Feels thread
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Feels thread
>>694803889
Does anyone have the Russian orphan pictures?
Bump
Bump
pretty lonely in here huh
>>694805599
Yeah...Brooks was here.
Who are you waiting for /b/?
>>694805875
im not familiar with that name
but hold on, gotta kill a big ass bug on my wall and then ill post some bawws
Hopefully there´ll be more
>>694806120
It was a name from the Shawshank Redemption. Look it up. It was a sad scene.
>>694803976
>>694803889
This feel >>>/pol/81215830
>>694806120
still alive, it was a harmless bug
>>694806864
oh yeah i saw that movie, good movie
so what kind of baaws are you guys interested in?
and what are people drinking?
im drinking lemon bacardi 50/50 with 7up
dumpin random crap
>>694807117
Like loneliness.
>>694807117
Greentexts?
>>694807430
i can probably find some of those
>>694807485
ill see what i got
>>694807485
Also water. I don't drink.
>>694804534
this is one of the gayest images i've ever seen
and this is an imageboard with hourly trap threads constantly spammed on the front page
>>694807674
probably a good idea
>>694807765
welcome newfriend
>>694807998
>>694807765
I see you don't know how these threads work. They aren't like other get threads or porn threads or rekt threads. Although feels threads are made up of the same people who spam banana and desu in YLYL threads, here people show their problems. What they feel. We all hurt inside, for whatever reason it is, and these threads are filled with that. Filled with people who are comforting eachother.
So take that gay ass fucking response elsewhere you twat, I'm trying to feel human.
Bitch.
>>694808219
wanna talk? coz im up for listening at least
dunno how much useful i got to say tho
>>694807640
>mfw this literally happened to me 2 weeks ago
>>694807898
>>694808219
i know how these threads work
that's not an excuse to post deviant-art-tier emo shite
>>694808618
It's alright. These threads, rather knowing there's others like me is enough comfort
Heck, even you asking if I want to talk is more than most people would ever give. Thanks
>>694809213
tell me what you need coz obviously you need something.
but being hostile like that doesn't really solve anything coz some here probably need the "deviant-art-tier emo shite"
so tell me, what is on your mind?
>>694809387
alright, yeah np
>>694808938
"No one else will ever love you like I do" is pretty fucked up. You're telling that person "I'm the best you'll ever do." You think that's a sweet thing to say but it's manipulative as fuck.
>>694809740
i'm undiagnosed
all i know is i need to balance my highs and lows or my emotions get messed up and my social skills suffer
these threads help me hit my lows
>>694809821
that's one way of thinking bout it
but im sure you realize that not every person will show their love in the exact same way, like how you love someone is your own. no one can imitate that. that shit is yours.
>>694807640
Comic Sans is sad.
>>694810088
glad they help in some way
this is probably the most social skills ive ever used on /b/
good luck to you, do stick around if you wish
I like to think of sadness and depression as a gateway into life. It prepares you for and shows you the true evils and bad things in the world. To me, everytime I go through a rough patch, I'm getting stronger and smarter as a human being. Sadness is ok, because if you can see it through, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel
>>694810795
>light at the end of the tunnel
Not for me Anon. I see a dead end.
>>694810795
words to live by
>>694811002
Don't give up friend. Just try your best. There will always be bad days, but for every bad day, you're just growing stronger and more mature as a person. I believe in you, and everyone else here does.
>>694811002
well if you wanna be realistic sure
live your life while it lasts, its all you got.
>>694811542
>>694811272
I already tried my best and I failed. I hope everyone does better than me for I am losing the strength to continue.
>>694811647
Talk to us about it. Maybe we can provide some insight, hopefully alter your outlook
>>694811647
what did you fail to do?
>>694811647
Tell us. We care. We will listen.
Personally i dont define moments to either be sad or happy, theyre just moments. Whatever happens just deal with it.
>>694812270
sadness and happiness are emotions
emotions are how you react to moments
moments can be anything
if "dealing with it" is your way of dealing with moments
then you are not living life
>>694811829
>be me
>grow up in shit holes
>mother hates me for my color
>father abuses me and does drugs
>have no friends or siblings
>get bullied due to my intellect
>develop social anxiety
>graduate high school with no career in mind due to my fear of people and interacting with them
I continue the rest in a moment.
i need another drink, brb
>>694806138
fuckin cat, i'm not crying, fuck....
>>694812904
>>694814147
Well that's an accurate description of my life.
>>694814404
it gets better after a few years or so
I miss my ex fiance so bad every single day. I still love her so much, but it hurts so much that she doesn't love me any more.
I just miss her. I think every day, every hours about her and 1 month after she already have forget me
>>694807765
Dude don't say that shit, under the law of the 13th ammendment it is illegal to own niggas like this
>>694814521
>>694814521
She doesn't love me anymore...
>>694812903
Not sure if I should continue. I would prefer to just leave it as that and say that I wish to kill myself and I think I'm developing the courage to do so.
