feels thread
literally no one texts me. whoever i do text stop replying almost immediately. alone forever.
>tfw I'm on vacation
>I just do nothing all day long
>no one to talk
>tfw I miss my college, at least I had something to do in my day
>>695788785
Are u me anon?Are u brazilian?
>>695787728
Are you that friend, Anon?
>>695789636
>Are u brazilian?
At least I'm not brazilian
>>695787728
Post your number, anon.
>>695790088
I'd text anon
>>695789992
definitely at the back of the "pack" when walking on sidewalk (in highschool), always get cut off and no one ever says "sorry, what were you saying?" even my parents do this. of course no one ever waited for me, just figured i'd catch up.
so yeah, basically me in high school. by the time i got to university i gave up on making friends n shit, so it doesn't describe me as of late but definitely relocatable.
>>695787728
Don't worry anon, I'm having the same issue, my birthday is in 10 days and I'll celebrate it by myself here.
>>695789992
not OP but i am that "friend" i was honestly surprised on how accurate that was and i really know how to change it
>>695790252
>>695790088
4_68894189
go for it
>>695787728
Post your number here
Your phone will blow up with sexy texts and calls for hours
>>695790467
relate-able* fucking chrome suggestions
>>695790587
Um. I'm not sure I can send international texts.
>unlimited calls
>unlimited texts
>no friends
>shit at small talk
>feel different and alone regardless
>>695790889
if you guess the _ its okay because im an iphone fag and imessage is free
Same, got a kik /b/ro?
>>695787728
Hey man I'll text you what's ur number
>>695790542
>i really know how to change it
how?>>695790467
>>695787728
>>695791050
summer passing through
just lying there while it's too hot
no beach, no bitch, no traveling
man up losers you are better off alone you don't need some iphone notification you have all you need and more so stop focusing on the shit you don't have and start focusing on the shit you do
>>695787728
this is what social media is for.
Doesnt matter what your actual likes and dislikes are. You just lie your ass off and pretend you like/hate something to get more exposure.
Like people voting for Trump
>>695789636
yes, I am.
god, we're fucked.
I love sushis
>>695792024
I don't worry about it holding together, it tastes good anyway
>>695793024
fuck this got me
>>695787728
if i had a phone id give you my number for texts my dude
>>695793433
and a pokemon go machine but ye
>>695791023
yeah
I signed a unlimited call and SMS plan. Dunno why tho
>>695791023
>>695793433
>>695793433
>>695793538
Kek but true
>>695787728
I'm like that because I rarely text anyone and as a result never receive any texts. Decided to better myself instead of worrying over it
>>695793267
this is lyrics from a band called flatsound if anyone is wondering.
REALLY fucking good music. Perfect thread music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFHw-trG6B4
I'm to dam successful and only 22 feels weird man
>>695787728
Heck, I had to find a payphone to make sure that my phone still worked
im doing pretty good guys
just started dating a great new chick, and as soon as I find someone to cheat on her with I can get this relationship really going
![cmE7efH[1].gif](https://i.imgur.com/MPfxSfM.gif "cmE7efH[1].gif")
>>695793267
>>695793890
>>695793915
and you keep this up until you finally break down
>>695793433
I played the ''pretend I lost my phone and numbers'' game and even bought a new one and asked people and family their numbers, I hate how shitty things are.
>>695790047
kek
>>695787728
same here, alcoholism is the answer though... so youre welcome.
>>695787728
Why do they stop replying?
>>695794308
>>695791801
So you'll be in the feels thread when Trump wins the election huh?
>>695794373
they never started
>>695794308
>>695794458
Any more like these two?
>>695787728
The holidays, thanksgiving, christmas, new years are the worst, though
>>695794726
>tfw your 2 scared to use drugs to escape so you endlessly play the same video games over and over because your also dirt poor.
>>695793267
this literally describes me...
>>695794288
Yeah, I participated in an alchol withdrawl drug trial, I swore it didn't work, felt like taking asprin. Shoot, I can't even drink anymore, it creeps me out now.
>>695794308
this is too real, im sorry
>>695794822
Nope. Sorry. He probably killed himself
>>695792974
Damn that hits hard for me
>>695789992
Kek, I don't even have friends.
>>695795129
why don't you start going for jogs or something faggot?
>>695795535
You have me Anon
>>695795584
doesnt help with or with out pokemon go
plus half my job is walking anyway
Been talking to my sister tonight. Some bug has crawled up my ass in the wake of one of the worst depressive episodes in three and a half years and my fat ass is, for whatever reason, looking to start running. She's been giving me good info; she ran (and completed) a marathon two years ago and is signed up to run the same one this year (trying for a better time.)
