Hello /b/ I am feeling really bad tonight and I wanted to share.. First time I speak about me on /b/, so feels thread...
>be me
>18 yo femanon
>boyfriend broke up with me
>used to hit me
>was extremely jealous
>made himself look like a victim in front of our friends
>used to say things like I am monster
>I dont care about him
>I make him jealous by pleasure
>now our "magnificient" 2yo story is over
>most of my friends believe I am a monster
>Made out with a guy 1 month later while drunk (I got wasted a lot during those times)
>became my boyfriend
>kind of lost
>everyone thinks I am a slut
>I am completely lost now
>help.jpg
>tought about murder, bad idea.
>tried to talk to those friends
>said they didnt care and that they will always be by his side
>even when I tell them the truth they wont believe me
>said they didnt like me anyways
tell your feels story
tits + timestamp
tits or gtfo
>>702684593
You know da rules...
Tits or gtfo
Why would you stay with someone who beat you for 2 years lol?
Lol did you see this going any other way?
>>702684974
Dunno he did it 4 or 5 times and was always more convincing each time he said sorry.. With tears and presents and attention for me...
>>702685030
I guess I tried at least
>>702685218
Don't say your gender next time. Or go look for help in a less horrible place.
>>702685156
There there, you'll get new friends and new cocks to ride :)
Lost the girl of my dreams because i'm a pussy
>>702685655
thanks anon
>>702685619
I just like /b/ , people are interesting
>>702685745
green text?
>>702684593
Wow that sucks, especially when your friends don't believe you.
I don't really have a feels story. I just sort of push everyone out of my life because of my manic depression. The people I know rarely speak to me cause I'm just so fucking miserable all the time.
I like to believe there's hope for change, not just for me but for everyone. I want to believe we have control over our lives and that we can make them better. Hell sometimes I even do. Hang in there, things can improve.
>>702684593
are you still in high school? If so high school just sucks for everyone, and the people it doesn't suck for end up being miserable later in life cause they're awful or dumb. things will get better.
>>702685946
It juste feels like prehighschool again were I was Always lonely and people used to beat me up and soit on me un groups. I just want to get this all other with and start my Real interesting studies...
>>702685920
I do believe that too but you know better than me that its hard to cheer up sometimes...
Especially when you are like me Always smiling and putting everyone on front office you so you become in thé end thé shit they walk on every morning
Life juste feels like a never ending shit bag everyday..
>>702684593
I was almost the same as your bf when I had you age except for the beating. But I was heavy on the psychological torture.
Pretty much ruined her life. Put everyone she knew against her, made her loose every ounce of self respect she had until she left me.
After that my life went in a downward spiral. I've became so cold and manipulative that I almost didn't have feelings for anyone anymore.
With time I regretted my past, changed my life around, learned how to love people simply as they are.
Saw her around a year and half later, told her how sorry I was. We talked for a while, her life looked pretty good and she was happy.
Just don't do anything rash, people change. Don't let what you feel now define you, if your friends left you start again, find new friends. Let go of the past and just concern yourself with being happy.
>>702684593
>>702687007
Thanks anon,
So thats how it feels to be on the other side of the wall eh? I never really understood what he could think to do such things, he didnt seem to know how to say Nice things or being protective... He let people call me "sperme pussy" in front of him without lifting a brow... I hope he'll feel Bad and really learn from his errors...
Op here , sorry for Bad english, autocorrect is shit.
>>702687097
Np if you dont read :)
>>702684593
You knew these "friends" before dating him?Because the way you tell the history looks more like they were HIS friends not your's
>>702688152
Yes I knew most of them, I even made him meet some but I Guess people prefer calm Old anon than excited and loud anonette
>>702687637
Yeah, I think both people in a relationship like that loses. I don't know your bf reasons.
When I met my gf she was incredible, just the most incredible girl I met. I was afraid she'll leave me so I make sure she didn't think she could do better than me.
Her personality changed so much that the girl I loved wasn't there anymore, I disliked so much what she became that I just made her miserable for a long time.
