Mental Illness Thread:
What mental illness do you have /b/? Please be serious
I sexualy identify as Runar.
I'm sexually attracted to traps.
Ptsd, anxiety and depression.
Paranoid schizophrenic at 28. It's not that bad, I just get really lonely if people don't talk to me for a few days, i start thinking something is wrong and I start feeling like my friends are mad at me or don't want to hang out.
>>701149556
oh shit im so sorry
Im pedophile
Only like little girls but fuck
Its a living hell
Went to docs and mental health teams. Turns out I have a coping issue, not an imbalance of the brain. Please research this.
>>701149375
>Mental Illness Thread:
>What mental illness do you have /b/? Please be serious
i try to make babies with people the same gender as me while villianizing lifelong pedastric relationships.
>>701149375
Paranoid schizophrenic which makes me bipolar, depressive and suicidal.
Worst thing of all: I don't even think those illnesses exist even though doctors say I have them
>>701149836
youre just an attention whore, i have schizophreinia and i hear voices and at night i hallucinate for no reason.
im gay
bipolar, plenty of anxiety issues, depression can get pretty bad. have had psychosis a few times when i went off my meds... but i think i've learned from that by now
>>701149375
Its simple. My only illness is life itself.
On other terms. Iam the lost one.
>>701150611
23, bipolar 1. On a few meds, tried to kill myself a few times. Overreact to a lot
>>701150378
It happens often though, like i understand we all have our lives etc.. but if i dont text or call my friends a couple times a week, if we dont hang out etc. i just start feeling like shit, and get paranoid to the point where we get together i'll act pretty fucking stupid/angry/depressed, and they'll be like chill man. we all have work, cant drink on a daily basis, but for me, i just want to feel loved again
i've never heard voices, or delusions etc.. so im not paranoid sczio? i hear alot of young people have it though?
>>701149375
My mind overthinks itself, I think I have some form of sleep anxiety due to this as well. Most nights I cant sleep because when i close my eyes for a couple seconds, images of the most creepy/fucked shit pop into my head. I typically have to pass the fuck out due to exhaustion.
depression, OCD, anxiety,mild tourettes, on the autistic spectrum,not sure how severe. who the hell knows what else, my mother drank like a fish while preggers with me. Despite all of this, ive still lived a deccent life with lots of friends, fun times, some girls, lots of booze ( ironic really) Have since reverted to weed and spend too much time alone. Still have a job with above average pay, lots of benefits, own apartment, deccent car. Dont depend on parents for a thing, and got both apartment and car on my own dollar.
I like traps
Im a registered homosexual.
i never understood how people have mental issues like: anxiety depression ocd etc.
ALL PEOPLE HAVE AT TIMES ANXIETY
ALL PEOPLE ARE SOMETIMES DEPRESSED
ALL PEOPLE HAVE THE NEED TO MAKE THINGS LINEAR AND RIGHT
ALL PEOPLE IMAGINE = hallucination
i guess this guys that take meds are people who OVERDO this stuff or feel them x10 the normal people
idk i just cant understand it
>>701150894
Suicide thoughts/try indicate a major depression, (according to the DSM-5) you should go see your psych.
>>701149796
me too fam
>>701149836
Lol, amateur, get to the point where you don't even give a shit about being alone anymore and you just bubble and stew in your own mental madness without an expression on your face.
Separate your intellect from your brain, and you can even see the schizophrenia is fake and a cause of the physical brain.
>>701154123
>ALL PEOPLE IMAGINE = hallucination
Sweet bait, I really hope you're not this retarded
>>701154123
My anxiety is more like that feeling you get when you almost get in a car crash or trip to fall. That sudden OMG I am gonna die body response that last for a sec. Only it's non stop. Diarrhea upset stomach. Rapid temp changes sweating dizziness heart palpation.
>>701154123
gr8 b8 m8 I r8 8/8
I have borderline personality hard to hang onto good friends
>>701149375
none
>>701149375
I have severe depression and anxiety. I deal with it in a number of ways, but there's nothing funny about it. Not that I don't try to be funny when I'm around other people. It's a coping/defense mechanism, but I get legitimately pissed when people make jokes or ignorant comments about mental illness.
i like video games
I have really bad mom issues. All my relationships end horribly/girls i choose to date are trashy and i expect too much out of them.
>>701149375
PTSD depression anxiety panic self harm very suicidal
>>701154568
Sounds more like panic disorder than generalized anxiety
>>701149375
Depersonalization Disorder. PTSD from domestic violence.
For all of the mental illnesses I could have had, I ended up with the few that make me incredibly self-aware... and sometimes incredibly distant. What a roll of the dice.
>>701154848
Feel free to ask me about anything
>>701149375
Massive depression coupled with a guilt complex. If only killing myself wouldn't negatively effect family/loved ones then I could opt out of existence.
>>701155001
Do you mind going into detail about your depersonilazation disorder
I can only have sex in missionarry position, usually while softly kissing her on the lips.
>>701154993
Idk just don't feel normal. Hate taking Ativan gave me a panic attack last time. It comes and goes. It has been in check for year or so but it's been back last three weeks. Shit sucks
>>701154382
please explain?
>>701154835
>lol i'm so ocd
>man, i've been so bipolar today
>i feel sad today, i'm so depressed
>lol TRIGGERED
Fuck off normie cunts
>>701155175
saucee please
>>701149375
i have a very serious one, is called self Self-diagnosis
>>701155214
And I can handle most of the symptoms but the constant stomach issues and diarrhea and loss of appetite I hate the most
>>701155332
Sorry I dont have any
Depression, possible bi polar or pre-schizophrenia. I'm gonna guilt at least one of my parents to killing them selves for producing an abomination and doing nothing to help it. Dem insurance bux. Feels good man
>>701155175
>>701155452
Fuck off cunt
>>701149375
Real talk though, I've got minor asperger syndrome. Im a bit awkward around strangers, have issues paying attention, and had weird habits growing up(but are now gone) amongst other minor anoya ces. Im considered high functioning because you probably wouldnt know it if you met me irl. 22 now, school was rough, and ive literally zero sexual attraction to anyone
>>701131125
Paranoid Schizophrenia
>>701155175
http://www.xvideos.com/video18879701/holly_michaels
>>701155619
What? why?
