Sup /b/
I'm fucking tired of seeing the same shit on here, gimme something entertaining, tell me about your fears, your worries, what you hate about the world and society, whatever irks you right now, lets hear it fags, I wanna know
i like this dutch girl at my school (dutch is important because that makes me 10x harder) and she probably knows because my friends say her name and she'll look in my direction or something and my friends also tag me in her instagram posts. i'm super scared to talk to her because she's dated other guys that are way more attractive than me. i may add picture but for now , no
I have a morbid fear of the doorbell ringing lol. I think there's trauma attached to it but yeah, worst fear.
>>697689640
are you talking about looks? if so than I wouldn't worry much about that unless you're a total swamp monster, it's about how you carry yourself, personally I just tell myself "She wont remember for long anyway if I go for it so why the fuck not?"
>>697689919
Just the ring? not the interaction with people?
>>697690316
Yeah just the ring/not knowing who it is. I'm definitely not anti social, I work, etc.
>>697689979
that's very true
>>697690463
I get paranoid when someone knocks on the door too loud
>>697690463
well I get that, you never know what the person on the other side will do, could talk about Jesus, could fuck your butt and rob you, you just never know
>>697690667
I mean, don't get me wrong, I get rejected often, but remember it only has to work once to last a lifetime (granted you meet the right one I suppose)
Fears: not really sure actually. I have small fears like everyone else but nothing worth noting.
Worries: people finding my porn passing class not much too really. I don't worry about things. It's not in my nature
Hate:gay people sjws blm supporters liberals people who automatically think they are better than me
Irk:people chewing with their mouth open and being loud and talking in times where there needs to be quit
slow claps*
steps out of the shadows*
Heh... not bad, kid. Not bad at all. Your meme, I mean. It's not bad. A good first attempt. It's plenty dank... I can tell it's got some thought behind it... lots of quotable material...
But memeing isn't all sunshine and rainbows, kid. You're skilled... that much I can tell.
But do you have what it takes to be a Memester? To join those esteemed meme ranks? To call yourself a member of the Ruseman's Corps?
Memeing takes talent, that much is true. But more than that it takes heart.
The world-class Memesters - I mean the big guys, like Johnny Hammersticks and Billy Kuahana - they're out there day and night, burning the midnight meme-oil, working tirelessly to craft that next big meme.
And you know what, kid? 99 times out of a hundred, that new meme fails.
Someone dismisses it as bait, or says it's "tryhard," or ignores it as they copy/paste the latest shitpost copypasta dreamt up by those sorry excuses for cut-rate memers over at reddit.
The Meme Game is rough, kid, and I don't just mean the one you just lost :^).
It's a rough business, and for every artisan meme you craft in your meme bakery, some cocksucker at 9gag has a picture of a duck or some shit that a million different Johnny No-Names will attach a milion different captions to.
Chin up, kid. Don't get all mopey on me. You've got skill. You've got talent. You just need to show your drive.
See you on the boards.....
I am worried that i will never be happy with my life/myself. I want to be creative but also make my parents proud. But im a good for nothing so every summer i consider suicide.
everything you said : everything
eze
>>697691604
Dude I consider suicide on a weekly, if not, daily basis, my parents don't think much of me right now either, but I know that changes, I have good times, and I have bad, I have a lot of creative aspirations that I'm afraid to pursue as well, but you're always gonna get push back from someone until you find a way to make it work, you gotta find a way to get yourself out there while still making money to eat, it takes patience and hard work, it's hard to wrap your head around juggling the two, until you figure it out, then you feel godlike
>tell me about your fears
I'm scared of being electrocuted(severely)/getting struck by lightning. I'm also scared of getting set on fire/burning to death and of being permanently homeless or in jail.
>your worries
I'll never find a job that I actually enjoy doing. That even if I straighten my life out and fix all problem areas I still won't be happy. I'll die having never truly experienced love or made a meaningful (non love related) connection with anyone.
>what you hate about the world and society
We spend too much time texting and not enough time talking. We're reverting back to prehistoric days where we communicate through cave drawings (emojis) instead of using actual words. That typing short hand and misspelling one word per sentence is somehow socially acceptable and looked at as cool. Furthermore we care to much about getting what we want and validating our own thoughts and beliefs and not enough about trying to treat others with basic amounts of humanity.
>whatever irks you right now
It's been about a month without drinking and I sure could use some alcohol.
I've kicked all of my habits except one. I can't go more than 24 hours without fapping. I just canNOT do it. I've tried everything short of cutting my dick so I can't without it hurting. It's pissing me off because I quit blow cold turkey, social media too.
>>697692760
Bro, that is me in a nutshell, I feels ya man, the love thing particularly fucks with me late at night. fuck I should've greentexted
>>697689640
Better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all
>>697692959
What's wrong with that? is it affecting your life negatively? I know when I used to fap all the time it made me a little numb to things that normally got me going but that's it
>>697693120
The truth of that emerges years down the road when you start to remember something that used to hurt you as a fond memory.
>>697691341
Are we the same?
>>697693283
It makes me less motivated, more anxious, and lethargic. I feel like I would focus a lot better if I didn't. The part that bothers me the most about it is that I'm a slave to my urges. My current goal is total self-control, and it's the one fuckin hurdle I can't jump.
http://www.strawpoll.me/10865687
here
>>697693120
i agree but i can't get the goddamn courage to even look at her
>>697693321
What's wrong with that? It's like putting money away for the future
>>697693461
hmm do you have anyone in your life you're attracted to? are you still a little young?
>>697693560
Work out a bit more and stop fapping to build some testosterone and keep telling yourself you're attractive. If you're happy and confident with yourself then she'll like you more
>>697693756
I'm 21, getting over a relationship that just ended. Was with her for a year and a half. Mentally I have all that squared away and it isn't an issue. I don't even fantasize or watch porn, it's as natural to me as pissing but leaves me feeling hollow.
I was the reason my neighbor moved
Shall i tell stories
>>697693560
maybe it'd help if you brought a good friend to help you talk to her, or perhaps buff out the rough edges on fb or something, the anxiety should wear off the more familiar you get with one another
>>697694001
dis oughta be gud
>>697694001
Yes please
>>697693120
Thats a lie. Been there once, been with many before and since and that shit was not worth it.
>>697694001
>>697693560
jesus christ man....
>>697693974
Ah, that might be a part of it, I had something similar up until just recently. now I only do it like twice or three times a week, I picked up a couple of hobbies and interests to hold me off until I just didn't feel like doing it so much anymore
>>697693560
Getring up the courage to talk to women takes a confidence in your social skills and your looks.
Step 1: exercise. If you're fat you can fix that. If you're ugly you're just ugly but you can work with it.
Step 2: socialize. Go to concerts, events, raves, anywhere you can chat with people. Places with alcohol are better because they're less likely to judge you for acting strange.
Social etiquette is just an act. Once you learn the game it becomes very easy. It's okay to look like an idiot in front of strangers too because you'll never see them again, and lesson learned. It took 2 years of this and I consider myself especially charismatic now.
Confidence comes from experience. Just go talk to people and don't be a fat piece of shit.
>>697694001
hell yeah man, gotta do it
>>697693560
Well she's gonna end up with somebody, why shouldn't it be you? You deserve to be happy just like anyone else. Embarrassment goes away, the regrets that come with wondering "what if" never do.
>>697694422
actually I kinda agree, I had some pretty mad social anxiety until I started visiting bars regularly, really took a lot of the edge off. He makes a blunt, yet valid point
>>697694001
YES PLEASE
TELL US
>>697694103
>>697694054
Alright ill tell the first one
>be me
>16
>live in really boring fucking town
>absolutely nothing to do
>only have a few friends
>anyways this one lady moves right across the street from me
>short bald headed nigger
>being the nice family my family was we made her a pie and they made me walk it over to her house
>knock in door and she answers and i offer it to her
"WHAT DA FUCK WHY YOU GIVEN ME A PIE IS IT BC IM BLACK? HUH? RACIST LITTLE BOY"
>she slams door in face
>confused to all hell
>so is family
>later that night that starts to bother me
>get pissed and decide to retaliate
>the next day my friends come over and we decide to do the only thing we could do
>watermelon.jpg
>over the next few weeks we find out that she leaves her house every day at 6:00 am
>she leaves her window open on the side of her house so her cats can leave
>we go to store and buy watermelons
>go into her house through open window and leave watermelons in odd places around her home
>kinda like that pineapple greentext except with watermelons
>she comes home around 4 pm
Cont.?
dying alone
>>697689154
Honestly, the major thing that pisses me off is the fact that world war 3 hasn't started. We all know it's coming, we all know it's going to fuck the world up beyond repair, and yet here we are, just watching the news and waiting to hear about the next terrorist fuckwit who went apeshit with a knife.
