hey /b/ros anyone wanna just talk? what's on your mind?
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hey /b/ros
anyone wanna just talk?
what's on your mind?
old thread >>702744991
>>702756781
reposting from last thread
>three years ago
>really drunk
>post my number on 4chan asking someone to call me and tell me a story til i fall asleep
>this bald mother fucker right here calls me
>tells me a story about a bear who switches places with a human for a day
>many keks til i fall asleep
>becomes a weekly ritual
>time goes on and its less stories and more general conversation
>three years later hes getting married
>asks me to be the best man in his wedding
>whythefucknot.jpg
>fly up the coast to stay at his house for the weekend
>friends and family all know 'of' me so its kinda weird
>but everyones really fucking chill especially his friends
probably one of the best weekends of my life, all thanks to /b/.
and to think i was gonna axe murder him.
>>702756781
Stoned and baking a thin crust quadmeat pizza
Thickskin wonder how?
Hey /b/ how do you feel with regrets?
>>702757099
Red Baron or bust
>>702757151
**deal
>>702757151
be strong
dudes, its 1:48 am and i have to get up at 6. i have some pages in my lab notebook to do, a paper to write, and instead i wrote a suicide letter to my family. ive got MDD and GAD, should i just sleep or what i need this to be a good school year
>>702757189
acceptance or repression depending on how proud I am
Anon, reporting for duty
My father loves me, but I know he wants me gone. Im 18 and the last of his nine kids. He wants me out so it will be him and his wife, my step mom. Im trying, but I feel like I'm just disappointing him every day.
I guess I'm just repost my story from the last thread as well?
Some fags might have remembered me from a couple feel threads
I'm going through a weird mental struggle because my girlfriend has just left for university on Monday, and I'm constantly thinking about what could happen, and if anything does happen to her. I'm almost 2 hours away. Were both dedicated to make this relationship work out but I've been cursed with my father's over analyzing mind and calm nature, and my mother's emotional instability at the same time, so I keep all the shit I've been feel bottled up except for a very few individuals.
And of course my /b/rothers
I can't trust anyone 100% because of an issue involving my mother cheating on my father, which has left me permanently scared of cheaters, the feeling is more about how I dont want to go through what my parents went through. I trust her (don't go on about trust, I've heard too much shit about that already /b/ros) and I know she's not like that, (again. I know her, you guys don't). But that fear is still around...
Many anons suggested that I just break it off, but I'm not really like that... (Again, I don't want to go through what my parents went through) If anything is going to happen between us, shes going to initiate it, and I'm going to be the one to ultimately end it.
But here's hoping for the best, I would absolutely love to spend the rest of my life with this woman.
Pic not related, sorry OP
I've gotten loads of advice from various anons in the last thread, so thank you all! It's nice knowing that some people care, or at least act like it!
>>702757264
suicide note, pics or didn't happen
>>702756781
>110
What's the point of this? Like we just be poor forever? Wtf?
>>702757151
Make it right in the future. Don't say you will, but just go out and do that shit. Talk to that cute girl. Go to that party. Respond to that text. Regrets are so much less looming when you're taking action to prevent more ahead.
>>702757391
Don't worry too much anon, have you got any plans to go to college, or anything like that?
>>702757151
You have to learn that life is very long experience and that you will get many chances to be happy. Usually you just have to give it time.
>>702757186
Digiorno
When feel sad wat do anons? Look at meme's? Talk to people? Jerk off? Sad songs?
>>702757396
Have you told her this? If she Truely is the one for you, she will understand.
>>702756908
You look like a fucken crackhead
Is it okay to have small dream?
I just wanna have a stable middle class type job to support my family (mom and dad qualify for nothing due to language). I don't expect to have any kind of meaningful or/and strong relationship with another human being.
And maybe becoming a top level hentai artist as well, the brief attention that I get from my current mediocre drawings is about one the very few things that make me feel existing and having a worth.
>>702757521
Thanks anon this helped a lot actually
>>702757548
>>702757186
these are my favorite pizza brands and the only two store boughts ill eat.
>>702757605
>look like
>>702757564
Usually listen to music or just sit around and eat. But I wouldn't recommend the eating if you're overweight.
>>702757224
>>702757324
>>702757545
Thanks to you guys too
>>702757609
there are many more middle class people than upper crust, shoot for what you feel to be the best life! I have a similar dream so you're not alone
>>702757638
Good. I've spent a lot of time feeling the same way you are. Better now.
>>702757537
I want to be a marine, like my father and 4 of my brothers were, but I got to lose a whole bunch of weight, and the prospect of it is daunting, making it hard to get started. I know that the last part is my fault, but I felt like sharing anyway.
>>702757643
Same here actually. I only diddnt red baron because they were out of the meaty pizza.
>>702757564
Listening to music and try to talk to people
>>702757609
A small dream is perfectly fine as long as you aren't settling for it because you've given up on a big dream.
>>702757609
Post your work! I'd like to see it, anon!
>>702757396
Man 2 hours away? She prolly got fucked In her ass on her way to uni by a bunch of truck driver or some shit. When there's gonna be dorm party's or w.e dudes prolly gonna take turns cuming in every hole of her body. Prolly gonna snap chat u a pic of smeard cum on her face apologizing Nd shit
>if she still rmr u
Posted in last thread just before it 404'd.
My girlfriend and I are taking a break. It's a strange situation and I'm kinda powerless to do anything. I haven't seen or heard from her in 3 days. I miss her so fucking much.
>>702757565
Yeah, after some negotiation, she finally got me to spill the story of my family, and my (lackluster) childhood filled to the brim with depression, just like many anons here.
I told her about my parents and the fear of cheaters and what not, and she reassured me that shes not like that.
>>702757810
Good to hear
I'm just hoping for a fresh start this semester
Ok /b/ here's a task to help solve. When I'm alone (because I'm embarrassed of it to the max) I make very odd sounds and ham-bone extremely if I'm exited or happy. I'm moving in with my fiance very soon and it will be hard to hide. what do? I sound like a zoo.
>>702757609
Dont ever settle though! If you shoot for the stars, dont stop at the moon
My status in life is fucked up at the moment, but I'm happy with what I have now.
>gf
>laptop
>cellphone
>clothes
>a whole shitload of coffee
>a few retailing gigs
>a few friends I treat as family
>a guitar
>a vape kit
recently been on a collision course with fate, but I'm doing my best to make it better for me and for my gf.
>>702757997
You might as well cut off Ur balls Nd show her how big of a pussy u r Nd felt that u needed one as well
>>702757151
You need to accept that you can't change what's already been done and all you can do now is focus on changing your present and future for the better.
>>702758112
How bout not being a complete dipshit for starters
>>702757986
>>702758217
samefag
go to bed you edgy 12 year old
>>702758124
That quote is posted in every elementary school in Canada, it's ridiculous
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land amongst the stars"
Told a really good friend of mine that I like her, she told me its a mutual feeling. She's going to break up with her bf because of it and I feel like a scumbag :/
>>702758074
Are you in uni? Which one? I'm at Penn State and it seems like you could always start new if you really wanted to.
>>702757944
here's a parody to the r9k meme I made a while ago
>>702756781
How I can get my job back...
>>702757997
there's no such thing as a fucking break excuse for her to go fuck people in trying out some new dick on . anon don't fall for that cock shit bro go out and try to bang some new pussy
>>702758143
Hey anon what kind of music do you play? I play guitar too. Mostly play punk/90s alt/alternative rock type stuff. I have pretty expansive tastes. Also what Vape setup? I have a SMOK xcube 160 watt mod with a SMOK TFV4 that I use, with a Kanger Subtank backup
>>702758399
don't feel bad, just remember, this is how she feels about commitment
>>702758402
I'm going into senior year of high school actually
What major are you in?