>>702684593
>people who openly don't give a shit about me don't care
>I care about the opinions they have about me
Buhuu you whore.
tits+timestamp
>>702688382
I dont know I always tried to make him happy, showed him cool stuff hed love, Always down for something he wanted.. godamn i even made him a panda box with his favorite shit in it with a new gaming mouse and a nice carpet for it!
He cried all the time though... Because he also didnt want to lose me etc.. i tried to cheer him up all the time :/
>>702688382
I just cant think of reasons why he would do this, ok im his first gf but is that really a good reason?
>>702688475
Ikr whiteknight shit and stuff, i am really dumb about that
Bump
>>702689065
Who knows? It's like wondering why did you stay in an abusive relationship?
People do crazy things sometimes, the important thing is to learn from this and move on.
>>702689532
Thank you anon
Seeing him everyday and my Old Friends , being alone in class all the time, war with my mom etc isnt making things easier.
I know tout right though...
bumpperino
>>702684593
There isnt really any excuse to hit tout gf
Your story reminds me mine, staying alone isnt good for u, try finding new friends to help you
>>702691038
How to find new Friends? I am bored of basic people and i hate grils cause they talk hair and shit all the time and i'm not basic enough for guys cause im too much of a Guy! (And no i dont have the D)
>>702691380
Are you really asking how to make friends on /b/?
We have no idea, that's why we are here.
>>702691380
>in before "get a hobby"
>>702684593
Hi.
>>702691992
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>>702691816
Your right, sorry :')
I just mis her
>>702684593
they're obviously not your friends and never were truly. they don't care about you, else they would also care about your words. i'm glad you found a boyfriend. dump those other people and find a group similar to you, honest, genuine and just better. that's really all you can do, fuck them. you're way better off without people who do this type of shit in your life.
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>>702691380
You have to find how, but you must leave everything that are linking you and him, that's the best way to feel better with it, meet the friends of ur new bf for example
>>702692286
Thank you I Will try to follow all your advices, you guys are a Big help
>>702692422
>>702692537
>>702692119
Shit :'(
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>>702692800
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>>702692119
Damn...
>>702693069
>>702684593
tits of gtfo
>>702693146
>>702692231
I'm in the same boat, /b/ro
>>702692452
Yes your right... Im just scared things Will start over cause they wont be MY Friends :(
>>702693259
That picture always reminds me of emptiness, because of the expression of the guy on the right.
>>702684593
You just need to space from those friends, maybe find something outside that group. It's his echo chamber, maybe? It sounds like self esteem is a big issue you let him hit you. Need to look at yourself before next person.
>>702692231
Green text?
>>702693471
>>702693531
I just feel like I'm less important than others cause I don't have any use and everyone else is more interesting, mature and funnier than me, even the fatfag from my class is prefered more than me
>>702693450
Why do you worry so much about having friends? Good friends are great, sure but they're not a requirement for life. Learn to be comfortable with yourself and happy on your own. Being independent will help with future problematic relationships.
>>702694108
I Guess i am a Porcupine...
I get cold in winter and when i go warm up with people i sting them and i get stung...
>>702693450
Of course, but I hope you were able to find a better bf, but it was just an example, there are other ways to make friends
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>>702694385
Yes ur right
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>>702694750
And u don't need lots of people by your side, I only have 2 or 3 good friends, don't need more
>>702691380
PLAY VIDEOGAMES srsly tho thts how i ended up maing most of my friends in college if ur in college i would suggest playing something like leauge of legends or if not in college play some console game
>>702695064
There are way easier ways to get friends in college.
>>702695064
I already do anon. The studies i want to do is a game design school.
And btw pc master race
I'll throw my hat in the ring.
>Be me
>16 y/o anon
>getting along well w/ qt3.14 I volunteer at charity shop with.
>Ended up getting her number as friend (too dense to actually notice anything)
>Visit her house before every shift we have together.
>Convince her to watch Game of Thrones with me, make some pretty funny jokes and flirt a bit (seriously too retarded to notice what I was doing)
>Few weeks of this routine and she asks to cuddle, thought this was platonic, too stupid.
