feeling lonely tonight feels thread /b/ ?
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feeling lonely tonight
feels thread /b/ ?
>>690451384
We're all lonely, Anon.
>be me last night
>think about your life
>think about why you're alone
>why you don't have a gf
>why you don't have a single friend in the world
>it's because you hate people
>you can't stand their presence
>but also it get's hartder and harder to be alone
>think about you never will be happy in life
>hear a couple of people walking down the street having a good time
>you will never be this happy
>you would probably hate everyone of them
>you hate people
>you hate women
>you even hate children
>you realised that you became this kind of person you would have hated as a child
>realize that you really hate yourself
>you hate yourself so hard
>>690451384
>>690451384
Im not lonely, i have the voices in my head
>>690451384
I'm a little slow. What exactly is happening here?
Did the little girl realize what she did or.
>>690451384
Bump
>>690452120
i guess so... sad
i often feel that way, with my parents, and quite everyone who would ever act kindly with me
I love these threads so much
Yet i also hate them.
Love all the genuine people in here,trying to help eachoter even though you dont know the person youre talking to. And probably never will.
Yet I also hate them, Because when they 404 I'm all alone again, Waiting for the next thread to come...
>>690453098
i'm staying here for at least 2 more hours /b/ro...
if it gets 404'd we'll make one more so we stay together, mates
>>690451834
So quit being a bitch and go make some friends.
>>690453621
Good to hear anon
So whats your story?
>>690453485
The monsters in my head never sleep
>>690451834
>>690453485
And I dream of
Horrible things
That inhabit nighmares
They come out late at night
But they don,t creep up the stairs
They,re not stopped by locked doors
Or bothering by your barred windows
No
They,re invited by your fears
And they,ll crawl right in through your soul
All I know is I have my doubts...
>>690451384
Someone tell me what the fucking point of these 'feels" threads are.
They seem like self-inflicting retardation to me.
>>690453913
Well spoken anon.
You wrote that?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Web007rzSOI&list=FLo5Nj3zCWYCIYcBow9ySYiQ&index=171
This one always gets me.
>>690451384
aww poor girl has a mom who cares about her :((( such sad
>>690454239
Yup. Song I,m writing.
Glad you like.
Definitely true to my (our collective) head
![[-b-rothers] Family.jpg](https://i.imgur.com/rPGpi4y.jpg "[-b-rothers] Family.jpg")
>>690454039
that is the point
/b/ is a family and the friends we never had
>>690451384
Both of those cunts need to die. Who the fuck plays the fucking wii? Faggots
>>690454533
Lol and we are such assholes.
But you can always come back fresh.
>>690451969
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMH0dy7W1-8&list=FLo5Nj3zCWYCIYcBow9ySYiQ&index=201
>>690451834
I'll be your friend, Anon.
>>690454496
Be sure to post it somewhere anon.
What kind of genre will it be?
>>690454533
Seems fucking stupid to me.
It's nothing more than a breeding ground for pity.
Which is exactly the opposite of what most of you faggots need.
>>690454337
I love pendulum, it made me cry the first time I saw it, and it still does every now and then
>>690455016
explain your solutions, then
what do "we" need ? and how do we get it ?
>>690453913
>>690454496
That song sucks dick, sorry, man. Not really a fan of whiny, non-rhyming emo shit.
>>690454862
Rock n roll.
Touch of what I call Progressive Rock.
>>690455016
>Talking to each other and trying to make each other happy = breeding ground for pity.
okay
>>690455203
Well that depends on your personal life and every person's issues are unique.
Wallowing in the grief of others 100% will not help you so why even bother?
>>690453913
Nut up son, you sound like one of those edgy teenage boybands
>>690455060
Beat me to it. I love posting this one
>>690451834
> I dont hate anyone
I cannot relate to some people, like everybody, but I dont hate them
>Still only have a few friends
>no gf, always get denied
>still hate me so hard
>>690451834
Find friends who hate as much as you do, comic book shop is a good place to start
>>690455417
Ah sweet
Be sure to post it on here so I can have a listen!
Im really curious
>>690455305
Ur opinion.
I think its not exactly whiney, more trying to paint a picture of how doubts comes from inside
>>690454239
>people forget about me
Well if you always expect them to talk to you and never engage them yourselfe of course you'll be forgotten.
>>690451834
Ayo, stranger, if you need a friend, I could try to be one. Even if you need someone to verbally abuse, I'm available for that, too. That applies to the rest of you faggots as well.
http://steamcommunity.com/id/sissyboyslim
Add me, fags.
>>690455453
That's simply not what happens in these threads though.
People just whine and cry about their own faults/insecurities instead of making a legitimate effort to fix them.
It's basically laziness and narcissism.
Can anyone give me a hand?
My best friend is mentally insane, she hears voices in her head and they make her go in trances and try and make her run in front of cars and do suicide and so on. But she's still fine. I feel like my own emotions are petty as I'm just doing bad in my education and job and I struggle to keep myself smiling.
I don't go councilling as I feel as if my problems are nothing and they don't matter but yet I'm still miserable. Any help?
