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Psychiatrist back again.
>AMA
How do I keep the past in the past and stop blaming my parents?
>>686200915
Give me an example.
How do you manage patients on clozapine? E.g. how often do you run cloz clinics, and what pathology tests do you request routinely?
>>686201104
Parents used to ignore my desire to become an artist as I grew up. Just ignored me in that sense.
Also, my dad used to always tell me that I'm not good enough( on a regular basis) for shits and giggles even though I used to do good in school. Now, my default view of myself is that I'm a failure.
My gfs mom is on a morphine drip dying of cancer. She was also abused by her stepdad from ages 8 to 14.. In her 20s now struggling with anxiety and depression. Her mom didn't divorce her stepdad until she was 16, while she lived with her aunt and uncle down the street.
She has a grudge understandably, but loves her mom still to an extent. Any advice in a hard time?
>>686201426
Its just 1 evaluation. Most of my clients are sent by the state of Florida. Ive had like 3 that use clozarin.
>>686201825
How old are you?
>>686201866
Get close to her mom now or regret ot for the rest of her life.
>>686202112
Lol, almost 30. I guess it's prolly something stupid compared to the things some anons struggle with in this thread.
>>686201872
What do you mean it's just 1 evaluation? Can you describe your typical caseload in terms of population? Also, do you get many ftd, psp or geriatric cases that requires management of cognitive decline as well as psychiatric features? Thanks.
>>686202469
What did you become instead of an artist?
>>686202674
Did some odd jobs, currently working in a print shop
>>686200718
How Do I get Ambitions for my life?
>>686202251
Oh she is.. She's been over there every day while I'm at work.. It's just heavy on me because I work all day and then I come home and I'm comforting her.. I love her so I do it willingly, but it wears on my heart after basically two months of it.
how do i get rid of my tics, OP?
I never had them until about 3 years ago. I started to have maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism while I was struggling with major depression. I was acting out my daydreams and doing it compulsively, for hours, everyday. now I get cringe attacks, remember of very embarrassing memories and start cursing, shivering and gasping uncontrollably every 30 minutes.
help a brother. i used to have such a promising academic career too.
>>686202865
Do you have your own family?
Why are you pretending to be a psychiatrist?
>>686203609
Nope. Haven't had a relationship since 5th grade (lol). I am seeing a psychologist at the moment. Thing is, I were pretty good at art (and prolly can go far if I put my mind to it) but I seem to have lost my passion for life and for making art. After starting to believe that I'm not good enough I've never been able to have a decent conversation with women because I know I'm not good enough for them. That's why I'm asking how do one turn a clean slate, distance yourself from the past and get the courage to face life again? I have to go anon. Something came up, but I can stay a few more seconds.
>>686204601
If its really that bad o would move to a new spot and start all over again.
>>686200718
Overly basic question:
I'm constantly irritable, have an OK circle of friends, enjoy work (as much as anyone can), but frequently have zero will to get out and be proactive. Prone to just feeling emotionally drained and exhausted, want to put no effort into relationships (friends or romantic). Would rather stay in and get drunk and semi-flirt with people I know via text then jack off.
Basically, I'm guessing I'm depressed, but don't really know what to do about it. I can't really afford to start seeing a professional, so any advice on what to do?
Sorry for the waste of time
>>686203954
>No need to lie to the /b/ros.
I was once a fuck up too.
I was on drugs and alcohol everyday. Eventually i vot caught and i turned my life around
I found out a kid in my school is a furry. What do.
alice its me, ticks
someone was impersonating me
that wasn't me
hopefully you get that
i didn't notice till it was too late and the thread was gone
>>686206165
wtf is you smoking, faggot. i wasn't impersonating you. i have MD and ticks too. also, alice is my favorite book and you are creepily similar to me.
>>686205486
Its not expensive. 20$ the state pays the rest
>>686205955
Leaving now don't answer this>>686206165
>>686203540
What were you depressed about?
>>686206388
im talking about something which happened in a different thread and has nothing to do with you
I know a furry, ears and tail every day for a month strait. luckily she stopped a couple weeks ago. scarred me for life
>>686206557
turns out it was a lot of enmeshment while i was growing up. dad started cheating on mom when i was born, he got into alcohol and started physically abusing her and shit. mom got very depressed. she's a doctor so she knew a lot about psychiatry, did everything she can to not deprive me of affection and nurturing when i was a kid. the fact that she had a kid was the only reason she didn't commit suicide, so she put me before everything else. i was codependent my whole life, and since i couldn't be breastfed because of my mom's depression when i was a baby, i have a strong oral fixation. no success was ever enough, i always felt a huge responsibility over my shoulders. always felt like i was far from my potential. i had only perfect expectations from myself, and the grandiose would break and shatter me every time i had even a little shortcoming. i always dated fucked up bipolar, narcissistic girls and never had a healthy relationship.
>>686200718
what are successful methods for coping with anxiety attacks resulting from PTSD?