>We got up as the episode finished to start walking to work, she hugs me for a really long time, doesn't click at all.
>Half way through shift I shout "OH SHIT" on till so loud she heard me in the back.
>Ask to talk to her after shift, ended up as you'd expect, basic scrub kid relationship with our hearts on our sleeves.
>Months of falling head over heels ensue, she says she loves me, I say the same back.
>Even longer goes by, she even starts talking about engagement, I fucking agree.
>Find out about a month after she had a boyfriend through all of it, and the only reason I was being stringed along was likely because he didn't talk to her much.
>Cut all ties with her.
>Go to bed each night re-living regret and shame knowing I was a mug that acted in all the wrong ways, and that I'm likely the cause of her "abandonment issues" (she's always got a LOT of guys chasing her and she tries to keep them all going at once).
If you want a life lesson from this, it would be take these kinds of things as life lessons, and try not to kill yourself.
>>702694774
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>>702695404
Op here, shiit what a bitch :( are you ok now? Did you do something about it or just let it flow?
>>702695308
thts great then u know when my grandma died thts all i looked to all i did was play games cause when i didnt i felt like shit so all i would say is have a good time playing im curretnly diamond 3 btw i invested too much time in LoL
I think i'm gonna kill myself /b/
I sure my gf is cheating on me
She goes out all the night and don't talk much
I f*king love her but, i can't sleep because i'm overthinking
>>702695676
>>702695968
>>702695862
LoL isnt my fav game, i prefer solo games that make me become someone else that i really want to be and look up to like Skyrim, Fallout, baldur's gate.. rpg's ya know
i've spent the last 5 years trying to find a job, any job, but no one will hire me because im super ugly
>>702696214
Op: pic pls? Let us r8
>>702696025
Oh and btw (still op) i do have a hobby, i draw but when i am sad i just make sad drawings in black and white..
>>702696463
>>702696707
>>702696173
ahh i get u well ur gonna do fine belevie me friends arent tht important. mabye having sex is nice but look just play mmo's and shit and youll have more fun than hanging out with ur friends. plus if u stream u can make tons of money since ur a girl
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>>702684593
When I was 18 I had lots of friends. I still do. I was (and am) socially active with good people who hung around when I was smart, funny, stupid and annoying.
I talk to one of those old friends a few times a week. Sometimes I talk to a couple of the others on the phone, maybe ten times a year.
Life goes on. Your friends shape who you are, and they make opportunities for you to express yourself and grow as a person, and to learn new things about others.
Some people have the same friends their entire lives. That sounds fine.
Other people meet new friends all the time, while the old friends sort of drift outside the circle. That's fine too.
Loosing some obviously-not-that-attached-to-you friends at 18 ... it will pass. Meet new people. Good people. Have fun, learn and grow.
>>702684593
>18 yo femanon
haven't read the thread yet, but I doubt that you've posted tits already
why do ''femanons'' always do this shit?
I mean they say they're female, but don't post
tits to confirm it
you could've just said you're male, but nooo you need your special treatment
no tits = get the fuck out
btw I think this thread is b8 and you're just some faggot
pic kinda related
>>702697019
maybe one day ill stream but not really for the cash xDDD
>>702697055
>>702697329
Op here: you may believe whatever you want anon :)
>>702697375
>>702697550
Not much of a story...
> attempting to recover from anorexia
> feelsbadman.jpg
>>702697651
>>702684593
Tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo. He probably used to hit you because you're too fucking stupid to follow the most basic rules. Hope you two get back together soon, sounds like you're a good punching bag, you meat sock.
>>702697287
Thank you anon i really appréciate, i know your right but just enduring the 1 year time that separates me from my new life is so long since I have to go through so much obstacles...
>>702697891
>>702697946
I just hope that it Will really be a new life and not à new nightmare again
>>702697493
hmmm...now that I think about it,
you said you're 18
so are you a.18 or b.''18''?
answer with a or b plz
>>702695839
fuckin beautiful
>>702697878
Op here: How do you recover from it? :/
>>702692688
Right in the feels.
tits or gtfo
>>702697989
Ran out of pictures, oh well.
