Where's my feels thread at?
I'd love some good feels right now
>>703961460
im feeling feelsy tonight fellas. jsut might feel ya up if you give me a chance.
this ones my new favorite. im on a sort of 'positive' feels trend atm
>>703961509
two yeras ago i started working for a psychic and hes kinda helped me reframe the way i see life.
>>703961542
his approach to everything is spiritual, and about personal growth
>>703961570
dont get me wrong there's been some sad moments, some tough moments.
>>703961601
i had brain damage earlier this year. lost a lot of friends. now i kinda see which ones are the real friends.
>>703961683
but because I lost them I got to focus on making new friends, and that's been a lot of fun too.
>>703961725
with these new friends I'm able to have real conversations about life. my last friends were great for fun, but it was hard to get past the surface. it really showed when the brain damage hit and they just never checked in on me for over a month.
>>703961791
i had a relapse in july, and it was scary, but since then my brain seems to be better than ever. i went to a nude hot springs last week, and there was a slack line, and i managed to go father than anyone there
>>703961855
memory was shit, but since recovering i feel it coming back. its not perfect but things dont just escape the orbit of my brain anymore .still have trouble connecting some dots from before the brai ndamage though.
>>703961926
the hardest part has been writing. I fancy myself a writer, usually scripts that i then film and edit
>>703961683
Had a TBI years ago. Quickest way to find out who you can rely on, even if it's not that bad.
>>703962078
i filmed a mini series last year. five episodes. its all gone now. had three episodes edited. every single shot was greenscreened so it was a lot of hard work down the drain.
>>703962162
when i first starte writing again, it was bad. i still understood story structure and was even more on point with that then before.
>>703962226
but when it came to writing out the scripts, it was a nightmare, my worst stuff since middle school
>>703962275
there was one script i wrote, about 50% before the brain damage. started again after i had 'healed. you could tell. the second half just made no sense. it was a mess.
>>703962378
one of my friends sent a scripst i wrote for fun (a joker fan film, dont judge) to one of his producer friends though, and he really liked it.
>>703962461
he offered to fund it, and asked that i expand it to a trilogy of short films
>>703962506
he loved aprt 2 and said if part 3 holds up, he'll fund all three. I just finished the first draft yesterday adn im really nervous.
>>703962562
the first two parts were written pre brain damage, and though I've written one 'okay' script since recovering, part 3 is the first really big cohesive hting im tackling
>>703962626
its also reallllly out of my element. its one giant 20 page scene. Usually I can fit an entire episode of content in that.
>>703962692
but i finished the first draft of it, and it feels like the ifrst time im REALLY writing since getting better.
>>703962738
its nice bcause honestly without these projects, I have nothing. I mean i have friends, family, an AMAZING job
>>703962789
but hwen i come home, and im alone, there's nothing for me to do. i dont enjoy tv or movies or video games or anything like that. for the last 10 years all I did when i got home was work on one of my projects
>>703962855
it scares me that i was so bored with nothing to do in recovery. i simply existed. id be excited to finally leave work, then id come home and do nothing.... i didnt even have anyhting to post about
People only think of me as a school shooter/ columbine type character. No one cares about what I have to say, and it doesn't matter how I say it. This is the first impression any one has of me before I say a word. There is nothing I can do to avoid it.
>>703962952
writing this script has re ignited the fire in my brain, and i need to follow it through. I got notes from the friend who gave it to the produver and am ready to redraft.
>>703963006
but its time i dedicated myself to another series. im meant to tell over arching stories (even if they're not the best ones). so im reviving my failed project and starting over again.
>>703962855
he looks like the type of kids that bullied me in high school
>>703963093
its a bit scary. but im excited to see what i come up with. i just wish i could get someone to commit to spitballing ideas with right fucking now
>>703963177
but all my friends have the notes and by next week im sure we'll be talking ideas.
>>703963218
in the meantime i have enough of episode 1 and 2 to get started writing. i just wish it was a team work process like my first project
>>703963290
but i can start tonight, and thats all that matters. I just can't wait to tell a complete story again. I miss that.
That's all i got. thank you to anyone who read. if anyone else wants to post to keep thread alive, that'd be lovely.
