I badly a Feels thread.
Just share your sad summer stories.
>fall in love with girl online
>it was the happiest I've ever been
>the distance starts to make things impossible
>she gets a BF
>we drift apart
>I decide that I'm going to visit her for the first time to actually say goodbye
>I travel 1000 miles to see her
>I'm an awkward sperg and I just let her walk out the door
this was all today
it still hurts, what the fuck is wrong with me
>>fall in love with girl online
>>I decide that I'm going to visit her for the first time to actually say goodbye
so you didn't even fuck her?!
I've been trying to get her to come back, but the reason she has to leave in the first place is because her parents came back into town early, and they took her phone (I realize as I say this how immature it sounds)
How old are you?
>I honestly just want to walk over there
>Obviously I want to go there but what is the point, it's more likely I get arrested than see her again
>Meet girl via tinder
>start hanging out with her
>introduce me to her friends
>everyone is homo besides me
>hang out more often
>start camping and tripping balls with lsd
>happiest time of my life
>everything is cool
>2 months after
>she doesn't kiss me now
>she start acting weird
>I take my distance
>yesterday she asked me to hang out and drink
>we start talking, she tells she's with someone who lives in fucking australia
>we live in a shithole of south america
>tell me that we can't kiss now, and maybe in some time we can be together
>i tell her that is ok and that i'll meet people
>she starts acting weird again, start to kiss me and tell me that she can't fight with it
>I meet a girl in a party, a 3/10
>girl 1 is watching
Now she hates me, dude, why I have to be this idiot?
>Gained confidence to hit on people randomly
>Meet this amazing girl in May
>Hit it off on a date
>Star wars tattoo, vidya, stoner
>She's fucking perfect and totally into me
>Beta the fuck up and end the night with a couple kisses
> Try for another date too soon, come off needy as fuck
>Trying to fix it only made it worse
We don't talk anymore, I tried asking her out today in person but she's busy on my day off, getting a cat or some shit. I know it's been a while since that date but I can't forget about it, or especially her. I've been through a lot of tough shit in the last couple years and I thought she would be what would balance it all out, karma or some shit. I just wish I could stop thinking about her, I know there's plenty of other great girls in my city but I'm just stuck on her
i got friendzoned and played with emotionally this summer by the first girl i ever asked out. she even intimated that she just wants to 'feel wanted' cuz her first boyfriend broke her heart. in the very same text she said she's 'never been single since' having broken up with that dude. she's so nice to me but is tearing my heart out. i am a cuck and beta and want to die
> Have good GF. she blows me about whenever I want (shit is so cash)
>trying for certification to get raise at work or even move on to better job
>flunk first certification test in spring
>study my ass off to pass the next one in july.
>sorry honey, i cant do shit until I get through these tests. have to study lots.
>boss gives me more fucking work than I can handle, expects me to pass exams too
>I miss my gf and we live in the same house because I'm too busy studying or working.
>pass exam in july. Need to prep for the next one in sept.
>have had no fun this summer and probably won't this fall.
i am this anon >>701569906
>I just wish I could stop thinking about her, I know there's plenty of other great girls but I'm just stuck on her
>We don't talk anymore
>I've been through a lot of tough shit in the last couple years and I thought she would be what would balance it all out
we humans are retarded. this is a shit feeling bruh.
Hey /b/. I had no idea there were this many sad people at this time. Im so sorry for this pain we share. But could i please ask, do any of you have the picture for thr helium mask suicide. I need to know what i must buy . i just want my parents to have a nice open casket. I hope my younger brothers understand thats all thats going to haunt me. Ill miss them so much
>Ever think that she just never liked you?
shit nigga you smart. i never woulda thought
>Why waste your time on that.
im too lonely and beta to not think about it all the time
>drunk 9 days out of the week
kek. sleep well brother ill be with you soon probz
anons post your drink of choice for this sunday
I'm sure you've thought long and hard about it, but something out there's gotta change your mind.
Most of the helium tanks you find have some oxygen in them to make them non-lethal, so be wary of that. Also be wary that killing yourself is a bad idea and you should find something more productive to do.
Thats the thing though. The only thing i love is music but i feel like absolute shit when i focus entirely on it. Everyone keeps saying im wasting my time and i need a full time job and college and everything but i dont want that .ive been in love and it wasnt for me. I just want to play music .ive worked before and its soul crushing. I dont want to live like that man..
>fall in love with girl who's getting married
>she loves me back
>we cuddle and talk all night, a night before her wedding
>she's too scared to back out of the wedding
>go to her wedding drunk as fuck and lose her as a friend
>feel like shit for a month
>find out last night that she left the guy
>call her, ask if she wants to talk
>she tells me to text her
>I text her, no reply
>husband messages me and tells me she was just using me as an excuse to leave him and apologised for her manipulating me like that
I've been sitting around all day waiting for her to respond to my texts. Or a call. Or anything at all.