I just want to watch the world burn, is that really asking for too much?
>>697695207
I'm pretty sure technology is at the point where it can really start taking care of us. Google transhumanism brah
>>Fears:
None that I can think of. A mild fear of large spiders, but I've somewhat overcome it by getting a pet tarantula.
>>Worries:
I'm going to school as a pre-med. I worry about not getting into medical school, but I have decent grades and I'm not a big worrier.
>>What I Hate About the World and Society:
Pop Music. It pissed me off how there can be artists out there that really enjoy making music, they put their hearts and souls into the music they are creating, but then someone like Taylor Swift comes along and creates a cookie-cutter song that is, fundamentally, good, but lacks creativity/emotion. She writes about break-ups and other emotions, but she puts none into the music. That's my biggest issue with society.
That and the fact that someone like Donald Trump may become the POTUS. That's pretty worrisome.
>>Whatever Irks Me Right Now:
The fact that my family wants me to spend time with them (which I don't care to do) and the fact that whenever I'm in the same room as them, they just sit on their phones or watching television. Either participate in a family activity or let me go relieve my intrusive thoughts by killing shit in video games.
>>697695019
>>Something that irks me
The fact that little fucking 16 year olds get on /b/.
I hate my wife and my life. And none of that Matters because i have a kid. I love him enough to fuck the rest of my life up. Which is what I'm doing. I'm a heavy heavy alcoholic at this point. I'm totally in love with my best friends wife. We've made love once in the last year. She is now what i live for aside from my kid.
>>697695052
a true classic, I'm right there with ya
>>697695019
fake and gay
>>697695052
we all die alone. People can be there on the start of that journey, but it's a journey we all take alone.
Just be careful with people dude. When you're lonely it's easy to see past flaws and get attached to people who will hurt you.
You need to learn to love yourself and to set standards for the people you associate with. Once you project an air of confidence, your actions will start to change and you'll find people.
But until then, you've always got anon to keep you company.
>>697695019
Yes
>>697694297
Yeah, I agree. Have been with two more since I lost the girl I love. It's not the same. I'm currently in a long-term relationship, but it's not nearly as pleasurable, nor am I as happy as I was with the one I lost...
>>697695613
If you're an alcoholic you aren't doing SHIT for your kid's life you pussy. He's gonna grow up and fucking hate you, and that's gonna reflect in every relationship he has. Get yourself straightened out.
>>697695439
>hillary fag
>2 biggests probs with the world are fucking pop song creativity and Donald Trump
of course
>biggest irk, spending time with other people who raised my little shit ass
Nice you fucking spoiled degenerate
>>697695689
Fucking amen man! listen to this anon, he knows his stuff
>>697695842
You need to accept that loss. She is her own person and you are your own person. Moreover, you are a MAN. Act like one. I get the pain. Im currently experiencing the same shit. But you need to let the fuck go of it. Everything you lose will return to you in another form. It's the same shit coming back. Learn to love what you have before you lose that too.
And don't compare them. Hold them to your OWN standard. If your chick don't make you happy, explain that to her. It's not rocket science. It's emotion.
>>697689154
I worry that by the time I go to retire, the social security system won't exist anymore.
Which means I'll have spent years putting money into a system that won't exist.
>>697695873
Haha my kid loves me and and all i do for him. Just because you read the cliff notes of my life doesn't mean I'm your fucked up father. Get a grip faggot
>>697695964
Did I say I'm for Hillary? No, I'm not. They are both terrible choices for the candidacy.
>>Spending time with the people who raised me
I enjoy spending time with my family when we are actually doing shit. I don't understand the point in sitting with people if you aren't engaging in any conversation. I don't enjoy sitting and being stagnant. Television and movies bore me. Video games actually present mental stimulation, hence, I'd rather be playing them.
>>697696061
I'm a 21 year old recovering coke addict that can't find a job bra, I'm just as degenerate as you.
>>697696130
I get it, and I don't let on that I wish she was my ex. I treat her nicely and I enjoy her company, I'm just saying it's nothing like my ex.
>>697696399
then why dont you play them right now, and those dubs were stolen
My mom is crazy. Seriously. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going crazy. People seem to look at me like I'm crazy sometimes. Now, I feel like I have the same mentality as most other people - the same fears, worries, etc. But how can I be certain? Sure, we can communicate with language. But we can't see directly into each other's souls. In a very real sense, we're all trapped inside of ourselves...
>>697696202
Stop being so afraid. Fix your life. It's never too late.
>>697696438
So? that doesn't mean you can't know what you're talking about, I didn't say you were perfect, I just agree with what you said
>>697689154
My fear is that I wasted my life and it's too late to do anything about it. My fear is that I'm going to end up working myself to death, alone, returning to self medication in my shitty little apartment every night in a town where I know no one.
>>697696507
Yeah I'm pretty sure the next one won't be anything like her too.
The difference is, I don't want her anymore.
There's a perspective to consider.
>>697696130
I don't care about her, bro. I don't care about any of them anymore.
>>697696636
That's actually a legitimate argument anon. I have no rebuttal to that.
Also these dubs were stolen? How do you mean?
>>697696170
>paying all his taxes and deductions and shit
breh.....
>>697689154
>3 month divorced by my choice
>starting to regret it
>balding at 23
>having random uncontrollable bursts of sadness
>cant even speak to a level people hear me anymore
>no eye contact with society either
>>697696786
Drop some acid. Being alone is a wonderful thing.
In fact I prescribe everyone in this thread a dose of LSD or psilocybin combined with some cannabis. It helps with thinking about these sorts of things.
my iphone got stolen on saturday and i have to pay $200 on top of my monthly payment plan to replace it and im so angry. i dont have the money either
>>697696877
Right, and we are all entitled to deal with our problems in our own ways. I personally have been to a therapist (university therapist), I've read all the articles on how to get over her, and I still can't. I've thrown away all the shit, deleted all the texts, and I can't get over her.
>>697697029
Hookers and blow is Dr. Anon's prescription. No longer than a weekend.
What bothers me is people, and the fact that we look over almost everything else and always put our fellow human beings first. What makes us so special? What do we matter at all? The only reason we think we matter is because we have given ourselves this sort of self worth and entitlement to a standard of living conditions and life quality. Your life does not matter, your happiness and that of those (people) you care for does not matter, your feelings don't matter. All we have done with our knowledge, power and resources is better the human condition of living as much as possible for those our societies see as important. This gift of intelligence is not a gift but a curse set upon the rest of the world we just so happen to inhabit and share. We do not only share it amongst each other, but with all other living beings. And because of our intellectual capabilities look what we've done, look what's happened to the earth. It's a mess for the most part, even in some of the most developed nations we see things happening that only worsen the quality of life for other living things and the majority of us don't give a damn! I give more of a fuck about a rat than I do a human being because it's doing what it has to do to live and makes the most of what it's given to get by day by day. People on the other hand, want more and more and more and more. But when is it enough? When will we learn our lesson? Do any of you think the human species will overcome it's overwhelming sense of greed? I think we're gonna kill ourselves and everything else with us over some ridiculous and worthless thing like a piece of land on a fucking map when it belongs to every living thing! Not just fucking people!
>>697691341
> people finding my porn passing class
wtf is a porn passing class
>>697697074
Get a flip phone, you'll feel better without a smartphone trust me
>>697697093
Sometimes there's shit only time will heal. It took me 3 years to get over one chick, and she wasn't even worth it.
>>697697177
i find no joy on random hookups too, thanks for prescription tho doctor, forgot to add i have 0 friends and 0 family members.