I don't get it. I'm 6'1, 300lbs and still have lingering asthma issues. Why the fuck has my brain decided jogging/running is a good fucking idea? I'm gonna go through with it; I have a plan to work up slowly and I need to at least try to get some proper cardio in my life. I just...FUCK, it seems illogical to me.
What I don't understand is, why do you people come to a gay porn site to sulk and seek pity?
>>695796153
only place to go
>>695787728
I know that feel.
>My birthday was two days ago.
>Ive been really sick unfortunately so Ive been sleeping for the most part of the past couple of days.
>I pretty much slept through my birthday. >Woke up and got up yesterday and checked my phone.
>expecting to see a couple of texts or calls for my birthday.
>litterally only got one text.
>it's from my bitch of an ex that cheated on me.
>I cut of all contact with her when we broke up 3 months ago
>"happy birthday anon"
>not even my family called or texted me
>not even my small group of friends called or texted me.
>mfw
>>695796153
because this is the only place where people act human
>>695796153
Why did you come to this thread to try and fish for a response?
>>695796427
That's rough man. I don't know what to tell you to try and console you about it, but it is rough.
>>695796153
Because theres a bunch of feels bro's here, thats why. Remember the theme to cheers, where everybody knows your name.
https://youtu.be/xvRGh2NEjSU
>>695796427
>birthdays
>chrismas
>new year eve
>summer
>>695796153
>>695796427
At least you still have a chance to get the succ
>>695796427
Feel for you bro
>>695787728
what anoyes me the most about never gettign called is the rare cases i do get called its work or some company trying to sell something... its like the only reason i have this phone is so my fucking boss can contact me when ever im not at work?
fuck! this pisses me off as much as it depresses my fucking ass
>>695796784
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhwOZyfjon0
>text 5 people
>no messages
>it's been 2 months and still no replies or text
and like the other guy, i dont think i even need a phone plan. i don't even have a job.
>>695796521
It's a legitimate question. Of all the places to sulk about how your life stinks, why would you choose a gay porn site?
>>695796427
No one loves you.
>>695796427
How old are you? Past like 20 that is expected
i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu :(((((
cunt
>>695797138
I do my best to ignore the dicks. They actually repulse me (even my own.)
>>695797138
No, this is a pedo porn site. why are you here?
>>695797138
This isn't a gay porn site. It's a porn site. Not exclusively gay porn. And also, why not? Maybe you could post a link to a site that is better suited for our sulking about how our lives stink?
>>695791327
fuck man, was not expecting that to cut so deep
>>695797432
Is Livejournal still around?[/joke]
>>695797347
Why is she/he gone, Anon?
>>695796980
Yeah, like whyh even have a fuckign phone...
>>695796427
I know it's kinda late, but happy birthday anon. Take a pepe.
>>695797522
What's the story behind this?
>>695797693
Yeah...
>>695797347
>>695797554
Fucking Chad
>>695797300
Turned 23.
>>695793267
Flatsound-sleep is an amazing song. I always get emotional.
>>695791327
>>695797791
Great, no love for basement dwelling neckbeards
>>695797858
Who's Chad?
>>695797432
Honestly. Look around you. It's predominantly gay porn.
You'd have better luck sulking over a beer at a bar. You're not making any friends where everyone is Anonymous.
>>695797554
she cheated on me ;( but I still think about her constantly a year later
>>695793744
Thank you anon really enjoying this artist.
>>695797522
Why she sad
>>695796427
I least you had a girlfriend
>>695793744
I'm listening to flatsound right now haha! Fucking amazing.
I've come to accept that I'm the clown, I'm there to make others laugh, to ask how their day is going but never to be asked back and I'm strangely OK with that, if I can make someone feel better it makes me feel better, I don't want anyone to feel the way I do, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, this empty feeling that leaves you up at 3 in the morning, yearning for the feeling of waking up next to someone and have them genuinely happy to see you, it hurts, all the betrayal, death, abandonment and change in people I've seen but that how I know how to cheer people up, I can't cry, I can't show any faltering or weakness because the second I show what I feel I become just another person
>>695797994
and she doesn't think about you
never
>>695794059
That shit is pathetic, if you wanna talk that bad to someone just ask to meet up, fucking socially awkward cunts I swear.
Im depressed and all but fuck, you guys are regular grim reapers
Heres a squatting slav peasants to lift up your moods
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afP71xwLI8Y
>>695797960
Chad is a stereotype. You know a "Chad" when you see one...and keep your girlfriend (if any) away from that douche nozzle.