Im just trying to forget her. Everyday i try but sometimes i slips through my grasp and i can't help but weep at the places she told me she loved me. I try so hard but everything i touch she said she'd never go a day without. .
May also appeal to /brit/pol/
>In love with girl for ~10 years
>She's always known and we were quite good friends
>Last few years, at uni etc, only occasional contact but still pretty good
>Started posting FB statuses about why UK should leave tyranny of EU
>She responded saying she disagreed but didn't offer any arguments
>Leave vote wins. I shitpost
>Life goes back to normal, haven't heard from her in a while
>Looked her up as directed by fap roulette
>She's deleted me as a friend
Dude I still think about my first girlfriend 6 years after it ended, youll never fully get over it but it gets better, seeing new women helps, but some people just seem to fall in love for life while others dont. One of lifes little kicks in the balls.
>only thing i love is music but i feel like absolute shit when i focus entirely on it
i think i kinda know what you mean. i definitely love music. most beautiful thing in the world. but in the end it still somehow manages to disappoint. at least you can play. im pretty shit.
nigga i resolved (again) to quit jerkin off today. i workout. im gonna graduate on time from college despite having taken a year off. im still fucked though and im gonna anhero within the next nine years.
There's other ways to live, of course you're going to need to work to live. I don't suppose it'd be possible to find a job that your life didn't revolve around? Something you can go home and not have to worry about until you go back. Go find some more things to love, try something new. Go for a walk and think for a while, there's so many things in life that would make working a 9-5 job doable for you. Find yourself something you can enjoy spending all of your time doing, and spend the time you're not doing it thinking about it. If all hope is completely lost, there's got to be something you'd rather be doing for a day/week/month instead of being dead. Go do that.
It doesnt help much for me. Ive gotten new girls.ive had over a dozen these past 4 months but i still feel so empty knowing none of them would care for me in the same way she did. None of them are like her
ah shit dude. nigga what did you shitpost? im not going to question those ten years of love but unfriending you on FB for reasons of political opinion is pretty fucked. especially since fuck transnational centralized governments
pic related. nice drink btw
Help? I caught feels.
My friend, who I consider a sister.
Who also happens to be a friend of mines Baby Mother.
Her and I have been talking a lot lately nothing sexual. Just conversation, seeing how she or her daughter are doing, hanging out late nights, drinks, blaze up.
>Things friends do.
Old ex of mines texts me, going on about, how she misses my company. Wants me to meet up with her and spend a weekend. We broke up because I was moving to another state and being in a long distance relationship was something we both didn't want. Other than this, their was no other reason to break up.
I should mention we broke up 4 years ago. You can see how receiving a text from her boggled me.
>Be day before yesterday, I'm with subject A hanging out, phone on counter.
>buzz buzz; Subject B texts me; You never gave me an answer Anon.
>become engulfed in my own thoughts, weighing in the goods and the bads that could come from this.
>Subject A sees this; Anon what's on your mind?
>Begin to tell subject A about subject B. Ask for her opinion, what do?
>Tells me; sure why not, the past is the past, but it's not like the past I had was bad, go for it. You never know.
>Still not completely convinced feels tingling.
>Yesterday subject B goes off on FB
Ranting about friends, blind love, soulmates, memes about love and loneliness.
>Text her; what's all that about.
>No text back as of yet.
Mfw I think she's crushing on me.
Mfw I wouldn't think twice about it.
Mfw my feels are being triggered.
nigga he prolly didnt use those words.
tell me what you think of and what you fee about her now? what do i have in store when/if i ever get a gf and after we break up and i want to anhero
I should say, she has had several boyfriends and I was almost certainly permanently friendzoned. It's probably good that our ties have been broken. But, as you say, it's pretty fucked. I'm ashamed to have fallen for such a typical intolerant libtard.
Sorry for the multiple replies. I'm actually quite messed up about this.
>In love with my best friend
>Have hour long conversations with her regularly
>Often go dancing together
>She told me she wasn't interested in me a while back
>Everytime she says something that could somehow interpreted as if she changed her mind I begin to hope again
>Until I realize that it's stupid again
>And then I wait for the cycle to begin anew
love aint supposed to be rational or make sense i guess. but the feels. the feels. it's part of bein a fuckin human i guess. this next beer gulp is for you britfag (youre a britfag right)?
I'm disappointed. And I'm thinking about the previous occasions when she has made a fuss about differing political opinions before. Hers have always been half-baked so maybe I could have converted her.
Laws being made without the consent (and often knowledge) of the British people. That's how I define tyranny. Tbh it's a lot worse for other countries but we realised it and were not part of the euro so we could escape.
It's designed to be anti-democratic and a lot of the time it just mocks members when they try to retake control. Deposed governments. Overturned elections/referendums. They don't even pretend.
can you also give me examples of governments deposed by the EU and overturned elections too? Those are serious accusations so if you're throwing them around surely you know of cases in which that happened in the past, can you name some?
