Feels thread
Drink your sorrows away with some fellow anons
Fuck yeah woman i like flirts with my best friend besides me anymore when i introduced her to my group.
Fuck women
>>691885536
cheers anon, the store here opens in 1h45m then ill get some hanky banister because im a brokefag and drink the weekend away
why are you drinking
>>691885734
I'm sorry bro, what a bitch. If it makes you feel any better my fiance just left me for her ex after lying to me saying there was nothing going on for the last 3 weeks (they were still friends)
>>691885536
right now my girlfriend is having an existential crisis and lashing out at everyone/thing
>>691885810
Because I'm broke, I keep a lie to my family because I'm afraid of disappointing them but they are so proud of me I cant bare to let them down, no one knows I tried to kill myself last year only me, my pride keeps me from seeking help from my family.
>>691886090
>>691886524
Women must love treating the good guys like shit..I start to think they get off to it
>>691886874
no, she still loves me as much as i love her, she's just going through a rough patch in her life right now
>>691886693
IMO you have 3options
>tell them that you are fucked
>do a cut and get your shit up and running
>leave everything and start new
and for you my favorite bird normally im a /k/ommando
>>691886693
On top of that I'm months behind on bills, lost my phone service, had to call my father on father's day with spare change I found laying around my room and still lied to both my folks tell them everything is okay. Since I'm no longer in the military I haven't been getting my meds and I suffer from Manic Depression, lately everyday is a battle of wills to try to find a reason not to end it all, my family is all that stops me, I can't imagine what it would be like for my parents to have to bury me at only 22 but here recently.. that willpower is fading more and more each day.
>>691886524
Just try to be there for her man, do everything you can to deal with it and try to get both of you into counseling if it keeps happening. Dealing with crazy is hard. Feeling like you failed to help is so much harder.
>>691885536
Don't worry fellow anons. According to my VERY thorough study of the stars and various religious texts from ancient civilizations, the Great Zebhambrute will be returning once more to bring the worthy to our true homeworld of Zebcratznuktah here within the next week.
However, Zebcratznuktah is in a separate dimension (if you understand the numerous dimensions proposed by String Theory, then it'll save a lot of explaining), and the only way for Zebhambrute to ferry your soul is to do the following:
>Anoint yourself in oil
>Oil must blessed by saying the words "Zebcratz merka sugatzo crest mai dalam" three times while anointing yourself
>Step into a circle of nine lit candles (nine candles for each one of the the holy Zebchosu)
>Light yourself with a tenth lit candle
That's all there is to it. May you find eternal happiness in the glory of the Zebchosu.
>>691887239
Sorry to hear that chief, Hope things work out for you
OP here again, Vodka is all to surpress the urge not to breakdown tonight, I honestly have no clue what to do with my life at this point I'm drowning in my hopelessness. Cheers to all of you and future posters in this thread, I feel for you my fellow anons.
>be me
>madly in love with 8/10 qt
>become friends with her
>convince myself over the course of a year and a half that she like me too
>tell her how I feel
>"ok" and walks away
>friendship crumbles
>mfw
Tell me I'm going to make it, lads.
>>691885536
Reason: Can't sleep and high anxiety/panic attacks/ depression all my life.
Why I'm drinking now: Haven't slept for 2 days and strangely want to stay up now just for the euphoria of being intoxicated.
>>691888467
Corona extra for me....its all i could afford at the moment. taste awful but at least its gonna help me smile and feel good later
fuck this. a guy i knew for 5 years has been giving me so many mixed signals that i don't know if i even want to move on or not. we flirt, we touch each other, we talk about personal shit, but he goes on to flirt with some other fat bitch and never replies to my messages. i don't even know if he likes me or not anymore. i want to ask him out and see but i'm just a dirty coward.
>>691888562
>>691888672
OP, I'll join you mates. Because fuck it right? Another down for you two as well. Cheers.
>>691885536
>be me
>working ass off in college, dont want to disappoint family
>be dating girl for bout a year but she's perfect for me
>i constantly take naps due to stress
>girl thinks i just sleep to ignore her
>one day girl comes home from drinking
>starts demanding shit and forcing me to do shit like a servant
>me being massive cuck, obey her for fear of losing her
>after everything's done, we have sex and i take a nap
>I wake up from nap and shes still drunk and fucking pissed
>ANON WHAT THE FUCK
>starts beating me
>still too afraid of losing her to hit back, plus morals and shit
>grabs pair of scissors from nightstand
>lets just say i couldnt use my left arm after that for a month
>anon im so sorry, i was drunk
>really dont wanna lose this chick, blame it on alcohol
>3 months later; she finds out i've dated guys in the past
>super religous
>ANON YOU GO AGAINST FUCKING GOD
>starts beating me again, whips me across face with belt
>throws such a strong hook against my head it gives me slight brain damage
>lost sense of smell from that
>she never talked to me again
tl;dr anon was a cuck and didnt stand up against abusive GF
I don't drink, the only relief from the pain of life is permanent.
>>691885810
Wtf is hanky banister?!?!
>>691888547
shit man, that's fucking horrid. what a bitch.
you're gonna make it mr. anon. move on to a 10/10 qt who will love you better than she ever could've.
>>691888903
I appreciate it, bro! Someone who understands that most who drink don't do it just for the "jollies".
>be me
>my parents treat the bf of my sister like crap
>heisagoodboy.mpu
>want to talk with parents about it
>go on a birthday of a friend get wasted like no one ever got before
>snort coke to not fall in a coma
>get home at 3am and get in a huge fight with my dad
>everything is blur but i guess we had a serious hand to hand fight
>mother is crying
>sister is crying
>shitsgoingdown.exe
>next day i am informed by my dad that my grandma had n heart attack and is in the hospital
>i just shrugg and fuck off
Guys i think i fucked up
Life always gets better if you need someone to talk to (I know i did) there is always someone who is willing to listen there is always the suicide hotline.
>>691888910
just be glad you got out of that situation. you're not a cuck. you were just in love.
>>691889093
Thanks, anon. That's what I keep telling myself.
>Don't hate myself enough to die
>Don't love myself enough to care
>>691888910
fuck that twat at least you dont need to smell that cunt again :^)
>>691888078
So if we light ourselves on fire we go to magic fairy land?
>>691889691
I see what you did there you sly son of a gun
>>691888849
OP, here in past experience if he's had this long you or him would have made a move by now, if he's leading you along and it's fucking with your head, move on its not worth it, his loss. But whatever you feel just know this drunk anon supports your decision and hopes well. Cheers
>>691888910
I'm very sorry to hear that, but I'm happy to know she isn't around to make you suffer, you deserved better, you weren't a cuck in any sense my friend you just had a heart that meant well.
1/4
2/4
>>691888849
Just get drunk and do it
3/4
>>691889428
>>691889857
Thanks anons, I still think I couldve stood up against her or anything, but I try to make myself forget... The scars and the constant quality of air make it hard to
I hope you all get aids
4/4
nearing thirty and my life is stagnant. I dropped out of uni, I have a job that I hate, I'm way behind on rent, and I've never had a gf.
> ex is taking my daughter off me
> shes literally my life
> if I lose her im killing myself
> ex dosnt even care
Fuck this world man
>>691890358
Serious question, whats the best way. I heard it was slitting wrists but after reading into it, it seemed far too painful.
What I'm chugging on. I know it's not the best, but buys spirits for the flavor? Mix it something you like and you can't even taste it and enjoy.
>captcha is coffee, I hate that stuff.
I need a new perspective. I'm sick of feeling numb
>Be me, Indian
>Join a chat room app coz I'm alone and have no friends
>Tell people I'm from murica and Catfish as an average looking murican
>start talking to this qt, we become good friends, slide into kik dm, been gr8 friends over an year
>We play all day long on steam and chat all day
>I realize I have fallen for her
>Can't express it coz I'm a Catfish to her
>delete the id, walk away, she's been looking for me and asking other fellow chat room comrades about me for almost a month
Idk what to do, help me anons
>>691889687
Cheers to this Anon cause I feel the same way
>>691890331
I feel that suffering.
>>691890358
This is a bitch of a world we live in friend, your ex doesn't deserve her, and I can't imagine what your going through, I drink to you anon.
