Feels thread.
What's her name?
Is she thinking about you?
(Probably not)
they don't care
>>692807437
Oh shit anon
Can I tell my shitty life story guys?
Probably going to be called a pathetic faggot but whatever
>>692807804
Probably not a pathetic faggot as me
>>692807437
Jesus...
>>692807362
I'm feeling super sad and depressed those days..
It's been a long time since the last time that I felt alive.
My everyday life is a fucking routine and my whole file is falling appart.
I want to be a hero guys. But ahahI'm too scared of this shit.
I was finally a little happy because the person that love since 1 year finally told me that she was in love with me too..
Too bad she lives far away and doesn't want to start a relationship.
I don't have any friends here,and I'm just making my parents sad because they see me acting like a vegetable.
I want my life to change but..I just don't know how.
Any advise is really welcome
>inb4 "killyourself faggot."
>>692807362
Kelly, would call her Kelly belly because she was fat. she liked it and I didn't mind
Laura
No
>>692807362
Renee.
Maybe.
>>692807804
Fuck well here it goes
>>692807977
>>692807804
>picked on all through school
>adhd meds making me depressed (didnt know that then)
>figured i'd kill myself before i was 18
>had fight in me once
>fought back mouthed back at the bullies
>called me mole ear
>threw shit at me
>constantly tried to get me in trouble
>called me a pig
>mocked me
>once pretended to be my only friend and invited me to movies
>claimed the others wanted to get to know me
>was so happy thought i might get more friends
>I went, no one showed up
>followed me home once
>tried to throw my backpack into the water canal, thankfully i was athletic then, got it back in the nick of time
>this is not even half of what they did
>6th grade teacher hated me for some reason
>always helped bullies
>always called home so i was miserable around the clock
>detention every day
>one day i came home crying
>had an especially bad day at school
>bitch teacher called my parents again for unknown reason
>screamed at by parents
>run in room crying
>slam door
>cried on my bed for about 20 minutes
>remembered something
>recently learned that some people cut for comfort
>eyes glanced to medical scissors on my bookshelf
>get up off of bed and grab scissors
>scratch myself up, I felt better
>did this every day
>eventually cut deeper and got razor blades
>I started cutting at 11 years old
>>692808323
>was 14
>still picked on
>light was gone from my eyes
>no more fight left in me
>fantastic rollerderby player
>shit self esteem kept me from seeing this
>everyone talking about dieting
>health class talking about eating disorders
>started starving self
>signed up on eating disorder website
>it.... Completed me, made me whole
>starving myself made me happy
>dropped a crap ton of weight
>other girls in the lockerroom would go up to me asking what my secret was
>i'd just smile and say i dont know, i love food
>complete lie
>it made me happy, but it also made me suffer
>dropped more weight
>88 pound bitch
>compliments increased
>self esteem decreased
>>692808407
>posted pics of myself on said site
>got comments like "omg you're my new thinspo", "perfection", "i want your legs!", "your bones show beautifully"
>It made me so damn happy to see i was looked up to
>one comment got to me
>it said "oh darling... You're so young, and you were so beautiful, and you're still so very pretty... Just don't let this kill you"
>Felt like a ton of bricks hit me
>i never forgot
>>692808486
>started to vomit as well
>hid bags of vomit under my bed when i feel like i'd been to the bathroom too many times
>would throw them out later
>one time i forgot
>went under my bed for something
>pulled out bags, i was in shock
>there were 3 bags
>bacteria ate almost all of one and half of the second
>that memory was blocked out until i watched an eating disorder movie that brought it all back
>since then i've never forgotten
>got down to 83.8 pounds
>started collapsing frequently
>my vision would get foggy and after 5 or so seconds my legs would collapse from under me
>The most fucked up part about it was that I was completely conscious I just couldn't move or see
>I would just lay there, for about a minute
>terrified one of my parents are find me there on the floor
>then I would get up and run to the nearest seat
>rollerderby team wouldnt let me on the travel team no matter how hard I worked
>i discovered it was because i was too thin
>"the girls on your team know and will be careful of you, the girls on the other team will be bitches, they won't give a shit, you're a danger on the track, you could die"
>heart broke
>fast forward 3 months
>mom caught me taking her diet pills
>eating disorder discovered
>she turned into satan
>she screamed at me
>called me a bitch
>made it all about her
>"how could you do this to me?" "How could you?" "Is this the thanks i get???" "YOU BITCH"
>treated me like a fake, like a wannarexic
>pulled me out of roller derby
>controlled my diet
>>692808486
fat bitch
>>692808562
>went along with it until she thought i was "cured"
>was 15, cut all my hair off, became guyish and faked confidence to "prove" to my mom i was "cured"
>nope.avi
>lies
>i was fake
>i had a fake fucking personality
>pretended to be people person
>got popular as fuck
>but no one knew my secret
>"girls like me dont get eating disorders right" i'd say
>broke inside
>desperate for any validation
>bi woman so found random ass chick on omegle
>went to kik
>sent nudes
>she didnt send anything back
>blackmailed me for more and more otherwise she'd post my pics
>retarded 15 year old so i did it
>I fucking did it guys
>made me go on skype with her
>crying the entire time
>fantastic singer
>told her this
>sang to her to stop torture even for just a bit
>she was impressed
>i was so proud but heartbroken
>"has anyone told you you're like a pornstar? ;)"
>"shhhhh just be a good girl and you'll be safe"
>felt like my blood ran cold
>2+ hours later she finally was satisfied
>said i could go and delete her on both skype and kik
>she contacted me again, just deleted her shit, too tired wouldnt go through it again
>"i'll post your pics"
>"go ahead, i wont do this again"
>blocked her
>panic attacks in consequence
>i felt pathetic
>how could something like this give me panic attacks???
>self hatred increases
>convinced myself it was freshman year to make myself feel better
>was 16, ran into evidence it happened when i was a sophomore
>>692807437
I know this is fake, but if this does happen to any of you autists out there, take the hint and move the fuck along.
There are literally billions of girls out there, and even if the one you're hopelessly pining for miraculously decides to change her mind about you, you'll eventually get bored with her anyway and want someone else.
Don't be stupid and waste your time on just one girl. Go out and hit on as many girls as you can.
