I have no friends
I was in a psych ward a year ago
but I lost my psychologist
I dropped out of uni
I don't have debt anymore
I want nothing
I will overdose once I get my meds alone with me
I'm trapped but there is no way out
I've lived in my head all of my life and I don't like what I see outside
I don't want to be here
I wish I had a gun
I wish I had been someone else but I'm no one and that's how it is meant to be.
I wish my parents hated me it would make this so much easier
Asphyxia with an inert gas is a better option
Ill dump what i have.. if you have pics related post em.
I don't actually have much to complain about other than this abusive piece of shit that's dating my girlfriend's mom. He's a coked up self righteous cock and the police haven't done shit but he continues to terrorize her family, but her mom keeps him around and treats him like he's the greatest husband of all time.
Just some of the shit he's done
> punched and knocked holes in the walls of a house he doesn't own
> pushed my gf down the stairs after she stood up to him
> broken windows in a drunken stupor
> driven dangerously on the highway with two passengers just because my gf's grandparents cleaned out his car for him
> threatened to break their hands if they ever touched his car again
> he was giving the car to my gf anyway, kek
> yelled at a four year old child because he wanted to play a game and sent a child that wasn't his to their room
This dude talks like a fucking robot and he's creepy as shit. I legitimately believe he's a fucking sociopath because when he isn't expressing pure rage because he never learned how to handle emotions like an adult, he's eerily quiet and soft spoken, he sounds like a robot.
I've got no greater desire in the earth to bury this cock alive, he's hurt everybody around him and he's fucking cancer. He beats my girlfriend's mom and took my gf to a drug deal and tried to get her to fuck his junkie thirty year old friends when she was only eighteen.
And the part that pisses me off the most is that her mother hasn't done shit to get rid of him, she just keeps taking him back and treating him like he's a king even though he's an asshole to literally everyone.
I can't wait until he overdoses and chokes to death on his own vomit. This kind of filth doesn't deserve a quick and comfortable death.
Lol. All of you sad faggots make life easier for those of us that are not as lazy as you are. We get girls and sex and jobs while you curl up and cry with your fake illness. Depression is not real.
Oh look it's an expert on neurological disorders on /b/
Keep trying, faggots. You're angry that I'm not lazy and crying and thinking "what if" like you all do. I made plans, and followed them through. When plan a,b, and c went to shit, I went to plan d. In short, unlike (you), I'm responsible and not lazy. That is why I'm happy.
Recommend you reading all of this.
>we get girls and sex
Bitch im married. I have a kid. Doesnt mean my life is good. I fucked her daily. Doesnt mean my marriage is great. Doesnt mean im happy. I get to sit here and think about how one day my little girl is gonna call some other dude daddy. Some dude that replaces me. If u have this great life then why are you on /b/ get the fuck off and go enjoy it faggot.
I'm some other dude but I'm married with kids and have a great life, I still come to /b/.
There's more normal everyday people here than there are fat autistic spastics I imagine.
That said, I hope it all works out in the end, whatever the issues are. Just have one more go at talking to her. No booze, no shouting, just talk - then listen.
Good luck fella.
U still have no acceptable answer to that.. there are 2 kinds of people. Heartbreakers and the heartbroken. We don't always get to be like you and fuck someone over. Sometimes were the one that gets fucked..
good shit here
>Be 27. Finally meet girl on dating site that i think is interested.
>Talk for awhile. Plan to meet in a month after we share a few more phone calls / skype chats. We are both excited.
>Just graduated from schools, and she is starting her senior semester.
>Talk to her everyday. Help each other out.
>She starts becoming distant.
>Stops talking. I ask whats up.
>Says she met a guy in her class and has fallen for him.
>Gives me the "great guy" speech and then tells me all plans are canceled and we shouldn't talk as much.
>Flip out and tell her to fuck off.
>Cut everyone out of life and start drinking
>See feels thread and create post. Pitcher of Sangria still sitting next to me.