Known this girl a while, stayed away because she was dating a friend but they broke up a while ago. We both started catching feelings, we started dating and a week in she asks for space to get over some stuff she was dealing with so she can fully love me. We both want to continue after she has gotten over this stuff, but every day it hurts not being with her, we went from really good friends to a couple to not even talking now while I give her space. I got a time frame and she has a plan, she's really dedicated but I'm not even close to halfway through the min estimate and feeling lonely as fuck. Today was probably a low point too, my chest hurt for hours and I'm a bit depressed now, hence why I'm in this thread.
>>691890812
indians are hot
be yourself
Not too many sorrows but I wish you others well. Drinking everclear with some chums.
>>691891045
Drink with us Anon, we all feel the same pain you feel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RDI187v1Jao
>>691888078
oil really ain't that easy to ignite. gasoline maybe? or just try harder?
Two year anniversary of my fiancee dumping me.
Drinking a handle of Jameson's tonight, lads.
>>691891303
I have rum but nothing to mix it with and I have work tomorrow. It's just fucking agonizing. I know we will be better for it, but all I can see is day to day and we are talking up to 2 months.
>>691890812
tell her the truth, mr. anon. she's looking for you, man. don't leave her like that.
>>691891615
Welcome to the thread, Cheers
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6e7jcPM7Pac
Nothing in life ever works out the way you want it to, nor the way you feel it should. No matter what you do, there will always be someone or something stopping you from getting what you desire, whether that's a feeling, an object or whatever.
But we move on, we keep moving forward with the hope and thought it will work out. I believe in you, anon. I believe in all of you, because I don't believe in myself anymore. That's all I can offer.
>>691891625
Sorry man, I'll drink for us both then
>>691890358
i feel your pain man, for some reason society doesnt recognize that a man can love his children.
now my experience wasnt with my own kid, but let me share.
back in 2012 i got depressed, i was going to kill myself, and i stopped going to work. shortly after i met Tasha. tasha is my best friends sister, but she needed a place to stay for awhile so she stayed with me. i got cucked HARD. she slept in my bed with me, we would cuddle but nothing more than that. i fell for her real hard, decided maybe theres something to live for after-all. now at this time i had a car but i wasnt using it for anything, so whatever i let her use it. she leaves for weeks at a time, with no contact at all shows back up when she needs some place to crash. eventually i get kicked out of that place, and move in with my mom in her trailer. fast forward to 2013, i have another job, im hanging out with tasha again. she got back together with her ex, he got her pregnant, and he left. she has the baby, gorgeous little girl. when she is 2 months old i tell tasha im tired of being just friends, im ready to be a dad (pretty much the only goal i have in life) and she says yea, she'll give it a shot. she moves in with me at my moms trailer because she was evicted, unemployed single mother and all that. well i was working at toys r us at that time, making shit money, so i went and got a better job at a call center, got us a new place so we can have enough room for the family. moving forward to 2014 now, she tells me she never loved me, and never felt like i was her boyfriend, just someone she lives with. but i still love her, and i love her daughter. she was 2 months old when we got together and i was the only father she had ever known. the relationship is absolute crap, she treated me like complete shit, but i was suicidal before an i was clinging on as hard as i could. we didnt even have sex once a month, every single day she would scream at me for nonsense. cont...
>>691890589
I mean I dont know
Im not hanging myself because I dont my kid to see that. I need something g clean
>>691890869
Already drinking so much friend. But thanks
>be 17
>enlist in the National Guard while junior in high school
>parents had to sign off on me
>go to basic training that summer as a split option
>supposed to come back to finish senior year, then ship off to AIT
>midway through BCT, take a bad fall off Eagle Tower
>break three vertebrae
>get sent home, told I was being discharged
>lucky to be alive, let alone walking
>barely pass senior year because I was so depressed
>move from IL to NC with the girl I dated the passed three years
>find out after a month she was posting adds on Craigslist and fucking a bunch of frat guys on the UNC and NC State campuses
>kick her out
>move back to IL a couple months later
>living and working with a buddy from the Army
>he's got really bad anger problems
>get kicked out over a nonexistent sandwich he swore I ate
>homeless and jobless now
>move in with my grandma
>she's dying of brain cancer
>more of a mother to me than my real mom and step mom combined
>have to take care of her 24/7
>meet cute 7/10 girl
>grandma dies
>start drinking a lot
>working at pizza hut, living in a shithole apartment
>dating girl for almost three years now
>job opportunity back in NC
>move to take job, girlfriend stays behind until get a place
>rent a nice house
>ask her to marry me
>fuck yeah things are finally going great
>stop drinking
>find out a week later she's been fucking one of the people I used to work with at pizza hut
>make a breathtakingly stupid decision to quit job and move back to IL to try and save relationship
>blows up in my face immediately
>get a job offer in OK from best friend from high school
>says he needs help cause he just had a kid and is coming up short on bills
>no prob, bro
>stay in OK for a month
>help him get back on track, and things are finally going good for him
>while at work, someone tells me all of my stuff is outside
>find a bus ticket to NC with a note saying, "Thanks for all the money, loser."
>quit job to go back to NC
>living with my dad for three months
If I tell her the truth, she probably won't talk to me ever, so probably best to just exit out of her life as a good friend than scar our year long friendship
>>691891885
I mean I have very little money to pay for her to eat and stuff. So my ex used that against me mostly but I feel sorry for you man
>>691892082
(cont)
>land a job at the factory he works at
>save up all my money for four months
>renting an amazing house with nice furniture
>love my job
>decided recently to go back to school this spring to major in engineering
>have awesome friends down here
>enjoying the single life
>still drinking, but not nearly as much as before
Point is, /b/ros, sometimes shit just seems to get absolutely fucked beyond all hope, but if you put in the effort and keep pushing through all the bullshit, things do turn around.
>>691891867
Thanks /b/rother.
>>691890812
Be honest with her, if she feels the same way she will look past it and find a way to understand and not be mad, give it a shot anon, OP is rooting for you.
>>691890780
I'd share my vodka but I'm in Florida, cheers friend
>>691891699
Cheers to you to anon
>>691891906
Wanna tell me the story, or just get drunk?
Two years.
>>691891885
now i wish i was exaggerating here. i was putting in full time, 40 hours a week to make money for us, she was working not even 10 a week. she thought that because she took care of nova all day while i was at work, that of course i should have to take care of her the entirety of the time i was home. she knew i loved the little lady and couldnt let her be neglected, so of course she just did literally nothing, knowing since i wouldnt let her go neglected i would step up. the relationship lasted for 2 years, 2 months, and 2 days before i broke up with her, and honestly i still dream about them every night, 8 months later. i havent been allowed to see her daughter since then
>>691892130
Just explain to her that you didn't feel comfortable as yourself, but she makes you feel comfortable and you started to catch feelings for her. Just be honest dude, worst case and you end up with something you can move past, best case she accepts you for who you are and also shows interest.
>>691888547
Been there, my man. I don't understand why females are so perfectly happy with "friendships" with guys. The guy always wants more- and that's the reason he sticks around. Guess they really are just wired different. They're not necessarily trying to lead you on or get attention from you- I used to think that when I was young too.
Take my advice dude don't stick around don't be available. Play uninterested, seem busy, do things you enjoy. Dont make first contact with them for conversations. Eventually that 9/10 qt will see your independence and want to make you commit to her. Good luck anon it gets better. Be the man you wanna be, see yourself the way you want to be seen. Your perception of yourself is the only reality.
>>691888849
kill yourself faggot
Haven't been on a date in about a year. Sucks being alone, but it's better than the last relationship. Though that's not saying much at all
>>691890589
get all the awesome drugs - take em - don't tell anyone - be alone - sleep.
I put my gun to my head tonight and my cat started freaking out
>half a fifth of Early Times whiskey and 7 beers thus far
>>691892633
wrong lol.
the correct answer is 'dont be a pussy and just say something, if she doesn't reciprocate then move on. dont play some dumb game'
>>691888910
All these stories in this thread and anons sympathizing...I fell in love with a girl who never loved me back. I sank into a deep depression, and when I posted about it here on /b/, they tracked her down and tried to send her pony porn in the mail, signed from me.
You fuckers are disgusting hypocrites and I hate you all.
>>691890812
tell her! now you've got no contact and if you speak to her that is exactly the worst thing to happen. anything else is better.
>5:55am.
>Just woke up.
>Already joining you with some good vodka's shot.
>Already on my third.
>It's only been 10mins i'm up.
And still, i feel my story is shitty when i read some of yours here.