>>690451384
>I have girlfriend
>I attend to university and I will get my Master Degree basically for free and I get some money each month for it
>My parents love me
>I have decent PC, internet conntection, PS3 and awesome TV... Lot of ORYGINAL GAMES
>Everything I ever wanted when I was younger
>I'm healthy 24 old male
>0 debt, some money at bank account
>Got some friends
>everything seems to be fine
>But...
>But I'm sad.
>I'm angry.
>No one listens to me.
>No one
>I can't fucking be angry, shout or be sad because it's always "U DO THIS" or "You are sad? Why"
>And I don't remember how many times I felt like that girl from OP's picture...
>And I write this greentext shit with this song in the background
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zLfCnGVeL4
>>690455843
True.
But after about a month of getting in contact with someone it wouldnt hurt seeing my phone light up once a while. But that never happens. I guess im just not interesting enough.
>>690455772
Imma call it Doubts.
I get its emo, but I sing about what I know and a chunk of that is introspective, loss, and all the greentext feels on here
>>690455968
Wasn't referring to this thread in particular. Post above you is talking about become friends with people. Doesn't look like pity to me.
>>690455772
Whats the site we can upload recordings to?
I know of soundcloud but there was a simple voice one someone was using to do Patrick Wathburn (?).
>>690454484
You can't possibly be that ignorant.
>>690456261
I made an e-mail to talk to anons and stuff, you could send it to this adress when its done.
>[email protected]
All the anons that feel like they need someone to talk to are free to shoot me an e-mail.
>>690456569
Vocaroo?
Ella
>>690456792
Nifty.
Now I hafta drag my guitar and amp outta my car.
Being lazy since my last gig
>>690456401
You really think chatting with some random over the Steam client will solve any problems?
Look at this post image: >>690456157
That quote is literally retarded. It has no fucking meaning. It's totally irrelevant yet you sadfags take bullshit like this as gospel.
My point is you're not helping yourselves.
>>690451834
So then stop being a faggot and stop hating yourself. Go do what your child self would have wanted you to do.
>>690457114
What all of us that are depressed need is to get over it.
Simple as fuck,
But...
Not at all easy.
>>690457114
Talking is allways better than sitting by yourself, having noone to talk to. Even if it are some random anons on the internet. Getting it of your chest might help, It might not. But I dont mind trying. Its not like I have anything better to do.
>>690457326
This may seem like an asshole post.
But Its kinda that simple.
>>690456157
God fucking bless...
That picture though
>>690456854
>Ella
>>690457449
Venting. As opposed to bottling
>>690457633
Sorry tl:dr
>>690457326
>just stop hating urself
>really guise just stop being depressed i mean wtf lelele
i agree that that´s the goal, but the idea that you can just "get over it" is so fucking ignorant and stupid, that´s not how depression works
This ones long, but it's a nice story.
>>690457724
Had friend, friend died, left gift. The end.
>>690457872
>>690451969
Most of us on here don't even had the pleasure of a girlfriend. we proberly never will,.. you lost a girlfriend... that's normal. gett over it.
>>690457902
Thx. Ouch. Touching.
>>690457622
Yeah, just dumping random pics out of my folder. Might have some cringy shit in there. sorry for that anons
>>690457968
>>690457548
goddamnit, this shit is so hard to listen.
>tfw your family members are proudly dimwitted and ignorant that you have to deal with on a constant basis
...and i'm not even really that intelligent
>>690458047
>>690457373
It's not that easy but coming onto 4chan and reading sad stories isn't going to help you I can promise you that.
>>690457449
Look man I've been depressed before and contemplated suicide.
Hanging out in these threads is the wrong direction.
If you need someone to talk to don't come here because all people do is try to make each other feel bad.
>>690458116
>>690458084
Proudly dimwitted?
Thats so typical of alot of people.
At least they aren,t oblivious I guess
>>690458008
It is worth a read /b/ro
>>690458145
Then what is the right direction?
If i leave this thread im all alone again. And thats something I still cant cope with. and going out is out of the question. Its 3am, and cant sleep because of my Insomnia....
>>690457548
oh my god..
>>690458145
I dunno. I see alot of good people here in threads like these.
The jerks and trolls don,t usually bother with these threads.
Overall 4chan is full of people exercising their right to be an asshole online. But theres some legit cool people if you ignore the trolls
>>690452120
>I'm a little slow
I believe the word is sociopathic.
>>690457724
You should read it, its a great feel.
>>690458482
Best suggestion is to get an offline hobby like painting or writing.
Cuz then you could share it without even going out. Find some sites, upload pics or words. Booom. Now ur being creative, getting feedback, and occupying ur time during insomnia
>>690458231
meh, it still makes me want to kill myself because it feels inevitable that i will be stuck in this situation for the rest of my life.
>>690458775
Can't draw, or paint for this. Ive tried it plenty of times. Yet I only get frustrated. And writing might be a possibility, Yet it is hard for me as english is not my native language. and I hate my native language, as its dull and boring
>>690458268
>>690458744
Ehh I,m in a good mood right now.
Got lobster rolls cooking and a beer in the hand.
Gonna record my song and send it to that anon later. Piss off my neighbors with loud music. Do some pushups to feel the burn. A little video gaming to end the night.
I can dig it.
>>690451834
why are you thinking about my life you fucking creeper
>>690458879
Sucks. Find a way to escape. Good luck.
>>690459022
no language is dull or boring....
