I just had my bday and my girl friend dumped me that night.... All my family did that day was get high and yell at me to clean. I eventually left to go to the mall but got stopped by someone and couldnt go. I then went home to cook my self up a grilled cheese, then jack off after eating it. I went to my room and cried, then I fell asleep. Why are Birthdays the most painful day of the year...?
Go out and try new things. Plenty in this world to see. You only live once, in your current state of mind. Enjoy life while youre still able.
Budhism and taoism are pretty on point with openin up yo eyes n shit.
>Disabled, going blind
>Every day I'm reminded by my own limitations of the inevitable all-consuming darkness that will soon be my life
>Have nearly fainted 3 times this week for seemingly no reason
>Chronic depression has only gotten worse with the onset of my worsening blindness
>Attending college to get a degree I might get 5-10 years' use out of before I'm too disabled to work
>Live alone on campus, barely establishing a few friendships
>First date/casual encounter in over a year accuses me of sexual assaulting her the next day despite me asking her express consent for everything
>Feeling literally zero confidence in myself despite being basically the third most educated person in my family (cousin is an actual doctor and mom is a drug addiction specialist at a hospital with a bachelors in psych)
that's awful, I'm so sorry for you
why did she accuse you? she's cunt
Save this one and read it later.
Or better yet, don't. This one always makes me not want to feel anymore.
Also, fuck you OP (Not really) my fur ball of a companion died about 4 weeks back. My 18 year old Maine Coon, had him since I was 5.
>Be me at 5 years old
>Moving to brand new state and starting kindergarten soon
>Scared as fuck
>I'm literally inconsolable
>My parents approach me
>They were still together then
> "Hey anon, let's go were going to take a drive"
>I nod and we head out
>Summer of '98 and it's hotter than anything I've ever felt
>We drive for what seems lIke hours
>We get to a pound filled to the brim with animals
>5 year old me looses his shit
>My parents ask for this cat that is a tabby
>they bring out the wrong cat
>it's a beautiful Maine Coon
>He looks fucking ridiculous with his oversized paws and huge ass ears with huge whiskers to compliment his small face
>I fucking dawwed so hard
>We take him home
>Fast forward a few weeks
>I come home from school
>Shittiest day that a kindergartener could have
>This cat that I've only known for a few weeks sees me sulking
>I'm sitting on the stairs of my new house
>He leisurely walks up to me
>His fur rubbing up against my skin
>I ignore him for the first time
>He goes in between my legs
>He's looking directly at me with his beautiful hazel eyes
>Once again "Prreow"
>Since my head is down he takes it upon himself to headbut me about 4 times consecutively
>I couldn't be sad anymore
>I start petting him
>From that day every time I came home he followed me around and sat in my lap
Fast forward to when he died.
>I moved out to live on my own
>My mother calls
>"He's not eating or going to the bathroom"
>I have a catch in my throat
>my mother continues
>"I'm taking him to the vet, I'm going to see what they say"
>I get a video call from my mother at the vet and she's holding him in his arms
>I try to be strong
>I fucking lose it
>The vet is looking into the camera and is apologizing
>I say my final goodbyes and the vet administers the euthanasia
>I metaphorically see the life fade from his eyes
>The vet apologizes and leaved the room
>My mother still holding the cat
>"Anon, he's gone"
>I end the call
>Lost my shit.
18 years and he was more loyal to me than a best friend.
Wherever you are buddy. Hope you're whooping ass and taking names, I miss you here.
I'm sorry OP. Wish I could say something else.
Being honest, I don't see how some people can bring themselves to hate cats. Sure, traumatic experience when you were younger. But it's not without good reason, you were probably fucking with it.
I'm a cat person through and through, but I do enjoy the occasional dogger.
>Chronic anxiety has me feeling like shit
>Have to be medicated in order to not have panic attacks like a mother fucker
>While I'm medicated I can't have alcohol
>TFW I have to pop pills to remain "Normal"
>TFW I'm probably going to have to go my entire life like this or have multiple breakdowns each month
>TFW I feel like a piece of shit relying on the crutch of medication.
Bumping more for OP.
What else do you anons have?
What's going on anon?
What's making you feel shitty?
We can talk about it?
I wanna be the edgiest
Like no emo ever was
Being a fag is my real test
And cutting is my cause
The blade will travel across my wrist
And maybe I will try
All my veins I somehow missed
It seems I cannot die
EMOMON gotta cut em all
I'm so lonely
Dying's my destiny
Razor blade, you're my best friend
And I know I can't pretend
EMOMON gotta cut em all
A heart so blue
With all the bullshit I go through
You hurt me and I'll hurt you
EMOMON gotta cut em all
>Feeling emotions is for faggots amirite?
It's part being human, if you don't feel vulnerable from time to time. Shit, sorry you're so jaded
Shit, flew off the handle.
>Disregard that, I suck cocks.
>When you've been told all your life that anyone who takes medication for a psychological/medical condition is fucking bat shit insane
I hate my thought sometimes, I get so lost in my own head.