It's been over a year that she broke up with me, forced by her parents to do so. ( she listen to them for everything despite she's 21. )
We've been together for 2 years.
I still love her like it was the first day, she was so perfect.
For all the anons who push the people that love them away with their bitterness and negativity...
The ones who feel so fundamentally broken inside they sabotage their own happiness.
This drink is for you.
>>691891364
Damn bro, that's a hit. I'm sorry.
>>691892865
I tied my extension cord into a noose.
>almost did it twice now
Op here, halfway through first bottle.
Cheers.
>>691893167
cheers!
>>691893153
Doesn't sound very perfect if she can't think for herself and is just a puppet to her mom and dad
I just wanna say Im glad OP made this post. It pats my back knowing im not going through hardship alone and i got you guys to talk about it with...you all are great ass faggots like me.. Cheers to this Thread!
>>691893451
EVERY ONE: Let's drink so we don't feel, feelings anymore!
>>691893167
Damn bro. nailed it. Cheers.
all of you faggots(lie guys)
stop being so alcoholic , im here crying while eating Swiss chocolate ice cream :c
>tfw growing up
>tfw growing up means leaving friends behind
>life making me move hundreds, then thousands of miles away from everyone
>tfw they never visit but expect you to
>>691893041
Cmon man, thats not all of us. Ill admit, 4chan aint the place with the most perfect people but people like the ones here, they wont hurt you. We're here to cry with you man, to tell you everything gonna be alright when no one else will. Above all the shit we do and the shit the internet blames us for doing, we're a community above all else. And a community, they help each other.
>>691893630
I'm trying my best.
>be me 2 months ago
>boyfriend of nearly 3 years starts staying at dad's house randomly
>confront
>I just don't feel the same about you anymore
>mfw he's not cheating or falling for someone else
>he let's me cry my eyes out in his arms, leaves the next day
>fastoward a week
>HAPPYANNIVERSARY.JPG
>He continues to tall to me normally
>why are you doing this
>we hang out one a week for a month
>it kills me every time.
>I begged him to not leave twice
>idontfeelthesameanymore.JPG
>begin to stop messaging him as often, I'm bitter
>one day decides to confess every weird fetishes and sexual fantasy he's ever had about me
>wat
>we hang out again, talk a little bit about weird conversation
>I just need time
>we eventually stop talking frequently.
>mental break down, keep to self
>drunkenly confront him about weird behavior.
>let's hang out
>go see movie, go back to my place
>watch favorite show together
>3 am, plus don't go
>okay
>mfw
>he sleeps next to me all night
>happiness
>can we hang out again in a couple days?
>pls
>comes over watch favorite TV show
>can I hold you?
>pls
>can I kiss you?
>why are you doing this?
>I miss you
>we proceed to hug and kiss and cuddle
>I whisper come home to me
>I'm afraid
>we end up having sex
>I still need time to think
And I died inside.
>>691892201
"thanks for all the money, loser" jesus christ man I'd be fucking livid. Good job on getting through that mess.
>>691892991
If you even have to ask the answer is going to be No my friend. Never make a big production it automatically ruins any sexual tension that was there.
>>691888910
Dude, I'm an 18 year old girl and I'm a christian and she's most definitely not following the Word if she's treated you like that, I apologize on her behalf. You'll make it :)
>>691890794
read a fucking book
For any one still missing that special someone..
A good cry is in order.
https://youtu.be/lv0vA4js1YA
went to war
cant connect to people any more
used to get women all the time without trying
now i drink too much to have a relationship
waiting for my parents to die so i can kill myself.
>>691893762
Interesting. I wish I craved relationships. I have a girlfriend and 2 parents that care about me and I'm trying to devise a way to push them away enough to be able to finally kill myself.
>>691893167
argh. damn, well, cheers then. just got coffee right now as it's 6 am here (germany) and another night of no sleep at all is coming to an end.
>>691893441
Always encouraged her to think by herself, she was starting to do so. But the brake up was so shitty, she couldnt do anything. And since, well.. I don't know, it's still confusing me a lot.
>>691890812
Find her and be honest, apologize and hope for the best?
>>691894124
Exxxxactly! When my parents are gone, I'll be dead within a week. I would have killed myself 10 years ago if it wasn't for the guilt I'd have for leaving them to bury their only kid.
HA, what a bunch of fucking L O S E R S.
I'm about to go hit the gym and knock out some fuckin PRs B I T C H E S!
It's gonna feel great! well, heh, sometimes that feel when no gf gets me down but... fuck girls, right?
Who needs em when you got gains?
Ha! Not this guy!
n-not me... I don't need anybody.
....
>>691893167
haha pranked my loved ones and friends real nice by pushing them away with my negativity, but secretly loving them haha pranked them good
>>691893998
>Dude, I'm an 18 year old girl
>>691893630
I've never actually been drunk before, am 18
I got a DUI.
Now I'm failing to afford these lawyer fees, even working overtime.
Oh yeah I'm also a methadone addict.
Know one knows.
End me.
>>691891669 >>691891082 >>691892276
>>691892531 >>691893108
Messaged her, telling the truth message didn't deliver yet, probably it's night there so her connection must be off or she Uninstalled kik, my only contact with her, pray for me fellow anons ,
>>691894558
>>691893998
Thanks anon, I've been trying but it all keeps me awake at night thinking about it, so much so I've started taking the graveyard shift just so I can do something instead of laying in bed thinking about it
>>691893865
A community? Everywhere you see these screencaps of threads telling heart-breaking stories, and how the anons find it so sad and boo hoo...we're not really so bad! we're DEEP and EMOTIONAL and INTELLIGENT...
I trusted this "community" and when i told my story you fucking disgusting shells of men JUMPED at the opportunity to dox me....
She found out that I posted about her and how i was gonna kill myself on 4chan, called the cops on me and I was sent to the hospital. Cost my family a LOT of money and she nearly prevented me from entering into college.
And now you fucks want us to feel sorry for you? You are the same disgusting little turds who called me a cuck, faggot loser for wanting to kill myself over a woman (who happened to be a "poo-in-loo", btw)
>>691893630
>>691894687
I'm with you in spirit friends
>>691894542
you're far from being alone with those thoughts. May I add a psycho little sister to that ecuation?
>be me
>18th birthday
>buy a bottle of ciroc with my friends
>decide to go out to a club
>mfw im too drunk to enter so my friends leave me outside with £20
>lose my id and buss pass uk fag
>£120 for cab to go home
>mfw when i slept in the train station from 1:40 to 5:00
>mfw i spent £100 on drugs for my friend to use it all
>mfw i cant cut him off because i have no more friends
>>691894558
POST YOUR FACE WHEN YOU PRANKED YOUR FUTURE SELF BY DESTROYING YOUR MUTUAL LOVE RELATIONSHIP BY BEING A DICK AND A LAZY RETARD
haha i was a real prankster back then, damn I pranked myself so well I'm still living in the terrible aftermath of that prank
>picrelated, my pranking attire
Any ausfags?
I wanna join the army. But my gf says if I do shes going to end it between us
I guess I can tell my story to /b/, I know I'll be harshly judged, but just getting it out there might help.
Just broke up with my gf of 2 and a little over a half years last night after she came over to watch GoT finale. She moved out about 4 months ago after living together for 2 years. I'm 29, she was my first gf, she's 22. I'm not ugly or fat, probably about an 8, or so I've been told, I'm just kind of scared of girls, scared that any show of interest will make me look like a predator, so I got a late start. She was my first gf, first love, I'd had sex once before, but that was it. She told me at the beginning that she considered herself polyamorous, and that she wouldn't be happy in a monogamous relationship. I was kind of depressed at the time because of the crushing loneliness that comes from a lifetime of not feeling loved in a non-family way. So I figured I'd give it a shot, maybe we could work things out so that everyone would be happy. Things were great for a while, we were happy, happy like I've never felt before, we moved in together after about 6 months. It got me out of an apartment I was sharing with a friend, which was kind of hard on our friendship, we didn't live well together. And it got her out of the dorms that she hated. We lived really well together, and I loved just having her there at home with me even if we weren't interacting. This went on for about a year until she finished school, graduated, and got a job 2 states away. I moved with her, thinking that it would be the start of a wonderful new life together. And that's where it all started falling apart. Before we left she basically demanded that I let her sleep with another guy because she needed to be polyamorous, and needed to test the relationship before we left. Well I was already committed, it happened like 3 days before the move. It tore me up and she knew it. I'm typing this on my phone and have more to write, so 1/?