>talking to girl for 2 years now
>saw her last week
>we met in a public place so it wouldn't look so awkward
We have Skyped each other and shit in the past
>we walk around chatting like we usually would
>go shopping and shit with her
>ff to about 3 days ago
>no contact whatsoever
>'Hey, so that was fun right?'
>literally the last message I sent
>I'm too much of a puss to say anything to her
>still waiting for her to respond
So you left your kid and respective mother behind just because you decided to go live in another state? So you live far away from ur kid and spend ur time drinking and blazing up with some chick?
>ever since i was a kid people acted like I am the class clown
>never thought much of it really, just always acting like nothing matters, never thinking of important matters in depth
>it made me look like the cool guy in school, and it encouraged me to keep acting like this
>even had some false rumors about me smoking weed with a girl at school
>used to be very popular with girls since I have a baby face and because I hang out with girls all the time
>then my parents broke up, dad moved, I changed school 3-4times
>mother jumped from guy to guy, father never got any other girlfriend
>never thought much of it back then, but my mind was starting to get fucked up
>I now realize that I never actually cared about anything that is important in my life
>I now realize that my father probably felt guilty, he saw the difference it did to me, and I didn't
>I just recently realized about all this
>I use to keep acting like nothing mattered to me, as if I had no emotions, telling myself I'm having a punk ideology, which is normal
>actually still had a pretty decent kid life, even tough it was senseless
>I went out with almost all the girls in primary school, even tough I wasn't trying to figure out what was happening
>In my mind girlfriends were trophies, to show the other guys I was desirable.
>I heard later the girls were just doing a competition to go out with the most guys
>I used to think everything was so easy, very good at school without studying, getting girls, there's really no reason to care about anything
>spent almost all of my nights playing hockey outside aimlessly, empty-minded
>still the school clown but with bad acne now (not much red dots, more like black dots and oily skin)
This will be the first time I've posted on /b/ in years, and I imagine it will go ignored but I feel there's something I desperately need to tell you guys.
I'm fresh out of college trying to get started as an inventor. I know that sounds ridiculous, and maybe it is, but that's not the point of this story. To make money to fund my ideas, I've picked up as many odd jobs as I can, one of which is working to help this old guy around his house and with errands in general.
His name is Bill. Bill is in his late 80s, he has no children and never got married. He pushed his family away, and lives alone. At age 87, after having about 3 near death experiences in the same year, he got kicked out of his house and had to move to a new apartment, so I'm helping him pack.
Bill has a story for literally every fucking thing in his house, and it's heartbreaking. One picture in particular stands out, it's just a small 4" by 4" picture taken in what I'd ballpark as the 60s of some 30 year old woman. When I was wrapping this picture up he told me,
"Ah she was nice. You know I always thought maybe me and her would get married, but she found someone else. He smacked her around a lot too... we still keep in touch sometimes."
The brutality of Bill's life doesn't end here. He has a sister who just turned 90, he wanted to visit her but couldn't make the drive himself. He asked her to come visit him, but she's pretty much an invalid so that's not possible. He told me today that he wrote her a letter saying, "We will probably never see each other again." Because he knows that one of them will definitely die before the next time they can organize a trip.
From 2009-2014, around 1900 motions were made and the vast majority passed. These were on all manner of issues, though primarily manufacturing and trade. 576 of those were rejected by British MEPs but 485 of these passed anyway.
Greece is the prime example. They have been rendered powerless by the EU. Also see Italy, where an unelected EU bureaucrat was installed as prime minister. The Eurosceptic coalition winners of the 2015 Portuguese election were not allowed to form a government. Countless referendums blocking EU laws have been ignored or rerun until they got the right result.
This really belongs in /pol/ where others will give you better answers, but I know that I have always despised and feared the EU.
She's not a single mother?
Loser? Because we drink and smoke?
I wouldn't express the fact that I consider her a sister if I was talking about a random chick from a hole in a wall, we've known each other since high school. We're adults in our early 30s.
We're established adults at that.
Your faggot is showing.
Besides me, Bill mostly gets helped around by some of his friends, Harvey and Reed, who just met him a few years ago... and are really more taking pity on him than they are his friends. I spoke with Harvey today, basically telling him that it's literally a matter of time until Bill gets hurt in his new apartment where he lives alone and can't get to the phone. Harvey knows, and he got Bill to see a social worker to apply for help, but when the social worker said there was nothing they could do Harvey got the impression Bill was underselling how bad his situation is.
I asked Harvey if maybe Bill could move in with his sister, who has round the clock care. Harvey said that Bill's family is useless, and that even after his 3 close in the last year Bill's niece and nephew (his sisters kids) haven't even visited him once even though they only live 45 minutes away. Whenever Harvey calls them it's always "oh we're so worried about Uncle Bill, but can't take the time to visit him" and he lives literally less than an hour away and they both have cars.
The story is still in progress today, but I can tell you how it will end.
>referred to as baby momma
>not a single mother
Pick only one. And yes, you're losers for drinking and using drugs when there are children to be looked after. Not only losers, you're criminally negligent.