>>702758377
Which one are you the uni homo or the dude with the pucci
>>702758050
Thats Good. If you really want to keep her (and surprise her), find out where she is staying and her favorite delivery food (fried rice, cheese pizza, ect.). Find a place that delivers near her, order and pay, and have it sent to her. Then just text her before it arrives, and you are a romantic hero.
>>702757817
>>702757997
This is bad news dude, id say just end it and be happy.
>>702756781
Saves me the trouble of starting a thread.
I get really annoyed when I get a tinge of loneliness. I am a homebody and mostly only talk to my roommate. But sometimes, especially when one of my friends in Texas posts her social life, I get that stupid loneliness. Makes it very annoying cos I'm comfy in my life right now but my stupid monkey brain keeps insisting that I need a mate.
>>702757564
talk to someone about your feelings bro
>>702758440
Moar?
>>702758541
Computer Science. I had a couple classes of it in highschool and I know it's right for me. A lot of people only do it for the money (which is nice), but I hope to get more than that out of it. Do you know what you want to major in?
>>702758543
I'm the federally instituted troll feeder. I might not like my job but it's a living :(
>>702758528
Mostly rock, 80's, alternatives, and metal.
wow bro, nice setup. Mine's a bit more portable.
>Joyetech eVic VTC Mini 75 watts
>Mutation XS
hate lugging big mods around, especially with all my gear in check. Hell, I'd trade mine for a minivolt or artery nugget anyday.
Yo /b/,
Feeling empty. 6 years ago, the love of my life and my fiancé was killed by a drunk driver. I was a wreck for a long time. One of her close friends helped me heal. We fell in love. It was nothing like the love I felt for my fiancé. The love evolves. We get married. The beginning of this year, she isn't feeling well. Doctor. Cancer. She died May 21.
Every day has been crushing since then. Smoking doesn't help. Drinking doesn't help. Work seems pointless, but it's the only thing going for me. My friends are trying to be helpful, but they all end up not helping.
I feel so empty and over life.
My number... 930 7468
>>702757813
Honestly, start tomorrow
I'm serious
Kick your own ass, and get in shape.
Want that pizza? Get a small thin crust with 2 toppings of your choice
Need a gym membership? Get one!
No gym near you? Go endurance
go for runs (my best friend did that and he dropped from around 210lbs to 160lbs over the course of 4 months
It's not impossible anon, just believe! Or you can go straight to the Marines and they'll get your ass in shape real fucking quick!
>>702756781
>Just started senior year of high school
>Parents found out about drinking smoking partying etc
>They flip out
>Think I have a serious problem
>Would be easy for me to say all the right things to them and get right back into it, but decide not to because guilt
>No longer have any desire to have a social life
>Would rather sit around at home with my family
>Still social at school but don't care about hanging out with anyone
I'm in a weird place. I feel like I'm just waiting for the year to pass by so that I can go off to college out of state and start the next phase of my life and never contact any of my high school friends again. Idk just felt like talking about it.
>>702758821
I'll just take it as Ur both a homo and u have a pucci
>>702758775
This is the only thing immediately available, sorry.
>>702756781
Honestly b?
right now just you killing yourself
>>702756908
timestamp a pic of ur face for proof
Pics or it didn't happen
>>702758819
I'm thinking of going into CS too
Took the two C++ classes my school offers and do some coding on the side
Do you go to hackathons?
>>702757564
Listen to a few melancholy songs and cri. Evrytiem.
>Radiohead - Creep
>Pearl Jam - Last Kiss
>whatever else I find that suits my feely feels.
>>702758832
shit dude im so sorry that life has treated you so unfairly. have you tried therapy?
>>702756781
OP here to save the day, thanks faggot
Much love
>>702758143
What's your laptops specs?
My internet fiancée of two years moved 3000 miles to come live with me six months ago. Now she's far from her friends and family, I'm all she's got here, and I don't love her. My family hates her, so I haven't told them she's here. I just want out, but last time we broke up she used my razor blade to attempt suicide. She really has nothing going in her life but me. I break up with her and she returns to her abusive mother and alcoholic NEET father.
Writing this out really has the feels coming.
ive been struggling with withdrawal any advice at all anons?
>>702758944
also anon just relax and chill. smoke a bit and chill with only the true friends you have.
>>702758944
we got you bro
>>702758945
you are insecure enough to be whine online hoping somebody notices you and that speaks volumes about your home life.
>>702759153
Shit thats rough dude. Hard decisions
>>702759153
Why dont you love her?
>>702758677
I would tend to agree with you. I feel like I'm old enough that I shouldn't be wasting my time with this sort of thing and just move on.
But it's hard to justify. She didn't ask for a break because of anything directly related to our relationship. She's had some really fucked up circumstances befall her recently, and she's been grappling an existential crisis for a while now. She's spacing herself from everyone in her life. Seems like I'm powerless in the whole ordeal.
>>702758847
are you real
>>702758535
Its a fucked up situation, we've always been really close but I distanced myself once I got a gf. My gf made it pretty clear she didn't like my friend all too much and so I began to distance myself. My friend ended up getting a bf but still tried to contact me as frequent as possible. I broke up with my ex about 5 months ago and thats were the previous post comes in.
got fired from my job ..
parents were disappointed in me
>>702759077
Before, when my fiancé was killed. Didn't help. Wouldn't help now.
>>702759039
>timestamp
>>702758944
Please don't abandon your friends. They miss you more than you know. A part of you misses them too.
>>702759340
sorry friend whyd you get fired?
>>702758870
You know what? You are god damn right! Tomorrow, I'm going running till I cant run anymore. Then, I'm turning around and running back home.
>>702758440
Well memed
>>702759064
No I've never been. Closest thing I've done is a programming competition on a team with a couple friends. It was pretty fun. Experience like that is valuable. I want to go to a hackathon here. PSU probably has a few. Have you gone to one? What kind of problems did they give you?
>>702759099
hahaha do i have the guts to share?
dont laugh ok?
>>702759340
That sucks Anon. Being fired makes anyone feel like shit, even if you hated your job. You'll find a new one soon I'm sure. Did you draw that?
>>702759368
just keep going forward and heal. please. for us
>>702757997
I think ur being cucked
Get close with her
Meet up again
Make her want your cock
Other than that, you might have to ditch her if she doesn't wanna get close
>>702759223
Hmmm... As said before you are a homo and unfortunately, still are a homo.
Do I need to say more?
>>702758832
I'm so sorry man, this make my story pale in comparison, but I hope that you'll be alright... I would advise you to go out and try hobbies and such, but you've probably tried that, or been told too... I would probably just tell you to say "fuck it". Go travelling. Go to exotic places! Remember that one post about how if you want to end yourself, you might as well just sell everything, and explore the world! Because when you feel like ending it all, there's no reason not to try everything this shitty planet has to offer!
>>702758832
You need to live again. My advice: do something incredibly dangerous and stupid. You either die or fight for your life and realize the value of it.
>>702758388
doesn't even make sense due to the stars being farther from Earth than the moon
Hello /b/rethren. So I thought a change of scenery would help with my depression. Turns out it didn't at all.
On a side note, how do you fare knowing this board is now over 65% newfag cancer?
>>702759589
yes say more please daddy
OP from both threads here. I'm off now, someone else please take the mantle. Things need to be discussed.
>>702757798
thank you for the kind wish, I hope the same for you
>>702757919
>>702758124
I have been drawing inconsistently for as long as I could remember and I like the attention I get from doing it. I haven't plateaued, which is really good. But I can't say the same for my experience as a student, I actually became a worse student over time considering the grades.
