could we get some feels going? I dont care what, just help me out. Went through some shit...
>>703681310
the hardest thing is having nobody to talk to. agree?
>>703681730
this was no help. Im a fucking mess just really thought I'd meet some saint on here lol
>>703681310
>>703681649
>>703681730
>>703682319
I just miss her
>>703682438
I just wish I had someone to miss..
>>703682495
I have so many issues. then when something bad happens in my life it all comes pouring out.
>>703681310
thread theme song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-o7tf0mXnlA
>>703682641
anyone else ever have their emotions unravel from music like this, even on a good day?
I know its a bit on the nerdy side but this really helps me to calm down https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JRjzNm4cUc
okie doke my dude
>>703682438
i miss her too, had been with another girls but this one is stuck inside me, i think she is happy with another guy now. if im busy and dont have a lot of time to think about her everything is ok, thats the closest think i have to be happy
>>703682438
For me its like this.
I see many girls on here..but I never fell in love with somone..But man those eyes..her everything..
Makes me sad
is it weird that sometimes it just feels good to cry?
>>703683226
I just miss my bf he cheated on me the other day
its like I try to help because I care, but it only gets worse.
>>703683519
story?
>>703683372
crying is pretty enjoyable in moderation tbh
>>703683372
for some yea..
But you shouldnt self pittty imo
>>703681310
What happened OP?
>>703683562
It was on our aniversarry he said he was gonna pick me up some flowers after 3 hours i got worried my friend told me she saw him with another girl
>>703681310
Fuck you you lowtest cuck
>>703682778
i like this song, but every time i replay it, i feel more and more lonely. no matter which my mood is
>>703683770
Am I crazy or is /b/ slowly turning into instagram?
>>703683770
I can agree with most of them besides starving and self harm
>>703683738
me and my brother used to be together all the time. he was pretty much my only friend. all of a sudden hes completely different and its like I have nobody to look up to any more. Today I tried to ask him what happened. And he got so angry it got physical, and he stormed out of the house saying it was the last time he would ever speak to me. not sure what to do.
>>703684009
Because faggots come here to cry.
They should go to instagram or tumblr at least there they can get the attention they need!
>>703684053
I guess people change, and I have to understand that....
>>703684009
sorry dude. sometimes people just dont have their finest moments. This is the only community I have left.
Best friend asks what I want to do tonight. I want to say I want to crawl into bed and fall asleep cuddling with him. But I know he doesn't want that.
>>703684009
no, you are just new here faggot
>>703682438
Stop being a pussy, I'm a hugless, kissless virgin and you're still having a better time than me...
>>703684259
and thats just another thing to add to the list for me as well haha.. all of a sudden I have these confusing feelings and its like I have to be ashamed. I didn't ask for it!
>>703684009
/b/ never changes
>>703684400
at least you have nice digits
I'm not really sad, don't have as much of a reason to be as some of you in the thread do. Just feeling generally empty. I just want to talk to people.
>>703684400
Well you're the fat pussy so kys
>>703684259
Start working towards it, the worst that could happen is you get put back in the position your in now right? I believe in you /b/ro
>>703684664
It would appear that your jimmies have been rustled
>>703684771
agreed. at some point you just have to give it a shot. I like to say that "The instant you become something you're not, you can never truly be happy." go for it man.
>>703684635
talk to your friends or your family
>>703684771
I did work towards it. I got put back here already. That's how I know he doesn't want it.
So I just keep seeing the hickeys left by someone more attractive as he fucks someone new every few days.
>>703684009
I dont think anyone is going to cy if feels replaces lolli
I'm sorry, I know how that feels and its crushing. I'm sure you'll find someone to cuddle and fall asleep with later in life though.
I'm just so done guys, fuck this shitty existence
>>703682319
if you need someone to talk to, feel free to add me on steam, what's your username?
These threads never get me, its like I can't feel sad anymore now matter how hard I try. I can't even remember the last time I cried.