Because of his 3 close calls (these were each falls which left him disabled, he can no longer bend his legs or use his right arm and his left arm barely works) Bill is basically immobile. It takes him 5 minutes to get into a car, causes him real pain, and he can't drive. I have to stand at the bottom of stairs when he walks down them in case he falls, and after this September I move and won't be around to help him anymore.
One day Bill is going to fall down in his apartment while he is alone. He's going to be unable to move to get to a phone. Now at this point one of two things will happen. Either Bill will yell for help and someone will hear, or he will yell for a few hours then lose his voice.
If the former happens he will go to the hospital and probably die there, maybe spend a few months in a "Home" first, best case scenario go back to his apartment after a brief recovery period that leaves him more disabled and you can just rewind to the beginning of this post. If the latter happens he will yell until he loses his voice, then he will spend two or three days on the floor shitting and pissing himself until he dies of dehydration or starvation.
And there's nothing anyone can do. He pushed all his family away and the kindness of strangers only goes so far. I don't get emotional over gore videos or sad stories, I don't cry over lost relationships, but today just realizing the scope of how shitty Bill's situation is just really fucking got to me. Call your family /b/, if they've done something to you forgive them, because believe me the brutality of dying alone is much worse than however bad you thought it was.
Hey guys, on the autism spectrum how much retarded am I that I declined and offer from a 7/10 blonde girl that literally invited me to go out with her to eat pizza with her friends and I said
>nah, I'm good I ate pizza yesterday, maybe next time
Well, even though its not the saddest story or what so ever in here i kinda need to get it off my chest. Aprox 1 year ago my (first) girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me. I really loved her, wanted to spent more years with her, and without a sign beforehand she called me and ended the relationship. Never seen her since. It broke my heart and i was down for the last 8 months or so. Well i had to move because university and such, met an awesome local girl , little bit gothic but still nice music taste, looks stunning and a very very lovely personality. Well i we get along well meet , go swimming, and just generally do stuff, she probably became my best and only real friend. Well i actually really fallen in love with her. 2 or 3 days ago confessed to her , but she doesnt fell the same for me. She was rather cool about it and i dont doubt that we will still be friends, but i am heartbroken again, because it wasnt just a "little crush" i really wanted, WANTED to be with her. And now i am sitting here, with same shit feels as 1 year ago, and although i am only 21 i have the feeling i will die alone. I just feel alone.
The case of Portugal had nothing to do with the EU, they were in power and they fucked up majorly, like BIG time, the people were desilusioned, no one was happy, everything was getting even worst, something that portuguese people thought impossible, bc things were already pretty bad, so the president dissolved parliament and called for early elections, in portugal the president has that power, Greece is in debt, tough, they didn't invest the funds that the EU lent them at the beginning of this whole shabang very well, and now it's time to pay up. Did Germany play dirty? Yes absolutely but that's Germany not the EU. About the 1900 motions blablabla, these motions are voted in the EU parliament and every country in the EU has representatives there as u well know, if some of them were passed even though the UK voted against, that means that, well, the majority voted in favour, and the majority won, isn't that what a democracy is all about? It's rich as shit that bring that up when 49% of ppl in the UK voted stay but... you know... majority won.
oh jesus buddy
tell me more about how autistic you are. sometimes i think im autistic. i never know what to do socially and i miss on cues and i cant modulate my voice and intonation right ever. ive got shifty eyes too and ive always been alone and never felt understood.
i still have feelings for my ex, as crazy as that sounds. we broke up February because we couldnt really see each other, but were best friends before and after the ordeal. we still talk daily and sent nudes after we broke up and are trying to make plans to hang out (probably non-sexual, idk), but im thinking of telling her i still like her. would this be dumb/ fuck up our friendship, /b/?
lel, I've done that kind of shit before. Just remember that people ask you to hang out because they want to be around you; even if you don't want to do whatever someone else is doing, do it with them because you enjoy their company.
My friends baby mother. Re-re-read. Faggot.
We're not smoking with her kid present? Your assumptions are full blown retarded. If it wasn't mentioned, it wouldn't change the fact that she's a friend who I believe is now crushing on me. Simple
>in a "Home" first, best case scenario go back to his apartment after a brief recovery period that leaves him more disabled and you can just rewind to the beginning of this post. If the latter happens he will yell until he loses his voice, then he will spend two or three days on the floor shitting and pis
everyone dies alone
my last gf broke up with me out of nowhere. we hadn't dated for very long, but it tore me up inside. it's been about 3.5 years and I've been single ever since. best of luck /b/rother, I hope you fare better than me.
Then don't forgive them, hold onto your anger if you want. But you better get a fucking wife/husband and kids because you are going to want someone to be there with you towards the end. Having nothing but memories tied to pictures and gifts as you slowly rot towards the end is the most horrifying thing I've ever encountered.
I used to believe that. This experience has shown me that there is a huge difference between being the only one dying and dying knowing in your heart that you are actually alone.
