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Feels thread
>>694034285
Damnit OP here come the tears
>>694034285
>>694034762
Tell me of your troubles.
This story fucks me up
>>694034899
Be me
>it's 2005
>9th birthday
>Super hyped
>Opening presents
>HOLYFUCKINGSHIT
>I get fucking bakugan (My life at that point)
>My mom gets call on her phone
>I just stop and listen to her side of the convo
>Her eyes start to get teary and she starts choking up
>I ask her what's wrong
>Her sister had overdosed on Oxycodone and jack daniel's
>my heart drops
>My little 9 year old self holds back the biggest tears i ever had
>Spend the rest of the day in my room playing with bakugan and not really understand fully what happened
>Her funeral was on my mom's birthday (A week after mine)
>Every year on my birthday since has felt emptier than the last
Shit fucked me up man
I love you lil bro.
Gang, I'm sorry if I sound like a fag but I don't know what the fuck I want with my life anymore. Things just feel like it's gradually getting to me. I've been trying to things day by day and trying to be optimistic but end of the day I don't feel like I belong anywhere besides here. I remember the first time I laughed at a laugh lose thread, first time I saw /b/. It's nostalgic and my great escape but honestly as I'm getting older seems like problems just keep coming and I feel like everything's going to end. I feel like I'll just snap and just give up.
>>694036635
Do different things anon. If you live in a city go out and just explore.
>>694037677
>2 a.m
fucking normie sufferers
more like 4 a.m
>>694036635
Play pokemon go it cured my depression
I poopd my pants wen I was 5
>>694037952
not in canada
>>694037505
I live in the suburbs, I have good friends and people there but sometimes I just feel like I drag them down. I have family but they don't understand. Tried seeing some help and got yelled at and family trying to hell got aggravated and told me they want me to open up. I can't force myself to explain how I feel, especially growing up home I was always compared to and beat. I know other people have had it worse but honestly nothing seems to be going that good in my life. I'm 20, had to stop college because parents don't want to help but helped pay $240k for my sisters college. I barely have money, working my ass; feel like I fuck up every where in life and part of me just wants to give up in life. I love friends and all of you but I just feel like life is futile and a hopeless case.
>>694034285
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QI5ICZZVctQ
>Other boards and forums are shit
>Here about 4chan
>Find people with similar interests and problems
>Be Black
>Get called nigger, ape and worthless
>See nigger hate threads everywhere
>Realize it's mostly for keks
>Still manages to get to me
>>694039237
I feel ya man, I'm black/Hispanic and every time people always nigger, ape, Mexican, worthless or just come out saying that it crushes me. I understand it's jokes also, but I just feel like I don't belong or fit in.
>>694039237
man i feel this, I'm Hispanic, not black, but I see all the black hate threads and wonder how many of those people are serious. you're beautiful though
>>694039237
As long as you don't go dindu and chimp out, those threads aren't directed at you. Im white, redneck and white trash shit doesnt get to me. Im not a redneck or white trash. If you don't act like a nigger, then you're just black.
I feel like life's a cycle of shit, it can seem nice at some points but still you're going to be in shit regardless of what happens
>>694039761
>>694039852
It's nice to know I'm not the only one.
>Be me
>Lost parents at very earle age
>Grew up with grandmother and grandfather
>Was always sad because lack of friends
>Had a friend or two but that was it
>Fast forward
>Be me, a 19yr old language student
>Mostly ignored by the class mates
>Virgin
> grandma, my only friend was very sick, lung cancer, extremely attached to her, she was my everything
>Extreme depression, crying everyday, desperate for social life
>Between the classes a cute girl approached me and told me i look handsome
>Asked me for a date
>About 10 other classmates around her
>First time in the last 2 years i smile and accept it
>She just starts laughting with.others
>Anon, youre really creepy i wouldnt date you for a thousand $$$
>went the college toilet, i cried for 40 mins and puked 2 times
>Grandma died 1 month after
I know that you cant hear me granny now, i just want to.thank you for all sacrifices you did and for all attention you gave me, grandpa is still mourning you, i really miss you, god bless your divine soul, i love you more than anything else
>>694039237
sorry to hear this dude. I come from a white trash background and am ashamed of some of the things I said as a kid to my friends about black people. I have 2 sons now and will never let them be taught the shit I was.
A feels story to counter your own: my wife's best friend from med school is from rural Mississippi. She married a black dude. Nobody from her family came to the wedding- not her parents, not her 2 sisters-- other than her brother who was in the military and flew down from Alaska to be at the wedding in Georgia. Her parents are old and ill today and it's so sad that they have written her out of their lives.
any fellow junkies lurking? i know we're less than people but sometimes i wish that weren't true :/
>>694040595
I don't believe you dude. 19 year old college girls don't do that. 13 year old girls do shit like that.
>>694040595
I'm so sorry anon, Jesus Christ fuck people
>>694040834
I wish you would die, junkie
>>694034285
Not really a big trouble, in fact little in comparison but still
>Gonna buy friend a gift for his birthday
>No summer job
>Decide to cash out in my steam account's skins because fuck csgo
>I trade my skins to a paypal guy
>11 years of service, clean steamrep
>Thought he gave me 190$ over paypal
>Get excited and place order for friend's gift
>Realize it was a money request
God dammit I try to do something nice for someone and even give the guy profit, amd he ran off with my shit...
>>694040806
I appreciate it and I'm sorry to hear about your wife's friend, hopefully that kind of thing will die off, but you know how people are.
Have a good night man.
