ITT: Crippling Depression
Are you depressed OP?
>tfw mommy throws a surprise anime party for you
>>702732923
very much by far
>>702732833
>>702732874
>>702732990
As much as I hate myself and I'm not happy, these always make me realize that there are people who have it worse than I do
And then I feel like an asshole for not having been a better friend to people who could have likely been these people in school
I feel lucky to have the friends I do, and the things I do in life, even if I hate myself.
What's up OP?
>spend birthday alone
>set timer on camera
>run to pick up angry cat
>sit in front of world's smallest birthday cake
>use every last ounce of soul i have left to force a smile
>FLASH
Ask for a electrolite machine for 5 grand.
Twice as fast able to lift 50% more.
Kangen Ukon, look for a sponsor to get one.
It's your balls on soda making you sad.
>should have joined to air force
>>702733061
>>702733061I
Anything on your mind that you want to vent? I have depressed since I was a sophmore in highschool. I didn't get help until recently(I'm 21 now). There is hope with medication and therapy, you just need to try a few doctors and medications.
>>702732833
please stop, these pictures are actually bringing tears to my eyes. If you need help OP, remember we are here for you always
>>702733629
>he sits there every day
it can happen to grils too
>>702733856
she is super cute, easily 7/10 for me, how could she be alone?
>tfw nobody takes your rage against the world seriously
>>702733901
>NO
I'm convinced most of these birthday images are just young adults who's parents want to celebrate with them.
Their expressions aren't depression, they're annoyance for being there.
>>702734008
Don't use "rates", you socially-stunted autist. Sad faggotry like that is the reason you're so fucking alone.
>>702732833
>>702732990
At least they have people who care about them, not like >>702733024
But we are here
>>702733629
>>702733778
h-his wife is just in the b-bathroom... th-that's all...
>invite all children over for thanksgiving
>not a single one shows or calls
>>702734521
>the picture on the table
>the dogs know, but don't judge
>>702734211
easy there white night
>>702734831
>>702732833
My God, is that you! You fucking loser!! HAHAH just fucking an hero NOW!!
why is it i hate this shit but can't stop looking at them?
>parents visit cake decorator
>"So what are your son's hobbies? What does he like to do?"
>"Well..."
>be worst player on little league team
>ask dad to play catch to get better
>dad refuses every time and you try to make the best of things
>>702733418
Did the cat scratch you?
>>702733418
that dude looks genuienely happy
>>702734308
>>702733554
Jesus, look at that fivehead!!!
An hero?
>>702733682
The silver cauldron of cheetos...
if you wait it out long enough, maybe your son will still visit you on birthdays before you die
>>702734008
7/10 are you fucking insane, nigger!!!!
1010101010101010101010
>>702733629
>picture on table
fuck man don't do this to me
Only 8 people said happy birthday to me September1st but you know what I don't care. My best friend Brian and Stefan hugged me and told me happy birthday. The girl I liked told me happy birthday. My mom, dad and grandpa. And 2 anons. Fuck my other family and friends this is the last time I'm staying up late at night to tell them happy birthday. Fuck them days later and not even a happy past birthday fuck them /b/. But you know what at least those people said it to me and I know they'll be there for me for the longest. I love them.
>>702734008
She either has an awful personality and nobody can stand her. Or, she just likes to spend her birthday with her parents, and maybe did something else with her friends before or after
>>702733901
She looks good for 211.
my birthday is coming up in like 3 days, what do?
>>702735865
28, christ
>>702732833
i dont get what the problem is, i spent most of my birthdays alone. luckily for the past three years i met a girl, and shes my best and only friend, we're going away for the weekend of my birthday. i hope to god she doesnt cheat on me, she is completely out of my league, im a fat lonely neckbeard who plays elder scrolls and she looks like cara delevinge
>>702732833
Loneliness is not depression, dumb underage.
>>702736287
1. start a thread on /b/
2. tell everyone its your birthday
3.???
4. profit?
>>702734929
This dude doesn't look lame enough for this thread...
>>702733856
18?!? Giggidy
I'm 29 and haven't celebrated my birthday in like 7 years. I'll be 30 in a few months and aside from considering suicide it probably won't be anything special either.
>>702735097
You keep a carpet segment under your feet?
>>702736287
KYS maybe? Escape the loneliness
>>702733418
someone took the picture, he isnt alone, plus he has a cat
>>702734077
damn i want a slice of that cake
>>702733629
look at the bitch in the left corner who took the pic, i bet shes laughing at this pathetic old man, probably sent the pics to her friends on whatsapp laughing at that 'old freak'. women are shit man, i hope she gets raped
>>702736524
dont do it m8, if youre too lonely to bear then get a dog or cat
looking for the original birthday cake boy pic from like 7 yrs ago.
>>702736578
>I can't read
>>702736578
that is obviously a timer picture. if you had more that 16 years of experience in this would, you would see that.
>>702736353
She's gonna leave you eventually, and you're going to be so depressed, that you'll kys.
my birthdays always looked like the op's
i saw this picture from when i was like 11,
spongbob everything
i was a skinny little blonde kid with these oversized glasses and giant gapped spongbob teeth to match
i looked happy as shit
you make yourself sad by overthinking
>>702736750
I just said consider, which is a hobby of mine. I won't actually do it. Also have two doggos.
>>702733950
>>702733901
>>702733856
we past from really sad loneliness, to normal birthday pics
>>702734191
Dude thats even worse, a parent who spent years making you the best you you can you. And all theye want is to spend some time with there kid whos moving on in life slowly separating from there family and the kids annoyed by this tender outreach that the parent can verbally say because it whould just be the same "i love you" that they regurgitate after talking on the phone
>>702733950
Femanon. July was the first birthday I haven't been alone in years.
