Feels thread.
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Feels thread.
Come on in /b/ros
Where's that guy that was "spilling 11 years of repressed feelings"? Keep going, man.
Still looking for that texts from dad picture.
>>698155162
I'm also wondering. Are you here bro?
We care. Alot.
My head hurts from crying too much, I can't really cry anymore. I'm starting to feel anger, ive never felt this before? What can I do?
Drinking some cinnamon tequila on this hot sticky night; anyone see any good movies/shows lately
>>698155162
Not that anon, but did say I'd post my story in the next thread, so...
Prologue:
>Start in late 2008
>Be 23
>Mom's been dead for two years now
>Hated my father because reasons
>Living mostly with grandmother
>Getting job training for residential maintenance
>Fucked up and finished in only 8 months
>Employers want 2 years experience
>Fucking recession
>Took advantage of training program to start at a community college
>Seemed legit, though
>Had a plan:
>My ex lived 300+ miles away
>4+ years of a relationship and we'd been in the same zip code for only 3 and a half months
>Transfer to a school near her
>Effectively get a degree in Whitenighting
>Yeah, complete faggot, I know
>Everything was coming together
>For the first time in my life
>I was taking charge!
>Oh, you poor, dumb bastard...
>>698155210
Damn. Dammit... dammit.
Anon who just told a close friend about his problems over Snapchat here, she just sent a picture of her with her friends dunno what if she even read it...
>>698155378
Go for a walk. Listen to some music. You'll make it.
>>698154937
Ok that legitimately got me. A lot of my family members worked as nurses in nursing homes and this shit always made me sad. Seeing people degrade into nothingness in their own minds while the people working there (usually the activity directors) treat them like this is just heart wrenching.
>>698155577
>January 2009
>Ex catches pneumonia...then her favorite uncle and grandfather die within the month
>She's understandibly frustrated
>I'd become more distant lately
>I can't multitask for shit
>Seriously, I can't talk on the phone and surf the internet at the same time
>Relationship goes to reactor meltdown status
>We tried to salvage it
>May rolls around
>Got the summer all planned out
>Uncle (who has power of attorney over grandma's affairs) won't let me stay there anymore
>Panic sets in
>I don't know how to adult!
>Relationship finally dies for good at the same time
>No reason to transfer schools now...or even keep going
>Get a contact with a guy fixing up apartments for work
>Make a deal with another dude to room with him
>This works out for about two months
>Turns out, dude wasn't paying the rent
>No idea what the fuck he was doing with his money
>Gonna get evicted
>Dude skates out; flees to North Carolina
>Also, did something very stupid at work; got fired
>Yeah, this ain't gonna end well...
>Call this older chick I knew
>Last hope
>Turn for advice
>She offers a deal
>She and another couple were getting ready to move into a bigger apartment
>They could throw me a bone to get me back on my feet
>I agree; they agree
>We move in together August 2009
>>698155819
Will do. Maybe I'll just listen to music and talk with you guys. I feel like I have a purpose here. What's up with you
>>698155378
Go on a serial killing spree and completely consume the bodies of your victims.
>>698155113
damn that was fucked up.
>>698156046
I was thinking about that. How did you know I've been thinking of doing something like that to feel something?
>>698155113
>>698155641
Reminds me of:
> the one's that smile the brightest... are the loneliest...
I have a stupid smile on nearly the entire time I'm awake. Glad I have somewhere where I can return to normal: looking sad. Thanks for being here, guys.
>>698156242
No problem man. Glad to have you here
>>698155815
I'm the anon that said never open up to others, they'll just abandon you...
I'm sorry, but that was exactly my point: they don't understand. They don't care.
But we do...
>>698155928
>Ten months of hell
>Melodramatic? Yes
>Accurate? Indeed
>New survival plan: keep going to school and use Grant and Scholarship money to buy me time
>Only a minor setback
>We can recover
>I seriously underestimated my expenses
>Barely was able to keep up with rent (and, a couple of times, wasn't)
>Ran out of food more times than I can count
>Went days without eating
>No bus fare at times
>Had a bike for a while
>Would bike a 4 hour round trip to go to classes (and be out of the apartment)
>Even in January and February
>At one point, the bike broke down
>I could scrounge enough change most days to ride the bus
>Except for those two Saturdays I had to walk 6 hours...for a class that was WALKING tours of historical sites.
>What about roommates?
>The couple were chill
>Dude was firm, but fair with me at all times
>His wife was a wonderful woman but plagued by a myriad of mental illnesses
>Docs had her on so many different medications
>First time I experienced someone in the "drug zombie" state
>Still, overall good people
>The chick I met before...dear God
>Complete turboslut
>I think she wanted me for some fucked up reason
>Came home drunk as shit in the first month
>Begged me to fuck her
>I wouldn't
>No condom
>She won't help me find one
>Finger her off
>She doesn't remember
>Glad I didn't
>She's also ultrafertile
>Already has three daughters
>Got pregnant a month later
>And she's bipolar
>And she's off her meds
>They'll affect her breast milk
>Oh, dear God, that woman...
>Psycho doesn't even BEGIN to cover it
>>698155815
all of my keks.This just reaffirms the futile/existential posts ITT
>>698156401
Yeah, I agree with you now. I guess I'll just act like I didn't say anything and move on. I care about you too man.
>>698155113
Poor Julius. Really glad he got a birthday card from /b/ tho
>>698155113
Shit like this always gets to me and I hate it.
Is the 29 year-old guy who lost his girlfriend of 10 months here? Do you think you'll ever get over it?
>>698155934
wanna share some music over plug.dj? Maybe we can get other anons in
>>698155819
Haha... listening to music and talking with you guys. Just came back from the bar with some "friends". I just can't stand it. Am I the only one who's so broken on the inside? Everyone seems to have life figured out... but me. Well, but us.
