I have noticed that summer has totally destroyed any feels thread. So let's start one. Post anything pictures,webm,greentext anything.
Dumping what I have
>>690276577
That's not sad. It just means you need to get out more and push yourself to meet new people that don't suck.
>>690276763
>>690276577
>>690276428
>Girl problems
Get off my board
AHEM, Senpai will nvr notice you.
my favorite cause this means so much to me
>>690278110
My dad wanted to stick his dick in my mum's pussy.
>>690278400
And he didnt?
>>690277238
I knew this feel.
I've never been in a relationship, nobody has ever shown any interest in me. I'm quiet and socially awkward. I can barely hold up a conversation with huge effort. Most of my life I've felt very out of place and lonely.
Then I met a girl. For some reason I was able to talk for hours at a time with her. She was kind, smart and caring. I felt a "connection" I have never felt to another person before. She made me stop wanting to die every day, you know. She made me feel like I could actually fit in this world.
I fell for her. She didn't feel the same way. She moved. I can still remember the emptiness I felt when I said goodbye to her.
Now I'm very lonely again and it's getting worse every year.
>>690278614
>>690277757
literally 5 pictures in the thread and you don't even look at them
>>690278741
Was posted before I finished typing my post.
>>690278609
enough to get the daughter he wanted at least, then he accidentally had anouther set of twins. He's not very good at hiding that he didn't want any of us in the first place, other than the daughter.
>>690279629
this is beautiful
>>690276985
Its always been sad times for me
>>690277259
I know the feels
>>690278614
You're the problem
>>690279786
True
>>690279561
kek
>>690278110
Other way around for me
>>690278770
just here to remember you guys, it DOESN'T get better, it really doesn't. you may think so, you may have been fooled by anti suicide propaganda.
but when it comes down to it life's a bitch and then you die. so you might as well die today.
but dont blindly follow my words, just remember when it gets bad, it doesn't get better.
>>690280464
why post this pic? nothing to see here. /b/ is so fucking wierd
>>690278770
PORTUGAL CARALHO
>>690277543
What anime is this?
>>690280821
>>690279347
That show i swear to fucking god that show
>>690280909
>>/reddit/
>>690280392
There it is, the words ive been looking for
>>690280924
Spirited away
Its obligatory
>>690280611
You read this story a hundred times, and every now and again, it tears me up.
>>690280611
it hurts how it costs money for health care which treats the symptoms of our diseases mostly...
fuck this shit man why did i spawn in this crazy mess
>>690277581
strangely relate to this.
But i'm done being okay with it. I prefer to be hated than loved for asking "how your day is going ?". I'm not a human pet.
>>690281405
this guy looks like cia. ha
>>690280924
Spirited Away
>>690280924
Spirited away
I'm out.
thank you /b/ros, I'm going through some stuff at the moment but I guess seeing some people have it worse or are also feeling bad makes me feel a little better
>>690280911
Holy shit, rare do you see a picture that truely speaks a thousand words
>>690281099
Shit
>>690276428
Summer has literally decimated this place.
I've had 10 summers here that weren't this bad.
Summerfags are not an urban legend.
>>690280260
Thank you
Whenever someone asks me if I'm okay, I always answer no or kinda. I expect people to ask why, or at least act like they care. But people get annoyed. Its like they are annoyed that I can't enjoy the life I've been given. If only they knew.
>>690281822
Welcome to b.
Can we post other feels quotes other than " I want her but she doesn't "? I feel nothing when i see those now, i just skip trough
something a friend sent to me after I asked why I wasn't invited out
>>690282158
How was that remotely newfag esq.
>>690282158
Holy shit, rare to see a picture thay truly speaks a thousand words
>>690282253
Being left out of shit is probably the worst feels there is
>>690282253
You should end that friendship. Better to have no friends sometimes
>>690282253
That's fucking harsh, I understand how that feels
>>690282253
Ask what is wrong, if what they want from you is too much then its probably time to get a new friend.
True feels m8
Background kid
>>690282253
Got almost the same text from my closest friend.
I'm the guy in the group everyone just forgets exists.
>>690282783
yeh this was my best friend
>>690280225
Same
>>690282833
>>690282319
That pic is posted all the time, even on YLYL by edgy newfags like u
>>690282253
I don't understand this one.
Very specific kind of feel here.
>>690276773
couldn't wait to post this from the ylyl thread could you
>>690283111
Nice trips
>>690283110
I asked my best friend why I wasn't invited on a night out with the rest of my friends and he replied with this
>>690278110
lol my dad drowned in a rain puddle after avoiding child support for eleven years
Universality: 0/10
>>690276428
May I feel with you, OP?
