Feels thread folks, i'll start >be me age about 14
The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
Feels thread folks, i'll start
>be me age about 14
>Know grill well
>she's friend of family
>hit it off
>text back and forth for long periods
>i'm talkin 3pm to midnight
>i didn't even have to text first most times
>strong feelings for her
>go to friends house
>friends sis is hitting on me
>it gets to my head
>go home, texting friend grill
>sudden rush of confidence
>text her what happened followed by "you jealous?"
>cringey as fuck, but I was a young shit so gimme a break
>fast forward to summer of 8th grade
>psyched as fuck to be a high schooler
cont if you guys want, it gets pretty sad
>>688080055
Ah shit, I should have specified that the friend whose house I went to is not the grill
You know what fuck it lets call the grill QT from now on to avoid confusion
cont. anon
>>688080055
>>688080055
Continuing due to lack of contributions
>get a text back
>"Oh whatever, ;)"
>absolutely elated
>Fast forward to summer
>best friend moves away
>feels bad man
>something changes in the air
>qt no longer texts first
>or at all
>feeling bad all summer, no friends
>freshman year of high school was the worst year of my life
>zero grill contact
>no friends
>well only one
>sadboi in bio class
>chill and, becomes best friend
>anyway, my school was weird
> it had two campuses that you had to cross between
> waking across after fifth period
> see qt
> Pretend not to notice her to see if she would see me
>keep in mind that the entirity of my middle school experience was procrastinating
>I just kept putting off telling her my feelings
>not sure why
>also please note that at that point I'd been friends with her for about six years
cont in a bit
>>688081618
Go on
>>688081618
Continue please
>>688081618
>okay so
>she notices me and we walk
>i was way too autistic to keep up a good conversation
>good god anons, her eyes
>I couldn't focus
>anyway so we walk to her class
>I shakily ask her if she wants to walk with me every day
>she says sure
>happy.jpg
>fast forward a few weeks
>Walk outside to cross
>shes not there
>Look ahead on the path
>She's walking with one of her friends
>Feels bad
>Fast forward more
>No communication
>My family gets invited to one of her family gatherings
>she and I have good times
>the next day we don't talk or anything
>back to zero communication
>feeling P autistic
>near end of school
>look ahead on crossing path
>she's with a dude
>holding hands
>for fucks sake
>Honestly at that point in the year i was too tired to be angry
>walking behind them one day
>the guy is a fuckin weirdo
>loud and obnoxious
>stop paying attention after a while
>fast forward to summer of that year
>text regularly for a short but great time
>i stopped being nervous around her
>it was actually pretty great
>she says she regrets not talking to me over last summer
>November of sophomore year
Cont in a bit, this next bit is the part that broke me fams
>>688082686
Continue
>>688080055
>be me, age 12
>walking home from middle school
>flashback to age 11
>met a girl
>super nice
>we became best friends
>flash forward
>were crossing the street
>poorly designed and dangerous
>she goes first
>right in front of me, gets hit and dies
>no fucking joke
>call 911
>crying hysterically
>why
>why
>I mean come on
>we were this close to fucking
>kek
>>688083014
Cool
Continue!!
>/b/e me age whatever
>Slaying coons
>Profit
>The end
>>688083611
Cool
Continue
>>688080055
High school was a fucking bummer, and it saddens me even more because of how hopeful and excited I was for it. Most people who originally were great friends parted, and took different paths. Others just became overall faggots with a mentality as if they were jail, even though our school was mostly calm and peaceful for the areas around us. Most of the girls also had superiority-complexes, as if they needed to be better than other females. They were also all ready to suck the seniors' off, shamelessly embarrassing themselves and causing them to be a joke. The band kids were awful nerds who fucked each other's cousins and loved to have gay sex daily. I was left mostly alone with most people being my "friends", although I just simply floated around to just simply be there and make others happy. Nothing got better, nothing ever will.
sweet jesus continue
>>688082686
>November
>Previously mentioned best bro and I are now very depressed
>various reasons
>mid September I learned that qt and I have a class together
>start thinking my lucky stars
>Come into class
>she doesn't make eye contact with me
>teacher makes us partner up
>she walks across the room
>sits with her friend from the crossing path last year
>i'm a bit mad at my shitty luck
>Of fucking course she's share a class with me AND her friend
>i'm too beta to even try to third wheel
>Can't get a word in edgewise
>Mid November
>she comes into class in
>stop being beta
>ask her whats wrong
>her bf broke up with her
>become angery
>too beta to confront him about it
>realize how much of a chance I now have
>do nothing about it
>autistically wish her a good day after class
>try to sound sincere but it's just shitty sounding
>next week
>best pal invites me to his b-day party at an arcade
>he invited a third friend to hang out
>begin planning to text the qt telling her how I feel
>spend the whole evening at the arcade stressed about it
>my shitty phone takes like 19 minutes to send the goddamn page of feels
>wait a while
>super nervous
>Litteraly 8 years of feels have gone into the text
>at taco Bell with friends
>phone rings
>its a text
>from her
CONT
I've come to realize all I want in life is to spend it with someone I love and have a wonderful life with them and a few children. I know there are girls who want this too, they are out there but I fear I will never find one.
>>688083908
>CLIFFHANGER
>>688083908
Continue fag
I love my parents so much, they do everything for me and im just a giant fuck up, im sure the day my parents leave me is the day i leave as well
CONTTT
how fucking autistic are you just talk to her. you havent even posted it yet and i can tell what the endings gonna be. oh sorry anon i dont like you after you lingered on to me for the last 6 years waiting for some miracle to happen to instantly make me wet for you teehee
>>688084163
I'm with you. Just someone who can enjoy some of my interests as well. Wee bit of vidya and whatnot. If only.
>>688084163
This anon.
>also checked
Continue op
>>688083908
>inb4 spaghetti and dinosaurs
>>688084507
Fuck off dude. Try not being a stereotypical edgy /b/ tard tumor.
>>688084507
You'd be a greatt therapist!
>>688084163
Haha optimistic faggot, don't worry life will shit all over that hope soon enough.
>>688083908
Cont pls
>>688084507
>you teehee
kek
I have the looks, and i am pretty smart too, but i can't keep a conversation going.
I overthink too much and get too little done. Trying to look confident i ended up like a egotistical bitch, and one can't just be oneself.
Everytime some girl rejects me it destroys my self-esteem and it's harder to approach and talk to them.
wat do,
virgin 17 m, 1 semester of computer science.
>>688084840
...Tequila!!
>>688084794
back to le reddit fag
OP is a fucking raging autist
>>688084551
Sometimes you just have to learn to be content by yourself. But having that special someone would be nice too.
>>688083908
P
Continue, please be good or all the text wall read would be useless
>>688084973
Just be drunk... All the time, problem solved!
yeah op im gonna need ya to cont real quick
>>688085014
Okay..? Can't counter everything on here with 'Go back to le reddit' buddy.
>>688084794
youre being a stereotypical touchy feely spineless reddit newfag nigger
come back when your balls drop kid
>>688084656
Here's to (you) kid.