>>691893630
CAPTAIN KNUCKLES DOES IT FUCK OFF FLAPJACK
I must be dreaming
>>691894822
Mmmmm.... is that the smell of freshly cooked pasta I smell?
DELICIOUS
>>691894760
I more than understand, God, I dropped an 8 month relationship because my partner was incredibly selfish and yet, here I am months later feeling like the selfish one. I mean, both sides always have faults but... I just don't know. What do you look like?
>>691894622
best company here to start building a healthy habit i guess
>>691894687
best of luck buddy
Dont wanna drink, but I do.
Stopped that shit ueats ago but it hurts so much man
>>691895212
Months ago*
>>691885734
A girl I like who's number I just got asked me if my brother was single so I know those feels
>>691894822
Dude, we understand you've been hurt. But man, it's not like that all around. There's people on here who are the scum of the earth, and then there's people who are almost angels. We're here for you man, we're not all the same people. We're men and women all around, whove been hurt the same as you, and have seen the worst of our own community. But dude trust me when I say, we're going to be here for you more then anyone in your life might
>>691895212
We won't tell anyone anon. Drinking one for you now, cheers
>>691894967
That sucks man. I've always wondered what it's like to have siblings. I feel guilty that all of my parents money/property will be for jack shit because I'll hit the eject button so fucking fast once they're gone. At least your folks might have a (shitty) legacy with her, if you do decide to end it.
>>691894822
meh. get over it.
>>691894033
But I have, anon
>go abroad to study
>fall/stay in depression
>gpa first semester is 3 something
>gpa now is 1.2 or something
>it's a shit community college anyways, I had to apply as this was one of the few options I had, I had to rush
I feel so shitty. maybe I should drop it all and go back home and join army for 1 year. wasting so much of my mother's money, it's terrible. also my first BIG LOVE RELATIONSHIP ended just before I went abroad, isn't that cool haha
PRANKED my gf, PRANKED my GPA, PRANKED my mother, PRANKED all people who had expectations from me, and finally, PRANKED MYSELF haha im like that andy guy from jetix cartoon
>>691895105
Imagine a baby-faced PewDiePie without the fame, that's me
>>691895372
If I get found out im 90% shits gonna get worse
But fuck it. Can only get so bad
>>691895526
how can you do badly when youre studying abroad wtf
>>691894318
>>691895745
what do you mean?
anyways, I just didn't go to lectures, didn't attend finals, had anxiety attacks over presentations so I just fled classes and so on.
>>691895067
Well-written text = PASTA
fuck off autist. You will spend the rest of your pathetic existence here and you will not be missed.
Just moved to another state for my gf. Left behind promising job, friends and family. (I know I'm a retard)
Come to find out before we got back together a few months ago she fucked her (now our) current roommate.
>>691895838
>>691890812
Did someone say catfish?????
Guys, I want to run away, but have nothing to sell, I don't know where to go, have nothing to do, even recently lost my ID on accident. I don't know what to do and my brain is faltering so hard just to figure something out, someone please give me a fucking suggestion, I literally have nothing to lose.
This is part of a greentext i posted yesterday but noone seemed to read
>be me, 20 yo, asian
>been a beta all my life but trying to get better
>talked to qt who just broke up with her ex who cheated on her
>qt is 1200km away, but her bro goes to college with me
>flirt more
>qt wants me to visit her for holidays
>whynot.exe
>drive 12 hours with qt's bro and stay with them for a week
>watch movies with qt in bed, cuddle and shit, no sex or making out though because im a beta faggot
>goes home, she talks to me less, eventually we stop talking
>found out she'd been texting the ex the whole time i was there and trying to get back to him
>Realized I got cucked and loathed the bitch ever since
I'm 5'11, decent looking, her ex is basically a migget with a pig face, which pisses me off because shes mentally retarded
>>691895945
>>691895050
Flapjack is cuter, anyways
>>691895028
Lurking
>>691895172
Perhaps
>>691895922
God damn anon, that made tears.. the same shit just happened to me..
>>691889687
This desu
>>691895945
God, finally some sad feels brewing
>>691895978
I stopped reading at beta......
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpCaNUbckZ4
Here's for all of you, motherfuckers. Music is always important to set up a mood.
I flunked out of college after a year, came home and got a job. Been working for almost a year now but got into smoking weed. I had been able to hide it for months but my mom found out and she's really upset. I've been feeling depressed lately even though things seem ok in my point of view. I'm lonely as shit and now that my mom knows I smoked I can't hang out with the friends I just made who smoke. I can't afford to move out so I have to live by their rules. I feel like I'm just one dissapointment after another to them. I can't kill myself because that's shitty and my mom wouldn't be able to handle it. I just want to die so I can be done with all of this. I haven't been happy in years and dying would finally put an end to it and it would be one final dissapointment to my family without it being my fault. I pray and pray for death to a god I'm not sure I believe in and it just won't come. I don't know what to do anymore I'm just so tired of everything being a chore. Deep down all of this makes me feel like shit because I'm probably just being selfish and people would kill for the life I've been given. If I could give up this life to someone who deserved it I would but I don't feel like I deserve it anymore and just want it to be over so I can stop feeling shitty all the time
>>691895978
fuck her man, she's not worth you
she's nothing and you'll find something better, just give it time
I've been in love with my wife for 7 years and we have 2 kids. She doesn't want me anymore because she's attracted to women more than me
women problems thread? none of them will matter in 5 years.
I wish I could drink, but I'm broke and I started using lithium last week, which is poison with alcohol. Lost touch with my dad, and today the relationship between my sister and I shattered, because of fucking depression and catatonic anxiety. It's half past six in the morning and I've been awake all night. Some days are just too much. And yesterday I also experienced that very distinctive pang when you realise that someone isn't in love with you anymore. You all know it.
>>691896584
MFF 3some opportunity or na
>>691895968
Breathe, get a new ID. Find a job in a town somewhere when the taxes aren't crazy high, work out to feel good, and uhm? Work from there?
>>691885536
is their fan-art of gravity fall characters all grown up? without it being sexual
>>691895022
may I ask you wanna join the army? When I was in that age we still had a kind of drafting in ger - was so happy to have just fucked up my knee a couple of moth prior so I didn't have to go (although I would have opted out for social service as that was an option). Never got the appeal of military (except money...but there are other ways)
>>691895028
I'm listening. Go on.
>>691895381
True that. I dunno. Let's see what's gonna happen or not. Maybe life turns out ok afterall ;). But I can understand the guilty feeling part. Are they (also) of the kind who'd do anything for you - IF you'd ask? Which you're probably too proud to do if it's not really, really, really necessary?
>>691896736
And it fucking hurts man..
>>691896152
It's been fucking rough man.
I don't know how to act around him now with out being a douche
>>691895998
God...
>>691896736
Also bailed on my fourth year at university, been doing nothing all year. I don't have an income anymore, so now I'm just this depressing 29yo husk of a person sponging off his folks.
You all make me rage, you just sit on your asses crying and drinking about the past and not even try to make things better.
You deserve everything bad that happened to you, you earned it, you let it happen and now you just give up.
>>691897006
Good thing your not around me, I would have hurt him pretty badly, shit like that I can't forgive
>>691896899
> why you want to join the army?
Im fit enough, it seems like a way to get away from things to. Me and the girl have been arguing alot lately as well
The pay grade is only like 3 but I wouldnt be doing it for the money
>>691897168
> not even trying to make shit better
Some shit you cant make better
> cancer hurts mang
>>691896899
Yeah they'd definitely do anything for me but I am way too proud. I inherited the raging drunk of my mother and the stoicism of my father. If it's going to get better, it needs to be soon. I won't tolerate this too much longer. I don't want to live to 30.
>>691897239
guys he wants attention.he is such a go get'er he comes here for validation.
>>691896584
"If you love her then you let her go"
As a child from a suffering broken family, it's best to let her go instead of forcing a connection for the benefit of the family. Honestly, she may come back to you soon after realizing women are disgusting and too much to handle
>>691897168
>raging at our misery
Biggest pussy here, imo.
>>691897168
It's not always that easy for people. You would understand if you were going through the same things.