Story I posted yesterday
>met her last summer
>she was staying with her aunt and uncle
>we were both working and she started talking to me
>never really had any friends but we instantly became friends
>start getting to know each other more and more
>eventually tell her about my depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts
>she has an idea
>"give me your pinky"
>"for what?"
>"pinky promise me that if in 5 years, neither of us is married, you'll marry me"
>okay, I promise
>now you can't kill yourself anon
>fast forward a couple weeks
>day before she leaves
>driving her home as usual but driving extra slow
>small town so no traffic
>get to the road before her aunts house
>"pull over"
>I do
>as soon as I park we start making out like we've never kissed before l
>she gets a call from her aunt after a few minutes that she wants her home when she gets there
>even tho she's 20 her uncle and aunt are strict
> we kiss one last time and I feel her smile
>heaven
> drive her home and drop her off
>every now and then I'll have a depression stage and I'll send her a long message and all she'll say is
>"calm down, it's the anxiety. We'll talk tomorrow"
>she never messages me
>tomorrow never comes
> feels bad man
>tfw social anxiety
i feel trapped, can somebody help? i dread leaving the house
>>703685283
thank god there are still some people like this out there. I hope OP finds some peace
>>703685445
You honestly just have to push yourself, make goals and don't settle for good enough, beat that goal and create a new one, "I'll walk outside for 5 minutes today", do it, write down your goals and keep track. Start small and get more daring, you can do it anon
haha. my friend seriously put me on the edge just now..
I love you all. You guys have helped me through some real shit over the last couple of years. I'm off to bed now. Thanks again everyone.
>>703685609
i do leave my house sometimes for short walks usually in early morning or late at night, however, when i pass someone on the sidewalk i feel really agitated, i was thinking of getting some meds
>>703681310
bUMP!
And me personally, i'm so unbelievably numb, that i can't seem to connect to reality anymore. It's all a game, and i'm losing.
>>703686020
Fuck off
>>703686024
Meds could help, but in all seriousness the goals thing can help with some stuff
>>703685221
I'm less hopeful. In the 11.5 years I've been dating, I've had exactly one second date. No one else has ever contacted me again after meeting me.
And it isn't a case of sitting at home whining and not actually meeting anyone... I've tried all the sites, all the apps, I've driven up to 2.5 hours (one-way) for dates. No one is into me.
>>703686204
I'm sorry, maybe given some time the right person might just find you? I know the hope of fairy tale endings and stuff seems like bullshit and is harder to believe after bad things happen but maybe it'll work out for you somehow
>>703685660
Oh wow, buddy seems like a cunt.
I think my problem is that i see the benfits of both sides.
In the good and the bad.
I see what i naturally see, and what is meant to be.
This life, this reality, this isn't it guys..
There is more to the human experience than working for a corporation, and making money AKA green paper, or digital tokens.
>>703685660
Jesus what a shit friend
A friend of mine is a girl and we message each other everyday. I want to hit things off because we have a lot in common but every time I invite her to go somewhere she always has an excuse. "Sorry anon its my cousins birthday" "sorry anon I have uni work to finish" sometimes its real but other times Im worried about the authenticity. She also hangs out with this guy a lot and to be honest I'm kinda jealous. What should I do? FYI they both make it clear that they're only friends but I feel like that can evolve very easily. I'm just a sidenigga
>>703685589
You, OP, anyone, if someone see's this and needs someone to talk to, feel free to add me on steam: zoug25
Can't stay happy forever.
FeelsBadMan
It doesn't matter, because majority of people do not want to be told they are living a material, artificial life.
It comes down to when speaking to them, that either their entire living have been a lie up till then, or that i'm talking crazy.
Which one is more convenient?
Which is closer to truth?
I don't claim to know, but to say i evaluate a hell of alot more than the average person.
>>703686522
Dont do this if you're not comfortable doing it but maybe stop messaging her for a bit, let her initiate conversations first and if she asks whats wrong just say you've been busy so she can kinda get a subconscious idea of what shes been doing in reverse
>>703686823
That's actually pretty damn good advice, thanks anon!