Come on OP, cont this fcking story im losing interest
>>688085172
On the fence prickkk - GET IT TOGETHER
>>688085376
b8'ed
>>688085376
Go back to runescape faggot
Same situation I had OP, the girls name was Abby. It was cash
>>688085009
Eventually the only thing sustaining your pitful existence will be the pleasure of seeing others in pain. Relishing the look of dissapointment on people's faces.
>>688085510
Same
Nice, op is dead
>>688085376
Go back to le reddit stupid sand nigger
You and OP are fucking autistic faggots
How do you fight the loneliness /b/
>>688085443
I mean, it's a feels thread. I'm not going to be a cunt because I'm a rough and tough 4chan user and I use anonymity to my advantage. Not sure why being empathetic towards a person is so difficult. Damn. Also dude did you say nigger? Haha that's fucking wILD man
>>688085672
Well.. I hope I don't run out of cereal!
Okay I type really slow so the thread might be 404ed before I get this up
>be me 5
>completely oblivious to everything
>suddenly dad gets in war as bomb disposal
>fast forward 2 months
> first actual mission for dad
> dead.jpg
> nice and crisp
>Go to funeral and see that's he is dead
>tiny autist brain is fucked
> hear voices
> see people
> I now know I have schizophrenia and I think that caused it
> fast forward to now
> still living at mom's
> she always talks about how I would a disappointment to dad
> hates me
> sometimes says I'm the spare for my brother
> know she is joking but still hurts
> schizophrenia gets worse and no one knows about it
> brother is nice but I rarely talk to him
> I spend almost all of my time thinking, sleeping, or on 4chan
> fucked up dreams are probably better than actual life
> basically split my own personalities so I can seem to fit in
> always bored
> want to an hero but I'll wait just to lose my virginity
>>688085819
memes
>>688085867
OP deserves no love or pity because he's a huge betafag
>>688083908
>she responds back
>listen anon
>you're really cool
>can we talk?
>call her right away
>anon, there is something i have to tell you
>her voice drops to whisper
>i need...
CONT?
>>688086195
Yet again, where's your point
>>688086289
Go on
>>688084973
You're still young
>>688086289
SHE NEEDS MONEY FOR HER ABORTION
>>688086289
FUCK YOU OP
i believed in this thread
>>688086195
This, op should go ahead an hero
>>688086289
'A tailor'
>>688086289
Took you 15 minutes to post that?
>>688086289
It's a fucking troll
>>688086497
It's not him.
>>688086289
you to post this on 4chan
>>688080055
>be me age 11
>social exile because i'm a skittish asshole quick to make enemies
>all due to my extreme social anxiety due to my uncommon upbringing
>middle school, age 12, grade 7
>everyone hates me
>have typical preteen autist moments everyone does
>gravitate towards the "rejects group" naturally
>good kids, weird, but good
>figure i'm the most normal and smart of all of them because ego
>really just a fat shit with an average IQ hated by everyone
>not fat enough to be "the fat kid" though, that title belonged to mitch the bitch
>anyways, fat kid, hated, part-time autist, friends with rejects
>become the only guy stupid enough to stand up for them because of my ballsy ego
>become even more hated for standing up for the punching bags of the school
>rejects kind of indifferent to me
>get beat up for everything
>mfw it was all in vain and i just basically "Dropped out" of school midway through 8th grade to "homeschool" (aka sit at home not learning anything until I need to make a mad dash for a diploma at age 17, right now)
>>688086289
About two fiddy
>>688086168
That's charming
>>688086289
These dubs
>>688086289
>i need
>i need...
>TREE FIDDY
>goddamn loch ness monster
And that's my story.
the girl probably isnt that cute and Opie is 35 crying about something that happened 20 years ago and somebody better walk the dinosaur before this is over
>>688086289
>"anon . . .
> . . . come close"
>"what is it?", i question
>"i need . . .
> a tailor . . .
> . . . CAUSE I RIPPED MY PANTS!"
>>688086289
ENOUGH WITH THE CLIFFHANGERS OP COME ON
>>688086799
8/8
>>688086827
Beat ya to it fuckeroo
>>688086289
No you fucker DON'T SAY IT
>>688080055
Okay so this should be the last one but let me keep y'all on the edge of your seats a bit
>be the night before
>have dream
>im in an SUV
>It's dark asd and snowy out
>Look over and qt is with me
>she puts her hand in mine
>i say something like "this is how I wanted it to be"
>it felt real man, I felt loved
>as soon as I woke up I knew I had to tell her at the arcade
Now back to the text
>friends expectant
>we gather around the phone, I view the message
>see the words "i'm sorry i'm doing this to you after all these years"
>lose appetite
>other than that feel nothing
>"Well anon whatd she say?"
>My best pal looks so goddamn hopeful for me
>"Well man, she isn't- she isn't feeling it"
>he goes pale, he knew how much this meant to me
>"I mean, I can't do anything about it can I?"
>congratulate myself on how cool im keeping
>for the sake of the third friend who doesn't know me that well, I just act okay
>finally arrive at third friends house after a long drive
>he gets dropped off after what felt like forever
>just me, my friend, and my friends dad
This is when I died inside anons
>my friend looks directly at me after minutes of uncomfortable silence
>he mouths the words "are you okay"
>all the shitty feels hit me
>tear up
>just shake my head
>his eyes were the most goddamn sad and helpless I'd ever seen
>go home and greet parents
>after about an hour they go to bed
>i'm alone
>go downstairs and begin goddamn bawling
>Realize i'll never hold her
>realize i'll never fall asleep in her arms
>Feel empty and hollow and all that
>fall asleep after a long ass time
>have another dream
>I'm in the SUV again, which I recognize as my friends dad's car
>the one we went to the arcade in
>it's darker out now but the snow keeps coming
>but this time Im alone
>I was alone
I still don't know why I wasn't good enough
OP is probably beating his dick to the thought of the girl he met 34 yrs ago.
>>688086409
>>688086445
>>688086472
>>688086487
>>688086497
>>688086528
>>688086660
>>688086715
>>688086796
>>688086827
>>688086882
>>688086915
>>688086942
YOU HAVE ALL BEEN TROLLED BY ME, FALSE OP
HAVE A NICE DAY
>>688086827
>be me
>18 kissless virgin
>only girl to be ever interested in me is a (really fucking cute) german exchange student
>she gathers the courage to tell me she liked me after a year because i was too scared to even talk to her
>first kiss/hug/cuddles/sex happen in same week
>best week of my entire life
>she had to move back the week after
>she cried because she didn't want to leave me, so did i
>leave and never see her again, keep contact for a few months on social media
>6 years later, she's now engaged
And now I'm 24 and that was the only time a girl has ever shown interest in me. Tbh to this day I don't really understand how she was attracted to me. I'm an ugly ass manlet and this girl was at least an 8.5/10. And I'm still in love with her... so pathetic.
>>688086799
Gj m8, ya got me ye fokin cunt. Also checked
>>688086050
Dude... Are you me?