>>694814848
do continue
>>694814506
Is still going. And i can't stop. She is wat keeps me going. I need her.
>>694814934
just keep going and at some point you will pull through one way or another
>>694814848
Get it off your chest. And don't kill yourself. Please, i believe in you.
>feels thread
my life
>Almost five years ago
>Brother and Cousin work for me(my father and I own a small business 50%-50%, we were planning on giving them each 25% of the business)
>Drive by dads house as they were staying there because we had a job close by(they lived quite some distance from us)
> Brothers car is gone. Figured they were just up at the small town comfy bar. Think I should call them, but decide to just go home.
>Wake up at 11:58PM, phone ringing. It is my uncle, tells me to get to the hospital ASAP
>Go get mom and dad, race to the hospital
>Brother is dead, Cousin is in an coma.
>No one else was hurt in the car wreck
>I saw them damn near every day, we worked together, played together, they came to my house and chased my kids around and bounced on the trampolene with them, I'd watch them as they'd go out into the field across the street and shoot prairie dogs...
>Become depressed, start drinking way to much
>Brah and Cuz, I know I will see you on the other side, but why did you leave so early? We had a world to conquer.
I love you Cole and Casey.
>>694815212
I told her how i feel. She said I'm a friend to her. A good one, but i will never be more.
>>694814620
Pretty much my only motivation in life is the hope that she'll take me back some day. It feels like I've been dead inside since she ended it the day after Thanksgiving. The 14 months we were together we the best time in my life.
>be me
> 15 years old muslim guy
> dad had a really bad stroke in january 2015
> gf cheated on my for a whole year and i found out same time as my dads stroke
> was very close with my dad
> same night as my dads stroke
> woke up 5am from a loud bang
> ignored it and went back to bed
> 5 mins later i heard it again, so i went down to see what it was
> my dad on the floor not able to move
> 14 at the time trying to lift a 190lbs man
> got him up on a chair and saw him emotionless, he wasnt the type of guy to be like that, always positive.
> called the ambulance and went with him, left everyone asleep.
> got back at 3pm and told everyone news, 10 year old brother and 17 year old sister
> dad was in hospital for 4 months and i was struggling so much with school, got my haircut to prove to everyone ive matured, not told any of my friends but my school knows and are "supporting me"
> get permenntley expelled from school because i was always loosing my temper and breaking down.
> sister gets a boyfriend
> at 14 smoke weed for first time with him
> get jumped by 5 boys for no reason
> extremeley depressed at this point, nothing to do anymore with my life, i got to a behavour school with only 60 students, all friends i had loose contact with me
> 2 months after dad leaves hospital, he was walking to the toilet on his frame and falls and collapses and cant breathe, i jumped down the stairs and rushed tom him with everyone else looking and watching as a atttempt to save my dads life.
> feeling fucking helpless i flash back to a couple of years ago when i was young my dad telling me if somethng happens to me youre gonna be in charge and youre the man of the house.
> tears running down my cheeks, thinking to myself im not gonna loose you now
> rip my dads shirt and vest off and attempt cpr. it works
> sister on the phone to the ambulance theyre on their way, my dad was compaining of really bad back pain and couldnt speak properly
PART 2 COMING
>>694815660
underage
MODS
>>694815480
then the other is your way to go, life is full of disappointment but as soon as you give in, your life is over.
keep on going
>>694815772
Not here. Honestly who gives a shit?
>>694803889
>>694815952
Thanks anon
>>694815772
doesn't mean he is still underage
>>694814926
>>694815238
Okay.
>My fear slowly turns to hate
>Always thought about doing something awful like Columbine to get back at the world
>I would cry myself to sleep just to live in my fantasy of killing people
>I would just wake up afraid and ashamed
>I resort to drawing to escape from this torment
>To escape from hate and loneliness
>Eventually that stops working
>I can't resist but I don't wish to hurt anyone
>I would kill animals in a near by woods
>This just makes me cry harder at night
>One day I encounter a stray dog
Stand by. I need to cry a little.
>>694815480
They say it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all. I can't decide if I agree with this or not. I can barely sometimes remember what it felt like to be happy and engaged and loved and accepted, but mostly I just feel empty.
>>694816261
hmm wonder what year we are in
>>694805875
I watched that on acid the other night and balled my eyes out at that part. One of my favorite movies
>dad has fractured his back and couldnt walk for 3 months, he got so depressed at this point lost so much weight and became mentally unsable
> dont know how my mum was dealing with it
> jaunary this year my dad wasnt even able to move because of how weak he was
> ambuance came and he went into hospital and i went with him
> in hospital for 3 months and this is the worst point of my life
> he looses all mental stability and thinks CIA and mafia are after him
> cries every time we go to see him, we see him every day
> accuses my mum of cheating
> my life is fucking shit right now
> start stealing stuff, steal 4 iphones and a macbook
> so so lost with my life
> dad gets better becayse my mum is always nagging him to eat
> he gets out of hospital
> everyonehappy.png
> he becomes mentally sane again
> i get into the best school in my town
> still depressed
> my dad gets up to walk, me obviously supervising him, he almost falls
> flashbacks to the first night
>been so so much more depressed since seeing him almost fall
> so fucking depressed contemplating suicide
Help me /b/ros. in the deeprest ruins of my entire life
>>694816398
shss im drunk and didnt read
>>694803889
Please go to en.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=4chan&action=edit&oldid=729753505 and click "Save page."