>>701149375
A.D.D.
>inb4 its not real
>>701155700
This isn't the place for that. Leave please
>>701155619
Do i smell a feminazi?????????
>>701155715
It's unrelated, go to a different thread please.
>>701154382
jesus christ...
>>701155316
Nice try, but this is /b/. I would never take anything anyone ever said on this site seriously.
>>701155805
Im just posting intresting shit whilst i reply/ wait for replies. If you look ive been contributing to the actual thread topic
>>701154382
holy edgelord
>>701155927
No, I was referring to the bullshit that people say in real life. Completely unrelated to you or this place.
Alcoholism
>>701155700
Gawd she's hot!! Did she retire?
>>701155973
It's completely unrelated and unnecessary, get out please.
>>701154123
Nice bait
>>701156065
Oh, yeah. Sorry I misunderstood. Normies can be very ignorant.
Borderline Personality Disorder.
Shit ruined my life
>>701149375
I was diagnosed at 15 with an anti-social personality type, this used to be termed "psychopath".
I've done some shit that people have blamed on this but I don't think it was that serious.
I don't tell people but on previous occasions my mother has told my employer and it has led to me being fired.
>>701149375
gender dysphoria and chronic depression
>>701156318
How so?
>>701150378
It's a spectrum dumbass, If you really had it you'd know.
Derealization. Bipolar I. Tried killing myself 6 times, also tried chewing my arm off. Right now I just dont give a fuck anymore. Nothing in this fucking world exists. Nothing is real. I sit at home get drunk and sink into my phantasies. In my mind I build my own world. My own life. Living what is worth living. Im scared of everything.
borderline here.
its made my life wonderful. i've covered my body in scars, but luckily they turned out beautiful
I am not diagnosed by a professional, so I do not have any mental illnesses.
However, every day I contemplate killing myself, so maybe something's fucked up.
>>701156288
I despise the "TRIGGERED" meme, so fucking much.
Schizotypal personality disorder AMA
Clinically confirmed
>>701156318
wuts dat liek
>>701149375
I have the dyslexia. I can read just fine, better than fine actually, but I can't tell my left from my right with out pausing.
>>701156423
idk what that is but it sounds yucky and really gay
>>701155175
It's easier said than done.
I left something out intentionally, but if I'm going to tell you how it works, you need the full story. I suffer from/have a form of synesthesia. It places a greater distance between me and the world. From people.
I can't even really explain -that- to them, and so, to start things off on a bright note, I often feel as if I am stuck in a world of my own, unable to break free. A world that feels surreal, almost alien. The mundane, banal drone of everyday life, combined with the ensemble of ambiance from the simple illusion of motion... and I can't even explain it to you, so that you could really, truthfully grok it.
There aren't enough words, or else I simply don't know the secret phrase.
So, there's that. The rest is essentially standard, textbook DPD; I feel as if I am on autopilot; I often don't feel "real"/I genuinely feel as if I am simply along for the ride, in the back of my head. None of it feels like it has any real bearing. I often wake up, and am often unable to -not- lucid dream, so every moment of my time spent getting up from lying down consists of incredible self-doubt, and a lingering notion that I don't understand how I got to that exact point in time.
Or whether I am even real. Or what time is, or that it even matters. I brood until my common sense kicks in; I internalize the sense of owning my actions, believing myself to be the man holding his hands in front of his face, wiggle my fingers a little... remember why I said I was here. Why I want to move, to wake up, to do. To consider, to follow through.
I go along with it. I know there's something up, and that's the greatest kicker.
It's like constantly being an outsider observer to all of your actions, all of your thoughts. I'm a brilliant man for it... but, it's more than a two-way street. It feels like floating in a sensory deprivation tank for every other moment.
It does suck. It hurts people I love. Hearing vision doesn't help.
Major Depressive Disorder. Diagnosed and (over)medicated but i stopped taking them because they completely had no effect after like 5 months of gobbling down five pills daily.
I have dyspraxia, a mild form of autism. Also I'm sexually attracted to traps
got that good good depression, but no anxiety
>>701156923
>>701156713
maybe u r sad here is a funny pic
I tried killing myself by swallowing razor blades, then after the surgery to get them out i tore out my sutures, and vomitted all over my wound, to infect it. I've done other really bad self harming shit.
>>701156318
my gf is bpd, i love her, she is like challenge with her emotions with anger, she's also really nice with fulfiling my fetishes and she's also afraid of me leaving her, what a nice combo :3333
>>701156969
why dont you take some abilify for a couple months and chill out
Borderline personality, severe depression, GAD. Mirtaz, seroqual, lithium, and something else I take everyday but can never remember the name of. I have the option on trying electro therapy. Anybody had this? Results?
>>701156489
The impulsive part of it, makes me do the most retarded shit. Like subconsciously everything I do is to hurt myself. I don't make any right choices, ever. I'm covered in scars and I've gotten diseases and and addicted to drugs and I want to die every day. It might help if I took my medicine but that would mean I'd actually have to get my ass to my psychiatrist appointments.
>>701156713
ok here is another funny one to make sure u are no longer sad
i bet most of the people here are just pretending to have one so they could be cool.
never saw a psychologist once, never trust them they will just drug you until you become numb, at least in my opinion
>>701157259
>my gf is bpd
>i love her
>she is challenge
>anger
>fetishes
>afraid of leaving
sounds about right.
>>701157308
>medicine for bpd
ew. what do they give?
>adderall and xanax bars?
>>701157018
im just glad that, as a mild aspy, the yt channel Gnoggin explained why I at least like fur - suits are fucking weird though
Does homosexuality count?