>>690453485
I personally am distracted by saying sleep twice. I would have to say Monsters do not sleep under the bed, they live inside your head.
CHEER UP EVERYONE!
WE WILL ALL DIE AND CLOSE TO ALL OF US WILL EXPERIENCE SOME FORM OF PAIN AS IT HAPPENS!
>>690459022
Checked.
Anything else you enjoi or have a talent for?
The hardest part is starting from a dead stop.
Maintaining is pretty easy if you can get into the habit.
>>690451834
That's part of it. I find I'm judged harder for being conservative, not extremely materialistic too though. I want to save people from this corrupt world and make them realize the error of it all. It's difficult to articulate because I've done too many drugs in the past, I'm not proud of it but at the time I thought I needed them to feel better through my solace.
>>690459333
trips says the truth
>>690455615
No its the opposite... everything works in opposites darkness isn't part of the light
>>690459388
sounds fucked up, But im honestly as talentless as comes. Not saying this out of pity, just being honest.
World is shithole, Im leaving soon. I promise.
>>690458482
>Then what is the right direction?
I dunno anon what's your problem? Maybe I can help.
I'm a 28 year old married combat veteran. I've traveled the world. I was a virgin until I was 26. I was a Recon Marine. I've fought and nearly been killed. I've been cheated on by the one that I love. I beat the shit out of those people that she was with (one was a close friend of mine). I have a son who is about a year and a half old.
What's your problem? If I can offer some advice I will.
Have my parent's smiling dog. Hope it cheers up someone
All I've been thinking about today is hanging myself. I have a nuse tied. I don't care anymore
>yfw you realize being an adult is realizing EVERYONE has your problems ;D
>>690459584
Please don't. I don't know you, but I care about you, Anon. You are my friend.
>>690459625
He smiles, for he doesn't know. I envy him.
>>690459640
don't do it
>>690459699
>Everyone has clinical depression
okay
>>690459582
Hey first step is no bullshit/honesty
It,d suck to try and be a master unicycler if u ain,t got balance.
So fuck talent. What do you enjoy? Even if you suck, can you learn more to suck less?
>>690459863
lmao
Clinical Depression is a disorder of chronically not being able to handle your shit get over it faggoot
Everyone is fucking depressed and suicidal
>>690459777
It's a she. They have a male dog too but he's nutty and runs round the garden when someone pulls cello tape or when the phone rings because of his previous life
>>690459599
>checked
Also thank you for your service.
To be quite honest, my life is pretty good. Have a caring mother. roof above my head, and enough food on my plate. Yet no matter what I do i still feel empty inside. Im not even a social neet or something. I just have no desire to do anything and nothing brings pleasure anymore. Im just fucked in the head or something.
>>690459507
We both no that's just not true
>>690451384
I'm not lonely, I'm alone, just the way I like it.
>>690459640
Don't do it Anon.
>>690455772
"2:37 AM"
An addendum, by anon
The following minute awaits those acquainted with time's ceaseless march -- the all-too-familiar forward gallop into the night's oily maw.
~
A moment softens into another, and another, and another, tormenting those alone and sober enough to notice when they're not tracing the outline of a phantom
~
It's a Trail of Solace.
~
It's 2:38.
>>690451384
>can't connect with people.
>stopped talking to all my friends
>won't get help because I feel like shit
>mother and father are disappointed in me
>only friends are faggots in an abusive relationship
Starting uni felt like a new chance, some real potential to get my life sorted and not be such an autist. Instead I just know I'm a useless fuck and shut myself off from the world.
At least vidia is okay
>>690451384
I don't get it, what the fuck is "tmp, tmp, tmp, btam" supposed to mean?
>>690451834
I'm a fat pig on top of all of that. I ate because I didn't care as a child. Now I'm some slob and I have no motivation for changing it, let alone getting up in the morning.
>>690451384
Well this is it. I've never thought I'd be as desperate as to ask /b/ for help, but here it goes.
> be me
> be a fairly intelligent dude (I think)
> have always set insanely high standards to myself ("I've got to be a success, so today I will only work on this and that to increase my knowledge, any time used for other stuff is wasted")
> needless to say, I could never live up to my standards, and when I had success or got positive feedback I just brushed it off and told myself it's still not enough
> the last two years of high school (here in Germany the final two years are used for preparation to your Abitur (diploma you need for uni)) were terrible, I had little to no friends and was universally regarded as a huge weirdo because of my eccentric behaviour and beliefs
> everybody just memorised the shit we had to do for the diploma, vomited it out at the tests and forgot it immediately and had modest success with it while the intelligent guys (knew some people who felt the same way as I did) became frustrated with this system (knowledge is treated as a means to an end in our schools, not something you should value)
> As the finals near, all the achievers becomes more and more smug, secluding themselves and believing themselves to be the next CEOs already while I just struggle along, completing the tests mediocrely, although I could to better
> However, zero self-motivation, constantly depressed
> end of high school, mediocre grades, don't go to the prom and end all contact to my former classmates because I absolutely despise them
> Finally go to a psychologists to have my problems solved
> He diagnoses me with OCPD, but writes OCD on my diagnosis, noting that "medication is harder to get paid for by health insurance for OCPD patients because the universal consensus is that personality disorders can't be completely cured"
> mfw my shrink just mentioned casually I'm a hopeless case
>>690460011
Ground breaking news, Anon. You better tell a reputable mental health organization, you dumb nigger.
