Something /b/ is good for
I am going to kill myself, /b/. It's not for attention. I've been diagnosed with stage 5 cancer (stage 5 is when your stage 4 cancer, the highest stage, develops it's own new cancer. I'm joking. It's a defense mechanism).
Anyway, I have boneitis, basically. My entire life is pills and pain and I don't have long.
The stupid state I live in doesn't allow physician-assisted suicide so I've decided to off myself on livestream in the most ridiculous way possible. That won't be today, but once I get the best ideas and everything together, I'll make a new post on /b/. /b/ because I can trust that some /b/tard will record and redistribute my political protest on request.
So what I'd like from you are the most weird suicides you can imagine. I might do one you come up with, or several at once.
What I won't do: 1) hurt anyone else. 2) traumatise children 3) anything with a gun, only because I don't have one and don't want to wait out the waiting period only to be rejected.
Be as brutal as you like. Pain is beyond the point right now.
Get into a difficult yoga position (putting your legs behind your head or something) and roll around until you snap your neck.
>>704007132
>I want to believe
>>704007410
Okay, okay, we're thinking. I might end up a vegetable but it's something I could work into the final plan.
How about this. I will try to implement something from every trip post.
Allright follow the steps closely:
- Buy razorwire, superglue
- make noose out of razorwire
- stand on stool with razorwire noose around neck
- superglue your hands to the sides of your head
- jump off stool to get enough momentum to slice clean through
Voila you ripped your own head off
>>704007462
I wish, buddy. I loved life and I'll miss it. Not the last 8 months or so though.
>>704007597
I read this somewhere else, but it's clever. A solid start. Maybe I could try to get my headless body into a yoga pose somehow.
I will have a friend filming, so that's a possibility.
>I am going to kill myself
>It's not for attention.
Pick one.
>>704007523
B-But I had some good ideas, and I probably won't get trips.
>buy an aggressive dog, a lot of olive oil, and a kiddy pool
>fill pool with oil
>fight to the death with dog in pull, with a lil bit of rape here and there
>>704007769
Good point. It is for attention to the cause of legalizing physician assisted suicide so folks like me can die in dignity. It is not, however, designed to win fake internet points on /b/
>>704007843
It's okay. I'll hear you out. Ultimately, I'm looking for best ideas.
Go to the zoo, jump in the tiger pit and find the biggest tiger, tea bag it, and smack it in the face with your dick.
>>704007843
That said, A) I wouldn't be much of a match for a dog right now. Think elderly old man. I'm not, but my body acts that way, fighting every movement.
Also, I love dogs.
somewhere you can drive really fast, once you reach a high speed try climing onto the roof of your car and jump in front of it effectively running yourself over
>>704007964
I like!
>>704008013
Hmm, again, think of a decrepit old man. I'm not going to be able to fight that wind. But I could jump out the door into an abyss perhaps.
>>704008013
The deed was agreed
and so speed was of need
that would lead to being freed
>>704008222
Trips has spoken.
So I guess something along the lines of speeding car should be involved. I'll have to think about the logistics of filming. The person filming is going to use the cam on his phone, and I want a fantastic image. Hmmm...
>>704008355
Spoon feed your ass Hydrofluoric acid.
>>704008630
I could chug it. Where do I get it? Maybe car batter acid?
>>704008733
>spoon
>feed
>your
>ass
It will melt you, chugging it wouldn't be ass funny.
>>704008826
But might I just melt off my mouth and still be alive? And again, where do I find it? Pool supply stores?
>>704008355
Get towed behind a very fast moving car on one of those disability mobility scooter things, do some mad drifts and then sling yourself off into a deep valley or like into a wall headfirst. Maybe set yourself or the scooter on fire too. If you have access to explosives of some sort, you can try to run into those instead of a wall/valley so that you can go out with a bang and rest in pieces
>>704008921
And I'm not saying I won't do it. I just want to be sure not to end up in hospice making my family deal with even more hospital bills.
>>704007132
Take some sleeping pills and put a bag over your Head.
>>704008921
I don't know, it's an extremely corrosive substance used to melt metal. Where would you get that?
>>704008921
>spoon
>feed
>ass
Sneak into a Gorilla enclosure at the Zoo with dildos taped all over you screaming dicks out for harambe
>>704008959
Amazing! I have one of those. So, here's a thought. I'll do a yoga lotus position on the scooter, set it on fire, and run it into a pool of acid.