>>698156242
this?:
Someone out there knew who I was. Who are you? I swear I will know you, just give me a hint man.
>>698155113
>>698155210
What do you do when your social awareness is keener than everybody around you, and they treat you like a fool?
That story hurt.
>>698156616
I'm on mobile dunno if I can do it as much. I just like listening to the hotline Miami 1 and 2 OST mainly its my favorite game and has some great artists. What's your favorite music, anon?
>>698156405
>Meanwhile, having trouble finding work
>My work experience is spotty at best at this point
>Can't even get an interview at the corner gas station
>I'm not looking very hard despite the urgency
>I'm too terrified to ask places if they're hiring
>I have zero confidence that I am a marketable individual
>It snowballed out of control
>I'd be hiding from that psycho bitch every waking moment
>I'm still fuzzy on what I must have done to earn her ire
>Still, I can't stay at the apartment much longer
>Need work
>Freeze up looking for work
>June 2010
>Come back from morning "hiding" at the library
>The wife gives me a very concerned look
>"Anon, we have to talk..."
>See, I'm not on the lease
>Somebody snitched I was there
>Three guesses who
>Either I GTFO or everyone's getting evicted
>So I packed what clothes and books I could into my couple suitcases and
my pillow
>The couple expressed their regret that shit went down the way it did
>I understood
>It's my own fault
>They drive me out to the only homeless shelter in the county
>I'm able to get in
>That was the only night I've ever actually cried myself to sleep
>Come close a couple times before and since
>This was it, though
>Game Over, man
End Part 1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4T4DEap2iI
Fuck everything.
>>698156699
>ONE MAN WOLF PACK
>>698156489
Just found out I'm probably the only person who snaps her, but I'm setting myself up for disappointment
>>698156692
This is my story. Who are you? You're the only person who knows I really need help.
>>698154937
This picture always gets me. The slumped posture and downward direction of the face of the person in the wheelchair just says, "I'm beaten. I'm done. I died a long time ago." Reminds me of when my mother was in a hospice July 2015. She had a Stage 4 Glioblastoma for 3 years. Nursing homes and hospices alike are just miserable waiting rooms into nothingness.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWHCRseZrN8
here you go, my cathartic pals.
>>698156812
I'm liking this so far
>>698155934
Join if you'd like. Chatbox is on the right
https://plug.dj/kag-radio
>>698156489
Sorry for the harshness... but that's the way it is :(
Good luck, /b/rother. I wish you all the best.
>>698155113
have you ever thought about the possibility that Julius might be a known rapist in his neighborhood?
you know, just putting it out there.
>>698155485
Gomorrah ( italian pretty good show )
Narcos ( about Pablo Escobar that was trying to be a good guy to help the people from his country then they destroyed his dream really recommend it )
Movies
The Purge 3 kinda gory and weird
Breaking Point I liked it because of the adrenaline rush they had
Have seen a lot of movies probably serial killers have more of a social life than me.
>>698157114
Ok, if it's formatted for mobile I'll see if I can join
>>698157089
Yeah, greaf is... amazing.
>>698155162
Holy fuck guys that was me
>>698155162
Where did i leave off?
>>698155641
oop got me
>>698156673
Yeah... thank you.
>>698155926
I don't understand what's happening here
is anyone else just sitting here crying on and off?
im having such a shitty day.
>>698157114
Hey anon, mobilefag reporting back
. Near a lodge so no computers. For this website it doesn't work on mobile browsers. Is there anything I can do? Id hate to leave out alone
>>698157648
Kek, me too man,me too
>>698157605
zombies
>>698156910
Shit i used to chat a lot with my friend Soph to the point where she started to like me asuch as i did, and idek what happend but one day in january she changed her mind and ruined me, that little screenshot brought me many memories
>>698155340
Here /B/ro where did i leave off?
>>698156910
Hmm... well, that's very kind of you.
I was so excited when I first joined this new fad. Gave away my username to everyone I could think of. Almost zero conact. It became a window that would show me how much others were enjoying life. I uninstalled it shortly after...
>>698155210
Fuck
>>698157722
Still isn't mobile friendly? Is there an app for it?
>>698155210
fuck man
>>698154937
Jesus Christ, this is just sad. We live too long now, we should be able to at least sign a paper in our life time granting a humane way to put us down like an animal. No excuse for us to be in this miserable state of escaped death.
>>698157934
Yeah dude, but nobody texts me so I use snapchat so I can kind of force people to talk to me, dunno it works better than texting at getting responses.
>>698157816
Glad I could make you feel.
>>698158079
Well I tried it, and it said something that they're making an app and it's not done yet, and I had to get onto a computer to use it. So sorry anon. Anything I can do man?
>>698156797
>At this point, I've got nothing
>I had even lost my wallet three months ago
>My licence had expired in that time, anyway
>So, first thing I had to do was get my ID back
>Shelter wouldn't let me stay without photo ID
>No money to my name
>A certain agency could possibly help, though
>IF I have a recognized disability
>Well, shit...
>I had talked many times to the couple (especially the wife) at my last apartment
>She had suggested I seek professional help a couple times in all seriousness
>All right, I'll jump through the hoops I have to
>Not expecting anything
>I'm not sick
>I'm just a colossal faggot
>Still take it completely seriously, regardless of outcome
>Come to find out...
>Well, congrats, Anon
>You're NOT a colossal faggot, after all
>You're a colossal faggot with a documented illness!
>Go me?
>So, anxiety severe enough to "have a significant impact on my quality of life" is good enough to start rebuilding my life
>Wait, what?