Dude, it's going to be fine.
I used to hate the way I look and I behave, the way I handle conversations and that I didn't have any friends. I thought nobody will ever like me and I will spend my whole life alone in a one bedroom apartment with a smol doggo and a bunch of newspapers.
But now I am in Uni, getting decent grades. Have a beautiful girlfriend. And can communicate normally with people without being completely awkward.
My girlfriend had a crush on me for 6(six) months, last two of which she was sending me serious signals. She had to tell me that she likes me in order for me to find out that she has affection towards me.
The thing is that I too liked her and her company, we would make each other laugh and spend the whole art class just talking to each other dumb shit.
thx, fam. That's what low self-esteem does to you.
probably whats gonna happen to you, you degenerate
I never made any remark about her being YOUR baby momma, just that you don't refer to married mothers that way. Maybe you should learn to fucking read. Perhaps lay off the fucking drugs and liquor for a while and clear your head. And stop ending statements with a question mark, that's reserved for preteen girls. Lastly please don't pretend you degenerates don't get ripped off your asses as soon as little suzy hits the sheets.
I've never found someone that made me feel the way of that girl. now she is dead and I couldn't say goodbye because of my fucking parents.
now all i have is my big silent and empty house and my cars and motorcycles.
hopefully i die on a motorcycle so i don't have to live out Bill's scenario
If you let the anger your parents have made you feel keep you from living a fulfilling life you'll be letting them take another thing from you. Letting go of anger is harder, but if you don't want to let them win that's what you'll have to do.
No one will stop you from holding on to the anger, no one's going to force it out of you. Only you can actually make the decision to do it.
I talk to people like leafy talks to the camera in his webcam videos, I always talk to silently, I always turn a serious situation into sarcasm and try to derail it because I can't handle serious situations. Pretty cool stuff.
And in another sense you'd even be letting them take another thing from her. Because your future will either end in a quick death or a life like Bill's if you push everyone away, and if she cared about you and saw that you were doing that in her memory I seriously think she'd hate it.
I can't wait. Best of luck in your inventing endeavors.
if i may suggest something, there's a thing called mechanical turk, it's by amazon. I've heard of people using it to supplement their income, maybe it'll help you out a little.
>bad at meeting new ppl
>be bullied since 9 yo (i m introverted because of this i think)
>doesnt care about it now, but i have psyhic wounds because of it
>i dont show my emotions at all
>have big pack of friends
>they started arguing
>now i have 2 pack of friends who hate themselfs
>go outside with friends x
>hear bad things about friends y
>go outside with friends y
>hear bad things about friends x
>they think that i dont care about them but
Im scared that when i will start discuss with them i will lose all of them and i will be alone
Im scared that they will tell me to choose one of their pack, i like all my friends, dont want to lose them
>MFW i will live in basement now
i feel the breakup coming :(
oops wrong one but they were both from the same day
Couldn't you just change it to image.jpg?
I really really want to die. I get given a shit hand for most my life and this past 6 months have been turning up to be the best months of my life. I finally get a group of friends who aren't assholes and don't hate me behind my back. As of recently I started getting down terribly again. I lose the ability to open up to most of my friends and my best friend who is like a brother to me isn't the easiest to get a hold of (His name is John). I get a more and more greater feeling of loneliness by the day.The only thing keeping me going was my plan for the future where I would be happy. Recent events take place and that dream comes crumbling down and I feel there is no way of getting there. I finally get what I've been waiting for years now and its about to be ripped away from me. I tell John that I want to kill myself and he tells me that I'm one of the only reasons he is putting effort into anything and why he is going strong. About to kill myself and I get an urge to call John and he talks me out of it. Ever since I stay in skype calls with people purely for the fact that if I catch myself alone I'll start getting the same thoughts in my head again. Not as nearly as bad as some other stories on here but everything has gotten to the lowest point right now for me and I can't see a way out.
>numb hands feet and face
>go to doc
>get all clear from stroke, thyroid cancer
>extra tests needed for heart disease, diabates, liver or pancreas failure
not even been told yeah you're ok
its you're fucked but we don't know whats fucking you yet
I dont know, its always been like that. In primary school people used to say i smoked weed for some reason.
I think i'm very emotional and that im hidind all of my emotions in fear that people will think i'm unmanly, gay.
I'm also worried people will start saying i'm gay because i'm bisexual. I have sexual interest in men but can't love men, and i don't want the girl i love to know about it.
i think my mind is pretty messed up... wat do
I'm sorry, anon. I hope it's just something insignificant.
However, have you been checked for brain cancer? my girlfriend died of brain cancer, and before we knew she had it those were some of her symptoms. they didn't check for brain cancer until it was too late to do anything. Maybe you're early enough along.
