I am 19 years old and I just realized I have schizophernia, ask me anything. I've been searching information about it the past week and all of the symptoms match my life.
I hear voices, I smoke cigarettes because they make me relaxed, when I smoked weed I got extra paranoid. I am still a virgin. I have all the schizophrenic symptoms.
I will probably an hero in the coming months. Just need someone to talk to. Please
>>695131318
smoke more weed
>>695131481
I have less than an eight left, and I won't. It makes me feel bad.
>>695131318
Get drunk all the time....or get some help.
>>695131817
I don't want to get help, that would ruin my life. Everyone would think "here's that mentally ill schizophrenic retard".
I just, I am a weak person.
my cousin has it. all i can say is take your meds every single day. even when you feel better and don't think you need them because as some point you could do something that puts you in a state hospital and that's not somewhere you want to be. ever. and don't an hero because your family loves you and it will devastate them.
>>695131318
stop smoking weed, stop doing psychedelics. every day gets better.
>>695132141
No, my life is ruined as of the moment I get official schizophrenic diagnose. Seriously, would you be friends with a MENTALLY ILL PERSON WHO HEARS VOICES? I guessed that.
>>695132196
I don't smoke weed anymore, only smoked like 2 grams of it. Never done psychedelics, my psych wouldn't handle them.
I've had schizoaffective disorder for four years. It gets better, your symptoms will quiet down, you'll feel better, and things will continue as normal. Hang in there.
>>695131318
>talk to me before I leave
for what?
>>695132932
You are stronger than me. I seriously can't handle this, knowin I'm mentally ill.
>>695133127
I'm not leaving tonight.
>>695131318
what if there was a disease that combined schizophrenia and hernia, something like schizohernia... and out of nowhere a big lump would show up in your stomach and the lum would have hallucinations and claim to be hearing things? that would be awkward right?
>>695132117
Dont be a pussy go see a doctor and find out its not actually schizophrenia and that looking up symptoms on the internet is stupid.
Doctors are trained and know what it looks like
You do not
>>695133625
Nigga you high?
see a doctor, get on meds.
Schizophrenia is a spectrum and does not have to be negative. However, America is notorious for cultivating the exact opposite and I wish you the best of luck.
>>695133292
Cant handel it because he is not in perfect health. Nigga you can still be normal so stop crying and do something about it. See a doctor, get your meds and dont an hero like a bitch.
Seriously when did you niggas get so fucking weak
Honestly take a look into shamanism
I strongly believe what you experience is normal
>>695132733
You are a sad sack of shit get help you retard dont be a pussy bitch and you will have friends
>>695132733
yeah. I work with a couple of schizos, nice people.
It's a generic thing to say but your friends are your friends. It's not like getting the diagnosis changes how you act, you're the same fucking person. You just get to talk to professionals about how to cope and handle shit.
I had schizophrenia since I was a kid, at first symptoms were horrible, but over time they do die down. I tried getting professional help but it didn't work for me, I did get some medication that calmed my stuff down though. Weed doesn't make it better for me, but it also doesn't make it worse so I still do that. It get's better just hold on
>>695131318
My mother has that and so do I to a lesser degree. Don't an hero. Go get help. There are ways to treat that disease.
>>695132733
I don't think they are going to tattoo your diagnosis on your forehead. No one will know unless you tell them.
>>695131318
What do the voices tell you?
>>695131318
Eat fish. Loads of it. Omega 3 heals the brain
Eat vegetables and fruits. Blend everything together if you like it.
Avocados.
Drink plenty of water.
Sports. Do sports or go for a run every other day.
Don't masturbate too much. Don't play videogames before sleeping.
SLEEP! minimum 8 hours!
Most important: no coffee. no tobacco. no weed. no drugs.
try this, try it hard, it is your last chance. if you quit, you'll start schizophrenia medication very early, and one day you won't be able to handle it, thats the end.
I made it through, no one believes me when I say it worked. but it did.
Good luck.
>>695136666
>>695136681
>>695136869
I don't have many friends and they've already told me I've started acting weird.
>>695135708
This isn't normal
>>695137103
They will somehow. People talk.
>>695137901
Evil and bad things. Like I heard my friend saying "what the fuck is wrong with him" when he was sleepin.
>>695132117
Go to a therapist and try and figure out what's wrong. Psychiatrists might be better, but they might load you up with terrible pills. Some of those fuckers will fry your brain for cash.
>>695138365
Look man, there's a thing called doctor patient confidentiality, nothing you say will become public unless you let it. And how the fuck could it ruin your life if you want to kill yourself anyway?
>>695138231
getting a diagnosis wont change how you act, it just gives you professional advice and treatment.
>>695131318
Cigs relax people. I too get uncomfortable on weed. Virgin has nothing to do with anything. Voices? Perhaps just make more frie ds and talk with people but we all have some voices. Sounds all pretty normal to me
>>695133292
Negative. Stop whinging emo and get on with it.