>>686206904
Is tjis a real thing? I just thought it was /b/tards trying to see how many idiots fwll for it
http://www.strawpoll.me/10128089
>>686207445
How bad is it?
For some wierd reason it keeps kicking me out of thread
>>686200718
When I get stressed I tend to push people away and basically make self fulfilling prophecies that everyone I care about wants to abandon me. How do I stop being that way?
How much do you make
How do I go about becoming a psychiatrist?
>>686200718
Help me!!
So for 6 years I've had a group of people work against me. 3 years ago I thought I was becoming paranoid and when I mentioned it to one of the executives I liason with, he told me they were playing with me to cause me to fail and discredit me. He wouldn't tell me who but for the next 3 years I did very cursory investigation and all signs seem to point to this.
Now I realize while I don't think I'm mentally ill, that's probably what a mentally ill person would say. I was really crushed because when I confronted the people I thought were responsible they didn't confirm it. I expected that but what I didn;t expect was this executive who gave me probably the most shocking thing in my life he doesn't recall it..
wtf?
What should I do? I've given notice and am leaving but I want to make sure I'm ok and this wasn't some sort of episode based on things this person had told me over the years.
What say you?
>>686209137
wat
>>686208628
700 before taxes only work 2 hrs a day monday thru thursday
>>686200718
U ever prescribe desoxyn?
>>686208623
I forgot to mention that I've been suicidal for about 10 years and have extremely anxiety as well as very severe depression.
>>686200718
my girlfriend and I broke up last fall after getting in a fight, she went and pretty much just rebound fucked some dude she went to high school with right after we broke up, we got back together and she got mad at me today because I told her I don't like hearing about her hanging out with that other guy. am I being unreasonable here? I'm not asking much, I just don't want to hear about that shit.
>>686209137
Why do they treat you bad?
Proof w/timestamp
>>686209316
wat wat?
>>686209567
To a certain degree. While you were single you didnt mess around?
>>686209477
hey dude, that's avoidant personality disorder. you really should read Neil Strauss' book The Truth. OP is a fag and is basically trolling, hasn't answerred any questions since the start of the thread. probably not even a psychiatrist either, just some troll. but trust me.
Also, save this document.
http://www.neilstrauss.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/01/TheTruth_ReadingList.pdf
the trauma part in the beginning has all the books you need. good luck mayne.
>>686209959
Thanks anon
>>686209748
actually no. I had just moved and started a new job and was trying to get my own shit sorted out, and I just don't know anyone here so while I did have moments where I just wanted to find someone to hook up with, I never did, and she knows I didn't.
>>686209574
I had a partner that tried to steal my book of business. I caught him (it's against his contract) and blocked him from doing it. People from the company in question tried to pull him in against their contract as well (they like him as he was their guy) and I forced them not too. Another executive threatened to destroy me and cause me to suffer even longer ago. I thought it was because of this but to be honest it's being done maliciously. These are ultra rich people and perhaps this is just a fun game for some of them. The one (destroy you guy) has held his grudge for over 10 years though I apologized for it a few times over the years including at the time of fault 10 years ago. He just would never accept my apology and apparently is a malicious bastard.
I ask because I was ready to kill these people yesterday but instead faced him and told him what I thought with his boss beside me. Of course I knew he'd never admit, but I was worried this person may go after me as he seems to for 10 years.
>>686210360
Oh shit now ya did it, if grudge guy ends up dead you'll be questioned.
>>686210654
I never threatened him, it was an internal conflict I had to mull over weeks as I was so upset when I learned what I think is the truth. I'm also aware I could be wrong so I wouldn't want to harm the innocent.
It's just after 6years of this shit, I think I have a suspicious mind and I want to be sure there isn't some problem with me and I'm of sound mind. I think I am but I think crazy people think that too.
>>686211050
K-keep up the good work, Psychologist-kun!
Alright OP I'm 28 going on 29 single childless male. Still live at home for a few reasons other than financial that don't exist anymore. Looking for a house currently but picky. So I live with my mom, step dad, and teenage half brother. For pretty much my entire life my mom has been a controlling and stubborn, generally condescending, bitch to all of us, but me especially. My social life has suffered immensely at her hands because I don't feel like even encountering the bitching that occurs if I go and do what I want when I want not on her dime. I feel like it's only getting worse as I get older. Maybe I'm just more tired of it though. On the other hand though, in as hateful of ways as it was, she's also helped me financially and made sure I stayed on track in life to get a good education and job. I never truly knew what was wrong with her until I found narcissistic parent syndrome and it fit her to a T. I've told her several times the thing she does that make me not want to even talk to her anymore. I a rarely do unless I have to because everything is answered with a hateful condescending tone & sometimes argument. I've even suggested we go to therapy and she says it's all me not her. I'd like to mend my relationship with her and quit holding this grudge that she's ruined my teens and 20s but nothing seems to work other than going along to get along. I have no diagnosed medical history myself though I could say with certainty I have moderate to high generalized and social anxiety because of her, and probably ride the fence of risky BPD type behaviors too because it keeps me destressed enough to not murder someone. Advice?