>>690283110
His friends went somewhere and totally forget to ask him with them, Then he hears about the shit they did afterwards and then OP asked why they didnt ask him with them and they replied with the shit in the picture
I came here crying my eyes out, feeling alone, but I'm not.. some of you feel how I do.. I'm sorry for that, you don't deserve to feel like this. But I wanted to say thank you to everyone, you've made me feel a bit better. <3
>>690282253
Find new friends. Then look at yourself and ask yourself why they did this? Are you boring? Does your personal hygiene lack? It's harsh but you gotta fix yourself.
>>690283503
Its our real home sadly i feel its our only home
>>690283557
Sometimes you cant find any new ones and its then better to have some than none
>>690281025
>HRT
MI HRVATI
The coming shitstorm after the elections is what gives me feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gv9tTnd4Q9E
for anyone that wanna say goodbye like me
>>690276773
Dude wtf wtf wtf
>>690276985
Bob Ross was too good for this world.
Suicide bombers weight more heavy than the non-voters they kill.
Hi /b/
I know you dont like attention whores, but I just wanted to get my feelings out
After my long term girlfriend left me 2 months ago my mental disorders started to resurface, theyve been mostly gone for a while.
I hear voices, I'm paranoid my online friends are getting sick of me.
All I do all day is sit in bed, masturbate, or play video games to try and qwell the thoughts.
Good night anons, I'm afraid my end is nearing and I won't be able to stop it.
>>690284580
He was a really amazing guy, all chill also painting out of nowhere that man had a gift.
>>690282680
~tears.
u win
>>690284876
Watch Naruto.
>>690284876
Keep pluggin along, anon. They went away before, and now anxiety is just triggering them again. They'll be gone soon enough and another fish will emerge from the sea.
asl? :^)
>>690283557
they did it cause I disliked a group of girls and they chose the girls over me
>>690280611
>>690284876
im in the same situation as you, i cant say anything to get your situation better, but go to the gym. It helps a bit.
Good Night anon
>>690285302
Welp sucks to be anyone involved including me.
Find people who have higher morale standarts than me.
I advise you to watch Naruto, because it is encouraging for people who think they are always lonely.
>>690278110
Fuck that.
I learned guitar, outplayed my old man, and he fucking loves me for it.
Suck it.
>>690285649
idk If I could handle being alone + into anime.. Id rather just end it all before I get to that level of neckbeard
>>690284876
its like a loop , untill you decide to quit doing the same shit everyday it wont gona get better. its up to you if you want to let it consume you or get out of your house, get a new job , workout and do anything else that keeps the voices out of your head. get some help before its too late.
>>690285261
i used to belive that theyll be gone soon , but they didnt it took 4 years to get strong enough that i couldnt control it, i had to get help cos i wasnt going to last another year.
>>690285261
I don't know if they will. Theyve been here my whole life, I've also been in distress my whole life, and being with my girlfriend was the only time I've been truely happy. I'm trying to keep on atleast.
23, m, netherlands
>>690285524
fml..I would do the same
>>690280544
Spoken like someone who it has truly never gotten better for. Start living for yourself instead of desperately trying to fit into someone else's life.
Hellu daily remindarr tu stay hydrated. Ty bye
First green text but here goes
>Be me, Anon
>pretty nice childhood, younger brother 3 years younger.
>Bro makes friends, you don't. I sit in corner of nursery with fingers in your ears
>All the other kids won't stop yelling in school, its loud.
>Just want to read away from the noise.
>Parents confused about why I am this quiet social retard so try and encourage
Force
>encourage me to go join social groups and get me piano lessons.
>Eventually go to music school cause I'm good enough apparently, in a choir.
>Still have no friends but I really like the music.
>2 hours of music practice plus regular school. Hard work but it keeps my mind off what is the beginning of the emptiness.
I'm 9 at this point. Shit hits the fan soon, want me to cont.?
>>690285524
The worst thing about this is, No one would care about me enough to do that
>>690285794
Then go straight to Zen.
>>690285997
Thanks bro, my tea is almost cold!
>>690278110
>>690281657
>>690280909
>>690279347
All got me, but this one the most.
>>690277581
>>690286096
yeah man
>>690286096
Go ahed, Anon. We're all ears.
>>690285577
If youre going through what i am, god speed anon. God fucking speed. I don't have money for gym, I'm really poor and moving out soon. I will start jogging and excersizing and the like.
Good luck anon
>>690286096
Does it involve car crashes?
Because you won't believe the fan and shit that I was hit with...
>>690286544
I am into bondage.
Like, for real. I'm sorry for this, but you would not be honored to hold my hand until I say so.