> work all day on my birthday, 11 hour shift
> my ex (but boyfriend at the time) makes me come over, after I insist I would rather celebrate in 2 days (my off day).
> gets angry at me midway through the day because I planned on spending it with my parents (they're usually out of town this time of year)
> he is allergic to cats. When we get to his house, he freaks out and says he must have inhaled a cathair in the uber
> rolls around on the bed groaning for an hour while I watch American dad reruns
> I suggest I watch an old movie I like (Heavy Metal), I know it's not great, but I like it.
> he groans more and says what we're watching is fine.
> I fall asleep within the hour out of annoyance. Wake up at 2am. No birthday gift from him, no card (we had been dating for almost 2 years).
I would have rather been alone.
>>702734521
>>702733778
I seriously want to give this guy money or something fuck.
Women have it so easy in life.
They can literally fuck anyone within their league, even if they're fat they could reel in another fat guy to be with for the night.
They just have to spread their legs and fire off a few texts and the guys would be in them by that night. So fucking unfair. It's why I sort of stopped caring about women, no point in trying to help them out in life.
>>702737279
Heavy Metal is awesome.
>>702737279
you're boyfriend sounds like kind of a dick but idk, maybe he had a stressful job too and just wanted to see you?
my gf and i don't really do anything big on birthdays so far, just spend the time together
>>702736918
I stopped celebrating my birthday around 7 or 8. Makes it easier to forget you don't have friends, now I just don't think about it.
>>702736071
happy past birthday anon
>>702736834
i ask her everyday if shes going to leave. im fucking worried man, its like a pain in my chest and my stomach clenches. i doubt id ever get with another girl again. people literally STARE at her in the street, its really opened my eyes to how pretty women get treated. Guys will buy her drinks in front of me, she gets free stuff at shops, its fucking weird man, she doesnt even appreciate it she said its how shes been treated her whole life.
never knew i was depressed untill recently. i dont find much joy in life anymore. the only thing that keeps me going is my gf but i keep fucking things up and she is done with it
>>702737675
We both work at a head shop. And he had the day off. And trust me, I wanted nothing extravagant. But the simplicity of a card, some small candy, something that I wanted to do... I got nothing and I felt so bad afterwards because had I celebrated with my parents, who I blew off, I would have at least felt cared about.
>>702737279
Women seem to have this ability to find the worst guys imaginable, and then wonder
>"Where are all the good guys at?"
Yeah, they're all around you, but you're blinded by a man's confidence which fucks you over in the long run. Confidence means they'll easily throw you to the curb. Enjoy your loneliness.
>>702736071
Happy birthday anon.
>>702733778
I want to hug him
>>702737861
lmao you're going to get rekt. Inb4 your suicide thread
>>702734295
Poor Julius
The thing is, except for two people, none of these people are actually alone. They are either celebrating with other people, or AT LEAST celebrating with whoever is taking their picture. So this really shouldn't be a depression thread. None of these people are alone.
>>702735700
lost
>>702738310
4chan made him a card.
>>702737279
That's shitty, kind of reminds me of my birthday freshman year of college, and sophomore year
>roommates knew birthday was coming up
>oh dude we'll make you a cake
>say that's okay because I enjoy making cake and would always do it for myself at home with my family
>they insist on doing it anyway
>oblige and tell them they can do it
>mom sends me some birthday decorations in the mail
>birthday day
>ask them if they want to make that cake
>"oh sorry bro we're busy"
>o-oh...
>go have birthday dinner in dining hall
>alone
>make myself cake, alone
>hang birthday decorations up
>eat cake alone
>pissed off because my roommates said they would bake cake and didn't, let alone have time to say happy birthday or spend some time with me
>clean up
>nothing else to do so I go to bed
>talk with parents next day after I talked with them earlier on my birthday
>mom says she sent me like three birthday cards because she knew I was struggling
>none of them show up, mail room lost them
When I went to sleep, the girl from down the hall slipped a card under my door with a really nice note in it. we had met and talked a little bit but we were never anything more than just people who lived on the same floor. Not even really friends. She even sealed it with wax, which was really cool. I think that's the nicest thing someone has done for my birthday outside of my family.
I just want to stop fucking thinking about her.
>>702738065
either improve yourself or become a beta provider. I wouldn't recommend the second one. Who cares about women's validation anyway man, they're less capable than a 14yr old boy. And when they turn old they won't get treated like princesses anymore so they become frigid bitter women asking themselves why men their age go for the younger models
>>702733778
>>702733629
The story is. His wife died 3 years before from cancer and for the first time in 57 years of marriage he's alone. That diner was where they met a long time ago. The diner has changed a lot but he goes back on anniversaries or birthdays and sees his wife eternally young across from him. It's depressing as fuck. I believe he himself died a few months ago.
Yes the cunt is laughing thinking its some crazy old man. I hate modern women so fucking much.
>>702738479
same bro same
>>702734077
Reminds me of that cake from Matilda. Always wanted a piece of that.
>>702738065
>>702733901
Happy Birthday Barah
>>702738065
I realized that he was narcissistic too late into it, and I blame only myself for watching him treat other people like shit and assume he wouldn't di it to me. I'm 22 and still making mistakes, but I don't wonder where the goos guys are.
I'm seeing an old friend, a real beta, swert as hell guy now. He plays magic the gathering and vintage games with me. He would bend over backwards for me and can't shake these cute bouts of nervousness. He appreciates me and he's a great person.
I was naive, but I'm not stupid.