Affective bipolar disorder
>>701156969
Some people compare depersonalization to being extremely high on cannabis, but without all the "feel good" parts of it.
Is it comparable?
>>701157438
I don't know, I don't have the motivation to keep going to the doctor so he can tell me.
never been diagnosed, but i talk to my deceased grandfather. I know he's not real, but I see him there and can talk to him, he talks back, but not in the way I would expect. like myself is trying to tell me something.
>>701157483
At one point before the dsm4 it was considered a mental illness.
>>701157340
But it's a nice numb. Join. Us.
Join us, brother. Let go of identity, let go of pride, let go of purpose. Let go.
you guys just need to walk it off..
mental illness doesnt exist.
it is all some shit you think you have becuase "doctors" label you off to offer treatment for beeing a fucking human.. you have been brought up to belive you are special eventhough you are just low life shit like the rest of us. get over yourself and grow up
>>701157588
my friend had derealization. this is what its like hanging out with her.
>she runs all around the house turning off lights and turning off electronics and unplugging everything
>i say "what the fuck are you doing?"
>she looks at me with eyes full of excitement
>"I....i'm trying to.... like... just, i dont know i cant put it into words. i dont know the right words"
>she goes back to unplugging everything
>"Look, i just need you to leave for half an hour so i can balance the chi"
>>701157438
Not original anon, but one with bpd. They gave me some type of Lithium for mine.
>>701149375
ADD. Used to be ADHD, but it took too much effort
>>701157846
>lithium
disgusting swill. if you cant sell it on the streets why would i want it
schizoaffective disorder.
help me stop me I cannot control myself
>>701149556
Oh man can't wait for this shit to become a normie meme now
>>701157782
good bait m8
>>701157918
Lithium is all the rage atm. I liked it better when it was Dex.
A form of autism. But I'm cute and young so getting girls isn't hard. I'll see how it develops when I'm around 30 and have to date "women".
>>701157782
perfect example of chronic faggotitis
>>701158298
>"women"
>date
autistic fag
Schizoaffective here
>>701157266
Because I'm exceptionally chill far too often already (I often just gaze into nothing/lie on my back and have no thoughts), and I've already been around the bend regarding pharmaceuticals.
Wonderdrug #72 isn't for everyone. You would be very surprised. That being said... it's not as if I don't know how to live my life with these things already. It's hard... but it does come with it's moments.
Which is a sort of segway to >>701157588. You know when some people go off on tangents, and they say things that sound absolutely absurd or "far out there"? This is often what happens to me. I'll say something "profound"/possible very meaningful, maybe I get too flowery or wordy, or people don't have the patience for the buildup of whatever I have to say... maybe it genuinely does sound like stoner talk, I can concede to that.
It's often what I get in return. Either I'm on drugs, I'm nuts for talking about how remarkable the molecular structure of water is sometimes, or someone is exceptionally enthralled about how far I'm taking the discussion of rainwater that they want me to preach about the philosophical underpinnings of hydrogen (whatever that is). If only I ever actually choose to tell people what's on my mind, instead of predict and parrot what I know they want/need to hear.
When you can't find an anchor to your sense of reality, it's the little things that... well, make it real. The synesthesia also gives me an acting sort of super-memory, so I'm also often a walking trivia machine/expert system at times.
But that's just what it is, I suppose. Being high all the time, without, you know, "being high". I'm all here, for sure. But, in the same moment, I'm really not always feeling "whole".
Case in point, the above.
>>701158374
I simply do not belive in that shit
Never been sad
never had delusions.
>>701149375
anxiety ... gad
>>701156969
I had an extremely bad trip and realized I have this. After spending some time dealing with it, Ive identified previous episodes i had as a young child. How do you cope? I do pretty much the same thing you do, make movements and tell myself I am controlling them. sometimes have to rationalize it out.
>>701149375
> autism
> bipolar i /w rapid cycling and psychotic features
Just changed from latuda to divalproex, waiting for it to start working as I get increasingly impulsive and reckless.
Fucking mad the latuda started giving me anxiety, it was working so well.
>>701157782
Around 2000 people kill themselves a year in Australia alone. You may need to get checked out yourself if you look at the statistics, the extensive research and still believe there's no problem.
Your dad is wrong on this one.
>>701154610
>>701156318
>>701156643
>>701157271
>BPD
My niggas.
It's difficult maintaining relationships and I'm always paranoid thinking people are hanging out with me out of pity and that they'll abandon me without cause. I was an angst little bitch hooked on Vicodin in high school.
>>701149375
I'm most probably a sociopath and you all will now perceive that as ok or else i will fucking destroy your life nigger
>>701158688
Chemical imbalance in brain exist. Mutations and damages that leads to the "illness" also exist.
Get educated, there's difference between edgy self-fulfilling grousing and real disorders that people can't self manage.
>>701158865
dont see a problem, i see a solution to the overpopulating problem.
it is called natural selection
>>701155214
i had the same shit then i started taking zoloft and it all went away. even tho zoloft usually gets associated to depression it works fantastic for panic disorder and generalized anxiety disorder (sounds like you have both like me)
>>701159539
Oh so you're a psychopath, cool we have something in common
Diagnosed with schizo back in second grade. I'm doing great though. Lots of support from people I love if I ever need it.
>>701159161
>maintaining relationships
yeaaahh.... when i try dating people, it ends in a fireball. im super needy 24.7 and test people constantly and act really fucking mean.
its really better for everyone if im nonmonogamous
>>701149375
My dog is the only thing keeping me alive.
>>701159539
Except when the an heros were valuable members of society and their death is a net loss
>>701159706
dont belive in that either. it is just a term for people to label you for having a different opinion
>>701159860
you can always replace, people mass produce like crazy
does anyone think it's possible to "think" your way out of certain mental illnesses?
dunno about the hardcore hallucination ones, but since a bad trip on LSD 2 years ago, my perception of the world shifted to extreme negative, i held really bizarre thoughts and delusions which made my everyday life a living hell, but lately i'm somehow getting used to it and even laugh about it, strangely enough this is helping me to get into a healthier mindset like i used to have
its weird how the brain makes and strengthens your perception of reality depending on what thoughts you choose to feed it
>>701159911
Well if you're okay with 2k people dying because they're sad and you see that as "a solution to the overpopulating problem".
