I am resitting some exams, before my final year at Uni (Integrated Masters in engineering, so will be going into my 4th year after these exams(UK))
I feel more and more inferior, every year that goes on. When my peers and I are presented with the same question, even if we have never seen it before, I will almost certainly be the last to reach an answer. I do try, but it feels like it is just slipping away and no matter what I do I cannot stop the decline.
I feel burnt out, I've started to hate my course and the very idea of Uni. I cannot quit now though as I only have 1 more year left. If I quit now these past 3 years will have been a waste and I could not deal with the stares of dissappointment and the feeling of total failure.
I really am trying.......I just don't know if I have it in me.
>>702158715 my life. parents expect too much of me. i just don't feel good these last few months. especially these past few days. if i try to ditch school for a day my mother is fucking angry towards me. always blaming me for shit. im in the last year of high school and don't feel like finishing it successfully. if i fuck up i'm gonna off myself in another country....
I just took my 2 year old lab back home from the vet. $5000 later and he might have bone cancer or a really bad fungal infection (both are rare in his case). I cant sleep, I cant eat and I have been drinking. I love him as my son and I dont want him to die
>>702160019 If you're in a hotel you're not homeless for now dumbass I'm talking about when you eventually have to leave and have nowhere else to go. I take back the whole don't get stabbed thing, you're an idiot.
>>702157762 Never usually post about myself in these (normally reassuring other anons) but here goes:
>A few months ago broke up with my SO (well, got dumped) >Felt really shitty at first >Then felt amazing, best I'd been for years >Met someone, nothing romantic >Still speaking to new person, am aware that I really like them >They are really chill, share my interests, and very beautiful >Not sure whether to ask them for a date. >Feel like they'd say no Here's the kicker.txt >If they did say yes I'd feel guilty about dragging them into thr bullshit I go through (am depressed/bipolarish) >Furthermore the idea of physical intimacy beyond a kiss/hug terrifies me
>>702160470 You need to go to a shrink you fucking psycho. You're clearly a god damned basket case and attempting to drag anyone into the hell hole of your life should be a crime. Besides anyone worry their salt will realize you're an asshole pretty fast anyway and dump your ass.
I'm sure your dog will be fine, anon. If cancer diagnosis is rare then it's unlikely to happen, and fungal infections are treatable. Plus, dogs are fucking tough and will do all they can to stay with you; my dog recently got ran over really bad but she pulled through. In the mean time, love that pupper; it loves you back and even if he dies, nothing can change that.
>>702160815 You're a stupid asshole that just likes masturbating egos. A dog is a dog. He can get a new one. The fact that he's a grown ass man crying over a dog speaks more to his mental illness than anything else. He really needs to reevaluate his entire life if he's fixating on a god damn dog so much. He called the dog his "son" did Christs sake. He needs to get a life and let go of this unhealthy shit.
Only 6 people said happy birthday to me today but you know your boi is okay /b/. Staying up late at night to say happy birthday to family and some friends. But you know dad comes home and what. Go move those supplies to so and so area no fuck a hug right haha. Fuck that shit. Stayed up pate at night to say happy birthday to 3 of you niggas and yall don't even bother when the day is about to end. You know that 20 dollar gift I bought when I really wanted to buy some Xbox live gold and you don't even say happy birthday no I'm good okay your boi happy /b/. No no its fine right? Always tell you happy birthday didn't matter if I was at work or school fuck that. I'm good fam I'm good fam. But you know I always took the time out of my day to say it. Why don't you... TO HELL WITH THEM
I've already been on a course of CBT which helped. My negative moods have backed completely off of late, though this current one is work-related. I just worry that they'll get bad again and it's not fair to put someone through that, as I've been put through hell before by a depressed partner and it sucked.
I have been trying to improve myself of late; been exercising, socialising more consistently and reading more. I want to be in a good place so that I could be a good person to be with.
Make the conscious choice in my head that my relationship needs to end soon, I like women too much to be bound to one girl for the rest of my life
>she too wants to leave me >so we break up after being separated for a month(vacation but we live together otherwise) >I'm home for 10 minutes and we're over >feel fantastic, best I have in a year >she feels fantastic too, which at first is nice but then it starts getting me depressed >I'm living alone in a new city while she's out having the time of her life with her friends and probably new flame but I dunno >start feeling really depressed about how well she is, we still loved eachother like hell and I was supposedly someone shed had a crush on for half a decade >yet she moves on so easily >fight the urge to try to win her back because even if hugging her and snuggling binder the pillow and kissing my loneliness away, I know it wouldn't last because I want to meet different women and have different experiences >make plans to move out of the country to be with relatives with a minimum of a few months but could become permanent >basically just waiting for days to go by now until I can Go, one of my cousins has a personality similar to mine he's just a tad more nerdier than I and his also pretty (game nerdy btw) will probably try to fix me up with one or their friends, they did for his sister why not me. Can't wait for that, but until then I'm still laying her thinking about my ex
>>702161089 Just leave off, man. He loves hid dog, I love mine. That's normal. Animals are companions,and when they die it's fucking sad. They're not just some "thing" you get another of. Lumping on the mental illness label realky makes you feel better about your own lack of empathy doesn't it?
>>702161797 You already have your answer faggot. You know the right thing to do. Don't drag this seemingly good person into your mess of a life. Keep them at arms length and get your shit together you psycho. You can't possibly be good for anyone in your current condition and you know it.
>>702162046 No, I'm just not a self righteous asshole that gets off on lying too people and masturbating egos to make myself feel important like you clearly are. The guy has an unhealthy obsession that he needs to let go of ASAP if he wants any semblance of balance in his life. Your feeding into his delusion helps nobody.