>>686211317
Keep on keeping on
>>686211653
I already sent you an email. Please don't mess up this thread any more than we already have; it's not ours.
>>686211686
*thumbs up*
>>686202674
fuck you answering questions with questions you bell end. If you're who you say you are you are too slow at offering worthwhile help and therefore a fail
>>686212391
I cant really answer because i personally dont know you. I realized it since the beginning. Im sorry anons.the best i can do is just give advice
>>686212619
*sighs and rubs her head* You have to feel the empathy! What do you have, compassion fatigue? Or just no clinical experience?
/b/tards respond well to requests for info; don't try to just go it alone, ask them questions, try to connect with them, give some of your own experience with the same problems.
I went to a gender specialist and was diagnosed with mild gid. I am an avid crossdresser and have been taking herbal hormones. The specialist wants to put me on proper hormones but I was reading about addicition and espeically porn addiction and found I mirror what I had read. Everything started ok in the beginning but now I watch sissy porn exclusively, wear panties 24/7 and only masturbate while dressed, watching sissy porn and getting high.
I was wondering if being gid and/or a sissy could be caused by the build up of deltafosb or if this wouldn't be the case.
Not true. Avoid the things that made your past shitty reauires awareness. Leave it to a pseudo-deep hermetic meme to get people to forget this basic fact of life, though.
>>686211565
read The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller. it's about development psychology. a person's heterosexual relationships with partners are very similar to their relationships with opposite sex parents. that's probably why you have social anxiety. you didn't have a secure attachment with your mother while growing up, she wanted you to depend on her so she could substitute the love she never had as a child. she wanted to control you, manipulate you to feel loved and respected. welcome to the club, homie.
also read my other post, same applies to you. very good resources on that link, just look through the list on the PDF >>686209959
>>686212955
stop taking herbal hormones you idiot
>>686213104
That's the crazy thing tho is my grandparents though strict were very loving and easy to talk to people. Everything said is a personal attack to her intelligence and authority and there is nothing she doesn't know best even if truly can't argue why she's right. I don't know where she got it from.
are there two psychologists in the thread
also i would like to apologize to the op of this thread for posting something irrelevant in order to try and get my message to Alice.
>>686213506
have a disposable email? im on a similar road, we could maybe help each other.
>>686200718
I just recently met a really amazing girl. I'm kind of sick of relationships and would like to become friends with her. She already has a boyfriend anyways. I'm struggling keeping my mindset on us as friends, and I'm unsure of how to interact with her as a friend rather than as a potential partner.
>>686200718
Am I normal if I get all my sex from here?
http://adultfriendfinder.com/go/g1165272-ppc?page_id=695
>>686213727
Oh yeah how so? That was a very verrrry brief version...
>>686213891
i feel you man. you should watch this video, and listen really close
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdnYedTpToA
>>686213296
Why? I like it keeps the balls functional (??) while I grown breasts and feminize myself.
>>686214053
watching now. Thanks buddy. Any other advice while I watch?
>>686214244
that aint how it works dude estrogen is estrogen is estrogen. its identical to the pills
>>686214005
yeah i am the anon from the following posts, IDs are gone and shit's getting confused
>>686203540
>>686207244
>>686209959
>>686213104
Okay so I was diagnosed with BPD recently and have been diagnosed with anxiety for a few years now. Any good method of keeping my mood in chech and maybe helping with the anxiety?
I just want to be someone I can be proud of.
>>686214323
yup. she's not special and YOLO that shit. you won't ever get another chance to live, man. fuck her if she doesn't like you, whether as a friend or a partner. imagine yourself as your father. not as your father, but let me rephrase it this way. imagine yourself as your son. be your own father. now answer your question, how would you feel to see your son stressing over this? what would you recommend? give yourself the love you didn't get enough of, remind yourself that world is your sandbox and is there for your enjoyment. the ongoing life is a mere decoration. get hobbies and shit. draw, compose music, get your energy out of your system. create, man. create. if you don't create, you will obsess.
>>686200718
really, how unhealthy is it being on here (on the internet in general) for extended periods every day?
sometimes I feel like im wasting my life, other times I feel happy and privileged that I can communicate with people around the world or really look up whatever I want in seconds and its not so bad to indulge in it
>>686214448
So your mother spoiled and affectionately catered to you all she could...we are definitely not on the same page bro. I may have been monetarily spoiled a bit, but when I had a problem it was do as she says or you're an idiot even though I know you're not an idiot. Then as I got older it basically became if you don't do as I say you're an idiot. Even if it wasn't said her condescending lashing out on me for any choice I made against her beliefs very much said it. I've been spit on slapped in the face and had shit thrown at me more times than I can count. Cussed out on at least a weekly basis.
>>686215095
>imagine yourself as your father...how would you feel to see your son stressing over this? what would you recommend?