I can't have someone tow me because that gets them in trouble.
>>704008977
You seen Breaking Bad? Because Hydrofluoric acid is what they use to turn bodies into soup.
>>704009058
Harambe happened the day after I was upgraded to stage 3. Sad.
>>704009096
Oh true that. You could try customising the scooter to get it to reach high speeds, I'm pretty sure you'd be able to find someone capable of getting it to to fsirl fast. Also maybe chuck in a few fireworks somewhere, just for that extra boom. Maybe have a Mariachi band playing in the background too?
>>704009096
>pool
This shit will melt your pool, nigga.
>>704009163
A) no. I haven't. B) Even if I had, that still wouldn't help me find some. But I'm thinking car battery acid instead, becase I can find that easy.
>>704007132
Take out a large loan, take it out in cash.
For example, say you get 10k, take it to Vegas, live stream yourself putting it on one blackjack hand.
If you win, spend it on drugs, hookers, gambling and OD in Vegas.
There was a thread years ago with similar circumstances, If you loose, get into a car chase so it's televised, then drive off a cliff with a giant "Hitler did nothing wrong" or "Bernie 2020" parachute which has a makeshift noose attached to it.
Dont do it :(
>>704009264
Now here's progress! Mariachi would have to be on tape because I don't want any more people who know beforehand than the few I trust or someone might try to stop me.
But Mariachi on a boombox. I don't know that I have time to soup up the scooter, but I know a place with a steep ramp that might get me going. And razor wire around my neck tied to the scooter so I behead myself.
I'm glad I came here. I think a plan is coming together. I'll hang around to see if there are any other great additions, but I like this plan.
And so you know, I'm aiming for next week Friday, the 23rd, posting the livestraem at about 8p.m. and dying around 9. So keep your eye out then if you want to see what this becomes.
>>704009461
Why? Dude. I'm not sad. I'm killing myself because I'm going to die soon anyway and am in constant pain and want to protest my state's negligence in not letting me die with dignity.
>>704008355
Alright. Here ya go - a take on the other anon's post about decapitation:
>Tie wire around your neck
>Tie wire to long rope, tie to telephone pole
>Drive car fast
[It's been done before]
Do this in front of a hospital or your Dr's office.
Make sure to leave youtube explaining you're doing it for exposure for euthanasia.
If ur really going to do this which i hope u dont because suicide is a horrible idea dont involve any animals killing you because they will probably be killed afterwards... :( dont do any of this suicide tho pls
>>704009688
>Do this in front of a hospital or your Dr's office.
>Make sure to leave youtube explaining you're doing it for exposure for euthanasia.
Can add this part. Smart. But I don't want the guy filming to get caught, so I'll have to think of the logistics.
By the way, does anyone know what kind of plastic I'd need to house a kiddy-pools worth of car battery acid?
I like the idea of taking out a large loan and maxing out credit cards. Have you considered this. Has there ever been anything you've really wanted to do or something. Have you considered Cancer options overseas. I don't know. It must really suck but I know of people who have gone on to beat cancer. Anyway, that shit really sucks.
>>704009645
Do you live in London? Then I have a great plan
>>704009776
Again, I'm going to. It's asshats like you who won;t let me die a peaceful death surrounded by family, so think about that.
However, I'm with you on the animals thing.
>>704009840
Um, they ask for medical records. They've got that shit locked. I'm so far in debt with the hospital bills too. Not an option, unfortunately.
>>704009870
Not OP but I work in London and would be up for doing something neet with OP the faggot
What about family or friends? Do u really want to take away the time they can still have with you :(
>>704009870
I do not. But what's your plan?
Trip the fuck out on a high dose shrooms or lsd to gain a new aspect of life before ending it
Or even do all this while peaking
I dont want to take anything away from you op... I just hope u think about this again and maybe realize that life is still precious... See im worried about u... Not trying to annoy u or anything
>>704009993
Let me give you an idea what my time with family and friends is like right now:
>Imma miss you anon. Be brave. God's plan
>K. Pass me thoes oxys, would ya?
>I'll be seing you in the clouds. There;s nothing to fear.
>Oh yeah? Why not come with me then?
See, I'm being mean to the people I love because there's nothing but pain.