I have been for a while now, but it feels like the time to do something more... decisive? I'm just worried about my flaws causing them problems and hurting them. In short, I don't want to do what my ex did to me. You are a good person also, Anon. Thank you.
in love with my sexy best friend told her how i feel, makes her feel like shit & uncomfortable due to circumstances we've had sex before, i know she is attracted to me she broke up w/ emotionally abusive bf last week stayed by her through a lot of painful shit got tickets to a rave for her bday a few weeks ago coming up next friday tells me i should find some girl to hook up with when we get there fucking cold sweat. have taken a female friend to a rave with the idea we might hook up before and watching her make out with other guys ruined the whole night for me, and i didn't like her NEARLY as much as i like this girl i don't want to date her right now, she needs time to sort her shit out i get it but i want her to see me as a man she left about an hour ago said she was "tired" but i know its cuz she thought i was hitting on her idk what else to say, help me out guys
>aquire depression at the age if 12 >become introverted through school >center of popularity scale=no real friends >always wanted a woman to love >pray for her to come day after day <sad.jpg <listened exclusivly to radiohead <wanted to kill self constantly >gun in mouth at 17 >planned on ending it very soon >prom
>>702159076 I'm in high school and take some engineering classes. When it comes to secondary education (collage) i got no clue where to go. Even now i feel more and more inferior but I am passionate about what I do, keeping me going. Good luck man, and hey, at least you are coming up with an answer at all.
I'm not lying, or replying, for my fucking benefit. It's friendly reassurance for a guy who's going through a tough time. You're implying a lot of negative shit about this dude's life that you can't possibly know. You're assuming he has no balance in his life but how do you know? He just loves his dog and his dog makes him happy. That's all there is to it; no 'mental disorder' in there.
>just bought a $150 professional grade knife set >got the package in the mail during the morning >so fucking excited, kept all the wrapping on it to show to my boyfriend when he gets home >kept it nice and clean all day long >he comes home >i get excited and show it to him >he grabs the butcher knife, rips off the plastic sheath, and rips off 3 rivets from the carrying case >tfw you only had one nice thing in this entire apartment that he hadn't fucked up yet >he comes home and fucks it up in less than 5 minutes
His fucking brother ruined my pots too. Who the fuck tries to cut a piece of meat while ITS STILL ON THE STOVE, IN A TEFLON PAN!? The feels come in when I was constantly ignored by both of them the entire time he lived with us. His brother also killed my 4 year old plecostamus too, because he ignored me when I told him how to properly clean a fucking aquarium. It was a foot long freak of nature, the only thing I had to comfort me through my last horrific breakup that made me homeless.
>>702162981 Female romantic company isn't all there is to life. Plus, if you're 17 then life's just beginning for you. When you leave high-school all the "popularity" shit becomes meaningless and you'll find real friends. Finish school, go out, socialise, make friends, maybe even move to a new town. Live life.
>>702163431 >won $20K in disability backpay when I couldnt go back to work >my boyfriend quits his job to be a writer >i foot rent and all the bills for 9 months while he plays video games and refuses to write a goddamn thing >im struggling to keep the last $2K afloat because I paid off that apartment, rented a car, paid for POD storage, and moved our entire household from Florida to Colorado with 0 financial help from him >when we get here, he gets a job shoveling fertilizer out of desperation >his brother asks him "so you're just shoveling shit all day long?" >while his brother is fucking homeless living out of his car >my boyfriend wakes up the next day and quits his job because of what that faggot said
I've got so many fucking stories, and I shitpost them here because I can't tell him any of this. He feels horrendous about all of it, but he let his entire family and friends walk all over me when I moved from TX to FL to be with him. No friends, no family, and when I get there he just sits back and lets everyone treat me like total shit for 3 years, without standing up for me the entire fucking time.
>at prom >soc awk >dont dance >manage to tell crush she looks nice >tells me the same >talk >goodtime >sit alone during last song >leave >cry night away >loser >think of girl >see girl at track >girl and I flirt occasionally >butterflies 24/7 >god has answered my prayer >ask her out
>>702160470 Ask her out After your first date, if it goes well, tell her what you just told us that you're afraid your mental state might be an issue and that you want to take it slow If she's as chill as you seem to believe she'll take it in board and give you get thoughts on it If not you can both agree to go on as you had before, once date won't change anything, especially if you're already hanging out a bit
Disclaimer: I mean date as in something low key, a simple dinner together in a nice restaurant, nothing over the top or romanticised
Beat advice I can give you anon, honesty us nearly always the best way about these things
>>702163922 I also paid over $1200 getting our new apartment set up too. Paid at least $800 when we first got here, for AirBnBs. There is nothing worse than being broke all your life, then suddenly getting a windfall like that, having so many ideas of how to get a new car, go back to school, plan for your future and all of that...
just to watch it slowly drain away because he refuses to work anymore. I couldn't say anything because when I first moved out there he supported me while I waited to get approved. I didn't stand up for myself, and now all of that money is gone. I'll never see that much in my account ever again, and now I resent him for it. He completely shattered the image of who I thought he was, and now I feel like I'm taking care of a fucking toddler who doesn't even shower on a regular basis.
>>702164482 Guilt. When I first moved out there, I couldn't work and I had no income to help out. He had a job, but it wasn't enough to support the both of us since the cost of living in FL is fucking ridiculous. I just figured this was paying him back for everything he had to sacrifice to make sure I got down there. He maxed his credit cards out, but we never had the money to pay them back so technically I ruined what little credit score he had. My family keeps telling me the two scenarios are incomparable, but I have no way of knowing for sure.
>>702164237 I was in a very similar situation at the start of last year anon, I'm sorry mate but it didn't end up with us in eachothers arms...