Thats actually one of the more powerful things I've read. Thanks man, its exactly what I needed to hear. Go for it, who cares if she does or does not like me as a friend/partner, there's more people than just her, and more to live for that just her.
>>686215381
read this
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hikikomori
>>686215392
yeah, abandonment and enmeshment are two sides of the same coin.
pic related: attachment and corresponding parenting styles
>>686215580
it's all good homie, glad to be of help. what do you think about the video btw?
>>686216852
It didn't apply exactly to my situation, but i got some good take aways from it: the feeling i have for her isn't unique. It will happen again. Don't be afraid of ground zero.
being under 18, having being kicked out of my house after my mom dying - why can't i seem to have any effort to have friends or get a girlfriend
A couple years back I was forced to go to multiple psychiatrists and therapists as a condition of my juvenile probation.
I was also taking whatever drug I could get my hands on at the time daily (normally weed or spice, sometimes xanies and opiates, lsd on occasion as well as dxm and coke frequently later on.)
I was diagnosed as something different by each one, prescribed different medications by each, and when I was inevitably institutionalized and forced sober for several months the diagnosis' just kept coming. From anti social, to borderline, from schizotypal to paranoid schizophrenia. OCD, bi polar, manic depression to generalized anxiety. Cont...
>>686217411
It wasn't until I stopped taking all drugs (including the anti depressants they had me on last) that I started to think they had no clue what the fuck they were talking about. I was clean for 3 years but after several months I was having thought loops including flash backs of every thing anyone had said to me that day and correlating them to some sort of conspiracy that I just couldn't figure out. It was hard for me to pay attention to people rather than just stare into there eyes and wonder what they were planning. I developed my old nervous ticks again, and secluded myself from everyone but my girlfriend who I constantly fought and broke up with but would always take back. I maintained and still maintain a steady job, but began self medicating with benzos which worked wonders but I was well aware of the danger so I would use them in bursts and to this day I alternate between stents of benzos all day, and alcohol after work.
After a while in counseling I started being honest with my symptoms rather than just telling them what they wanted to hear but always withheld something, and only revealing my shitty childhood to one therapist who after seeing me for a year of being sober concluded "you just can't fix being an asshole man" which helped give me a since of normality in a way.
I have unknown mental illnesses in my family history and drug abuse issues, but could all this be a part of childhood trauma more than anything else? Any advise?
In a very short space of time, I was rejected by two different guys I was hooking up with (not relationship, but I did end up catching feelings for one of them), both ended up leaving me for the same girl both times. It damaged my self worth and self esteem in a huge way and even tho this was in february i'm still trying (and failing) to claw back what I have left of myself. How do I separate my self esteem from the number of people that think I'm desirable and how do I stop myself from hating her?
>>686217230
Ever heard of the 16 personalities test? The one that has the four letters like INFJ or ESTP?
The first letter of that test is either I for Introversion of E for Extroversion. Knowing which type you are, or rather which side you lean towards, can assist in knowing how to care for yourself.
Introverts like being alone, obviously. Its not that they dislike social interaction. In fact, they can enjoy it a lot. They just need the alone time to recharge. They feel tired out from socializing. There's nothing wrong with not wanting friends or a girlfriend.
>>686212619
yeah well....I can see how psychiatrists make a lot of money, drag it out, keep them on the hook, although you may not really be one.
>>686217902
can you post tits?
>>686218027
nah. it's not that.
I hate being alone and every moment I am I feel sick. I just come back from social interaction, and talking to the girl "i could like" feeling "is this me"..
I had a problem for about 4 months where I thought I was transgender, really fucked my head and perceptions up.
>>686214344
I heard it was safer and still allowed for functioning of my clitty as I do like to stroke it tenderly.
>>686218295
>>686200718
it is ok that I regularly go into feels threads and enjoy a good cry every now and then?
Its just nice to feel something in private sometimes thats not my dick
>>686218715
those are some nice tits indeed.
What are the odds of finding a psychiatrist that will prescribe benzos to an addict? Gabapentin not cutting it. Dread leaving the house. Often too tense to take a proper piss at home and it's almost impossible in public if the bathroom isn't empty. I'm too anxious to even get the point across about how bad it is at appointments.
>>686200718
I'll try to make it short
>be me 7 months ago.
>go out with some girl met on Tinder, Shit is sweet and nice. I enjoy it.
>fast forward 4 months, meet girl at university. Fall madly in love with her
>dump the Tinder girl
>feel like an asshole since it's the first time in my life I leave a girl
>work really hard to get the girl of my dream I met at Uni
>get her. She's gonna be my wife, mother of my kids, etc.
>She's litteraly my soulmate. we are on the same level on about everything. same job (teacher), etc, etc,
>Do fucked up shit with her. she's perfect for me. Even did a threesome with her and her girl friend.
>Madly in love with her. never felt this way for a girl and i'va been with ~30+ girls in my life (i'm 25)
>yesterday she turns around and dumps me.
what the fuck should I do? She was my soulmate.