>>697689154
I'm so fucking annoyed by those politics fags on FB. It's aight to have your opinion but making sure that everybody knows you are leftwing / rightwing is plain adhd
>>697697237
You think too much. Dr. Anon prescribes alcohol and porn.
>>697697237
I want to develop a medicine that prevents the body from aging. Then make it so that only rich people can purchase it. Then, release the info to the press. Then, go into the mountains and hide while the poor kill the rich. Then restart with a fewer number of humans.
But alas, it's only a dream. Just know you're not alone anon.
>Take a break from porn my friend...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqBsiHBjit8
I'm worried I've fucked my life up completely by settling down with the wrong person. at least once a week I think about relationships that I could have had leading up to this one. I haven't acted on anything and probably won't because I don't want to uproot my children based on a selfish want.
I will die unhappy and wondering if I should have done something different.
Or is the problem me? Would I be this way with everyone rather than just the person I'm with?
Am I unhappy with me therefore making me unhappy with others
When I do things to feel better about myself I'm more inclined to get in contact with the people I've been thinking of. My brain is fucking up my life.
I have a really important exam i CAN NOT fail in two days, but i cant make myself sit down and study for it. I just lie and fantasize how i finally go back home to my country for the summer vacation and if i am ment to - get together with a girl i really like. She seems like she cant wait for me to go back too, but im scared if nothing happens. There is another story to it, but i will cont. If anyone is interested, so my words dont just get thrown away
>>697697387
That calls for drastic measures then.
Don't worry, Dr. Anon has the solution.
Go do what I did.
Buy a pellet gun, a lighter, and some iodine tablets and like a bottle. Bring a knife.
Go to the deepest, most uninhabited woods within a 12 hour drive.
Last ingredient is 2 tabs of acid.
Go innawoods, survive, and trip. Two nights. Learn yourself down to the very core. That's what turned my life around.
>>697697040
i'm not in the proper mindset to do acid. it'll probably be a bad scene.
and i agree that being alone isn't a bad thing. it's when you become addicted to being alone that it becomes a problem. one day you look around and realize that there's no one left because you always wanted to be alone. and you end up on 4chan posting in threads like this.
>>697697414
I agree, it is starting to grow into some pretty harsh cancer, but it's better than the other horseshit that populates way to much of /b/ nowadays
>>697697724
That sounds like a terrible idea... But an interesting one.
>>697689919
Ever done drugs? That's where mine started. I was always worried I left random paraphernalia laying out and the wrong person would see it. Now that the drugs are gone, my freaking out has stopped.
>>697697667
Give someone else the password to your social media and whatnot.
Take a stimulant. Adderall, blow, energy drinks, whatever.
Smoke some weed but not too much.
Delete all your vidya.
Works for me every time
>>697697452
Right, it's like, is 'x' really a problem, or is thinking about it too much the problem?
I know I fucked up my life. I have a legal case against me for several dumb reason and all of the people I got to begin to like me, I fear, despise me. I really liked this girl and if she knows what I've done, that's the end of that.
i feel like monetary systems are unnecessary and people "work" anywhere just to get themselves by which shouldnt be tolerated, humanity has more potential but we are dumbed down by assholes who want to make more money.
the fact that education isnt free is outrageous, why should we pay to be smarter society? what are they even selling me? other peoples ideas? its a big money game
money is obscuring everything, we should be working for a better humanity but it isnt possible because money limits us and doritoez and shiney shit keeps us stupid, docile, and happy
another thing, cars are a huge waste of space. not everyone should have a car. imagine how much closer together everything could be without roads, driveways, parking lots. or at least smaller versions of those things.
i ride a bicycle (go ahead and hate) and people get made when me and my friend ride two abreast, yet cars are designed for two FAT FUCKS to sit side by side without the option to be in a line with their air conditioning, shit music, shit speakers, and their fast food. cars are a huge waste of resources, time, and space and "money" and it keeps us lazy as fuck. so much time spent driving in circles, doing jobs that mean fuck all...its horrible...
at least thats what i believe. and not only that, I can fix my bicycle by myself. if your car malfunctions, most people can't fix their own car, take it to 5 mechanics ask them whats wrong and get 5 different fucking answers. even the "experts" know fuck all about their machine, or their trying to fuck us for money, which i already covered...
people should live and do work for the benefit of humanity, not for the dollar.
>>697697923
honestly just the adderall should do it
>>697689154
I'm pretty sure I'm a Stage 10 narcissistic Sociopath, if that even is a thing. Although... it isn't very healthy to self-diagnose. I'm sure I'm not the only one in this thread who thinks like this, but seeing as some of us here are loners to a degree, I'm sure you can relate. It's like having this weird gift where you can manipulate people, even strangers, to do what you want them to at any time. You can alter your personality to be what you want to be to attract anyone in any situation. You think you're better than everyone else. But you aren't violent in any way. Nobody has the slightest clue you think like this either, obviously. You're just the guy/girl that everyone gets along with. You watch people your age interact with others and just are appalled by their personalities and what they think is funny/amusing/important. You think you've tasted some fruit of a higher power. But then you go to bed at night and the Nihilism sets in. You don't see a point in working, getting married, doing things the way you're supposed to, You just simply exist ,knowing that nothing really matters,
>>697697761
Worst thing about it are those underage fags who never even dealt with shit in their life and use it as a "looks cool - must be cool - probably makes me cool" thing
>>697697923
Thanks, was thinking about storing my laptop away, so i dont get distracted. Its so hard for me to study. Always has. Im just too lazy - my biggest flaw. Im glad im studying architecture and most of my examination are projects and presenting them, but when it finally came down to the written physics exam i am scared shitless
>>697689154
My ass is on fire
>>697697937
You're thinking too much about thinking too much.
>>697689154
I hate the niggers lives matter cretins and the progressives and the white and i'm WORRIED that western white society will slowly degrade in the next several decades. I'm currently studying math and CS and I hope to be a professor.
>>697698130
I'd advise you step back even further from that perspective and be true to yourself. A stage 10 narcissist would be out in the world doing god knows what. Not wanting to hear others fears and what not.
>>697697724
I read some of Castaneda's books and in other words thats what he recommended his "disciple" doing. I know the world owes me shit and etc, so a sudden change of priorities could possibly refresh me. Thats a very clever idea anon, can you greentext your experience?
>>697698130
Thanks for speaking my mind for me, anon.
fuck england, fucking faggots
>>697689154
Stupid people calling other people stupid... college.
>>697698139
alas the kiddos aren't the only ones that think that way anyone, now everyone is vying for the attention of people who will never give a shit because they too are vying to hard to notice, then they outcast the people who say and act differently like they're complete retards or something
>>697698014
the love of money is the root of all evil not money itself. do peopl missuse/abuse tools? yup, can you do anything about it? no
chill out, work on yourself, dont turn into a marx fag or tell-everyone-else-what-to-do fag
>>697693120
bro
>>697695689
>>697697414
/pol/ was taken over by intolerable fags that only want an echo chamber, and the newfags never learned to lurk more. so they come here and do the same shit bc they dont know better
>>697698014
It's fine you're against the monetary system but don't be another cancerous, hypocritical communist faggot
>>697698364
hey give credit where credit is due, everyone is fucking the world, left right or in between, everyone thinks the other is out to fuck each other to death so they steamroll any progress on either side, leaving us at a stalemate, while the world burns we bicker mindlessly about which fire extinguisher to use
I'd say we should kill 75 percent of the population in a mass non - nuclear or chemical war and hit the fucking reset button on our society but then there will not be enough intelligent beings to help maintain our nuclear power plants and other man made things that would only cause more overall damage if not for us maintaining them.
>>697698578
This was pretty recent.
>be me, 21
>hooked on blow and just lost my gf of a year and a half.
>flunked out of school and kicked out of parents' house
>living in my car, have about $3000 from my student loan so planning what to do with that
>always wanted to go innawoods, and my spiritual teacher told me it's time
>drive to the place I'm going, won't say where for anonymity purposes
>take all my shit and some acid and weed
>walk deep innawoods first day, hot and sunny and wishing I brought bug spray.
>get hungry and shoot and clean a squirrel.