>>694816371
It's okay anon. That's what we're here for.
>>694808783
ITT middle class emo nerd girl problems because they don't know what taking off their glasses mean
>>694806102
wat happin
i need to go soon
>>694816787
Thank you. I'll continue in a moment.
>>694815772
Just leave it man
>>694817090
Take your time
>>694816623
You are way to dependant on your dad if you want to kill yourself if he dies.
Grow up, your "depression" stems from all the attention that you are not receiving due to your dads condition.
>>694817090
It makes me mad that people see bullying as harmless. I'm not going to hijack your story but let's just say our stories have a lot in common.
>>694815660
You're a muslim, who cares.
>>694817763
Isn't it past your bedtime boy?
>>694817681
i hope Tyler screen capped this
>>694816371
You fucking muslim, of course you killed things to feel better, i hope you do kill yourself you sensi-fag
>>694817763
Fuck off to /pol/
>>694817840
Isnt it time to get shot by a turk, butthurt muslim?
>>694817763
I care faggot.
>>694817973
>All muslims are terrorist
>All men are rapists
>All white people are racist
>All fat people are american
>>694817973
Fuck off to /pol/
I don't know when I stopped smiling or if I ever did in the first place.. I just know that I audibly laughed earlier and I was so pathetically happy for myself I looked around to see if anyone saw this achievement.. I was alone at home.
>>694818325
nice bait anon
why not share why you are so hateful?
>>694818211
You better watch your mouth before I aloha snackbar you boy
>>694818511
I think you missed the point of my post anon
>>694817276
>>694816787
I'm feeling better.
>>694817651
Glad to hear.
>I took the stray to the woods where I would normally kill them
>I would repeatedly stabbed it over but I stopped to realize that the dog didn't struggle or was afraid
>It just stared at me with those dark black eyes
>It weakly tries to lick the blood off my hands
>I hug it and feel something
>I bury it and go back home
>Realized that all I did was just kill innocent things
>Cry twice as hard that night
>Continue?
>>694818619
Yes
i think this is it
peace
>>694818325
Please continue. For your own sake and because i care about you and want to hear the rest.
>>694818598
oh, yeah sorry
>>694818911
You gotten the wrong, Anon. I appreciate it.
>>694818924
No worries
>12 Years old
>Be foster kid
>Bounced between house to house because no one can deal with me.
>End up at a Vietnamese family's house
>
>I'm the only foster kid/Kid there
>They took me in knowing I'm a runner
>The guy we'll call him Wai.
>First night there they board up the windows
>Wai puts a chair infront of my door making sure I can't run away
>It's like this every night for a year
>They even force me to go to school
>Take turns sitting next to me in class embrassing me infront of every day
>They never beat me or hit me, just silentlly directed me
>Made sure I never slept in class, always checked on my homework
>Wai would personally stay up till 2am correcting my homework once and making me re-do it if there were any mistakes
>His wife would always make sure I cleaned my plates for dinner not letting me get up till I ate everything
>Wouldn't let me watch TV or hang out with my friends till I would study for atleast 3 hours a night
>Fast forward to now +10 years
>They're just mom and dad now
>Have a bachelors in biology
>Found out I scored a 519 on my Mcat
>They found out before me
>Walked into a surprise party with a banner posted up
>"Good job son"
>Cry like a bitch for 3 hours
>>694817763
>>694817973
>>694818211
>>694816806
>>694816697
>>694807765
We don't this here... Please, if you can't resist the urge just rather go to another thread. I'm not instructing you, I'm just asking if we can hold at least one thing sacred.
this is it for me, got a gf and she says its too late for me to be awake so i gotta come to bed lol. almost wish i was single sometimes. bye guys
>>694818743
>>694818924
I would continue my story tomorrow. Just don't forget me please.
>>694813692
my feels
>>694819467
We won't bro
>>694819467
Sure thing anon
>>694819727
Thank you. See you all tomorrow.
>>694818805
There's one out there with his picture and better put together
>>694819832
I'm calling it a night too. See you guys
>>694819832
See you man
>>694819866
can you post it
>>694819996
Y-you too
>>694818805
Holy shit
>>694820014
Looking for it as we speak
>>694806102
please, what's the story here?
>>694819996
Good night.
>>694818805
Is this real? Did he really commit suicide?
>>694815469
I wish Had brothers, sorry to hear that anon
>>694803976
this?