I gave her the speech where all I want is for her to be happy and if she's happy without me i'll be fine.
but I'm just destroyed
>>686219144
Fucking same here anon
I'm an anxious paranoid mess but can't get benzos due to past drug abuse.
I've resorted to alcohol, but that isn't really feasible in the long term
>>686205765
How do you deal with the inherent hypocrisy in subscribing to a metanarrative of salvation through becoming a psychiatrist? Why do you feel like you need a title and position for people to trust you on an anonymous imageboard? Are you seeking validation by doing this? Why do you think you have the right to tell people what drugs to use when you self-medicated? Do you still self-medicate? Do you think that psych meds are less damaging than "drugs and alcohol?" Why do you allow yourself to call yourself a fuck-up? I think you may need some professional help, anon.
>>686200718
How do I stop having such a flat affect all the time? "
>>686218956
Be glad you can actually feel anything. All I've wanted to do is cry for a couple weeks now and I can't get it out.
>>686218956
I do it all the time
Is this the one I asked for an opinion on the Mathew De grood case? It was finalized today. Shifty NCR but I suppose its expected
>>686200718
I dont know what I exactly want to do with my life. I have a few ideas im interested in which is a nice start but I have doubts.
Im more worried that im not progressing like some other people. Im 21, going to school but live with my parents and still a kissless virgin (mainly because I still live at home and have no privacy). I also want to get the hell out of my town but then there are days where I could see myself living here forever and not totally hating it because its safe but not being really happy. Overall my life isnt even that bad so when I complain about these things I feel like an even bigger piece of shit
Its the going back and forth with being ok with it and it really bothering me that worries me too. Is it bad to feel this way or is it worse to bury it down and suck it up? Even thinking it outloud I sound like im bi polar
>>686218956
>>686209959
For me I was actually hiding transexuality. I always assumed cross dressing was what I wanted but I never wanted to cross dress like a faggot because I'm not. Turns out I just have a neurological disorder and a chromesome to brain mismatch. I had avoidant personality as a result. Once I figured it out and started on hormones and switched "genders" I felt 100% better . im not saying this is the case for anyone else, but it is worth addressing. I never did because I just assumed "well I like girls...so this must be that im a straight guy"
my boyfriend has a problem holding grudges.. how can he get past it and how can I help?
>>686220542
Talk things out with him and give your opinion. Be honest and tell him what you think about his attitude of it gets too out of hand. Its only going to fester and get worse the more it's swept under the rug or passed off expecting to bblow over.
>>686200718
So i dont like talking about this but YOLO!
I have been depressed for about 5 years now
all i can see is manipulation around me, in the media, ads, tv, magazines, and how <---all that effects those around me.
the constant fear psycho-ops on the masses, blah blah blah
music talks to me...like at me at points.
There are times i get manic " is the best i can say??" and recieve messages/instrutions are all variations
i really try to logically think it out, try to understand that i'm just probably identifying with the overall messages of the music.
But every. single. time. i hear new music, it bring up a new message, something that the "crowd, thats what i call them lol, is trying to tell me.
My vision, how i percieve the world, seems to have changed over the years.
I cant really pin it, but i know something has been altered..
will continue in a sec
any ideas so far doc?!?
>>686219544
it actually helped.
thanks a lot anon
I was already a little on that path but it just confirms it.
>>686216680
So which square best suits you?
>>686221185
You may have a touch of schizophrenia.. I don't want to jump too quickly to that conclusion but go to any local hospital and ask for mental health resources. It's a whole lot easier than people think to get very discreet help
>>686221519
preoccupied(love addict)
>>686221185
on the vision thing, everything seems to vibrate kinda.
you know when you start at a lightbulb and you get that afterimage? I get that with alot of things.
objects seem to have this alien outline on them, its kinda like the color scheme on the game "borderlands" how everything has a distinct outer edge, but my vision is like this filter is cut down to like 15%
In low light situations, thing move, very much and very oddly...
my constant state, how i feel all the time, is numb, buzzing, dislocated feeling. The buzzing is odd, it will hypnotize me at point, where ill zoneout and just experience the feeling of being in this mindset.
It seems so tame when i type it out, but i feel like everything is coming to a head, and ima lose it soon. Its really stressing me out..
I'm obese and I have zero will to do anything except the bare minimum to keep myself alive and progressing in my degree.
How do I change that?
>>686200718
I'm not really good with asking questions, so I will state something about my psyche and see if it raises questions.
About the only reason I don't commit suicide is because I consider it an act of love. And since I endlessly hate myself, it is clearly an act of love I don't deserve.
>>686221877
I am the same. Ever tinkered the thought of banging your mum since she was so obsessed with pleasing you?
>>686221953
Dude... Please for the love of those around you and anyone who associates with you. Find help outside of a message board
>>686222252
no. sick, dude.
>>686221588
>>686221953
well the thing i havent got to yet is that my family is riddled with mental issues.