>>692808717
>worse panic attacks, unable to function for an hour at a time every day, sometimes twice a day
>confided in friend
>hear "well it was your fault"
>i knew it was my fucking fault
>I FUCKING KNEW IT WAS MY FAULT GUYS
>just made everything worse
>always planned to kill myself but never could do it
>now a healthy weight but eating habits still unstable
>now so scarred up i dont know if i can get a job
>still get panic attacks if someone says the wrong thing to me
>wrote countless suicide notes
>always thought i'd die before i was 18
>I'm 18 now, and I have no idea what I should do
I doubt you guys will read this or feel pity for me, I dont care to be honest, I just needed to get it off my chest
Amanda...no obviously she wouldn't be thinking about me....
>>692808868
all that shit aint ur fault
>>692808868
I read it all. I hope things get better for you anon
>>692808978
go make yourself her first choice faggot
>>692808868
All we want is tits move on with your damn life
>>692808730
Me it's not a girl but my "friends"
Sure they like having fun and drinking but that's it
I just annoy them
Rebecca. She thinks about me, and I want to escape the cruse she left me with, maybe one day I'll find someone who made me feel the way she did, I got 4 years of pure happiness out of her and since she left my life has been nothing but routine and sleepless nights.
Wanted to marry her, I was naive and in love, but being naive and in love was the best feeling in the world.
I want to be able to sleep at night, I want to be able to kiss women without being reminded of her, fuck someone without feeling guilty. But she's fucking cursed me and I can't make it stop.
You fucking ruined me and I'd have died for you, I just hope I come out of this similar to the happy optimist I was before and not the depressed grumpy angry person I've become. It gets better right /b/?
>>692808868
Good luck anon
Another thread where beta permavirgins cry about their insignificant lives so people will wrap a proverbial arm around their should instead of actually getting off their ass, going out into the world, and grabbing life by the balls?
No thanks.
>>692808868
I promise, it gets better. I'm recovering from bulimia because my girlfriend helps me eat, and its a slow process but its worth it. None of it is your fault from what I read, you're absolutely fine. Your mom is a real bitch though, there's no denying that.
>>692809776
Shoulder*
>>692809579
>Wanted to marry her, I was naive and in love, but being naive and in love was the best feeling in the world.
I wanted to marry her and having children with her!
She wanted to just fuck the way out.
>>692808868
Read the whole thing, you'll be happy you deserve it. Nothing was your fault there are good people in this world and I hope someday one of them finds you and can help. You deserve to be happy we all do.
>>692809579
It'll be hard, but you'll move on. Obviously you also have to take initiative and try to forget. Relax bud, you've got your whole life ahead.
korrie
doubt it
>>692807362
>lauren
>probably, we just hooked up last week after being friends for years
helping me bust a slump but i'm afraid i'm shitting on my own doorstep
>>692809828
She loved me for so long, I always saw a future with her and for the longest time she did too. I just guess one day she kinda stopped. I Blamed myself for the longest time but in the end I realised, I never stopped loving her, she died and she became someone else. I was lucky to have that long 4 years of happiness and I'll get that again, this time with someone else, someone who makes me feel just as good if not better.
You will too man, we've just gotta belive that.
>>692808868
Pain is relative, I'm sorry you had to live that way I'm only 17 and shit isn't easy
>>692809476
You need better friends anon. I would be a better friend than that. What is bothering you the most?
>>692810344
It's getting better, I'm Heather, richer and I have more time to do whatever I want, I've just no motivation to make things better I meet girls, fuck and get with them for a bit but in the end I always end up saying we shouldn't see each other any more because I'm still too funked up.
I'm not holding out for her to come back and magically fix everything, I want to be able to live my life and me comfortable again, comfortable when I sleep, relaxed and naive. And yeah you're right I'm only 20and it was puppy love or whatever, but it just ruined me.
>>692810425
>You need better friends anon.
Well... anyway... they are just gone now! They won't answer anymore to my texts. I was probably too sad and boring for them. Why bother with that sad sack of crap?
I just don't know how to make (and keep) friends.
>>692807362
make this short and sweet
>parents devorce at 3
>constant fighting untill i move
>court every week or so
>abusive mother would hit me for just about any reason
>mad fun of in elementery school being called ugly and what not
>social outcast two friends one was my cousin
>never kissed a girl, everyone hated me because i was the new shy kid
>on top of that i was afraid to talk to women until i was about 17
>near the end of middleschool my friend jeff moved away
>only could hang out with my popular cousin who was a suck-up for atention
>he would make fun of me behind my back for attention
>start to gein weight because i refuse to leave the house
>stole my grandfathers gun and hold it to my head a few times crying a week
>highschool
>literally ingored by everyone even through my best attempts
>start working out loose almost all my bodyfat
>What's her name?
Too paranoid to say
>Is she thinking about you?
I'd like to think so but chances area nonexistant.
>>692810723
You really really loved her, didn't you?
>>692810387
You got a story anon?
>>692810848
>literally just muscle at this point, join rowing team
>pick up an intrest for computers
>mother slowly stops being super abusive at fear of getting arrested
>turn 18 move to nj
>meet a cute girl i had been talking to online
>we were basically just sexting and i found out she was doing the same with another guy
>forgave her
>start dating become happy for the first time in my life
>stop thinking about killing myself every minuite
>i wasnt her first but i was her second, her first was daterape
>she was my first kiss and first everything
>try to get into collage it fails because i have no money
>cant get a scholarship because i came in late
>graduate
>get a job
>start making 600 a week
>she lives in ny so its an hour drive
>see her like once every other month at least
>build her a gaming pc, play games with her
>move down the nj shore shes now 2.5 hours away
>>692809297
Dont you think i tried? I put it all on the table so to speak, and i failed...so now im just going to have to get over it and move on which is taking a while..
She's probably thinking about me, yeah. We have a healthy relationship, and the sex is good.
