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Can I get a feels thread? Last one 404'd
lurking (again)
Sure anon, I'll feel with you.
Not doing so well myself. Can't find a job. Struggling with depression & anxiety. My family hates me and freely expresses it from time to time. That's all on top of other issues.
I think about suicide from time to time. Never actually go through with it, and sometimes the thought alone scares me, but things are pretty bad and I dont want to see them get worse....
I don't wish for a perfect world, no utopia, but I do wish for things to be different from time to time.....I sure fucking wish things could be different right now.
>>697118196
lost
They would find me lucky charms. They're always after me lucky charms.
>>697117634
the worst
She just doesn't love me anymore. I guess I deserve it.
>>697116525
Feels thread?
4 years ago I broke up with my ex girlfriend. It was painful for both of us and it still resounds today in some fashion.
She was angry with me. Really angry. I can't blame her for that. In her anger she begins dating this complete tool.
It wasn't until 2 years after the break up that I finally learned just how horrible of a person this guy was.
He would rape her in her sleep. She would say no to him and pretend to go to sleep and he would do whatever he wanted. She doesn't even know what he did when she was actually asleep.
I try not to blame myself for what happened but I have difficulty doing so. I knew what kind of person he was. I knew and I did nothing to stop it because I was childish. I may not like her but no one deserves to go through that.
There is no worse feeling than knowing that you had the ability to help someone, to know that they could really need it, and to not at least offer it.
/b/ros, don't be like me. Don't live with that regret. It will haunt you everyday for the rest of your days.
>>697118452
Shit that would be for me. Instead of being in a soul sucking nightmare of a job. My job really makes me feel dead inside.
Every. Time.
>>697119162
I'm wondering how you know though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IX4X2I4HQ7s
>>697119236
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GifS4zwggE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gyaG4oUYtaA
>>697118102
I know that feel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkIvQzys5ig
>i have to wake up
>just watching animes until I fall asleep
>>697118579
Great show.
>>697117634
This is just bad lighting.
>>697119600
check it
I leave the house twice a month. I'm afraid to leave incase I shit myself. It got so bad once, I used a public toilet for the first time in 23 years. I'm afraid to go to the doctor about my broken tailbone incase he confirms my suspicion and diagnoses me with prostate cancer. I'm afraid to get a job incase I meet possible friends who don't accept me for seeing the world differently. I'm afraid to contact my old friends incase they are all ahead of me in life and I become a disappointment to them. I'm afraid to talk to my family about how I feel because it seems like they have so much on their plates that if I started to finally ask for some help after all these years of being the listening ear and the crying shoulder, they will all implode on themselves. I'm afraid to re-enter education incase I am too old for the class and I can't connect with my classmates, as they will all be fresh out of school. I'm afraid to take my own picture, or to post information about myself on any social media that isn't anonymous. I'm afraid that I will finally be left alone to enjoy the things I enjoy, yet finding unhappiness in shame, regret and loneliness. I'm afraid that when I go to sleep, I will dream of my own success only to wake up in a bed alone, to get up and play video games all day and listen to my family try and pep talk me out of it. I'm afraid that I may never get out of this mess and I'll be stuck here forever, in a perpetual cycle of depression. I'm afraid of life and I don't know how to conquer it. It isn't the same as winning a fist fight or an argument. There is no winning strategy. It is constant failure, of which I'm not prepared to risk, for the benefit of my future family. I'm afraid of going to sleep one night and not waking up and letting someone find my body.
I'm afraid, /b/.
>>697119669
<(^_^)>. hug ?
Don't be scared
It's been almost ten years since mom died. I miss her less every year but still worry that I've failed her as a son. My life's not glamorous, I'm likely to be single for the rest of my life, and I'm more anxious than a chihuahua on meth...but, most days, I'm pretty content.
Yet I still wonder...
>>697119669
You don't need to be afraid of the world, the world is already afraid of us. Go out and fuck whats happening, life is about what is gonna happen - Cancer or not you can still enjoy what you can make out of life... Just give it a carefree shot because if you are dying, why spend your final days here drowned in sorrow?
>>697118196
pretty sure this was my post....
I would like to amend this:
Alone, tarred and feathered as everything you hate, damned by everyone you loved, betrayed by everyone you trusted, all your worst fears realised, and noone even has the decency to hear you scream because it's not thier job to give a fuck, ergo, they do not.
I have a mother, a father, siblings, and kids of my own, but if I could press a magic button that extinguished every single human life on earth instantly, I would push it without hesitation.
There are far worse things than death, even alone.
>>697120051
Know why anon?
>>697120221
Because soon you will die
>>697119236
Ouch
>>697120325
You don't matter
None of us matter
The earth is a speck and you are even smaller
I don't know if the anon who helped me out a few days ago is lurking, but I am calling out to him. You may remember me as the guy who had the girl issue where we seemed to have lost communication and you gave me a plan on how to seize the day and maybe work things out with her? I also used pic related in a post.
If you're not here, that's okay. If any anon wants to hear me out and maybe help me figure out what to do, or stall me from "sleeping" and thinking about the situation I'm here to talk about my situation or yours
>>697120202
Edgeboi
>>697120420
lay it on me anon.
>>697120419
What is finite and what is infinite lets organize
>>697120558
Infinite
Time
Space
Finite
You
>>697120664
You are a small tiny tiny part of space and time yet you still manifest to be a waste
>>697119669
Don't be afraid, we're right along with you on this hellish road that is life.
>>697117593
I fucking hate that picture. Fuck you anon for posting it.
Hope dude is doing well though and kicking asses and taking names where he can.
>>697120803
"right along" will you remember anyone in this thread and care about them the next day
>>697119166
whats your job?
>>697121000
I probably won't, but in that short amount of time, I felt a connection. I'm ok with you guys forgetting me and I forgetting you. All I need to know is that your on this earth with me.
why cant i be happy
why cant i just do what makes me happy
why do i have to deal with this everyday
why do people tell me to be happy if nothing lets me
>>697120518
Assuming this is you, I'm going to jump to present day, otherwise let me know and I'll bring you up to speed. So the day came, we all went to the lake, except she wasn't there. I was down about that but tried to enjoy the lake anyway. My friends started talking about why she wasn't there and her friend (my friends gf) said she felt like she was intruding on plans or something like that, and everyone started talking about how they really wanted her there.