>>702737861
i'm not normally one to say this anon, but here's some brutally honest advice
FUCKING MAN UP
women can smell insecurity, and if they see it in you, they WILL fuck around on you and leave you because they will see that you don't have any self worth.
Do what you need to do, don't be afraid to tell her that you won't stand for that shit.
I know that of which I speak
>>702734509
That's the dude from One direction when he was 16.
>>702735889
it'll be ok anon
>>702738552
Fucking school started again and I have been blessed to have broken up with a fellow member of my choir last year. Needless to say, seeing her every day does not help.
I think birthdays are kind of a dumb thing to celebrate anyway. Most holidays are a little dumb like fathers day or mothers day or Valentine's day. Just dumb. I don't put much weight on these holidays so I don't feel bad nor feel bad for others whenever they're not celebrated. The looks on these guys faces does make me sad tho.
>>702734008
>7/10
Kill yourself OP, shes a 9/11
>>702734608
these are the worst, how could you do that to your dad?
>>702734295
I'd hangout with him.
>>702737279
>rules
>also "heavy metal" is a fucking cool cartoon
>>702734295
but who was camera?
these are how my birthdays look and I'm only 18
hopefully I'll grow enough courage to kill myself before 25
>>702734118
I'm glad (you) noticed
>>702738862
>9/11
911
cute girls can't melt steel beams anon
>>702737279
a m'lady like you should be showered with rose petrols and candle lit baths on her birthday i'm sorry that happened to you :/
>>702732833
i havent had a genuine birthday since i was atleast 3. Every year I spend it by myself with the same old dry cake and boring pizza. No friends come over no nothing. Last year I had feeling my family would forget my birthday and when the day came, they did
>be me
>just me and wifey
>from big fam
>always get siblings b-day gifts
>and their kids
>mail them every year
>never late
>never receive gifts on my b-day
>never get thank yous for gifts sent
>don't even think about it till wifey points it out
>shrug
>sending more gifts tomorrow
I'm more successful than them
Have no kids eating all my money
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Am I supposed to be upset about it?
>>702739146
pedals*
>>702734008
Seriously, I think most of the girls that get praised on here are average as fuck but she's like an irl version the dorky girl in a movie of that gets a quick makeover and suddenly she's a 10
I've spent my last few birthdays drinking alone and sleeping on the floor, kinda sucks.
>>702736745
true that...was about to say the same thing
>>702733418
Smile reaches his eyes... he's happy.
But if true, that's a pimp way to handle it.
"Fuck you, I'm glad you're not here."
>>702738490
>the diner has changed
That's a fucking In'n Out Burger you mongoloid
>>702738431
can I see it
>>702738674
I've heard this probably a hundred times before.
It's extremely common for women to find guys who don't give a shit about them because they have confidence which they find so sexy. But the truth is in time you'll stop caring about your beta friend, at first his quirkiness will seem cute and you might think "hey, m-maybe him and I could just be more than friends hehe". But that'll wear off, you'll then go seek out another douchebag who emanates courage but won't care about your feelings. At first you'll think he's perfect and you'll fall right into that trap again.
People usually don't learn from their mistakes, you'll be doing this for the rest of your life. I say this because i've seen it happen so many times before. You can't run away from your instincts.
>>702737279
You know the rules
>>702738930
I fucking love the animation. I'm glad you guys like it, he said it was stupid but I think it's fucking sweet.
>>702737279
sucks, but yeah, either move on or quit complaining about him
no one cares about me not even my family. no one besides my parents even know i graduated school
>>702739401
Sad but true.
>all these faked pictures
>>702737279
the fuck is a femanon? tits or gtfo, cumdumpster
>>702738679
i agree 100% with what you're saying. but facts are facts man. until three moths ago i was so fat i could only see my dick by sucking in my gut. im still around 250lbs but ive been going to the gym every day, i am determined to try and not be completely pathetic.
my gf is acutely aware of this, and often tells me the only good thing about my life is her (its true). she has a career that takes her all over the country and i fucking hate it. i find it incredibly hard to believe that several men on the way to the train station, at the coffee shop, on the train, on the way to the hotel, at the hotel lobby, at the conference are constantly asking her out. all it would take is for one time she says fuck it, ok lets go. im either going to kill myself or kill her then myself. i cant see how i could continue, especially since i have no friends, no money, no job, no car. pretty much the only thing i have going for me is that i give her unadulterated praise and attention
>>702739401
>>702738674
>>702738065
>>702734008
>Be me during Middleschool
>A+ student, had like 2 people I called friends
>15th birthday
>Mom and dad greet me and sing me
>Happy about that
>"Friends" don't even say hi to me
>Are they waiting?
>Day ends
>Nothing
>Not even on facebook
>Become distant from my parents
>They don't look like they care anymore
>Mfw I spent the rest of my birthdays alone
>Mfw I don't have anyone
>Mfw I'm turning 23 next month
>>702734295
/B/ cheered him up. Anyone have the pic?
>>702732833
>Did something I hate
>Could barely drag my ass out of bed even after 10 hours of sleep
>Started doing something I love
>Can actually bare to go through the day
Chalk that up in the win box
>>702737279
post your kik girl
>>702739401
I've been in love with this guy since I was 10. This beta is a dream come true for me. Every girl is not an idiot. Just most, including ALL of my ex girlfriends.
>>702733726
Fuckin' Steak n' Shake!
This dude's exactly where he wants to be.
>>702738587
you too huh? the first thing i thought of when i saw that lol.
>>702739620
It's too late, she's gonna follow another pecker to greener pastures any day now.