>All alone again.
Not really. Nothing but traps, lollis, rekt, waifus, /fur, feels, kms, and bullshit threads drooling over other women. If you come on here saying youre some normie but youre on /b/ you really need to think a little harder.
>but anon not everyone looks at those
Lol stfu. Everyone glances at them. You look at some naked bitch tho you've got a wife. You watch a body get dismembered without cringing. That is not normal. If youre hapoy with your wife / girl you wouldnt need to look at /b/ for that. Loving an anime character enough to say youd marry them.. not normal.. i think you get the point.. people here arent normal.. ffs we tell people to kill themselves..
If you are dead you can not feel 'the softness' of the ground or silence because you can't experience these things without their opposites or experience anything because you're dead.
All he is really talking about it letting go your ego or abstract-self. Which we all have to overcome in life or when dying.
>can't get mind off of girl.
>She told me she liked me a few days ago. Was really happy to hear those words. No one ever said it to me before.
Sinking lower into depression. Anyone got any advice guys? Trying to find things to occupy myself or my time with instead of letting the thoughts float around in my head.
>long distance relationship
>see pics of bf cuddling next to another person
>fucking crushed inside
>stress everytime bf is around person
>thinks im getting replaced
>bf talks to me regularly, not when they're around though
>too afraid of him thinking im pathetic for being jealous and clingy
>convinces self that i dont deserve him
>wont be surprised if he replaces me
I can't imagine it has anything to do with "being lazy".
I've been working one or two jobs while studying since I started high school. After which I got admitted to (a top ranked) college. I got two master's degrees with high honors. I've worked in expert service industries that demand vast amounts of work in hours per week. I've worked for a long, long time. Likely harder than you ever have.
I make good money, meet interesting people, have high social status. Yet still I've been depressed for years.
What's your take on that?
Also, inappreciate the kindness.. but talking to her has never worked.. shes unreasonable. Imagine talking to a kid and telling them why they should eat their vegetables. You explain that theyll grow up healthy and strong. But the kid still says "no, I want the candy bar" thats my wife. I can give her everything to be reasonable about but she wont even.. i hope all goes well too
I do sometimes look at the ylyl stuff but mainly I come here and trawl through the 99.99% of drivel to find an occasional genius post or half decent discussion. I don't stay long, but I do come here most nights. Something to do while I wait for a movie or w/e to download. Aside from that, I'm pretty normal I think. Normal enough not to bother with most of the shit here at any rate. Feels threads are ok - puts minor problems I have into perspective and if I can give someone a bit of a boost along the way, all the better.
Some people (like me) have never been able to meditate because we cant clear our minds to that state of nothing. Ive tried to. It just doesnt work for me.. even though i did sit there for what felt like the festest hour of my life. And believe me, it felt amazing when i was down. My mind was never cleared. I never achieved meditation. I think i actually fell asleep in deep thought is all.. i wouldnt know tho. But i did try..
Some other anon here, how many times did you try it? I've got a shitton of thoughts that are difficult to swat away due to my adhd, but it's worth the effort if you manage to get there.
I snuck out of my two story house once whilst it was covered in a few inches of snow, sneaking past my mother and her abusive boyfriend and ignoring my curfew, just to bring this girl some chocolates in the snowy night because I had to kiss her and be with her. We were obviously dating, and fucking, but I didn't have time for fun.
She leaves me before winter break in my first year of college for a Chad at her work who flips patties.
>she got fat
Then i can only assume you havent been here long. I did the same thing 5 years ago when i started browsing. Only came for the laughs of ylyl. And looking for legendary posts. I even had a break for a month or two.. but /b/ never leaves the head and just draws you in. And eventually.. eventually.. youre looking through all of it. Just to see. Even if its like "why do people like this?" So you click it.. and then youre like "wtf! Close tab!" But maybe after a year.. you do the same thing. But a while different reaction. Youve adapted to seeing these things and it doesnt feel weird anymore. You might browse a sec. You might still not like it. But you always look again unless you actually get away from here before it pulls you in..