No you clearly full of empathy dude, rock on.
>>701158814
Not to play the pity card, but because my childhood was an interesting one, I internalized a few coping mechanism without really knowing until later. I also had a hell of a lot of silly shit happen to me as a kid as well (more NDEs than I could count/more "potentially dangerous events" than I can count), so it forced me early on to really critically examine my state of being (and lack of sense of being thereof). The 14th time you almost die is kind of a moot time to be alive. But, that's not what you asked for.
Listening to people describe their experiences, their lives, even mundane things like how to ride a bike, or how to write a letter, or how to fix an appliance. To even just listen to someone else talk about what's on their mind for once... it helped/helps me a great deal. It sets a "true" reference point to which I can better identify myself as the agent/the individual who is not solely the internal dialogue in their head, but the whole ensemble. Body, mind, and if it's how you feel, soul.
I guess, try forms of meditation, too. Deep thoughts, and walks through the park, count. Write down what you're thinking, or even record it aloud. Play it back. Read a book, draw something... keep your mind active. Force yourself to inadvertently associate what you see in the mirror, with, well, you. You, you.
>>701159406
>mfw i watched the whole thing
>>701159594
Does it change you or fuck your head up and shit. Don't wanna be zombie.
>>701160053
lsd psychosis is really easy to fix. i dont have any links, but from what i remember most of the time it goes away when you:
>sleep reguarly
>abstain from drugs, ESP marijuana.
and if that doesn't work, short term antipsychotics
but yeah almost always people 100% fully recover, and can even return to LSD later on
>>701160053
absolutely yes. That's why therapy is such an impacted field today.
I've been diagnosed with autism since grade 2
Depersonalization Disorder. I like it think of it as s constant red pill trip.
>>701158688
you don't belive
belive
>BELIVE
you have deadly faggotitis, go see doctor
major depression, general anxiety, social anxiety, depersonalization
>>701161141
Can you tell me about your experiences?
I've been struggling with it myself since around 7/2015 and it really helps me to hear from others who experience it, what its like for them.
Slight superiority complex and emotional unavailability.
>>701161575
isn't that part of the requirement to actually go on /b/ tho
>>701161575
>>701161644
Probably.
>>Inb4 definitely.
Guys i got a question, had a date with a psychologist and she told me its like a virus that people feel they are mental ill or something, bad date after all but this is troubleing me for a long time
are more people getting mentaly ill
or is it like more people so more mental ill people?
>>701160406
absolutely not, it gave me my life back twice (i stopped taking it for a few years a while back). I look at it like a roller coaster. Life has extreme ups and downs and zoloft essentially smooths those ups and downs into small hills. I'm married, have 2 children, have almost paid off my home, make just under 100k per year. I don't feel like a zombie at all, i love my life now.... zoloft is a literal life saving drug.
>>701161748
Difference is I'm engaged to my gf of 5 years. So. Makes relationships difficult. Not to mention it developed from dating callous bitches. Now that I'm with a woman who DESERVES my love/affection, I struggle to give it even though I want to. Brains are bullshit.
>>701150378
>>701154382
I bet this are different personalities of the same anon
Severe addictive personality. Insomnia. Anxiety. Gen depression. Alcy.
>>701161820
that "psychologist" was dumb.
The spectrum that defines mental illness are growing wider, and misdiagnoses are extraordinarily common
>>701154123
>>701154848
At least you date girls
>>701149375
This is mine.
>>701161820
You should date an English professor instead.
Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures, caused from trauma as a child caused by my mother when she sexually, physically and emotionally abused me. Seizures still happen from daily stress now.
ADD, mild depression, social anxiety
I honestly like my mental illnesses
I think they make me a special snowflake
Not sure, going to my docter this friday. I suspect apd and bpd along with major depression.
Smoked some really strong weed once, and had this weird belief that somehow everything is predetermined, already happened, everything would end badly(for the human race, universe etc) and there is no way to avoid it, I was just stuck on the wild ride of horror and helplessness.
Still get the chills when I think about it, anyone know what I'm talking about?
>>701149375
borderline personality disorder
>>701149727
What this guy said.
>>701161820
Honestly, there could be many factors.
One possible factor involves the fact that we are putting so much virtual distance between one another. Another factor could be mutations or affected gestation processes, brought on by a wildly different environment (think questionable levels of estrogen/testosterone in the water/food). Yet another factor could involve designer drugs. Legalizing weed could have done it too; some people who are genetically predispositioned to be at risk for most forms of schizophrenia can (not always) induce it by smoking.
Granted... >>701162065 is another reason as to why. Probably the most likely reason; some parts of Tumblr exist as proof, unfortunately so. For some people, mental illnesses are a fun thing to pretend to have.
>>701156969
that sounds fun anon
I wish I had what you have
>>701162516
if i had to guess, you were experiencing a mild case of depersonalization. I had an extremely bad mushroom trip and for a year since ive been struggling with strong episodes of depersonalization
>>701162516
Deterministic universe, I think of this a lot
Thinking of how the big bang set everything in motion and everything that has happened and the present moment are all set in stone
Even though we are conscious and we have "free will" we are still a product of that moment.
Also the universe is not something separate from yourself. Without you the universe would not be. You are a self aware creature forged by a big bang that created a universe that became conscious of its own existence.
>>701161820
Dude. We all live with constant chatter. Phones. Bullshit tv. Internet chaos. Video games. Hate. Violence. No matter how small a mental "bad" state is it gets multiplied many times over. Then add that with dealing with others who are trying not to feel the same way. Then add "meds" ... people who legitly are schizophrenic or hear voices in first world countries hear bad evil violent things or thoughts. People in 3rd world or less modernized and have the same afflicyion... hear calming peaceful sometimes euphoric voices thoughts and sound. ADD or adhd is almost good for people growing up now. Theyre prepped for living in this bullshit.