>This opens up a whole bunch of help I can access
>Start seeing a therapist
>Get a case manager to help out with paperwork and navigate the maze of services
>Get a job coach to help deal with problems finding work
>It's a slow process
>Still feeling like shit
>Shame piling on shame
>I keep freezing up when deadlines are involved
>Somehow, everything comes together at the last possible second
>First to a sort of halfway house
>Finally, a housing assistance voucher became available
>Income based
>Designed to act as a 2 year buffer to full self-sufficiency
>Finally find a suitable apartment
>Move in Feb 2011
>Had nothing but the clothes, pillow, couple blankets, and an old desktop computer at first
>No furniture
>First apartment is always shitty
>It turned out to be
>But it was MINE
>>698157629
that. that is down right horrible! you give up your live to help someone and they just stab you in the back why? what benefit did it get you? did those years mean nothing to you? i hope she dies a horrible death from like cancer or beheading or something like that just cause thats all she deserves
>be depressed a few years ago
>i like cars so ill become a mechanic
>go to school for it
>do final internship
>realize i will have to do oil changes for years with shit pay and have pay my own tools
>go work in a factory because i dont know what to do anymore
>do 6 months ,about to become permanent employee but get fired right before christmas
>im pretty good at pc related stuff so ill become a IT Technician
>go to school for it
>1st internship at dream job
>more school
>2nd internship at dream job
>finish school
>get a job there
>still feel empty
>buy a nice car
>feel nothing
>been 2 years at a job that my younger self would be stoked about
>buy a nice truck for winter
>still feel depressed
>>698157391
>>698157480
Yay, he's back :]
You left off at:
> mother struggled with meth.
> wanted to push on to be role model for little sis (god bless you anon)
> got into fights & hated every moment of that period
>>698157816
I know she cannot read this by any means but i gotta say she was the most important person for me and i never got to meet her, i miss her so much. I miss the days when it was normal to hear an "ily" coming from you and also feel like you actually were into me.. shit i got so obsessed with your little eyes and your lowkey happy smile
>>698158393
Man, I agree. That's so fucked up. Shit like this happens too often.
>>698158458
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>>698158372
>Things looking up
>I'm still a bit hard up for food
>Hung in there, though
>Finally got a job
>Shitty fast food job in mall
>Fuck it; I can do this!
>Went into it full of enthusiasm
>Crushed immediately
>I'm only guy working the lunch rush
>Fries, sandwiches...everything's my job
>Cannot keep up
>Other guys can
>Sure, they've got experience...that's what it is!
>Year goes by
>Still cannot keep up
>Failure to live up to own standards crushes every day at work
>Job wears thin
>No other options, though
>Grin and fucking bear it
>Tried to develop a social life now that I've got income
>Start chatting with young dude who closes
>He eventually suggested I come to game night
>"Wow, I've got friends!"
>Haha, not really
>Dudes were more interested in tripping than any games
>Partied with them a couple times
>Found I don't like parties
>Too self-conscious
>Eventually had a falling out with them
>Spazzed out over wanting game night to be Serious Business instead of me watching them trip
>Still chill with the dude from work, though
>Despite this, I find myself craving human contact
>>698157242
Anyone got his twitter, blogger, or youtube. I wanna send him some love.
>>698158252
>Well I tried it, and it said something that they're making an app and it's not done yet, and I had to get onto a computer to use it. So sorry anon. Anything I can do man?
Use Overchan. I'm always on mobile, I have no computer. You have to recaptcha literally every post, but it works.
>>698158458
god damnit anon, i just stopped crying and dried my eyes off and now this shit makes me cry again what tlthe fuyck
>>698155641
I needed that thank you
>>698157242
I'm so happy for him
>>698158634
my first girlfriend told me she cheated on me, i slapped her across the face after school one day, i get suspended for 10 days, half before winter break the other half when the new year started come back to find out she haddent cheated on me at all
>>698158458
kid had some issues, this is why mental issues should stop being so taboo in this society.
Tell someone you've been to a therapist and they will look at you like you molest chimpanzees for a living.
>>698158892
Keep going man. I can't. Not anymore...
>>698155646
No no please not that one
>>698158252
nahhhh just play some relaxing music for yourself :P
>>698158417
Thanks friend, at least someone is listening
>step bro starts molesting/raping lil bro
>step mom starts acting like bitch all the time for no reason (she knew)
>try to juggle helping older autist bro and lil scared bro, literally scared of everything
>try a second time to commit suicide
>can't do it
>meet my best friend(he still doesn't know any of this)
>>698158740
>Managed to draw the attention of the neighbors late May 2012
>Made for a good summer
>Was social, was chill
>Even so, I quickly learn the apartment complex is a fucking ghetto
>Insane amount of drug traffic moves through it
>Hell, one old nigger kept being approached by plainclothes detectives
>Something about a pimping case
>Anyway...
>Met some really good people
>Met some sketchy people
>Met some people people
>Watched a woman, drunk as hell, giving her baby sips of her screwdriver
>Watched a crackhead go down the wrong flight of stairs (to a locked closet) and get stuck for a good five minutes while her man was screaming at her from the car
>Good times
>Made the soul crushing job more bearable
>Until I lost it
>I lost my damned mind
>From mid-September onwards
>Too much stress at work
>Ragequit
>Boss wasn't surprised
>We both knew it was time for me to move on for my own sanity
>Panic sets in once the initial shock wears off
>Still have no confidence in my skills on the job market
>Most job openings are seasonal
>Tried factory work as a younger man and cannot do it
>Want to get a job driving for a company
>No car of my own, though
>Working as best I can with my job coach to put in applications
>I'm getting better at this
>Still stressed out, but more able to focus through it than ever before
>It's not much more
>But it's still more
>>698159005
i don't regret hitting her in the slightest
>>698155641
It'd be nice if I could hear those words slip gently out of soft lips but I'm at a point in my life where I'm trying to accept that that isn't going to happen and that I'm almost definitely going to die alone.