Fast forwarding, we went to my friends house and watched movies, and I started getting really bummed out to the point where they asked if it was about her. When I said yes my friends gf told me she would try and talk with her. Here I am now, still haven't heard from her, and neither has my friends gf. I talked with her about this situation and she is going to try and talk to her tomorrow, and will let me know what happens.
friend's gf suggested maybe she was worried I was mad about the lack of communication and she's scared to reply, but I'm practically a gentle giant (though I'm not large or incredibly tall.) I'm incredibly understanding with stuff like this. Next time I'll greentext sorry this is long
I know I'm doing better than some but I feel so hollow. I make okay money for being an uneducated slob. I make 16+incentive at a warehouse but its so incredibly isolating. No one speaks, there's no windows, just monotonous. Hours upon hours of silence, putting stuff on pallets until the wee hours of the morning. Where's there's nothing to do but shitpost until the next shift. I tried meeting new people. There's plenty of people in the parks playing Pokemon go but instantly I hate all them. I don't feel like I can really connect to people anymore. You know?
>>697120437
why the fuck are you even in this thread if thats your attitude you filthy fucking piece of shit? I hope you drown in a gutter overflow full of nigger piss you goddamn waste of life. FUck you, fuck your mother for giving birth to you, and fuck anyone who thinks you deserve to draw another breath. Kill yourself. Kthnxbye
i dont know why everyone is so eager to die.
i think about dying and i feel empty. as much as i love the idea of heaven and reincarnation (fuck off athiests, let me believe what i want). i still have things for me here, even if those things dont want me here. :)
>>697117593
This shit pulled at my heart strings oh my god......................................
>>697121477
It's not me
Is it better to have had your heartbroken after a short stint of knowing love or to have never loved to never know loss?
>>697121971
Goddamnit...
dog I've had since i was 5
Grew up the guy
>tfw dog was best friend through childhood
fast forward 13 years buddy is getting old
body is weathering away and brain is decaying
>MFW has a giant seizure for an hour and dies in front of me
thetears.jpeg
week passes get his ashes
ivebeen sleeping next to the for months now and still cry almost every night
>>697119295
This one hurts and it really shouldn't
>>697122267
The ones who use that quote never truly loved what they lost.
>>697121971
This will probably be me tonight. I've already been chain smoking like fucking crazy today. I don't really care about my health
>>697122614
I wrote that on the spot. Believe me, anon. I know love and I know loss. They're often found with one another.
>>697122620
It does get easy. The best thing to start off with is to stop smoking.
>>697122493
Been there with my childhood cat, anon. He would whine at my door every morning until my dad would let him in. I'd hear that door creek every day of high school. Years later now he's gone and I miss him still. Stay strong.
If dubs I text her
>>697122807
It doesn't get easy. I just got used to how bad things are
>>697122949
I will roll for you, everyone deserves a second chance.
>>697122620
The worst part is I know I need to get up tomorrow and clean...but no one's going to see my place. Instead, I'll sit here and shitpost for another hour or two before trying to sleep. Fuck it.
>>697122267
never be loved.
>>697122161
>>697123059
p-please no
>>697122985
Take it from a former suicidal asshole with crippling depression (even saw therapists and doctors), it gets easier. My mom put it to me like this, "The hardships and problems you are facing now won't even be a blip on your life radar. You just have to have faith in something and power through."
>>697122493
I lived this.... my mate made it to 14 and got acute cancer, suddenly started with the seizures and the uncontrollable pissing himself... he was a good dog and he knew he wasnt supposed to pee inside so every time he would anguish about it for hours on end... he had zero quality of life, couldnt even climb the stairs...
my mother had him put down while I was at school.... never got to say goodbye, and Ive never been able to forgive her. He was the only part of myu family that loved me, and the only part that I still love.
fun fact: I was the original forcer of The Corgi Thing, spammed corgis onto /b/ every day for a week, starting on the anniversary of his death. Yeah, I'm a real oldfag nigger.
Forever and Always, Bill the Burglar... Love you mate :'(
>>697122493
i wake every morning thinking ill hear his chains
i come home from work and think ill hear his chains
i eat food and think i know, ill give it to the d….the d….nevermind
>>697117593
The when your sister is hit and won't even pity fuck you
>>697121909
This really is all I want out of life.
>>697122121
Ah, my apologies then. I can start from the beginning then.
>Meet girl through friend and his gf
>After a while start to hit it off, comfortable talking and holding hands
>Get her number, text her late into the night
Next day
>hangout with girl, friend, his gf, and other girl
>Walk girl out to her car so she can go to work
>Hug and kiss, she tells me she wants to take this slow. Agree
Fast forward, take her on date
>Go see movie
>Have fun, talking and smiling
>Drive her home, kiss her and ask her out because I felt like the mood was going well
>She says yes
Get home
>Receive text on way home basically explaining she was nervous in car and said yes, wants to get to know me more before dating me
>Talk it out with her because I do like her and want to make this work, let her be comfortable
Ever since then I have heard from her less, but she was on our group chat with our friends. She told me she I haven't done anything wrong and she's been busy but now even her friend (my friends gf) hasn't heard from her
>>697123197
Roll for you my friend
>>697123246
I used to believe that, until I powered through, rebuilt, and then had it all torn down to cinders by the people I thought I was building a life with. Im too old to start again now, Im done, just waiting to die.
Your mother is only right if you are still young, it's too late for me, but I hope the best for you anon <3
I've been losing it recently and it's beginning to show. I'm tired again. More cynical, erratic, and paranoid. The worst part is that every time I try to express myself it recedes and comes back to haunt me whenever I'm alone, which is pretty often despite numerous attempts to pull me out of my room. Pretty lonely as well. Usually don't post like this but tonight was especially stressful. It sucks not having a tangible reference point you can trust.
Just started antidepressants about two weeks ago on the advice of my therapist. Light dosage of zoloft. Nothing yet, although I know I'm not supposed to feel it so soon. I hope it helps though; the therapy isn't.
Just realized that today marks 1 year +/- a day since I last had sex with my ex, or anyone for that matter. Fun, fun, fun.
I feel like I'm going through a midlife crisis and I'm only 25.