>>695797138
>>695797682
Thanks /b/ro.
>>695798120
yup
>>695797693
The supreme court handed the presidency to GW Bush. She was overcome by the death of our republic.
none of you guys are depressed most likely. just sad. that can be fixed. real depression is like being a robot. somebody could invite you to something awesome it just seems like too much work for nothing. be glad that you can still feel sad.
>>695797693
Nevre gas
>>695797991
It's really a mix. Not predominantly gay. We've got some Hentai shit going on, lesbian shit going on, straight shit going on, gay shit going on. Look around the boards a bit mate, you'll see.
You're right, but then I'd have to go out.
Asked a girl out on a date and we've been friends for a while. She says "hahaha idk"
"We'll see"
Pretty much a soft no but I wouldn't have been hurt if she would've just flat out said she wasn't interested.
It was my birthday a few weeks back. Me, my twin brother and about 9 people were all going to meet up and hang out at this little spot in town.
>one person shows up
>she bought cake and cupcakes and everything
>I've only known her for 2 years, and she's still the closest I've ever felt to someone.
>Start catching feels cause I'm a pathetic waste of space
>too scared to do anything cause I don't want to risk losing the only real friendship I've had my entire life
>never ending terror that she'll fall for my twin instead, if either of us
>mfw
Pic related, jojo's was the thing that brought us together
>>695798196
Someone saved that? I wrote that response.
Huh...
>>695797994
Then forget about her, mate. Don't need that shit, believe me.
>>695797991
Just because people post stuff there it doesn't mean you have to watch it, like the cum pics, boxxy, cancer banna, the neverending shitpost, gay porn, I just skip over them
Any /b/tards feel like texting me?
>>695798154
Oppa dawai kurwa
>>695798459
Kik would be a better idea
>>695798413
that was the quads
>>695798430
I know, I just miss being actually happy
>>695787728
long story short, I had a very close friend that fell extremely ill.
I was at a museum today by myself and out of nowhere I got hit with this lightning bolt of grief. it was bizarre. I'm a usually a stoic person, or at least i'm not outwardly emotional. it wasn't sparked by any of the art. it was more like I suddenly recognized she wasn't with me. which is irrational, but it's made me think about the person's absence from my life. I stared at a painting until I was together.
honestly it would have been nice to have cried for once and not have to bottle it up, but obviously that is not ok to do in public.
>>695792974
Thanks Mr. Bear
>>695798570
Kik me than. Ryanisepicq
>>695797994
i feel you anon, im in the same boat
>be me less than a week ago
>almost 30, maybeillstopbeingalittlefaggot.webm
>I don't have any real friends, just a few coworkers but they know when my birthday is
>I usually just get 1 or 2 calls from family members
>big day comes, it's fucking sunday so I get to stay at home
>my mom wishes me a happy birthday, no hugs because I'm weird about hugging people, she stopped trying to hug me a long time ago
>spent the day playing destiny poorfagsothat'stheonlygameigot.gif and doing some chores
>almost 11 pm, realize no one has texted me
>call it a day and go to bed
>cry softly while thinking how much I'd wish to be someone else until I fell asleep
So, probably I got that shit after years of being too autistic to interact with the rest of my family and just plainly awkward when it comes to me trying to initiate small talk or getting all anxious while on the phone.
All in all, you're probably not that fucked up, OP.
>>695798600
The quads weren't mine; the one following was.
>>695798247
kek
>>695798186
I understand. Believe me, I know a 'Chad' cunt.
>>695798240
>implying that anything at all is awesome
>>695798186
Chad here. I find it funny that the stereotype associated with my name is like the exact opposite of me.
>>695797994
I feel you anon.
I'm samefag from >>695796427
I was with my ex for 6 years. She showed up on my doorstep early one morning and broke up with me on the spot. Didn't even give me an explanation or didn't even give me the time of day to talk about it. For 6 years I gave her everything, she was everything to me. I found out a week after we broke up why she broke up with me. After 6 years she didnt even have the decency to at least be honest with me.
>>695794308
Holy fuck
>>695798933
that's what i'm saying yo
>>695787728
Hot damn am I glad I only come on this website to laugh now. I used to come on here religiously and I related to all these fuckin feels posts. I feel sorry for you because I remember it felt like shit, and I genuinely hope shit gets better, but god damn am I happy it aint me anymore.
>>695798568
isnt it funnt how slavs have nothing, but never complain about being depressed or shit that they dint have...?