>>702739663
happy early birthday anon! I love you!
jesus fuck this is the most depressing thread indeed
>>702739615
git
>>702739719
When the edgelord are gone, /b/ truly is a magical place
>>702739943
>dead mom feels
>>702738930
>rules
She's not attention whoring she doesn't need to show tits
>>702739452
those are some good tits though
Probs gonna try this "heavy metal" if the animation is good
male here, dating girl 7 months break up find out she was cheating on me, then find out shes living with my dad, ask my dad to kick her out, he tells her she messages me laughing at me saying shes glad she cheated, dad calls me a piece of shit and now im pretty much fucked.
>>702739452
Nice tits.
>>702740108
It doesn't matter.
>>702739452
more newqueen
>>702740067
sorry anon, feel you on the other side of the parent thing
>>702740154
Boy, am I glad that I am not you.
>>702737675
>you're
She broke up with me the next day.
I really thought she was the one :/
>>702738877
>dads a complete cunt throughout childhood
>physically and mentally abusive
>wonders why no-one wants to spend time with him for thanksgiving when he always gets drunk and makes his grandchildren cry.
Bitch you dont know whats going on there stop jumping to conclusions
>>702739862
i know, im just preparing myself. im gonna get a job and move to thailand, ill find something to do over there and never come back. i just woke my gf up an hour ago to tell her i love her and she told me to fuck off. i guess shes tired.
>>702738387
>Implying the fact that only your parents care about you isn't depressing as fuck
Fuck. You. All throughout high school I had no friends. I was good looking, I was seen as one of the funniest kids in school but I had no friends. If I ever asked a single person to hang out or tried to seriously talk to anyone without being funny it was like I didn't exist. I almost killed myself, but didnt for my parents and siblings.
>>702732833
I think we can all agree that any time you have a birthday party at home it fucking sucks ass unless you live in a really nice house with a pool or a trampoline or some shit.
Yes, she is with you out if pity.
>>702738698
That poor old man... he went bananas
>>702740154
what the fuck? i dont get it, why is she living at ur dads? is she fucking ur pops? why would ur dad say ur a piece of shit?
also the piercings are a red flag, find yourself a nice quiet conservative girl
>>702740282
Too depressed to be queen
>>702740335
i know that there are dickwads for fathers, but lets say he wasnt an ass, there is no excuse to act like a cunt to him. just because your dad hates you doesnt mean that the guy in the pic is a horrible person.
I've completely given up on finding a relationship at 25. Been alone for my entire life, and at some point last year I arrived at the conclusion that people cannot be trusted. There is no longer any loyalty in relationships, people cheat on each other left and right. People whore themselves out on camera... there just no decency left in this world. I'm probably gonna end up dying as a virgin.
>>702740335
gotta side with you anon, my dad died a little over a year ago, and i didn't shed a god damn tear.
he was manipulative and an all around bastard, although he wasn't without some positives
i hadn't spoken to him for 5 years, he died alone in my childhood home. his wife left him, his kids left him.
the saddest part, he was dead for two weeks before he was discovered, and that was only because the mailman reported it after the mailbox was stuffed with two weeks full of mail.
some parents earn their children's love. some do not
>>702740601
she was kicked out of her house so she moved in with me, found out shes cheating kicked her out, she met him twice so probably gave him a sob story.
>be me
>make post
>femanon after my post with tits and timestamp
>everyone now replies to femanon
>no one even cares about my post
>my last bastion of hope now gone
>nobody wants to reply to my feels
>forever alone
>>702740108
You won't be disappointed, especially if you're chilling with some good weed.
>>702733024
As much as I'd like to pretend I'd at least make an effort to give him an enthusistic happy birthday greeting, I know I'm actually too shy to do it.
>>702740154
your fault for thinking that thing is attractive.
>>702740036
This is actually really beautiful, proud of you guys.
>>702739620
Dude, she has is with you out of pity, she has probably fucked other guys.
>>702740154
way too many piercings = huge insecurity problem
We care, Julius.
>>702740981
thats me you ding dong
>>702740334
Here's a really cool Dino
I've read that it feels like someone actually died on you
Get well soon, anon
>>702732833
>you were born into this world
>no one asked you if you wanted to be born, you just were
>your mother held you in her arms
>she looked at you, smiled, maybe even cried
>you were hers
>she imagined what you would be
>she raised you with the best morals possible
>without even thinking about it, she thought I would be a good person
>she raised me to be happy
>got into my teens
>grew out of them just as fast
>now I just sit
>no job
>no education
>future barely there
>don't even try to find work
>wondering what she thinks of me now
>wondering in how many ways I'm letting her down
>still can't even muster one ounce of determination, not even a tiny shred of motivation
>just sink into my chair
>type this shit
>feel like shit
>no matter how many times I say "time to get off my ass and get my shit together"
>it never happens
>and I don't know why
>and I hate myself for it
>>702740943
I care about you anon.
>>702740663
I'd love to cuddle with you :(
>>702737546
Help your self out by fucking them
>>702740335
>my dads a shit
>therefore all dads are shits
great feminist logic there. Your making assumptions. Maybe its just an old man trying the best to maintain a family of young selfish nasty cunts who care more about YOLO instagram pics than having a meaningful relationship with someone who loves them
>>702737279
that happen you pick a chad :D
>>702740943
easy solution, just get ur tits out
>>702740663
thats how theyre measured nowadays. gorgeous
>tfw poured too many almonds into this bowl and don't feel like eating them all
>>702741156
>>702741230
fucking beta cucks, fuck off from this thread
>>702739033
kek
>>702741321
poor them back retard
>>702740955
Need to get a new job so I probs won't have any weed unless I bum it from a friend
Maybe she can watch too
>>702739751
poor guy. you sent tit pics to random dudes on the internet but not the guy whos probably in love with you :(
>>702736071
Happy late birthday anon<3
>>702741111
>>702741321
>>702741397
top kek
>>702733629
Literally my biggest fear. I have dreams about this happening, it wakes me up. The only thing that saves me is clutching the shit out of my fiancée when I wake up, but it doesn't stop me from being terrified that one day I'll wake up from that dream and she won't be there.