>make a camp with a lean-to and small fire
>find some water and fill my bottle and drop iodine
>there's a rock in a clearing, mid afternoon by now
>I cook the squirrel and eat most, saving the rest in a handkerchief.
Continue?
>>697689154
I fried my brain taking synthetic lsd (I was told it was mescaline) now I have to take 2 anti-psychotics and a shot once every 2 weeks ontop. I can't smoke pot without flipping shit thinking it's the end of the world (literally) I tried to stop my meds and ended up attacking my dad because I felt the urge to. It was impulse, he said it lasted about an hour and a half but I only member 15mins tops. I have gained 40lbs due to the meds. That's what is fucked up about my life OP
>>697698490
The thing... is that I hate being narcissistic. There's a part of me that wants to care about others and be loved, and appreciate/be appreciated truthfully.. but honestly I just lack the ability to. That part of my brain is turned off. That's the scariest part.
Scenario, Let's say you walk past someone who's passed out on the street due to drinking all night. do you A. call the police and report it. B. try to wake them up yourself. or C. walk past and laugh. It can be a dark world to live in when you laugh at other's suffering. Even darker when you want it to stop.
>>697695607
you realise this couldve happened in the past
>>697699472
noooooooooooooooooo NOOOOOO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO
>>697697452
You think too little. You're the exact type of person he's talking about. Greedy fuckhead looking to benefit himself.
>>697698876
It's not even a tool, man. It's a delusion. A delusion we are forced to participate in since birth. Hell, you can't even be born without paying for it. If you want to learn to give birth yourself, gotta pay for it. Slap a number on everything. Social security, address, vegetables, put a number on it! Can't even die without paying for it. Its what humans are best at. Putting numbers on things. And who made up the concept of numbers? Humans.
The mere presence of money is the problem. It's everywhere. The cancer that's killing rational thought.
>>697689640
You'll never know if you don't at least try.
>>697699484
KEEP ON YOUR MEDS you schizo.
you have a thyroid problem? dont fuck with yer dopamine levels that will make you psycho as shit
also, who was the best jewish baker?
>>697689154
>Fears - Cockroaches, water.
>Worries - Running out of weeeeeed.
>World and Society - I kind of hate it all despite having lost my virginity and having a solid group of friends. Think I'm ill.
>Irking me now - Itch on back I can't get rid of.
>>697689640
I used to be in same position as you, I actually got the courage and I was with that girl for 1 year, hurts as fuck when you break up knowing she's hot as fuck and that you'll never have gf hot as she was.
>>697699472
>withdrawl from blow is really getting me sick so I smoke some weed to calm down.
>it's a beautiful clear night and I drop the acid and stare at the fire
>I wait a bit and nibble on some squirrel, when the fire starts doing weird shit, making shapes and landscapes.
>thetimehascome.bmp
>I go sit on the rock in lotus position.
>I close my eyes and try my best to stop thinking
>I open them again and the world is different
>the moonlight makes everything look like it's made of marble
>see people in the leaves and shit, waiting for something big to happen
>smoke another bowl
>see a light in the trees
>go to follow
>wander around until I find a rocky outcropping
>rocks look like crouched people
>the people start talking to me
>I don't hear it so much as think it
>they all tell me who I am and where I came from
>they all tell me my purpose
>tfw my purpose is to raise a son who will change the world
>go sit on rock in clearing again
>hear humming sound
>it's like everything is humming all at once
>I finally understand that we're all the same being viewing itself through countless eyes
>meditate on this for hours, watching the moon slowly move across the sky
>>697700186
Water? Not swimming or drowning, just...water? What the fuck?
>>697699797
>It's not even a tool, man. It's a delusion. A delusion we are forced to participate in since birth. Hell, you can't even be born without paying for it. If you want to learn to give birth yourself, gotta pay for it. Slap a number on everything. Social security, address, vegetables, put a number on it! Can't even die without paying for it. Its what humans are best at. Putting numbers on things. And who made up the concept of numbers? Humans.
>The mere presence of money is the problem. It's everywhere. The cancer that's killing rational thought.
i disagree with you bc no one is going to want to reduce their capacity to trade things. im wondering if you dont support yourself fully yet bc i had similar ideas when i did work and was younger. YOU dont have to live for money just bc some people do.
also evil exists so perfection cannot be had on earth, but it can be legit and that just part of life. currently money is used bc we used to trade items bc no one can produce everything for themselves. why should I give my labor to sick/evil people? i shouldnt have to and thats why i spend my labor/money/time on loved ones and helping those that i choose to help
>>697699134
thanks man, i try not to be. I play music and am learning chemistry, with degrees in both fields and a ton of mathematics classes. hopefully i would like to be able to live on a veg/fruit farm someday and make food. dont worry, not a vegetarian faggot, meat is awesome, but its easier to grow veg. everything i make i will give for free. music, food, and anything else i can make and give to people abundantly
i believe a healthy (more than just mind/body) world begins with a healthy mind, and to build a healthy mind you need lots of education and lots of healthy food.
>>697700530
Yeah just water man
>>697689154
I have a fear of loosing everything I hold dear to me and not achieving anything. I'm living this reality but I'm trying to convince myself that I'm just delusional. I keep screwing up while everyone around me is moving forward and I'm left with nothing that I can hold as an accomplishment. The more I think about it, the more I convince myself that I deserve this little slice of hell I'm creating for myself. Maybe I was never meant to find happiness. Maybe I was never suppose to.
>>697700412
Sounds enlightening
LIVE LIVE LIVE
Get in here;
youtube.com/watch?v=fADSOk2KPa0
>>697700412
>by morningtime, I feel amazing
>pass out in my lean-to for most of the day
>in the afternoon, I wake up and finish my squirrel and smoke the rest of my weed. Coke withdrawl ain't that bad really.
>sun is down by the time I get back to my car
>I get in my car and go fix my life
That's where I'm at now. I've kicked every habit save one and I'm sure of what I need to do with my life.
It's all uphill from here, 10/10 would do again if I lose control again
Fear of being hung out to dry by my family,
>>697700815
Small goals. Try writing a list of shit you need ot want to do. Set one a day until you feel like you're worth a shit, and if you can't do the specific thing that day do something that is you working towards your want or need. It works but you have to make yourself do it... that's the hard part.
>>697691341
Lol I'm better than you faggot
>>697699538
youre way hip arent you?
captain cool?
mister marvelous?
doctor demented?
lieutenant loser?
commander cunt?
kaiser krampon?
private penile papule?
madame misfit?
lady longhaven?
go fuck youself
>>697701134
You're in this thread. No you're not.
>>697701273
Lol do you hate me faggot?
>>697701412
That's a lot of captcha solving just to be an asshole. You can't have the talking pillow anymore lmao
>>697701412
In order to hate you I must first hate myself.
I don't hate you and I can probably help you if you tell me what's bothering you.
>>697700932
some context
>honor student in high school
>get a good scholarship to a state university near by (rest covered by student loans)
>promised myself not to drink, party and do drugs
>btw still a virgin
>no real friends
>just homework
>go to university and stay in the dorms
>get homesick
>not doing any work and skipping many classes by my own anxiety
>my family is poor so they would much rather not support me
>drop out of university and live with my mom
and ran away from my classes and my debt
>afraid of being forced to deal with my responsibilities
>>697701412
he's right, you are a faggot, learn to live on and accept the cock which currently resides deep within your rectum
I provide a local town near where I live with acid. I deal bulk tabs cheaply to some bros I know, and they peddle it off to their friends and others. We both make a killing, I make money (pay for my drugs as well as make extra cash), they pay for their drugs as well as make extra, and we both collectively account for at least 95% of acid in a certain town.
The paranoia eats me alive. I deal a lot of acid, enough to put me in jail for 20 years easily. I have amazing opsec but theres always the chance...
I quit smoking weed a while ago, but I still am paranoid. I love dealing and doing drugs. But I hate the paranoia. I wish it would go away but I know it wont.
I love living in the land of the free
>>697701594
>>697701412
Nah I'm just trolling you cunts. Australian btw.
>>697701738
You're a hero bro. You're changing people's lives with that stuff.
Too bad my supply got paranoid too and bounced
>>697701819
Your pillow rights are still revoked, stfu
>>697700591
You are correct, I live with my mother who is a single parent. I am 22 and have never had a typical McJob and regret nothing.