My aunt does have schizo, but she seems to have a hold of it.
my father has been on all kinds of meds, attempted suicide atleast 4 times. One time he went off his meds, he stole the car, drove 3 states away, and burned the car down on the side of the highway...
My mind and my body dont seem to connect well.
ill be having a convo, and ill start to say something, and a loosely associated word will come out vs what i mean to say.
like ill be talking about an engine, and its parts, and ill go to say that you need to check your plugs, but ill say your tires. its assosiated with a vehvcle but nowhere near what i meant. Hard to think of a better example, or to think striaght anyways..
>>686222038
It's going to be about baby steps. When you've lost so much control already it's near impossible to jump into an altered lifestyle. Your habits and addictions won't allow it. Start by eating 1 meal healthier. Then 2. Then throw in a small workout. Then 2. Then you'll be on your way to success
>>686222685
Never once?
>>686222888
You'll be fine. There are resources that go beyond drugs. You can even request help that doesn't work you around drugs. Though they will be the most successful so long as youre being receptive to change
>>686222918
I'll try that.
It seems like I've become so addicted to my various vices that I can't get anything done.
So I'll keep making baby steps.
>>686222918
You don't know what the fuck you're talking about. A better response:
Shit will happen the same, until you die, advice will be given, you might change for a short time, but then go right back to the same shit. You're born that way, anything else advice wise is a fabrication.
>>686222051
I think your psyche is crazy
>>686223444
nope. this guy's a loser. lost 40 kilos 3 years ago, very happy with life.
>>686223464
> youdontsay.jpg
Yeah the self subterfuge is quite thorough and endless.
>>686223339
And that's all that matters man.
Don't shit on yourself if you cave to a vice. It'll happen. Congratulate yourself when you make any progress.
Google "No more zero days" I think it's a post I read somewhere but it was ingenious in getting my ass kicked into gear
>>686223727
>3 years ago
That isn't shit for proof, keep trying
>>686223727
Good on you bro!
I want to make a similar journey, and I'm suspecting the way is gonna be hard, but I feel like I need to make this journey or else things will just keep getting worse and worse.
>>686222888
i cant stop drinking
its to the point where my lower back part of my back(LOL) hurts. i think thats the kidneys right??
for the past month or so, it seems like everyone that i drive past, that they are looking at me and my car as they drive past.
again, i try to logically think about this, that sure SOME may look my way, but they cant ALL be doing it.
have this weird sense when it happens, that im the main character that they only get once in a while.
Like "the truman show" where hes the main guy, and everyone knows him, but doesnt talk to him??
i dont think that the movie put that thought into my head, but what do i know??
>>686223444
Youre a ducking clown. I have changed and many others have. There's no reason this random stranger can't.
Keep being a cunt and living through a very narrow view of the human will
>>686224126
Totally going to get worse eventually, no one wants to admit it, but it's going to get better for a short time, then just be dog shit.
I have a tendency to
1) get attached to people very quickly, and feel like they hate me after only a little bit of distance.
2) Think I have manic depressive disorder to some degree due to the how high and low my emotions can get in a day
Care to elaborate and explain why I get attached to freinds and people so quickly? The second one is just a second opinion but Id love an answer on the first one
>>686224129
Please tell us more useless bullshit rambling
>>686224129
Find out the reason why you drink so much.
>>686224126
It will be hard. And go into it knowing that. But also go into it knowing you are ready to face it and can push through the hurdles. There comes a time when we have to stop treating ourselves like shit
>>686224407
If the highs and lows are same day, that could be more Borderline Personality Disorder. It also fits with the quick attachment. Wpuld you say you have abandonment issues?
>>686224203
Clowns don't just duck, they dip, dodge and dive.
>>686200718
How does it feel to treat emotional issues with drugs?
>>686224347
This troll isn't even trying
>>686200718
Do you make alot of money? And is the job satisfying?
About to get into med school but I still don't know what my concentration will be
>>686224203
There's only truth in admitting defeat before you attempt to change. If you can't accept defeat, you can't change. You are the narrow minded one.
Duck
>>686224407
Were you abandoned as a kid? Sound clingy
>>686224407
You get attached to people because you fucking suck.
>>686224129
you know, typing out all this shit makes me realize that this has gotten pretty bad..
But my god do i feel numb, all the frickin time.
Not to be dramatic, but i have cut myself numerous times to see if i can feel anything past a small reaction anymore.
i do it in nice symmetrical patterns, kinda like tribal shit
Im bad off, i feel it inside. :(
>>686224771
Actually that appears to be fairly accurate, not admitting it is more likely to be defeated is just weak minded
>>686224837
Narrow minded because I don't think in your specific view of change. Okay buddy. I'll have what you're having. I haven't been that fucked up in years
>>686225038
Samefag
>>686224638
My mom was never really "good" as a parent, and I never really knew my father cos my mom chased him away with her psychological issues, and a massive amount of he said she said cheating. Raised by a loving if not overbearing great grandmother. Feel alot of disdain for mother. I guess so. Like a really close freind of mine quit talking to me post highschool and I feel really betrayed, but then love the guy again when we hang out on a blue moon. That help?