>>703687139
Best of luck anon, if it gets worse i'd recommend stopping the stopping of messaging and go back to normal
hey, /b/, mind if I get a story off my chest?
been depressed for about four years now. Just got into college. Thought the change would help. It didn't.
>>703687453
Alright thank you
>>703687811
Go for it anon
>>703686417
I'm not saying I'm giving up on finding someone... I'm still on sites and apps, still trying... But it sucks having the perfect guy right next to me but not with me. Having him (or someone else) to snuggle would just make everything else so much easier to bare.
>>703688021
all right
>rewind about nineteen years ago
>mom met dad while they were in some factory job
>I get conceived before they marry
>they get married
>i'm born
>dad not half bad for the first two years
>had a job, helped my mom around the house, did all the normal stuff a dad would do
>one day, when i'm around three, he gets arrested for some traffic ticket he hadn't paid forever ago
>in jail for about a week; honestly can't remember how long
>dad comes home
>decides to not get a job for the next four years
>>703688333
>dad would just stay upstairs watching TV, sleeping, and eating
>would go out every night to party with our neighbor, who was some druggie
>he'd come home drunk every night
>even sometimes refer to my mom by the wrong name
>they'd pretty much fight every night
>it was hell for me
>i thought my dad was awesome still
>being a kid does that
>>703688576
>mom gets tired of him doing nothing
>gets him a job at some factory
>then she gets laid off from her somewhat well-paying factory job (about $13/hour)
>factory offers to let my mom go to a local community college for two years to get her Associate Degree
>mom goes
>eventually, dad quit his job because, according to him, his boss was being a jerk or some shit
>only source of income was my mom's unemployment
>mom still went to college
>sometimes left early to study
>dad would always claim she was cheating on her
>even said "if you don't know it now, you won't know it later."
>pretty much called her and I stupid for years
>mentally abused us both
>fast forward about two years
>mom gets out of college
>i'm about nine
>mom and dad still get into it every night
>eventually, we ran out of money
>didn't have enough to pay the power bill because my mom only worked at McDonald's
>mom and I moved in with my grandma
>house was packed with me, mom, uncle, aunt, their two babies, and my grandparents
>>703681649
dayumn
Why are honest feelings the hardest ones to express?
You want to feel sad?
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xc1ifm_allegro-no-troppo-valse-triste-1977_shortfilms
>>703689451
aint gonna click that virus thanks
>>703689776
>dailymotion
>virus
kys fgt
>>703689160
>we stay at grandma's for about an entire summer
>mom eventually gets our income tax returns and pays the power bill
>mom and I move back in with dad
>about a week later, mom tells me we're moving back in with grandma
>get my stuff, her and I sneak out of the house so dad won't try to stop us
>grandma didn't live too far away from the house, but dad never made any attempt to talk to us
>eventually, he calls us and says that his van broke down in some local college town and that he was staying with some friends over there
>mom, grandpa, and I went to see the van
>started it up and it worked perfectly
>went back to grandma's
>lived there for the next few months; dad said he moved back to our area
>mom and I get our house somewhat cleaned up
>still complete shit, tho
>eventually, one of dad's old junkie friends knocks at our door
>says he went off into the woods to kill himself
>I was ten
>school was hell
>life was hell
>came out to a DARE cop about my dad
>pulled me aside from the class with my teacher
>(mom didn't give a fuck about what dad was doing)
>cop called my mom
>apparently he was found /that day/ at a friend's house
>>703690154
>I hate my dad right now
>but my entire family thinks I'm just him 2.0
>that I'm a fucking parasite who doesn't want to do anything with their life
>but I'm in college now
>i'm proving them wrong
>shouldn't I be happy?
>>703685338
fuck .