>>694041020
i do too. sadly being a junkie alone isn't enough to kill you. being a junkie that slips up is enough sometimes tho
>>694035417
fuck you, man
>>694040962
She did it just for keks, had to abandon that college, had no funding. It happened february this year
>>694040595
those god damn fuckers should experience what you did, they'd probably kill themselves if they realized how pathetic the are
>>694035417
Lost
>"mowing down on some delicous as fuck icecream
Kek
>>694041379
the fucking whore will probably catch aids anyway, let's hope she dies a very painful death
>>694040834
>
Hey friend, needle Junkie for past 10 years , there is hope I'm coming up on 2 years clean next month , it took me getting arrested for the umpteenth time and getting into.the drug court program but I mean I was a Junkies Junkie and had no hope but it can be done , life actually has an appeal and holds a promise of something better for the future
>>694041379
I've never ever heard of such a thing in a 19 year old. I was a virgin's virgin all through college but that is not what 19 year old girls do. That is a young teenage girl style mean trick. I think you are lying about this incident. You are probably lying about the parents dying / raised by grandma shit too. That said, I do believe you are a loner, virgin and sad fuck who needs to get laid. In that pathetic sense you deserve feels, along with contempt for lying.
>>694041257
Ex junkie here altho I still smoke pot and drink. You will make it bro dont worry
>>694041961
h I take it? I am/was a meth junkie :( without it i have /severe/ anhedonia
>>694041981
Why the hell would i even lie,i just wanted to get it off my chest.if you dont want to believe it, then dont
Cheers my friend
>>694035417
Tl;Dr can i get a summary?
>>694034285
Wait. Is the blurb on the picture talking about the trap or quasimodo?
>>694042960
Read it faggot. It's a few paragraphs.
Fucking kids these days.
>>694039237
>not realising blacks and niggers aren't the same thing
I'm black too, niggers are just hood thugs whereas blacks are contributing members of society
don't worry about it they're just being edgy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cs-XZ_dN4Hc
>be me
>meet really cute girl on the interwebs
>talk to her day and night
>we decide to meet up
>we meet up
>after we meet up she starts being distant
>we talk less and less as time passes on
>2 weeks
>we don`t talk anymore
>03:34
>scoll down facebook
>i see a post by her
>"in a relationship"
it`s a reallly generic and not intersting story,but it damn it hurts
>>694040962
Not in the age of liberal art degrees my fiend
>>694036091
Feel the same about Christmas. Parents would always fight bc too much stress about money. Now every Christmas I feel empty af and don't even feel like celebrating.
>>694034285
Fuck... I dont need this today. Fuck you OP. Fuck you.
Why did I got in this thread?
Damn.
>>694036091
shit
>>694041981
>needs to get laid
>needs
>need
this is by far the most triggering thing I see on the internet. why do people believe this? I literally cannont comprehend how people think this way.
I know i'm partially autistic but jesus christ make this stop
>>694044463
>>694043558
This. Don't let the edgy 13 year olds from /pol/ get you down.
>>694044463
>inb4 virgin detected Xd
there not being edgy they believe your inferior as well
>>694036635
I just got this girls number. I had no idea how easy it is ... small things can change your life. Go out and talk to people, what's the worst that can happen?
>>694039237
Racism is a crime... and crime is for minorities!
I quit my job on Friday and have been feeling super terrible. A burden. A lazy piece of shit. etc.
My mom and dad both told me they were proud of me for sticking out how long I did and they just want me to be happy. No matter how long it takes.
That literally made me cry when it all happened.
>>694044592
Difference is a robot doesn't think. I would take being a robot over this pointless existence.
Think about it; robots/machines have more purpose than we humans do. That's pretty crazy
>>694041379
>>694041981
Dude, 19 and virgin isn't that unusual. I was 20 when I lost my v and don't regret being a sexless loner for so long. Regardless, what that chick did to you was fucked. Given how close you were to your grandma, and how grateful you are now, I think you grandma knew how much you loved her. You can use that same social connection energy to make friends. Get out there and just be yourself. You've made it this far.
>>694044767
The only way I could experience happiness at this point in my life is
>>694044463
Take your autism medication.
Once you get laid, you'll understand why you need it. Well actually you probably won't, but normal people do.
>>694044305
OP here, sorry man. Just kind of wanna give up, but don't know why I don't
>>694044943
Look everyone, he's doing it again
>>694041112
prolly just selling shit, got robbed, and story was to guilt us into helping you.
>>694045064
You would understand if you weren't an autistic virgin...
Do you also get triggered when people make eye contact, or use sarcasm?
>>694044713
The thing is I've been trying everything everyone's been telling me to do for months. I've been trying to do everything I can but trying everything honestly doesn't seem to help and I don't know what I should do. I feel like I can't escape this pain.
>>694038048
...
>>694045354
He didn't ask for anything retard.
>be me. richfag from a poorfag country.
>awesome girlfriend. family that loves me, but I can't relate to.
>not many friends, but very appreciated by them.
>just want to be alone.
>constantly dream about being alone in the world. last man. alone.
>academic carrier, but don't give a fuck.
>pretty smart. never had to work really hard to acchieve anything i wanted.
>no ambition. i just waste my time doing nothing.
>when i have a deadline, i just get it done fast. because it's easy for me. never understood why everybody struggle to do most things that i do in a hurry.
>if i could, i wouldn't do anything. i wouldn't talk to anyone. i would be alone.
>go to therapist. "nothing wrong with you".