Makes you think: 1 maybe im being a bitch 2 be grateful for what you have because it could almost always be worse.
smoke a joint, drink a beer or eat your favourite mean, youre alive you fuckers, you dont need other people to enjoy it right now.
you guys piss me off reeeeeeeeeee
>>695799048
What?
>>695798947
Kek
>>695799116
youre obviously drunk, comtinue.
>>695798090
Flatsound is wonderful
>>695787728
I'm listening to providence by sonic youth
Hate the girl I sleep with. Haven't seen her in a couple months and seeing her tomorrow. Not even really looking forward to it at this point we just kinda agitate each other. Not a good feels post whatever just felt like it.
>Inb4 move on
>90% of you will take a girl you're even moderately attracted to when its easy too
>>695798966
fucking bitches, im sorry bro
>>695799502
Wouldn't you rather be alone than with someone you don't like?
>>695787728
Heres my favorite meme
>My birthday is in less than a week
>haven't really had contact with friends since May
>Created event on Facebook planning a party and invite all my friends
>Decided to go big and order caterer, tell them I'll let them know how many are coming
>take a day off work to go shopping for decorations and supplies
>spent a bit much but it'll be worth it.
>RSVP ran out three days ago
>not one reply; no maybes, goings or not interesteds
>call caterer to cancel because of "family emergency trip"
Bonus:
>mom phones, i live abroad, to ask how im doing
>tell her everything's great, party is all planned out
>she sounds relieved and gushes how happy she is about it
>promise to send her pictures
I should just kill myself and save her the despair.
>>695799665
We aren't together. I just have sex with her and we talk a lot. It's annoying but I've got little else right now.
>>695794458
oh fuck anon, this hit me on a level i didnt think other people experienced
>>695799732
Hey! I'm dreaming the liv- I mean living the dream too!
Love of my life dumped me about two weeks ago. Still hurts like hell
>>695799769
i'm crying for you anon
that's why i don't tell my birth date to anyone
>>695799769
Where you live anon? I'll go to your bday
>>695799878
Kek, join the party!
>>695799893
>>695799893
You got nudes of her?
>When you finally realize that women are human beings.
>Women are just as selfish, self centered, egotistical and pathetic as everyone else.
>>695800050
Very relatable
The only person I talk to is my sister.
>>695800119
You got nudes ofher?
>>695800119
She hot?
>>695799769
Me and my boys are coming, whats ur adress?
I am such a clingy friend.
>>695800063
Obviously
>>695799981
Yeah maybe it's better to not expect anything anymore, I'm turning 38 after all.
>>695800010
Thanks anon I appreciate it but there won't be a party. I'll just have a beer after work.
>>695797109
I saw the same girl im my dreams for like a week straight. It was so vivid and real at one point i though waking up was going to sleep. havent seen her in a while.
i miss her
>be me
>Work at a bar
>regular customer, comes in almost every night
>she's super sweet to everyone, just a great person overall
>not interested in her romantically but i enjoy having her come in
>2 days ago, she tells me shes going camping with friends for a week, so she wont be coming in at all this week
>have yesterday off, she's out camping and shit
>be today
>wake up and check facebook on my phone
>regular customer was killed in a car accident on the way to the camping site
>go to work today
>feels off knowing she isnt gonna stop in anymore
>some of her friends and family come in, laugh together, cry together, just have a good time
>im glad i got to be working tonight and be a part of it, even if i never knew her outside of work
its just wierd seeing someone almost every day and talking to them right before they're gone forever.
>>695800537
Where's the beer after work? First two on me.
>>695800515
Share them nigga
>>695799769
damn...
>>695800666
he's brazilian
>>695800666
Satan's trips demand I buy you two beers for your birthday
>>695800470
>inb4 gang rape
>>695800666
>>695800537
Listen to Satan anon have a beer with him
>>695800214
>>695800352
Nah. It's nothing sexual. She knows that i'm very lonely and makes sure I don't kill myself or something.
>>695796726
shit
>>695800629
upvoted
>>695798966
why did she break up with you?
>>695795868
every nod is one step closer to killing myself
>>695787728
Give me your # op, I'll text you back
>>695800898
Post her anyways
>>695800537
>>695800470
I live in crackshitistan at the moment,i've been working here for two years. My visa expires next year and I'll head back home to UK.Theres a little bar down the road from my place and its on the way home from work which is nice.
>>695800822
Dubsing my Satan's trips with 2 ABSOLUTELY means the first 2 are on me anon
does the OP still here?
