on you. You are a dirty dirty girl.
I'm a 31 year old drunk that regularly pours glue on my hands just so I can pick it off.
>>704239500
I know that feel.
I'm so fucking lonely. She stopped texting me back.
>>704219716
You know what? Fuck you. You're not more successful than I am, your dumbass got pregnant with some guy who had money, now you want to act like I don't have my life together? You'd be in the same fucking position I am so stop acting like a conceited bitch. And for fucks sake I know I'm not a massive queen about it but stop trying to hook me up with your ugly ass fat bitch of a friend, I'm gay. How the fuck have you known me for 25 years and not picked up on that?
>>704237435
yeah, don't worry about it man, how old are you? If you don't have a job yet, getting money is a GREAT feeling. If you're willing to save, you'll always have something to cushion your fall, still feel like shit? head to the gym, never lifted anything in your life? 15lb barbell, 50 bicep curls, 50 military press lifts and 20 squats on day one, (first is ALWAYS the worst) MAKE SURE to keep track on your progression, and try to add 10 military press lifts, 10 bicep curls, and 10 squats A DAY. (prefer +20 on the 2nd day) DO NOT HESITATE to relax on a day you feel too sore, you might even need to wait a day after the 1st and 2nd exercises to recover. After day 3 it gets pretty easy from there on. Just remember KEEP TRACK (make a table list somewhere), AND ALWAYS PROGRESS MORE THAN LAST TIME.
It's not much but it'll still be progression and shouldn't even take an hour long, and after a year you'll look great, and people that look great usually feel great. And when you don't? YOU GOT THAT SAVED MONEY!!
I'm sorry for whatever I did to piss you off, Kelly. But, if you're going to be like this, then I'll just move on through life without you. It was nice knowing you when I did, but I guess we're just like the galaxies in the cosmos: constantly moving ever so farther away from one another (except in Andromeda's case, which is moving toward us).
Fuck.
>>704239582
much adult OP... I just cant post pics that i like (and not in THAT FUCKING WAY) and just be full with myself, just insecured///
>>704231004
so you see it?
>>704219716
Where the fuck did you go?
Christ, I know I'm not socially skilled and I ask for advice a lot, but I was actively and continuously improving my life and myself because of the influence you had on me and the support you gave me.
How the fuck could you be so kind and show me such honesty and patience, then just disappear into the fucking void?
I miss you every day. Every fucking day. Especially when life gets difficult for me, and I wish you were there to say ANYTHING, I don't even fucking care what, because your very presence and attention were soothing to me. Five minutes of your time fucking felt like Christmas morning to me.
You were my inspiration, my light, my comfort. I know we were never going to have any romantic conversation or relationship, and I was fine with that, but you meant so much more to me than that. I needed you.
Even now, I'm not mad at you. It just kills me inside that the one person I trusted and admired in both my worst and best time doesn't want me anymore.
I think I love you, and I hope you never know. I'll never be good enough for you.
>>704238646
If you're the one that's holding back, don't bother, just go with it. As for her parents.. It should just be up to the waiting game now.
im tired
I feel like am the only one who likes Incest
I for the life of me can't understand why there's a cult of mutilation in the United States, I don't understand why everyone is so ok with slicing off healthy parts of their child's genitals "obviously without their consent" There is no health benefits to doing it, and it ablates the most sensitive parts of their genitals. Goddamnit I'm very unhappy it was done to me and for the love of god this shit needs to stop.
Worse still, there's active misinformation being fed to he general populous too, and this is done to further the unholy trinity of greed, religious insanity, and ignorance. People need to wake the fuck up.
I am bad at many social things that steams from my childhood but now I have no one to blame but myself. I want to change, but not enough to do anything about it. I turned 21 and celebrated my birthday by myself.
I hoped the military would change me; but I don't think it is.
i make myself unhappy
I was so stressed moving for college and she knew I didn't need any stressed and all I wanted was someone to love and cared about me. Then she goes and tells me we need a break because I "made her happy but wasn't happy with me" like that's some kinda apology. "Hey we can work this out, but first I have to break your heart and make you stressed that all this time was for nothing! It's not like breaks ALwAYS lead to break ups." Then I leave and a month into school she tells me she's dating my friend because he provides emotional support for me being gone. Now she's fucking depressed because they broke up and everyone thinks she's a whore, which she maybe! I'm 300 miles away and she's coming here next year.