>Move out of parents house three years ago
>Move in with friend, his gf, and a random
>Friend is a shitty bf, always encouraging gf to get drunk all the time
>They eventually split up and friend moves out
>Hang with the girl all the time now
>We always go along, but hanging out just us was perfect
>Her drinking problem was getting out of control
>Try to help her as best I can
>She finally gets it under control to just regular drinking on weekends and stuff
>We start getting intimate and everything is perfect.
>She's had a rough life, but nothing could come between us
>Supported each other through everything for a year
>Her drinking problem started up again
>Has to go live in a sober home over 8 hours away
>I know things will never be the same
>Saw her for the first time in half a year this weekend
>Still the same girl, but at the same time very much different
>The spark we had is gone
>Do a bunch of fun stuff to try and get that feeling back
>Tells me she's now dating someone in her sober program
>Goes back to sober house and all that either of us could muster was a rushed goodbye hug at the end of it
Feels bad /b/ros. I would have done anything for that girl. I know she's much better off because she would have ended up dead in 5 years at the rate she was drinking, but I can't help but feel robbed of the perfect woman. It's a struggle to even fap now because it doesn't mean anything and I don't have any desire to meet other girls. I got some closure this weekend, and I'm sure I'll pull out of it, but it doesn't make it hurt any less.
I'm just so fucking lonely. I genuinely think that, if I'd been as lonely as I am now say more than two decades ago, I would have killed myself. It just so happens I was born in a period with the internet, on which I use any medium just to talk to people. It doesn't compare to human contact, but it keeps me going
Idk what to say but have this smile face
Honestly get fit /b/ro, starting to work on something and watching it progress helps you keep going my man, or just play an MMORPG, a gaming community is a nice alternative to IRL friends
>life is.. okay I guess
>kinda lonely, but I have good friends and good vidya, so what does it matter
>get into and out of a relationship in a matter of two months
>controlling as fuck, but at least left me realising a couple of the issues I had
>fast forward some months
>meet a new circle of friends
>one is, for lack of a better word, beautiful
>her smile lights up a fucking room
>fall for her
>moon over her to my friend online
>"Grow a dick, grow some balls, and ask her the fuck out."
>I dither for a week before getting slightly drunk and messaging her
>she responds, says yes
>we go on a date, meet up mutual friends after, all get quite drunk - they find out we've been on a date when she kisses me outside the bar
>we crash at one friend's house, and me and her basically cuddle all night in bed
>fast forward a bunch of months
>im basically in love with her
>she's amazing in most every single way
>for some reason she likes me back despite me being basically worthless with zero self-esteem and value, and wildly fluctuating levels of depression
I... dont even know what im bitching about.
I've got this amazing girlfriend, I've got great friends, but I'm depressed.
I need to get on some fucking pills, I need to talk to someone about this stuff, I need to get less depressed so I can write and work and play again so I have something in my life that I love other than her.
Becuase currently, Im just terrified that she's going to realise what a fuckup I am and drop me.
>beginning of spring 2010 dad starts feeling really sick
>condition getting worse and worse
>one day walk into room and he's hardly breathing
>15 at time no license
> Don't give a fuck grab his keys and drive him fast as fuck to hospital almost kill everyone on the way but we only lived 5 minutes away so it wasn't terrible
>congestive heart failure
>breathe massive sigh or relief
>July same year
>his hearts gonna fail again if he doesn't go to some random ass hospital 4 hours away for surgery
>my brother is actually fucking home now so he drives
>get's open heart surgery
>having really bad recover
>has to go back in twice
>good for real this time
>1 month later sick again
>not heart related
>gets chemo for a year
>somehow is fucking alive
>better for about 8 months
> worst two years of my life
>have to go to Ohio to get treatment
>me totally depressed can't do anything in school have hardly any friends anymore
>my dad still somehow has a smile on his face everyday
>have a bad first day of school in Ohio
>get mad at my dad for his passive shit and yell at him
>dies in his sleep that night
>still regret fucking everything to this day
>met girl on tinder in City A
>immediate connection, I fell hard. She's what I imagined my dream girl would be
>spend a lot of time with her, this feels train has no brakes
>knew I would be moving to City B in a few months
>she starts planning cute date ideas during the whole summer
>move to City B, only for 6 months guaranteed
>she becomes more and more distant
>finally get the "I can't do this distance thing" text
>heart broken, but I can understand
>had training back in City A for week and a half here recently. It's been 3 weeks at this point
>tell her I'd be back and wanted to get dinner with her
>get a bunch of flaky texts back if any text at all
>finally accept defeat and remove any forms of communication so I can maybe get past her
I need to accept that fact that the summer was only a one time thing when I move back to City A. But the constant hurt just kinda sucks.
you're worth the love /b/ro. she obviously knows that as well. just remember that everything comes to an end in one way or another an trying to prevent the inevitable will only make it come faster.