>>702698129
Hmm... I Guess i'm a a! 18!
Find new friends
Stop trying to explain yourself and move the fuck on
Embrace the sluttiness and have some fun with horny guys without expectations
Then, when your pussy is wrecked from all that fun, settle down with a good rich nerd and bear his children
--You're settled for life with happy black cock and orgy memories
>>702698271
Weight restoration firstly, then lots of therapy.. Fun times lol
>>702697938
Op here: lel meat sack are funny words
>>702698516
Op: Do you force yourself to eat?
>>702698509
Op: Wow :o what a great vision of life :D
>>702698409
Gonna head off to sleep I think, feeling too shit and empty.
Get well, guys. And OP - friends are a thing which comes and goes.
>>702685745
green text faggot
>>702698764
Op:Good night anon, thank you for sharing
>>702697368
the money is good but if youre ever gonna stream lmk but do u actaully play LoL
>>702699010
XD why Always lol? You do know their are better games? :')
By fucking posting tits with an accurate time stamp, you useless sack of flesh. I mean, you're the ONLY person on this planet who has ever, EVER, been in a bad relationship and we all feel so sorry for you. Would you like to go to Starbucks and have a nice talk about everything he ever did wrong to you and how you're the best moist hole ever to exist? Maybe you can show me your avante garde black and white photography? God that sounds like fun. You're only good for one
thing here:tits with a god damn time stamp. If I had to wake up next to you, I beat the shit out of you every day too, and I'd make sure the bruises were noticeable in public.
>>702696707
sensational
>>702698410
>Hmm... I Guess i'm a a! 18!
>lying on the internet
so you're either a guy OR underage
>>702698560
>lel meat sack are funny words
or both
whatever I'm out
hope you're laughing your ass off
and btw I hope you get cancer, nigger
>>702696649
OP you sound like my ex-gf
>No tits
>People aren't discarding the thread
>We're fucked.
Goodbye my sweet prince!
>>702699984
Oh really?
Meat SOCK, you illiterate shit. A tube barely worth fucking. Tits or gtfo.
>>702693069
Fuckin story of my life.
>>702701432
i suck at everything
>>702700117
I hit her once and broked up 10 months ago after 2 years of relationship.
Come laugh at my crippling mental illness
>>702702258
I have a blog on tumblr like that. I am writing in my native language and my only follower is the girl I love.
oh yeah? i feel you, this was once that. before the blog I had an actual paper diary I'd give to the girl that was my world every week , let her read , and discuss
>>702696649
Do you have any drawings to show?
Since it's a feels thread I might ask for the sad drawings, but anything will do, if you don't mind sharing
>>702703347
Hum yeah ok here is the last one I made. Not to Wow but just feels good
Not OP but there is one of my drawings if anyone interested. I drew myself in this picture.
It annoys me since I don't smile much or even open my eyes that wide. I always keep my eyes low and have a idling emotion on my face.
>>702696707
lost
>>702703918
I like it a lot
>>702693069
This pic should have been her giving head but no you beta faggots have to ruin everything. fuck your thread
>>702704264
Thank you a lot
>>702703845
Shit isnt working too bad
>>702684593
>be 16 year old me
>just hitting puberty
>lost glasses and braces, grew long hair still wore skinny jeans and was a metalfag
>started dating beautiful girl from the dance team,
>way out of my league
>I had multiple girls hitting on me all of a sudden after months of dating said grill
>didnt know how to say no to them
>so I said yes to them.
>A year and a half had passed and I had kept all 4 girls a secret
>until all 4 girls somehow plotted together and told my gf of the time
>she leaves me
>mfw im 23 and every girl ive dated since then has cheated on me.
>mfw karma is real.
>>702703845
Forgot picture?