Huh doesn't sound bad. Never done it, my handwriting is shit but I'll give it a go. I always thought that having a pen and paper pen pal was something you did with lifers in prison.
P.O. Box 981
Forest Lake, MN 55025
United States of America
Hope to hear from you soon.,
Well, you have us so it isn't so bad.
That's cynical & nihilistic
>Anon, I really really like this image
Finally scheduled an appointment with a psychiatrist for my depression after years of drowning in in. I decided i wasn't gonna let it drag me down anymore. My appointments tomorrow. I feel like i should feel relieved... but if anything im scared.
"You know the stereotypical no self-confidence, motivation, and depression thing. nothing new in the world" Plus my dog is going to die very soon. Sure we can talk I guess.
Dont have it sorry pal
It did some. Not much, for me it was more about getting a baseline on how the medication they prescribed was affecting you. I'm a walking pharmacy, you name it I probably had it.
It pisses me off when people stop or save other people from committing suicide, like it's their choice just let them do it, they know better than you do
Although in that case I guess the guy probably wasn't too decided in the matter since he stopped himself
Seems like a perfectly reasonable position, the right to do what you want with your own body should be the most basic human right, and that includes deciding whether or not you want to off yourself
So basically they test shit out until something works? was the meds coupled with therapy or anything?
my god that sounds horrible. But i guess thats better than dealing with this every single day
I know that feel bro
Have depression anxiety and schizophrenia for the past few years and on medication
I'm on 4 pills a night just to be able to live a normal life.
I doesnt get better
My dog just died. My grandmother died last month. This is him, his name was Dexter. I'm sorry for the picture quality, I don't have my phone with me.
My dog was my best friend, he was the world to me. He was one of the few things keeping me here.
I want to die.
I'm going to have to leave the girl I fell in love with.
On the bright side you probably won't be blind forever once stem cell surgery becomes a thing, even people without eye's could potentially get a optic nerve and eye transplant. Hopefully this happens in the next decade, who knows but chances are high that it will happen in your lifetime bro.
in her mouth, eh? The dog wouldn't be able to eat if she wasn't in pain. I know, my doggo has mouth cancer now, and you can be sure i'm not going to post pictures of if on the net for your goddamn fucking sympathy
My dad died four years ago.
He was my hero and ill never live up to his legacy.
The man I love is toying with my heart. I'm not even sure if he dumped me or not because he said to forget what he said. I show him unconditional love and all he tells me is that I'm cheating on him and I'm not this is the third time that he's abandoned me
Might not be easy, but I think you should avoid contact with him, from what you've said he seems to be a faggot. Find the one you deserve, there are plenty of non-neet/beta guys out there who'd lift moutains for you
I have no idea, I'm a beta weirdo.
However, the best thing to do, as hard as it might be, is not letting him in your life again, he has already done enough bad to you, try (and I mean it, don't give up) as hard as you can to not get back with him, he's manipulating you, and you willingly give in because you love him, but the longer he keeps you under his control, the mort it'll hurt.
TL,DR; Don't fall for it again
Rip doggo. In the bus crying. Fuck man
>Been suicidal for most of this decade
>Last gf died 7 years back from injuries left from a car accident
>Last thing she said to me was keep living for her sake
>Just that memory of her saying that keeps me from shooting myself.
Its easier when you expect it and euthanize them. This guy had heart failure, so he was living on borrowed time. Did all we could to keep him going but cardiac arrest was bound to happen. Still can't get over the shock of trying to save him.
but yeah, I guess doggos dying isn't as feely as being rejected by your qt3.14, not having a social life, or crippling debt
People can't see the positivity in life, I have been isolated from everybody I'm alone and I am still happy because the world is so beautiful but people are blinded by this hatred this negativity they have for themselves. The beautiful is much more beautiful than you think. Please if you're not like me just see the beauty of life see how beautiful people can be how beautiful this world can be just do anything go travel go for a hike through the mountains do anything that makes you at peace with yourself. Finding out who you are in this adventure called life is the beauty of it all
However if you are like me just accept who you are and what you became try to change yourself if you can if not all you have to do is acccept yourself for who you are and live with it, see the positivity in yourself, try to bring out the positivity in others. See if I manage to bring out the positivity in others just make them smile for a minute it feels so rewarding, seeing someone smile and forgetting about their issues for a split second
See friends this world isn't just you it's all of us were together in this
Doggos are hoomans best friend. Doggos teach us to love unconditionally and not be afraid to show affection. Doggos teach us that its ok to do the wrong thing sometimes because we're all just learning. Doggos teach us we don't have to be smart we have to be love.
Thanks pupper, I will always love you :')
Hey. A little late to the party. Are we still doing this?
I put the only girlfriend I've ever had in a car wreck in 2012. A year prior, before I ever even spoke a word to her, I was browsing this caliber of /b/aww threads deeply in love with a girl who could give a shit less about me.