>>698156699
Goddamn cutie,
Would Date/10
>>698158824
If I lost my best friend (15 years) I just... I have absolutely no clue what I would do.
Kill myself maybe?
I couldn't do that to his Mom or his girl though.
Fuck I'm tearing up just thinking about it
>>698159394
That phrase never made sense to me... we all die alone.
>>698159005
A girl and I were talking about marriage and kids when I joined the army, I came back and she still was talking about it, but more backhandedly aggressive like and clingy. Found out through a mutual friend she was fucking someone else within the first month of me being gone. There's a lot more to it,but that is all I care to write out right now. It's pretty shitty. The other dude was more sensitive than I was and got destroyed. But I hate them all.
>>698159252
>not strong enough to stop step bro, mentally or physically
>Lil bro is now an awkward introvert
>I am responsible for 4 soldiers who look up to me and think that I don't fuck up
>>698159316
>It's now the end of October 2012
>Remember Hurricane Sandy?
>Yeah, we didn't actually get hit by the storm itself
>It linked up with another weather system and parked over us
>It rained nonstop for five days
>The apartment complex is built on a downhill slope
>My place is effectively a basement apartment
>That flooded
>Not a lot
>Just enough to wreck shit
>But wait, there's more!
>Something went wrong with the sink drain line
>Every time the neighbors upstairs would dump water from their kitchen sink, my kitchen would flood
>Hot, greasy water
>No phone, no number to get ahold of anyone
>Still out of work
>Now out of money
>Soon out of food
>Stress is redlining
>Still losing my fucking mind
>I spazz out on all the neighbors for one reason or another
>When I need support the most, I blow it up
>FuckMyLife.webm
>Struggle through November and December
>Can only get to the local food bank once a month
>Doesn't last nearly long enough for my fat ass
>Worst Christmas ever
>Family can't/won't help
>Barely get help for November's rent
>Nothing for December
>And nothing for January...
>>698159323
Good, you shouldn't feel bad about it.
>>698159651
this hit me hard. ive literally done this several times
>>698159394
Who knows. Maybe not anon. But you definitely will if you decide to end it. There's still plenty of chance for you to come back. Just don't let the sadness be everything.
>>698159745
shitty part about with it i work with her now and yada yada old fellings returned yada yada
>>698159762
>>698159702
>I'm working as furiously as I can (which still seems incredibly lazy from the outisde) to save my ass
>It's not working
>Winter always seems to be the worst for me when it comes to despair
>I'm going to lose the apartment
>Even if I get work at this point I'm too far behind
>I still don't want to believe it
>I'm full of shame, hate, guilt, loathing over winding up back where I was in 2009
>Getting a lot of help from the job coach to keep plugging away and fighting through
>Get the eviction notice
>Actually go to the court date
>Judge gives me ten more days to get out
>It's a Friday
>Valentine's Day
>Just my fucking luck, right?
>Still, maybe I can salvage something
>Pack up what I can save
>But there's a small problem
>See, the shelter's full
>Nothing can be done about it
>Case manager tries one in another county
>Some law make it very difficult for "residents" of one county to stay at a shelter in another
>Still, at the last fucking second the right strings get pulled
>Head out to the neighboring county; I can crash there until a bed is open in mine
>After everything, it's actually a relief to leave that apartment
>I hadn't had a hot shower in over a year and a half
>Dispute with the gas company over a bill
>Washed in tub with water heated on the sink/brought over in buckets from the laundry room
>One of the first things I did was take that long, hot shower
>I lay down that first night
>"It's gonna work out all right, Anon"
>A bed opened up back in county by Monday
>Here we go again
>>698159656
>no matter what i do I can never help the scars my lil bro carries with him just because I was to weak to speak up
>>698159562
Dude, you can carry on... I lost my own brother, who I looked up to so much, and his last words were "I'm not sad or sorry"
>>698159562
You've got a good heart, anon.
Wish I had a best friend. Anytime I'd find myself getting really close to a particular person, they just try to run away and I have no idea why.
An example:
> known this dude for years
> we bounce passive-aggresive comments, like best friends do
> always walks beside me and makes small-talk whenever the group migrates from place to place
> one day, the group chat is buzzing about our first yr in college
> we're going to the same one
> ask in the group chat if anyone wants to room with me, hoping he'd answer since I thought we were total bros at that point
> no one replied
> learn a bit later he went with a random
> we live in the same dorm building, so I thought we'd hang out all the time
> we never did
>>698160066
>This time, things were a little different
>For one thing, regulations had changed all over the place
>People abusing the system
>I've only got 45 days
>Also, my tax return was due to show up in my bank account soon
>Instead of being broke and hungry I was able to keep my morale up
>Still, things move slowly when dealing with government funded programs
>Get into mid-March
>Happy 28th birthday, Anon!
>Still hanging in there
>A different housing assistance becomes available
>Case manager and I are filling out paperwork and gathering forms
>Finish it up on a Thursday
>Decisions will be made that coming Monday morning
>This is critical
>I can get an extension at the shelter IF I CAN GET THIS!
>I get a phone call Friday
>Case manager
>"Anon, we missed a form. Can I see you Saturday?"
>Motherfucker shows up on his day off so we can get this done
>Slides it into the dropoff 8:30 Monday morning
>Literal last fucking second
>We're meeting at 10 that morning
>He gets a call shortly after we meet
>Got the voucher!