>>692811433
>buy her everything treat her like a queen write her music send her letters to make up for the distance
>she slowly stops talking to me distances herself things get wierd
>sex becomes less of omg annon i cant wait to kiss you and omg youre so fucking big
>to just basically moaning asn silence
>i start to get paraniod wondering what i did wrong
>one day in december of 2015 she basically starts yelling at me over the phone because i asked why she isnt being as sexual
>she started telling me of all the mistakes ive made over the last year teling me of how a shitty bf i was
>backstory to that is some girl flirted with me in hs when we werent even dating and got into an argument with her
>i wasnt interested in that girl anyway because she was fat so i thought it was obvious
>some Russian girl tried to rape me in hs because she was fucking bonkers
>i made a joke once about a girls ass
>this is literally the premise of the argument i ask her if shes been cheating on me and ask her to be honest with me
>she says no
>>692807362
thread theme: https://youtu.be/ZMRDC4UDsnU
>>692811023
I'd have given my life to protect her, my future plans were not my future plans they were ours.
I fucked up and she's gone, but I can't fix that, I didn't do anything wrong in the end. Worst part is she's moved on with someone else and I've had to remove her from my life as best I can so I'm not haunted with images of them.
I miss my family our family was one and I considered her family my own. I miss them all, but I can never see them again, I miss her smile, her scent, her voice, and I miss being able to feel safe and having a human who I trusted over anyone else in the world.
Sorry I'll stop, kinda just venting to this thread because I've lost the person who listened to me when I needed it
It's been six months and you've still got me cursed, well played Rebecca, I miss you.
>>692811964
>sex becomes less of omg annon i cant wait to kiss you and omg youre so fucking big
Because you're not big anon
>>692811023
>Show that pic to your gf one week before your birthday
>She just chuckles
>Doesn't give you a gift
>Just a shitty book (you read it and didn't like it)
>You remplace the rope by the book and show it to her
>She doesn't say anything
>She leaves you 2 weeks later
>>692807362
100% yes, bet you she faps to the thought of me as well. She's probably taking bath right now, so highly likely she's fapping in the tub to the thought of me.
Mmmmm
>>692812324
Don't be sorry, this thread is all about emotions. Let it out; what you really really wanna say to her
>>692807437
God
Anna
Maybe but soon I'll be forgotten. She'll move on to bigger and better things and I'll just be a past mistake. For whatever reason I said yes to long distance instead of taking the hit and moving on. Now I'm slowly dying inside pretending that I'm not ever night on Skype.
>>692811964
Pls continue
>>692807362
what's that say. Is that the mexican "king of the hill?"
>>692807977
> acting like A vegetable
nah man, you're more of a fruit.
>>692812666
I don't celebrate my birthday anymore. When I was a kid, my dad said I shouldn't celebrate another year of "being a fucking disappointment and no accomplishments" life sucks man
>be me
>top of my life
>just graduated hs
>girlfriend 10/10
>amazing family
>bday comin up
>sister dies
>car crash
>no bday
>gf hears about it
>decides now is a good time to tell me she cheated on me and is leaving me for him
>crushed beyond belief
>friends abandon me
Was a week ago. Turned 18 the day my big sister died. So /b/ how was your big 18?
>>692813004
WOW
>>692811964
>spend month arguing and her treating me like shit she finnaly tells me she has a kittenplay fetish and was afraid to tell me and says
>we dont have to do this if you dont want to
>i tell her that i will gladly and if i didnt she would do it with someone else
>never get the time to see her from October to February
>our anniversary
>few days before valentines day i go up and shes super skiddish not letting me touch her and such
>i finger her and she is two fingers loose really deep.
>my heart drops because we havet had sex in months
>she says she has a toy and shows me then apologies
>go home and cry for hours knowing shes lieing to me
>in-between all of this my friend from hs basically shits on me to her from dec to about now making her hate me more and more
>she sends him nudes and flirts with him
>denys the fact even though i went on her fb
>find out shes talking to some guy and playing games with him
>she calls him bubby on stream what she used to call me
>says he called him buddy
>knew it was a lie
>she breaks up with me over text refusing to tell me a real reason why or even look at me on skype or call me
>>692812656
i have an 7.5" dick bro.
>>692813119
Mhmmm
>>692812834
>mexican
it sure is buddy. good thing I learned french, I'm going to mexico next month and I'd be lost without it.
>>692812834
it's in french
it reads
>"so that's how it feels to shit in a can of bean"
>Michel had decided to try new thing to fill up his empty life
>"tomorrow I am gonna rub one out in the shed"
>>692811074
not much of a story, child abuse (hospital trips and blood were common), my really bad social anxiety and depression is derived from my dad, and after they found out i attempted suicide twice they called me a failed abortion. all my "friends left me senior year so throughout i sat alone. i dont feel anything anymore
>>692813052
just think to yourself, it can only get better from here on in, you'll meet better friends, take a shine to someone else, and you can always look back to that day and think 'I made i through that, and i'm stronger than this'
>>692810735
That's why I try to be friends with people that need support. I'm always listening to them and giving advice, but they never do the same with me.
Anyways, I'm fine with that.
>>692813165
Fuck. I'm sorry anon. Is there more?
How long ago has it happened?
>>692807362
Its a he, its Aaron. I think he is, I hope he is
>>692813824
Internet relationship?
>>692813905
No real life
>>692813165
>anyways our anniversary comes and im single by the end of it.
i sent her a teaddy bear and chocolates with an apology letter along with games and a necaklace that was an infinity symbol
>i was ready to prepose in november but i waited because i wanted to do it on our anniversay
>2 years
>one night i just cant stop crying thinking about that guys so i mesage him and tell him not to talk to her and flip a shit on him
>he dosnt respond and sends it to her
>shes pissed
>claims shes stopped talking to him
>she unblocks him thew senxt day
>days goes on me writing music missing work and crying
>demoted at my job
>200 a week
>never enough to go visit
>one day he messages me back
>we have a talk
>he makes fun of me for being envious
>she has been cheating on me since decmember
>she refused to tell me her fetish and made up an excuse because she was embarrassed
>found this asshole on fetlife and hit him up
>only waited a month
>november
>untill she had sex with him
>did everything with him
>i confront her because she had been lying to me for the past few months saying she misses me and such
>she breaks down and says
>hes telling the truth
>she beggs me not to kill myself
>i walk in the forest near my house and hold my grandfathers gun to my head
>i never checked if it was loaded
>i pull the trigger and it clicks
> i drop it and start crying on the dirt floor
>i haven't been able to recover for months
>i want to die
Nikky
probably not :( I miss her a lot though its been a year
>>692813792
last month.