>>697123246
dat feel man(virtual hug) it was a long and painful death to watch but i was there…i had my goodbye….for what it counts i was the last person he'll ever see again
>>697123819
21. I feel that man
>>697122949
There was a thread about this last night, idk if any of you are from there are here now but I texted her, she actually responded in the morning, she just said pic related
>>697123568
dont ask for love advice on /b/
the advice you get from a thread like this is coming from people who have loved but never been loved by someone else.
>>697120067
You need to find inspiration somewhere and change what you do. Anyone can become great, but it takes effort.
>>697123819
It's the "Life ends when you're 30" mentality that the current young generation seem to be stuck in.
>>697123819
predicting and early death anon?
>>697123976
Then she said this, I just ended upsetting her I think
my life is a mess /b/, i'm drinking every night, using meth and trying to convince myself the past is the past
I just cant't get over her, she was my chance at a normal life and having a family but we just didn't work out. I broke up with her for good feb 2015 after many breakups with her before. I got in trouble with the law September 2014 and i knew that she wouldn't be able to handle it even though it was a bullshit charge and was dismissed jan 2015 but she just left me a month later with a fucking voice mail
I'm a fucking waste now, moved out of my apartment may 2016 back to my parents house cause i couldn't pay to stay there especially with my drug addiction taking up all my money. Now everyday i wake up and try to convince myself that i will find a better life and tell myself that if i follow my dreams it will work but god, i know it won't deep inside
I hope everyday that someone kills me randomly in a carjacking or something cause i just can't live like this
I'm so depressed and i miss her but she moved on with some other dude
I just wanted to say I love all of you, I'm gonna lurk and maybe dump my folder.
You know I used to be like you guys. I hadon't very few friends, I never went out and my home life was a wreck. The only time I was happy was at school, where I had people to talk to and to be around. My parents were awful to me, and to avoid them I spent all my time playing video games or sleeping. I was a recluse, but I still had school to make me the slightest bit happier.
I thought about suicide, a lot actually. When I was younger I wanted to kill my family, but I came to realize that I didn't want them to die. That would've been too easy on them and then I get to suffer more. The psychological damage I wanted to inflict upon them would have been my revenge. I'd leave a note that would ruin them irreparably, make them regret every word they ever spoke to me. I would browse 4chan, and it would only make me more jaded, I felt with you guys. Maybe it was an edgy phase of my life, I don't know. Anyway, any time I got into a particularly bad fight with my parents, which only got worse during vacations l when I had to spend long periods of time with them, I'd go to my room and cry. I'd hold a knife to my throat and call myself a pushy for not getting it over with already. I didn't cut or anything, just pushed it into my neck hard enough to feel like something. Like I had control over something. After a couple hours I'd get over it and go back to sulking.
>>697124097
Then we talked some more, she was probably taking breaks between texts to fuck him, or atleast it felt like that :c
>>697123976
>>697124097
She sounds like a cunt, man. She could have let you down a hell of alot easier, but she was only thinking about herself
>>697123976
>>697124097
I made that thead. I'm sorry Anon.
>>697123568
>holding hands
>hug and kiss
>go to a movie
>not dating
This really makes no sense anon. She knows you enough to go to a movie and kiss you but she wants to get to know you more before "dating you". Am I missing something.
If I went to a movie with a chick and kissed her afterward I would assume that she had the same intentions as me.
>>697124231
I asked her, she avoided it once again
>>697123737
May you fair better in the latter department than I. It's been nearly 4 years.
>>697124020
It's not about wanting greatness. I've gone through too much just attaining basic survival in many areas. It's the uncertainty...not knowing.
>>697121803
Have a great day anon :) You're a good person
>>697124227
I think the biggest thing that kept me going was knowing that soon I'd be out of high school, and I could go off to college. It wasn't my friends that kept me going, they made the time being more bearable. All I knew I wanted was to get out of that damn house. I'd tell myself "It's just three more years, and then you don't have to deal with this shit ever again" or "It's only one more year you're so close just hold it together for one more year." I graduated and that summer wasn't any different than the last, but I had the right mindset. I was so happy that I was almost there. I didn't even care where I went, as long as I stayed away.
And you know what guys? It worked. It truly did wonders for me. I was only a couple hours away but I never called home, I never visited. My parents didn't even try to keep in contact with me, and I couldn't have been more happy. I made new friends, I was still a huge introvert but I partied, I had never been to a real party before.
If I had decided while I was still at home to nut up and do it, things wouldn't have gotten better. I wouldn't have experienced any of these past three years. I wouldn't have gotten drunk with friends in the woods, I wouldn't have stayed up all night consoling another person, I wouldn't have been homeless for a night or crawled on the floor with those closest to me tripping balls. I never would've had sex but God damn it I did it all.
I never used to put much thought into that normie anti-suicide shit, like "killing yourself doesn't keep that hangs from getting worse, it prevents them from getting better." Now I have, and I have to agree. Don't do it bros, things can always get better.
>>697123819
I turned 19 3 weeks ago and I feel like this.
>>697123957
That feeling of knowing everyday will be thr same monotonous shit. All that potential wasted. Every day we don't take action its a little harder and harder to turn this ship around
>>697124350
And fin. The end.
She's probably asleep in his arms right now and I hate knowing that
>>697124302
God why are women such passive aggressive cynical cunt-holes?
>>697124350
There is a big difference between loving someone and being in love with someone.
Like, you love your mom and dad, but you would be in love with your wife.
>>697124302
Hai again good friend.
>>697124266
I don't even know what she was thinking about when it happened it just hurts like hell to live rn
Why she always texts me when she's drunk. It hurts
>>697124464
I turned 35 last week. It doesn't get much better.
>>697122949
ANON LISTEN UP; FUCK DUB CHECK OR NOT JUST TEXT HER DON'T LIVE A LIFE OF MAYBE ITS THE WORST EVEN IF THINGS GO SOUR AT LEAST YOU TRIED BETTER THAN NOT DOING IT AT ALL AND LETTING IT SLIP AWAY, AND ON THE OFF CHANCE I HAVE DUBS TEXT THE GRIL
>>697124476
>62c
Holy shit anon do you live on venus?
>>697124302
yikes
>>697124541
That's what I was thinking, but I want to know what she means by that
>>697124068
Its not so much that. I figure I haven't knocked up anyone so I'm still pretty untied but I feel like its so hard to keep doing such unfulfilling work every day and not feel like I'm wasting my life.
>>697124702
That's for CPU temp.