>>702734929
looks like a kid from uni spending time with his family for his birf before heading out
My fucking birthday was yesterday and I see this thread. Fuck.
>>702733198
right? /b/ is good at making people feel better about themsleves in some fucked up way
>>702741397
good idea thanks
>>702741111
this is extremely sad. the old men in this thread have probably lived their lives, this guy hasnt even had a chance. man, those eyes in the last pic. id defo be his friend if i wasnt a social retard
>>702741135
Same
I distract my self as much as possible until an hero
>>702740663
show your butt
>>702733856
This isn't depressing at all. She looks genuinely happy.
>>702733778
>>702733629
$10 says his girl left him for a nigger
>>702741285
?
>>702740943
I'm sorry anon. Talk to me.
Bump for this thread is gonna go in my suicide note
>Be me 3 years ago
>15
>Never been missing anything material in my life, dad worked his ass out
>My mom is my father's 4th woman
>My dad is my mom's 3rd man
>All of my step-brothers are older than than, about a 7 year gap.
>have no conecction with them
>Have a single person I call my friend
>Always loved this one girl who rejected me.
>Could never let go
>Fuck
>The world of internet showed me a part of reality, I was a loser.
>The nice guy, beta as fuck, suck at everything I try, worst at what I do best.
>My only friend Killed himself last year.
>Mom and divorced when I was 16
>Turned 18 last week
>Spent my B-day completely alone, sitting with a candle at midnight sining to myself
>Suicide doesn't seem so bad.
>I know this is bad
>Can't get help from family, for I am a grown adult with a childish mind.
>Choking on anti depressants everyday
I hope stuff goes for the better
>>702741561
The Buddhist are right, life is pretty much all suffering with a little bit of happiness to ensure you keep suffering longer without committing suicide.
To feel love means you'll also have to feel fear.
We live in a universe of duality
>up down
>left right
>good bad
>happy sad
>white black
>>702739663
happy early birthday anon<3
>>702741821
if you wrote Rat Daddy on a paper and held it up next to your tits you'd be a legend.
>>702733901
Someone pictured alone with a birthday cake, they must be depressed as fuck!
>>702741821
is it cold? your tits are hard. or does /b/ make you horny?
>>702740154
forgot to mention that's me in photo, lesson learned dont fucking date 18 year olds man
>>702741821
show pussy newqueen
>>702732833
>>702732874
>>702732990
>>702733554
>>702733682
It is kind of funny, i often think to myself, im so fucking done something needs to kill me already because im too much of a pussy to do it, then life gives me food like it will all be better. I used to fall for it, the past few years im just like "yea im too stressed to eat"
>>702741832
you should go hiking/camping and try mescaline or LSD or something.
Helps with introspection, its fun.... and if you are gonna an-hero you got nothing ot lose
Best Case Scenario: you have a divine experience of unity with the universe and learn to let go of things you cant control
Worse: you are exactly the same
Fellow depressed /b/ro here.. i haven't slept and have a meeting with a potential client in 3 hours (almost 6 am here) should i just get up and make some coffee or try to get 1-2 hours of sleep?
How normal is having suicidal thoughts? I think I might be depressed but I'm not sure.
>>702741746
i should be happy. i have a girlfriend. She makes me happy, but it's like a temporary high. I don't feel like I've done anything with my life because honestly I haven't.
Suicide isn't an option because I've realized that killing myself would only transfer the pain to the people who I actually care about.
>>702741832
don't kill yourself anon, whether your post is serious or a cry for help doesn't matter. There is live and love and happiness waiting for you
>>702741821
saving these to my porn folder only to masturbate to them once and then delete my whole porn folder in a week because the very existence of a porn folder on my computer makes me feel gross but we all have urges so when I am in the mood I will remake it for another week only to repeat the cycle
>>702736135
kek
>>702741156
>I'd love to cuddle with you :(
>>702742103
I'm 90% sure im manically depressed and I get them at least once every two days
>>702740663
hey if you need someone to talk to, jdeitle on kik if you wanna add me
>>702739332
beat me to it. Never trust a nigga that cant identify an in n out
>>702741881
Too bad most of its in the grey area
>>702742102
you should give me a job instead
Looks like im too late will anyone even read this >>702742053
>>702741832
let me be honest man, im ten years older than you. life doesnt change. its impossible. you're still going to be a human being, plagued by self-doubt and self-awareness. the only chance we have at life is to accept these conditions, dont be any more mad at life than you are at the sun for setting. acceptance of the limitations of life is essential. ive accepted that most people are selfish arseholes. suicide is an option, but you must be 100%. ironically the reconcilliation of being ready to die is that reconcilliation that you need to make it through life
>>702738802
minor
>>702741832
If you're gonna commit suicide, go for something better.
Grab a bunch of pills and a bottle of red wine, and go to the mountains during the coldest part of winter. Hike up a few miles away from everyone, find a nice spot with a view, and pop those pills and guzzle the bottle.
As you start to feel warm and dozing off take off your jacket and wait until you fall asleep. In no time your core body temperature will fall and you'll pass away peacefully.