>>690285812
I understand this logically, but I dont see the point. I dont see it ever being better, I'll be "happy" for a year and then something even minorly bad will happen, and I'll slip back in. I'll do what I can make myself to do, if im going to die, I might as well atleast try to be happy.
>>690286303
Does anyone have any tips how to get over Agoraphobia/panic attacks?
I'm starting to stay in my flat more and more, feels like I'm missing everything that is going on out there. I fear that it slowly starts to transcend into depression
>>690286696
Except if you decide that it was honorful to not be honorful. And that is boolean logic for you.
Just fuck my life with every nuclear device the USA can bring up.
>>690283371
That physically hurt my chest, anon
>>690286884
It does not help to contact me.
Because I will keep telling you that you are a smart person for doing that.
-Sincerely, sadist thinking people who tricked you into this state of mind to begin with.
>>690286544
too accurate, Fuck my life
>>690286884
And to get over panic attacks, you must know that panic is a chemical in your brain.
Don't smoke, don't consume alcohol, don't drink a lot of caffeine.
And do get medical help as soon as possible.
Pop-Psychology can only do as much.
>>690286843
this is actually true, /b/ fucked up my humour to the darkest degree that made my friends think i was some sick fuck and left. Fucking hell man
>>690286318
Idk. My life is just. My life you know? Doesn't really sound like some ke the good stories you get here but here we go.
>Be penultimate year of music school, 12.
>I repeated a school year just so I could do more music in the choir I was in. (King's College Choir).
>Still no friends. I could chat to someone about common interests but nothing lasting.
>Over last couple months overhear dad and mum arguing late at night.
>Worried, ask them if it's ok. Its ok if they don't wanna be married.
'It's ok Anon, we still love each other'
>Couple months down the line, Dad gets arrested while I'm at school.
>Thousands of thousands of CP images on his PC. He ran a distribution network.
>Honestly more upset they lied to me about happy marriage than what dad did.
>Dad goes to jail for 6 months, but obviously is instantly fired and suddenly mum had to sell nice house and car for money.
>mum and bro complete emotion wreck. I hate both of them anyways but having to deal with their constant arguing and emotions really wrecks me.
>I stay the strong quiet type to stop the family from falling to pieces
Still cont?
on my second bottle of wine. Turned 18 a couple months back and Ive had more driks alone than with friends fml
>>690278246
cringe
>>690287340
Go to iceland, become Asatrú, serve Hel, help me help you fix this rotten ass hot planet.
>>690287396
Bring it anon. I'm interested.
>>690278110
my dad beat the shit out of me and gave me scars as a kid, molested me on occasion until i became too old for his pedo-ass at 12.
never seen anything worth knowing, or emulating, in that sack of shit.
brace for deeps and feels.
These are lyrics to a song by a Polish guy called Niemen. He's done the song in English on youtube but apparently there's a polish version too.
I find the lyrics to be truly moving and true.
Oh, strange is this world
Well, still it seems
There's so far so much evil
And strange it is that since long ago
Man despises man.
Oh, strange this world
Of human affairs
Sometimes I'm ashamed to be in it
Oh, so often a man can kill
With a bad word as with a knife.
But most people are of good will
I - thanks to them - believe
That this world should never, never die
And now, the time has come
The final time for hatred, for hatred
To destroy itself.
Here's a link to the song, it starts off weird but after like 10 seconds you're hit with this guys amazing voice.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XpKnjDlGTDA
>>690287719
I actually have plans to move to iceland later on in life
>>690286940
The dude who wrote that was apparently depraved of a memorable childhood, and didn't have many friends. All he could do was imagine.
>>690287286
>Don't smoke, don't consume alcohol, don't drink a lot of caffeine.
those are basically the things that keep me alive though
>>690288417
Shit, I meant to type "deprived". Excuse my grammatical error.
I apologise for everything I do, regardless of the reason, I am peoples outlet so they have something to take there negative emotions out on
Her name is Maggie, I approached her randomly and got her out with me, she's perfect. dark humor, good music, 10/10 goth bi chick, for date 2 it was between me and another girl for a date "I'll text you later"
It's been 3 days, I fell for her so hard
I know I can move forward but I'm so terrified of loneliness
>>690287396
yeh
Let's have some music in here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5AG5Rl-ziQ
>>690287756
To kinda explain. All my life I've been lonely. It started off as an irritation I could put to one side. Music was too much fun, reading was a good escape.
>Then too old and have to go to secondary education.
>Music school gets me into posh as fuck school.