We came out of the wreck unscathed. Fortunately it was on the backroads outside of town with no other car involved, and in a neighborhood that came to our tending.
This girl dumped me for some other guy in her work. Turns out I was probably treating her like shit. Her friends most likely convinced her to move on. Her mother died this year. Shit sucks dick. I've been surfing /b/ every year since then.
Things are starting to change for the better it seems. I'm not prepared for what is next. And I'm alone, and afraid. But I can't keep pretending. I have no guidance and my parents are worse off than I am.
Yet for all the amazing things that have happened in my life, I feel ready to die. I just, don't really care. I'm 21. I'm not sad and depressed, or anxious.
I'm just afraid i will suffer. And I don't care. I would be contempt with dying now. I'm not convinced I will find love. I feel like a loser. I feel worthless after a day of feeling great and happy.
It's like I'm caught up in the reality I've made for myself, to be a happy person capable of finding happiness and making myself happy. But I just don't care about the future. Idk why. But I don't give a fucking shit. It's highly unlikely I'll ever commit suicide.
But I will gladly meet my death. And I hope I can prove that someday soon.
Suicide is an impulsive act. Literally all evidence points to that. So no, it's not a reasonable position. It's a stupid.
Of course, if your quality of life is that bad, you can request euthanasia, the process of which rules out impulsive acts. That is, if you live in a civilized country.
A little bit r9k-tier, but there's some feels here.
Watamote hit me pretty hard.
Hardest part about being introverted. You want help but noone can really tell between your normal self and when depression is holding you down. You'll either conquer it alone and be better for it or drown, cold and alone.
Honestly, it's rather hard for me to feel bad for people who are so self-defeating, and people who dont even TRY to get better. Especially if they have other people who are willing to help them, but just ditch them. A bit insulting tbh.
Please make an effort to post something above tumblr-tier feels. Anons on threads like these are looking for the real gems.
plenty of people don't pretend, they actually care, but when the people are so absorbed in their own sadness it's irritating to see them doing nothing. Rejecting ways to be happy and saying others don't understand.
Sad people need to accept that being sad is silly, they need to get up and just do something.
I was in a bad way a while back, but I just did things I enjoyed until I got better, I realized that sitting around feeling sorry for myself is stupid, I just need to smile and I'll get through things
...you have no idea what the fuck you're talking about.
Imagine living with massive painful tumors, not able to bend your legs without pills that are starting to not work and shitting yourself 3 times a day. Imagine life being actual physical
Agony not the "my dad feels forever alone" agony you think you have...
Putting down a dog or cat can be a mercy you stupid fuck
Wow, are you actually that dumb that you think he is "edgy"?
You are aware that humans are not able to decide how and when they want to die most of the time, right? Even the wording "self-murder" implies a criminal offence. The murder of the self.
Euthanasia is mostly forbidden around the world. Countries starting to loosen the laws around it. Almost every "big" religion punishes suicide in some way.
It is part of every being to decide how it wants to end its own life. If you think otherwise, you have to come a long way as a person and also as a human.
Death and dying are hard to understand and almost everyone is afraid of death and dying. Let them decide how to end it. Think about dignity. Suffering in a horrible way, full with drugs, shitting and pissing yourself, not being able to take part in life, but still being kept alive. Is that how you want to die?
Fuck, dont call everything edgy, just because you have no to little education.
lost my cat yesterday. I had her for 13 years. i feel shit and i have never cried so much in my life. She was the sweetest cat.
People are afraid to admit death isnt peaceful.
My friend's dog couldnt get up to go to the bathroom anymore but it was so loyal and knew it was wrong to relieve herself inside so she held it in until she was in immense pain. Then they made the call to put her down.
Mostly religionfags who are against euthanasia cause 'muh god decides when i die' say things like this. Meanwhile they're happy to take synthesised medications and other 'unnatural' things.
Grief comes and goes in waves. Enjoy the moment of grief and keep the memories around you at all time, but dont let it overwhelm you.
Be thankful for the beautiful time you had together and dont be sad about the fact that its over for now.
If your life is that shit you can't expect the boring meaningless traditions to be NOT shit, move out and stop living in a retard hellhole, can't afford to move out? stop being so worthless and get a job
here, smell it...cheer up /b/ros
It's my birthday today, I went to school, people 'congratulated' me and I went home. I feel empty inside and I don't have any real friends :(
I don't usually read tl;dr stories like these but damn this was well worth the read.
Wish there was someone doing dramatic readings of these so they're easier to find. I'd do it myself but I'm not a native speaker and I'd probably completely ruin it.
Growing up we never had birthdays. It was the stupid Jehovahs witnesses religion. I would feel ashamed to be wished a happy birthday from my peers, even more ashamed when they asked me what I got (nothing) for my birthday. The salt on the wound is now that us kids are grown my dad has decided to start celebrating again. Asks me what I got him every year, tell him I got him the same thing he got me for my 6th birthday, or my 8th or my 12th. Fucking bastard.