>>686225418
Autistic 17 yr olds plague this site now
>>686225314
Please tell us more of your wisdom here on a forum meant for faggotry.
Please
Be
More
Serious
>>686204601
>>686225487
You should stop being a bitch
>>686225572
Samefag this hard
>>686225585
Right on man. I'll keep passing this dutchie around. Maybe we can get all these fuckers fucked
>>686225850
>dutchie
faggot
>>686225813
Being this new
>>686225965
Plz b more srs roach boi =)
>>686225176
Should probably do tattoo work for people, maybe then you won't be so lame and useless
>>686200718
I need help ASAP, i sometimes see a man dressed in a rabbit outfit and he tells me the world is gonna end, i dont wanna die alone and really need help. This is not bait and definitely happening to me in real life.
>>686225990
Samefag
>>686225487
That is definitely Borderline, anon. I am not OP, but I am the one who replied. I know this cos I have it myself. The huge issue is personality disorders is drugs only barely mitigate the symptoms. Try doing some research for a psychologist (NOT psychiatrist) that works with Borderline. It's gonna be a lot of talking, a lot of pain.
"Those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it."
>>686226109
I don't understand whatever language you're tying to use
>>686226132
careful with that edge
>>686226176
Probably just need to fuck off and stop being a bitch
Off to bed already. Goodnight anons.
>>686226195
Probably should google "how to get offline and not be a little bitch"
>>686226176
Sure thing, Donnie Darko
>>686226195
Appreciate the help there anon. Another thing, i cant seem to find happiness in myself. Im always dreading being alone for long periods of time because what seems like voices in my head keep trying to break down what little self worth I have. Its like a yelling match in my head between what hates me, and me. Thoughts?
>>686226294
It's called rimming not edging
>>686226525
Maybe you should google "don't shitpost when you have fucking nothing to contribute"
How do i stop being a little bitch and stand up to people ? ( i am slowly getting out of social anxiety)
>>686200718
My psychiatrist wants to put me on Geodon and an antidepressant I have constant hallucinations but they are mild, but my personality has apparently "greatly changed". Should I stay off meds or try them?
>>686226663
Thoughts:
On a forum for random shit..
Trying to be serious...
Being serious...
Yup, you're far from fucking normal, in fact, down right pathetic.
>>686226716
And then?
>>686200718
I know psychiatrists dont do shit, all they want is the money. Ask you anything? Why are you such a greedy motherfucker? Shit, most only hire other therapists that do their work under the psychiatrists name.
>>686226747
Stay off the web you fucking pussy
>>686226827
Try experimenting with dosages, like maybe 5 or 6 at a time.
Say you lost some
>>686227000
I can beat your ass any day buddy
>>686226525
I mean in my defense Im enough of a non-bitch that I lost my v-card to a cougar, if thats of any worth
>>686227232
wew look at this tough guy
>>686227000
>>686227232
Trips confims it, you must now spend your entire life of the internet. Good luck and Good riddance
>>686200718
How do I stay positive when logically there is no reason to be positive? As in.. there is so much wrong with the word, and I am unable to change it. The only way to be happy is to ignore that fact, yet I have already made myself aware of it. Wut do?
>>686227232
Sure, go ahead, I'll allow it to happen... You ever get arrested before? I don't live by street rules like some poorfag. When I say I'll call a lawyer, it's because I can afford a retainer without flinching. Come at me.
>>686209959
>>686220501
I'm about 90% positive I have avoidant personality disorder. I have never been diagnosed but I have always felt like something was wrong with me. A year ago I heard of avoidant personality disorder and something just clicked in my brain and I knew this is what I had.
Does anyone have advice? I am so pathetic and dependent on my parents. I use school as an excuse for not having a job (I'm 21). I honestly can't go out in public and do anything without being terrified/anxious. Never had a boyfriend, I don't have friends at all. I have always been very sensitive and I cry very easily. Even if I go out in public to run errands and someone looks at me weird that's enough to reduce me to tears... it sounds stupid but I can't control it
>>686226663
I'm starting to think you're me, honestly.
I'm gonna be straight with you, anon:
I don't have the strength to do what I offer to help you, but I have done so much reading and had enough professional help (forced or otherwise) to have a good idea what it takes.
Depression and borderline tend to be very connected. The tearing yourself apart, the lack of self identity. It can get much worse if left unchecked, as evidenced in my first post: >>686222051
I also have inflicted over 100 scarring cuts on my shoulders purely for punishment.
Following through with cognitive behavioural therapy is extremely damn difficult especially when you feel you hate yourself, but it can be fone, and it will help more than drugs.
>>686227322
No, it is literally of no worth.
>>686227535
Wow, so fucking insightful
Please tell more
So awesome
Faggot
>>686226945
Post something meaningful or don't fucking post.