>>695138231
My friends noticed a change in my behavior and I held from telling them for awhile but it soon became too much of a weight to keep something personal to people I was so close with. I was afraid of what they would think and thought they would leave me, I went on to tell them anyways and they turned out really supportive. I suggest you tell your friends, it can be a help for you.
Do you think that your friends will stop Being your Friends if they know you are mentally ill?
>>695131318
Just cus you here voices doesn't mean you are a schizophrenic. You might actually have D.I.D. dissociative identity disorder.
>>695139468
Mine did anon. 24yo and painfully alone
>>695132733
i would not have a problem at all, most people are retarded anyway and the only friends i have kinda make it tolerable
>>695138365
Could you give more examples of the things you hear?
>>695132733
You fucking idiot, you're going to BE the mentally ill person who hears voices if you don't get diagnosed and get medication to STOP THE FUCKING VOICES.
>>695131318
Why won't you get help? I was committed to a mental hospital after trying to kill myself and nearly succeeding. Its actually not as bad as you realize. There is help out there, medications and treatment /b/ro. As you get your life together everything else can and will turn around. Work on yourself..sleeping enough, eating right, working out. Its not easy where you are at but you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
>>695138456
I don't want to go to a therapist.
>>695138926
I know but someone will eventually find out.
>>695139085
I know that but when I get the official diagnosis it's so final. Like I can't pretend I'm fine after that.
>>695139101
No this is far from normal, I hope I'd explain it better.
>>695139345
I wish I could.
>>695139418
>>695139468
Yes, I'm quite sure they don't want to hang out with a mentally ill person.
Yo, don't know if you're still here, OP, but I have schizoaffective which is like schizophrenia plus bipolar and my life started to clear up once I found the right meds, also my friends all just thought it was interesting since I was willing to talk about it. Also unless you had horrific sexual or violent abuse you likely don't have dissociative identity disorder, I've ran into a few people who have it.
>>695140291
I thought the same dude, but trust me maybe not all of your friends but the most important ones will stay friends with you and support you.
While opening up I only lost one person, and that hurt but in the end I've been way better off with only people who accept my stuff. Plus, having it doesn't change how you act or your personality and whatever, you're still you and they'll realize that and have no reason to leave
>>695140291
See a therapist.
Keep it secret.
Problem solved.
>>695140133
He/She wasn't your friend a true friend stays with you
Cant tell if:
1. Real problem
2. Emo kid who just wants attention
3. Good trolling
>>695140291
therapists will talk about you outside the office, especially if you live in a small town like me i'm scared to leave my apartment now
..
>>695131318
...nice pepe
>>695131318
How you will killyourself?
>>695139623
Hearing voices alone doesn't do that, you are right. But all the symptoms match my life. All of them.
>>695140135
Too bad you aren't my friend (as far as I know at least)
>>695140210
People talking bad things about me mainly.
>>695140238
What is the BE?
>>695133625
Yoooooooooo asking the real questions
>>695141332
Lol they won't chill. OP maybe it's just the weed? Idk man don't throw your whole life away because you might be schizo. Look up Wesley Willis. The man was a legend with severe schizophrenia. Also, the fact that you're actually making sense in your replies shows it's not as severe as you think. Schzios usually talk in illogical ramblings
>>695131586
Drink
I've wondered if I have it too, or if what I do is at a normal level.
I often find myself pacing for hours in my apartment rehearsing conversations that I'll never have with friends and girlfriends I wish I had.
I do it in the shower, when I'm walking outside, when I'm driving, cooking, working, and when I'm laying in bed waiting to fall asleep.
They say that you're sane if you notice that what you're doing is abnormal, but I do it for hours before telling myself that I need to stop before someone finally hears me.
Someone tell me if I'm losing it or not, please. I'm so fucking lonely and I'm afraid it'll progress to the point that I lose self awareness.
>>695133625
>>695131318
A schizophrenic cannot self diagnose. The audio hallucinations you are experiencing can be greatly eased with medications. seek help.
>>695131318
I am a Virginia also op, should I go and see if I have a metal illness
>>695136869
Not really man.
The antipsychotics here in Canada even are not that great, people are currently working on that.
>>695142116
Not op.
>>695142124
Drinking will actually help your schizophrenia.. the problem is it helps too much and you get addicted.
>>695131318
youre totally schizophrenic* man. might as well just kill yourself. thats what all the schizophrenics do, thats why there are none. obviously once your schizophrenic youre also a pathetic waste of life so you might as well just end it all. youve got all the symptoms: hearing voices, being a virgin. damn man i feel your pain. smoking cigarettes only makes schizophrenic people relaxed, and smoking weed only makes schizophrenic people paranoid, common knowledge.
>>695131318
You likely do not have schizophrenia.
Stop smoking weed - Stop using drugs of any sort, including aclohol.
Stop self diagnosing. A common problem in = psychiatric students (and medical) is FALSE self diagnosis.
There is a reason for this, most of these 'disorders' are just extreme versions of things EVERYONE EXPERIENCES.