We did. We had one on friday but she ended up canceling because this new guy entered her life and she says he is amazing.
Worst of all she told me how great a guy I was and how I will find that special someone. I've heard that line so many times man. Its getting old.
I don't believe this kid. I think he's the most lazy and undisciplined motherfucker on this board but is sick of himself and angry too so he let's it out on us, even though his soul knows he's targetting himself.
Sangria? That's your poison? B-but why, Anon?
Family had a huge party. Lots of the spanish side came. We have literally dozens of bottles of the stuff. So I just threw it all together. Put in some fizzy water and lots of fruit.
Still chugging, also I like sweet drinks.
so this is from the feels thread yesterday.
my friends from my high school had this party at one of their houses. (bear in mind there's only four of us.) i asked the friend if i could hang out there and he said his parents barely let in a second friend. so i'm just in my room last night when i get a swarm of pictures from the party. insides jokes, and camaraderie. i just start to get sad. bear in mind, i have no other friends BUT these guys. i start to think he just lied, but i dunno.
Well it is more like creating patience for yourself sometimes it takes more than just 1 hour. For me 5 hours on a beach worked. But it really just depends on the person.
But giving some thoughts more value because of emotions or misplaced identification can be confusing. But the point is all thoughts are just thoughts or abstractions.
Here is an example: If you have a bucket filled with water and sand and you stir it up by thinking you should notice that the water becomes unclear and messy.
The only way to get it clear again is to leave it be. So that the sand particles land on the bottom and the water is clear again.
Serilus question, why do you faggots are always like "buuuu my life sucks im such a especial snowflake and nobody understands me im gonna tell everybody im gonna kill myself but not really"
If you're sad just fucking do something about it, don't expext something fall from heaven and tell you that it is the solution to your fag problems.
4 years ago I was like you, I was a sad little fat fuck with no friends and no goals in life and all I was doing back then was vidya, fapping and 4chan, litreally zero social life, then I started hit the Gym and I started making friends, then I got some social life, I got gains and bitches started mirin, now that i'm 22 I just started college and my social life Increased a lot, now I *almost* have no depression and a lot of people who actually wanna be around me.
If you fucking faggots drop out of college and/or just are depressed for something, do something about it, just like I did, if you don't wanna, then is just because you're all lazy pieces of shit and you actually deserved to die instead of being wasting air and your parents money, but since you're all here, none of you is going to actually kill themselves, faggots motherfuckers
Not really any fault in not doing it. I meditated every once in a while in high school and it had a pretty significant effect on me but yesterday was the first time I did it in about 5 years. It's easy to not do it since it takes some effort.
But really, even if you don't reach the optimal state immediately I find it still helps to sit down for half an hour and try.
>my 15th birthday
>been sad for weeks
>asks girl out
>she says i would never have any chance with her
>party later that day with the family
>celebrating 3 things, my birthday, my cousins birthday, and my grandparents anniversary
>most of my family forgot my birthday
Its been like that the last 5 years, but I've moved out
let's assume you are a great guy(i dont know you so i cant say for myself). her choosing this other guy over you doesnt negate that. it just means she wasnt the one for you. take her off your pedestal and dont put another girl on it. there IS a girl out there for you
I read the first two lines of that crap.
We aren't those emos pulling this shit for sympathy and pussy.
We're genuine screw ups who were convinced we would make bad decisions in life and just made wrong decisions that could have been a little better. And it seems like the world is crashing down around us. But people don't see what we see; or hear what we hear; or feel what we feel.
But we care. So we share, and listen. Give it another few hours or so and we'll be the same guys we were when posting in rekt threads and roll or check threads. It's a passing phase that we choose not to ignore.