>>704009560
Glad to hear that you've been liking my ideas OP! Okay I've got one last suggestion, more of a plan to incorporate as much as possible. Ride the mobility scooter down the ramp, whilst sitting in the most retarded way possible. Attach fireworks to the back and set them off or at least flares or if you can't get those just the set fucking thing on fire anyway, fire makes shit cool. Anyway, ride down the ramp, with Mariachi music in the background, and then with a loop of razor wire around your neck, crash the scooter into like a barrier of some sort with enough forward momentum so that your head is decapitated by the razor wire, and have a pool of acid over the barrier so hopefully your head falls into it and melts away, and all that will be left is a broken mobility scooter on fire with a headless body and Mariachi music in the background.
>>704010122
Dude, the stuff I'm on trumps any of that. And I'll be on it all come go time, trust me. And I'll blaze it beforehand too. Legally.
i dont know why you would want to make such a show of your death, if i had to commit suicide id free dive to 50+ m and never return
>>704010011
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gunpowder_Plot
Works for every country
>>704010281
Exactly. That's the plan now. All I need to know is how I can keep the acid from melting the container large enough to catch my head and maybe parts of my body/scooter. You are helpful anon. I like you.
>>704010288
bull shit....take a break through hit of dmt and then jump out of an aeroplane
The problem is.. If u believe in any religion maybe check what it says about suicide.. Look im sure u still have people that want u to live man :/
>>704007132
tear your own heart out
>>704007132
Drown yourself in a bathtub full of fanta or mayonaise. Which ever works out cheaper for you.
Do u really want to be remebered for commiting suicide by everyone you know? :(
>>704010458
The problem is you've never had stage 4 cancer.
If there is a god, Imma spit in his ugly eye. No one deserves this, and I've been on a ward with kids going through this shit. Kids who never learned to walk. You telling me I gotta respect a god like that? Fuck your religion man. Stuff it up your ass until you get stage 4 anything and still sing the same tune. Then maybe I'll listen. Though I'll be in your hell by then, dancing with the demons.
>>704010632
I want to be remembered as the guy with enough fire in his belly to wake everyone up to the dignified way for people in this much pain to go out.
>>704007132
>Go to a zoo
>Jump into gorilla pit
>Fight a silverback
>If you lose, mission accomplished. If you win, there'll be a world-wide manhunt for you.
Either way the gorilla dies too and is freed from his imprisonment. Oh and we get more memes.
>>704010594
Found the Juggalo.
>>704010281
It's getting too much to talk to the religion fags tying to talk me out of killing myself before I die, so here's the thing, I'm going to hang around to see if anyone else with ideas get trips, and if so, I'll try to work it in. Otherwise, I might comment on things that make me laugh. But I'm going to ignore moralfags.
Also, the plan is above. I just need to know what kind of container I can store the acid in, anyone?
And thank you kind anons for your great ideas!
>>704010430
No worries OP, also what timezone are you in because I wanna see this. I live in Australia so hopefully it will be a reasonable time. As for what plastics can hold such strong acids, I managed to find this just now:
* Store in a cool, dry place away from
incompatible materials. HF reacts with many
materials therefore avoid contact with glass,
concrete, metals, water, other acids, oxidizers,
reducers, alkalis, combustibles, organics and
ceramics.
* Store in containers made of polyethylene or
fluorocarbon plastic, lead, or platinum. Place
storage bottles in polyethylene secondary
containment trays.
>>704010853
Let me tell you how that would go down.
I'd have someone help me into the gorrilla pit, or I'd try to get there myself. I'd fall. End. Not very exciting and no fireworks.
There's a fireworks place near me. Any suggestions on the kind? I can probably work it out myself if not.
Boneitis?????
>>704011052
Central time in the US. I'm sorry. I doubt that's a reasonable time in Australia, but your time zones are very odd to me.
>>704011052
Oh, and thank you for the info. So polyethylene sounds like something I can find. Thank you!
>>704011149
A reference to one of my favorite shows. I'm glad I won't be missing any new seasons.
>>704011149
It's legit.
Bing it.