The best advice I can give you given the information you've given me is to do what you've both said, give her time and try find a hot girl at this rave, she'll grow out of getting into relationships with shitty guys in a few years or so, in the meantime you should try find someone that makes you relatively happy, it'll help get your mind off her and you never know, your girl might get jealous
My ex girl and I broke up a few days ago. We've been together for over a year and it was the longest relationship I've ever had. I'm moving away to go to uni, and she's staying in our hometown, trying to figure things out and save some money and whatnot. It was a mutual break up but it's still difficult as hell. Should I have pushed her to try the long distance? Did I make the rights decision? Everyone I know told me that I did and that long distance is hell but I miss her so fucking much
>>702164826 Leave him as fast as you can. Aside from whether you owe him or not, you're not helping him by taking care of him. Quite the opposite, as long as you'll two be together nothing will change. You'll be miserable, he'll be miserable. Stories like these always only end happily if the person taking care mans up and leaves.
>>702163761 I honestly don't know. I suppose there have to be people who are so justified to actually get anything done. Most people meet who are 'strong' in their opinions are often really pragmatic whereas more 'flexible' people tend to be dreamers/air-heads like myself. Balance, I guess.
>>702165529 I can't. He's the love of my life and I'm fucking retarded I guess. Its too long a story and you don't care but he already has changed a lot since we started dating. I guess I just miss the person I thought he was, and ultimately I guess that's my mistake. He is who he is, not who I thought or wanted him to be.
>>702165189 Try your hardest not to wank for a week, don't look at porn etc. When you can't stand it anymore just watch vanilla porn, I promise you you'll pop in seconds Keep trying to nofap, beat personal records and see how long you can go without a wank, your Johnson will thank you for it
People really underestimate the damage porn can do to your sexual health
>>702165282 Take it from me, long distance is very hard and in my case it didn't work. As it was mutual, this is a perfectly reasonable reaction. Go to Uni, have fun, get educated and come back in a few years' time. If you're both single, give it a go; if you meet someone at Uni then so be it. Just sit on things a while, and have fun at fresher's.
That's the beautiful tragedy of anonymous imageboards, anon. We can't know what will happen after a thread, but we can know we've done something to at least try and help. Honestly, thank you anon and godspeed.
>>702165899 I can only repeat: You're not helping him by staying with him. If you leave him, he'll probably be better off too. Not in the short term, but in the long term since he'll be forced to take care of himself again. So it should be the right choice precisely BECAUSE you love him. People who love each other do what helps each other.
>>702165282 Not saying abutting personalbit you probably would have cheated on her in the first week, freshers weeks are fucking crazy
Even if you didn't you would have had the chance to and depending on the hotness of the girl you'd end up resenting your gf for getting in the way, even though you're miles apart, long distance and starting college just do not mix
Just found out my 3 years girlfriend cheated on me. I've prettended not to care during the day because I don't wanna ruin my mom's birthday, but hell it's getting strainning... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPeCL0I9LEQ
>>702166479 But if people who love each other do what helps one another, wouldn't staying and teaching him how to do this shit himself help him more than abandoning him right after I moved him away from his friends and family in a completely different state?
It just blows my mind, how much I have to take care of. I had to pay off a brand new mattress too during that time period. It was $90 every two weeks, and I just found out last night that he thought it was $80/mo. That's how little attention he was paying to anything thats even remotely adult in nature. But I guess any advice that comes in will fall on deaf ears since I guess I'm just not ready to leave yet. I'm sorry for wasting your time.
>>702166815 It's just that I don't wanna cry nor show off how shitty I feel at the momment, since she could take that in advantage and try to play with me like fucking always, I'm really sensible when it comes to this kind of stuff and I can't help but tell me over and over again that I'm the one to blame, I need help
>>702166941 Nothing wrong with staying in touch, if you want to hook up with her again in the future I'd just avoid talking to her about the girls your meeting in college, other than that there shouldn't be any problems
>>702167064 In principle you're right. But especially statements like a few posts ago, where he doesn't stand up for you, he outright ignores you/your advice at times, he screws up the one job he finally had which you both dependet on just because his brother was shittalking... These are huge red flags that any kind of teaching coming from you will completely fall on deaf ears. Or to correct myself, it already IS falling on deaf ears. If he can't learn from you, he'll need to learn it himself. And he won't if you take care of him.
>>702167322 >get a job Ive been fired from about ten now for alcoholism >change your surroundings I'm actually really close to that I might get evicted >change your crowd I have none because no one wants a sad sack of shit like me to rain on their parade >change your habits Why should I quit alcohol, not like being sober is any fucking better I've been depressed since I was twelve and am following in the example my father left me and hoping I die with each passing gulp of cheap vodka.
>>702166941 It entirely depends on whether you think you can do that. Aside from having friends being a good thing either way, female friends you're close with (and you'll always be close with an ex in a way if you stay friends) usually can give great dating advice as long as you take everything with a grain of salt.
>>702168232 riight... the foreplay of some incest porn is just remarkably well thought, and the amateurish nature makes it feel more realistic. BDSM is just a carte blanche... ethically. I've seen stuff from woman getting her tits electrocuted to wierd machines that give me inspiration as an engineer student... Its more of a see and expeirence thing..
>>702167831 But that just means that I wasted $20K for absolutely nothing, in the end. There are red flags, sure. But I was one gigantic red flag when we both met. It was the darkest time in my life and I have 0 doubts that he's the only reason I'm still alive today. I would've killed myself if I hadn't met him. I'm just running out of excuses for his behavior. I just have to suck it up for a little while longer. These mistakes affect both of us, eventually they have to sink in right? some day? I just miss the man I thought he was so much. I wanted to marry him during our first year, but with all the shit we've been through, most of it I haven't even mentioned yet, I don't even want to have kids anymore. With anybody. I just never thought in a million years that he would sit back and watch that kind of shit happen to me without doing anything about it. His 19 year old brother stayed with us for 3 fucking months, walking all over me right in front of him sometimes, and he never said a fucking word. And I couldn't, because who am I to wreck his relationship with him just because of my stupid fucking anger issues? I'm not catch either. I gained a lot of weight, I smoke constantly trying to forget the life I fucked up this badly, and we don't even have sex anymore. I have an eating disorder now because I thought he wasn't attracted to me anymore. I'm fat, separated from a toxic family, alone in a new state, and I can't even look at him without feeling this seething hatred in the back of my mind for all the shit Ive had to deal with.