The kinda shit like Eton, were David Cameron went. Not literally the same, but similar. All the students from age -13- wear Fucking suits. All the parents have super clean 4x4's. All the girls have mousey blonde hair. Literally had the nickname school cookie (cutter) girls from the nearby normal school.
>still very musical school, but no where near the standards I'm used to.
>I now discover that now I don't live an almost military regime of practice and study that teachers leave us to do work in our own time.
>Discover I have 0 self drive/motivation and literally cannot bring myself to do work unless a teacher is watching over me like previous school.
13 at this point.
>just hit puberty, see first cute girl.
>i swear to god 10/10 to my eyes back then. Grown up today she is just as good. Sex on legs AND the kind of face you can be friends with.
>Never felt this way before, never talked to anyone really before.
>Up till now every lunch break at school was spent reading in library.
>Really really try but can't bring up courage to talk. Leave a note explaining I'm shy and sorry, perhaps we could meet in common room later?
Worth noting I have aspergers, get diagnosed later down the line. Explains a lot of my uber autistic shit like this.
>Wait. No one comes. Wait more, nothing.
>Go home feeling like the biggest pile of shit ever.
>She adds me on Facebook but doesn't reply to any of my messages. I send a fuck ton, nothing rude or whatever.
>Just 'hi' 'you ok' etc etc
Typing this now she probably thought I was retarded and added me out of sympathy
>>690284085
Damn...
>>690283692
Here's to that.
>>690278110
Dad died when i was 5 from a heroin over-dosage
>>690287900
I fucking love you anon
I haven't felt anything towards another human being in a long time. I have suffered emotional neglect for a very long time. Nothing is ever going to be better. I don't want to socialize anymore. I don't want to get any new friends. I just want to die. I'm going to go through with it very soon. Just wanted to say, that even though you are fucking twisted and crazy, I've never met someone that felt the same way I do. Commencing a feels dump soon. Sorry for my english, I'm not a native speaker.
I'm so lonely. Everyone around me seem as if they are enjoying thenselves and have this exciting life with lots of friends and fun in it. I know that's petty, but all i want is a humble life filled with interesting combersations and long walks.
>>690287900
Fuck me that's sad
God i just want to hang out with you.
>>690280392
fuck
Takes me a good two weeks of her ignoring me, including irl when I reach desperation levels to say hi, to realise she doesn't give a shit.
Even today I still have a place for her in my heart. I mean I'm not dumb, she turned out to be a real Stacey and slept around real bad, massive slut. I know we could never anything, let alone friends but.. I dunno.. I still wish I could have been. Anyways
>Give up after two weeks. Heart BROKEN.
>Dad out of jail, living away from mum obviously, in a fuck ton of debt thanks to lawyers fees, mum works herself literally to illness to support him and me and bro.
>Cause of this still daily arguments, anguish, worry about money a lot of the time.
>Going to school costing £11,000 a month on a bursary while me and family can barely afford to eat.
>Cant cry about the girl who I was barely even an irritation to, I have to cook and support my mum and bro emotionally.
>Every day the hole in my chest grows a little bigger and a little darker.
>two more years of this. Low motivation and lowering mood cause school grades to cling to standard.
>could easily be best in class but what's the point.
>gay retard brother
>Being gay retard he picks up vaping
>Bout a year does by
>Notice he isint acting the same anymore
>Seems depressed
>One night goes missing and police are called
>Felt like I knew where he was (train tracks for suicide)
>Thought that was impossible
>Day later he was found at training tracks
>Body in two pieces and his mod and a bottle of juice
>He left a note
>"To my only two friends (his mod and juice) who helped me through hard times, thank you and I hope that whoever finds them can get as much happiness from my friends as I did - Adam"
>That moment when I could have possibly saved him from death if I had told police my suspicion
>Tfw I have no brother and now live alone in an apartment with a looming feeling of guilt
>I'm sorry Adam
Green text anon. Shall I stop? Feel like I'm boring you guys
>>690290761
please no anon, I'm here and wanna hear more
>>690290761
Keep going /b/ro..
>>690277238
This isn't your board, prick
>>690290761
Nothing is boring in this place. Please continue.
>>690290761
Please continue
>>690280911
lost. what a fucking sweet heart.
>>690290905
I love you all i posted what little i had onhand on my phone on a shitty wifi signal love this site and im amazed people skip these threads these threads are why i get on any more feels and wallpaper best people i never met thank you all for being the family and home i never had
>>690290876
>>690290950
Right sorry. Typing it all out makes me realise just how spoilt and happy my life has been compared to some of you guys. Let alone how shit a story it is.
>17 years old now. Lowest point of my life so far.
>literally can't hand any work in on time, barely eating.
>Get Swiss army knife and do some shitty attempt at self harm half out of frustration, half so I can show a teacher so they..