>>697124476
she's a cunt and never loved you or she doesn't want to give you false hopes
>>697124702
Yeah its only 62°C on venus
>>697122949
Rolling for ya, remember anon, Time waits for no one.
>>697122949
roll for anon
about to make most you cry
>>697124434
Thanks anon I'm still holding out hope, only one more month...
>>697122949
Go bro
>>697124002
In all honesty you are right, but I was hoping another anon would be here because he seemed to be able to relate, so I wanted to see if he was here but he doesn't seem to be.
>>697124314
Yeah I know, it sounds weird but we were able to do these things and we aren't considered "dating". You really aren't missing anything because that's pretty much how it went down. I know she does like me (unless I hear something else tomorrow), because my friend told me about how she wanted me to hold her hand and kiss her but yeah we weren't a "thing" officially so I had asked her that same date day. was honestly hoping it would've turned out a lot better than it did, but here I am
>father is a shithead drug addict for the last half of my adolescence
>cut contact with him when I'm 18
>years later he contacts me
>"hey buddy how's it going?"
>tell him to fuck off and die, hang up
>more time passes
>few days ago get a call
>we chat for a bit, he's been sober for years
>turns out he has terminal cancer and has few weeks to live
Between this, not being able to get a job, dropping out of college, and crippling depression, I'm feeling something right now, /b/.
And it's not a very great feeling.
>>697122949
You can do it
>>697122949
I'll give you a roll. Use it wisely.
>>697124476
This was the worst part though, I check out the story and she was cuddling and kissing all over him, I don't have a screens hot of that /b/ros, sorry.
>>697122949
roll
>>697122949
We believe in you anon
>>697122949
TEXT HER REGARDLESS OF DUBS THOUGH! COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
>>697122949
Here you go
>>697122949
rolling
>>697122949
Take these and text her
>>697122949
DO IT ANON, REGARDLESS OF DUBS
>>697125228
>look at my story
>but dont actually look at it
what is this
>>697122949
I'm rolling for you, do it man. We all know you can.
>>697118675
>the two workers were stuck
>they both died
>image is of them sharing a final embrace
>>697122949
Ill do what I can, friend
>>697125477
Beautiful.
Listen up, faggots.
I just wanted to say that we're all going to make it. Every single one of us in this thread is going to die happy. Thought I find some of the most autistic shit I've ever seen on this board, I've also seen the best camaraderie. Don't let people hold you down, /b/ros, fight through it.
>>697125477
W-WHY?
>Hi
>I still love you
>>697125477
Check'd, text her already
>>697122949
Here you go, anon. Best of lucks
>>697125477
>>697125500
>>697119155
You don't, dude. Life is just like that sometimes. You can come back from this
>>697125503
SHE'S FUCKING TORTURING ME AND I KNOW IT!
Whyyyyyyyyyy
>>697125228
I disconnected my VPN to tell you to stop
>>697124119
It might not be ok now but it will, anon. Take care of yourself /b/ro.
>>697124368
(anon from the -20 post)
>basic survival
If you're speaking in a financial sense, it sounds like a job may help?
>>697125693
You offered her your heart. She took it and is now destroying it. It's what some women do.
>>697125693
STOP IT! You are hurting for nothing. She doesn't want you (anymore) but she clearly likes the attention you're giving her right now.
Yes, they are cuddling, fucking and laughing about you.
Delete her number and go on Tinder.
>>697125805
No You.
>>697116525
Oh that was a feels screencap? I thought it was ylyl. Misleading thread is misleading.
>>697118897
>>697116525
CP, CP, cheese pizza to both of those questions
>>697125693
Just leave. She'll never love you. Thats the harsh reality of it. Just leave
Life sucks
>>697125837
I do work. I love my job overall, even if it doesn't pay well. I am legitimately content with my life 75% of the time. I've been told that's all parents really want for their children. I'll never hear her say it, though.
Silence is crushing me.
my penis stretcher and penis pump
>>697116525
You will never have a GF that can do this: >>697109981
>>697126114
>>697125928
Easy to say, hard to do.
You block her then 5 minutes later you phone beeps, you think it's her, but it's not.
>>697120420
What was the name of the anon you spoke to?
>>697125158
I can relate anon. I've told her i loved her, I've spent countless nights holding her when she was sad, she's kissed me and told me she loves me. I dream about her nearly every night. But she wants to "take it slow" because she is'nt sure.... We've been doing this for a year. I just dont know anymre man..
>implying i would ever share that
>>697126413
Delete her contact then block her number. You'll know that she won't be the one that texts you. Not that she would anyways.
>>697126602
But she said we could be friends still, she's all I have anon. Maybe when this boy toy cheats on her or something I can swoop in and be with her again
>>697123976
>>697124097
>>697124231
>>697124350
>>697124476
>>697125228
I don't mean to sound harsh but what you are doing is probably the most unattractive thing a guy can possibly do.
She's not interested in you and she has a boyfriend. MOVE ON WITH YOUR FUCKING LIFE.
>>697126413
>Easy to say, hard to do.
Well I had to do the same thing a few weeks ago. It's hard yeah but easier.
>>697119231
he was that boyfriend
Has anyone ever had that online friend that just never came back? I'll post my story
>Be me
>10 years old
>Playing left 4 dead
>I meet this kid who's username was "OracleCleric"
>He was getting made fun of by other people in the game for sounding weird (his voice)
>We end up adding each other because we did alot of teamwork
>We played private games and went on tons of versus servers for around 3 months
>We usually got made fun of when we went in games, but it didn't hurt us
>We were really good at the game
>All we ever played was left 4 dead
>One day he said he's going on a flight to Canada and won't be online for a few days
>ok
>He unexpectedly comes online the day after, he tells me he wasn't going to a hockey game
>I ask what he was doing there
>He said his Dad was trying to track down a person that robbed him. He was only coming along because he couldn't hire anyone to look after him while he was gone, and he had never heard about what he was doing till now
>I asked him if he was safe
>He said he was, his Dad is a "really good tracker"
>I told him to stay safe and good luck
>Last message I got from him
>Last online 979 days ago
She says she loves me but it always feels like it's been out of pity. We almost dated before. What can someone do. I want to die.