>>690460173
Beautiful anon.
written by you? or quoted?
>>690451384
Don't get it
>>690460066
What's your life like?
What are your hobbies?
How old are you?
What do you think causes your sadness?
>>690459625
Thanks, anon
>this amount of self-pity
honestly most of you guys should be glad, that you have a roof above your head and aren't dying off starvation or some desease instead of whining because of some bitch
>>690456157
this picture got to me really bad.
i just wish i could forget you know hehe
>>690451384
dont feel alone OP there are some ppl in the world that needs u :)
>>690451834
I actually don't feel comfortable around other people. nice try tho
>>690452224
i miss dat boi so much.
>>690460607
School then work en than either browsing /b/ or playing some games. Go out to friends once a while.
hobbies are limited, Mostly playing games.
im 18 years young.
And I honestly have no qlue. Feel especially shitty because its fathers day, And my Dbag father left 3 years ago. and I havent spoken to him since.
>>690459073
Oh, enjoy it then bro, have a great day.
>>690458697
I still dont get it. What does thr TMP TMP TMP BTAM meant to be. I cant think what it sounds like
>>690452228
sounds bitchy as fuck.
>>690452224
Can i get the original please? Thanks.
>>690460945
Ty. Almost slept through it.
You too anon
>>690461016
Walking up stairs and closing door
>>690460784
That's usually not the sole reason though, just the push needed to fall into deeper depression.
>>690460784
Waaaaaaahhhh, mooommmyyy!!! dum peeeple r cryin on the internet
to anyone who can relate, I sincerely hope it gets easier for you.
>>690454484
I thought like that, but then I realized.
The mom just drops the game and doesnt bother to interact with the kid.
![[People] [Self] Don't Bother Others.jpg](https://i.imgur.com/nzQHvLo.jpg "[People] [Self] Don't Bother Others.jpg")
>>690459761
what is wrong with you, anon ?
why would you care about someone you don't even know ? you never even met ? you would even know if he would commit suicide...
your post fucking killed me, bro... because i know no one would truly feel that about me...
call me a faggot, an emofag or whatever, i guess i am...
i hate that world, i hate myself :(
>>690456792
You done goofed. Prepare for an avalanche of gore and cp. It's a shame but you know it will happen.
>>690459584
I don't know who you are, but please don't do it. Life may be at its absolute worst but you just have to stick it out and beat it. I believe in you Anon.
>>690460405
forgot face
Also
> mfw uni is approaching and I try to learn as much as I can about my major (computer science, actually I'm really interested in that, but every hobby I pick up immediately gets so important to me that I get frustrated over it) but of course can't live up to my ridiculous standards
> mfw I'm really scared high school will repeat itself
>>690461152
Then why is the girl said. She feels bad for her mum or something
>>690461316
If im able to help 1 person, its worth all the gore and filth.
>>690459761
Thanks... But we're just bunch of losers trying to express our feelings on some stupid internet forum. This is so fucking miserable. Only sad peopole visit feels threads, yet they are swarming with peopole.
Just look at it. There are no friends or enemies here. Just souls screaming theirs feelings into the void of 4chan. It doesn't help, yet we're still screaming. But our bodies remain silent, because there is no one to listen. Plenty of people can hear you, no one ever listens. Only void listens to our cries. Even now, I'm not trying to respond to your post. I'm throwing my feelings into the void like a garbage they are. But it feels kind of nice. Writing about your feelings makes you stop focusing on them. For a while. I'm not planning on killing myself, but I just wouldn't mind never waking up...
>>690461186
sorry did i hurt your feelings ? :(
I post this stoned dog, maybe it'll make someone happy
>>690457548
>why'd you do it?
>>690461421
I hope it doesn't but it probably will.
I have friends, but i dont have FRIENDS (that person/people that truly get you)
It's like your on an island by yourself in the middle of a crowd
Anybody else have the same feels?
>>690461302
This is why I pity people who can live alone.
Don't rely on others
Please don't.
>>690460552
pushing people away, cannot help it but desperately don't want them to go
>>690460061
She's cool. I wish I could run around and don't care about all this bullshit. And by bullshit, I mean life...
I only find fake friends. That's it. That's my problem.
>>690461735
Envy, rather.
Wrong choice of words because my mind's in a million places.
>>690457548
only reason im still here
i have a 13 year old sister
This album right here, I know it's not edgy metal but give it a try. Helps get you through the day. Terribly sad but comforting at the same time
https://youtu.be/0cVFyzUV6ak
>>690454533
anyone find out who this guy was
Maybe we are here because we love the pain.
Maybe our despair is our beloved goal.
Maybe we will never be happy because to us this is our joy in life, to be lonely, sad and wistful.
Maybe we take pleasure in our self-loathing because we are addicted to it.
And just maybe, we will never escape our missery because we and not others than we are our prison in this life.
>>690455203
well I know I need a job
and some pussy
>>690457548
brutal.
one of the only things stopping me from seriously considering suicide is because even though I want my pain to stop, I don't want to give everyone else pain as well
>>690457548
Fuck you I just started crying like a little cunt, because I realized that my sister called the ambulance when I tried to kill myself last year....