>>688086289
GODDAMNIT i'm the op and I didn't post that, the actual ending is above
Maybe it was aall a dream!
>>688086050
Anon please tell someone about this and get help... It can be managed. You don't have to kill yourself.
>>688087188
checked in return
>>688087007
THIS IS THE ACTUAL ENDIMG YOU CUNTS
Real op out
>>688087222
We know!! We're not idiots
>>688083908
>the text says we need to talk
>ohshit
>im about to shit my pants from this bean burrito from taco
>no i literally shit my pants guys (thought it was just a fart)
>tell my friends i got to go because my cat just died
>run home with literal shit falling out of my jeans, running down my leg
>tell mom i had an accident
>she awards me with gbp because i let her know about my accident
>I cash in for a stick 2 for 1 deal on some tendies mom has cooked up for me
>i call up the qt and tell her she better get over because it's tendies night
>she comes over and we have a threesome with my mom
>the end
>>688087337
OP is still a fag
>>688086050
>want to an hero but I'll wait just to lose my virginity
Do it right as you cum in her.
>No condom
But knowing your luck, you will reincarnate as your own child.
>>688086691
>Age 17
>Right now
Underage b&
>>688087190 maybe I'm a doppelgänger?
>>688087056
omg no ;(
it can't be possible!
it's
>le unknown trolester xd
s u m m e r
>>688086289
>i need to tell you
>that i don't love you
>and i need to say that so i don't lead you on any more
>im sorry anon
>hang up
>stare at the wall for a time
>phone buzzes
>a text from her
>one other thing anon
CONT?
>>688087282
How about no
>>688084507
>>688087007
called it
>>688087282
Shhhhhhhhhhhhh
>>688087007
I don't know if this'll make you feel better or worse but I am almost 100% certain it would have based off of her friend's advice and would be generally along the lines of
>she wants to ride some dick before she settles down
Girls can be dumb too sometimes bro.
>>688087007
Nigga, it ain't about goodnuf'.
Nigga, it's a complicated algorithm of shit that goes into whether people like eachother or not. I won't give you fuckin' bro-science on how dem ladiez work, but I will tell you, it only gets better, and dem human beings is able to adapt to damn near anythings. You'll get older, you'll find more people, you'll eventually find one you like who likes you back. shazam. I mean, honestly, at age 30, guys vs gals, most guys who weren't shit in high school are now filet steaks, and gals who were hot shit back then are now meh or worse.
Don't really green text much, but here we go anyways
>Another day in health Ed class and just prepared to take my seat
>Never really early to class because teacher himself was always late
>Dr. Hong was his name and he was particularly strict about seating
>He never let an odd
Number of boys or girls sit in the same table
>It never bothered me until this day
>Something made me finally look around at my other mates in class
>New school, new students.Decided it was time to find my new group of "friends".
>A freshman was sitting across the room and immediately caught my attention.
>Michele was her name which I was able to find out through our daily attendance.
> Everything about her was perfect.
>If I recall correctly she had nice coarse black hair, a nice clear face, and had the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen.
> So beta in highschool and had no game despite her being a year younger then me.
> Just tried to keep my eye contact to a minimum as I secretly stared at her from a distance.
> Only thing I did all class is daydream about her
> Happy and excited to have my first crush, I followed her outside after class as she walked to her next class
> Nervously, I said "Hey Michele". She seemed confused and said "Hey anon...." back just to break the awkwardness.
> Confused and not knowing what else to say I said " Couple weeks
In and you already know my name, haha"
> Everyone does she responded back. A new student is always a big deal.
> Nevermind, I tried to walk away but she grabbed me and asked me where I was going in a horase and aggressive tone.
> "Ahh sorry for bothering you" I said as I walked away slowly,"she said no I mean you were fine, sorry for making this awkward." "Its my fault actually", I responded back. "How is it your fault anon", she asked. I pressed my face against her ear forcefully and said " What does the first letter of every word after ">" say"?
>>688087602
GODDAMMIT STOP WITH THE FUCKING CLIFFHANGERS
>>688087337
Thank you for sharing your story, I had a similar experience and this gives me some solidarity.
>>688087502
She would probably question why I'm fucking her with a knife at my own throat though
>>688087602
You could have finished here
>>688087007
>>688087602
Go on...
>>688084973
Youre me but two years younger
Isnt it great? :)
>>688087769
Ayy thanks nig
>>688087565
this
>>688087505
I should've been banned when I was shitposting at 12 years old.
If anything that would've helped my current situation
>be me
>deformed
>adopted
>adoptive parents pass away in car accident
>adoptive parents family want nothing to do with me
and that's how i live on disability, with not a single person to call family or a friend, let alone a gf ever
>>688087779
Yo, muh nigga
>>688087484
Kek
>>688087602
hurry the fuck up
>>688087779
>Don't really green text much
Good Quality>Quantity
>>688087882
>not fucking her with a gun in your nightsatnd
tl;dr
>i liked a girl and she didn't like me
op is a faggot
>>688087484
I like it! It's quirky
Don't really green text much, but here we go anyways
>Another day in health Ed class and just prepared to take my seat
>Never really early to class because teacher himself was always late
>Dr. Hong was his name and he was particularly strict about seating
>He never let an odd Number of boys or girls sit in the same table
>It never bothered me until this day
>Something made me finally look around at my other mates in class
>New school, new students.Decided it was time to find my new group of "friends".
>A freshman was sitting across the room and immediately caught my attention.
>Michele was her name which I was able to find out through our daily attendance.
> Everything about her was perfect.
>If I recall correctly she had nice coarse black hair, a nice clear face, and had the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen.
> So beta in highschool and had no game despite her being a year younger then me.
> Just tried to keep my eye contact to a minimum as I secretly stared at her from a distance.
> Only thing I did all class is daydream about her
> Happy and excited to have my first crush, I followed her outside after class as she walked to her next class
> Nervously, I said "Hey Michele". She seemed confused and said "Hey anon...." back just to break the awkwardness.
> Confused and not knowing what else to say I said " Couple weeks In and you already know my name, haha"
> Everyone does she responded back. A new student is always a big deal.
> Nevermind, I tried to walk away but she grabbed me and asked me where I was going in a horase and aggressive tone.
> "Ahh sorry for bothering you" I said as I walked away slowly,"she said no I mean you were fine, sorry for making this awkward." "Its my fault actually", I responded back. "How is it your fault anon", she asked. I pressed my face against her ear forcefully and said " What does the first letter of every word after ">" say"?
>>688087007
That was a good read, anon. Thank you, and it's not about being "good enough" for a girl, it's about being "good enough" for yourself.
>>688088078
Buddy I hate to tell you but they're just making fun of me for having some cliff hangers in my story
>>688088101
Stupid Canadian gun laws, that would be the best an hero ever.
>>688087989
Any day, fam.