But I get this all the time, removing money will not set us back to barter and trade. I propose everything currently being sold should be free to give and take. The evil people will not exist because people will grow without greed in their hearts. Even the slothy ones wouldn't matter since we live nearly in a post-scarcity world. Let them be assholes, they will soon learn their way is not righteous or supportive. Nobody will breed with them, not anyone smart, anyway. They will wall themselves off, and be left in the dust while the rest of the glorious human species thrives at all the accomplishments to be had if we weren't barred by fictitious money barriers and money addictions constantly. No more "low-cost alternatives." Everything would be high quality. Including us.
Anyone want to hear the ramblings of a pizza delivery boy?
I have stories.
The Illuminati sent Carl to survey their priority targets. Just like your girlfriend.
You've been warned.
>>697701943
Tell us one
>>697701738
Damn man, we really need one of you out here I can't tell you how clear everything became when I first dropped, I would love to get some more back in my life
>>697701676
Well it can't get much worse right? Why not go to financial aid and see what you can work out.
Or
Wanna work at best buy forever and leave nothing behind but a sad existence
Or
Go to school and do something that impacts people in a positive way. Aka be worth a shit.
Id go with the latter.
>>697701738
who supplies you the ah sid?
just curious
>>697701883
thank you... I needed to hear that
I love what I do and there is no other drug I would rather deal. I trust my boys with my life and they know it. They do all the hard work, I just order online and package it nicely for them ha
>>697701943
I fucked a pizza boy once, woops
>>697702016
> About once a month or so this address would pop up with specific instructions
> this brick house I always asked for the pizza in the back of the house on the patio
> I was given very specific instructions to knock 3 times, wait 3 seconds then knock 3 more times
> in a coffee can by the sliding patio door was a $100 bill and a note saying "Leave the pizza, keep the change"
> who ever lives there, I don't want to know.
> nobody believed me until I showed them the bill.
I'm an addict. Opiates are my choice. I'm married to a woman who is vehemently anti-drug. For a few years I've been on/off opiates without her knowing. Seriously, anything that will fuck me up. A week ago, I had four wisdom teeth pulled. Guess what I got? Yup. A few days ago I ran out. So I faked a dry socket to get more. Now I'm worried I've played all my cards and will have to go through withdrawals again. Sucks.
>>697702096
I'm thinking about joining isis, or learn a trade.
>>697702132
dark web of course. Its so fucking easy to order online. Of course all the people in the local town are either too lazy, too ignorant or too scared to order online and I dont blame them. But its quite easy.
I get tabs for 1.5$ per. I order 500-1000 at a time. I know that I get quality Lucy because the vendors who sell online know where they get their crystal from (for example, the lucy i have right now is from Jesusofrave, incredibly well known lucy crystal dealer).
Naturally I resell at 5$ per. 4 when I have excess/feel generous. My boys resell at 10-15 depending on their seller. We both make an easy killin, tax free
>>697702569
Inb4 FBI.
>>697702406
She will find out I promise. Been there. If you are open about it and tell on yourself it will make it much easier to figure out..
Is it a lifestyle you don't want to stop?
Have you ever been sober for an extended amount of time?
Is she more important than the high?
You should expect her to say "me or the drugs"
Think on that a little.
the fact that I am existing scares me
it don't matter, none of this matters
>>697702569
Idk about Isis lmao but trade sounds good. Maybe get into a trade school or find a job that will pay for you to get trained. Like welding or some sort of factory job.
>>697702072
Acid is a beautiful drug. Ive done enough drugs to know that after a while, getting high itself becomes quite fun... but acid will help you learn about who you are much better than other drugs. Im not sure why this is, but it certainly seems that way to me
Order online my friend. Get a friends address, someone who you trust, let them know what you are doing, pay them money to get quality acid. Its well worth it. As you already know, acid will help you become yourself. Just dont abuse it lol
>>697702745
Been there before man. We've been together 8 years. She knew I was an addict and I stopped for a few years. It's just something that is so hard to let go.
If I'm being perfectly honest, I wouldn't care if we stayed together or not. I'm staying for my kid.
>>697702598
damn son, I looked deep web purchases but never liked the idea of trusting faceless drug distributors with large amounts of money, how does it work? do you know what the risks like?
>>697702598
How do you not get caught? Ordering online with IP address/credit cards/wtf
>>697699323
Agreed. Too many retards focused on acquiring shiney shit. Even my own family. Eugenics should be put in place. All around me, my retarded friends family, and neighbors are pumping out 2 or 3 of these RETARD BABIES. The poor fucks. And I know these people. They are too young, inexperienced, uneducated, and unable to take care of themselves let alone RAISE A QUALITY HUMAN holy fucking shit end my life /b/ end it right now.
>>697702296
I have a good one about that.
Pizza boy again.
> delivering 1 large pizza and a 2 liter
> knock on door and wait
> the door opens and i am greeted by the weirdest thing of my life
> what answered the door was what i assumed was a man, in a pink dress
> he was wearing a curly blond wig, frills all over ball gag and an adult diaper.
> he was also in full bondage gear with his hands bound behind his back
> pinned to his dress was the money and tip.
> walked away visibly shaken and emotionally disturbed
>>697703073
lol bitcoin my friend
>>697689154
>be me
>be 15 in the late 90s
>have normal life, friends etc
>generally regarded as smart, 4.3 GPA
>begin isolating to basement obsessively making electronic metal music
>studies start to slide, barely pass High School
>play gig at major rock venue day of HS graduation, band i was in covered in major magazines
>music tracks start being licensed to Playstation and Xbox games
>obsessively work on new music for sync rights purposes
>music begins being licensed to major places like ABC, SpeedTV, Discovery, NatGeo
>over several years now have passive income empire, never have to work again
>now early 30s
>text, call, email nobody for 8 months and nobody checks in on me
>no relationships unless they can use me for money or skill
>mfw literally nobody would know if i died
>no friends left
>don't even know if parents are alive (stopped speaking a decade ago, abuse issues)
>never touched drugs or alcohol before the beginning of this year
>now /b/ is taking over more of my life, drunk browsing /b/ almost daily
>worry that i'll take my own life, nearly happened earlier this year
>>697702598
Team trust?
>>697701911
>we DO NOT live in post-scarcity world
petroleum products make the world go round: medicine, scientific research, plastics, polymers. these things are vital to our existence and will always be of value and can only be created a certain way
>evil wouldnt exist anymore
evil is a fact of life, there is no destroying it, we cannot destoy evil, we can only do more good. thats just life, man is not perfect therefor we will always be lesser and some parts of people will be appealed to
i dont mean to do this you bro, but just grow up/get out there more a little. you should get a job bc your mom worked hard to get you this far, and if not then you should be working to get on your own so you can live out your own ideas either way
your ideas are grand, many many people your age go throw them, often younger too. things cannot be "free" bc you cannot force anyone to trade with you who does not want to trade with you. central planning is a bad idea that time and time again for centuries has been BTFO by free people.
if you want to do what you say then go for it could make you a cool dude or you could be a douchebag its all how you play it. you cannot "think hard enough" about every type of idea people like to live out and you will never be able to affect/entertain/inspire/force them all to adopt or act on the things that you like-its just impossible. the only time to do anything is literally right this very moment, just get started on your stuff and dont tell anyone else any of your ideas like what your talking about, bc SHOWING them is A LOT more effective then you might realize.continue uni and do really well, ( i think that was your other post)
not everyone has "mcjob" not everyone is "a glassy eyed sheep" either
>>697702991
It's likely that she is just as unhappy as you are but scared to admit it/doesn't want to be blamed for separation.
She's never gonna trust you like she did before you got caught. I'm sure she's done dumb shit in retaliation to make herself feel better. Also causes mistrust.
Staying for a kid will just fuck them up. It would be a hurdle for sure but you have to quit for yourself if that's what you want. She probably feels responsible, and if she thinks youre Putting your sobriety on her that will gonna get you smothered at some point.