>she isn't coming back
>>703962091
mine wasnt traumatic technically, just my brain stem being all out of place indefinitely, but yeah. it really does help you figure it out.
my supposed best friend didnt even text me for a month. and when he did all he said was 'wanna play board games this weekend?'
>cant
didnt hear from him for another two months.
>>703962992
but if its not actually you, then you can change it. i get that a lot too though. mostly from 4cha ntrolls when i post pictures of my face, but i get it.
i think you're being too hard on yourself. it sounds alittle like you enjoy it.
>>703963101
hes the guy from 1 direction
>>703963434
my favorite scene from buffy
>no friends
>no family
>no weapons
>take that away, and whats left
>-swipes at buffy with the sword-
>-she catches it by the fuckign blade-
>-opens eyes-
>me
>>703962855
Jesus these types of pictures always get me
>>703964029
hes smiling with a big old cake that someone spent a lot of time on.
how many birthdays you spend forcibly alone though? and i mean forcibly, not 'OH I TELL PEOPLE I DONT LIKE BIRTHDAYS AND THEN GET MAD WHEN THEY BELIEVE ME'.
Story time.
For a while, at the start of this year I began to find sex sad. Wasn't anything sad about having sex or watching pornography but there was a longing.
I started to feel guilt because of the people I was sleeping with. I felt like I owed them some kind of emotional investment when I didn't feel anything. It's been months since I've last been remotely intimate with someone and I have my reasons...
At the start of the year I had just lost everything. My house, my girlfriend who had just passed away and my job. Every day felt like a regret because I knew I could have stopped it all from happening. Even today I still hold a deep regret.
From time to time I revisit my memories of being with my deceased girlfriend and remember how she was the only one who believed in me. Genuinely. She wouldn't be quick to point out my flaws, she'd always love me for who I was. She'd always leave love notes and little letters which made me so happy.
A few months ago, I'd finally gotten an apartment and stopped living with what few friends I had left. One night I came home and everything hit me. After reading through her letters, realizing how happy she made me and how my life is not even worth living, I realized something else...
Melancholy is the most beautiful. It's bitter-sweet yet the sadness hitting you, realizing how wonderful and beautiful a thing, person or memory is and never being able to have them again... It's a world I live in. I'm happy but there's a sadness so deep inside me that I don't think I can ever be happy again.
When you're with someone so perfect... It's like a standard. Nobody will ever be them.
>>703964254
Bullshit. That smile is contrived and you know it. I mean look how uncomfortable ge looks.
>>703964819
sounds like hindsight bias.
in the moment you didnt care for them at all. then you read letters that guilted you into thinking you were happy.
you can and will be happy again. humans were not designs to fixate on a single romantic partner their entire life.
>>703964977
looks bittersweet to me, but who am i to say? but then again, who are you to say? it looks to me like he just had a long day, got home and everyones singing the happy birthday song so hes a little embarrassed waiting for it to end with a half smile cuz of the awkward.
then the flash catches his eye in just a way that makes it look watery instead of just reflective.
>>703964992
Perhaps... It was a very intense and very intimate relationship. I know my fears and self-doubt got the better of me.
>>703965176
it happens. im not saying you werent happy iwth her, i think you like to exaggerate your feelings on every end of the perspective. most people do. they want every moment to be intense, every episode to be their 'season finale'.
you loved her. you enjoyed her. but either something wasnt right with her or something wasn't right with you.
now you're alone, and not used to it and nostalgic.
theres feels in there without building them up to be the biggest moments.
Whaddup my sad Bros.
I'll bump with my story.
Just fuck falling in love guys.
This summer was shit. In may me and my girlfriend went on break. It was a mutual decision because I was convinced that it would make us a better couple.
I wasn't always the best boyfriend. I mean I love her unconditionally and did everything I could to show her that. I was the nicest person to her and was there in the best and worst of times. but I was still a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. And I think the days before we went on break that's when it started to hit me. How much of a let down I was and how accomplished she is I started getting worried that she wanted to replace me and became overbearingly jealous to the point where we got into an big fight. I have been sslowly getting my shit together using my alone time to get into school, get a drivers liscense and make some new friends. Seeing her here and there but when we see eachother I feel the spark is gone. What we had just isn't there and I know she feels it to. She's probably found someone else or at least wants to. We're both young and fell in love as teenagers so I can see overtime why she'd get sick of me. Everyone else in my life has so it's nothing new.