Met two qt Mexican girls on my way home from work and gave them a ride home. One asked me for my number so I gave it to them, since the other had called me cute. Both seem underage so the moralist (coward) in me doesn't want to do anything, but I mean what if they do? I know I'm a sleazy degenerate at heart so I genuinely wouldn't mind fucking both of them, but the risk seems absurd.
Also I ended up getting a flat tire since their apartment complex sucks ass.
There's really no point in being nice anymore, is there?
>>695800537
You set yourself up for a disappointment if your story is true.
I'm 28. I stopped trying to make my birthday a special day 7 years ago. After you're 21, no one cares unless you force them to care. Unless I had a consistent social group that constantly has birthday parties for each other, I wouldn't have put my feels on the line like that.
Birthdays are just another day for the majority of adults. I don't feel sad about it.
>>695801174
Why would you try to fuck both? Pick one and try to fuck her.
If she's legit underage though, I wouldn't. Parents might get policia involved, or more likely she has a brother that will fuck you up. Mexi-qt's are all about family.
>>695794458
samefag
>>695801041
Okay.
>>695787728
>be me
>get cucked and dumped by gf of two years, cheats on me
>deprssed
>21 birthday comes up
>only one friend wished hpbd
>no party and didn't drink because of exams
>not even family called
>think of gf
>her birthday is 10 days after mine
>tons of birthday posts for her
man that was a rough year. i'm on meds but I'm doing better now.
great job, just suicidal. I'm a high functioning drug addict
>>695801174
Morality is a spook
I've been silently contemplating suicide almost everyday for the past year.
I'm too afraid to actually do it because I'm worried that life might suddenly become better the next day and I'll miss out on it.
I don't know how to tell myself to quit holding on as I'm just dragging myself farther down this shit hole.
>>695796148
DO IT YOU WILL NOT REGRET
>>695801486
Because they both seemed like they wanted to fuck me and I feel like I could swing it since at that age (16-17) they're still pretty malleable.
Yeah, you're probably right. Oh well.
>>695801178
If you've been dead inside long enough, risking feels is better than feeling nothing at all anymore.
Im going to meet this girl ive been talking to online for a while on saturday. Im so anxious and i feel so weird. She seems to really like me so i hope we get together.
>>695801551
This shit mane
I'm past being suicidal at this point but when I was the only thing keeping me alive was the fact that I had student loans that would have fallen on my parents if I died.
>>695801129
Well anon... maybe more people would come to your birthday if you'd worshipped Satan...
>>695796148
Prolly wanna start with the elliptical for your knees, move up to jogging. But yea, regular cardiovascular exercise that gets your heart rate up makes a huge difference in the way your brain functions. At least for me it does. I'm getting back into the habit again and it's easy to take for granted the benefits. You don't notice how unhealthy you felt until you start feeling healthy and notice the difference. Mentally, physically. Cardio is the shit.
>>695800937
She said she just didnt feel the same anymore. Said she wanted no hard feeling between us. I loved her and gave her everything that i could. Fucked up part is that she couldnt even be honest with me. After 6 years she couldnt even be mature and tell me the truth. She cheated on me with her druggie scumfuck coworker.
>>695796726
This one is so fucked up, it doesn't make me sad, it makes me angry. Fuck fathers who rape their children. Thank god my dad is a good one who'd never hit me. My dads cool, buys me stuff for my PC for my birthday and shit. Drives himself to my apartment just to hang out. I love my dad, and seeing dads do this kind of shit makes my trigger finger real fucking itchy
>>695801546
Do it faggot
>>695801509
sure m8
>>695802351
Wow that must suck, I feel sorry for you anon
>Birthday two weeks ago
>Been texting this girl I've liked for some time now
>Still not sure if she's interested in me
>Her birthday was 10 days before, wished her a happy birthday and we talked
>As a joke, I stop texting her to see if she notices and start something
>Days passes no response
>Birthday comes, only 1 call from my family, didn't even ask what I was going to do because they know I'm a lonely autist
>Not one text from anybody
>Still waiting for her text
>Still waiting for something that's never going to come
i just want someone to take 30 seconds out of their day and ask me how I am.
>>695800906
sorry, would it be better if i threw in some beta story about how i loved her and never got to tell her?
Everyone in these threads always lets how many people care about them dictate their happiness.
Loneliness is a choice you make when you're alone. Personally, I choose to enjoy my life and not give a shit. Friends aren't a priority to me and thus I have none. Maybe it's the other way around though, I don't know.