On the other hand, have you ever woken up and the door or something was out of place from what you remember? This could be schizophrenia.
PLEASE DON'T COMMIT SUICIDE
>>695131318
Schizo checking in. Had it since I could remember. Meditate and meditate regularly.
>>695140684
I'm still here but answering takes some energy as stupid as it sounds. I haven't, thank god, haven't experienced any violent or sexual abuse.
>>695140975
The worst thing is what other people will think of me. I won't be able to handle that.
>>695140990
Easier said than done.
>>695131318
Dude get diagnosis for mental illness and recieve wellfare than grow hella weed in wild areas from clone and make hella hash sell it to supplement your welfare cash
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3KJHtVw09k
>>695143030
Have you ever woken up and things were out of place? Door open that you know you shut?
Something not where it normally is?
>>695142197
Been there, use to run through scenarios in my head and convers. Happened when i was bored or at home alone. Never saw it as a big deal and just gradually stopped doing it.. Walked in on one of my ex's doing it once to while in the shower. I wouldnt think to much into it at all.
>>695142197
youre losing it
>>695131318
every voice you hear are actually trillionaires that can communicate telepathically and have chosen you because for special reasons. Enjoy this personal creation of vagueness. Why are the voices there? not because of your mental illness, ofcourse not! It must be humans on this planet doing this. trust me, your life will become fucking amazing
>>695131318
Think of all the deaf people that don't hear anything you selfish fucker
>>695143030
No one will know what's going on unless you tell them, I understand what you feel though and I suggest to just start slow, it's a process. Tell one person, the closest one you are to. Most likely they'll be fine with you, it's a great feeling.
>>695142197
OP here, I have the same symptoms as u
>>695142197
I wouldn't make much of it, I do it all the time
>>695142197
I feel like I read about myself haha. Yeah, I think it has more to do with being lonely than anything else. I am kind of an agoraphobe, without the actual fear. I just broke in a way that made me not care - if I had to guess, you are also waiting for death?
>>695143030
OP,
This guy > >>695142768
>>695143194
is fucking with you to prove his point about self diagnosis.
there is no relation.
>>695143774
and you just proved his point.
I thought the voices I heard were the top 1% communicating with me via space. I also thought they were sending gigabytes of data into my brain for me solve so they can retrieve it
>>695141924
>people talking bad things about me
There A people that hears Demonic voices screaming at them ordering to kill And or killthemself you could be much worst you just need medical atencion
THREAD THEME !!!
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you guys are all retards
i tell people im schizo with no shame and nobody gives a shit. tldr op is a pussy
>>695144113
i kekd
>>695133292
Listen you dumb crazy fucking asshole
Just because you know you have it doesn't change shit
You had it before and you were fine right? Well you're still fucking fine
The fact that you know is better because you can get help
So nut up and be a man and get jet treated and live on JUST LIKE YOU WERE BEFORE
LET ME EMPHASIZE - NOTHING HAS CHANGED EXCEPT NOW YOU KNOW THERE IS AN ISSUE
>>695143924
Shhhh.. Don't give away the Secret
>>695144113
I've been listening to that song the past week a lot (op here).
Your post scared me seriously.
>>695142197
not alone anon. today i stood next to my door to eavesdrop of my tenants to see if they were talking about me for two hours, I'll also mumble to myself it's starting to get emotionally taxing
>>695142197
I do this, what's the big deal. I have whole fights in my head over shit and become enraged to the point of blurting things out as my workmates look at me strangley, then the fight never comes to pass and I'm ok again.
I believe I'm normal right?
>>695144437
Were they talking about you?
>>695143197
See that's 2 of us go sho
its the reptilians bruh theyre after your bone marrow
>>695143924
DO NOT REVEAL THE SECRET
>>695131318
Become an artist and use it to your assets. Even when you die your art will live on forever
>>695144353
Isnt it nice to create so much fantasy about life while being in such a state? its the perfect life when you can stay out of hospitals. I made friends with people, thought I had a telekinetic shield protecting me from everything. I was literlly getting shot 10 times a day. I was designing weapons for the west all of that shit. Everytime i would speak within my mind i would give the planet schizopherenia, i was fucking satan, i killed billions.
I often talk to myself and have delusions of killing everybody in the world when taking a dump, also if I start saying nigger I get stuck throwing it around randomly for days
>>695144271
It must be difficult not experiencing the terrifying symptoms of schizophrenia but bragging to your friends about having it.
I can imagine it now.
>hey guys
>my name's anon
>don't mind if I start talking to myself randumbly LOL I'm schizo y'know?
>what's that mothership? you want me to kill them?
>rofl just kidding guise, what are you up to?
>>695144607
I really think everyone does this.
The problem lies when you believe the conversation to be real.
>>695144927
Can you not try and fuck with people who are struggling as it is? Thanks pal.
>>695143924
Do not allow these commenters to fuck with you - you are more likely to be taken advantage of because of your condition. If you have these thoughts still, you should seek medical help - they may be able to.