>>704011314
No worries, I'm sure I'll be able to work something out so I can see this great event unfold. And besides, if not, I'm sure I'll be able to find it after it's been saved shared by other anons. Also polyethylene is like 90% of plastics. The only issue would be getting the acid and finding a suitably sized container
>>704010458
shut the fuck up you goddamn ignorant retard. you''re trying to be a white knight but all you're being is a disrespectful dumbass that is belittling this guy's pain on your idiotic beliefs. trust in fairy tales all you want, just don't try to incite it in anyone in such a crude and pathetic manner.
>>704011621
I'm OP, and this! Thank you, anon.
drop hanging off a 900 ft bridge with an 800 foot rope
>>704011608
I know a guy who works at a junkyard. I'm guessing I can get the acid on the sly.
>>704007132
Rent a cabrio and a parachute, get a airsoft pistol, attach the parachute with a string on your neck , install a phone on it and make a fb Livestream, then search for a location with a cliff . Get the cops on your ass ( ram a copcar or report yourself ), then drive over the cliff and pull the parachute, it will rip your head off in the coolest stunt ever
Go out with a message about assisted suicide. Perhaps you death could get politicans and the news talking about it; you could change the fate of others like you.
>>704011762
If it fails, do suicide by cops
>>704007597
Have you ever seen a beheading? This wouldn't work unless he was going free-fall speed. Even then it's a crap shot.
If he jumped out of a plane like that, maybe. If he was 10 feet up and did that, no chance, the wire would go into his neck a bit, and he would most likely drown as his lungs filled with his blood.
Not a good way to go.
>>704011139
these small fireworks don't do much damage i'm afraid. unless there's gonna be a big event in your town in the next days that will have those massive fireworks, i'm sure you could do wonders with that.
>>704011762
Damn son! That sounds fun, but with a person much healthier and quicker than I, and with a camera crew.
>>704011806
that's what he plans.
>>704011752
Too easy then. Glad to be of assistance OP. I mean, if you're fucked one way or another, might as well make it big ending am I right
>>704011981
But you know most American media isn't very smart. It needs to be a bit obvious, otherwise it's just 'Guy kills himself, probably mental idiot.'
>>704011886
OP here. Actually, my lungs are already pretty shot. Look up bone cancer. There are many kinds with a whole lot of long words, but in the end, I've got the kind that spreads everywhere and also attacks the lungs. It's not pretty.
But any ideas on a better way for decapitation than razorwire then? Because I'd really like to be decapitated, 1)because of the spectacle but 2) because there's no way they could try to revive me from that.
We're talking, I'd say, a 20 ft ramp at about a 15 degree angle.
>>704011904
The fireworks are just for flare. I'm going to be on fire too.
>>704012084
No, >>704011981
is right. I plan to make the message abundantly clear in my note, in a speech before the act, in a letter to the local papers, in a letter to a whole lot of news orgs in case they actually cover it, and letters to congress, etc.
The whole point is to die not in vain, so if you have any other tips on that, I'm listening.
rent one of those airplanes that carry signs, make the sign be awareness of assisted suicide, tie a really long lope to the sign and your head. have a guy drive the airplane off the airway
best case scenario it snaps your neck instantly, worst case scenario you get dragged. either way it's pretty ridiculous AND the sign will make sure to let the media know about assisted suicide
>>704012328
That's funny. I can't swing it (ha) but that would be funny. I'll bet even if I could be on the runway, the pilot or someone would notice, and I wouldn't want to get them in trouble. But there isn't enough money for that either, I think.
How many people will be helping? Also, what's your favorite of the posted methods so far?
>>704012016
Thank you. And thank you for wanting to watch and maybe share. My biggest fear is that the news organizations will pussy out as they always do and not spread my message. So /b/ will become the best candidate I have for spreading awareness of the cause. It means a lot to me.
>>704007132
Try your absolute best to suck your own dick and keep bending till your neck snaps.
Just imagine the look on the cops face as they walked in and seen your cock in your mouth and your body entered into rigormortis and have to be buried with your dick in your mouth.
>>704013028
dude, he has boneitis. i'm sure that's out of cogitation
>>704013028
You're a gas! Can you imagine? But somehow this seems less ridiculous and more accidental.
>>704013172 also, as >>704013167 suggests, it would probably just look like I was looking up. Range of mobility, etc. Man would I love my dick sucked! Too late for that.
>>704012997
Hey it's a legit cause and something that will definitely attract attention. I mean if they ask for sauce I'll happily support the cause because if someone is in pain and wants to go on, it's their choice. Fuck all the moralfags n normies n shit
You should do any one of these methods in a birthday clown suit!