I dunno really. I just wanted to not have all the pressures of school life on me at that point.
>super posh rich school goes full Fucking panic mode that there's a self harming kid, think of the law suits!
>They have to tell my family, legally.
>Dont have to go to school until I 'feel better', minor positive.
>mum who can't even look after herself now worrying about me and trying to 'make me happy and not lonely'
I mean. I know my mum loves me and wants the best but.. She does nothing but being me misery.
>go to this social club anon you can make friends there, go join this orchestra and choir!
>she cries in her bedroom at night.
>Go to all these social shits but too autistic and socially retarded to know what to do. Just make everyone think I'm a creepy school shooter
>ITT: niggers
>Been through psychosis
>Came out fine after medication and treatment
>It´s always darkest before dawn
>Don´t kill yourself before you taste the best coffee in the world, anon
>>690281217
Poor guy..
>>690291867
To you all tho
anyone near frankfurt/germany who needs a friend?
>>690291947
everyone struggles at some point anon, just because you were in a different environment doesn't mean your struggle was any less valid
>>690292363
sketchy
>>690290665
My brothers name is adam.
Now im crying
>>690285287
holy fuckin shit
>>690282774
:/
>>690292414
1) in tears in public as usual
2) i have that picture but different photo it self
3) i offten ponder if any irl would notice my absence
4) my wish is you all will
>>690292422
why?
>>690284876
That pic is how i feel about myself
>>690278110
My dad didn't want a kid. That's why he walked out.
Cont.
>Go back to school. Life at home with mum is literally worse then school.
>Waste away in bed barely eating for a week first though.
>Learn to properly self harm. The adrenaline makes me almost alive again. Keeps me going.
>At this point not suicidal, I'm careful about how I cut myself.
>Doctors take literally 9 months to see me about my depression and dump me on fluoxetine
>Now feel literally dead inside. No happy no sad.
>Desperate attention whore 2 years younger than me asks me out because she just started puberty, doesn't even understand sex but needs emotional attatchment to something.
>I think I'm the luckiest guy in the world, she's not fat but 4/10 face 1/10 personality. If i wasn't basically suicidal with loneliness and craving affection from anything that has a pulse is be nowhere near her.
>'Kiss' and shit. She dumps her whole life on me and how sad and depressed she is.
>Like mum and bro. I must be the strong one, keep everyone else afloat as I crumble myself
>>690292915
>>690292996
Feel the same, Be strong anon!
>>690286843
This made me realize none of my friends text me. Just coworkers about work..
>be me worried about gf
>she has problem but dont want to tell me
>i try to convince her to tell me so that i can reassure her
>she refuses feels worse
>i try to guess what it is she gets angry at me
>she says horrible things
>she apologises 2 hours later
>feels even worse
>problem was she didn't liked to take nudes for me
>she feels guilty and like a bad gf
>i cheer her up problem solved yet she still feels depressed
>says she wants to kill herself
>forbid her to cut and send her to sleep
>she obeys me but never says love you
>mfw its my fault that the person i love the most and could die for feels suicidal
>mfw she will probably cut and its all my fault
I just want to die rn /b/
>>690282774
Fuck, this hit hard bc I was that kind of kid a lot time ago and I know how it is to be the weird kid everywhere
>>690285524
Gah! this one got me pretty bad.
> Be me. Wife tells me "Hey, did something happen to Danny? I saw something weird on his facebook, people leaving messages about him like he died or something?
> Freak out: Danny was like one of our kids, known him since he was 14 back when I worked for his Dad, super smart, super nice...
> Text him, "Yo, Danny, everything OK buddy? Please tell me you are OK, saw something scary on the Interwebs and I really just need to hear that you are all right, OK buddy?
> Couple of minutes go by, phone bings, *PHEW!* He texted me back!
> It was his Dad. Who could barely get through telling me, and begged me to help him get people to stop posting about it until he could tell the grandparents himself. Danny was gone. And we both cried.
Fucking hell /b/, fuck all of you.
I haven't even been coming on here for very long, about a year.
I know you're probably all the same people that laugh at horrible things and post stupid shit and believe things that I don't.
You're nothing but a bunch of lonely, good for nothing pricks.
And you make me feel at home.
I cry more reading these threads more than I cry to my girlfriend. Not because I find the content sad but because it reassures me knowing that I can find solace even in just being useless.
I think I'll sign off tonight /b/, but thank you
>>690293318
Saved all you stuff but my phones dying
>>690293473
Is she really depressed because she didnt take nudes you?
>>690286200
A while ago a friend asked me to take dancing lessons with her. It kinda hurt when I learned she asked literally everybody she knows before me.