>>688087779
i want this thread 404ed now
>>688088184
Thanks pal, means a bunch. still drowning in fags picking at my feels tho
OP here, that person posting >>688087602
isn't me. ffs, if you want to circlejerk instead of listening to my story, fine. I'll repost this thread later and see if people are better then
>>688088419
Dude, it's /b/. Home of useless cunts that pick on you out of insecurity. Lucky you had some good people at least.
Help me /b/ my brother is go out with a fucking weeabo.
This picture close to her face. Please help me what do?
im not jocking i want to help my brother but he fall in love wiht that shit.
>>688088570
Where the fuck is the ending then?
I think I still have the last message history between me and my personal qt
>Not OP
>>688088570
Thanks for the sentiment but I'm the real op
ya fags
>>688088419
>drowning in fags
Fucking kek'd
>>688088673
there's no hope for him rest in peace
Any /b/tards wanna raid a survival server with us.
server1.miccraft.com
>>688088704
fuck these people, that other retard posted a fake story
>>688088736
thanks for fucking ruining my thread faggot
>>688088306
Nigga, get yoself str8.
You need to focus on something mad hard.
I got dis roommate, he a smart nigga. Mad smart.
He not bad in the looks department either.
Nigga gunna get his PHD in Math. Fuckin' genius, niggah.
anyhow, he just focused on his math, his fuckin flute playing, running the orchestra, and playing fucking sports. and bam, after a few months of hard fucking work NOT gamin'
on hoes, he knee-deep in pussy.
niggah, this aint' a meritocracy, but something more magical and mysterious. They won't hand you a girl when you win an award, but girl may want to hand themselves to you if you ain't looking for hand outs. Or just hand jobs for that matter.
I should mention that my roommate hadn't asked a girl out in his life, nor dated one up until this year. so, fucking work hard
I was a little fuck up from day one. My parents were amazing and I screwed everything up by being a little shit and taking it all for granted thinking that it would last forever. Teenage years hit, my shit-ness gets turned up to 11. Parents just wonder what happened. anger builds over time as I am fed up with their bullshit. (they had none. they were amazing and I was just a little fuckwad)
>mom asks what happened to the happy smile-y boy she raised.
>>tell her that the boy is dead
Constant trouble no application of myself to my life no nothing. Mom in particular takes it hard. Cries a lot.
>cancer diagnosis.
I don't believe it.
>round one. all good.
Never make one hospital visit.
>Round 2
Never make a hospital visit.
Ruin her birthday.
Ruin their anniversary party.
I ruin everything.
>Round 3.
>>mom goes on a farewell tour.
>don't even bother to wake up an hour early to tell her goodbye.
two days later
>at work
>sister comes in.
>mom died. She just stopped breathing. We have to go.
I never said goodbye. I never visited her in the hospital. I would wish she would stop throwing up at 2 am from chemotherapy. I don't think I even told her I loved for about 3 years straight. I was just a little shit who was stupid and spoiled and always thought everything would never change. I went to her funeral. I buried her without a tear because I couldn't believe it.
>I fucked up. It was all my fault.
>never get a hug again.
>never tell mom I loved her.
>never apologize.
>never show her what I can do.
so next time you see your mother, tell her you love her, and give her a big hug. Don't be a fuckup like me. Because I'm a worthless turd.
>>688088888
>>688087007
This shit is the real ending
>>688088874
Kill yourself
lets keep this thread going
>>688087779
XXXXXCCXcbj dg xD
>>688088570
nigga, give us the real ending and i'll listen.
>>688089053
confirmed troll
>>688089191
Nope, that's the real ending. Shithead.
>>688080055
>be me
>13 years old
>9/11/2001
>want to join army at 18 for god, country, and to kill muslims
>turn 18 and join army
>finish infantry school in full hard charger knights templar mode
>ship to iraq
>get to mosul ready to do my crusader thing
>on patrol and fire fight starts
>my first combat experience
>move to a house to take cover
>we breach the door and start clearing room to room
>i enter a bedroom and see a person move
>i get kind of panicky
>i put my dot on the person and fire 3 shots
>person falls to the ground
>i look up from the person and see a small child on the bed
>he screams and dives on what i now see is an unarmed old man
>the old man gurgles and stares at me as he bleeds to death
>the little boy is yelling at me, holding the old mans head and hand with tears pouring down his face
>i just stand there
>i can't even process what i had just done
>i back out of the room and we continue on with our fight
>i still see the old mans face every night
>his eyes staring straight through mine
>i still hear the little boy's screams
>only alcohol or strong medication can get me to sleep
>i don't even feel like a person anymore
>be me in 7th grade
>fall in love with cutest girl I've ever seen
>not do anything
>get mad when she shows any attraction to
>another guy even tho I've never told her
>graduate 8th grade and still madly in love
>still don't tell her
>things heat up between her and my best friend
>get depressed
>want to die
>show no sign of attraction to her to anybody
>best friend says he loves her
>killme.png
>>688089183
>nigga, give us the real ending and i'll listen.
i deleted it to write that post
honestly this fucking troll ruined my mood>>688089306
>>688089024
holy shit anon...
>>688089443
Lmao the troll was right tho
Real op speaking
>>688089068
I have an old story, everquest story... if anyone is wanting hear that.
>>688089616
>Real op speaking
stop fucking faking you fucking faker
>>688089716
LMAOOOOO
>>688089696
let's hear it man
>>688089328
I'm about to ship out to OSUT. Signed my contract a week ago. I'm terrified of these things.
>>688080055
>>688081618
>>688082686
>>688083908
>>688087007
That's the real deal feels fams
That's the story in order
Kill yourselves
I don't understand how people's hearts break like that. Mine just sorta bends?
>>688090041
>last one written in entirely different fashion
2/10 bait
>>688086289
this is the real story
>>688090200
You're actually cancer. Kill yourself. You aren't funny in any way shape or form.
>>688089328
Holy fuck that's deep.
>>688090149
It differs from person to person.
>>688090328
>You're actually cancer. Kill yourself. You aren't funny in any way shape or form.
honestly why the fuck did you have to crash my thread
>>688090503
World burn.. Etc etc
>>688090503
I'm talking to the guy trying to fuck up the ending of OPs original story.
>>688090768
im op
he didn't try
he succeeded
>>688090748
no survivors
>>688090503
Very funny you autist. I had that fucking story on my fucking mind for a long time, came to share it but typed too slow and now this whole thread is shitty
Contributing 1/?
>>688090970
who the fuck purposely derails threads like you
its like a fucking troll pissing all over a good dinner
>>688089328
This is a feels thread not a crippling experience thread
holy shit man
I don't know how to green text so newfag here
>be me
>be in 7th grade
> awkwardly ask easy 7/10 girl to be girlfriend
>Says yes
>super happy and see her at school sit with her on bus and sit with her and talk every day
>2 weeks to find the courage to hold her hand and felt like the best weed I've ever smoked before at that age
>4 weeks in quit smoking weed and cigs because she did not like the smell
>4 1/2 weeks she moved in for a kiss but beat her to it
>happy.jpg
>Date for the entire 7th grade year started finding myself thinking about her non stop for hours at a time
>Get phones from parents texting slowly turns into hours at a time from 4:00 to 10 if parents caught us if not 2-3 am
>Text become calls and we talk for hours or sometimes we say nothing but keep the line connected
>start of 8th grade we are still together and become known as the school as *that couple*
>Mid way through 8th grade we talk one day and the 3 words slip out of my mouth "I love you"
>catches her off guard as she says it back blushing harshly and holding me tightly
> 3/4 way through 8th grade Dad and step mom get into fight and get divorced.