Funny thing, "almost" is the story of my life now, saddest realization I've had
A couple years ago, my good buddy left military service after 3 tours of Afghanistan. He never talked much about his time overseas and any mention of the place made him really uncomfortable. He started acting really really weird about 6 months after he came back; checking rooms before he'd let you come in kind of weird. It was obvious something bad happened in Afghanistan he didn't want to talk about. Fast forward another 3 months and it seemed like he was finally adjusting, my now ex fiancée and I went to have drinks with him and his girlfriend since he was feeling better. At one point he excused himself from the gathering, and went into his bedroom. He shot himself right then, right there. I can't explain to you the absolute panic and grief of that moment when I came through the door and had to tell the girls not to look, calling the ambulance and holding him, even though he was already gone. Daniel, I really miss you buddy, I wish I could have helped you, I wish God took me instead man.
>>697126434
Never got his name, just chatted with him most of the night before about the situation and what I could do (but wasn't able to). The plan was that I would hangout with her but mainly stay hanging out as a group, then hopefully she would see everything is okay and feel comfortable again.
Obviously that plan was never able to start.
>>697126511
I hear you man, though I gotta say I really just want to start by hearing from her again, that's all. It worries me when people go quiet and even ignore their close friends, when they may have nothing to do with what is going on. I honestly just want to know if she is okay then work from there.
I'm a patient guy, I always have been and probably always will. I am not easily angered and I want to give her the time to ease back into things, but it worries me when no one hears from her, you know?
>>697119155
I'm in the same spot /b/ro, don't give up, we'll make it through this
>>697119669
Don't worry anon
we will always /b/ here
>met a cute girl, she makes me feel a little less awkward
>we talk everyday and eventually we start getting feels for each other
>I quit smoking for her and try to be a better person
>we have classes together and we always text and talk
>I tried to kiss her at the library, she rejects me and tells me she's nervous
>About to try it again when a friend of her appears. I left
>she texts me 2 hours later and she apologizes because of that situation
>I tell her it's ok because "It's wasn't a big deal"
damagecontrol.wav
>we continue talking but never talk about that situation
>I don't try it again, I feel like it's her turn now
>She's shy I just want to know how much does she like me
>nothing happens
>3 months later she stop talking to all of sudden
>no texts, no calls, no explanation, nothing.
>but 4 months later we have classes together again,
>she sits far away from so I decided to talk to her
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>When I was younger my ex got knocked up by her then boyfriend
>He didn't want to be a dad so we bailed
>Stuck around because we were still on good terms and the breakup had been mutual
>End up taking her to her checkups because she was in a bad spot and was pretty helpless
>Was at the hospital when the baby was born
>Got to hold her, decided I wanted to be there for the kid and the mom
>I'm adopted so it being another guys kid didn't really bother me
>End up with a nice little family
>It was great
>A year later we had split up again, we both realized we just weren't meant to be together
>Decided to stick around because I saw the baby as my own daughter at this point
>I changed her diapers, fed her, took care of her
>She calls me Dada
>Girl ends up dating another guy
>Don't care for the guy much but I don't say anything because I'm over my ex
>Just sticking around for my little girl
>At eighteen months old she's dead
>Her boyfriend was watching her when she died
>CPS investigates
>Long court process that's drug out over years
>District Attorney ends up calling me during the last year of the trial
>My daughter was murdered
>I testify but in the end there's not enough evidence to convict him
>He and the girl are still together and have a kid, jury thinks there's no way he could have done it
>No justice served
>He's still free to this day
I used to think all the time about how this was my fault. "I should have worked harder to be with my ex, then none of this would have happened." was a thought I used to have a lot.
I was supposed to take her to the Aquarium /b/.
I kept putting it off because I was working and going to school, I was trying to get into a better position to provide more for my daughter. I wanted her to be able to go to college.
I thought I had more time.
I used to give a shit, I used to be sweet.
Now I refuse to be kind or help anyone out.
I refuse to be warm, I refuse to be caring.
I refuse to care about the plights of others.
I refuse.
>>697127206
Keep going
Family would find a high quality sex doll with the pussy ripped apart.... I fuck the shit out of it
They may see me in a different light after that. Oh, and then my phone and pictures will all lead them to know of my bisexuality.... sigh...
>>697123130
fuckin women man
>>697127098
I do know, sometimes she doesnt talk for days and then she acts like nothing has happened and will give me a big hug and look in my eyes and kiss me. I've been drinking too much tonight i think im going to tell her to fuck off in a drunken call right now. I'm going to flip a coin.
>>697127336
Damn. I think I would've killed the guy out of anger.
>>697125020
You dick...
>>697127628
Drunk decisions always end badly...
>>697127206
>we normaly talk, like we used to do
>I go back to my seat and when the class ends she inmediatly leaves
>next class, the same.
>third class I decide to sit next to her and see if she really wants to talk to me
>we talk, make some bad jokes, everything normal
>the class ends I go out and wait for her but she ignores me and doesn't even say goodbye
all of this happened on thursday
I really like her but I don't know why she behaving like that. I need an explanationm, but, should I ask her or leave the things behind and go on my own way?
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>>697126831
Do you even possess a pair of testicles dude? This girl is fucking laughing at you, her dude is probably blowing loads in her as she's texting you. In fact I bet the guy gets off to the fact that he's fucking some chick that your beta ass is texting, I know I would.
>>697124119
anon, its not you who should be missing her
she acted like a bitch when you needed her most
be happy she's gone
now you can find another
>>697126899
Blunt0l0gy
We were about 9 at the time, never saw each other irl
We played a lot of games together, eventually only playing a game called Castle Crashers
One day he says his mom and dad got into a fight and mom left
I was still young so I didn't think much of it
>almost 9 years later the account has not been online
>I still sometimes play to reach the one goal we had in the game: Get to level 99
Bullshit.
Nigger dog wants some bones, that's it. The grave is from 1991. Picture looks much newer
>>697128017
good thing im always drunk
>>697127972
I thought about it a lot. I stopped myself because I didn't want to put another person through that. Planning your child's funeral is hell. It's been years now and I still have nightmares about my daughter in the hospital hooked up to machines, her skin cold and loose. It was a sense of empathy that stopped me, I guess.
I regret not murdering him with him a hammer.
>>697123130
These always hit me hard.
>>697124891
Oh shit, you're also from Venus? Sick!
>>697128098
>>697127206
It's over dude. She isn't attracted to you. If she was she would have kissed you.