>>701162516
You just had a nightmare ride. I worked with a chick a few years ago whose ex smoked weed for the first time and it broke him. Permanently anxious. She would be driving him around and he would flip his shit convinced that she was going to crash or run somebody over. He was stuck like that, so she bailed. I'd say you got off lucky.
>>701163028
You people are just determinists. That's not a disorder. It's a branch of philosophy. Libertarian ftw.
>>701156713
its called suicidal ideation
it has a name
:)
>>701162516
were you smoking a sativa strain or indica
>>701157664
it kinda is
dysphoria is for sure
some people are born gay, and you can tell there is something different about them
but because its not cool to question why people are gay, they dont think of it as a mental illness
how is it not comparable to autism?
not in symptoms but in the fact that people have it and it makes them different
Im gay but because my mom made me gay
she is a cunt
she isnt, she is lovely but she made me see women as poisonous, irrational and mischievious
>>701162516
>>701163200
sativa can cause pretty bad panic attacks. indica is much better if you just want to relax.
>>701163300
and can i get some of that?
I'm retarded
>>701163214
I don't completely subscribe to the belief, I just entertain it as with many other philosophies.
Also I don't consider it a disorder, but I do have a preoccupation with existential matters to such a degree that it interferes with my quality of life greatly.
>>701163515
>existential
that shit is boring to me. if im going to have a waffle for breakfast either way, i dont care if its pre-determined or post-determined, or if there is space between molecules or simply ether
>>701149836
That's normal
>>701162387
that's the spirit! just remember you never stop learning.
>>701163612
Yeah I get that and respect it, I actually envy you.
Like I said the preoccupation interferes with my quality of life.
"There'd be no problem if you didn't care"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWvUHeYf6WQ
Recommend Eyedea highly to anyone with mental strife
>>701149836
thats not schizophrenia dude.
>>701163515
So youre a philosopher. I can admire that. I am a bit as well. But the whole "thinking too deeply" thing is just, like, the thinkers' curse. But they're needed to push beyond materialist views and into more surreal, potentially beneficial ideas. It's an evolutionary leftover from thinking of hypothetical of combat/danger so that we could better react when actually confronted. Now it's a near useless trait due to all the pew pews we have.
>>701162849
>fun
>wake up age 20 in bed
>stare at ceiling
>6 am, eggshell blue outside
>radio playing hits from 10 years ago
>where am I
>where am I going
>where are my hands
>where is my bed with respect to my room
>in fact, where is my room
>why
>put the existential quandaries away and remember how I "normally" operate
>fall into place, become a functional human being
>job, life, people I love
>think to self that I will eventually remember doing this when I am 30
>and it will have seemed like time went by so fast
>and that I will ask myself the same questions
>and more people I know might die/be dead
>and I'll remember them as well
>and I'll relive the moment, and almost feel like I was there
>and I will remember when I was younger, and I stared into the abyss
>and it stared back
>and I yelled as loud as I could
>and all I heard was me
>and I could see what I was in the dark, and in the light
>and nothing will have changed
>where am I
It's... "fun". It adds to life- not that I know what life is without it, but I've heard people explain... so...
Exhaustively curious. That's what I'd call it.
>>701163916
Make money and die
That's the American way
I'm a recovered schizophrenic. The rare, early-onset kind. Diagnosed with depression and OCD at, like, 7 years old and then as I got older I also got called schizotypal.
I take 2 pills at night time to help me sleep. I used to take a lot more, but now I just need the sleeping med and the shit that helps the hallucinations keep away. No one I interact with knows that I have this condition and I haven't relied on therapy for over half a decade but it helped a lot
I have a wife and a kid and a college degree. I have a job that I love. I earn good money and work 3 days a week. I was called the kid most likely to shoot up the school when I was 18
You can do it anon. You already have the drive, you just need to take a few steps. Have faith in the mental health care system. You're a 1000th degree loser, but you can do it
>>701163942
Yeah I probably haven't done much in the way of helping myself with all of my psychedelic endeavors, adding fuel to the fire.
There are moments of clarity and peace of mind that come along with it, but mostly loneliness and isolation stemming from a failure to communicate or integrate my thoughts and feelings with those around me.
I really love osu! c:
I feel I can imagine how people think and perceive the world if I stay long enough around them to get a sense of their energy. It's really interesting, everyone has this unique flavor to their consciousness which defines how they see things and ultimately their personality and destiny.
>>701163446
Whoah dude wtf. Ive been called a fag my entire life. I dont use women and i actually love being in a stable committed relationship eith them. Every other douch nozzle gets pussy out the ass where ive just given up. Noone made you gay. Shit i still hate being called that but im a grown ass man who can joke about it. Simple man.. the song.. comes to mind. Women in relationships dont judge other eomen as much as single women do. You can and always have a choice. Ive been hit on by so many gays its relentless sometimes. Sickening. In the end... most guys just want to nut in this shit stained world. And if they cant find a pussy theyll take any hole. Controll your shit. Women are fucking beatifull. Dont blame your ma.
Severe depression, anxiety(General, social and panic attacks occasional) and suicidal
>>701155532
Forgot anxiety fuuuuuuuuuuck me
>>701164536
that was a good movie man. best of luck with your struggles brother
>>701164244
Consciously aware of how I am merely a product of my sensory inputs and there is no actual "self" to be found in me. Conditioned to behave according to the instruction of the environment I was raised in (America, Earth.)