I focus on my career. I have pets (4 cats and a chihuahua) that are baller. I indulge in the occasional intoxication (cutting back lately) and I try to stay physically healthy with exercise and nutritious foods.
I could dwell on the things that aren't great, but instead I savor the things that are. I have a lot of leisure time, I enjoy vidya and TV. I just keep trying to enjoy what I have rather than sit around feeling bad about what I don't have.
>Used to be an overachiever in and after high school
>Now I barely have enough energy to make it through the day let alone get up in the morning
>>695803359
this might be helpful if it wasn't so cringy
>>695803470
Are you me?
>>695803605
I'm not trying to help, I'm bitching about how whiney you guys are about your shitty lives. I acknowledge my life isn't some facebook ideal, but I enjoy the parts that are good and I don't sit around and bitch about that aren't, because that just makes things feel worse than they are.
So what's cringey?
>>695803851
about the parts that aren't**.
I a word.
>>695803851
Venting and discussing problems can help some people.
>>695804108
Yeah, I guess I'm just venting about my problem with the fact that other people who have a similar life to mine seem to hate theirs while I find mine relatively acceptable. It does help.
>>695796467
underrated comment...
I always try to help people and try to be a good person,but nobody is ever good to me. It is the worst feeling in the world.
Been off meds for awhile and I'm starting to notice myself slip into more erratic states of behavior, reacting to shit that isn't there, falling over my sentence structure, laughing at inopportune times. It obviously unnerves people and that just annoys me. I mean most people could disclose some pretty vile shit about themselves to me and I'd think nothing of it. In fact I'd be kind of flattered by the thought somebody trusted me enough to tell me that shit. It doesn't work in reverse though. I'm constantly under intense amounts of public scrutiny for how I behave so there's no wriggle room, and I'm forced to be stifled and inauthentic because the real me is most satisfied being pissed off all of the time.
I don't really know what to do now. I'm sick of people and I have no moral obligation not to hurt them. I just need them to access drugs so I can be happy alone.
>>695804654
You're probably not as great as you think you are
>>695804654
dude I know this feelling.
It isn't as I'm expecting something for be a nice person, but I just get fucked by the world, nothing nice happens to me.
>>695797791
fuck this
>>695805148
It sucks to be pissed off all the time bro. Fuck, I've been there. Good luck getting meds again if that's what you want. They help me a lot (though they've also fucked me up a lot, took a while to find the right ones and it's always evolving process).
>>695804654
Fuck you asshole, I'm good to you!
kys whiny cunt!
I've been depressed and isolated for long that it just seems normal now.
I don't even look for a way out anymore.
>>695792974
bears scare the shit out of me
>TFW when I lost all my friends and a gf I loved about 6 months ago
>Became an alcoholic due to no friends
>Work a fucking shitty janitor job
>Can't do shit about it
>All I wanna do is drink
Life is so fucked, fuck all those people saying it gets better I'm just swirling down a shit whirlpool. Is there a way out?
sage this shit with fire arrows
>>695805716
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pit_of_despair
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Learned_helplessness
>>695805148
Dude are you me?
>>695796427
nbd I dont remember birthdays in my immediate family of four people
>>695799067
for now...anon, for now
>>695806018
2 ways out that I see:
1) Stop being an alcoholic by tapering off or doing rehab and then dating to find a new girlfriend (maybe online)
2) Start focusing on success, new job, getting in shape and super healthy etc. New girlfriend will eventually fall in lap.
I was a junkie and focused all my energy on being successful after tapering off. Would've needed rehab if I didn't have help quitting though.
>>695806357
Naw. Once you get used to weaseling your way out of spiraling internal negativity, it becomes a habit of mind.
>>695805606
It only sucks if it's directed inwardly and forced into impotent anger. I enjoy being an asshole to people, and a lot of the time, so do they. I enjoy making them feel lesser and forcing them into a position where they can't attack me back because there's nothing left to. It's the inner drama queen in me that HAS to have emotional stimulation otherwise I rot in monotony. The only problem is that I can't be antisocial to the extent that I want to be, and I'm sure most people can't. I mean fuck I've directly asked various people if they would kill whoever they pleased if there were no consequences, and the answers are largely uniform yes. Fuck, if I could I would disintegrate someone just for looking at me wrong.
And I won't be. Fuck psychiatrists. All they have done is suppress my genuine personality because it's incompatible with the status quo, so I've quit and have no regrets.
>>695791642
Facts
Be the person people want to talk to and stop chasing them
>>695800113
so much this
>>695796148
also eat better. nothin is going to change if you keep eating the same shit.