>>695145505
? i went to a doctor and got meds, and now i dont have to deal with symptoms. stop whining and go to a doctor
>>695145520
Dude its the best experience ever to have the belief to be communicating with the 1%.
Jesus, OP, stop making excuses not to go to the therapist. You (and majority of people, I imagine) can't deal with all of it by yourself but you have to take the first step.
>>695132117
So many people these days have some form of counseling anon. My friend killed himself after suffering for years without telling anyone. Please get help random internet person..
>>695144437
sounds more like paranoia in this case. just work on getting over it and realize that if they are talking about you that it mean nothing at all more than a couple of people probably more bored than you just trying to have a drama chat. who cares if stranger talk about you, on the grand scale of life it means nothing.
>>695131318
Clinical medical "science" is bullshit when it comes to most "mental disorders". Start meditating. It'll help AMAZINGLY. Also see a hypnotherapist and/or do some past-life regression (if you're open minded enough). I'm telling you man, it might sound like bullshit at first but it helped my wife and I out tremendously.
Go to a doctor, also create art you beautiful soul you
>>695145520
Thanks anon you've chilled my harsh
>>695144635
Yeah they did. Said i smoke to much weed I rarely leave my apartment and i dont have a girlfriend and a weirdo, understandable but it docent help my situation any. Glad their an older generation or else this would shatter me
>>695142197
pretty common
>>695143774
then your fine
Go to a doctor. I had delusions, paranoia, auditory hallucinations and all that jazz. Wasn't schizophrenia, it was an easily treatable hormone deficiency. Many different illnesses can present with a lot of schizophrenic like symptoms. Do not self-diagnose and assume your life is over because of it. Seriously, go to a doctor.
this is what i created when i was batshit insane
>>695146111
>>695145698
Sure, man. Those pills you're taking? Not working.
It's all placebo. I was on them once until someone close told me what they really do.
The chemicals aren't meant to cure the disorder, they're made to suppress it unnaturally. They bottle it up so that when you stop taking them it all releases in one large wave and raises your medical bill. What you call I doctor, I call Beelzebub.
You can either open your eyes and take the red pill to realize the placebo and rid your body of the toxins overtime--it'll be hard considering you've probably taken them for some time--or you can continue to live life as a ticking time bomb.
Your head will explode, man. Nature is so fucking harsh, and she will slice you open like the meatbag you are. Take the red pill, anon. This is a fucking code red.
I took 150 miligram of Xeplion for 3 months to cure my voices. The year before that I took 30 miligrams of Cisordionol for 6 months.
>>695146311
why should you care what 2 strangers think? If you bump into them next time, introduce yourself and ask how their day has been (even if you don't give a shit and really, why would you). might help you get out of your own head and they might not think your a weirdo etc.
>>695146725
It's why you can't stop taking the medicine.
It's the same with marijuana(and other drugs), if you are using it as medicine, the withdrawal will bring all those feelings out tenfold when you stop using.
>>695146655
Woah, explain?
>>695132932
That's what I've seen in my crazy friends, the episodes come and go, usually getting less strong over the years.
>>695146725
Pharmacist here to let you know you are the world's biggest faggot.
Shut the fuck up
https://youtu.be/DBuSqgAALDA
>>695146668
And now a new harsh, wtf faggot
>>695147458
Cooking meth in your moms batting doesn't make you a pharmacist anon
>>695147458
Do you fucking remember me? I know it's you doc Henderson. Stop fucking calling me. I had to cut my home line because of your silver fucking tongue.
I told you that the chems in the meds are destroying, not restoring . You are so fucking lost, man. Doc you are so lost.
Don't call me. Shut the fuck up and stop calling. I can still fell the chemical burns in the left lobe of my brain killing the knowledge of what you did to hme.
I fucking tell you every time that it's not working but you wont leave me alone.
>>695147458
Is it not possible that you were taught a lie or at least partial truth so someone could make more money off of sick people?
>>695147458
Also, I'm so sick of your shit, Doc.
I know you left the burning bag on my doorstep because the burn marks shaped an HN. Can't I just live without the pain of the torture in the chemicals.
Stop calling me, Doc.
>>695148003
Advising the mentally ill to stop taking their meds doesn't make you a freedom fighter. It makes you a faggot.
>>695147054
They know who i am one of the girls come over to smoke weed with me. It's very frustrating when you have a larger woman in her mid 30s hit on you when you have no interest. over heard her the other day telling her kids not to stand by my window saying i'll flash my dick at them
>>695148434
Agreed, acting as a pharmacist without a license makes you a felon
>>695147760
Was congratulating you on the trips dipskit
>>695146655
During some sort of psychotic episode, or at least I believe it to be, I created cyphers.
Cyphers that can only be unlocked by having the key.
Later on I found out these are actual cyphers being used today.
I would consider myself an intelligent psychotic. I am extremely paranoid. My most recent paranoia is actually an old paranoia, that came back after seeing another interview on the subject. Sandy Hook.