Oh my fucking god man
Feels like the right place to ask this: all feels considered, how do we enjoy life ? I know no one there has a clean answer but probably scattered clues. People usually say we should do what we enjoy, the problem is these things we get tired of them, and then the boredom settles in again. I feel as schopenhauer described, oscillating between pain and boredom, even though i do my best to keep diverted. What is the cure to the boredom ? I don't mind the pain, i'm used to it, but that's the fucking problem i get used to everything and it becomes tasteless so fast that i'm scared i'll spend my whole life trying to find occupations until i die. How can the 'things i enjoy doing' stop being desperate attemps to keep boredom away and start being what everybody makes it out to be, side dishes in the meal a happy life is like ?
>>690461979
omg nooo, let the most perfect fucking girl go by not saying anything
>>690457548
Holy shit anon
>>690462206
To enjoy life you have to be happy. Just happy. For no reason. I'm not happy. I'm sad.
its better to feel pain, than nothing at all, the opposite of love is indifference
>>690451834
>big money
>big booty bitches
>that shit gon be death of me
>i pray to a c-note
>my mama gave up hope
>can't stand myself
>>690462031
Beautifull so far.
Will surely listen to it entrily.
Thanks alot anon.
Have a wonderfull day!
>>690461979
I said it to her, she said "i dont like you"
Telling her is a 50/50, actually, this is the first time i man the fuck up, it feels great, now I know that this is the easyiest way to do this thing.
The bad part is that still hurts being rejected and alone.
>>690451384
That's retarded.
>>690457548
stuff like this used to make me feel something.
not anymore.
>>690451834
This describes me perfectly, what the fuck?
>>690462661
>not being a college student
>>690462206
Be happy, discover new things, go to parties, meet new people. Anon, look at the bright side of every existing shit
>>690462563
This describes me perfectly, what the fuck?
>>690460935
You seem like a pretty normal 18 year old until this:
>And my Dbag father left 3 years ago
You shouldn't speak to him in my opinion. Any man that abandons his children is not a man.
You need to accept that your parents are just people (like you) and they make mistakes but what your father did is in my opinion unforgivable. Forget him and move on with your life.
It seems like you lack direction so although this may seem cliche I think you should join the military.
You will get a lot of great experiences and I guarantee you the friends you make will be 1000x better than any you have now.
>>690461307
I care about everyone. I may not be a good person, but I'll be damned before I stop trying to be.
I love you, Anon.
>>690460784
You're wrong.
One of the saddest realisations in modern society is, that the poor, hard working guy wants to be rich and the rich, hard working guy yearns for the "simple life".
Until a certain point, you do get happier with more money. But after that, new problems can arise. And they do.
>>690462007
>>690457548
Yeah, kinda me too, i was suicidal years ago, but now listen to this, I dont want to my sisters (14yo and 21yo) find my dead body and suffer from that reason, that shit suck, its selfish (I think) only think in your suffer, because, when you die, they are going to suffer too.
>>690451384
I have nightmares that are so vivid and awful that I don't even want to sleep anymore.
I drink every night so I forget my nightmares, and sometimes during my days I can't even tell if I'm awake.
>>690462834
Yeah I havent had contact with him after he left us.
And I am in no state to join the military. For one i would need to leave my mother behind, which is something that would kill her. And secondly i have the build of a fucking peanut. and thirdly I would probably kill myself the second I would get a loaded gun in my hand.
>>690462685
this.
I felt nothing during this record.
Its just you know... I cant believe that someone would cry about me.
>>690462661
what about insomnia, perhaps caused by any of these but possibly many other things. I remember the digital clock in my bedroom as a child. It was always the middle of the night, I could not get up, bunk beds, I could not go to sleep but I did not know what any of these three things were.
>>690463050
>e
hey anon, I had those a lot to. I feel you bro. just know that youre not alone. I've lived through that shit my self. for me it lasted for about a month. even now though, I remember all of my dreams and night mares like it was yesterday
>>690462183
Jew nigger dont make your sister suffer again
>>690451834
Ur just a fgt seeking for attention
>>690462183
way to ruin her life you fucking loser
kill yourself for real next time
I feel like I cared too much about peopole who don't give a fuck about me. I feel like I'm going to stop caring at all. I feel like I'm going to regret it. I will never find balance.
>>690462866
At least you don't have two kids and your baby mama's late and you're not up all night slowly getting your money right until the cops come.
>>690461396
She feels lonely, anon
She feels unloved, unimportant.
She pushed her loved ones way.
She knows it's her own fault.
Can't you relate, anon?
>>690460784
go. you are not needed here
>>690463490
Yeah i guess i can :(
>>690456049
Stay strong anon. Your problems aren't nothing, seek help if you need it bro
>>690463173
>i would need to leave my mother behind
Can she not care for herself? If that is the case you will make money that you can send to her.
>And secondly i have the build of a fucking peanut.
This doesn't matter. You will build strength while you are in trust me. You won't be the only string bean in boot camp.
>I would probably kill myself the second I would get a loaded gun in my hand.
I don't think so. You strike me as a pretty intelligent guy who just need some guidance. These type of people are the ones who grow into the strongest leaders.