I know this sounds really fucking stupid to most but this just happened. Me and my girlfriend are very intimate and so fucking in love with eachother both having rough backgrounds and multiple on multiple mental disorders. Tonight we were going at it and I finished inside her, very unlike me, but by mistake. she left my house around an hour ago and told me she needs time and space and she doesnt know how this is going to work out. She doesnt want to leave but says she cant be with me right now or shell have to. im sitting in my basement with a knife dreading tomorrow and trying to drink away my feelings. I just want to die but she says that she cant be worrying about me hurting myself but then again cant talk to me and help me with it. I dont know what to do
lol
you people are sad
I mean I have depression like any other edgy young adult but at least im not a faggot lmao
>>703691357
shut up and let the anons have their feels, its cathartic for some
>>703691292
Well bud, it's worth seeing how it turns out.
>>703691918
worst comes to worst, i find out shes done with me and just end it then right? like there is still a chance that it wont end. might as well stick around to see?
>>703692259
I mean, you could look that way. Or you could go do something. Leave it all behind and travel, you know?
>>703691493
I dont think its good tho
you will eventually have to man up in some way or another
by that I mean try nihilism or something like that
whining is comfy but dysthimia is a bitch, id much rather just be sad for a while than dead for ever
>>703681310
Isn't that where Stewie and Olivia were hanging out right before the bear and the robot fight?
>>703693216
Catharsis in small amounts is fine but self pity and self loathing is different. If you need to vent to feel better, good do it, but dont make yourself your own worst enemy.
>>703693409
Looks close
>>703693409
>>703693955
I RECOGNIZE THAT GAY BLOWJOB
>>703690335
You should only do things for yourself or when those policy die you'll not know wat to do
Come on I need more stories
>>703686020
Shut the fuck up
>>703695499
Even if they suck and have no finite ending?
>>703695794
Ye it sucks maybe someone can make tell a good story
>>703695940
I mean, mine's real. But it sucks and ends without any resolution or anything.
Start posting more images
>>703681310
I didn't want to, but I told my best friend I'd move to Colorado with him, but it's just because I couldn't live without him.
I'm broke now, and it's gonna be even worse.
>>703695487
Problems thread
Me RN
I fucking hate society in general, and am pretty antisocial. I am only truly interested in one female ive met my entire life, and she probably doesn't even remember my name. Anybody else with this problem?
>>703697592
Lol there was a murderer with the same story in my county, take care Anon
>>703698091
shit
>>703697592
Don't expect something the world can do for you; find something you can do for the world.
>>703683091
you always remember their eyes, each time I see someone with similar ones I begin to hate the person even if I don't know them.
>>703685338
Wasn't this shit on YouTube and the chick goes to the guy she loves
My gf left me a month ago, she got back with her ex. But still hits me up trying to see me, tells me she still cares, tells me still "loves" me. Idk what to do, she doesn't want me back. Idk why she tells me these things, I try to win her back but fail everytime
>>703701036
Has she said a reason she doesn't want you back? was in a similar situation
>>703701036
She knows you're insecure.
Bump.
With my story. Sorry for the long read I'm on my phone and green texting is a bitch.
I'll share. This summer was shit. In may me and my girlfriend went on break. It was a mutual decision because I was convinced that it would make us a better couple.
I wasn't always the best boyfriend. I mean I love her unconditionally and did everything I could to show her that. I was the nicest person to her and was there in the best and worst of times. but I was still a lazy, unmotivated piece of shit. And I think the days before we went on break that's when it started to hit me. How much of a let down I was and how accomplished she is I started getting worried that she wanted to replace me and became overbearingly jealous to the point where we got into an big fight. I have been sslowly getting my shit together using my alone time to get into school, get a drivers liscense and make some new friends. Seeing her here and there but when we see eachother I feel the spark is gone. What we had just isn't there and I know she feels it to. She's probably found someone else or at least wants to. We're both young and fell in love as teenagers so I can see overtime why she'd get sick of me. Everyone else in my life has so it's nothing new.
We were supposed to meet up yesterday and talk. I was going to call her out on shit and break up with her just cause there's so much better for her and it's best for us.