>>690293704
R.I.P Danny
Sorry for your loss anon
Not really a green text at this point is it Heh.
>Eventually our complete lack of any actual like for each other forces me to fake having dissociative identity disorder so that the personality that loved her 'dies' or some shit.
>Shes still too young to rewlly understand, she's heartbroken.
>I feel like total shit, not even sure she really buys my story.
>She gets a new boyfriend who she sucks off and everything.
>was too shy to do anything but 'kiss' (like you would a relative) me weeks earlier.
Frankly I think she just used me.
>still texts me every day or so telling me I'm the only one she'll love.
>i continue keeping family fed and with clean clothes as well as being the mediator to family arguments
>Dad moved to Paraguay because it doesn't have a sex offenders register so he can get a job there. Living with his first wife again. Has three kids with her already before he met my mum.
I have made many posts on feels threads over the years about my general state of mind at that point, or life as a general topic. People said they liked them, some people said they capped them.
I have never seen one of my postings repeated here. I do like the transitory nature of 4chan like that.
>>690293966
Its ok anon, there might be someone out there who would pick you first,maybe
>>690293828
Post them with the same name and ill be sure to remember anon! Be safe out there. Hope you have a good day.
>>690294050
What did you post?
Ive always hoped on seeing something i posted on /b/ being shared whether it be a nude on a chicks you know or on the feels thread but never do.
>>690278110
lol killed the mood i almost never saw my dad as a kid and when i did we were only on his car
>>690282774
>socks and sandals
Change this about that boy and he would be fine.
>>690294253
Just usually mid-length greentexts.
Not the sort of stories you see where people tell you about their lives, more about what I'm thinking at that one moment in time or how the feels threads make me feel.
>>690280745
This is the most depressing thing I have ever read.
>>690293815 https://youtu.be/yA0lKHpaBxg
>>690280191
Fuck.
>>690294411
I see just more like expressing your feelings at the time
Also check em
>>690293873
She feels ugly and fat and stuff like that thats why she hates those, she feels guilty because i ask her those and most of the times she cant
>>690294219
Anon you made me feel again i need that hug ill post next time im on in wallpaper
>>690294625
You should reassure her although it sounds like you already do. I hope things get better between you two and hope she stops feeling suicidal
can't wait to kill myself
>>690294689
Good to hear anon, cant wait :)
Fuck this is taking do long.
>Drop out of school, can't take it.
>no school means no music, I become legit suicidal.
>Doctors take 6 months to see me and say 'oh ok you're autistic'
>Have this lovely label slapped onto me, now school wants me back because I can fill their disability quota or some shit.
Oh this is getting too long winded..
>tl dr I barely make it into university
>Nearly have a real gf but she's good friends with first girl and figured out my lie easily.
>Goes apeshit and nearly claws me to death.
>Still have no one to tell or talk to, no friends. Mum relies on me and dad is on the other side of the world and is a Pedo.
>Take some cuck computer games course for university, fail 1st year, retry.
>Failed it again a couple months ago.
>Have to maintain illusion for family that I'm all 'fixed' and about to go happily into third year of uni.
>Act as normie as possible everyone still shuns me like the plague.
>Not ugly as fuck, shower daily, brush my teeth, jeans and t-shirt not edge lord clothing.
I... just dunno what to do anons. I'm too weak willed to even kill myself and I have to pretend to my family that I'm Fucking happy as can be and shit.
One last bit to come
some quality feels music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kqI5fAlv5E
>>690294949
I have that exact one ( my picture now ill be here if im ever lost and im so lost i think im home )
>>690283503
Aww dude we are here for you!!
>>690295042
I tried to do it, but my wife stopped me.
Look of pain and fear in her eyes was like a knife through my heart.
Now every day I pretend to be better. To be happy. To not ache and wish that she had not stood in my way.
Selfish, I know.
But it's only a wish.
I carry on pretending and smiling. Probably you wouldn't be able to tell if you met me.
>>690294935
Dont do it bro
I see so many students who are sad and depressed and I can't do a thing to help them. I try telling their parents, but so many don't care or say something idiotic like: "oh not our Jimmy!"
>>690293473
Call her. Tell her you love her. Tell her she doesn't need to feel guilty. Tell her she doesn't need to feel alone, nor depressed. Call her and tell you love her. You still have time. And don't you fucking forget to say what "I love you" means to you. Or how fucking much you love her. Tell her before it's too late.
>>690280260
This is the only thing brought a tear to me eye.
A few months ago, I saw a magpie eating a pile of puke off a sidewalk. This is life. No more. No less..
I love these threads so much.