>So much relief
>Hunt up an apartment
>Find one that's recently been renovated
>Everything checks out
>Rent a box truck
>Get some furnature from a second hand charity
>Lived here over three years now
>Stabilized my life some
>Tried to go back to college
>Engineering this time
>Always burned out right at the end of the semester
>Once missed two weeks of classes right before finals from paralyzing anxiety (over literally nothing)
>Took some loans this time
>Considered it an investment in self
>Was able to buy a beater pickup
>Still short of money occasionally
>Started delivering pizza two years ago
>Wanted it to just be a summer gig
>Still doing it today
>Love my job, despite the occasional bullshit
>Boss is great
>Coworkers put up with my shit (and the occasional spazz moment)
>I get satisfaction from bringing joy to people, even if for a brief moment
>>698160079
Thank you the one or two anons that listened, it meant a lot to me
>>698155646
Would have killed him then suicide.
>>698160341
Epilogue:
>Yet, after all of this, I'm still afraid
>I'm afraid history will repeat yet again
>I'm afraid I'll do something insanely stupid at work and lose my job
>I'm afraid to try to change jobs and move up to another delivery job
that pays a little better
>I'm afraid this weakness will crush me
>I'm afraid of myself
>I'm afraid of my fear
>I keep reliving these feels, guys
>I'm alone, afraid, and unsure of myself
>All I can do is keep going, as best as I can
>But what if my best isn't good enough?
>I've fallen so hard in so many ways
>My life is pretty good
>But I can't enjoy it
>>698160294
This may sounds like bullshit, but my guess is it has nothing to do with you.
A lot of people I know make a point of distancing themselves from anything or anyone that connects/reminds them to home. I know I did it and lost a lot of friends that I really wish I still had now.
>>698159651
I haven`t said those words to someone in a long time.
>>698160496
Fuck, man...
>>698160353
Anytime, man. I sincerely wish you the best in the life.
>>698159530
I've had some pretty wild birthdays man. I almost got arrested on my 23rd rolling balls in a Nevada Whorehouse. I think my favorites have been at home with my immediate family.
>>698160496
damn I sometimes sleep like this dat feel.
>>698160294
>>698160575
And if that's not the case, fuck him. You deserve better friends anyways.
Is anyone still here? Don't leave me /b/ros...
>>698160887
im still here /b/ro
>>698160575
Yeah... pretty sure it is me, though. People just find me odd. I can tell. It's okay, though... I'm better off on my own...
I lie to myself.
>>698160952
Thanks man.
>>698155113
I would have gone to his party.
This one always gets to me...
>>698160887
We'll always be here /b/rother
>>698155113
DIS WAT HAPPEN WEN U SNITCH IN DA HOOD YALL FUCC JULIUS
>>698155553
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OaP0w0-AmdU
Threads like this
>>698161076
your welcome anon i know the feeling of being alone. ive fought to try to get back with the one who made me not feel that way but she gets taken away by someone who looks just like me
>>698154937
I'm going to have to tell my wife that our couples therapy is more like separation counselling.
>>698155926
Feels ruined by angry birds font at the top
>>698155210
My only real friends are in Europe. We all grew up in a third-world shithole. /b/ and /pol/ have become my second friends... Really good friends..
>>698155641
Thank you anon. Its nice to hear it every once in a while.
>>698160834
I saw in the previous feels thread:
> I learned a lot about being a good friend... when I was alone
:l
Oh well. I feel as if nearly everyone is here because of some dream-girl. Or guy, for the few femanons that probably lurk. The point is, we all think that everything will change when we find that special person, just because the past seems so beautiful. In reality, I feel like nothing's going to change.
It really sucks. Some beat themselves up about not having a girlfriend. I just want a real friend. A best friend. A person to rely on. But all I have is myself...
I'm sorry, you guys, for this terrible rant. I'm just lost and tired.
>>698160971
I get that man, I'm a bit odd too.
I want to talk about things my peers don't (and women certainly don't) and I just suck at casual convos. I feel like the only people I really ever connect with are my professors. I wish I was normal
>>698161360
Haha... made me smile
>>698161595
Know that feel way too well.
>>698160620
Is the feel supposed to be that some girl wrote this dumb shit as a self insert
was anybody in the feels thread a few nights ago where anon was talking about his gf that he still loves from like 5 years ago?
>>698160353
It`s not your goddamn fault that you guys are all in this situation. I really hope you know that.
>>698156591
No. I want to die
>>698161278
damn mang
>>698161699
Wow man, are you me? The only time I can have a decent conversation is when I'm discussing my field of study. I.e. with coworkers and professors.
>>698156591
Stop Avatar fagging
>>698161595
Real friends truly are a gift, and it is true, being alone makes you a better friend. The same way being hurt makes you more compassionate.
>>698161919
The one that got helped him when he was being bullied, then left him, was abused, and returned? He was asking for advice, right?
>>almost 2 years ago the cancer we thought my dad beat returned hard.
>>Every attempt to help my father ends with the cancer doubly hurting him.
>>My mom never leaves his side, EVER. She stays by his side through every vomit, intense pain, and anxiety attacks.
>>Eventually dad enters into hospice. Dying slowly to the cancer.
>>Mom is worn out to rags. She sleeps on the folding couch in the hospital. Eats only the food from the cafeteria. And can't use the shower there.
>>I assertively tell mom to go home. She can shower, nap, and eat for a few hours. Dad doesn't seem like he's going to leave this world for some time longer.
>>Mom follows my advice and goes home.
>>2 hours later, my dad's breathing changes for the first time in days.
>>He's literally taking his last breathes.
>>I witness this happen. And then I make the call to mom.
>>She's so distraught on the phone. Says she should not have listened to me and stayed. Wishes she did.
>>I just wanted to give her a reprieve for a few hours. Ended up denying her the last moments with my father.
Occasionally she still brings it up. She says it's not my fault. But the look she gives me says different. It hurts every day. I miss my dad so much. And then I get wracked with guilt for being the one to see him when my mother wanted to so badly.
>>698160496
I feel you dude. The anxiety thing gets me. Just put in my two weeks to go back to school and move out of my aunties and of course my car breaks down that afternoon. Gotta keep on truckin brother, beleive in yourself
>>698158458
Fuuuuuuck... I'm scared of this.. I really am..