I'm confused as to why I feel like this because I fucking love this girl but I just feel like I'm making her life harder.
She hasn't replied to me at all since last Thursday when we made plans.
I don't even know.
Sometimes I' get lonely but if she doesn't care then why should I.
I haven't bothered to message her cause what's the point really? I guess I'll just continue to focus on myself and let time do its work. Idk. I'm torn over this.
>>703701386
Her reason is "she doesn't feel the same anymore" but she asks me to give her rides to school (UNLV a college in Las Vegas) and when I do she holds my hand as I drive, stares at me, kisses my cheek randomly, hugs me. Acts like we're still together. When I drop her off she always gives me a kiss on the lips and says she loves me still. When I ask why don't you come back, she shrugs. She's killing tearing me apart
>>703701826
I really am, she's a 10/10 and I'm like a 3/10 . Idk how I was ever to get her to date me in the first place, perhaps cus I was funny or something
>>703702655
SHES PLAYING YOU. YOURE A FUCKING RETARD. AND SHES PLAYING YOU.
Congrats dipshit.
Does it ever get easier? or do you just learn to live with it?
>>703683226
finally getting somewhere. this thread has been shit until now.
>>703702899
she still invites me over to watch Netflix once in a while around 11pm and we have sex and she always says how I'm the best she ever had. She playing me I know but I'm in love with her still and my dumbass always does as she says
Well im 18 and have never been in a relationship with a significant other. Also never went to prom or anything and its my senior year. It just keeps going downhill from here right?
>>703681310
My grandpa gives $160 to any of his grandchildren who turns 16. He said to me, on my birthday, "Anon, I think you're gonna be the last grandkid I see turn 16."
>>703703207
I'm not either of the other guys, but you need to walk away right now. At least for a time.
>>703703443
Same here bro but hey let's me and you try okay? No pussy shit okay when people see us let's let then know we're on a grind
>>703703443
At least you don't miss her
>>703704566
>>703703207
Continued
This is a text where she sent me a screenshot and asked why I deleted her off snapchat, I didn't reply. I deleted her cus it hurts to see her upload stories of her going out with him to eat, clubs, events, her at his house.
>>703704229
Just beacause ive been alone dosent mean there hasnt been somone i wanted to be with. Just sadly I stopped talking to her due to insecurity and social anxiety. Now its just awkward eye contact between us
>>703682995
>stuck inside me
>her
Got bad news for ya, pal...
>>703682438
I miss her too
There is this black girl with nice legs that sits next to me. She wears revealing clothes a lot and I am always diamonds, but can't find anything to talk to her about. Today, she for some reason played with her hair a lot and bounced repeatedly a little and I felt like forcefully fingering her. I held back with all my might. I might've gone to jail today. I just do not know what to do. It is hot as fuck in that building and I'm horny. I could just move my seat but that would be rude. Why must I go through this pain...
>>703682959
All types of sounds in that game were godlike, hell everything was godlike in that game
I can get over the fact that the only woman I've ever loved is happy with her new man. I can get over the fact that all my friends have forgotten about me and moved on with their lives. I can get over the fact that I drink and smoke to forget.
But all I ever wanted was companionship. Someone to sit with, to talk with, and to hold. Sex is no longer something I actively search for or even care to have. I just need someone special in my life, someone who sees me as important as they are to me.
>>703704045
I'll try
>>703705724
Just get a dog.
>>703685312
Same here
It is funny. And lousy, too. Ironic, maybe. First, I wanted to protect myself, so I became strong, then fearless. Then, I found out I could protect the weak, and became the one person who stood firmly by the side of the sad ones. But then, I confirmed that, even with the threat gone, and even if I stayed, no matter how much time I did, their fear would not just go away. Funny. I spent so much time trying to become as hard as a fleck of steel, that I forgot how to even approach those I now know, need me to be soft. I am sorry for bothering you all like this. I wish I could be of any help.