>>702759250
I only say this because a similar thing happened with me, my ex just slowly distanced herself until she was completely free. Honestly it was for the best but in the moment its hard to see what lies ahead.
>>702759602
>need to live again
So the solution is to risk your life.....
Honestly it makes fucking sense
>>702759688
dont change the subject you wild doggo. why didnt a change of scenery help your depression?
I really have this problem of not telling a girl how I feel about her. For some reason I just can't but mAybe ita because I'm a little bitch and don't want my feel get rejected from her.
>>702759492
a bit worse than mine. how do you play games anon? i barely manage on low settings with my toaster
>>702758832
Are there any other hobbies or passions in your life? You need to go out and pursue an opportunity you're interested in. I can't imagine the guts it would take to get back out there after your experiences, but, despite the difficulty, you could really heal a lot just by breaking that cycle of yours with something more meaningful to you. At least Google some stuff. See what's out there. Then do it.
>>702759596
Thanks for the thoughts. I've thought about it. Thanks man.
>>702759688
I'm disappointed in /b/ now. I would never call myself an oldfag or anything, but I started browsing around 2010 and I miss what this site used to be. Threads were so much more interesting. Now its all the same, porn threads and other stupid shit. Oh well I keep coming back so
>>702759701
Yes. OK. May the homoness of Ur body and soul may vanish one day to become a non cock sucking human being till that day I wish u luck and prosperity to Ur never ending journey of cocks
That is all
>>702759484
Yeah I've been to a bunch since my freshman year
Its usually pretty open ended with some API challenges which are generally just "use this API in your hack"
I'm going to UPenn this weekend actually for one called PennApps
I like Madonna unironically, but I'd never tell anyone
>>702759446
That's the spirit, but remember to limit yourself, unless you've been running for a while now, your probably going to want to start slow so you don't hurt yourself!
I'd start by looking up little tips for health and fitness, and I would try to make a schedule for runs, if you like running at night, go then! (personally this is what I usually do) just make sure you stick with it! It'll all pay off anon!
And if this is all done right, you should feel healthier and happier about your health!
Good luck anon!
Cheers
>>702759786
It was mainly the same things making me depressed, only with different people. It makes me feel like all the problems are because of me. Then again, that's probably it with many cases so it probably is for mine. My confidence is at an all time low, I'm insecure, and paranoid.
>>702756908
Rock n roll. Deal with it.
>>702759800
I just install and launch, along with proper tuning and maintenance.
Try setting the display resolution to native res, that works for me.
It's a bit of a surprise this boat anchor runs left 4 dead anyways, let alone dead island.
benis is on my mind
>>702759951
that was weak kid did your skype buddies come up with that for you?
>>702759984
have you been sleeping and eating well?
>>702759792
Listen here faggot, I've been in the same sitch
You KNOW WHAT FUCKING HAPPENED
SHE DIES
YEP
STRAIGHT UP FUCKING DIED, KILLED HERSELF AND LEFT A NOTE SAYING THAT SHE ALWAYS LOVED ME BUT COULDNT TELL ME HOW SHE FEELS
Ever since I have felt nothing inside, I love no one and have never smiled from my heart
I am dead inside
Don't become me you little homo, dig ur balls outta ur fucking manpurse.
Godspeed pussy
sidenote: if u get rejected you'll eventually get over it
>>702759898
I agree. This is the best thread I've seen in a while
This will be 404d by the time I wake up, but that's okay. I feel emotionally dulled. My parents told me they admired me for not feeling anything when my grandfather and uncle died, or when they got divorced. I never managed to fit in properly, even from a young age I never did well in that regard. I'm probably at least mildly autistic, but that's okay. I've resigned myself to being alone, for fear of rejection if I were to actually try, since I have a hard time actually caring about people like normal people. I don't get sad, I bottle up the feelings, then get hit with depressive mood swings out of god damn left field. Just fucking end my life, fam.
>tfw you want to go to a psychiatrist to get help with getting your mental shit in line, but can't open up to people because you're ugly on the inside and are afraid of being judged.
>tfw psychiatric help is too expensive for you to afford anyway
>tfw alcohol of any kind gives you a placebo sick to your stomach feeling, so you can't drink your problems away either
>tfw drugs are not something you want either because they would only make you feel shitty about yourself and exacerbate the problem.
Some random jams for you to listen while you lurk.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5H77IUvu1E
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrO9PTpuSSs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcOTecK8a38
i have to ask why life has fucked me hard
>be me 19
>have type 1 diabetes and find out 3 days ago i have a brain tumor
>dont want to tell family or GF
>got fired from my job 1 week ago
>started smoking weed again
>cant bring myself to tell anyone whats going on
i honestly dont know what to do i have no money for surgery and also my medical bills are pilling up.
>>702759959
Wow UPenn. That's a pretty big deal. Are you from PA then? I'm from near Harrisburg. Makes traveling home pretty convenient. Honestly one of the biggest perks of going to school here.
>>702756908
holy fucking keks thats amazing anon
>>702759429
basically threatening a coworker.
>>702759501
yeah, and i am going to an interview tomorrow
did i mention i have no friends who care
>>702760329
Well if u have a brain tumour you're straight fucked
Get off the weed
Tell your family
Then An hero
>>702760056
left 4 dead 2 is very well optimized for me. I average 5-15 on heavier games, and 10-20 on better optimized games. Rarely do I get 30 or over on games that aren't low maintenance.
>>702758571
I've thought about things like this, but before I do this. I want her to settle in a bit and get to know her roommates and such (shes sharing a 5 room apartment thingamajig with 7 people if I recall (3 single rooms, 2 double)) shes only been there for a day so I'm gonna wait it out and let her get comfy before I buy her and her roommates a giant pizza party thing. But this is on my to do list!
>>702760164
Not at all. I haven't been for the past 3-4 years. I'm underweight and I get around 4-6 hours of sleep daily. I get pretty stressed as well.
>>702760329
Shit dude that sounds awful. I hope you can find some money for surgery, I can't imagine how shitty that must be. I hope things get better for you
>>702760329
is it benight?
>>702756781
I don't really even have the will to make friends or talk to people anymore, after a while I've just kind of bonded to drugs more than people and now I feel stuck in this situation.
>>702760568
have you tried meds and/or therapy?
>>702760329
wow.. I relate.. here's mine
>be me, 15
>notices a small bump on my right arm
>grows slowly over the years
>multiplied to other areas in the past 2 years
>only told one person, left for america afterwards
fast forward to this year
>my employer not giving me the contract salary
>left my job
>currently retailing fire extinguishers and miscellaneous shit
>my gf concerned about my condition
>She never left me after everything.
>>702760475
maybe
>>702760577
thank you
>>702760601
Its in my Frontal Lobe and is not benign
>>702760329
Dude it's your life, but I honestly think it's better to tell people now. They'll find out eventually and wonder why you didn't say something sooner. Maybe they can help you out.
>>702760466
Well I care and I hope you get the job. What are you applying for anon?
Also I wish I could draw but I am fuck awful at drawing. I play guitar though so at least i have some sort of creative outlet.
>>702760364
Haha I bet that's pretty nice
I'm from NJ actually, kinda by Rutgers
>>702760800
oh fug
you gotta get it removed or dead mang, frontal lobe is the intelligent lobe right?
>>702760476
I tried 2, and it works like a charm. thing is, I prefer the first l4d just because it's what got me into FPS again, also because of its darker feel and well-made engine
>>702760785
Therapy is the not what I want. My family has no idea what's going on with me, nobody in my life does. If I took therapy, they would. That's the last thing I want. I also feel like it wouldn't help.