>>698155197
lolrekt
>>698161958
What's keeping you alive at the moment? Do you have anything to hold onto?
>>698162019
Will do, not a problem.
>>698160964
Is this legit?
>>698161951
Yeah... some are dealt a bad hand. But what can we do? Just sigh and keep moving.
>>698162172
yeah the one who works with her now
>>698162304
My family. I support them with groceries and rent
>>698159191
>>698162349
Yeah... Things like this have happened man.
been seeing a therapist for the last couple months after my mother got in an argument and screamed at me to get help. didn't like the thought of it at first, but got used to talking to therapist. over the past couple months lot of shit gone down and I find myself just feeling worse than ever, because while I enjoy therapy it isn't making me feel any better overall. could say my mental health is still declining. only thing I look forward to is therapy, but it's every two weeks. the only reason I don't jump off a roof is because im too scared of the unknown and want to talk to my therapist. I just want to talk about someone about my mental health since I find it interesting and want a proper diagnosis, that's basically the only goal in my life. find out what's wrong. but the only person I can talk to is the therapist because if some /b/tard or guy on a forum yells 'YOU GOT THe AUTISMS' it won't feel official. anyone can look up symptoms and say they have this or that but when a therapist says it, only then does it feel real.
>>698162197
Wow... I'm so sorry...
>>698161278
>>698161974
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s
the actual clip is even better
>>698160332
damn
>>698162221
Go, man, go! Just because I've just about given up doesn't mean you have to. Keep going.
>>698158407
Or playing video games.
I'm playing awesome games.
>>698160620
That plot twist fucks me up all the time....
>>698157242
/b/'s favorite /b/lack
>>698162395
I don't remember that part. He posted a pic of her, right? And said the dude she left him for took her V-card and he was pissed about that?
>>698156699
This is why I stopped having birthday parties. Birthday was always within a week of the school year ending, people were too busy with school or too busy leaving on vacation.
Now I just don't care to have them.
>>698162444
Bless you anon. God granted you trips for that.
All these feels.
>>698158458
I hope this person died painfully.
How dare you let your pms hurt her like that?
>>698162444
You don't think there's any possible way in the future you'll be able to forget her?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EoirWqKfZFg
>>698162607
Think of it like this: it's like a doctor having to rebreak a bone that didn't set properly the first time. Progress takes some time. These issues took years to develop; they don't magic away overnight. Stick with it.
I need to get back myself. I'm dealing with some of that, too. I don't want to find out how truly fucked I am; it might just drive me over the edge.
>>698155831
I would have straight up shot that bitch and her daughter too.
>>698162197
Im in a similar situation except I had a discussion about a week earlier.
I miss him, how am I gonna forgive myself im not sure.
>just turned 30 last month
>been on 4chan since 2009
>anti-semite
>racist
>atheist
>hate myself
>been with over 40 women
>been in serious relationship with 5 or 6 women
>have a gf of 4 years
>have a son and a daughter on the way
>suffered from depression all my life
>dad was never around
>mom worked 2 jobs to support me and my siblings
>bullied in school from 6th grade to high school
>always did shit for attention
>high school dropout
>army dropout
>addicted to computer/video games
>only had 1 real friend my entire life
>haven't talked to him in ages since he's successful now
>we both work in IT
>i barely make enough money to support my family
>no motivation to better myself physically or otherwise
>health deteriorating from poor diet and no exercise
>gf suffers from hyperemesis gravidarum
>she's in and out of the hospital
>never knew what love was until I saw my son
>addicted to benzos for the last 2+ years
>been in and out of 3 mental facilities since age 14
>therapy doesn't help
>been on every SSRI/SNRI/DNRI you can name from age 15
>suffer from permanent delayed ejaculation due to this
>have anxiety attacks and depression constantly
>hate my job
>hate my life
>hate myself because i'm a terrible person
>regret so many missed opportunities
>regret so many mistakes
>permanent guilt
>social outcast all my life
>love my son
>don't want him to grow up without a father like i did
>too chicken shit to pull the trigger
>>698163085
I don't think so. She was special
>>698162827
same story, do you have said picture of her if not i can find one of her
>>698155210
Fucking...
>>698162387
True, but for me it helped to understand where some of my anger and my issues came from. That´s all we can really do: play the shit hand we´re dealt.
>>698155641
I hate tumblr posting
>>698155646
literally would have killed the step-mum and possibly the dad too if I was in that situation, fucking hell.
>>698156699
except for the asian, atleast they have people (presumably moms) that care enough to make an effort. cakes, candles, party favors.
friends or not, family can count for a lot.
>god speed, lonely asian man
>>698163292
Goddamnit...
>>698163331
Nope, sorry. Try a 4chan archive site, though. Like 4plebs.
>>698161465
You must have some shitty friends.
I'm off to bed. Good night, /b/
I wish people stopped caring so much about how much I drink, and cared about WHY I drink so much.
I miss weed, I still used it to escape but at least I ate and slept and was "happy".
>>698154937
first i need to know what is going on on this pic to be sad
>>698163633
Good night, anon. Way to get dubs before clocking out for the night :)
>>698163633
Nothing but good dreams, my man.
>>698163561
was it her anon?
>>698162349
Considering how taught the leash is, it's probably just jumping through the snow.
>>698163066
got me
>>698162607
Dude therapists fuck you up, go to a psychologist tell him you need to be hipnotized to don`t have any feelings, it works makes you a cold bastard to everyone the only side effect is you feel empty.
But therapy can really damage you because they remind you of things of the past, I stay the fuck off therapy, and go to a gym use a motivitional audio while you do weights, or go to boxing, jijutsu, something like that.