>Have to move from Denham springs, LA to Ethel, LA
>Never got to say good-bye never got to see her one last time. The last time I remember her we were riding the bus home holding hands in the front seat and kissing for the final time.
>Mfw now 26 I still think about her everyday and randomly look her up on facebook one day.
7/10 blossoms into easy 9.4/10
>Be me 26 in relationship and still think about this chick from West Side Junior High School 13 years later and remember her like it was Yesterday.
>>688089328
Jesus christ man. That's just too much.
>>688091138
2/?
>>688089696
I don't greentext much, and no this aint no john cena add up the ends shit.
>Played EQ since 2000, Ruins of Kunark and all that
>Played on Xev Server. My brothers played there, so I did
>Bard because I was an annoying shit , and my brother played a bard
>Join a guild, "Chosen Ones"
>Basically, this game taught me to read and write
>make some friends
>one friend is gnome rogue
>He helps me out. a lot. quests, raids, everything, for like, 5 years
>I get to know his wife, who happens to play, and is an officer in the guild
>the three of us talk on the phone while playing sometimes
>I remember, we were in estate of unrest
>gnome says "Hey anon, I just wanted to say I'm shipping out tomorrow"
>I say "Shipping out what?"
>"I'm in the marines, and I got my orders"
>"Oh... how long will you be gone?"
>"A few months.."
>I'm only like, 12 or so at this point, so I don't entirely understand the full gravity of this shit. I'm just an entitled shit looking forward to continue to play
>"Well, have fun!"
>"... thanks man. I've had fun. Take care of wife while I'm gone."
>I laugh because of course she's level 60 and I'm a scrub.
>Anyhow, I go on playing for a few months, lonely because he's gone but I'm having fun enough.
>get phonecall one day, while I'm waiting for cleric to get on, to help me get my epic
>"Hey anon.."
>"hey cleric, when are you getting on?"
>"Umm... I can't really do that right now... I uhh.."
>"Hmm? What's up?"
>"Well, it's rogue... he uhh.. he and his fire team got ambushed and he uhh... he passed away a couple days ago. I only just found out..."
>"... I... i'm sorry."
>"... Me too.."
And I didn't see her ever again. She deleted her characters and everything I think, his as well...
I still can't go back to Unrest... even in P99
>>688091409
3/?
>>688090970
>>688091175
Ok, fine. I admit it, I derailed your thread. It was worth it though
>>688089934
I wish you the best. Take your time and check your target. Once a round leaves the barrel you can't take it back.
>>688091409
this hurts
>>688091832
How man? I just wanted to get a story off my chest. What the fuck did I do
>>688080055
>be me
>be in 6th grade
>going to future best friends house for first time
>get to know each other for a bit
>we start asking each other who we like
>I ask him first
>he says her name
>well call her anon 1
>I tell him my crush
>well call her anon 2
>I liked anon 1 but I just bs'd about how I like anon 2 so things wouldn't be awkward
>fast forward a few months (or year or two i can't remember)
>was staying the night at his house
>thanked me for not making it awkward the first time I went to his house. He told me that he knew I liked anon 1 from the start
>wtf.png
>anyway he tells me that they both had feelings for each other but that she was bisexual (she was also an emu)
>asks me if I'm bisexual
>tell him no (dumb retard thinks I knew that shit)
>fast forward half way through 7th grade
>start talking about anon 1 again
>I tell him that I still like her, he starts to think that i'm bi too
>tell him Im not. I'm bi now but I wasn't back then
>few days later me and anon 1 have math
>our desks are arranged in a square shape so I was sitting in front of her
>brought a few muchies put em at le table to share with everyone
>I go to grab some and anon 1 does too and our hands touch
>she retracts her hand but I see her smile a bit
>a few minutes later she starts to play footsies
>betaoverdrive.jpg
>tell her to stop
>fast forward to end of school year
>message her telling her that I like her
>she responded with "ya, I know. I don't care"
>just stare at wall for a bit
>she says "bye" a bit after
>say bye. We start getting into a conversation though. She tells me that's she's bi but that she's already dating a girl
>even after I said I like her we still message each other for a few days after
>next 2 years we never talk to each other again
>still see her every once in awhile though
>never with anyone though
>>688091661
4/?
>>688092043
Welcome to /b/ how's your summer?
>half of feels thread are about interactions with the opposite sex
>this is the extent of your emotional depths
Fuck off.
>>688091199
>This is a feels thread not a crippling experience thread
this, fuck i'm out.
>>688092043
You took too long, and the darkness within me, mercurial and malevolent, could be restrained no longer. As the ineffable truth of my cosmic trolling sang forth across my keyboard, I understood that it was only good and proper to respond to the insolence of the silent.
Dun worry g its all good in the hood though
>>688092091
5/?
>>688091970
Sorry, man. Hope things are going well with you. Got a lot more sadness coming.
>>688084656
>>688092165
Not only are you not helping his case but you also happen to be an unoriginal jokester xDD
>>688092379
>You took too long, and the darkness within me, mercurial and malevolent, could be restrained no longer. As the ineffable truth of my cosmic trolling sang forth across my keyboard, I understood that it was only good and proper to respond to the insolence of the silent.
Someone's been reading his Lovecraft.
>>688089328
Deep.
>>688092635
Is lovecraft any good, I've been tempted to pick something up but just never got around to it.
>>688092165
I liked OP's story and I also thought the derail was funny, but don't do the whole wow /b/ is so edgy, look at me I'm an oldfag who trolled you LOOOOOL XDXD when it's just an anon sharing a personal story. Save that for real victory, like rustling those damn sjws and tumbler spies.
>>688092407
6/?
Anyone lurking?
>>688092862
Depends on your tastes. I personally love it, the writing style is just fucking awesome. Try starting with some of his shorter works, like The Crawling Chaos. If you like it, then buy an anthology. And it's always way cooler on weed too.
Here m8
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77xxGopjMbY
ITT: We derail OP's thread
>>688089328
>This old man could've very well struck his wife on various occasions because he lives in a backwards hellhole.
>waaaaaah I feel so bad killing a guy that would've gladly killed me had our situations been reverse.
Get over it, fag.
Thank god pussies like you weren't around when we actually needed the military.
>>688092728
indeed
>>688089328
This anon has a real reason to have the feelz
>>688093167
Keep goin anon
>>688093386
Haha dude hardcore TELL him dude get that fUCker
>>688093444
Checked m8
>>688093741
Right, because accidentally killing a kid would've been cliche to the point of disbelief.
Shut the fuck up.