Notice how weirdly and non normal all the interviews with parents are, notice how they all push something, how all their kids said or did something that no child would do (except maybe those with extraordinary capabilities).
The worst part is, I know I can not speak of these things in any sort of setting because people are highly emotional, and the content alone dictates their reaction - despite evidence that something fucky is going on.
I also first noticed the pattern with Sandy Hook. The pattern of..
Tragedy -> Push for gun control
I do not think this is because of the tragedies, but the reverse. They want gun control, I just don't know why.
>>695131318
why dont you just sell a bunch of blow you ethier A)get rich and live a dope life or B)get caught and an hero
>>695148343
I can't do jackshit on 4chan to help you bro, but take the meds.
>>695147054
it's fucked i don't apparate it. I've been nothing but kind to everyone here
>>695131318
My best friend had schizophrenia and 6 ears ago he killed himself. If this is a serious thread,please don't do that. I'm sure it is easier said than done. Try your best to get the help you need.
>>695148585
Yeah that applies to dispensing only, fuckwad. Don't try to preach pharmacy law to me, because I actually am a fucking pharmd.
>>695148086
Listen, you are not going to believe me, but it sounds like you are having a psychotic episode, if you are not trolling.
You should seek help.
>>695149060
What happened before he did? It may help others to spot the signs for loved ones with schizophrenia. Was he becoming increasingly paranoid? Any info would be beneficial.
Is op still here?
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Bumping for mental health
I NEED SOME HELP
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>>695149600
I am
bump
>>695149600
Bang! Dubs
Op u still here?
>>695131318
Hearing voices is an auditory hallucination that may or may NOT be associated with a mental health problem.
You can be sane and hearing voices.
>>695148623
That's not trips you prick, how many god damn times do I have to explain that shit to anon today. Get out you fucking summerfag
>>695150190
Mmm no
>>695150200
Seek help immediately
>>695150190
I want to feel hot bitches sucking my cock that aren't really there, how do I get that disorder anon?
I started smoking weed when I was 14. When I was 18 I was spending around 8 hours a day in a coffeeshop in Rotterdam. I needed money and after some guy spoke to me I got scammed for 7k euros. I quit school and went to work to pay it off. After that on a particular day, 3 march 2012 I saw a triangle in my mind that filled up to the pinnacle. I thought they were uploading data to my mind to solve it from the base to the top. After that I was in the program, I was in training to get rich asap, valuta trading training and such. I could not handle the telepathic interaction that was occuring so I called them names and got angry. After that it went all down hill. I became Satan, everytime I spoke within my mind every person heard it on the planet. I heard hallucinations. It was like they were punishing me. After a while I became friends with them. Our friendship got removed by anti psychotics, which in turn got me a life that is normal yet it isnt anything like what I had for 4 years of interacting with these people that wanted to train me telepathically.
Sweet dreams OP, don't give up man. Hope to see ya around
>>695150670
When I was psychopathic, I swear to god, I was getting fucked by alien jews. I could literally feel a cock slipping inside my ass. I also heard the southpark reference ''suck my gulgumazz'' where the jew aliens start saying sexual remarks. thats what I heard when I was telepathically fucked by alien jews. I swear to god this happend like 4 months ago.
>>695149940
Op I reckon 100% you should go see a GOOD specialist do a bit of research and find a great psychiatrist in your area. You don't need to take the meds they offer but they can work out Exactly what your diagnosis is. You should definitely own it that way you can begin to make adjustments on your life to accommodate any new needs or changes. Don't worry about being labeled that's like worrying what the kids will say about you at school or something come on. People always going to seek out 'different'. In a yard the tall pick on the short but if they were all the same height it would be blonde vs browns or if they had the same hair color it would be eye color and if they had same eyes it would be long arms or someshit you get the idea fuckin forget what the label means and get help bro trust me life quality above everything and yours will go up if u listen to me
>19 years old
>just now realized you have schizophrenia
At what point did you realize you weren't suppose to be hearing voices. Or was it just recent that this just happen. Because if you're just hearing voices alone you may just have relatively normal psychosis. Docs usually label it schizophrenia when the voices are followed by hallucinations and paranoid delusions.
>>695150423
What? We have self help groups here in Germany for hearing voices. Every doc says they are sane.
You really should see a doctor. There's more things that can cause auditory hallucinations and delusions and such than just schizophrenia. That's just the number one result you get when you Google I'm hearing voices. Recently I found out I have a b12 deficiency. Hey guess what severe b12 deficiency can mimic really bad mental problems and I thought I was insane. Now I'm fine. I'm not saying you have a vitamin deficiency I'm just saying it could be a ton of different things. And also if it IS schizophrenia doctors are trained to help with that too. You don't just Google that you have schizophrenia and then decide that's how your life is now. Get off 4chan and go to the emergency room or at least make an appointment with someone.
Bros I can't answer every question since I'm very tired but I gotta thank you for your kind words. Seriously, this is the only place I can really feel being myself.