>>692808868
Speak of the devil, more anxiety, i wish it would just get out of my head, better not get worse oh god I hope it doesnt get worse
Katelyn.
I think so, as she let me touch her ass while we were hugging at a party
>or she's just a whore idk
>>692814177
i have alot of anxiety im sorry if im being slow
>>692808868
I'm not going to say some bullshit like "it gets easier". Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't. But I will say that you didn't deserve a single second of that. No one does.
I don't really know what to say to you that will make things better and, to be honest, I don't think mere words can change a life.
But I want you to know that people aren't all heartless. Just as all the other anons have shown you, people do care about you, some will even fight for you.
Please don't give up on life.
There is no rest, no honor, no rage in death.
And even in the misery, it is joy to live.
>>692814177
I know that feel bro, just distract yourself or sleep before it becomes a panic attack
>>692814177
>i start working on cars anything to get my mind off of it
>i forgive her because i dont have the balls to kill myself
>she threatened to do it if i did
>literally spend the next few months untill now crying every night dreaming about suicide
>she told me about how he abused her constantly and pressured her into sex
>he was really nice at first
>i still have feelings for him
>that died shortly after he exposed her online to his friends
and to the annon that said he was bigger
>5.5 inch dick
>6' same as me
>super skinny no muscle
>abusive
>no car
>shit tier job living off of parents
>die hard liberal
contineuing
>i had sex with her twice since we broke up. it was empty
>she want too lose but it want like before
>now i just dont know what to do and i have no ambition.
>i wanted to be her husband and do everything right by her
>now all i want is to die
this is not for attention.
i didnt intend to type this much but i just lost it i had to say it.
>2 years Gf
>love of my LIFE
>we never had really argued before, likr a month ago we started doing it
>she has lots of internet friends (all male..) I confessed her my feelings and jralousness towards that but I finally said it was Ok.
>She met another friend over an online game.
>told her that by his attitudes he just wanted to hit on her.
>because of this, while we are skyping she calls this friend with her phone and starts talking to him, ignoring me.
>this guy finally confessed to her and turned out to be what I predicted.
>she starts making lots of more new friends over this game.
>We start arguing more often. I feel her distsnt even in sex, she gets mad about silly stuff and ends it blaming it on me.
>try to talk well and discuss things out with her but whenever she gets mad she ends up turning off her phone or leaving and most of the times going to talk and play with her friends. Even if I send her lots of messages.
>I decide to start playing this game with her not even paying attention to other guys because of jealousness.
>the guy that tried to hit on her was online and he was trying yo be her friend again.
>these new friends of my gf ask for my skype. I say I dont wanna talk to them.
>gf gets mad saying im an antisocial and anthipatic.
>totally ignored. Long letters wrote to her but she didn't even read them.
>she only sent a few messages today and this is the time were she most ignored and distanced from me.
I've made lots of threads on /adv/ about this and other attitudes of her
And everyone tell me that she doesn't love me.and gives 0 fucks about me. She is the love of my life the only one that keeps me standing. I dont want to loose her. I am very afraid now.
>>692808868
I read your post anon. I would stand by you if i was there. I'm sure someone will. Stay strong
>>692814828
I completely understand bro, that's why I posted my own story. I suggest you cut her out of your life the distance will make it easier, all she is at this point is toxic to you
>>692815040
>>692814828
this is me similar thing happened she may be cheating with you my kik is
thatstudsean
if you want i can flirt with her and send her pics to see if she flirts back. tbh you need to tell her flat out that she needs to be honest and open with you or youre leaving. dont let her control you or she will use you.
if anyone needs to talk hmu, im just writing out engine specs.
>>692815310
i already know that but i really cant because im so grown to her. i dont have desire for anyone else and i am way too emotionally fucked to let go because i know ill probably end up dead. either that or she will. she started cutting alot...
>>692815496
Not gonna cushion this, fuck that bitch, she's doing this to manipulate you into staying, there are other sweet girls out there, im not saying move on right away but shit, do not stick around for that shit show, delete and block her number
>>692815691
its not like i trust her but i know she is sorry... im probably going to leave when im ready. thanks for caring.
>>692815831
Of course anon, take care
sleep deprivation is getting worse, can't get more than like 5 hours at a time.
every time the wife gets in bed I wake completely the fuck up and can't get back to sleep. can't tolerate the presence of another human right now, even though I generally don't have a problem being around her even when other people are intolerable.
also paradoxically I am fucking hungry all the time but every time I put food in my mouth, the taste and texture makes me gag. tried to eat some leftover taco stuff from yesterday. it was pretty tasty then. doesn't taste any different at all now, but for some reason I find it just fucking horrible all of a sudden. everything I look at is just so fucking gross but I'm so hungry I'm ready to put bbq sauce on the fucking cat.
>>692816394
You make me want to kill myself
>>692816677
sorry man
>>692808868
I'm very sorry anon. I know what it feels like to think you're worse than everyone else. I've been dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts for years and you never really get over it.
The only thing that kept me going is that with life, you have opportunity and all possibilities open to you, death is final. I'm 18 too and now going to university, if you wanna talk, I'm there for you
>>692808868
What makes you happy?
>>692809288
>>692809271
>>692809609
>>692809807
>>692810123
>>692810387
>>692815138
Thanks guys, no really I appreciate it, first time ive really told my life story in full to anyone I do have a great boyfriend I'm getting better little by little I just slip sometimes and it's scary, he understands I'm a little broken, I really feel like this is life paying me back for all the shit it threw my way, thank you so much for the support, I feel a little better
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP
Just not thinking about her, just not stalking her on the Internet
>>692816727
Thank you bro
>>692816786
My boyfriend does, i'm living for him, i'm extremely thankful for him, if he's by my side i think i can finally move on
>>692807362
I just spent 30 minutes reading through the Elisa Enclair story and another 30 minutes on the floor crying and thinking about our meaningless fragile existence. Man, I've been on this site for a good while and it's been a long time since a story has hit me as hard as that one did
>>692817358
He's like my little ray of hope, he's also the only one that can calm me down when i'm having a panic attack
I fell for someone and she didn't love me back.