>>702759756
I get that. I've been here before in a way, with another long term relationship. The difference here is the breadcrumbs don't lead to me. She asked for this because her entire life has been kind of meandering, not really going where she envisioned, largely to do with external circumstances over the last couple years. I've been the one constant in her life for some time now and that might be the last rope that needs untied for her to get a fresh start.
Maybe I'm in denial. Idk.
welp its 2:25 am and i think i might go to bed friends. it has been fantastic chatting with you guys but goodnight
>>702761029
Goodnight anon! I have a feeling well be having more threads like this in the future!
>>702761029
sweet dreams, anon.
>>702760958
All the missions in l4d are in l4d2. But yeah, I do think it's superior to l4d2. I've been playing a lot of pirated 00's games since they work best on my PC.
>>702761135
amen brother. amen...
>>702761029
Night anon, thanks for the chat>>702761135
>>702760794
i feel anon ill die of it soon and i hope my family understands that i just dont want them to pay for it.
im sad and i dont know why
>>702760928
Oh yeah. For some reason Rutgers kids keep raiding PSU GroupMes. Ok well I have a 9 am class tomorrow so I'm getting some sleep. Enjoy your senior year man. It's a great time to just go ahead and do some fun/crazy stuff because why not. You'll never quite have this year again so make the most of it and have fun.
Peace and love.
>>702761159
all the missions of 2 are also on 1, so even if I get 2, it's pointless for me now.
yeah, games back then were more PC friendly for older systems.. Nowadays it's all about gaming rigs and high end graphics.
I didn't hit puberty until i was 15 and it ruined my social life/confidence
i gotta be up for work in 3 hours, should i stay up or sleep? Worried if I sleep ill just be tired af and worse off
/b/ros can you give me some advice on how to avoid or cope with jealousy?
pic not related
>>702761253
same issue bro. I only left college so that I can have this growth fixed soon. I got into retailing for the high returns, but they don't appreciate it because they don't know my condition.
I've had mine checked, but doctors were uncertain if it's malignant or not. cant afford further tests, so I have to carry this until:
a)I can afford it
b)I die because of it
so yeah.. deep shit..
>>702761335
cuz you're up at 2:30 AM on a Tuesday. go to bed and you'll wake up tomorrow feeling better.
>>702757564
I go on suicide hotline, get drunk and talk until they ask me if I'm immediately going to do anything, I tell them not tonight and repeat. I think about going through with it sometimes, I just can't seem to take that final step.
>>702761670
Give us details, we'll be more than happy to help.
>>702760842
>Well I care and I hope you get the job.
thank
>What are you applying for anon?
some place called cracker barrel
>Also I wish I could draw but I am fuck awful at drawing.
me too
>I play guitar though so at least i have some sort of creative outlet.
oh fuck i want to learn to play a piano, the closest i've ever gotten is virtual piano lol
anyways, i'm gonna bail it's like 2;30am here.
>>702761370
Thanks for all the advice man, night
>>702761003
Try not to let it eat away at you, you'd figure stability is something she would be looking for in her life but women aren't always rational.
>no life
>no money
>no job
>shit country
>no friends
>hope to die as soon as possible
>>702761508
15 is a pretty normal age to hit puberty.I know some guys In high school that didnt hit it until like 17/18
>>702761381
Recently it was SWtOR 1 and 2 for me. Getting kind of bored of these older games, so I think I may build a tower soon.
>>702759244
She's more insecure than anyone I've ever been with, she's antisocial to the point that I have to order food for her, she constantly reinforces her own belief that she's dumb, see fawns over the Kardashiansh; her idea of a good time is saying in, getting high, and watching Netflix (I'd really rather change things up even one iota), and see keeps breaking my nice stuff, which is an accident but still happens way too much; also you can tell she comes from a bad home, she's not a kind hearted person
>>702761898
Hey! I work at cracker barrel, what position?
>>702761705
i hope for the both of us we get the money necessary for our operations and also hope its benign as well
I've had severe depression and anxiety since elementary school.
28 now.
Was abused by my step mom for over 10 years physically and mentally.
My dad's never defended me and that side of the family never believed me.
So I left them.
I have an eidetic memory when it comes to experiences and learning new skills such as doing things that involve working with my hands or other physical activities.
Unfortunately when it comes to experiences I get the full flood of the emotions I felt at the time.
One example, every single time I eat anything I get reminded of the time my step mom tried to force feed me my puke when I was sick.
Medication doesn't work. My body adapts to any sort of meds extremely quick. They dumb me down for a bit, and like a light switch it stops and everything comes back.
The only thing that drowns it out is alcohol which I avoid because I know how destructive it can be as the only person that stood by me was my uncle on my moms side who was an alcoholic and eventually got into AA and got better. He was later diagnosed with MS. hes gotten worse over the years. was clean for 15+ years, started drinking again last year.
Got a call today while I was at work.
He killed himself.
I'm lost.
>>702757564
Drink a lot but it makes it worse. But for some reason I still do it.
>>702761810
umm nothing too specific, it's just that I used to be on top of my game about ten years ago, and now I've hit rock bottom while my small number of friends are making it big, be it in their professional or personal lives, so that really makes me jealous and a bit depressed, and I hate the feeling
I should mention that my friends dont actually make me jealous on purpose, they're really nice people, sometimes I wonder why they even talk to me any more
>>702761898
Goodnight anon I hope you get the job tomorrow and keep drawing, even if they're just dumb cartoons. Look into an electric keyboard maybe, find one on craigslist or local pawn shops. Musical instruments are pursued talents, anyone can be good if they practice. Good luck anon
>>702761950
Yeah but not only did i hit it at 15 I didn't go through it fast either, i couldn't cum until i was 17 and my penis is only just starting to grow, it sucks man.
>>702761960
I'm not an avid gamer, leaning more to the casual level. Building a tower, on the other hand, has been my goal since I was 16, so I'm with you on that one.
only one app in mind for my target rig: Dying Light
>>702761996
what state ? also dishwasher
>>702762248
I haven't played but it doesn't seem too great to me. Apparently it gets really repetitive. Then again, my opinion isn't so valid. I'm looking to play some newer games, but also the games I already play but at what most consider a "playable-level". I've gotten used to low fps after all this time, 15fps sounds amazing to me.
50% of the time I try to jack off I can't cum or lose interest in whatever porn I'm watching. What's wrong with me?
>>702762039
Yeah bro. Hope for the best for both of us.
The money is not my main concern TBH, I'm more worried about how much time we have left before things go irreversible.. Hope to get the funding soon...
No matter how shit turns out anon, I'll see you on the other side..
>>702760208
You know what I'm ducking gonna tell her tomorrow. I got nothing to lose anon. I will never know how she feels about me if I don't say anything to her. Thanks anon and sorry you went through all of that
>>702756781
Dank memes
>>702762500
Stop watching so much porn and jerking off
>>702756781
Thanks for the great thread OP
Going to hit the sack now, hope I can chat with you anons again
>>702762127
well, we're on the same page anon. My family life is basically shit from the get-go, also hit rock bottom a month ago.
whatever happens, never let your emotion drag you down. Think straight, find your way around the problems, find an opportunity, grab, learn, and never stop until you reach the top..
I'm 20 years old, totally stumbling through life, no plans, no ideas, just working at local pizza place. I mean I have my own house I'm renting but I feel like I'm just wasting time and I should just go to college already. Oh well. Ill just drink some more
Broke up with my now ex-girlfriend. Shit was flying south for months. Feels bad man.
>>702762449
kek, I get a headache on framerates higher than 20. Watched tv this one time, I collapsed just because I can't handle the framerate.