I will probably see a doctor in the coming months if this gets any worse.
>>695132733
No one has to know shit about your diagnosis. Anyone who willfully had disclosure of your diagnosis can be put in a shit storm, your school most of all, you can lead a normal life, get the help you need and stop being a whiney bitch full of excuses
>>695151455
>Psychopathic
Being a psychopath has little to do with hallucinations m8, psychopathy is a personality disorder not a mental illness. Best eample of a psychopath: That one guy that has a dead emotionless look in his eyes and would probably kill his mother father and brothers without a second thought with no emotional reaction after the fact.
>>695148524
haha aw man. just move
>>695151918
We cured op yaay
>>695151918
Months? Bro, go tomorrow. You don't have to do/change/take anything just go tell the bloke. He can help u man trust me but AT LEAST he knows, in case something happens to you man you wig out or someshit your safe
>>695152145
I mean pyschotic. The microsoft dictionary changed it.
>>695152145
That and most psychopaths have no self identification knowing or suspecting themselves as anything but normal
>>695151918
you need to see a doctor ASAP, along with a therapist if you can. dont be afraid to be yourself when talking to (actual real life) family either.
https://youtu.be/r9KxqBiE_YQ
https://youtu.be/r9KxqBiE_YQ
https://youtu.be/r9KxqBiE_YQ
https://youtu.be/r9KxqBiE_YQ
You will ruin your families life if you kill yourself, don't do it.
>>695152758
U.K rap artists give me a head ache, i can hardly understand what they're saying almost as bad as American rap artists.But at least American rap artists are more intimidating.
>>695131318
OP. I am the same. Self-diagnosed schizophrenic. Your life is no different now than it was before. It's not like you have delusions now that you didn't have before. All that's changed is that now you have possibility to do something about it, now that you know the problem. Positive symptoms, such as hallucinations, react well to medication. So, this discovery can only improve your life, not harm it.
>>695152145
Not a psychopath, would kill them without a second thought.
Not for no reason, but when things need to be done, they need to be done.
I am more logical based though, I think, then most society, hell - I think most of /b/ is more logic based.
I, for that reason can't stand the thought experiment "What would you do if your father was on a train track, and you could divert the train, but it will kill 2 people" - the answer is simple, you let it kill your father.
if you dont dream while having hallucinations you should. Create a reason for these hallucinations.
>>695131318
Honestly, stop being a selfish faggot. You need to see a doc and get a real diagnosis so you can get on meds. Not for you you pussy but for those around you. What happens when those voices start telling you those around you are poisoning your food and you can't trust anyone and you decide to murder them in their sleep. Man up.
https://youtu.be/S933i9hw9iA
https://youtu.be/S933i9hw9iA
https://youtu.be/S933i9hw9iA
https://youtu.be/S933i9hw9iA
Go to doc this week
https://youtu.be/B-aa0hj0cWk
https://youtu.be/B-aa0hj0cWk
>>695131318
It's almost impossible to self-diagnose mental illness. You need a 3rd party and a psychiatrist that can start you on a targeted medication regiment. I've got all of those symptoms, and I'm diagnosed PTSD and MDD. I'm doing a lot better.
https://youtu.be/4m5URgjXDYM
https://youtu.be/4m5URgjXDYM
https://youtu.be/4m5URgjXDYM
>>695131318
How about you get actually fucking diagnosed by a doctor and seek treatment if you have it. I guarantee the quality of your life will actually improve being put on meds and going through some therapy. A diagnosis isnt going to destroy your life, you stupid cunt. Get over your self pity and do something about it other than bitch on /b/.
>>695155822
Let me diagnose you anon, how does this image make you feel
>>695131318
Anon, you can survive way, way more than you think. I'm up front with my issues because I have to be, and it's not as scary as you think. I'm still breathing, and though I've got that to deal with, I don't have to hide. It's still hard, but getting help was my first step. My savior was my mom.
>>695156577
It makes me want to watch Bill and Ted's Bogus Journey on mushrooms.
>>695132733
I'm friends with 3 schizophreniacs. In fact, one of them is my best friend. And I still love them. Find friends who accept you for who you are.
>>695156577
that's some kinda auto-erotics, isn't it?
>>695156930
You gots scitzo boi, I can tell just by looking at that scitz cat
>>695156577
Uneasy and confused.
>>695157182
Confirmed for living in a mental wing
>>695156519
Preach
I am sorry to hear about this, Anon. 19-21 is usually when the symptoms of schizophernia begin to take hold.
That you have caught it early is a good thing!
Get the treatment and help you need and live a great long life. Also, tell us how things are working out.
If I smoke weed or stay up for more than a day, I start to hear murmurs in the background, like somebody saying my name in the next room. If I smoke enough weed, I can hear music playing far away, and it's the most kickass mix of dubstep and symphonic instruments. But I have a constant headache, so I might be dying, and loud tinnitus in my right ear.