>of course there is something wrong with me.
>i have no real reason to get up in the morning.
>i don't want to do anything.
>i don't want to build anything. acchieve anything.
>just want to be alone.
EVERYTHING IS SHIT /THREAD
>>694034285
You know what? I bet this fucking kid will be fine. There was a kid with cerebral palsy in the high-school and everyone treated him like gods gift to humanity so he got such a full head.
He turned into a "chad" with literally none of the body to back it up.
I'm not worried about this kid, because he'll have a loving family and set of teachers that will tell him he's special every day until he believes it.
The rest of us can pave our own fucking way, tough shit.
I have a daughter that's going to eventually be going through highschool.
>Be me
>Be epileptic
>Do what I can to live with it, because fuck it if you can't laugh at yourself
>At work a few hours ago
>My boss knows of my condition and I've had a minor seizure there before, not a big deal
>Get dizzy, ask him if I can sit in the break room for a little while then get back to the zone
>Sit down, start seizing
>I have seizures in which part of my body gets stiff, my speech is slurred, and I have very vague ideas of whats going on
>Just staring at a spot in the floor, waiting for it to go away
>Coworkers stare at me, treat me like a baby
>End up having to get my friend to pick me up and bring me home
I don't know if y'all would consider that feelsy and shit, but I hate being treated like I'm mentally inefficient. Like I'm lesser or like a baby. Just because I'm epileptic doesn't mean I can't take care of myself. I know they meant help and what not but the stares and silence just got to me. I don't know if I'm even conveying this right but whatever. If what I'm typing doesn't make sense it's okay, at least I feel somewhat better and y'all get a bump.
>>694045412
No. My use of sarcasm is staggering and I stare at people until I am literally underneath their skin. And then, I crawl slowly to their minds, and flash images of dogs being skinned alive and OP not being a faggot.
It really shakes them up
But in all seriousness, no. I just suck at talking to people and don't feel like the pleasure of sex outweighs the potential negatives and will therefore not pursue a woman, even of the prostitute variety
>>694045257
Go read Bob Ross's wikipedia page, he's a fucking awesome guy.
>>694034285
Normie friends found some snuff films on my computer, now everyone knows I'm weird
>>694045412
kek
>>694039237
kys tyrone, its not for keks we genuinely fucking hate you
>>694041112
Thats what you get for being a stupid faggot, faggot
>>694044933
Underrated post.
It's been almost a year since I remember feeling happy. The gentle thoughts of suicide have grown into plans and timelines. I keep telling myself that things will get better, but I don't really believe it anymore.
>>694039761
The beauty of 4chan is that we're all niggers, spics, and faggots, because we're anonymous. That's the point. I can't see your skin, just your words.
>>694034285
Bunch of teens crying about Highschool heartbreaks, don't know that the grave feels is when you are an adult
>>694046108
spoken like a true nigger
does anyone have the picture of mickey mouse with him saying something about life is a waste to someone talking about everything being chemicals? kind of a wierd request but im a nihilist
>>694045803
>Fucked a chick
>sex was meh
>she accused me of rape later to get back with her ex
>ended up settling down with my ex because she's at least the evil I know
I get that Anon, but seriously, sex is good, and healthy, and you're limiting yourself (assuming you are capable of attracting women).
>>694046139
>MY FEELINGS ARE STRONGER THAN YOUR FEELINGS REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BOhhbA9qA5M&feature=youtu.be
>>694046187
Maybe maybe not, you'll never know unless you hack me but I'm behind 7 proxies so good luck faggot
>>694046327
Wait till you get older, those feels are determent
>>694034285
>Feels thread
Can't remember the last time I actually felt anything.
>>694039761
People are assholes man. Expect the worst and people may surprise you.
>>694046261
Isn't that a half-life boss?
>>694034285
This does me in every time, but then
>>694035417
comes along and fucks me up completely.
Holy fucking shit people.
>>694046308
I'm probably 6, maybe higher idk but my personality just isn't tailored to attracting women and I don't feel like changing since I find myself funny.
Me fucking pillows has been a major improvement when it comes to the pleasure I feel compared to a hand so I do that for now. Keeps the sex drive low enough that I can ignore most girls
>>694045762
I dont have anything wrong with me like you but i also hate that feeling so much.
>be me
>>694045354
I don't want any of your money, ding dong. I'm just disappointed and upset that people act like this. I'll work to get the money back of course, though.
>>694046043
Why so hostile
>>694046655
I'm all for living your life the way you want, so whatever keeps you going.
But the anon inside me is saying that is cringe as fuck.
>>694046091
I really hate to give up this early in my life but I just cant find anything worth doing. I slowly wear out each hobby that interests me until it becomes almost a chore where I am forcing myself to try and feel content.
I seriously hope shit goes down soon so I can bash some skulls and maybe get killed at the same time. I'm sorry, mom, dad, and Johnny, but I know there is no hope for me. They are the ones who keep me around... for now
>>694037952
This actually worked for me
>>694046308
Autismos can't stand to be touched, so sex is a tricky prospect for them. It's just funny that he gets so triggered when Normie's talk about getting laid. He must not be able to understand that most people don't have his disease.
>>694038916
This one always makes me sad. So simple, yet so tragic.
>>694040595
This made me do a sadness
>>694046622
Hahaha that is nihilanth.
Impressive game taste in games my friend.