It's been a while but it still hurts like a bitch.
What do?
Lea.
I really don't know. When she's drunk, she loves me, sober she pushes me away at every chance. I really don't know if i should go for it or let her go so i don't get hurt
>>692817555
He will leave you
>>692807362
Celeb crushes suck.
>Be me
>Be 14
>On Omegle because typical bored 14 y/o
>As a joke type memes as an interest
>Find someone, it's a grill
>Add on Skype, but don't talk much for the first couple of days
>Start talking a fair bit, learn about her, learn she has a couple of issues with her ex
>Talking becomes more frequent, everyday
>Gets to the point where we're talking for around 8 hours a day
>School break over, back at school
>Talk for less time because school and timezones
>One day she's breaking down over her ex, telling me about how he fucked her and left
>Tell her it's fine and that I'll be here for her no matter what
>A couple of weeks go by and we're still talking
>One night tell her I love her she says she loves me too
>I tell her I'm serious, she tells me she's not serious, but she might love me
>Still talking, can feel us getting closer
>>692817358
Ya my gf does that for me. Happy for you
>>692817785
>>692817748
if you manage to put on a relationship it won't be healthy, try to move on
>>692817785
Let her go. I've been in a relationship where the only time we loved eachother was when I was drunk and she was high. The love was good but not worth those sober moments.
>>692817555
That's okay for now, but i think you should try to find something that makes you proud of yourself. A hobby that you're good at, something you care for (pet,plant, whatever), just something to keep you going
>>692810376
Dude same thing happened to me, I'm still in misery. How to find the light brother? Please help me I've been dying inside for over a year now.
>>692817884
>Be me
>Be 14
>Still talking, can feel us getting closer
>>692817884
Dude, made more or less the same experience.
abandom ship. Seriously. She is hung up on the ex and if she does not know she surely does not love you. Don't waste your time. It will destroy you.
>>692817884
Just what I need to see; a potential success story. Just reminds me of how shit I am.
You guys are great, I love every single one of you
>>692818140
I don't know, I still think about her every goddamn day, wondering what she's doing right now.
Henna.
Maybe, but i was just one of the many.
To me, she wasnt.
>>692817498
Link to story?
>>692817884
>Couple more weeks go by, she's telling me how she keeps getting in fights with her ex at school
>Doesn't have any friends at school either
>Eventually she gets kicked out of school, has no friends but me and has to stay home
>Because she's home that much, learn a fair amount about her mum, get to know her quite well
>It's Valentines day
>Dad takes her out because she has no one
>Messaging her the entire time
>Write a message to her telling her about how much I love her, she tells me she finally loves me too
>Ultimate happiness
>Ask her out, she says yes
>Later that day
>Tells me she thinks it'll be better if we're just friends
>Sink
>I say I'm sorry that I didn't treat her properly and that I wouldn't give up
Avery maybe
>>692818461
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1r0OOMgs5xgNhoL9dodXS3iuXFKG1txVoYPMKcY0GGk0/edit
That's the text of the threads, it's well worth the read
>>692818492
Yeah, you've got to be careful with girls who are a little broken, they tend to be fickle
>>692810356
How old are you guys?
>>692818492
Sorry anon, but you'll have to give her up. It won't be healthy for you to be with her, i cna almost guarantee you that she'll destroy you mentally. No one ever wants to hear it, but sometimes it IS better to be alone than in a bad relationship
>>692818492
>Didn't give up
>Carried on talking only getting closer
>We'd do fun stuff online, like watch movies over Netflix or play games
>Feb 23rd - Ask her out
>She says yes
>Things are going good, we carry on talking on a daily basis
>She starts talking to one of my friends
>Making me jealous, telling me how good he looks
>Tells me she was going to send him nudes
>I tell her to stop and 'she listens'
>Ask friend if she did, he says she did
>Check his Facebook account because I don't believe them
>See really sexual conversations
>Tell him to stop talking to her, he does
>She wonders why he doesn't wanna talk to her anymore
>don't say a word
>We carry on talking all the time, but I feel her getting distant
>We don't do stuff anymore, don't play games, don't watch movies, but still close
>Begin planning trip to see her this summer, my minds set on it
Sometimes this makes me smile, because it shows there are things we don't know about ourselfs yet
>>692808868
I read your whole post. Don't give up girl. Stay strong, fight for your life. Never stop fighting. You can die any day, but you can never come back. Don't even think of killing yourself to teach someone a lesson. If they don't appreciate you in life they wont care if you die. I wish you luck annon. I hope things get better for you.
/b/ is filled with magical thinking. (Roll to see who you will marry etc)
This is a trait commonly found with children and psychotics.
Everything is out of your control, don't bother with the rewards of the goddess of Fortune.
>>692808868
You shouldn't let people get to ya man. I know it's hard not to listen, but thus is what happens when you dwell on the pass. If you notice what's wrong with ya, do something about it. Your so young honestly. Live life dude, fuck those people and fuck your parents. Your the only person who can choose to be happy. If there's no path then carve one yourself. Good luck Anon, life is only begging for you
>>692819263
You only get what you take. Life is not like roulette and if it was too many stupid people would be getting too many chances
>>692819370
sometimes you dont get what you grab for.
>>692819151
Please stop anon, it's a huge mistake, she's going to hurt you
>>692819494
>Reaching for something equates taking it
Sometimes other people fuck with you and all you can do is keep moving. At some point you will find yourself in a different place.
You can only hope you run into the right people who actually care and aren't entitled bigots. They are rare these days
>>692819151
>On the topic of trip
>Her mum is fine with it, says she'll pay for half
>Convince my mum to pay the other half, things are going good
>Birthday passes
That felt like the turning point, where we really got distant
>She sends me a cute Internet card
>Couple weeks go by
>We argue, quite a lot
>She tells me on multiple occasions how much she hates me, and threatens to leave me
>I don't know what to do, the first girl to really make me feel loved, I'm attached
>Find myself crying all of the time when we argue, because it usually ends in her just ignoring me all night
>All of this added to my sleep loss from staying up till about 3am everyday was killing me
>Things finally get back on track, trip is seeming likely
>Tells me she started talking to one of her exes
(Not the ex from school)
>Feel jealousy, but she reassures me, tells me she can have guy friends
>Let it slide
>Things seem good for a couple of weeks, she messages her guy friend, but between us things seemed ok
>"Anon can we Skype with GuyFriend"
Girl that friendzoned me and whom I've deleted+kept interaction to a minimum with since recently came up to me and wished me a happy birthday
I had told her the date just once, months ago, casually and without a lot of emphasis
idk wtf to make of it
Maybe she just has a good memory, but still, on the very day of my birthday and all?