>>695159728
>>695131318
whats the best part about having schizophrenia
>>695160852
>>695131318
hey bro, I was recently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Basically schizophrenia and depression combined. Wish I could tell you it gets easier, but honestly it really doesn't.
>>695161658
>>695160075
Yeah I'll wait for a couple of months to see if it gets better. It probably won't
>>695160852
I should probably try out indica strain, I have only smoked sativas.
>>695161138
It's a good excuse to smoke
>>695161658
Damn that sucks /b/ro, I guess we're in the same boat
>>695162183
White room, schitzo
>>695162278
oh, ok
>>695131318
I'm schizophrenic too Anon. It isn't your fault, there's nothing you did to cause it, so take pride in that. I caused mine myself with medication. So much regret.
Don't think that others will condemn you for it. If it bothers you so much, just don't advertise it. It's not like they can scan you and find out you are.
You're still you. Nothing has changed, except for you gaining knowledge about your condition.
Don't waste your life. You could do something great. And then think of how accomplished you would feel. Being able to do what you did, with schizophrenia.
Jonathan Davis, the lead singer of KoRn is schizo. You can tell in his music if you pay any attention. But that's not the point. He did so much for himself.
Don't let it hold you back.
>>695132733
Ill be your friend if you tell me what they say
>>695162183
Hey at least you're cute.
Count yourself lucky.
>>695132733
I would be.
I have friends, all of which who are "Sane" I mean, probably more sane and reasonable than most of the people in this shit country nowadays, Especially considering most of them don't smoke or anything.
But we are really close. and they all know I am.
Like I said, hide it if you feel you need to. Just go with your feelings.
I know it's hard, having so many at once, being so conflicted, arguing with voices you hardly understand the reason behind, but just know if what you are doing feels wrong at first thought, chances are it is.
You don't want to die, not for a stupid reason like knowing the way your brain functions.
There are tons of people undiagnosed with all sorts of mental disorders. At least you know.
And honestly, hiding it isn't the answer. Embrace it.Don't pretend to be something you're not. If you do, you'll NEVER find someone who loves you for you.
Schizoaffective bro here. I'm on meds right now, and the greatest symptom I have to deal with is anhedonia (the inability to feel pleasure). Like, I play video games all the time, not because I have fun but because it's something to do to pass the time. Found out that anhedonia is not only a symptom of schizoaffective disorder, but also a possible side effect of most antipsychotics. I basically spend my days pacing around the house because I can't think of something fun to do because nothing is fun to me.
In addition to that I have a lot of trouble initiating action (avolition), so I'm basically unwillingly lazy. Like, I seriously can't even muster up the energy to commit suicide. I think about it all the time (ironic side effect of antidepressants), but I just don't have the energy to do anything.
So yeah, if it turns out you have this disorder, you have to decide between taking meds and being cripplingly bored all the time, or just staying crazy and still being able to enjoy things.
>>695131318
How long did you spend on tumblr before you decided you could self-diagnose?
>>695131318
Heck, anon, I'm 19 and I'm also schizophrenic. Got diagnosed two weeks ago. I'm cleaned, though, I think all these substances are a part of keeping us all trapped here. I'm really scared of what will become.
>>695153884
Seems more psychopathic to allow the train to kill the 2 strangers because you can actually make use of your father
Op is awake and well
-Doggy dog
>>695131318
get help
smartest guy i know is schizo.
mutliple degrees
just got tenure.
get with it m8.
>>695164643
This. Don't let them cage you inside your own mind.
That being said, I have went between 3 different viewpoints on the issue since I got in this thread.
Hide it.
Don't Hide it.
And now, I think if you want to kill yourself, then do it. As I just said, don't let anyone trap you in your own mind if you don't want to be.
At the same time though, You are going to hurt a LOT of people if you do it. That is selfish. But I also believe in reincarnation. So you will come back. Chances are though you'll have to deal with the same disorder in the next life. So just think about this. Don't be a child and just think
"I'M SICK SO I NEED TO DIE BECAUSE PEOPLE WON'T LIKE ME"
If they don't like you for that, then I guarantee they weren't real friends.
>>695131318
You aint schizophrenic
you're just overly emotional
Jeez...
OP you need to listen to this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWvUHeYf6WQ
don't skip through it, really listen to what he has to say
this one as well if you're up for it
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpg-yNJF2ds
helped me
You're possessed by a demon, go to x, they can help you out with it
>>695148709
literally what
>>695158992
mc ride along
>>695165637
loving it
>>695144113
LOL that's a garbage song fam
>>695132733
Then don't tell anyone you fucking potato.
Plus there's no proof you have it if you don't see a doc about it. There's such thing as bipolar with psychotic traits. See a doc or stfu
>>695131318
Take an ungodly amount of psychedelics all at once. Your brain will be temporarily fried and very easily rewired afterwards.
>>695132733
I wouldn't treat you any differently anon, that is the honest truth.
>>695131318
Diagnosed schizophrenic here.
1: self diagnosis is super stupid and almost always inaccurate with mental illness. See a doctor about it.