>>702705060
Wow
>>702705196
Doesnt fucking work
>>702684593
Fuck his best friend.... Nah im kidding hang in there remember after all nothing we do has The slightly cosmic relevan e, youll be alright in a couple months
>>702684593
Just find an anon, much better relationship if you dodge the neckbeards
Whoopwhoop whoop thank the gods the summerfags are gone /b/ is back to being /b/ yes thank you gods ohhh and thus this feeling of freedom I'm gonna go syphon the Python to rekt threads whooooo!!!:)) Yea I'll come all over the computer screen and rape the pencil sharpener anything can be a vagina if you are brave enough hahahahahahah /b/ is back faggots
>>702684593
>be me
>31 yo male
>no girlfriend
>live with parents
>raped by younger brother when I was 12
>blocked it out for 13 years
>brother diagnosed as "schizophrenic"
>admits he raped me 3 months after I start dating my first gf (at 24)
>flashbacks hit: FUUUUUUU
>join Army leave home
>move back home after completing contract w/Army
>confide in sister about rape
>supportive at first
>now thinks I'm schizophrenic like my brother
>thinks I made it up
>she's the only one who knows
>see my rapist every day
>only person who know thinks I'm a liar
I just miss her
>>702705363
Can't load it? Why? File's damaged or too big?
>>702705781
Move on and tell someone else about it, your sister is dumb apparently to believe that.
>>702684593
>me
>girlfriend for 5 months, trying the long distance thing
>we have insane chemistry, get alog amazing
>feelsfuckinggoodman.jpeg
>visit her up in Canada because i really liked this girl
>solid visit, wanna go back
>shit starts hitting the fan
>gets too close to her guy friends, which she always has, but i look past it
>she gets roofied,
>says she took a pill from a guy at a party
>tell her to be more careful, that it affects me becuase were in a commited relatioship an her well being is mine
>get mad that she keeps doing drugs
>he best friend is a guy, and apprently they cuddle and are really close, flip a shit at her
>befriends a gay prostitute
>does meth with him, claims 'she didn't know what he gave her'
>start trusting her less and less but start craving her attention more and more.
>apologize for getting mad and arguing with her, "sorry" was my word of choice, said I'm sorry so many times.
>she breaks up with me
>still like this girl,
>comes back to America and we re-kindle our relationship for 3 months,
>she's back up in Nova Scotia working 2 jobs,
>i'm still trying to talk to her, hoping to get her back
>>702706089
Move on bro, too many bad signs. Doesn't matter how you feel about her, she will always let you down.
>>702706481
Very bad signs, she was a genuine person, too many vices.
I wanted to fix her too, make her better,
One thing i've learned is you can't make people what you want them to be, they are who they are, and change when they feel like/are ready to.
Moving on is hard, got with a few girls, got laid too, felt nothing.
>>702706782
>Wanted to fix her
Yea, that's never a good idea. And it never works. If a person is truly broken, they're most likely broken for life.
well, chances of having schizophrenia hugely increase if you have a direct male relative with it...
do you have proof? so that you can prove it to yourself? not trying to offend, but as someone with this condition you have to question every thought and memory you have.
>>702706782
I hear you, ran into something similar when I was much younger, wasn't drugs, but she was fucked up mentally and just couldn't piece her together. I tried, beat myself up over it but it wasn't good for me. I still think about her and wonder but I know it wouldn't have worked.
>>702707211
Exactly man, i beat myself up and over thought everything .
"why did I say that". "i should've done this, shouldn't have done that".
She wasn't healthy, neither was our relationship, but it was really good for a few months. Think about her everyday, it's gotten less and less though. I guess time heals everything.
>>702707038
My DD214
I'm pretty sure they would have figured out that I had a mental disorder during the screening process, or during my service; and kicked me out.
>>702696879
>>702684729
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>>702684825
She didn't ask for anything newfriends
>>702708401
late onset? repressed? I don't buy psychiatric screening, like a polygraph that only tells if youre nervous not if youre lying. especially something like schizophrenia that the pyschiactric community cant agree on, I'd wager it can be completely unnoticable. but you know theres always the chance you got raped AND have schizophrenia?