>>694043913
Similar thing happened to me, anon. except I traveled to europe to meet her, we haven't talked in 3 months now
>>694046903
Of course it is. I know it is. Not even a truly autistic person would think humping pillows and cumming into blankets is healthy or natural. I just try my best to make it from day to day without getting more involved than I have to. Thus, I use something that helps divert my attention... regardless of how disgusted I am with myself afterwards
>>694046679
>I dont have anything wrong with me like you but i also hate that feeling so much.
>I dont have anything wrong with me like you
Holy fuck anon you made me kek myself out of the blues. Have this Hank pic, on me.
>>694046622
i think it is i dont remember but something about the picture really resonated with me :/
>>694039237
society forces us to accept you and respect your feelings but in all honesty we would prefer you werent around
this is the one place we can tell you this
>be me
>>694035417
i dont see anything particularly special about that story to be honest
skipped all that romantic, michelle gondry style jizz btw.
a white dude and his white gf crashed, his girl dies. wow, how special.
im not trying to LE TROLL or be edgy, but really? what's so special about that story that it makes anons go WOW THAT REALLY FUCKED ME UP MAKES YOU THINK HUH
and yea, I loved and was loved, and it was best thing ever, and still. that story is shit.
The read is worth it.
>>694046655
>Me fucking pillows has been a major improvement
Saddest post in the thread...
>be high school me
>struggling with depression, made several suicide attempts
>treated like a dog or some inanimate object
>junior year cute redhead notices me and treats me like a friend
>we hang out a lot but she has a long distance relationship, but I didn't care, I was doing something other than sitting at home contemplating where it all went wrong
>one day got really depressed, grabbed my dad's revolver and put it at the base of my skull (behind my right ear)
>My phone goes off as I'm just starring at a wall with the gun to my head, it's the qt. We hang out for the rest of the day.
>1yr later she's dumped her boyfriend and was single for a while, was pretty good, buy we start to hang out less and less
>2yrs later: go to convention with her, tell her about how her random call stopped me from shooting myself, she doesnt believe me
3rd later: find out she liked me a lot in high school from one of her friends, and I'm immediately filled with regret
>now: we aren't even friends anymore, I regret everything I didn't do even though I was given the chance. My depression has come back and even though I have a well payed job that has set me up to have a good life, every now and then I think about driving into oncoming traffic
I hate myself
>>694047070
check'd
I already said I don't legit autism.. I'm just slightly antisocial and don't see how sex is the most important thing in a lot of peoples' lives
>inb4 autism
>>694040834
Was a junky for looooong time, did detox 2 months ago, been clean since then. You ain't less than people. All people make mistakes, some mistakes take longer to put right than others but never think that makes you less than people.
>>694046655
you are a very sad man
I told PART of this story in /lgbt but left out the part where I did a very shitty thing.
>feeling good one day, I go for a walk in an area of town I used to go to, but dont now as I live 40 miles away. hasn't changed much except for some gentrification,
>Commercial drive area of Vancouver BC
> I see my Ex Gf and Very X Fiance walking down street talking to another woman.
> I decide to be big and say hi
>she PRETENDS not to know me when her friend asks who I am. She looks right at me and fucking lies while I'm watching.
>I ask how her brother, sister and her two kids are are doing. I know all the names (including the two kids who have French names) and it is clear her gf knows those names too. I ask if her half brother still has the photo I took for his birthday on his wall.
>thingsgetoutofcontrol.mp4
> she says she honestly forgot who is was and I counter with "the part about me being the first guy you ever slept with or the fact I left you after stabbing me in the arm twice?"
>Her GF has a shocked look on her face, the fact that her lover had a guy before or the domestic violence rap is unclear
>I back away and they start a heated talk in the middle of a busy sidewalk
>at half a block away they are still going at it and now yelling is a bad sign.
>myworkhereisdone.jpg
>>694039237
yeah /b/ tends to attract the stormfag types, my advice is just search for the threads you want to see so you don't see any of that shit
My friends are either in new relationships, getting married, or having kids.
The part that startles me about it is how I wouldve been jealous or depressed about it 5 years ago. Now the concepts have no meaning to me, like i lost something inside. The realities of such things like, bills, sickness, relationship problems, economic challenges etc, are enough to dissuade me from even desiring them. I worry im going to be 45 one day and realize I shouldve had those things and it will be too late and I squandered my prime.
And its not like I really care about anything to a great extent otherwise.
>>694040595
I usually only lurk these threads, but God damn... stay strong dude.
>>694047311
3edgy5me
>>694040595
fuck dude
>>694047378
diving is extremely ineffecient, go be a martyr or something if you wanna kill yourself publicly
>be me
>working
>normal night
>see female walk by counter
>think nothing of it
>continue on doing what I was doing
>walks past counter again and around to sitting area
>sitting area is just a few stools at the end of the clerk area
>It's her
>Just her
>on way out to do something, she grabs me and holds on
>her: "It's been a while."
>me: "I know."
>her: "Are you trying to hide from me again? You used to be in a different store."
>me: "No, I got placed here without much of a say."
>her: "Can you still say I love you?"
>me: "It doesn't matter. It won't mean anything if I do."
>her: "Well for what it's worth, I still love you."
>don't want to let go
>biggest smile on my face
>wake up.
>>694035417
I'm not crying!! You're crying !!!
>>694047312
i read this a few days ago
good story. thanks for it all together the last anon posted it in 5 parts
>>694047617
much appreciated, anon. tho it's hard not to feel subhuman sometimes, i'm such a slave to meth
>>694035417
reading with No Surprises playing
losing so hard
Combat Veteran ( Iraq and Afghanistan)
Can't sleep, I usually just end up staring at the ceiling for 6 hours then get up and do it all again, because when I close my eyes i see it all over again.
holding jobs is hard because my anger and anxiety is so unbearable most of the time.