>tl;dr I'm a cuck
>>704240157
I like it too. I'm not saying that's a good thing, but I am saying you're not alone.
>>704225538
Honestly, as you grow your friend pool starts to dry up, eventually you end up with just 2 or 3 true friends. You're pretty much on point, so don't fret.
As for your family, fuck'em I hate religious bullshit, people let this crap destroy their families and for what? Not a goddamn thing.
Erin, you're my sister and I love you... but I will never forgive you for calling the police that night. When I told you I wanted to die I did it because I felt you were the only one I could trust. I wish you could let me make my own decisions, just because I'm your younger brother does not mean I need you to baby me, we're both adults. We both know only you would be aware of my absence from this earth. It's not just depression, it's a strong feeling of not wanting to be here and not wanting to do this anymore. I was not crying out for help that night I was trying to let you know I was going to be ok, and you were going to be ok. You don't know how negatively that night impacted my life. Do you know what it's like for three cops to rush into your apartment and then act condescending to you like you're "just another person to deal with"? What did you think was going to happen? I was going to received a 3,000 dollar hospital bill and talk to some asshole in a sweater and that would make me change my mind about this shit?
I fucking trusted you, you were the only one I've ever trusted, and you took that from me. That's all you changed that night. I can not forgive you for that.
>>704226059
>I HATE NIGGERS
FTFY.
>>704239993
Channel that energy, inspire yourself to become a better person.
It fucking sucks, and sometimes it can literally hurt physically, but time heals everything, and there are millions going through the exact same thing. One day at a time.
Sarah for the love of fuck I'm flirting with you get the memo
>>704240157
Incest porn sure.. If they're acting.
But actual incest is kinda funky, and not that good kind. Either way you're not alone. No matter what you think about yourself, you're never alone.
I walk a very fine line between wanting to kill myself and lacking the motivation to do so.
>>704226451
This sounds like legit depression, the people that feel clinical depression feel empty, clinical depression doesn't make you feel sad it makes you feel nothing. Anon go to a therapist they can help you with this, it's most likely a chemical imbalance in your brain.
>>704219716
Badgers are muffin Monday with shirt skins and rafflerock aid quench!
My gf is just so dumb
This new house is a piece of fucking shit. I don't want to live in goddamn Stonerville.
We actually broke up this time eve though I didn't want to because I just can't take her acting like a complete bitch to me all of the time and getting away with it. After she fucking verbally abuses me and treats me like dog shit under her shoe she still doesn't have the fucking decency to own up to her behaviour and admit she is fucking wrong for once.
I can't keep fucking arguing with her over and over again I'm just going to post this because writing more is just giving me anxiety
>>704240757
It does fucking suck. He made me feel like he really believed in me and wanted me to succeed and be happy, and he knew I looked up to him, and he just disappeared.
I'll never trust someone or admire someone like that again. He's the best thing that ever happened to me, the only person who ever got me to actually get off my ass and put forth effort, and now he's gone.
I have no idea how to do this by myself. I'm trying to figure it out, but I just suck at it.
>>704219917
>fpbp
>>704241395
Would you like to trade homes with me, I'm in whatever the opposite of stonerville is and god I want out.
My mum was a abusive, manipulative whore who turned me into a depressed, mentally unstable, anti social retard. Been thinking of just ending it. Don't wanna become an hero the normal way with pills or a nose. Been thinking of getting some military training and organizing a Coup D'état that way if i did die i would be rememberd as the person who attempted a coup rather than some random anti social retard who hung themselves in a closet.
>>704219716
I had sex with my cousin when we were both 7
>>704230880
Hey man nice shot.
I really hope you kill yourself. I really hope you fuck yourself up so much you can't be fixed. You do deserve all the bad things that have happened to you. It's your fault for making bad decisions. It's your fault I left. And it makes me happy to think that you drove away the only person who was ever really there for you, the only person in your fucked up life that stuck around and loved and cared for you and that you'll never have me again. I don't miss you at all. You wouldn't believe how much easier it is to breathe.
Congratulations, you took advantage of someone who wanted nothing more than to love you and see you succeed.
ps, Your art is a fucking joke. Your friends are the ones who pittied you, not me.