Fuck /b/...i'm feeling real sad about what i did to a girl...she hurt me bad and i was being petty.
>>698163734
Mmm I don't remember seeing her.
>>698155027
>Can't spell freeze
>Spells it fries
>tfw nora is french
>tfw no face
Anyone read the story about the lolita girl? Elisa Sinclair? No piece of crap story ever written on this site has ever resonated with me so powerfully... I can't stop thinking about it.
>>698155641
Fuck off to reddit
>>698155926
saved
>>698163842
either way the same story applies to me whether it was me or not im here
>>698163701
Are you autistic?
The kid is in a hospice, probably dying from something
They made little pumpkin masks, they're trying to get the kid to have some fun.
There is no fun to be had. All the efforts to cheer the kid up are completely in vain. He knows his days are numbered, and he knows there is no hope.
That child is broken. Completely an totally broken.
>>698162613
>Wow... I'm so sorry...
Thanks. I don't wish this kind of pain on anyone.
>>698155197
ouch
>>698163240
Live for your kids anon, give them the love they deserve.
>>698160580
last time I heard them was when I was 12
not even from my parents
>>698163579
Nah, I live in Canada now. Bunch of SJWs liberals here.
>>698163277
Hopefully one day, keep moving, maybe see a therapist, go to a doctor. You've probably heard it all before and possibly followed some of the advice. Keep your chin up.
>>698155553
Fag
>>698162197
She didn't need to see that, did she?
Did she really need to watch him die?
You were there, he wasn't alone.
:( I need to get the fuck out of this thread
>>698156692
i would bring back harambe
>>698164035
The good news is it probably isn't real. If it is though, damn.
>>698161919
Yeah. Hopefully he dumped her ass.
I don't know a lot about this thread. I need someone to talk to. About anything. Your life, sports, games, anything. Anyone willing to. Please.
>>698165025
Looks like you know exactly what this thread is for, haha. What's on your mind, anon?
>>698164949
well im away from her for a week so i wont have to see her for such
gonna post some kinda abstract feels about a grill i "met" and got to know pretty well around 9-10 months ago, btw im 18 now and graduated from High School, so is she
>be 17 senior year in HS
>go to shitty HS, middle of nowhere
>get into 2nd semester AP English
>sit right in front of this girl ive known about 6 years and been kinda aqqainted for a couple years, well call her A
>qt3.14 face, not a stellar body, skinny, decent curves, wheres like almost no makeup, honest to god doesnt really need it whatever
>thought she was kind of a prude up to this point
>get to talking, actually really cool and likes my sense of humor and i talk to her a lot when i can in class(learned 3 months ago from her friend that rarely anybody makes her laugh like i did)
>time goes on of us talking to each other, we know each other decently well, dont really meet up outside of school and school activities though
>decide to ask her to prom
>wasnt super nervous about it (was my first prom if she said yes), asked her in class, A didnt even think about told me yes all smiles, but not like super embarassed(she had gone 3 years to prom already)
cont?
>>698165208
>>698164068
Wait, you're the OP of that thread?
>>698165025
Im here anon. Got any other way of communication than this thread though?
>>698165329
i think so? i was the guy who dated the girl that got the restraining order
>>698165155
Nothing really. Honestly, I have a daughter 5 states away and will prob never see her, but miss her and watched this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOk_qxkBphY
And I miss her and her mother and am scared and just need someone to speak to about it.
>>698165225
Yes, please.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yag41F7eCLU
Perfect song for a thread like this.
>>698165025
Hang in there anon. It gets better...
>>698154937
Just got to thinking about the people who work at these children's hospices..
Just watching kid after kid die of horrific, incurable diseases. Week after week, month after month, year after year they come into work with a smile and try to help cheer these kids up.
Fucking heros, man.
>>698165380
Legit anyone to alk about their lives, I have email I don't know about kik or snapchat or Insta or anything, anything easiest. Life just hearts and I want anyone to talk to about anything about anything even if its about me being a fag
>>698155116
>>698155139
>>698155177
What's this from?
>>698165329
>>698163734
if you were in that thread it was her
good night /b/ros god speed
Does anyone have the screencap about the anon who fell in love with that girl on the grand canyon road trip, lost her to an abusive guy and roided up to kill chad? was posted a few days ago. Story is pure gold. Could easily be made into a hit movie.
>>698155646
I don't normally say murder is justified, but here i can safely say that its pretty fucking justified.
Honestly, it's for the best that you don't read this one.
>>698165846
I want to anon
>>698165752
Thanks for sharing anon.
>>698166064
G'night man.
>>698165225
part 2
>little bit of time goes on of us just being friends and talking in class
>we setup prom arrangements, ima pick her up at her house take her to dinner and then prom after
>super nervous
>show up at her house, parents and grandparents there
>dont worry though, super nice people, helped me put my bowtie on and i talked with her family for 30 minutes(they seemed to like me)
>leave for dinner, realize how beautiful she looks then(had makeup on which she normally doesnt, makes her look even better than she already does) hair done, classic pinkish dress, not swanky or nothing though
>talk at dinner the entire time, have a lot of fun, laugh a lot and some prom couples who were at dinner and sorta make fun of em
>this is where i start to realize i might have feelings for more than just friends for this girl
>A had never really been in any relationships, kinda not the relationship type, christian, old parents, just a schoolgirl really, all of this kinda dissuaded me from moving forward at that point
>we leave dinner show up to prom, take pictures with mine and her family there, all is well, she's having a good time so far, so am i
>get into the venue, immediately me and her are on the dance floor,
>probably danced for 2 hours
>mind you this was as friends, not a "lot" of grinding or anything(however there was some hints at some points in the night of her grinding on me)
>>698166068
I don't have the screencap but I'd love one. WIsh I remebered to screencap. That story had some heart-wrenching feels. At least it doesn't leave you sad at the end. Anyway, anyone got the screencap on this?