I just hate it all and want to check out most of the time...fuck it.
>>694039237
>>694039761
I'm female (first time I've ever admitted this here), I get you.
>>694044592
I just caught feelings from a robot. Damn.
>>694047759
Rip OP
>>694047626
I'm not sad... only lonely. But's its my fault and I know it. I simply want off this ride as soon as possible. In an ideal situation, I never would have gotten on in the first place (looking at you mom, and dad)
>>694045762
Hey mate, I have epilipsy too...infect I've never been able to get a job with it, but five years ago I got a job, and I've had it ever since, only had one seizure at work so far in at five years...my workmates understand I struggle everyday but I always smile and tell them I'm fine
Truth is mate, my epilipsy is different...mines genetic, I might grow out of it but I may not...your brain is a muscle and it can change overtime, i kicked the mess long ago and decided to chance it and it worked out, those meds were making me loose my memory...it sucked
I guess what I'm trying to say is that we are brave people, others don't much know what we face everyday but we do, and living sucks cause of it...I don't even drive cause of it! There's a lot I can't do and I am treated like I'm half a man, don't loose hope cause it's always there...we are not disabled we are not a burden we are going anywhere anytime soon either
Stay strong, remind others of your strength show them you live a life with no room for doubt only courage
>>694047954
first time you've admitted? you're fucking anon you retard
>>694047759
"wake up"
What did he mean by this?
>>694048215
He was dreaming?
>>694035417
>you would like it if your friend told you that you had a booger on your face
Mfw the only time that happened to me was when i was in highschool and had a runny nose, and my snot crusted up into a booger and the girl i had a crush on pointed it out to me because we were getting closer.
Mfw i never talked to her again
>>694048313
Wow, really makes you think.
>>694048215
It was a dream
It's been a weird experience going from crying all the time to being emotionally numb, my bf thinks I hate him but doesn't understand that I can't I've anyone anymore.
>>694047312
Nah im good
>>694048215
>>694043913
I feel you bro
>>694039761
>>694039237
Shut the Fuck up, if words hurt, you are weak.,...
>>694048357
Are you perhaps, slow?
>>694048215
Wake me up inside
>can't wake up
>>694048375
Not even yourself? You should love yourself first before anyone else
>>694036429
T. 12 year old
Probably only been actually happy like 10 times in the last 14 years
>>694047312
already read that one a few weeks ago. anons, take my word for it, when you have 30 minutes or so take the time to experience it.
>>694047311
nah you're right
ive only cried to the story of the dog told in cartoon
>>694048595
bro dont be a dick
were just really thinking here
So be me my real family is poor but I still love them and I don't mind that much get bullied at school for it I try to be funny and make friends they just laugh at me and beat me up I deal with it tho I foucs on school my grades are better so there for I'm better right no they still hate me have no real friends only one is my dog he's my everything my baby he gets sick I cry don't leave his side he dies and a pice of me died with him
>>694048754
That's higher than my average. Good job :)
>>694048587
Spotted the 12 year old
It's past your bedtime junior.
>>694035417
aaahhhhh fuck
>>694034285
Every time. Every fucking time.
tfw people you used to know and like turned into common degenerate apes
>>694048587
Fucking this.
>>694034285
and you guys are the assholes that will shit all over his life for how he looks
>>694047378
its okay anon, you'll find someone else or move on from love.
and if you don't, >>694047709 has it all wrong.
Engulfing yourself in flames is the best public suicide option.
>>694048900
r/im14andthisisdeep
>>694047814
For anyone who wanted that picture w/o text
>>694048858
This is unreadable. Use some fucking punctuation. I know you're poor, but periods and capitals don't cost anything.
>>694048900
>dads shoulders were the highest place on earth
i dont remember.
nice dubs.
>>694048900
You can't fix this problem without removing the problem; humanity in it's entirety
>>694045762
A friend of mine is epileptic and he once had a seizure back in high school. Now mind you, I don't think I had ever witnessed an epileptic seizure before, and he got a good one where he was just drooling and shaking a lot, body all fidgety yet unresponsive on the couch. It really scared me and I wad afraid for the guy. I wasn't able to do anything in that situation and I felt powerless. Now, the guy was fine afterwards and shrugged it off, but you see, he's tge one with the condition and the knowledge. A lot of people don't and they might get afraid. I know it must feel stupid that they treat you like a baby but just be thankful there are people willing and capable of helping and those just staring are probably just worried.
>>694048859
Sorry to hear that friendo. Drink down the sadness and try not to kill yourself. That's about where I'm at
>>694049165
>sapien of the negro variety detected
>>694049026
You're one of us faggot.
>>694048816
>>694039761
>>694047954
>>694048860
Truth hurts doesn't it, buttercup?
If word hurt you, you are weak.
it's an evolutionary fact.
>>694049233
im white. nice dubs.