>She's shy I just want to know how much does she like me
She doesn't like you, women aren't shy when it comes to liking guys, If they like you they will make it apparent.
You are just digging yourself deeper by forcing her into conversation.
>>697123550
It's all anyone can really ask for right? I mean society really likes to get in the way of it, but love is really all that's out there for us yeah?
>>697118897
Anyone got sauce on the "I'm Fine" pic with the drawn smile?
>>697125816
I'll try man, it's hard to believe it will get better but it's all i got
>>697128134
You know i should be happy she is gone, but it just feels like she was my only chance at a normal life and being happy. Thanks though, not many ppl believe i can find another.
>>697125178
Spend as much time with him as possible anon
make up for the missed adolescence
>>697127628
Anon, you and I both know that will not end well.
I am going to be honest with you, since you were able to be honest with me: You will regret drunkenly yelling at her, because in the morning you will remember your actions, because you may reach for your phone and see a text conversation or the recently dialed then you will recall this conversation between two anonymous people on an image board feels thread.
I know you can be smarter about this, you know you can too. What you need to do is reach out to her and tell her exactly how you feel about the situation you are currently in, no matter how blunt it may be. If it truly has been a year then you need to act, not drunk but as sober as you can be.
I would like to wish you the best, in that maybe you can work things out with her.
But hell, should things go south, wouldn't you rather her not be mad/in tears because you yelled at her drunk?
>>697128310
That sucks dude. I feel for you, did you ever get the goal?
>>697128713
pretty much man.
>>697128698
she's genuinely shy, I even thing she has never had a boyfriend before.
But I guess things are already dead by now. Thank you for reading my story.
>>697126831
Literally what is wrong with you. She is TOYING with you. Why would she tell you of her Snapchat story then say to not look at it? I know it's hard, but she is NOT a good person. Think for yourself here, you would only cause yourself more pain
>>697124302
i confessed to childhood friend that i loved her last week and she acted exactly that acting all happy when i lied saying i was over and said "now lose my number and fuck yourself (:"
I fucking hate that i cant get over her
>>697127336
>>697127972
Kill him, anon. Kill him with your bare hands. It won't bring back your little girl, but it will make sure he could never do it again. Degenerates like that don't deserve to live.
Sometimes murder is completely justified.
>>697128643
Yeah, it's nice over here, lonely and isolated, just like I deserve.
>god damn that was edgy even for me
>>697127036
Raw feels right now
>>697124476
Idk if anyone else explained this to you, you dense ass motherfucker. A: this is a feels thread, not for your faggot shit. You acted in the wrong way with every given prompt. B: Loving someone is like a brother and sister, or two good friends etc. Being in love is more about the partnership, and being intimate. It's two separate feelings, although in any good relationship both are present.
>>697128838
THankyou anon . i will take you're advie
>>697128511
I hope things go well with you from now on.
You're pretty strong to survive all that. I probably would've been a hero by now.
>>697127036
Don't say that, man. He'd want you to move on and live a happy life. You're a good person.
>>697129178
Don't talk to her anymore. Socialize with other girls in front of her. Forget about her.
>>697129235
I want to leave, I want to get as far away from her as possible, but I keep getting pulled back in because I am incredibly lonely and sad, I talk to 1 person other than you guys and people on vidja games, and it's her. I just want her back, she made me so happy all those months ago
>>697128757
man, if you found her then you'll be able to find any
I had two older half-sisters when I was growing up. They meant the world to me. Then one day, my dad just ran, he left with my half sisters and never said why. He was just there one day and then gone the next. This was when I was 6 years old.
Fast forward to me being 24 years old. I get a message from a girl on facebook. She is younger than me.
>"Hi, sorry to bother you, but you are xxxxxx right? I'm your younger sister. I have a sister as well, she looks just like you"
Have been searching for my older sisters ever since I got online. Just found out I have two younger sisters. Saw a picture of the youngest one, we look like twins. We literally look like we could be twins.
Arrange to meet up with them. Word gets around work that I found siblings I never knew I had. Talk to them every day before the meet.
The day before I am due to meet my "twin" and other younger sister. I am ready to shower them with love. I am ready to give them everything I wish I could have given my older half-sisters.
>My "twin" was hit by a car, a drunk driver speeding through a small village. She died on the way to hospital. My other younger sister killed herself three days later.
>I never met either of them
>Start drinking heavily
>Get fired from job because I was always drunk
>fast forward to now. Still drunk most of the time. Decided to put myself out of my misery.
>Will do it August 19th, the anniversary of my twins death.
>I am a shell of my former self. Not one day goes by that I want to kill myself. Having a sister again meant the world to me.
>I found out just yesterday that my older half-sisters were raped and abused by my uncle when they lived with him. One is a drug addict, the other killed herself two years ago.
>Fuck this shit. My head is fucked up, that same uncle did things to me when I was young as well.
>>697128751
Bumping self, would like to have that pic
>>697122949
cmooooon
for those of you out there who wish that you could experience having someone who loves you back, just know that the pain of losing that person is 100x the pain of not having anyone in the first place. I know that it is a crazy thought but you are actually better off than some people who have experienced love. the pain of losing someone who loved you is the worst feeling I have ever felt in my entire life and I would not wish it on my worst enemy
>>697128098
Don't listen to other anon, some girls are incredibly socially awkward themselves too. Doesnt make sense that you made each other laugh in class and she just leaves though, maybe she's waiting for you to make a move? That's usually the case
>>697129603
I'll keep it in mind, Thank you, anon.
>>697129491
Thanks babe.
I'm going to sleep,
See you space cowboy
>>697129322
There's two of us here, so at least we aren't as lonely as that guy on Pluto. At least we still live on an actual planet.
>>697129615
>I am incredibly lonely and sad, I talk to 1 person other than you guys
Any self respecting woman is going to be repulsed by this. Make real friends and stop being such a clingy beta fuck and maybe just maybe you'll get a girl that finds you interesting enough to play with your pee pee.
>>697129801
I'm so sorry that happened to you. I wish I could just hug you right now.
>>697129507
I genuinely do hope things work out one way or another for you friend. It's not fun holding onto a hook waiting to be reeled in.
>>697129801
Godspeed anon
I'll pray for you that your suicide be painless
>>697129312
I think about it a lot, I'm trying not to. I need to prove to myself that I'm better than him, that I'm not some kind of monster that forces someone to bury their child.