We were supposed to meet up last fridge and talk. I was going to call her out on some shit and break up with her just cause there's so much better for her and it's best for us.
She sure as hell seems to be getting along without me
She hasn't replied to me at all since last fuckinf Thursday when we made plans.
I'm just a mix of emotions. I'm sad and angry and idk what hurts more keeping her around or letting her go.
I've been just focusing on myself lately getting college together and even finally got a gym membership but I still csnt shake this.
Should I just wait for her to text me or should I go in for the kill?
Ugh fuck. Pic someone related.
>>703965122
From the looks of it through the reflection, It seems that "everyone" is limited to a very small group. Judging by the size of that cake, it seems like he was expecting more people to show.
>>703965489
That's a very compelling answer... Perhaps you're right. Definitely a side I've not heard before.
>>703965722
Sorry for the long read. And my shitty typing. Btw
>>703959980
I have a major crush on someone, have for the last 9 months. The thought of him can motivate me, calm my anger, lower my anxiety, etc. All positive changes I've made in the last 9 months, I owe at least partially to him.
I told him I admire him, which I do, several months ago. Last night, I texted him telling him that I had feelings for him, and if he didn't feel the same that was fine, I just wanted him to know. He didn't answer.
I feel so lost. I haven't heard from him in a while. I didn't expect him to answer last night, but I miss him. We've never flirted or anything. He's just so amazing to me. He was my light.
I'm not mad at him, I probably never will be. I don't know what hurts more, losing someone who I looked up to so greatly and who made me feel... sane, or knowing that I don't mean as much to him as he does to me.
>>703965751
>group
>small
are you kidding me mate? if thats the case then hes just being a whiny faggot. it only takes two to have a good birthday (assuming you didnt want to spend it alone).
i think thats the issue with people like you. its the actual definition of a pessimist. a 'small group' isnt enough to be happy about.
half full man. half full.
>>703965826
were all just here to roll around in our feels. i certainly am. sorry if i distracted from that.
it does feel nice to wallow, especially when its bittersweet.
>>703965892
its okay, we stopped reading after
>fuck falling in love
>>703966189
Fair point. But fuck what I said about small group, through some meticulous reverse image searching, apparently no one (besides the one who took the picture) came to his 16th birthday party. But hey at least he got his picture taken. Better than just having google wishing you happy birthday.
>>703966736
sure, but was this really about what he was experiencing, or what you were projectin?
>>703966822
Maybe a bit of both. Just feelsbadman to see people who want better get nothing. But fuck all that because our birthday boy here is Liam Payne, some singer. So now he can get all the birthday wishes he wants.
Also chek'd.
just got dumped
he told me that he just wanted to be friends with benefits.
its really obvious that it was my fault he stopped likeing me. Im going to his house today till sunday anyway cause Im to much of a beta bitch too tell him to go do one.
I thought I found the perfect girl. Someone who truly understood me. It turned out she was just leading me to a dead end road. I didn't know how hurtful a person can truly be before her. Is this really what life is all about? Brief moments of happiness and long pauses of loneliness and depression?
Tldr: I wanted the feels now I hate the feels
>>703967442
i think a lot of people claim they want better but prefer to feel like the victim.
a lot of people say 'birhtdays dont really matter, i dont like birthdays' then get mad when no one throws them a surprise party for the fifth year in a row.
How do you know when enough is enough? More to the point, how do you stop something you've been doing for so long, seeing less and less value in it but still being emotionally tied to it? Something you've worked at for years with little results?