>>690463541
don't wanna ruin the self-pity party right?
>>690460099
Just wait until wake up and start to cry uncontrollably because of how you've wasted your life. Every day you think about ways to die as painless as possible, but it always ends with you alone in your room doing nothing. Then tears start to emerge without control. You gun for the shower to avoid any neighbours hearing your intense bawls. There you sit for over an hour with ice cold water dripping on your hideous freezing body to make you stop the tears but the thing you'd wish for the most is to disappear from this world without a trace. However you're too much of a pussy to actually go through with it. You then crawl back to bed and have the only friend left in your life come and cuddle with you, with her worrisome eyes, hairy body and wet snout barking and licking your face as your sobbing becomes louder and louder. This happened to me last christmas and since I've promised myself not to cry about myself anymore. My dog was the only one keeping me somewhat sane during the dark and cold winter. I'm trying
>>690463247
How'd you make it stop? I've been having vivid dreams since I was a kid, but in the last couple years it's just devolved into awful nightmares.
>>690451384
That third pic. When she realizes that whe is playing on a Wii =(
>>690462748
kek
>>690463676
No my mother is mentally unstable, which is something she needs help with, which i provide daily. And helping her around in the house and stuff. money wise we're allright. And to be quite honest im really not inteligent whatsoever. Not self pity, or bringing myself down. just honesty.
Atleast I know im not smart, so that makes me not retarded aswell right? and yeah I could work on my build. Go out to the gym and stuff might help.
>>690463713
At least you have a home
>>690462132
Ironically, the ropes will set us free.
>>690463344
Anon, let me tell ya something. I'm tired of caring about people too, I almost don't fell anything, I'm just scared, almost everything I feel is fear. Don't be like me, you got to find the right people to care about. Do it, because I can't
>>690457548
it's shit like this that makes me not care about killing myself
I know my family wouldn't care
even if they did then fuck them, I hate them
I WANT to hurt my family
>>690462406
so there really is no reason to be happy ? Is it like a gene or something that those of us who arent born with just miss out ?
>>690462771
I reckon i enjoy these things when i do them, but it's like everything else: it feels like a diversion. Discovering new things isn't endless, activities considered enjoyable are often as enjoyable as they are popular, wich means even though there's a shitload of things to do, after having applied that filter and that of your personal preferences it dries out. Going to parties, talking to people is a drop in the ocean of time you are supposed to enjoy as a whole. I dont want to rely on diversion anymore, i want a grand truth, something grand enough for my feels to be moved, not day to day techniques to stand life...
>>690463666
Thanks Anon. You stay safe too
>>690464119
At least your mother's not a crackwhore and you don't have to feed your little sister by begging because you're too young to work.
...
>>690464039
You're only eighteen, you haven't seen half of it. There's no way of getting over it, you just need to actively be the person you want to be. Think about yourself, are you happy? No? Time to change. Humans can do that.
>>690464071
yep, so I should be happy because after all, I have a home, like 99,7% of people in my country. We should all be happy, right? Even though we have some of the highest suicide rates in the world. Fuck us for being smug enough to have feelings.
>>690464564
But I have no reason not to be happy. And I wouldnt know what to change to do. Like not even the 'fun' stuff is appealing anymore.
>>690461704
Brother... I feel the same. So called friends hang out only when I'm needed, when I'm not, they hang out without me, behind my back. When I'm with them I hear them whispering about places to go without me... Im feeling so lonely...
>Be me
>19 yo
>2013 Best friend killed herself
>Friends will always be together
>2015 Found a girlfriend
>Feelsbetterman.jpg
>Now friends became stupid
>My girlfriend wants a "break"
>Feel more and more alone
>Have some terrible headache all the time
>Develope mental illness
>Fail school year
>Became impulsive, agressive, hateful
>Lose a lot a weight
>Always tired
>I am done
>I am so done
>>690459777
Dogs don't fucking smile you retard. Get your head out of your ass. This moping shit isn't going to help you. Dogs bare their teeth slightly during respiration, nausea or aggression.
>>690464039
Well there's your problem. You're wasting your youth caring for your mother.
Is there no one else who can watch her? Does she require your attention?
btw going to the gym and exercising will help. It makes people feel good.
>>690461979
>>690462552
Any anons have any advice on how to man the fuck up and fight these kinds of feelings?
>>690461306
I always thought it was because the girl loves her mother but cant show it to her because she is too inveigled in games then regrets her decisions to push her away.
>>690464835
losing and surviving to it
>>690457724
millennial with millennial IQ detected
>>690464807
Nope there is noone else to watch her. Yet I have all the freedom I want. Its not that I am obligated to take care of her. Its that I want to because nothing makes me happier than seeing my mother happy. And yeah ill look if im able to find a gym nearby, Thats some solid advice. Thanks anon!
>>690463600
No you can't. You're nervous and sweaty just typing out those words because you're such a sheltered neetbeard that you have to lie on an image board to other anonymous posters.
>>6 months sober (Piss trash wasted for 2 years. Doctor says liver is fine though)
>>Stopped smoking
>>18 months without a panic attack
>>Still feel like something is wrong. Can't feel anything. Nothing is enough.
>>Girlfriend I've lived with can't deal with my depression. Leaves, moves away and fucks some dude. Calls me and tells me she made a mistake, wants me back. I tell her I need time.