I left my cute gf of 3 years almost because of no reason. I just didn't want to be with her anymore, I don't know why. This was four months ago; fast forward to end of July, I came back to her and apologised and she told me she's been pretty much depressed the whole time but also told me she did make up with two guys, one of them I hate really so fucking much. Until the first of August, the day before we were supposed to have a trip together, I discover that she actually fucked that guy I hate. I felt betrayed, felt like shit even because I knew that wasn't cheating and I broke up with her. That wasn't revenge, I always felt she had a crush on him; she did it because she wanted. Even tho she keeps telling me she fucked up, she regrets it, she did it because she felt alone, I still know she did it because she liked him, and that feels terrible.
She does text me every five or four days trying to make casual talk eventually bringing me there, but the rage I have inside is still there. I wanted to be with her, but I cannot accept it.
On anothe note, single life is pretty good, but I have to get used to being alone so much and also, sleeping alone
I'm not asking for suggestions, just wanted to get it off my chest, feel free to rate my autism.
Bro, been in a similar situation i moved country for a girl and when we brokeup it went down in flames hard. Thing is she put herself back in the shitty situation she was in the start by leaving me, day before i took the bus to JFK for my flight she asked me to come meet her not having a car or anything i walked 11 miles to her house and met her in some woods nearby it was good closure we hugged and kissed for the last time, fucked on my jacket because leaves and stuff. I swaggered off after everything was said and done feeling like the combined 22mile walk 1000's of dollars on moving and getting set up months of preparation, pneumonia and getting left for another man were all worth it to have that one magical moment with her.
It was complicated i can't even begin to describe all the elements that went into this relationship but i trusted she really did love me in her own twisted way, she was just scared.
Lol i am Australian, dating a 17 year old where do you live?
non ho amici
non ho mai avuto una ragazza
It's the exact opposite. Women are into damaged men they think they can fix. The second you start being happy and well adjusted she will drop you like a hot potato. It's part of the woman code. If you get better she'll break you again so you'll be primed for the next woman.
Dude shes just tired of your clingy texting her every moment of the day ass. I know when the chemicals in our brain and our hormones go crazy because of "love" but people need space for themselves i learned this the hard way after being a relationship with someone when 24/7 of our time was devoted to each other we even worked together amazingly we kept this up for a year isolating ourselves from everyone else but then the honeymoon phase wore off and we were stuck in this habitual loop of feeling like we had to be together all the time and feeling bad whenever we were not it caused some major friction and ultimately made us both feel smothered but i don't think we had adjusted to the idea of a mature relationship and it became obsession a way to rid ourselves of the hury and loneliness we both felt when we weren't together
I just have a huge folder of saved webm's from pron threads sorry, will dump though i have some good HD shit here if i can figure out which is which
Hah, you might not be wrong honestly.
I do need something to get me into gear so I can actually become a good person again.
That's true, much as I might not want to think about it. For now, I'd like to be someone who's worth actually being with for real.
Im slightly scared that she's only with me becuase the options for us where we are arent great.
I used to be pretty together and not broken - its just hte last couple of relationships before this one that fucked me up. So i dont know how true that holds.
a girl friendzoning u isnt emotionally playing with u please tell me you realize that. Idk what's so hard to grasp about being friends with a girl without thoughts of being in a relationship with her.
hey man, real similar story here, cept she fucked more guys and one was an old best friend too, even though i have days when i feel like an cuck and i have emotional pain often, in reality our relationship is great and i honestly wouldnt trade it to even go back in time and undo what we both did because things are the way they are now because of what happened in the past. tl;dr you dont have to accept it but you can still make it work. have a wonderful day anon
Anon let's face it.
No one will ever love you.
Any of you.
All of you.
People will come in your life and will leave as soon as they really know you.
The best you can do is take you like into you own hands.
I'm never invited to hang out with people. Everyone denies my invites when I ask them.
I want to kill myself. I'm going to buy blades tomorrow and cut myself until I come up with a solid suicide plan.
If you are gonna cut, don't actually cut. Get ice cubes and hold them in your hand and squeeze it for as long as you can, it won't leave marks but will hurt like hell. Which is ironic because hell is normally associated with fire and heat
Nah, I'm used to be one of those dipshits who cut, in secret though, I didn't want to attention whore. When I say "used to" I haven't cut since January. So a few extra scars will make zero difference to my 2/10 looks.
Well I don't know how to take my like into my hands but I do take my dick every day. Does that count?
>probably above avrage
>personality makes me "desirable" apparently
>meet girl at one of my favorite bands gigs
>she starts speaking to me
>been doing drugs all day and did drugs while there so no problem with conversing
>i usually don't like people while i'm high but shes diffrent
>start hitting it off and we both ditch our friends
>still kinda beta but we end up kissing
>spend most of gig with her
>gig ends and we part ways but i got her number
>she asks me to keep talking to her
>a month passes and we get pretty close
>decide to meet her as it's cheap and quick to get a train
>we meet and sparks are flying
>have date in camden smoking herb and just having a great time
>ask her out and she says yes
>my bro lives there so he lets us stay round
>get laid were both happy spend rest of night talking and shit before we both go home
>were both really happy but distance sucks
>i don't mind as much becuase she keeps me happy and distracted
>she starts drifting away and i start to freak out
>get a text one day while at mates and smoking
>"i found someone else"
>friend asks "whats wrong anon"
> "it's nothing bruh,it's nothing"
>still try to be a good friend
>know shes deppresed so i still want to be good friend
I broke up with my SO a couple months ago. They cheated, lied, and treated me like garbage, but I still miss them like crazy, even though breaking up with them was the right thing to do. I can't help it. I was miserable with them, but now I'm even more miserable without them.