>>702742126
literally in the same situation as u bro
>>702739452
You rock
>>702733629
Damn... getting old is really going to suck. Especially when all your friends and loved ones start dying off, and you just feel weak and tired and achy all the time. Not looking forward to that.
Then again my grandparents seem pretty happy, who knows.
>>702736071
happy bday, bro. my birdthday is the 7th.
>>702742009
Thats you? What a complete faggot, you have your shit well deserved.
>>702739452
wow someone actually delivered and doesn't get enough attention. I guess everyone on /b/ is raging faggot who only go after dudes with silicone tits and mental disorders.
>nice tits btw
>>702742449
that's why I wont get old anon! I have other plans!
>>702732990
>pedobear shirt
staged/deserved
>>702734608
Maybe he's an unapologetic asshole or something.
Yea thought so bye
>people want to be depressed
there's a difference between being depressed and feeling sorry for yourself.
>>702742295
Not like im doing great business.. im a student but SEO specialist in my free time to earn some money to pay my weed from.. I could teach anyone here what i do in 2 nights .. but getting clients is the hard part. You didn't answer my question though.
>>702738467
thanks for sharing, /b/ro
that was a really nice story. da struggle is real
>>702739452
please share depression pussy
>>702742496
beta detected
>>702737484
im listening to a 10 hour loop of epic sax guy and im suicidal so this gif is hitting home for me
>>702737279
First and foremost, tits and timestamp.
Second, what kind of fag doesn't like Heavy Metal? That scene with the B17 crash lands with the zombies is like the most bad ass piece of animation.
>still though, show your tits
>>702742758
beats being literally dead inside.
feeling absolutely nothing is tantamount to death. so we say horrible things to ourselves to continue to live.
ask me how i know?
>>702741503
Oh yeah, he doesn't get a shit ton of pics with everythong exposed. It's the anonymous internet, niether if us care.
>>702742236
Lost
>>702742160
Alright anon. Whatever makes your night
>>702741921
I'll make a wish come true. Why not?
>>702741821
Most gorgeous tits and nipples that I have seen on b in probably a month.
>>702742242
I've never been a cheerful person but seriously I've been feeling awful this year, some days I just want to die, I don't know what t do with my life I feel like I have no talents, skill or anything to make it through life. Today has been quite good but it never lasts. I just have the feeling nothing will get better, there are time when I think I should probably see a doctor to talk about this but other days it doesn't feel as bad Idk what to do.
>>702740873
wow that is an intense story. so how were you notified of his death?
>>702738674
You're still going out with the asshole and not the guy you just admitted is a sweet and great person.
You are still stupid.
And naivety = stupidity, don't try to rationalize your way around it. It's tantamount.
3 people said happy birthday to me on my birthday .
my mom and then 2 weeks later random people on my moms facebook. theres a reason i dont like birthdays or tell anyone when mine is
>>702739452
wow nice body me like
>>702742932
>Alright anon. Whatever makes your night
the end of my life would make my night
>>702742566
I'm hoping that in the future the types of anti-depressants and drugs they have will be good enough that being old won't feel so miserable and lonely.
how many of you actually spend your birthdays alone like these guys though?
or rather, how many of you dont ever bother throwing a party, and then whine that no one went out of their way to surprise you for the tenth year in a row of you saying 'nah i dont like birthdays' ?
>fell in love with a guy
>he lives all the way in Colorado
>probably not even into me
life is suffering.
>>702742932
most suckable femanon nips ive seen
Derailed
>>702732833
>>702732874
>>702733024
>>702733418
>>702733682
>>702734077
>>702732990
Fuck these faggot emo kids nobody even tells me happy birthday, much less makes me a cake. These kids will kill themselves when real problems come.
>>702742160
same anon same...>>702742932
ass pics plz and i what i really mean is you should reach out to him b4 its too late cuz u never know if someones bouta off themselves [like me]
>>702743124
you'll still be old though silly
who would want that?
>>702732874
that's a nice cake nigga
>>702733024
Wow, I actually wish I could have sat down with him, thats prety sad
>>702738467
It gets better
>>702733950
I want to eat her asshole and finger her cunt
>>702733418
the cat's not alive
its a stuffed animal
>>702742932
thats a dude
>>702732990
Ahahahahah
>>702743080
I'm not going out with the asshole. He is my ex.
>>702742921
because being edgy is the only way to make you feel special. if you arent the 'woe is me' depressed anon that no one can udnerstand, than what makes you unique?
you have to be depressed cuz its the only thing that gave your life meaning. if you just enjoyed it, you'd have nothing to feel important about.
>>702742932
woooord femanon, made my fuckin day
>>702742932
nobody cares about you
stop whoring for attention like lowkey i'd fuck you but that's all you're worth; your tits aren't even that impressive
go to >>>/soc/ or something
>>702743165
I do because my birthday gives me a lot of anxiety, I don't want people to acknowledge it at all. I know how stupid that sounds but I can't help it. Last year told people at work about this and they still brought a cake, I had to put a happy face and everything but I had to leave early because how bad I was feeling.
>>702734929
To live vicuriously through a picture, a fragment of another persons life, a stranger to you.
>>702743243
you're actually worse than them. they all are just sitting around enjoying cake. not even sad half the time. we just assume they're sad cuz they arent surrounded by large groups of party people.
you're actually the emo kid here, never bothering to plan a birthday party but always mad you never have one apparently.
I'll... be honest here.
Not trying to be the "All atheist are bad" guy who constantly baits and shit.
But, I've been going to a church lately, and talking with the priest.
He gave me his unction, and told me that jesus loved me even if I didn't believe.