>>694049225
cheers m8
>be me, right now, sitting in the dark typing this
>reminiscing about how lonely my life has been for as long as i can remember
>i thought about suicide a dozen times in high school but never could do it
>i joined the military and thought about it even more
>this wasn't the life for me
>i once called the on base hospital for help and told them i had suicidal thoughts
>they scheduled me for an appointment for two weeks later
>really?! i'm on the verge of shooting myself and you want to schedule me that far out
>i finally snap out of it, thanks alcohol
>lived most of my early 20s in an alcohol induced hazed
>lost some friends in iraq and afghanistan and to suicide from ptsd
>shit like that never helps someone with depression
>then i met her
>she changed everything for me
>she showed me what is was to use someone
>i was her meal ticket, her bank
>she lived comfortably while she verbally attacked me constantly but i still loved her
>she gave me a daughter
>my spark of happiness
>i never knew true happiness until my daughter was born
>my last deployment was a struggle
>she started cheating on me, inviting strangers in my house, in my bed and around my daughter
>that's when i had enough
>i got divorced, saw therapists, psychologists, took the meds
>my life turned around because my daughter needed me to be a dad, not a wreck
>i left the military and go t great job, a new car, a house for me and her
>we painted her room together, she wanted it pick and brown
>we have the best time playing, reading, going to the zoo and museums
>my heart drops though
>the state of AZ has given my ex custody of my daughter so she can take her to japan with her new husband and kids
>my little spark of happiness is leaving and i can't do anything about it
>so i type this in the middle of the night while i listen to my little spark snoring in her bed
>i can feel that old darkness creeping back
>what am i going to do without my little spark of happiness
>>694034285
Lmao I went to public school and we had a kid that looked like that no one picked on him.
>>694049300
thanks, and I apologize
>>694049152
kek
>>694049233
>>694049273
Does mom know you're not n bed?
>>694036091
>2005
>9th birthday
>tfw I feel old
>>694042878
veterans loathe these memes. Loathe them, absolutely. These are designed with one purpose, and it's to irritate, which they do without grace.
>>694046261
>>694049343
fuck that shit, I would lose my mind if I lost my daughter.... seriously, Fuck.That.Shit
>>694035417
Fuck.
>>694048045
Not OP
>>694049343
Should have never had kids. Think about what your daughter has to live through; all that suffering, just like you. If you had controlled yourself, she wouldn't have to suffer. You would still, but overall there would be less.
Food for thought. I know that's not what you're looking to hear but it's true
>>694039237
>>694039761
fuck you, you made me feel bad. if makes you feel any better I apply the word nigger and faggot to a type of action, not a type of people. I just don't say it in front of people I don't know on a deep level, so like my friend who I can't really tell if hes racist or not...
>>694049079
thx bud
>>694049628
I hear that. just turned 36...
>>694045645
I'm somewhat like you.
Not sure how to put this in green text, so I likely won't. Still not sure how to feel about it, because of how sudden it happened. I'm not even sure why it happened. And it's fucked up, too. I woke up, June 23, 2016. My 19th birthday, I was spending time in Florida with my immediate family. It started as any other day, slow and uneventful, mostly swimming in the ocean or playing baseball near the beach on a huge sandy flat. It was later that afternoon that we got the call from my grandmother, where my mother broke down in tears. We learned our aunt, who we were close to, passed of a severe brain aneurysm. Not only that, but her husband had nothing to do with her, or the four daughters and one son that were left behind. Now those kids have a shell of a man watching them, with no hope at a decent future. Summary, life is shit sometimes
>>694049343
Get a lawyer. Don't let her go man.
>>694048199
Mostly it don't come up cause usually it's irrelevant but there's been occasions when it would have been relevant but I say nothing because I just can't be bothered with the whole tits or gtfo bullshit.
>>694049343
Don't give up anon! She still needs you.
>>694049855
>turned 9 in 2005
>just turned 36
Something isn't adding up here
>>694039237
>>694039761
>>694039852
As a white man, y'all niggas cool in my books.
The one thing that binds us is that we're all a bunch of autistic faggots who funpost on here instead of live our lives.
>>694034285
Shit...poor kid
>>694050027
are you fucking stupid, I was agreeing i felt old...
>>694047312
Man, this story is sad but great. R8 8/8.
>>694049916
*always
fixed that for you
>>694049343
If there is no way to fight this:
Try to get at least some setup with her, at least communication...
Hold on and if worse comes to worse and you can't be with her to much your last hope is to wait untill shes older and at that point she might want to fight her mom to be with you... but you have to be a good role model.
Honestly man just hold in there... i feel for you.
>>694049271
Sure is fucking summer
>>694050139
I actually baited someone
noice
>>694049343
>what am i going to do without my little spark of happiness
sorry. that is terrible.
>>694034285
Where is he now?
>>694045645
This. This is my life at the moment, except without the girlfriend and poorfag country.
Not really depressed just really don't want to do anything with life.
>>694050283
nice save....
>have no friends to speak of
>entire family is dead
>dreading the feels i'll get on my birthday like usual
>it's the only day that really gets me feeling things
>on my last birthday out of the fucking blue one of my old old friends who hadn't kept up with me in forever calls me
>an actual fucking phonecall on my birthday
>I'm so so happy when i pick up the phone
>"hi anon it's anon. There's something i have to tell you man."
>sounds a bit weird but idgaf, just happy to get some congrats
>"so you know the class reunion is coming up right?"
>"yeah man. it'll be cool to see the boys after all this time."
>"Yeah... about that... I was talking with them and some others and we thought that it'd be better for everyone if you didn't come."
>"W-what? W-why?"
>fighting back tears
>"anon3 is going to be there and i know you had a fight with him last summer. we don't want any of that at the reunion."
>"right. well.. good talking to you. have fun man."
this is how I stopped feeling things. the "fight" in question was anon3 beating the shit out of me blackout drunk with his 2 friends when i bumped in to him in a local bar.