Maybe she thinks more about me than she'd want to admit
But like OP said
>(Probably not)
>>692819699
You and me actually agree (I think).. :)
>>692808868
Keep on moving even if your legs dont work.
>>692819494
And you NEVER get what you don't grab for
>>692819151
Okay, i've seen her type before, she'll pretend to be sad to guilt you into staying GET RID OF HER
I've always been quite a reserved kid, never had too many friends.
As years went by and schools changed, the small amount of friends I had got lost along the way and our equivalent of high school, I suppose, I had no friends. I was 15 at the time. The previous summer I started talking to this girl I met through an summer activity of sorts and we talked online a lot. After a while I started to develop quite the crush on her, though I had yet to say anything because I was a huge bitch at the time. (arguably still am, I have social anxiety.) We talked quite a while and at some point I learned from a third party that she had that same summer started dating this guy, I didn't really know him. But I was alone, my last friend had just quietly vanished because of his new relationship so I decided I would continue my friendship with this girl, because I had no one else.
>Forward to 2016, I'm 20, she's 20, she's still in a relationship with the same guy and I'm still madly in love with her even though I've so desperately tried to bury the feelings and put distance between us. It's just that when we were talking, I was so alone. I had no one and she was with me all that time. She was my light in the dark, to put it edgy. Through the rough times in her life I was there and through the rough times in my life she was there. It just hurts, loving someone so much and not getting to feel it back
>>692819961
true..
good things happen, bad things happen
>>692819899
When I started meeting the right people who actually cared things started improving immediately. And I learned a lot of things from the hardship I experienced.
Best thing is to just keep moving. Life doesn't stop just because you want to. Unless you take your own life that is
>>692820220
I like your attitude :) I believe you are right
>>692820358
Best thing to do even if you want to whine and do pretty much nothing is to meet people. It gives perspective to things which is why I love this place.
And there are actually less bigots here compared to the assholes you meet in real life.
"Bullshit is everywhere and bullshit is rampant" is probably the best realisation I have come to
>>692820629
>And there are actually less bigots here compared to the assholes you meet in real life.
Biggest bullshit I've read on here in a while.
>>692819844
>Agree to Skype with guy friend
>He seems ok
>See her constant efforts at flirting with him
>He flirts back
>Feeling crushed as they do it right in front of me
>3am, she tells me to go to bed
>Have both my phone and my laptop connected to call, leave on my phone
>for the next 4 hours until I'm suppose to get up for school, I listen
>They flirting with each other, and she's basically shit talking me to him
>No sleep, luckily it's Friday, so school should be easy
>End up buying energy drink before school
>Feeling sad, but still have hope
>Messages me at before first period
>I think we should break up
>I wanna date GuyFriend
(She'd been discussing things like open relationships prior to this)
>Try to argue my side
>"Anon if you really love me, you'll let me go and if it's meant to be, I'll come back"
>Completely crushed by what she said I agreed
>Feeling empty, but couldn't cry at school, pretend to be happy
>Throughout the process of that day I felt my sanity slipping
>She messages me during my lunch break
>>692820825
Idk, feel threads are always full of decent people. Other threads are full of cancer, but we all feel together
>>692820825
Most people on here posting bullshit are just trying to get a reaction. They are looking for fun most of the time and are easier to ignore than some dude standing in front of you beating the shit out of you.
On here you can ignore it, you can't do that in real life. Which at least makes it seem that way.
>>692808323
Well if it isn't ol mole ear?!
How have you been doing shit stain?
>>692821045
If you mean feels threads exclusively by "on here", then sure, I guess. Certainly not on /b/ as a whole though
>>692821050
>Most people on here posting bullshit are just trying to get a reaction
Most of the time it's actually fairly easy to tell those apart from the people who mean what they say. Not sure whether the former outweigh the latter, but there are far more than irl
>>692821050
I have to say it again.. I like your attitude.
>>692821045
It's pain that drives us here, if we valued ourselves, why would we waste our time on such decrepit site. We just deal it in different ways. Some laugh at rekt threads, some come to feels to spill their feelings, some are assholes to make themselves feel a bit better.
We're all in pain.
>>692821050
And just to add to it.
This place made me realise how lucky I am and how entitled I felt earlier on. It gave me perspective to see things in a more realistic light and made me actually feel happy and lucky. Something nobody can take away from me
>>692821417
4chan is the troll place of the internet, so it's easy to see the idiots from the others.
>>692820896
>Reply to her, ask her if she made her decision
>She says she wants both of us and doesn't know who to choose
>I say I fully respect her choice and I'll love her no matter what
>She chooses him
>Get home later that day feeling absolutely crushed
>Still acting it off like nothing even happened
>She messages me a little, tells me how much of a dick he is and how much she hates him
>Told her she made the wrong choice
>Start talking to him, see what he's really about
>Says he wanted to get her back for her cheating on him, but he's trying to forgive
>Tell him that she's never gonna change
All this happening while I'm on Skype with her, because he is refusing to talk to her
>He dumps her
>She feels absolutely crushed, the way I did
>Held back my laughter, it felt good to know she was suffering
>Tell her it's all gonna be fine
>She's feeling sad and won't talk much
>Couple of days later we're all in a Skype call together
>She leaves the call every time she can't get her own way with someone
>We both shit talk her while she's gone, he tells me about how he doesn't care about her anymore, about how he wants to fuck with her head
>I agree to do it with him, I want her to suffer too
>>692821133
G8 B8 M8 8/8
Side note if you really know me, what's my name?
>>692808196
funny my name appears here.