>>703965722
Just let her go.
let water flow
let it embrace you
let it envelop you
let water flow
let it drown your pain
let it rinse away regret
let water flow
let every drop be a window, light within light without
let every stream be a door, open to new
let water flow
let water be time, continuous and eternal
let water be time, changing and fleeting
let water flow
>>703967847
the native americans had a spirit totem for the bobcat that taught those under its guidance how to be 'alone without being lonely'.
this isn't to say that they were meant to be forever alone, hermits, permavirgins or anything like that. just that they needed to be able to appreciate time on their own more.
if you can be happy on your own, than a break up is just another bump in a road.
regardless you should stop investing so much in relationships and more in you. romance is the most fragile of all the human relationships, yet people act all surprised when they end. people honestly manage to convince themselves that this ones going to be different each and every time, and are shocked when it turns out to be like every other relationship: temporary.
but if you are lonely and depressed anyitme you're single, you need to reevaluate what makes you happy.
been single four years, and i seem to be the only guy in this thread not whining.
>>703968133
depends on what it was.
>>703967679
if he had the audacity to say he just wants to be fwb after legitimately dating you, then hes either massively retarded or you guys werent dating that long and he never actually liked you.
>>703968201
Let's say....studying Japanese with the hopes of living and working there, but seeing/realizing that your decision to do so negatively affected your life in a number of subtle (but still viable) ways.
>>703968368
you think about what you actually DO in life.
and use japan as a vacation spot.
About two years ago I met a girl that I near instantly fell in love with. She was amazing in every way. I worked up the courage to talk to her, and we got to be sort of kind of friends I guess. About 3 months ago she gave me her number- I had been talking to her through other apps earlier. Talking with her calms me down and makes me feel a lot better about myself. I don't talk to he about the REAL shit, but we just talk and have these great simple conversations that were, at least for me, super memorable.
I'm now at a crossroads and don't know what to do. I want to ask her out, I really do, but I also don't want to take the risk and possibly ruin a good sort of friendship or make things awkward in the group we're in. I feel like I'm now condemned to either hold my mouth forever and never say what I have wanted to for a while, or I risk losing her from my whole life. I have a feeling that something is going to happen withing the next few months, so I'm scared.
>>703968634
What if all you *can* do 'is' Japanese, and that's the result of having done nothing but study it constantly (as well as an internship)? Do you keep going, or stop and do/start something else?
>>703968824
not sure what you're getting at man. its not all you CAN do. you can do whatever you want. explore new things hwile studying japanese. then go vacation there when the time comes.
>>703968824
also, its really telling that the chart of life only breaks up 'play' and 'school' with love as opposed to any other meaningful development.
>>703968159
I just want to love someone and care about someone. I want someone to care about me. Deep down I know that I have to just learn to love myself. It's easier to say that I will do it than actually doing it. I always end but up in these failed temporary relationships to distract myself from my true problems.
God damn I need to motivate myself
>>703968999
It's funny; I did just that last year (go on a vacation), but I can't this year because I'm...broke. Only went to Japan on the way back; was in an airport for 1 and a half hours.
>>703969060
Well, it is just hormonal after all. "Love," I mean.
>>703962139
Where is this from? I don't get it.
>>703969061
>someone
thats kind of the problem here. you don't actualyl want someone. you want anyone. anyone who fits the basic requirements that you can drop these feelings on and take feelings from. you (and a lot of people) have managed to reduce relationships to an itch. something you need to scratch. and its hard not to with the way our culture is currently built.
>its easier said than done
so is literally everything. never say this again. ever. its like saying 'yeah, but doing something requires effort'. its life. if you want to start the journey, start now. its definitely easier said than done, but like everything else in life, there is no reason not to do it anyway.
>failed temporary relationships
heres another problem. its like i said in the last post, all relationships are temporary. they cant be failed simply for being temporary. they are jsut relationships, wiht varying lifespans but like all they have to end.
so stop thinking of them in 'fail' simply because they end. think of what you gained and learned and enjoyed for them. just cuz ur mom dies doesn't mean all thsoe childhood memories are pointless. just cuz you break up doesn't mean you have to forget those good times.
>>703969175
not to the person who made that or the people who respost it. they've decided love is the most important thing, the only noteable thing that happens outside of work and play.
>>703969356
A Silent Voice. Girl was bullied for being deaf in elementary school, and her main bully is trying to make it up to her in high school. It's a good read at only seven volumes. Lots of sads, though
>>703969521
Thanks anon, this actually made me feel a lot better. Sincerely, Thank you.
>>703968154
"Water"? What a funny way to spell "cheap booze"
>>703969619
Saucerino please?