Life is great ain't it?
>>694049719
sums up life
I like the rain.
I know it sounds edgy but it's not for some faggy reason like "It represents how I feel inside." or some shit.
It just reminds me of great times.
The sun reminds me of summer, and of the summertime romance that people usually have growing up.
The ones I never had.
I watched my friends all go through these short lived flings that would only last the summer, and I thought I was being clever by avoiding such a fleeting thing.
I suppose that was my way of rationalising the fact that I couldn't have had it if I wanted. No girls went for me.
The rain doesn't bring those memories out. The rain reminds me of the good times with friends, staying out late under trees just to spite nature. It was like the world was telling us to go home but we had better things to do.
We'd talk, we'd run tree to tree or just do whatever we wanted, because everyone else was inside. The world was ours.
There was even one girl who liked the rain as much as me. One time we stayed out until it was nearly bright out, just talking about nonsense. I liked her but it never crossed my mind that she could have liked me.
I didn't even like me.
But at the time it didn't matter because we were so in the moment I forgot about me. The world ticked on while we were kept save by the old oak tree near our houses.
I like the rain.
>>694050354
"Anon cast damage control...
...It's not very effective!"
>>694050178
Beat me to it.
>>694050165
It's worth it ! read it. You have nothing better to do fgt.
>>694049629
They should loathe them, it highlights how little normal people have really experienced, veterans like yourself know things are never trivial and you know that through your experiences...and the rest of us, we hate those who believe everything is so simple and trivial
>>694050467
>>694049629
>veterans loathe memes for 15 yo girls on tumblr
just how much must veterans be unhappy with themselves to even care
kids are always stupid
>>694034285
No problem, he'll just live underground and write operas. Bet he's brilliant at it.
>>694050666
Can't fool me, Satan
as a kid whenever someone complimented my art or skills i would always feel like shit inside cause i felt like they only said that to make me feel good.
>>694047378
Same thing happened to me. Feel your pain /b/ro
The beatings were so bad that I have been left mostly deaf.
I have sustained so many head injuries that I have permanent symptoms of brain damage.
I was raped as a child, two teenage girls that wanted to pls a game.
One more time with the most proactive of the two, I was only seven.
The bullying was really brutal in my childhood, I cant really think of a reason why.
I have defended my mother from grown men.
When I was in high school, an older classmate bullied me so bad that it eventually came down to rape.
His girlfriend and her friend assisted him in this, I resent them more than him.
I was ostracized by my classmates, and people in my year because it was "just messing".
My best friend, is now friends with him. He often asks me why we do not hang anymore.
Now I am doing okay, but I do not really know where to go. Often find myself attempting to seize opportunities to kill myself, trying to find something to live for is extremely difficult when I just feel so apathetic about everything.
My memories consist soley of negative experiences, I do not have stories to tell people, in other words.
>>694047312
By far, one the best feels stories of all time. May that anon's body and mind find peace one day.
>>694050801
Same. hurt more than them giving actual feedback
>>694049957
that one fucking got me
>>694034285
I can feel myself becoming a 'robot.' I'm losing attraction toward women, my emotions are eroding, and nothing really seems to make me 'happy' anymore.
>>694034285
>sunday. want the weekend to last forever.
>week starts
>just want monday to end.
>get home on monday, don't want to go to work on tuesday
>Just want the week to end.
>as sure as sunday turns to monday, friday comes
>Leave work on Friday. Want the weekend to last forever, but weekend is only two days, which go by in a blur.
>can't wait til christmas vacation
>as sure as the second hands moves so too comes christmas, and so too comes its end, and the start of another week.
>realize that everything comes and goes. nothing lasts.
>But realize that death is more certain than tomorrow because death is guaranteed, tomorrow is just inevitable as long as you live.
>death is the only certain thing about life.
>>694050363
turn up anyway
>>694050666
this...
Divergent plates shifting.
>>694050825
Fake and gay
>>694044943
for fucks sake, learn the difference between a need and a want.
you NEED food, water, shelter from the elements, something not to eat/kill you.
you WANT almost any/everything else.
How do I let a gril know that I am interested without being outright
I would like to know
>>694051153
Fucc posted wrong thread abort abort
>>694051282
too late
>>694051282
fucking silver back nigger
>>694051142
>>694050666
samefag
>>694050990
they clearly don't want me there and those people were my mates. why would i?
>>694048900
The way the text is written is absolute garbage but the meaning is there and I agree. Life was way easier before we grew up.
>>694047312
burst out laughing at the rail my ass suck his balls and swallow his jizz part
>>694034285
>mfw I can't kill myself because all my college debts would then be dumped on my already struggling parents
>mfw i am literally a hostage to my own financial situation
not really sure why i'm even alive but cool
how i lost my virginity and my first gf
>be me 18 year old kissless virgin
>have depression thats been building up for a year and a half.
>so lonely, so desperate.
>be in this groupchat for a while now with people talking about some manga thats basically the only thing that interests me in life anymore
>girl(21) in there is quite similair to me and we both notice it,
>shes depressed as heck too, just came out of an abusive relationship.
>start talking in private outside the groupchat after a while
>at this point we've seen each others faces and we kinda both like each other
>had this kinky conversation with her one night where we both fap and tell each other kinky sutff.
>that was a good night,
>tfw closest i ever came to sex
>she wanted me to be there to help her cum
>ofc i wanted to be there too
>next day we start talking seriously about meeting up
>she lives a country away
>train takes too long
>plane it'll be
>literally week later my sister drops me off at the airport to meet a girl ive only known for 3 or so weeks.
