Hello /b/ I am feeling really bad tonight and I wanted to share.. First time I speak about me on /b/, so feels thread...
>18 yo femanon
>boyfriend broke up with me
>used to hit me
>was extremely jealous
>made himself look like a victim in front of our friends
>used to say things like I am monster
>I dont care about him
>I make him jealous by pleasure
>now our "magnificient" 2yo story is over
>most of my friends believe I am a monster
>Made out with a guy 1 month later while drunk (I got wasted a lot during those times)
>became my boyfriend
>kind of lost
>everyone thinks I am a slut
>I am completely lost now
>tought about murder, bad idea.
>tried to talk to those friends
>said they didnt care and that they will always be by his side
>even when I tell them the truth they wont believe me
>said they didnt like me anyways
tell your feels story
You know da rules...
Tits or gtfo
Don't say your gender next time. Or go look for help in a less horrible place.
Wow that sucks, especially when your friends don't believe you.
I don't really have a feels story. I just sort of push everyone out of my life because of my manic depression. The people I know rarely speak to me cause I'm just so fucking miserable all the time.
I like to believe there's hope for change, not just for me but for everyone. I want to believe we have control over our lives and that we can make them better. Hell sometimes I even do. Hang in there, things can improve.
are you still in high school? If so high school just sucks for everyone, and the people it doesn't suck for end up being miserable later in life cause they're awful or dumb. things will get better.
It juste feels like prehighschool again were I was Always lonely and people used to beat me up and soit on me un groups. I just want to get this all other with and start my Real interesting studies...
I do believe that too but you know better than me that its hard to cheer up sometimes...
Especially when you are like me Always smiling and putting everyone on front office you so you become in thé end thé shit they walk on every morning
I was almost the same as your bf when I had you age except for the beating. But I was heavy on the psychological torture.
Pretty much ruined her life. Put everyone she knew against her, made her loose every ounce of self respect she had until she left me.
After that my life went in a downward spiral. I've became so cold and manipulative that I almost didn't have feelings for anyone anymore.
With time I regretted my past, changed my life around, learned how to love people simply as they are.
Saw her around a year and half later, told her how sorry I was. We talked for a while, her life looked pretty good and she was happy.
Just don't do anything rash, people change. Don't let what you feel now define you, if your friends left you start again, find new friends. Let go of the past and just concern yourself with being happy.
So thats how it feels to be on the other side of the wall eh? I never really understood what he could think to do such things, he didnt seem to know how to say Nice things or being protective... He let people call me "sperme pussy" in front of him without lifting a brow... I hope he'll feel Bad and really learn from his errors...
Yeah, I think both people in a relationship like that loses. I don't know your bf reasons.
When I met my gf she was incredible, just the most incredible girl I met. I was afraid she'll leave me so I make sure she didn't think she could do better than me.
Her personality changed so much that the girl I loved wasn't there anymore, I disliked so much what she became that I just made her miserable for a long time.
I dont know I always tried to make him happy, showed him cool stuff hed love, Always down for something he wanted.. godamn i even made him a panda box with his favorite shit in it with a new gaming mouse and a nice carpet for it!
He cried all the time though... Because he also didnt want to lose me etc.. i tried to cheer him up all the time :/
How to find new Friends? I am bored of basic people and i hate grils cause they talk hair and shit all the time and i'm not basic enough for guys cause im too much of a Guy! (And no i dont have the D)
they're obviously not your friends and never were truly. they don't care about you, else they would also care about your words. i'm glad you found a boyfriend. dump those other people and find a group similar to you, honest, genuine and just better. that's really all you can do, fuck them. you're way better off without people who do this type of shit in your life.
That picture always reminds me of emptiness, because of the expression of the guy on the right.
You just need to space from those friends, maybe find something outside that group. It's his echo chamber, maybe? It sounds like self esteem is a big issue you let him hit you. Need to look at yourself before next person.
I just feel like I'm less important than others cause I don't have any use and everyone else is more interesting, mature and funnier than me, even the fatfag from my class is prefered more than me
Why do you worry so much about having friends? Good friends are great, sure but they're not a requirement for life. Learn to be comfortable with yourself and happy on your own. Being independent will help with future problematic relationships.