>>688089328
You fucking pussy, you should've shot the boy and no one needed to be the wiser. Sure, it was an unwitting mistake, but this way all you've done is shorten some goatfucker's life by a couple years, and created a future terrorist. Good fucking going there.
>>688093167
I am
>>688093167
7/?
>>688093780
Alright, anons.
>>688094001
GET HIM dude HOly FUCK SLAY
SLAYYYYY
>>688093837
He's probably a fine soldier, faggot. He's just being a whiny faggot who's idolizing some dead fuck he killed accidentally out of misplaced guilt, when had that faggot been his age and invaded our country, would've had no issue with raping his wife in front of him then beheading him in front of her.
>>688094037
HOLY FUCK DUDE FUCKING SAVAGE HAHAHAH THIS IS WILD BOYS GET IN HERE
>>688093386
>>688093837
>>688094037
Ow the edgehog
>>688087007
I know how you feel anon, early years wasted, literally miss every opportunity ever presented at that age, i had 3 qt;s wanting me and i blew it. One of them like yours led me on for years, it hurts anon.
>>688094132
8/?
>>688093780
>>688094042
Anons*
>>688094329
>Slobbing a militarycuck's knob this hard over the internet even when the story is more than likely false.
Keep fighting the good fight, anon.
>>688093167
yep
>>688094648
Hey, at least it's a good story
>>688088673
Your brother needs to heighten his standards.
>>688084163
I agree. The real sad thing is, I will never find one because of something that I can never ever change, ie my hideous face. I feel sick every time I look in the mirror. I hate myself.
>>688094463
9/?
>>688095257
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder my dude. Don't let that ever leave your mind. There is always someone.
>>688095129
It is cookie cutter Americana bullshit that only plebs would sympathize with out of deeply repressed homoerotic admiration for the military establishment.
>>688093386
>>688094001
>>688094037
>>688094183
>>688094250
>>688094329
>>688094648
He's going to kill himself now.
>>688088673
kill it for your brothers sake
>>688095439
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rY0WxgSXdEE&nohtml5=False
I would expect no less if I were in his situation.
>>688080055
I got one for you OP.
>Be me, 5 year old kid
>Weird, autistic acting douche
>Only friend is a bully
>Gets beat up regularly
>Bully breaks shit around school and blames it on me
>Everyone believes him because he's the cool kid
>Get shit on by literally everyone throughout that year and for the next 2
>Tell parents about bullying finally
>They goto principle
>"Uh, i'm sorry but bullying is natural at this ag"
>tmwprinciplebullysme2.jpg
>Eventually move to another school, now 8
>Instantly given the tag of the weird kid
>No friends, bad at sports, spends all day in house on PS2
>Generally hated for no reason
>Bullies start to pick on me
>Goes on for another 2 years until I leave for another school
>Throughout that time I get my wrist broken 5 times
>Bullys knew that all I did was play games so they took away my ability to do that
Cont.
>>688091323
Jesus fuck I almost cried
>>688094463
Damn son, bringing the heat. I feel like this, but I won't kill myself because I have a family and friends who would be hurt deeply. I'm just going to keep going and hope for the best. The ride never ends.
>>688095803
Holy shit,I am exactly in your place.
>>688092407
That's powerful :(
>>688086691
Tell us more about Mitch the Bitch, they sound interesting
>>688085172
I hate it when people say shit like this. The only people who say this sorta stuff are the people who aren't permanently alone. They have no idea what it's like to have never been in a relationship. They don't spend their lives alone, wondering what it's like to love someone and have them love you back. Fml
>>688096019
The ride never ends, anon. Fight the good fight.
>>688095725
>Get into new school before going secondary
>Fresh start, feeling happy
>Try to be cool
>Lie on first day to get some mates, immediately shot down
>Seen as the liar throughout the school
>At least not bullied, just left alone
>feelsgoodman.png
>One day teachers phone got stolen
>Top kek
>Got immediately searched for it, questioned
>Principle was a faggot, threatened me multiple times
>No evidence it was me (it really wasn't), but gave me 2 weeks detention
>Kept resisting, got police to come in and take everyone's finger print
>liketheydoshit.webm
>Police come back, i'm not the culprit
>Principle continues with my punishment anyway
>Get wrist broken once more, I now solely rely on vidya
>Go into depression
Cont.
This fucked me up real good
>Be me
>2004
>17 years old
>total deadbeat loser
>friends are also losers
>we become stoners because why not
'weed isn't a gateway drug' go fuck yourself
>quickly go down the rabbit hole that is drugs
>start taking xtc, speed etc
>my parents don't know about it
>at party
>took 2-cb for the first time
>tripping balls, all good
>we're at a friends house, only people I already knew were there
>at around 23:00 we had to leave that house
>still tripping
>decide to go to another party
>90% people I didn't know
>stuck with friends
>I'm sitting with my friends who are talking to some random people, I'm silent
>grill sits next to me
>oh no pls I'm not in shape to talk to girls
>Hey, anon right?
>Y-yes, that's me
>How's it going?
>I'm alright
>she starts laughing
>lol anon I can't see your pupils
>I nod like fucking snoop dog or something
>grill is a solid 9/10, short but got a great ass and nice tits
>she leans against me while we speak
>horny as fuck now
>can't control myself, horny+tripping=pain
>kiss her
>k m8, she kisses back
>all good
>I'm still tripping pretty hard, but, want to go to my place? It's cold here
>where is it?
>It's nearby
>hmm, sure I guess.
Cont?
>>688094648
Someone got denied from the military and is salty.
>>688092474
Fuck off newfag
>>688096211
I'll try man, I will try. Same for you comrade, best of luck. I'll definitely remember this. Anyway I'm going to bed. Night all.
>>688095671
11/?
>>688095803
>>688096019
My thoughts are with you, anons.
>>688092044
>(she was also an emu)
>>688096362
I would not meet the physical requirements and am okay with this. I don't plan on running a mile anytime soon because I have a car.
>>688096374
Night comrade, godspeed.
WHERE THE FUCK IS OP I WANT THE REST OF THE FUCKING STORY!?!
10/10 feels
STFU and just rape her all ready, she WILL say stop just ignore her and keep going...its what she wants.
>>688089328
War is chaos. Mistakes happen. Don't be too hard on yourself about it, take it as a lesson. Always identify your target before firing.
>>688096509
12/?
>>688096234
>Finally get into secondary
>This would be year 7, I am now like 12 (sorry if my timings are off)
>Only 4 friends; Fatty, Ginger, Emo, Sports.
>Ignored by everyone as that weird kid
>We didn't mind, Sports was somewhat popular.
>Bullies become merciless now
>Go home everyday with either a black eye or my clothes fucking ripped
>My parents started arguing constantly
>Vidya only realm I can escape to
>No social life still
>4 friends
>Depression gets worse
>fuckingkillmenow.gif
>School gets involved, I get a restraining order
>Not bullied, but hated by everyone even more
>Accept it and just carry on
>Pretty smart, so close to top in almost every class
>hated even more
>Year 7 ends, 8 begins
>Gain a few more friends.