He also gave me a bible.
My spirits have gone quite up since then.
Yesterday I had nothing to lose on suicide, and today still, but I don't feel the necessity to do it.
I feel relieved from my mistakes and that's just.... magical.
Anyone else have experiencies like this with religions?
>>702743067
my mom(his ex wife)was notified, as she was still legally was entitled to some possessions i guess
>>702733629
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
what a faggot
damn then you are almost 80 and still a fucking beta
>>702743508
ur the inverse of this thread and not what were discussing at all
>>702733856
This is the EXACT kind of girl that has a family innocent birthday party, then goes out with her friends later that night and grinds on everything with a dick
>>702743370
one of the biggest lies ever told
along with the holocaust
cake I made for wifey
>>702742126
I understand
Exactly how I feel
There's always hope I guess
>Iv been dealing with manic depression since I was 12(22)
>They put me on med's which made it worse so never took any.
>Have been doing drugs ever since and it has only kept me still.
>I got a therapist at 19 who stopped calling me for appointments
>never progressed in life.
>Friend just died 2 days after my Bday last month.
Everybody who knows me knows im a complete loser who will always be the guy you never want to end up like
>>702733418
> 3 face book likes
> 1 from your mom
>>702732833
Crippling. Yes indeed.
>>702733856
>>702733950
>implying here life is hard
fuck off
New feels thread, this thread might die.
>>702742034
>>702743655
jet fuel cant melt steel beams
It was my birthday on the 1st and like 50 people said happy birthday, and all my immediate family came up, 4/5 of my closest friends the other was working, and i went out with my family for drinks on Saturday then afterwards went to my friend who wasn't there's house for like a small party.
I'm clinically depressed and this shit should show me that there is worse shit and should make me feel better, but it doesn't. It makes me feel worse, it makes me think wtf is wrong with me, why am i depressed, and because i don't know I don't even know how to solve it.
It makes me feel like a piece of shit.
>>702739632
>Chad Cundritta
>Cuntsplitter
>>702743579
hey some people need faith in religion to survive man no harm in that imo
>>702738053
We all make mistakes, your boyfriend was one of them
I am very depressed myself. I thought I was happy. I had a decent job and a gf i genuinely loved. 2 months ago I found out she was pregnant(didn't care cuz of the money I was making)but anyway she stopped talking to me and ignored me for 2 weeks then we had a huge fight and she blurted out that our kid died inside her then she abandoned me. The same week that happened I got laid off from my job and I haven't found work since. She won't respond to me so I have no idea if she lied to me and I don't know have a kid on the way or not. Am 23 btw
>>702737279
Want to have sex?
>>702743671
id rather get 0 likes than that
>>702743659
Is your wife turning 4?
>>702743501
I remember seeing that picture when I was 19 laughing my ass off.
Now i'm 25... and my life hasn't gotten any better. Still living at home with family working a crappy part time job, still a virgin and riddled with every negative emotion out there. Now when I look at that imagine I feel like crying.
>>702743123
>>702743450
funny youd say that cuz im actually quite sure my existence is totally meaningless and my life is insignificant.
nobody knows what i go thru cuz i never talk about it. but what youre saying is actually quite popular so i wont totally discount it.
try not to forget everyones a little different tho
>>702742707
Unless he diddled his kids I don't see any excuse for being such a twat to your dad.
>>702740154
>>702742009
You're cute as shit her loss
>>702739146
kek
Hey at least being alone is better than being with people you pretend to like. I remember the first couple of months in college I was so excited and wanted to network and meet new people. I would also hold back my feelings and just go along with it. After months I just had an epiphany. I wasn't happy doing this, this isn't me. So I said fuck it and I'm just being myself, I get along with pretty much everyone in class but not enough to hang out after school or anything. Still, it's actually nice to be alone. Better than being with people you aren't comfortable with.
>>702743659
And cake she made for me
>>702743579
>gave me his unction
>unction
i assume that's slang for his penis?
>>702734359
It's funny how he wonders "How does she know his pain?"
You can see that he projects the inner sadness from a mile away. Apparently he's black too, so that must really make him stand out like a sore thumb. I've met very few pathetic beta black guys ever.
>>702736071
TFW
> no friends
> empty list of phone number outside of family
> used to eat lunch in a bathroom stall
> stay up every night and eat until I feel warm from the fullness of all the food in me.
>>702742932
do you have a kik by chance and if you do post it
>>702743829
you are what you think about man try to look at things differently
>>702739620
I would break up with her and just focus on personal development man. Like, just end it right now so you have the ability to say "I did it, I broke it off first."
Then begin a strong personal regimen of diet and exercise. Get down to 185 or whatever healthy, 12% bodyfat, etc. Get yourself fit, learn to dress right, maintain strong personal hygiene. Stop playing vidya, read major philosophy, history, science, and literature and develop your mind. Look up social engineering and pickup game and develop a good understanding of psychology and sociology. Then look up RSD nation and read the power of now by eckhart tolle. After about six months of successful hookups, start looking into good potential girlfriends in the right places and date women. Get cheated on, get your heart broken, get over it, move on, learn.
After all this, once you're over it all and nothing fazes you anymore, go interact with this girl you love and speak to her. Realize how plain and unremarkable she's been the whole time, learn what she really thought of you, realize how often she was getting dick on the side, and furthermore, realize how much you don't care and how little all the emotions you once felt for her actually matter.