Yet i also hate them.
Love all the people in here, trying to help eachother even though you dont know the person youre talking to and never will.
Yet i also hate them, because the second they 404 im here all alone again, waiting for the next one to come.....
Hey anons, I just want you all to know that it gets better. Really. Please believe that. I know things are hard right now but good things are on the way. We need these moments of sadness in life to make the inevitable moments of happiness all the sweeter. And those moments of happiness are on the way I swear.
Please hang in there anons. It's all going to be alright in the end.
>>690295780
Not only to you but to all anons why are we all separated for a life time then find each other on here together i wish i could be there with you all i love you guys i mean it
>>690294883
I already do every day but her bad thoughts are always there i tell her to ignore them that they aren't true that she should listen to what i say and think about her and way more but she doesnt listen to me, thanks man i hope that too
Pedo dad anon here. Probably last chapter of my insanely boring story.
>Come back home for holidays two weeks ago.
>Bro has new gf, kinda a Chad and I hate him for it, in a jealous way.
>Its fucking first 'girlfriend'
Let's call her Holly
>I freeze before calmly walking past her to my room.
>has she told my bro all the lies I told her? So much shit could go wrong.
>she has never mentioned anything of our past relationship if you can even call it that.
I fingered my brothers girlfriend four years ago when we were well under age. Both too young to really understand, she said it didn't do anything for her so we left it at that but, fuck it makes me so nervous.
>None of my family know anything about me and her. Just that we were in the same orchestra and chatted very occasionally.
>As of today I'm completely lost as my grand illusion of happy life crumbles away in front of my family. They'll know I lied all this Time.
>my bro will probably hate me forever, my mum will be sickened at me.
>Im still the quiet calm guy who listens to their problems.
>No one listens to mine...
>>690295736
The ones who wear sadness on their sleeves are not the ones I would be the most worried about.
It's the ones that nobody knows is hurting, until they just can't take it anymore and ... and then it's too late.
Those are the ones that should probably worry you the most.
>>690296048
This so much this
I have a serious story of feels... 3 replies or if I get dubs, I will post it...
>>690296048
Email me, Anon. I'm happy to listen!
[email protected]
>>690296160
To be quite honest, these threads are what keep me going everyday. And it fucking kills me.
>>690295848
Perhaps bro. I'm honestly too Fucking autistic to know a single thing she was thinking. Still lading knows what I should have done better. I just know I fucked up Fucking terribly and an a horrible guy, as you can see from the last of my green text
my story is simple
about a year ago i fell in love with this girl and she cheated on me; broke up with me and told me at the same time. my life was a mess for months, i was constantly sad, video games didnt cheer me up anymore, everything was an off grey colour. the only reason i got through was because of my bestfriend. 8 months later im still not over her and being a little bitch, so me and my friend are playing games and he goes "hey anon, i know this girl thats just like you, her heart was broken by some cunt and you guys have all the same interests. shes my girlfriends bestfriend, tomorrow it was going to be us three at the mall together but you are comiing with us now you depressing fuck".
i agree and head with him the next day to the local mall. Cont?
>>690296344
Will do anon. Thanks a bunch
404 incoming i feel it
Pedo dad anon here.
Feed back? What did I do wrong, what do I do now? Was it even a good story?
>>690287887
>Posts Niemen song
>Picrel is Riedel
To nie komputer anon
>>690296600
Probably, also checked ^^
>>690296763
Only the second time i had a get
>>690296291
Precisely, those and their parents refuse to believe me.
>>690296443
This picture struck way deeper than I was ready for.
This happened to me 3 years ago
>Be me, an edgy 16 year old
>Play Xbox because I haven't discovered PC yet, not really.
>decide to play minecraft, because, what else will I do
>I had a few games, Black Ops 2 and Minecraft were by far my favourite
>I made many friends, deleted many friends, that's just how it works.
>I made one friend, edgy 16 year old like me at the time, he changed his gamertag, but he was known as "T-Reks"
>Well, anyway T-Reks and I became friends, pretty good friends and we decided to play some minecraft
>damngood.jpg
Well, anyway, I made a world, on survival mode, peaceful, because I was a noob, T-Reks asked to join ,I said sure, why not.
>We played for a week straight until this new kid started joining the server
>Kids name was Adam1922 I'll just refer to him as Adam
> Well, We played on the world every day for at least an hour and Adam would join every other day or so and just work in his corner of the map
I ask T-Reks who he is, T-Reks tells me he's some kid that just added him one day
>whatever.gif
>Adam started playing every day, this is a month in
>Adam for the first time ever, plugged in his mic
>Adam would always say thank you for letting him play with us before he logged off
>He sounded like he had autism, not making a joke.