>Still depressed, gets even worse
>Family now bankrupt, father close to dying,
mum downsize to a 1 bedroom bungalow
>Start eating less and less for food, as v. poor
>Become pale and weak, no way to keep fit
>Bullies come back at school, but I've become emotionless now
>Survive just through vidya games
>Father takes a turn for the worse, collapses in front of me
>Depression gets worse, attempted suicide
>Failed, never talk about it with anyone
Cont.
>>688088712
>I deleted them to keep myself from reliving feels
Thank you past me. You help me out a lot.
>>688088184
The most important lesson I ever learned. Thank for for saying it to the anon in need.
>>688096320
Yes
>three years ago i was at a really shitty part of town
>thats where all my friends hanged out
>after a night of pissing the store owners off our group dispersed
>while walking home i heard noises from an alleyway that smelled like absolute shit
>i decided to go near it cause why the fuck not
>heard a lot of shuffling and scraping noises on a hard surface
>there was something fuzzy on the otherside of that trashcan
>a tail was poking out
>mfw it was a dog
>it looked scared as shit and my parental instincts just hiked into overdrive and decided to take it in
>the dog smelled like saturated piss and condensed fecal matter combined
>spent months trying to groom him back to health-- even got him pet insurance
>loved him to bits
>brought him a shitton of toys to compensate for the shitty years he probably had in that alleyway
>became a doggy soccer-mom
>after work he was always at the front door waiting to greet me
>little fucker probably remembered my entire schedule
>had him sleep next to me late at night with his favorite chew toy
cont>>
>>688097617
fast forward three months later
>this dog carries his little chew toy around the house and drops it by my feet
"fetch?"
>we kept playing fetch until my right arm was no longer usable for fapping
>taxes and rent got really stressful after realizing i spent a fortune on my little doggo
>still loved him
>cried at the dinner table after too much stress
>dog knew that i was in distress
>brought his chew toy to my feet
"i cant play fetch right now... anon's a little tired today..."
>he pushes the toy with his nose
>he whimpers until i get up and pick the chew toy up and eventually play with him
>he was a man's best friend
another three months
>he suddenly stopped eating and playing fetch
>something is fucking wrong
>brought him to a vet
>found out his teeth were fucked beyond saving
>vet tells me to keep an eye on him if he starts losing teeth
>teeth just starts coming down like fucking rain
>each time i see one fall my anxiety raises
>took him to the vet again
>vet tells me that i either put him down or he'll just die of rotting teeth
>idk what teeth has to do with death but apparently it relates to the dog's heart
>start breaking down like a 5 year old
>vet gives me 5 more months til i can put him out of his misery
>dog doesnt even look like my happy little doggo anymore-- just pure lethargy
>he doesnt even pick up his chew toy anymore
>dog just sleeps in my bed
>i put the chew toy next to him and tell him goodnight
its been a year since he died but im glad i made the last few months for him the best days of his life. i miss you lots doggo xx
>>688097119
13/?
>>688087182
Give yourself some credit, man. If she loved you that much then there has to be SOMETHING about you that's worthwhile. And you're still pretty young, you have time to meet someone else.
Why exactly did the communication fade out so quickly?
>>688097134
>Father recovers, reckon he won't last that much longer
>Still hated by everyone
>Start expanding small group of friends a bit more, stop several people from commiting suicide
>I become their "gay best friend" who they can tell anything to
>Get to year 9
>Feeling pretty good, father is getting better
>Money is getting worse, but eh.
>Friend group expands again, finally meet otaku friends
>Get first GF and kiss
>Lifeaintbad.mp4
>Stop suicide more, become less hated
>This year wasn't that bad.
>Year 10 arrives
>Feeling pretty good, depression is low
>Get more and more friends
>Suddenly bitch arrives
>Within a month, kicked out of my friendgroup
>Given 2 page report on why I am a faggot
>Cry myself to sleep
>Hated by everyone again
>Another suicide attempt, failed
>Get over it, move on.
>March 25, 2015 - father dies.
>Came out of nowhere. He was actually getting better
>Doctors said he might make it.
Sad part
>1 Day before my parents 21st anniversary
>Find the card on the anniversary
>Cry
>Remember what he said the day before
>"You know, they send people here to die"
>Cry more
Cont.
>>688096127
Mitch the Bitch and friends? guess I might as well
>mitch the bitch was a fat shit, always red-faced and high-voiced
>just generally annoying and quick to be a suckup to authority to try and advance his reputation with teachers
>hence the bitch part
>not to many incidents with mitch the bitch, he's more like a side character to everyone i interacted with
>mitch was a borderline reject though, so we tolerated him
>if a reject would have transferred or moved classes, the food chain would have fucked him over and left him with us
>anyways, be rejects
>i'm the fat shit with glasses and an ego
>skinny black kid named Kenshawn, autistic kid who did the naruto run everywhere, loved sonic
>some hick kid i can't remember the name of, but equate him to a child early cuyler with an even bigger ego than me, just not dumb with it
>lanky white kid named Tristan (who I actually went back years with), gangsta wannabe eminem type slight-austic guy
>ryan, the kid who had tattoos at age 10 kind of guy. actual gangster, cut a few people with razors once. the kind of guy i think was packing most days
>gabrielle. loser anime trash you'd find here with us on 4chan. didn't talk with her much, probably autistic like the rest of us, definitely butch at the time. always dying her hair, always getting a piercing somewhere.
replaced real names with fake ones. anyways, this is who i grew up with, and i'll be posting the actual story of how i undeservingly got the best friend i could ask for shortly
Family found out I started doing heroin again and apparently it scarred them for life. Wasn't aware that they were this innocent, and now I feel like a plague that seeped into the cracks of their home.
That doesn't necessarily make me feel very bad though, and I'm not sure why. I suppose it's because I'd have to be made to feel bad about it, like people have this contrived sense of moral authority that they try to impose on me until it molds my conscience and begins to operate automatically.
I've severed that connection though, because I realized I could, and now everyone sees me as scum or a monster.
They ask me what happened to my humanity, and I ask them if they can define humanity clearly, but they never could, so I safely concluded that nothing they had to say was of any importance to me.
>>688089328
Nope... just nope.
>>688097352
For anyone still here. This is me and OP. OP on left. Sorry, had to cover our faces. I've been here watching. I'm the sadboi friend he mentioned. Thanks for the people that responded genuinely. Have a nice night.
>>688087007
shitty greentext. shitty story.
you're cried about nothing.
get the fuck out of here and grow some balls u fat fuck
>>688096509
Holy fuck anon
>>688098234
op confirmed as a faggot. his friend confirmed as a bigger faggot
>>688097174
I know that feel.