>>695791642
Oh shit. It'd already been said. I had no idea.
This is basically /thread.
We have all we actually need to be happy already. Maybe read meditations by marcus aurealius?
Let opinion be taken away, and no man will think himself wronged. If no man shall think himself wronged, then is there no more any such thing as wrong.
>>695798701
Damn. You just described me to a T
>>695806664
I don't think there's anything that's truly a "genuine personality". We're all just who we make ourselves. Some people are more made than makers though, I suppose.
Sorry you have to suppress your inner drama queen aka that anti-social 'genuine inner self'. On behalf of the rest of us, thanks. Seemingly random acts of violence are annoying.
>>695794458
fuck d00d :c
>>695807590
If how you feel is being distorted for the sake of appeasing other people then it's not genuine. You can develop traits, but if you're not being honest with how you feel at any given moment, then you're sacrificing control for others and that's not something I'm going to give up.
You'd be welcome if you felt any obligation to change for my behalf but you don't, nobody does, so I have to force them with derision that I'm largely impervious to,
But then again I give zero fucks what you think is annoying and even less about what you approve of.
>>695808296
I don't know if I agree that the desire to fuck every attractive chick I see is genuine, because I don't primarily to appease my wife. Is the desire to appease my wife somehow less genuine than my more base desire? I distort a lot of my desires to fit into society (poorly.. but hey), because I have other desires that require fitting in.
I originally was watching the new Dunkey pokemon Go video, but I paused it to talk with you. That's kind of changing on your behalf and you didn't even have to force me with derision.
You don't find seemingly random acts of violence annoying? I know you don't care if I do, but if someone ran up and threw a rock at you from a car and then drove off faster than you could get them.. you'd feel annoyance I bet.
>>695809561
I wrote a short story with the ending borrowing from this comic. Anyone want to read it?
>>695809763
Sure anon, post away.
>>695809763
yes
at least you doing something of your life
the next hemingway
>>695799893
How long have you two been together?
Any more details?
>>695809281
Yea because I see marriage as a sham in the first place but whatever, if other people don't want to accept that then it they don't have to. It matters nothing to me. My only position is to alleviate the amount of control others have over me, and even then I enjoy sacrificing miniscule amounts just to see what they do with it, like watching a movie.
Those aren't persistent character traits that I have to tolerate in a public area.
These aren't random acts of violence. I don't target anybody who's done nothing to me.
>>695810133
>>695810282
Trying to Fly
“I’m just saying Frank, if you took this position you’d be making nearly triple than what you're scraping in right now, and I want to see you succeed,” Leroy said.
“I understand your urge for me to take this job Lee, but I have told you and the board time and time again. I am perfectly suited here in New York. My family is here, and that is what's most valuable in my life", Frank pressed.
Leroy sighed. “Frankie, you do know that if you took this you could have the title of CEO in less than five years?”
“The increased pay that comes with this position is something I am fully aware of. I am also aware of the constant rotation of hotel rooms and plane trips to countries on the other side of the world. The whole reason I came back to this jungle was to take care of my family. I will not be discussing it any longer,” Frank said in one concise breath.
Walking briskly out of the room, Frank Giovanni exhaled in relief. That conversation marked the third time that month Leroy, Frank’s manager, had tried to push the cushiony position of regional manager onto him. Time and time again Frank had rejected it, knowing full well the endless amounts of benefits that came with it. In reality, nothing was standing in Frank’s way of acquiring this golden opportunity except himself. He excelled exceptionally well through the sales records when he started a few years back, yet this never shook his constant underlying fear of change.
>>695810672
Nothing it seemed these days could excite Frank enough to the point of him seizing a new opportunity. He always lied about his constant need to attend and care for his family. No one doubted for a second their existence.
“Happy New Year!” yelled the combined mass of voices on the 13th floor of the Southside Regional Office Complex.
“Now, I know everybody has been a little on edge about what’s been happening on Wall Street and such in the past couple of months, but I wouldn't fret,” urged Leroy. “Things have been looking up in general, and for us especially. As a matter of fact, Frank here practically saved us last quarter. Let’s give him a round of applause!”
Barely noticing his name being called, Frank forced a bright smile of appreciation for his recognition onto his face.
The “happiness,” which only existed for a few brief weeks, was quickly extinguished by diminishing sales and the nearly daily event of seeing how many termination notices were in the main offices mailboxes. The only thing keeping Frank from being fired was his ability to make up for all the sales left to him and a few others by nearly thirty people. The talk of the company going under was one of the few topics of conversation that reverberated off of the pale gray walls. Good news ceased to exist, all that was exchanged between the few remaining coworkers were looks of hopelessness and fear.