I fucked someone else yesterday just to try and force myself to move on, because this emptiness that they left sucks. I cried right after I left my hookup's house, didn't let them see. It felt like cheating. Of-fucking-course, "Black" by Pearl Jam was playing on the radio. It just had to be that song.
That, and my life is stagnating. I'm struggling with severe depression and I'm sort of suicidal.
I just want the pain to stop. I don't want to miss them anymore.
I feel like the worst part is she probably heard the gunshot as she was slowly descending in the elevator, unable to confirm her suspicions for some time.
Anon, been pretty much in the same situation you know it had to end but its so hard to deal with, im 1 year along now and she is still in the back of my mind popping up whenever something triggers a memory of her there isn't a day that goes by that i don't think of her once but it gets easier. It gets easier bro, don't force yourself on random hookups to move on just embrace the pain its your brains way of rewireing itself, love really is like withdrawal symptoms eventually its not so painful, hang in there and if you ever need a kind word talk to your anons!, they will keep you company.
This fucking icecream truck song, standing in the woods with her saying our goodbyes her touch on my face and then all i can hear is the sunday icecream truck music playing in the backround as it drive over the suburbs whenever i need to feel, i just play it.
>fall in love with a girl online
>turns out she was going to come to my city
>gets drunk as fuck
>starts hugging me and saying all the shitty nice things
>for some reason i don't want to hug her
>I shittalk her nearly all the time she is in the city because she started to annoy me
>We still manage to make out
>Now I fucking miss her and have to put up with her STUPID ASS MEMES AND LIFE STORIES ONLINE. But as soon as she stops texting me (I never start the dialogue, she always writes first) I start missing her stupid talks.
Feeling sad about it, anon.
You need to balance this shit man, she doesn't always want worry and anxiety to be on her mind sometimes you need to put on a brave face for there sake even though you are hurting, start your next conversation with a really lame and shitty joke and just try to push the bad thoughts aside and have fun with her, enjoy her company like you used too. and when you feel the doubt and anxiety creep up on you and you get upset push it away man.
Most people have the sentiment that your SO, is your rock. and for the most part they are but you are also there's i used to have a saying in my head about a toxic relationship i was in once "We can't both be upset all the time" its like the blind leading the blind.
> : (
Ouch dude, cut her off don't get cucked because a year from now when you look back on this and you guys inevitably stop being friends anyway and you think about all the pain and drama and betrayal that you went through your going to think "i can't believe i wasted my time on this shit" not worth it man.
> If only I could go back in time
> You would understand the pain I feel, as I long for what we used to have.
> Don't underestimate my love for you, we can work these things through
> Respond to my texts and calls, please
> "To infinity and beyond", that was our favorite love saying
> This is my final hope to rekindle our love
> Message me if you wish to save my life
> Your love is all I wish for, I would do anything for you.
> Mother knows about us and gave me her blessing.
> Will we finally be back together, or will I be in the ground.
> "Die" is one of the final words you told me, and that's what I will do if you don't love me anymore.
> Tonight. This is it, I promise that something will happen tonight. Our love, or my death.
Read the first word of every sentence above.
thinking about it, i think i'm always being the clown to cheer people up. In some way i can't stand not cheering sad people. Maybe thats why people hate me, i'm miserable but still i'm acting happier than them.
>have complex emotions but could not express them
>have literary no confidence, I've made friends by mistake.all male.
>every girl I liked sees me an emotion less freak
>been told by numerous people I'm handsome,not short ,6ft1 and not fat but heavy 80kg
Why can't I get a girl guys
I have to leave for work in 5 minutes so i don't expect anything from posting this but here are my summer feels.
>lonely as fuck
>used by women for money, weed, my car
>stop with that bullshit
>ask manager if she wants to smoke some weed with me
>she comes over and i tell her to sit on my lap and smoke and she does
>i go in for the kiss and she kisses my back
>lost my virginity in a car that night
>start dating her
>don't know why she likes me
>drives me crazy
>break down in her arms telling her i'm broken goods and i have a fucked up past
>crying while holding her, she doesn't give a fuck. in a good way.
>make her eggs in the morning
Thats about where i'm at, been a pretty crazy summer.
Shhh, there are no feels here anymore, Just Eliza
>thing with girl last summer
>last summer ends badly
>start hanging out with her this summer
>start hooking up and smoking with her
>after hooking up with her one night she gets bf
im going to start sabotaging her life and making it a living hell. any suggestions?
She didn't date no black guy.
She did not