>>704229408
You sick piece of shit. What the fucks wrong with you?
>>704241086
I must say, the depression causes the imbalance, not the other way around. Or rather, the bad things in your life cause the depression.
Fix your life, fix the depression. Fixing the "chemical imbalance" is not the way. That avenue should only be reserved for emergencies.
>>704241792
Different anon here, I have an ex who eats cereal dry while drinking a cup of milk. What the fuck are these people doing with their lives?
>>704241713
good shot,man
When I was in my 20's I dated a woman in her 50's that wasn't too great on the eyes, but she just loved to eat my semen, among other wild kinky shit. Ass eating, ass to mouth, slapping, choking, use her like a fuck doll, - everything. I'd come in her asshole and she'd grab it out with her fingers and eat it. I'd come in a shot glass and she'd drink it. I'd tell her to blow me in a crowded movie theater while fingering her asshole and she'd do it.
She was a normal librarian type with grey hair and a hairy grey pussy that wanted a young fuck toy and I was the one for about 6 months.
20 years later and I still think of the nasty shit she did in bed with my dick whenever I'm having trouble reaching orgasm.
>>704241705
>neither of you consented
>double-rape
My sister has her boyfriend almost everyday at my house, he practically lives there. He's also fucking her in our house. What do I do?
>>704238377
seriously though: if i don't change anything, my life will be boring and typical and comfortable and safe for the next 30 years. i'll work the 9-5, pay the bills, raise a kid, hate 99% of it, and die miserable, but comfortable in the knowledge that i stayed true to my word and supported my family.
if i leave now, i'll be a 31 year old with no prospects and the best of my youth behind me, cursed with the knowledge that i wasted 8 years on a shitty marriage and gave up on it, with her entire family thinking i'm a complete piece of dogshit, but i'll be free to pursue happiness and i might just get it.
is it always better to put one's self first and go for it, even if most people feel like you're a piece of shit for doing so?
I'm gay and I got to a really small school and i just feel so lonely because there isn't even one other gay guy I can relate to and I feel so lonely and all my emotions are bottled up and why do I have to be in that 1.8%
>>704240723
>select all stormfronts
>>704241485
Just remember that there are LITERALLY MILLIONS of people in the exact same spot, maybe not the exact scenario depending how unique it actually is but they feel the exact way. It's all the chemicals your brain is producing, but once you learn how to use that emotion, you can use it to find someone greater, it's just one step closer to finding the person who can grow away from his past, as you did yours, you'll blossom, and it'll be fucking magnificent.
I really want to an hero but I'm afraid I'll fuck that up like I've fucked up everything else in my life and leave myself a vegetable.
If I use my 9 I'm afraid I'll just destroy the part of my brain that controls my personality (not like that would be a huge loss) and leave me a vegetable. I'm not sure a bottle of adderall will finish me off, and I don't want to be a dick and use my shotgun, leaving my grey matter all over my apartment for my landlord to clean.
Honestly, those reasons are all that are stopping me from ending this pain permanently.
Fucking asshole you always contradict yourself and teach shit you don't even put in practice or do. You are not the best in anything you fucking egocentric self centered cunt ! Learn integrity and be humble! sensei my ass!
>>704222555
HOW THE FUCK DID THIS GO UNCHECKED
YOU WORTHLESS FUCKS
CHECK'D
Where to start?
For as far as I can remember my life has been shit. I only saw my dad once a couple months for my entire childhood, my mom was a literal whore, almost every night there was a guy fucking her in the bedroom. Got beat by one of those guys, mom didn't give a fuck.
When her cunt finally dried up and guys stopped paying for it I was forced to get a job to support myself and her. Worked under the table and doing various things for people until I inevitably dropped out of high school so I could get a full time job.
The only person I ever cared about was my brother, but he moved out the first moment he could and I haven't seen him since.
It's now been 6 years since I moved out and I'm literally a broken shell of a human being. I can't find any enjoyment in anything or anyone, life seems so bleak.
The only reason I haven't offed myself is so I don't give that whore the satisfaction of being right.
>>704219716
I can't be just fucking her panties everytime I get a boner! I want to fuck my sister in law!