>We would talk to Adam every day and ask him questions
>Adam decided to tell us he liked this one girl at his school, we talked him into giving us her kik
>T-Reks sent her dick pics pretending to be Adam
>Adam gets on the next day
>He doesnt sound like he normally does, I ask him what's wrong
>Crying.jpg
>Adam got his ass kicked by the girls boyfriend at school
>T-Reks laughs and starts calling Adam names like "faggot, retard, autismo"
>Adam just laughed along with him
>A week passed and T-Reks and I would make fun of Adam every day, Adam rolled with the punches
>One day, we went over to see what Adam was building while he wasn't on
cont.
>>690295940
Thats the problem and one of the causes why she got angry at me she lost her phone in the school bus and i freaked out because i thought someone tried to blackmail her she told me it wasnt that and she got pissed at me, i cant call her we were talking through a computer game and she left already im really so fucking worried i know she wont because she wants to marry me but it doesnt make me feel any better
>>690296904
cont.
>Adam had built a house, inside was a empty, but outback behind his actually nice house, there was a "grave" with a sign attached, it said "I love you dad"
>T-Reks and I destroy the house and save the game
>Adam gets on the after we do it and plays for a bit, until we here him say he’s going back to his house
>We hear Adam yell "Why did you guys destroy my house!!? I didn't do anything to you!"
>T-Reks started calling him a faggot and saying "well, if you love your daddy so much, why don’t you get him to build you a new one?" then I laughed with him at Adam
>Crying.jpg
>we call Adam a crybaby faggot
>GoDrinkBleach.jpg
>Adam cries some more, then we decided to find his character and kill him over and over again
>Adam starts talking to us
>"Why would you do this to me? I thought we were friends?"
>We were never your fucking friends Adam, get the fuck over it you fucking pussy, fuck you, you autistic faggot
> Adam says more
> "This is why I don't play with people, this is why I told my mom I didn’t want to get minecraft or any games. I came on here and thought you two were my friends, my only friends. I don’t have friends in real life, no one likes me, no one wants me around. All they do is call me autistic and retarded and useless, no girls at my school like me, they think I'm a freak, no one likes me, no one even gives me a chance"
>"This was all I had, ever since my dad died, I came on here to get away from everything, my dad died, then my mom had to get another job, so I couldn’t see her anymore, then I finally tricked a girl into being my friend. Her boyfriend beat me up and I had to go to the hospital, my mom had to take out a loan to pay for my broken ribs. I waited at home every day for you to get on so I could play with you, my only two friends in my life, why does nobody like me. Why don’t you like me. Why..."
>Adam cried for 5 more minutes while T-Reks laughed at him.
>Adam never said anything rude
>Adam went offline
Cont.
>>690296443
I love you and i only get online maybe once a week maybe poorfag but i only go to the chan
>>690296873
Yeah sorry for that anon.
Atleast you feel, so thats something right :)
>>690297078
Sure you degenerate piece of shit go ahead
>>690297078
Cont.
>Checked Adam's friend list
>It was just me and T-Reks
>Adam didn’t log back on for a week
>Then I received a written message from him
> The message was as follows “Hello Anon, I don’t know you, and you don’t know me, but you knew Adam and I’m his mother. I’m so sorry to tell you this, but Adam committed suicide. I just wanted to let you know that you made him happy, he never really had friends at school because of his disability, so it warmed my heart to know that he had a friend as good as you there for him. He was always smiling after playing with you and would tell me endless stories of your adventures with him and your other friend. Thank you.”
>ThisIsAJoke.gif
>No Way Adam would an hero
I found out an hour later through Adam's Facebook page, which was easy to find because his name was on his bio, that he had killed himself and wrote a letter.
>in short "I can't stand this world anymore, I can't be a burden to anyone anymore and I can't do anything right. I can't live without my dad anymore, and I can't live off of my mom anymore, I just want it to end"
>I couldn't cry, I couldn't do anything but stare
>I deleted T-Reks as a friend and got rid of the rest of my Xbox friends. The last thing I did on Minecraft was rebuild Adam's house and fixed his "grave" with the addition of a new one beside it... his.
>feelsbad…
>feels real bad….
I know it’s just a game, but the sign says "R.I.P Adam: You were a true friend. I love you", I put the world onto a USB which is inside a wooden box on my dresser as of today, the world is in a file titled "Adam", i sold my xbox with Adam as the only friend on my account. I'm sorry Adam, I'm so so sorry.
Hvve contemplated becoming An Hero, but I don't deserve it
>>690297106
The love is mutual anon.
Things will get better eventually, Just keep up the hope!