>>702762772
thanks man Ill keep that in mind
>>702757396
Alright guys, unifag here. Thank you all for the great night, but I've got to go to sleep because I've got school tomorrow, I'll keep an eye out for these threads again because I love being able to talk to some of you faggots, and help some of you with some of your problems as well! it makes me feel like I'm actually apart of a community!
Anyways, have a goodnight everyone. These threads were fun!
If you are sad or in another words just not happy. Consider why that is. Do you care? Do you care how others see you? Do you care about anything? (sports, movies, actors, current events?) If you don't care no one will care about you.
>>702762941
Goodnight anon
have a good day tomorrow.
>>702762929
and one more thing anon.
Never let anyone drag you down.
>>702762501
same brother i hope the other side treats us well if thats the case
im going to be a bitch and go cry outside plus its 1:46 here and i need to go to sleep and try to find a job tomorrow
good night everyone
Going through a breakup. I posted a thread a week ago about it. I've prayed and cried my heart out so much. She was my best friend and the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I want to have hope she will come back to me but it hurts so fucking much to sit here alone and apart from her. I'm losing it, she was everything to me...
>>702763060
I wont anon, thanks again
>>702762941
good night and good luck with school, anon. see you on future threads.
>>702760255
If you're still up, let me tell you, you're doing the right thing by not turning to drugs or alcohol. I did. Planning to go psych soon. Might help or might not. But I'd be better off if I left the shit alone.
>>702763067
let it all out brother. it's good to atleast have one outlet. Good night.
>>702762923
Thanks for the nice little chat, but I'm gonna head off for now.
I hope there are more threads like this in the future, it helps me forget that my board as fallen apart. Goodnight /b/rethren.
>>702762070
I'm in a pretty similar boat anon,
22 here, dad used to be my hero, I idolized him. He was in the army and active duty. Well, he must have seen some shit because he started drinking and he changed, he started raising his voice a lot more often, that soon escilated into just screaming at me, which eventually turned into physical abuse. He'd throw me down the stairs, he'd punch me, hit me after he had me curled up in the corner, he'd pick me up and slam me against furniture while telling me I was a terrible son. This continued for a few years until it went back down to just verbal abuse, eventually he started threatening to kill me and I called the cops on him. He kept telling me I was worthless, I would never be a real man ect. eventually my mother left him and I got a restraining order placed against him. throughout all of this I had a few friends up until he started hitting me. I withdrew from most social interaction and I'd just sit in my room, pull the curtains up and stare at the wall. I tried to off myself a few times but I never ended up actually doing it right. A few years ago I started doing drugs to cope. I don't talk to dad anymore but from what I hear, he's lost his mind completely, now lives in the ghetto and works as a janitor. Good luck man, I hope things get better for you.
>>702762377
MA, and sweet, me too, Umm, a thing about cracker barrel is you're not just a dishwasher, you're a janitor kind of, you're a busser sometimes but you can get away with more than the other positions because there are never enough dish guys.
>>702763422
Good night, /b/rother.
>>702763593
oh, figures .. my last job was almost the same thing. (apart from bussing)
>>702762377
oh by the way, you'll take a computer test, spam the arrow key really, really fast, you'll skip a lot of the computer bullshit that way, it's mostly useless, you learn your job as you go, the computer stuff is BS
>>702763783
Yeah, it's kinda shit but it could be worse.
I just fucked a girl I've known for a long time who I just found out is a prostitute, paid $60. My girl left me a few days ago. The prostitute had a banging body compared to my ex, I convinced the pro to let me fuck without a condom since I've known her so long.
Now I'm a little worried, only I feel a bit better cuz she was on the condom thing
>>702763896
yeah but in the end it'll make my parents prolly like me again .. they really are the only people i have to talk to apart from my siblings and former coworkers .. //sigh
am gonna go to bed forreal now though, take care anon.
>>702761918
They certainly aren't. I guess what this boils down to for me is: I'm scared that she's right. That cutting ties with me and the majority of people around her is the best thing she could do to better her overall situation.
I actually think it probably is the right move for her right now. I just wish like hell it wasn't. :/
>>702764335
See ya man, good luck
I know I'm gonna get a lot of tits or gtfo from newfags but idrc anymore. I'm feeling really depressed and shitty right now.
>Be me
>Few months ago
>Been good friends with this one dude for 6-7 months
>We talk and meet up a lot
>Falling for this mother fucker so hard it hurts
>Find out after awhile he likes another girl
>Feelsbadman.jpg
>This happens a lot usually, so I prepared myself to move on and give up like always
>He's got a high iq so he figures shit out easily
>Figures out I'm crushin on him quickly
>One night we're at a park just chilling
>He decides to confront me and ask if I liked him
>Nopenopenopenopitynopenope
>My stupid stubborn ass just keeps denying it out of fear of losing him
>He persists for a long hour
>I finally give in and just admit it, super red in the face
>We sit in an awkward silence for a straight minute
>Really want to go home and never leave my room again
>Finally, he speaks up breaking the tension
>"Wanna just go out then?"
>wat...
>WHAT
>HOLYNIGGERS.PNG
>Too shocked to even speak
>After a few seconds of awkward stuttering, I blurt out a yes
>"Okay"
>Go home a few hours later after all that craziness
>Can't stop smiling
>Fast forward about 2 months
>Nothing big happens, just some kissing here and there, couple dates, etc.
>I've never felt happier before in my entire life
>One day after work I randomly get some texts from one of my few friends
>Also good friends with bf
>After talking for a bit he shows me screenshots of his text convo with bf
>Read through random irrelevant texts until I get to these
>M: "How's the new gf"
>Bf: "great man I love her a lot"
>Bf" "got a new side hoe too, but might dump her soon"
>Bf: "shes boring, awkward, and hasn't even sent nudes yet
>Mfw he's been dating that girl he used to like the whole time
>Mfw I'm the side hoe
>Mfw He's been trying to use me for sex the whole fucking time
(P1)
>>702763084
If it makes you feel any better, my girl just left me too. But I'm on house arrest for 6 more months. I can't even fucking leave to go out lol
>>702764521
>tfw you're really just an overweight anon who probably wishes he were born a girl
>>702763084
I feel that man, I've only ever dated one girl, we broke up about a year ago, she sent me a post card this one time she went on vacation, I still re-read it sometimes. I haven't been interested in anybody since.
>>702764521
(P2)
I called him up after that and confronted him about it. We argued for a bit before he started cussing me out and pointing out all the shit he hated about me, then he just hung up... It's kind of weird because it feels like someone shot me in the chest, theres just a massive bullet hole wound. Ugh idk sorry I keep rambling on...
>>702763438
Thanks.
I hope things get better for you as well. It's rough seeing the people that looked up to fall apart.
Somewhere in your dad, no matter how far gone he may be right now, you're still his boy. It's just buried deep under a pile of demons.
Be sure to reach out to him some time in the future. Doesn't have to be soon, but when you're ready too.
senior in highschool just turned 18 a week ago. Ive moved so much during my highschool years and this is the first year where I really wont just know anyone and just go on about my business by myself. I moved back home in what is basically mexico with my grandma. I don't know anyone but my cousin here. This is going to be the 4th highschool I've been too. My freshman year blew because I was the only mexican in a whole white school which kinda blew. Everyone made fun of me for having long hair and being fat but I didnt really think much of it and really just waited for the day to find my friends but never did. I eventually got tired of the school and was probably one of the worst years I ever had. Sophomore year was the complete opposite. I had great classes, made a shit ton of cool ass friends, had a bomb ass job where I met a lot of more friends and just generally had fun there. I worked all through sophomore year. Had great grades, ALL A"s and loved my afterschool job. Basically I worked 40 hours a week and I had no problem with it. But after sophomore year I quit my job to look for better opportunities because the whole establishment had gone to shit and most of my friends there either left or got fired. I wont ever forget that place. Junior year I had no idea if I was going to move again before school started but I did a week after it did. I was just constantly moving places with my mom and dad, not knowing where I was going to be made me enroll into an online school which was alright but really sucked since all I did was stay in my room playing CS and doing work inside. Btw I was like 2 hours away from where I was sophomore year so I kinda visited my friends but it was rare. Now Im all alone and farther away from where I was before (5 hours). Im a senior now and just feel hopeless and see nothing great ever happening for me again and I just don't really think I'll make friends like I used to or have a great fun job like before.