>>704219716
I am banging married chicks constantly. Their beta husbands don't seem to please them. I feel bad about doing it but their pussies are so amazing.
>>704242268
>checking without image of Christian Bale
hi new friend
>>704242086
>is it always better to put one's self first and go for it, even if most people feel like you're a piece of shit for doing so?
How you feel about yourself is always more important than how other people think about you.
Unless you want to be miserable for the rest of your life.
>>704241858
This is incorrect and dangerous to say to someone with clinical depression. People with run of the mill depression should follow your advice, or much more likely let it run it's course. It tends to even itself out, but clinical depression is a whole nother ballgame. These people need to seek professional help, telling them to just feel happy, or fix your life is disingenuous to them, this problem can't just be fixed by changing things in your life it's a problem with the chemical balances in your brain and requires professional help.
Please read up on clinical depression so you don't tell people that can't fix themselves to just buck it up.
http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depression/expert-answers/clinical-depression/faq-20057770
My dad works at an undisclosed testing facility in the Arizona desert and comes home every day about aliens he works with and tells me not to tell anyone.
i want to be an actor
>>704242495
>Christian Bale
Not choosing Judy Bale...
Leave.
PEOPLE WHO POST ON IMAGEBOARDS ARE FAGGOTS
>>704235018
hey noww, might wanna keep that to yourself.
Chris Hansen is making a comeback
>>704242226
Alright, anon. If you say so. It's not like I can do anything to fuck up and lose him at this point.
I'll keep trying. I'll go on through whatever this bullshit is my brain is doing to me. I hope it gets easier soon. I've never been so lonely.
>>704242639
Have you got any gigs in acting?
I'm still sad about Tom getting kicked out of Blink.
>>704219716
I lost my virginity to a fat girl, like huge, pushing 400lbs. No one has ever known that but me, and now you guys
>>704242898
Dont worry, your secret is safe with us
>>704219716
I hate niggers and spics, I lived in a small city that was pretty much white but over the past 5 years niggers and spics moved. It was a city where you could actually leave your doors unlocked at night it was safe. Now drugs and crime have flooded the city, I feel like there are no more safe white neighborhoods.People can say I'm a racist , I don't give a fuck but when you let niggers and spics into nice neighborhoods they turn to shit. People knew that fact back in the 50, it's why white people moved to the suburbs to get away from the crime minority these groups bring with them
I'm a paedophile
At 31 years old I've only had sex once, when I was 17.
I tell people I'm a virgin because it's better than saying the truth.
My cucumber smells like wood chips
>>704243140
Is that good or bad?
>>704219716
I'm actually suicidal yet never ask anyone for help and have gotten extremely close to it and still want to. That's the real reason I keep a loaded handgun under my pillow, even though I tell people it's for breakins. I'm fucked in the head, I know.
I can't succeed at life. I'm disabled with no SSD, just got fired from Mcdonald's, have no money, no food, 13 days before rent is due and now no source of income. All I have left to do is apply to every place in a city where I don't know anyone and hope for the best because I'm homeless starting the 1st. To make matters worse, I'm sat here telling this in a thread on /b/
>>704243099
well dubs don't lie
>>704219716
Fuck head boss keep mistreating me. Turn to the GM and made me out to be the bad guy. That I have an unpleasent tone when I speak to them, then immediately start giving me bullshit. I want burn that place down!!
>>704242570
I had clinical depression for about 10 years, plus a lot of other fucked up stuff going on. I speak from experience and stand by everything I said. It is a slow process, but you have to slowly fix things in your life that led you to slowly become clinically depressed. Things like quitting drinking or smoking, getting out more, socializing, getting a job, cognitive behavioral therapy, etc.
I've seen too many people go the ssri and other drug route. It keeps people level and mostly away from suicide, but you are just treating the symptom and not getting to the root causes. Too many just stay on the drugs, maintaining, but never truly recovering (like my brother, for one).
Drugs only mask the deeper underlying problems.
>>704219716
I can't wait until my people come and enslave humanity, and hope we do it before humanity finishes trashing the planet. It will be nice to shed my human-appearing bioware and start having intelligent conversations with more than the minority of beings around me.