>>697703006
The risks are there of course. Always use a vendor whose been around. most vendors will have statistics backing up how many trades theyve made, they have a .onion address, they have 4-5/5 stars, etc
The biggest risk you have is ordering from a new vendor. Order from a vendor who has clearly been around the block and youll be fine. I have paid money for shipments that havent come thru (the mail system is imperfect) but 9/10 my shipments have come thru.
And yeah, I do trust the vendors. They will provide you with a lot of information and honestly they want to be as nice as they can be if they are a quality vendor. I have had shipments not come thru, and the vendor would send me a reship, even tho they said they sent it
>>697703437
Ive seen them around. I was going to order from them soon actually. They have really good deals
>>697702798
existence existing is a gift, its something special, something that we will never be able to re create. God made existence brah, He loves you, why dont you love Him?
>>697703686
sounds like a completely different world man, shits changing, making me feel a warped optimism, even at my young age I never thought one would be able to order high quality stuff right to their door, pretty mindblowing when you think about it
>>697703437
was ordering from theholyghost for a bit. prices are always fluctuating tho, one day ill see 500 go for 800, the next ill see it at 600. It all depends on the vendor and the price they can sell it for
>>697703119
>>697699323
if you want to kill people, you dont make the cut, youre ill, and providing no where near what you believe you are
>>697689154
i cant stand the hypocracy in my job place, everyone is a bitch or an asshole that only look for you when they want something, but when i ask for help they say they are bussy as fuck even if they are just in the gossip, so thanks for that, sometimes i wanna quit but then i remember i need the money, (the paycheck is good) but in the end, i just feel miserable
>>697701081
The sad part is, I've done all of that already and get hit with setback after setback that just makes me loose motivation. I've been trying this for the past ten years with no success in sight. I'm about ready to call it quits.
>>697703607
Don't get me wrong, I do love her. I just wouldn't care if we split. I don't know why. I mean we have before (this is the second time we've been married to each other), but never for long. I'm content with the way things are at least. I get to hang with my kid during the day, get fucked up and play video games at night. She won't let me work because we don't trust daycare so she's basically supporting me (her choice).
>>697704114
I wanna write an economic model and raise good kids.
Am I cool enough?
>>697704226
That's her way of control. If she makes the money, you can't blow it on drugs without her knowing.. based on that she probably already knows
>>697704064
It truly is haha... Im quite young so by time i got on the drug scene, tor was already well established (im 21). I grew up with this.
Its even weirder for me to realize that I dont know what its like to live in a world where you cant order illegal drugs to your house lol
I highly encourage anyone who wants to do drugs to order thru tor. Even if you arent good with computers. Be smart, learn as much as you can, dont tell anyone you do it, and you will be fine. You can order from home and its far cheaper when you order yourself (rather than buy from a street/friend dealer who has questionable product)
>>697704174
you gotta keep at it man, don't see it as a failure when you make a misstep or fell short of a goal, you push yourself now so you don't have to later, once you get in the habit the mindset follows
>>697704433
Probably. But everything is in her name so if we do split up I'm like fucked. No money, no car, no insurance. It's cheaper to keep her lol.
>>697702296
So many cute young pizza boys and they all want to fuck me. Lay down hints about how my place is their last stop, always making small talk, always staring into my eyes and smiling, etc.
I think I've answered the door dressed and in full makeup 3 times. Those kids fucking talk man
>>697704574
Not to put yourself at risk but you have any tips on how to do this? My supply of LSD dried up a couple months ago and I don't trust the rave shit at all.
It's really important to me.
>>697704812
I'm about to start pizza driving and I wanna get my dick wet.
What could a cute pizza driver say to get in YOUR pants?
>>697689154
dont know why, but i feel i will die in a car accident, i just feel it, but i m not scared of travelin g in a car, which for me is kinda weird
Irk
Had a botched threesome, see the other girl involved Everytime I leave my house. Makes me not want to go out ever. Dying of embarrassment and self loathing ATM. ><
>>697704243
im not stopping you, and I dont have a "cut" bc i am not arrogant enough to believe that I have the right to decide who stays and who goes(except major criminals/normal criminals), they should for sure be kept away from soceity, but massive culling is a sick idea.
ALL ideas are permissible-its okay if you have thought about things, BUT not all ideas are valid
>>697704987
Bring weed and "this is my last stop would you mind letting me roll this here." After rolling it share and see where it goes. If nothing else you could make a new smoking buddy
>>697704987
Nothing. Depends on if I want to get dick. Is say just be really friendly and gentle and cute.
>>697693120
bleach volume 20 poem:
"Those who define love as beautiful
Are ones who don't know the true form of love
Those who define love as ugly
Are ones who bragging to know about love"
>>697704574
haha I'm actually 21 as well, I guess it's just who got to you first, I played around with tor for a bit, so I have somewhat good idea of how to act, but I never really did anything worthwhile. Thanks man, this has been really informative, I'll check it out if I find myself in the position
>>697704574
What kind of computer software do you use for browsing? I personally use Linux because its safer overall. You must be pretty tech savy, huh?
>>697705414
Gentle? Ew. Pizza boy has to know what he wants for me to be interested lol
>>697705353
That's a good way to get locked up
>>697705576
Well are you a faggot or a woman?
>>697705698
do i have to pick one? ;^)
>>697705698
I'm a woman.
>>697705015
I'm also afraid of driving for just that reason, I'm not a very big fan of them but they're a necessary evil. It isn't weird, Stanley Kubrick also had that fear with both cars and planes, and he was a fucking genius
>>697705612
True but if semi attractive pizza guy wanted to share weed and we ended up having a connection it could be a good thing. Plus pizza so there's that.
>>697704814
yes I do.
If you can, get a computer/laptop and get tails on a flash drive/usb. Im not going to teach you how to do this. Its a really valuable step and there are plenty of resources to do this online.
Second step is to buy some bitcoin. I use localbitcoin.com. I buy bitcoin from a vendor (I use cash deposit where you go into a bank, pay the bank for a cash deposit to a business account. The business, thru localbitcoins.com, will give me bitcoins.) from localbitcoins I send the bitcoins thru a bitcoin tumbler for anonymity/security.
you dont have to use a bitcoin tumbler, but I highly recommend it. Send the bitcoins to a bitcoin wallet that you keep on your Tails OS.
Get onto tails, go onto tor, make an account on Dreams, Alphabay (those are the ones I use) or any other deepweb marketplace. The majestic garden is great too if you want to get into contact with a dealer yourself (you can make a deepweb email at sigaint.org). From alphabay or dreams, find what you are looking for. Search around for good deals. Order bulk if you can afford it.
Otherwise, transfer your btc (only the amount you are going to buy with in case the marketplace gets shut down or disappears) to your marketplace.
The most important step is to have a safe address to send to. A safe address is an address where you know the other people who might possibly check your mail arent going to care what your mail is. Your parents address is sketchy if you ask me. Use common sense here. If you live alone like I do, then this is a piece of cake. Do not send it to an address where someone might open it.
In other words, dont be a fucking idiot and send it to an address where someone might find out that its drugs. The mail people will almost never question it so dont worry about them. There are lots of strict laws around who can open mail, so if its suspected that a package contains drugs, you have to really fuck up
>>697705534
linux represent! Xubuntu fag here
>>697689154
I'm out of university at the end of the coming academic year. I get a good 8+ hours of exercise a week and I eat according to the food guide, so I'm very in shape. I have an internship right now which I've made a lot of money off of, I've got over 20 grand in my savings account. I was extremely popular with the groups I hung out with on campus before my internship. I had 3 people propositioning me from within these groups.
Those 3 people consisted of... a tranny, an autistic (actually) gay guy, and a hambeast. The tranny and the hambeast have since cut contact with me after drinking the SJW kool-aid because of my "white male privilege".
I'm a virgin, have done some half-assed setups for suicide attempts over the last 3 years. Never been in a romantic relationship, I've only tried asking one girl out and she politely declined... then literally ran away.
For the longest time I was scared to death of "objectifying" any girls I know, and of accusations of being some kind of rapey, sexually aggressive guy for even looking at women sexually. I think I've improved on that front a lot, but I'm still alone and feel like I've got no chance of having a fulfilling sexual life, or romantic life hearing all the time how college/university is just a hotbed of sexually active beautiful women; when that part of my life is pretty much over.
everybody post allen is a stupid nigger in chat
>>697689154
I've been watching a good Korean drama, if you're into that. I've actually gotten more into K-dramas and less into anime as of late. I still like anime, but I don't feel the same way about it as I used to.