>>691897360
You can't cure it but you can cure your view on life and live your last moments at peace
>>691897678
As a kid I was always afraid of dying
Now I wont even live to 30 man, shits hard to be at peace with
>>691885536
All my friends are depressed people on the inside and have suicidal thoughts. I do, too, but I never talk about it. Instead I make them all feel better by telling jokes I don't even like, taking on a whole different personality than I truly am. I always try to make them laugh. It's all I'm good for, my parents never liked me as a kid and saw me as an object since their divorce.
>Because if I can't have a happy life, then I'll do my damned best to make someone else's life happy
>>691895028
Cont. 2/?
We moved and got settled in, she started her new job making like $65k a year and I sat all summer unemployed. About when she started her new job, roughly a month after the move she tried to break up with me. We were 1 month into a 10 month lease. I think I died a little inside that day, and I straight up refused to allow her to break up with me. My soul was crushed, the vision I had of starting a new life with her, my whole future, shattered. And I still had 3 semesters to finish to get my degree. I moved, and transferred schools for her, and almost as soon as we left she wanted to end it. I basically spent the rest of the summer stoned and depressed, even though she didn't succeed in leaving me. Over the summer she slept with another guy, back home, that she'd dated before we met and saw pretty much every time she went up there. She'd been pushing me to allow it for quite some time. We went to couples therapy for a little while to try to work things out, but she kind of gave up on that after 4 or 5 trips. She apparently knew what she wanted already. The whole time after we moved she was making new friends, hanging out with other "polyamorous" people, surrounding herself with positive feedback. She's a cute girl and she loves to dance, so she's basically constantly inundated with positive male attention. She made lots of new male friends, which hadn't been a big problem in the past, as most of them were kinda dorky and fat so she wasn't physically attracted to them. It was a bit different now, most of her new male friends weren't chubby dweebs. She insisted that she wasn't physically attracted to them and that she had no desire to sleep with them. She was very convincing, and I wanted to believe her. She was everything to me, I uprooted my life for her because I loved her and wanted to share life with her. One of the new guys was a coworker of hers, and she said she would never sleep with coworker. Cont.
>>691893167
...fuck
>>691897915
I know that feeling. I help others feel better and ignore my own feelings until they eat away at night. And both of my parents are assholes since their divorce so I don't have any company with them either
>>691897168
You'll never learn if you weren't there man, you'll never know some of the shit we've dealt with. Whether it be something rough like watching your friend choke on blood till they die on the battlefield, to having someone close to you beat you close to death, to spending so much of your life on someone and having it wasted in half a second. There are some things in this world that you have to sit through just to know the feeling of them and you can't really judge how people react to them before it has happened to you, and this drink tonight is to hope that all the people like you never have to go through things like the people posting here have.
>>691897887
Then make the last years of your life the best. Do what you want, don't give a shit about the pain, only the joy. It sounds gay as fuck but it's what you gotta do to make it a happy life before you go wherever you believe
>>691897915
OP, here so far throughout life that's all I've ever done, that's the only way I made friends.. still doing it to this day, helps me forget how much I hurt inside.
>>691897673
I did went through a lot of shit, but I don't see the point on looking back at it and feel bad, I went through rough times but I worked hard to fix it, fix myself and now I'm fine, cause I didn't gave up and did something even when it seemed I was just going in circles.
You all just won't even try anymore.
I have a ton of female friend's but whenever I try to get something more going they reject me.
>Tfw im the gay friend
>>691897915
we are kindred spirits, anon
>>691898221
>>691898289
Thanks anons, at night I always lurk on threads and try to laugh, but in the end I just end up going to bed praying that I'll find someone to care about and vent to one day
>yeah, I'm a jesusfag, but each to their own
>unless you're a raghead
>>691898234
words of wisdom
>>691898701
Raghead?
>>691898507
Probably because you're a fucking pussy and they see you as "one of the girls" kek
>be me
>dating girl for 3 years
>she has a daughter
>3 years old
>3 years old dating ended up moving in with her
>for 1 year
>in america *im from australia*
>year passes
>propose to her
>she says yes
>i go home to australia
>plans wedding
>plans honey moon
>gets great deal on flights to japan
>fuck yes
>months pass
>buy her 2 tickets for her and her daughter
>she declines to board the flight hours before it leaves...
>cant come due to mother is sick
>seems legit... wasted nearly 3k
>waits 2 weeks
>buys her another set of tickets...
>she cant come.. says her work is more important and she can earn a bit of money before coming home...
>get mad and ask her whats up.
>she said she is done
>leaves me for some homo looking mother fucker
>named jeremy johnson
>months pass
>i slowly swab the pain off
>i cancel her ticket to japan
>lose a Fair chunk of the price if i cancel it
>choose to extend my flight to first class
>stay in japan for 3 months with return
>in japan
>drinking every day
>parents call last week
>son
>mum had a stroke
>she has lost 80% of her vision
>her operation is today to correct it
>her chances are not good
>either go blind. or die to trying to fix it.
>wants to kill myself
>wants to throw self infront of a train line...
reposting for anon
>>691885536
I don't have very much absolut left, might go out and buy more vodka...
I feel like a hurricane in a bottle, I feel so goddamn angry and sad and helpless for no reason. And I just keep fucking sinking deeper into it.
I think about suicide a lot, how easy it would be to take a bunch of pills or drugs and just slip away. Or get wasted and run my car into a tree.
I just wish I could feel like I matter for once, and like I'm not a waste of life.
And I wish I could feel like the people around me who say they care actually did... Honestly if it wasn't for my cat I might actually just end it.
>>691897245
>>691897451
thanky for the answers guys. gotta leave now to earn some money to buy more poison and continue this shit for what it's good for. Wish you a better day tomorrow!
Currently being guilt tripped/trapped in a relationship with an emotionally unstable, clingy, paranoid gf with close to no libido. Just had to turn down a qt LoTR artsy girl cuz I'm not cheating scum. Hold me /b/ros
>>691897915
I want to make people happy by going to countries and territories that don't have the basic need of water. Construct plans to build low expense water systems because have you ever given something you needed to someone because it's something they never have? You see how truly grateful a person is and it's so awful to think about how there are people who starve everyday, or children who never live outside of going to school so that they're driven to joining gangs because it gives them a sense of purpose... poverty is so bad
>>691898857
Means a Muslim. I know it's wrong to judge one whole faith according to society, but all Muslims I've met have only screwed me over or played with my emotions. The only one that didn't we were refused to see one another when we started meeting each other in secret. I was about to get her to convert but her family found out and we never talked again
the job market blows
whats the deal with fucking dumb ass HR people. they're seriously retarded. the people doing hiring 100% DO NOT KNOW SHIT about anything. you basically have to copy and paste the fucking description of the job in your resume for them to look at it
also every single job has completely artificially bloated requirements. fucking 5 years experience for some bullshit anyone can do? paying $15-18/hr? give me a fucking break
i seriously think these dumb ass HR people with shitty business degrees are ruining jobs
>>691890780
That's the worst night I've ever had drinking that bullshit
>>691898701
How old are you?
>>691899007
Man, sorry about that anon, but if I meet some homo looking motherfucker named Jeremy Johnson I'll beat the shit outta him for ya
>>691897915
Imma cap this.......
I'll hang it above my desk.
To remind myself that others that help are the ones who need it the most.
>>691898507
Hehe, lemme tell you a story bro... Lemme tell you a storyyyyyy
>Be in the exact same place you are, gay friend with shit ton of female friends
>One day friend of friend "Hey anon you might wanna dance with female friend #2 at prom (I was in high school)"
>Fuck why the fuck not mate
>make a move, ask her if she wants to go with me
>"Sure anon, sounds great"
>same girl that acted like I was a piece of shit for last 5 years
>after that night she tells me shes liked me for a while
>wut.jpg
>Go on a few dates with her
>this girl is pretty sweet
at this point I was constantly thinking back to when I was exactly like you, how suddenly it turned around
>date:6/27/2016
>Married to the same girl who acted like I was only another friend, acted like I was the gay one, who I thought laughed behind my back.
Things will get better anon, they always do.
>>691899110
Anon, you're a good person. I respect that. Yes, I'm samefag as >>691897915 and I'm happy that you actually change the world. I wish I could do something to help the world.
>>691899485
21, third year of college. Going to major in economics
OP, here For anyone, looking for someone to vent to, about anything.
Curse: Jaegerlyfe
Steam: Jaegerbombastic
Hit me up anytime.