>>704242086
Oh Anon, I've been there. Or somewhere similar. I put myself last for a decade, always doing what was best for my family and it was never enough. Never right. I work harder "why aren't you home more you jerk". I was home more "we need more money to remodel the kitchen, why are you so lazy at work".
I hate being so cynical but it doesn't get better, at least not in my case. Now I'm too old to follow my dreams and do what I really wanted to do in life and I regret every second of it. Im not stuck in that situation anymore, I don't have to explain every fucking decision.
Problem is that doesn't provide much solace. My best years are behind me, everyone was on her side, everyone thinks I'm the asshole (which I did do some asshole things admittidly) but they are going to beleive what they want. Her family didn't see her hit me, throw things at me, make fun of me, and emasculatell me.
Your happiness is your responsibility, and though you should put others before yourself, there is a line. You can not keep hating life so someone who doesn't care about you or your interests is comfortable.
>>704243336
they took my stapler
>>704243425
Nah man. I'm like pissed, really pissed.
>>704243033
I know how you feel. I was born in France and at that time you could leave all of your windows open and doors unlocked without worrying about anything but now that theres fucking sand niggers moving here, you cant even get go outside without getting your watch stolen or glasses crushed by some arab teens. The only place where you dont have to worry about them is in countryside.
>>704228605
Good old Metallica. Rock on anon.
>>704243485
I feel ya. I wrecked my car and my place threatened to fire me because I told them I couldn't get a ride to work. So I quit the next day.
>>704243746
I do so much and they say that I just procrastinate all day. I'm fucking sick of it. Can't wait to get my degree and gtfo.
>>704219716
Hit a shit low in my life right now. My girlfriend and I moved out of our cheap apartment in January into a new one that was much nicer but much more expensive. It has a 1 year lease on it with an early cancellation fee of $2300 which isn't a bad deal considering they gave us 2 months for free anyway which would of been $2300.
Shit part - girlfriend decides shes interested in some other guy and asks for an open relationship or to break up. No third option at all. If we break up, I'm stuck paying for an apartment I can no longer afford on my own which will end up in me getting evicted OR have to pay $2300 PLUS give a 60 day notice or they put me down as "non-rentable" in the renters book. So I'm stuck dealing with the fact that my "girlfriend", if you would still call here that now, wants to bang some other dude while shes with me or else I get stuck in debt and homeless.
My lease ends in January so I'm basically stuck here or go in debt just to leave her. It sucks way bad too because she just up and started treating me like shit by yelling at me over the stupidest shit like I had my friends over for a bit and she came home from work. I had them leave shortly after she got home and I talk to her and basically tells me I'm a piece of shit for them being here. Which okay, sure I can deal with that but then I find out she has some guy(s) come over every now and then when I'm not home. Why the fuck can't I be social with my guy friends but she can bring some fuckboy home?
I feel like I'm stuck in some spiraling shitstorm (shit-icane?) with her doing whatever the fuck she wants and treating me like dirt because I have nowhere else to go until this fucking lease is up. Thought about becoming an-hero a few times just because I feel like I lost the one thing I thought would never change and always be there (again). I really felt like she was wife material for awhile too...
This all in all has been a shit year...
I feel good right now but I never feel good when I'm around other people.
>>704226616
Back to /r9k/ faggot
I'm totally smitten with this girl and she likes me. I can't bring myself to make a move because my financial situation is fucked and I feel I don't deserve a good girl
>>704243923
Just grind it out my man. Good things come to those who don't blow their brains out due to a shitty job.
>>704243352
Beep bop borp, ah ahh
>>704243349
Friend, I am happy you were able to get out of depression, but everything you just said was anecdotal. I provided a link to the mayo clinic that said
"clinical depression symptoms, even if severe, usually improve with psychological counseling, antidepressant medications or a combination of the two."
and that's from actual doctors.
>>704242898
haha nice, I'm in on anon's secret
>>704243033
"people can say I'm a racist"
-is actually proud LOL
I'm obsessed with a guy I went to high school with. Like I love him. I know it's crazy and fucked but I can't stop. I graduated 2 years ago why do I feel this way now? I'm fucking crazy I know it...I put a wiccan love spell on him but it's not working. He doesn't know who I am. Ian plz
>>704244020
Damn bro that's a real shitty situation. Any chance of getting another girl over to male her jealous?