I'm in a predicament with my girl /b/. About a week ago she had said she was going to this resort with her two lady friends so I was like "Okay, cool; I've got no problem with that. Enjoy your time out." She doesn't know that I know her Instagram and her friends Instagram so I check their Instagrams at the end of each day and nothing was posted for the entire time. Until the very last day a collage was uploaded to one of her friends Instagrams and it had her, her friend and two guys that were clearly there with them. She lied to me about who she was going with which leads me to believe she was trying to hide something and sure it could be nothing but I feel betrayed regardless.
>>694820920
well idk i hope he is still alive
>>694821065
I don't want to fuck you up I promise but something I've learned recently is that everyone lies. It's the motive behind the lie that's important. If you feel like you need to confront her about this do so passively and don't accuse her til you hear her side of the story.
>>694820920
>>694821365
I think some anon posted a news article confirming it once but I never saved the picture
This thread was way more successful than I intended it to be
According to all known laws of aviation, there is no way a bee should be able to fly. Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground. The bee, of course, flies anyway because bees don’t care what humans think is impossible.
>>694821632
The power of the Feels
>>694813692
The feels...
>>694803889
This fucking kills me
>>694821632
That's because no matter how much it feels like it, you're not alone and you matter..
Family problems at the moment. Mum is out of the country and my dad literally wants to kick me out of the house. I haven't really spoken to him in the past few days but I'm sure his mindset is the same. I feel that he's always disliked me, going as far as to call me a mistake and telling me face to face that "I'm no longer his son". Even though this is going on, I feel happy knowing that there are people who have gone through worse than me and came out fine. I hope to be like that one day, and maybe a few years down the line I'll be telling my own lengthy multi post story on a thread like this, to help other anons feel like I have tonight. I love you all
>>694821436
How should I go about doing that? Because I just want to yell. Her Instagram is full of comments from guys she's never cared to tell me she knew and she snapchats them. I'm really at a loss of what to do.
>>694822130
Hit her with pic related
>>694822091
i wish i could say it gets better but it only gets worse; much like you, i had terrible family problems but the damage was beyond repair. it wasnt just family though, i was abandoned by the people whom i called friends
>>694822130
Does she have any history of attention seeking behavior? My ex used to do things like that all the time but she flirted and stuff only for attention
>>694808063
honest to god, that's fuckin' beautiul
>>694806138
Holy shit man
Im a shitbag bros
My gf of 2+ years is great. She loves me a lot. But I cheat on her with other girls all the time. I know I need yo break it off with her and stop the disrespect, but I cant. Im playimg with fire and eventually I will get burned. Im selfish. Im not a good guy getting fucked over like most of you. Im the asshole. I hate myself and my life and I have no male friends anymore. Just girls I fuck
>>694822628
That is actually how I feel about it. It's not what she lied about, it's the principle that she lied to me and that hurts the most. That still doesn't help me though because she doesn't know that I caught her in a lie yet.
>>694822637
No attention seeking behavior but people always tend to surprise you even after 2 years of a relationship.
>>694810761
Cringe
>>694814844
This just proves people are cowards. Be ruthless not to people but in your efforts. Don't hinder yourself be that charismatic person break throught the shyness the timidness. If you are not courageous you are only failing yourself you are feeding self doubt and uselessness. No one is born with the ability everyone works at something they love and become better at it. This is a bullshit image.
>>694803889
I'm seeing more and more truth behind this meme everyday.
>>694823163
Cringe is just pity with cynicism.
>>694822635
For me it's already getting better. I love everyone else in my family and would take a bullet for them. I'm distant with my friends I would say but they stick by me when it really matters. I picked the right guys to hang around with. The real problem is my father and my mind, because of him I'm a generally paranoid person and have anger problems but I will work through it. Never give up hope. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I just have to keep going and maturing as a person.
>>694808938
this is creepy as fuck, not sad, hauling my ass out of here right now creepy
>>694823662
As a white South African, this shit tore me apart.
>>694815659
i'm sorry, anon.
>>694815772
kys faggot
I'll tell you something /b/, I did try to kill myself recently.
It was easy really, I heard the phrase "Why are you still here, nobody wants you here, why do you bother hanging with us, just go away."
This was a major soccer match, not a party.
On the drive home, I totaled my car, but I got out un-injured.
After that, I tried to overdose on pills, only to be discovered by the police discovering my wreck and make a full recovery.
I spent 12 days in a psych ward, got a new place out of desperation, started getting my life together.
Only 6 weeks later I was kicked out, because my roommate wanted to let a girl in.
Now my life is exactly where it was, except worse.
I have no car, less money, and I'm more isolated than ever before.
I ruined relationships intentionally so no-one would feel bad when I left.
Now I'm just sitting here, alone, feeling useless.
It's a perfect day outside, the sun is shining, although I wish it would just go away, so I was closer to something better happening.
But I know it isn't coming, no matter how hard I hope.
I tried to die, but life made sure I had to stay.
What do you do when you're stuck in the suffering?
You have a choice, and they both have the same words, do you leave?
One is life, one is death.
I can assure after staring death in the face, having tubes breathing, eating and pissing for me, having nurses look at me sympathetically and professional talkers tell me that it was a 'cry for help' that it isn't worth it.