>>691895968
Im in the same exact situation, with the exception of the lost id. As soon as i find a new job and save some money im moving from NY to Tennesee. hopefully to new people, new opportunities, and with some luck maybe a little happiness
>be me, 18 years old
>been fallin for this 8/10 girl for a year now
>I eventually started talking to her 6 months ago
>we talked all day, every day, she used to wish me good mornings and good nights
>One day I take her out for lunch
>That same day, she goes to a friend's house
>We didn't talked the rest of the day
>She processed to Ignore me for a week
>She hangs with our group every day
> mfw I have to see her every day and she ignores me
>A couple of weeks pass
>We started talking again, but it's just not like before
I know for a fact she isn't dating my friend nor fucking him, and I really do like her, I just don't know what to do. What do you recommend /b/ros?
Drunk and reporting in. what's up
>>691885536
I'm going to be forever alone and drinking is the only thing that can make me feel worse about it and I can't stop :D
and supposedly I'm not even that bad looking, but I think I have a shit personality I think. Too quiet, too sub for women, and too manly for men. Might as well kill myself before I get too old to even get booty calls
>>691885734
you don't own her stop crying
>>Take care of girlfriend in every way for almost 2 years.
>>She finally gets a good job, requires her to move away.
>>I can get a job anywhere, so she's gonna finish training and lock down an apartment while I wait here and get our condo sold.
>>Long story short, she fucks a guy as soon as she gets there, takes the deposit money I gave her and gets her own apartment with roommates.
>>Tell her to fuck herself but I'm 100% devastated.
>>A few months later, been talking to another girl. She's amazing. Closer to my age, shares all my same views. intelligent, independent, all around stunner. JUST quirky and weird enough for me to poke fun at, but mature enough to dish jokes right back.
>>Things are looking up.
>>Ex comes back into picture, wants to work things out. Like a chode, I attempt.
>>This process is long, draining and had zero effort on her part. It devolved into her not wanting me back.
>>3 months later.
>>New, perfect girl is long gone.
>>Ex is fucking Chad and laughing at me
>>May kill self and write ex's name on the wall in blood just to affirm to her that she caused this.
You are all wonder people.
~ OP
>>691899634
anon, thank you. you probably don't know how much that means to me, but that actually does make me feel a bit better about things for some reason.
>>691899767
I was both of those poster I'm sort of a newfag, yeah, I'm only 18 but, I've lucked out and have done mission work in Haiti. Being a girl puts it in a different perspective so, our pastor always takes lead. I'm majoring in civil engineering, what state?
>>691897915
Cheers to you Anon
>>691900343
Not quite comfortable with saying my state, just my paranoia sorry. I've never been on a mission trip, I've always wanted to go but I've never had the chance
My dads kidneys failed not to long ago. He's a teacher for the poorest distract in California so he isn't payed much so he works for the summer. He's had all sorts of problems from his shrinking yearly due to amputation and now it's starting to effect his other leg as well. He never played picks up my calls but when I do talk to him through my mom all he can tell me is how much he loves me. Since my dad can't work my mom has had to take on another job just to keep up with expenses. I'm six hours south and all I want to do is go home but I have to work these two jobs to i can go to school. So it goes
>>691900158
Hey, anon, don't do it man. Here's all you got to do:
remember that some people are worth more than others. The ones who are worth more in the end to you are the ones you should take care of in life, the ones you should worry about. But if you end up hating her that much, might be easier to try to mess with her boyfriend by vandalizing their houses or property
Some months ago I went to a hotel for an event and I got a room in one of the highest floors. I stood in the balcony for nearly 2 hours trying to convince myself to jump but I was just too much of a pussy, I was afraid it would hurt in the last moment or that I would scream.
I could've fucking ended it, but my coward ass didn't let me. I regret it to this day
>>691889295
On the upside death brings people together. If your dad told you it means he wants you to be involved.
>>691890589
Helium I think
>>691889295
You're not, probably was the stuff you took that fucked with your mind
>>691900635
That's okay! See about local organizations in your area or really, you can conduct mission on you own in your area. There are always local issues you can get involved with, and always people who do not know the Lord, or have a bible
>>691898036
I think I can finish in 2000 characters, again, sorry it's taking so long, I'm typing on my phone in the dark in my room.
Anyways, she insists that these new guys are just friends and she doesn't want anything more than that. I believed her, because I wanted to think that the life I thought I saw for myself with her wasn't just gone in a puff of smoke. God I'm a fucking idiot. I said in the first post she moved out about 4 months ago, she had apparently settled on that decision long before it happened, possibly even before the couples therapy. Well the move was pretty hard on me, and it was about a month and a half before the end of the semester. I'm studying chemistry, and this was by far my hardest semester of my undergrad, 6 chemistry courses, 3 were labs, like 70 pages of lab reports to write. I struggle to make it through, and just barely scrape by. I'm stressed out every day over this work and the move, and I barely held it together. During this time she was basically going crazy, doing whatever she fucking wanted, and not telling me about it. She had said she was going to start dating other people, and she did. What she didn't say was that she was going to sleep with them and not tell me about it. She had dated one guy briefly before we moved and didn't fuck him, so I thought it would be like that or something. Or that she'd at least have the decency to let me know what her intentions were. Nope. She went on a trip for a wedding during this time, and visited the coworker she said she was just friends with and wouldn't sleep with. The coworker I told her specifically that I didn't want her to fuck. The coworker she'd gone on a trip with, and he had tried to get her to sleep with him, and she never told me about that. The only reason she didn't fuck him then apparently was because she had an anxiety attack. Well she fucked him on her trip, while I sat here barely holding myself together then casually told several weeks later. Cont
I feel like a failure.
We got these two puppies three years ago. Boy and girl, both born on the day our first dog died. I know it's retarded to think about fate, but it was just too perfect. The boy was strong and protective like the first dog was, and the girl was just so sweet and acted just like the old girl did on her best days. She even had these marks going down her back from her spine that were paler than the rest of her coat; like little angel wings. She was my angel, my little girl. I fed them both, walked them, played with them, stayed up with them while they were sick. They were inseparable and things were going good.
Then my cunt grandmother killed her. My family always says it's an accident, but I saw the way she looked at them, how she'd sneer at them when they played. She gave them both cooked hambones without telling us. We took the away when we found them, but they both had chewed them up. We were going to watch them overnight and take them to the vet in the morning. I woke up to her barking, my little girl, and I saw puke and bones everywhere. I cleaned it up, and watched them. They seemed fine and the girl kept coming up to me, climbing on me. She never did it before. Now I feel like she was trying to say goodbye and I was too stupid to see it coming.
I won't talk about how she suffered. I can't. II went to work while my parents took both of them to the vet. They came back and pulled me out to get to the vet's. She died before we could get there, alone, afraid and in pain. I held her in my arms with a cream colored blanket when we got there. I wanted to scream, to hit something, but all I could do was look own at her face. There was nothing in those eyes. No more life. No more love. There's nothing more shameful than failing someone you love.
I can't tell you ho it feels to have the boy back, but losing his sister. He barely eats, doesn't play as much as he did. And I have to see that miserable, spiteful, evil, cruel fucking cunt every.
Canadafag reporting in.
Bourbon and Olde English 800 on deck.
Broke up with girlfriend of three years and left the life I'd spent the last nine making in the dust. Still transitioning and some nights require some liquid courage.
> Be me
> be last year
> young, successful, normal
> history of severe depression but managed now
> probably from a few concussions from when younger playing sports
> first job
> decent city, good friends, lots of positives
> Decide want to move to a city closer to hometown
> one college friend for sure moving there
> think the rest are
> take job at lower pay than old
> pay 5x old rent to live in cool place downtown
> nobody my age at new job
> can't befriend anyone new
> get girlfriend, get dumped when she figures out how emotionally fucked up I am
> start spiraling
> other college friends get hired in other cities
> just me and one college bro
> college bro stops hanging out since his gf is bff with my ex
> only other acquaintances are married or work odd hours, never want to hang out
> see snapchats of everyone having fun, ask to do stuff get met with bad excuses
> got drunk alone saturday, acted like a whiney bitch to ex and college bro for never wanting to hang out anymore
> eventually they invite me out, tell them I don't need their pity invite and to go fuck themselves
> had threatened to kill myself to them a few weeks prior
> actually tried this time
> today college bro told me he couldn't deal with my shit. Backed out of a place we're supposed to get on thursday.
> tried to act like we're still friends.
> zero friends now
> been living above my means for a year, thousands of dollars in debt.