>>702764568
Shit man, I wish I was there with you laughing about something. I don't have any real friends so I have been hanging out with my family lately, crying almost every hour.
>>702764851
I have her sweater, all her pictures, postcards, I hear her voice every second. I wish I was hanging with you seeing mutual connections to cope. You still see her hand as she might have wrote that postcard?
>>702765458
feel like this is spaghetti but its 2am and I cant sleep and I've just had this stuck in my head with no one to really tell. I just feel sad and don't really think any of my friends would like to hear this now.
>>702764859
Well, here's the good news:
You dodged a bullet with this faggot.
As an impartial, male observer, if I'd heard that story with genders reversed, and I'd heard a girl did that to a male friend of mine, I'd want nothing to do with that girl. Don't care if she is smart. She's a calculating, sociopathic, bitch.
...So, anyway, that dude?
Not long-term relationship material, anyway. Realistically, you don't want to be either the girlfriend or the "side ho".
If you were just in it for sex, then whatever, but given the strong emotional reaction, it sounds like you weren't. You're making the same mistake that a lot of anons on here have made with women; your hormones are blinding you to the reality of this guy as a person. Your loneliness and thirst are getting in the way of your objectivity.
>>702765259
Thanks, Yeah, maybe one day I'll reach out but I don't really know anymore, I feel terrible for him but I don't want to patch things up with him. He's still the same cruel person he's been for the last 20 years and I think the part of him I used to look up to is gone, besides, if he still cared, I'm sure it would tear him apart to see me the way I am now, substance abuse has done a lot of damage since the last time he saw me in court.
>>702764859
>>702764859
I'm this guy >>702762070
I really know that feeling right now and have been cheated on before too. I'm not going to tell you time heals all wounds, because it doesn't you're left with scars. You just need to remember why you have those scars, learn from it, and share those experiences with the next person you care for. Don't let it ruin your relationships.
>>702756781
Pissed because a fucking feminist got my instagram account disabled
I really wish I had some deep deep connections with people. I just moved for college and I got my own place and it's cool but lonely. I play vidya in my spare time and have a few buddy's on there that ease the pain but when I get off or don't wanna play it's just utter loneliness and sadness. I have no real friends where I'm at school and only 2 back home which is an hour and a half away. Kinda wish I had some like minded efriends even to just chat with for some social interaction..
>>702756781
all my green text threads always die
y???
>>702766143
Serves you right for being the kind of faggot who'd post on instagram.
>>702766198
There's more behind this than I mention obviously. Just don't connect with anybody anymore.
>>702764859
The world still loves you and don't forget the happiness you will feel in the future. I lost my girl recently and I didnt wrong her, she just gave up on us. She hates me so irrationally it hurts. She was my best friend and I loved the hell out of her. Just know you are worth it and the world cares even if you feel lonely. I live in Utah so everytime you go out at night look to the sky in that direction and remember someone clear over there thought about you.
>>702765853
This guy is right. I'll add to it by saying you can't rationalize an irrational person, and you can't partake love from an unloving person.
>>702766402
Wanna tell me more about your story/who you are as a person?
>>702766253
Bitches just get mad when they're wrong, i said native Americans are asian and im banned
>>702765668
I don't really connect to anybody anymore, she was my only friend, I just kind of force myself to get up, go to work and take care of myself and whenever things get too much I drink until it gets easier to deal with.
Pretty recently my girlfriend ended things with me. I'm starting to deal with it alright now - that's not really what this is about.
The things she said during the breakup and after though, that's killing me. I spent the past 3 years going from absolutely no confidence, to having a normal amount. But the stuff she said, that destroyed it all. Everything I thought was good in the relationship, she suddenly hated. Everything about me, I'm finding out is awful. I spent 23 years thinking I was unlovable, and she changed that, and then she changed it back in a single night.
Before I met her, I really had no standards, and it was damn near impossible for me to find anyone interested. I tried, I tried so hard, and nothing ever came of it. I met my ex from an anomaly, something that had never happened to me before her, and very very unlikely to ever happen again.
In the past year and a half that we were together, with time and confidence gain, in addition to being with her, I found out what I do and don't like in someone that I'm with. Now that I actually have stuff that I would like to look for, I don't see myself ever finding someone. Before her, I never wanted to get married or have kids, so I was contempt with spending my life solo. She changed my opinions on that, and now I don't want that solo life, but I think I'm doomed to it, and that terrifies me.
>>702765888
Have you tried going to NA or any other support resources yet? I know AA and NA talk about accepting there is a higher power and what not (don't know if you are religious, my uncle wasn't either) but you just need to apply what they offer to your life.
Even if it's speaking to a counselor or us consistently, one step forward is faster than staying still.
>>702766611
Gladly. Typing on my phone is rough but I should be sleeping. Almost worth going back to pc but nah I'll do my best.
I'm a white 18 year old male. Small and thin. Introvert, Taurus. Basically all the people I'm surrounded by are party fiends and stuff and I don't drink at all. I smoke weed on the daily though. I play xbox a bit as well as pc and interested in technology. Some background to me life I guess. 4th grade mom and dad divorce because my mom was cheating on my father with am inmate at the prison she worked at. Mom moves out with the guy. End up meeting him and dad gets a gf. The guys cool and I look up to him because he is an OG Irish mobster with class. He died a few years ago. Moving on I've been in one relationship which lasted from the time I was 14 - 17. She cheated on me multiple times but due to my lack of social skills felt she was all I had. Eventually I realized she was toxic but I've yet to discover another female that liked me and fit my standards. I can't read over without some rough scrolling. I'll answer anything you wanna know. I've missed lots tried to hit what might be damaging.
>>702767272
bro, lower your standards..
look for a loyal ugly duckling, not for a beautiful bitch
>>702767272
Looking at what I've typed now there's more to say I just can't get it out fast enough hahahaha not overly concerned though feels good to let some out.
>>702767272
I think your problem is, that you are too bound to your parents. Is there any way for you to move out or have less contact with them? Sooner or later you will move out anyway.
>>702766897
I'll share a pic I have still. Do you still struggle even after all this time? If so, wanna tell me what poisons you?
>>702767082
I relate in so many ways. Those little demons dancing around you negating everything good and positive you had, reminding you of reality. Tell me about her?
>>702767604
I live on my own. Just moved out 4 weeks ago.
College engineering major here. I don't know why but I just can't understand math just like the other students in my class. It's a challenge for me. Every aspect in my major is a challenge because math isn't exactly one of my strong points. My dad says he won't pay for my college if I don't do engineering. I hate myself.
I just want a girlfriend, I want to be held by someone who actually loves me. I want to wake up to her smiling at me. I want to come home from work to be greeted by someone who cares about me. I want someone who would be interested in the things I have to say and how my day was.
>All I want is to be happy
>>702767082
that shit is rough anon. don't let it shatter your confidence, though. She didn't give you that confidence, you've always had it and she can't take that away from you. Keep putting yourself out there, fake the confidence if you have to, and you will find yourself, and love, again.