>>688098471
Thanks. Expecting that. Welcome to 4chan!
might've posted this the other day
am still confused about her
>meet girl online
>text for a month back n forth
>decide to meet up
>very pretty girl
>same kind of humor
>spends 3 days at my house
>we have a lot of fun, go to the movies, friends party, sex
>continue to meet up for the next 5 months
>just before christmas tells me she cant do it anymore
>gets back together with her ex
>3 months pass without any form of contact
>slowly start texting again
>i get "i've missed you in my life" messages
>last week
>some more of those kind of texts
>ask her if she'*s happy
>she says overall yes
that was about 2 months ago
during those she texted me more of those "i've missed stuff with you" texts
yesterday and the day before that we were discussing that matte because i'm fed up with having to deal with it
she told me that
>she thinks about us whenever her relationship is at some negative point
>she misses the sex we had, the feeling i gave her
told her that she was still insecure, that she was using me as a safe haven
she agreed, yet always took the chance to tell me over and over that she "made the right decision" and "just has to life with her choice"
while it's clear she's all like "no idea what i want", she still thinks about me even after 6 months
and i still don't really know why she chose her ex, instead of me, if she is still thinking about me a lot
>>688097911
>GF breaks up with me
>friendless, fatherless, no money
>Few months later we are threatened to be kicked out of house
>Depression gets so bad, in 3 days 3 suicide attempts.
>How the fuck bleach didn't kill me I don't know
>How the fuck I didn't die from being run over by a fucking car, I don't know
>Failed at hanging myself.
>Trapped in hell, no way out.
>Vidya games couldn't even save me no more.
>At the end of the year, I thought "Fuck it"
>Get ambitions, pick myself up and start planning for future
>Knew no one else would pick me up
Year ends.
>Year 11, now about 16
>Gain old friends back, bitch has been kicked out
>Apologised to left and right because they knew who the bitch was
>Start saving mates from suicide again, getting better rep
>No longer getting kicked out of house, mother got a large bonus
>Hope.mp3
>Become dealer at school (not drugs, sweets and drinks - i know it is pathetic)
>Get new gf, finally got more money
>More friends
>Depression slowly fades
>Become more relaxed
>Become more open about problems
>More friends again
>Getting even more cash
>Get to end of year
>No gf, but eh. More friends and I felt like I belonged somewhere
>Donated all cash to charity, someone else needed it
>£3000 straight down the drain
>Money problems arise
>Now i'm right here, telling my story at 6:13am in the morning with an exam in less than 3 hours.
Life gets better everyone. Please hold out hope. Life isn't bad enough to end it. If you want to get something out of life, make it happen.
>>688097748
14/?
>>688098021
Be your own person, anon. Morality is created by the society you grow up in. Do as many drugs as you want but don't stop doing good. Give some homeless dude a meal or help out an old lady struggling with her groceries. Hell, you could just compliment someone that's looking down. Fuck anyone that says you're a bad person just because of any recreational activities you do that have no effect on them.
>>688098234
Goodnight, OP.
>>688098555
People feel they become trapped by the choices they make.
>>688099242
Thanks, anon. I wish they were more accepting of my life choices, but they perceive it as a disease that's out to ruin my life.
Oh well.
Not necessarily super sad but
>9th grade
>socially awkward and bi-sexual
>crush on ginger boy
>become good friends
>i want to go further in relationship
>find out through friend he is heavily christian and against gay relationships
>love of my life moves out of town and goes to new christian school
>sad ever since
>>688099242
Thanks for what you posted anon, I gotta go but Ihope you have a wonderful day tomorrow
>>688099705
Get the fuck off 4chan and go meet more dicks and bitches then. The fuck you spending your time on here for?
>be me no female contact till middle school
>have art class with like 6 qt's any of whom i'd settle for
>most beutiful of them sits across from me
>i went alpha and asked if she wanted to date
>girl says no turns around to other girls
>all of them make fun of my haircut for no reason
>lost out on 4 of the 6 girls in class
>2 other qt's sitting together, walk over to be alpha and flirt
>walk over open my mouth to speak, and drool splats on the table they are at, immediately they scream.
>then other girls in class from before all team up all 6 and make fun of not only my haircut but the fact i accidentally drooled.
>dont ever talk to girls again hardly till highschool
>friendless and no gf Highschool starts terrible.
>a QT slips a note to me, asks to date.
>beta me is over joyed
>we hug that day
>and she breaks up with me the next
>no explanation as to why
>feels sad make some friends
>Freshmen year is almost over and still no gf
>sit next to hottest girl in my grade
>so hot 10/10 that i felt i had no chance
>draw pictures rest of year...
>fast forward senior year graduation party
>no gf the whole time but drinking with some friends
>we start talking about qt's
>we talk about hottest girl in our class
>all talk about how hot she was
>they all look at me silently
>i ask what?
>they say "anon everyone knew she had the biggest crush on you and loved your drawings"
>my jaw drops, i ask wtf guys i had no idea!
>the friend i hated the most, that ugly son of a bitch i rmember his stupid fucking face when he said
>sorry anon i forgot to tell you, she asked me if i would ask you out for her...sorry bro i forgot
>i got upset and was like wtf man, he then said "she gave me a couple notes to give you, forgot those too lol....
Whats worse anons, to never have had a chance, or to have had the most epic chance of a life time, yet never even know about it because your stupid faggot ass friend was too jealous to even tell you.
>>688099119
how does one fail at hanging one-self? This seems like a really simple process.
>>688097989
i bestow unto thee, the arrival of a pure angel unto the broken and twisted
>be fat shit me
>reading in class, reading at lunch, reading everywhere because autism and no friends
>reading that gay owl book that was popular ~2010ish, gahool or something
>one day, someone new arrives
>skittish, anxious, not sure where to sit
>makes newbie move of sitting with us, the rejects, because we're the most passive towards everyone
>sits right next to me and pulls out a book
>big grin on her face saying hello to everyone
>rest of us are either already doing our autistic shit and shutting off the rest of the world, or staring at her like we're holocaust refugees
>she pulls out a book in the same series we're reading
>overcome autism and decide to chat to her about it, excitedly talk about it for the rest of lunch as we get to know each other
>do this for a few weeks, everything's good
little by little, my autism hides in the corner. plotting angrily, rubbing his hands and cackling softly.
>because i've never had a genuine friend, let alone a genuine friend that's female, i slowly become overwhelmed by emotions i can't control
>autism tells me to blurt out that i love her over cellphone texting
>get shut down (of course)
>friendship fades away over the immediate weeks and months following, until she moves away again and we become simple friends on skype. she's forgotten me, but i haven't forgotten her.
rock on, ashley. rock on.
>>688099242
15/?
>>688099555
I know what you mean, man. People never look at me the same when they find out I've fucked with so many different drugs even though I've always tried my best to do good and even have a decent and well paying job. It's fucked up how people feel like they have a higher sense of right and wrong.
>>688099747
Np. Have a nice night.
>>688097134
cont mate
>>688099119
You fucking suck at killing yourself but ayyy ps2 was the shit and also my only friend for awhile
>>688099705
>9th grade
Gtfo 14 year old
Be me
>go to work today
>work with friend at his dad's shop/ ExxonMobil
>normal fucking day
>pretty happy
>about 2 o'clock we find dad's brother in family house behind exxon
Nigga hung himself
> Shit fest ensues