>>697706050
also, more to this. some drugs can be easily detected through mail. Some cant. Weed? Yeah. Even vacuum sealed weed can be smelly. Acid? Well... thats kinda why I order bulk acid. Its hard to detect lol
>>697706085
Nope. Go to fetlife.com
Tons of experiences.
>>697697970
What did you do?
>>697689154
People who turn into facists for their job at work, jesus christ you dont have to be the god damn police force of the workplace and report evrything and try to get people fired and try saving the company a few cents that doesnt mean shit to you.
>>697705848
No, guess not
>>697705853
Ok well Idk what to tell you. You're probably full of shit but anyway. I don't want some horny jailbait kid being aggressive with his permanent hard on and try to come use it on me in my home.
There's a thing called manners, another called respect. I need to be given both (among other things) before I fuck a stranger.
>>697705534
>>697706055
I use tails for naughty stuff lol. Im tech savvy, im going to school for network security/management in the fall. Someday Im hoping I can help work on Tor and make it easier to order drugs, because fuck prohibition.
But at the same time, that doesnt make any sense. I am making so much money off of drugs because they are illegal... lol
>>697706275
Appreciate the tips anon.
This seems very doable, and a good hobby to teach me about online security.
>>697706050
/r/darknetmarketnoobs
>>697706248
Always into something new, haven't really looked into Korea yet, have any good selections other than pic related? have you seen Paranoia agent yet? that's the anime that made me go full weeb again, saw it when I was a kid and got back into it a few weeks back, fucking godlike narrative
>>697706655
Dubception well earned.
>>697706557
I guess I see what you mean. Gentle isn't the word id use I guess, gentle wouldn't make me want to do any sort of impulsive thing. Aka banging a stranger
>>697689919
I can relate to this, everytime my doorbell rings it seems to be the cops putting me in cuffs for shit that happened months ago. Now i jump like a crackhead when somones at the door.
>>697706521
What happened anon?
>>697706655
this. Read, read, read. Everything you can online. Its how I learned, all on my own, if you can read english then you can learn how to deal drugs lol
>>697691341
Use commas next time you fucking rat
I am deathly afraid of elevators, like every time I'm in one I freak the fuck out.
>>697706714
I saw Paranoia Agent years ago. It was good, and anime like that is why I don't want to give up anime entirely.
Some other good K-Dramas/comedies include
>Potato Star
>Heirs
>21st Century Family
It's like a Korean version of Modern Family
>Flower Boy Next Door
>Pinnochio
>The Doctors
>Goodbye Mr. Black
>>697706275
Xanax
>>697706596
Is tails a better dist.? what makes it so good for that?
>>697689154
I demand that we form an arena in which we can fight to the death for gold and glory. Tickets sold support the local government and the victor is rewarded with funds and/or women.
>>697706333
>fetlife.com
Googled... not really into BDSM
Have tried PoF; struck out with 3 girls that actually had similar interests and weren't fat, and have gotten notifications of being right swiped here and there but it's always some fat unemployed chick, a few have had kids, who's 6-7 years older than me.
>>697707047
http://m.liveleak.com/view?i=9b7_1410952090
>>697707287
get the funds, women will come after them, so you get both
>>697706521
I sorta get this, but the only reason I get like that is because the excess work doesn't just magically disappear when people decide to slack. A lot of my coworkers are lazy as fuck and fail to do extremely simple shit because they're "in a rush." It's not because we just want increased efficiency, it's because we don't want to be picking up after you.
>>697707333
It doesn't have to be kinky shit but yeah most of the population seem to be gross. Go to a bar, meet someone. Go to church. Meet someone. Go to fucking library and meet someone. People are everywhere. Take your pick until someone picks you back
>>697707425
There we go! Someone that understands!
>>697707071
For real, if only those shows made it into the mainstream instead of the crap people call amazing, not that they're entirely bad, they're just not as good, ya know? I've also been getting back into FLCL quite a lot. And thanks for the suggestions, I'll be sure to look into them.
I smoked a lot of meth until my brain blew a fuse. I ended up being diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. Throughout the next decade I went through a state of panic to smoking bud with the devil so to speak. Nothing really phases me anymore and I have a lack of empathy for other people. Right now, I'm on the fence to either remain a piece of shit that doesn't contribute to society or drop the alcohol and get a degree in business. I'm just burnt out from all the BS I brought on myself as a teenager.
>>697707572
I feel you, theres a "bar" for lack of a better term. If somones work is falling on you then im frustrated for you. But i mean stupid bullshit in this situation
>>697707287
I agree, we should definitely reopen the pits, I don't even have a good reason, just so history can say we had one
>>697707712
But of course. I can't even discuss anime with people IRL anymore, because I could say 5 great ones that 90% of the time, they'd never even heard of. Not to mention how crappy the fanbases for the mainstream shows usually are (like AoT and SAO).
But yes, the Korean shows. Ride the Hallyu Wave.
>tfw my parents only watch K-dramas now thanks to me.
>>697707977
How much should a victor earn after each match? 2500, 5000?
>>697707130
I personally like tails because it can be run off a flash drive. Most Os's install directly onto the hard drive. Tails boots from the RAM, and stores its encrypted hard disk on the flash drive.
Im not as well read up on all the technical details as Id like to be, but most linux os's you have to install onto the hard drive. Therefore if someone turned on my computer they would see i had a linux distro installed. But if the usb isnt in there... they dont know I have a tails distro hidden elsewhere.
Also tails by default has to communicate through tor. This isnt by any means unique only to tails. Tails just happens to be the OS i have found that meets my needs better than most.
>>697707130
Also its not like Tails is the best. There are plenty of linux OS's that would do pretty much the same thing that tails does (there are a lot of linux distros) but for me Tails has been the one I have used consistently and its worked great
>>697707712
i dont wanna sound like a hipster fag, but when something gets mainstream, it loses its art value and becomes merchandise that will get exploted to the point that it is no longer the same thing you liked in the first place (example Linkin Park)
>>697707894
Yeah people can definitely take shit too far, and it's always people who aren't even in higher level management too. That shit pisses me off.
>>697708021
I was actually about to comment on AoT, the premise and characters are decent, but that dub just pisses me off, they just overact so much, it seems like whenever a character has a strong emotion they feel the compulsive need to scream at the top of their lungs, which sucks cause the talents there, it just didn't come together right, and I haven't seen enough of sword art to form an opinion.
>>697708120
I'm thinking more 10-15000, depending on ad revenue, these guys aren't those pussies in football though, they do it for the lolz
>>697708749
I can't even watch dubs anymore.
>>697708749
oh, cmon, kirito is a god damn mary sue, that cant be good.
>>697708205
not exactly true, ubuntu and it's other variations let you do that, CD's too I think, you just have to mount it using an app, last I checked the ubuntu website offers a download for it. But I think tor by default is the real deciding factor here
Excessive nitrous inhalation feels like it's dried out my brain, so now my mind feels Hellish and scabby, like I'm being pummeled with a constant stream of information that's shredding my only means of processing it the first place.
So I feel pretty gangly and incompetent. Not even sure what a healthy self-image would look like because I consider it to be contrived, so I've just allowed myself to become pretty ugly knowing there's no way to alter it again.
>>697708453
Fucking linkin park! bitches totally fagged out there, but I don't think that happens to everything, it's just extremely common, I look at the evil dead as a series that did it right
>>697708956
eh, I'm just super picky about it, like I can't even watch a watanabe joint without the dub cause they do such a good job, But I do agree, too many good shows have been ruined by something so trivial
>>697692760
>>what you hate about the world and society
>We spend too much time texting and not enough time talking.
We ain't gonna be able to do much talking if we aren't right next to each other.
>We're reverting back to prehistoric days where we communicate through cave drawings (emojis) instead of using actual words.
We never communicated with cave drawings. Those were caveman art class more than anything else. Also, nobody actually talks with emojis. Maybe once or twice as a novelty, but they're honestly just used for expressing emotion easier than text ever can.