Death is the unknown, that should scare us the most, so why are you trying to get there?
You'll lose the little foundation you have in life, the ownership of it.
You'll lose yourself.
Night guys , you matter.
>>694813692
this broke me
WE CRY,
TO PROVE THAT WE ARE STILL HUMAN
>>694818325
Islam is an ideology that you choose to identify with. The rest of those examples are things you don't choose.
Be sure to mark off the week tomorrow.
>>694824775
Read the thread
>>694817964
fuck me. i'm done. shit, man.
Please don't let the three die.
>>694814528
I feel you man. Thoughts of my ex still come back to haunt me from time to time.
>>694821734
>Miraculously fall in love with pretty girl who likes me back
>yay
>oh no
>bad, uncontrollable circumstance (usually car collision or some kind of disease)
>girl is kill
>sad
This is almost every other fucking story on here guys. Come on. I know they can't all be real.
>>694815469
I have friend named Casey who isn't expected to live past 30 because of medical complications. I learned about this years ago, but it still tears me up to think this guy so full of life won't be around for much longer.
Well /b/ my own feels story kills me every time I tell it so I'm not going to post it often. Maybe a few more times then I'm done with it.
>Be me 10 years ago at age 10
>Family is great with my 1 younger bro, mom, and dad
>Dad is welder at a Bobcat factory (forklifts and shit), and mom is journalist in small town paper
>Dad gets laid off at factory and money becomes problematic
>Mom gets second job and Dad can't find one so he starts drinking
>Fights are often, they eventually get divorce
>Now 12 year old me starts working odd jobs to help mom pay for stuff
>Never hear from dad, also never receive child support
>Finally when I'm 17 a phone call tells me my dad's in a hospital 2 hours away, severely injured after car accident
>I go without my mom to see him
>Get there 20 minutes too late to see him: internal organs ruptured and he passed
>Turns out he had no home or anything really
>Only possession was a duffel bag full of papers
>These papers were 8 years of letters returned to him from reciever. All addressed to me.
>One solid thing in bag was a picture of 10 year old me with him.
>I move out from moms house 2 days later, haven't talked to her much since.
>>694818924
Of everything here, this is what broke me. Fuck.
>>694823079
Yeah excuses are like assholes, everyone has 1
I'm coming to terms with the realization that I'm the black sheep of the family.
>>694826019
The amount of people that are alive or have lived is huge. Life is random and painful, threads like this will never run out of stories. The mockery of a persons hopes will happen forever. Just new actors running through the same shitty play.
>>694817566
god damn it, this one got me.
that last line hit too close to home
>>694826019
Mine is pretty simple: she doesn't love me anymore. She's happier without me and that's it.
>>694821819
Lost, this actually made me cry
>>694826335
Is it something relaying to blood pressure? My friend told me he might not live past 30 but wouldn't give any other info please could you tell me what you know?
>>694826401
I'm so sorry Anon. I hate mothers like this. Fuck her and fuck any others
>>694824046
Been held? a long ass time. I weight 215 pounds at low body fat. not the being held type. but the last time I held something. 4 years ago. I remember it like yesterday though. she was little and blonde and cute and her hair smelled sweet. I remember feeling pure happiness walking around with such a joyful and charismatic little thing hanging off my shoulder all the time. Got me out of my shell and had a great social life later in High school because of her. But she went to college and I chose to serve my country, and now she's forgotten all about me. Can't even work up the balls to try and talk to her again.
>>694828541
>>694828541
>>694828541
>>694828541
She seems more upset than anything
>>694828193
not doubting all of them. just saying that these can't possibly all be real.
>>694828881
woah bro
>>694828881
She could be thinking about you, waiting to hear from you man. Take the chance, don't let it slip away. You'll hate yourself if you let her go.
Gonna get my airline transport pilot certification in two weeks.
Decent job. Work from home.
Wife. Son.
I think of how nice it would be to kill myself.
Can't bear to stick that on my family.
I'm stuck.
>>694830041
you know what. I will actually. she doesn't even have a BF. My story isn't written yet
>met a girl on wow almost a decade ago because her bf invited me to his guild
>for whatever reason, she starts nagging me in game all day every day, we become troll-friends
>dont believe shes real, think its the guy who recruited me trolling me, too smart, too funny
>demand pictures of her, she sends me anything I want, wow 10/10 most pretty girl in the world, my waifu personafied.
>demand voice chat, totally real girl, totally just as funny to talk to
>forces me to get a cell phone for the first time just to talk and text
>talk for days and days 10-15 hours a day online, for weeks, then months
>we connect, but we just stay friends online, she has a bf, and i was involved with another girl too
>other girl is also from wow, shes more aggressive and literally demands i come meet her in person
>would rather meet girl #1, her birthday was in a week.