>>A couple months later, I decide that she deserves another chance. She was amazing before all this. I call her up.
>>She pulls this bullshit 'I feel too horrible about what I did to you. You made me hate myself for what I did, and I still do. I can't be with you or anyone now.'
>>Panic attacks come back
>>We end up talking for a week and then she ignores my messages. I still send her one every day.
>>She finds out through my friends that I'm on vacation for a week but my plans fell through, she messages me. She'd like to get me a flight somewhere fun to pay me back(She works for an airline).
>>Pay me back. Like I'm some prostitute she used to pay her bills when we lived together. Pay me back. Because I wrote her resume for her and essentially got her the job. Pay me back. Because when she first moved I was going to follow her when I got a job there and she was supposed to find an apartment for both of us in her new city and I gave her the first/last/deposit. I paid for the apartment she now lives in and ignores me from.
>>Zero hours sober
>>Smoking
>>Minimum one panic attack a week.
>>690460792
>>690461704
Same boat. I don't have that one friend thats always there to cheer you up and is always by your side and gets you.
>>690462603
yeah been there, done that. Too bad I'm still drinking everyday to forget her, yet she keeps hunting my dreams. She didn't say she don't like me tho, she said she's seeing someone else. I think it's worse, since it left me with a glimpse of hope, that one day they will brake up and I will have my second shot
>>690465281
Damn.
one of my favorite
>>690464725
Video games aren't the only thing. You can watch any old movie online and most of the ones still floating around are amazing. But you have to stick out the years of your puberty that are tough because you'll come out the other end and you'll be happier than you are now. It's chemistry, not esoteric happiness. But you have to work on yourself. Nothing is free.
>>690461053
>>690465215
Well in that case I recommend finding a job in a field you enjoy and throwing yourself into it.
Work your ass off and when you have an opportunity hit the gym or go for a run.
If you need friends hang out with people from work otherwise pick a bar and become a regular there or join a local club.
Point is: stop feeling sorry for yourself.
>>690465490
Dont feel bad bro, this shit is always this bad, well, not always, but you understand.
I get over her actually pretty soon, getting rejected let me understand that that shit is not the end of the world.
So, keep up with your life bro, I know it sucks being rejected by every girl we like, but someday, maybe one will say yes.
Hope dies last, and so do I.
>>690464263
I dunno. Being happy doesn't depend on you. We control our actions, not feelings.
> In highschool
> Dozens of tests coming up
>Predicted high grades , massive underachiever
>Have no motivation to do anything , even gaming (which I have an addiction to) sometimes.
>Constantly tired and out of energy
>Cant bring myself to do anything productive since I see no worth in myself but yet only please others
>Already lost "her" after she cheated on me with my best mate
>I am done with life but I don't want to end it because of the impact on my family and friends
>So socially anxious that I can barely meet new people or even talk to my own friends sometimes
Im already fucked.
>>690460011
No need to be a fucking jew about it.
>>690465980
Yeah, Im currently fully focused in my education. So I can find a job I truely enjoy. Doesnt matter if it pays much or not. And no I have plenty of friends I do dumb shit with. Its just that it doesnt feel fun or exciting anymore. And yeah I need to stop feeling sorry, yet thats easier said then done...
>>690464780
That's just like me... Thanks anon.
>>690464950
I just realized something else. It might be that the mom fell down the stairs after dropping the game.
>>690458427
fuck stop posting this shit
>>690465860
i know this is a really stupid question, but i dont get this picture 100%, can someone explain it to me?
>>690464317
At least. But that doesn't mean I have no reason to be sad. My life is not bad at all. It's just sad.
>>690466270
>yet thats easier said then done...
You're right about that but you're a grown ass man now and it's time to start acting like one.
You know what you need to do so just do it.
Don't let me catch you in these threads again.
>>690466504
He has depression and self-doubt and all sorts of anxiety and insecurities. They haunt him.
He meets a girl who clears his mind, organizes the files in his brain. It's still there, but it's dulled. Muted.
The girl leaves and all the intrusive thoughts now revolve around her.
>>690459625
Doges love unconditionally
oh how I've missed these threads. always living with a mask of happiness makes me often even forget how i really feel deep down. it's somehow satisfying to break down and realize how shit i actually feel. its strange
>>690466504
>he's upset about life, being a lonely shit, with a shitload of insecurities and worries
>a girlfriend comes and makes life good again
>then she leaves and all he thinks about is her
OR
>guy meets girl
>girl doesnt like him back
>>690466504
He was a mess before he met her and she made it all go away. But she left and now he's a mess again. Typical example of projecting your problems onto others. But I still know that feel.
>>690466504
It doesn't make sense and it's not designed to.
It's simply designed to get a share/like from sad people.
>>690466671
Sure thing anon.
With that said, im off.
Have a wonderul life.
Thanks alot anon.
>>690463939
I refuse.
After all, there's no point in death without a cause. If I'd go down that route, it'd be the route of a death seeker. Cross the mob. Save a life. Live on the run.
At least my last moments I would be more alive than I have my entire life.