Seriously feel like I was sold into slavery the moment I was born, the light I became extinguished by those who came before me and rose to power to squelch any chance of freedom I or anyone who comes after me has.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1yPAEe4J8I Eyedea was a genius in my mind
man i don't know but pretty much whenever i'm alone i get these little crazy moments for dumb reasons (it snowballs) or for absolutely no reason at all (i just start feeling a lot of energy inside outta nowhere and i have to lash out) and i start doing some weird ass shit
this includes walking around in circles for hours, talking to myself in the mirror, talking to objects and being scared of them, hitting stuff, going from being mad to sad to happy in minutes then repeat etc etc etc
and for some reason when it happens i try to tell myself that i'm just faking
i don't get to act up on it anymore since i live in a tiny tiny appartment with 2 other people so we're both in the same room all the time but i definetly feel it inside sometimes, i can still hide it in public so it's not that bad
also i get suicidal thoughts sometimes when i think about how lame and repetitive everything is, but i try to not take ANYTHING seriously, which is not really a good thing since people don't appreciate you laughing at them when they're trynna be serious or are screaming at you
plus not caring about anything is why i'm a total failure honestly
so yeah... i guess this is "normal" since i got dem craycray genes from both sides of the family (pops is schizo and grandma was in a mental institution for 4 years, where my mom was born) and i've been stressed out because of self hate and shitty stuff happening to me for yeeeeaarsss
everything gets worse year after year and i don't think i wanna find out how my mental health is gonna deteriorate
oh and if it matters i don't have much of a sex drive anymore, i fap for like 5 minutes from time to time but i have 0 desire to actually have sex or a relationship
>>701149375
Asperger syndrome, I am literally autistic.
>>701164375
You live in your head too much. Derealization, perhaps? Unable to see links between your actions and their consequences?
>>701163978
my god its moments like these that make me appreciate 4chan, one moment its all jokes next moment were delving into the realm of philosophy.
>>701164427
You're a delusional weeaboo with special snowflake syndrome.
>>701165244
You have Derealization and, again, special snowflake syndrome. You weren't destined to be any better than he rest of us.
>>701165978
This
It's not difficult at all to get a sense of someone's mindset by just talking to them for a bit.
Stop thinking you're special.
Hallucinogenic Persistent Perceptual Disorder and general anxiety disorder.
I never came all the way down from a trip 15 years ago. I see visuals constantly, especially in dark or high contrast environments. I have anxiety and have occasional panic attacks. Sometimes I get really unreal feeling and overwhelmed and visuals get intense.
Constantly seeing shit makes insomnia a problem because the visuals stay after I close my eyes. Gives my mind something to focus on instead of drifting off to sleep.
>>701154382
Holy shit, you are my lord now. Order anything.
>>701164497
no one ever called me a fag
people say they would never guessed it when I tell them
it has to do mostly with the fact that there isnt as much homophobia here as in other places
(its pretty homophobic in here tho)
I have mommy issues, instead of seeking older women I came out the other way.
I blame my mother for making me the way I am, depressed and gay. its her and my dads fault but everyone is shaped by their parents and Im happy with the person I am now
I have no resentment of any kind and I wouldnt forgive my mom because I dont think its her fault either, she came from a difficult family and she carries traits from her childhood that helped her cope with the situation at that moment
she always ment well even if she hurted me
I used to be straight, then I became gay somehow
it happened at the same time as I started looking down on women
Im aware of it tho, you cant see it in the way I behave
I just have very low standars for women and never think much of them, and everytime I see a girl breaking out of the mold (the mold that I put women in) I get pleasently surprised
one of the person I look up the most is a woman
>>701166252
ill have a quarter pounder with cheese
>>701165722
I wish I had aspergers
well, I wish I was smart
actually, I wish I was different than who I am now
>>701166471
can I ask about what age you found out you were gay?
>>701166235
im sorry man but I want that for me
what can you do with it?
can you control it?
do you play with It?
it sounds awful tho, who much did it change you?
>>701166817
around 14/15
>>701149375
Bipolar type 2 its as fun as chronic mental illness gets.
i just hope i dont die before i get mentally analyzed, (not gonna seek for the diagnose by myself of course, not throwing myself under the bus) because im definitely puzzled about the spectrum of mental illnesses that i may or may not suffer from
ps: they say the worst psychopats are the ones that do not seek help, the ones that can blend into the society, the ones that can lay low. watch out.
>>701150209
That fucking sucks, /b/ro. My sympathies. That's the worst thing about schitzophrenia...my uncle has it, and he basically behaves like a homeless weirdo because he wasn't medicated early enough in life, and now doesn't take his meds, or only takes some of them some of the time. My grandma is almost 90 and he still lives at home, and has the same paper route he's had for like 20 years.
He's better off than a lot of ppl with what he has, but he used to be a nuclear physicist. He was a fucking genius as a kid, winning math contests and shit...makes me so fucking sad. What a waste of a mind. Now his life is basically just meaningless suffering.
I shouldn't even be in this thread, since all I have is anxiety disorder and a touch of ocd. I'm on nothing but fucking zoloft, and sometimes I feel like a fucking woman from the 1800s taking laudanum or some shit...like I don't necessarily need it but it really makes things easier to take/do overall...I dunno, everyone's on something for some reason I guess.
>>701165761
Perhaps, I've often times wondered if the feelings I experience could be DP/DR, they are both very interesting to me.
I don't know about an inability to see links between my actions and their consequences, to me that sounds like the mark of an irresponsible person which I try my best to be the opposite of.
I am very familiar with the feeling of dissociation / dissociatives. I have tried various psychedelics from RCs to LSD, Salvia and DMT but by far the most intense and interesting substance I've encountered is just plain DXM or cough syrup. I like it's ability to strip the mind of all preconceived notions for reality and leave only a pure stream of consciousness. My experience on 888mg DXM Polistirex blows any previous trip I've experienced out of the water, the best word I can use to summarize the peak is just Nirvana.
>>701166171
I don't lord this over anyone or feel myself to be better than anyone, this is actually the first time I've participated in a thread of this manner.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpg-yNJF2ds
>>701167114
a little late but not to be expected, thats about when sexuality would start becoming apparent anyway
>>701167304
i meant the worst thing is the whole "this disease is made up/part of a conspiracy against me/etc."