>>703706529
protect yourself from what
what did you need to protect people from? Are you an anime character?
>>703683226
fake and gay
>>703686020
Good night
>>703706802
Well, that is what happens when your past self is, basically, the ultimate beta. Bullied by almost everyone, too focused in his own shit to notice until it's too late, and that basically means no chance of making friends whatsoever. I think there's got to be someone out there that can relate to that, hence, the desire to stand by their side.
Well, for the last few of us that are left. My grandpa once wrote a quote on the front page of his diary. It was after his mother passed away. He wrote: "Nothing in this life is certain. That is the only thing I am certain of."
If that shit doesn't make you think about everything I don't know what does.
Does it ever get easier?
>>703682988
Thank you anon. I have a doge that needs to be put down, and it's killing me. I took her in 2 years ago. She was 12. Her owner was good to her, but he was gone too much. I have a family, so she got the love and attention she needed.
This thread made me realize that I need to start living more. I'm not even depressed.
Thanks guys. xoxo
>>703690064
nigger do you know what redirect is
>>703706132
I have some cats.
idk if that's the same
I just lost my only real friend because I ignored/failed to fully recognize her subtle advances while chasing after her manipulative psychopath of a best friend. I'm not going to try and fix it because she could do a hell of a lot better. I will always be the guy who chose the prettier, sluttier model with less overall substance over her and since they've been best friends for ages, she knows it all too well. She's got a heart of gold for putting up with me as long as she did.
Sometimes I really wish I was gay.
Don't let this thread die.
I'm dying, but I feel alive in it.
>>703709885
>>703710111
>>703710111
Checked
>>703706401
oh, OH, ohhhh
>>703710248
It's over. Let it go, bro.
>mfw yelled at my gf today because she kept saying she hated me
>mfw i realized she wasn't even in the city because she's seeing relatives
schizophrenia is fun guys
>>703712123
godhub.com, fucking godtube, i swear. i like it
>>703701867
Anon, I'd recommend taking what you just wrote and sending it to her, just rephrase and direct it towards her not /b/. The best way to find the next course of action is to be honest about what you feel and what you want.
https://youtu.be/FnCEqQcHz1o
>>703712761
Made me laugh, thanks anon! ~<3
>>703694292
This made me happy for some reason..
>>703704704
Listen anon, I know what its like to have a hook stuck deeo down your gullet, for a year and a half I was in the EXACT same situation as you, you have to just shrug her off. Still talk to her every now and then, but stop taking her to school, stop responding to booty calls, just talk like two platonic people would, and thats when a change will happen. And no matter what that change is, it'll be for the best.
>25
>married my highschool sweetheart!
>yay me
>military after HS
>fun couple years
>met great people
>stick with her through rapid weight gain and loss.
>talk to a DOC
>no kids for her
>we stay "happy" anyway
>she conceives
>he's the best thing ever
> two months later I'm paying her
>she has no job
>keeps my son all the time
>uses PTSD against me
>basically broke from paying her
>just wanna sleep forever...
>I can't because my son needs his dad
>tired of life all the time
>still force smiles and conversation everyday
>no one knows
>inside I am a ghost town
Done dumping. this one is the most upsetting
>>703709885
This.
>>703709275
Please tell me you acknowledged her feelings, and told her she deserves better
>>703713814
Shit, you´re a strong fucker.
>>703714138
My mother and father got divorced recently, whilst im still finishing my senior year and then college I'm staying with my mother who instantly moved on. I don't have any prejudice against her for it, I just don't know how my father really feels and I worry he's like this >>703713814
because he's in very much the same situation, so I made a vow to myself to never be this kind of person>>703714138
I went to uni in Germany (amerifag here.) became a research assistant for one of the profs on my thesis committee. Began seeing his daughter, spilled everything about my abusive father to her. Went back stateside to see my moms and my brother. Two months later, head back to Munich, she's dropped off the face of the earth. Can't get a hold of her, never see her, her dad (my professor) doesn't want me to work for him anymore.