>That typing short hand and misspelling one word per sentence is somehow socially acceptable and looked at as cool.
You're talking out of your arse. No one said it was cool. It's used for convience, and goofing around.
>Furthermore we care to much about getting what we want and validating our own thoughts and beliefs and not enough about trying to treat others with basic amounts of humanity.
Fair enough.
In conclusion, stop judging others for wanting to type how they want to type, and learn to be your own person instead of worrying about society.
will she 404? Is this the end?
>>697689154
Damn I want to see a thread like this more often.
I've weird fears. I'm fearing I'm developing schizophrenia or some mental disorder. Before the psychedelics I used to see numbers that talked to me when I was sick and do really fucked up paranoid shit when I was sick but after psychedelics I've had moments where I "lose focus of reality". I don't know who I am, what I am or even what thoughts are.
>>697710472
You need sobriety for that. Dr. Anon can't help you.
>>697710262
right but the texting has grown so common that we're doing it even when we don't have to, I can't remember the last time I had a private get together without having some dicksqueese I don't know indirectly getting involved, really takes the intimacy out of things
>>697710650
What do you mean?
I have been worried about death, but haven't we all, I am always worrying about me, my future, parents, and etc
>>697710915
Dr. Anon prescribes drugs for situations.
You need to lay off drugs. You got a job?
>>697697333
>no satnav
>no internet (or shit connection)
>no instant messaging
Lol nah
I have decided to stop studying Japanese, and instead take up Korean and Mandarin until the end of the month. At that time, I'll decide what to continue with.
>>697711122
I haven't touched drugs properly in well over a year because of heart problems to do with ecstasy. I've had ecstasy sessions a total of 5 times and then had a heart issue.
Yes I have a job.
>>697711688
Hold the job down. Get a hobby that stimulates your mind. I build combat robots.
>>697711688
Fucking designer shit, I stay away personally, the dopamine just doesn't have enough time to catch up
>>697712175
Do you have a similar problem to me? Does it sound bad?
>>697711688
lol sounds like you should never do drugs then, eh.. did our friend Xavier five times and had heart problems? lol
>>697711688
i have done lots of X and all i can say is some people hate it, some people love it, some people... it flat out kills them
>>697712209
Blue grenades. Getting a monitor implanted into my chest soon tho to see exactly what it is
>>697712637
Just believe I'm extremely sensitive to stimulants is all. I get loads of palpitations from even one cup of coffee.
I loved it tho. E was my favourite. The euphoria, the feeling of closeness, the hugging, the running.. Fuck me it was the best
>>697712684
that's a damn shame man, sorry to hear that
My biggest fear is that my doctor will cut me off my Oxy, lyrica, valium, and Ambien...
I also take heroin and smoke pot on the side.
I just want to die, struggled with depression for over 10 years, and its got way worse 2 years ago my back fucked up permanent, so im in constant pain.
I just wanna die, die die die. I hope to OD the coming months. Fuck this life.
>>697713136
Yah. Thankfully I'm still healthy. The consultant who I went to which is one of the best in my country says it is not serious. Just needs more monitoring to fully say what it is. He gave a guess tho that sounds exactly what I was feeling
>>697712534
Ah we all have to experience them. Xavier?
>>697695019
We're waiting anon
>>697713504
Fuck me I don't know how I didn't pick up on that. Nevermind.
>>697712175
How does it sound to you ?
>>697712355
I had a similar issue. Exercise and mind stimulating hobbies helped. Drugs always made it worse.
>>697713378
>take heroin and smoke pot on the side
>take heroin
I am sorry.
>>697713870
Ok. Thanks. I can't really talk to anyone about this cause well, I don't want to be a downer, I don't know anyone who experienced this as well, doctors cost too much and it's touchy cause it involves drugs. So thanks
>>697691604
Honestly, your biggest regret will be not going for your aspirations because you will always wonder "what if". My dad told me this and it is 100% true. I never regret failure as much as I regret not going for it at all.
>>697714399
Cut out ALL negativity from your life.
Social media is a huge drain on all of our souls, you'll feel better when you start doing things and learning things.
Writing helps too. I write political philosophy as a syndicalist.
>>697714856
I can vouch, I deactivated my facebook and wrote a couple articles on the side and it really helped all the negative emotions I had, it's amazing how big a difference something seemingly small can do
>>697714399
It's a struggle I've found not many people understand. For me it's stress related. I lose access to more of my brain the more stressed I get. Writing plans before bed of the next day is the best way to fix that. Wake up and finish your list before you fuck off.
>>697714856
I'm sorry but I'm just curious as I've never heard of this before but what is political philosophy ?
>>697689154
I'm just so fucking tired of people talking about heights on /b/ it makes me wonder if people talk about it behind my back or not. I'm 20ft tall but I only have a 1 inch dick. Not really! My DICK is about 6 feet long but thats way too big to put in a woman! Or, hey, A MAN even. I've only ever met one person over 15 foot and he was a total shit, I would NOT put my SIX FOOT PENIS IN HIS GAY AAAANUS! Anyone under 13 feet tall is basically a pedo, so if I see YOU, watch out! I eat people whole like a magic fairy tail character. I can't get a job! I got drunk and shat out a short bus in the morning! Argh, my knees! And I'm going bald. Cynthia left me for a guy who was, like, 3 foot 2 with a less than average penis. I ate them both but, get this, shat them out alive! They send me passive aggressive christmas cards! All my bones and muscles hurt and don't work properly ! I KILL YOU, I'LL KILL YOU ALL! BIG IS BEST! MY TOUNGE IS LIKE AN ELEPHANTS DICK! I HAVE NO FRIENDS BECAUSE ALL MY SELF WORTH IS DERIVED FROM MY HEIGHT AND ALL I TALK ABOUT IS WHAT IT"S LIKE TO BE 20 FEET TALL! THAT IS ALLLLLL I TALK ABOUT! I'VE GOT NOTHING ELSE! I'M! SO! FUCKING! LONELY! I'LL FUCKING RAPE YOU MANLET BITCHES! 10 FOOT TALL IS LIKE A BABY TO ME! I ESCORT 10 FOOT TALL PEOPLE ACROSS THE STREET! FAGGOTS. WHY WON"T YOU TALK TO ME! I'M 20 FEET TALL!
>>697715411
A commune whose participation is voluntary acting as a business, providing open-source labor for capitalists and the like. My specific design is built for ~1200 people.
It's basically a form of communism that works with an existing capitalist format with VOLUNTARY participation.
>>697714856
Thank you for all you've said anon. I'm going to bed now cause it's 5:30am here and I am tired. Goodnight anons
>>697715936
Ok cool, best of luck
>>697716051
Good luck eurofag, and don't forget you're not the only one
>>697715575
this is why you have no friends
you do shit like this in real life
/b/ is just where retards like you can be let free
>>697715575
underage b&
>>697716962
I don't though I'm just venting. I'm actually 5'9" and was just joking about the stupid shit people post about heights in bait threads all the time. Also /b/ hasn't been a place for retards for a while now it is basically Reddit 2.0 if you cannot see this you are in denial. Give it another 5 years and this will either be dead or another place for the cool kids like facebook.
>>697717121
Here's your (you)
I hate the girl im with cause she sucked off my bestfriend drunk as hell at a little 5 person party we had after I threw up and passed out. She was trying to get with me beforehand and after and I was down with it before until she did that hoe shit but I figured I might as well destroy her pussy and leave when the time feels right. She's not even that big of a whore, I'm the second person she's slept with (at least she says but I have reason to believe her) I just really hate her for it. I already broke up with her once for it but the second time will be legit. Like her reason was to spite her boyfriend of a year because he treated her like shit or something idk, but why not with me then, ya know? This dude is sopposed to be "like a brother" tho. Which he is to her and I know that, that is true, but my friend is a degenerate and my girl is a dumb hoe. He told me the next morning like I was sopposed to give him a hi five or something when this bitch has been right the fuck next to me smiling and flirty and shit for the past month or so.
I think about it every day tho, I'd get someone else but I have 0 game so I'm kinda stuck rn but it's better than hand
That's what irks me OP and it's been irking me literally everyday since its happened.