>>703970154
once you start breaking down these things and understanding what they are, it becomes easier to move on. the whole bobcat thing was how i started my journey.
the whole conversation reminds me of this particular image i think:
>>703961509
>>703970460
a silent voice
>>703970556
I'm retarded, am I not?
>>703970642
just a weeeeeee bit man.
but i had brain damage so...
>>703968651
Next time you're alone with her check the way she acts around you and then compare it to how she is around other people. Women generally give little hints if they are into you
>>703970537
Talking these thing out instead of just thinking about it over and over again makes everything more "manageable." It's stupid now to think that I actually had a real long hard thought of offing myself and just giving up on life.
>>703971232
we all get them as passing ideas. I'm the happiest guy i know and the idea pops in all the time. usually moments of weirdness, and like you said, when im thinking about it over and over. i like posting in these threads cuz it inevitably just makes me talk about what is good in my life. after the brain damage, its all been uphill, kinda re exploring parts that were already there, but making them work again. im lucky in that sense.
>>703970888
Not always true mang. Sometimes they're just as scared to make the first move.
>>703970888
or just ask her fucking out. worst case scenario, its out of your system and you can move on. best case scenario, >tfw gf
>>703966161
Are you homosexual?
>>703966161
im going to tell you the same thing i tell men. your job is to switch around the genders.
>she only makes you a 'better man' if you are still a better man when she leaves. otherwise, she only made you a fraud
>which will you be?
>>703971897
>sorry home of sexuals
>only straight men can handle this ass
>>703972059
It was such a simple question.
>>703972222
nnice quads. just reminded me of a funny image.
>>703971897
No.
>>703959980
Isn't that one of HKE album covers?
Just give me your hand
And we can pretend
That nothing changed
It's all the same
And everything remained in place
>>703972016
I am better. I'm not going to lose what he helped me to build. He may not be in my life anymore, but he did inspire me and he did help me make very powerful changes.
To lose that, I feel, would be to disrespect the time and effort he gave me. I won't do that.
>>703972628
maybe it would be a disrespect to the time and effort you gave yourself. learn to read.
>>703959980
I'm matter but I don't matter
>>703972294
t-thank you anon.
>>703972351
>>703971897
I'll give some more context, actually. No, I'm not homosexual. I'm female. However, my orientation isn't relevant because althouh I was attracted to him, that never became a major factor between us.
The appeal that he held for me, the thing that really made him amazing, was that he was the kind of person I want to be. He was patient, kind, disciplined, and independent. He was confident but not arrogant.
He had my admiration and my trust in a way that only one other person ever has. Now he's left me.
>>703973333
How can he leave you if you were never his to leave?
>>703973798
you can leave people in a non romantic sense. you act as if people are only ever 'there' if they say 'i love you'.
>>703973333
sick quads, homo.
>>703973926
I never mentioned anything about romance. You can apply my statement to friends as well. Just because you were under the impression the two of you were friends, doesn't mean he felt as strong about it.
I can remember when my days consisted of a short time at school and then going on adventures with my friend for fucking hours until it was basically bed time. Nowadays I mostly sit at home and play vidya when I've got some spare time, I don't really enjoy it that much anymore
>>703974572
Life really isn't worth living anymore. It is just motions. Things need to change.
All i want in life is for my dad to contact me and say he is proud of me
>>703974572
Find new hobbies bro. I learned how to box and play guitar when vidya couldn't keep my interest.
>>703974950
Fuck that shit nigger. Don't do anything for anyone elses recognition. If your dad is like mine and chimped out on the fam, then he's a piece of shit not worthy of your thoughts.
thank you for this feel thread.
my gf dumped me and the last thing she said to mewas, i still love you, good bye.
what
>>703974760
bruh, right in the feels
I wish my dad didn't work away for weeks at a time when I was growing up while my alcoholic mom pushed me out. He wanted me to succeed but could never be there to help me.
>>703975366
Wait wut? Did she leave the country? How is that an acceptable way to break up wtf
>>703974449
Wasn't me, but I say that he left me as in he left my life. He's no longer in contact with me, by his choice.
>>703975476
Time to start helping yourself nigger. Be a successful guy, just do it your way.