>>702767704
Hmm. I don't really get what your problem is. That sounds like a normal life with all the ups and downs
>>702767740
well, my dad once beat me up good for not taking a nautical course. math can be learned. the damage he's done cannot be undone.
>>702767839
I guess your right maybe experiencing the fact nobody gives a shit about you in the real world and just nieve to it.
>>702767788
I gave up on that shit. A girlfriend is great but you fear all the time that she might disappear. It's like everything in life: you can't worry about something you don't have
>>702767235
Yeah, I tried finding some kind of counseling program but they tried pushing me into a full rehabilitation program rather than having me just talk to somebody about it, I'm not really ready for something like that, I turned to vicodin and coke to try and "force" myself to feel happy, it's the only thing that's given me any kind of relief from depression, even if it is temporary, I've been in and out of therapy for years but so far it's been the only thing that's helped and every time I've tried to stop, I've just gotten suicidal again.
>>702765853
This is accurate honestly... I ignored all the red flags I saw in him and pretended he was perfect. But I just couldn't stand being pathetically alone anymore and I let that blind my senses as a result..
>>702765907
Jesus christ, I feel like a piece of shit sitting here and complaining about being cheated on when you just lost your dad to suicide. I'm so sorry anon, this must be really hard for you...
>>702767740
Are you alright at computer science?
That's described by idiots as "software engineering", and your dad might buy that.
Anyway, it's discrete math, so it's kinda different and you might have an easier time. If you're good at it, you can make 6 figures out of college.
sauce: I'm making six figures right out of college
>>702767272
Gotta agree with this guy to some degree:
>>702767839
Other than that. Maybe cut the weed and go hang out around random people. I know weed destroys compassion and anything that acts as an escape can dilute your ambition. Seems like you need to find a best friend though, someone who really wants to care and understand you and maybe give them the same in return. To find that someone you will have to broaden yourself out in the world.
>>702768059
where do you live bro?
btw not the anon you replied to
>>702766205
Yo, OP. We can be friends. But you got to e-mail my dead e-mail. Just for this thread. [email protected] I want to get to know you fam.
>>702767949
That's true. I discovered that myself a while ago (on acid :D). It doesn't matter with who and how many people we are in a situation, in the end everyone's still alone because in reality you never have the same experience as someone else. You always have your own thoughts and it is impossible to share that exact same experience with someone else
>>702767646
Well, yes and no. I just don't let myself get sad over it, deep down it still tears me apart but I just kind of force myself forward and drink to deal. what about you? are you handling it okay?
>>702768253
op left a while ago. been here since thread went up.
>>702768059
I was thinking of doing that, but I'm not a dedicated person(learning how to program and all). I don't know really. My life has been a shitshow since I graduated high school. I don't really know what I want to major in. Wish I could just go back to high school
>>702768149
Good advice. My post was extremely out of order and shit didn't think about what I was typing tbh. And yeah id really like to find someone at school I enjoy being around. Feel like it would solve all. But we are humans and always want more.
anyone feel like they are just wasting their life? I feel like i could be out and living my life but I just feel so indifferent all the time. its as if the last four years of my life have just blown by in a haze and I am no better as a person. i hate it
>>702768320
Well, shit. But if you guys want to be friends. You can e-mail my dead ass e-mail.
>>702768213
Silicon valley.
The bayarrhea.
>>702768418
Where are you from, anon?
>>702768312
Mines a bit more recent. I'm doin pretty awful, still coping with reality, and God damn I wish she loved me as much as I loved her. How did you move forward, other than drinking?
>>702768335
Well first off what do you truly want to major in? It doesn't sound like you really want to do engineering. And why is your dad only paying if you do an engineering major?
>>702768500
Dubs have been checked. WEST COUSIN FUCKIN VIRGINIA
>>702756781
I work at an airport and there's a girl that works on the other side of the concourse who's pretty cool. I have a girlfriend and I think my current relationship would be better off if my girlfriend and I where just friends. The problem comes with the fact that my girlfriend is mentally unstable, refuses to go to a therapist, get extremely jealous really easily, and would probably kill herself if I broke up with her. Other than that my life's just fine. I got games for years. I'm currently making a game with my co-worker, and I'm starting college. I'm a tad low on funds but that can easily be fixed by selling my PS3 and games. Because even after that I still have my PC, my PS4, and my OX-box. So really, I'm in a somewhat okay position. But things could be better.
>>702768267
I'm getting ready to write an essay on a lesson learned outside the classroom and it's gonna be on being alone
Thank god I have the empathy of a tiger to it's prey. Keeps me from having all the problems with feels you guys have
>>702768524
Yeah, me and my ex were head over heels for eachother too, Umm, just focus on yourself for a while I guess, it's mostly just time, there's not much that's gonna make it easier other than just waiting it out, at least for me, work on personal growth, buy the things you wanna buy, get some kind of big project to work on, just keep yourself too busy to think about anything else or you'll dwell on her.
>>702768452
Try that in Philippines, you'd get lucky to land a job in a related field.
>>702768577
That's the thing. I have no idea. A year ago all I was doing was just playing games and studying for finals. No goal in life or anything. I fucked up two classes last semester because I was depressed and my dad made a big deal out of it. and i dont know why my dad will only pay if its engineering. he keeps telling me any other major is for losers and ill never have a good life if i do anything other than engineering. sort of a mental abuser idk.
>>702768604
Well, i'm from the other side of the planet basically... German Reich
>>702768422
I felt like this for a while. I had a dream but I was so demotivated. One thing I learned to do to help me was to push myself on little things. Brushing teeth more, showing more, exercises when you can (maybe before shower.) Then just snowball it from there. Take it easy and do your best and value what you enjoy. Got a little quote too: "Always find something you can do better for the world, not something the world can do better for you." -Me
>>702768913
Things must be so different. Why are you here talking to me?
>>702767974
but all I want is female companionship. Thats what I have discovered what the root of my depression is. If it really is a huge hassle how can I convince myself that its not a big deal?
>>702767974
I'm exactly like you, bitter bro. The girls who admire you ain't shit and the girls you adore are whores.
Why settle for girls when there's a whole world of science and literature and spirituality and film and cool bros out there?
>>702768643
Yo, fam. I could try to help you. Not Financially. But, verbally. email me at [email protected], I hope I can help. :)
>>702768769
Hm. Yeah. I'm actually a writer so when shit like this happens I notice it effect my work. That usually demotivates me so I tend to dwell. There's an unfortunate bit of it though: When that girl was everything to me, my life, it's hard to not dwell when shes gone.
i cant lose her but idk how i can fix this
>>702769137
I feel the same way anon. Like a perfect girl would sew up all my issues.
>>702769072
I'm sitting in my university right now but instead of listening to the guy at the front telling me about math shit I will never need, even if I want to be a productive slave for our system, I'm here. Totally worth it
>>702768643
Haha kind of in the same boat as you, man. My girlfriend isn't crazy, but she'd be crushed for the rest of her life if I left her. I also don't have a side bitch/crush, I just feel a bit too committed at my age and wish I had never brought up dating. At least she's willing to work out and be attractive for me, because I must admit she is kind of fat... But fat with potential, she just needs to squat and lose weight. She's really cool, just I wish we were still friends instead.
Mariah, if you're out there reading this by any chance, please lose weight. I know you love me, but I'm a shallow piece of shit and I want to sex up attractive women.
>>702769171
Exactly! /b/ros before hoes
Welp, this thread was great guys, but I'm off to find a life outside..(3PM here, so yeah, go time)
See you all in a future thread just like this one.