>anxious as fuck
>but hey ill finally get some affection ive been waiting for for 18 years
>mind you she had 100% similair sexual interests/kinks so this would be so worth it.
>get in the plane
>shaking for 1 hour straight
>arrive at the airport in a foreign country
>there she is.
>4 hour travel back to her apartment.
>she's so shy
>she's so cute
>hold hands all the way from airport to her apartment.
>arrive at apartment.
forgot to mention i went there for 5 days
>5 days of straight up HEAVEN
>spent 5 days in a bed with her, we only got out of bed to have dinner wich was her amazing lasagna (so good) and to shower together.
>had sex a couple of times.
>but tbh the best part was cuddling/kissing/caressing each other for hours
>pretty much touched each other all over for 5 days straight
>time to go home
Here's my sad story
>In love with a girl who doesn't feel the same way
>We're still friends and even though I'm glad because it means I get to see her and be around her it still hurts in ways I can't tell her about. Kind of ironic really, she's one of my best friends and I can't tell her what makes me sad and keeps me awake at night staring into the darkness wishing I could sleep.
>I did tell her once, a while ago now, I wrote her a letter because I was too embarrassed to tell her face to face in case she reacted badly. It told her that I thought she was beautiful and perfect and that I think I could make her happy, "meet me at that cafe by the fountain we go to sometimes at 6pm this Saturday" it said.
>A few days later she emailed me, she had no intention of going but couldn't bear the thought of me sat there waiting for her, I didn't cry, I had done all that, I was actually just relieved, and if I'm perfectly honest, she's too good for me anyway.
>We see each other every now and again, we laugh and chat and drink and then go home and chat more on facebook, she's so ridiculously cool and pretty, she's like this brilliant, shining Sun, all power and energy, she has depression and sometimes can't leave the house, to me that's like when it's night time, and you can't see the Sun anymore but you know it's out there somewhere, and soon it'll be back again, bringing light into the world.
>As for me, I'm like a planet orbiting that Sun, basking in its glow and radiance but never able to touch her, never able to be part of her, set on my simple trajectory for the rest of my life.
She's so cool.
>>694051547
>almost bursting into tears when leaving her at the airport
>those were the best 5 days of my life
>get home, we talk every single day
>unfortunetly timing is not on our side and the next time we see each other will be in like 3 months
>skip a few weeks
>ordered plane tickets
>so hyped to be with her again
now comes the fucked part
>she suddenly doesnt want to see me ever again
>i did absolutely nothing wrong
>basically her ex fucked her up mentally way too much and shes unable to keep social relationships and welp apperantly lover-relationships too., i was lucky enough even be with her for such a long time
>basically ends right there
>i tried everything i could to convince her to not leave me as the logical thing was to stay ofcourse, i had done nothing wrong, but everything i said apperantly made it worse.
>havent talked to her since as im afraid shell block me,
>tfw a friend told me she could of used me as a power-trip to get over her abusive ex.
>if thats true idc it was still worht it
>been hugging my sheets/pillows ever since, the best feeling in the world is falling asleep hugging a girl that loves you.
>tfw over it now
>this is probably the most uninteresting story as a reader, but its the most interesting thing thats happened ever in my boring ass life.
>>694051282
Now you are one of us, here you got your one use only pistol and a can of Xanax with vodka, make yourself at home
>>694039237
>>694039761
I'm a white guy who lives in the hood,and I've broken bread with more NON-white people than my 'own'.
We just have more in common. Everyone gets a plate at a black person's barbeque. White folk could learn a thing or two.
Don't let these faggots get you down. The racists are just loud here because they're huge pussies in real life. In all actuality,there's like 2 of them and the rest are trolls.
>>694051415
lel nope..
not even close
>>694051526
you're alive because your parents are animals who could not control themselves and did not even think about how you might not enjoy life
>>694051691
fair enough, at least I know never to have kids
>>694051646
ugh fucking faggots ruining my precious 4chan...
>>694051571
Fake and gay
>Be me
>Little kid in little school, different from others
>Not different as in "holy fuck you deformed autist why'd you shit on the floor" More like a "You have a weird face and a weird personality"
>Bullied the fuck out of by everyone
>Own "friends" bully me
>Teachers bullied me
>Those who were hated by everyone else bullied me
>I was alone
>Be me, 5 years old
>PS2 for christmas
>whatisthismachine.jpg
>Go connect to TV
>Start playing some shitty games
>feelsgoodman.gif
>Bullies start to notice i'm a little happier
>Can't figure out why, so they start to do it worse and worse
>Get bullied out of school and into new one
>Still bullied, but less
>howfuckingwrongiwas.mp4
>Motherfuckers knew I was alone and only loved playing games
>Vidya became my only happiness
>Motherfuckers deliberately broke my wrists 5 times in 2 years to stop me from playing
>Worst time was when I was held down, little shit spat in my face
>"You're different. You're not allowed to be happy"
>Trampled my hand, broke wrist and a few fingers
Since that day, I have only been happy twice. When I got my first kiss, and when someone other than my family told me they loved me for the first time.
>>694039237
Stupid porch monkey.
I'm only 15 but a lot of the time I feel deeply and truly lonely. it gets to the point where I want to come on /b/ and hand out my contact info to have SOMEONE to talk to, even though the people here are so toxic
>>694051830
me too bro, me too
>>694052018
>toxic
you HAVE to go back
>>694052018
smh 2bh fam
b&