More often than not, people’s fears became a reality. The company was starting to rip at its seams, and most everybody seemed to notice it. Some took what they could salvage and got out before they lost more, Frank on the other hand was too busy to realize to get out early.
>>695810759
“If I work hard enough, everything will turn out fine. That’s what dad always told me,” Frank thought to himself.
Even with him being the best salesman the company had ever seen, his superb skills were not enough to change the crippled economy.
“Hey Frank, mind if I come in?” Leroy slowly questioned as he leaned into Frank’s corner office.
Nodding in approval, Leroy entered the cold gray confinement of an office. Not much different than his own. Everything was cold and gray nowadays.
“I just wanted to talk to you about your future with us here,” Leroy said as he cautiously sat into the ash colored office chair in front of his desk.
As Leroy continued speaking and proclaimed the inevitable, Frank felt sadness. Not for himself, but for all the others.
Making his way back to his one room apartment, he was greeted by the only happy thing he’d seen in months. Bounding up to him in pure excitement was his dog, whose eyes were full of innocence and wonder.
“You’re lucky you know,” Frank said to his friend. “You don’t have to worry about anything.”
Frank smiled at his loyal companion and went into his bedroom to put his things away and have everything nicely organized.
Walking into his room later that evening, the dog thought to itself as it saw Frank, “Hey master, You’re trying to fly again? It didn’t work last time, but it looks like you got the hang of it. I think I’ll nap right here until you come down. Goodnight.”
>>695787728
Its okay Jeff, I'm here for you.
>>695810453
Makes sense. I always think of anti-social behavior as random, but I guess it can be properly targeted. I don't really mind it as much then, at least until it affects me.
Marriage is definitely a sham, but having a significant other is nice.
Have a good night anon. It was nice talking with you even though we disagree about how much control we're willing to give away to others. Not a lot of people on here who like to have real conversations.
>>695810843
That was a good read. I hope the dog finds a new owner to make him happy.
I don't know if any of you will care but I want to contribute to this feels thread with my story. my entire life I have been lonely. I had no friends, nothing. I knew I was going to die sad and alone. I was a kissless virgin. one day a girl that I kinda knew texts me out of nowhere. she seemed to be interested in me. we started talking a lot and we talked every single day. I fell in love with her and she fell in love with me. everything was perfect. we started dating and for once in my life I was happy and felt like I wouldn't end up sad and alone. she told me she loved me and that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me. I told her that I did too. we dated for almost a year and then she cheats on me and tells me she doesn't want a relationship anymore. I knew it was all too good to be true. i have never been so heartbroken. I really am gonna die sad and alone.
>>695811631
Thanks anon
I really enjoy writing
I hope I get better
>>695798142
Tried that, they all had something to do fr the 6th time... Maybe the 7th is my lucky shot
>>695811676
No way bro. You have got a taste of not being sad and alone and the contrast between that and being without her is what is killing you right now. She just fell into your lap and without trying at all you managed to prove you won't be alone for your entire life. If you can get that girl without trying, why not believe you could get another with a small amount of effort? You think you won't attract anyone but this other girl was attracted enough to message you out of nowhere. Don't overreact bro, just try a little bit and we both know the same goodness can happen to you again. Saying it is all over and that you will absolutely be sad and alone from now on is silly and has no basis when there has already been one girl in your life. Everything will be fine.
>>695787728
I used to be like that mate, no one would ever chat to me or call me etc. Now I have a few more friends and I'm getting texts and messages all day.
I don't enjoy it, it's not any better and honestly sometimes I wish I could just go back to being a total unknown that no one bothers to talk to. I understand how bleak that sounds but my point is that just even though I have friends that text me frequently, I'm not a happier or more complete person as a result. I'm just the same sappy loner as you OP, but sometimes having friends can make it feel even worse. I know that sounds paradoxical but I'm sure you'll understand what I mean if/when you find yourself in my situation.
>>695812809
but it was all a lie dude. now she treats me like she never loved me in the first place. it was too good to be true. I don't even know if she ever actually loved me.
>>695788785
She'd text back +358443343011
>>695813270
When is her birthday?
>>695794308
Wtf is falling out of the figure?
>>695813749
in the middle of June, why?
>>695787728
Nothing makes me happier than looking at my phone and seeing no texts or missed calls. Means i can get drunk and play vidya in peace. Bliss.
>>695793321
I wish I could remember how to cry.