>>686227545
I will... Imma fuck u in the ass til u like it faggot
>>686227611
Sounds like you should live in a cave, or an hero
Either way you're not what we would call fit for reproduction
>>686227871
Here, I didn't listen
What
You
Gonna
Do
>>686227957
Mmm
>>686228025
I mean sometimes I'm ok but I am very unstable. I would live in a cave. And yes, I know, I've considered the latter as well
>>686228025
> not fit for reproduction
Anon, you are posting on /b/.
No one who posts here is fit for reproduction.
>>686228373
Me too, but I'm still here, seriosly, it gets better in time
>>686200718
Can I get her back before its to late she's with another guy it's killing me inside When and what mark will it be to late she's been talking to guy like a month
>>686228254
Probably nothing cos honestly, I'm bored of all this.
>>686228415
Too late..
Me and you baby
>>686200718
Check this song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozMuy_k4Nrg
>>686228611
Don'tthreaten me with a good time.
>>686228540
Yupp
>>686227650
I mean I feel like there is something off about me, but I function normally more often than not. I mean Im not suicidal or anything but thats cos Im a pussy when it comes to pain. Also why I didnt self harm. But the creeping thoughts in my head that put me down over and over arent normal at all. I cant take complements, I dread long periods of time without interaction from people, I get attached quickly. If that sounds like borderline, then I guess I got it.
Like, okay for example, I work at krystals.
Its a pretty meh place, that pays peanuts, but I do it because Im a poor college kid in a comm college thats trying to be either a nurse or emt. gotta make a life for me. I also go to work because Im around people. its like I get a great surge of energy when Im around others. Depression goes away, self hate goes away, self depreciation lessens considerably. i dont get it. I guess my less than stellar childhood has me fucked up. but que sera sera I suppose.
>>686228799
You can't handle this, seriously, I can fist myself
>>686228514
:( Thanks. I just don't see it getting better for me....
>>686228948
Too long, didn't read.
Here's a tip though,
Stop
Being
Fag
I will have a Hangover next day
>>686229081
That's the challenge, it was always for me. I always wanted to just be where I wanted, it took a long time to realize it was a hard journey, maybe harder for me than some. But here I am, where I wanted to be, it just took a whole lot of being somewhere else to get here.
>>686228948
Do you have a hobby? Download the MeetUp app and see if there is a group in your area for it. That can get you a bit more social interaction outside of work.
>>686200718
Why did my older sister molest me repeatedly, and why did my dad beat me up and tell me to not tell anybody that she molested me?
>inb4 dad fucked sister
>technically inafter
>>686229426
Or just horde legos
>>686229489
The real question is
Why
Didn't
She
Molest
Me
>>686229026
You're gonna need to do a lot of kegels to feel me then. I'm not that impressive.
>>686229724
It's cool, just use your looming patheticness to fill my void
>>686229872
Now that would rip you in half no matter how much fist you can fit.
>>686229724
Well actually that doesn't mean I'm loose, actually I have a strong asshole, you see it's a muscle.
>>686229356
How did you get out of your depression?
>>686230024
I don't think you understand how poorly hung I am
>>686229628
She probably did. She's a slut. I know she molested my younger stepsister and she probably molested both of our brothers, but she probably didn't molest the stepbrother, although one of my brothers apparently molested him. That same brother was upset that I didn't molest him.
>>686230077
Luck? I don't know, I'm different than most in the sense, my family all has bad depression. I have it but somehow I always seemed to push through, I found things to occupy my time, essentially exhausting myself. When I was younger I stole a whole bunch, broke into houses and generally commuted any crime I could, I was damn good at it... Then I got older and realized what love was, focused on getting in shape and going to school, dropped out and got a decent job, married and divorced, kept at it for a while and eventually would up fairly happy. I only have had sporadic bouts of depression, I'm a serial monogamist. So I guess I just fill my time, I can't deal with not being occupied. That's my way of fighting it, I don't slow down, and I don't ever allow myself time for reflection, I'm always occupied.
>>686200718
How do i get over Borderline Personality Disorder as a male. Shits fucked fam.
>>686231067
Also, during the hard times, I would focus on the one thing I knew to be true...
"I'm not always like this, don't worry I will be back to myself"
Repeated that to myself
>>686231210
Step one:
Stop saying fam
Good start
>>686230209
Well if you're at least good looking, I would be a top then
do you think psychology is a pseudo science because it starts with unproven ideas built in? the ideas all lives are worth something & no one should kill themselves/no one would e better off dead
>>686201825
But... You are a failure
>>686232264
Psychology is a dog from chicken fever mountain.
Kys
Faggit
>>686200718
I just wanted to say hi nothing more nothing less
>>686233121
Kys
>>686233330
You're using newfag terminology
>Lurk moar
>>686233330
By the way it's an hero faggot
>>686233330
12 year old spotted
>>686233330
newfag confirmed. It's past your bedtime. lurk moar.