>>698165833
My mom did a lot of this at the nursing home she worked in the last couple years before she died. I was always amazed how strong she seemed.
It's been ten years now. I really wish I could talk to her about what I'm going through...
>>698160781
This is me so hard. Oh god safiya. Why did things turn out like it did
>>698166068
Yo, that's the one I was talking about in
>>698162172
And
>>698162827
>>698157605
L4D
>tank
>boomer
>witch
>smoker
>hunter
>>698166083
Why did you delete? Post again please
>>698162827
YEAH! I remember that story. Anyone got a screencap?
>>698163149
the problem is right now therapy isn't helping and if I sit back and look at it, it's making me worse. the only time therapy 'helps' is when im sat there to the therapist talking about everything because im distracted and fine. but the weeks beforehand I run everything over in my head, I think about what I said and what im going to say. I get stressed out, I get anxiety. I literally feel sick when sat in the waiting room even if im looking foeward to it. it doesn't make sense but that's what happens. and while that one hour may be a good one, when it ends when I have to walk home Im exactly the same. I get anxiety over what ive said wondering if I misssaid something or should of talked about this or that, and the next two weeks are spent trying to figure out what to say next session. the only time ith elps is during that one hour. the rest of the time it simply produces anxiety, stress and general unhappiness. but im not going to stop going, because I want my answer. it's all I want.
>>698166111
If there's any way to communicate outside of this thread I will. About anything really. I'm willing to talk about anything you want to or myself. I just want to talk about anything. Write not I don't have anyone at 12:44AM EST, AUG6, 2016. Anyone. Anything. I just need someone. For anything, Anything, My anon email is [email protected] and will respond to any anon. Just need friends that care. Anyone. About anything.
>>698163903
>TFW fries is his real last name and Mr. FREEZE is just an alter ego.
>>698166272
>>698166327
>>698166381
I fucking loved that story. Shit was worthy of being published into a book or something. Please tell me someone has a screencap.
>>698160207
I dont want to grow up the tears have become too much
>>698166736
Sorry mate, don't have it
>>698164660
>She didn't need to see that, did she?
>Did she really need to watch him die?
>You were there, he wasn't alone.
I'm torn on this too. My father didn't want any of his kids around to "see the face of death." I told him I wanted to be around him as much as I could, even towards his final days. I still would go home at the end of the day though. My mother stayed at the hospital with him for 8 days. And it was that 8th day that I suggested she go home for a short break. If anything, for her mental health. For 8 days, my dad was consistent in his decline. But 2 hours after my mom left, he just went downhill so fast.
I don't know what would've happened if she saw him pass away. She just wanted to be by his for as long as possible. Fuck me, I still don't know what is right and wrong with this scenario. It just sucks in the back of my head is the thought I denied her another moment with her husband.
>>698166203
part 3 (oh and btw this honest to god isnt just some shit i made up, this actually happened thats why its not all glorified and shit and im not a writer)
>the entire time just thinking about what me and A could be
>kept it to myself
>seems like time flew, everybodies kinda clearing out of the venue
>me and A walk to my truck and i take her to her house
>tells me her friend wants A to go to dinner with her(its like 10 pm which i thought was funny), originally i was like cool ill go home, A's parents insist on me going with her
>whatever im kind of a "yesman", ill go
>we show up to the iHop where her friend is with her prom date
>me and A sit next to each other
>whole time A's friend's promdate is kinda saying weird shit and so is A's friend, kinda laugh it off with A, whisper jokes to her, she laughs
>we eat with them, then we leave about an hour later
>take her back to her house yet again
>start really acknowledging this is one of the greatest nights of my life, and i just keep looking at A and i am just like damn
>take her home, no kisses or nothing,(remember we went just as friends which sucked)
>start thinking maybe asking A out to myself
>>698166960
Somebody has to
>>698156491
What's the story on Julius? And the story on him getting a birthday card?
>>698166621
You've got mail, anon :-)
>>698165833
>Just watching kid after kid die of horrific, incurable diseases. Week after week, month after month, year after year they come into work with a smile and try to help cheer these kids up.
>Fucking heros, man.
Was just at a wedding. One of the ladies at my table was a pediatric hospice nurse. She fucking took great pride in her work with a full smile. You could see her really happy to just help these people.
Fucking heroes is right man. There needs to be more appreciation for these people.
>>698164035
Fuck you man, my eyes are sweating!
I'm not even joking, that tugged on my heartstrings hard.
I found a reupload. It was on funnyjunk.
http://funnyjunk.com/channel/4chan/Elisa+milicent+sinclair+long/atejLng/
>>698154937
another feels thread? wtf's wrong with you degenerates? if you're lonely, get a girl. if you're poor, get a job. get over the shit your parents did to you. if they're dead then whatever. they're dead.
stop missing the shit you don't have anymore. get the shit you want at all costs. stop wasting your time jerking off to your feelings like a big titted milkmaid. man. the fuck. up
>>698166543
I was exactly where you are. In some ways, I still am. It took me a year and a half of going before I began to see any kind of improvement.
>>698159895
I'm hurting now...
>>698166621
Mine is [email protected] , anon(s). I am usually too lazy/bored to talk to anyone but if you ever feel that you want to talk to someone email me.
>>698155831
Why the fuck would she tell him that she had his daughter if she wanted him to not be the father and out of her life?
What a manipulative psychobitch. She probably got off on making him suffer.
>>698167061
The story was posted on Wednesday by some Anon that frequents feels threads. He should be lurking.
Just to be clear, he ends up asking advice if he should stay with her or leave, doesn't he?
>>698167403
I pity you, you just don't get it it all
>>698167166
Got no mail yet, but this means more to me than anyone can imagine