>>692821502
I'm a competitive asshole and probably also a person who got problems taking time off to "just relax". I need to do something otherwise I am wasting time, whether it is chatting, watching shit or whatever. I can't just do nothing.
Haylie.
Probably not.
>>692821615
>A couple more days go by
>Start feeling pity for her
>Tell her about his whole plan
>Get him in huge shit with her
>She blocks him, but is mad at me for letting it go on for so long
>Says I'm supposed to be her friend, and that I'm a terrible person
>Don't care about what she says, just feel better for telling her the truth
>We're not close anymore, but we talk on Skype daily
>She tells me she'll get back with me if I start treating her right
>I agree to it
>About a week later she tells me about this boy at school
>Starts making me jealous, telling me about how much she likes him
>They start going out
>Don't really care all that much anymore, but GuyFriend
>GuyFriend calls her a whore
>She messages me telling me I'm a cunt and that she despises me
>I don't reply
>She blocks me
Last one after this
Sometimes you feel like shit and doing nothing doesn't stop it
>>692822244
Dump her information here m8
>>692808562
Jesus Christ dieting is not this hard. High fat low carb no need to starve.
>>692822574
I know, but once i started i couldnt stop, then i started to see a fat blob no matter how underweight I was
>>692807977
Join military. Travel, adventure, benefits. Its a change
>>692822244
>About a month later she messages me
>We talk a little, but there's clear hatred between us
>More time passes
>She messaged me a few days ago
>Said it's been months and that I shouldn't be hurt about it anymore
>I tell her I'm not hurt, that I despise her and I don't want her back in my life
>Tell her to fuck off and not to message me again.
>Start talking to new girl, 2 weeks ago
>New girl is shy and a little awkward, but cute
>getting closer with new girl, hope things go better than last time
The new girl is Beth, and I sure hope she's thinking about me
>>692822386
Ayyy fam, give me a minute to get my phone
>>692818374
fuck bro that doesn't help, I'm doing the same.
>>692823136
Fuck that. Its a trap get out of there get a girlfriend that you can see in real life. Trust me its harsh but a true advice from a fellow beta. Do it anon for your own good
>>692823412
Thanks anon, the new girl is real life, but thanks for the advice anon
>>692823602
Nice anon. I wish you the best with the new girl Beth.
>>692823602
Good luck with Beth :D Hopefully love is on your side this time
>>692823781
Thanks Anon, I wish you the best of luck with any relationship current relationship, or relationship you are in in the future
>>692823395
Sorry...
But...
What is she doing right now? I really wonder... I probably don't want to know tho
>>692823902
Thanks Anon, I also hope the best for any relationships you're in
>>692807362
Who's name?
Does anyone wanna hear my current situation with a girl
>>692824311
Go crazy
>>692824311
I'm here for you anon, tell away.
Aine.
Yeah she's thinking of me.
>>692824311
It's why we are here in the first place =)
>>692824311
We're listening anon
>be ...
>Met this girl
>cool stoner chick
>after a day of smoking weed alls good
>meet the next day after we kinda say we're both hot
>meet the next day (flirting hardcore)
>ffw later on we kiss
>chuffed.jpg
>Later on i say goodbye and snog
>YESSS
>She flirts alot
>She then goes on to ignore me for a week :(
>>692824731
sheesh, that's gotta hurt
>being me im hooked
>find out she does this with alot of guys
>not the only guy shes doing this with
>im upset
>we still meet and flirt and im so into her
>shes a 9/10
>she's only made that kind of kiss contact once since then (when we were stoned :()
i dont know what to do just something about her just hooks onto me and i dont know how to make it come to a stop
>>692824731
she's kissing other stoners guys
Alexis.... I could never admit to her that talking to her everyday made me sad because of how often she told me she doesn't feel the way I do about her
>>692824964
No, Just alot and because being me i thought i was special just to get let down knowing she does this to alot of guys
>>692817786
Edgy
For once I am glad I just focus on what I want to do instead of petty bullshit like this.
Thank god I am glad I have the privilege of being autistic as fuck sometimes
Here's my shit... Not sure what to do still because this happened two weeks ago.
I'm 19 and recently graduated. As a gift my mom offers to buy plane tickets for me to visit her for a week. I accept and even allowed to bring someone with. I ask this girl whom I've been talking to for a while.
First few days everything is great since I've always been a beta faggot we only hold hands for the first few days just cutesy shit like that.
>>692813515
That's a dangerous belief anon, it can always get worse until you die
>>692808868
You are a fucking garbage. People die in war out there and you just sit on your ass and complain about you fucking fat ass. Kill yourself pls.
fucking read it
>>692825276
You saved it as a thumbnail...
>>692825121
(btw im not going to greentext because im a lazy cunt)
After a few days I ask whats going on between us because we both have had bad past relationships.
She said she is still with someone. handholding stops and I pretty much go into a numb state of nothingness for the rest of the trip.
>>692825276
kek
>>692825210
careful not to cut yourself on that edge, anon. We're here to feel and relate, not to be fucking dicks
>>692825210
>a fucking garbage
>>692824060
So this is what it feels like when doves cry...
>>692825343
I dropped her off at her house when we get back. I told her we should hang out again soon but I know its bullshit.
I haven't heard from her since then... I was used for a free trip. I Thought she was different. I thought someone could be there for me. I've thought about killing myself a lot since then. My dad has been on my case about getting a job but I barely have the motivation to get out of bed everyday... I just want to disappear
>>692808678
Indian gookie gookie fgt
>>692808868
19 here, i get axniety attacks, panic attacks, huge depression and no motivation to get work, i think ill kill myself at some point soon
>>692826217
If you do make a thread here. We like to be the last companions of a hero commiting an hero
>>692826217
Why would you do that anon dont!
youtube.com/watch?v=UclCCFNG9q4&index=84&list=PLNm5f8oL8F_afgx0BTRDq_tETdTaCZpfe
>>692825846
Please do try to get a job. It's a good motivation to get out of bed and taking your mind off of her. Plus money of course.
Camilla
Only knew her for a few months.
She said she loved me.
She said she met someone else.
I got furious and screamed at her.
She broke contact with me.