And I still can't bring myself to leave him. If I break up with him now, all that suffering and working to fix what little we had left just goes down the drain. Taking all the good hes done for me with it. I don't want to kill myself everyday now, and he did that. Its such bullshit, being with someone you makes you this happy yet somehow manages to make you this fucking miserable. I'm stuck. And crying now. Tf did I come in here for?
>>702168149 >have a job >have friends >have a gym membership Somehow, these magically do not fix every problem you encounter in life. Which you'd know, if you ever actually encountered a fucking problem. Enjoy your sheltered life, you 12 year old autist. Eventually mommy won't pay your rent for you anymore, and you'll see what the real world is like.
>>702169100 I live across the river from Portland, OR. I'm still a student living with his parents but I have a good job paying $20+ an hour and a really nice car (2012 Mercedes). I'm clueless as to how to go about this and Tinder has failed me
So I used to date this chick, my high school sweetheart. We were together for 12 years. She fucked me so hard and fucked about everybody in town but I kept taking her back. Eventually I leave and she goes off and marries the dude she was fucking.
Last I saw her she's about 4 months pregnant.
So I'm driving to a job site at 9am on a Tuesday and my phone starts blowing up with texts.
"I'm so sorry, I wasn't well, I realize what I put you through and I still love you" blah blah blah.
Mind you it's been 2 years since then. She's married and pregnant. What the fuck would possess a person to go out of their way and send something like that. It ruined my entire fucking day.
>>702169630 I've been saving a lot of money, the Benz is already paid off by myself and can definitely live alone but I've decided to save by living with my parents. Should I get my own place? I'm into cars (like a lot), computers, and human health (I'm a Murse). I'm 6'1 and go to the gym every day. I still look like I'm 18 though and don't have too much muscle mass.
>>702161821 lol that's the thing with women, anon. men need them way more than they need men. your ex has probably fucked 2 guys a month since you split (and if she hasn't, it's because she refused to when she easily could have) and any number of them were probably partner material. when you're in a relationship for a while, you shift your personality and life to being with that person, and comfortably not a bachelor anymore. i reckon men, doing whatever they can and saying and changing whatever dumb shit they will to get into a woman's pants, will pick up those post-breakup pieces for a woman. doesn't really exist the other way around man. you shouldve known what you were getting yourself into m8. at least your ex seems happy. good luck with the setup though, ive done that for a few miserable unhappy friends myself who held out for that "better" "ideal" woman until they realized they had nothing, had nothing for too long, and had to bite the bullet
>>702157762 We both want eachother more than anything but alas I graduated and became an adult while she is still finishing highschool and her parents will not let us see eachother or even just text She was my rock, she was the person I talked to about everything Now I just feel alone and cold and sad all the time I just want to talk to her so bad /b/
>>702159076 I know the feeling man, i just got my AS results back and they were a fucking disgrace and i have to catch up a fuck ton next year, it feels fucking horrible and i feel like a failure and a disappointment even before uni. Good luck /b/ro, you'll make it, and whenever times get tough or you feel you cant make it, take sometime to yourself and think shit through and relax, it'll work out in the end.
Lets see i live with a woman that I'm not sure I love while the woman I do love is seeing other dudes and continues to lie to me and use me for money. I get sex out of it but I miss her. We were together for 8 years and we took a break because she wanted to fight all the time. Not to mention our 7 year old daughter. I don't know what to do. I was thinking about just saying fuck it and trying to move back in but she moved in a cock blocking friend. Also the woman I live with now is great and I truly appreciate her but after its all said and done I'm not so much attracted to her. I'm working a job that is killing me and I'm broke as fuck. Wtf
>>702162790 what were the circumstances? this sucks man. seems like you'll have to wait it out, hopefully she'll outgrow that life and realize how much you genuinely care about her, i mean since you've already told her how you felt and you guys still hang.
>>702171113 Cure your oneitis, man. Obviously something in the relationship doesn't work, so take a break, hang out with some friends, do some fun shit, and take your mind off it. I had a real shitty relationship with this girl for like 3 years, and it's taken me over a year after our final breakup to get over her. Fill your desire for companionship with other people, and the old feelings will simmer down.
>>702159653 Anon don't do this. I'm 28 and I made the decision to drop out of highschool. Listen to me.Life without a highschool diploma sucks way more than anything you're going through in highschool right now. I have regretted it every day of my life and you will too. What you should do to snap out of this is think about how much life will suck without the highschool diploma.
Just picture this. One day you'll really need to get a job somewhere. You need to afford a place for yourself so you can live on your own. You go out and you try to get a job so you can stay alive. You go to one place and they say "Sorry you need at least a highschool diploma" You check a bunch of other places online and irl and find out you need a diploma minimum to work there, so you can't work there. So many jobs you want won't be available to you because you won't have that diploma and that is going to majorly suck.
Listen you can do it. You can make it through highschool. There is no good reason to throw away the last 11+ years you have put into this and not finish. You're so close and I know you can do it.
If you're feeling really bad for no good reason try to see a doctor about this so they can figure out whats going on. I'm sorry you don't feel good. I'm sorry your parents are being mean to you. Please for the love of god, DONT DROP OUT.
If anybody else is worried about me I have good news. I am going to get my GED in a few weeks so i'm finally preparing to go to college and all that.
I felt terrible then came here and my God you people make me feel better about myself.
>>702169220 Yeah you wasted $20K so that's a great reason to waste the rest of your life. Just dump him, learn from it and move on.
Or spend 20K on me, let me fuck you in the ass and whore you out to my friends for like $10 a time. Up to you.