> have to pay rent alone on a two bedroom in two days
> only reason I haven't ended it is my knife was too dull the other night and now that I'm sober i don't want to burden my parents with my debt.
It was all going so well and I fucked it all up like I always do. I'm genuinely concerned the leasing agency won't accept my check or let me sign alone since my credit score is so bad right now. Pretty sure I'll take my rent money to the pawn shop and just buy a gun if that happens.
I want to ride a different ride.
2/2
Day. I hate her. But I hate myself more for failing her.
I am so sorry Bella. So fucking sorry. I wish I could see you dance one more time. Hear your bark. Watch you play at slapping Boss. I wish I could hold you in my arms for just a minute more. I miss you, mom and dad miss you, but Boss misses you most of all.
I love you, baby girl.
>>691894156
Just fake it till you make it brah, just go along with ut and make them happy, once you lose the its all ogre from there
>>691901502
>>691898036
>>691895028
It's alright anon I'm still listenin'
>>691899973
Just ask her whats up and if you've done anything to hurt her.
>>691901616
Grandmother have any pets? What does she love most?
>>691893941
Erica?
Been listening to this on repeat for a few days...
>feels bad
>but so good to listen to it
>...even if I don't understand Japanese and gotta read
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43qJQMmTNZo&list=PLEQqBJFbb-ogwKNqPylZB9zITS69lsAkl&index=60
>>691901436
But in the end its still my fault
>>691900878
Yeah, well, it's hard to see who's worth anything anymore. I have two people in my life that I know are there for me, which is more than a lot of people I know.
I can't vandalize their property, I don't even know where they live. Somewhere in Norfolk.
We promised to travel the world together, and now her new job allows her to do so. Without me.
>>691902789
https://youtu.be/t4ETUI56vXU
My favorite enjoy.
Can someone post the pic where a loli is eating ice cream, and she does it every day Because everday is a bad day?
I'm there rn
>>691903219
>>691902438
No, she hates anything but cats and she has none in my father's house. To be honest, she probably loves herself the most.
She's actually riding on a high right now. She and my grandfather divorced a while ago. He slept around, probably because even then she was a miserable bitch and the woman he left her for just died of cancer all over.
She was a decent woman, and I know if wasn't a quick or pretty death. My grandfather tried to kill himself after and my mother ended up staying with him for about a month until his wife's relatives could take him in. She won't say it to my mom, but she's in a better mood than I've ever seen and that makes me hate her all the more.
Failing that, I think my baby cousins are probably what she loves most in the world. She babysits them and spoils them rotten. She let the older boy kick Boss a lot and when I slapped him and scolded him for kicking him in the face, she went into a rage.
>>691903451
Thank you and a bowl will be smoked in your honor, have a high/buzzed night anon
>>691903451
thanks anon
>>691888078
KEK
>>691901502
Guess I couldn't quite finish in 3.
She fucked 3 guys other than me in that month or so. One of them came up to dj her housewarming party for her new place, he's the one she fucked to test our relationship before we moved. The other 2 were "friends" that she "wasn't attracted to" at the beginning, one of those being coworker guy that I will put in a coma if I ever see him again. That was pretty much the breaking point, I needed to get a hold of what I was going to force myself to be ok with, and I came up with some good points. We went on a nice weekend trip and I told her where I stood in the car ride on the way back. I imposed some limitations that I was going to expect her to follow, I told her some things that I wanted her to do for me, basically to show me that she I was important to her and that losing me wasn't something she was willing to do. I was basically trying to take back control of my life. She said she had a lot to process, since it was basically 2 hours of this in the car. The conclusion she eventually came to was that she needed to clear her head, and that she thought the best way to do this was to not date anyone for a few months. She's mildly bipolar, and she's basically addicted to the mania, one of the other guys she dated has told her this too, and that he thinks she needs to be on meds, I agree with him. She loves her mania, and freely admits that when she's manic she basically doesn't care about consequences. She started the 3 months of no dating a week ago. I was under the impression that this was 3 months of not pursuing emotional or physical relationships with anyone, basically celibacy. I thought she was going to try to separate herself from physical intimacy with anyone so that she would be able to control herself when she's manic. I thought she was trying to take control. I was wrong. She went to a club to dance Saturday night and made out with a couple girls on the dance floor. Cont.
If thread 404's can someone make new, original OP here pretty sloshed, but I want to keep it open so people can band together and vent. It's important that someone somewhere knows another anon is out there with the same struggles, no one should be alone regardless of circumstance.
>>691903623
Well, shoot... you could a) Burn her house down b) Burn her house down with her in it
You didn't deserve to lose your puppy
>>691888467
Yeah...I don't drink...
I don't know what to do, /b/ros.
I've never been wanted or loved.
I was always the kid that other kids had to be forced to include. That's still somewhat true as an adul5.
I hate my life because I hate myself. I feel like a weight on the world's back, always making it harder...
I've been on the edge of suicide more times than I want to remember. But I never did. I always had one thing on my bucket list and im not going till I get it done. After all, it is the only thing in there.
I want someone to love me. I want them to look me in the eyes and tell me I was the best thing to ever happen to them. And I want them to mean it. I'm stupidly hopeful. Everything is some kind of sign to me. But I don't think that's ever going to happen. It's just so hard for me to think I never made anyone happy..... who knows maybe tonight my friend jack is gonna help me fall asleep and I won't wake up.
>>691904807
Not an option. She lives in the basement, the rest of us above her.
How poisonous is lily-of-the-valley, by the way? Is it recognizable as a toxic agent?
>>691904791
OP is only kind of a faggot...sure I might
B-But don't think it's cause of you!
...baka
>gah fuck that hurt, but sure
>>691895028
>>691898036
>>691901502
Fuck, anon. This shit is rough. Pouring a bourbon for ya here. Get it all out, dude.
Remember that this is all for the best. You are going to be a better man at the end of it. Shit sucks and it is tough, but through all the pain and tears, you are learning about you and refining your taste in women.
>>691891861
then don't believe in yourself.
believe in the me that believes in you.
Because I know you can do this.
>>691900854
>the modern life of not being able to see your ill father because of the bills you have to pay
Where did it all go so wrong? Why is life always hard for the common folk in the current year?
Dying on the inside cause I want my ex to still be in my life, but I'm not sure if she would even accept me back after 3 months of radio silence and me ending it on good terms.
>>691904939
Anon, I feel the same way every day, but think about it like this:
there are people just like you
Think about it. Do you really want someone to go through what you did? Do you honestly want someone to feel left out all the time feeling like trash? Try making it better anon by making other peoples' lives better. In whatever way you can.
Also, having the attitude that the world doesn't deserve someone like you is stupid. The world's a shitty place, if anything there's nothing the world doesn't deserve
>>691905070
Hmmm, not sure, honestly killing her is too easy for her and much too sinful, for me at least, is her skull to thick to think about anyone but herself? You know her better than we do, conjure up something that you know will her home
>>691885536
The girl that brought me out of my depression in the first place ended it with me. It's been a while and I was fine for a few weeks. That's when it hit me: the only thing I ever did was spend time with her. She's all I can seem to think about anymore. I don't want to get back together because she was overbearing, but damnit... I can't go out and meet new people. I can't talk to anyone on the internet. I can't find any enjoyment in anything anymore, either. Not games, not anime, not even other people. I have to force myself out of bed everyday and I can't sleep at night. I'm constantly tired and don't have any energy for anything. I still live with my parents because I'm 18, and all I ever hear is yelling and screaming. I have a job working IT at a store, but I don't make enough to move out. My parents are broke and borrow money from me constantly and I can't afford food for myself sometimes.
I'm taking my depression meds and everything, but all they do is make it easier for me to bottle up my emotions and put on a blank face instead of a frown.
I just want a good girl to love me back, in any way. I want a companion, someone to take me out of this miserable hell I'm living in.
>>691905363
Anon, if you broke up on good terms it must have been for a reason. Look, if you want to get back with her, just start talking a bit again. You may not even know if he/she's taken, but even if you do know you should still talk to them. Start talking, go do stuff as friends, but if you end up feeling for each other again, go for it
>>691905084
OP here, you are a cheeky duck and you got a smile out of me, but thanks anon, took a shot for you
>>691894545
i know this feel
>>691905394
I appreciate it, bro, that kind you. But i suppose I could've worded my post better. My problem is all I want to do is to make people happy and better off because I can't see a way to fix myself. But I can't, I'm not the only one who hates me, to put it lightly. I just want to help others, make them happy, hopefully meet someone who will love me, but I can't, I don't know how I can. It just seems hopeless.