>>690466504
>boy is insecure as most are
>boy meets girl who calms his mind, gives him a focus which is the girl
>girl is now gone and now all of boy's previous insecurities revolve around why he lost her
>>690467246
then you don't understand how does it feel to want to die
CRAWWWLINGGGGGG INNNN MY SKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN
>>690467438
You're right. I'm not there.
I'm empty. But I'm not there.
![543143_3621928085736_831815643_n[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/bsUTv5F.jpg "543143_3621928085736_831815643_n[1].jpg")
ITT: a bunch of future supreme gentlemen. Seriously, you'll always be alone. You are born alone, you will die alone. Your whole life you'll wear as many masks as you meet people. Does it matter? No. We're all trapped inside. But there are certain pleasures that make life good. A nice meal, an interesting conversation with a stranger, animals, books, hobbies, drawing, music, nature etc.
Just get out there, do whatever the fuck you want because life is too short. If you're lonely, get a dog. People will come and go. You'll be the only one along for the ride in the end, so pamper yourself because if you take care of yourself, you'll always be in good company.
Man I want to just unload about shit right now, but I can't because the girl at the center of my loneliness comes here sometimes, fuck...
>>690467438
Never felt like wanting to die, but I have felt like what is the point of life. Is there a difference? If so can you explain? I already have a basic thought of the difference but I'd like to hear from you
This is a reply to all of you FIND THE TRUTH THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE.it wont make you happy but atleast you will be free
>>690467632
good for you. being empty is bearable. feeling like a goddamn black hole where only things to look forward are entirely selfish desires like interesting video games or doing more drugs, etc
I have no idea why really, but I tried writing something down for the first time in my life, here it is:
Dark times came upon,
Destroyed the roots of a sane man's truths,
He was forsaken for his lies and shallow hearth,
As he lied in a burden of it's own forgotten insight,
Gone a bit insane in as he walked down his lane,
But as he got back on his feet,
The experience he shared with others,
Was told to be never the same,
Since he was both the marble of his own defeat,
And the hearth he grew in dark times,
Was shared with greater joy with fellow men,
Then they would like to ever admit
I don't know if this is utter garbage or fine for someone that literary just wrote this in 3 minutes and never written before in his life
>>690465322
I feel ya anon, broke up with the only women i've ever loved, she wanted to come back, i said no, and now i regret it everyday, smoking at 3am, looking through the window with a glass of whisky in my right hand
>>690467976
this plep doesn't even stay up until the sun rises again
get on my level
>>690467677
sick dubs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G-gQ3aAdhIo
Okay guys, it's my second father's day.
I can't see my daughter, I miss her more than I could possibly put into words.
I want to die, but I don't want to leave my daughter.
My life is in utter shambles from what her mother did to me.
I hope the rest of you Anons are having a better fathers day..
Pic related.
>>690468091
>>690468084
blessed by the king himself. I read his manifesto, it was hard finishing it but totally worth it
>>690460784
>hi i have a lot of money and no capacity to feel
ftfy
>>690467917
Escapes. A mental override, to change your immediate thoughts. Delay the darkness until you have the strength to brave it.
>>690451836
This hit home, hard. She told me i looked cool today. It's the first, and last, time anyone has ever said that to me. I miss her so much.
>>690457633
read it, damn beautiful
>>690456049
I struggled with this kind of guilt in my childhood. Just because another person's problems are worse than yours, doesn't mean that your problems aren't real. There are people starving and being tortured and raped and probably someone is burning to death right this very second in horrible agony. That doesn't mean depression isn't real, or that your boss isn't a jerk, or that it isn't a struggle to be happy sometimes.
Help others when you can, but don't forget that your problems are real too. Take care of yourself.
>>690467856
its quite different just keeping the status quo intact and actually wanting to just end it.
if you dont really feel anything, you can go every day with a glimmer of hope that some day it will change.
however, if you feel so bad that you start subconsciously acting differently, making people uncomfortable around you, and often ending up staring a monitor with a somewhat burning sensation of depression in your chest, everything starts feeling so shit that it feels better to just let go
i dunno, im bad at wording it. hope you understand somehow what im trying to say
I hate seeing couples. I was at a car dealership the other day and there it was. Asian couple in ecstasy together buying their first car as a couple. I can't even fucking look at that. It makes me feel like a sack of shit.
At bar, bunch of people my age walk in, they're all having fun, I'm sitting there half-tossed by myself. Barmaids only like me because I tip them well. It's not like I'm trying to make passes at them. Their job literally revolves around flirting for tips. Young people, guys and girls, all being loud and having fun, taking pictures, being happy. I'm sitting there with a sad-sack look, hadn't showered or shaved, drinking until I'm way too full and Shayne (waitress) calls me a cab so I can go home and drink some more.
Wake up dehydrated and feeling like shit. Go upstairs for water, sunlight fucking hurts. Go back downstairs for another prolonged period of seclusion and recovery from alcohol.
Go back to work for seven days straight.
Come home.
Repeat.
The odd time I'll end up in the hospital after a suicide attempt, but they won't keep me there yet. I always convince the psychiatrist that I am quite normal and non-psychotic so I can be free and get my alcohol again.
The only thing I ever gave a fuck about was a girl. She cared for a while, but that ended and she went wild. Became a party girl. Good for her, I guess.
The only thing I care about anymore is the drink. I wish it'd just kill me already.