>>704013385
Wish we'd have known each other in better times. Live well, long, and healthy, anon.
>>704009439
That sounds like a great way to go. I will have to file that one away in the way to go pile.
>>704007132
what type boneitis do you have OP?
>>704013568
Okay. Added. It's near enough to halloween that the costume shops in the city near me should be open. So costume ideas are open, if anyone has anything better than birthday clown, though I won't cover my face. I want everyone to see my face as I tell them the message.
>>704013703
The back end of a two person horse suit with no front
>>704013599
I'm OP, anon. And I have to say, if you think you are unhealthy, do this. But as soon as you get hospitalized and the bills are processed, this is not an option. I so wish I had somehow known beforehand, and I would have sold everything and buried gold and made some kind of challenge to find it.
get the most amount of fireworks you can, strap them to a wheelchair, go to the biggest cliff near you and just go to town on that shit, blasting those fireworks with a clown suit and cape, have someone record you jumping off the cliff obviously, preferably with a very high quality camera so we can get some slow-mo shots
to be more ridiculous try to add crap like paint bombs while at it, so it looks cool.
>>704007132
>It's not for attention.
>redistribute my political protest on request.
It's obviously for some kind of attention if you're saying this. I think you should reconsider this decision and don't do it just because you have a political motive.
Anyway, good luck with whatever you decide on doing.
>>704013594
Yeah man, would've been pretty sick lol. Will do OP, will do
>>704013995
the point here is that he's suffering and want to end it. but while at it why not raise awareness to the problem at hand and who knows, he can actually make a difference even though he will be dead
it's not that hard to comprehend, idiot.
>>704013683
about 15 different kinds of osteosarcoma. And a few others in the mix. It started in my elbows, then my knees, and I thought, damn, I need to lose wieght. But I was. So I went to the doctor, which I hate doing, far too late. I went into remission breifly, but that didn't last, and then there was diagnosis after diagnosis and they threw so many words at me, I couldn't tell you at this point exactly what kinds of bone cancer I don't have. It's like hearing the worst news ever in your life and then scheduling times to come hear even worse news. Then there's hospital visit after visit and doctors talking to your family instead of you. It's just fucked, and it hurts talking about it, but yeah, that's how it started. I'm a pretty fucked individual, and no docs have any hope for me. They keep spitting out pain pills.
At least I'm off the chemo. That's one blessing to all this.
Here is what u do. First sit in mobility scooter in near impossible maneuver. Second get crazy big weird ass hat and fill top with as much thermite as possible. Third attach crazy big audio set up to scooter. Fourth roll scooter while blasting RIDE OF THE Valkyrie at max volume into the most crowded area possible. Fifth after song ends screamed ( who the fuck farted) than light termite and laugh loudly. End
>>704014390
With clown suit
>>704014327
did the doctors explain the cause? is it genetic? just random occurrence? something you did or didn't do so i can avoid that shit for good?
>>704014216
Well it won't make any difference.
>>704014545
Not making this a spider man thread, but fuck off.
you're a tough motherfucker, see you on the other side mate
>>704014517
They explain everything. I don't wish this on anyone, but their explainations are not specific. There's no way for them to tell exactly what caused the first tumor to start developing. There's no cancer outside of ovarian and skin cancer in my family history. My advice, live as you live and enjoy it. If you want to avoid cancer, don't smoke and don't sit out in the sun too long, but man, just enjoy some life.
In fact, after I do this, and you know I'm not kidding here, if you feel bad and want to honor me, just go out and live life. Just live it and feel it and love it. Just do the things you always thought you should have and don't worry about what people think.
Except hurting others. Don't do that you psychopath. I mean stuff you wanted to do to enjoy life that doesn't prevent others from enjoying theres. That's all. That is all the wisdom this 30-something year old man has for you (I won't give my age bc I don't want to be stopped).
>>704007132
Dress up as superman and throw yourself out of a plane over a large city.
>>704014638
Thank you.
>>704014545
Maybe not. But watch One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest. At least I can say I tried. What else am I going to do, waste away in this bed that is supposed to be my deathbed? No. My grandmother died in a bed, and I do not want that for me. I'm going to try to raise awareness that people should be able to die how they want, when they want, and not have to resort to the kind of theatrics I've been pushed to because of the stupid laws made by self-righteous asshats.