>>702169616 It's because you're not a nice guy, you're a creep. You're that weird guy who hangs around being all creepy with women being nice to them and trying to buy them. Fuck a hooker, get it out of your system then stop being a creep and treat women as equals instead of trying to put them on pedestals.
>>702169672 No she didn't, you ruined your day. You let her mind games succeed, you spent the day dwelling on it all and you still are so that's on you.
What possessed her? She isn't a special little princess anymore, she's stuck at home all day every day with a screaming child then hubby comes home from work and doesn't wait on her hand and foot. So she needs some attention and thinks to herself, "Who's dumb enough to text me and tell me I'm still hot?" and then she remembers that guy she cheated on a billion times but kept taking her back like a pathetic loser. Like the other anon said, grow some balls and tell her to fuck off. Or fuck the shit out of her and don't let it mean anything, just let it be your revenge by doing nasty degrading shit to her like shitting in her eyes.
>>702170093 A. You're a twat for taking back that cunt. B. Screaming into the night? What are you 14?
Man up buttercup and tell them to fuck off.
Jesus and I thought Reddit was full of crybaby fags.
>>702161578 sorry bout your pops. he's just on that whole "tough love" mentality, i guess...just go up to him one day hug the shit out of him whether he wants it or not and say i love you dad. i bet you his bitch ass will start crying lmao best of luck. happy birthday, dude
>>702157762 I can't find any good midget port man. Breaks my heart. I mean if they are hot it's barely porn. If they do dirty dirty stuff they are kinda homly or fat. I wanna see hot midget women eat cum and take it in the ass.
>>702172477 im naturally a pessimist but thats one of the more toxic relationships ive read of. two people desperate for each other but the guy has outrageous dipshit tendencies. has he shown anything really positive during all this time? something he did that made you really happy, or that's shown he'll really change (any intention of it), or at least a really identifiable problem you can work to get out of the way? (like those family and peers of his that are only good for walking over him? / make him grow some balls?) because, and i know you dont want to hear nor even consider it, but give 10 or 20 years you'll probably be stuck with an alcoholic shell of a guy that was once your reason for being and still having to pick up his pieces the whole way through. at that point it'd just be rote, a routine, devoid of meaning at that. god forbid things get slightly better for you two, you do something like have children, and then he relapses into being shitty again, and now you have even more to work day and night on. it'll be a fucking living hell and "love of your life" being felt for a small period of time (in stark comparison) just won't cut it anymore.
i mean, you're obviously not happy or getting much out of this situation.
>>702170565 Despite me being a practical advice person (and dick to others) I'm gonna be Mr Super Fucking Cool with you.
You can't move on? That's fine, there's no rule about how long it takes cause everyone is different but you need to rejoin the human race at some point. Things must have been really bad for your fiance to commit suicide but they wouldn't want you to suffer this way, you owe it to them and yourself to keep living not just existing. It doesn't have to be today or tomorrow but make a small start.
If you're talking about moving on relationship wise, well that'll happen naturally when the time is right. One day someone will come along that makes you feel alive again and makes that misery retreat. They won't replace your fiance but they'll help you get past what happened.
Think of yourself like a child - when you encourage them then they learn better, if you shout at them or pressure them then they crumble. Be kind to yourself and encouraging rather than beating yourself up.
>>702171113 You again? You posted the same thing twice? Double loser. Get a pair of balls in addition to what I said last time here >>702172502 or what this dude said >>702171751 My nigga. This dude knows the score, go out and find someone else to bang like a door in hurricane.
>>702171901 If you're miserable all the time you talk about miserable shit and people don't want to be around that. Feel like shit but fake being positive around people, never talk about your shit, never talk about bad stuff and then people will be happier to be around you. This isn't Whinny the Pooh, no one likes sad donkeys.
>>702171982 Yeah? Then you're dead. Dead as fuck. No more fucking, no more good times, no more seeing a movie and thinking "man that blew my mind" or hearing a new song and feeling it right in your chest, just dead. If your life is fucked then you got nothing to lose, get out there and throw caution to the wind and do all the risky crazy shit you can.
>>702172673 Yup, it's the difference between those of us who have fucked women and those of you who wank into crusty socks while crying.
>>702172899 Good chap, you get a gold star. Delete the number, block her, shoot her if you have to.
>>702173513 You're never coming home you dumb ass fucking robot shitcunt.
>>702173861 They might but your family and friends won't. They'll want to dig you up or uncremate you to kick your ass and kill you again. I have no issue with people killing themselves because I know it's a last resort but think about the fucking misery you will bring to your parents for outliving their child. Hell, think about how this person made you feel and then remember that you're inflicting that on a bunch of people too.
>>702173964 Go to bed, get some sleep. Get up tomorrow, eat well and go swing that massive dick like a fucking baseball bat.
>>702174198 People will care even if you're a whiny bitch on the internet. No matter how much of a loser you are there's someone out there masturbating over you...they need locking up for being fucking mental but hey, not everyone has good taste.
>>702174215 So what the fuck are you doing about it whiny mcwhinerson? You want to get ahead, shit hot. You're going to get ahead by hoping it'll drop in your lap while crying on the internet. Ain't gonna happen. If you want it, want it like you want air and go fucking conquer it cause it ain't gonna come to you.
>>702175293 >wank into crusty socks while crying. a sock mah nigga? must be some europoor thing. you're right about the crying though. 5/10 that's not a passing grade, mister. off to bed now before mummy catches you on teh chanz again. also, tell that bitch next time tits or gtfo. ain't tryna have some dumb bitch talk about her feelings. i wanna see her fat tits. alright night sweetie!
>>702172502 I'm not trying to buy them, you cunt. I AM treating them as equals. And I'm 99% sure I'm not a creep. Why would I be? Because I have weird music taste? Because I'm outspoken about my political views?