It's a fight that I know I'm going to lose someday. I will give in, I think it's inevitable that I'll eventually give in and kill him.
I find myself caring about what the morality of the issue less and less.
>>697129569
I probably will at some point, I don't think it's strength that keeps me going anymore. I think it's just anger at this point.
Joni, if you're here, I do miss you, you fucking narcissistic asshole.
Please message me again.
>feels
>>697129781
Thanks man, i never thought in that way, and also have never had anyone really tell me that. my ex gave off the vibe that "she was the best and you'll never find someone like me, blah blah blah" you legit helped my self esteem tonight
>>697129976
I'm really thankful you guys read my story. I needed someone to listen to me, I feel better now with it out of my chest.
I'm gonna keep that in mind, Thank you.
>>697129801
I'm really sorry to hear that man. There's nothing I can say to make you not kill yourself, without lying. It won't get better. There are some situations you just can't come back from. There's only one last thing you can do before killing yourself, and that is killing your uncle. Even track down the drunk driver and kill him too.
On August 19th, as you're about to kill yourself, call the police, turn yourself in and tell them you're going to kill yourself. But before you do, start a stream of it, so that you will forever be remembered on /b/
>>697118482
Holy fuck I feel so bad for Red
I feel so out of touch with the world.
I mean, I get everything from the internet so I know what's happening or what's big (usually) but from behind a screen. As far as real life interactions go I just don't connect. I have trouble talking to people and society is a whole other world to me. I just don't understand how things work, it's like an old man trying to do parkour. (I'm only 18 so I guess I still have a lot of growing to do) Idk, I just feel so out of it like I'm watching everything from a bubble and I never really experience living and I use to be fine with being that way, because I knew my family was still there and they beat any friends I ever had,
but now it's like even they're turning their back on me.
Ig i could just slip in here newfag and all, just to make you feel bros slightly better :). I um i clean houses, i know shitty job literally and im 18 well 19 on monday but i mean i sleep on the livingroom floor in my grandmas apartment. I um my friends well my friend moved away i mean happy for my bro but after half of middle school and all through high school you kinda start getting used to people and he doesnt respond to my kiks. Just have my family! But my grandma and uncle are mad at me so ive been keeping to myself lately. And i mean all of my classmates are all in college, traveling and living but i just im .. god i fucking hate my life. Brb crying like a bitch
>>697123197
Do it
>>697130909
you are a little bitch, newfag. When I was a newfag I didn't even write like that. If you want to complain about your life, go to tumblr
>>697129976
He already made the move. He tried to kiss her she rejected him, he tried talking to her and she ignored him.
You have to be incredibly obtuse to think this girl anon is talking about has any interest in him. She has made it abundantly clear.
>Doesnt make sense that you made each other laugh in class and she just leaves
Yes it does, she wanted to be friends with him and clearly he had other intentions that.
I'll give anon credit for going for a kiss and making his intentions clear. It's better to get rejected then to sit in the friend zone and watch the girl you like be happy with some other guy.
>>697131070
Oh, chill. He is probably new to the whole gammar thing. Give him a break and let him vent.
>>697130773
push yourself out of your comfort zone.
I'm 22 years old and I'm always like "if I had tried/done/said/etc/"
I'm secretly an alcoholic. I drink when ever I can and it has yet to effect my work life but it has effected my personal life. I am terrified to move in with this guy because if he finds out he might leave.
>>697124849
Where do you work anon?
Might as well go to bed. Maybe listening to the (much needed) rain'll help me fall asleep a little faster.
>>697130630
I know where he lives. I make no mention of what will happen to him before the date. But he will be punished. Goodnight anon
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>>697130357
With that said, I think I will try and go to sleep now. Thanks to the anons who talked with me.
Night.
>>697131496
Goodnight sweet prince. You will forever be in our dreams
>>697131070
good job asshole, a person opens up and you be a typical /b/ assFUCK
>>697122267
Hey . Like this anon is saying , would it be better to lover someone . Even painfully short for less than half a year, or never to love at all . Currently going through the first and just had it go horrible months later need some assurance thar it's better to have experienced loved than not at all
>>697131626
There, there, Anon.
>>697131984
Sauce?
>>697118452
what kind of troglodyte doesn't shower in the morning?
>be with girl for over a year
>she said she doesn't love me anymore
>after that she gets a new guy
what a hoe, nothing of value was lost
>that's what i tell myself to sleep better
Just remember 1 bullet is a lifetime supply
>>697131984
Go back to /pol/ or /r9k/ or whatever pussy board you're from
Scratch that, you're probably from reddit
Saw someone post something along these lines earlier in the thread. But the threads slowing down now and I'm going to head off to bed soon, so I just wanted to leave my troubles here.
I'm in love with a girl who I will probably never have a shot with. We used to live on the same street when I was 15 and she was 13. Anyways a few years have gone by and she now lives about 1000 miles away and I don't know if I'll ever see her again.
Anyways, all I really want out of life is someone to spend my days with. This girl, Lily, is my everything, we talk every day either by text or on Skype. And she's admitted to feeling the same way, but the problem is I still have to finish up school before I can move to her area. And I'm so worried that I'm not going to be good enough if we even make it that far. I'm so worried she'll lose interest in my by the time I'm done with school. I love her with all my heart and even though I'm still pretty young I know I'll never find anyone like her. She is what I can only describe as the other half of me. I lover her to death and theres not a single thing I would change about her. All I want is the opportunity to give her everything I can. To do anything and everything I can to make her happy and what have you. I know in my heart that she is my best chance at finding love in this world, and each day I feel like that chance grows smaller and smaller.
already /b/ i never contribute to this shit hole of a site but hey it's always good to hear someones opinion. Been in a long distance relationship for a while, things have been going great. Recently in the past 2 months the SO has gotten a job that sucks the life out of her and is too tired to do anything and doesn't have a lot of time to talk or skype. Anyone know of any good ways of dealing with this kind of stuff?
I wish I could go back 10 years and change so much, somewhere along the line I screwed up and the emptiness I feel everyday is my punishment.