Also I once listened to an audio simulation of auditory hallucinations akin to the ones some schizophrenics experience, and jesus fuck...couldn't listen to more than a few seconds of that shit. I'd kill myself in no time if I heard that on a daily basis.
>>701167622
could you provide an example?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-dmWAl3Ewrg
I don't have symptoms anymore, but I was being treated for pre-psychotic symptoms. I don't have much to say other than Seroquel makes you feel fucking weird. I could close my eyes and dream while I was still awake.
>>701149375
sure, i like /b/
>>701149556
hot
>>701167304
bro dont feel bad for taking just one pill there are many people that i know who suffer from depression and anxiety. I have to take like 6 pills a day and i feel like a fucking 80 year old woman with alzheimers
>>701167021
Nah it's not what you think it is but it is at the same time. I just have the hallucinations but I am otherwise clear headed.
I can control it in so much that as I focus on it it gets progressively more intense. Like in a dark room I constantly see moving fingerprint kinda stuff on areas of contrast, bright colored pixels and major trails from motion and some visual snow. If I concentrate it become more colorful and geometric. If I go deep with it I start seeing pictures and eyeballs and stuff. During the day all I see is some motion blur and sometimes colors that aren't correct and occasionally things drip. The major problem is my night vision is really fucked.
Also certain medications make it worse. If I am taking Benadryl for a cold shit gets weird.
Bi-polar disorder
>>701167466
Ironically, those are both me. I miss tags. You seem sincere, so disregard my special snowflake syndrome comment. Idk how I managed to give 1 guy 2 different appraisals so different from each other. Lol.
>>701149375
I do not believe in mentall disorders without physical brain damage. If you are not lobotomized you are healthy. They also can be easily forged to get free drugs.
>>701167753
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vvU-Ajwbok
>>701168376
Chronic nightmare disorder
It's not as bad as some of you but still a fucking pain
>>701168159
jee that sounds awesome
id never be bored if I had that
what about stimulants?
coke, adderall, even coffee
do they do something for you?
Instead of "what will I have for breakfast" I'm thinking "if my perception of the universe is determined by my physical form, and I'm unable to see it from any other perspective, is anything truly real? Am I the only real person? How can I know?"
I know everyone thinks about this once in a while but I forget to eat or go to work.
I have been fired from 3 different jobs because I'm just fucking stuck thinking.
>>701168376
The thing about facts is, it doesn't matter whether or not you believe in them.
>>701168359
No worries, and same to you, it takes a sincere type of person to take back something they said, especially on the internet. I understand the special snowflake sentiment as well lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FnCKOYcnzI
>>701168376
So... a lack of physical trauma to the brain is where you draw the line?
Or, do you regard an improper balance of chemicals in the brain required for "standard" regulation of the brain and thus the body, as physical damage to some extent? Just curious.
paranoid schizophrenia. I still have a job and some friends... It can be difficult sometimes.
Some days I am completely "normal" and other days it gets really bad. Just depends.
I have psychotic depression. I haven't had any voices lately, but they were there before.
>>701149375
I don't know, i think i'm insane, maybe notas.
idk
im transgender so idk if that counts (probaly everyone will count it so)
and i wanna die everyday
social anxiety because of abusive parents
>>701149375
Kleptomania, I have a constant urge to steal things wherever I go.
I return it later, but I always want that thrill.
Im 24 and Ive always been this way.
>>701156969
Wow Anon, from what you describe, your day to day life must be like living through hell.
>>701169319
Thinking you're crazy is, ironically, proof that you're not, dumbass. You recognize something's wrong. Crazy people dont.
>>701167021
I couldn't tell you what triggered it either. I used to smoke a ton of weed. I also used LSD and MDMA extensively. I have also done shrooms, 2cb, mescaline, dex, amt and salvia.
If I had to guess it was the dextromorphan Hbr that did it to me. Had a 1g trip on it that was very intense and unpleasant. I finally had my perfect trip later off some killer LSD and never touched a psychedelic again. But alas the deed was done.
Can't smoke weed anymore because of the panic and visuals/unreal feelings get magnified after I toke. Feels bad man I love weed but it no longer loves me.
>>701169692
Calling me dumbass make my fingers Sad :(
>>701169692
not true in the slightest.
>>701170284
Oh. I see... so.... feeling full, yet?
>>701168918
Yeah not boring that is for sure but it kinda puts distance between me and others because they just don't get it. Stimulants don't really do it for me at all. They can make my anxiety worse though. I drink caffeine every morning against my doctors advice. I take lexapro for the GAD which works but I swear makes the visuals at night worse.
Main triggers for me is dextromorphan HBr, Benadryl, doxylamine succinate, weed. Basically any first gen antihistamine. Also sometimes I get a bit of a boost from kratom and maybe tramadol. It is really weird to be honest. Other sufferers report some antipsychotics will make them way worse, I can't vouch to that.
>>701170541
Slightly true, buddy 'ol pal.
>>701169134
I Saw one pic like this in drawthread, where you got it?
>>701170731
I actually think I snagged it from /b/ as well, but not from a drawthread I don't think.
Sorry that's all I can give ya
>>701149836
I aint falling for ur bait like the other anons, i can see threw your illuminati schemes
>>701149375
anxiety and depression. like everyone else in the whole world
>>701169692
Really? i think perfectly craze ppl can indentify own problems, they can maybe not resolve them.
>>701170669
lol ya cause not crazy people know exactly how crazy people think right
>>701171041
hmm tnx
>>701171273
It depends on a number of things like the type of crazy we are talking about, like a psychotic break which is literally a break from reality.
Your sanity is on vacation and all that is left is psychosis.
So I would agree with
>>701170669
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OjpryAm8vGA
>>701169140
Yes, perhaps it can be also genetically damaged so it becomes retarded zombie since birth. Some chemicals overdose can do the job too. But those people who crying about their "mental illness" in internet threads no more than just delusional attention whores.
I'm in a relationship with my own imagined friend for over 3 years. I spent so many beautiful moments with her and experienced so much love that to be honest I never want this to end.