>>703966161
It sucks but you can't expect people to feel attracted to you just because you are attracted to them. Also try to depend less on other people to feel motivated or else your life will suck.
>>703974889
Change doesn't mean improvement
>>703975188
I have no idea what else I should do
>>703975539
she is attending a school in another town. I guess she didn't want a long distance relationship, even though she's only 2 hours away from me. I don't have a single bad memory about her and she has none about me. Life got in the way in guess.
>>703975674
I'm trying. Really pushing towards owning my own business once I get my credit at that right spot.
there's this girl that's got me drowning in the feels and I told her and since she was rather fresh out of a relationship she basically told me that she just needed some time. I respected that and idk as time went on I got the fees harder, she's not my gf but I get jealous and I love spending time with her and like we go on little dates al the time. So I asked her the other day if she saw us as ever being anything more than just friends. All she said was "idk" and I was so upset and kind of mad that I just didn't respond for the rest of the day. She texted me the next day and because I'm a faggot we didn't ever really get around to addressing her response or my feels
>>703975910
Alpha up now. Sounds like she's about to race mix.
>>703976290
I'm very tempted to just kiss her next time her and I are alone, should I?
If not what should I do?
To anyone planning on committing suicide, don't!
I recorded a message, listen to me first before thinking of ending your life
http://i.4cdn.org/gif/1473917341662.webm
Good luck!
>>703976296
Probably. Anyway finding a woman is not a problem. Finding a special one is
>>703976555
No need to be a dick, gtfo
>>703976667
I found my special girl and I lost her because I fucked up. I wish I could go back and change it all. It's been 4 months and everyday it hurts. I cry regularly. Started cutting again and haven't felt truly happy since I had her in my arms. I want to die, but I can't. I promised her I wouldn't but everyday it gets harder not to just end it. I hate myself /b/. I can't live without her but she hates me now.
>>703976951
http://i.4cdn.org/gif/1473918387217.webm
>>703978171
wtf is ur problem?
>>703976465
Don't. That's asking for a rape charge if not jsut her getting weirded out.
Just let her know that you are interested. If she doesn't reciprocate that's fine. Just keep on moving. Don't get hung up on just one person.
just gonna bump
>>703975360
this helps
you will never experience this. the world belongs to them. they're born to be happy, and you're allowed to exist only to remind them how lucky they are.
>>703981695
>>703982140
>>703982210
goodnight anons time to go cry myself to sleep
>>703982630
goodnight
>>703959980
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=If7WGXf0NE4
>>703982630
feel better tomorrow
>>703981404
Honestly, that's "feelsy" than it should. at least you're making other people's lives more enjoyable.
>>703982630
sleep well
tomorrow will be better r-right?
>>703959980
Hey guys I have a question my brother has been fighting for a long time with depression. He was recently diagnosed with Schizotypal disorder.
He is extremely introverted. We barely can talk and everytime I try to talk to him he feels like I'm attacking him.
I just want the best for him and I would love to have an actual conversation without him thinking that everything I suggest is an attack on him. Could you guys give any advice on how to help him get back on his feet?
>>703984392
Play with him. Ask if he would like to play something together.
>>703982140
crying...holy shit......
>>703984392
I would never recommend this in any other situation but maybe
[spoiler]Watch colourful ponies with him?[/spoiler]
>>703985473
[spoiler] God damn it spoilers [/spoiler]
>>703959980
>be me 17
>life decides to fuck me over
>doggo starts acting funny
>take him to vet program at uc davis
>rare blood diesease
>have to put him down so he dosent suffer
>feelsbadman
>not a week later get call from favorite uncle
>late stage lung cancer
>rush across state to see him
>get there and he dies not 24hrs later
>get back home and lay down
>gf calls me
>anon im breaking up with you
>she was the only girl ive ever loved
>havent felt anything since
I used to be able to cry when I was alone, but now I can't even do that anymore. I feel like I'm sinking and that no one is coming. Even more I feel like I deserve it and that its better this way.
>>703986694
elaborate
>>703986694
Fuck man, if all of that is true I'm sorry. Nobody deserves any of that shit especially not all at once. I hope things cheer up for you.