/b/ros, your all i got any more, i just sometimes wished my friends would text me and ask if im alright but how would they know if something is wrong with me? and if i post anything about me i feel like im a attention whore, just fucking FeelsBadMan
>>697132180
Oh man this picture. I don't know the story behind it but I don't think I want to. Perhaps he lost a child who used to love that bouncy thing, or maybe he remembers it from when he was a kid and how he used to have dreams and now hes stuck in a dead end office job. Who knows? There are so many possibilities, each one sadder than the last.
>>697132836
you can see the dumb fuck in the mirror taking the picture with a DS
>>697133030
Almost teared up
>>697132921
Don't worry man, this is a feels thread. The one time you can post your emotions on /b/.
To add to your post, I'm in the same predicament
>>697132921
Hey, dude, if you want to talk to someone, I'm willing to chat somewhere.
>>697132653
Just be there for her when you can, refer to post above, thats my similar situation. As long as you keep showing support thats what matters. If you at all can, change your schedule around a little so you can squeeze in more time with her.
>>697119669
I'm sorry anon.
why doesnt she love me anymore ..
keep in mind lads this one just happened like a few days ago
>going on vacation to Prague
>get on plane, take seat
>seat next to me vacant for a while, boarding about to end
>suddenly this literal goddess, prettiest girl I have literally ever seen sits next to me
>wearing jeans and a navy blue Tar Heels shirt, has the most incredible eyes you have ever seen, ice blue, perfectly framed by her tan skin, most perfect lips, literally Aphrodite incarnate
>talk to her like the whole 8 hour flight, neither of us even sleep even though it's like from 7 to 3 in the morning to Munich
>Every time she talks her face lights up and her smile is more beautiful than anything you have ever seen
>make the most stupid error in my entire life and neglect to ask for her number, or even her fucking last name
>realize it in the airport waiting for my connection to Prague, literally scour the entire airport for 2 hours looking for her but I can't find her
>get on my flight realizing I will probably never see the most perfect girl ever again
>sitting in my hotel right now wanting to fucking kill myself
Anyone else ever fucked up this bad?
>>697127036
Holy fuck /b/ro...
>>697133312
i got all the time in the world, literally can talk whenever, it's her that has no time so idk how to handle being on my own till she can either skype or not at all
>>697116525
My 20th gf broke up with me because I kissed her sister once
Sucks bros , I might spiral into depression again...
Any of you guys know this feel?
>>697133358
It has happened to me but in my same country,
That the story of the "If I just..."
A painful lesson,
>>697133661
>20 gf
you keep track of that shit....?
>>697133163
>>697133300
its just, i wish i had a girl you know, im not really fat, im probs like a 7/10, im funny, people know me, im somewhat good in social situations, but. the. part. that. fucking. kills. me. is that i have some sort of speech shit. and no one will tell me. i know say shit wrong over and over and over again but i ask people people if i sometimes sound funny but they just say "no your fine annon" but deep down inside i know im not fine. i just dont know
>>697133661
why did you kiss her sister?
>>697130401
I hope you can be happy again some day, anon. I really do.
>>697133648
Idk man, its a sucky situation. Maybe you could try and surprise her and go visit her this weekend or something? If you're there in person then you can just be together, she can still get rest from her job and enjoy her little reprieve but you'll be right there for her.
>>697133358
How do you start talking to her?
>>697125020
that hurt
>tfw you talk to women and you can't tell if they are annoyed by you or actually enjoy your company
Anybody else?
>be me
>socially awkward sperg
>actually not that bad looking: strong jawline, muscular build.
>One day random 9/10 QT 3.14 ask me to be her lab partner
>say "s-sure"
>nervous as fuck while setting up our lab
>shaking and dropping things
>She can probably sense the autism
>finish lab
>next Monday
>she sits next to me
>lab partners again
>she asks me how my weekend was
>conversation actually goes somewhere
>Make her laugh a few times
>Random silence for like 4 seconds
>just stare into each others eyes
>she blushes and looks down
>crazy butterflies in stomach
>Don't talk for rest of class because we had to do a lab write up.
>Leave without saying anything to her after class
>next day
>sitting on bench reading book
>she comes up to me and sits down
>continue our conversation from the day before
>We continue to talk for the next few weeks
she actually look genuinely happy to see me when we talk but I don't know if she's is just generally a nice person or if she just tolerates me because we are lab partners.
Should I just ask her out to coffee and get the truth or just keep our relationship school-related?
I just got out of the hospital because of a suicide attempt and this thread might just put me back in there so far I have a total 3 attempts i suck I can't even die right, all I want is to be happy or just to be forgotten
>>697133845
lol it was just a 1 time thing , bitch overreacted
>>697133798
you don't ? lmao
>>697134009
Usually talk to your neighbors on a flight, ask them where they are going, where they are from, etc. that's how we started talking
>>697127336
Fuckn kill him Anon
>>697134165
no she didn't
you're a fucking faggot, and you didn't deserve her
>>697120067
It's not too late make her proud. Your life isn't over so you still have a lot of time to be the best son you could ever be. And I'm sure she loved you everyday regardless of your success because you were her son. Don't beat yourself up anon.
>>697134072
I gotcha fam
>>697134165
1 time thing? /b/ro i bet you shoved your cock in her lol also you are gonna stay depressed as fuck when you keep track of how many women you be with . It's just weird as fuck to keep track of that lmao
>>697134072
also yeah, ask her out
>>697123733
Damn anon, you are describing me exactly.
>>697131070
>inb4 hurr durr leave moralfag
I don't know where you're from, man, but this dude is being open about his shitty life. Maybe you're a nigger and have to be aggressively "macho" to prove you're not a bitch, or whatever, but you're acting like a bitch-made faggot right now, regardless of your posturing. See, what separates people from us niggers is we have empathy and being able to comfort your fellow man when they need help is what civilized people do.
I wouldn't expect you to agree, though , because you're either an edgy teen that lives at home with his parents or you're a literal nigger. Either way, you're garbage.
>>697134072
I say shoot for it she came back after that autism so that's something
>>697134683
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>>697134388
Just gonna start new thread about this since this one is gonna die
>>697133923
I appreciate that, though I think it's too late for me. I think that there are some things that you just don't get back up from.
In those moments when I feel that maelstrom of bitterness swelling up in my chest, I will remember you said that.
If I could go another path I would. I hope, most likely in vain, that I can still save myself.
I hope you can avoid the place I'm standing in.
>>697130582
Maybe 4chan needs a never alone section