PLAY VIDEOGAMES srsly tho thts how i ended up maing most of my friends in college if ur in college i would suggest playing something like leauge of legends or if not in college play some console game
I'll throw my hat in the ring.
>16 y/o anon
>getting along well w/ qt3.14 I volunteer at charity shop with.
>Ended up getting her number as friend (too dense to actually notice anything)
>Visit her house before every shift we have together.
>Convince her to watch Game of Thrones with me, make some pretty funny jokes and flirt a bit (seriously too retarded to notice what I was doing)
>Few weeks of this routine and she asks to cuddle, thought this was platonic, too stupid.
>We got up as the episode finished to start walking to work, she hugs me for a really long time, doesn't click at all.
>Half way through shift I shout "OH SHIT" on till so loud she heard me in the back.
>Ask to talk to her after shift, ended up as you'd expect, basic scrub kid relationship with our hearts on our sleeves.
>Months of falling head over heels ensue, she says she loves me, I say the same back.
>Even longer goes by, she even starts talking about engagement, I fucking agree.
>Find out about a month after she had a boyfriend through all of it, and the only reason I was being stringed along was likely because he didn't talk to her much.
>Cut all ties with her.
>Go to bed each night re-living regret and shame knowing I was a mug that acted in all the wrong ways, and that I'm likely the cause of her "abandonment issues" (she's always got a LOT of guys chasing her and she tries to keep them all going at once).
If you want a life lesson from this, it would be take these kinds of things as life lessons, and try not to kill yourself.
thts great then u know when my grandma died thts all i looked to all i did was play games cause when i didnt i felt like shit so all i would say is have a good time playing im curretnly diamond 3 btw i invested too much time in LoL
I think i'm gonna kill myself /b/
I sure my gf is cheating on me
She goes out all the night and don't talk much
I f*king love her but, i can't sleep because i'm overthinking
i've spent the last 5 years trying to find a job, any job, but no one will hire me because im super ugly
ahh i get u well ur gonna do fine belevie me friends arent tht important. mabye having sex is nice but look just play mmo's and shit and youll have more fun than hanging out with ur friends. plus if u stream u can make tons of money since ur a girl
When I was 18 I had lots of friends. I still do. I was (and am) socially active with good people who hung around when I was smart, funny, stupid and annoying.
I talk to one of those old friends a few times a week. Sometimes I talk to a couple of the others on the phone, maybe ten times a year.
Life goes on. Your friends shape who you are, and they make opportunities for you to express yourself and grow as a person, and to learn new things about others.
Some people have the same friends their entire lives. That sounds fine.
Other people meet new friends all the time, while the old friends sort of drift outside the circle. That's fine too.
Loosing some obviously-not-that-attached-to-you friends at 18 ... it will pass. Meet new people. Good people. Have fun, learn and grow.
>18 yo femanon
haven't read the thread yet, but I doubt that you've posted tits already
why do ''femanons'' always do this shit?
I mean they say they're female, but don't post
tits to confirm it
you could've just said you're male, but nooo you need your special treatment
no tits = get the fuck out
btw I think this thread is b8 and you're just some faggot
pic kinda related
Tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo tits or gtfo. He probably used to hit you because you're too fucking stupid to follow the most basic rules. Hope you two get back together soon, sounds like you're a good punching bag, you meat sock.
Thank you anon i really appréciate, i know your right but just enduring the 1 year time that separates me from my new life is so long since I have to go through so much obstacles...
hmmm...now that I think about it,
you said you're 18
so are you a.18 or b.''18''?
answer with a or b plz
Find new friends
Stop trying to explain yourself and move the fuck on
Embrace the sluttiness and have some fun with horny guys without expectations
Then, when your pussy is wrecked from all that fun, settle down with a good rich nerd and bear his children
--You're settled for life with happy black cock and orgy memories
By fucking posting tits with an accurate time stamp, you useless sack of flesh. I mean, you're the ONLY person on this planet who has ever, EVER, been in a bad relationship and we all feel so sorry for you. Would you like to go to Starbucks and have a nice talk about everything he ever did wrong to you and how you're the best moist hole ever to exist? Maybe you can show me your avante garde black and white photography? God that sounds like fun. You're only good for one
thing here:tits with a god damn time stamp. If I had to wake up next to you, I beat the shit out of you every day too, and I'd make sure the bruises were noticeable in public.