>take one of my family's cars, as much cash as I can, and my dad's cc, start driving from the east coast to the west coast, over 2000 miles
>call her on the way there, tell her im coming to drop off a birthday present at her door and leave(epic troll)
>she says if I come I HAVE to meet her
>meet her and her bf, my friend, we hang for a couple days, then i leave and go back to my life
>other girl, who I was involved with, is pissed, and demands i still visit her too
>she sucks me into her life for 5 years, moves me in, etc
>dont really like her, shes dumb, not funny, not clever, not pretty, not like girl #1, but she really wanted me
>get married anyways, partly for residency in her country
>get divorced a month later b/c she had a mid life crisis and/or is retarded. i guess never really cared.
>girl #1 instantly offers to let me move in with her the day i tell her about it
>she needs help, shes got health problems, by helping me, she helps herself, and we were always best friends
>move in with her, as her friend and caretaker
cont
>>694831292
>her life is absolutely crazy, unbelievable, and dangerous, and all in bad, sad ways.
>she overdoses the first week I am there b/c that old highschool bf of hers fucked her girlfriend(she is bisexual)
>her friends and I call 911, she gets set to hospital and psych ward etc
>im alone in her apartment for days
>when I do see her, she says she hates me and will never forgive me for not letting her die
>within a week she is allowed to come home, I'm still there, she apologizes for the attempt, but forgets/pretends she never said she hates me and won't forgive me
>I had no where to go so I stayed and still took care of her, she was still my best friend and had 'saved me'
>shes so crazy and fucked up, we try to have sex once, it was like trying to fuck my sister, too awkward for ME, we just stay friends and I remain as her caretaker. her rich mother pays me very well and i had free room and board and food.
>her health deteriorates more and more
>try to help her in any way I can, take her where she wants, make her 'real food', manage her meds, etc
>even drive her to her dates with other people, geniunely hoping she can find any happiness for herself
cont
>>694831059
*applauds*
>>694831362
>her quality of life was still deteriorating because of her health
>shes more and more limited every day, we stay at home all the time
>we end up watching lots of tv shows, playing video games
>her friends come and go, and go and go, and more go, her life is too crazy, her family is too famous and rich.
>between that and her health we are super isolated over time.
>her health gets worse and worse, she has brain damage, but is still my favorite person to hang out with, still funny, still smart, just memory problems and emotional issues.
>at some point I guess she gave up trying to have any normal life. one night she asks me to marry her out of the blue, says no one else is there for her, and she wanted me to be her legal guardian.
>I agree. we basically dive headfirst into a new relationship that had over 5-6 years of pent up emotion. best relationship I will ever have. very happy, for a while, even with our problems.
>we put off the actual wedding for a few years, shes too sick, but has all these plans for it, it never happens, we get married in the back yard by an old friend with a legal permit to do so, just us, the friend, and my wife's mother.
>her health gets worse and worse, her family gets richer, we get more isolated, she doesnt leave the house except a couple times a year to go to doctor
>>694831408
>been out there with her for 5 years by now
>shes basically bed ridden and going blind and losing control of her body(cant hold things, walk at times etc). shes in lots of pain all the time.
>we dont play games, we dont watch tv, we dont do anything anymore.
>we both become more and more depressed. she has threatened/contemplated/attempted suicide more times than I can remember.
>shes going more and more blind. we read a lot of audio books together, its all we can do
>her doctors dont know how to help her, they dont know how long she will live, they say she probably wont make it to old age or ever be healthy enough to have children.
>i try to think of things we can do stuck in the room, anything else, I am stuck there too ,except when I go out to the grocery store or pharmacy, etc
>i try to entertain her and keep her comfortable and make her specific food for her health problems.
>this last valentines day we wanted to do something, she came with me to the grocery store, she said it was the most fun and alive she had felt in years, but she suffers for it, that outing made her health much worse.
>a few months go by, things arent improving, shes more and more depressed and blind and bed ridden then ever before
>we start getting more paid help around the house, nurses, etc
>>694831454
>she starts pushing this idea that I need to move on, and go do what will make me happy, shes tired of just being sad and depressed together, she doesnt like me when I am depressed, but I cannot not be.
>eventually shes starts talking of divorce, telling me to move on
>we get more and more nurses and help like that to take the load 'off me'
>she still insisantly tells me I should go and move on
>we were going to spend our anniversary on a trip her mom invited us on. she was too sick to go, our relationship wasnt doing well, she says I should go with her mom anyways. she was going to speak at her old college, my wife tried to go there before we lived together, but couldn't because of her health.
>suggests I should go to the college and we should take a break
>i really dont want to, but I go on the trip
>the school is nice, I could almost see myself going there
>come back... shes demanding I leave, that she wants a divorce, that she needs me to move on.
>thats that.
>>694831495
>her rich mother loves me and tries to help, offers me free college, buys me an RV, free money, whatever I want.
>in a different state now. alone. waiting for the fall to go back to school.
>i still talk to her mom and the staff and her doctors. they all always ask me for advice on how to care for her, they say it takes a dozen people to replace me and she is still not doing better, just worse. doctors cant figure it out.