>>702174033 I dont know what "happy" feels like anymore. But that part of me died about a year before I met him. It sounds dramatic, but I don't trust it when it happens. The other shoe always drops, and getting my hopes just sets me up to be let down later on. He does tons of things that make me happy, I wouldn't still be here if he didn't. I stay with him because hes the light of my life. No one gets me like he does/has/will in the future. We clicked immediately, and I will never find that again in my lifetime. Sounds dramatic as well, but no one will be as perfect a match for me personality wise as he is. And we laugh all the time. Day to day is where it all comes from, the happiness I have. But these mile marker moments just feel like the only times where you can get a glimpse of who a person really is and every time they crop up, he disappoints me. I just can't figure out if I really AM happy, or if I just feel happy sometimes. And I can't tell if he causes that happy feeling, or if he causes the hatred that the happy feeling is a respite from. Maybe someone like me should be taking care of someone else, yet again. Maybe that's the only thing that DOES make me happy. Moving away from my mom (the toxic one) really fucked me up in the head. It was a co dependent relationship that I had to get out of, but my whole life she raised me to be someone I'm not. And now that I'm not around her, having that fake person reinforced, I have to struggle to find out who I actually am and learn to accept that person 100% instead of hearing her fucking voice in the back of my head telling me that everything I like is stupid and that shes the only one I have in life. But what if shes right? What if she really IS the only person I have other than him? What life do I have to look forward to if I leave? I feel happy here sometimes, but I wanted to kill myself before. I'd be going back to that environment, sacrificing what seems to be an OK gig. Not fantastic, just OK.
>>702175326 10/10 good job. That's step one, now go out there and rip the world a new one.
>>702175576 Would you like a tampon for your vagina? Texts? If she didn't reply to the first one you don't send another. Who the fuck are you to tell her what she needs in her life? One thing for sure - she doesn't need you bossing her round like she should be making massa's shoes all shiny. Mind your own business and sort your own shit out, let Alyssa get naked and start sucking off big black cocks for weed and crack cause she needs to make her own mistakes in life.
>>702176068 You're one of those Dindu things that shouts about black lives mattering then sets life to their own neighbourhood to show "da man" aren't ya? You stay frosty in case a cop makes you Harambe #2 sugartits.
>>702176076 Why aren't you helping? Why's it go to be someone else? You are someone else. Go fucking help him even if it's doing one of those JustGiveMeMoney fundraiser things that you kids love so much.
>>702176171 What the fuck has politics got to do with you being a creepy prick? Weird music taste and being outspoken about politics just makes you a hipster. Imagine some chick hanging round you all the fucking time being all "I could love you anon. I'd be nice to you anon. I wouldn't be like those other bitchy girls anon. Shall I take you out on a date anon? You look lovely today anon, you're so pretty anon."
It's desperate, creepy and you'd want to give their face a shoeing.
When a girl is all "Oh that guy is such a bastard" you don't go "I'd treat you so much better" because she doesn't want you or she'd have fucked your red raw by now. When she says that you should be Mr Indifferent. Better yet, stop listening to her whiny ass.
The difference between you and the guys she's fucking is that they don't give two tiny shiny shits about her and that's what's making her wet.
No one wants to drive a fucking Ford, everyone wants a Ferrari because they. can't. have. one.
>>702177475 You've got a big problem. You need to get outside, start saying "hi" to people and trying to interact. After a few days, give a "how's it going?" and maybe someone will reply. Step at a time but it's like a snowball, you've got to start rolling the small snowball along till it gathers momentum. Where to do this? Wherever there are people you're age and people that you have something in common with. Don't do it with the crack dealers unless you want to buy crack or join a gang.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one wanting to keep the relationship together. She has guys flirt with her and she doesn't even bother to say anything. I ask her about it and she always gives me the same old bs ''It doesn't matter, because I only want you'' I don't know what to do anymore. I want to marry this girl, It just seems like she doesn't need or want me as much as I want and need her,
>>702174033 >grow some balls That really is exactly the problem, too. Everything in our lives thats happened thus far has been the result of him bitching out, for lack of a better phrase. If he had just stood up for me, just once, out of all of those times, maybe I wouldn't feel this way.
>>702179292 >same old bs You're just too insecure to believe her. If she never makes a big deal out of it, it's because theres nothing there to have a big deal made out of. It just means that it doesn't even register on her radar as something to be brought up as a serious issue to discuss. Especially if she follows it up with "egh, i dont fucking care. i only want you."
>>702179292 She doesn't respect you if she flirts with guys and knos you're not ok with that, dump the self.centered bitch before she leaves you for a wealthier/taller/alpha guy. That's the kind of bitch to do it. And she'll def cheat on you several times first.
>>702157762 I crashed my car 2 fucking years ago. Turns out one of the girls who was in the car is suing me for an injury claim. I don't have enough money to fight it and her family is rich so I might lose everything to this cunt. She was barely injured, just a small fracture on her cheekbone that healed up in a week.
>>702179649 But another problem is, I feel like if something were to ever happen (like a guy touch her in that type of way, you know what I mean..) she wouldn't tell me. She probably thinks I would flip out on her or something.
>>702179841 Who paid for the medical bills? If your/her insurance did, she doesn't have much ground to work with. If you get a lawer paid by the state it will be a shit one so you'll need to work along with him really hard.
>>702180147 If shes acting like this, she would tell you. She doesn't tell you this shit now because this shit doesn't matter. Guys flirt with women all the time, we don't even register it after a certain point. Its just white noise, so most times we don't even realize its actually happening. Annnd sometimes we're naive enough to think that they're just being nice or "oh hes just a friend". It's not because we're attracted to the guy, its just because we dont give a fuck if he was flirting or not. We didn't give it that much thought to begin with.
>>702180266 As far as i know they are still fighting with my insurance company, but I am supposed to get served by her lawyers this week. From then It's like 30 days or something till court and if my insurance and her lawyers don't settle, I assume they will come back and sue me personally and win.