>>692815040
she just likes male attention bro
keep fucking her if you want, but the relationship's doomed and she will cheat on you if she hasn't yet
if i was you, i'd start looking for a new girlfriend
>>692826217
And don't do it like our toaster hero
>>692826480
This
>>692813262
try to get amphetamin ...you wont feel hungry anymore
>>692826877
You just made it blur
>>692826877
so sad
>>692825060
And now she's reading this.... great
>>692826877
God dammit anon
>>692826964
yea im facking with ya, count
>>692827255
kek, looks like an oil painting
>>692825060
Try to find something else anon. A hobby perhaps, something to be proud of that is only YOUR achievement. It does wonders for your self confidence and you won't have to rely on other people's attention as much. Best of luck!
>>692827422
I mean I play guitar but I can't keep my mind from drifting to her every second of the day
hey, im not sure if i should kil lmyself /b/ help me out with this poll
strawpoII me/7957314
>>692808230
fuckin brian, man
>>692827778
one off
>>692827778
You fucked up quads so yes
Meghan.
I'm sorry I was never considerate of your feelings. I actually love you, more than you know. I just didn't imagine in a million years that you might love me too. And it turns out I realized this too late.
I hope you're happy with your current boyfriend.
>>692827899
oy, ye gotta answer tha poll cunt
>>692827522
Record something. I play guitar as well and I'd ike to hear you play. It's not about creating something impressive, it's about doing something you're satisfied with
>>692828040
I don't do polls m8
>>692807362
I don't know why I saved so many of these, its not even funny
>>692807999
Women named Laura have no souls
>>692828062
Ive only been playing for 2 years but I'll post on YouTube and link it
>>692807362
Doubt it, who the fuck thinks about me anyway
i texted my ex after 2 years
wanted to catch up
she didnt respond at all with nothing, didnt even read the text
the girl i dated for half a month is onno contact
because she cant handle being back with her ex and telling me how much she missed me
fuck
this
world
>>692828224
I've been playing for three years and i still think i suck ass. Post the link when you're done, I'll be glad to hear it
>>692828470
Girls don't know what they want. Get used to it
>Expecting ex to respond after 2 years
kek
>>692828632
I still miss my ex after 2 years
>>692828632
i expected to get atleast some sort of text like
>sorry anon we shouldn't get back in contact
or something along the lines
guess that was too much to ask
>>692828711
>>692828746
That part is understandable. That part I get. But you can't expect her to give a shit about you after 2 years of very little to zero contact. People don't have time to recognise their past
>Be in group of best friends, knew them for a few years, we hang out a LOT
>Somebody I knew a few years back who was a cunt to me but friends to everybody else joins group
>I feel the group slowly disconnecting with me
>A few weeks later somebody tells me that the guy I hate has been telling the group lies and shit
>A day later somebody tells me the group say shit behind my back
>The next month I get picked on with my old best friends with texts and phone calls
>Have nobody to turn to, i'm lonely
>Old friends wait for me outside my workplace and one of them walks up to me and knocks me out with a punch to the temple.
>I wake up outside in the dark without my wallet and a smashed phone.
>I decide to distance myself from them as much as possible and avoid all contact.
>I told my boss I was going through a really rough moment and he let me get a couple days off.
>When I'm back to work I look out my window to see the group standing down the street just waiting until I've stopped working so they can pick on me.
>I decide to quit my job and now I have no job or friends and I'm worried for my own safety
>>692828858
sure i know she could be someone completely different by now
but lets be honest
wouldn't you let someone who texts you after years of not speaking to them know that you either want to get back in touch or not?
i mean sure, not reading /replying is some sort of answer
but c'mon
have the decency to act like a grown up
she's 23 and not that naive 19 year old i used to date
>>692828531
https://youtu.be/YcFtAe3bBVU I kinda fucked up but Im too lazy to fixit
>>692808868
Get into raves. Nobody can give you more love than the neo hippies.
>>692829014
By the way they know where I live so I'm not telling police
>>692829045
>Expecting her to not be naive
Don't expect shit from people, it will help you in the long run.
And people got shit to do and want to move on. It might be a waste of her time or whatever from her perspective so it's a waste of her to get emotionally invested.
In short, she's moved on with her life. At least she isn't fucking you over or some bullshit like that.
>>692810387
Mods mods mods
>>692829273
>Don't expect shit from people, it will help you in the long run.
guess you're right
yeah, well, thought it'd be a good idea
in the end it wasn't
oh well
>>692829478
At least it confirms she is moved on and you can always move on based on that premise. So you can use the information in a useful way.
>>692829592
held on to the thought that being someones first meant something
also wrong about that
ah well
>>692829056
Do i wanna know is very fun to play! It's not about sounding good, it's about having fun. But what do i know, I've just been drinking and giving advice that i can't follow, so I'm just gonna keep drinkin, playing guitar and thinking about missed opportunities
>>692829669
Just learn from it. Best thing to do
>>692829117
Oh hell yeah
>>692829891
will do
Well bedtime bro's, look at me i got through another day
>>692814177
Man ghe thing with your grandfather's gun...
Deep, you held it at a low point of your life and when it started declining again you went back to your roots, this time you pulled the trigger
>tfw that's good story writing material
>>692807362
Lisa
i don't even know if she's alive anymore, haven't talked to her since she said that it's probably better if we didn't meet again. that was 12 years ago
>>692808323
I feel better knowing my pain was justified, makes me feel like less of a faggot, I think I can finally leave my childhood behind me
>>692812834
Its funny how you see Spanish and all the sudden you think its Mexican, shows how ignorant little dicked white people are... Latin is a language of many different people you stupid fucking red neck go fuck your sister u inbred.
>>692830223
yay
>>692831014
>Little dicked white people
>>692831014
That's not even spanish, that's french
>>692832232
Je veux mourir, s'il vous plait
>>692811652
>>692832685
J'appris le français à l'école, mais jamais bon. Je suis Allemand. Nous voulons tous mourir.
>>692824731
similar to my gf atm, she's my gf for 3-4 months now, go on small holiday
Distant as fuck suddenly for a week
boring holiday.
still distant as fuck right now, we decided to take some time apart.
Probably the beginning of the end.
I hate it, I like her but fuck me i am more worth then this shit.
>>692833281
Ich will Toden
Ich bin theo und das ist karl otto