>we dont even talk anymore. the last time she called me she was saying she doesnt know if she can keep going at all, with or without me. told her I cant be her suicide support and her dumped ex husband.
>we dont talk at all anymore. we spent every day together, 24/7 for 5 years.
>its only been 2 months since I left.
>I try everything I can think of to move on. I go out, I ride my bike, I kayak, I meet some girls on OKC. I hate them all, even the ones who like me.
>none of it makes me feel anything resemebling happiness. it all feels like busy work.
>>694823079
Honestly I've always wished somewhere in me that I would break and become an asshole and leave this nice guy life. As two axons from different lives would you ever change to a nice guy? And would you recommend me changet to an asshole?
>>694831531
>i am suppose to start school in the fall. i am 30. i have no passion for anything.
>she was my passion, her friendship and my job of helping her felt more fulfilling than any 'job'.
>I just miss her and worry about her, I know her health will only get worse. it nags me all the time. out of sight doesn not = out of mind.
>I think about how I always planned to be there for her, to her death, to make sure she would be as okay and comfortable as I could help her be. now I wont be there.
>I feel like I am just waiting, dreading the call that shes dead. and I wasnt there.
>I am suppose to start school in the fall. I do not know how I can.
How do you move on from the person who saved you, who is dying, and who you cant help? how do I just go be a normie and go to school and party while shes stuck at home in pain, blind and slowly dying? how do I do that and be a good person?
I cant.
>>694828541
>Awesome!! Now delete my number so I never have to talk to you again :) okay thanks
Fuck man.
If someone texted that to me...
I don't know what I'd do.
>>694831664
oh and when we would fight about getting divorced, I asked her why she even asked me to marry her.
she said her ex bf from highschool told her to, that I was her best shot.
last time I had talked to him, before we were ever together, he had jokingly told me 'she is your problem now'.
never connected the two until that fight.
Its been just over a year...
His family never disabled auto-run on his Steam, and Skype... Seeing him come online was the worst pain I have ever known... I miss you nigger
>>694831059
I would give anything to be you anon.
>>694808130
ow my heart
>>694828881
>>694831059
lol anon you're fine. you're probably all she thinks about
>>694831059
Let us know how it goes man
>>694810636
well im off to cry like a bitch again
>>694831059
Hell yeah! Let us know!
>>694825889
For me I keep the memories of me and my ex locked up in a lockbox in my head and I only take them out to think about them when I'm am in extensive pain mental or physical. I do this because I know it will hurt more than anything. The fact I broke up with her and even if it was justified it still might have been better than being alone. It's been a year and a half and she has had five other guys and lost her virginity to the one after me. I wonder Ifor i should have fucked her instead of waiting because I thought she was worth more than sex. I think about how I've been single this whole time and how I broke off the one slimmer of light in this dark room. I hope another light will find its way in but I doubt it will. Atleast j have away to make my last feelings of pain hurt less
Anyone have the story about a guy who becomes friends with an irish guy that beats people up?
>>694807765
This is a sad cunt thread, but the sad cunts in this thread know that their sad cunts and that all this is gay
>so
>>694817435
This. This is me
Im here for you anon evem though we may not have the same problem i know how you feel
>>694832000
trips of truth, I'm praying things get better for you dude
>>694832670
>>694832766
wow. she was actually waiting for me to get back from deployment and just felt too shy to contact me since so much time had passed. She wants to meet up sometime. Thank you /b/ros. I spent a lot of time being depressed over shit I actually still had a shot at.
>>694834130
That is the best!!!!!
>>694834130
Dude, I'm really happy for you. I'm glad we pushed you to do it. Good luck.
>>694834130
CONGRATS
>>694834130
Hell yeah man. Cheers!
Now the the thread is dead I'm off to fap and pretend I'm not sad for 10 minutes
>>694834785
Have fun /b/ro
>>694821510
http://mydeathspace.com/article/2011/07/08/Brandon_Mills_(26)_committed_suicide_using_a_plastic_bag_and_helium
>>694834785
i just finished and came back to this thread
>>694810232
>Implying anyone comes to my birthdays anyway.
Ive spent every single birthday of my life alone and ill spend my 19th alone in Jan of next year like i always do.
>>694833987
>trips of truth, I'm praying things get better for you dude
in all aspects of my own life i am fine, i am great
i can do anything i want, i have infinite opportunity and resources.
im doing a lot as is, every day I go and try to do things I used to dream about, kayaking, sky diving, riding my motorcycle through park trails, etc. it all just feels like empty distraction though.
exhilaration and excitement are the best distractions and really fun, but I can't be exhilarated all the time.
i wonder if this is why people start doing amphetamines??
>>694803889
This may be not much to you guys, but to me is very difficult to manage emotions
> So my dad is asperger's, like me
> a couple of days ago he was mean to my sick mother, nothing to bad, but since she has a brain tumor I'm very serious about upseting her.