>Hmm... I Guess i'm a a! 18!
>lying on the internet
so you're either a guy OR underage
>lel meat sack are funny words
whatever I'm out
hope you're laughing your ass off
and btw I hope you get cancer, nigger
Not OP but there is one of my drawings if anyone interested. I drew myself in this picture.
It annoys me since I don't smile much or even open my eyes that wide. I always keep my eyes low and have a idling emotion on my face.
>be 16 year old me
>just hitting puberty
>lost glasses and braces, grew long hair still wore skinny jeans and was a metalfag
>started dating beautiful girl from the dance team,
>way out of my league
>I had multiple girls hitting on me all of a sudden after months of dating said grill
>didnt know how to say no to them
>so I said yes to them.
>A year and a half had passed and I had kept all 4 girls a secret
>until all 4 girls somehow plotted together and told my gf of the time
>she leaves me
>mfw im 23 and every girl ive dated since then has cheated on me.
>mfw karma is real.
Whoopwhoop whoop thank the gods the summerfags are gone /b/ is back to being /b/ yes thank you gods ohhh and thus this feeling of freedom I'm gonna go syphon the Python to rekt threads whooooo!!!:)) Yea I'll come all over the computer screen and rape the pencil sharpener anything can be a vagina if you are brave enough hahahahahahah /b/ is back faggots
>31 yo male
>live with parents
>raped by younger brother when I was 12
>blocked it out for 13 years
>brother diagnosed as "schizophrenic"
>admits he raped me 3 months after I start dating my first gf (at 24)
>flashbacks hit: FUUUUUUU
>join Army leave home
>move back home after completing contract w/Army
>confide in sister about rape
>supportive at first
>now thinks I'm schizophrenic like my brother
>thinks I made it up
>she's the only one who knows
>see my rapist every day
>only person who know thinks I'm a liar
>girlfriend for 5 months, trying the long distance thing
>we have insane chemistry, get alog amazing
>visit her up in Canada because i really liked this girl
>solid visit, wanna go back
>shit starts hitting the fan
>gets too close to her guy friends, which she always has, but i look past it
>she gets roofied,
>says she took a pill from a guy at a party
>tell her to be more careful, that it affects me becuase were in a commited relatioship an her well being is mine
>get mad that she keeps doing drugs
>he best friend is a guy, and apprently they cuddle and are really close, flip a shit at her
>befriends a gay prostitute
>does meth with him, claims 'she didn't know what he gave her'
>start trusting her less and less but start craving her attention more and more.
>apologize for getting mad and arguing with her, "sorry" was my word of choice, said I'm sorry so many times.
>she breaks up with me
>still like this girl,
>comes back to America and we re-kindle our relationship for 3 months,
>she's back up in Nova Scotia working 2 jobs,
>i'm still trying to talk to her, hoping to get her back
Very bad signs, she was a genuine person, too many vices.
I wanted to fix her too, make her better,
One thing i've learned is you can't make people what you want them to be, they are who they are, and change when they feel like/are ready to.
Moving on is hard, got with a few girls, got laid too, felt nothing.
well, chances of having schizophrenia hugely increase if you have a direct male relative with it...
do you have proof? so that you can prove it to yourself? not trying to offend, but as someone with this condition you have to question every thought and memory you have.
I hear you, ran into something similar when I was much younger, wasn't drugs, but she was fucked up mentally and just couldn't piece her together. I tried, beat myself up over it but it wasn't good for me. I still think about her and wonder but I know it wouldn't have worked.
Exactly man, i beat myself up and over thought everything .
"why did I say that". "i should've done this, shouldn't have done that".
She wasn't healthy, neither was our relationship, but it was really good for a few months. Think about her everyday, it's gotten less and less though. I guess time heals everything.
late onset? repressed? I don't buy psychiatric screening, like a polygraph that only tells if youre nervous not if youre lying. especially something like schizophrenia that the pyschiactric community cant agree on, I'd wager it can be completely unnoticable. but you know theres always the chance you got raped AND have schizophrenia?