That makes me feel better. I don't think I'm a great guy (way to selfish) but thanks for the inspiration.
I'm just trying to cope with things mostly. Hearing that "great guy" speech again really did just feel like another slap in the face. I have heard it a lot in the past but it was always as a form of rejection.
If only she had as much autism as me and maybe we could've clicked the way i'd hoped
No one really chooses on how to live their lives. Whatever decisions that any one makes is dependent on past events. Life is just a bunch of coincidences but it always ends the same no matter who you are.
You're just like us and that's why you're here in the first place
you're not alone
like another slap in the face
it always does and always will but you just gotta roll with the punches and move on man. i just went through some heartbreak myself and i decided im just gonna do me and if a girl happens to come into my life then thats fine, if not, thats fine too. just. do. you.
Yeah. I've decided that tomorrow I'm going to fix some things about myself. I just graduated school so I want to start running, swimming, and boxing again. Might get a second job or try and get promoted at my current job.
I need to focus on me before others. Thanks for the help though. It always improves my mood to find someone that cares.
Here's a more flexible version of this pic.
That mug is as large as her fucking head.
And yeah, I agree with >>702561026
Nothing is a coincidence. There isn't some invisible force with a hidden agenda for mankind. We make this shit what is is.
I was 17
Traveling to another city with a bus to spend my summer with girlfriend.
Bus stopped at a small bus terminal after the first two hours.
I was out and smoking and some guy walked towards me and asked if I had any cigarettes
Take out and share the last one I had in my box
He noticed and didn't want to take my last cigarette but i insisted
He took the cigarette
We started to talking about where are we going
I told him about my gf and my plans but he didn't talk much about himself
I noticed the tattoo on his neck and asked about it
He told me that it means "family" in arabic
And he started to tell me his story
He was working in another country and couldn't connect his family since the region his family lives in attacked by ISIS a week ago
He told me he is going to find them no matter what
He had a fiancee, a home and a decent job where he was coming from and he abandoned all of them
I couldn't understand. I would never do such a thing.
He bought new cigarettes from the shop and gave me the rest after smoking 1 or 2 cigarettes.
After that I wished him good luck and got back on bus.
When ever I feel like giving up he comes up to my mind
He didn't have the power, his family could already died in the attack but he was determined to find them
I don't know if he find them or even reach to place his family lived
The feeling of knowing there is people around like him is the worst
Making me feel like a coward or a weak person I don't know.
believe it or not, there are others
after the story you told, why worrying if she behaves that way? do not run after anyone
I don't understand... Please explain.
I can't help but relate to this without even know what these colours are signifying...
Don't worry everyone
Someday it will all be over, then we can experience the life we wanted
Just make sure you're a good person while you're still here
>own family want nothing to do with me
>think depression is a choice
>just do something about it jesus anon what's wrong with you
>closer and closer to suicide every day
>can't just leave because I can't support myself
>no reason to continue, every reason to die
That's about it really. Just can't be normal, don't have the courage to an hero.
honestly man, everybody here wishes we could just turn it off and do something about it but it just doesnt work like that. Münchhausen didnt pull himself out of the swamp and neither can we or will we, at one point we all stop struggling and slowly sink until we are gone
this, but the step out of (this) depression is nihilism with the wish to dominate others and don't feel bad about it
>My standards have been set unrealistically high after years of mentally dating celebrities and/or fictional characters
The world wouldn't change for you, either.
There're no happy people in it, nor are there two homosexuals in a corporate travel car having intercourse.
>had a ton of friends back home
>parents came on science visa to Ohio
>live in small town where everyone knows each other but have zero interest in foreigners
>literally go to school, run on the high school track and go home everyday
>my friends back home are busy in their own lives
>have no idea how to interact with local kids, American movies don't really show how life is
Just grabbing my dubs
>Live in small town
>Town is full of old people
>Outside town is nothing but Chinks
>Don't talk to old people or chinks
>Don't talk to anyone.