> I got angry at him because even that Im younger, I have figure it out how to be less of an asshole, he's not
> It's been a few days and I can see the sadness in his eyes when I avoid him
> I dunno what to do, I can't feel confortable around him, yet I feel that i'm hurting him and I dont want to
> I get specially sad when I think that this is how its going to be for the rest of my life: a series of unadaptative missundertandings and missplaced emotions with everybody around him... and for the ones that won't bail on me, I will always be hurtfull and a pain in the ass (even IF I get to have children of my own)
>in high school
>in marching band
>meet this girl a year younger than me
>we become really good friends, she grows huge crush on me
>asks me out one day
>"uhh, sure I guess" (never had a gf before)
>learn that day that she has cuts all over her arms/legs/body and has attempted suicide multiple times
>her parents are pieces of shit too
>i was kinda sheltered as a kid, so this was pretty shocking
>keep going with the relationship
>fast forward 4 months
>her parents divorce, and she gets more and more stressed
>her grandma that she was really close to dies
>she starts hitting me in public for really mundane things (zoning out, not having manners, etc)
>she starts getting super paranoid that i'm cheating on her (i'm not)
>plays the victim card and guilt trips the shit out of me
>this continues for a while
>i grow more and more depressed/suicidal because of her
>afraid to break up with her because she might kill herself
>she's aware, but doesn't realize she's the reason
>doesn't really change
>we both go on this overnight school trip, stay at a hotel
>she tells me something i won't forget for a long time
>"anon, you're not the same person i fell in love with."
>i feel like she's telling me it's my fault i'm suicidal
>she goes and talks to her friends or whatever
>i finally snap
>walk up the stairs, trying to find roof access so i can jump off
>find the door to the roof
>it's locked
>she finds me at the top of the stairwell, curled up in a ball and holding back tears
>tell her i almost attempted suicide
>she comforts me, somehow convinces me to stay with her
>3 months later, we get into an argument
>i can't even remember what we were fighting about
>it got heated to the point where i grabbed he shoulders and shook her hard (i'm strong and she's really small)
>calls abuse
>i run to the bathroom
>scratch myself with my car key (first time self harming)
>come out crying like a bitch
>she didn't do much to comfort me
>realize how unhealthy the relationship is
cont.
>>694835591
Don't let your life go downhill man, you're really well set off, just try and find another person who you click with
>>694835648
I meant: around me
>>694807998
I was here for this.
Great story
>>694813555
I see this in cringe threads but at the same time i cry because of how true it is. If it wasnt for /b/ i wouldnt be alive today.
>>694803889
>>694810636
Wow your a cuck
I'm at a hotel now. When I went down ton get drinks I saw a qt at the front desk. Should I ask for her number? I doubt she will say yes but it's not like I ever expect them to
>>694835891
same
>>694835651
>break up with her the next week
>cut off all contact, keep my phone on airplane mode b/c i didn't know how to block numbers
>when i turned on airplane mode, i got texts like pic related from her
>i send the screenshots to her mom
>she gets a week in a mental hospital
>becomes a huge slut once she's out of the hospital
>haven't had a gf since, no longer suicidal, but depressed
still not sure if i'll ever have a gf again
>>694811542
My BD is comming up this sums it up pretty much
>>694836544
what's the worst that could happen
>>694836664
i would
>>694813967
Thank you for this it just strengthens my resolve
Im looking for a green text story
about this guy who meets and irish/scottish guy in grade school. they grow up together
and the scottish guy's sister gets raped/beaten up during a break in. shit gets dark and the guy kills himself.
I could use it right now, thanks
>>694836791
She gives him her number, they go on a date, fall in love, move together and then aftr 2-3-8 years she doesn't love him anymore and dumps him and he can't get over her even after 2-3-8 years.
>>694837058
T'was a rhetorical question
>>694837049
Here /b/ro
>>694817566
She woke up, thats why he stopped.
>>694837560
Thank you anon
>>694837628
for real
>>694835648
physical and mental illnesses are sometimes impossible to overcome. you've done well to learn from your father's mistakes and try to not make them yourself. thats all you can do, keep that in context.
if you can, apologize to him for your outburst, but also tell him you will probably respond the same way if he treats his wife, your mother like that continuously
>>694821065
We all lie in order for greater things to take place. If your girlfriend asked you where you got the advice to your problem, then you would not say that the corresponder was /b/ a place where fucked up human beings resides.
My suggestion is to view it all from the bigger picture. Is she wife potential? the one you could spend the rest of your wonderful days with. If she is then you should forgive her, by saying it to her, i know forgiveness within your heart doesn't exist, but just pretend it does.
>tldr is this lying sack worth your time?
>>694836664
my ex wife was always threatening suicide too man, that shit is rough and manipulative.
just remember, its not your fault, she was broken before you got to her, which is a real fucking shame, but the reality of the situation.
This one gets me every fucking time cuz I'm a single dad with a four year old boy.
>>694819267
I felt.
Do you feel like you owe them?
actually today (the 15th) is my birthday. girl from work im crazy about took me for a couple of drinks. And now here i am back home still alone just drunker. Too bad wishes dont come true faggots