Then when any sense of grandeur and emotional investment in the world has been killed off and you live for nothing discernible, go train your body and mind again, join a private military company, purchase a Heckler and Koch battle rifle 91 series that fires 7.62 NATO rounds, and take back Rhodesia under the name of Blackwater or Triple Canopy. If you're not dead by the time it's finished, use the spoils of war to purchase an oil rig and carry out strike missions in Afghanistan for wire tendered funds. Retire at age fifty in Bogota and drink yourself to death wondering what could've been.
>>702743829
thanks for posting that. made me feel a little better. im the same but without the job.
glad im not an anomaly.
>>702733856
Not depressing at all, she actually is a qtpie and looks genuinely happy to have parents that care for her
>>702743671
1 for yourself the other from an alt account you also own
>>702742487
happy early birthday /b/ro <3
>>702742932
Yo add me on SC: itmehiggy
>>702743743
Maybe you weren't gonna find happiness on big groups of people, it's not as simple as thinking that a party would help.
And it's not even your fault.
Most people told me I was ungratefulwith my parents during my teen years beacuse I didn't appreciatte materials gifts that much.
But they just don't fill you, it's not like money will ever make you smile.
Nor will random people partying with you, search for that connecction, Anon.
>>702743930
Wouldn't it be weird if I was actually alone
And I just made these happy little cakes
all alone
What the fuck is going on in this thread??
>Boohoo, no one celebrates my birthday
Jesus christ, you really think that's depression?
>>702743450
You just changed my life anon
>>702735097
Ouch.
I'm sure it was meant affectionately, but I have to wonder if the sight of that custom cake might have woken up the poor neckbeard
CONTINUING THREAD
>>702744135
please continue with tits etc
>>702742932
>It's the anonymous internet, niether if us care.
By "us" are you talking about you and me, or you and your beta bf?
Because I bet you he does. Why don't you send him a tit pic? He's your loving bf, right? I know why. It's because you don't have the hots for him. You love only yourself and the idea that he loves you. You crave excitement and he's offering stability. You are still a stupid girl, just like your girlfriends, only slightly less stupid. But in the end you're still using him, even if you rationalize to yourself that you aren't.
>>702742932
if you're doing requests, could you write zach with a heart next to it? i'd really appreciate it.
>>702743963
Not at all.
He just puts a hand on your back, one on your forehead and start talking about some devils getting into your head, named your problems even if you don't tell him (Or at least that's how it happened to me) and sorta gives you hope telling you that in the hands of jesus you'll be great and live a great life.
>>702737279
Now every time I get baked and watch Heavy Metal I'll be thinking of you, Femanon. And my dead friend who you remind me of (an heroine).
>>702743579
Kind of. I'm an atheist too and one day I was just chilling at the park and a couple of teenagers approached me and one politely asked me about what I think would happen after I die, so I told him that I believe death is final and nothing happens after it and they asked me if I believed in God so I told them no and the guy sat next to me and asked me if it was ok if they prayed for me, I told them I had no problem with it and he kinda like side hugged me and started praying for me. I felt really good after it, you know it's human contact and the fact that someone cares about you, I don't think it's something magical but we're social beings, that's supposed to make us feel good.
>>702744293
this
>>702743845
dont get me wrong, there are legitimately depressed people and people with real problems.
but if you're sitting in this thread on a monday night bawwing over birthdays then yeah ur an edgy faggot who just wants to be sad. not because 'ITS THE ONLY THING I CAN FEEL EXCEPT (SHADOW THE HEADCHOG) INSIDE'
but because you think it gives your life meaning.
>quite sure my existence is totally meaningless and my life is insignificant
this implies that we are blueprinted with destinies. if you believe that, than you are basically saying that will and choice do not exist. by insisting your life is destined to meaninglessness you are insisting that you are not even alive, that you are just a tool the universe uses so that others can use to fulfil their pre-planned destinies. the concept of destiny makes no sense even if you disregard all of the above.
you can't be created with an 'end goal' because if there was any being capable of creating that, they would have been able to take care of the existing problem we were created to solve on their own.
long existential rant aside, there is no destiny, there is no meaning. which means that the only way to give your life meaning is to... well, give your life meaning. through choice.
>>702733950
That's when you put your dick inside one of those cupcakes and make her lick the cupcake off your dick.
>>702740154
If that is seriously the girl you should be happy it's over. That shizz is nasty.
Let them rot together my friend. Be better than them. Prove to yourself and to them you're an awesome motherfucker. I suggest long distance running at night to start.
>>702734183
Thom Yorke the paedophile
>I'm a creep...I'm a wierdo
>>702742932
While we're all throwing it out there,
Kik: angleofgeorge
>>702744221
cant tell if ur being sarcastic, but this line of thinking has helped people understand what they are doing, and it certainly helped me moved past wanting to be depressed.
>>702743791
It's crazy how it all seems to pile up at the same time. Similar thing happened with my fiancee. She pulled away, until the relationship became unbearable. I ended up calling it of, and ending it. She later apologized saying she did all that, because she couldn't bring herself to end our relationship even though she wanted out. That shit destroyed me though. Soon after I was one of 20 that were let go from my job. So all those people became competition for the few positions available elsewhere. The worst thing though was my dog died. The only living being that truly loved me unconditionally.
Here's the steps of being a life long virgin.
>20
Oh anon, you're still young! You've only just begun!
>25
You'll find someone someday, just keep at it champ, she's out there
>27
hey man, have you asked around lately? like seriously, do you even try?
>29
dude seriously? for real? never had sex? how come? lets talk about this
>30
just hire a hooker and get it over with, i'll buy you a few beers
>33
I don't even know what to tell ya
>35
just kill yourself, i'll buy the helium combo for ya
I'm already at 25.
>>702733024
ONE.MAN.WOLF.PACK