>>704014938
Hats off to u my friend when I make it to the other side let's meet up and we will both get rekt
>>704007132
Peace to you Anon. You'll find it. I hope this helps you somehow.
Where is the video going to be?
>>704015141
Superman I could do, but I like birthday clown better so far. As fas as what I'll do, see above. I'm rethinking the razorwire though as I want to be sure I'm beheaded, and some kind anon mentioned that razorwire might not to the trick.
>>704015301
Deal!
>>704015364
Better to live on your feet than die on your knees.
>>704014638
>>704015207
We have to be realistic here. It won't make any significant difference at all unless you have a large following in some way. That's unfortunately how the world works.
And here's my personal opinion; I think OP would be ridiculous if he kills himself for the main reason to promote his message, it's just childish when you think about what you're saying here OP.
>>704015381
I'm going to post a link to the live feed. See above, but it will start 8pm central time, Friday, 9/23 and I'll say my goodbyes and why I'm doing this for about an hour. I'll post the link on /b/ but I can't say where the link will be hosted or someone will trace me, I'm sure.
>>704015422
Thank you! In lieu of flowers, stay awesome.
>>704015572
We're just staring to see farewell parties that end in suicide that are allowed here in the west. I'm sorry OP is in a fucked up state. This sounds appropriate in more ways than one. It's hard for people who aren't going to drop dead to understand OP. Strength is okay.
>>704015482
/b/ will be my following. How often are there suicide threads from edgy teens? This one will actually deliver. The message will be carried on.
You can fuck off. If you're not a shill, you're acting like one. Consider my alternative. Dying from pain a few weeks later in my bed, having done nothing to spread my message.
So, yeah, based anon. Fuck you too. I still don't hope you get cancer, but please stub your toe really hard.
>>704015755
Thank you!
>>704015482
Kill yourself
>>704015846
See Violet and Daisy. Silly movie, but great on understanding the idea of not taking, "The Scenic Route." It's hard for people to understand pain on the level. Where it becomes unidentifiable.
>>704007132
You will find peace, i know from the point of view of the family how it feels
>>704015990
That is his plan ass hole
>>704014938
you seem like a pretty awesome fellow, sucks that this shit is happening to you. for all that matters, i hope that your message can make a difference in someone's life and i'll try to remember about this and what you said whenever i can, you're not dying in vain
Death is our last great adventure, quite literally.
>>704016186
This means a lot to me. Most of my family knows I plan to go out soon, but there are some who want me to waste away. It's good to know that family members of people in my position understand.
>>704016228
I think he was responding to the hater.
>>704016455
Not hard to understand. Hard to accept.
>>704016545
That makes sense.
>>704015207
>I'm going to try to raise awareness that people should be able to die how they want, when they want
This might seem like a good message, but it's obviously never going to get implemeted, which is why I said it's quite childish of you to even suggest this. I have been supportive and tried to help you in some way here by giving you suggestions and my opinions. You don't have get upset over this.
>>704016491
I was
>>704007132
>What the fuck anon
>>704016593
Just remember, not wanting you to do this is still caring. Even if it seems misguided to you, it's just an attempt at not accepting this fate for you. To say, we won't just give up. But it's different for you, and it's hard to accept for anyone that cares about you. You may not get them to, that's your road to take.
>>704016616
Really? Because Pratchett helped change the law. How exactly do you think you are helping me by telling me not to try? Idiot.
>>704015482
holy fuck you're such a self-righteous cunt. do you think you're on a pedestal? it's not honorable to live in suffering because of morality reasons. people that live through the channel of other people's comfort are not more respectable than the ones who just live. this guy is going through something you never experienced in your life and never will, yet you think it's cute to call his act "childish".
you're the fucking kid here. an inept pretentious douchebag that knows very little about the world you live in. if this guy is in suffering and wants to kill himself that's his call to make and his only. your judgment doesn't and shouldn't matter at all. and he decided that if he's doing it, might as well try leaving a good deed behind. there's nothing childish, nothing deplorable about that. it's a very respectable and sane attitude and you can go fuck off.
>>704016767
It's a choice you have to make OP, you leave these people here, to continue through the pitfalls. You'll find your peace, it's what you leave people with that you have to decide whether or not you care about. To some people this is everything. What does it mean to you? It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks in your situation. It belongs to you.