>>702180366 >didnt even bother to refute it either Either its baseless assumptions and you have proof that you are over the age of 21, OR you actually ARE under the age of 21 and currently still in high school treating women like "bitches" and "whores" because they won't fuck you due to this behavior.
>>702180527 I feel like im just bitching. (probably am kek) But what do I do when she pushes me away when shes mad or upset. I've had multiple people tell me that communication is key in a relationship. And if every time somebody gets upset or we get in a fight and she pushes me away, one of us is just going to explode one day and its not going to be good or healthy
>>702181099 Pushing people away is a defense mechanism when you're feeling vulnerable and you don't trust that person not to hurt you in that moment. People aren't lying, communication really is the most important part of any relationship. This story isn't uncommon in the slightest. But the only way to stop her from pushing you away like that is to prove to her that when shes hurting like that, that you will stop doing whatever it is you're doing and reassure her that you're just trying to find a way to make this work. And obviously, you have to invite her to help you do that. That's assuming you want this to work long term. If you're planning on dumping her in a few years, then why even bother know what I mean?
I came to this thread to bitch too. Sometimes letting it out helps more than you realized it would.
Been depressed for 3 years now, started off with being bullied and getting acne, slowly I took care of the bullies best I could (started standing up to all of them, beat up one guy) Over time I gradually started despising everything around me, my parents' fake marriage, women that wear fur, social situations, fucking NORMIES and their horrible music taste, their horrible hobbies, everything, fuck you all. Even when I don't think about how much I hate everything around me, I just can't enjoy anything, I can't enjoy vidya, I can't enjoy watching any show/movie whatever, I just don't feel anything. I wake up, go to school and don't talk to anybody because fuck you normies and your horrible jokes and interests, I go to the gym and I lift (I give it my all for some reason) I come home, shower, eat, come to PC and spend 11pm - 5am on it, the cycle just continues. From time to time my sleep gets horribly fucked up, I get suicidal (I usually just want to die but in those periods I completely just lose the will to live), miss shit tons of school, appetite no longer as big as before etc. Keep in mind the tests at the end of the school before high school (don't know how you amerifags call it) were rigged, so we didn't count the points we would've gotten from those, and I ended up getting into a shit tier school since my grades weren't good but I nailed the tests. On my last year of high school now, I always think about how I would like to finish it, find a job, live alone, but what the fuck do I do then? I don't want kids, I don't want a wife, I even want to get a vasectomy, what do I even do with my life? just be a consumer all my life and do absolutely nothing? What's even the point of living for me if I don't want to socialize, I don't want kids, I don't have any career aspirations.. Don't tell me to go to a shrink, I did that and cried my balls out and told her some details (not all since I was too busy crying) got some medication that made me sleepy as hell..
>>702157762 I just wish Im going to die before I disappoint people around me.
I was with the girl of my dreams, (not going to fall into details but, a long time ago I was with her sister witch was a huge mistake) therefore no one knew we were "together" for last month or so. idk maybe this "hidden from the whole world" made it taste so good or what was the secret ingredient that made this relationship so sweet but now its over. She fucking hates me, and i hate myself even more
On her fathers funeral she asked me to leave >Please don't make me explain it to you anon" >I stood up and walked right away, got myself a 2 liter vodka mixed with beer and some other shit that bartander gave me later. >Remembered my dead sister (it's been 7 years but I think of her every fucking night) >... Just could not find a reason not to step into abyss >Got a pack of painkillers >thought that would be enough
Woke up next morning like nothing feeling worse and worse everyday
Seriously want to kill myself. Only problem is my intense dislike and fear of pain. When people ask me what I imagine doing after high school, I seriously can only think of dying under a bridge or hanging from a rope on the ceiling. One friend knows about it, I guess to stop me if he ever suspects I'll do it, but I constantly have a front other than me being anti social and shit during choir, which he's in. Should I do it? Should I finally apologize to my ex first, then do it? Or should I just keep going in this world of self-loathing and just pretend it isn't like that like always?
>>702181647 >Don't tell me to go to a shrink, I did that and cried my balls out and told her some details (not all since I was too busy crying) got some medication that made me sleepy as hell.. Two mistakes there: 1: Female shrink for male patient Psycology has been tailored for female behaviour, as a result only male doctors actually know how to deal with the problems of male patients. It's the reason why normal male kids being normal male kids are being drowned in ritalin and other shit like that. 2: accept medication without a diagnosis for at least depression Or were you diagnosed?
>>702181870 Anon it's been 3 years of this, I'm 18 right now and I should officially be out of hormone territory, when I ride the bus I often wish I'd see everyone in there die, I'd die myself along with them just to get rid of some disgusting worthless human beings
>>702182054 Jeez. Thats sounds really rough. But to be completely honest.. you have to wonder if the happiness is worth the misery. Does he make you that happy enough to stay? Does the sadness over weigh the good times? Sometimes its not even necessarily ''letting it go down the drain'' its just moving forward. Life throws a lot of curve balls at you..and maybe moving and realizing that hes not being what you need him to be is a sign. Maybe its time to let go. And im sorry about these dumb alpha wannabes who were treating you bad . They'll do anything for attention. I dont know too much. Im still just some emotional horny teenager who whines all day lol. Thats just the best advice I could give you
I have about $220 in life savings and I'm going to spend over $100 of that on drugs tomorrow, deals already set and I'm not stopping. I'm probably not going to kill myself but money issues have me so stressed and no one will fucking hire me. Besides that, I've been having more of a realization that my greatest life dreams are impossible to accomplish and stepping them down a little makes them meaningless. I often have visions of death, not just my own but everyone around me. I've watched my friends die so much that I'm starting to be surprised when they post on social media and I remember they're alive. Maybe I need a shrink but they're too expensive, so I self-medicate with some crazy shit that doesn't even increase happiness, just makes you forget the world is real for a few hours
>>702182364 Ready for some straight talk? Ok. >Seriously want to kill myself. Nope, you'd allready be dead.