>>691906018
Devil Doc here, lost a lot of marine friends.. that really hit the feels...
>>691905315
It fucking suck man and there isn't shit I can do about it is the most fucked up part
>>691905689
Man, the only problem is that I'd get to jealous if anyone else dates her. Plus I still want to fuck her again. I really miss our relationship as friends but I'm a jealous cuck. Plus she knows how to manipulate me. That's one of my biggest negatives to getting back with her.
>>691901699
kek nice pic
>>691906018
wow that actually hit kinda hard
>>691906288
>>691906867
i found that picture in an YLYL thread,,, disgusting
>>691906788
Anon if she manipulates you, then you don't need her. Anyway, if someone is dating her and you have a problem with that then you don't need to talk to her anymore. Look, I'd highly advise moving on and finding someone else.
>also dubs chek'd
>>691904726
Keep going, anon
to lighten the mood a bit
>>691907102
Thanks Anon, some times it helps to get some outside view. I'm just falling back to her since the girl I was crushing on currently is moving back home in a month so she stopped talking to me so we don't catch feelings.
>>691907641
my dad drinks alot.. jk i dont give a fuck
>>691904726
I swear I'm almost done.
Normally I'd congratulate her on the making out with hot chicks, but not this time. I was pissed, I thought she'd deliberately gone against her plan and she was fucking herself over and any chance at all that there may have been of salvaging the dream I'd had of a life together. I let her know I was upset, and that I thought she was breaking her own rules. Her response was that she had wantedto do 3 months of not dating, and that making out with someone on a dance floor was ok in her mind because she wasn't going to date them. So I said that by that logic one night stands were totally ok because she wasn't planning on dating the person. She basically agreed with me. So I told her that was a giant fucking cop out. Her response was that her actual intentions had nothing to do with learning how to be ok with controling herself while she was manic, but were to try to keep an even keel from day to day. Which basically translates to she doesn't want to feel the depressed part, and doesn't want random bouts of mania while she's working and it's inconvenient. She gets manic when she dances, she says it gets her higher than molly does, and so she basically wants to be in complete control of when she gets her natural high. I helped pull her out of a long depression she'd been in because of previous relationships, and now that it's not tearing her apart anymore, now that I've put her back together, she doesn't want me because I'm holding her back from doing whatever she wants, whenever she wants. I feel like she's been pushing me away for a year, hoping I would get fed up with her and just leave. Like she didn't want me to come with her at all, like she was done with me before we even left, and that I've suffered through a year of hell at her hands because I was too blinded by love to see that she was done with me already. Well the conversation yesterday effectively ended it permanently. Now I'm sitting here ruined.
My wife left me and took my one year old son. I see him every other weekend right now and she won't even let me see him for a few minutes otherwise. This is going to continue until there's an actual custody agreement in place and I already know how that works most of the time. This is the hardest thing I've ever dealt with in my life and I just don't know how to cope.
My performance and attendance at work has suffered. I have no social life and my health is quickly going down the drain. I don't sleep. I don't eat. I just don't know how to deal and it is literally killing me.
To top it all off. My Best friends' mom just died. She was like a second mother to me.
kek
>>691907913
Anon, don't get torn up over it. She sounds like a slut, whore, bitch, and overall cunt. Get over her, she fucked a ton of guys during the relationship. Also, it's not normal to "test a relationship" by fucking another dude. Honestly you were being manipulated and it's good you're out of that relationship.
>If you see her again, tell her something for me:
>The 43rd sends their regards
>She'll know what that means
>>691905121
I'm trying to look at it in a positive way. I graduate in December, and it means I won't have anything anchoring me to a place. It gives me options for where I want to live and what I want to do, I can start over again, at 30, and try to make my life my own.
>>691907913
It will get better OP.
>>691908189
This here. It's what pisses me off. Women are privileged by courts to get children and men are doomed to end up seeing their kids hardly ever. For me it was different. My mother got the every other weekend after a long time and I ended up being with my father. Honestly he's the one who is far better than my mother, as well as being able to do both jobs of being a parent and providing.
>Sorry about your friends' mom. And hey, don't give up alright? You may still have a chance
>>691907913
Also this anon.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DiDDlebQwz8
>>691907913
how hot is she?
>>691894822
why so salty bro lol
>>691904939
i failed at suicide three times, now im at the point where i could care less about anything in life
>>691905634
Start secretly saving money, make a separate bank account and put a little in every paycheck, have it automatically deducted so it's just never in your main account. Look for a job that pays a little better, hard labor sucks but it's usually decent money, look at warehouse work. When you get a job you can live off of use the money you saved to move out. Then try to find a girl. But you're trapped right now, and you need to get out first. Do you want a puppy in your cage with you? Or do you want to break out and then have a puppy when you're free?
>>691885536
I'm really angry and don't know why.
It might be because I only ate almonds and a giant slim Jim today, but I want to punch holes in my fucking walls and tear my own face off.
I also really want pasta. Help me friends.
>>691909656
>such a failure you even fail at suicide
nigga ...
I'll join in. My girl fucked me over with my best friend. Both of them can fuck off.
>>691909972
yeah i threw up when i tried ODing with sleeping pills, the wooden beam holding up my rope snapped when i tried to hang myself, and parents came home early when i tried to kill myself with helium
>>691908978
She's a solid 8, 5'6" like 105-110lb, perky B cup tits, and the most amazing skinny girl ass I've ever seen. Cute, with a pixie cut she actually pulls off incredibly well.
>>691910041
Beat the shit out of your "friend" and tell your ex's friends that she cheated on you. That's how you fuck someone's life up real good
>>691907913
Saved Anon. A shot to you tonight. I hope you feel better.
>>691904939
jack is garbage. try Evan Williams. Cheaper, smoother, and doesn't taste like varnish
>>691909658
Thanks for the advice. I appreciate it.
>be me
>15 or 16 years old, beta as fuck
>there was this girl I was in love to, she knew
>go on school camp and one night in the middle of a truth or dare game I discover that she liked me too
>things get super weird, also she had a bf
>one friday they fight and break up
>I support her friday and saturday, we start to make confessions about our feelings for eachother and moments we shared
>she said things to me that were clearly signs that she really liked me, everything was going perfect
>sunday
>she tells me she is ready to talk about what she said in the camp
>I suggest we go to a place to talk about it
>I regret sending that message 2 seconds after
>she says that it really doesn´t matter where we talk, the best place would be school
>I tell her that it is ok
>>691910900
>she realizes that I am acting a little weird
>asks me about it
>tell her that I felt a little dumb for saying that we should go to some place to talk
>she thinks I am nervous and tells me that I should not worry and that whatever happens she will always love me as a friend because that is what she cares about the most being my friend
>friend
>worst thing I have felt by that time
>mfw
>her fucking friend?
>I try to control myself and tell her that I don´t think we have to talk about what happened in camp, you just told me everything I wanted to know
>I take the stupid decision to tell her all this by voicenotes
>she can hear I am on the edge of crying
>"I don´t understand why suddenly you are so sad like that, a few minutes ago we were laughing"
>you don´t understand WHY?
>>691911106
>I explode
>I was expecting to just start to complain and insult her and ask why did she gave me all those signs (which I swear for god, even a 5 yo could have deducted that she was flirting with me) and all of the sudden she just wants me as a friend
>instead of doing that I start to cry
>sent her a bunch of voicenotes crying trying to speak things about marrying her and have kids and grow old together
>she tries to tell me that she is confused and shit
>"Nothing of what I have done did nothing, you didn´t care"
>"The things you did did matter anon, all my relationships ended very bad and I don´t want to risk our friendship"
>keep sending voicenotes while crying talking about how much I suffer because of her
>she stops answering
>a few hours pass and I manage to think clearly again
>apologise, we both do
>agree to talk about things in school next day
>monday
>we don´t talk and avoid eachother
>she and her bf get back together that very same day
>decide that I have had enough, that day was the day I really started to stop liking her, try to be away from her
>one week later her bf sends me a message, stay away from her, etc
>whatever man
She eventually broke up with the guy because some legal shit about the dad of the bf harassing the mother of the girl I liked and the bf started to blackmail the girl I liked with some shit, etc