>>704016767
I know. And honestly, the people who I haven't told because I know they'll never understand and love me so much are the people who have been the farthest from this, the people who send the "get well" cards and have not dealt with the smells, the home nurses and their guilty stares over nothing, the piss and puke everywhere. Those people have distanced themselves, and while I love them, I know that those closest to me know what life at this point is really like. And they have stood by me, and know how strongly I wanted to go peacefully in their arms, the same grace my society allows a poodle without questioning "god's will."
>>704016772
Now I'm starting to understand why you are considering this decision. Is this how you talk to people in real life as well?
This is a 18+ board FYI.
>>704016933
Thank you!
>>704017076
What kind of God, right? You may just need an out from this, it's suffering. I feel that. I'm so sorry OP.
>>704017135
No. It's how I talk to pretentious morons over the internet. And I'm in my 30s. And going through what I'm going through, I'm going to allow myself those jibes at people like you. Stub your toe, moron.
>>704017200
The solutions stop coming. Keep your wits about you as long as you can. Stand by your convictions. You didn't come to this decision for no reason.
>>704017200
Thank you. Stay awesome.
>>704017354
None of us stay. Find some comfort in that.
>>704017445
Thank you, but actually, I'm happy to leave a brilliant nephew behind and a slew of young folks from my profession who will know that what I did meant something. I hope they'll stay around for a while to make the world a better place. I hope they'll learn from me what I could teach them in my better moments. I'm glad the world will go on, and hope very strongly it will get better.
>>704017616
Their still learning from you, even if this is the hardest lesson you teach.
>>704007597
u actually have no idea how the human body nor physics work
>>704017696
Thank you.
>>704016933
wisdom in /b/? what...
also checked.
>>704017753
Thank you OP. Your teaching people something right now.
>>704007132
>Anyway, I have boneitis, basically
I had that recently. Six months of chemo and a stem cell transplant seems to have fixed it up in my case.
I'm sorry to hear you caught a shittier strain.
Just FYI, I have a hospice nurse (a man, actually, who checks in on me to empty things and make sure I'm not dead yet) coming by at noon, so I'll probably leave at 11:00 in case he's early. I guess a sort of continuation of this/ama until then.
OP, let's say it's the 23th today. How many hours from this current time would you post on /b/?
I'm sure op wants more suggestions
>>704017963
I hope you stay in remission, anon. I hope to whatever god there is to hope to you stay in remission. Do NOT miss an apointment, man. Do not take anything for granted. And ignore all the docs who say tests are too expensive or not covered. They are the vultures! Ignore them and go straight to a private care to get checked out. Expensive now, but not compared to dying.
>>704018145
>23th
>No comment
>>704018146
Well, with 2 things. 1) costume. I'm not sold on birthday clown bc I won't hide my face which seems to diffuse it, and 2) How to decapitate myself down the ramp without involving anyone else. I won't get anyone else in troulbe over this.
>>704018193
May you find your release. Suffering is never deserved. And in your case OP, you deserve peace. Hope you know that.
>>704018145
First off, >>704018306 is not me. Second, it's 10:36am here now.
>>704018306
You should calm down, I'm sure you've accidently spelled something wrong in your life as well.
>23rd
>>704018394
I sure do. And I'm gonna put on one hell of a show to make sure others have more peace in the future. I'd have loved to die a week ago with all my fam when the little ones were still on break and I could say proper goodbys to all. But I'm going to do my best to make sure everyone else in the future has that right.
>>704018335
Fronkensteen, then!
>>704018522
Relax /b/ro it's just a jk
>>704018554
Keks from me. But again, I wonder how that communicates without the face makeup. I mean there's the bolts, but I actually taught Frankenstein before and there are no bolts in that book, man. I'd be mortified.
>>704018193
Luckily I bought the stupid expensive health plan from my work and they tanked the costs in my case.
Lost use of an arm for months not knowing what was going on before they found it. And yeah, I'm hoping it stays in remission. Got kids to take care of and all that.
On another note, have you ever felt your scrotum feel so smooth as after chemo takes the hair off your nob? I'm gonna have to figure how to shave that shit in the future. It's glorious.