>>701171273
if you still have the slightest touch with reality you will notice that people act different than you do, people make decisions through a different process than yours, and people react to every situation in ways that you do not comprehend.
At least thats how i see stuff, should i get analyzed? doctors dont take anything seriously in my country unless you have a full on agressive mental breakdown. i dont think im quite there yet
I'm becoming more and more distant from my friends as I cannot socially interact effectively and it's affecting my mood and motivation.
h-hold me /b/
>>701171680
the thing is, with facts, it doesnt matter what you think, youre wrong lol
>>701171249
>>701171249
in·san·i·ty
inˈsanədē/
noun
the state of being seriously mentally ill; madness.
"he suffered from bouts of insanity"
synonyms: mental illness, madness, dementia; More
extreme foolishness or irrationality.
>>Can totally identify and correct mental deficiencies/imbalances on own.
>>2/10. Made me reply twice, damnit.
>>701156713
go see a psych they are there to make all that go away
Everything just feels so heavy. Over the last ten years I have been losing my sense of the passage of time. It is hard to gauge how long it has been between events if I do not have a clock. It may have taken me a very long time to write this post since I did not read the time when I began. One will often find me sitting and staring into space after I have finished something I told myself to do. If somebody doesn't tell me I have been sitting for a long time, I usually get myself out of the trance by getting a snack or drink.
What is my disorder called? I have not been diagnosed, and the reason I know about my issue is because people have told me and because I believed that all clocks, by coincidence, were broken. I would think to myself, "why are there no reliable clocks? I thought electronic clocks were always right. How do they work, then?"
>>701171841
Figured it out. Sociopathy and severe pessimism. What do I win?
How is this thread still alive?
>>701171899
Not sure but you would make a really bad chef. I can mark time almost to the minute without a clock. Sucks to be you anon.
You would make a great gardener however. Or maybe wildlife photographer.
>>701172080
because it's 4chan, everyone here has some kind of mental illness
>>701169589
What exactly do you steal?
OCD, purely O; I have gotten better with dealing with it though.
>>701153476
what do you do?
>>701171872
g59 for life
Schizoaffective disorder and OCD-rumination/intrusive thoughts type. OCD since 12, schizoaffective since 19. Not really that bad, my life is decent. I feel fine on a day to day basis and have a good job/friends/outlook on my future.
>>701171877
i'm not sure are you agreeing with me? What I stated about psychotic breaks was a fact
>>701172080
idk but i'm happy it is
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q87e6zNRJ3s
>>701149375
PTSD anxiety just that type of shit my PTSD cause my father beat and raped my mother in front anxiety cause i have a social problem im afraid to talk to real people thats why i go on 4chan etc
>>701172272
Anything I can, Stolen pretty much every ite from shops.
ive taken screwdrivers out with me and night and stolen street signs off walls.
Peoples front door numbers and letter boxes.
Road sighs and cones a million times.
Picked up and walked off with my neighbours cat and walk across town with it, But I felt bad about that one and took her back.
I have a written waiver type thing from my doctor to hand to police if caught, they never end up arresting me, they know I return things and cant help it.
>>701169633
Like Hell, but if you occasionally made the Devil laugh so he'd ease up on you every now and again.
Though, sometimes, I do actually fail to really grasp/take in/retain the concept of causality/time... and so, for brief moments, at no particular moment of the day... I feel like I've been alive for a little too long. I feel as if things collapse into one moment. Everything, at once. No separation or distinction between one moment and the next, as far as "moments" go. As if I've been here, forever. In my own personal purgatory. An endless climb; an exercise in futility, on a hill that seems to be on an infinitely increasing incline.
Constantly falling into the rut where all my fantasies become as uninteresting and mundane as reality should seem, is the greater hell. A series of nested levels below the 9th circle: instant gratification and wish fulfillment, against all my wishes, if not outright abstract chaos with the false illusion of consistency and logical flow.
I try so hard to have a moment where I am not changing the scene.
Meanwhile, the waking world sometimes fills me with exuberant wonder and curiosity strictly because of it's regularity (and my occasional failure to remain consistent with all, if not only some, of it's apparent truths- like relativistic time and knowing... feeling, accurately, when "now" is "now").
Then I remember that [this "forever"] is absolutely not the case. At best, it's been 10, maybe 20 minutes- not "forever". I chuckle, and then chuckle sadly as I remember how many seconds of my life I remember in detail- and how many more must be left.
And then I go back to being a functional human being, and I'm usually on time more often than not.
I can't imagine how awful it must be for someone to watch me just... Not... having them be able to reach me, an entire part of my life that I can't even share with them. That I probably burden them with. When I don't smile.
Might be why I often crack jokes to see smiles.
>>701155532
where do you get these gifs?
>>701172077
Adderall. Gratz.
>>701173060
>its* where appropriate
>>701173095
No thanks. Helps my ADHD tremendously. Also turns me into an anorexic, sleepy zombie. So. Can I trade for some bomb kush? "Self medication is the best medication." - No One, Ever.
>>701173060
Sisyphus feeling sad for the observer
mouth breather here: sometimes i fall asleep with my mouth open and it's all dry when i wake up. allergies suck
>>701170578
im very ignorant and naive
where do the hallucinations come from?
from your subconcious?
does being troubled about something affect them?
hows the anxiety?
lexapro cured my social anxiety completely
I stopped taking them because I wasnt able to cum and it killed my sex drive, now im on quetiapine which I dont think it will help you at all
can you do drugs recreationally?
is it pleasurable I mean
>>701173780
I got that too
that pain, when you wake up and your throat is all dry
moving to a more humid place helped a lot, also I sleep on my side and I tend to breath through my mouth less
>>701149375
I have no illness. I'm perfectly fine.
https://youtu.be/4avExt-fuSs
>>701171841
you obviously dont have depression or social anxiety
its tangible, I didnt thought I had it until I didnt anymore
mental illnesess are real dummie