>what I imagine doing after high school You won't be certain until half-way into college
Look, you're still a fucking kid and don't know how to deal with your hormones or the real world, See a shrink (preferably) or soldier through it. 8/10 people your age feel exactly the way you do, and only 1 in a couple thousand actually commits suicide, the rest go on to have normal lives.
I know it's hard, but you just have to stop being a whiny little bitch, get help and solve your problems.
>>702183125 That's a diagnosis, but go see a male doctor and see what he thinks, if he also says you have depression then take the fucking pills, they're not for the rest of your life, and can actually help you get well.
I started dating a girl i fucking loved. I started growing attached. Not too attached, but attached enough. At the time i was dealing with my mind creating problems with me (there was a man following me 24/7 talking shit about me, kinda like Christian Slater in Mr. Robot except x1000 worse) Anyway, she was the reason i wasn't anywhere near close to offing myself. That girl was the only hope i had in the world. She was the light at the end of the tunnel, the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I got so attached, it fucking hurts to type out because of it. So then she dumps me. No reason why. I try to play it cool and act like its all good but in reality my life's been a mess ever since. I dont know /b/. The fuck do i do?
>>702183419 The pills I was taking were deadening me, I was feeling happy because I could finally sleep well, but that's all I did, I slept all the time. After I stopped taking them I started being busy and actually doing shit again, but I just wasn't happy.
I'm bad at making friends. I lost thew few good friends I actually had because I focused on work and my girlfriend, and moved to a new city. I'm horrible at making new friends - I don't care enough. I don't relate to a majority of people. But I long for those times when I had a regular group I could rely upon.
My girlfriend is empty inside - she's been depressed for months, and she isn't fun, she gets sad and ruins things, she has no passion for anything, and has a dead end job. She has no sex drive and prudish. We're probably wrong for each other, but I moved in with her anyway.
I love my coworker. I think she's actually perfect for me. We flirt at work all the time. Sure, she has a very outgoing personality, but I can really tell there's something different between us. She's the opposite of my gf - passionate, energetic, positive, she has hobbies and interests, she's hot and we talk about sexual stuff freely. She's my equal at work and is really going places. I've tested the waters with her and she's not interested. It makes me want to kill myself.
No one has texted me in months. Only my gf who I live with. No one cares about me besides her and I hate and resent her. She cries a lot for no reason, her meds are messing with her. She told me a story tonight and I questioned how she knew something to be true and she shut down, stone faced, and went to bed.
>>702183213 >happiness is worth the misery that's the million dollar question. sometimes I feel like it is, and sometimes I feel like it isnt. so I stay until I figure out which ones worth more to my development as a human being. hes changing me more than I'm changing him, and i function better than i did 4 years ago when we met. maybe im the one who needs to be what he needs me to be. maybe me not being that person is why he cant change into the person i need him to be. i dont know, its just talking in circles until i finally get the balls to tell him any of this up front. even then, telling him would do more harm than good. these things already happened, he can't go back in time and change any of it. i have to learn how to let go, and as a woman thats one of the hardest fucking things to do.
>>702183419 I actually don't really have a way of doing it. I'm too much of an idiot to figure it out myself, and everything I found online requres things that I don't have. Plus the fear of pain, I really am terrified of the thought of being in pain. Also, I'm not going to college.
Turns out a girl Ive been really interested in thinks I'm crazy and she's been fucking my best friend. I just need something to take my mind off of her, something to help me get over her. The only trouble with that is she's fascinating. She's smart, she loves classical music. I don't know why but I just like hearing her talk about herself. Doesn't hurt that she's pretty attractive too. If I weren't alexithymic I'd say I'm in love, but I know better than to say that.
>>702183587 >she was the reason i wasn't anywhere near close to offing myself. Suicidal thoughts are a problem, but that there is an even bigger one, figure that shit out m80 you can't have your life depending on someone else. She probably dumped you because of how needy this attitud makes you, and the depressing person you must be to have around.
>>702183891 I'm going to tell you what did the trick for me: get a job, 8 hours a day, 5 days a week. Figure your shit out, get some life goals and struggle to achieve them. Doing charity work helped a lot too.
>>702184027 >I'm bad at making friends. Same here, can't help you.
Your girlfriend is NOT your responsability, if she's a crazy bitch unwilling to make herself better she WILL make you worse. Dump her and (depending on the rules of your job) try to get with your coworker, she sounds like she's perfect for you
>>702184155 Then get a professional to do it. >I'm not going to college. Doesn't matter, it's more about the stage in life than college that helps you really.
>>702184186 "Love makes time pass, time makes love pass" You need time to get over people, it's just the way it is, when you're ready you'll find another girl and this one won't seem like anything special.
>>702184423 I'm 26, he's 27. And kind of. Theres a difference between speaking and fighting, but we've fought about all of it plenty of times. Especially right after those things happened. And during. And before. I havent brought up the money part because it feels dirty somehow. He helped me, I help him. That's the logic I used at the time, I can't change my tack now that the moneys all gone even though I woke up pissed at him every fucking day that he refused to work and drank until I forgot about it a few hours later. We need to speak about it, that's the adult thing to do. But I have anger issues and I burn bridges with my "speaking". a person can only take so much, and i dont have the right to turn him into my personal punching bag every time he fucks up, running through a laundry list of all the times hes fucked me over just to hurt him. theres no productivity in that, theres nothing that gets helped by that behavior. i dont want to bring it up until i know that im capable of getting over it 100%. besides he already feels like shit about the money thing. i can tell, and i can tell that he can tell i can tell, and i know that he knows i feel this way but as evident, i bottle things up instead of dealing with them responsibly.
>>702185004 I'm a newfag but not completely new, ive been here a little over a year. The thread reached page 5 and I thought everyone had left. not sure if that's how the bump thing works, sorry if I'm wrong.
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