/ I hope you can get you some sex if it doesn't hurt too much, man
>>704018401
Fair enough man. I won't be able to contribute to the discussion if you decide to do it at that time. Nonetheless, I'd personally carefully think through this decision again to see if it's 100% what you want to do.
Good luck anon.
>>704018713
Unfortunately, it does hurt too much. I blame the meds.
But yeah, lols to the benefits of chemo. Your body feels like magic in your clothes and you can smoke weed without as much paranoia. It really is sublime after the puking and all.
>>704018945
Thank you for your good wishes. Trust me, before I decided on this post, I thought through things a billion times. I have a friend who will record this, and that wasn't easy. The friend is good, but deciding to let someone in on it who I know isn't going to betray me, that was a hard decision.
Hey OP, it's that anon who suggested all the shit about mobility scooters and fireworks and Mariachi bands n shit. Thinking back on it, I'm not sure if you'll be going fast enough to decapitate yourself. The razor wire wouldn't cut through the bone and that is going to really fucking hurt. If you can be bothered, i think maybe using a circle saw and fixing that at the end of the ramp could work.
OP, I wish you luck, man. You seem like an awesome guy.
>>704018707
Ideas: Dracula, Willy Wonka, Sexy Cowboy, Naked!, Steve Urkel, Fat Albert.
>>704019091
Oaky. If you read through the other messages, you'll see someone else had a doubt about that too. I'm not sure I can rig up a circular saw. Other thoughts? And thank yo again.
>>704019139
Sexy cowboy. If you could see me, anon. Sexy isn't happening. But cowboy, maybe..
This is humanity laughing in the face of death
>>704019310
>There's a snake in my boot!
>decapitated
I have inherited a sword like thing, what's it called, goes on the end of a machine gun. My father had one during nam, though he was stationed in Germany. He brought it home and when he passed, it came to me. I could use that, but I'd need a way to rig it to decapitate me. Also they sell machette's at the Menard's which is a harware superstore for non-US people.
>>704018946
Fuck.
Okay, let me try to be helpful, then.
Get somewhere to let you skydive solo as a last request. Pots and pans in the backpack instead of a chute.
It'll look good on camera.
>>704019546
Man, if I had time to send out for a gopro, the places I could go...
But I'm pretty set on the plan, but thank you.
>>704010198
>if you should die before me ask if you could bring a friend
>>704019748
I wish a swift painless death on anyone before what I'm going through. There are some advantages like I can tell the people I love goodbye, but the rest far outweighs that. Smiley emoji.
>>704019221
Lol do you mean a bayonet? And that won't be very good at decapitating. Bayonets are used for stabbing, not cutting. Essentially what you need is something sharp and heavy that you can put a decent amount of momentum behind. Depending on the size of the machette, it might be too flimsy to cut through cleanly. If a decapitation doesn't work first go, it's going to be ridiculously painful, probably far worse than anything you've had so far, and it would also leave your friend traumatised if he had to finish the job, so if you're going to include, I highly suggest getting it right. If you had access to guns, you could've set a trip wire do that a shotgun blows your head off, but since you seem to be set on decapitation, and the hope that the head falls into the acid pool, you're going to need the equivalent of a guillotine to do it cleanly
>>704007132
Well, everyone, /b/ has let me down a few times, but today was not one of those times. As I said, a nurse will be coming around soon and so I'll put all this up. But special thanks to all the well wishers, and specific thanks to >>704019091 who really came through. Again, don't miss out. If you can, catch the other side of this starting at 8pm Central Standard US time, when you'll see a post on /b/ with the same pic as this one on September 23rd. I'll have to figure out the decapitation thing, but I think I'll go with the birthday clown outfit with a cowboy hat.
Until then, those who are awesome, stay awesome. And those who try to shame the suffering into suffering more, please read through this thread again and think about what you are really asking of those of us who really suffer.
And to the haters, as always, fuck you too. Stub your toe hard and long.
Bye.
>>704020169
Thank you. I will try to figure this out soon. Best.
>>704020553
Cya OP, I'll be making sure to catch the livestream, need to see our great plan come to fruition.
Damn, this is pretty sad.
I'd suggest an overdose or something painless if you're really gonna do this.
>>704020803
And to say good bye to a close new friend
>>704020455
Go glorious, you sick motherfucker.
>>Kill yourself.
/b/ will remember.
>>704020987
Yeah that's a pretty big rip. OP is cool