2: you're still the same person you were before you made this realization of yours.
3: good friends and family will be supportive, but will likely ask fuck tons of questions.
4: the medication is shit. It works by stopping production of dopamine in the brain and 95% of it not only causes sedation, but has worse side effects than the mental illness.
5: the good news is that you don't need to take the meds to manage if a good doc helps you find something that works.
Was diagnosed in 07, took meds for 6 months said fuck that and been fine since with a mix of self management and support from close friends/family
>>695131318
Hey man, if you've got Kik we can talk. I've got schizophrenia too
>>695131318
You should have a professional diagnose you. Figuring out whether or not you have a mental illness isn't just about checking in the boxes for symptoms to see what matches.
>>695132117
So you could go get help so you might finally enjoy the wonders of living, but be "that mentally ill schizophrenic retard" to the few people that know you well enough to know you're getting treatment.
Instead, you're planning on suffering and checking out right before you really get that first good taste of life in your 20's and be "that kid who killed himself" to literally everyone who ever knew you.
I don't get your reasoning here OP
Reach around?
>>695131318
I just told a girl that I'm kind of interested in that I thought I might be schizophrenic and she wants to hang out tomorrow after I get done working. Don't worry OP.
Note:
>ive never been diagnosed with schizophrenia
When i was younger (now 20) i used to talk to myself, i would do that ALOT i used to not clean myself because i was scared of closing my eyes in the shower, i heard voices (still do) i saw shit IRL but thats stopped (thank fuck.webm) i had 2 friends in primary school. Sleep paralysis, night terrors, sleep deprivation, lack of concentration, attention span and motivation, all these things made it hard as a kid to sorta go through anything really. To this day symptoms come and go, but ive sorta learnt to cope? Somewhere along the way i realised that my will is stronger than whats inside my head. Sometimes ill get scared or ill get depresssed or my mood changes rapidly but in my eyes im stronger than all that shit. Its weird and a complete cliche but i didnt stop beliving and trusting in myself. I never went to see anyone. Ive told family and close af friends but thats it. Through the years ive fought with myself day after fucking day, slowly i could find myself going a couple hours without hearing or seeing shit, then days then weeks and even months. All you have to do is not give up. I never tried to be an hero...but i do think about it to this day. From one "fucked up voice hearing retard" to another be brave be bold be strong because one day youll do great things my man!
>>695131318
Hey OP, I'm schizo too, but I'm 31, living with this shit since about 7 years now. At the beginning I thought about killing myself too, but now I'm reasonably happy with life again. You can manage it with or even without meds. Depends on what kind of schizo you have and how strong it is in you. Go see a psychiatrist, but don't trust your own diagnosis. Maybe it turns out you don't even have schizo, just hear voices for another reason.. Get off the internet and make an appointment with one.
>>695131318
What the fuck, self diagnosis?
>>695146668
Who that?
>>695164358
Consider speedrunning games - games where you're competing against yourself are more engaging and rewarding. Rhythm games are similar. Anything that requires focus to improve: you may not get pleasure from the game, but it will stimulate you much more than an adventure game, for instance.
If not, I hope you find something to occupy your mind - I had trouble w that for years.
>>695174527
Fuck you defect
>>695177823
Fuck you normieREEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>695132117
"here's that mentally ill suicidal retard"
>>695133625
>i am still a virgin
I have that condition too... What does it mean for me?? Am i gonna live?
>>695179103
I wouldn't call that living but you ain't gonna die that soon either, unless of course you decide to do something productive for once and an hero.
>>695148709
They want gun control because unarmed masses are easier to control than armed ones. Aka literally turning you into a slave.
>>695179465
This kinda shit gonna give me mental illness
>>695131318
Don't an hero.
First, don't just assume you have something. Go get diagnosed. People with schizophrenia can lead normal lives. Trust me on this, I know. When I got out of the army I was diagnosed with "schizophreniaphorm" which is a temporary version of schizophrnia caused by stress and trauma. There are still some aspects I occasionally suffer from but I found a way to manage my symptoms, I know when I am at high risk of an episode so I find some time to get away from people for a few days, when my episode clears up I go back to my life. My friends are very understanding of what I go through and have dealt with me when I was paranoid and I thought they were trying to kill me. Those were bad, bad times.
As for smoking weed and getting paranoid, this can be therapy. I suffer from the same thing occasionally, my mind goes into overdrive and I think about stuff until I am scared I am going to die or scared I am going to have a full-on panic attack. I pace back and forth, sometimes for an hour. However, I use this time to manage my panic. I tell myself, "Everything is fine. I am having a panic attack."
I drink some water and get engaged in other projects, like writing, playing my guitar or graphic design.
I was diagnosed with schizophreniaphorm when I was 19. I am over 30 now.
Your gonna be okay may. Stay with us.
ITT Bernie voters BTFO
>>695142672
Oh boii
>>695140291
I'd be down with being your friends and helping you get through this. I've been going at it with no meds for 6 years now. Meditation and yoga are your friend