>>702767998
Here's the good news:
Someone who isn't an asshole may not have any issues with you. This guy was annoyed with you because all he really wanted were nudes and possibly some sex. So, from his perspective, anything you did, thought, or said which didn't further the agenda of him getting nudes was inconvenient and annoying.
Essentially, he didn't object to your personality so much as he objected to the fact that you *have* a personality.
Cut the motherfucker out of your life as much as possible, and try to find someone else. Most guys aren't complete sociopaths. However- and this is kind of the problem- the guys who are fine with stringing a bunch of women along at once are the ones most likely to approach you.
So, to ensure that the next guy you end up with isn't an asshole, make sure you approach the next guy you want to end up with. Ask guys out on dates. Your luck will improve as soon as you become more proactive.
Incidentally, this is also true for all the other anons on here. The person who *doesn't* ask you out is less likely to give you HIV.
>>702769251
Yeah, I completely understand that. It took a while before I even learned to like things again after her. Do you still have any interests or hobbies or anything?
>>702768972
i appreciate this. thank you.
>>702769171
>>702769316
She wouldn't, guys! All she would do, is heal you just to leave even deeper wounds. I'm not talking from my own experiences here but that is how it goes mostly
>>702769342
Well cool. Thanks a lot man.
>>702769294
I know that exact feeling. Been dealing with this recently and even now. I've tried and poured my heart out to save it but she still made the decision. My best advice is try to move forward and work on what you already have (yourself, family.) Then realize if it's ment to be she will come back, she should know you love her, if not, let her know. Be positive as best you can about all of this. Look for support. Tell me more about your situation?
>>702756781
imagine dragons - radioactive in my ass
>mygod.jpg
>>702769367
The only reason I started dating my girlfriend was because I felt guilty about the casual sex. and now she's just attached. She thinks that I'm the perfect guy for her. Really though, I'm 19 and she's 20 and we still have a whole ahead of us.
>>702768418
Yes, you always want more, but baselines matter. Growing up in poverty is distinct from growing up in a six-figure home. Having just one person whose company you genuinely enjoy, someone who you inspire mutually, that's a baseline from where you can grow!
>>702769624
Do you play any games? If so, we can exchange steam names, I'm online every day
>>702769616
Truthfully speaking about my experience with that post but I still loathe for one.
>>702769879
Did you ever have one?
I archived the thread. Will update more as the thread goes on. :)
>>702769860
I'd like that. My pc isn't overpowered but I'll do my best to get any game you like. One sec I'll link it
http://kingzandqueenz.neocities.org/bestthread.html Archived thread.
>>702769565
Played Vidya, but now she's gone I don't enjoy it. I exercise and play guitar other than that. It's weird though because I feel like fucking Prometheus; dying over and over every day. What do you like to do?
>>702770028
Gj bud
Moving to Washington state to start a life with gf of several years. I'm not worried about the relationship part, that part is fine , just the logistics when everything is expensive as fuck. Want to give her a better life then before (abused by tard father , molested by cousins , her and mom basically held by hostage by tard dad). Never moved and with work hitting the winter season it's getting stressful and fuck. Don't think iv every been so on edge.
>>702769959
I had one serious one in high school who completely fucked me up. I've had one like 2 month relationship then I got ditched after getting attached. Been single for like 13 months if you consider that 2 month thing a relationship.
>>702769674
its a real long story. she is my dream girl and ive wanted her since middle school and we finally started dating a year and a half ago. she told me to stop talking to her friend who was really nice to me which is not common people arent usually nice to me. i told her i would but i didnt. her friend needed a place to stay one night and i let her sleep over. nothing happened between us but i didnt tell my gf, a month later i was on painkillers bc i had surgery and it slipped out it killed her i told her on her birthday and she cried and cried while eating her cake. i stopped talking to the friend. a year later i talk to the girl again bc i needed help i needed to see a therapist and i knew she could help. didnt tell my gf i was talking to her again. and i asked the girl to hangout so she could meet my friend but she told my gf and now my gf is torn apart bc i borke her trust and lied constantly. im not with her bc i want to fuck her im with her bc i actually love her and i feel like she might be the one.
TL:DR I love my girlfriend but i cant stop lying. its second nature now
>>702770086
Isn't it complicated as fuck to live with her? I had a gf once that had the same experiences and she suffered from massive social anxieties and shit like that
>>702770157
You see, it's like drugs. Nice for the moment but then comes the comedown
I just made a decision to quit college and pursue concept art
>>702770346
True but what about marriage with an awesome other half?
>>702769860
>>702770013
http://steamcommunity.com/id/ColdMcDonalds/
>>702770215
I think you need to sacrifice for her, and build trust again. I'm sure her friend will understand, and I hope you aren't leading her friend on, because before you know it you will lose them both. I know your girlfriend's POV so if there was something I would want to tell you for her sake, is to make her feel loved. Give her security and trust. Then openness will naturally fall back into your life.
>>702770571
Got an e-mail? I don't really use Steam.
>>702770501
You are bound forever to that family if you don't want to fuck them over. I'd rather keep my freedom to be completely free to go wherever I want and do whatever I want
>>702770238
To a degree , yes. She is pretty fucked in the head, but I know how to deal with her. While the reason is different, She has very similar issues that I do and use to have. I know her becuse I know myself.
I just Wanna take a sec to acknowledge how beautifully diverse this website is. I honestly thought it was just full of intelligent douchebags but now I see lots of extremely helpful nice people.
>>702770571
Added :)
>>702770664
i have completely stopped talking to her friend entirely and i wont ever again. but my gf doesnt trust me at all and thinks i cheated, i dont blame her for thinking that. but she is tired of me lying and doesnt want to give me a chance again. this is like my 3rd last chance. she knows i love her and i constantly tell her but she says if i cared and loved her i wouldve never done this to her again
>>702770074
I've been working on decorating my room to be this WWI inspired battle station, other than that yeah, vidya but I don't enjoy it anymore either. Sometimes I'll play piano but I'll just play radiohead and I'll get sad again, working a lot has filled most of the void though, I'm usually too tired or too busy to think about her.
>>702770816
We're still all human, that's for sure.
>>702770735
I agree. I think no children and a female companion would be perfect but that's just me.
If you want help. You guys can e-mail me at [email protected], I can be a very helpful friend. Not Financially because I am poor.
>>702769768
Dude me too! We started having sex and I just wanted to keep it like that, but I was guilted into it in a way. I feel the same way about life, I don't wanna be 27 and it didn't work out and I missed my chance at fun in life.
i find it hard to believe anyone cares about me other than my parents but even then theyre getting sick of me
>>702770779
Okay, that changes it. I have close to zero empathy but empathy was all she wanted. I broke up with her after a month to prevent even more damage because I knew we wouldn't come along too long
>>702770886
That's some interesting grief. I'd say tolerate it and push to show her love. Give her flowers every day. Fall asleep in a routine of comfort and love every night (even if it's over text.) Show her she is worth it and push your love outward in form of communication.
>>702770941
It would be great, for sure. But I don't give enough fucks to put that higher on my priority list
>>702770857
Thank you :-)
>>702770816
You have to understand that, for a lot of people, this is where they go to indulge their worst selves.
It's not representative of who they are most of the time, nor is it even representative of who they are all of the time on here.
And for a bunch of people who are douchebags the other 23 hours of the day, it's a coping mechanism. They're soft, squishy, sensitive, gooey little faggots inside. Like sea urchins they have grown a hard, spiky shell around their creamy center.
>>702770901
What do you do for work? Also I like that idea of a room. I hope it turns out well. When you finish, know I'll be thinking of it.
